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How about behind that wall?
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Get down.
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It's locked?
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{\an8}Uh, this is Lynsey Addario
in the village of Novoluhanske.
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{\an8}We're being shelled.
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Why is a woman just standing there?
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They're outgoing now or incoming?
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That was incoming.
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- It's incoming.
- Yeah.
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Okay?
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Oh, my God, are they crazy?
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She's not worried about her child?
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Come, come, come,
come, come, come, come!
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Where is the frontline?
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- Where I am?
- That direction.
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Well, this probably isn't
the best place, is it?
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Fuck.
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Where is the bomb shelter around here?
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Can you point us to a basement?
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- I don't understand.
- Where can we hide?
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Hide?!
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Why don't you try to live like us
instead of hiding?
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This is how we live all the time.
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Where can we hide? Is it far?
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Go down over there.
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Thank you.
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She doesn't want
to stay down here?
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Don't be afraid!
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You understand...?
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Can I take her photo?
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Can we take a picture of you?
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Oh, please!
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What's her name?
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What is your name?
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Liuba.
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We wake up this morning
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to a war in Europe.
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The first targets hit with cruise
and ballistic missiles
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in and around Kyiv, the capital.
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Oh, Jesus.
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Fucking hell.
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I'm sick of it.
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Ladies, let's all go to the basement.
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- It's a boy.
- What's his name?
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We can't decide. We're still thinking.
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It's a boy and still don't have name.
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The building next to my house.
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In the first time in my life,
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I do not know what to do.
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That's crazy.
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Glory to Ukraine!
Glory to the heroes!
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Glory to the nation!
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And you're a teacher?
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Are you scared?
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Of course.
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I just want to live
in our country, that's all.
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Of course.
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Lynsey, where are you right now?
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I'm in Kyiv.
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Things are getting very tense.
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{\an8}You're in the center
of the city, and it's a target.
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{\an8}Why are you staying there?
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{\an8}Because, uh, you know,
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it's sort of, when you do this,
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I think we've learned
that you want to be where,
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like, sort of power in numbers.
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All the journalists together.
That's what we've... There's...
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It's not like there's anywhere
particularly that's safe.
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We've seen instances
all over the country
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where the Ukrainians have
really pushed back...
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When the New York Times asked
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if there is a war in Ukraine,
would you like to cover it?
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I jumped on the opportunity.
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I didn't have to think
very long because I knew
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it would be a really historic moment.
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Have you ever held a weapon?
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And there's just, like,
a whole underground operation,
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literally in the bunker.
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What did he say?
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He's saying the aircraft
alarm strike ended.
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Okay, let's go quick.
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{\an8}I started working with Andriy Dubchak
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{\an8}before the war started.
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In Ukraine,
he's a very well-known photographer
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and videographer.
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And what is the name of this weapon?
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He's basically my partner.
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Okay, let me see.
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So we have some dried foods.
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The cookies. Because every time
we go to the grocery store,
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I buy cookies.
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A sleeping mat in case
you guys end up in the bunker.
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We have water in the tub
in case they cut the water.
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We can flush the toilet.
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Or we could take a bath with that.
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Any good news? Bad news?
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There's smoke. A lot of smoke.
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- Look.
- A lot of smoke, yeah.
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So we can't see it.
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So can you situate me for a second?
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Yeah. So basically... Yeah.
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{\an8}So, obviously, that's
the frontline over there.
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{\an8}You can hear the small arms fire,
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{\an8}and it sounds like
anti-tank weapons going off.
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So that may be the start of the assault.
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- Yeah.
- I suggest we start moving.
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- Okay.
- Let's go.
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Come on.
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Go, go, go.
The missiles are about to hit.
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Faster, please.
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They let the man go right in front.
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They don't like to see women here.
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I always get kicked away.
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You can go where you want.
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It's like the story of my life.
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- Just here, less exposure.
- Yeah.
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Let's walk out faster!
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They're fucking aiming
at the civilians?
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Yep.
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We told you, minimum things,
so you could run!
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Quickly, quickly, quickly!
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Shit.
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Where'd that land?
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Fuck, right by the people.
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What were you saying was
happening to the kids yesterday?
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It was bad.
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They were evacuating 200 children,
peaceful civilians...
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Shit!
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Shit, shit, shit, shit.
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Shit! Am I bleeding?
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Am I bleeding?
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- No, no.
- Alright.
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- Stay there!
- Alright.
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Come on! Medic!
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Medic!
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Oh, fuck, it's a person.
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Be careful.
They're really sensitive. Move!
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- Oh!
- Come on...
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- You stay.
- Oh, fuck!
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Fucking killing civilians.
I fucking hate these bastards.
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Lynsey, go, go.
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Get down.
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The chances of further escalation
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and bloodshed keep growing.
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I messaged my editor
lobbying to publish the picture
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because I witnessed
this civilian evacuation route
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be targeted intentionally.
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That's a war crime.
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But none of us knew who
the people were in the photos.
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What if there's a family member
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that finds out because of your photograph?
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President Putin speaking today...
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They had to make the decision
whether to go with that risk or not.
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{\an8}In terms of the military tactics,
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{\an8}they're doing everything they can
to avoid loss of civilian life
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{\an8}in Ukrainian cities.
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{\an8}I made the case
that this is exactly
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when Putin was saying that
he was not targeting civilians.
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And I said I was in this attack.
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It was intentional.
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- Stay there!
- Alright.
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That photograph did end up opening
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the eyes of many people in the world
as to the consequences of Putin
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going in to a sovereign country
and firing on a civilian population.
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{\an8}Vladimir Putin has repeatedly denied
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{\an8}his forces are targeting civilians.
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{\an8}But on Sunday, the world saw
the truth for itself.
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{\an8}This image
was published on the front page
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{\an8}of The New York Times today.
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{\an8}It is the unsanitized view of war.
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{\an8}In Ukraine, one picture
has starkly illustrated
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{\an8}the cost of the conflict.
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{\an8}The photo was taken
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{\an8}by Pulitzer Prize-winning
photojournalist Lynsey Addario.
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{\an8}And it's become one of
the defining images of this war.
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It was
even used as an exhibit
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in a speech on the Senate floor
by Dick Durbin.
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I've covered so many wars,
but it was probably the first time
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that there was such a visceral,
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widespread reaction
to one of my photographs.
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The first picture appeared on Twitter,
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with blurry faces.
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But I recognized the kids by the clothing.
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Mm-hmm.
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Oh, I remember
she was wearing this.
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Oh, Jesus.
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If we had been able to ask you,
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if we can use this picture
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on the front page of the newspaper.
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Yes, yes.
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The whole world should know
what's going on here.
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Mm-hmm.
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We will stop
on the petrol station, okay?
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- Yep.
- You drink coffee maybe
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- if you like.
- Okay.
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We are going to Balice,
to the airport, right?
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- Or to the hotel?
- To Krakow. Airport.
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I'm trying to go to
my son's music concert tonight.
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Oh, super.
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{\an8}♪ Gigante ♪
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♪ Hey ♪
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♪ Let me take you to the zoo ♪
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{\an8}♪ Zoo, zoo, zoo zoo, zoo, zoo ♪
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{\an8}♪ Zoo, zoo, zoo zoo, zoo, zoo ♪
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♪ I like the way you do it me gusta ♪
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♪ ¡Stop! No seas tan adusto ♪
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♪ Hey ♪
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♪ Gigante ♪
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How's your day been?
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- Uh, fine.
- Yeah. Good, good.
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Enjoying the good weather?
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Uh, I haven't... I just landed.
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- Have you? From where?
- Uh, Ukraine.
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Oh, really?
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- Welcome to London.
- Thanks.
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So civilized.
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How's things over there?
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- Uh, they're--
- I know, obviously...
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Yeah. They're rough.
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Hey.
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Okay, maybe I should
quick jump in the shower.
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So what time do you want to leave?
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I've gained weight since you've been away.
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- No, you didn't.
- Yeah, I have.
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- It was too stressful.
- You have?
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What, you've been drinking?
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- Well, I've been eating.
- Someone's been drinking.
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I have not been eating good.
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Uh, I have been exercising, but...
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That's funny.
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Yes. I have to go on a diet.
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You can go on the Ukraine diet
if you want.
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- Yeah, you...
- It's called stress.
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Well, you made it back.
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Alive. That was a feat.
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Oh, there he is.
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Oh!
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{\an8}Ohh!
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Come on.
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Hey!
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{\an8}Hi, my love! Hi!
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{\an8}- Mwah! Hi.
- Hi.
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Oh, boy. You've never hugged me like that.
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The first one was, uh...
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- That was a very good performance.
- Very good.
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How can you remember all of that?
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This morning, I left Ukraine,
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drove to Poland,
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flew to London, took a train from Gatwick,
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and got here on time for your performance.
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Oh, my gosh. Oh, my gosh.
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Oh, my gosh.
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Uh, you fall down, not up.
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- Fall up! Fall up!
- Yeah.
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Maybe, Lynsey, you can
read the night story first.
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- Get it! Get it!
- You're back.
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- Get it! Get it! Get it!
- [laughs] Yeah.
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- You only have five weeks to...
- I don't really...
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Five weeks. You get no mercy.
262
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I'm not really up for reading
a bedtime story.
263
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No, no, you just do
a short one and then...
264
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- Oh, Paul.
- Alfred. Alfred.
265
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Do you want Mommy
to read you a night story?
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Yeah.
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This sucks so bad.
268
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"She lived with her mean stepmother
and her two silly stepsisters.
269
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Cinderella did everything
for her lazy family."
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Oh, yeah, that's much better.
271
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So when was the last time
Lukas had a bath?
272
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Um...
273
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- that's a good question. Um...
- Fuck!
274
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- He did have a shower...
- I mean, seriously, Paul.
275
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Yeah, I think he probably had something...
276
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That was like five days ago.
277
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That was on Sunday, Holi, wasn't it?
278
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Alright.
So do you want to walk to school tomorrow?
279
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- Yeah.
- Really?
280
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Wow. You must really have missed me.
281
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Is that Lukas or Alfred?
282
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- Lukas.
- What time does he go to bed?
283
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8:15. 8:30.
284
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What do you have to do
to put him to bed these days?
285
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[laughing] You've forgotten?
286
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Yeah, I have forgotten.
287
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Bed.
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Okay, you don't know how we do it.
289
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Then we watch a Modern Family.
290
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- Now?
- Yes.
291
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- Go get Daddy.
- Okay.
292
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Not with your iPad.
293
00:16:38,831 --> 00:16:39,999
I know.
294
00:16:47,048 --> 00:16:50,092
Oh, my God, kids are
so much harder than war.
295
00:16:50,176 --> 00:16:51,928
Oh, God.
296
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Um...
297
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I have all of the front pages here.
298
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- Then that one.
- Yeah, I like that one.
299
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That's the other one.
300
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And then this is a very good one.
301
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This one, obviously.
302
00:17:19,247 --> 00:17:22,250
{\an8}You know, the video of them
when they were getting mortared.
303
00:17:22,833 --> 00:17:24,418
{\an8}I mean, she didn't tell me about that.
304
00:17:24,502 --> 00:17:28,381
{\an8}And I saw it on,
on Twitter obviously first.
305
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And she says to me, "Oh, shit.
306
00:17:30,424 --> 00:17:33,427
Yeah, yeah, I didn't think
you'd see that."
307
00:17:34,178 --> 00:17:35,846
So that was stressful.
308
00:17:35,930 --> 00:17:37,473
But if you keep thinking
about those things,
309
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it's going to drive you nuts.
310
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So I don't.
311
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I would have used the other photo.
312
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I know...
313
00:17:42,895 --> 00:17:45,815
I was a journalist
running the Reuters bureau.
314
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So I think if we both
were going to do 24-hour news,
315
00:17:49,193 --> 00:17:50,820
I mean, it's just difficult, right?
316
00:17:50,903 --> 00:17:53,906
There's very few who are both journalists
and have a family.
317
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And that's not even when you're going
to a danger zone.
318
00:17:56,909 --> 00:17:59,537
It's just the news cycle.
It's kind of impossible.
319
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Oh, my God, I'm so tired.
320
00:18:01,914 --> 00:18:04,375
I didn't want her to change.
To be who she isn't.
321
00:18:06,085 --> 00:18:08,045
Hi, Mom. Say hi to Paul.
322
00:18:08,129 --> 00:18:09,880
Hi, Camille. How's it going?
323
00:18:10,840 --> 00:18:13,467
Hi. Are you happy, boy?
324
00:18:13,551 --> 00:18:15,428
I am. It's good to have her back.
325
00:18:15,511 --> 00:18:18,306
Now, I don't have to get up
at 5:20 every morning.
326
00:18:18,389 --> 00:18:20,057
I know!
327
00:18:20,141 --> 00:18:21,892
It's the only reason he's happy.
328
00:18:22,393 --> 00:18:24,270
When I first met him,
329
00:18:24,353 --> 00:18:28,316
I remember thinking, like,
who is this arrogant guy, you know?
330
00:18:28,399 --> 00:18:30,568
I thought she was really loud, American.
331
00:18:31,569 --> 00:18:34,113
But we had become
really, really good friends.
332
00:18:35,948 --> 00:18:39,118
{\an8}They're totally,
totally different backgrounds.
333
00:18:39,201 --> 00:18:42,496
Lynsey was brought up by hairdressers.
334
00:18:42,955 --> 00:18:45,750
Paul comes from a kind of wealthy family.
335
00:18:45,833 --> 00:18:47,710
{\an8}His father is a count,
336
00:18:47,793 --> 00:18:49,795
{\an8}and he's a count or something,
I don't know.
337
00:18:49,879 --> 00:18:53,132
Um, yeah. I mean, I grew up
very privileged, you know.
338
00:18:53,215 --> 00:18:55,968
My father grew up all his life in France.
339
00:18:56,510 --> 00:18:59,805
As a kid, he lived in a big
marble castle outside Monaco,
340
00:19:00,222 --> 00:19:02,099
where we had a big private zoo.
341
00:19:02,725 --> 00:19:04,560
Being in a relationship was something
342
00:19:04,644 --> 00:19:06,771
I always sort of romanticized.
343
00:19:06,854 --> 00:19:08,773
But the way I throw myself into my work,
344
00:19:09,190 --> 00:19:10,858
it's all-consuming.
345
00:19:10,941 --> 00:19:12,485
Most people can't deal with that.
346
00:19:13,611 --> 00:19:17,323
I never expected I would find
someone like Paul.
347
00:19:17,406 --> 00:19:19,033
You know, I was running
my teams and editing
348
00:19:19,116 --> 00:19:20,701
and writing and doing breaking news.
349
00:19:20,785 --> 00:19:23,913
I'd say, okay, I'm going, you know,
to Afghanistan for a month.
350
00:19:23,996 --> 00:19:25,539
And he'd say, okay.
351
00:19:26,540 --> 00:19:27,875
I knew I'd marry him.
352
00:19:36,342 --> 00:19:38,511
She sent a mass email to a group of women
353
00:19:38,594 --> 00:19:40,221
saying, "Guess what? I'm pregnant."
354
00:19:40,304 --> 00:19:42,431
{\an8}The next email was to me alone
355
00:19:42,515 --> 00:19:45,434
{\an8}to say, "And by the way,
I still want to do that story.
356
00:19:46,519 --> 00:19:48,646
{\an8}That's very much Lynsey.
