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Years, months and days
Spent untangling a thread

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From the tangle of your nerves
Hung out to dry

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Sleepless nights
And pillow marks on your face

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I lose everything, even my hair
And I try to breathe

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Where are you going? Where are you?
Tell me where you're going

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Lock everything under a trapdoor
You never know

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But where are you going?
Where are you going now that

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You don't recognise yourself any more

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There's someone in the mirror
But it's not you any more

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I don't recognise you

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How many lives do you live in secret?

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I don't recognise you any more

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MY 2 CENTS

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ACCIDENT AND EMERGENCY
24 HOURS

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So, the internal bleeding has stopped.

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We were lucky to catch it.

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They often bring them to us
when it's already too late.

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We can't guarantee anything

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until we've patched him up
and see how he is when he wakes up.

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But, hey, at least now
we can cross our fingers.

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They say that
when a story reaches its final act,

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you just know.

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You can feel it in the air.

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I don't know if it's true.
I thought it was all over 20 years ago,

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that August afternoon when finally
the great pantomime came to an end.

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Doing anything Saturday afternoon?
Shall we go to the Warhol exhibition?

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I didn't give a shit about Andy Warhol,

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but she'd left her boyfriend,
and we were back in that window

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when I could make a move,
before the next thresher showed up.

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Before, I'd have said…

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Of course. I'm obsessed with Andy Warhol!

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I was gonna get
that soup can tattooed on me.

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And the Marilyn portraits
that look like Moira Orfei.

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I wanked off so much to them.

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I'd have burned everything,

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exams, work,
doctor's appointments, friends, girls…

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Just like always,
I'd have burned all the bridges

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connecting me to my dignity, to say…

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Of course I'm free.
Let's go wherever you want!

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Instead, I bit my tongue and said…

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Um… I think I'm going out
with someone on Saturday.

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It was one of the hardest things
I've said in my whole life.

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Worse than when I told my mum
I wasn't attending university.

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I was just riding the underground

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for eight hours like a psycho.

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Because it felt like that sentence…

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"I'm going out with…"

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…signalled the end of something wonderful

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that never happened.

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But that's exactly why
it stayed unrealised.

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Pure, like only things that never happen
or that last no time at all can be.

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That's the problem with us simps.

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When people stand us up,
don't give a shit,

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put us at the bottom
of their list of priorities, or lower…

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What can I do? I've got Power Pilates!

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It's nearly the end-of-year show.

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And…

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Sorry, love, but Chi l'ha visto
is on Wednesday nights.

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Mind your tongue!

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I know that the priority level
of Chi l'ha visto is debatable.

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It's every citizen's civic duty!

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I get it, but if someone asks you out…

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Shut up. They're showing
Isotta's last messages.

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She went out to buy an iguana

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for her 13-year-old lover
she met on TikTok,

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but she never got to the exotic pet shop.

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Anyway, when it's others who piss on us,
we're fine with it.

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We think, "Oh well, maybe next time."

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But when it's us
who have to draw the line,

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who have to say…

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"No, I'm sorry. I can't."

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Saying "I can't" is worse
than stabbing yourself.

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It makes that doubt grow inside you

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that it was finally time
for us to get together.

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It's my fault if it doesn't happen,

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and I'll spend the rest
of my life regretting it.

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But maybe I had a sudden surge of dignity.

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Maybe the heat that day
short-circuited my simp gland.

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But I added…

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I mean, I'm going out with a girl.

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Boom! You told her!
Gimme a "G"! Gimme an "O"!

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Go!

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What's she gonna say?

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What if she freaks out?

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She gets jealous,

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and you can finally tell her…

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"You regret it now, don't you?"

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"You missed out.
This hunk is off the market."

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"He's gone to the local stud farm."

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That's great! I'm happy for you.
You'll have to tell me about it.

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No. She doesn't give a shit.

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I'm not sure that she really didn't care.

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Gimme a "D"! Gimme a "head"! Dickhead!

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Macchiato, please.

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She wasn't pulling her hair out.

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But it seemed to me
that something tiny, imperceptible,

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had cracked inside her too.

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But I couldn't hear the shards breaking,

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because she thought
that every awkward silence

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always had to be filled

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with someone screaming
until their vocal cords gave out.

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8:00 AM ALARM

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NO NOTIFICATIONS

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Still standing, you won't beat us

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Never!

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Why are you doing that?

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How should I know?

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So that if he stabs me,
it won't go in, right?

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Pineapple is much better.

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What do you mean?

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Pineapple skin is harder,
and it also stops fire.

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If you put it on your arm,

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you can stop a blowtorch
without getting burned.

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I don't think Moody's
coming with a blowtorch.

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We can go by my house.
I've made a suit of armour.

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You made yourself
a pineapple suit of armour? Why?

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What if there's an enemy
who controls fire?

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-What enemy?
-Hey, I'm ready.

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Do we have time for a coffee?

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There's no need for all of us to go.

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Let's try to be sensible.
We're not going on a trip.

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This all started because of me.
You think I'm not coming with you?

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I was just saying…

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But if you, specifically,
weren't gonna come with me,

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I'd think you were a piece of shit.

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But the others don't need to come.

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This is my ex we're talking about.
I called Carlo and Emilio.

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I'd rather come to make sure
they don't do too much damage.

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About that, one thing I meant to say.

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I won't be shocked to see a few punches.

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But I don't want to get caught up
in something… erm…

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Something what?

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I mean, you've got
to be convincing, obviously.

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But he has to be able
to tell the story afterwards, you know?

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Who does he have to tell?

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In theory!

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How the fuck can I say it?

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I don't want to be involved in a murder!

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Jesus Christ, Zero!

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You're meeting at 8:00 am in the square.
It was agreed by text message!

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When people decide to kill someone,

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they take a few more precautions.

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So you're saying
they'll show up at some point,

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maybe before he guts me like a sea bass,

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but won't do anything excessive?

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Zero, today is mainly a day of big scares

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and maybe a little bit of damage.

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I'm coming to make sure
there's balance between these two things.

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I don't know why you're coming either.

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What can I say.
At least there'll be another woman.

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This whole thing
already reeks of patriarchy.

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We can at least sprinkle some sisterhood
on this thing I disagree with.

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Okay, I won't ask you anything.

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I just hope there's fire so you have
to apologise about the pineapple.

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Dracarys.

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I remember it being a very long walk.

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My heart was pounding,

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and Armadillo kept repeating

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the one nagging doubt I had on my mind.

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What if Carlo and Emilio don't show up?

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If they don't wake up in time?

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You get there and find Moody.
What do you do? What if he has a knife?

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Please. I'm already anxious.

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That's why I put all the magazines here.

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Whatever. Not even pineapples would help.

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He aims high. He stabs you.

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In the throat, the chest. It hurts.

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You said it was safer
to get stabbed by Moody

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because he stabs you reasonably.

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But that was before.

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Put yourself in his shoes.

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You sprayed him in the face,
broke his nasal septum.

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-You screwed his woman.
-I didn't screw anyone!

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It's perception that counts.

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He even got fired from
the family business he worked at.

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Poor guy.

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I'm not defending him.

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But looking at it like that,
if he stabs you, what can you say?

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I have no strength to argue,

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and I focus on
the only thing that comforts me.

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I'm telling you, it's controversial.

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I don't want to die alone.

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You might say,
"Nobody wants to die alone."

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But I don't mean I want my loved ones
holding my hand, and all that.

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I don't want to be the only one.
I want them all to die with me.

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HERE LIES ZEROCALCARE

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The idea that I die and they keep living,

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and a thousand things happen.

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They'll see dinosaurs being cloned,
an alien invasion,

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the guys from La Zanzara
begging for money on Celebrity Island.

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Everything I've been waiting for
all my life,

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and I'll be the only one
who won't be there.

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It's not like
they deserve it more than me.

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I wish the world would end with me.

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When my heart beats for the last time,

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a meteorite hits the Earth
and wipes out all life.

