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[pensive music playing]

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[Heinerth] Cave diving is often referred
to as the world's most dangerous sport.

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But is it a sport?

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[pensive music playing]

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It's the closest thing I can think of
to going to another planet.

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It's this interesting yin-yang
of light and dark, of beauty and danger.

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Cave diving is like swimming
in the veins of Mother Earth.

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I'm literally swimming
through water-filled passages

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beneath your feet.

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And these caves
are like museums of natural history.

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We can learn about
where our drinking water is

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and how we can protect it
for the next generation.

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[pensive music playing]

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We can learn about Earth's past climate.

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We can learn about ancient civilizations
that have left artifacts.

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We can learn about the unique animals

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that live in the darkness
of an underwater cave.

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When you're exploring a cave,

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you must solve
all of your problems underground,

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underwater, with no mission control
to call for help.

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[ominous music playing]

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There are a lot of physical risks.

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The silt can rain down from the ceiling.

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It's also easy to get lost.

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You can also get trapped.

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Anything can go wrong
at any time with your gear.

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It's critical to know when to turn around.

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I know a lot of people
that didn't do that.

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I swim through the graves of my friends
all the time.

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I've lost over a hundred friends
to technical and cave diving accidents.

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You really ask yourself,
is this something I should be doing?

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Is this fair to my family?

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Do I wanna take these risks?

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[regulator hissing]

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But in those dark, confined spaces,

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I'm happy, I'm comfortable,
I'm in my element.

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But I am scared.

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I'm not fearless.

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[thunder rumbling]

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The day that I'm not afraid
about what I'm doing

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is the day that I should hang up my fins.

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[pensive music playing]

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I'm not in this for adrenaline.

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I've learned so much
about the plumbing of the planet,

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but also about myself through cave diving.

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I think cave diving
is a metaphor for life.

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We all have to face change
and uncertainty.

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[regulator hissing]

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Humanity needs people that push
on the edges and step into the darkness.

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That's how we evolve.

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Jill's been diving at the cutting edge
of cave exploration for so long.

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You know, she's had this stellar career
of filmmaking, exploration, and adventures

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with all the big names around this planet.

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Jill literally wrote
the book on cave diving.

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She makes documentaries,
she's an excellent photographer.

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She's an author, she's a public speaker.

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I think by 2001, she was probably...

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the world's best female diver, period.

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Forget "cave diver." I'm just talking
about "underwater explorer."

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She's there because of
the excitement of exploration,

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the satisfaction of curiosity.

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Jill always...

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I guess she needed to see
what was around the next corner.

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She was always very curious.

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I could easily say that she was
an explorer from the beginning,

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and same as she is now.

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[Jang] Our parents
always took us out on hikes.

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The Bruce Trail
was a big thing that we enjoyed.

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[Heinerth] I loved hiking
the trails, but even more,

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I loved climbing down
into those cracks and crevices

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and looking around

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in this three-dimensional,
below-ground space.

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Those were my first experiences in caving,

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and often those were cozy,
comfortable, small places.

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We had a set of National Geographics

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that were gifted
from my grandmother and grandfather.

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From the light of a bare bulb,

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I would go through these volumes,
page by page.

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Those pages showed me
what was possible for me in the future

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and inspired me to study and learn

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and create a future
where I could be an explorer, too.

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[alarm ringing]

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[intriguing music playing]

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[radio static on TV]

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[man on TV] Launch commit. Lift off.

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We have lift off with Apollo 14.

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[Heinerth] You know, back in the day,
astronauts were heroes,

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pushing the envelope of human physiology.

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Just the scale, the magnitude,
all that technology.

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[astronaut speaking indistinctly
over radio]

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[Heinerth] It was like you were looking
through this peephole in history,

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seeing something so incredible.

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I knew I had a burning desire
to be an explorer.

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I was so excited and thrilled.

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I ran home and couldn't wait
to tell my mom about the experience,

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the thing that I had just seen.

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You know, "Mom, I wanna be an astronaut.
I'm gonna be an astronaut."

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And then when she told me no,
it was like,

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"Oh, like, am I not good enough?
Am I not capable? Like, what is it?"

