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[labored breathing]
[Charles] Our Father...

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[electronic dance music]

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[Charles] who is in Heaven...

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holy...

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is your name...

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[music continues]
[people talking indistinctly]

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[Jess (voiceover)] You ever
wonder how it works?

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How a tiny pill can ruin
your entire life?

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[Charles] Use me, Father.

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Let me see just one more.

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One more saved.

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[music intensifies]

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[Jess (voiceover)] It
starts with dopamine.

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That's the thing your brain releases
when you feel good.

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Like laughing, getting a
hug, french fries.

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It's all dopamine.

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But opiates, they hit you with a lifetime
of dopamine in just a few hours.

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So you do what you have to,
to feel something.

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Anything.

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[door slams]
[muffled music continues]

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[eerie tone]

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[breathing]

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[uneven breathing, whimpering]

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[exhales]

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[eerie tone intensifies]

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[Jess (voiceover)] I know.

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It's hard to look at, isn't it?

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But don't give up on me.

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Jesus didn't.

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[thud]

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[Dr. Henley] I'm proud of you, Jess.

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Look at me.

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I can see you've been through a lot.

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But you came back.

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And that's what it takes.

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Where else was I gonna go?

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I mean...

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I am trying.

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[murmurs]

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But also, I'm not.

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It's like I'm doing everything I
can to just mess it all up.

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That's honest.

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That's true.

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Jess, the truth is vital--

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Vital to recovery, I know.

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[Dr. Henley] The number one thing that
keeps an addict from becoming sober

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is refusing to tell the truth.

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And right now, that's not you.

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[Caller (voiceover)] Hey, Jess.
I got your call.

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I'm your cousin, so I'm gonna
stick my neck out here.

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Um...

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I have a place I just bought.

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It needs some work.

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You can stay there for a couple months.

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[sigh]

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I talked with your mom last week,

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and she's still upset over what you did.

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Listen, this is the last time.

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Ok?

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Please.

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Get better.

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Talk soon.

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[breathing]

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[phone vibrates]

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[soft, upbeat music]

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[heavy breathing]

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[heavier breathing]

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[Jess] Hello?

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Hello..?

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Sir.

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[gasps]

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Sorry, sorry, sorry.

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I thought... um... you were--

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sorry.

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I thought you were--

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Um--

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sorry.

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[Charles] [labored breathing] I wasn't
able to sleep inside in the bed.

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[Jess] Mm.

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[Charles] I come out here...

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Boy, I ain't slept that good in a month.

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[chuckles]

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Can I pray for you?

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Oh, um...

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No.

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I'm good.

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I'm just-- I'm going to--

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I'm going to keep running.

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[phone vibrates]

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[ominous music]

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[muffled retching]

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[grunts]

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[Charles] Come on now, I can pour coffee.

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No, you ain't. Alright?
Not while I'm here.

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You gettin' that royal treatment.

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Come on.

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[coffee pouring]

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[Xavier] [sighs]

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Is that necklace from...

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My Betty.

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Born on a foggy morning to a farmer daddy

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and a schoolteacher mama.

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They say that you could cut that
fog with a paring knife it was so thick.

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[Xavier] [soft chuckle]

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[ambient music]

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[soft chuckle]

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[laughter]

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What?

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Uh,

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She used to get on my case.

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Mostly about how I talk, told
me I was country.

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[laughter]

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Oh, she couldn't stand it

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when I said, "I'da known that.

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We'd have been there if you
had told us to."

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[laughter]

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I can see her looking at me,

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staring a hole in my head

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when we were out with friends and I spoke like

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I ain't never seen a classroom.

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Boy.

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[voice breaking] I'm excited
to see her again.

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[Xavier] And uh... what's the acorn mean?

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Yeah.

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[clears throat]

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You know how an acorn turns
into an oak tree?

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[Xavier] Yeah.

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Tons of shade?

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[Xavier] Mm-hmm.

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Well, everybody's thankful for
when an oak grows up.

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[Xavier] True.

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Her daddy gave her this before he passed.

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Well, he wanted her to think
about being something

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that adds to this world.

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And boy...

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She did.

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[heavy breathing]

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[Charles] Same sign, same me.

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But now...

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he here too.

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Ope. Sorry.

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I'm Xavier.

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I'm Jess.

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[Xavier] Nice to meet you.

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[Charles] Jess,

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I think Jesus wants you to know him.

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I'm not... sure... about that.

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About like God or Jesus, you know?

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That's alright.

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Can I still pray for you?

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Ok, I-- I want to be honest.

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Um, I have to be because...

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well, I have to be.

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Um,

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I don't think God is real.

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Like, I wish he was.

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[stammering] But you guys--
you clearly believe, right?

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Um,

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Like, you feel you have a purpose
for getting up and stuff

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and doing all the things you do and
it's not meaningless.

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So, good.

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Good job.

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Thank you.

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[Jess] Mm-hmm, yeah.

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Uh, how many people have stopped?

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Not...

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[coughs]

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Not many.

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[coughing]

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Excuse me.

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Are you okay?

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You should get that looked at.

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You ain't lying.

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[Charles] But I'm tough as nails though.

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Call me Joe Namath.

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'69 Super Bowl against the
Baltimore Colts.

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[Xavier] [groans] Oh, geez.

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Y'all know nothing about that.

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Should've seen it.

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Like back when the Pickle Badgers

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faced the Mutton Bandits, correct? Yes?

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In the 1942--

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Come over here.

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You remember James Naismith.

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He passed you the ball.

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The boy think he a comedian.

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[Charles] Go get a chair.

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[Xavier] Yeah.

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Jess, you...

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wanna sit down?

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Please.

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Now, everybody on the team

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gets cheap coffee.

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[Jess] [chuckles]

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I love cheap coffee.

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That's why you on the team.

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So you from around here?

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Um,

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Yeah, not too far away.

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I was gone for a bit, but--

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Small towns are like magnets,

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they just...

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They always draw you back in.

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[Jess] [chuckles]

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They do, yeah.

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I feel that.

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But, um, yeah, I live like a mile
down that way.

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I've never been down there.

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Is it nice?

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It's not. It's nothing special.

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[chuckles]

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That's why I'm down there.

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I'm kidding.

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It's funny, it's a joke.

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Oh, oh, okay.

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That's funny... right?

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Yeah.

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[chuckles]

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[Charles] Raya!

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[Raya] [sing-song] Charles!

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How you doing?

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Hey, I'm doing fine, babe.

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Hey.

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[Xavier] What's good?

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Hey.

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Oh my...

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Ah, gosh.

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Hi, I don't think we've met
before. I'm Raya.

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I'm Jess, we definitely haven't met.

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She lives right down that way.

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But it's not very nice.

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Oh... that feels inappropriate.

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[sighs]

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Word on the street is you're
changing the world, Chuck.

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Starting now.

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You ain't old enough to call me Chuck.

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Now, what'd you bring me?

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[teasing] Chuck, brace yourself.

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Because mom made...

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a coffee cake!

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Ooh, she taking care of me.

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Mm-hmm.

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Now, she put a whole coffee cake in there.

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Okay, a whole one.

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So I better see half a coffee cake
in the fridge next week,

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okay?

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Lord, bless this breakfast for the
nourishment of my body.

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That's a cake, Pops.

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[Raya] Ooh, your shoes are cute!

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What size do you wear?

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No, no, no, no, no, no.

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Don't let her put her hooves
in your shoes, alright?

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You'll have to burn them.

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Excuse me?

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I wash them every week.

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She on that Jesus schedule.

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[Xavier] [chuckles]

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[Raya] Exactly, exactly.

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If it's good enough for God,
it's good enough for Raya.

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Come on.

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Hello there.

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Hi.

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[James] I, um...

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I just got let go from my job.

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I, uh...

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I got three kids at home.

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Wife's a stay-at-home mom.

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I need some prayer.

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Okay.

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This one hurt.

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Quite a bit.

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What's your name?

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James.

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I don't know...

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I don't know what to do.

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Yeah.

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We're gonna bring it to Jesus.

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[soft, emotional music]

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Let's pray.

280
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Gracious God, heavenly Father,

281
00:17:40,102 --> 00:17:42,437
we thank you for giving James

282
00:17:42,728 --> 00:17:45,023
the strength to come here today.

283
00:17:46,065 --> 00:17:48,318
He's lost his job, God.

284
00:17:49,445 --> 00:17:50,737
He has three kids.

285
00:17:51,655 --> 00:17:54,658
His wife is at home with the kids.

286
00:17:56,160 --> 00:17:58,577
Father, he doesn't know what to do.

287
00:17:58,578 --> 00:17:59,580
He's confused.

288
00:17:59,913 --> 00:18:00,788
He's scared.

289
00:18:03,000 --> 00:18:05,501
Father, I'm asking that you
give him strength.

290
00:18:05,502 --> 00:18:08,005
[charles praying fades under music]

291
00:18:18,432 --> 00:18:19,347
[Charles] Amen.

292
00:18:19,348 --> 00:18:20,267
[James] Amen.

293
00:18:21,852 --> 00:18:23,020
Thank you.

294
00:18:23,353 --> 00:18:25,063
[Charles] God bless you.

295
00:18:25,438 --> 00:18:28,733
[James] [deep breath]
[Charles] God bless you.

296
00:18:30,277 --> 00:18:31,153
[indistinct]

297
00:18:31,320 --> 00:18:33,030
[emotional music swells]

298
00:18:33,780 --> 00:18:34,572
Thank you.

299
00:18:34,573 --> 00:18:35,573
God bless you.

300
00:18:44,667 --> 00:18:45,875
[music continues]

301
00:18:58,888 --> 00:19:00,347
[music fades, low rumble]

302
00:19:00,348 --> 00:19:02,976
[Jess (voiceover)] Nighttime is and
will always be the worst

303
00:19:02,977 --> 00:19:04,268
when you're alone.

304
00:19:08,398 --> 00:19:09,858
Loneliness is...

305
00:19:10,775 --> 00:19:11,443
awful.

306
00:19:13,570 --> 00:19:15,613
[rushing noise intensifies]

307
00:19:17,782 --> 00:19:19,492
[door shuts, silence]

308
00:19:37,843 --> 00:19:40,096
[Dr. Henley] Thank you, Tiffany,
for sharing.

309
00:19:40,097 --> 00:19:42,014
And thank you for being so open today.

310
00:19:42,015 --> 00:19:43,433
This has been great.

311
00:19:44,100 --> 00:19:47,728
You're learning to take back
control of your lives.

312
00:19:48,522 --> 00:19:51,400
Many of you handed your pen to addiction

313
00:19:52,483 --> 00:19:56,237
and you gave it permission to write
your life for a chapter.

314
00:19:56,238 --> 00:19:58,032
[eerie, distorted sounds]

315
00:19:59,867 --> 00:20:03,495
But today, today you get
to write a new one.

316
00:20:04,495 --> 00:20:05,621
So over the last couple of weeks,

317
00:20:05,622 --> 00:20:07,164
I've heard you talk about how it's hard

318
00:20:07,165 --> 00:20:09,249
to think of something that
you're grateful for.

319
00:20:09,250 --> 00:20:13,547
So I wanted to break that down into
a couple of small steps,

320
00:20:14,130 --> 00:20:16,048
gratitude and thankfulness.

321
00:20:17,092 --> 00:20:19,009
I want you think of gratitude as a seed

322
00:20:19,010 --> 00:20:21,095
that's planted in the ground.

323
00:20:21,888 --> 00:20:24,892
And you water that seed
with thankfulness.

324
00:20:25,058 --> 00:20:29,353
So the more you water it, the bigger
that gratitude becomes.

325
00:20:31,357 --> 00:20:33,567
[wind in trees, birds chirping]

326
00:20:37,445 --> 00:20:39,072
[Charles] Welcome back.

327
00:20:42,993 --> 00:20:43,993
You feel okay?

328
00:20:44,953 --> 00:20:45,662
[chuckles]

329
00:20:46,497 --> 00:20:47,163
Nope.

330
00:20:48,665 --> 00:20:49,332
[coughs]

331
00:20:52,418 --> 00:20:54,797
So, I'm in--

332
00:20:56,005 --> 00:20:57,465
I was in counseling.

333
00:20:59,635 --> 00:21:02,845
I've been talking to a doctor
about my story

334
00:21:02,972 --> 00:21:07,933
and trying to understand where things
got out of control.

335
00:21:10,895 --> 00:21:11,563
Um,

336
00:21:12,605 --> 00:21:14,189
I've lost a lot of people in my life

337
00:21:14,190 --> 00:21:16,067
because of what I've done.

338
00:21:19,403 --> 00:21:20,197
Alcohol.

339
00:21:23,950 --> 00:21:25,367
Almost blew up my marriage

340
00:21:25,368 --> 00:21:28,455
and ruined my relationship
with my daughter

341
00:21:29,288 --> 00:21:30,415
for a long time.

342
00:21:32,875 --> 00:21:35,962
You seem like you got things
back on track.

343
00:21:36,170 --> 00:21:38,548
Hmm, that's one way of saying it.

344
00:21:39,842 --> 00:21:41,635
How did you get past it?

345
00:21:43,220 --> 00:21:44,930
Jesus is good, Jess.

346
00:21:45,805 --> 00:21:46,598
That's how.

347
00:21:47,473 --> 00:21:49,100
I won't stop saying it.

348
00:21:49,642 --> 00:21:53,897
I want to believe like you guys do.

349
00:21:55,190 --> 00:21:58,443
It looks nice to like have something

350
00:21:58,568 --> 00:22:00,737
that gives everything meaning.

351
00:22:02,697 --> 00:22:04,073
At times in my life

352
00:22:05,825 --> 00:22:07,952
I've reached out to God.

353
00:22:14,667 --> 00:22:16,503
But nothing happened.

354
00:22:17,795 --> 00:22:19,547
I felt nothing.

355
00:22:22,092 --> 00:22:23,468
You keep reachin',

356
00:22:25,012 --> 00:22:26,888
he's gonna be there, Jess.

357
00:22:27,805 --> 00:22:29,892
And I can't wait to see that.

358
00:22:33,978 --> 00:22:36,898
Can I get your help with somethin' today?

359
00:22:37,315 --> 00:22:38,858
[cheerful music]

360
00:22:39,275 --> 00:22:40,568
[Raya] [deep sigh]

361
00:22:42,153 --> 00:22:45,073
Okay, this will only take a couple hours.

362
00:22:45,698 --> 00:22:47,491
Xavier, whatever you're doing, stop.

363
00:22:47,492 --> 00:22:48,242
How did you see that?

364
00:22:48,243 --> 00:22:49,243
I always know.

365
00:22:49,410 --> 00:22:50,078
Okay.

366
00:22:50,787 --> 00:22:51,537
[sigh]

367
00:22:51,538 --> 00:22:52,872
Let's, uh...

368
00:22:53,665 --> 00:22:54,581
Let's start! Ok?

369
00:22:54,582 --> 00:22:55,916
[Raya] We'll do this orderly.
[Xavier] Oh, chere you go.

370
00:22:55,917 --> 00:22:56,584
[Raya] Oh, thank you.
[Xavier] Yeah.

371
00:22:56,585 --> 00:22:57,252
Ok.

372
00:22:58,043 --> 00:22:58,712
For you.

373
00:23:02,673 --> 00:23:03,716
[Xavier] Let's start with something small. Yeah.

374
00:23:03,717 --> 00:23:06,259
[Raya] I guess we'll just... these lighter ones?

375
00:23:06,260 --> 00:23:08,555
[Raya] Okay, this one's heavier.