357
00:19:50,064 --> 00:19:51,774
You have a 10-week-old baby.
358
00:19:51,857 --> 00:19:53,109
{\an8}I do.
359
00:19:54,402 --> 00:19:56,153
{\an8}Are you going to keep doing this?
360
00:19:56,987 --> 00:19:59,865
{\an8}Do you ask men that question?
361
00:19:59,949 --> 00:20:01,867
{\an8}It's the question
I've gotten probably
362
00:20:01,951 --> 00:20:04,620
{\an8}300 times in the last 10 weeks.
363
00:20:04,704 --> 00:20:06,414
{\an8}I've only had a baby 10 weeks.
364
00:20:08,833 --> 00:20:11,544
I started working three months
after giving birth,
365
00:20:12,670 --> 00:20:15,047
but I sort of slipped in the roster
366
00:20:15,131 --> 00:20:17,717
of who to call
when there were big stories.
367
00:20:20,428 --> 00:20:22,680
{\an8}Some editors gave me assignments,
368
00:20:23,180 --> 00:20:26,350
stories that were a little softer
and less political.
369
00:20:30,187 --> 00:20:32,440
But I'm a conflict photographer.
370
00:20:35,735 --> 00:20:37,778
I do this work because
I want to have impact,
371
00:20:37,862 --> 00:20:39,530
and I want to affect policy.
372
00:20:41,490 --> 00:20:43,659
And to take that away
from me really became
373
00:20:43,743 --> 00:20:45,369
like an identity crisis.
374
00:20:46,996 --> 00:20:50,416
I started doubting everything
about myself and my career.
375
00:20:52,626 --> 00:20:55,629
In 2018, I asked
the foreign picture editor
376
00:20:55,713 --> 00:20:57,465
if I can cover Mosul, and he said,
377
00:20:57,548 --> 00:20:59,800
"I'm not sending you Mosul.
You're a mother now."
378
00:20:59,884 --> 00:21:01,802
I said, "Look,
if you have an issue with me,
379
00:21:01,886 --> 00:21:04,430
"I will provide you tomorrow
with a list of ten women
380
00:21:04,513 --> 00:21:06,432
you need to be hiring
for The New York Times."
381
00:21:06,515 --> 00:21:09,268
He sits back, and he had a whiskey
in his hand, I'll never forget.
382
00:21:09,351 --> 00:21:11,437
He sits back like this,
and he has a whiskey.
383
00:21:11,520 --> 00:21:13,939
And he was like, um,
384
00:21:14,023 --> 00:21:17,568
"I've worked for the
New York Times for seven years,
385
00:21:17,651 --> 00:21:20,237
"and there just are no women
in the world good enough
386
00:21:20,321 --> 00:21:22,156
for The New York Times."
387
00:21:25,242 --> 00:21:26,911
There's very much a narrative today
388
00:21:26,994 --> 00:21:29,413
that the profession
has been dominated by men.
389
00:21:34,335 --> 00:21:36,837
{\an8}But there have been women
photographing war
390
00:21:36,921 --> 00:21:39,548
from the beginning of war photography.
391
00:21:40,549 --> 00:21:43,219
{\an8}The main challenge
is being underestimated.
392
00:21:45,638 --> 00:21:48,432
{\an8}The assumption is a female photographer
393
00:21:48,516 --> 00:21:50,309
{\an8}is somehow less equipped,
394
00:21:50,392 --> 00:21:53,020
{\an8}covering conflict
and covering high risk stories.
395
00:21:55,105 --> 00:21:58,234
{\an8}We want to really strive
for the visual authors
396
00:21:58,317 --> 00:22:00,903
{\an8}of our journalism to be as reflective
397
00:22:00,986 --> 00:22:03,864
{\an8}of the world that we're trying
to cover as possible...
398
00:22:05,491 --> 00:22:08,744
{\an8}which means that you need
the widest possible representation.
399
00:22:10,955 --> 00:22:14,166
{\an8}Cameras are in the hands
of more people than ever before.
400
00:22:14,875 --> 00:22:17,294
{\an8}That's shifting the kinds
of pictures we see,
401
00:22:17,378 --> 00:22:18,879
the stories we're seeing.
402
00:22:22,049 --> 00:22:26,345
So much happens in war
that is meant to never be seen.
403
00:22:34,061 --> 00:22:35,479
In the Iraq War,
404
00:22:35,563 --> 00:22:38,983
I remember just witnessing
all this brutality
405
00:22:41,402 --> 00:22:44,738
I realized the fundamental
importance of journalism.
406
00:22:46,448 --> 00:22:47,992
That was the moment
407
00:22:48,075 --> 00:22:51,495
where I thought, this is everything to me.
408
00:22:53,372 --> 00:22:57,877
I knew that I wouldn't do
anything else ever.
409
00:23:02,047 --> 00:23:04,049
You know,
she's really good at what she does.
410
00:23:04,466 --> 00:23:06,719
What that means, like,
really fundamentally, is
411
00:23:06,802 --> 00:23:09,972
you go into, like,
these really terrible places
412
00:23:10,055 --> 00:23:12,766
{\an8}where most people wouldn't go
in a million years.
413
00:23:13,142 --> 00:23:14,768
{\an8}You kind of find your way in,
414
00:23:15,436 --> 00:23:18,898
{\an8}and you capture the human drama,
415
00:23:18,981 --> 00:23:21,609
like in a second, and then you get out.
416
00:23:21,692 --> 00:23:23,819
And she's really good at that.
417
00:23:23,903 --> 00:23:25,988
You know, the proof of that
is, is in her pictures
418
00:23:27,114 --> 00:23:28,449
and that she's still alive.
419
00:23:32,077 --> 00:23:35,581
We were in Iraq for the worst of the war.
420
00:23:36,749 --> 00:23:39,293
The Americans came and, like,
the country disintegrated
421
00:23:39,376 --> 00:23:40,920
into anarchy.
422
00:23:41,003 --> 00:23:42,755
And we were in the middle of that.
423
00:23:47,801 --> 00:23:50,471
[on speaker] Allahu Akbar!
424
00:23:52,097 --> 00:23:54,183
People didn't have electricity.
425
00:23:54,266 --> 00:23:56,644
They couldn't get propane for cooking.
426
00:23:57,227 --> 00:23:59,271
They couldn't get money out of the banks.
427
00:24:00,105 --> 00:24:01,690
Chaos.
428
00:24:02,274 --> 00:24:04,109
The protests...
429
00:24:04,193 --> 00:24:07,279
...kind of
the genesis of the insurgency.
430
00:24:13,953 --> 00:24:16,830
{\an8}I wanna do a raid story. Like a mystery.
431
00:24:17,456 --> 00:24:18,958
{\an8}We all lived in a house together.
432
00:24:19,041 --> 00:24:20,084
{\an8}The New York Times.
433
00:24:20,167 --> 00:24:22,962
{\an8}There were about five reporters
and a couple photographers.
434
00:24:23,045 --> 00:24:26,423
{\an8}I think we had 45 armed gunmen
435
00:24:26,507 --> 00:24:27,716
protecting the place.
436
00:24:27,800 --> 00:24:29,510
We had blast walls,
437
00:24:29,969 --> 00:24:31,720
uh, belt-fed machine guns.
438
00:24:31,804 --> 00:24:34,348
It was a fortress.
It was like a full-on fortress.
439
00:24:35,265 --> 00:24:37,393
Eyewitnesses say gunmen opened fire,
440
00:24:37,476 --> 00:24:40,062
killing at least four foreigners inside.
441
00:24:40,145 --> 00:24:42,022
But the victims were wearing
civilian clothes
442
00:24:42,106 --> 00:24:46,193
and bulletproof vests, commonly used
by foreign contractors, the media...
443
00:24:46,276 --> 00:24:47,736
Before the invasion of Iraq,
444
00:24:47,820 --> 00:24:49,697
there was still this kind
of unwritten rule
445
00:24:49,780 --> 00:24:52,866
that, like, you don't kill
American reporters.
446
00:24:53,200 --> 00:24:56,537
Completely different. Um, we were targets.
447
00:24:56,620 --> 00:24:57,788
They were coming after us.
448
00:25:03,460 --> 00:25:07,423
Lynsey and another reporter,
Jeffrey, got in a car.
449
00:25:07,506 --> 00:25:09,174
They decided to go to Fallujah.
450
00:25:09,758 --> 00:25:11,802
Terrible place. Very dangerous.
451
00:25:15,264 --> 00:25:16,682
They got kidnapped.
452
00:25:17,850 --> 00:25:20,853
They saw Jeffrey and they said,
we got an American.
453
00:25:21,145 --> 00:25:23,313
They took him to their car.
You know, that's the end.
454
00:25:24,690 --> 00:25:27,735
My first instinct is
they're gonna kill him.
455
00:25:27,818 --> 00:25:31,196
And so I jumped out of the car
after Jeffrey and grabbed his arm
456
00:25:31,280 --> 00:25:32,573
and said, "This man's my husband.
457
00:25:32,656 --> 00:25:34,158
He's my husband." Like this, you know.
458
00:25:34,742 --> 00:25:36,201
Immediately, "Where are you from?
459
00:25:36,285 --> 00:25:37,494
What are you doing here?"
460
00:25:38,203 --> 00:25:39,872
And, of course, the last thing
you want to be in Iraq
461
00:25:39,955 --> 00:25:41,498
at that point was an American.
462
00:25:41,582 --> 00:25:42,958
So I took my two passports
463
00:25:43,042 --> 00:25:46,170
and managed to slip them
in my underwear under my abaya.
464
00:25:47,046 --> 00:25:49,506
We're journalists.
I'm Italian. He's Greek.
465
00:25:50,174 --> 00:25:51,300
She saved him.
466
00:25:52,134 --> 00:25:53,135
They didn't know what to do.
467
00:25:53,218 --> 00:25:54,595
And they finally said, okay, like,
468
00:25:55,387 --> 00:25:56,430
get out of here.
469
00:25:56,513 --> 00:25:57,556
And they let him go.
470
00:25:58,348 --> 00:26:00,809
Um, that close.
471
00:26:03,187 --> 00:26:07,066
Before that happened,
I thought I was invincible.
472
00:26:12,446 --> 00:26:14,782
Journalists have definitely become targets
473
00:26:14,865 --> 00:26:16,200
more and more.
474
00:26:18,243 --> 00:26:20,037
{\an8}Not only killed, but kidnapped,
475
00:26:20,120 --> 00:26:21,789
{\an8}beaten, threatened.
476
00:26:23,207 --> 00:26:26,418
{\an8}That is happening
increasingly around the world.
477
00:26:27,795 --> 00:26:31,006
{\an8}She is the twelfth Al Jazeera
journalist killed.
478
00:26:31,090 --> 00:26:33,634
{\an8}He was apparently
beheaded by ISIS militants.
479
00:26:33,717 --> 00:26:35,511
{\an8}Shelled by the Syrian military.
480
00:26:44,937 --> 00:26:46,230
[in English] Go, go, go.
481
00:26:48,357 --> 00:26:49,399
No helmet?
482
00:26:50,818 --> 00:26:52,111
[in English] He's immortal.
483
00:26:52,194 --> 00:26:54,279
Oh, fuck me. That's like...
484
00:26:54,780 --> 00:26:56,198
Don't say that.
485
00:26:56,824 --> 00:26:58,784
Jesus Christ, there's no wood.
486
00:27:00,661 --> 00:27:02,496
Where are the Russian positions?
487
00:27:02,579 --> 00:27:04,081
Where are the Russian positions?
488
00:27:04,164 --> 00:27:05,624
We're driving to them.
489
00:27:05,707 --> 00:27:07,584
We drive just to Russian positions.
490
00:27:12,422 --> 00:27:15,467
- Could be mines.
- Oh, Jesus Christ.
491
00:27:16,468 --> 00:27:17,803
Be careful.
492
00:27:20,264 --> 00:27:21,348
One more time.
493
00:27:25,102 --> 00:27:26,562
Look at how Yulia does it.
494
00:27:29,648 --> 00:27:32,276
My name is Yulia Bondarenko.
495
00:27:32,651 --> 00:27:34,194
And I'm 30.
496
00:27:34,945 --> 00:27:38,782
Tell me a little about your life
before you joined the military.
497
00:27:39,783 --> 00:27:43,078
Oh, now I know that I have
498
00:27:43,161 --> 00:27:46,373
a really great life before war.
499
00:27:47,040 --> 00:27:48,500
I read a lot.
500
00:27:48,584 --> 00:27:50,919
It was really simple
501
00:27:51,712 --> 00:27:55,549
but really great life.
502
00:27:55,632 --> 00:27:57,509
Yulia is one of the soldiers
503
00:27:57,593 --> 00:27:59,344
I met on the second day of the war
504
00:27:59,428 --> 00:28:00,929
who was a teacher.
505
00:28:01,013 --> 00:28:03,974
The response to that photograph
of her was huge.
506
00:28:04,057 --> 00:28:06,018
And, like, it encapsulated
507
00:28:06,101 --> 00:28:08,353
so much of people who are just offering
508
00:28:08,437 --> 00:28:10,731
themselves up despite how scared they are.
509
00:28:10,814 --> 00:28:13,483
And so my idea is
to follow her for a year.
510
00:28:13,984 --> 00:28:15,777
Did you imagine yourself, like,
511
00:28:15,861 --> 00:28:17,821
getting married and having children?
512
00:28:17,905 --> 00:28:20,782
And what do you think now
about your future?
513
00:28:21,450 --> 00:28:26,622
No, it's really scared to have children
514
00:28:27,289 --> 00:28:30,250
because I know
515
00:28:30,334 --> 00:28:34,171
that I can do different things.
516
00:28:34,254 --> 00:28:36,840
I don't be afraid about myself.
517
00:28:36,924 --> 00:28:38,884
But if I have children,
518
00:28:38,967 --> 00:28:41,219
it will be very difficult for me.
519
00:28:43,263 --> 00:28:44,848
Are we in the quadrant of the city
520
00:28:44,932 --> 00:28:46,558
- that gets hit all the time?
- Yeah.
521
00:28:46,642 --> 00:28:48,018
And we're next to a military base.
522
00:28:48,101 --> 00:28:50,771
- Yeah.
- Oh, fuck.
523
00:28:54,733 --> 00:28:56,818
- Not very far away.
- No, no.
524
00:28:56,902 --> 00:28:58,195
Fucking hell.
525
00:28:58,278 --> 00:29:00,322
- It's close.
- Very close.
526
00:29:00,405 --> 00:29:01,782
Should we not stay here?
527
00:29:01,865 --> 00:29:03,408
- Yeah, probably.
- Let's go to the hospital.
528
00:29:03,492 --> 00:29:04,743
Should we go to the hospital?
529
00:29:06,703 --> 00:29:10,123
Some of the best stories are
in the most dangerous places.
530
00:29:10,207 --> 00:29:13,251
I have to constantly weigh
what will I risk my life for?
531
00:29:13,335 --> 00:29:15,921
And it's often civilians.
532
00:29:17,422 --> 00:29:20,342
I live like this under shelling...
533
00:29:20,425 --> 00:29:22,844
all day and night!
534
00:29:28,600 --> 00:29:31,061
Those missiles you say
that have no shrapnel.
535
00:29:31,144 --> 00:29:32,604
This is why bombs are lethal.
