["While We're Young" by John Coggins playing]
♪ There's someone I've been thinking about ♪
-Excited? Nervous? -Very excited. Of course.
I've been waiting for this forever.
♪ Let's fall in love while we're young ♪
-[laughing] -[Chris] I got you.
♪ Let's get crazy, let's have fun Let's fall in love while we're young ♪
I haven't really felt like this about anyone.
I am 38 years young.
I am 22.
Trying to roll with that whole "age is just a number" thing. [chuckling]
♪ Let's fall in love while we're young ♪
I really don't know if you're ready for this one. You ready?
I'm 60.
[Vanelle gasping]
♪ Let's fall in love while we're young ♪
[Vanelle] Oh my gosh!
Thirty, forty, fifty, sixty.
Yeah, he's 33 years older than me.
[gasping]
Jorge's literally the same age as my parents. [giggling]
["While We're Young" continues]
I never wanna be surprised about something you've done.
I came here with you not to feel alone.
I feel like you're not attracted to me.
-We're kind of in a friend zone right now. -Okay.
Is he the right person? Did I pick the right person?
-Okay, I'm really done talking. -Okay.
[Vanelle] Can I get this mic off me, please?
[voice breaking] This connection is not gonna be easy to find.
[sniffling]
And I know I won't find this again.
♪ Feeling so cold ♪
Starting tomorrow, you are getting visitors.
Your friends, your families.
-Sara. Theresa. -Hi, I'm Sara.
He's never dated anyone this much older.
I hope it works out well for them, but…
-Well… -It's… It's weird. It's weird.
Being 23 and potentially having two immediate children?
[Pfeifer] Yeah.
[voice breaking] I'm leaving everybody and everything I've worked for.
What the fuck am I doing?
I'm just exhausted, I'm overwhelmed
because I feel like I can't be myself with you.
[dramatic sting]
[Andrew grunting]
[Andrew] Integrating a 22-year-old girl into my life is definitely concerning.
Is there a future with us?
[Natalie] It's decision time.
Do you commit to taking this leap together?
Or do you choose a different path? Alone.
[dramatic sting]
[softly] That sucks.
[music fades]
["Crazy for You" by John Coggins playing]
♪ I wasn't fine Till you came into my view ♪
♪ Thought I was going insane Till I found you ♪
[Vanessa] Did you get everything out of the bathroom?
But I'll check the other rooms.
-You work on your-- -Suits.
-I think you need to get a garment bag. -[Logan] Yeah.
I feel nervous, anxious.
This is the last time I'm gonna see her before the commitment ceremony.
[Vanessa] Everything I can do, I did.
I'm super nervous about my alone time, and, you know,
what is that alone time gonna lead me to think?
Part of me wants to commit to Vanessa,
and then part of me is like, is this right?
Is this up and down too much for us to handle? You know?
And my fear of commitment continues to be my fear of commitment.
Right? And so that's…
a scary thought.
-How you doing? -I got all your stuff ready for you.
[Logan] Thank you.
-How you feeling? -Okay. How are you?
[Logan] I'm good.
-I'm sad. I don't want you to leave. -I know. I don't even know what to say.
-I know. -It's been fun.
The last few days with you has been, like, better than I could ever dream of.
I mean, you're one of the most amazing girls I've ever met in my entire life.
-Thank you. -It's hard to put it into words, right?
I think it was one of the most amazing, beautiful things I've ever experienced.
You know, it's weird kind of closing this chapter and…
I… I feel like we're breaking up.
-[laughing] This is like a breakup. -No, we're not!
[both chuckling]
I don't know what to say. What if I cry?
-[chuckling] -Don't. [chuckles]
Don't cry?
-No. -Okay.
[Logan] You'll be okay.
-You look amazing. -Thanks.
[crying]
-[Logan] Aw. -[Vanessa chuckling]
Okay?
Okay.
-No crying? -Mm-hmm.
-Is it okay? -Yeah.
-Promise? -Mm-hmm.
[Logan] I'm here for you.
[softly] Yeah.
Okay?
I just have PTSD, I think. [chuckling]
-What? -I don't know.
Just with the history of my relationships not working out, you know?
And I feel like this is just another failed attempt, you know. [sniffles]
Like, it's not you. I don't wanna project it on you.
It's not you at all. It's just…
I've just put myself out there before and
only to get hurt.
And I just hope, like, this doesn't have the same outcome.
That's scary.
["Prove Me Wrong" by INDI & KIND playing]
♪ Something inside me is way too scared To care about you like this ♪
[Vanessa] Coming into this with Logan,
I had so many reservations because I had been so hurt before.
So there is this guard up, like,
"I'll be okay. I'll be okay," you know?
And maybe I won't be okay.
I just hope I chose right this time, and I picked the right person,
and I feel like you are.
And I hope that you feel the same about me.
Yeah, I mean, I do.
[Vanessa] It's really scary to
not put yourself out there for this many years,
get this close to someone,
only for yourself to be devastated all over again
and for the whole world to see. [chuckling]
-I'll see you soon, okay? -Okay.
-Take care of yourself.
To see an older woman with a man 20 years younger, that's rare.
It's very rare.
And it's like, am I delusional to think that it would even work, you know?
Am I delusional to put my heart out there?
I mean, he's, like, in the prime of his life right now, honestly.
♪ I've been here before, darling I don't think you'll stay ♪
And why would he give that up for someone 20 years older than him?