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She's like, "No, there's
no space program for Canadians.

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There's no women astronauts.

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It's, like, there's no place
for you there."

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And it was discouraging.

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I thought, "Well, what can I do?
How can I be an explorer?"

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[pensive music playing]

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Watching and seeing Jacques Cousteau
on TV was that pivot point, really.

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Here he was sailing around the world
to fantastic places

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and then going underwater
with this wild-looking technology.

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Breathing underwater,

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and then encountering, like,
sharks and fish and whales.

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[whales cooing]

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And that captivated me.

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And I thought,
"If I can't explore outer space,

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if I can't be an astronaut,

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maybe I can explore inner space

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and the magical depths
of the ocean instead."

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My first real cave diving expedition
was the Huautla expedition in 1995.

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[dramatic music playing]

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Huautla is situated
in the Sierra Mazateca Mountains,

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and there's a cave system
inside the mountain.

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So if you peel away
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and you look inside,

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you've got, like, this whole network
of tunnels and spaces.

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And if you enter a hole
in the top of the mountain,

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you might be descending down on rope

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or climbing down a waterfall
deeper and deeper into the earth.

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And the year before we got there,

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that's how the explorers
were getting into the system.

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So when I went in 1995
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we decided to work from the bottom up.

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We were seeing the pieces
of this puzzle come together,

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and one of the biggest unknowns
was this resurgence.

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If we could dive in through that,

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come up into air-filled passage,

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maybe we could just connect
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and at that time we would have ended up
with roughly the world's deepest cave.

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[Heinerth] The expedition got harder
and harder in a series of stages.

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I mean, just getting there
was tough in the car,

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and we were exhausted
after four days of driving and car repairs

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and getting up into the mountains

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to an altitude where the car
could barely drive up the incline.

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And it was hot, and there were bugs,

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and the winds were so strong

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that they would blow away your tents
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But then we experienced mudslides.

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The rainy season came a bit early.

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That shallow streamway
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would periodically be just filled
with this rush,

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a tsunami of water down the canyon.

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It felt like the physical hardships
were, at times, just too much to bear,

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and that was even before we went
into the cave to go diving or surveying.

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We didn't have enough burros
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so the first and easiest choice was,

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"Leave Jill's diving gear
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She's not gonna use it.

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She's gonna have to do other things
during the project."

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So Paul and Noel ended up
doing all of the exploration diving.

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I got involved in supporting the base camp

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and surveying dry cave,
and doing other things.

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But as the dives progressed
and we reached some real physical hurdles,

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Noel got to the point where he said,

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"I've done everything that I can do,
and I've reached my psychological limit."

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Noel was an experienced cave diver,
cave explorer, and a physician.

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He was our expedition doctor.

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And at that point,
either Paul could dive solo,

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or there would be no more diving,
and we'd just dry cave explore,

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or, in that split second,
I had a chance to say, "I wanna do it."

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And that's what I did.

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I said, "Hey, I could fit Noel's gear.

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We don't even have to go get my dive gear.
I can wear Noel's diving gear.

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I'd like to have an opportunity
to explore this cave."

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-And I remember Bill's look like, "Really?
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What makes you think that you've got
the chops to pull off this dive

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when Noel says it's too much
and he feels it's not safe to go on?

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Why are you convinced
that you're not gonna die in there,

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and I'm gonna have to carry your body
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and explain to your family what happened?"

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Because just a year earlier
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one of their teammates had died.

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And it was a friend, a dear friend,

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and they had to carry his body,
something that took 12 days.

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That pall hung over that expedition,
and it informed everything that we did.

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And I thought,
"Whoa, that didn't take long."

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This is business.

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This is really serious.

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This is not just some fun lark
on a travel destination.

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This is life and death.

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What I wasn't sure of
when that conversation happened

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was the level of her discipline, you know?

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Was she the one that was gonna get
to 68 meters depth and panic,

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you know, and take Paul down with her?

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This is not some Boy Scout badge

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that you put on your arm and use
to be some status symbol, you know?

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This is deadly shit.