536
00:29:32,688 --> 00:29:35,065
Because this flies
through you and you die.
537
00:29:45,826 --> 00:29:47,411
They destroyed my house.
538
00:29:47,494 --> 00:29:50,789
They destroyed the apartment,
burned it all down.
539
00:29:51,289 --> 00:29:53,792
There is nothing in Mariupol,
there is nothing.
540
00:29:54,459 --> 00:29:59,589
We were in Zaporizhzhia
photographing the exodus out of Mariupol.
541
00:29:59,673 --> 00:30:02,676
And it was while Mariupol
was still under siege.
542
00:30:06,221 --> 00:30:08,015
There were families
who had lived underground
543
00:30:08,098 --> 00:30:09,433
for six weeks.
544
00:30:10,475 --> 00:30:12,185
Most people didn't make it out.
545
00:30:12,269 --> 00:30:14,688
And the people who did,
they were just destroyed.
546
00:30:16,565 --> 00:30:19,401
I heard a girl crying.
547
00:30:19,484 --> 00:30:23,447
She and her mother escaped
the week before.
548
00:30:23,530 --> 00:30:26,074
And they left her
18-year-old sister behind
549
00:30:26,158 --> 00:30:28,118
because her 18-year-old sister
had a boyfriend
550
00:30:28,201 --> 00:30:29,661
that she didn't want to leave.
551
00:30:30,328 --> 00:30:33,457
The girl thought she would
never see her sister again.
552
00:30:33,540 --> 00:30:36,293
And her sister pulled up a week later.
553
00:30:46,428 --> 00:30:49,890
♪ I do my hair toss check my nails ♪
554
00:30:49,973 --> 00:30:52,309
♪ Baby, how you feeling?
Feeling good as hell! ♪
555
00:30:52,392 --> 00:30:55,645
The real war is not the same
as the movies.
556
00:30:56,313 --> 00:31:01,318
To joke about death, about amputation...
557
00:31:01,401 --> 00:31:05,655
it helps us to pass
this moment of the fear.
558
00:31:08,533 --> 00:31:10,118
Going to sleep thinking,
559
00:31:10,202 --> 00:31:12,496
I hope a missile doesn't come
through my window at night.
560
00:31:12,579 --> 00:31:15,540
{\an8}Because we've been all been
sleeping in buildings where,
561
00:31:15,624 --> 00:31:17,042
{\an8}you know, that are next door to buildings
562
00:31:17,125 --> 00:31:18,376
{\an8}where the missile has come in
563
00:31:18,460 --> 00:31:20,587
and simply by chance not been in them.
564
00:31:20,670 --> 00:31:25,092
♪ If it makes you happy ♪
565
00:31:26,051 --> 00:31:27,761
War is unpredictable.
566
00:31:28,428 --> 00:31:30,764
And you realize every moment...
567
00:31:32,474 --> 00:31:34,309
could be the last one.
568
00:31:39,314 --> 00:31:40,649
Hi, Lyns.
569
00:31:41,358 --> 00:31:42,567
Hi, Mom.
570
00:31:44,486 --> 00:31:45,737
How are you?
571
00:31:45,821 --> 00:31:47,364
Good. You're frozen.
572
00:31:48,865 --> 00:31:52,327
So I was supposed to leave today,
but there's a curfew.
573
00:31:52,410 --> 00:31:54,329
Leave to come home? Oh, thank God.
574
00:31:54,412 --> 00:31:57,207
Don't jinx it. I told Lisa that, she--
575
00:31:57,290 --> 00:31:59,793
No, no, no, no, no, no,
I'm not jinxing it.
576
00:31:59,876 --> 00:32:02,337
I'm just happy to see your face.
577
00:32:05,006 --> 00:32:08,009
Because I don't turn on the TV. Yeah.
578
00:32:08,093 --> 00:32:09,636
Yeah. Better you don't.
579
00:32:10,428 --> 00:32:12,180
Uh, it's all fine.
580
00:32:12,764 --> 00:32:15,767
There's nothing. It's fine.
We're totally safe here.
581
00:32:17,060 --> 00:32:19,437
One of us would check in,
and we would just relay, like,
582
00:32:19,521 --> 00:32:20,981
{\an8}Lyns is fine, you know.
583
00:32:21,064 --> 00:32:24,192
{\an8}And then we would send it out
to the parents. To us.
584
00:32:24,276 --> 00:32:27,404
That happened twice a day
the entire time she's in Ukraine.
585
00:32:27,487 --> 00:32:29,781
Yeah, yeah.
So morning and evening check-ins.
586
00:32:33,702 --> 00:32:35,745
I'm the youngest of four girls,
587
00:32:35,829 --> 00:32:38,373
so I always looked up to my sisters
588
00:32:38,456 --> 00:32:40,000
and wanted to be with them.
589
00:32:41,793 --> 00:32:43,920
- She was a little...
- She was a whiner.
590
00:32:44,004 --> 00:32:47,382
Kind of a pain in the ass, but fearless.
591
00:32:47,465 --> 00:32:49,676
Like, from the day that she was born.
592
00:32:51,511 --> 00:32:53,388
She didn't learn how to swim.
593
00:32:53,471 --> 00:32:56,516
She just jumped in the pool
and started swimming.
594
00:32:57,309 --> 00:33:00,145
The two middle ones
were attached to the hip,
595
00:33:00,228 --> 00:33:02,063
and they always picked on her.
596
00:33:02,147 --> 00:33:04,274
We would hang signs around her neck
597
00:33:04,357 --> 00:33:06,985
when she was sleeping
that said, like, "I'm ugly."
598
00:33:07,068 --> 00:33:11,072
Apparently, I opened up a can of soda
and poured it over her head.
599
00:33:11,156 --> 00:33:15,869
But we often say that that's
what made her who she is today.
600
00:33:15,952 --> 00:33:18,121
- Yeah.
- Because we toughened her up,
601
00:33:18,205 --> 00:33:20,332
and we were relentless.
602
00:33:20,415 --> 00:33:21,875
- She was at war.
- Yeah.
603
00:33:28,006 --> 00:33:31,551
My parents were both
hairdressers in Connecticut.
604
00:33:32,427 --> 00:33:34,512
There were a lot of creative people
605
00:33:34,596 --> 00:33:38,016
that worked for us, and we had
a lot of creative friends.
606
00:33:39,100 --> 00:33:40,936
They had parties constantly.
607
00:33:41,019 --> 00:33:44,272
- Drag queens dressed up.
- It was very colorful.
608
00:33:44,356 --> 00:33:46,608
Everybody was welcome. Always welcome.
609
00:33:46,691 --> 00:33:47,817
Non-judgmental.
610
00:33:47,901 --> 00:33:49,402
I think that's probably
more than anything.
611
00:33:50,403 --> 00:33:52,322
I didn't grow up in a family
612
00:33:52,405 --> 00:33:55,784
where we went to museums
or galleries on the weekend.
613
00:33:55,867 --> 00:33:57,953
We were anything but intellectual.
614
00:33:58,036 --> 00:34:00,538
You know, we didn't even have books
in our house growing up.
615
00:34:02,415 --> 00:34:05,085
I remember our family being really happy.
616
00:34:05,168 --> 00:34:06,836
And then when I was eight,
617
00:34:06,920 --> 00:34:10,465
I remember my mom just,
like, piling us into the car
618
00:34:10,548 --> 00:34:13,385
and driving to the parking lot and saying,
619
00:34:13,468 --> 00:34:16,012
your dad is going to live
with a friend in New York
620
00:34:16,096 --> 00:34:17,764
and he's not coming back.
621
00:34:17,847 --> 00:34:20,225
And I thought, oh, he's going
to live with a roommate,
622
00:34:20,308 --> 00:34:21,476
like he's going to live with a friend.
623
00:34:21,559 --> 00:34:22,811
You know, I had no idea.
624
00:34:22,894 --> 00:34:24,479
I did not connect the dots at all.
625
00:34:25,230 --> 00:34:27,941
He was married,
so I assumed he wasn't gay.
626
00:34:28,024 --> 00:34:32,112
{\an8}But obviously I knew he was gay
when he approached me.
627
00:34:32,862 --> 00:34:36,700
The transition from him
being our mom's best friend
628
00:34:36,783 --> 00:34:39,160
to being our dad's boyfriend
629
00:34:39,244 --> 00:34:41,913
was rougher on our mom, obviously.
630
00:34:41,997 --> 00:34:44,040
For us, it didn't seem like a betrayal
631
00:34:44,124 --> 00:34:47,002
because it was all very friendly,
632
00:34:47,085 --> 00:34:48,336
but it was like the talk of the town.
633
00:34:48,420 --> 00:34:50,588
And that part was really, really hard.
634
00:34:52,966 --> 00:34:55,135
I really struggled with my dad.
635
00:34:55,218 --> 00:34:57,721
We were always in touch.
I would go to his house.
636
00:34:57,804 --> 00:35:01,016
But there was a lot of, like,
underlying resentment.
637
00:35:07,272 --> 00:35:10,650
One of the clients gave my dad
a camera, and he gave it to me
638
00:35:10,734 --> 00:35:12,569
when I was like 12 or 13.
639
00:35:14,112 --> 00:35:17,115
I was obsessed, and I would
just stay in the dark room
640
00:35:17,198 --> 00:35:18,867
until all hours of the night.
641
00:35:22,954 --> 00:35:25,874
I wasn't really aware of photojournalism.
642
00:35:27,125 --> 00:35:31,546
I studied international relations
and Italian at University of Wisconsin,
643
00:35:32,172 --> 00:35:35,759
but when I graduated,
all I wanted to do was photograph.
644
00:35:36,635 --> 00:35:40,472
I realized that you can
tell stories with pictures.
645
00:35:41,848 --> 00:35:44,726
And then my camera became
this sort of excuse
646
00:35:44,809 --> 00:35:48,271
for walking in and out of,
like, any situation,
647
00:35:48,355 --> 00:35:50,357
I could just sort of say,
"I want to take pictures.
648
00:35:50,440 --> 00:35:51,900
Can I come in?"
649
00:35:51,983 --> 00:35:53,735
So I was traveling
650
00:35:53,818 --> 00:35:56,237
and kind of meeting people
because I had a camera.
651
00:36:01,159 --> 00:36:04,245
Mom!
652
00:36:04,329 --> 00:36:06,706
- Mom!
- Alfred.
653
00:36:06,790 --> 00:36:08,291
You want more bread, Alfie?
654
00:36:08,375 --> 00:36:09,626
Cheese!
655
00:36:09,709 --> 00:36:12,087
Alfred, are you going to be
a photographer like Mummy?
656
00:36:12,170 --> 00:36:13,421
Yeah!
657
00:36:13,505 --> 00:36:15,507
He's not allowed
to be a photographer!
658
00:36:17,050 --> 00:36:20,303
Fears of renewed
strikes by Russian forces.
659
00:36:20,387 --> 00:36:22,305
More than five
and a half thousand civilians
660
00:36:22,389 --> 00:36:24,557
are thought to have been killed
in the fighting.
661
00:36:28,770 --> 00:36:29,771
Lukas?
662
00:36:29,854 --> 00:36:31,189
Yeah. I'm just...
663
00:36:31,272 --> 00:36:32,941
I'm putting this away.
664
00:36:34,442 --> 00:36:36,069
- What is that?
- Nothing.
665
00:36:36,653 --> 00:36:37,737
What is this?
666
00:36:40,448 --> 00:36:42,909
- What is it?
- It's a plate.
667
00:36:45,620 --> 00:36:46,830
From my vest.
668
00:36:49,165 --> 00:36:53,545
Lukas is definitely becoming more aware,
669
00:36:53,878 --> 00:36:57,215
but he has a lot of, like,
protective mechanisms
670
00:36:57,298 --> 00:36:59,926
where he just either shuts down
671
00:37:00,009 --> 00:37:03,304
or he pretends like it doesn't matter.
672
00:37:03,972 --> 00:37:06,766
He kind of just doesn't talk
about anything.
673
00:37:07,642 --> 00:37:10,103
[on TV] When the left
balance of the universe...
674
00:37:10,186 --> 00:37:13,440
The teacher said
Alfred cried when another mom...
675
00:37:13,523 --> 00:37:15,692
the kids said he's
seeing Mom after school.
676
00:37:15,775 --> 00:37:17,986
- And Alfred--
- Oh, great, why don't you just
677
00:37:18,069 --> 00:37:20,196
make me feel a little worse?
678
00:37:20,280 --> 00:37:22,490
Why don't you?
679
00:37:22,574 --> 00:37:23,950
- Holy crap.
- He was crying,
680
00:37:24,033 --> 00:37:26,494
- and Sarah had to cuddle him.
- Oh, God.
681
00:37:26,578 --> 00:37:27,912
It was a bit sensitive.
682
00:37:35,879 --> 00:37:39,424
When I'm not shooting,
I'm so stretched thin.
683
00:37:40,049 --> 00:37:44,012
I'm trying to close stories,
edit, caption.
684
00:37:45,430 --> 00:37:47,640
All of this is very much on deadline.
685
00:37:50,894 --> 00:37:52,729
Since the war,
686
00:37:52,812 --> 00:37:56,274
she's been gone quite a lot, you know.
687
00:37:56,357 --> 00:37:57,525
One month in Ukraine,
688
00:37:57,609 --> 00:38:00,195
then maybe back two weeks, then maybe
689
00:38:00,278 --> 00:38:02,155
speaking engagement or an exhibition
690
00:38:02,238 --> 00:38:04,282
and then back a little bit.
691
00:38:04,824 --> 00:38:08,203
- Your name is Mommy?
- Yeah, my name is Mommy.
692
00:38:08,286 --> 00:38:10,413
Then Ukraine
and then something else.
693
00:38:15,794 --> 00:38:19,088
{\an8}If you want to stay relevant,
you got to be available all the time.
694
00:38:19,547 --> 00:38:22,091
She's worried about it. Gets older.
695
00:38:22,175 --> 00:38:23,551
You know, if she doesn't do these things,
696
00:38:23,635 --> 00:38:25,303
even if she's an amazing photographer,
697
00:38:25,386 --> 00:38:26,721
you know, they won't assign her.
698
00:38:29,265 --> 00:38:32,560
One of us has to be
a constant in the kids' lives.
699
00:38:33,436 --> 00:38:36,940
Paul left Reuters.
He started doing consulting.
700
00:38:37,023 --> 00:38:38,983
That enabled us to have a family.
701
00:38:39,067 --> 00:38:40,235
- Nice?
- Yeah.
702
00:38:40,318 --> 00:38:42,320
- You like it?
- He's the one the school calls.
703
00:38:42,403 --> 00:38:44,239
He's the one who goes
to all the PTA meetings.
704
00:38:44,322 --> 00:38:46,282
He's the one who takes them
to school in the morning.
705
00:38:47,992 --> 00:38:49,953
I've set it up so that if something
706
00:38:50,036 --> 00:38:52,288
does happen to me, they have Paul.
707
00:38:57,460 --> 00:38:59,838
So are you training every day now?
708
00:38:59,921 --> 00:39:00,922
Yes.
709
00:39:02,590 --> 00:39:04,092
And are you still scared?
710
00:39:04,676 --> 00:39:09,222
Um. You know, I'm, uh...
711
00:39:09,973 --> 00:39:12,308
All these weeks, I couldn't cry.
