I got a new hairdo
SEIKO MATSUDA
You say I look so different
You're looking pretty bashful
As you walk past me
The hell are you doing? Come on. Get ready.
Quit messing around. Go and get changed.
You're a dumb-dumb!
Let him finish his little song.
You're always hesitating
It's like you're behind a veil
Fresh, fresh, fresh!
Open up that door to summer
And whisk me away somewhere
Fresh, fresh, fresh!
Summer's gonna open the door
And take us just the way we are
Tranny!
You're a weirdo!
Homo!
I like these clothes and I like this song!
Why are you laughing at me?
KENJI ONISHI KIDS AMATEUR SINGING CONTEST
Run!
Next!
Line up.
Ready?
The cars pass by
We are on separate streets
You know, I bought a bra the other day.
-Pink. -Pink? That's cute.
You got smaller.
Smaller? No, my chest got bigger.
-Really? -I've been thinking that.
You say you love me?
DEAR TAKESHI - I LIKE HOW YOU'RE ALWAYS SO POSITIVE
Are you serious?
FROM KENJI
TO TAKESHI
But everyone's watching me
How could you do that to me?
Fresh, fresh, fresh!
It's the ladyboy!
The weirdo!
What a fag!
LOVE LETTER FROM THE LADYBOY
Hey, Onishi!
Why do they laugh at me?
What's wrong with me?
What am I?
You're drunk, Wada.
What are you? You're a doctor.
A doctor?
Me?
Didn't you quit being a surgeon at OIM as soon as you got in?
Sure, you got skill, but you're an oddball.
Well? What happened?
Tell us!
Nothing happened.
But
surgeons don't care about their patients.
All they want to do is operate.
You surgeons don't care about patients.
You don't mend people. You just patch them up.
And who are you to talk?
Sounds like you're better off employed in cosmetic surgery.
We're saving lives!
You're right.
I may not be saving lives.
I may be a glorified patch-up doc at best.
But unlike you,
I think about
what it actually means
to be a doctor.
-Don't throw! -No food fights.
Here's your beloved flesh! Butcher it!
You may be right.
And it's so rowdy here.
-It's always rowdy here. Let's eat! -What?
-Hey. -What?
Can I skip school tomorrow?
My belly hurts.
It'll be gone by tomorrow.
Want me to rub it?
Don't make a habit of this. You need to go to school.
I'll go.
What? Are you going now?
Shut up, idiot. Toilet.
Of course.
-Eat up! -I will! Right now!
Let go of me!
Please stop!
Fuck you!
Fucking die, you she-male!
Let's see if you've really got a penis down there.
You'd look so much better covered in makeup.
-Stop! -Hold still!
What's wrong?
Ma'am…
I can't take it anymore…
Please help me.
Mr. Onishi.
Maybe you should take a look at yourself.
You should stop being so effeminate and act more like a man.
What even is effeminate?
I'm just being myself.
What am I?
Can someone tell me?
JORDAN PUB
Break! Break.
Megumi! You're not smiling enough.
-Sorry. -Jennifer. Get those moves down.
-Okay. -And Marumi.
-You're too tight. Let loose some more. -Okay.
Let's try it again from the top.
Well now…
Who are you?
I thought you looked so pretty.
But I got the feeling you were no ordinary woman.
I was curious.
You're a sharp one.
Most can't tell I've got a wiener.
I…
I want to be an idol. Like Seiko Matsuda.
I'm sorry, what?
Please let me work here.
I want to sing and dance like you were all doing just now.
And…
I've never seen this before.
I…
I've always wanted to wear those pretty, frilly skirts.
But I was always told, "No, boys wear pants."
They call me a fairy at school.
They call me "ladyboy."
I didn't even feel human, and it hurt so much…
You can cut the theatrics now.
That's just life.
You think you got it bad? Plenty of others have hit rock bottom harder than you.
You're not special. Remember that, and you'll go far.
But sure.
I'll take care of you.
-You will? -A lady never lies.
Well, maybe sometimes.
But I will tell you this much.
You can work your fingers to the bone at my establishment,
but you'll never be a woman.
Okay.
But what you can be is a "newhalf."
Thank you so much!
Our class gets so many more pop quizzes than the other classes.
This sucks.
We decided to go study in the library after school.
Studying at the library?
We're all gonna help each other out.
Sure.
Study hard. A man does what is right.
Obviously!
I've barely even seen you pick up a book.
-You know? -Shut up, you!
Yum! I love your kimpira, Mom.
Kenji is such a good boy.
Just you watch.
He's gonna be a doctor or a politician one day.
-You got this, Kenji. -No way.
Don't say that when he's working so hard.
Sorry, Grandma.
I won't be a doctor or a politician.
I'll be a "newhalf."
You got your boobs done again?
-Your arms could do with a touch-up. -You bitch!
Back at you.
Hey, what dosage are you on?
Five a day.
-Five? -Really?
Is that safe?
I'm hurling every single day.