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You go in there,
and there is a finite chance

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that you are going to die
if you don't do things just right.

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If you have somebody who's just gung ho
without considering the consequences,

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that was what I was looking for.

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Was this somebody who's just,

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"I wanna make a name for myself
by getting in here

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and pushing this
to some spectacular limit"?

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[clears throat] Or is it
somebody who says,

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"You know what,
the goal here is to get data

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and not get anybody hurt"?

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And by the time the sun came up,
Bill said, "I'll support you.

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I'll help carry your gear.

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I'll get you there
and do whatever you need to do.

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I'm willing to give you a chance."

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And that changed my life.

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[tense music playing]

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On the biggest dive,
we needed everybody's help.

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The river was swollen

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between the base camp
and the opening of the cave,

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and it was very dangerous,

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even to transport all the gear, the tanks
and everything to begin the dive.

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And then as Paul and I
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got all our tanks organized,

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the moment that it was time to go,
the water started to rise.

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Dirty water started
to flood into the cave,

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and the current turned to reverse.

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We had a split second
to make a decision to go or no go.

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And I looked at Paul, and he said,
"Dive, dive, dive,"

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and disappeared under the surface.

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In that moment,
I remember thinking to myself,

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"Are you an explorer or not?"

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And I went for it.

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And I dove underwater,

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racing against
that flowing current of dirty water

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that was running into the cave system,

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and swam as fast as I could
to keep up to Paul.

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It's like the die was cast,
and I was on autopilot.

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It was happening.

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[dramatic music playing]

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[regulator hissing]

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So we surface in this pool

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with a waterfall
cascading down on top of us.

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But at this point,
in order to continue on,

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we needed to climb up over the waterfall,
get our gear up there, and continue.

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[Stone] I mean, it's as close to,
you know, Jules Verne as you're gonna get.

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The rest of the world disappears,
and you are an explorer.

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Once we'd gone through that whole
ordeal and gotten into that upper pool

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and continued into the water
that was clear...

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I thought, "Okay, this is it.

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This is the edge of the unknown.
I am touching the void and going forward."

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My heart is racing.

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There's no map, so you're gonna make it.

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[music intensifies]

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[regulator hissing]

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When I look back on that dive
into the deep passages,

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we ended up too deep
for the traditional breathing gases.

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The sounds in my mind were,
"Ooh, turn around, turn around."

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It was that distance pressure.

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"Whoa, we're a long way from home."

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And when those nerves
start to creep in, it's really time to go.

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[suspenseful music playing]

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You have to be willing

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to get within a hair's breadth
of complete success,

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but also know when to turn around.

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When I got out of the dive
and I reached the surface,

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the first thing that I saw was Bill Stone
crouched by the side of the water,

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like a mother hen, and he looked down,
he's like, "Oh, thank God."

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We have three rules
on any expedition that I organize.

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One is that nobody gets hurt.

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Second one is everybody has
a memorable time.

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And the third one is
you come home with new data,

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as much as you can get safely, right?

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And so if you take all three of those,
we hit them all.

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What they stopped at,
at 600 meters in and 68 meters deep,

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was a gigantic underwater tunnel
carrying this subterranean river.

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So that remains an open question,

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and nobody has been back
to continue that work.

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So it's still out there.

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When I first met Jill,
I thought that she had skills.

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They were undemonstrated to me.

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So it was somewhat of a gamble
taking her on that trip.

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And, you know, the end result is
she kicked ass and did a great job,

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and was good at focusing
on getting the information that we needed,

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the data that had to come out of there

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so that we could think about,
"All right, how do we plan a return?"

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So to me that showed that she had,
you know, the right stuff, you know,

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the astronaut quality that we seek

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when we're talking about people
doing this kind of stuff.

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[Heinerth] Working with Bill Stone in 1995
gave me an opportunity to explore

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what we thought could be
the world's deepest vertical cave system.

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So in 1996, I turned my attention

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to what we thought would be
the longest cave system in the world.

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[pensive music playing]

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[Kakuk] Jill's forte has always been
as a coordinator,

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getting the right people
in the right places.