♪ I'll hold that I'll hold that, I'll hold on ♪
♪ But I hope you prove me wrong ♪
[music fades]
["Come Back" by David O'Dowda playing]
♪ Out of my dreams ♪
[Leah] You're leaving.
[Chris] I know. I'm trying to make sure I don't forget anything.
[Leah] But you're forgetting me.
[Leah chuckling]
I think that we need this little bit of separation because we haven't had it.
And this is the first time that I think I'm gonna be able to look at this
from the outside, make a clear decision.
Clearly me and Leah have had ups and downs since we moved in together.
But at the same time, there's been much blessings from this relationship.
Even during the difficult times,
the care and the love for each other has always been constant.
And I think that it's very clear
that I care so much for her.
So the question is, is that-- Does the good outweigh the bad?
And… and are these good moments enough to continue in this relationship?
Give me a hug.
Thank you for being you. Thank you for making me a better person.
You're welcome.
No, seriously.
[pensive music playing]
-Why are you looking at me like that? -Because you're leaving.
We didn't even get to dance yet.
Yeah.
I have a lot of thinking--
-We both have a lot of thinking to do. -I know. I…
-Oh! -Mmm!
[Chris grunting]
I'm gonna miss… I'm gonna miss you a little bit.
I'm gonna miss you too. I think more than you think.
-You think? -Mm-hmm.
You're not gonna be able to sleep now because you'll be thinking of me.
-Maybe. I don't know about that. -What?
-[Chris] I might be able to sleep. -No, you won't.
Give me a kiss.
It's like bittersweet this morning.
-All right. I'll see you. -I'll see you.
With the commitment ceremony coming up, it's gonna be difficult.
We're still debating on how we're even gonna make it work here, right,
let alone commit to each other.
I know he likes me,
and we're leaving off in a great space right now.
But yeah,
I don't wanna put any pressure on it 'cause I don't know.
I don't know what the future holds for us.
Whew!
[Andrew] How are you feeling?
-[Libby] About what? -[Andrew] Leaving.
[Libby] Mm-hmm.
I feel like I've been the one that brings up,
you know, some of the more challenging things,
and we don't know how we're gonna communicate after this.
Like, we've only ever been in this bubble.
So we don't know what it's like to text or call,
or I've never done long-distance before.
So those things naturally, I feel like, are things that I'm thinking about.
[music fades]
Yeah, I'm glad you brought it, um… up
because I just wasn't even thinking about it that way at all.
I think I'm just someone that is very realistic.
-And you know… -Yeah. No, I understand.
You know that this has to end at some point and just…
You know, I mean, I wish we could stay in this little bubble forever,
but you know, we have to say goodbye.
The fact that the next time I am going to see Andrew
is the commitment ceremony gives me a little bit of anxiety, honestly.
Um, I know he's in his head and I don't blame him too much
because those doubts were in the back of my mind.
I just wasn't really vocalizing them.
There is a part of me that's afraid that
the age gap between Andrew and I will just be too much.
And yeah, I have a fear that ultimately
that will just be too overwhelming for both of us.
["Feel Love" by Full Circle playing]
♪ Let's run into nirvana 'Cause now I can feel… ♪
[Libby] Okay.
Bye-bye.
[Andrew] See ya.
See ya.
♪ For you, now ♪
♪ And I can feel love ♪
[music fades]
[brooding pop song playing]
[exhales]
[John] Hey.
[Theresa] Oh my God.
Aw.
-These are beautiful. -Mm-hmm
Well, I will think of you every time I look at them. [chuckling]
[John] I was thinking about that this time away
I love supporting you,
and I love being here for you when…
you're going through some shit.
So I'll be thinking about you.
Um…
I'm gonna have some time just to, like, think and get myself, like, more centered.
-Um… -Mm-hmm.
[Theresa] And I'm gonna miss you for sure.
We've gotten so close in such a short period of time,
and living together was amazing.
Um, I'm gonna miss that for sure.
But I think this time apart is gonna be good for us
even though I hate saying goodbye.
Um…
[voice breaking] So I'm glad I have these.
[John] I'm there with you.
[Theresa] Okay.
-Well, thanks for being everything for me. -Mm-hmm.
And…
Don't miss me too much. [chuckling]
Impossible.
I am in love with Theresa.
The way she's allowed me to open up and be vulnerable
and not put on a facade, which I've done in the past.
And just the joy she brings me,
like when I wake up and I see her and, like, that… that sense of home.
It feels good.
[softly] Love you.
Am I hoping that we come out on the same page
and even a little stronger?
Yeah, and I think that's a possibility.
But there's a chance that…
-This is gonna be weird. -[Theresa] I know.
…she just
gets way too in her head,
and she might be a different person when I see her again.
-Bye. -Okay. Goodbye.
[Theresa sniffling]
[sighing]
I have a huge, huge decision to make.
[contemplative music playing]
There's no denying that we had a true and real connection from the beginning.
♪ Time is gonna let you down ♪
[Theresa] However,
I still have some doubts.
♪ Is this just the final call? ♪
[Theresa] It's a huge commitment
to say that this person who's 27 years younger than me
is my boyfriend
and that I'm going to commit to going forward with this
and opening this up to the world.
I don't know if I have the strength to see this through.
♪ Could this be the end? ♪
[music fades]
-Let's cheers to this journey we've had. -Cheers.
-Cheers to a big decision. -It's a very big decision coming.