376
00:23:08,805 --> 00:23:10,307
Oh, a little heavier.

377
00:23:12,017 --> 00:23:13,184
[Raya] Is this gasoline?

378
00:23:13,185 --> 00:23:14,142
[Raya] Oh no, it's termite...
[Xavier] Oh my... no.

379
00:23:14,143 --> 00:23:15,937
[Xavier] [chuckles] Dang!

380
00:23:16,813 --> 00:23:18,564
[Xavier] This is gonna take longer than um--

381
00:23:18,565 --> 00:23:20,817
- oh my goodness.

382
00:23:21,025 --> 00:23:21,399
[Raya] Yes.

383
00:23:21,400 --> 00:23:23,444
[Xavier] I have never seen Pops sweep

384
00:23:23,445 --> 00:23:24,527
[Xavier] a day in my life.
[Raya] I know, I know,

385
00:23:24,528 --> 00:23:25,779
[Raya] I don't think I've ever seen
him use that either.

386
00:23:25,780 --> 00:23:27,406
[Raya] Oh! There's a spider in here!
[squeals, laughs]

387
00:23:27,407 --> 00:23:28,072
[Jess] Stop!

388
00:23:28,073 --> 00:23:28,783
[laughter]

389
00:23:29,117 --> 00:23:31,243
[Raya] [sing-song, indistinct]

390
00:23:31,620 --> 00:23:33,330
Wait, can we keep stuff?

391
00:23:36,207 --> 00:23:36,916
[Xavier] Sleight of hand.

392
00:23:36,917 --> 00:23:37,917
[Raya] Mm-hmm.

393
00:23:38,127 --> 00:23:40,127
Where did these even come from?

394
00:23:40,128 --> 00:23:42,504
[Xavier] Oh my gosh.
[Raya] [sing-song] Ohh...

395
00:23:42,505 --> 00:23:43,507
[Xavier] Jess!

396
00:23:44,173 --> 00:23:44,967
[Jess] Why?

397
00:23:45,300 --> 00:23:47,926
[Jess] Wait, why does he have--

398
00:23:47,927 --> 00:23:49,386
[Jess]--so many pairs?
[Raya] Why does he have so many?

399
00:23:49,387 --> 00:23:50,179
Wait, do you skate?

400
00:23:50,180 --> 00:23:51,096
[Jess] Me? No.

401
00:23:51,097 --> 00:23:51,807
You finna!

402
00:23:52,473 --> 00:23:53,766
[Xavier] That fits you actually.

403
00:23:53,767 --> 00:23:55,143
[Raya] Pretty good.

404
00:23:56,102 --> 00:23:56,977
[Xavier] Oh my gosh.
[Jess] Ok,

405
00:23:56,978 --> 00:23:58,272
was there a match?

406
00:23:58,438 --> 00:23:59,479
[Xavier] Raya, there's a bee in your hair.

407
00:23:59,480 --> 00:24:00,398
What, what?

408
00:24:00,773 --> 00:24:01,900
[group chuckles]

409
00:24:03,277 --> 00:24:03,943
Dang!

410
00:24:06,445 --> 00:24:09,032
[Jess] So are you guys like a thing?

411
00:24:09,323 --> 00:24:10,282
[Xavier] [laughs]

412
00:24:10,283 --> 00:24:11,032
[Raya] [sing-song] Oooooh...

413
00:24:11,033 --> 00:24:14,161
[Xavier] No, no, no, no--
[Raya] [playful] Xavier, do you love me?

414
00:24:14,162 --> 00:24:15,204
Why are you so strong?

415
00:24:15,205 --> 00:24:15,997
Oh my gosh.

416
00:24:17,248 --> 00:24:20,542
[Xavier] No, um... well, I mean, Raya's
family and my family

417
00:24:20,543 --> 00:24:21,837
go like way back.

418
00:24:22,212 --> 00:24:23,796
[Raya] Yeah.
[Xavier] So...

419
00:24:23,797 --> 00:24:24,672
[sigh]

420
00:24:25,173 --> 00:24:27,050
When my dad passed away...

421
00:24:30,095 --> 00:24:33,137
Raya's parents helped me and
my little sister

422
00:24:33,138 --> 00:24:35,391
while my mom got things together.

423
00:24:35,392 --> 00:24:37,017
And I got baptized with her brother

424
00:24:37,018 --> 00:24:39,186
[Raya] Mm-hmm.
[Xavier] a couple years ago already.

425
00:24:39,187 --> 00:24:41,480
[Xavier] Oh my gosh.
[Raya] Wow.

426
00:24:42,065 --> 00:24:44,275
So how do you all know Charles?

427
00:24:45,652 --> 00:24:47,362
Charles is the guy, man.

428
00:24:47,778 --> 00:24:48,780
He is the guy.

429
00:24:49,780 --> 00:24:52,367
He lost his wife a little while ago.

430
00:24:53,868 --> 00:24:55,661
But he's the one who always showed up.

431
00:24:55,662 --> 00:25:00,083
Yeah, anytime there was a need,
Charles had time.

432
00:25:01,585 --> 00:25:02,502
He made time.

433
00:25:03,587 --> 00:25:06,380
Not many people are willing to do that.

434
00:25:06,673 --> 00:25:10,093
And, um, he was really good friends
with my dad.

435
00:25:10,218 --> 00:25:11,093
So, yeah.

436
00:25:12,303 --> 00:25:14,388
[Raya] The most selfless man.

437
00:25:19,227 --> 00:25:19,895
Sorry.

438
00:25:25,608 --> 00:25:29,028
You know, we're not just cleaning
out the shed.

439
00:25:30,405 --> 00:25:33,617
We're, you know, getting some
stuff together.

440
00:25:33,867 --> 00:25:35,034
There's another group from the church

441
00:25:35,035 --> 00:25:36,117
that's gonna come by tomorrow

442
00:25:36,118 --> 00:25:38,747
and take some stuff for donation, so.

443
00:25:42,042 --> 00:25:44,377
Uh, what are we talking about?

444
00:25:46,295 --> 00:25:48,213
Charles has stage 4 cancer.

445
00:25:52,302 --> 00:25:53,093
He's dying?

446
00:25:55,430 --> 00:25:56,097
Yeah.

447
00:25:57,932 --> 00:26:00,601
But he doesn't like to talk
about it much.

448
00:26:00,602 --> 00:26:03,730
He just wants to enjoy the
time he has left.

449
00:26:07,608 --> 00:26:10,362
I'm sorry, Xavier.

450
00:26:10,987 --> 00:26:12,488
Yeah, it ain't right.

451
00:26:14,198 --> 00:26:15,700
I'll be real, it's...

452
00:26:17,785 --> 00:26:18,495
It's hard.

453
00:26:21,957 --> 00:26:23,375
I have my questions.

454
00:26:26,878 --> 00:26:30,257
That man right there, he's the real deal.

455
00:26:32,425 --> 00:26:35,512
He's using his last moments
to love others.

456
00:26:37,097 --> 00:26:38,180
It's beautiful.

457
00:26:41,475 --> 00:26:42,476
[Xavier] Alright, um...
[Raya] Ok, um...

458
00:26:42,477 --> 00:26:43,142
[Raya] Let's keep going.

459
00:26:43,143 --> 00:26:46,437
[Raya] This looks pretty fragile, so...
[Xavier] Oh, I wanna keep this.

460
00:26:46,438 --> 00:26:48,649
I might just have you walk this out?
I don't know.

461
00:26:48,650 --> 00:26:48,899
Okay.

462
00:26:48,900 --> 00:26:49,774
[Raya] There's some fragile stuff in there,

463
00:26:49,775 --> 00:26:50,859
so maybe we just go that way.

464
00:26:50,860 --> 00:26:51,527
Alright.

465
00:26:54,197 --> 00:26:55,739
[Jess] Charles! Sorry! I'm s---

466
00:26:55,740 --> 00:26:57,657
That's not my mama's urn, is it?

467
00:26:57,658 --> 00:26:59,659
[Jess] [indistinct mumble]
[Raya] Here, let me help you.

468
00:26:59,660 --> 00:27:00,328
Ow!

469
00:27:00,537 --> 00:27:01,996
[grunts] I'm bleeding.

470
00:27:01,997 --> 00:27:02,705
[Raya] Oh!

471
00:27:02,913 --> 00:27:04,664
[Charles] I got some bandages in the
house. I'll get 'em.

472
00:27:04,665 --> 00:27:06,793
[Jess] No, I got it. I got it.

473
00:27:07,377 --> 00:27:08,043
Alright.

474
00:27:19,222 --> 00:27:21,640
[ominous music]

475
00:27:47,708 --> 00:27:49,001
[high-pitched tone]

476
00:27:49,002 --> 00:27:50,086
[heavy breathing]

477
00:27:50,087 --> 00:27:53,756
[Jess] [whispering] You've got this.
You've got this.

478
00:27:53,757 --> 00:27:56,467
[whispering] You're fine. You're fine.

479
00:28:09,313 --> 00:28:11,272
[voices whispering indistinctly]

480
00:28:11,273 --> 00:28:13,233
[heart pounding]

481
00:28:20,742 --> 00:28:22,702
[sharp violin strings]

482
00:28:33,378 --> 00:28:35,340
[silence]

483
00:28:37,925 --> 00:28:39,885
[music builds]

484
00:28:44,848 --> 00:28:45,558
Don't.

485
00:28:46,642 --> 00:28:47,977
Don't do it.

486
00:28:49,228 --> 00:28:50,437
[Jess] [muffled] Come on, come on,
come on.

487
00:28:50,438 --> 00:28:51,940
[indistinct mumbling]

488
00:28:56,110 --> 00:28:57,569
[whispering] Come on, come on, come on.

489
00:28:57,570 --> 00:28:58,447
Don't do it.

490
00:29:00,030 --> 00:29:01,407
Is everything okay?

491
00:29:02,783 --> 00:29:03,784
Jess, what's wrong?

492
00:29:03,785 --> 00:29:04,701
I'm fine, everything's fine.

493
00:29:04,702 --> 00:29:06,202
I'm just--
[Raya] Hey!

494
00:29:06,203 --> 00:29:07,079
I'm not good with blood.

495
00:29:07,080 --> 00:29:09,165
I don't feel good at all, so.

496
00:29:09,832 --> 00:29:12,335
Okay, let me drive you home.

497
00:29:13,210 --> 00:29:13,794
Ok.

498
00:29:13,795 --> 00:29:16,629
[Raya] Are you... do you think you're
gonna get sick or...?

499
00:29:16,630 --> 00:29:17,507
[Jess] Um...

500
00:29:18,675 --> 00:29:20,007
Well, I don't feel good.

501
00:29:20,008 --> 00:29:21,676
Okay, okay. I hate that feeling.

502
00:29:21,677 --> 00:29:22,594
I know that feeling.

503
00:29:22,595 --> 00:29:24,179
I think I have some water if
you want a little water?

504
00:29:24,180 --> 00:29:25,222
[Jess] I'm ok. I'm fine.

505
00:29:25,223 --> 00:29:26,974
[Raya] Ok, we'll go home.

506
00:29:26,975 --> 00:29:27,891
Uh, you live that way?

507
00:29:27,892 --> 00:29:28,560
Mm-hmm.

508
00:29:29,893 --> 00:29:31,102
[Raya] Deep breaths...

509
00:29:31,103 --> 00:29:32,021
[Charles] Was it that bad?

510
00:29:32,022 --> 00:29:33,607
I-- It must have been.

511
00:29:38,903 --> 00:29:40,988
[Dr. Henley] It's okay, Jess.

512
00:29:41,780 --> 00:29:44,700
But you gotta be real with yourself here.

513
00:29:45,075 --> 00:29:46,577
[Jess] [softly] Okay.

514
00:29:47,578 --> 00:29:49,747
So then...
[long exhale]

515
00:29:50,748 --> 00:29:55,253
I'm here because I wasn't doing

516
00:29:55,462 --> 00:29:56,963
as well as I thought.

517
00:29:59,507 --> 00:30:04,595
I'm here because I wasn't as strong
as I thought I was.

518
00:30:05,513 --> 00:30:06,972
I'm here because--

519
00:30:06,973 --> 00:30:09,600
You're still making value statements.

520
00:30:15,315 --> 00:30:16,315
I'm here...

521
00:30:17,983 --> 00:30:18,943
because...

522
00:30:21,237 --> 00:30:22,822
I lied to myself.

523
00:30:25,700 --> 00:30:27,702
And I-- I told myself...

524
00:30:29,412 --> 00:30:31,330
I could be around it again.

525
00:30:33,165 --> 00:30:35,460
That's great, and that's honest.

526
00:30:37,587 --> 00:30:39,672
So, what do you do from here?

527
00:30:41,967 --> 00:30:44,177
I get back up,

528
00:30:45,637 --> 00:30:46,720
take control,

529
00:30:48,557 --> 00:30:49,432
hopefully...

530
00:30:53,895 --> 00:30:55,313
get my family back?

531
00:31:00,693 --> 00:31:04,863
If I could just be clean for
like six months,

532
00:31:05,698 --> 00:31:06,823
I know they'll--

533
00:31:07,950 --> 00:31:10,702
I don't-- I don't want them to
know I fell again.

534
00:31:10,703 --> 00:31:11,370
I don't--

535
00:31:13,205 --> 00:31:14,332
They'll never--

536
00:31:15,500 --> 00:31:17,918
They'll never believe in me again.

537
00:31:21,297 --> 00:31:22,298
Not this time.

538
00:31:27,428 --> 00:31:30,682
Before you go to them, you have to start

539
00:31:30,890 --> 00:31:33,392
with what you can control,

540
00:31:34,477 --> 00:31:35,562
and that's you.

541
00:31:38,063 --> 00:31:40,147
And only then can you give
your family a chance

542
00:31:40,148 --> 00:31:41,858
to show grace and mercy.

543
00:31:54,122 --> 00:31:54,830
Thank you.

544
00:31:54,955 --> 00:31:58,542
Yeah, hey, Jess, I just wanna
give you my number.

545
00:31:59,377 --> 00:32:00,127
So...

546
00:32:07,302 --> 00:32:09,428
Just take it, have it.

547
00:32:09,678 --> 00:32:12,931
I don't know if you have
a car or anything,

548
00:32:12,932 --> 00:32:14,016
but I'm happy to drive you.

549
00:32:14,017 --> 00:32:15,976
Yeah, my car's in the shop.

550
00:32:15,977 --> 00:32:17,394
[Raya] Ok!
[Jess] But, um, thanks. Appreciate it.

551
00:32:17,395 --> 00:32:20,022
[Raya] Either way. Sure. Feel better.

552
00:32:30,825 --> 00:32:32,035
[heavy breathing]

553
00:32:35,705 --> 00:32:37,332
Come on, Jess. Come on.

554
00:32:38,750 --> 00:32:41,418
[heavy breathing intensifies]

555
00:32:56,933 --> 00:32:58,310
[whispers] Come on.

556
00:32:59,395 --> 00:33:05,568
[ominous music]

557
00:33:07,612 --> 00:33:09,529
[Erin] I ended up at this party, and

558
00:33:09,530 --> 00:33:12,282
[dark, ambient music]
I'm not sure exactly

559
00:33:12,283 --> 00:33:16,620
how it happened, but you know,
I was smoking,

560
00:33:18,413 --> 00:33:19,582
and, um...

561
00:33:21,083 --> 00:33:22,293
somebody...

562
00:33:24,295 --> 00:33:24,962
put...