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She played a big part in that,

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as well as going out there
and making discoveries on her own.

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She wanted to be more involved
in cave diving.

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She wanted to be
more involved in discovery.

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She knew what her future was gonna be.

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There wasn't anything gonna stop her
from getting there.

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[Heinerth] It was very affirming

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to finally push the envelope
and be leading instead of following.

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I began to recognize

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how important my viewpoint
from inside the plumbing of the planet

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could be to the rest of humanity.

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I can see the influences of what
we're doing on the surface of the Earth.

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We're in the middle of Mexico

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in an area where people are having trouble
finding clean water to drink,

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and yet they're living on top
of a prolific water source

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that if they just knew exactly
how to access it,

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it could change their lives.

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If I can help people
not just understand where their water is,

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but how they are affecting it,

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then maybe we have a chance
at solving some of these issues

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like water scarcity
and global climate change.

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[regulator hissing]

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By the time we wrapped the expedition,

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we pulled together all the maps
and discovered

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that we had mapped 56 kilometers
of new passageways

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and found the world's longest cave system.

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That was incredible to me.
I was on cloud nine.

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And it was like the possibilities
were now open to me.

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We started to think
about how to make a better map.

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And that's when Bill Stone
proposed our next great challenge.

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He wanted to bring together
an international expedition

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and make the world's first
accurate three-dimensional map

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of any subterranean space, dry or wet.

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And it seemed like
a bit of a crazy proposal at first,

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but I thought, "I am in."

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So from that point forward,

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we started putting all of our efforts
into planning for this project

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called the Wakulla 2 Project.

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If you had asked
any respectable exploring cave diver

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in the United States in those days

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about what would be the greatest spring

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and the greatest challenge in cave diving,

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they would've instantly said
Wakulla Springs.

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[dramatic music playing]

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Everybody knew it. It was just gigantic,
in those days, air clear.

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The sand funnel alone coming in
from this 100-meter diameter basin

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was pristine white sand
kept clean by this aquifer.

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It was like going to another planet.

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[Heinerth] Wakulla Springs is very deep,
and it gets deep fast.

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So the first thing you do
is you get down to that maximum depth,

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and that's about as high
as the Statue of Liberty, 90 meters.

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But then we're going
in this overhead environment

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where you cannot come up.

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There's no way out.

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You're going in over three kilometers.

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But even when you're
out to the doorway of the cave,

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you've still got 17 hours
of decompression ahead of you

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before you're back safely on the surface.

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It would take thousands of scuba tanks
to do the dives that we did at Wakulla.

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We need a completely different technology
called a rebreather.

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[Stone] A rebreather
is a self-contained diving backpack

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that recycles your exhaled breath.

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It pulls out the carbon dioxide
that you create, it adds oxygen,

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and allows you to just keep recycling
quietly for a very long time.

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You can end up with between 100
and 200 times the efficiency

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in terms of your dive capability
over the old traditional scuba.

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[Heinerth] Basically,
you're asking a diver

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to manipulate
their life support environment.

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And that could be

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one of the most dangerous things
they've ever done.

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Too much oxygen,
and you can have a seizure.

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Too little oxygen, and you can pass out.

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The wrong gas choices
can cost you your life.

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And there's a lot that can go wrong

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with a complex piece
of electronic equipment

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when you submerge it underwater.

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But I was so excited
by this new technology

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and what it could enable me
to do as an explorer.

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I could go further or deeper
than I'd ever been before.

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And that's the beauty of that gear.

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The most important part
of the Wakulla project to me

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was the fact
that the perception of cave divers

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was changing because of this project.

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For the first time in history,

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we could show people exactly
where water lay beneath their feet,

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and how they could be affecting the health
of that water supply beneath their feet.

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Cave divers were now respected
as valued citizen scientists.

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[Kakuk] One of the things that we did
at Wakulla was we were trying to condense

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what other teams had done over 10 years
into a three-month period

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with an international group
who hadn't dived together before.

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So that's a huge undertaking.

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And so trying to get people
to jell as a team

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who have completely different disciplines
because of the environments they dive in,

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that's a really tough, tough thing to do.