[pensive music playing]
How do you feel?
I, you know, I know how I feel about you.
I know that that doesn't always make everything
A-okay and easy.
I do understand the logistics of where we are, uh, in life,
geographical challenges, other challenges as well.
So…
You know? It's time to take all that into consideration.
[Pfeifer] Yeah.
This whole time, we've kinda been like, oh, we are in a fairy tale,
and everything is perfectly smooth, and we're having no challenges,
which was true.
It was true up until these last few days.
So the fact that we're taking this time apart now, um,
has me a little bit unsure
about my decision.
Um,
a lot of questions have come up that I just have been ignoring.
And I think I've been putting them off because I didn't wanna ruin anything
or have anything be different than what it was.
So, like, while it is confusing, and it's scary,
I know that this time apart will end up benefiting both of us
because my decision will be grounded and, um…
-And, like, it'll be thoughtful. -Yeah.
And I respect that.
I definitely think her concerns are valid.
But one thing that I've done the last few days
is try to truly focus on her feelings and her emotions.
And I've taken myself out of it a little bit.
And, obviously, we're gonna have some time apart to where, you know,
I'm going to have to think that through on my side as well.
And what does that look like?
'Cause it's a big commitment, and can she handle it?
I'll see you.
We're probably just at different stages in life.
I have my boys. How will that match? There's so many question marks.
I'd be lying to you… [chuckling]
…if I didn't say I was a little bit nervous.
♪ If it's not too late ♪
♪ Do you feel me falling? ♪
♪ If it's not too late ♪
[music fades]
[dramatic sting]
[birds chirping]
[pensive music playing]
[John] So today is the commitment ceremony.
I feel confident, but I don't know how she's been feeling.
I don't know if she let the thoughts get to her
or the stress of her kids get to her.
♪ Turn and face the storm ♪
[John] You know, I support her, and I'm here for her,
and my family supports, you know, our relationship,
but I'm worried that Theresa hasn't bought in
because of a lot of factors that I can't control.
♪ Every star you think That guided you before… ♪
I'm fully committed to Theresa.
♪ This will be my final teardrop ♪
♪ This will be our curtain call ♪
[John] And
I hope she's ready to take that leap with me.
[breathing deeply]
♪ Pull away the thorn… ♪
My feelings are getting much stronger every day for John.
I have to admit that, you know, I am falling for him.
It's almost been too good to be true,
but there's also a piece of me that still has doubts.
♪ Ever gave you a ride To you is not my love ♪
[Theresa] This age gap difference is huge. And… Yeah, I'm scared.
♪ Give this love no more ♪
[Theresa] I have the option of walking away today.
And,
you know, I'd be walking away from a lot.
I know that I will regret not having him in my life,
but I don't know if it's going to be too much.
Should we just
take the easy route and go our separate ways
and go back to our lives the way they were?
I don't know if I'm ready for this.
♪ A final teardrop ♪
[music swelling]
[music fades]
[softly] Okay.
[birds chirping]
We've gone through a lot of hard stuff early on that I'm thankful for.
We had to be there for each other, and that says something.
I've never been able to be there for someone.
I was never in the right headspace for it.
I was never open to receive this
and to support someone like I've supported you.
I feel lucky that I get to show up for you.
I'm confident in this.
I'm confident in what we've built. I know what we have, and it's the feeling.
[emotional music playing]
It's the immediate sense of calmness you bring me whenever I see you.
Us being able to laugh during the most serious moments,
the most intimate moments.
I'm looking forward to…
that next step,
and we'll get there with the age thing.
[Theresa] Mm-hmm.
I need you to believe that age is just a number
but also believe in me
that every day I'm gonna show up and work on this together.
When I decided to take this journey to find someone to share my life with,
I said to myself that I was ready.
When I met you,
you drew me in with your smile, your energy, and your steadiness.
You made me laugh.
[music fades]
And you made me
feel better than I ever had in the past.
But for whatever reason,
there was still something holding me back.
[dramatic music playing]
When you met my kids, and I didn't tell them your age,
it wasn't because I was ashamed.
It was because I was scared.
Scared because if I spoke it, it would be real.
Scared because
of the things we might face from the world
knowing that the world is not fair
and that there is a double standard against women who date younger men.
So it got me thinking,
maybe it would be better if I walked away before it got to be too difficult…
♪ You, you keep me high… ♪
[Theresa] …and
too real.
You're kidding.
It's a lot.
♪ You, you keep me hiding ♪
♪ You, you… ♪
[Theresa] It's really a scary thing for me.
[voice breaking] If I let myself…
be totally vulnerable
with you
and the world,
it's the hugest risk I will ever have taken.
I just didn't see this coming.
It's just a whole 180 from what we were feeling.
I mean, we've shared some amazing times together.
And you've been really patient and very understanding.
But I just worry that it's too much.
You're not up for the fight?
I mean, I'm a fighter.
I'm also just trying to protect myself and to protect you.
[music fades]
I don't know what to say.
There's a letter that my kids wrote to you that I wanna read.
[emotional music playing]
[John sniffling]
[Theresa] All right.
"Dear John, it was really nice meeting you and watching you and our mom together."
[voice breaking] "She just seemed so happy,
and we haven't seen her like that in a while."
[exhaling]
Give me a second. [chuckling]
[clearing throat] "We don't know exactly what the age difference is,
but it doesn't matter to us after seeing you two together."