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So we're all even and I won't feel bitter.

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But I realise
it's a megalomaniacal, selfish thought.

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I'm not crazy. I know I can't make demands

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on all of humanity.

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So I'd settle for my friends dying.

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As I was thinking about
who had the best chance of dying,

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I noticed all these police cars
driving by, and I thought,

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"What the fuck's going on today?"

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Then I saw they were heading
towards the square, so I said…

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Smeralda, are your brothers done already?

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She didn't answer.
She started running, and we followed her.

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But everything was blocked.

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There were people everywhere,
and everyone was asking,

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"What happened?"

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I started to panic because I thought,

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"What the fuck did those two do?
Did they kill him?"

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Or the other way around. He killed them!

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They must have showed up all cocky,

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and he stabbed them.

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Or Secco was right,
and he did turn up with a blowtorch.

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That's what that burning smell was!

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But then I looked up,

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and they were there,
with expressions that gave me goose bumps.

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We locked eyes for just a second,

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then Carlo made the international gesture
for "Let's get the fuck out of here".

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Why? Have they killed him?

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They disappeared. I couldn't see Smeralda.

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I thought, "Where the fuck is she?"

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Maybe she's smarter than us and ran away.

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It was the best thing to do!

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But no.

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Honestly, I don't feel like
doing the voices here,

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because my blood still freezes
when I think back to that moment.

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I think he's dead.

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Zero, let's go.

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Hey, let's go!

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Smeralda's over there.

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Send her a message.
Tell her we're at the café.

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We can't leave her…

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Jeez, we have to get out of here!

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I was half in a trance,
so it's hard to say what I was thinking.

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-Watch it!
-Excuse you!

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I was going crazy,
and I needed to regain control.

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I thought,
"I'll put it all back in order."

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As if it were an autopsy.

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I open my head,

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take out every thought
and put it on the table.

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Okay, let's start.

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The first thing is a horrible feeling.

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Relief.

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I know that's not nice.

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He's lying in a pool of blood,

249
00:14:54,600 --> 00:14:56,880
but I can't say I'm sorry.

250
00:14:58,840 --> 00:15:01,800
It's like asking Frodo
if he's sad that Sauron died.

251
00:15:01,880 --> 00:15:05,000
What can I say? He'd been trying
to kill me for three movies.

252
00:15:05,080 --> 00:15:07,760
Should I cry for him?
"Poor guy, he was always so polite."

253
00:15:07,840 --> 00:15:09,000
My precious!

254
00:15:09,080 --> 00:15:11,680
Hey! I won't do a TikTok dance,

255
00:15:11,760 --> 00:15:14,840
but I can't pretend I'm in mourning.
Come on!

256
00:15:16,600 --> 00:15:18,080
And then there's fear.

257
00:15:18,600 --> 00:15:19,880
A lot of fear.

258
00:15:21,440 --> 00:15:23,160
Death.

259
00:15:23,240 --> 00:15:26,080
The scariest thing in the world.

260
00:15:26,160 --> 00:15:29,040
Even natural death
seems like something far away,

261
00:15:29,120 --> 00:15:31,080
that doesn't belong in our lives.

262
00:15:31,160 --> 00:15:33,240
We almost never take stock of it.

263
00:15:33,320 --> 00:15:34,680
Except when it happens.

264
00:15:35,280 --> 00:15:36,920
But violent death,

265
00:15:37,000 --> 00:15:39,240
being stabbed to death…

266
00:15:47,000 --> 00:15:50,920
That's something you always think
is a thousand worlds away from you.

267
00:15:51,000 --> 00:15:52,440
STRANGLED BY HUSBAND

268
00:15:52,520 --> 00:15:54,880
But it's right there, a few metres away.

269
00:16:00,240 --> 00:16:03,360
On that body that still smells like you,

270
00:16:03,440 --> 00:16:05,080
and you smell like him.

271
00:16:06,920 --> 00:16:09,520
You exchanged atoms, molecules, sweat…

272
00:16:09,600 --> 00:16:11,120
Do you think this is a game?

273
00:16:11,200 --> 00:16:12,600
And now he's there, dead,

274
00:16:12,680 --> 00:16:15,440
pierced by a piece of sharp iron

275
00:16:15,520 --> 00:16:18,160
that ripped him open several times.

276
00:16:20,600 --> 00:16:23,400
Then there's a feeling I'm ashamed of.

277
00:16:23,480 --> 00:16:24,880
I don't want to name it.

278
00:16:24,960 --> 00:16:29,080
It's what I felt
when I saw Smeralda in despair.

279
00:16:29,160 --> 00:16:32,480
A tiny part of me thought…

280
00:16:32,560 --> 00:16:34,120
Why the fuck are you crying?

281
00:16:34,200 --> 00:16:37,120
You kept saying he beat you,
that he was a piece of shit.

282
00:16:37,200 --> 00:16:40,040
Now you're crying
as if Derek from Grey's Anatomy died.

283
00:16:40,120 --> 00:16:41,800
For fuck's sake. Come on!

284
00:16:42,640 --> 00:16:46,320
Rationally, I know the answer is
that the man who was a monster to me

285
00:16:46,400 --> 00:16:48,880
was a lot of other things to her.

286
00:16:48,960 --> 00:16:50,520
She had seven years with him.

287
00:16:50,600 --> 00:16:53,960
It's understandable that she's upset
when she sees him dismembered.

288
00:16:55,160 --> 00:16:57,240
Of course it's understandable, no shit!

289
00:16:57,320 --> 00:16:59,720
Thanks for the masterclass,
Jiminy Cricket.

290
00:16:59,800 --> 00:17:03,280
It still pisses me off
that she's crying for that bag of piss.

291
00:17:03,360 --> 00:17:05,760
Is that okay,
or do I need your permission?

292
00:17:08,000 --> 00:17:09,880
Hey, idiot, you want a soft drink?

293
00:17:11,080 --> 00:17:13,560
Guys, I don't even know
if it really happened.

294
00:17:14,080 --> 00:17:17,000
I think it did.
It's already in the Rome news.

295
00:17:18,200 --> 00:17:19,320
What about Smeralda?

296
00:17:19,400 --> 00:17:21,800
I've been calling,
but she's not answering.

297
00:17:22,840 --> 00:17:26,120
I still don't understand
how you can all be so calm.

298
00:17:26,200 --> 00:17:27,840
I think it was the right thing.

299
00:17:27,920 --> 00:17:29,360
How was it the right thing?

300
00:17:29,440 --> 00:17:32,800
A person died, you know.
Even in terms of consequences…

301
00:17:32,880 --> 00:17:37,240
He was gonna die sooner or later.
There's no point in putting things off.

302
00:17:37,840 --> 00:17:39,880
I wasn't in the mood to investigate

303
00:17:39,960 --> 00:17:43,200
where Secco's reasoning
about life and death could lead.

304
00:17:43,280 --> 00:17:46,280
And I didn't have time to ask
because I heard the bell…

305
00:17:46,360 --> 00:17:47,920
We're closed!

306
00:17:48,000 --> 00:17:50,080
Calm down! What do you mean, "closed"?

307
00:17:50,160 --> 00:17:52,680
My love! I thought
you weren't reading my messages!

308
00:17:52,760 --> 00:17:55,040
My love!

309
00:17:55,120 --> 00:17:56,600
A lot has happened.

310
00:17:56,680 --> 00:17:58,920
It wasn't me, but Moody's dead.

311
00:17:59,000 --> 00:18:00,800
I swear I wasn't involved.

312
00:18:00,880 --> 00:18:02,880
The Tartallegras don't want the money!

313
00:18:02,960 --> 00:18:04,920
I don't know what happened.

314
00:18:05,000 --> 00:18:06,920
Darling, wait. Stop.

315
00:18:07,000 --> 00:18:09,160
Sorry. I thought I wouldn't see you again.

316
00:18:09,240 --> 00:18:11,800
What do you mean, they killed Moody?

317
00:18:11,880 --> 00:18:12,840
Who did it?