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People didn't just go into the cave
with all that gear.

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This massive support team of 160 people
would line up behind two people,

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and those guys, they were astronauts
as far as I'm concerned.

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You know,
when you saw the kit-up procedure,

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there were two people per person

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helping these people get all their gear on
because you can't do it yourself.

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It's just too much stuff.

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[Kakuk] I looked like a giant rebreather
with two little legs sticking out.

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You can't even see my head behind it.

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Uh, it was not fun to dive.

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It's serious back aches,
things like that.

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And we didn't have the timeline
to get it dialed in

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as well as we could have.

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[breathing heavily]

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[pensive music playing]

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[Heinerth] To me,
the entire project felt like a moonshot.

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Everything about that project,

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from the life support
to the mapping device

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to the way that we handled
the decompression,

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was all sort of borrowed
from concepts in space.

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In fact, at one point,
Bill even reached out to NASA astronauts,

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and their remark was,

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"What you guys do is way more dangerous
than what we ever did as astronauts

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because we had mission control.

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You leave that entrance of the cave
and you go inside, and you're on your own.

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That's way harder."

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[dramatic music playing]

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When we got past that point
of the previous world record,

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we tied on a guideline

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and we broke into new exploration,
and we kept on going.

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And that was a huge victory for me,

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but it was also a world record

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for any woman going deeper
and further into a cave in history.

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I realized I was on the cutting edge.
I was there. I was doing it.

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And I had realized
my goals of being an explorer.

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[Stone] Nobody had ever worked
in that regime underwater,

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and so Jill was one of those pioneers.

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It was evident that she was the lead.

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She was the only female on that dive team,

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and she led
the whole exploration of B Tunnel,

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which was arguably the most difficult
of all the options that we had looked at.

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Um, you know, so she really rose,
in my opinion,

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to superstar status on that project.

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[pensive music playing]

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We produced a 3D map of Wakulla Springs.

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We mapped 32 kilometers of tunnels.

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Highly accurate, highly detailed.

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You could see the features
of the cave going through

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in a way that you never could
if you were doing it on a dive

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because you simply couldn't see it.

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[Heinerth] I think when I started
down the road of the Wakulla project,

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I wasn't as confident in myself,
in my abilities.

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I learned a lot over those years
just preparing for the project.

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But by the time I left that project,
I felt like I had leadership

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and confidence to move forward
and take on the next challenging task.

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[McClellan] Jill has, like,
7500 logged dives.

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00:35:41,680 --> 00:35:46,360
Well, you know, that 7501
might be the one

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where, you know, a 25-cent O-ring fails
and she's too far back,

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or a rebreather fails.

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I liken it to maybe someone who's married
to a police officer or a firefighter.

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You know, they go off to their job,
and it's inherently dangerous.

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It's inherently-- It has some risks.

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But I also know that Jill

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does everything she can
to minimize those risks,

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and she's very clear
about communicating that to me.

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And that just kind of, you know, takes
a little bit of the edge off for me.

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But yeah, I worry. I do worry.

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I'm sure that what I do

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contributes to anxiety
and difficulty for him,

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and that's hard.

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But I also know
that if I quit doing what I love,

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then I'm not gonna be
the woman that he fell in love with.

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So there's this weird, delicate dance
that we play,

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and there are times when it gets acute.

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I would say that cave diving
is probably more dangerous

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than what I was doing in the military.

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I mean, I was deployed overseas.

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I was involved in skirmishes
and things like that.

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I know which end of the rifle
the round comes out of.

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But I did not go to as many memorials
or funerals in 15 years in the military

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as I did in my first few years
of being married to Jill.

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[somber music playing]

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There are very few divers in the world
that are as experienced as Jill.

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But sometimes she dives with scientists
and other people who--

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Diving is just sort of a side thing
that they have to do.

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00:37:38,320 --> 00:37:41,880
And, you know, one of the rules in diving
is you have to be able to save yourself,

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but you also have to be able
to rescue your buddy.

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So I'm often very concerned
about who that buddy is.