563
00:33:25,630 --> 00:33:26,755
something in it.

564
00:33:28,340 --> 00:33:29,008
And...

565
00:33:31,927 --> 00:33:33,345
I blacked out

566
00:33:35,138 --> 00:33:36,807
by the fire pit

567
00:33:40,728 --> 00:33:42,188
and I was freezing.

568
00:33:44,523 --> 00:33:47,317
And there were a lot of strange
people there,

569
00:33:47,318 --> 00:33:50,195
like, I didn't really know anyone, and--

570
00:33:52,030 --> 00:33:55,660
none of my friends, like--

571
00:33:57,495 --> 00:33:58,997
no one checked on me.

572
00:34:05,043 --> 00:34:06,419
And I woke up the next morning,

573
00:34:06,420 --> 00:34:11,842
my face pressed into the gravel,
just like, disoriented, and--

574
00:34:16,138 --> 00:34:18,723
and I just had that sense, you know?

575
00:34:20,935 --> 00:34:23,145
Like, if I kept going...

576
00:34:25,898 --> 00:34:27,942
I was going to die.

577
00:34:34,198 --> 00:34:36,867
So, I called up my cousins,

578
00:34:38,787 --> 00:34:40,997
and they let me stay with them.

579
00:34:41,788 --> 00:34:47,170
And I think that was the beginning
of getting out.

580
00:34:49,047 --> 00:34:52,217
And every day, I mean, I'm climbing,

581
00:34:54,135 --> 00:34:59,515
and there's not a top to the mountain,

582
00:34:59,890 --> 00:35:06,188
but you know, my-- my job is
not to get to the top.

583
00:35:10,358 --> 00:35:14,197
[Dr. Henley] I think we're all addicts
to some degree,

584
00:35:15,238 --> 00:35:17,491
and the last addiction each
of us has to face

585
00:35:17,492 --> 00:35:21,328
is this belief that somehow
we can save ourselves,

586
00:35:23,413 --> 00:35:24,832
but it's impossible.

587
00:35:26,333 --> 00:35:28,043
[music fades to silence]

588
00:35:28,627 --> 00:35:31,755
[Dr. Henley] So, anybody
else want to share?

589
00:35:32,215 --> 00:35:32,882
Anybody?

590
00:35:34,092 --> 00:35:34,800
[chuckles]

591
00:35:34,967 --> 00:35:37,470
Raymond, just keep it short.

592
00:35:37,970 --> 00:35:39,054
[Raymond] I'll try.

593
00:35:39,055 --> 00:35:40,262
[Raymond] [clears throat]

594
00:35:40,263 --> 00:35:44,310
So, I am a full 10 years of being sober.

595
00:35:46,687 --> 00:35:49,690
10 years, 2 months, and
11 days, actually.

596
00:35:50,273 --> 00:35:52,150
I'm not gonna lie, though.

597
00:35:54,195 --> 00:35:56,405
[low rumbling]
Sometimes, um...

598
00:35:58,823 --> 00:36:02,744
[unsettling music]
when it's late, and I've been working,

599
00:36:02,745 --> 00:36:05,372
and I'm tired, and my body's hurting,

600
00:36:06,165 --> 00:36:07,250
[low growl]

601
00:36:08,042 --> 00:36:09,793
sometimes, uh...

602
00:36:10,878 --> 00:36:13,088
sometimes I still hear a voice.

603
00:36:16,342 --> 00:36:20,387
And it's-- it's not like it's in
the room with me,

604
00:36:21,138 --> 00:36:24,517
but it's like-- it's like it's
down the hall,

605
00:36:25,643 --> 00:36:29,897
but I can hear it calling to me.

606
00:36:31,773 --> 00:36:35,402
And it's calling me, trying to
get me to come back.

607
00:36:35,903 --> 00:36:37,737
It's like it's trying to promise me

608
00:36:37,738 --> 00:36:39,614
if I come back, then, what?

609
00:36:39,615 --> 00:36:42,033
That like somehow I'll be happier?

610
00:36:43,535 --> 00:36:44,453
That's a lie.

611
00:36:44,787 --> 00:36:48,082
Because I know that that life
is full of pain,

612
00:36:49,583 --> 00:36:52,085
and hurt for you, and your family,

613
00:36:52,420 --> 00:36:53,669
and everybody that you love,

614
00:36:53,670 --> 00:36:56,007
and it's full of shame and guilt.

615
00:36:57,258 --> 00:36:58,466
And that voice is a lie.

616
00:36:58,467 --> 00:37:00,928
That voice is not our friend.

617
00:37:03,347 --> 00:37:07,225
You know, you may never silence
that voice completely,

618
00:37:07,977 --> 00:37:11,938
but if you take control and
bring God into it,

619
00:37:12,565 --> 00:37:14,775
you can turn the volume so low,

620
00:37:16,277 --> 00:37:18,402
that it loses all power over you.

621
00:37:18,403 --> 00:37:19,488
[silence]

622
00:37:20,530 --> 00:37:21,907
Well said, Raymond.

623
00:37:24,160 --> 00:37:25,451
That's it for tonight.

624
00:37:25,452 --> 00:37:26,745
See you next time.

625
00:37:33,710 --> 00:37:35,128
[door opens, closes]

626
00:37:37,255 --> 00:37:39,341
[Dr. Henley] Hey, got a ride home?

627
00:37:39,342 --> 00:37:41,426
Yeah, I'm just waiting for them.

628
00:37:41,427 --> 00:37:42,844
Well, I can wait with you.

629
00:37:42,845 --> 00:37:43,762
No, I'm fine.

630
00:37:43,972 --> 00:37:44,471
Sure?

631
00:37:44,472 --> 00:37:45,263
Yeah, yeah.

632
00:37:45,682 --> 00:37:46,847
Okay, have a good night.

633
00:37:46,848 --> 00:37:47,557
you too.

634
00:37:47,558 --> 00:37:49,435
[door opens, rain outside]

635
00:37:51,103 --> 00:37:52,270
[door closes]

636
00:37:53,105 --> 00:37:54,190
[sighs]

637
00:37:57,443 --> 00:37:59,320
[door opens, rain]

638
00:38:01,822 --> 00:38:03,490
[Jacob] Hey, Jess.

639
00:38:04,742 --> 00:38:06,951
I, uh, I just-- I just wanted to see you.

640
00:38:06,952 --> 00:38:08,953
How did you know I was here?

641
00:38:10,497 --> 00:38:11,582
[exhales]

642
00:38:12,708 --> 00:38:13,917
I'm here for you.

643
00:38:14,460 --> 00:38:16,670
Alright? I just, I wanted to...

644
00:38:18,588 --> 00:38:20,173
I wanna say I'm sorry.

645
00:38:21,550 --> 00:38:22,467
I'm sorry, and I wanna--

646
00:38:22,468 --> 00:38:23,217
[Jess] No!
[Jacob] I wanna try this--

647
00:38:23,218 --> 00:38:23,885
No!

648
00:38:24,678 --> 00:38:25,469
[Jacob] I just-- I just
wanna tell you-- I--

649
00:38:25,470 --> 00:38:26,262
[Jess] No, Jacob, go!

650
00:38:26,263 --> 00:38:27,972
Look, look, we just need to
talk this through.

651
00:38:27,973 --> 00:38:28,972
I really think that's all this is.

652
00:38:28,973 --> 00:38:30,099
We just need to sit down--

653
00:38:30,100 --> 00:38:31,559
[Jess] What-- What the hell is wrong with you?
[Jacob] Have a civil conversation--

654
00:38:31,560 --> 00:38:32,852
[Jess] I told you I needed space!
[Jacob] Let's have a c--

655
00:38:32,853 --> 00:38:33,394
Let's have a civil conversation--

656
00:38:33,395 --> 00:38:35,147
No, no, go, go!

657
00:38:37,315 --> 00:38:38,066
[thunder]

658
00:38:38,067 --> 00:38:39,651
Alright. Alright, I'm going.

659
00:38:39,652 --> 00:38:40,778
[Jess] [exhales]

660
00:38:42,613 --> 00:38:44,323
Hey, you know something?

661
00:38:46,908 --> 00:38:48,785
I came here to tell you

662
00:38:50,830 --> 00:38:51,954
that I missed you.

663
00:38:51,955 --> 00:38:53,457
[unsettling sound]

664
00:38:54,292 --> 00:38:55,417
Okay, that's it.

665
00:38:58,920 --> 00:39:00,005
[door opens]

666
00:39:03,175 --> 00:39:04,260
[door closes]

667
00:39:06,678 --> 00:39:07,219
What?

668
00:39:07,220 --> 00:39:08,305
[thunder]

669
00:39:09,223 --> 00:39:09,890
What?

670
00:39:12,852 --> 00:39:15,020
[high-pitched wavering tone]

671
00:39:43,882 --> 00:39:45,258
[fist pounds table]

672
00:39:54,310 --> 00:39:56,228
[crying, breathing heavily]

673
00:40:05,362 --> 00:40:06,447
[sobbing]

674
00:40:18,625 --> 00:40:19,959
[Charles] Runnin' again?

675
00:40:19,960 --> 00:40:22,921
I never did understand that, like
somebody chasing you.

676
00:40:22,922 --> 00:40:24,340
This is it, Charles.

677
00:40:24,757 --> 00:40:25,423
This is--

678
00:40:26,050 --> 00:40:28,509
I'm in a place where this has to work.

679
00:40:28,510 --> 00:40:30,846
Ok? I-- I want to try this thing.

680
00:40:30,847 --> 00:40:31,638
What thing?

681
00:40:32,430 --> 00:40:33,557
Following Jesus.

682
00:40:33,765 --> 00:40:35,058
O-- Oh! Ok, yeah!

683
00:40:35,392 --> 00:40:37,185
Well-- Well, that's good!

684
00:40:39,397 --> 00:40:41,689
So, how do I do this, like, what's--

685
00:40:41,690 --> 00:40:43,274
Well, you got the first part right.

686
00:40:43,275 --> 00:40:45,903
You passed the first part. That's it!

687
00:40:46,237 --> 00:40:47,027
[Xavier] Hot coffee!

688
00:40:47,028 --> 00:40:48,321
No, no, no coffee.

689
00:40:48,322 --> 00:40:49,822
Go inside, get the coffee cake.

690
00:40:49,823 --> 00:40:50,907
We got to celebrate.

691
00:40:50,908 --> 00:40:51,991
She passed the first part.

692
00:40:51,992 --> 00:40:52,701
So, no coffee?

693
00:40:52,702 --> 00:40:53,326
No coffee.

694
00:40:53,327 --> 00:40:54,494
What part is that?

695
00:40:54,495 --> 00:40:55,119
Coffee cake!

696
00:40:55,120 --> 00:40:56,412
[Jess] I don't like cake.

697
00:40:56,413 --> 00:40:58,914
Oh, Jesus got so much work
to do with you, Jess.

698
00:40:58,915 --> 00:40:59,833
Uh, sit down.

699
00:41:00,333 --> 00:41:02,084
The first part is a big part, J

700
00:41:02,085 --> 00:41:04,171
When you start to realize you're
missing something,

701
00:41:04,172 --> 00:41:05,839
and then you start to go looking for it.

702
00:41:05,840 --> 00:41:06,922
[Raya] Hey, guys!

703
00:41:06,923 --> 00:41:09,133
Hey! Ray, this is gettin' good!

704
00:41:09,343 --> 00:41:10,259
Come sit down.

705
00:41:10,260 --> 00:41:11,552
Jess passed the first part.

706
00:41:11,553 --> 00:41:12,722
Ooh, that's fun.

707
00:41:13,680 --> 00:41:14,681
What's the first part?

708
00:41:14,682 --> 00:41:16,391
That's the first part when you
realize you're desperate

709
00:41:16,392 --> 00:41:18,226
and you got to go look for something.

710
00:41:18,227 --> 00:41:20,144
It's a bad part, but it's a good part.

711
00:41:20,145 --> 00:41:20,979
[Charles] Yeah.

712
00:41:20,980 --> 00:41:23,231
See, that's when your eyes are wide open

713
00:41:23,232 --> 00:41:25,107
and then you realize that you were blind.

714
00:41:25,108 --> 00:41:26,401
[Xavier] Coffee cake is gone!

715
00:41:26,402 --> 00:41:27,109
I knew that.

716
00:41:27,110 --> 00:41:28,861
You can't keep me from nice things, boy.

717
00:41:28,862 --> 00:41:31,240
[Raya] Are you for real? Charles!

718
00:41:31,365 --> 00:41:33,282
[Jess] [chuckles]
[Charles] Now that you know you're thirsty,

719
00:41:33,283 --> 00:41:35,409
you got to go looking for water.

720
00:41:35,410 --> 00:41:37,119
Jesus is the water, Jess.

721
00:41:37,120 --> 00:41:38,246
I saw some cookies in the cabinet.

722
00:41:38,247 --> 00:41:39,247
Don't you touch that.

723
00:41:39,248 --> 00:41:40,748
That's my stash, boy.

724
00:41:41,500 --> 00:41:42,710
That was selfish.

725
00:41:43,710 --> 00:41:45,211
Tell you what, bring 'em out.

726
00:41:45,212 --> 00:41:46,796
Tell him to-- go-- tell him go get the cookies,

727
00:41:46,797 --> 00:41:47,589
we gonna celebrate.

728
00:41:47,590 --> 00:41:50,508
He said bring 'em out! We're celebratin'!

729
00:41:50,675 --> 00:41:53,303
[Charles] Now, the final stage, Jess,

730
00:41:53,428 --> 00:41:55,555
now we knock, now we seek,

731
00:41:56,640 --> 00:41:59,684
and the God of the universe
is gonna answer.

732
00:41:59,685 --> 00:42:03,062
He has a story he wants you to
tell with your life.

733
00:42:03,063 --> 00:42:07,108
And J, you've got a testimony
that he's gonna use.

734
00:42:08,152 --> 00:42:09,152
She sure does.

735
00:42:11,238 --> 00:42:11,905
Here.

736
00:42:13,198 --> 00:42:14,532
[sentimental ambient music]

737
00:42:14,533 --> 00:42:16,202
You take this.

738
00:42:19,538 --> 00:42:22,414
Charles, I can't take that--

739
00:42:22,415 --> 00:42:23,333
Yes, you can.

740
00:42:29,923 --> 00:42:32,257
I have something you should know.

741
00:42:32,258 --> 00:42:33,760
Raya already told me,

742
00:42:34,177 --> 00:42:35,677
[Jess] Charles, you don't have to--
[Charles] Well--

743
00:42:35,678 --> 00:42:36,555
[Jess] say--

744
00:42:36,722 --> 00:42:37,807
Yeah, you know.

745
00:42:40,267 --> 00:42:41,393
Where I'm goin',

746
00:42:42,060 --> 00:42:44,438
I get to see Jesus face to face.

747
00:42:55,490 --> 00:42:57,910
I don't know what to say, Charles.

748
00:43:00,120 --> 00:43:02,706
Don't eat all those cookies tonight.

749
00:43:02,707 --> 00:43:03,289
Thank you so much.

750
00:43:03,290 --> 00:43:04,500
Yeah, you either.

751
00:43:05,375 --> 00:43:05,791
Okay.

752
00:43:05,792 --> 00:43:06,751
[Raya] [laughs]

753
00:43:06,752 --> 00:43:07,417
See you.

754
00:43:07,418 --> 00:43:08,212
[Raya] Bye.

755
00:43:10,005 --> 00:43:12,841
Hey, Pops, I don't mind staying with you.