318
00:18:14,360 --> 00:18:16,880
-Wait, isn't that…
-Stop talking.

319
00:18:16,960 --> 00:18:18,440
He's still holding the knife.

320
00:18:18,520 --> 00:18:20,640
They're stopping people. We have to go!

321
00:18:20,720 --> 00:18:21,680
Here is closed.

322
00:18:21,760 --> 00:18:23,560
I'm still so shocked

323
00:18:23,640 --> 00:18:26,320
because I saw who was holding the knife.

324
00:18:26,400 --> 00:18:29,640
I mean, I saw,
by the actual dictionary definition,

325
00:18:29,720 --> 00:18:31,400
the murderer.

326
00:18:31,480 --> 00:18:34,360
And of all the people I've met in my life,

327
00:18:34,440 --> 00:18:36,320
the last person I would have imagined

328
00:18:36,400 --> 00:18:39,480
wearing the mantle of a murderer

329
00:18:39,560 --> 00:18:41,480
was Lorenzo Montini.

330
00:18:56,120 --> 00:18:58,160
ACCIDENT AND EMERGENCY
24 HOURS

331
00:18:59,320 --> 00:19:01,480
Can I wait here?

332
00:19:01,560 --> 00:19:04,680
You can wait in the waiting room,
but I can't let you in.

333
00:19:05,520 --> 00:19:07,280
Why don't you go home to rest?

334
00:19:07,360 --> 00:19:09,560
We'll call you if he wakes up.

335
00:19:10,240 --> 00:19:12,480
What's the little one's name?

336
00:19:12,560 --> 00:19:13,800
Giulio.

337
00:19:14,320 --> 00:19:15,640
His name is Giulio.

338
00:19:16,720 --> 00:19:19,680
Think of the fucking abyss
we dumped him in

339
00:19:19,760 --> 00:19:21,320
to make him do this.

340
00:19:21,840 --> 00:19:24,560
We were all trying
to solve Wild Boar's shit first,

341
00:19:24,640 --> 00:19:25,800
then my shit,

342
00:19:25,880 --> 00:19:28,320
and meanwhile he was there in front of us,

343
00:19:28,400 --> 00:19:30,520
slipping further and further into hell,

344
00:19:30,600 --> 00:19:32,560
and it was like we couldn't see him.

345
00:19:34,600 --> 00:19:36,800
And in the end, he became hell.

346
00:19:46,640 --> 00:19:48,280
But why did Montini do it?

347
00:19:48,360 --> 00:19:49,920
Did you hear what I said?

348
00:19:50,000 --> 00:19:52,000
The debt with the Tartallegras is gone!

349
00:19:52,080 --> 00:19:54,800
My love, debts of that size
don't just disappear.

350
00:19:54,880 --> 00:19:58,520
I don't know how it happened.
It's like a miracle!

351
00:20:01,520 --> 00:20:03,760
The Virgin Mary performs los milagros.

352
00:20:03,840 --> 00:20:05,640
We do business.

353
00:20:07,640 --> 00:20:09,360
What does he have to do with it?

354
00:20:09,440 --> 00:20:11,840
You really didn't know anything?

355
00:20:11,920 --> 00:20:13,480
About what? I don't understand.

356
00:20:13,560 --> 00:20:15,440
Did you really not wonder,

357
00:20:15,520 --> 00:20:19,400
when the Tartallegras asked the Bengali
who had caused all this mess,

358
00:20:19,480 --> 00:20:22,080
why no one thought
to ask Carlito for the money,

359
00:20:22,160 --> 00:20:23,520
since he was the middleman?

360
00:20:23,600 --> 00:20:26,840
Actually, I did wonder.
I thought they'd talked to him,

361
00:20:26,920 --> 00:20:29,120
but they only cared
about where it started.

362
00:20:29,200 --> 00:20:30,120
No.

363
00:20:30,200 --> 00:20:32,280
I mean, yes, but you're missing a piece.

364
00:20:32,360 --> 00:20:34,440
They did go to Carlito.

365
00:20:37,760 --> 00:20:38,880
And they said…

366
00:20:38,960 --> 00:20:42,200
You got our 99K account blocked.
You have to give it back to us.

367
00:20:42,280 --> 00:20:43,360
You drive, right?

368
00:20:43,440 --> 00:20:44,480
What did you say?

369
00:20:44,560 --> 00:20:47,680
That yes, I drive,
but no soy a limo service.

370
00:20:47,760 --> 00:20:50,640
I only drive Don Diego Coccodritto.

371
00:20:52,520 --> 00:20:54,960
Oh! Finally, a plot twist
that makes some sense

372
00:20:55,040 --> 00:20:57,280
of this half-baked Cuban stud!

373
00:20:57,360 --> 00:20:58,800
Good job, screenwriters.

374
00:20:58,880 --> 00:21:02,600
I was wondering why the Coccodrittos
had nothing to do with this story!

375
00:21:07,480 --> 00:21:10,000
The Coccodrittos
are the Tartallegras' competitors.

376
00:21:10,080 --> 00:21:12,920
They do the same things.
Dealing, usury, extortion…

377
00:21:13,000 --> 00:21:14,360
They're a bit more creative

378
00:21:14,440 --> 00:21:17,160
and also have a thing
for florists and car dealerships.

379
00:21:17,240 --> 00:21:18,840
But in another part of the city.

380
00:21:18,920 --> 00:21:22,600
They're competitors and not rivals
because they're always respectful

381
00:21:22,680 --> 00:21:24,840
and never cross onto each other's turfs.

382
00:21:24,920 --> 00:21:28,040
They're the ones Lemur Friend
buys her hash from, for instance.

383
00:21:28,640 --> 00:21:30,560
That's why they didn't give you grief.

384
00:21:30,640 --> 00:21:32,600
They didn't want to start a gang war.

385
00:21:32,680 --> 00:21:34,720
The war was about to start anyway.

386
00:21:34,800 --> 00:21:38,200
Moody was coming here every day,
acting all crazy!

387
00:21:41,600 --> 00:21:44,840
He beat up Montini in the street.
He made a whole scene.

388
00:21:44,920 --> 00:21:47,840
That attracts the cops,
and it's bad for business.

389
00:21:50,800 --> 00:21:54,520
So we had to make a deal
that worked for todos.

390
00:21:54,600 --> 00:21:56,520
Honey, what did you do?

391
00:21:56,600 --> 00:21:58,200
I got them to buy the debt.

392
00:21:58,280 --> 00:22:00,240
Huh? What do you mean?

393
00:22:00,320 --> 00:22:03,760
They paid it off and bought our debt.

394
00:22:03,840 --> 00:22:05,080
What does that mean?

395
00:22:05,160 --> 00:22:08,240
I don't owe the Tartallegras,
but I owe the Coccodrittos?

396
00:22:08,320 --> 00:22:11,160
Yes. A bit more, but not as urgently.

397
00:22:11,240 --> 00:22:13,960
What did you think?
Debts like these don't just vanish.

398
00:22:14,040 --> 00:22:16,880
I love you, you know that,
but help me understand.

399
00:22:16,960 --> 00:22:19,680
-What have we gained from this?
-A month.

400
00:22:19,760 --> 00:22:22,520
A month of what?
What am I supposed to do with a month?

401
00:22:22,600 --> 00:22:24,080
A month is a month.

402
00:22:25,640 --> 00:22:27,800
So, we have an extra month?

403
00:22:28,320 --> 00:22:30,960
I just know that in a month
I have to come back aquí.

404
00:22:40,280 --> 00:22:42,440
But if he's with the Coccodrittos,

405
00:22:42,520 --> 00:22:45,640
why did he involve the Bengali
who was a Tartallegras frontman?

406
00:22:45,720 --> 00:22:47,560
What's the link between them?

407
00:22:47,640 --> 00:22:50,240
It was all one big
Keyser Söze-style setup, right?