But it's worth it for the boobs.
Living the dream!
I'll bet! You must feel like a real woman.
I totally feel that.
You "feel that"?
That doesn't sound like you.
I may not look it, but I'm on a crazy amount of injections.
I just happen to prefer grilled meat hormones.
Hormones! Hormones! Hormones!
Hormones! Hormones! Hormones! Hormones!
I'll do that thing for Marumi-san,
go to Aki-san's, and then…
Hey, rookie.
I've got a job for you.
Can you fetch my meds?
Sure.
She was really cute, huh?
I look so feminine!
-Hey, cutie! -Wow, she is a cutie!
Please enjoy this song by Kumiko Yamashita.
The crimson sun
She scorches, she burns
Can I take you out?
Even the shimmering heat
Comes alive when she walks by
With her prim little face
Her gaze
Is the mirror image of summer
Tilting her chic sunglasses
Her eyes meet yours
And she's got you burning with nerves
She derails your train of thought
She's gonna set your fuse on fire
Your jagged heart Might tear apart in a jagged way
She's the belle of the equator
Love is the sweltering subtropics
She's the belle of the equator
Watch out for her burning embrace
My heart! It pounds!
Thank you!
Ba-dump! Ba-dump!
She's the belle of the equator
Love is the sweltering subtropics
She's the belle of the equator
Watch out for her burning embrace
My heart! It pounds!
Ba-dump! Ba-dump!
WADA PLASTIC SURGERY CLINIC COSMETIC AND PLASTIC SURGERY
I'm telling you it's fine!
Shall I say it again?
There's no point in doing any more work on your eyes.
You won't have double eyelids, but disgusting quadruple!
Not double. Quadruple. Sextuple, even. Do you want that?
What is wrong with you?
We've gone through all this, and this is the best you've got?
I'm only saying what I think is best for you.
And you should go after whoever botched your nose job.
Get the payout, and come to me. I'll fix it as best as I can.
Whatever. I'm done.
This place sucks!
I'm going elsewhere!
Please don't. You'll only be wasting your money…
Damn it…
Sorry.
WADA PLASTIC SURGERY CLINIC PREMARIN - JORDAN PUB
We are absolutely stunning.
That's stating the obvious.
I wasn't talking to you.
I was talking to my reflection.
Well, experience certainly comes with age.
I could teach you a thing or two.
-I'm fine, thank you. -Oh, you.
Excuse me.
The doctor sounded mad.
I got scared, so I left our business card.
Seriously?
Well, he can be a bit scary.
But look at you!
The look suits you.
Right?
Thank you!
Yes, but remember.
You've still got a bit of filling out to do.
I tell you. It happened to me.
Puberty comes late for some, and it hits them like a train.
It hit you like a train.
Got that right, sis.
-Absolutely. -What did you eat? You just ballooned!
What's wrong, Kenji?
Not feeling well?
I think it's what I ate.
I feel better now that it's out.
-You look pale. -I'm fine.
You should get some rest.
You took way too many.
This ain't booze. It's pills.
You'll wreck your body.
I'm sorry.
I'll be more careful.
Good.
We're done here. Go.
Except there's one more thing.
What is it?
I'm gonna debut you.
Really?
How do you like "Ai"?
Ai?
For your stage name.
Can't have you going by "Kenji".
"Ai" will give you the love you deserve.
Ai.
Kenji's been coming home late a lot, hasn't he?
He quit school, so what the hell could he be up to?
You could ask him if you're that worried?
Don't be stupid. That's a mother's job.
Hey, Mom. Is this yours?
I found it on the floor.
I can't wear such a loud color.
No?
You.
I have no idea.
I promised, yeah? I said my cheating days were over.
-Excuse me? -Dad's in trouble.
Thank you!
This is a matter of life and balls!
What an odd joint.
Single footsteps in the sand
A little free time to myself
I turn around
To a strange figure off in the distance
He rushes toward me on the shore
Suddenly a chill runs down my back
It is the sweet premonition of love
Coming over me
Our rendezvous
Is in slow motion
With a touch of giddy
And beckoning us in
Our rendezvous
Is in slow motion
In my eyes
This vision of you
So, what do you do for work?
I guess I'm a doctor.
You are?
Well then, Doctor.
How did you like my performance?
How do you mean?
That was my first ever performance.
Is that so?
I think you were…
dazzling.
You weren't fazed at all.
As if you were born for the stage.
Look at me. I'm drunk.
My mom made the frilly skirt for me.
She did?
So you dressed up all cute for the singing contest?
All the boys laughed at me.
They all recoiled.
Said I was a weirdo.
A weirdo?
What?
Nothing.
That's just my opinion.
But when people call you a "weirdo," it just means they don't get you.
If just one person gets you, then it means you're not a weirdo.
Sorry. That was corny.
Well, look at you. You can say something smart.
And since you feel that way, I have something to ask of you.
What is it?
-So long as it's not money-- -It's not money.