756
00:43:12,842 --> 00:43:15,260
Go on home! I'll see you tomorrow.

757
00:43:16,762 --> 00:43:17,428
Go ahead.

758
00:43:18,430 --> 00:43:19,640
[softly] Alright.

759
00:43:27,022 --> 00:43:28,107
[engine starts]

760
00:43:31,985 --> 00:43:33,362
[truck drives away]

761
00:43:36,657 --> 00:43:38,533
[exhales

762
00:43:41,162 --> 00:43:43,329
[music fades]

763
00:43:43,330 --> 00:43:44,415
[crickets]

764
00:43:52,338 --> 00:43:56,177
[Jess] [reading] God, use me to make much of yourself.

765
00:43:57,928 --> 00:43:59,722
[deep breath]

766
00:44:01,140 --> 00:44:02,098
Okay.

767
00:44:03,475 --> 00:44:05,810
So, you can hear me right now.

768
00:44:07,187 --> 00:44:08,230
Um,

769
00:44:08,688 --> 00:44:10,440
I'm just believing that.

770
00:44:11,317 --> 00:44:13,902
I'm believing that you care,

771
00:44:17,197 --> 00:44:22,285
wherever you are, um,
that you see me,

772
00:44:23,578 --> 00:44:27,290
and that you... sent Jesus?

773
00:44:30,210 --> 00:44:33,629
Like-- like really, um,
I like actually want to believe,

774
00:44:33,630 --> 00:44:36,842
so if you could just like make
that happen...

775
00:44:37,425 --> 00:44:38,635
in me,

776
00:44:40,470 --> 00:44:43,890
if that's... how you make that happen-- okay.

777
00:44:44,808 --> 00:44:45,892
[groans]

778
00:44:50,688 --> 00:44:51,773
[deep breath]

779
00:44:54,693 --> 00:44:56,945
I'm sorry I neglected you.

780
00:44:59,865 --> 00:45:01,075
[whispers] Dusty.

781
00:45:04,160 --> 00:45:04,870
Okay.

782
00:45:06,163 --> 00:45:08,540
[strums guitar string repeatedly]

783
00:45:14,087 --> 00:45:15,172
[hums]

784
00:45:21,720 --> 00:45:24,473
[gentle ambient music]

785
00:45:35,900 --> 00:45:37,945
[uplifting piano]

786
00:48:05,300 --> 00:48:06,132
[music fades]

787
00:48:06,133 --> 00:48:07,468
[rain pattering]

788
00:48:28,115 --> 00:48:32,493
[eerie tone]

789
00:48:36,623 --> 00:48:37,707
[silence]

790
00:49:31,928 --> 00:49:33,887
[Charles] Joan Armatrading?

791
00:49:33,888 --> 00:49:34,555
What?

792
00:49:35,807 --> 00:49:37,183
[chuckles] Nothin'.

793
00:49:38,227 --> 00:49:39,310
I wrote a song.

794
00:49:40,645 --> 00:49:41,312
You did?

795
00:49:42,647 --> 00:49:43,565
That's great.

796
00:49:45,233 --> 00:49:46,610
I wrote it for you.

797
00:49:46,735 --> 00:49:47,402
Um,

798
00:49:48,487 --> 00:49:50,404
So, I'm gonna sing it for you,

799
00:49:50,405 --> 00:49:53,907
and we're gonna pretend it
never happened, okay?

800
00:49:53,908 --> 00:49:55,577
Oh--oh, ok?

801
00:49:58,788 --> 00:49:59,579
[sharp exhale] Ok.

802
00:49:59,580 --> 00:50:00,665
[clears throat]

803
00:50:03,418 --> 00:50:04,418
[single strum]

804
00:50:06,505 --> 00:50:07,087
Okay.

805
00:50:07,088 --> 00:50:08,090
[single strum]

806
00:50:08,757 --> 00:50:09,842
Are you ready?

807
00:50:10,050 --> 00:50:10,757
Mm-hmm.

808
00:50:10,758 --> 00:50:11,676
Mm-kay.

809
00:50:11,677 --> 00:50:12,760
[clears throat]

810
00:50:15,930 --> 00:50:18,850
♪ Am I too far gone? ♪

811
00:50:19,810 --> 00:50:22,603
♪ Has my luck run out? ♪

812
00:50:23,647 --> 00:50:26,817
♪ Have the bridges all been burned? ♪

813
00:50:27,650 --> 00:50:30,570
♪ I just don't know where to turn ♪

814
00:50:31,362 --> 00:50:33,657
♪ Don't know how to heal ♪

815
00:50:34,657 --> 00:50:37,327
♪ or get my heart to feel ♪

816
00:50:38,703 --> 00:50:41,665
♪ Will I ever win this war? ♪

817
00:50:42,540 --> 00:50:45,377
♪ God knows I've been here before ♪

818
00:50:46,335 --> 00:50:49,547
♪ I'm feeling dirty, unworthy, and hurting ♪

819
00:50:49,798 --> 00:50:51,382
♪ and asking if you ♪

820
00:50:53,802 --> 00:50:56,137
♪ Would send me a sign ♪

821
00:50:57,722 --> 00:51:00,142
♪ Show me I'm not alone ♪

822
00:51:01,435 --> 00:51:03,353
♪ Show me where I belong ♪

823
00:51:04,270 --> 00:51:06,523
♪ And if I'm worth the fight ♪

824
00:51:08,817 --> 00:51:10,235
♪ I need a sign ♪

825
00:51:12,487 --> 00:51:15,032
♪ Something to be the spark ♪

826
00:51:16,198 --> 00:51:18,368
♪ Someone to light the dark ♪

827
00:51:18,743 --> 00:51:21,412
♪ and bring me back to life ♪

828
00:51:24,040 --> 00:51:25,999
♪ I need a sign ♪

829
00:51:26,000 --> 00:51:27,668
[acoustic guitar]

830
00:51:44,477 --> 00:51:46,270
[Charles] It's beautiful.

831
00:51:50,442 --> 00:51:52,359
I'm really glad Jesus told you to

832
00:51:52,360 --> 00:51:54,237
come and sit in your yard.

833
00:52:16,718 --> 00:52:18,261
[fun music]

834
00:52:18,262 --> 00:52:19,762
[Xavier] Let's do it.

835
00:52:20,138 --> 00:52:20,846
[Jess] Raya!

836
00:52:20,847 --> 00:52:23,682
[Xavier] [playfully] Awe, geez. She's here.
[Jess] Hi.

837
00:52:23,683 --> 00:52:25,643
[playful chatter]

838
00:52:29,272 --> 00:52:31,272
[Xavier] Alright, ya'll. Guess what I got.

839
00:52:31,273 --> 00:52:32,150
[Raya] What?

840
00:52:33,193 --> 00:52:33,902
[Jess] No.

841
00:52:34,360 --> 00:52:35,944
[Xavier] [laughing] Yep.

842
00:52:35,945 --> 00:52:36,697
[Raya] No!

843
00:52:36,905 --> 00:52:37,572
Yep.

844
00:52:38,698 --> 00:52:39,407
[Jess] No!

845
00:52:39,532 --> 00:52:41,074
[Raya] No, like, actually no.
[Xavier] For you, madame.

846
00:52:41,075 --> 00:52:42,493
[Jess] Do you skate?

847
00:52:42,868 --> 00:52:44,244
[Raya] I do now.
[Jess] I'm not skating--

848
00:52:44,245 --> 00:52:45,329
[Xavier] [laughs]
[Jess] I'm not skating.

849
00:52:45,330 --> 00:52:46,747
[Raya] and Jessica...
[Jess] Hi.

850
00:52:46,748 --> 00:52:47,872
Oh, you guys have the same name!

851
00:52:47,873 --> 00:52:48,750
Wait, Jess--

852
00:52:49,792 --> 00:52:51,334
So good to see you guys.

853
00:52:51,335 --> 00:52:52,587
Hi, I'm Jess.

854
00:52:52,878 --> 00:52:54,505
Nice to meet you.

855
00:52:55,007 --> 00:52:57,133
[indistinct chatter, laughter]

856
00:53:01,805 --> 00:53:02,472
I'm Jess.

857
00:53:03,223 --> 00:53:04,431
Nice to meet you.

858
00:53:04,432 --> 00:53:05,391
Ah, it's so good to see you.

859
00:53:05,392 --> 00:53:07,017
Wait, so how's your mom?

860
00:53:07,018 --> 00:53:10,354
Also, we know most of these people from,
like, the young adult group that we do.

861
00:53:10,355 --> 00:53:11,021
Ok.

862
00:53:11,022 --> 00:53:12,398
Or the Bible study.

863
00:53:15,402 --> 00:53:17,528
[upbeat music, lively chatter]

864
00:53:48,893 --> 00:53:49,892
[Xavier] Alright, ya'll!

865
00:53:49,893 --> 00:53:52,188
[cheering]
[Xavier] Let's do it!

866
00:54:20,508 --> 00:54:21,175
Nope.

867
00:54:21,342 --> 00:54:22,217
[Xavier] It's your turn.

868
00:54:22,218 --> 00:54:22,885
I-- no!

869
00:54:23,260 --> 00:54:24,927
[Jess] I told you I wasn't doing it.
[Xavier] Please.

870
00:54:24,928 --> 00:54:26,346
[Raya] It might be your turn.
[Xavier] Please.

871
00:54:26,347 --> 00:54:28,014
It might be your turn.

872
00:54:28,015 --> 00:54:28,766
[Xavier] Please!

873
00:54:28,767 --> 00:54:30,226
[Jess] I'm not doing it! I'm not doing it.

874
00:54:30,227 --> 00:54:31,101
[Xavier] [laughing] Just try them on.

875
00:54:31,102 --> 00:54:31,769
[Jess] No!

876
00:54:31,770 --> 00:54:33,102
Just put one of them on.

877
00:54:33,103 --> 00:54:34,437
[Raya] [laughing] One of them?
[Jess] I'm not--

878
00:54:34,438 --> 00:54:35,314
[Xavier] Just put one of 'em on!
[Jess]--doing it! I'm not--

879
00:54:35,315 --> 00:54:36,397
I'm not doing it.

880
00:54:36,398 --> 00:54:37,982
[Xavier] Please.
[Jess] No!

881
00:54:37,983 --> 00:54:39,484
[indistinct, laughter]

882
00:54:39,485 --> 00:54:41,112
[Raya] You're doing it!

883
00:54:41,822 --> 00:54:43,614
You're doing it.

884
00:54:43,615 --> 00:54:44,531
Right towards me.

885
00:54:44,532 --> 00:54:46,617
[Xavier] I'm so proud of you!

886
00:55:06,722 --> 00:55:07,597
Checkin' in.

887
00:55:07,763 --> 00:55:08,432
You okay?

888
00:55:09,223 --> 00:55:09,889
Yeah, I think so.

889
00:55:09,890 --> 00:55:10,849
[music fades]

890
00:55:10,850 --> 00:55:12,642
[Xavier] [exhale] Awesome.

891
00:55:12,643 --> 00:55:13,310
Good.

892
00:55:15,147 --> 00:55:15,813
[exhale]

893
00:55:16,022 --> 00:55:17,607
I'm glad to hear that.

894
00:55:26,073 --> 00:55:27,575
It shows.

895
00:55:30,037 --> 00:55:30,703
What?

896
00:55:31,872 --> 00:55:34,790
You look-- like-- you seem to be happier.

897
00:55:35,667 --> 00:55:36,375
It's nice.

898
00:55:36,542 --> 00:55:37,210
Thanks.

899
00:55:38,210 --> 00:55:39,253
[phone buzzes]

900
00:55:48,597 --> 00:55:50,598
Look-- Raya, she's great, J.

901
00:55:50,973 --> 00:55:51,891
She's the best.

902
00:55:51,892 --> 00:55:53,601
I mean, you can tell her anything.

903
00:55:53,602 --> 00:55:54,602
She'll listen.

904
00:55:57,272 --> 00:56:02,277
[Xavier] I just don't want you feeling like
you have to do this alone.

905
00:56:05,238 --> 00:56:06,612
So your tattoos, um,

906
00:56:06,613 --> 00:56:07,282
[laughs]

907
00:56:07,740 --> 00:56:09,699
What's the story there?

908
00:56:09,700 --> 00:56:11,617
Isn't that like kind of off--

909
00:56:11,618 --> 00:56:12,702
Yeah, I know.

910
00:56:12,703 --> 00:56:14,080
[Jess] [indistinct]

911
00:56:15,373 --> 00:56:17,582
I like to call them birthmarks though.

912
00:56:17,583 --> 00:56:19,584
Yeah, because I got them
before I was saved.

913
00:56:19,585 --> 00:56:21,587
[Jess] Mm-hmm.
[Xavier] Yep.

914
00:56:22,380 --> 00:56:23,047
Yeah...

915
00:56:23,590 --> 00:56:25,800
I'm not ashamed of them though.

916
00:56:27,760 --> 00:56:31,180
Oh, actually I have a huge Viking ship

917
00:56:31,347 --> 00:56:33,849
[laughter]
across my shoulder and back.

918
00:56:33,850 --> 00:56:34,558
[groans]

919
00:56:35,768 --> 00:56:37,853
That was such a bad decision.

920
00:56:42,358 --> 00:56:43,568
I have those too.

921
00:56:47,155 --> 00:56:47,946
Viking ships?

922
00:56:47,947 --> 00:56:48,697
No. What?

923
00:56:48,698 --> 00:56:49,907
Oh, I don't know.

924
00:56:51,325 --> 00:56:54,120
I mean, marks from before,

925
00:56:54,662 --> 00:56:56,580
like, things you can't see.

926
00:57:00,502 --> 00:57:01,377
That's okay.

927
00:57:07,008 --> 00:57:08,717
So you got a favorite one?

928
00:57:08,718 --> 00:57:10,595
Like verse, chapter, book?

929
00:57:11,553 --> 00:57:12,137
Yes.

930
00:57:12,138 --> 00:57:12,805
Um,

931
00:57:14,223 --> 00:57:16,683
[Two Corinthians 5] 17...

932
00:57:17,977 --> 00:57:20,438
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ,

933
00:57:23,065 --> 00:57:24,399
he is a new creation.

934
00:57:24,400 --> 00:57:25,318
[Xavier] Yes.

935
00:57:26,527 --> 00:57:26,986
The old--

936
00:57:26,987 --> 00:57:28,028
- The old...

937
00:57:29,113 --> 00:57:29,987
one?

938
00:57:29,988 --> 00:57:31,531
[Both] The old has

939
00:57:31,532 --> 00:57:32,491
[Xavier] gone--

940
00:57:32,492 --> 00:57:33,366
[Jess]--gone away
[Xavier]--away

941
00:57:33,367 --> 00:57:34,034
You know it.

942
00:57:34,035 --> 00:57:35,577
The old has gone away.

943
00:57:35,578 --> 00:57:38,121
The new-- behold, the new has...

944
00:57:38,122 --> 00:57:39,081
come.

945
00:57:39,082 --> 00:57:39,622
Yep.

946
00:57:39,623 --> 00:57:40,249
Yeah.

947
00:57:40,250 --> 00:57:41,166
Two Corinthians!

948
00:57:41,167 --> 00:57:41,624
It's a good one.

949
00:57:41,625 --> 00:57:42,709
That's a good one.

950
00:57:42,710 --> 00:57:46,546
[Raya] Jessica Jane, explain to me why
I'm in skates and you're not.

951
00:57:46,547 --> 00:57:49,133
Do not use my government name, Raya.