408
00:22:50,320 --> 00:22:52,960
They'd foreseen all the moves,
like dominoes,

409
00:22:53,040 --> 00:22:56,640
where it ended up with
the Coccodritto family buying the debt.

410
00:22:56,720 --> 00:22:59,200
No, their kids go to school together.

411
00:22:59,280 --> 00:23:04,120
Carlito thought
Aryan's parents could use €2,000.

412
00:23:04,720 --> 00:23:06,160
I take it all back.

413
00:23:06,240 --> 00:23:09,680
Real life is always so poorly scripted.

414
00:23:09,760 --> 00:23:10,720
Lazy.

415
00:23:10,800 --> 00:23:12,880
Well, at least we gained a month.

416
00:23:12,960 --> 00:23:16,040
We have more time
to come up with something, so at least…

417
00:23:16,120 --> 00:23:17,320
Zero…

418
00:23:20,520 --> 00:23:24,000
She didn't say anything,
but there was a full stop in those eyes.

419
00:23:24,600 --> 00:23:27,880
One of those full stops that mark the end.
No appeals, no recourse.

420
00:23:27,960 --> 00:23:29,520
Full stop. All over.

421
00:23:29,600 --> 00:23:33,240
At first, I thought that full stop was
the end of this whole thing.

422
00:23:33,320 --> 00:23:35,600
That I had to accept it.
It was over, done.

423
00:23:35,680 --> 00:23:38,640
Only months later did I realise
that it was actually the end

424
00:23:38,720 --> 00:23:41,000
of an idea
that had been with us for 40 years.

425
00:23:41,080 --> 00:23:43,720
That we can always be like the Goonies.

426
00:23:43,800 --> 00:23:46,280
Staying together. Keeping the gang united.

427
00:23:46,360 --> 00:23:48,800
As long as we're together,
we can do anything.

428
00:23:48,880 --> 00:23:51,040
Even take on the world alone.

429
00:24:01,280 --> 00:24:02,440
Let's get this right.

430
00:24:02,520 --> 00:24:04,040
You were having an emo moment,

431
00:24:04,120 --> 00:24:07,000
and I was celebrating
us all getting out of there.

432
00:24:07,080 --> 00:24:09,000
Why are they still here? Why?

433
00:24:09,080 --> 00:24:10,760
I don't know. How do I ask them?

434
00:24:10,840 --> 00:24:12,960
Oh my God, what a drag.

435
00:24:16,720 --> 00:24:19,800
Sorry, Sarah.
I'm trying to be sensitive here…

436
00:24:19,880 --> 00:24:21,640
-Sensitive, my arse.
-Come on!

437
00:24:21,720 --> 00:24:23,640
Are you planning on moving

438
00:24:23,720 --> 00:24:26,640
those little legs of yours
towards the door at some point?

439
00:24:26,720 --> 00:24:28,160
Yes, Zero, don't worry!

440
00:24:28,240 --> 00:24:31,240
We're going to my mum's.
I already told her. She's happy.

441
00:24:31,320 --> 00:24:33,120
But I have to do something first.

442
00:24:33,200 --> 00:24:35,280
I'll come and get her in 20 minutes.

443
00:24:35,360 --> 00:24:38,400
If you want to tell her anything,
this is your last chance.

444
00:24:38,480 --> 00:24:39,960
Bye. Bye-bye.

445
00:24:44,680 --> 00:24:48,000
No, she's crazy.
Are you really listening to her?

446
00:24:48,080 --> 00:24:50,600
-I don't get what she meant.
-What do you think?

447
00:24:50,680 --> 00:24:52,320
Jump in. He's dead.

448
00:24:52,400 --> 00:24:53,840
It's your turn now!

449
00:24:53,920 --> 00:24:55,680
This isn't the right time.

450
00:24:55,760 --> 00:24:57,440
Of course it's not!

451
00:24:57,520 --> 00:25:00,200
It's never the right time
to do this kind of shit!

452
00:25:00,280 --> 00:25:02,960
What does "jump" mean?
What is this, Ariccia Bridge?

453
00:25:03,040 --> 00:25:04,480
These are serious matters.

454
00:25:04,560 --> 00:25:06,560
You have to take it slowly. Very slowly!

455
00:25:06,640 --> 00:25:08,000
-Exactly.
-Right!

456
00:25:08,080 --> 00:25:10,400
You date, see how it goes,

457
00:25:10,480 --> 00:25:13,440
you don't get carried away
by the urge to label things.

458
00:25:13,520 --> 00:25:16,120
Then, slowly,
when you've got used to the situation,

459
00:25:16,200 --> 00:25:18,760
after seven or eight years,

460
00:25:18,840 --> 00:25:21,480
if everything's still going well,
at that point,

461
00:25:21,560 --> 00:25:23,720
you start to take stock of the situation

462
00:25:23,800 --> 00:25:27,560
and say, "From the outside,
it actually looks like we're together."

463
00:25:27,640 --> 00:25:30,600
But it's a snapshot of things.
You can't plan it in advance.

464
00:25:31,520 --> 00:25:34,960
-At that point, you're together.
-And at that point, you split.

465
00:25:35,040 --> 00:25:36,320
But didn't it just start?

466
00:25:36,400 --> 00:25:38,480
No, it's the seven-year itch.

467
00:25:38,560 --> 00:25:40,280
By then, one of the two is fed up.

468
00:25:40,800 --> 00:25:41,880
What do I say to her?

469
00:25:41,960 --> 00:25:44,440
Go, play dumb. Make some joke.

470
00:25:44,520 --> 00:25:48,240
She said 20 minutes.
It'll go by so fast, then she'll fuck off.

471
00:25:56,040 --> 00:25:57,120
Hi.

472
00:26:00,800 --> 00:26:03,720
I don't know what to say
in these situations.

473
00:26:04,520 --> 00:26:06,280
"How are you?" seems stupid.

474
00:26:08,400 --> 00:26:09,840
No need to say anything.

475
00:26:09,920 --> 00:26:12,560
It's me who should thank you
for the past few days.

476
00:26:12,640 --> 00:26:14,440
They must have been rough for you,

477
00:26:14,520 --> 00:26:17,320
but they showed me a different way.

478
00:26:17,400 --> 00:26:19,800
For the first time,
I was living a normal life

479
00:26:19,880 --> 00:26:22,320
with someone who actually cares about me.

480
00:26:24,200 --> 00:26:27,520
I think I got used
to living with a pressure cooker

481
00:26:27,600 --> 00:26:29,440
that could explode at any moment.

482
00:26:29,520 --> 00:26:32,760
Yeah, I'm sorry
I didn't ask you to stay the other day.

483
00:26:32,840 --> 00:26:34,880
I didn't want to send you away.

484
00:26:34,960 --> 00:26:36,360
I'm no good at this stuff.

485
00:26:36,440 --> 00:26:39,240
It's not that I don't like you.
Quite the opposite. But…

486
00:26:39,320 --> 00:26:43,560
Hey, I'm not saying this because
I want to move in with you, okay?

487
00:26:43,640 --> 00:26:47,600
The person I was with for seven years
was stabbed to death this morning.

488
00:26:49,320 --> 00:26:51,920
I'm not really in the mood to settle down.

489
00:26:52,960 --> 00:26:53,840
She's right.

490
00:26:53,920 --> 00:26:56,160
I keep forgetting he's dead.

491
00:26:56,240 --> 00:26:57,880
I can't get it to stick.

492
00:26:58,400 --> 00:27:00,640
That wasn't why I was saying it.

493
00:27:00,720 --> 00:27:03,480
It was just something nice
that you gave me.

494
00:27:03,560 --> 00:27:06,680
It's just that I feel like
I should've protected you more,

495
00:27:06,760 --> 00:27:08,480
or done something to make it even,

496
00:27:08,560 --> 00:27:11,240
since you saved me
when he was strangling me outside.

497
00:27:11,320 --> 00:27:14,760
Never in my life have I wanted
someone to protect me, Zero.

498
00:27:14,840 --> 00:27:17,360
But you liked tough guys
who were good at fighting.