712
00:39:13,268 --> 00:39:18,189
I don't know why,
because I saw terrible videos,
713
00:39:18,273 --> 00:39:23,236
photos with, uh, that people, children...
714
00:39:23,987 --> 00:39:29,659
Uh, but now I'm just angry,
715
00:39:30,785 --> 00:39:32,579
and I'm not afraid now.
716
00:39:35,206 --> 00:39:37,792
I know I'm gonna regret
not going to the forest position
717
00:39:37,876 --> 00:39:39,168
- if I don't go.
- You are?
718
00:39:40,128 --> 00:39:42,714
Yeah, of course I am.
I always regret everything.
719
00:39:43,590 --> 00:39:45,884
You will regret going
if you lose your legs,
720
00:39:45,967 --> 00:39:47,218
so, I mean...
721
00:39:47,302 --> 00:39:48,344
I know.
722
00:39:54,726 --> 00:39:56,644
Does anyone
actually man this weapon
723
00:39:56,728 --> 00:39:57,979
or do they just keep it here?
724
00:39:58,521 --> 00:40:00,398
We are waiting, ma'am, for the...
725
00:40:01,190 --> 00:40:02,942
Oh, we're wait...
They're putting their makeup on.
726
00:40:06,946 --> 00:40:08,531
Oh, my God.
727
00:40:09,032 --> 00:40:10,283
The nose.
728
00:40:11,826 --> 00:40:14,120
You definitely know you're
too far from the frontline
729
00:40:14,203 --> 00:40:15,663
if the soldiers have to go put
730
00:40:15,747 --> 00:40:18,458
their flak jackets on for the media.
731
00:40:20,710 --> 00:40:22,545
They just want to see
our daily activities,
732
00:40:22,629 --> 00:40:24,422
what we are doing...
733
00:40:24,505 --> 00:40:26,007
I-I can't deal with this.
734
00:40:26,090 --> 00:40:28,009
Should we just go somewhere else?
735
00:40:28,092 --> 00:40:29,802
I'll take a picture so they're happy
736
00:40:29,886 --> 00:40:32,305
because they put on
clothes for the camera.
737
00:40:32,388 --> 00:40:34,307
They probably bring journalists
here every day.
738
00:40:35,016 --> 00:40:38,311
I'm in such a bad mood,
and this light is so bad.
739
00:40:43,274 --> 00:40:44,651
I don't want to be on the front.
740
00:40:44,734 --> 00:40:46,611
I need to be on the front.
741
00:40:46,694 --> 00:40:49,614
It's too dangerous at the front.
Why are we at the front?
742
00:40:52,241 --> 00:40:54,911
Welcome to the inner workings of my brain.
743
00:40:58,831 --> 00:41:01,542
A war zone doesn't mean
there's, like, active combat
744
00:41:01,626 --> 00:41:03,419
in every single part of the country.
745
00:41:04,212 --> 00:41:06,130
In Ukraine, there are certain places
746
00:41:06,214 --> 00:41:08,174
that get hit more than others.
747
00:41:08,675 --> 00:41:11,302
But, like, in Kyiv, life goes on.
748
00:41:20,895 --> 00:41:23,481
Ukraine has always been
one of the top places
749
00:41:23,564 --> 00:41:25,358
for surrogacy around the world.
750
00:41:25,817 --> 00:41:28,695
When the war started,
those families couldn't come
751
00:41:28,778 --> 00:41:30,488
and pick up their babies.
752
00:41:30,571 --> 00:41:32,281
Maybe you can take one with you!
753
00:41:33,700 --> 00:41:35,034
And there were so many women
754
00:41:35,118 --> 00:41:37,412
who were pregnant
with other people's babies.
755
00:41:38,329 --> 00:41:42,041
Do you mind if we film
your face or without?
756
00:41:42,125 --> 00:41:43,376
Without.
757
00:41:43,459 --> 00:41:44,961
- Without face.
- Without face. Okay.
758
00:41:45,044 --> 00:41:46,587
And the kids are okay.
759
00:41:46,671 --> 00:41:48,673
But if kids end up in the shot, it's okay?
760
00:41:48,756 --> 00:41:51,175
- Where will they show it?
- In America.
761
00:41:51,259 --> 00:41:53,594
We don't know anybody in America, so...
762
00:41:53,678 --> 00:41:56,305
Okay. She doesn't know anyone
in the US at least.
763
00:41:56,889 --> 00:41:59,851
Yeah, but it... just...
764
00:41:59,934 --> 00:42:01,561
In case they're on the internet or...
765
00:42:01,644 --> 00:42:05,440
But... it can still get spread around.
766
00:42:06,065 --> 00:42:09,360
I'm carrying our Chinese prince.
767
00:42:09,777 --> 00:42:11,070
I'm protecting him.
768
00:42:16,200 --> 00:42:17,326
Where are the parents from?
769
00:42:17,410 --> 00:42:18,745
Are you carrying a boy or a girl?
770
00:42:18,828 --> 00:42:20,705
A girl. From Brazil.
771
00:42:26,586 --> 00:42:29,130
These women
who give birth for other women
772
00:42:29,213 --> 00:42:30,757
are sort of like these angels.
773
00:42:30,840 --> 00:42:32,925
You know, they come in,
and they bring life
774
00:42:33,009 --> 00:42:36,054
in situations where not everyone can.
775
00:42:40,850 --> 00:42:42,518
We had a surrogate for Alfred...
776
00:42:44,395 --> 00:42:47,231
and so, of course, I felt that connection.
777
00:42:53,362 --> 00:42:56,157
I had a big car accident in 2009,
778
00:42:56,240 --> 00:42:57,784
- Deep breath.
- ...where I was thrown
779
00:42:57,867 --> 00:43:00,036
out of a car on a highway in Pakistan.
780
00:43:01,913 --> 00:43:04,957
My back got progressively
worse over the years,
781
00:43:05,583 --> 00:43:07,710
and after I gave birth to Lukas,
782
00:43:07,794 --> 00:43:09,754
everything kind of fell apart.
783
00:43:11,464 --> 00:43:14,258
When we were thinking
about having another child,
784
00:43:14,342 --> 00:43:17,386
for me, it just didn't even
seem like a possibility.
785
00:43:17,470 --> 00:43:18,971
- You okay?
- Yeah.
786
00:43:20,973 --> 00:43:23,559
I spend most of my free time
787
00:43:23,643 --> 00:43:26,479
just getting strong again
to go on assignment.
788
00:43:26,562 --> 00:43:28,231
- Oh, shit.
- I did it!
789
00:43:30,316 --> 00:43:32,151
Only 20 kilos.
790
00:43:32,777 --> 00:43:36,155
Exercise is a major part of my life.
791
00:43:40,910 --> 00:43:43,496
It's how I ground myself.
792
00:43:44,163 --> 00:43:48,417
It's where I give myself
the space to process things.
793
00:43:50,586 --> 00:43:53,381
It's the only way I'm going
to be able to stay
794
00:43:53,464 --> 00:43:56,425
in this profession
longer than a few years.
795
00:43:58,427 --> 00:44:00,221
This is my life, you know.
796
00:44:02,140 --> 00:44:04,767
She is on a mission, always,
797
00:44:05,434 --> 00:44:08,229
singly focused and singly driven
798
00:44:08,312 --> 00:44:11,357
about what she needs to do in the world.
799
00:44:11,440 --> 00:44:14,569
She will do that at all costs.
800
00:44:17,238 --> 00:44:19,031
When each of us got married,
801
00:44:19,115 --> 00:44:24,287
our dads gave us $10,000
for our wedding gift.
802
00:44:25,288 --> 00:44:27,623
Lyns went to Dad and Bruce
803
00:44:27,707 --> 00:44:29,959
and said, "I'm never getting married,
804
00:44:30,042 --> 00:44:32,461
so I want the ten grand
to buy camera equipment."
805
00:44:34,422 --> 00:44:36,424
In the late '90s, I worked for the AP.
806
00:44:39,760 --> 00:44:41,596
{\an8}But my interest has always been abroad,
807
00:44:42,471 --> 00:44:45,391
so I moved to India in 2000.
808
00:44:48,144 --> 00:44:51,022
I started becoming aware
of women's issues...
809
00:44:52,982 --> 00:44:55,067
...and the fact that
most women around the world
810
00:44:55,151 --> 00:44:56,986
don't have any basic rights.
811
00:44:59,572 --> 00:45:01,699
Going to Afghanistan under the Taliban.
812
00:45:04,285 --> 00:45:07,955
Girls are only allowed to stay in school
until they're about 12.
813
00:45:08,956 --> 00:45:12,752
Women were not able to leave the house
without their husband's permission
814
00:45:12,835 --> 00:45:14,295
or work outside of the home.
815
00:45:16,297 --> 00:45:20,092
Many had been abused or been forced
into arranged marriages.
816
00:45:24,680 --> 00:45:26,599
When I first started working
in Afghanistan,
817
00:45:26,682 --> 00:45:29,602
I couldn't give away
those pictures for free.
818
00:45:32,188 --> 00:45:34,065
And then September 11th happened.
819
00:45:38,486 --> 00:45:40,529
Just when all the news organizations
820
00:45:40,613 --> 00:45:42,990
{\an8}were trying to figure out
all those different stories
821
00:45:43,074 --> 00:45:45,493
{\an8}related to the aftermath
822
00:45:45,576 --> 00:45:48,871
{\an8}of what had happened, she had the idea.
823
00:45:48,955 --> 00:45:53,042
She said she wanted to tell the story
of the women of the jihad.
824
00:45:54,293 --> 00:45:56,545
Showing a true picture
of this community
825
00:45:56,629 --> 00:46:01,425
that very few people knew
what really happened behind closed doors.
826
00:46:05,221 --> 00:46:06,597
The kind of work she does,
827
00:46:06,681 --> 00:46:08,057
a lot of people choose
to go to black and white,
828
00:46:08,140 --> 00:46:09,517
which allows you to do something
829
00:46:09,600 --> 00:46:13,020
a little bit more metaphorical or poetic.
830
00:46:14,230 --> 00:46:15,356
Not her.
831
00:46:23,948 --> 00:46:25,992
Partly what defines
a great photojournalist
832
00:46:26,075 --> 00:46:29,412
is the eye and the ability
to make memorable images,
833
00:46:29,495 --> 00:46:31,163
but also to be able to go out
834
00:46:31,247 --> 00:46:34,125
and find the story,
get access to the story.
835
00:46:38,629 --> 00:46:41,882
In western Afghanistan,
it was very common for a woman
836
00:46:41,966 --> 00:46:44,844
who wanted to commit suicide,
she would douse herself
837
00:46:44,927 --> 00:46:46,512
in gasoline or some sort of oil
838
00:46:46,595 --> 00:46:49,223
and set herself on fire, often not dying.
839
00:46:54,395 --> 00:46:58,232
I spent, like, a week in a hospital,
in a burn unit,
840
00:46:58,524 --> 00:47:01,360
watching, like, woman after woman,
841
00:47:01,444 --> 00:47:04,822
sometimes girls, come in,
like, charred to a crisp,
842
00:47:04,905 --> 00:47:06,949
and you smell them before you see them.
843
00:47:07,992 --> 00:47:09,702
All of them had been abused.
844
00:47:10,536 --> 00:47:14,248
And I realized, like, that's why
women are setting themselves on fire.
845
00:47:14,332 --> 00:47:17,168
Because anything is better
than their lives.
846
00:47:18,794 --> 00:47:22,298
And I remember getting,
like, so overwhelmed.
847
00:47:23,132 --> 00:47:25,176
I can't do this. Like, I can't
848
00:47:25,259 --> 00:47:28,512
internalize, like,
this pain and this, like, abuse.
849
00:47:30,306 --> 00:47:34,101
I was overwhelmed
with this sense of injustice.
850
00:47:36,645 --> 00:47:40,691
I realized that I can really
get into the lives of women
851
00:47:40,775 --> 00:47:42,860
with my camera and with reporting.
852
00:47:45,071 --> 00:47:46,405
With who?
853
00:47:46,864 --> 00:47:48,032
Hmm?
854
00:47:50,451 --> 00:47:51,660
Hmm.
855
00:47:52,286 --> 00:47:55,498
{\an8}Lynsey has a very distinct ability
856
00:47:55,581 --> 00:47:57,666
{\an8}to go places men are not welcome, right?
857
00:47:58,000 --> 00:48:02,046
{\an8}So she can cover huge parts
of the story that they can't.
858
00:48:03,297 --> 00:48:05,966
{\an8}She wants to make pictures that are stark
859
00:48:06,050 --> 00:48:08,761
{\an8}and show the reality as close as she can,
860
00:48:09,387 --> 00:48:11,764
hoping that it will have an effect.
861
00:48:25,653 --> 00:48:27,113
When I met Mamma Sessay,
862
00:48:27,196 --> 00:48:29,365
she had delivered
the first twin in the village,
863
00:48:29,448 --> 00:48:31,492
and the second baby wouldn't come out.
864
00:48:31,909 --> 00:48:34,662
She had to take a canoe to the ambulance,
865
00:48:34,745 --> 00:48:36,705
in the ambulance on bumpy roads
866
00:48:36,789 --> 00:48:39,041
for about six hours
to get to the hospital.
867
00:48:39,834 --> 00:48:41,127
Oh, my God!
868
00:48:42,253 --> 00:48:44,463
She finally delivered the second baby.
869
00:48:46,298 --> 00:48:47,425
What is this?
870
00:48:47,508 --> 00:48:49,844
What's all the blood from, the placenta?
871
00:48:50,344 --> 00:48:53,222
At that point, I didn't know
anything about childbirth.
872
00:48:54,181 --> 00:48:55,975
- 60/40?
- Yeah.
873
00:48:56,058 --> 00:48:58,185
She's becoming
more and more out of it.
874
00:48:58,436 --> 00:49:00,271
So I stopped photographing,
875
00:49:00,354 --> 00:49:03,023
and I said to the midwives,
"Where is the doctor?"
876
00:49:03,107 --> 00:49:04,984
Well, there's one doctor
in the whole province,
877
00:49:05,067 --> 00:49:06,485
and he's probably in surgery.
878
00:49:07,069 --> 00:49:09,864
So I ran to the surgical ward, and I said,
879
00:49:09,947 --> 00:49:11,866
"I think there's a woman dying."
880
00:49:12,908 --> 00:49:14,952
And at this point, I'm obviously involved,
881
00:49:15,035 --> 00:49:17,163
which I, you know,
I probably shouldn't be,
882
00:49:17,246 --> 00:49:18,914
but I'm watching a woman dying.
883
00:49:20,374 --> 00:49:22,543
The doctor came out,
took her blood pressure.
884
00:49:23,377 --> 00:49:24,503
And she was dead.
885
00:49:41,020 --> 00:49:44,648
At that time, over 500,000 women a year
886
00:49:44,732 --> 00:49:46,358
were dying in childbirth,
887
00:49:46,442 --> 00:49:49,778
and a majority of those cases
were completely preventable.
888
00:49:53,407 --> 00:49:54,909
I wanted it to be published
889
00:49:54,992 --> 00:49:58,245
so that perhaps it could bring
some sort of change.
890
00:50:16,096 --> 00:50:19,600
Hi, Alfred.
You should still be asleep.
891
00:50:19,975 --> 00:50:22,061
It's only 6:30. Come, come.