952
00:57:50,635 --> 00:57:51,467
Get down here.

953
00:57:51,468 --> 00:57:51,886
No!

954
00:57:51,887 --> 00:57:52,636
Get down here.

955
00:57:52,637 --> 00:57:53,344
I'm scared.

956
00:57:53,345 --> 00:57:54,762
Get down here.

957
00:57:54,763 --> 00:57:55,722
I actually need you to hold my hand.

958
00:57:55,723 --> 00:57:57,599
I-- I can't skate and eat.
I'm sorry.

959
00:57:57,600 --> 00:58:00,101
Um, this is not swimming, weirdo.

960
00:58:00,102 --> 00:58:02,729
When I do another orbit, I want you down.

961
00:58:02,730 --> 00:58:03,354
Alright?

962
00:58:03,355 --> 00:58:04,398
[laughter]

963
00:58:08,528 --> 00:58:09,320
Oh my gosh.

964
00:58:14,283 --> 00:58:16,702
Can I ask you a personal question?

965
00:58:16,912 --> 00:58:19,122
I prefer personal, honestly.

966
00:58:19,288 --> 00:58:19,955
Alright!

967
00:58:22,083 --> 00:58:23,375
What's your dream?

968
00:58:37,598 --> 00:58:38,307
[chuckles]

969
00:58:38,767 --> 00:58:39,892
Um,

970
00:58:41,727 --> 00:58:43,437
I don't know. I might...

971
00:58:43,772 --> 00:58:45,565
wanna run, like, a diner?

972
00:58:46,398 --> 00:58:48,316
Like something about like
giving people things

973
00:58:48,317 --> 00:58:50,027
and making people happy.

974
00:58:50,862 --> 00:58:51,528
Um,

975
00:58:52,155 --> 00:58:53,363
Like-- [chuckles]

976
00:58:53,990 --> 00:58:57,326
When you-- like when you see your food coming,
like that feeling,

977
00:58:57,327 --> 00:58:58,702
I-- I just like that.

978
00:58:58,703 --> 00:58:59,661
What about you?

979
00:58:59,662 --> 00:59:01,538
Where are you heading?

980
00:59:02,832 --> 00:59:05,792
I've always liked the idea of
going into medicine.

981
00:59:05,793 --> 00:59:07,295
Yeah, helping people.

982
00:59:07,878 --> 00:59:09,963
Yep, that's what my dad did.

983
00:59:10,840 --> 00:59:13,133
Yeah, he was a doctor.

984
00:59:15,093 --> 00:59:17,262
So, that's what I'm doing now.

985
00:59:17,263 --> 00:59:17,930
Yeah.

986
00:59:18,973 --> 00:59:20,974
I start med school next year.

987
00:59:20,975 --> 00:59:21,642
Cool!

988
00:59:21,977 --> 00:59:24,270
It's crazy to say that out loud.

989
00:59:35,197 --> 00:59:37,075
He died of a heart attack.

990
00:59:41,620 --> 00:59:44,372
It was weird because it came
out of nowhere.

991
00:59:44,373 --> 00:59:45,040
You know?

992
00:59:45,542 --> 00:59:46,917
And he was healthy.

993
00:59:49,878 --> 00:59:51,462
Always like mowing the yard

994
00:59:51,463 --> 00:59:54,383
or renovating something around the house.

995
00:59:54,925 --> 00:59:57,052
And you knew he was about to get active

996
00:59:57,053 --> 00:59:59,054
like, when he put on his ripped t-shirt

997
00:59:59,055 --> 01:00:01,182
that said Big Daddy across it.

998
01:00:02,558 --> 01:00:03,350
Every time.

999
01:00:03,768 --> 01:00:06,687
Oh my gosh, I can still smell that thing.

1000
01:00:17,073 --> 01:00:19,200
[exhale]

1001
01:00:21,995 --> 01:00:24,496
So I think that kind of shaped me.

1002
01:00:24,497 --> 01:00:25,163
You know?

1003
01:00:29,418 --> 01:00:32,130
Like you never know how long you have.

1004
01:00:40,137 --> 01:00:40,805
I'm--

1005
01:00:41,805 --> 01:00:43,098
I'm sorry, Xavier.

1006
01:00:44,225 --> 01:00:47,062
[emotional music]
Yeah, it's no problem.

1007
01:00:47,853 --> 01:00:48,980
My dad was good.

1008
01:00:49,188 --> 01:00:50,482
Yeah... a good man.

1009
01:00:57,613 --> 01:00:58,571
[Jess (voiceover)] But with all the good,

1010
01:00:58,572 --> 01:01:01,949
there were these terrible swings
the other way.

1011
01:01:01,950 --> 01:01:03,535
[music swells, train]

1012
01:01:09,292 --> 01:01:10,250
[sobbing]

1013
01:01:13,003 --> 01:01:15,964
[Jess (voiceover)] I was starting to believe in Jesus,

1014
01:01:15,965 --> 01:01:18,383
but why wasn't it getting easier?

1015
01:01:22,138 --> 01:01:22,805
[silence]

1016
01:01:35,693 --> 01:01:36,943
[knocking]

1017
01:01:43,993 --> 01:01:45,495
[Raya] Hey! Jess, um,

1018
01:01:46,412 --> 01:01:48,832
Charles isn't feeling great today,

1019
01:01:49,207 --> 01:01:49,873
so...

1020
01:01:51,083 --> 01:01:52,167
[Xavier] Yeah, you can come in.

1021
01:01:52,168 --> 01:01:53,084
[Raya] Yeah, you wanna come in?

1022
01:01:53,085 --> 01:01:54,878
[intense tone, growl]

1023
01:01:55,630 --> 01:01:56,297
[silence]

1024
01:02:01,927 --> 01:02:03,512
[Charles] [weak cough]

1025
01:02:05,932 --> 01:02:06,972
[Charles] Too much...

1026
01:02:06,973 --> 01:02:07,850
coffee cake.

1027
01:02:08,683 --> 01:02:11,478
[coughing]

1028
01:02:13,522 --> 01:02:15,147
Father, I pray for this man.

1029
01:02:15,148 --> 01:02:16,066
Would you be with him?

1030
01:02:16,067 --> 01:02:17,359
[intense tone, growl]

1031
01:02:17,360 --> 01:02:18,484
[silence]
Ease him with his pain

1032
01:02:18,485 --> 01:02:19,903
and suffering, Lord.

1033
01:02:20,530 --> 01:02:22,781
Give him peace to rest well, please.

1034
01:02:22,782 --> 01:02:24,282
[whispers, growl]

1035
01:02:24,283 --> 01:02:24,950
[silence]

1036
01:02:25,325 --> 01:02:29,038
[Raya] And, God, I pray for you to be near us today.

1037
01:02:30,707 --> 01:02:33,292
Let him feel your power in his body,

1038
01:02:34,585 --> 01:02:36,878
and may his prayers be answered.

1039
01:02:42,968 --> 01:02:43,635
And...

1040
01:02:48,182 --> 01:02:50,602
Let your will be done in his life.

1041
01:02:53,145 --> 01:02:54,147
On earth...

1042
01:02:55,313 --> 01:02:57,525
as it is in heaven.

1043
01:02:59,402 --> 01:03:00,068
Amen.

1044
01:03:02,155 --> 01:03:03,030
[Raya] Amen.

1045
01:03:03,363 --> 01:03:06,950
[Xavier] Alright, we'll give you
some space, Pops.

1046
01:03:16,835 --> 01:03:18,545
[Raya] Jess, you coming?

1047
01:03:18,963 --> 01:03:21,672
[Jess] Yeah, I'm gonna go to the
bathroom real quick.

1048
01:03:21,673 --> 01:03:23,092
[ominous music]

1049
01:03:23,927 --> 01:03:26,012
[growl, suspenseful warbling]

1050
01:03:30,473 --> 01:03:31,558
[silence]

1051
01:03:47,992 --> 01:03:49,202
You can do this.

1052
01:04:21,692 --> 01:04:24,778
[Raya] You're gonna love this spot, though.

1053
01:04:31,202 --> 01:04:31,576
[Xavier] Thank you.

1054
01:04:31,577 --> 01:04:32,495
[Jess] Mm-hmm

1055
01:04:32,662 --> 01:04:33,577
[Xavier] Um,

1056
01:04:33,578 --> 01:04:35,163
Hey, you okay?

1057
01:04:36,415 --> 01:04:37,082
Mm-hmm.

1058
01:04:38,125 --> 01:04:38,792
Okay.

1059
01:04:45,382 --> 01:04:46,382
[Raya] This way?

1060
01:04:46,383 --> 01:04:46,757
[Jess] Mm-hmm.

1061
01:04:46,758 --> 01:04:47,468
[Raya] Ok.

1062
01:04:50,053 --> 01:04:51,847
[Raya] [laughing] I know.

1063
01:04:52,055 --> 01:04:53,472
Nothing more humbling--

1064
01:04:53,473 --> 01:04:53,932
[Xavier] For real.

1065
01:04:53,933 --> 01:04:56,060
[Raya]--than an outside hike.

1066
01:04:56,935 --> 01:04:57,602
[Xavier] Wait, which way?

1067
01:04:57,603 --> 01:04:58,102
[Jess] Left.

1068
01:04:58,103 --> 01:04:58,980
[Xavier] Ok.

1069
01:04:59,480 --> 01:04:59,937
[Raya] Right here?

1070
01:04:59,938 --> 01:05:00,940
[Jess] Mm-hmm.

1071
01:05:01,607 --> 01:05:02,441
[Raya] You go first.

1072
01:05:02,442 --> 01:05:03,317
[Xavier] Ok.

1073
01:05:04,735 --> 01:05:06,112
[Raya] Ladies last.

1074
01:05:13,827 --> 01:05:14,952
[Raya] You can see forever.

1075
01:05:14,953 --> 01:05:15,955
[Xavier] Yeah.

1076
01:05:23,503 --> 01:05:24,380
You okay, J?

1077
01:05:27,048 --> 01:05:27,717
Yeah.

1078
01:05:31,178 --> 01:05:31,845
I mean...

1079
01:05:37,225 --> 01:05:38,851
Do you think Jesus makes it easier

1080
01:05:38,852 --> 01:05:41,438
once you start trying to follow him?

1081
01:05:43,648 --> 01:05:44,317
Um...

1082
01:05:47,277 --> 01:05:51,740
Honestly, I think it depends on
what you're going through.

1083
01:05:56,203 --> 01:05:58,288
I feel like Jesus knows that.

1084
01:06:00,958 --> 01:06:01,625
Because--

1085
01:06:03,460 --> 01:06:05,336
Shouldn't he make things easier

1086
01:06:05,337 --> 01:06:09,675
for people going through harder things?

1087
01:06:11,968 --> 01:06:15,263
If there's something you need
to tell us, J...

1088
01:06:15,765 --> 01:06:16,432
tell us.

1089
01:06:19,727 --> 01:06:20,393
Um,

1090
01:06:21,187 --> 01:06:22,187
[sharp inhale]

1091
01:06:25,315 --> 01:06:26,191
So...

1092
01:06:26,192 --> 01:06:26,900
[sniffles]

1093
01:06:29,028 --> 01:06:30,320
I don't have a car

1094
01:06:32,072 --> 01:06:35,117
because I got high,

1095
01:06:37,077 --> 01:06:40,580
and I drove my car into a telephone pole.

1096
01:06:41,040 --> 01:06:43,749
And then I got a DUI on a
suspended license,

1097
01:06:43,750 --> 01:06:45,753
so that's why I can't drive.

1098
01:06:51,050 --> 01:06:52,258
Whoa, uh...

1099
01:06:53,552 --> 01:06:54,970
I'm so sorry.

1100
01:06:55,722 --> 01:06:57,347
Yeah, there's more. Um,

1101
01:07:00,267 --> 01:07:03,478
My entire family wants nothing
to do with me.

1102
01:07:04,397 --> 01:07:05,063
Which--

1103
01:07:05,982 --> 01:07:06,982
Which is fine.

1104
01:07:07,817 --> 01:07:08,983
Because, like...

1105
01:07:10,610 --> 01:07:12,195
I understand it, I do.

1106
01:07:12,530 --> 01:07:15,531
Because, you know, why would
you trust me?

1107
01:07:15,532 --> 01:07:17,785
I'm just out of rehab, again.

1108
01:07:20,662 --> 01:07:21,330
Like...

1109
01:07:22,832 --> 01:07:24,417
I'm completely jacked.

1110
01:07:26,085 --> 01:07:27,711
My brain doesn't work like yours,

1111
01:07:27,712 --> 01:07:30,130
and I wish it did, but it doesn't.

1112
01:07:30,923 --> 01:07:31,590
I just...

1113
01:07:32,257 --> 01:07:33,300
I really...

1114
01:07:34,218 --> 01:07:38,055
I really hate this thing inside of me.

1115
01:07:38,347 --> 01:07:40,557
Like, why is it always a fight?

1116
01:07:42,100 --> 01:07:42,476
[Xavier] Jess--

1117
01:07:42,477 --> 01:07:44,227
No! No, I'm not done.

1118
01:07:44,228 --> 01:07:44,895
I just...

1119
01:07:48,482 --> 01:07:49,357
I--

1120
01:07:49,358 --> 01:07:50,650
[suspenseful tone]

1121
01:07:52,778 --> 01:07:56,198
I took some of Charles' oxy
out of his bathroom.

1122
01:08:02,245 --> 01:08:03,496
Did you take them?

1123
01:08:03,497 --> 01:08:04,914
Yes, Raya, I just told you--

1124
01:08:04,915 --> 01:08:05,917
No, no, did--

1125
01:08:06,833 --> 01:08:08,335
Did you swallow them?

1126
01:08:13,298 --> 01:08:14,090
I...

1127
01:08:14,550 --> 01:08:15,217
didn't.

1128
01:08:16,843 --> 01:08:18,636
I didn't take them.

1129
01:08:18,637 --> 01:08:19,305
I...

1130
01:08:19,513 --> 01:08:21,432
I threw them in the toilet.

1131
01:08:28,355 --> 01:08:29,940
Yeah, Jess, um...

1132
01:08:30,942 --> 01:08:34,320
I mean, I want to say
everything is okay, uh...

1133
01:08:35,988 --> 01:08:36,697
This is...

1134
01:08:37,948 --> 01:08:40,492
It's hard to take in. Um,

1135
01:08:42,578 --> 01:08:45,579
I mean, but you know you can
still come to us

1136
01:08:45,580 --> 01:08:47,081
when things start to get this way.

1137
01:08:47,082 --> 01:08:47,750
That's...

1138
01:08:49,293 --> 01:08:52,713
That's what I'm trying to describe,
though. I...

1139
01:08:53,255 --> 01:08:54,382
This person...

1140
01:08:55,590 --> 01:08:58,551
me, she wants to try and reach out,

1141
01:08:58,552 --> 01:09:00,302
and I'm trying to--

1142
01:09:00,303 --> 01:09:01,722
I want to be better.

1143
01:09:03,640 --> 01:09:04,308
Like...

1144
01:09:05,683 --> 01:09:09,188
[sigh] You just, you don't understand.
I don't...

1145
01:09:09,688 --> 01:09:10,355
Well...

1146
01:09:11,857 --> 01:09:13,150
[Xavier] I mean...

1147
01:09:17,112 --> 01:09:18,488
Jesus, we need you.

1148
01:09:21,325 --> 01:09:23,202
Please help Jess to fight.

1149
01:09:25,328 --> 01:09:26,497
Help her to win.