I want you to remove my balls.
Your balls?
Your testicles?
I've looked into it.
It's where the male hormones are produced.
So,
they make me more like a man.
So if I remove them--
You'll be more feminine.
Can you do it?
Technically… It's not that we can't…
But it's more complicated than that.
There's the Eugenic Protection Law.
Performing an orchiectomy…
Taking someone's balls can get doctors landed in prison.
I wouldn't want you to get caught.
You know what?
I always thought this thing flapping between my legs would fall off someday.
Then I could finally be my true self.
That's what I hoped.
But it never did. It's still there.
Now I'm getting a beard…
and my voice is dropping.
I can't take it anymore.
I don't want this.
I don't want to live like this.
I hate it.
Dr. Wada.
What is it?
You know what. I want the surgery.
Give me some more time.
Dr. Wada.
Dr. Wada. I want the surgery.
This isn't an easy thing to decide.
We're all finished. You did great.
But…
Is that really it?
Yes.
Please fix it.
You have to do a better job than this!
The operation was a success.
We saved your life.
No, you didn't.
How am I supposed to live like this?
Dr. Wada.
Are you all right? Why the long face?
What does it even mean?
What does it mean to save a life?
Huh?
Just talking to myself. Sorry.
Dr. Wada!
Ai.
Your surgery.
Let's do it.
Really?
I know you won't back down until I give in.
But on one condition.
Yes?
You must tell your parents.
If not about the surgery,
then at least what's in your heart.
So sweet.
That's tasty.
He's gonna hit me.
What's up?
Nothing. Just wait.
Kinda exciting, not that I'd know!
So good.
-Hey. -Yo.
Hey, where's Mom?
She got caught up with the neighborhood association.
I see.
Well…
Hey. Go sit over there.
What?
-Can I get a different one? -Yes, yes.
Score!
Well, what is it? Quickly, before the race starts.
Listen, Dad.
I…
Yeah?
This might come as a shock.
I…
I want to be a woman.
I know I was born as a boy
but I want to live my life as a woman.
All right.
It's your life. You can do what you want with it.
Does this mean…
you knew all along?
I'm your father.
I thought baseball might put hairs on your chest, but…
I'm sorry.
Just promise me one thing.
What is it?
I want you to be sure about this.
Treat your body well.
In man speak, be number one.
That's three things.
And also,
I literally just said I wanted to be a woman.
-Well? -I promise.
I promise.
And one more thing.
Don't tell your mother.
It would break her.
Are you sure about this?
Yes.
I am, but…
I feel bad for my mom.
For doing this to the healthy boy she gave birth to.
You can still back out.
No.
I'll apologize to her someday.
Dr. Wada.
Yes?
When it came to removing my balls,
you're the only one I could think of.
Why me?
Because of what you told me.
You said I was dazzling.
I felt…
so happy.
I must tell you.
You are not a weirdo.
I knew I picked right.
You know what?
I want to be an idol.
Like Seiko Matsuda.
I want to be an idol who shines brightly.
And you will.
I know you will.
Those things are swollen as hell!
The balls are gone, but the sack's still there.
Hey, you know what it looks like?
I have a photo!
Stop! You're embarrassing me.
Seriously. Just wait there. Where did I put it?
What's going on here?
Ai got her balls removed.
We're all having a good look.
This way.
Would you look at that. Looks just like a… a raccoon dog!
Yes!
Here it is!
You're right! You're a spitting image!
Cut it out!
Well, Ai. How do you feel?
How do I feel?
I feel on top of the world!
-Really? -Wow!
Well, let's dance till morning!
-Ai! -Ai!
Go, Ai!
Dipping my feet in the icy fountain
Looking up at the skyscrapers
Wearing my favorite clothes
There's nothing wrong with that
Gripping the handlebars Racing through the town
Doing all these fun things
I want to see what it really looks like
And not just through an old TV screen
The moment the needle drops
Is the moment my heart skips
Dr. Wada removed Ai's balls, right?
We heard you're a doctor who's sympathetic to "newhalfs."
You're getting a massive influx of everyone from around Kansai.
Stop moving. I can't stick it on.
Even if I'm tired, hated or growing old I just can't stop
They're like diamonds
Ah, every which way I look
Ah, I can't quite put it into words
But they are treasures
My hunch was right
Ah, it's exactly how I thought it would be
Ah, it's setting me in motion
This feeling of mine
Look what you did?
Dr. Wada.
WHAT ABOUT YOUR NORMAL PATIENTS?
DIE
What is wrong with people?
My patients are living their best lives,
unlike the idiots who do this.
Do you work here?
I do.
I'm Tsuruku with the Tenma West Police.
We've had complaints of noise and over-crowding around here,
regarding some "eccentric" types.
My apologies.
We'll keep it down.
We'd appreciate that.
We know how hard it can be to keep tabs on deviant types.
That's a horrible way to put it.
Excuse me.
Ai! I just can't get enough of you.