"We just want her to be happy."
"And you clearly do that."
"So we support your relationship and are excited for whatever comes next."
[both chuckling]
"Love, Lauren, Richard, and Michael."
I just need to know if you believe that. If you're up for that challenge.
And you believe and trust your kids that they support you.
I need you to wake up every morning and
see and believe and trust--
trust that your kids support this.
And then whatever comes after that, we can,
you know, go to battle, but
it's up to you.
I've said the whole time.
The ball's in your court, on if
you believe that.
[emotional music playing]
I mean, it makes me feel a lot more confident
and happy to know they wrote that to you.
-Um, I had no idea what it said. -Mm-hmm.
And so I don't wanna walk away.
In fact, I wanna walk towards something with you.
And I don't know exactly what that will be or what that will look like…
[John] Mm-hmm.
…but I think together, you know, we can navigate it.
And I think if you are able to support me
and my crazy anxiety… [chuckling]
[John] Mm-hmm.
…you know, we can make this into something really special.
I think so too.
And I will be able at some point… [chuckling]
…to maybe scream it from the mountain top.
[John] Mm-hmm.
But
right now, I'm just going to
promise you
and commit to you
to continue to build our relationship into something real
and something really great.
[Theresa chuckling]
♪ So stay with me ♪
I accept.
[laughing]
Hilarious.
I'm excited for whatever's next.
And I'm thankful for this experience, and
I wanna continue falling in love with you.
So do I.
I love you.
I love you too.
I love you too much to let you go.
-Well, good 'cause you don't have to. -Hmm. Good answer.
♪ Be with me ♪
[music fades]
["Heaven Is a Wasteland" playing]
♪ All your dreams ♪
♪ And all your fears ♪
♪ You think those worlds collide ♪
[Pfeifer] I'm feeling a little nervous.
I have confidence in Derrick, and I have confidence in our relationship.
But I still have a lot of fears about my own future.
♪ Ringing on the bell ♪
♪ I just wanna help, I just wanna know… ♪
[Pfeifer] I mean, I'm 23.
I never imagined that I would be moving across the country,
moving for a man who has children.
And I think the fear is just coming from a place of not having experience
in being in that sort of relationship or being with somebody who has kids.
♪ You say, oh, I don't wanna know… ♪
[Pfeifer] This is a big decision.
♪ If heaven is a wasteland… ♪
[Pfeifer] Essentially, I either walk away without Derrick,
and I go back to my life in Seattle,
or I leave with Derrick,
and I get something extremely different than anything I could have ever imagined.
♪ When you let the love inside… ♪
[Pfeifer] I'm conflicted.
It's like, do I risk it all
and change everything I know for a man and for a relationship?
Or do I make the hard decision to end it?
♪ But you can't find a way to let me in ♪
Not in a million years did I ever think
that I would come into this experience and find such a real,
genuine, authentic connection.
♪ And you say, oh, I don't wanna know ♪
It feels like I'm getting married. Honestly, there's a lot weighing on it.
You know, there's a whole life change that she has to consider.
The last conversation we had,
she definitely had some question marks, and the nerves are there.
She's scared and giving up her life, possibly changing her career.
I know that's a lot.
I'm wanting to be sympathetic and empathetic to that,
but I want her in Dallas with me, but I'm not sure
that our relationship at this time
is strong enough for her to make that change.
♪ I just wanna know ♪
♪ Why you can't find a way to let me in ♪
Hello.
-You look amazing. -Thank you.
[both chuckling]
From the first day, I didn't know exactly what it was,
but I knew I was extremely comfortable with you.
I felt at ease, at peace, from just a quick conversation.
Like, honestly, that moment I knew, like, deep down that
I didn't wanna even explore any other options at the retreat.
And, you know, we continued on, moved in.
[both chuckling]
And, you know, yeah, there was some nerves.
It's not easy to think I'm gonna move in with someone that I just met,
but through that process, I thought that it would be great, but I was wrong.
Like, it was much better than I could have even imagined.
So for me, you know, the journey,
all the laughs and all the good times,
the challenges and tough conversations, were just as important.
I feel like we've grown every point along this ride.
[music fades]
From the first day, I knew that you were special.
Despite our 20-year age gap,
I'm certain that my greatest blessing was meeting you.
I've always thought about and dreamed about
the man I would end up with,
but you are far better
than
anybody I could have imagined.
[emotional music playing]
[voice breaking] And now I can't imagine
a future without you in it.
I've been confident in your character since our first date.
But after moving in,
I'm certain that you are one of the best men that I've ever met.
It's been an honor to share this journey with you.
And the closer we get… [chuckling]
…the more I know and the more I see just how great of a man that you are.
[Pfeifer exhaling]
Derrick, you are a phenomenal person.
Sometimes it seems too good to be true, but it really is just who you are.
And I feel like I'm the luckiest girl
in the whole world to have found you here.
Many people spend their whole lives looking for what we found here.
If I were to leave here without you,
I may regret it for the rest of my life.
But if we were to stay together
my life would look wildly different
than I ever anticipated.
I would be sacrificing my entire life in Seattle.
My friends, my support,
and everything I've built over the last four years.
But… [chuckling]
…today
I'm putting the unknowns aside, and I'm trusting my heart.
So
I am 100% committed to moving to Dallas…
[both chuckling]
…and starting our journey together
outside of all this.