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Like, is that person gonna be capable
of bringing Jill out of a cave?

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[pensive music playing]

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[regulator hissing]

482
00:38:05,480 --> 00:38:07,840
[Heinerth]
I was working with a young scientist

483
00:38:07,920 --> 00:38:11,560
who needed to get
a critical bacterial sample

484
00:38:11,640 --> 00:38:14,600
from inside a kind of gnarly, small cave.

485
00:38:14,680 --> 00:38:17,840
And I had done plenty of dives
in this cave, and she hadn't.

486
00:38:17,920 --> 00:38:20,720
In fact, we hadn't even
dived together before.

487
00:38:25,400 --> 00:38:28,880
More often than not,
I work with different scientists,

488
00:38:28,960 --> 00:38:32,640
extending the eyes and hands
into this remote environment.

489
00:38:33,960 --> 00:38:35,520
[tense music playing]

490
00:38:38,320 --> 00:38:40,040
[regulator hissing]

491
00:38:57,320 --> 00:39:02,200
These aren't necessarily linear passages
where you go in and you come out.

492
00:39:02,880 --> 00:39:06,760
It's like swimming
into the branches of a braided tree,

493
00:39:06,840 --> 00:39:10,480
and then you have
to find your way back out.

494
00:39:21,160 --> 00:39:24,200
In cave diving,
we always have a guideline,

495
00:39:24,280 --> 00:39:29,320
which is a thin, usually nylon line
that we place in the cave like a pathway.

496
00:39:30,440 --> 00:39:32,720
It is vital to our safety

497
00:39:32,800 --> 00:39:35,400
because it's a visual reference
to the exit.

498
00:39:37,760 --> 00:39:38,960
[regulator hissing]

499
00:39:59,320 --> 00:40:02,960
[Heinerth] When I called the dive,
when she had the samples that she needed,

500
00:40:04,000 --> 00:40:05,680
and she turned to leave...

501
00:40:07,560 --> 00:40:09,320
she got stuck.

502
00:40:09,400 --> 00:40:10,840
[suspenseful music playing]

503
00:40:23,720 --> 00:40:26,440
And I realized that she was panicking.

504
00:40:29,160 --> 00:40:31,920
All of a sudden, her fins were kicking,

505
00:40:32,000 --> 00:40:37,120
and in this narrow space,
what that meant was a complete silt-out.

506
00:40:44,120 --> 00:40:46,080
I grabbed onto her with one hand

507
00:40:46,160 --> 00:40:48,520
and onto the guideline
with the other hand,

508
00:40:48,600 --> 00:40:52,320
and I felt her wriggling
and fighting against being stuck.

509
00:40:52,400 --> 00:40:54,000
[woman grunts]

510
00:40:54,080 --> 00:40:55,440
[music intensifies]

511
00:40:58,280 --> 00:40:59,560
[grunting]

512
00:41:17,960 --> 00:41:21,120
And I'm holding onto the guideline
and holding onto her,

513
00:41:21,200 --> 00:41:24,480
and they're separating
and getting farther and farther apart,

514
00:41:24,560 --> 00:41:28,800
and then suddenly, the guideline breaks,

515
00:41:28,880 --> 00:41:33,680
and I'm holding the bitter end
of our safety line in my hand.

516
00:41:34,680 --> 00:41:38,600
The part that leads me
out of the cave is gone, and I can't see.

517
00:41:38,680 --> 00:41:40,200
[tense music playing]

518
00:41:42,040 --> 00:41:46,440
And for a moment, my heart was racing,
my respirations were going up,

519
00:41:46,520 --> 00:41:49,120
and I'm thinking these crazy thoughts.

520
00:41:51,520 --> 00:41:53,960
And at some point, I lost track of her.

521
00:41:56,560 --> 00:42:01,760
I didn't know whether she'd left the cave,
whether she'd gone further into the cave.

522
00:42:01,840 --> 00:42:03,760
I had no idea.

523
00:42:03,840 --> 00:42:05,640
[suspenseful music playing]

524
00:42:06,480 --> 00:42:10,280
And I got out my safety spool
and tied in to the bitter end of that line

525
00:42:10,360 --> 00:42:14,280
to begin searching
for the other end that I could tie into.