-Takuya. You know. -What?
I'm not like other girls.
I don't care.
I can't stand it!
Will you move in with me?
-Okay. -Yes!
-Really? -Yes.
-You promise? -Yes!
Shoot. That's my cue. I'll catch you later.
You will, yeah?
Sorry!
Ai.
Aki-san?
You'll forgive me for butting in.
But guys who go for "newhalfs" always end up back with real women.
You should be ready for that.
So, this is goodbye.
I'm sure gonna miss you.
He's not going overseas.
No, but…
-And you. Make sure you stop by. -I will.
Hey. You coming?
Come see Kenji off.
I'm busy.
Goodbye.
Take care.
Takuya!
-Ai! -Her and me! It's a scandal!
It's a deadly game of love
A forbidden scandal
No matter how much I love you
You still belong to him
Let's eat!
We kissed by the pool
And then you cried
I held you from behind
-There's more. -Really?
I can't stop loving you
Even if it's forbidden
If only I could let you go
Then you wouldn't have to--
-Who could that be? -Who cares?
We can't just ignore them.
-Why not? -Coming!
Hello?
Who is it?
It was just a prank.
Maybe it's a neighbor saying we're being too loud.
It's not. Come on, let's get back inside.
Back to what?
Making out, of course!
Hey.
I couldn't be any happier.
Me neither.
-Yeah? -Yeah.
Ai.
Can we do it tonight?
I guess, but…
I'll be gentle.
-Trust me. -No, wait…
Stop.
-Stop. -It's fine.
-It wasn't fine before.
You're fine.
It's not going in. It hurts!
I'm sorry.
Well, that did it.
That killed the mood.
Whatever.
You…
You're you.
I'm going to sleep.
-Be seeing you. -See you.
Don't stay out too late.
Sure.
What happened?
Dr. Wada.
Make me a woman.
A woman?
No, no. Not in that way.
Right?
It won't be easy.
It's going to be a lot more complicated than just removing the testes.
It involves cutting into your penis to create a vagina.
In fact, it's more than just cutting.
We'd need to keep your urinary system intact
and ensure your new vagina can withstand penetration.
This belongs in the hands of God.
What's more…
you could potentially not wake up from the anesthesia.
Why couldn't I have won?
What?
It's a 50-50 draw in life. Why couldn't I have won?
I wouldn't be feeling this way if I'd been born a girl.
I don't care if I don't wake up.
I want to be a woman.
I'm willing to die for it.
DOCTORS WHO PERFORMED SEX CHANGE SURGERY
IN VIOLATION OF THE EUGENIC PREVENTION LAW
ARE TRANSSEXUAL ALLIES CRIMINALS?
FOUND GUILTY OF PERFORMING SEX REASSIGNMENT SURGERY
Excuse me.
What are you going to do?
You'll lose your license if you go ahead with it.
You could even go to prison.
I'd like to try.
But I don't know…
I don't know if I'll get away with this.
It's all coming to me now
I am a new me
As the vessel rushes on
The white waves dance in its wake
I made a promise with you
And I'm gonna keep it…
I'm thinking of using the urethra to coat the inside.
Then it can be self-lubricating.
This flower of love within my heart
I pray you accept it
The blue sky in which the swallows fly
They are the canvas to my future
Free to stroke, free to color
Free to shape the two of us
I was…
I was scared.
Why?
If I do this operation,
it could cost you your life.
But then I realized…
if you stay in that male body of yours…
it's going to be soul-destroying.
But I might be able to save you.
If I can just be brave enough to complete a successful operation.
Ai.
The surgery.
I'll do it.
Dr. Wada…
I want to save your life.
And your soul.
Let me do the surgery.
Thank you.
Thank you so much.
What's up, Kenji?
You don't often call.
Listen, Mom.
What is it?
I…
My goodness.
I forgot what I was going to say.
What?
You silly goose.
Yep, that's me.
I'm hanging up now.
The kimpira will burn.
I love your kimpira.
I want to eat them again.
They're nothing special.
I think you need better taste buds.
See you.
It's time.
Still want to do this?
Definitely.
God just made a little mistake
putting you inside that male body.
I'll fix that mistake.
When you wake up,
you'll be the way you were meant to be.
Dr. Wada.
Yes?
I wish…
I could speak to my younger self.
"Everything will be all right."
"You'll be a woman one day."
Then let's go.
I got a new
Hairdo
You say I look so different
You're looking
Pretty bashful
As you walk past me
Fucking die, you she-male!
Let's see if you've really got a penis down there.
Hold him down!
It's the ladyboy!
-The weirdo! -What a fag!
Ai, this feels so good.
Takuya…
I love Ai as a woman.
What's wrong?
Are those tears of joy?
That's not it.
What? What is it?
Did I hurt you? Is that why you're crying?
I think I'm jealous.
Jealous?
Jealous of who?
I'm thinking…
you looked so happy just now.
Maybe you wanted…
to be with a woman all along.