1150
01:09:29,917 --> 01:09:32,836
Thank you for helping her stray
from temptation.

1151
01:09:32,837 --> 01:09:34,672
Please keep doing it.

1152
01:09:39,050 --> 01:09:39,718
Amen.

1153
01:09:46,350 --> 01:09:47,017
Hey.

1154
01:09:48,560 --> 01:09:50,437
You didn't take the pills.

1155
01:09:51,563 --> 01:09:52,230
Okay?

1156
01:09:55,902 --> 01:09:56,902
Sounds like...

1157
01:09:57,193 --> 01:09:59,779
from what you've said maybe
a few months ago,

1158
01:09:59,780 --> 01:10:00,863
you might have.

1159
01:10:02,157 --> 01:10:03,075
That's a win.

1160
01:10:03,908 --> 01:10:06,328
[Xavier] Look, here's the deal, J.

1161
01:10:06,453 --> 01:10:08,580
We're all just doing our best.

1162
01:10:09,582 --> 01:10:13,168
To submit to Jesus and be more
like him every day.

1163
01:10:17,422 --> 01:10:18,090
Hey.

1164
01:10:19,675 --> 01:10:21,052
Can you look at me?

1165
01:10:24,847 --> 01:10:26,473
You're gonna beat this.

1166
01:10:27,223 --> 01:10:27,892
Okay?

1167
01:10:29,435 --> 01:10:31,228
[Raya] You won't give up.

1168
01:10:31,937 --> 01:10:33,937
And we're not gonna let you.

1169
01:10:33,938 --> 01:10:35,732
[Xavier] [whispers] Yeah.

1170
01:10:38,277 --> 01:10:42,740
But I do think that you should
tell Charles.

1171
01:10:42,948 --> 01:10:43,615
Okay?

1172
01:10:44,867 --> 01:10:46,243
But hey, it's okay.

1173
01:10:46,577 --> 01:10:47,243
I mean...

1174
01:10:48,245 --> 01:10:51,332
of all people, Charles is
gonna understand.

1175
01:10:55,962 --> 01:10:57,253
Would you still...

1176
01:10:57,880 --> 01:10:59,882
come to Bible study with us?

1177
01:11:01,758 --> 01:11:02,927
Are you serious?

1178
01:11:03,927 --> 01:11:05,845
After all this, you just...

1179
01:11:06,930 --> 01:11:07,973
We love you.

1180
01:11:10,642 --> 01:11:11,518
And we suck.

1181
01:11:12,477 --> 01:11:13,102
[chuckle]

1182
01:11:13,103 --> 01:11:13,812
All of us.

1183
01:11:14,563 --> 01:11:15,230
But...

1184
01:11:16,232 --> 01:11:17,315
we get over it.

1185
01:11:18,150 --> 01:11:19,443
And we keep going.

1186
01:11:20,068 --> 01:11:21,153
[Raya] Alright,

1187
01:11:21,278 --> 01:11:22,361
We're gonna be late.

1188
01:11:22,362 --> 01:11:23,030
Again.

1189
01:11:23,613 --> 01:11:24,447
[Xavier] Hey, you don't like it?

1190
01:11:24,448 --> 01:11:25,406
You don't have to stay.

1191
01:11:25,407 --> 01:11:26,074
Ok?

1192
01:11:26,075 --> 01:11:26,783
[Jess] Ok.

1193
01:11:37,335 --> 01:11:38,753
[indistinct chatter]

1194
01:11:43,842 --> 01:11:44,759
[Xavier] Be honest with me.

1195
01:11:44,760 --> 01:11:47,469
Has God been good to you guys this week?

1196
01:11:47,470 --> 01:11:48,222
Yes? Good.

1197
01:11:48,430 --> 01:11:49,221
Good. I'm so glad.

1198
01:11:49,222 --> 01:11:50,931
I mean, there's so many little things

1199
01:11:50,932 --> 01:11:52,976
that we can be grateful for, you know?

1200
01:11:52,977 --> 01:11:55,853
We should not take anything for granted.

1201
01:11:57,605 --> 01:12:00,232
Oh, reminder about the concert
tomorrow night.

1202
01:12:00,233 --> 01:12:01,401
It's the Allan Scott Band.

1203
01:12:01,402 --> 01:12:02,944
They're on tour again.

1204
01:12:02,945 --> 01:12:04,862
Their music is very powerful.

1205
01:12:04,863 --> 01:12:08,366
And he has a crazy testimony about Jesus
bringing him through a lot.

1206
01:12:08,367 --> 01:12:09,033
So...

1207
01:12:09,200 --> 01:12:12,287
Just out of curiosity, who's
going to that?

1208
01:12:13,122 --> 01:12:13,579
Cool.

1209
01:12:13,580 --> 01:12:14,247
Sweet.

1210
01:12:14,873 --> 01:12:15,497
Alright, um,

1211
01:12:15,498 --> 01:12:17,710
so tonight we're gonna be in...

1212
01:12:18,710 --> 01:12:19,627
Hey, it's Pops, y'all.

1213
01:12:19,628 --> 01:12:20,461
[low rumble]

1214
01:12:20,462 --> 01:12:21,713
[group greetings]

1215
01:12:24,298 --> 01:12:25,175
[indistinct]

1216
01:12:27,803 --> 01:12:28,761
There's a chair for you, buddy.

1217
01:12:28,762 --> 01:12:30,847
[Charles] Alright. Thank you.

1218
01:12:34,810 --> 01:12:35,643
Alright,

1219
01:12:36,520 --> 01:12:39,939
like I was saying, um, we're
gonna be in Matthew 13

1220
01:12:39,940 --> 01:12:41,442
verses 44 to 48.

1221
01:12:42,442 --> 01:12:44,528
A treasure hidden in a field.

1222
01:12:45,445 --> 01:12:47,322
[ominous tone intensifies]

1223
01:12:48,448 --> 01:12:50,949
I think the big thing I want you guys
to get from this tonight

1224
01:12:50,950 --> 01:12:52,701
is that Jesus is your greatest treasure.

1225
01:12:52,702 --> 01:12:54,120
[voice fades out]

1226
01:13:05,257 --> 01:13:09,342
[Jess (voiceover)] And that was when
everything fell apart.

1227
01:13:09,343 --> 01:13:10,345
[phone buzzes]

1228
01:13:11,763 --> 01:13:13,557
[electronic music builds]

1229
01:13:44,588 --> 01:13:45,921
Hey, are you okay?

1230
01:13:45,922 --> 01:13:47,339
Yeah, I'm just gonna go to the bathroom.

1231
01:13:47,340 --> 01:13:49,299
[Xavier] So it's compared to three things.
Um,

1232
01:13:49,300 --> 01:13:50,884
The kingdom of heaven is like a--

1233
01:13:50,885 --> 01:13:51,553
uh...

1234
01:13:52,428 --> 01:13:53,929
a treasure hidden in a field

1235
01:13:53,930 --> 01:13:57,809
and like a merchant seeking
to find pearls.

1236
01:13:57,810 --> 01:13:58,727
[eerie tone]

1237
01:13:59,853 --> 01:14:03,856
[Raya (voiceover)] [distorted] Are
you really doing this?

1238
01:14:03,857 --> 01:14:04,691
[Jacob (voiceover)] Jess.

1239
01:14:04,692 --> 01:14:06,984
[Xavier] I mean I want to
tell you it's okay.

1240
01:14:06,985 --> 01:14:09,194
[Raya (voiceover)] [distorted] After
everything we've done for you?

1241
01:14:09,195 --> 01:14:10,279
[overlapping distorted voices]
[Xavier (voiceover)] That's it.

1242
01:14:10,280 --> 01:14:10,987
[Jacob (voiceover)] I love you.

1243
01:14:10,988 --> 01:14:12,531
[Raya (voiceover)] [distorted] I knew we
shouldn't have believed in you.

1244
01:14:12,532 --> 01:14:13,699
[Xavier (voiceover)] [distorted] I knew
this was gonna happen.

1245
01:14:13,700 --> 01:14:15,867
[Jacob (voiceover)] You don't have to
worry about what other people think.

1246
01:14:15,868 --> 01:14:16,952
[Jacob (voiceover)] It's you and me.

1247
01:14:16,953 --> 01:14:19,037
[Jacob (voiceover)] I love you.

1248
01:14:19,038 --> 01:14:21,582
[Raya (voiceover)] [distorted] You don't
have what it takes to be Christian.

1249
01:14:21,583 --> 01:14:23,792
[Jacob (voiceover)] They don't even know
you the way that I know you.

1250
01:14:23,793 --> 01:14:25,419
[train rumbling] [Jacob (voiceover)]
And I'm here for you, ok?

1251
01:14:25,420 --> 01:14:27,922
[Raya (voiceover)] [distorted] We
tried so hard.

1252
01:14:27,923 --> 01:14:30,717
[Raya (voiceover)] I'm so disappointed.

1253
01:14:31,635 --> 01:14:33,219
[Xavier (voiceover)] That's the kind
of person you are.

1254
01:14:33,220 --> 01:14:35,596
[distorted voice] They
don't care about you.

1255
01:14:35,597 --> 01:14:36,264
[Xavier (voiceover)] You're broken.

1256
01:14:36,265 --> 01:14:39,267
[overlapping distorted voices, indistinct]

1257
01:14:40,435 --> 01:14:42,519
[Jacob (voiceover)] I missed you, okay?

1258
01:14:42,520 --> 01:14:43,437
[Raya (voiceover)] [echoing]
After everything.

1259
01:14:43,438 --> 01:14:45,397
[Jacob (voiceover)] Jess,
I'm here for you!

1260
01:14:45,398 --> 01:14:46,941
[Jacob (voiceover)] I love you.

1261
01:14:46,942 --> 01:14:48,442
[Xavier and Raya (voiceover)]
What's wrong with you?

1262
01:14:48,443 --> 01:14:49,318
[silence]

1263
01:14:55,075 --> 01:14:58,369
Alright, um, we're gonna wrap up
with some prayer, okay?

1264
01:14:58,370 --> 01:15:02,247
Find someone around you and tell somebody
what your prayer--

1265
01:15:02,248 --> 01:15:03,332
[Raya] Hey, what's going--
[Jess] [breathing heavily]

1266
01:15:03,333 --> 01:15:04,000
Hey, J--

1267
01:15:04,292 --> 01:15:04,960
J!

1268
01:15:05,168 --> 01:15:06,502
J, what's going on?

1269
01:15:06,503 --> 01:15:07,337
Raya, stop!

1270
01:15:07,587 --> 01:15:08,421
What, what, what?

1271
01:15:08,422 --> 01:15:09,254
Raya, stop it.

1272
01:15:09,255 --> 01:15:10,465
Okay, talk to me.

1273
01:15:10,840 --> 01:15:12,341
[Xavier] Jess!
Jess, you don't have to--

1274
01:15:12,342 --> 01:15:13,426
I don't have to, what?

1275
01:15:13,427 --> 01:15:14,845
[panicked breathing]

1276
01:15:16,555 --> 01:15:17,222
I'm here.

1277
01:15:18,182 --> 01:15:19,514
Alright, and I'm not leaving.

1278
01:15:19,515 --> 01:15:20,516
I want to help.

1279
01:15:20,517 --> 01:15:21,518
[whispers] No.

1280
01:15:21,643 --> 01:15:24,062
I told you, I'm broken.

1281
01:15:24,730 --> 01:15:27,232
Okay, is this what you want to see?

1282
01:15:28,692 --> 01:15:29,524
[whispers] J-- I--

1283
01:15:29,525 --> 01:15:30,818
[derisive chuckle]

1284
01:15:32,487 --> 01:15:34,947
Look at how judgmental you all are.

1285
01:15:34,948 --> 01:15:35,615
Yeah.

1286
01:15:36,700 --> 01:15:37,910
Yeah, no, I can--

1287
01:15:39,578 --> 01:15:41,455
I can see it in your eyes.

1288
01:15:42,372 --> 01:15:44,582
I knew this would happen the second
I disappointed you.

1289
01:15:44,583 --> 01:15:46,710
This is what I was waiting on.

1290
01:15:47,627 --> 01:15:50,212
I don't know what you think you see.

1291
01:15:50,213 --> 01:15:52,090
Alright, but you're wrong.

1292
01:15:52,340 --> 01:15:54,174
Okay, I'm here because I care about you.

1293
01:15:54,175 --> 01:15:54,967
[derisive laugh]

1294
01:15:54,968 --> 01:15:55,677
We all do.

1295
01:15:56,803 --> 01:15:57,803
No, you don't.

1296
01:16:00,390 --> 01:16:01,516
You don't care about me.

1297
01:16:01,517 --> 01:16:03,143
You don't even know me.

1298
01:16:03,518 --> 01:16:06,437
You know the me you get when I'm
fighting and winning.

1299
01:16:06,438 --> 01:16:07,438
That's not me.

1300
01:16:09,148 --> 01:16:10,232
Jess, you ca--

1301
01:16:10,233 --> 01:16:12,234
Don't tell me what I can't do!

1302
01:16:12,235 --> 01:16:12,945
Hey, stop!

1303
01:16:13,945 --> 01:16:15,488
[crying]

1304
01:16:19,492 --> 01:16:21,412
Okay, let's just calm down.

1305
01:16:22,245 --> 01:16:24,580
Okay, please stop cutting me off.

1306
01:16:27,333 --> 01:16:29,042
Alright, I'm trying to help.

1307
01:16:29,043 --> 01:16:29,542
Listen, we all--

1308
01:16:29,543 --> 01:16:30,337
So, what?

1309
01:16:31,505 --> 01:16:33,132
You're a therapist now?

1310
01:16:34,507 --> 01:16:36,926
You--you sit in your chairs

1311
01:16:36,927 --> 01:16:41,972
and watch as hurting and needy,
broken people walk up,

1312
01:16:41,973 --> 01:16:44,391
and suddenly you're qualified
to help addicts?

1313
01:16:44,392 --> 01:16:45,810
Hey, hey, hey, okay.

1314
01:16:46,395 --> 01:16:48,605
That's not our intention, okay?

1315
01:16:49,732 --> 01:16:53,527
Listen, Jess, I know life is awful
at times, alright?

1316
01:16:54,235 --> 01:16:55,112
I know that.

1317
01:16:55,403 --> 01:16:59,532
And I know there are things that
are so hard to let go of.

1318
01:16:59,950 --> 01:17:00,825
I know that.

1319
01:17:03,328 --> 01:17:06,332
You think you know what
I'm going through?

1320
01:17:06,498 --> 01:17:07,165
Wh--

1321
01:17:08,042 --> 01:17:08,708
What?

1322
01:17:10,710 --> 01:17:12,503
Because your dad is dead?

1323
01:17:16,592 --> 01:17:20,720
You think you know what it's like
to battle for your life?

1324
01:17:21,888 --> 01:17:24,265
You don't know anything about me!

1325
01:17:25,725 --> 01:17:26,393
So--

1326
01:17:28,312 --> 01:17:32,814
So take your Bible and your hero
complex and your Jesus

1327
01:17:32,815 --> 01:17:34,818
and leave me the hell alone!

1328
01:17:38,030 --> 01:17:39,530
That's terrible Jess.

1329
01:17:40,573 --> 01:17:41,867
Like, truly awful.

1330
01:17:42,283 --> 01:17:43,410
[derisive laugh]

1331
01:17:44,243 --> 01:17:45,453
He's catching on.

1332
01:17:46,913 --> 01:17:47,788
That's Jess!