499
00:27:17,440 --> 00:27:20,720
Let's not kid ourselves.
I could never compete with that.

500
00:27:21,320 --> 00:27:23,080
You're such an idiot!

501
00:27:23,160 --> 00:27:25,360
I liked people who chose me,

502
00:27:25,440 --> 00:27:27,800
who were sure they wanted me.

503
00:27:27,880 --> 00:27:29,960
With you, I always had to do everything.

504
00:27:30,040 --> 00:27:32,000
You never put yourself out there.

505
00:27:32,080 --> 00:27:33,560
The others don't understand

506
00:27:33,640 --> 00:27:35,840
and have to risk
making a fool of themselves.

507
00:27:35,920 --> 00:27:37,560
I wanted to say, "Not true."

508
00:27:37,640 --> 00:27:39,600
"I was always ready to change my plans

509
00:27:39,680 --> 00:27:40,960
when you reappeared,"

510
00:27:41,040 --> 00:27:42,560
but then I felt Armadillo

511
00:27:42,640 --> 00:27:44,480
pat me on the shoulder and say…

512
00:27:44,560 --> 00:27:45,760
Shh! They have videos.

513
00:27:45,840 --> 00:27:48,640
Excuse me,
I request a break from the questioning!

514
00:27:54,600 --> 00:27:55,840
It doesn't matter, Zero.

515
00:27:55,920 --> 00:27:58,240
This wasn't the right time
to talk about it.

516
00:28:19,960 --> 00:28:22,160
How did it go? Did you do what you had to?

517
00:28:24,040 --> 00:28:27,240
Yes, it took me a while
because this old man wouldn't leave.

518
00:28:27,320 --> 00:28:30,960
He just stayed there,
like he was the guardian of decorum.

519
00:28:32,120 --> 00:28:35,800
That writing always made me
a little anxious, to be honest.

520
00:28:35,880 --> 00:28:38,120
It was like a life sentence.

521
00:28:40,400 --> 00:28:41,800
Now I like it better.

522
00:28:48,760 --> 00:28:53,680
PLEASE CAN WE BE LIKE COMETS…
…FOREVER?

523
00:29:07,160 --> 00:29:10,760
ROME MOTORWAY

524
00:29:36,880 --> 00:29:39,200
The following days felt suspended in time.

525
00:29:39,280 --> 00:29:41,040
What with the phone records,

526
00:29:41,120 --> 00:29:42,320
Smeralda's brothers

527
00:29:42,400 --> 00:29:45,200
and all the things we said
without being careful,

528
00:29:45,280 --> 00:29:48,800
would no one really come
and ask us what the fuck we were doing?

529
00:29:48,880 --> 00:29:50,920
But no. No one came.

530
00:29:51,000 --> 00:29:53,960
The legend of Moody,
a lifetime of barbarity,

531
00:29:54,040 --> 00:29:57,040
the nightmare of at least
three generations of kids,

532
00:29:57,120 --> 00:30:00,440
filed away like a local news article,
with the wrong surname.

533
00:30:00,520 --> 00:30:02,160
And crooked writing on the wall.

534
00:30:02,240 --> 00:30:05,000
At first, when I walked past it,
it made me angry.

535
00:30:05,080 --> 00:30:06,880
I thought, "Leader, yeah, right!"

536
00:30:06,960 --> 00:30:10,160
"Someone who beat up girls
and bullied kids."

537
00:30:10,240 --> 00:30:12,240
But the street names in this city

538
00:30:12,320 --> 00:30:14,680
are full of statesmen and warriors

539
00:30:14,760 --> 00:30:16,360
who dropped bombs on people,

540
00:30:16,440 --> 00:30:19,360
killed families, men, women, children…

541
00:30:19,440 --> 00:30:21,640
No one takes their plaques down.

542
00:30:21,720 --> 00:30:24,960
It would be a bit classist
to object only to Moody,

543
00:30:25,040 --> 00:30:27,440
so we kept the writing too.

544
00:30:27,960 --> 00:30:30,440
Eventually, we stopped thinking about it.

545
00:30:30,520 --> 00:30:32,880
It became part of the urban decor.

546
00:30:39,240 --> 00:30:41,040
I know you didn't do it for us.

547
00:30:41,120 --> 00:30:44,480
I don't know if you did it for yourself,
or if you had a choice.

548
00:30:44,560 --> 00:30:45,960
But if you're there now,

549
00:30:46,040 --> 00:30:48,960
it's because facts are judged,
not intentions.

550
00:30:49,640 --> 00:30:53,000
But there are other facts
that are equally important,

551
00:30:53,080 --> 00:30:55,240
even if they weren't discussed
at the trial.

552
00:30:55,320 --> 00:30:58,480
Like, if we're here, literally, I mean…

553
00:30:58,560 --> 00:31:01,440
If we can continue our lives,

554
00:31:01,520 --> 00:31:04,880
with our arguments,
our anxieties, our laughter,

555
00:31:04,960 --> 00:31:06,200
it's thanks to you.

556
00:31:06,280 --> 00:31:08,960
You're paying for something
that allows all of us

557
00:31:09,040 --> 00:31:10,440
to keep living.

558
00:31:10,520 --> 00:31:13,400
And we did nothing to deserve it.
Quite the opposite.

559
00:31:13,480 --> 00:31:15,440
We gave you nothing these past years,

560
00:31:15,520 --> 00:31:17,760
and you didn't owe us anything.

561
00:31:17,840 --> 00:31:19,600
Yet you gave us everything.

562
00:31:22,840 --> 00:31:25,600
My grandmother
spent her life thanking Saint Lucy,

563
00:31:25,680 --> 00:31:28,640
who she believed saved her
when she was dying in childbirth.

564
00:31:28,720 --> 00:31:31,760
"Each of us has a saint in heaven,"
she always said.

565
00:31:31,840 --> 00:31:34,920
"You must thank them every day
that you're alive and healthy."

566
00:31:35,000 --> 00:31:38,400
I never listened to her,
but now I think she was right.

567
00:31:39,000 --> 00:31:42,240
It's just that our saint isn't in heaven.
Quite the opposite.

568
00:31:42,320 --> 00:31:46,000
He's in the place in this world
that most resembles hell.

569
00:31:56,600 --> 00:31:57,960
How is he?

570
00:31:58,040 --> 00:32:01,680
He's well. Better than last time.
He's even put on a bit of weight.

571
00:32:02,400 --> 00:32:04,320
Did they give him the letter?

572
00:32:04,400 --> 00:32:05,920
Yes, he was moved by it.

573
00:32:06,000 --> 00:32:09,560
He said he'll write back.
You included your address, right?

574
00:32:09,640 --> 00:32:11,160
Yes, it's at the bottom.

575
00:32:12,360 --> 00:32:13,720
Did you give him the photo?

576
00:32:13,800 --> 00:32:15,000
Yes. He thanks you.

577
00:32:15,080 --> 00:32:17,640
That was what worried him the most,
you know?

578
00:32:19,520 --> 00:32:22,000
He knows I couldn't keep him on my own.

579
00:32:22,080 --> 00:32:23,920
At least he's all right with you.

580
00:32:29,480 --> 00:32:32,440
Thank you for taking me,
even though you're leaving.

581
00:32:32,520 --> 00:32:33,840
No, I have time.

582
00:32:33,920 --> 00:32:36,240
I won't be long.
I'll be back in Rome in three days.

583
00:32:36,320 --> 00:32:37,680
Shall we talk then?

584
00:32:37,760 --> 00:32:40,640
Okay. But be careful
with all this travelling.

585
00:32:40,720 --> 00:32:42,200
Get some rest now and then.

586
00:32:42,280 --> 00:32:43,560
Bye, Giulio!

587
00:32:43,640 --> 00:32:45,880
-Excuse me, can I ask you something?
-Sure.

588
00:32:45,960 --> 00:32:47,640
Why is this dog called Giulio?