Maybe
you never liked me when I had a male body.
Are you out of your mind?
-Of course I did! -I know.
But still…
I can't help but feel jealous.
I'm jealous of women.
Men like their bodies without having to do anything.
Hey.
Don't you like doing it with me as a woman?
Don't be silly.
I love it.
You see?
And I love it too.
I love you as a woman.
Takuya…
Vitals?
Pulse 80. Blood pressure 126 over 73.
Breathing is steady.
Then let's begin.
-Scalpel. -Here.
In the number of sex reassignment surgeries performed in the past,
preventing postoperative adhesions has been one of our main challenges.
In Thailand, they have been making use of hardened candles as vaginal dilators,
but results are not great, and it's a huge burden on the patients.
I'd like to use your silicon technology to help improve the lives of these women
to jointly develop a silicon dilator to prevent the neovagina from closing up.
I believe this will be pivotal for this new field of medicine.
I hope you'll work with me.
Mom and Dad are so happy.
They've all been dying to meet you.
Are you sure you want me here?
Of course I want you here.
This won't be a stuffy event.
And they've invited all the relatives.
-It was a masterpiece. -It sure was.
And Takuya's always been a big crybaby.
Has he? He doesn't look it.
Come on. Cut it out. I'm sick of that story.
Oops, I'm meant to meet a friend.
I'll just duck out.
I'll be back.
-Take care. -I will, I will.
-See you. -Bye-bye!
This tastes really good.
Why, thank you, dear.
Hey.
Kids. Go play outside for a bit.
-Okay. -Okay.
Come, let's go.
Goodbye.
Ai.
Please.
Would you… break up with Takuya?
What?
You're a good person.
We really do like you.
And you're very beautiful.
But you…
you can't have children.
Takuya loves kids.
So if he stays with you,
he'll lose something which makes him happy.
Gone.
Please.
Got that right, sis.
Well?
Is it Takuya?
Can't keep anything from you.
A lady knows all.
It's as plain as day.
I'll be fine.
I have to do this myself.
All right then.
Hello?
Kenji.
Where's Grandma?
She's in here.
Kenji.
Grandma.
Grandma…
She was always worrying about you.
Was she?
"Sure hope he's doing well."
And you know what else?
What?
She was always saying, "Kenji's a tough kid"…
SEIKO MATSUDA IDOL BOOK
…"I hope he's living his best life."
Hey.
-What are you-- -I already told you.
No, you didn't.
-Why are you suddenly-- -It's over.
I'm going to Tokyo.
Wait. No, wait…
I thought you loved me?
About that…
This was nothing more than a fling.
A fling?
Goodbye.
Wait. Hey!
Just like that?
When I'm all alone
I listen to my favorite song
Because Olivia
Comforts my lonely heart
My cup of jasmine tea
This sedative, lulling me to sleep
I want my day to end
The way I want it to tonight
When we first met
Never could I have imagined
A day like this would come
No, it's already done
It's just that time has passed
You are exhausted from loving
A phantom version of me
I'll do whatever it takes. I promise!
Are you a dude?
I'm afraid we can't help you.
I want to be an idol.
We'd love to have you, if you were female.
I want this more than anyone!
Yes, I like you.
I know just the agency for you.
-You do? -You bet!
They're in the adult industry. They're looking for people like you.
What?
Some of our customers have very specific tastes.
Really? That's so cool.
It's still in the preliminary phase.
But if all goes well, it'll cut down costs for helping people like you.
Sounds like things are going well for you.
And you? Giving Tokyo a shot?
Of course I am! My schedule's booked for days.
Tokyo's got nothing on me.
Glad to hear it.
Sorry, I'll talk to you later.
Okay. I'll call again later.
Goodbye.
Booked for days?
Who is it?
Not another prank.
Mom?
Thank you.
What brings you here?
I'm getting a divorce.
He was seeing someone on the side.
He was?
I just couldn't handle it anymore.
Even with someone like him, once you start thinking about divorce,
you can't help but think about all sorts of things.
So, you came to tell me?
Because you are my child.
You know what I am going through.
How a woman's heart works.
What?
You've always been a woman, haven't you?
You don't have to hide it from me anymore.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for birthing you the way I did.
Don't say that!
You did nothing wrong.
A mother is always responsible for her child.
My heart ached when your grandma died.
You forced yourself to show up as a man.
Killing your true self.
I thought to myself, I did this to you.
I couldn't bear to see you.
That's why…
That's why I hid.
And not just then.
I'd been ignoring it ever since you were little.
So you knew all along.
Of course I knew. I'm your mother.
Mom…
I thought you despised me.
No way!
I even came to visit you.
I wanted to talk about it.
I wanted to face it.
-Who could that be? -Who cares.
We can't just ignore them.
Coming!
Who is it?
It's just a prank.
Maybe it's a neighbor saying we're being too loud.
It's not. Come on, let's get back inside.
-Back to what? -Making out, of course!