1333
01:17:48,998 --> 01:17:50,208
That right there?

1334
01:17:52,210 --> 01:17:55,879
That's the face I've seen a thousand
times, right there.

1335
01:17:55,880 --> 01:17:56,506
Hey.

1336
01:17:56,507 --> 01:17:57,339
But it doesn't--

1337
01:17:57,340 --> 01:17:58,758
I don't need you!

1338
01:17:59,508 --> 01:18:00,592
And I don't need God!

1339
01:18:00,593 --> 01:18:01,678
[Charles] Jess!

1340
01:18:03,388 --> 01:18:04,722
You need to--

1341
01:18:04,723 --> 01:18:05,390
[coughs]

1342
01:18:05,723 --> 01:18:07,600
You need to take a moment.

1343
01:18:08,602 --> 01:18:11,522
You aren't thinking clearly, that's okay.

1344
01:18:12,730 --> 01:18:13,856
This isn't who you are--

1345
01:18:13,857 --> 01:18:17,068
I took pain pills from your
medicine cabinet!

1346
01:18:17,235 --> 01:18:18,653
I did that, Charles!

1347
01:18:19,612 --> 01:18:20,738
I stole them!

1348
01:18:21,155 --> 01:18:22,032
That was me!

1349
01:18:24,117 --> 01:18:25,493
That's who I am!

1350
01:18:27,162 --> 01:18:30,832
So while you're in pain,
dying from cancer?

1351
01:18:33,127 --> 01:18:36,505
I took the one thing that made
you feel better.

1352
01:18:39,007 --> 01:18:40,717
Not because I needed to.

1353
01:18:43,553 --> 01:18:45,263
But because I wanted to.

1354
01:18:47,140 --> 01:18:47,889
So--

1355
01:18:47,890 --> 01:18:49,017
[bitter chuckle]

1356
01:18:50,935 --> 01:18:51,645
So yeah.

1357
01:18:52,645 --> 01:18:53,229
Yeah.

1358
01:18:53,230 --> 01:18:53,897
[chuckle]

1359
01:18:54,688 --> 01:18:57,775
I'm pretty sure that's exactly who I am.

1360
01:18:58,318 --> 01:19:00,112
[crying, shaky breathing]

1361
01:19:04,698 --> 01:19:05,617
[Jacob] Jess.

1362
01:19:06,325 --> 01:19:07,452
What's going on?

1363
01:19:08,662 --> 01:19:10,163
[Xavier] Who is that?

1364
01:19:15,293 --> 01:19:15,960
Alright.

1365
01:19:18,713 --> 01:19:20,298
This is what you want?

1366
01:19:21,842 --> 01:19:22,508
Go ahead.

1367
01:19:28,432 --> 01:19:29,556
[Raya] Jess, come back inside--

1368
01:19:29,557 --> 01:19:30,225
Raya, no.

1369
01:19:34,145 --> 01:19:35,605
[sniffles, crying]

1370
01:19:55,625 --> 01:19:56,292
Go.

1371
01:20:24,028 --> 01:20:24,947
You ok, Jess?

1372
01:20:32,703 --> 01:20:33,788
[Jacob] [sighs]

1373
01:20:39,793 --> 01:20:40,462
Oxy.

1374
01:20:43,673 --> 01:20:45,050
[Jacob] [long sigh]

1375
01:20:47,093 --> 01:20:49,219
[Jacob] You told me that you were done.

1376
01:20:49,220 --> 01:20:50,512
That, if I gave you--

1377
01:20:50,513 --> 01:20:52,222
Since when did you care about
what anyone said?

1378
01:20:52,223 --> 01:20:52,890
Hey!

1379
01:20:53,517 --> 01:20:55,018
Jess, I wanna change!

1380
01:20:56,393 --> 01:20:58,397
Hey, I'm-- I'm sorry.

1381
01:20:58,938 --> 01:20:59,647
I'm sorry.

1382
01:21:00,523 --> 01:21:01,650
Look, you just--

1383
01:21:02,108 --> 01:21:03,817
You just got out of rehab--

1384
01:21:03,818 --> 01:21:04,484
[Jess] Babe...
Baby, I need it.

1385
01:21:04,485 --> 01:21:05,486
[Jacob] You've got all these
things ahead of you.

1386
01:21:05,487 --> 01:21:06,195
I need it.

1387
01:21:06,320 --> 01:21:07,071
I need it.

1388
01:21:07,072 --> 01:21:10,492
[Jess] You know how it is.

1389
01:21:11,242 --> 01:21:12,160
[Jacob] Yeah.

1390
01:21:13,495 --> 01:21:15,122
Yeah, I know how it is.

1391
01:21:18,875 --> 01:21:19,749
Give them to me!

1392
01:21:19,750 --> 01:21:20,418
Hey!

1393
01:21:21,628 --> 01:21:22,544
Would you relax?

1394
01:21:22,545 --> 01:21:23,422
I need them.

1395
01:21:24,463 --> 01:21:25,256
Baby, don't do this to me.

1396
01:21:25,257 --> 01:21:26,089
[Jess] Don't do this to me.
[Jacob] No. No.

1397
01:21:26,090 --> 01:21:28,007
[Jess] Please, please, please.
[Jacob] I'm not-- No! No. Listen, no.

1398
01:21:28,008 --> 01:21:31,094
[Jess] Please, you don't--
[Jacob] No, I don't wanna do this, okay?

1399
01:21:31,095 --> 01:21:32,680
[Jacob] I'm saying no.

1400
01:21:37,935 --> 01:21:38,645
Pull over.

1401
01:21:39,938 --> 01:21:40,605
What?

1402
01:21:40,938 --> 01:21:42,231
Pull over, pull over!

1403
01:21:42,232 --> 01:21:44,317
Okay, alright, alright, fine.

1404
01:21:56,830 --> 01:21:58,122
[Jacob] I'm sorry.

1405
01:22:00,042 --> 01:22:01,000
I just--

1406
01:22:03,670 --> 01:22:05,172
I am trying here.

1407
01:22:11,593 --> 01:22:14,680
Give. Me. The pills.

1408
01:22:39,663 --> 01:22:40,332
Jess.

1409
01:22:44,002 --> 01:22:46,880
I hope you find what you're looking for.

1410
01:22:56,513 --> 01:22:58,223
[sad orchestral music]

1411
01:23:42,227 --> 01:23:43,603
[music swells]

1412
01:23:58,075 --> 01:23:59,452
[heavy breathing]

1413
01:24:10,088 --> 01:24:10,962
Come on!

1414
01:24:10,963 --> 01:24:12,882
[crying, frantic breathing]

1415
01:24:28,272 --> 01:24:30,775
[sobbing]

1416
01:24:32,652 --> 01:24:34,153
[screams]

1417
01:24:38,032 --> 01:24:40,033
[labored, erratic breathing]

1418
01:25:02,348 --> 01:25:04,142
[music fades]

1419
01:25:06,643 --> 01:25:08,020
[crying] I'm sorry.

1420
01:25:10,148 --> 01:25:11,690
[sobbing] I'm sorry.

1421
01:25:17,863 --> 01:25:19,240
I'm sorry.

1422
01:25:26,080 --> 01:25:29,250
[Raya] I was up all night
praying for Jess.

1423
01:25:36,382 --> 01:25:39,843
[Raya] I'm just so mad this
happened to her.

1424
01:25:44,598 --> 01:25:46,935
[Raya] She seemed so much better.

1425
01:25:54,567 --> 01:25:55,860
What is she doing?

1426
01:25:58,530 --> 01:26:00,532
[Charles] She's coming back.

1427
01:26:03,827 --> 01:26:05,453
[Charles] Good morning.

1428
01:26:07,955 --> 01:26:09,457
[Jess] Yeah, morning.

1429
01:26:11,918 --> 01:26:13,293
[Charles] You good?

1430
01:26:15,255 --> 01:26:16,255
[Charles] J...

1431
01:26:19,550 --> 01:26:22,387
I don't even know what to say. I don't--

1432
01:26:23,220 --> 01:26:24,347
I don't know--

1433
01:26:26,265 --> 01:26:27,350
why--

1434
01:26:28,560 --> 01:26:32,063
[stammering] but it wasn't
the same this time.

1435
01:26:36,567 --> 01:26:38,068
I think I'm done. I--

1436
01:26:39,320 --> 01:26:40,321
I-- I need Jesus.

1437
01:26:40,322 --> 01:26:41,738
I-- I want Jesus.

1438
01:26:45,577 --> 01:26:47,745
I'm glad to hear that.

1439
01:27:00,007 --> 01:27:01,508
I realized something.

1440
01:27:02,343 --> 01:27:03,177
Um,

1441
01:27:07,432 --> 01:27:11,643
I-- I realized that-- feeling good
is meaningless.

1442
01:27:13,520 --> 01:27:16,023
feeling good is-- it's meaningless.

1443
01:27:17,692 --> 01:27:22,197
I think I'm finally starting
to see it as it is, and--

1444
01:27:24,948 --> 01:27:28,953
that so much of what feels good
in life is just like a--

1445
01:27:29,495 --> 01:27:30,372
Counterfeit?

1446
01:27:37,545 --> 01:27:38,212
Yeah.

1447
01:27:39,255 --> 01:27:40,548
Yeah, counterfeit.

1448
01:27:47,055 --> 01:27:49,432
I'm sorry I let you down, Xavier.

1449
01:27:54,562 --> 01:27:57,190
[Raya] I'm really proud of you, Jess.

1450
01:28:01,568 --> 01:28:02,237
Um,

1451
01:28:03,362 --> 01:28:04,780
See you guys around.

1452
01:28:05,197 --> 01:28:08,492
[Charles] Who do you think
you sinned against?

1453
01:28:08,617 --> 01:28:10,787
[labored] Only against God.

1454
01:28:11,703 --> 01:28:15,040
And he forgives freely.

1455
01:28:18,002 --> 01:28:19,128
Thanks, Charles.

1456
01:28:20,922 --> 01:28:21,630
Pops.

1457
01:28:33,685 --> 01:28:35,310
What was that, son?

1458
01:28:36,312 --> 01:28:41,025
[Charles] So, you wanted her to feel like
she disappointed you?

1459
01:28:41,400 --> 01:28:43,526
You heard what she said, Charles.

1460
01:28:43,527 --> 01:28:44,195
I did.

1461
01:28:45,237 --> 01:28:46,447
But imagine this.

1462
01:28:47,157 --> 01:28:49,116
You go before the Lord one day

1463
01:28:49,117 --> 01:28:52,369
and he refuses to look at you
because of your sin.

1464
01:28:52,370 --> 01:28:54,997
Disgusted, he waits for you to leave.

1465
01:28:55,205 --> 01:28:56,206
[Xavier] Yeah?

1466
01:28:56,207 --> 01:28:58,207
[Xavier] And I guess as a
Christian we're just

1467
01:28:58,208 --> 01:29:00,042
supposed to let people
take advantage of us?

1468
01:29:00,043 --> 01:29:01,419
[Xavier] That's what you're saying, right?

1469
01:29:01,420 --> 01:29:03,379
[Xavier] Just let them walk all over us.

1470
01:29:03,380 --> 01:29:06,716
Again and again, boy. You need to read

1471
01:29:06,717 --> 01:29:10,262
that book that you teachin'
on Thursday night.

1472
01:29:23,692 --> 01:29:25,445
[emotional music]

1473
01:29:44,005 --> 01:29:44,838
[Raya] Hey.

1474
01:29:46,215 --> 01:29:47,048
[Raya] Hey.

1475
01:29:47,217 --> 01:29:48,050
[Raya] Hey.

1476
01:29:55,975 --> 01:29:57,102
I'm-- I'm sorry.

1477
01:29:57,435 --> 01:29:58,143
I'm sorry.

1478
01:30:03,190 --> 01:30:05,777
[Charles] You're a good man, Xavier.

1479
01:30:09,613 --> 01:30:10,532
You're right.

1480
01:30:12,867 --> 01:30:16,245
I shouldn't have tried to make
her feel guilty.

1481
01:30:19,332 --> 01:30:19,998
Now what?

1482
01:30:21,208 --> 01:30:23,085
Now we trust God.

1483
01:30:25,128 --> 01:30:26,922
And when we get a chance,

1484
01:30:28,132 --> 01:30:32,678
we do what that young girl
had the guts to do.

1485
01:30:35,055 --> 01:30:36,265
We make it right.

1486
01:30:37,850 --> 01:30:38,767
[music fades]

1487
01:30:42,020 --> 01:30:44,940
[Raya] Hey, you wanna go somewhere later?

1488
01:30:45,315 --> 01:30:47,066
[Jess] [mumbles] Mm... I don't--

1489
01:30:47,067 --> 01:30:48,192
Oh, does that mean yes?

1490
01:30:48,193 --> 01:30:49,195
[both chuckle]

1491
01:30:51,113 --> 01:30:52,740
The concert is tonight.

1492
01:30:53,740 --> 01:30:56,452
I don't know, I think it could be fun.

1493
01:30:57,995 --> 01:30:59,913
[Jess] Honestly, no.

1494
01:31:01,707 --> 01:31:05,753
I-- I mean, I know I should go...

1495
01:31:08,505 --> 01:31:09,340
[Jess] Um,

1496
01:31:11,425 --> 01:31:11,674
[Jess] Okay.

1497
01:31:11,675 --> 01:31:12,509
[Raya] [gasps]

1498
01:31:12,510 --> 01:31:13,092
[Jess] I'll go.

1499
01:31:13,093 --> 01:31:13,467
[Raya] Yay!

1500
01:31:13,468 --> 01:31:14,553
[both laughing]

1501
01:31:14,678 --> 01:31:17,182
[Raya] [sing-song] I like fun Jess.

1502
01:31:24,563 --> 01:31:27,983
[Raya] Hey, I wanna talk to
you about something.

1503
01:31:36,033 --> 01:31:38,535
Do you want to follow Jesus?

1504
01:31:41,330 --> 01:31:44,542
I just mean enough with beating
yourself up.

1505
01:31:46,502 --> 01:31:49,879
Where did your heart go
when you sinned? I mean--

1506
01:31:49,880 --> 01:31:51,298
Did you wanna do it?

1507
01:31:52,550 --> 01:31:53,425
[soft scoff]

1508
01:31:54,302 --> 01:31:54,968
No.

1509
01:31:57,972 --> 01:31:58,638
I mean,

1510
01:32:00,808 --> 01:32:04,312
I feel like I wasted everything
Jesus did for me.

1511
01:32:05,520 --> 01:32:07,940
And do you want to live for Jesus?

1512
01:32:11,693 --> 01:32:12,570
I want to...

1513
01:32:15,405 --> 01:32:17,492
that doesn't mean that I can.

1514
01:32:18,617 --> 01:32:19,285
J...

1515
01:32:21,162 --> 01:32:22,955
That's being a Christian.

1516
01:32:24,748 --> 01:32:28,043
I mean, I just-- I wanna make
sure it's clear.

1517
01:32:28,460 --> 01:32:32,298
No amount of making the right
decision makes you good.

1518
01:32:33,465 --> 01:32:34,883
Only Jesus was good,

1519
01:32:35,968 --> 01:32:39,055
and he's not looking for
you to be perfect.

1520
01:32:40,555 --> 01:32:41,597
So think about that.

1521
01:32:41,598 --> 01:32:45,728
Jesus's perfection is what
makes him necessary.

1522
01:32:50,858 --> 01:32:52,359
Alright, get dressed.

1523
01:32:52,360 --> 01:32:53,027
Let's go.