526
00:42:19,680 --> 00:42:22,680
And I realized
I couldn't just run out of the cave.

527
00:42:22,760 --> 00:42:25,040
I needed to go further in.

528
00:42:25,120 --> 00:42:28,040
When we pass through a cave,
even with perfect technique,

529
00:42:28,120 --> 00:42:30,960
we'll disturb the visibility a little bit.

530
00:42:31,040 --> 00:42:34,720
But when you reach that clear water,
you know nobody's been there.

531
00:42:34,800 --> 00:42:36,440
[tense music playing]

532
00:42:42,040 --> 00:42:44,480
So once I went further into the cave,

533
00:42:44,560 --> 00:42:48,200
and I confirmed that she hadn't passed me
and kept on going,

534
00:42:49,520 --> 00:42:54,400
then I could work my way slowly out
and, like, clear the cave, basically.

535
00:42:54,480 --> 00:42:59,760
Search every corner and every side passage
to ensure I wasn't leaving her behind.

536
00:43:03,120 --> 00:43:04,000
[regulator hissing]

537
00:43:07,960 --> 00:43:11,080
And then my regulator packed it in.

538
00:43:11,560 --> 00:43:14,720
With all the digging
and moving and patching guideline,

539
00:43:14,800 --> 00:43:18,800
it was so packed with clay
that the valve was basically jammed open,

540
00:43:18,880 --> 00:43:22,840
and the only way I could access
that gas supply is to turn the tank on,

541
00:43:22,920 --> 00:43:24,760
take a breath, and turn it off.

542
00:43:24,840 --> 00:43:26,560
[regulator clicking]

543
00:43:32,880 --> 00:43:34,960
So I searched and found a side passage

544
00:43:35,040 --> 00:43:39,760
where all of her scientific gear
was laying on the floor of the cave.

545
00:43:41,160 --> 00:43:45,160
When cave divers panic
and the end is near,

546
00:43:45,240 --> 00:43:47,200
a lot of people start shedding equipment,

547
00:43:47,280 --> 00:43:50,240
tearing their mask off,
throwing down any extras,

548
00:43:50,320 --> 00:43:52,520
sprinting for the exit.

549
00:43:52,600 --> 00:43:57,400
And I was fairly certain
that I would find her next.

550
00:43:57,480 --> 00:43:59,080
[suspenseful music playing]

551
00:44:08,400 --> 00:44:10,720
And when I finally reached the exit...

552
00:44:12,800 --> 00:44:15,360
there she was in the doorway.

553
00:44:15,440 --> 00:44:17,520
She had surfaced and done the right thing.

554
00:44:17,600 --> 00:44:18,840
She had called 911.

555
00:44:18,920 --> 00:44:21,560
She had called the cave rescue team
to come out

556
00:44:21,640 --> 00:44:24,200
and gone back in the water to wait for me.

557
00:44:24,280 --> 00:44:29,280
But when I came out of that cave,
it was 73 minutes after her.

558
00:44:37,840 --> 00:44:40,400
After an experience like that,

559
00:44:41,040 --> 00:44:44,000
people tell you all the things
they wish they had said

560
00:44:44,080 --> 00:44:46,600
if they wouldn't have had
the chance to say them.

561
00:44:48,040 --> 00:44:50,240
They write you e-mails and notes,

562
00:44:50,920 --> 00:44:55,320
and I recognized
that I was reading my own eulogy.

563
00:44:57,200 --> 00:44:59,080
That's pretty hard to take,

564
00:44:59,160 --> 00:45:03,840
for me, for her, and for Robert.

565
00:45:05,240 --> 00:45:09,040
I think what really hit me
was when she told me

566
00:45:09,120 --> 00:45:11,440
that sort of the SOS went out,

567
00:45:11,520 --> 00:45:13,840
and all these cave divers
and rescue people

568
00:45:13,920 --> 00:45:16,720
were on their way to rescue her, or--

569
00:45:16,800 --> 00:45:19,400
I know what cave diving's about,
so they weren't gonna rescue her.