I wasn't able to give you this before.
It's your favorite.
I'm sorry I wasn't there for you as a mother.
I'm sorry.
What are you saying?
I'm the one…
who should apologize.
I…
I did this to the body you gave birth to…
Don't you be sorry.
Whether you're a boy,
or a girl,
you are my child.
You are my precious child.
Mom…
I have a favor to ask, Ai.
What is it?
You just called me Ai.
Instead of Kenji.
Could you do my makeup?
Your makeup?
I snuck into the bar to watch you dance.
You did?
You looked so pretty.
You looked so, so beautiful.
I was so proud.
I was jealous
of your pretty, sparkly makeup.
Why must the dreams lost to time
Always appear so beautiful?
That affection
Of the past is still
A sweet memory
Sweet memories
Here are the documents for tomorrow's counseling.
Great, thanks.
You sure you're not working too hard?
What about you?
Sorry, we're closed for today--
Well, now you're not even trying to hide it.
Hide what?
It's no big deal if you mess with trannies' faces a bit.
How many penises did you mutilate this month?
-Watch your accusations. -Sorry.
Slip of the tongue.
But as far as we're concerned, this needs proper investigation.
This is life-saving medical care.
That's not your decision to make.
It's the law's.
Whoa, really? You're originally a dude?
Maybe you should be keeping that a secret.
You certainly pass.
It's my dream to be an idol, so I want to be up-front.
I like it. I'll take you on.
We'll have your schedule filled for days.
Thank you very much!
You're so cute!
Hello, everyone!
Thanks so much for coming out today!
My name is Ai.
I came all the way from Osaka, and I'm here to give Tokyo my all!
MATSUZAKAYA FREE CHARITY MUSIC FESTIVAL
Hey, look over there! What a weirdo!
I heard today's actor's got a big dick.
Hey. Let's do our best with our boobs!
They never mentioned this. I cannot wear this.
What do you want me to do?
The office said it was fine.
It's not like trannies have any shame, anyway.
BOYS OVER BALLS
What am I?
Dr. Wada, come quick. Doctor!
-What's wrong? -Emergency! Patient has gone into v-fib!
Allow me.
-Get her on an IV. -On it!
-DC. Adrenaline. -Can you hear me?
-On it! -Are you with us?
I can't get a pulse.
-Where's that DC? -Coming!
Switching to the ambu bag.
Could you explain this for me?
So much medical jargon, I can't make anything out.
Why was there a dead transvestite
on your operating table?
We're still investigating the cause of death.
Really?
If I were to have a guess,
I would say it was an intra-anesthetic complication arising from ARDS.
The cause of ARDS is unknown. There are no preventive interventions.
So, what you're saying is you were not at fault?
I'm simply stating the most reasonable conclusion.
That is the least I can do for this patient who has passed away.
I see.
I see, I see.
By the way, Dr. Wada.
I've been meaning to ask you this.
Why are you so interested in these people?
Maybe you're into the same hobby?
Or maybe…
Maybe you get a little kick…
out of mutilating someone's manhood.
Either way,
we'll get to the bottom of this.
ANGEL NEST
-Isn't living in Sangen-chaya expensive? -Word on the street is…
The place is "friendly."
Not like you.
Stop it. Why are you laughing at me?
By the way, Ai. This is a nice place you've got here.
I'm doing a favor for a friend.
Entertainment work's still busy, and I would say no, but…
So what? You're doing well.
I'm so glad I came to Tokyo.
That reminds me. I wanted to show you something.
-What is it? -This.
Here.
Miss International Queen?
Yes. To find the prettiest trans woman in the world.
Ai, you're cute. You should enter.
-Right? -I'd like to, but I'm too busy.
If you won't, then I will. I will represent Japan!
Please don't.
You'll sink the nation.
You bitch! How dare you.
Got that right.
-"Got that right" isn't gonna catch on. -Seriously.
-Ai, did you hear about Dr. Wada? -What about him?
Someone died at the clinic.
They did?
But it wasn't his fault, so I'm sure he'll be fine.
Hey, my bubbles are gone.
-You gotta chug it. -Got that right, sis.
There he is!
Dr. Wada!
-Dr. Wada! -Any comments on the deceased?
-Have you told the family? -Your stance on sex reassignment surgery?
Did you really mess up the anesthetic dosage?
-Do you think you were in the wrong? -Excuse me.
Are you all right?
Yes.
How can we reopen like this?
-Dr. Wada. Here. -What is it?
It's the waiting list for surgery.
There are even more applicants this month.
This many?
Yes.
THANK YOU, DR. WADA
I'M GOING TO SHINE BRIGHT - FROM AI
Is everyone well?
You are? I wonder why.
Hey, guess what?
That's right. I finally made it to Nagoya.
Thank you.
I go on tour each and every summer,
but I was a little late this year, and now we're in chilly November.
It's so cold, so, like, the only thing to do now is to warm ourselves back up.