[inaudible]
[upbeat music playing]
[Derrick chuckling]
Yeah, that was a lot.
[Pfeifer chuckling]
But I promise I'm always gonna put in the work.
I'm always gonna try.
I'll always protect you, and I'll always protect your heart.
Pfeifer, I truly love you.
So this is my gift to you.
[Pfeifer chuckling]
[chuckling] It's… It's a key to our place that's been my place.
Thank you.
-That means the world to me, truly. -So… Absolutely.
I don't want you to be alone,
and I don't want you in Dallas in a separate place.
Literally, my place is our place.
I feel like the luckiest person in the whole world.
And I have this whole time.
That makes two of us, babe.
♪ I wanna shine ♪
♪ Just need a spark from somewhere ♪
[chuckling]
♪ I wanna shine ♪
♪ Show the world the light ♪
♪ Someday I'll shine ♪
[music fades]
["I'll Never Let Go" by Nine One One playing]
♪ I think I just got one more breath ♪
♪ Broken heart is beating Outta my chest ♪
♪ Tired of runnin' I just need some rest ♪
I came here to be able to open my heart up
to find someone that I wanna spend my life with, you know?
When I think about my future,
I just wanna be happily married to a wonderful guy.
And despite all of our ups and downs, I think it could be Chris.
♪ I got one hand On the edge of this cliff ♪
♪ And I can't see the ground ♪
[Leah] I'm like a hopeless romantic, you know?
So I would like for this to work out with Chris.
We have something here.
We are finally in a great space, but this step is big.
I'm 41, he's 26, you know?
So is he really ready?
I'm not sure.
I can't give up hope, regardless.
♪ Don't have any blood left to bleed… ♪
I feel very uneasy.
Clearly, me and Leah have love for each other
because we've been on an emotional roller coaster.
If we didn't have love for each other,
as soon as it got really dark, we wouldn't be here anymore.
The question was, and still is, are we in love?
♪ Oh no, I'll never let go… ♪
Leah is somebody that I have built such a connection with
and a care for
that I want to look past what we've dealt with
and try to move forward.
At the same time, I'm trying to figure out,
am I ready for this, or am I not?
Because it's a decision that will affect me forever.
Logic, emotions,
my head, my gut, which one do I listen to?
And there's so many voices,
whether it's outside or in our own heads that are telling us to do a certain thing.
And I'm trying to just ignore everything that society says
should happen and listen to what I know is true,
which is the… the voice in my heart telling me what is right.
[Leah] Aw.
-[Leah] You look good. -Hi. Thank you.
[Leah] You look beautiful.
[Leah grunting]
[Chris sniffles]
[exhales deeply]
[music fades]
Prior to this retreat, I was praying that God would send me my person.
And I was really hoping, maybe they'll be at this retreat.
And then I met you.
And then from our first conversation, I knew we had something special.
And our first kiss was fire.
You lit something inside of me that I thought was gone.
[laid-back music playing]
I know we've had our fair share of ups and downs,
but for me, the good times outweigh the bad.
You challenge me to do and be better.
And I thank you for that.
Thank you for hearing, seeing, and always telling me to just be me.
Thank you.
[music fades]
From day one, we've talked about being honest and being open.
And I think that the most important thing I wanna highlight is
just how honest and open you've allowed me to feel.
You've challenged me.
You've helped me grow. And I hope I've done the same.
I can't thank you enough for the experiences that we have lived.
[emotional music playing]
We've had ups and downs,
and there's no doubting that there has been difficult times,
and there's been beautiful times.
And I wanna remember
both.
I think that we do need to
continue to be honest with each other.
And…
You know, we've talked about our age difference many times,
and maybe the age gap was harder than we thought.
But
here we are.
And I think we've both made a decision
that will impact our lives and our families.
And I just hope and pray that it's the right one.
I think I just wanted you to be able to see what I see.
And I wanted to show you the world. I wanna see more with you.
[Chris] Hmm.
And I wanna get you out of your comfort zone, you know?
And I do wanna challenge you in all the ways that I can.
And I love it when you challenge me too.
I can see myself growing with you, building with you.
Um, I know it's not easy.
I understand that we weren't at our best.
And it's like, I wanna see you be at your best and me at my best
and see how we can be our best together.
[exhaling]
I would like to commit to you.
[music fades]
[sniffles]
Excuse me. [clearing throat]
So…
Wow.
[somber music playing]
[Chris] So we've talked about our differences, and we laid out
what we want out of a partner from day one.
I think we both wanna have a family. I think we both wanna settle down.
I think maybe we want it at different paces.
I do think that the age difference
did cause an unnecessary pressure on both of us
and put us in a situation where…
for the first time in my life,
I felt like it was hard for me to be myself.
♪ Now I'm floating ♪
♪ Lift me off the ground ♪
♪ My heart is open ♪
And that's why ultimately, I feel that this partnership is not right.
♪ Now I'm floating ♪
♪ Lift me off the ground ♪
♪ My heart is open ♪
And ultimately,
I can't move forward with something that I don't feel is 100% right.
I don't feel like that's fair to you.
I don't feel like that's fair to your family or mine.
So I… I am deciding to end this relationship here.
♪ Now I'm floating ♪
Honestly, I will cherish every single freaking moment and experience.
And I hope that this isn't the end of a friendship that I
truly value.
-Seriously, thank you. -You're welcome.
You are a beautiful person inside and out.
Can I have a hug?
It was nice meeting you.