1524
01:32:54,445 --> 01:32:55,111
We got work to do.

1525
01:32:55,112 --> 01:32:55,444
Okay.

1526
01:32:55,445 --> 01:32:56,322
[both laugh]

1527
01:32:57,197 --> 01:32:59,617
[mid-tempo worship music]

1528
01:33:11,753 --> 01:33:13,296
♪ When I'm facing the giant ♪

1529
01:33:13,297 --> 01:33:15,047
♪ When I'm facing the crowd ♪

1530
01:33:15,048 --> 01:33:16,799
♪ When the voices of doubt ♪

1531
01:33:16,800 --> 01:33:18,593
♪ Get a little too loud ♪

1532
01:33:18,970 --> 01:33:21,888
♪ I know you are with me, yeah ♪

1533
01:33:23,098 --> 01:33:24,892
♪ You are with me ♪

1534
01:33:25,475 --> 01:33:27,184
♪ When I can't see the way ♪

1535
01:33:27,185 --> 01:33:29,021
♪ When I'm losing my faith ♪

1536
01:33:29,022 --> 01:33:30,731
♪ Looking out at the waves ♪

1537
01:33:30,732 --> 01:33:32,816
♪ And I'm not feeling brave ♪

1538
01:33:32,817 --> 01:33:35,653
♪ I know you are with me, yeah ♪

1539
01:33:36,945 --> 01:33:38,780
♪ You are with me ♪

1540
01:33:38,905 --> 01:33:42,493
♪ I am not alone ♪

1541
01:33:43,285 --> 01:33:45,872
♪ I am not afraid ♪

1542
01:33:46,455 --> 01:33:49,250
♪ In the middle of the battle, battle ♪

1543
01:33:49,542 --> 01:33:52,919
♪ You never leave me in the
valley of the shadow ♪

1544
01:33:52,920 --> 01:33:56,507
♪ Every step I take ♪

1545
01:33:57,215 --> 01:33:59,843
♪ You're the God who stays ♪

1546
01:34:00,343 --> 01:34:03,180
♪ Like a father leading the way home ♪

1547
01:34:03,888 --> 01:34:07,393
♪ Saying child, don't you know
you're not alone ♪

1548
01:34:09,228 --> 01:34:10,062
♪ Yeah ♪

1549
01:34:11,480 --> 01:34:13,481
♪ You're not alone ♪

1550
01:34:13,482 --> 01:34:14,150
Hey.

1551
01:34:14,983 --> 01:34:15,777
Scoot over.

1552
01:34:21,157 --> 01:34:23,074
♪ There's no where I can run ♪

1553
01:34:23,075 --> 01:34:24,784
♪ No where I can hide ♪

1554
01:34:24,785 --> 01:34:27,704
♪ Your presence surrounds me in
the dead of the night ♪

1555
01:34:27,705 --> 01:34:29,332
I'm really sorry, Jess.

1556
01:34:30,750 --> 01:34:32,543
[Xavier] What I did, it--

1557
01:34:33,252 --> 01:34:34,545
That wasn't right.

1558
01:34:40,802 --> 01:34:43,512
I'm the one who should be apologizing.

1559
01:34:45,097 --> 01:34:47,475
I'm really sorry for what I said.

1560
01:34:49,352 --> 01:34:50,352
I forgive you.

1561
01:34:52,145 --> 01:34:53,938
All is well in the world.

1562
01:34:54,273 --> 01:34:55,190
[all chuckle]

1563
01:34:56,025 --> 01:34:58,818
♪ In the middle of the battle, battle ♪

1564
01:34:59,153 --> 01:35:02,489
♪ You never leave me in the
valley of the shadow ♪

1565
01:35:02,490 --> 01:35:06,160
♪ Every step I take ♪

1566
01:35:06,702 --> 01:35:09,455
♪ You're the God who stays ♪

1567
01:35:09,997 --> 01:35:12,708
♪ Like a father leading the way home ♪

1568
01:35:13,500 --> 01:35:15,084
♪ Saying child don't you know ♪

1569
01:35:15,085 --> 01:35:17,128
♪ You're not alone ♪

1570
01:35:18,963 --> 01:35:19,632
♪ Yeah ♪

1571
01:35:21,133 --> 01:35:23,343
♪ You're not alone ♪

1572
01:35:25,930 --> 01:35:26,680
♪ Yeah ♪

1573
01:35:28,307 --> 01:35:29,808
♪ You're not alone ♪

1574
01:35:30,475 --> 01:35:31,977
[audience applauding]

1575
01:35:36,357 --> 01:35:40,026
Hey everybody, I'm so glad that
you're here tonight.

1576
01:35:40,027 --> 01:35:42,696
I want you to know that God loves you

1577
01:35:42,697 --> 01:35:44,115
and that he sees you

1578
01:35:44,448 --> 01:35:47,701
and that he can take the wreckage
of your past

1579
01:35:47,702 --> 01:35:50,328
and turn it into something beautiful.

1580
01:35:50,955 --> 01:35:54,958
[Psalm 34] 18 says, "God is close
to the brokenhearted."

1581
01:35:55,417 --> 01:35:58,502
"He saves those who are crushed
in spirit."

1582
01:35:58,503 --> 01:36:01,506
And if you're feeling crushed
and broken tonight,

1583
01:36:01,507 --> 01:36:05,635
I want you to know that God
is near to you.

1584
01:36:06,928 --> 01:36:09,140
Friends, I was a drug addict.

1585
01:36:10,015 --> 01:36:10,975
I was a liar.

1586
01:36:11,808 --> 01:36:12,810
I was a thief.

1587
01:36:14,520 --> 01:36:17,313
I had all the wrong things in my resume

1588
01:36:18,023 --> 01:36:20,108
and none of the right things.

1589
01:36:20,233 --> 01:36:23,737
By the world's standards, I
had nothing to offer.

1590
01:36:24,738 --> 01:36:27,448
But Jesus was greater than my failings

1591
01:36:28,283 --> 01:36:32,245
and he uses broken people, puts
them back together

1592
01:36:33,163 --> 01:36:36,875
and puts us on display for
the world to see.

1593
01:36:38,335 --> 01:36:42,047
And what he did in my life, he
can do in your life.

1594
01:36:43,882 --> 01:36:47,552
I just think that we should sing
Amazing Grace together.

1595
01:36:47,553 --> 01:36:50,554
If you've experienced the grace
of God in your life,

1596
01:36:50,555 --> 01:36:52,683
then let's just sing this out.

1597
01:36:54,435 --> 01:36:58,063
[a capella] ♪ Amazing grace ♪

1598
01:36:59,190 --> 01:37:03,277
♪ How sweet the sound ♪

1599
01:37:04,195 --> 01:37:11,202
♪ That saved a wretch like me ♪

1600
01:37:11,368 --> 01:37:13,162
[singing becomes muffled]

1601
01:37:13,703 --> 01:37:17,373
♪ I once was lost ♪

1602
01:37:18,875 --> 01:37:23,712
♪ But now I'm found ♪

1603
01:37:23,713 --> 01:37:25,215
[cellos build]

1604
01:37:32,682 --> 01:37:35,057
[music builds, somber]

1605
01:37:35,058 --> 01:37:36,352
[Charles] [groans]

1606
01:37:41,357 --> 01:37:45,442
[Allan Scott (os)] This isn't something
that we normally do,

1607
01:37:45,443 --> 01:37:47,779
but I was praying with Pastor
John before this

1608
01:37:47,780 --> 01:37:50,615
and we felt led tonight.

1609
01:37:52,325 --> 01:37:55,745
If you have made a decision
to believe in Jesus,

1610
01:37:56,705 --> 01:37:58,915
but you've never been baptized,

1611
01:37:59,958 --> 01:38:02,542
we want to extend the opportunity
to you now.

1612
01:38:02,543 --> 01:38:04,128
We want to invite you.

1613
01:38:10,928 --> 01:38:13,430
So I'm gonna invite Pastor John up.

1614
01:38:13,597 --> 01:38:15,974
[Pastor John] Thanks, Allan.
Appreciate it.

1615
01:38:15,975 --> 01:38:16,642
Welcome.

1616
01:38:17,852 --> 01:38:20,770
Now you might be asking, what is baptism?

1617
01:38:21,313 --> 01:38:23,272
What are we gonna do up here?

1618
01:38:23,273 --> 01:38:26,860
And I'll tell you, baptism is
a public declaration

1619
01:38:27,318 --> 01:38:28,320
of your faith.

1620
01:38:28,862 --> 01:38:31,573
You go under that water, you come out,

1621
01:38:32,365 --> 01:38:35,202
it symbolizes the cleansing of your sin,

1622
01:38:35,743 --> 01:38:37,747
the washing away of the old,

1623
01:38:38,163 --> 01:38:40,122
being made new in the resurrection
of Jesus.

1624
01:38:40,123 --> 01:38:42,291
[Jess] I told you, I'm broken.

1625
01:38:42,292 --> 01:38:44,209
[Pastor] So if you're feeling
something tonight,

1626
01:38:44,210 --> 01:38:46,254
if you're feeling a stirring,

1627
01:38:46,255 --> 01:38:49,592
feel something in your heart-- say yes.

1628
01:38:50,842 --> 01:38:52,468
That's the Holy Spirit.

1629
01:38:52,928 --> 01:38:54,347
This is your moment.

1630
01:38:54,972 --> 01:38:56,222
[Charles] Can I pray for you?

1631
01:38:56,223 --> 01:38:57,556
[Pastor] Come on down to the front.

1632
01:38:57,557 --> 01:38:59,267
[Jess] I don't need you.

1633
01:38:59,727 --> 01:39:00,684
[Jess] and I don't need God!

1634
01:39:00,685 --> 01:39:01,770
[Charles] Jess!

1635
01:39:02,603 --> 01:39:03,855
[music fades]

1636
01:39:05,815 --> 01:39:07,357
Let me see just one more.

1637
01:39:07,358 --> 01:39:08,693
[music swells]

1638
01:39:10,237 --> 01:39:12,030
[Charles] One more saved.

1639
01:39:16,243 --> 01:39:17,410
[hopeful music]

1640
01:39:20,830 --> 01:39:21,872
[Jess] Can you hold this?

1641
01:39:21,873 --> 01:39:22,750
[Raya] Yeah.

1642
01:39:43,395 --> 01:39:44,437
Jess, what's wrong?

1643
01:39:44,438 --> 01:39:45,354
I'm fine. Everything's fine.

1644
01:39:45,355 --> 01:39:46,023
Hey!

1645
01:39:50,360 --> 01:39:53,863
I want to believe like you guys do.

1646
01:39:55,115 --> 01:39:56,950
It looks nice to like,

1647
01:39:57,827 --> 01:40:01,038
have something that gives
everything meaning.

1648
01:40:01,747 --> 01:40:02,748
[jess sobbing]

1649
01:40:05,542 --> 01:40:08,337
[Jess (flashback)] At times in my life,

1650
01:40:08,628 --> 01:40:10,880
I've reached out to God.

1651
01:40:11,632 --> 01:40:13,133
But nothing happened.

1652
01:40:18,805 --> 01:40:21,682
[Charles (flashback)] You keep reachin',

1653
01:40:21,683 --> 01:40:23,560
He's gonna be there, Jess.

1654
01:40:24,520 --> 01:40:26,229
And I can't wait to see that.

1655
01:40:26,230 --> 01:40:27,773
[srings intensify]

1656
01:40:31,193 --> 01:40:32,693
[ambient tone]

1657
01:41:30,168 --> 01:41:31,628
[exhales]

1658
01:41:35,548 --> 01:41:36,925
[strings build]

1659
01:41:41,555 --> 01:41:42,973
[music swells, full]

1660
01:41:44,182 --> 01:41:45,892
[applause, cheering]

1661
01:42:01,450 --> 01:42:03,993
[music softens]

1662
01:42:24,263 --> 01:42:28,226
[Jess (voiceover)] They found
Charles the next morning.

1663
01:42:28,227 --> 01:42:31,354
And I honor that man who
made his whole life

1664
01:42:31,355 --> 01:42:32,772
about just one more.

1665
01:42:45,535 --> 01:42:46,453
[music fades]

1666
01:42:48,580 --> 01:42:49,412
[Jess] I like it.

1667
01:42:49,413 --> 01:42:49,789
[Raya] Yeah?

1668
01:42:49,790 --> 01:42:50,372
[Jess] It looks good.

1669
01:42:50,373 --> 01:42:51,999
[Raya] Who wrote that?
[Xavier] It's gonna be good.

1670
01:42:52,000 --> 01:42:52,624
[Xavier] New addition.

1671
01:42:52,625 --> 01:42:53,917
[Jess] You got great handwriting.

1672
01:42:53,918 --> 01:42:56,045
[indistinct chatter, laughter]

1673
01:42:58,132 --> 01:42:58,798
Hang on.

1674
01:43:00,050 --> 01:43:03,595
Oh, uh, Charles...

1675
01:43:04,220 --> 01:43:05,930
wanted you to have this.

1676
01:43:11,603 --> 01:43:14,397
[sentimental music]

1677
01:43:51,643 --> 01:43:52,643
[Xavier] Oo...

1678
01:43:54,062 --> 01:43:55,146
[Xavier] [clicks tongue]

1679
01:43:55,147 --> 01:43:56,940
[Xavier] You got this, J.

1680
01:44:05,365 --> 01:44:07,158
[Jess] Hey.
[Lindsay] Hi.

1681
01:44:07,908 --> 01:44:09,994
I don't really know what to say.

1682
01:44:09,995 --> 01:44:10,870
I need help.

1683
01:44:13,415 --> 01:44:15,417
You came to the right place.

1684
01:44:16,167 --> 01:44:17,334
[contemporary christian song begins]
♪ Am I too far gone? ♪

1685
01:44:17,335 --> 01:44:19,128
[Jess] Do you want a hug?

1686
01:44:19,587 --> 01:44:22,215
♪ Has my luck run out? ♪

1687
01:44:23,050 --> 01:44:25,677
♪ Have the bridges all been burned? ♪

1688
01:44:26,553 --> 01:44:29,180
♪ I just don't know where to turn ♪

1689
01:44:30,057 --> 01:44:32,683
♪ Don't know how to heal ♪

1690
01:44:33,352 --> 01:44:35,978
♪ Or get my heart to feel ♪

1691
01:44:37,022 --> 01:44:39,650
♪ Will I ever win this war? ♪

1692
01:44:40,608 --> 01:44:43,237
♪ God knows I've been here before ♪

1693
01:44:44,320 --> 01:44:47,489
♪ I'm feeling dirty, unworthy,
and hurting ♪

1694
01:44:47,490 --> 01:44:49,158
♪ And asking if you ♪

1695
01:44:50,827 --> 01:44:52,537
♪ Would send me a sign ♪

1696
01:44:54,580 --> 01:44:56,542
♪ Show me I'm not alone ♪

1697
01:44:58,002 --> 01:44:59,920
♪ Show me where I belong ♪

1698
01:45:00,420 --> 01:45:03,007
♪ And if I'm worth the fight ♪

1699
01:45:04,967 --> 01:45:06,468
♪ I need a sign ♪

1700
01:45:08,220 --> 01:45:10,680
♪ Something to be the spark ♪

1701
01:45:11,807 --> 01:45:14,100
♪ Someone to light the dark ♪

1702
01:45:14,392 --> 01:45:16,645
♪ And bring me back to life ♪

1703
01:45:18,230 --> 01:45:20,773
♪ I need a sign ♪