589
00:32:47,720 --> 00:32:49,240
It's a strange name for a dog.

590
00:32:49,840 --> 00:32:50,760
Look.

591
00:32:53,320 --> 00:32:54,640
Who does he remind you of?

592
00:32:54,720 --> 00:32:56,120
Oh God, I don't know.

593
00:32:56,200 --> 00:33:00,280
The most handsome politician
in Italian history!

594
00:33:00,360 --> 00:33:04,160
I don't know. Rutelli?
He used to be hot, but his name wasn't…

595
00:33:04,240 --> 00:33:06,600
Giulio Andreotti!

596
00:33:06,680 --> 00:33:08,080
Prime minister?

597
00:33:08,680 --> 00:33:10,160
Prime minister!

598
00:33:24,720 --> 00:33:27,640
You didn't convince that idiot, did you?

599
00:33:28,160 --> 00:33:29,440
There was no way.

600
00:33:30,560 --> 00:33:32,400
Oh well, he does have a kid.

601
00:33:32,480 --> 00:33:35,600
He can't disappear for days
and leave him with that poor woman.

602
00:33:35,680 --> 00:33:36,800
Yeah, exactly.

603
00:33:36,880 --> 00:33:37,840
Right.

604
00:33:37,920 --> 00:33:40,360
This is the great rational narrative

605
00:33:40,440 --> 00:33:42,320
that we always build around Secco

606
00:33:42,400 --> 00:33:44,480
to justify his behaviour.

607
00:33:44,560 --> 00:33:46,360
He doesn't go on about having a kid.

608
00:33:46,440 --> 00:33:49,720
It's what we say
to make it more acceptable to us.

609
00:33:49,800 --> 00:33:53,440
But actually,
I'd also said something else to Secco.

610
00:33:53,520 --> 00:33:57,280
But I didn't want to tell Sarah
They were my last words before leaving.

611
00:33:57,360 --> 00:33:59,280
I thought, "We're 40 years old."

612
00:33:59,360 --> 00:34:02,840
"Maybe it's time we talked openly
like two mature people."

613
00:34:02,920 --> 00:34:04,040
So I said it.

614
00:34:04,120 --> 00:34:07,640
You're a piece of shit!
This kid has ruined everything.

615
00:34:07,720 --> 00:34:11,200
We can't do anything together any more.
You basically killed our duo.

616
00:34:11,280 --> 00:34:12,840
His answer was just as mature.

617
00:34:12,920 --> 00:34:14,160
What do you want?

618
00:34:14,240 --> 00:34:17,280
You started it,
with the comic book thing and Netflix.

619
00:34:17,360 --> 00:34:18,840
You're the one who killed it.

620
00:34:18,920 --> 00:34:21,320
Me having a kid hasn't changed anything!

621
00:34:21,920 --> 00:34:25,480
He didn't say it
with a tone of resentment or sadness.

622
00:34:25,560 --> 00:34:27,840
It was Secco's standard metallic tone.

623
00:34:31,640 --> 00:34:34,480
But for a second
it opened up this tiny crack,

624
00:34:34,560 --> 00:34:36,600
and through it, I saw the last few years.

625
00:34:36,680 --> 00:34:40,200
All the stuff I got tangled up in
because of work.

626
00:34:40,280 --> 00:34:42,240
Good and bad.

627
00:34:43,280 --> 00:34:47,200
And I realised
that Secco was practically never there.

628
00:34:47,280 --> 00:34:49,920
None of my old friends were there.

629
00:34:50,000 --> 00:34:53,440
Because I didn't find the time
or the space to keep them in my life.

630
00:34:53,520 --> 00:34:56,640
Or maybe this is
my great rational narrative.

631
00:34:56,720 --> 00:34:59,680
The one I built to justify my behaviour.

632
00:34:59,760 --> 00:35:01,000
And I also wondered,

633
00:35:01,080 --> 00:35:05,200
"What was Secco doing when
he was living outside of our friendship?"

634
00:35:05,280 --> 00:35:07,440
And even if the answer was obviously,

635
00:35:07,520 --> 00:35:08,720
"He played poker",

636
00:35:08,800 --> 00:35:10,880
"He must have got laid too,
if he had a kid",

637
00:35:10,960 --> 00:35:13,520
I glimpsed
that there was something terrible

638
00:35:13,600 --> 00:35:15,360
behind all these thoughts

639
00:35:15,440 --> 00:35:17,600
that threatened to sweep away

640
00:35:17,680 --> 00:35:20,480
my entire great justificatory system.

641
00:35:21,440 --> 00:35:23,160
When you see those clouds, stop.

642
00:35:23,240 --> 00:35:25,760
Dissect, deepen, introspect.

643
00:35:25,840 --> 00:35:28,880
Because those clouds
reveal something about yourself.

644
00:35:29,400 --> 00:35:30,800
That's how you grow.

645
00:35:30,880 --> 00:35:33,440
When you can look your demons in the face

646
00:35:33,520 --> 00:35:35,240
and talk about them with others.

647
00:35:36,800 --> 00:35:38,720
So I plucked up the courage and…

648
00:35:38,800 --> 00:35:40,440
Oh, fuck off!

649
00:35:40,520 --> 00:35:41,520
Well done.

650
00:35:42,200 --> 00:35:43,240
Blow me!

651
00:35:43,320 --> 00:35:44,480
You and your mum.

652
00:36:05,800 --> 00:36:09,280
In all this, you still haven't told me
how the fuck you are.

653
00:36:09,360 --> 00:36:10,400
I'm fine.

654
00:36:10,480 --> 00:36:12,240
But living with my mum's not easy.

655
00:36:12,320 --> 00:36:14,800
We're always this close
to being on the news.

656
00:36:14,880 --> 00:36:16,680
But you stood firm with Stella.

657
00:36:16,760 --> 00:36:18,120
You know I lost €50?

658
00:36:18,200 --> 00:36:21,040
I bet that
you'd be back together within a week.

659
00:36:21,120 --> 00:36:23,200
I also lost out. I bet too.

660
00:36:23,280 --> 00:36:26,000
Well, it's been six months.
You've broken the spell.

661
00:36:28,440 --> 00:36:30,640
I haven't broken anything, Zero.

662
00:36:30,720 --> 00:36:33,040
I think my problem is in my head.

663
00:36:33,120 --> 00:36:34,680
Six months without a word,

664
00:36:34,760 --> 00:36:37,760
but it's as if a part of me
doesn't think we broke up.

665
00:36:37,840 --> 00:36:40,920
As if we're just not talking
to each other for a while,

666
00:36:41,000 --> 00:36:42,520
like a break.

667
00:36:42,600 --> 00:36:44,640
But every time something happens to me,

668
00:36:44,720 --> 00:36:47,680
my first thought is
that I want to tell her about it.

669
00:36:48,200 --> 00:36:50,160
I think that's normal at first.

670
00:36:50,240 --> 00:36:52,240
Is it normal to have a list in your head

671
00:36:52,320 --> 00:36:54,840
and update it with everything that happens

672
00:36:54,920 --> 00:36:58,120
so when I see her again,
I can tell her everything,

673
00:36:58,200 --> 00:36:59,720
so she won't miss anything?

674
00:36:59,800 --> 00:37:03,520
I don't know, but you're doing well
not reaching out to her.

675
00:37:03,600 --> 00:37:05,920
Every night,
I look at my reflection and say,

676
00:37:06,000 --> 00:37:08,000
"Well done, you didn't cave in today."

677
00:37:08,080 --> 00:37:09,480
Like a junkie.

678
00:37:09,560 --> 00:37:11,280
But that thought is always there.

679
00:37:11,360 --> 00:37:14,640
It's like an app in the background
when you're not using it.

680
00:37:14,720 --> 00:37:16,440
And you know what's worse?

681
00:37:16,520 --> 00:37:18,760
No, but this already
seems pretty hardcore.

682
00:37:18,840 --> 00:37:20,240
I'm not sure I want to know.