-Isn't that right? -Hello?
So with that in mind--
-Sorry! -It's been a while.
-It's good to see you. -You're happy to see me?
What were you doing just now? Isn't that Kyon Kyon?
You've memorized her lines?
I watch her every day. I know her off by heart.
Really? So you just memorized it?
This could be something. Add a lineup, could be funny.
-You think so? -I do, I do.
Made me laugh.
But I guess if you wanna be an idol you don't need a shtick like that.
Just my opinion. Yes.
What shall I get?
Okay, so, let's try this again.
What is it?
I could be operating right now.
You just want to use me as your scapegoat.
That's why you're not looking into this and going with the easiest option.
Claiming the patient died due to an anesthetic overdose.
Well, that's a shame.
I'm sorry you feel that way.
Listen.
I've realized something.
Oh?
Doctors do not save their patients.
It's the opposite.
Doctors keep going because of their patients' will to live.
I see.
You could say it's a way of giving back.
We work wholeheartedly to relieve their suffering, even if only by a little.
Patching someone up or curing an illness is not enough to ease suffering.
We strive for something much more important.
We work together with our patients to heal them in the best way possible.
That's the very reason doctors even exist.
Doctors, the practice of medicine…
we've been around since the dawn of humanity.
It's always existed beyond nations and beyond laws.
So I will not bow down to you.
There's no way.
I'll never become an idol.
I wanted this so badly…
Dr. Wada?
I was in the area.
How are you doing?
I heard about the accident.
How about you?
Are you doing well?
Of course I am! Things are only moving up.
That's good.
You made the right choice coming here.
You shine just as bright, even in Tokyo.
I'm not bright at all.
My light bulb went out.
I haven't achieved anything since coming to Tokyo.
What am I even doing here?
Listen.
I believe you showed me the light.
Your orchiectomy…
Your reassignment surgery…
You shone the light on the right path for me.
And yet…
It hasn't gotten you anywhere.
And…
she believed in me.
My patient trusted me.
But I let her down.
Did we really do the right thing?
Of course we did!
It wasn't a mistake.
We were right to do this!
You can do this.
And so can I.
There is so much more in store for us!
We're going to dazzle.
I have to go.
Sorry for getting sentimental.
I'm going to start operating again tomorrow.
That's why I wanted to see you.
Goodbye.
3.0 nylon.
Here.
-Cooper. -Here.
And I can do so much more.
Like, when I see what others are doing,
they're building things up, step by step, slowly but surely.
And, like, from where I stand, they seem so far up there.
And I really admire them, yeah?
But when I look at myself,
it's like all I'm doing is walking around in circles.
Like, I feel invisible all the way down here.
Well, some might feel that way, but I want to be bigger…
"NEWHALF" FOUND DECEASED
IN A BOTCHED UNDERGROUND SEX CHANGE SURGERY
Come on. Time to go.
-It's hard being left-handed. -You're drunk, buddy.
I gotta put weight on my right elbow.
-Lefties don't live as long. -I'm dying out here.
-Who's stressed? -Yeah, I know a guy…
Hold up!
-Hello? -Righties live longer.
Really? You're gonna stop by?
Oh, my gosh, you've made me so happy! I'll be waiting for you.
-What was that? -Who's coming?
Gentlemen.
In a few moments,
we're gonna have an idol here!
-A what? -What?
She's gonna be here any moment.
-Since when? -No way.
I can't decide! Sexy? Cute?
Which do you prefer?
I can't decide!
This is the idol.
Because I am a pure hearted fair maiden
Because I love you
Hello, Tokyo, it is I. Aya Matsuura!
-Aya! -It's Ayaya!
This
morning,
I woke up at 9:00.
So I went to wash up.
I have my toothpaste,
and next to the toothpaste,
is my face cleanser.
I grabbed the tube
and started washing my face.
And I thought to myself…
Yo, this cleanser feels different.
Her face!
And that's when it dawned on me.
Oopsie! Wrong one.
"Yeah! It's a holiday!"
Yeah! It's a holiday!
That's my joyful wish this summer
Yeah! Jump into summer time
I wanna fall in love
Ai! Ai!
I thought you wanted to be an idol? What's all this about?
I gave it some thought.
I realized all I can do is whatever I'm best at.
So smooth!
That was so good. Great! No, it was the best, even!
Can I pitch you to my producer?
-Really? -No way, dude!
No, I mean it.
I can't decide! Sexy? Cute?
Which do you prefer?
I can't decide! I wanna catch your eye
Because I am a pure hearted fair maiden
Because I love you
She's a star.
She is.
"Yeah! It's a holiday!"
Yeah! It's a holiday!
That's my joyful wish this summer
Yeah! Jump into summer time
I wanna fall in love
Here it comes!
Yeah!
Nice!
-You're so funny! -This is gold!
Hello! Today's guest is Ai Haruna.
Hello, I'm Ai Haruna. Thank you for having me.
Thanks for coming!
You sure are a cutie pie.