892
00:50:22,144 --> 00:50:23,812
Come, come.
893
00:50:23,896 --> 00:50:25,773
No, no, no, no. It's 6:30, Alfred.
894
00:50:26,815 --> 00:50:28,442
Come on, come on.
I'll take you to your room.
895
00:50:28,526 --> 00:50:29,693
I'm hungry.
896
00:50:29,777 --> 00:50:31,237
Yeah, but in a minute. Come on.
897
00:50:31,320 --> 00:50:32,488
Alfred.
898
00:50:35,407 --> 00:50:37,326
Where's my... Where's my Mummy?
899
00:50:37,409 --> 00:50:39,453
Mummy is working, Alfred.
900
00:50:40,204 --> 00:50:41,413
Is she downstairs?
901
00:50:41,497 --> 00:50:42,957
She's in another country,
902
00:50:43,040 --> 00:50:44,708
but she's going to come back soon.
903
00:50:45,709 --> 00:50:47,127
There you go.
904
00:50:48,546 --> 00:50:50,339
But you have to say cheers.
905
00:50:50,422 --> 00:50:51,840
- Cheers.
- Cheers.
906
00:50:53,050 --> 00:50:54,176
British Airways.
907
00:50:54,260 --> 00:50:55,469
Flight eight...
908
00:50:55,553 --> 00:50:57,805
It's the length of assignments.
909
00:50:57,888 --> 00:51:00,724
That's always been the challenge
in our relationship.
910
00:51:01,100 --> 00:51:03,394
If it's one week, two weeks,
it's not really a big deal.
911
00:51:03,477 --> 00:51:06,438
But when it gets longer,
over three weeks is always...
912
00:51:06,522 --> 00:51:08,190
Things tend to unravel at home.
913
00:51:09,233 --> 00:51:11,235
Careful, Alfred. Ah-ah!
914
00:51:11,652 --> 00:51:13,821
Okay! Okay!
915
00:51:14,280 --> 00:51:16,365
Snap! Snap!
916
00:51:17,157 --> 00:51:19,577
{\an8}In my heart, all I want
to be doing is shooting.
917
00:51:21,036 --> 00:51:24,123
{\an8}It's frustrating. I'm constantly tortured.
918
00:51:24,206 --> 00:51:25,916
{\an8}Like, I'm not in the right place.
919
00:51:26,584 --> 00:51:27,793
But I come back.
920
00:51:27,876 --> 00:51:29,336
I'm supposed to be really happy,
921
00:51:29,420 --> 00:51:30,963
and I feel like I should be there,
922
00:51:31,046 --> 00:51:33,591
and I feel like a bad journalist
because I'm not.
923
00:51:34,049 --> 00:51:36,552
My head is always where I'm not.
924
00:51:36,885 --> 00:51:37,886
Hi, Lukas.
925
00:51:38,470 --> 00:51:40,097
When are you coming back?
926
00:51:40,180 --> 00:51:42,641
Oh, like ten days.
927
00:51:43,392 --> 00:51:45,436
- Oh.
- I know, my love.
928
00:51:46,812 --> 00:51:48,564
It's the compromise, right?
929
00:51:48,647 --> 00:51:51,609
She wants to do all of the things
and be at home as well.
930
00:51:51,692 --> 00:51:52,985
And it's just not possible.
931
00:51:58,073 --> 00:52:00,034
Everything has gotten delayed.
932
00:52:00,117 --> 00:52:02,119
I may not get home till Saturday.
933
00:52:03,329 --> 00:52:05,664
I suck as a parent.
I suck as a journalist.
934
00:52:05,789 --> 00:52:07,374
I'm always compromising.
935
00:52:07,458 --> 00:52:10,419
I can't do it. I'll switch with someone.
936
00:52:10,836 --> 00:52:12,546
No, no, no, no.
937
00:52:12,630 --> 00:52:15,299
This is what you gotta do.
938
00:52:15,841 --> 00:52:18,177
He's asked for it constantly.
This is Alfred's thing.
939
00:52:18,260 --> 00:52:20,137
I mean, are you seriously not gonna...
940
00:52:20,804 --> 00:52:22,473
Why don't you just be a mother?
941
00:52:23,849 --> 00:52:26,393
Daddy, Daddy, I love you.
942
00:52:26,477 --> 00:52:27,811
With Alfred, all of a sudden,
943
00:52:27,895 --> 00:52:29,188
there was mega regression.
944
00:52:29,271 --> 00:52:30,689
Wetting the bed and stuff.
945
00:52:30,773 --> 00:52:33,776
A fresh round of missiles
pummeled Ukraine this weekend.
946
00:52:33,859 --> 00:52:35,694
Hardest hit this residential...
947
00:52:35,778 --> 00:52:37,404
With Lukas, there will be moments
948
00:52:37,488 --> 00:52:40,199
when he sees Ukraine missiles stuff on TV.
949
00:52:41,075 --> 00:52:43,869
I don't really know
what you do to, to prevent
950
00:52:43,952 --> 00:52:46,622
the kind of anxiety
being created, you know.
951
00:52:46,705 --> 00:52:49,583
...pitch darkness,
rescue workers raced overnight.
952
00:52:52,294 --> 00:52:54,046
God.
953
00:52:56,882 --> 00:52:58,509
Careful! Careful!
954
00:52:59,843 --> 00:53:02,054
Watch your head, the ceiling is low.
955
00:53:02,638 --> 00:53:03,972
Here we can shoot, right?
956
00:53:04,056 --> 00:53:05,724
Yes, you can film.
957
00:53:06,392 --> 00:53:07,601
Let's go. Yeah.
958
00:53:07,685 --> 00:53:09,853
This way, this way, this way.
959
00:53:14,900 --> 00:53:16,151
Hello.
960
00:53:16,235 --> 00:53:18,362
They are hitting us with artillery.
961
00:53:19,071 --> 00:53:21,824
We aren't dressed.
962
00:53:21,907 --> 00:53:23,742
The Russians entered this town?
963
00:53:23,826 --> 00:53:27,329
Oh, my God.
We picked the wrong fucking day.
964
00:53:27,413 --> 00:53:28,872
When you're working in a war zone,
965
00:53:28,956 --> 00:53:31,583
you really are timing
things down to the minute.
966
00:53:35,546 --> 00:53:37,381
Lynsey is conscious
of those limits,
967
00:53:37,464 --> 00:53:40,926
but she wants to take it
right up to that edge,
968
00:53:41,009 --> 00:53:43,470
to where we're both feeling
pretty uncomfortable
969
00:53:43,554 --> 00:53:44,638
about being in a place.
970
00:53:45,180 --> 00:53:48,475
Lynsey will just continue
to press and press and press
971
00:53:48,892 --> 00:53:51,103
until she gets what she needs.
972
00:53:53,897 --> 00:53:54,898
Oh, Jesus.
973
00:53:54,982 --> 00:53:57,818
Fuck. Fuck. I hate this.
974
00:53:58,610 --> 00:54:01,363
People always ask me, and I know
they ask Lynsey the same thing,
975
00:54:01,447 --> 00:54:03,240
are you addicted to the adrenaline?
976
00:54:03,323 --> 00:54:04,825
You know, are you, like, a war junkie?
977
00:54:06,744 --> 00:54:09,163
Very few people
have been able to do that
978
00:54:09,246 --> 00:54:11,039
for any sustained period of time
979
00:54:11,123 --> 00:54:12,791
without destroying their lives.
980
00:54:13,959 --> 00:54:15,794
All you have to do is, like,
look at the scorecard.
981
00:54:15,878 --> 00:54:17,588
Divorced. Divorced. Divorced.
982
00:54:17,671 --> 00:54:20,716
Having an affair. Drinks too much.
983
00:54:20,799 --> 00:54:23,969
{\an8}In a massive show of force
not seen since the Cold War...
984
00:54:24,052 --> 00:54:25,262
{\an8}I think what you are addicted to
985
00:54:25,345 --> 00:54:26,638
{\an8}is the largeness of it.
986
00:54:26,722 --> 00:54:28,515
{\an8}Possibly the biggest land war
987
00:54:28,599 --> 00:54:30,559
{\an8}that Europe has seen
since the Second World War.
988
00:54:30,642 --> 00:54:32,936
These countries, they change so fast.
989
00:54:37,107 --> 00:54:39,860
{\an8}Ukrainian troops
recaptured Kherson this month.
990
00:54:39,943 --> 00:54:41,904
It's like history on fast forward.
991
00:54:42,446 --> 00:54:43,947
Everything's accelerated.
992
00:54:46,116 --> 00:54:47,576
It's an amazing thing
to be in the middle of.
993
00:54:47,659 --> 00:54:48,785
Glory to Ukraine!
994
00:54:48,869 --> 00:54:51,205
You're breathing pure oxygen
the whole time.
995
00:55:07,679 --> 00:55:10,641
I'm most present
when I'm working.
996
00:55:12,935 --> 00:55:15,103
I feel like I'm home.
997
00:55:23,570 --> 00:55:27,658
I feel most inspired and exhilarated
when I'm covering something
998
00:55:27,741 --> 00:55:30,160
that I know will contribute
999
00:55:30,244 --> 00:55:33,830
to the historical picture
of what happened.
1000
00:55:36,542 --> 00:55:38,377
The fall of the Taliban.
1001
00:55:40,254 --> 00:55:41,672
The Iraq War.
1002
00:55:43,590 --> 00:55:46,051
The Korangal Valley in Afghanistan.
1003
00:55:57,896 --> 00:56:00,232
When we asked to go
to the Korangal Valley,
1004
00:56:00,315 --> 00:56:01,858
it was the place where the United States
1005
00:56:01,942 --> 00:56:04,069
was dropping the most bombs
in the country.
1006
00:56:06,196 --> 00:56:09,199
The Pentagon would not allow
women soldiers on the frontline.
1007
00:56:09,283 --> 00:56:11,535
{\an8}But there was not the same
mandate for journalists.
1008
00:56:16,498 --> 00:56:17,624
Every single day,
1009
00:56:17,708 --> 00:56:19,585
the platoons had to go out and patrol.
1010
00:56:22,671 --> 00:56:23,839
{\an8}Instead of carrying weapons,
1011
00:56:23,922 --> 00:56:25,882
{\an8}Lynsey would have, like,
cameras and lenses
1012
00:56:25,966 --> 00:56:27,634
{\an8}strapped to her all over the place.
1013
00:56:29,052 --> 00:56:30,971
Almost like clockwork on their way back,
1014
00:56:31,054 --> 00:56:32,598
they would get shot at.
1015
00:56:33,432 --> 00:56:36,685
If they weren't physically fit enough,
they would put us in danger.
1016
00:56:37,519 --> 00:56:39,021
But those two women are...
1017
00:56:39,521 --> 00:56:41,231
they're hard as woodpecker lips.
1018
00:56:42,566 --> 00:56:44,484
They earned our trust very quickly.
1019
00:56:47,571 --> 00:56:50,574
We spent more or less
two months with these guys
1020
00:56:51,617 --> 00:56:53,160
and had various conversations,
1021
00:56:53,243 --> 00:56:54,870
talked about their lives,
1022
00:56:54,953 --> 00:56:56,663
what they wanted to do when they got out.
1023
00:57:03,378 --> 00:57:07,507
Rock Avalanche
was the most arduous operation
1024
00:57:07,591 --> 00:57:09,259
they were both a part of.
1025
00:57:11,094 --> 00:57:14,097
The idea was
to jump out of helicopters
1026
00:57:14,181 --> 00:57:16,725
in the middle of the night into the heart
of Taliban territory,
1027
00:57:17,100 --> 00:57:19,561
assuming the Taliban would fire at us
1028
00:57:19,645 --> 00:57:21,813
so that the US military could fire back,
1029
00:57:21,897 --> 00:57:24,024
and it would basically
show their position.
1030
00:57:24,900 --> 00:57:27,402
We could get one
going from west to east
1031
00:57:27,486 --> 00:57:29,112
into that, over.
1032
00:57:29,863 --> 00:57:31,406
Over.
1033
00:57:33,075 --> 00:57:34,910
{\an8}We had Tim Hetherington.
1034
00:57:35,369 --> 00:57:36,912
{\an8}He was with one platoon.
1035
00:57:37,287 --> 00:57:41,041
We had Lynsey and Elizabeth,
were located with me.
1036
00:57:41,875 --> 00:57:43,377
And we know something's about to happen.
1037
00:57:43,460 --> 00:57:44,878
We just don't know
when it's going to happen.
1038
00:57:44,961 --> 00:57:46,672
We don't know where
it's going to come from.
1039
00:57:53,470 --> 00:57:55,847
Trees blocked you from ever
being able to see the enemy.
1040
00:57:55,931 --> 00:57:57,599
So it was like you were fighting ghosts.
1041
00:58:02,354 --> 00:58:03,772
Throughout the whole time,
1042
00:58:03,855 --> 00:58:06,983
Lynsey, I don't want to say she's begging,
1043
00:58:07,067 --> 00:58:08,777
but she's being very persistent.
1044
00:58:08,860 --> 00:58:11,154
She wants to be where the fight
is going to potentially be.
1045
00:58:12,739 --> 00:58:15,325
And almost as soon
as Lynsey got down there,
1046
00:58:15,951 --> 00:58:16,993
the valley erupted.
1047
00:58:20,038 --> 00:58:21,915
It was so chaotic in the moment.
1048
00:58:21,998 --> 00:58:23,041
There were bullets everywhere.
1049
00:58:23,125 --> 00:58:24,876
We were ambushed from three sides.
1050
00:58:37,222 --> 00:58:39,516
There were three people down.
1051
00:58:42,352 --> 00:58:46,273
And then I see them coming out
holding the body bag.
1052
00:58:49,818 --> 00:58:51,361
I started crying,
1053
00:58:51,903 --> 00:58:54,281
and I stopped and I said, "Is it okay?
1054
00:58:54,364 --> 00:58:56,575
Like, can I, can I take a picture?"
1055
00:58:58,076 --> 00:58:59,369
And he said, "Yeah."
1056
00:59:07,794 --> 00:59:09,379
There's a lot that we ask our soldiers
1057
00:59:09,463 --> 00:59:11,173
at a young, young age.
1058
00:59:13,216 --> 00:59:14,676
You probably question the same stuff
1059
00:59:14,760 --> 00:59:17,345
that I did every single night,
"What am I doing here?"
1060
00:59:19,890 --> 00:59:23,143
Our nation needs to understand
what the cost of war is.
1061
00:59:25,103 --> 00:59:28,273
What Lynsey and everybody
in that profession does,
1062
00:59:28,356 --> 00:59:29,775
I think it's critical.
1063
00:59:29,858 --> 00:59:31,651
It's-it's more than just a profession.
1064
00:59:31,735 --> 00:59:33,695
It's almost a duty or a calling.
1065
00:59:38,909 --> 00:59:41,036
War is always so distant
1066
00:59:41,870 --> 00:59:44,539
because of the ban on photographing
1067
00:59:44,623 --> 00:59:47,042
caskets coming back to America.
1068
00:59:49,002 --> 00:59:53,340
The price that so many thousands
of families have paid
1069
00:59:53,423 --> 00:59:54,758
that no one ever documents,
1070
00:59:54,841 --> 00:59:57,260
either because we're censored
or we're not there
1071
00:59:57,344 --> 00:59:59,429
or we can't get permission to publish.