[music fades]
[Chris sniffling]
[somber music playing]
[Leah] Chris didn't really wanna be with me.
If somebody really likes you, really wants to be with you,
they'll be with you.
And they'll fight.
That's why I was willing to give us a shot and see if we could get it together.
But he wasn't.
I've always wanted to be chosen,
but I wasn't gonna beg someone to choose me.
I also can't turn a boy into a man either.
♪ At least I gave my all ♪
I was hoping to find my love here at the retreat, but I didn't.
Overall, I think I've just learned who I am.
And I'm a very strong, intelligent, beautiful woman.
And my future partner will be happy to be with me.
And I'm excited for him.
♪ No words left to say ♪
♪ 'Cause I'll be okay ♪
♪ I'm stronger now ♪
[music fades]
["Wait For Me" by Raphael Lake & Ben Fisher playing]
I'm definitely a little bit unsure.
You know, the last few days, I've definitely been in my head.
I mean, there's so much fear there
that the age gap will be too much,
where we're at in our lives will be too much,
the timing, the distance.
♪ Come and drink this water ♪
♪ 'Cause my cup, it overflows ♪
Are we too far away from where the other person is in life?
And I would be lying if I said that that still doesn't cross my mind
every single day with Libby.
There's definitely two sides going back and forth
that's, like, it's not gonna work.
One's going off of previous experiences and all of the things
that haven't worked.
And then the other side of it is, like, my heart.
♪ Can you see the shoes ♪
♪ Worn out upon my feet ♪
[Libby] I'm a bit nervous going into this.
Me and Andrew have been so solid this entire experience.
I don't think I expected to get to this point
this morning and be questioning things.
[song continues]
[Libby] But the past couple days,
he's brought up the thing about him worrying about taking from my life
and the distance between us.
So I'm spiraling a little bit too.
Andrew's doubts are putting more ideas in my head.
I'm… I'm like, wait, is he right? Is this gonna work?
♪ Every single time… ♪
[Libby] His doubts have now become my doubts.
And I think all of this is really starting to freak me out.
♪ Wait for you ♪
♪ Will you wait for me too? ♪
[Libby] I don't know how he's feeling.
And I don't know if he's decided that the age difference, it's too much.
So, I think it's very possible
that Andrew is gonna break my heart on this mountain today.
♪ Every single time ♪
♪ In this asylum ♪
♪ I will sit outside and wait for you ♪
[Andrew] Awesome.
-You look beautiful. -Thanks.
-Mm-hmm. -You look handsome. It's true.
[music fades]
I came here hoping
to find something,
but I don't think I truly believed that I would find something real.
There's a part of me that wonders if this works
when we're outside of the bubble that we've been living in.
You're 22. I'm 38.
That's a big gap.
Your life is just getting started.
You're figuring out who you are, what you want, where you're going.
And I'm settled in the life that I've already built.
The biggest fear for me is keeping you from your dreams
even though you're a part of mine.
I understand what you mean.
And obviously I've been thinking about that too.
You know that sometimes it's hard for me to really…
[exhales deeply]
…express how I'm feeling with my words.
And sometimes it's better and easier for me to write it out.
So I wrote you something.
[both chuckling]
"Coming into this experience,
I hoped for the best,
but I truly never thought that I'd meet someone like you."
"You have everything that I've ever wanted in a guy,
which is incredibly rare because that includes some outrageous things,
like, someone who will sing Taylor Swift with me and manifest."
[chuckling]
"You challenged me to open up in ways I never have before
and brought out a side of me that not many people get to see."
"I love the way you talk and care about your daughters,
and the way you protect them in every aspect
shows what a great dad you are."
"Hearing about your experiences as a father
has been one of the many things that drew me to you."
"With that being said, I know that comes with a lot of weight,
and it's something I don't take lightly."
"And I know that you're worried about our age gap
and the fact that I'm 22,
and you think that there's a possibility
that you could be taking too much from my life."
"And it has me thinking the last couple days
about what it is that I really want."
[emotional music playing]
And I really feel like you'd only be an addition to my life.
I've had a lot of time to think as well.
And
the truth is…
no matter how much I doubt the age gap,
the distance, the timing,
I don't doubt the way I feel when I'm with you.
[hopeful music playing]
When we first got here,
you asked me if I ever thought
I could fall in love before the end of this.
And I remember saying…
I think someone could. [sighing]
But I didn't think I would be that someone.
I was wrong.
[Libby chuckling]
[Andrew] Because I have.
And I do love you.
You have opened up things in me
I thought were shut down for good.
I've been waiting a long time for something like this.
A really long time.
And I feel like it's finally my turn.
Like this might actually be
my rom-com happy ending.
[both chuckling]
-I know, I'm so cheesy. -No, I love it.
[both chuckling lightly]
I've been thinking a lot about
what happens after this.
And I don't know
what your generation calls it these days.
Hard launch.
[laughing]
[Andrew] Soft launch.
Probably something way cooler than what I'm about to say.
But
I would really love to leave here with you as my girlfriend.
Do you want to hard-launch me?
-[laughs] -I want to hard-launch you.
[both laughing]
I'm gonna need you to answer before I continue.
Okay. Okay.
I want to commit to you,
and I want a relationship with you outside of here
because I also love you too. [chuckling]
[softly] Come here.
-Oh my God. -[chuckles]
All right.
So, there is one more thing.
My daughters.
They are the most important thing to me.