You think so?
I'd love to take you out sometime.
She used to be a man.
A ladyboy? Well, no, thank you.
There you go again!
Amazing…
-You'd never know. She looks like a woman. -Do I really?
-I like you. I think I'll keep you. -You can leave me, thanks.
There you go again! You know you love me.
And you're so popular lately…
TO TENMA WEST POLICE
OFFICIAL OPINION WADA PLASTIC SURGERY CLINIC
REGARDING THE CAUSE OF DEATH, IT IS MY OFFICIAL OPINION THAT…
I DID WHAT I COULD.
IF I AM TO BE TRIED FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO SAVE A LIFE…
There you go again!
There we go.
Whoa.
Dr. Wada.
Wake up.
Dr. Wada?
My goodness. You were great out there, Ai!
You had them cracking up just like last week.
I'm glad to hear it.
Everyone's raving about you.
And not just the audience. The staff all love you too.
We sure do.
It's all thanks to you.
You're our shining star right now, Ai.
-See you next week, yes? -Of course!
-See you! -See you.
-Same time next week. -Same time, yes!
-See you. -Goodbye.
Hello?
Hello? This is Kiyomiya from the Wada Clinic.
It's been ages.
DR. KOJI WADA HAS PASSED AWAY.
THE CLINIC IS CLOSED.
DR. WADA
The news…
shook us all.
The incident must have taken its toll on him.
He never got a lawyer involved.
He wanted to tell the truth in his own words.
In the end,
they referred him to prosecution, claiming he'd mishandled the anesthesia.
And yet,
patients were lining up outside the door for him.
He continued operating despite a lack of sleep.
He was exhausted.
So exhausted he developed insomnia.
So he turned to the anesthetic.
He must have messed up the dose.
So many girls left in tears.
What a rotten man.
I…
I said something to him when he came to see me.
I said we weren't mistakes.
I said we were going to dazzle.
I can do so much more.
I wish he could have seen it.
You've done plenty.
It's not enough!
Not like this…
I'm not even halfway.
Do you think he'll see me…
if I shine even brighter?
Of course he will.
He'll be watching over you from among the stars.
With all that watching over you, he's going to get sore eyes.
-Wait! -Move!
Move your feet, not your mouth.
-Yeah. -Quickly, quickly!
-We made it. We made it. -We just had to be late.
-Here. Flags. -We made it.
-Thanks. -Thanks.
-It's starting. -It's starting.
I got a new hairdo
You say I look so different
So lovely!
You're looking pretty bashful
As you're walking past me
I wish you had told me
You think I look pretty
You're always hesitating
It's like you're behind a veil
Fresh, fresh, fresh!
Open up that door to summer
And whisk me away somewhere
Fresh, fresh, fresh!
Summer's gonna open the door
And take us just the way we are
Dr. Wada.
You should have seen me.
I'm number one in the world.
But…
You've done even better than me.
More than 600 penises gone, thanks to you.
That's phenomenal.
My balls…
My cut penis…
I was your first for both, wasn't I?
I am…
proud to be your first.
For you…
I will sing…
and I will dance.
I hope you like it.
This is a song and a dance…
from the first woman you ever created.
Thank you, Dr. Wada.
If I hadn't met you, I'm sure I…
Thank you.
Goodbye, sweet pain
Those nights spent With my chin in my hands
Ended yesterday
I want to make sure
That we met meant something
So I open my eyes in the darkness
Footsteps race along the emergency stairs
I want them to echo
In a world that's fast asleep
A motorbike abandoned in a vacant lot
Graffiti on the wall
I look up to it all
True grief
Can only be healed from within
I'm beginning to understand my revolution
I'm gonna shake things up for tomorrow
I want someone to understand
My tears, my dreams, right away
If you're gonna chase your dreams
You can't just go bursting into tears
This is what you taught me
My fears, my dreams, I set them free
Feel my heart ache
I'm surrounded by smiles
But the lonely nights are hard
I want to share it
The words scribbled In the margins of my textbook
Are coming to life
DR. KOJI WADA OFFERED
AFFORDABLE GENDER-AFFIRMING CARE WITH GREAT DEDICATION
TO MANY PEOPLE EXPERIENCING GENDER DYSPHORIA.
HE PERFORMED OVER 600 OPERATIONS THROUGHOUT HIS LIFETIME.
There is a strength to being alone
And I don't want to lose it In the throngs of this city
I'd like to keep seeking my revolution
I'm gonna make tomorrow different
I want someone to understand
My tears, my dreams, right away
This is how I live my life
Nobody can tell me how to live it
I want to watch it with you
My fears, my dreams I want to hold them tight
I'm beginning to understand my revolution
I'm gonna shake things up for tomorrow
I want someone to understand
My tears, my dreams, right away
If you're gonna chase your dreams
You can't just go bursting into tears
This is what you taught me
My fears, my dreams, I set them free
Subtitle Translation by: Rychelle Brittain