1072
01:00:03,183 --> 01:00:05,644
I do not agree that we should censor war.
1073
01:00:07,854 --> 01:00:10,232
When we make a decision
to invade a country,
1074
01:00:10,315 --> 01:00:12,818
people have to understand
the consequences.
1075
01:00:30,585 --> 01:00:32,254
They were brought down here.
1076
01:00:38,009 --> 01:00:40,762
Women and men were held here.
1077
01:00:41,388 --> 01:00:43,723
They were told to change
their political views...
1078
01:00:43,807 --> 01:00:46,017
and renounce any
grievances against Russia.
1079
01:00:46,351 --> 01:00:49,145
We took samples for DNA analysis.
1080
01:00:52,274 --> 01:00:54,359
They used a gas mask attached to a hat.
1081
01:00:55,360 --> 01:00:57,112
Clubs, pipes...
1082
01:00:57,863 --> 01:00:59,698
The screaming was constant.
1083
01:01:00,198 --> 01:01:02,284
Interrogations were constant.
1084
01:01:05,287 --> 01:01:06,955
They marked their days.
1085
01:01:11,334 --> 01:01:14,963
All of this coverage provides
the international community with proof
1086
01:01:15,046 --> 01:01:19,009
of how Russians dealt with people
and treated people and killed people.
1087
01:01:20,844 --> 01:01:23,388
You dug up your family yourself?
1088
01:01:23,471 --> 01:01:24,890
A soldier helped me.
1089
01:01:26,099 --> 01:01:27,559
We took turns.
1090
01:01:34,065 --> 01:01:38,737
We have registered more than
5,000 war crimes so far.
1091
01:01:49,873 --> 01:01:51,207
How are you feeling now?
1092
01:01:51,291 --> 01:01:53,126
Did you think you would still be here?
1093
01:01:53,209 --> 01:01:55,962
Um...
1094
01:01:56,046 --> 01:01:59,758
the first days, I hope, uh,
1095
01:01:59,841 --> 01:02:03,345
that war will finish
maybe in a few months.
1096
01:02:03,929 --> 01:02:06,723
And now I understand that...
1097
01:02:08,475 --> 01:02:10,727
it can be years and years.
1098
01:02:14,356 --> 01:02:16,650
The first two weeks or ten days,
1099
01:02:17,275 --> 01:02:18,652
I didn't know who I am.
1100
01:02:19,319 --> 01:02:22,572
It was terrible for me because
I know that I am a teacher,
1101
01:02:22,656 --> 01:02:26,242
I'm Yulia, I'm a friend, I'm a daughter.
1102
01:02:29,704 --> 01:02:32,707
Oh, what should I say?
Until we see each other again.
1103
01:02:32,791 --> 01:02:36,711
To you saying, "Congratulations
on your safe return home."
1104
01:02:37,587 --> 01:02:38,755
God-willing.
1105
01:02:38,838 --> 01:02:40,674
And as soon as possible.
1106
01:02:45,053 --> 01:02:47,097
I pray every day.
1107
01:02:48,932 --> 01:02:51,142
I am showing her my prayer book.
1108
01:02:51,226 --> 01:02:53,395
And my lame photo?
1109
01:02:55,313 --> 01:02:56,773
Such a big face.
1110
01:02:57,440 --> 01:03:00,568
Me too. When I was that age,
I had a big face.
1111
01:03:03,238 --> 01:03:04,239
Aww.
1112
01:03:24,801 --> 01:03:26,678
Now I know who I am.
1113
01:03:26,761 --> 01:03:30,015
I have new friends. I have new family.
1114
01:03:33,059 --> 01:03:35,270
I think I'm another person.
1115
01:03:41,901 --> 01:03:44,821
I'm another person than
before the invasion, of course.
1116
01:03:51,244 --> 01:03:55,331
You need to realize if you
pay attention to all your pain,
1117
01:03:55,415 --> 01:03:57,375
you're really gonna go crazy.
1118
01:03:57,459 --> 01:04:00,045
So you just reject it.
1119
01:04:05,759 --> 01:04:09,387
The amount of difficult stories
that I've done,
1120
01:04:09,471 --> 01:04:11,056
it's, it's a lot.
1121
01:04:14,434 --> 01:04:17,312
And so I wonder where all that lives
1122
01:04:17,395 --> 01:04:19,147
in my head and my heart.
1123
01:04:19,230 --> 01:04:21,608
You know, it's like I know it's there,
1124
01:04:21,691 --> 01:04:23,693
and I know I speak about it
1125
01:04:23,777 --> 01:04:27,447
very sort of methodically,
but it's hard to look at.
1126
01:04:34,412 --> 01:04:37,373
It's a strange way to...
It's a strange way to live
1127
01:04:37,457 --> 01:04:40,585
because... Lynsey, for instance,
1128
01:04:40,668 --> 01:04:41,920
like she's seeing,
1129
01:04:42,003 --> 01:04:45,215
she's seeing a lot of pain,
often every day.
1130
01:04:45,298 --> 01:04:48,301
So you basically condition yourself
1131
01:04:48,384 --> 01:04:50,053
to, like, put that in a box,
1132
01:04:51,137 --> 01:04:52,680
you know, turn the key.
1133
01:05:07,112 --> 01:05:08,822
Maybe Lukas should have this for dinner.
1134
01:05:08,905 --> 01:05:10,949
[laughing] No.
1135
01:05:11,032 --> 01:05:13,243
Mommy's gonna love that dinner, Alfred.
1136
01:05:13,326 --> 01:05:16,496
It's making me look good. Now!
1137
01:05:17,539 --> 01:05:18,998
Are you looking forward to seeing her?
1138
01:05:19,082 --> 01:05:20,792
- Yep.
- Hmm? How much?
1139
01:05:21,459 --> 01:05:23,128
- More.
- More than what?
1140
01:05:23,211 --> 01:05:24,254
Anything.
1141
01:05:24,504 --> 01:05:26,005
She's a worker...
1142
01:05:27,507 --> 01:05:29,843
a photographer and a worker.
1143
01:05:29,926 --> 01:05:31,845
Oh. Who's that?
1144
01:05:31,928 --> 01:05:33,138
Mama.
1145
01:05:42,564 --> 01:05:44,023
Did you know?
1146
01:05:44,107 --> 01:05:46,359
- Did you know I was coming?
- Yeah.
1147
01:05:47,694 --> 01:05:49,404
Oh, my love!
1148
01:05:49,487 --> 01:05:51,906
Mama!
1149
01:05:51,990 --> 01:05:55,034
Mama! Mama! Mama!
1150
01:05:55,118 --> 01:05:56,911
Are you excited, Alfred?
1151
01:06:02,625 --> 01:06:04,711
You see how quickly
he became a superhero.
1152
01:06:05,044 --> 01:06:06,629
It's quite innovative.
1153
01:06:06,713 --> 01:06:08,631
Has he been like this since I left or...
1154
01:06:08,715 --> 01:06:10,508
What you mean? Well, he's excited.
1155
01:06:11,176 --> 01:06:13,178
No. Oh!
1156
01:06:14,095 --> 01:06:16,264
Careful with my eyeballs.
1157
01:06:16,681 --> 01:06:19,267
What would Mommy be without my eyeballs?
1158
01:06:19,350 --> 01:06:20,810
You'd be nothing.
1159
01:06:20,894 --> 01:06:23,313
Exactly.
1160
01:06:23,396 --> 01:06:25,857
Lukas?
1161
01:06:26,566 --> 01:06:27,859
Hi, Dad.
1162
01:06:28,359 --> 01:06:29,611
Hi, Mom.
1163
01:06:29,694 --> 01:06:32,280
Hi!
1164
01:06:32,363 --> 01:06:35,909
Hi, my love. Hi.
1165
01:06:36,743 --> 01:06:39,954
Oh, I missed you so much.
1166
01:06:40,038 --> 01:06:43,249
- Mama.
- Hi.
1167
01:06:43,791 --> 01:06:45,335
It's the best day ever.
1168
01:06:45,418 --> 01:06:47,754
I wish always to have you.
1169
01:06:47,837 --> 01:06:49,589
- To have me?
- Mm.
1170
01:06:50,006 --> 01:06:52,008
- Home.
- Never to go away.
1171
01:06:52,091 --> 01:06:54,135
I know, but Mommy has to work.
1172
01:06:54,219 --> 01:06:57,430
You... You never have to go
to work ever again.
1173
01:06:58,181 --> 01:06:59,307
Really?
1174
01:06:59,390 --> 01:07:02,227
- I have to, my love.
- It's your last time.
1175
01:07:02,310 --> 01:07:03,895
- Ever going to work?
- Yeah.
1176
01:07:06,231 --> 01:07:08,066
How about one day, and that's it?
1177
01:07:09,067 --> 01:07:11,694
I mean, one day is a little difficult.
1178
01:07:12,320 --> 01:07:15,198
- But...
- Well, how about three days,
1179
01:07:15,281 --> 01:07:18,159
That's it. Three. One...
1180
01:07:18,701 --> 01:07:21,329
One, two, three. And that's it.
1181
01:07:21,412 --> 01:07:23,498
- You go back.
- And I come back?
1182
01:07:23,581 --> 01:07:24,791
Yeah.
1183
01:07:24,874 --> 01:07:26,668
I mean, it depends on where I go.
1184
01:07:26,751 --> 01:07:29,837
Some places that I go,
it's like really far away.
1185
01:07:29,921 --> 01:07:31,256
So if I go for...
1186
01:07:31,339 --> 01:07:33,633
You know, sometimes
it takes three days for me
1187
01:07:33,716 --> 01:07:36,427
to even get where I go, you know?
1188
01:07:38,096 --> 01:07:39,555
Does that make sense?
1189
01:07:39,639 --> 01:07:43,559
How about you go
to the closest place ever?
1190
01:07:44,018 --> 01:07:45,770
You mean you want me to work in London?
1191
01:07:45,853 --> 01:07:48,273
- No.
- Hmm, I can't do that.
1192
01:07:54,320 --> 01:07:55,571
You.
1193
01:08:09,002 --> 01:08:12,130
I mean, he needs, like,
a Valium is what he needs.
1194
01:08:13,548 --> 01:08:15,883
I mean, I don't know
1195
01:08:15,967 --> 01:08:19,053
how anyone can deal with him 24/7.
1196
01:08:19,137 --> 01:08:23,224
He's really, like... He's so energetic.
1197
01:08:24,350 --> 01:08:26,561
I think he needs,
you know, a bit of a change.
1198
01:08:27,562 --> 01:08:29,689
He needs to be in a calm environment.
1199
01:08:31,065 --> 01:08:32,108
Yeah.
1200
01:08:33,609 --> 01:08:34,777
Yeah.
1201
01:08:44,037 --> 01:08:47,248
We did talk in depth about
the importance of, you know,
1202
01:08:47,332 --> 01:08:49,375
covering Ukraine, and I did agree to it
1203
01:08:49,459 --> 01:08:50,835
and said I thought it was a good idea
1204
01:08:50,918 --> 01:08:52,086
that she does it.
1205
01:08:52,795 --> 01:08:54,881
I didn't think it would be
going on for this long,
1206
01:08:54,964 --> 01:08:56,215
I'm gonna put it that way.
1207
01:09:00,511 --> 01:09:04,223
The main issue that we have
to be very careful about
1208
01:09:04,307 --> 01:09:08,102
is that we just start leading
totally separate lives.
1209
01:09:10,271 --> 01:09:12,482
Paul, I-I just... I've been...
1210
01:09:12,899 --> 01:09:14,942
That happened before.
1211
01:09:15,026 --> 01:09:19,113
He shut down,
and we went through a really tough time,
1212
01:09:19,197 --> 01:09:20,948
and we started going to couples therapy
1213
01:09:21,032 --> 01:09:22,909
and, like, we did a lot of work.
1214
01:09:26,746 --> 01:09:28,373
[on TV] "Phoebe, I love you,
1215
01:09:28,456 --> 01:09:29,832
"but my work is my life,
1216
01:09:29,916 --> 01:09:31,626
and that's what I have to do right now."
1217
01:09:31,709 --> 01:09:33,711
And I say, "Your work, your work?
1218
01:09:33,795 --> 01:09:35,004
How can you say that?"
1219
01:09:36,422 --> 01:09:39,675
And then you say, um,
"It's tearing me apart."
1220
01:09:40,093 --> 01:09:42,845
That sounds like conversations we've had.
1221
01:09:45,640 --> 01:09:48,393
Lukas, what do you have
tomorrow after school?
1222
01:09:48,476 --> 01:09:50,269
Do you want Black Cat again
1223
01:09:50,353 --> 01:09:52,897
for the dinner party on Saturday?
1224
01:09:55,483 --> 01:09:58,319
Why... What's going on?
Why are you having a spasm?
1225
01:09:59,529 --> 01:10:02,031
How are you so ticklish?
1226
01:10:04,325 --> 01:10:06,244
Alfred talks, you know,
1227
01:10:06,327 --> 01:10:07,745
all the time when you're coming.
1228
01:10:07,829 --> 01:10:09,580
Oh.
1229
01:10:09,664 --> 01:10:11,791
Hi, my little muffin.
1230
01:10:12,333 --> 01:10:13,835
He understands time now,
1231
01:10:14,585 --> 01:10:18,089
and he's very attached to you,
weirdly enough.
1232
01:10:19,090 --> 01:10:20,758
Did you turn 10 while I was gone?
1233
01:10:22,218 --> 01:10:23,428
How old are you now?
1234
01:10:26,055 --> 01:10:28,099
Not yet.
1235
01:10:28,182 --> 01:10:30,017
Are you? Do you tell everyone you're five?
1236
01:10:30,935 --> 01:10:32,478
You're almost five.
1237
01:10:32,562 --> 01:10:34,689
There's only so much I can control,
1238
01:10:34,772 --> 01:10:36,149
- you know.
- Yeah, I know.
1239
01:10:36,232 --> 01:10:38,901
But I'm not planning on doing another,
1240
01:10:38,985 --> 01:10:40,862
like, four- to six-week rotation.
1241
01:10:40,945 --> 01:10:43,156
No, not right now.
1242
01:10:46,242 --> 01:10:47,577
Right after we got married,
1243
01:10:47,660 --> 01:10:49,620
he was like, "Okay, let's start a family."
1244
01:10:49,704 --> 01:10:50,747
And I was like, "No way."
1245
01:10:51,080 --> 01:10:54,917
She wouldn't have done it
without my kind of pushing.
1246
01:10:55,293 --> 01:10:58,254
I've always pictured myself with a family
1247
01:10:58,337 --> 01:11:01,424
because I grew up
with such a loving family.
1248
01:11:01,507 --> 01:11:04,427
But, um, like, not today, you know,
1249
01:11:04,510 --> 01:11:06,262
I was kind of at the height of my career.
1250
01:11:09,724 --> 01:11:13,019
I didn't know any female photographers
1251
01:11:13,102 --> 01:11:14,771
who had kids.
1252
01:11:15,521 --> 01:11:17,940
{\an8}I couldn't envision
how my life would look.
1253
01:11:19,776 --> 01:11:21,110
{\an8}Paul was, like, very serious.
1254
01:11:21,194 --> 01:11:22,737
You know, we were having this dinner,
1255
01:11:22,820 --> 01:11:25,239
and he was just like,
"You know, I want a family."