With you, you make me feel safe.
You make it feel safe to open up
that box again.
And I would really love for you to come to Baltimore,
for you to meet my daughters because I do see you
in my future forever.
That means the world coming from you.
That's really sweet.
I think that
I know how important your daughters are to you.
And I want you to know that
I think that that's something that's equally important to me.
And I think that
if you were willing to open that part of your life to me,
I would be
happy to be a part of it. [chuckling]
I really do love you.
I really do love you too. [chuckles]
♪ Whoa ♪
♪ I will be there for you ♪
♪ Oh, for you ♪
[music fades]
["See You Soon" by Lynden Arden playing]
[Vanessa] I'm in a really good place in my life.
I'm getting ready to turn 50 years old.
I've never felt more comfortable in my body,
financially, spiritually, everything.
And the one thing that is missing is love.
♪ And I know I'll see you soon ♪
[Vanessa] I thought I was never gonna find love again,
but Logan makes my heart feel full, and he gives me hope,
and he makes me feel alive.
♪ So no more goodbyes ♪
♪ Build it all with you… ♪
[Vanessa] Logan and I have had a lot of ups and downs.
We're finally at a really good place, except for the question mark,
is he ready for a commitment?
Is Logan gonna take a step forward and be ready for a commitment?
Or is he ready to go back to his party-boy lifestyle in Dallas,
and I'll go back to Ohio and start over from square one?
♪ I'll see the sun ♪
[Vanessa] The thought of going home alone would just be devastating.
I don't want this to end.
♪ There's been days When I've lost myself ♪
[Logan] I've obviously fallen in love with Vanessa.
Our love feels so in sync.
It feels like something that I really, to be honest, I didn't think I would find.
♪ If I could write ♪
♪ What fills my bones… ♪
[Logan] She loves me in a way that I haven't been loved before.
It's crazy that she's 20 years older than me,
but regardless of age,
I don't know if I'm gonna find anybody like Vanessa.
Going into the commitment ceremony, the unknown is,
am I gonna be able to give her what she truly wants?
There's a chance that,
you know, I get up there and see this woman I've fallen in love with,
and it's picture-perfect.
And there's a chance
that I might not be able to meet those expectations.
There's a chance that
we walk away without each other.
♪ See the sun ♪
-[Vanessa] Hi. -Hey.
[Vanessa] You look so cute.
-[Logan] Good to see you. -I'm so nervous.
-Yeah, right? -Yeah.
Can I hold your hands? It helps me with my nerves.
[music fades]
Logan, when I first met you, you were such a gentleman.
We had an amazing conversation.
And then we go out on our date… [chuckling]
…and you tell me you're worried about the optics of dating an older woman.
And I'm like, "What is up with this guy? I can't figure him out."
So I was like, forget it, you know?
But you did a few things that were really important to me.
[emotional music playing]
You apologized,
and you took accountability for your actions.
And that meant a lot to me.
So I decided I really wanna give this guy a chance.
[inhaling] Um…
Yeah.
I feel that with you
I opened up more than anyone else I've ever opened up to in my life.
I feel safe with you.
And that's something that's so important to me.
I was really in a dark time before I came here.
You know, I lost my mom, and it's been almost a year.
And being with you, you brought light back into my life.
And I'm happy that you're here.
I'm happy to be here.
[both chuckling]
[music fades]
Yeah. I mean, our journey has been everything but picture-perfect.
Despite the whirlwind, we found a connection.
And I think, you know, you challenged me, and you asked me the tough questions
and wondered if I was ready for a commitment,
ready for something serious, or…
-…I was just another fling for you. -Yeah.
[contemplative music playing]
But the reality is you have made me into a better man.
And going on this process with you, it was like nothing I could imagine.
I'm glad after all those hardships that we landed in this place of peace
and love, and there's no more fighting.
And I don't wanna go back to my old life without you in it.
So that being said,
I would like to bring you into my world and meet my family,
meet my friends, and be by my side.
And, you know, as we move forward,
I'm hoping you would do the same for me
and allow me to meet your friends and your family
and be a part of your world
'cause I really want you to be part of my world.
[music fades]
[birds chirping]
[pensive music playing]
Is this the part you break up with me?
[Logan] Here's the thing.
[pensive music continues]
Our journey has had a lot of ups and downs.
[dramatic sting]
And the chaos that we've found
is… It's--
You know, is that toxic, or was it healthy, right?
And it's really made me question
whether or not it's… it's… it's good for us, right?
The time alone
has made me realize that maybe I'm not the man for you.
[somber music playing]
[Logan] Maybe
I'm not good enough for you.
I truly questioned that.
[sighing] It's-- It has been difficult and…
I don't wanna make promises that I can't keep.
So…
[music fades]
I need the promise ring back.
[dramatic sting]
[somber music playing]
It's been a tough journey.
My first instinct is always the correct instinct.
And I should stick with my first gut instinct on someone.
Yeah.
And maybe I was just trying to fit a square peg into a round hole.
And my picker was wrong once again.
Yeah.
But…
During my alone time, I've also realized that
maybe I don't have to be the perfect man.
Maybe I just needed to be the guy that was there for you
throughout all the good times, highs and lows.
Somebody that you could talk to and count on.
Somebody that'd always be there for you just like your mom was before she left.
[dramatic music playing]
And I think, spending time with you,
enjoying you,
not realizing there was an age gap,
has made me
want to commit.