683
00:37:20,320 --> 00:37:22,720
In my head, it all depends on me.

684
00:37:22,800 --> 00:37:24,520
If one day I pick up the phone,

685
00:37:24,600 --> 00:37:27,080
I think she'll be there waiting for me.

686
00:37:27,160 --> 00:37:28,800
Like it's not possible

687
00:37:28,880 --> 00:37:30,760
that Stella got on with her life,

688
00:37:30,840 --> 00:37:33,240
found someone else, is having a baby…

689
00:37:34,360 --> 00:37:36,200
Let's not think about it now.

690
00:37:36,280 --> 00:37:39,440
They'll never let her adopt
in this country anyway, so…

691
00:37:39,520 --> 00:37:40,560
Really?

692
00:37:40,640 --> 00:37:44,480
Thank goodness there are fascists
to stop my ex from finding happiness.

693
00:38:08,800 --> 00:38:10,920
Can this dog handle such a long journey?

694
00:38:11,000 --> 00:38:12,520
He didn't walk here!

695
00:38:12,600 --> 00:38:14,520
He's pooped, he's eaten,

696
00:38:14,600 --> 00:38:15,840
now he's going to sleep.

697
00:38:15,920 --> 00:38:17,240
He's got his own life.

698
00:38:46,480 --> 00:38:50,240
In 20 metres,
your destination will be on the left.

699
00:39:12,920 --> 00:39:14,920
Hey, send Secco a photo!

700
00:39:15,440 --> 00:39:17,320
Hold on, I'm doing a video.

701
00:39:17,400 --> 00:39:19,320
You piece of shit. You could've come!

702
00:39:19,400 --> 00:39:21,520
Yeah, like fuck will he move his arse.

703
00:39:21,600 --> 00:39:24,280
Darling, do me a favour.
Can you get me another beer?

704
00:39:25,640 --> 00:39:28,800
How's it going?
No one's come looking for you, right?

705
00:39:28,880 --> 00:39:31,920
Every morning I think
today's the day they'll come,

706
00:39:32,000 --> 00:39:34,800
and every night I think
we're lucky they didn't come.

707
00:39:34,880 --> 00:39:38,080
It might be better if they did,
because living like this…

708
00:39:38,160 --> 00:39:41,600
I'm recording you so when they come,
I'll play it back to you.

709
00:39:41,680 --> 00:39:44,120
Can you make room
while you rip his nails out?

710
00:39:44,200 --> 00:39:46,440
I have a recording
I'd like him to listen to.

711
00:39:46,520 --> 00:39:47,440
…better if they did.

712
00:39:47,520 --> 00:39:50,360
Enough with this story.
What about you and Smeralda?

713
00:39:50,440 --> 00:39:52,720
-What about Smeralda?
-Oh, come on!

714
00:39:52,800 --> 00:39:55,080
A guy went to prison
so you could get laid,

715
00:39:55,160 --> 00:39:56,560
and you're wasting it!

716
00:39:56,640 --> 00:39:58,240
Oh, fuck off.

717
00:39:58,320 --> 00:40:00,880
Are you serious?
You haven't seen her again?

718
00:40:02,520 --> 00:40:05,120
Debora is lost.

719
00:40:05,200 --> 00:40:09,280
Her grandfather Ugo
is waiting for her in front of Joe Spit's.

720
00:40:20,160 --> 00:40:21,560
Giulio!

721
00:40:21,640 --> 00:40:24,520
Jeez! Stop being a pain
in the arse with other dogs!

722
00:40:24,600 --> 00:40:26,160
Oh, you have a dog now?

723
00:40:26,240 --> 00:40:28,040
The apocalypse is here!

724
00:40:28,120 --> 00:40:30,080
Hey! You idiot!

725
00:40:30,160 --> 00:40:31,360
Giulio! Stop it!

726
00:40:31,440 --> 00:40:33,120
Schiocco! Stop!

727
00:40:33,200 --> 00:40:36,320
Poor thing. What did he do
to deserve being your dog?

728
00:40:36,400 --> 00:40:38,400
Maybe he was Priebke in a past life!

729
00:40:38,480 --> 00:40:40,840
-Who?
-Priebke! The Nazi.

730
00:40:40,920 --> 00:40:42,560
The Ardeatine massacre.

731
00:40:42,640 --> 00:40:45,080
It's unlike you
to miss such commie basics!

732
00:40:45,160 --> 00:40:47,680
I can't hear you. This thing is barking.

733
00:40:47,760 --> 00:40:49,120
How are you?

734
00:40:49,200 --> 00:40:52,120
-Good!
-Damn you.

735
00:40:52,200 --> 00:40:55,240
Come on. Don't be mean to him.
He'll calm down!

736
00:40:55,320 --> 00:40:57,760
No, I meant damn you!

737
00:40:57,840 --> 00:41:00,840
Why did you say "good"?
That's arrogant. Can't you hear it?

738
00:41:00,920 --> 00:41:04,160
Maybe I'm not doing well,
and you flaunt your endorphins.

739
00:41:04,240 --> 00:41:05,880
Are you not doing well?

740
00:41:05,960 --> 00:41:08,600
I don't know. I was just saying.

741
00:41:08,680 --> 00:41:11,480
Then take these endorphins,
and don't be a pain.

742
00:41:11,560 --> 00:41:13,960
Maybe he's barking to be more like you.

743
00:41:14,040 --> 00:41:17,240
He's saying, "Look, Dad.
I can be a pain in the arse too."

744
00:41:17,320 --> 00:41:19,680
What do you mean, "Dad"? Ew, gross!

745
00:41:19,760 --> 00:41:21,920
Hey, enough. I think he stopped.

746
00:41:22,000 --> 00:41:23,640
Should we try again?

747
00:41:33,160 --> 00:41:34,080
Giulio!

748
00:41:34,160 --> 00:41:35,080
Giulio, come here!

749
00:41:35,160 --> 00:41:37,800
Hey, Schiocco! Stop!

750
00:41:38,760 --> 00:41:40,920
-It's no good.
-They hate each other!

751
00:41:41,000 --> 00:41:43,200
We either let them fight or we leave.

752
00:41:43,840 --> 00:41:46,720
Why don't you take them to the park
instead of the shops?

753
00:41:46,800 --> 00:41:48,320
What the fuck do you want?

754
00:41:48,400 --> 00:41:51,480
Why not take your kid to the park?
He looks like Buddha!

755
00:41:53,360 --> 00:41:55,160
-See how nice it is?
-Yeah!

756
00:41:55,680 --> 00:41:57,520
Why don't we meet without the dogs?

757
00:41:58,120 --> 00:42:01,760
What's the point of saying we'll meet up
if we never do?

758
00:42:01,840 --> 00:42:04,440
Hey, this time we will, I promise.

759
00:42:04,520 --> 00:42:07,080
Oh, promises, promises.

760
00:42:07,160 --> 00:42:08,960
Hey, I said I promise!

761
00:42:09,040 --> 00:42:11,000
You'll see. You'll be amazed.

762
00:42:11,080 --> 00:42:12,800
Dad, can you read me this book?

763
00:42:12,880 --> 00:42:15,640
Son, Daddy's talking
about something important.

764
00:42:15,720 --> 00:42:19,160
As soon as Uncle Zero tells us
if he got laid, I'll be right there.

765
00:42:20,320 --> 00:42:21,600
What are you reading him?

766
00:42:21,680 --> 00:42:24,120
The same book every night.

767
00:42:24,200 --> 00:42:26,560
They say it's normal,
but how can it be normal

768
00:42:26,640 --> 00:42:28,880
to want to hear the same story

769
00:42:28,960 --> 00:42:30,480
with the same words every day?

770
00:42:30,560 --> 00:42:32,400
It's the Ludovico technique!

771
00:42:32,480 --> 00:42:35,240
Either you have a cognitive problem
or you're a maniac!

772
00:42:35,840 --> 00:42:38,480
Here, you read it to him.
Be the uncle for once.