1256
01:11:27,158 --> 01:11:30,536
I didn't fully understand
how hard it is,
1257
01:11:30,620 --> 01:11:32,538
particularly in her type of work.
1258
01:11:32,622 --> 01:11:34,040
It's easy for the guy to have a kid,
1259
01:11:34,123 --> 01:11:35,625
you're running a bureau,
you don't have to go anywhere,
1260
01:11:35,708 --> 01:11:36,959
there's no problem really, right?
1261
01:11:37,043 --> 01:11:39,462
And I think I viewed it
a bit like that too, at the time.
1262
01:11:39,545 --> 01:11:41,088
Hey, come on.
1263
01:11:41,172 --> 01:11:44,091
I said we should
be married at least a year.
1264
01:11:44,550 --> 01:11:50,348
So I negotiated basically
that January 1st, 2011,
1265
01:11:50,431 --> 01:11:51,849
I would go off the pill.
1266
01:11:52,934 --> 01:11:56,062
So I did, but then
I never went home.
1267
01:11:57,855 --> 01:12:00,107
I went to South Sudan...
1268
01:12:01,359 --> 01:12:02,610
...to Iraq.
1269
01:12:04,987 --> 01:12:07,448
And then the Arab Spring started.
1270
01:12:07,532 --> 01:12:09,867
Massive protests
over government corruption,
1271
01:12:09,951 --> 01:12:11,452
political repression.
1272
01:12:11,536 --> 01:12:12,912
{\an8}Similar demonstrations have popped up
1273
01:12:12,995 --> 01:12:14,247
{\an8}in Yemen and Algeria.
1274
01:12:14,330 --> 01:12:15,790
{\an8}It's now spreading
1275
01:12:15,873 --> 01:12:18,167
{\an8}all across the region,
particularly to Libya,
1276
01:12:18,251 --> 01:12:20,503
{\an8}where Muammar Gaddafi runs one of the most
1277
01:12:20,586 --> 01:12:22,588
{\an8}repressive regimes in the entire region.
1278
01:12:23,214 --> 01:12:25,216
{\an8}I had covered the Middle East
1279
01:12:25,299 --> 01:12:28,052
{\an8}and North Africa for years,
1280
01:12:28,511 --> 01:12:30,429
and I said, I want to go to Libya.
1281
01:12:35,643 --> 01:12:37,854
It was the end of February 2011.
1282
01:12:38,896 --> 01:12:40,731
I was based in Benghazi
1283
01:12:41,274 --> 01:12:43,359
and covering this sort
of parallel government
1284
01:12:43,442 --> 01:12:45,987
being set up by the youth
in eastern Libya.
1285
01:12:53,244 --> 01:12:55,246
We kind of pushed forward
1286
01:12:55,329 --> 01:12:58,249
with the first group of volunteers.
1287
01:13:01,335 --> 01:13:04,672
Gaddafi's military had
exponentially more weapons,
1288
01:13:04,755 --> 01:13:06,591
technology, trained fighters.
1289
01:13:06,674 --> 01:13:08,384
I hear a plane.
1290
01:13:10,469 --> 01:13:11,929
There was nowhere to hide.
1291
01:13:12,638 --> 01:13:14,974
The landscape was totally flat
1292
01:13:15,391 --> 01:13:18,102
and a bomb would just drop next to us.
1293
01:13:23,983 --> 01:13:25,818
Every day. It was terrifying.
1294
01:13:27,445 --> 01:13:29,238
I had been two weeks on the frontline.
1295
01:13:29,322 --> 01:13:31,741
Every single day. Completely pummeled.
1296
01:13:33,326 --> 01:13:37,204
I called my editor and said,
"I need to get out of here."
1297
01:13:37,288 --> 01:13:40,374
And he said, "Okay."
1298
01:13:40,458 --> 01:13:42,752
And the team at that point
was Anthony Shadid,
1299
01:13:42,835 --> 01:13:45,004
Steve Farrell, Tyler Hicks.
1300
01:13:45,087 --> 01:13:48,424
{\an8}Tyler Hicks is, to the rest of the world,
1301
01:13:48,507 --> 01:13:52,053
{\an8}one of the most famous,
intrepid war photographers.
1302
01:13:52,136 --> 01:13:54,972
{\an8}Tyler Hicks, to me,
is someone I grew up with.
1303
01:13:55,056 --> 01:13:57,266
{\an8}I've known him since I was 13 years old.
1304
01:13:57,850 --> 01:13:59,936
I freelanced, but Tyler is staff,
1305
01:14:00,019 --> 01:14:02,855
and he's like the primary
New York Times photographer.
1306
01:14:02,939 --> 01:14:05,816
And the editor told him,
"I think you should stay."
1307
01:14:06,525 --> 01:14:09,236
So I was like,
"Okay, I'll stay with Tyler.
1308
01:14:09,320 --> 01:14:10,780
Like, I'm not gonna leave Tyler alone.
1309
01:14:15,117 --> 01:14:17,203
For whatever reason that day,
1310
01:14:17,286 --> 01:14:20,164
I had this horrible premonition.
1311
01:14:20,247 --> 01:14:22,083
Things were getting
1312
01:14:22,166 --> 01:14:24,168
really tense on the frontline.
1313
01:14:27,338 --> 01:14:30,299
And all these artillery rounds
were coming in,
1314
01:14:30,383 --> 01:14:33,219
literally being bracketed
on the position we were at.
1315
01:14:33,928 --> 01:14:37,014
{\an8}Muhammad, our driver,
started getting calls from his brother.
1316
01:14:37,098 --> 01:14:38,933
"Gaddafi's troops are in the city.
1317
01:14:39,016 --> 01:14:40,726
You have to get out."
1318
01:14:42,311 --> 01:14:45,064
{\an8}And Gaddafi repeatedly told his military,
1319
01:14:45,147 --> 01:14:46,732
{\an8}if you see journalists, they're spies,
1320
01:14:46,816 --> 01:14:48,442
{\an8}and you should just execute them.
1321
01:14:48,526 --> 01:14:50,569
{\an8}They are spreading lies
1322
01:14:50,653 --> 01:14:52,321
{\an8}on radios and televisions.
1323
01:14:53,322 --> 01:14:55,533
{\an8}We're all journalists
who entered illegally.
1324
01:14:56,033 --> 01:14:58,035
{\an8}I am freaking out.
1325
01:14:58,119 --> 01:15:00,955
But I don't want to say anything
because I'm the only woman.
1326
01:15:02,289 --> 01:15:04,125
And Mohammed starts screaming,
1327
01:15:04,208 --> 01:15:05,876
like, "We have to get out of here."
1328
01:15:17,013 --> 01:15:18,848
And as we get on the main road,
1329
01:15:18,931 --> 01:15:20,516
way off in the distance,
1330
01:15:20,599 --> 01:15:23,811
I see these little figurines of soldiers.
1331
01:15:23,894 --> 01:15:27,732
And I said, "You guys,
that's Gaddafi's troops ahead."
1332
01:15:29,400 --> 01:15:30,943
We get to the checkpoint.
1333
01:15:31,027 --> 01:15:34,238
Gaddafi's troops, like pointing
their guns, screaming,
1334
01:15:34,321 --> 01:15:35,906
"Get out! Stop the car! Stop the car!"
1335
01:15:35,990 --> 01:15:39,201
Mohammed stops the car,
opens the door, and just, like,
1336
01:15:39,285 --> 01:15:43,164
throws his arms up and says,
"Sahafen." Journalists.
1337
01:15:45,791 --> 01:15:47,835
There are Gaddafi's troops everywhere.
1338
01:15:49,795 --> 01:15:52,548
I was staring down the barrel of the gun
1339
01:15:52,631 --> 01:15:54,967
and I looked to the right,
and I see Tyler,
1340
01:15:55,051 --> 01:15:57,428
Anthony, and Steve all begging.
1341
01:15:59,972 --> 01:16:02,266
And our young driver, Muhammad,
1342
01:16:02,349 --> 01:16:03,601
he was executed.
1343
01:16:09,857 --> 01:16:12,943
I was running the Reuters operation
in India, in Delhi.
1344
01:16:15,863 --> 01:16:17,740
I got a call from...
1345
01:16:17,823 --> 01:16:19,116
I guess in the evening...
1346
01:16:20,659 --> 01:16:22,369
from Tyler's girlfriend Nikki, saying,
1347
01:16:22,453 --> 01:16:24,121
have you heard from, uh,
1348
01:16:24,205 --> 01:16:26,874
from Lynsey or Tyler? And I said no.
1349
01:16:30,211 --> 01:16:32,088
That was...
1350
01:16:32,713 --> 01:16:35,716
I... I was home,
1351
01:16:35,800 --> 01:16:37,885
but I was on my way to my mother's,
1352
01:16:38,844 --> 01:16:41,972
and I checked my voicemail.
1353
01:16:42,473 --> 01:16:46,310
The CEO of The New York Times
1354
01:16:46,393 --> 01:16:48,729
left a message for me to call him.
1355
01:16:48,813 --> 01:16:53,484
So I called and he says,
um, "Mrs. Addario.
1356
01:16:53,567 --> 01:16:56,445
we have, um, sad news."
1357
01:16:57,613 --> 01:17:00,241
So I dropped the phone.
1358
01:17:02,243 --> 01:17:05,621
I had my receptionist talk to them
at The New York Times
1359
01:17:05,704 --> 01:17:07,998
because I, I just couldn't...
1360
01:17:09,333 --> 01:17:11,460
talk to them and then come back...
1361
01:17:12,086 --> 01:17:13,587
The woman said to me,
1362
01:17:13,671 --> 01:17:17,299
"Oh, please stop. It's okay. Just go home.
1363
01:17:17,383 --> 01:17:19,093
I don't care when you cut my hair."
1364
01:17:19,176 --> 01:17:22,179
I says, "I have to do this."
1365
01:17:23,180 --> 01:17:27,393
My toes, I think on my right foot
where I put my pressure,
1366
01:17:27,476 --> 01:17:29,728
are permanently curled
1367
01:17:29,812 --> 01:17:31,355
because all I kept doing
1368
01:17:31,438 --> 01:17:33,524
was digging my foot in the ground.
1369
01:17:35,943 --> 01:17:38,070
No word from
four New York Times journalists.
1370
01:17:38,154 --> 01:17:39,822
Lynsey Addario is among the missing.
1371
01:17:39,905 --> 01:17:43,033
I'll talk to her husband in
an exclusive interview. Up next.
1372
01:17:43,117 --> 01:17:44,702
I appeal to-to Muammar Gaddafi
1373
01:17:44,785 --> 01:17:46,912
and his son and the others to find them
1374
01:17:46,996 --> 01:17:49,915
and to bring them back safely
and to bring my Lynsey,
1375
01:17:49,999 --> 01:17:51,458
you know, back here.
1376
01:17:51,542 --> 01:17:52,960
It hadn't been the first kidnapping.
1377
01:17:53,043 --> 01:17:55,421
And quite a few other people had died.
1378
01:17:55,921 --> 01:17:57,464
I mean, I was sleepless.
1379
01:17:58,257 --> 01:18:00,467
I'm going to say, you know,
you got to come back here
1380
01:18:00,551 --> 01:18:02,344
because, you know, we got to have kids.
1381
01:18:02,428 --> 01:18:04,221
You know, that-that's my, uh...
1382
01:18:04,305 --> 01:18:06,015
I've been trying to, you know, to get...
1383
01:18:06,098 --> 01:18:08,893
- The day Paul went on...
- I was just gonna...
1384
01:18:08,976 --> 01:18:11,854
I totally hadn't even cried
until that point.
1385
01:18:12,229 --> 01:18:13,981
He came on and I saw Paul's face,
1386
01:18:14,064 --> 01:18:16,817
and I heard him say that,
and I just burst into tears.
1387
01:18:18,861 --> 01:18:21,363
Not knowing whether she was dead,
1388
01:18:21,447 --> 01:18:24,074
alive, or sexually abused...
1389
01:18:28,537 --> 01:18:31,290
that was probably
the worst time of my whole life.
1390
01:18:34,543 --> 01:18:37,630
The first three days,
they were super violent.
1391
01:18:40,049 --> 01:18:42,676
{\an8}We were all blindfolded and bound.
1392
01:18:43,594 --> 01:18:46,138
{\an8}They were really, like, beating the shit
1393
01:18:46,222 --> 01:18:48,098
out of Tyler, Anthony, and Steve.
1394
01:18:51,227 --> 01:18:54,813
There was a guy who was just,
like, caressing my face
1395
01:18:54,897 --> 01:18:56,607
and saying something over and over,
1396
01:18:56,690 --> 01:18:58,442
and I said, "Anthony, what is he saying?"
1397
01:18:58,525 --> 01:19:00,444
And he said,
"You're going to die tonight."
1398
01:19:02,905 --> 01:19:06,533
We drove for hours all along the frontline
1399
01:19:06,617 --> 01:19:10,204
through these very hostile
villages loyal to Gaddafi.
1400
01:19:11,914 --> 01:19:14,333
Every time we would slow down
at a checkpoint,
1401
01:19:14,416 --> 01:19:17,878
crowds would come and try and pull us
out of the truck and beat us up.
1402
01:19:20,506 --> 01:19:23,217
There was a soldier next to me,
1403
01:19:24,009 --> 01:19:26,637
and he was touching me everywhere.
1404
01:19:27,429 --> 01:19:30,182
My first thought was,
1405
01:19:30,266 --> 01:19:32,268
I just don't want to be raped.
1406
01:19:35,938 --> 01:19:38,732
{\an8}Editors at The New York Times
say they were last in touch
1407
01:19:38,816 --> 01:19:41,318
{\an8}with their journalists on Tuesday Morning.
1408
01:19:42,653 --> 01:19:44,947
{\an8}We didn't know if they were alive
or if they were dead.
1409
01:19:45,864 --> 01:19:47,283
I'd stay up 24/7
1410
01:19:47,866 --> 01:19:49,660
speaking to contacts,
1411
01:19:49,743 --> 01:19:51,662
to the Turkish President
and Prime Minister...
1412
01:19:52,871 --> 01:19:54,164
first to find out if they were alive
1413
01:19:54,248 --> 01:19:56,542
and then to try to get them out.
1414
01:20:01,797 --> 01:20:06,302
They brought us to this room
and sat us down on the rug.
1415
01:20:06,593 --> 01:20:08,595
They took off our blindfolds
1416
01:20:08,679 --> 01:20:11,140
and we're all, like,
looking at one another.
1417
01:20:11,223 --> 01:20:14,810
And he was like, "Okay, you're safe now.
1418
01:20:14,893 --> 01:20:16,145
We're not going to beat you anymore."
1419
01:20:16,228 --> 01:20:18,314
And everyone was just, like, crying.
1420
01:20:18,397 --> 01:20:21,108
Like basically everyone
was just, like, destroyed.
1421
01:20:26,113 --> 01:20:28,949
One of the Libyan officials
1422
01:20:29,033 --> 01:20:31,035
handed me his cell phone,
1423
01:20:31,702 --> 01:20:34,038
and I was like...
1424
01:20:34,413 --> 01:20:36,123
And I put it to my ear, and it was Paul.
1425
01:20:44,423 --> 01:20:49,303
He basically just said, uh,
"You're getting released,
1426
01:20:51,305 --> 01:20:53,015
and I'll meet you in Tunisia."