♪ So let it go… ♪
What is happening?
[chuckling]
What?
I don't want this journey to end.
[chuckling] Oh my God. What is happening here?
And you know,
it's been a crazy roller coaster of a ride.
But I'm not getting off anytime soon.
I love the shit out of you.
[Vanessa chuckling]
And, uh, you know, I wanna make a promise and a commitment.
[uplifting music playing]
You're someone who deserves everything.
What is happening? [chuckling]
And someone who deserves the Kobe ring.
Stop it. No.
Is this really happening?
-Vanessa… -Stop it! [chuckling]
I'm not ready to get off anytime soon.
Oh my God. What is happening?
[Logan] So…
You wanna continue this journey and do life together?
♪ The only thing I'm waiting for is you ♪
Yes. I do.
Oh my God. I'm shaking.
[Logan] So…
-Oh my God. -There is that.
[Vanessa] Oh my God. It's so pretty.
-So let's do it. -Oh my gosh. I fucking love you.
Oh my God. [chuckles]
-That's insane. -Oh my goodness.
-You got red lipstick on you. -Yeah, I know.
-Oh my God. I'm shaking. -[chuckles]
You tricked me so bad.
[both chuckling]
When you started attacking me, I was like, "Oh shit."
[Vanessa laughing]
[Vanessa] Oh my God.
Oh my God.
♪ 'Cause we are better ♪
♪ We're better… ♪
[Logan] Age doesn't matter for us.
[chuckling] As crazy as it is to
get engaged to somebody that's 20 years older than me, it's…
It's Vanessa.
She's… the one that has changed me,
and she's the one that's made me feel ways that I haven't felt before.
So, you know, at the end of the day it's what I wanted.
[Vanessa] I ran every scenario of what could happen when I was coming here,
but the one scenario I didn't think of was finding the love of my life.
I came into this experience with a complete open mind,
and I'm really super happy with how it ended.
[kissing]
[music fades]
[upbeat music playing]
I did not think I was gonna come into this experience
and completely change my life.
What was your name?
-Derrick. -Derrick. I'm Pfeifer.
I love your eyes.
-Thank you, me too. -Wow.
[chuckling]
It's so rare that you find somebody that you connect with like this.
And I never would've expected it to go this way,
but I'm so grateful that it has.
[both laughing]
You wanna get--
Pfeifer's definitely the person I've been looking for.
She's humble. She's loving.
All of those are, like, something that I've definitely wanted,
but I honestly didn't know that it existed.
[Pfeifer] I've always thought age was just a number.
And damn, yeah, this experience really proves that it's just that.
♪ Only love can light it up ♪
I came here to try something completely unorthodox
to meet people from all different ages.
And if anyone said, you're gonna come here
and you're gonna fall for a guy that's 20 years younger than you,
I'd be like, you're absolutely crazy.
-Romeo, Romeo! Wherefore art thou, Romeo? -[chuckles]
No way. Isn't this supposed to be the opposite way?
You're supposed to be up here with your hair.
But what Logan and I have is something really special.
So I am 49.
I was gonna guess 29.
[Vanessa laughing]
Why Vanessa?
I mean, I could have connected with anybody else.
There were 19 other women at the retreat, some closer in age to me,
but I don't think I would love anybody else like the way I love Vanessa.
She's one in a million.
Where do we go from here, you know?
-What's next is we enjoy tonight. -Stop it. [chuckling]
I thought I was going to go into the last years of my life alone.
And now, here I am turning 50, and I'm in love.
♪ So when you're feeling heartless And you're in the darkness ♪
♪ Only love can light it up ♪
I got more than everything I've ever wanted out of this experience.
I met somebody I never thought I would meet.
[woman] One, go!
[Libby] Andrew does see me for the real me and not my age.
He sees parts of me that a lot of people don't,
and he just recognizes it, and he appreciates it.
I don't think I've had that before.
I'm enjoying what we have right now. I'm waking up to you.
Yeah. This is probably the nicest thing I'll ever say to you.
But the more I get to know you, the more I like you more.
I really do feel like I got my rom-com happy ending,
and I don't think I could've scripted it any better.
♪ Only love can light it up… ♪
I absolutely believe age is just a number because I never would have thought
that I could connect with somebody that is 27 years old on this level.
♪ Light it up, light it up ♪
I'm gonna go for it.
I love Theresa. I love how she makes me feel.
All right. [chuckling]
And for seeing me for who I am
and loving me and accepting me
for a 27-year-old who's a little more mature.
It's the connection that counts, not the candles on the cake.
-Should I grab your ass? [chuckles] -[John] Yeah.
[both chuckling]
♪ Oh I, oh I ♪
♪ I see it in a new light, new light ♪
♪ Oh I, I see it in a new light ♪
♪ Looking at it with fresh eyes ♪
♪ I'm ready for the best life ♪
♪ Oh I, oh I, I see it in a new light ♪
♪ I see it in a new light ♪
♪ I see it ♪
♪ New light ♪
♪ Oh I, I see it in a new light ♪
♪ New light ♪
♪ Oh I, I see it in a new light ♪
♪ Oh I, oh I, I see it in a new light ♪
♪ New light ♪
♪ Oh I, I see it in a new light ♪
♪ Looking at it with fresh eyes ♪
♪ I'm ready for the best life ♪
♪ New light ♪
♪ Oh I, I see it in a new light ♪
[music fades]