773
00:42:39,200 --> 00:42:41,640
The Three Little Pigs. Are you crazy?

774
00:42:41,720 --> 00:42:44,760
It's like teaching kids
how to speculate with real estate.

775
00:42:45,360 --> 00:42:46,520
Do you know it?

776
00:42:46,600 --> 00:42:47,760
Yeah, but it sucks.

777
00:42:47,840 --> 00:42:50,240
The smart pig is in cahoots with the wolf.

778
00:42:50,320 --> 00:42:53,640
Think about it. The two hippies
lived in straw and wood huts,

779
00:42:53,720 --> 00:42:55,400
then the wolf destroys their homes,

780
00:42:55,480 --> 00:42:58,840
and they have to go to the real estate pig
who builds stone houses.

781
00:42:58,920 --> 00:43:02,040
He makes them feel bad
for having spent their mother's money,

782
00:43:02,120 --> 00:43:04,640
then sells them a house
and goes half with the wolf.

783
00:43:04,720 --> 00:43:05,680
No!

784
00:43:05,760 --> 00:43:08,720
Gimmy builds the stone house
because he's cautious.

785
00:43:08,800 --> 00:43:11,040
Yeah, right. Open your eyes. Wake up!

786
00:43:11,120 --> 00:43:14,320
In the Grimm brothers' version,
his name is Gimmy Caltagirone.

787
00:43:14,400 --> 00:43:18,040
He throws an old man
with a balloon house out on the street.

788
00:43:19,680 --> 00:43:22,200
Did you come to live here

789
00:43:22,280 --> 00:43:26,040
because the wolf destroyed your house
like he did with ours?

790
00:43:26,120 --> 00:43:28,360
Did you tell him this is your story?

791
00:43:28,440 --> 00:43:29,600
It's Christine.

792
00:43:29,680 --> 00:43:31,760
She loves stories with pigs.

793
00:43:31,840 --> 00:43:33,640
She says they're underrepresented.

794
00:43:33,720 --> 00:43:36,120
It's hard when
the only role models you have

795
00:43:36,200 --> 00:43:38,440
are Peppa Pig and Babe.

796
00:43:38,520 --> 00:43:40,040
And the one from the Muppets.

797
00:43:40,120 --> 00:43:42,680
Shh! Don't mention her,
or we'll end up fighting.

798
00:43:45,000 --> 00:43:48,520
Anyway, no. I've just come to visit you
here in the middle of nowhere,

799
00:43:48,600 --> 00:43:50,440
but I do have a house.

800
00:43:50,520 --> 00:43:52,920
And is your house made of stone?

801
00:43:53,000 --> 00:43:54,760
I thought, "How would I know?"

802
00:43:54,840 --> 00:43:57,440
"1980s buildings
are probably made of concrete."

803
00:43:57,520 --> 00:43:59,920
"Do you want to be a land surveyor?"

804
00:44:00,000 --> 00:44:01,280
But then I understood.

805
00:44:01,360 --> 00:44:03,720
Maybe, to his three-year-old eyes,

806
00:44:03,800 --> 00:44:05,960
we seem like accomplished adults,

807
00:44:06,040 --> 00:44:09,240
like we used to see
forty-year-olds when we were kids.

808
00:44:09,320 --> 00:44:11,600
People who must've had stone houses,

809
00:44:11,680 --> 00:44:14,800
because they seemed made of stone too.

810
00:44:14,880 --> 00:44:16,160
Maybe he looks at us,

811
00:44:16,240 --> 00:44:19,680
like the innocent little sausage
mostly made of pork he is,

812
00:44:19,760 --> 00:44:21,000
and sees us like this,

813
00:44:21,080 --> 00:44:24,920
unshakable like the Easter Island heads.

814
00:44:29,920 --> 00:44:32,640
Imagine the shock
when he sees who we really are.

815
00:44:32,720 --> 00:44:34,840
Scattered after the shipwreck.

816
00:44:34,920 --> 00:44:38,560
We don't even count
the ones we lost along the way,

817
00:44:38,640 --> 00:44:40,000
the ones who drowned,

818
00:44:40,080 --> 00:44:42,120
the ones who swam to shore

819
00:44:42,200 --> 00:44:46,800
and then crawled away
to hide in the darkest corner of the night

820
00:44:46,880 --> 00:44:48,960
at the edge of the universe.

821
00:44:58,360 --> 00:45:00,520
The houses we live in
aren't made of stone,

822
00:45:00,600 --> 00:45:02,280
but they're not straw either.

823
00:45:02,360 --> 00:45:05,960
They're made of all the rubbish
we've accumulated over the years.

824
00:45:06,040 --> 00:45:09,200
Rotten wood, sheet metal, leftovers.

825
00:45:09,280 --> 00:45:13,320
The whole mess held together
with spit and Xanax.

826
00:45:14,320 --> 00:45:16,000
With unpayable debts,

827
00:45:16,080 --> 00:45:19,800
and promises made and received
that no one ever keeps.

828
00:45:22,600 --> 00:45:23,800
And inside, there's us.

829
00:45:23,880 --> 00:45:25,920
Curled up and alone,

830
00:45:26,000 --> 00:45:28,480
praying that the wolf doesn't come

831
00:45:28,560 --> 00:45:31,120
to blow down our door tonight.

832
00:45:33,200 --> 00:45:36,080
Okay, but is your house
at least made of wood?

833
00:45:36,160 --> 00:45:37,240
Listen,

834
00:45:37,320 --> 00:45:40,120
don't get hung up on the material.
It doesn't matter.

835
00:45:40,200 --> 00:45:42,680
It's more important to live near others.

836
00:45:42,760 --> 00:45:44,240
Then, when the walls shake,

837
00:45:44,320 --> 00:45:46,440
your house can lean on the one next to it.

838
00:45:46,520 --> 00:45:49,480
But there's no one next to us here.

839
00:45:49,560 --> 00:45:51,120
That's not true, kiddo.

840
00:45:51,200 --> 00:45:52,600
We're here now.

841
00:45:52,680 --> 00:45:55,400
And we're here even when you don't see us.

842
00:45:55,480 --> 00:45:59,040
We're just taking a breather,
but then we'll fix everything.

843
00:45:59,800 --> 00:46:01,240
Promise?

844
00:46:02,760 --> 00:46:04,640
Hey, I said "promise".

845
00:46:04,720 --> 00:46:06,560
You'll see, you'll be amazed.

846
00:46:08,440 --> 00:46:10,640
Do you know why I can't say shit to you?

847
00:46:10,720 --> 00:46:13,280
Because I'm like that too.
I have the same thing.

848
00:46:13,880 --> 00:46:15,000
What do you have too?

849
00:46:22,160 --> 00:46:24,640
She didn't answer, but I know what it was.

850
00:46:27,600 --> 00:46:30,080
It's that thing that stays inside you,

851
00:46:30,160 --> 00:46:31,640
in the pit of your stomach.

852
00:46:32,520 --> 00:46:35,760
Even when you're sure
you've scraped it all away.

853
00:46:35,840 --> 00:46:38,160
When you think it can't hurt you any more.

854
00:46:39,480 --> 00:46:42,440
But there it is again, fucking you over.

855
00:46:48,000 --> 00:46:51,360
It kills you a thousand times over
in a single lifetime.

856
00:46:51,880 --> 00:46:54,560
The hope that this time is the right one.

857
00:47:06,480 --> 00:47:08,080
ICE CREAM WHEN I'M BACK?

858
00:47:35,760 --> 00:47:39,800
MY 2 CENTS

859
00:47:45,320 --> 00:47:46,840
MUGS

860
00:47:46,920 --> 00:47:48,080
DISHES

861
00:47:54,840 --> 00:47:56,120
Is the café reopening?

862
00:47:56,200 --> 00:47:57,880
Is the guy who ran it back?

863
00:48:00,800 --> 00:48:02,800
New management, sir.

864
00:50:59,160 --> 00:51:01,480
Subtitle translation by: Adam Dean