1427
01:20:59,396 --> 01:21:01,273
All four New York Times journalists
1428
01:21:01,357 --> 01:21:04,943
who were captured and held
for six days were released.
1429
01:21:06,111 --> 01:21:08,322
She was a basket case.
I think we all were.
1430
01:21:08,739 --> 01:21:10,949
She cried a lot,
and it was very emotional.
1431
01:21:12,576 --> 01:21:16,413
You have faced, uh, the-the fear
of-of losing your life
1432
01:21:16,497 --> 01:21:18,290
in the line of reporting duty.
1433
01:21:18,665 --> 01:21:21,377
You were sexually assaulted?
1434
01:21:21,460 --> 01:21:23,670
I was groped. Um, I was groped repeatedly.
1435
01:21:23,754 --> 01:21:26,882
- How often?
- Pretty much every time we...
1436
01:21:26,965 --> 01:21:29,176
every time we changed hands to new men.
1437
01:21:29,259 --> 01:21:31,095
So she's very open what happened,
1438
01:21:31,178 --> 01:21:34,014
and, and I think that helped a lot.
1439
01:21:34,098 --> 01:21:35,682
{\an8}We talked about the things that you think,
1440
01:21:35,766 --> 01:21:37,434
{\an8}the influence you feel you have
1441
01:21:37,518 --> 01:21:39,561
{\an8}by taking these
remarkably moving photographs
1442
01:21:39,645 --> 01:21:41,313
{\an8}and letting the world know
about the perils,
1443
01:21:41,397 --> 01:21:44,650
{\an8}particularly of women,
but of people who are in danger.
1444
01:21:45,109 --> 01:21:46,276
{\an8}Is it worth it?
1445
01:21:47,319 --> 01:21:48,487
{\an8}It's a hard question.
1446
01:21:48,570 --> 01:21:50,280
{\an8}I mean, I certainly in the middle of this
1447
01:21:50,364 --> 01:21:52,491
{\an8}with my... when I was
blindfolded and bound
1448
01:21:52,574 --> 01:21:55,285
{\an8}and getting punched in the face,
I said, "Why do I do this?
1449
01:21:55,369 --> 01:21:57,996
{\an8}Who cares about Libya?
Why do I care about Libya?"
1450
01:21:58,080 --> 01:22:00,791
{\an8}You know, these are questions
I asked myself repeatedly.
1451
01:22:00,874 --> 01:22:04,878
{\an8}I do it because I believe in it.
But is it worth my life?
1452
01:22:04,962 --> 01:22:07,423
{\an8}Is it worth doing this
to the people I love?
1453
01:22:07,506 --> 01:22:09,466
{\an8}It's a difficult question.
1454
01:22:10,884 --> 01:22:12,010
It took a while.
1455
01:22:13,387 --> 01:22:16,140
I think that there are
very few people on the planet
1456
01:22:16,223 --> 01:22:18,976
who can understand how we live our lives,
1457
01:22:19,059 --> 01:22:20,519
and why we do what we do.
1458
01:22:20,602 --> 01:22:22,938
We're following the latest
on a story of two journalists
1459
01:22:23,021 --> 01:22:24,773
who gave their lives to cover the story.
1460
01:22:24,857 --> 01:22:27,192
They were killed yesterday
covering the war in Libya.
1461
01:22:27,276 --> 01:22:30,070
Chris Hondros and
Tim Hetherington were hit by...
1462
01:22:30,154 --> 01:22:32,990
Tim Hetherington
I was with in the Korangal.
1463
01:22:33,073 --> 01:22:35,659
And Chris Hondros is someone
I've known forever.
1464
01:22:37,286 --> 01:22:40,456
Tim and Chris' death sent me over the edge
1465
01:22:40,539 --> 01:22:43,834
in a way that our own kidnapping didn't.
1466
01:22:44,251 --> 01:22:47,629
I couldn't understand why we survived
1467
01:22:47,713 --> 01:22:48,839
and they didn't.
1468
01:22:49,590 --> 01:22:51,467
I was just like, "Fuck this.
1469
01:22:52,134 --> 01:22:55,053
Enough. Enough death."
1470
01:23:07,024 --> 01:23:10,194
I had to pull back and get my bearings,
1471
01:23:10,903 --> 01:23:14,281
figure out emotionally
how much I could cope with
1472
01:23:14,364 --> 01:23:17,784
and not only me, how much
my family could cope with.
1473
01:23:23,040 --> 01:23:25,667
One day, I got a phone call.
1474
01:23:25,751 --> 01:23:27,544
He said, I am a board member
1475
01:23:27,628 --> 01:23:29,755
at Merck, the pharmaceutical company.
1476
01:23:29,838 --> 01:23:32,132
I would like to tell you
a story about Mamma Sessay.
1477
01:23:34,551 --> 01:23:36,595
He said when that story came out,
1478
01:23:36,678 --> 01:23:40,390
I put a copy of the story
in front of every board member,
1479
01:23:40,724 --> 01:23:44,353
{\an8}and they unanimously decided
to put $500 million aside
1480
01:23:44,436 --> 01:23:45,812
{\an8}to fight maternal death.
1481
01:23:50,442 --> 01:23:53,987
{\an8}Doctors Without Borders
also had seen the story,
1482
01:23:54,071 --> 01:23:58,116
{\an8}and they implemented an ambulance program
in Bo Province.
1483
01:24:00,911 --> 01:24:02,663
{\an8}In that province alone,
1484
01:24:02,746 --> 01:24:05,666
{\an8}they reduced
the maternal death rate by 60%.
1485
01:24:09,545 --> 01:24:12,673
{\an8}For me, it was like one of those moments.
1486
01:24:16,927 --> 01:24:20,722
I see a lot of women die.
I see a lot of people die.
1487
01:24:22,182 --> 01:24:25,727
And somehow, it felt like
something came out of it,
1488
01:24:25,811 --> 01:24:27,271
and maybe it could help people.
1489
01:24:43,328 --> 01:24:44,871
You never get used to having
1490
01:24:44,955 --> 01:24:47,416
a sister who's a war photographer, right?
1491
01:24:47,499 --> 01:24:50,252
- Mm-hmm.
- You can't really overthink it,
1492
01:24:50,335 --> 01:24:53,755
because then you'll never
be able to function.
1493
01:24:53,839 --> 01:24:55,966
- Almost like, what's the point?
- You can't. Right.
1494
01:24:56,383 --> 01:24:58,176
Is that for the meat or the chicken?
1495
01:24:59,177 --> 01:25:02,180
Yeah. Cheers!
1496
01:25:02,264 --> 01:25:04,391
Cheers!
1497
01:25:05,183 --> 01:25:07,519
She knows that I worry about her.
1498
01:25:07,603 --> 01:25:10,063
I asked her, "You're not
going back, are you?"
1499
01:25:10,355 --> 01:25:12,983
"Yes. Maybe in August."
1500
01:25:13,400 --> 01:25:17,529
So we... The conversation
ended there because...
1501
01:25:18,488 --> 01:25:20,949
what are you going to do?
Tell her you can't go.
1502
01:25:21,033 --> 01:25:23,452
♪ Even though we ain't got money ♪
1503
01:25:23,535 --> 01:25:25,871
- Oh, another... Loggins.
- ♪ I'm so in love ♪
1504
01:25:25,954 --> 01:25:27,372
♪ With you, honey ♪
1505
01:25:27,456 --> 01:25:29,666
♪ Everything will bring ♪
1506
01:25:29,750 --> 01:25:33,629
♪ A chain of love ♪
1507
01:25:34,588 --> 01:25:37,758
♪ In the morning when I rise ♪
1508
01:25:37,841 --> 01:25:40,761
♪ Bring a tear of joy to my eyes ♪
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01:25:42,304 --> 01:25:43,347
Are you crying?
1510
01:25:44,556 --> 01:25:46,850
The PTSD is kicking in.
1511
01:25:48,769 --> 01:25:51,271
- This is what happens.
- Oh, Lyns!
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01:25:51,563 --> 01:25:53,440
- Lyns.
- Every once in a while
1513
01:25:53,523 --> 01:25:56,526
when you least expect it, she breaks down.
1514
01:25:59,321 --> 01:26:01,531
God, we're singing like Kenny Loggins.
1515
01:26:02,199 --> 01:26:03,492
Ah.
1516
01:26:03,575 --> 01:26:06,244
Well, that put a damper on that one.
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01:26:07,079 --> 01:26:08,246
I know.
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01:26:12,042 --> 01:26:14,586
- How was school?
- Good.
1519
01:26:14,670 --> 01:26:16,296
- Yeah?
- Yeah.
1520
01:26:16,380 --> 01:26:18,882
Are we gonna get
a call from Mr. Bullard?
1521
01:26:18,965 --> 01:26:20,467
- No.
- Pollard.
1522
01:26:20,550 --> 01:26:22,260
Isn't it Payson Bullard?
1523
01:26:22,594 --> 01:26:24,680
- Yeah.
- Yeah. See?
1524
01:26:24,763 --> 01:26:26,264
I know something.
1525
01:26:28,225 --> 01:26:30,268
One of the few things
about school you know.
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01:26:31,144 --> 01:26:33,271
Lukas, stick up for me.
1527
01:26:33,355 --> 01:26:35,774
At least you now know
where, where the school is.
1528
01:26:36,358 --> 01:26:39,403
Oh.
I know where the school is.
1529
01:26:39,486 --> 01:26:41,363
I've always known where the school is.
1530
01:26:41,446 --> 01:26:43,073
I don't know where their classrooms are,
1531
01:26:43,156 --> 01:26:44,866
but I know where the school is.
1532
01:26:46,243 --> 01:26:49,246
I mean, when Mommy's at work,
you're kind of watching Netflix.
1533
01:26:49,329 --> 01:26:51,707
Yeah. Thanks, Lukas.
1534
01:26:52,207 --> 01:26:54,167
I mean, I'm working hard.
1535
01:26:54,251 --> 01:26:55,794
She's on the phone a lot.
1536
01:26:58,964 --> 01:27:01,425
Lukas, how come
you don't pick up when I call?
1537
01:27:01,508 --> 01:27:04,136
The only time you wrote me
when I was in Ukraine
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01:27:04,219 --> 01:27:06,513
was just to ask me
to put money in your account.
1539
01:27:07,097 --> 01:27:09,516
And then I ask you how you are.
1540
01:27:09,725 --> 01:27:12,936
Do you miss me?
I love you. You don't answer.
1541
01:27:22,279 --> 01:27:24,990
Lukas has said I don't want you to go.
1542
01:27:25,073 --> 01:27:27,576
And do you have to go back to Ukraine.
1543
01:27:30,662 --> 01:27:34,374
If Lukas, who barely
expresses anything, asks that,
1544
01:27:34,458 --> 01:27:36,793
it's definitely weighing on him.
1545
01:27:58,815 --> 01:28:01,860
People think, how can you still
go to war as a mother?
1546
01:28:08,867 --> 01:28:11,953
There is something way bigger
than any of us.
1547
01:28:12,871 --> 01:28:15,290
And I think it sort of takes over.
1548
01:28:19,419 --> 01:28:23,882
Something that starts as like
a try this, you dabble in it,
1549
01:28:23,965 --> 01:28:26,676
and then it becomes like a mission,
1550
01:28:27,511 --> 01:28:29,346
and then it becomes your life.
1551
01:28:31,389 --> 01:28:33,683
And then it becomes a responsibility.
1552
01:28:52,202 --> 01:28:54,704
{\an8}869 dead in eight years of war.
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01:28:54,788 --> 01:28:56,414
{\an8}A battleground
for more than 20 years.
1554
01:28:56,498 --> 01:28:58,375
{\an8}Tens of thousands
of refugees have fled the...
1555
01:28:58,458 --> 01:29:00,293
More than
10,000 people in Yemen have died.
1556
01:29:00,377 --> 01:29:02,295
Two million
others have been displaced.
1557
01:29:02,379 --> 01:29:04,214
{\an8}Millions near starvation.
1558
01:29:04,297 --> 01:29:07,008
{\an8}All victims of a war the world's ignored.
1559
01:29:09,052 --> 01:29:11,555
{\an8}People have a tendency to move on.
1560
01:29:12,973 --> 01:29:16,309
It's my job to get people
to continue paying attention.
1561
01:29:18,854 --> 01:29:21,773
I have dedicated most
of my career to Afghanistan.
1562
01:29:22,899 --> 01:29:25,360
And there I was back in the country
1563
01:29:25,443 --> 01:29:27,028
when the Taliban had come back,
1564
01:29:27,112 --> 01:29:29,364
and again, it had fallen off the radar.
1565
01:29:30,949 --> 01:29:33,076
All of the things that I had covered.
1566
01:29:33,493 --> 01:29:35,912
What's her name? Salam.
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01:29:35,996 --> 01:29:38,832
The programs and the funding
and the schooling,
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01:29:39,499 --> 01:29:41,459
it was taken away overnight.
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01:29:42,419 --> 01:29:44,754
{\an8}Nine days
after the brutal terrorist attack
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01:29:44,838 --> 01:29:48,466
{\an8}by Hamas, Israel ramps up
for a ground war in Gaza.
1571
01:29:48,550 --> 01:29:50,802
{\an8}The humanitarian crisis continues
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01:29:50,886 --> 01:29:52,554
{\an8}to get even worse because
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01:29:52,637 --> 01:29:54,598
there's 1.1 million people...
1574
01:29:54,681 --> 01:29:56,933
I've covered war
for 20 plus years,
1575
01:29:57,017 --> 01:30:00,562
and I can't believe
what we're watching right now.
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01:30:00,645 --> 01:30:02,939
{\an8}Foreign press
almost completely blocked
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01:30:03,023 --> 01:30:04,441
{\an8}from entering Gaza.
1578
01:30:08,945 --> 01:30:11,656
Sometimes I feel really helpless.
1579
01:30:14,701 --> 01:30:17,370
{\an8}I just keep shooting
and keep moving forward.
1580
01:30:20,040 --> 01:30:22,292
I have to keep convincing myself
1581
01:30:22,375 --> 01:30:24,794
that it's worth it
and that it makes a difference
1582
01:30:26,838 --> 01:30:29,507
because I would not be able
to keep doing this work
1583
01:30:29,591 --> 01:30:30,926
if I didn't believe in it.
1584
01:30:34,596 --> 01:30:38,016
And if I didn't believe
that it was worth the toll
1585
01:30:38,099 --> 01:30:39,809
that it takes on my loved ones.
1586
01:30:51,696 --> 01:30:53,448
It's pretty busted up here.
1587
01:30:54,658 --> 01:30:56,993
- Wait.
- It is a photoshoot. Look.
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01:30:57,077 --> 01:30:58,578
Stop! Stop!
1589
01:30:58,662 --> 01:31:00,038
That's amazing.
1590
01:31:23,144 --> 01:31:25,480
Say "glory to Ukraine."
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01:31:31,569 --> 01:31:32,904
Watch your step.
1592
01:31:44,207 --> 01:31:47,377
Bride and groom,
we invite you into the ceremony hall.
1593
01:31:51,297 --> 01:31:55,301
...to take this step brightly,
courageously, and together.
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01:32:00,056 --> 01:32:06,021
Officially and ceremoniously,
I pronounce you husband and wife!