570
00:45:19,480 --> 00:45:21,480
They were just gonna bring her body back.

571
00:45:21,560 --> 00:45:22,960
[somber music playing]

572
00:45:31,520 --> 00:45:33,040
That was the first time
in our relationship

573
00:45:33,120 --> 00:45:34,640
that I really thought to myself,

574
00:45:34,720 --> 00:45:38,800
"What am I gonna do
without Jill in my life?"

575
00:45:38,880 --> 00:45:42,800
I mean, we had just created
this great life for ourselves,

576
00:45:42,880 --> 00:45:46,480
and I don't know what I would do
if that piece was missing.

577
00:45:46,560 --> 00:45:51,920
So I became very resentful
towards the whole idea of cave diving.

578
00:45:52,000 --> 00:45:55,040
I don't think I became resentful
to her personally,

579
00:45:55,120 --> 00:45:56,760
but just the whole idea.

580
00:45:57,320 --> 00:46:01,640
And yeah, there were tears
at our house that night, me and her.

581
00:46:01,720 --> 00:46:03,800
We had a real heart-to-heart,

582
00:46:03,880 --> 00:46:08,480
and she explained to me
how she needed to do this.

583
00:46:08,560 --> 00:46:11,840
You know, it would--
This may be just-- This may seem trivial,

584
00:46:11,920 --> 00:46:15,320
but it would be like asking Tiger Woods
to stop golfing, you know?

585
00:46:15,400 --> 00:46:16,720
That's not gonna happen.

586
00:46:22,120 --> 00:46:24,840
But this was
more than just a sport to her.

587
00:46:24,920 --> 00:46:26,640
This was a calling.

588
00:46:40,480 --> 00:46:48,440
How do you keep engaging in a sport,
an activity where your friends go to die?

589
00:46:48,520 --> 00:46:49,960
[pensive music playing]

590
00:46:56,160 --> 00:46:57,880
I've been to so many funerals

591
00:46:57,960 --> 00:47:03,480
and written quite a number
of eulogies over the years.

592
00:47:06,360 --> 00:47:07,680
And I'm sure some people wonder

593
00:47:07,760 --> 00:47:12,400
how I could ever go back to a place
where a friend of mine died,

594
00:47:12,480 --> 00:47:16,840
or where I even brought a body
out of the cave.

595
00:47:20,160 --> 00:47:23,680
Technical diving means
that a lot of people have rebreathers

596
00:47:23,760 --> 00:47:27,800
and stage bottles and high-speed scooters
that take them kilometers

597
00:47:27,880 --> 00:47:31,720
to faraway places that would have been
world records a decade ago.

598
00:47:36,000 --> 00:47:37,720
It's not the gear that kills people,

599
00:47:37,800 --> 00:47:39,880
it's people that get themselves killed

600
00:47:39,960 --> 00:47:42,840
by the decisions they make
before they go in the water.

601
00:47:45,000 --> 00:47:51,000
I have to look at risk every day
and ask myself, "Is it worth it?"

602
00:47:51,080 --> 00:47:53,280
I could lose my life doing this.

603
00:47:53,360 --> 00:47:54,600
[regulator hissing]

604
00:47:58,880 --> 00:48:03,560
The point in my life that truly shattered
my sense of invincibility

605
00:48:03,640 --> 00:48:05,440
happened in 2000

606
00:48:05,520 --> 00:48:09,600
when I was exploring a place
called The Pit in the Yucatan Peninsula.

607
00:48:14,520 --> 00:48:16,240
[tense music playing]

608
00:48:26,040 --> 00:48:31,240
A few years earlier, Paul and I had found
these deep tunnels

609
00:48:31,320 --> 00:48:35,200
that were connected to
this giant cenote sinkhole.

610
00:48:40,800 --> 00:48:43,400
The Pit was unique because of the depth.

611
00:48:44,320 --> 00:48:49,000
In fact, it's as deep as
the Great Pyramid is tall.

612
00:48:54,880 --> 00:48:59,360
All the caves in the Yucatan
were far less than 100 meters deep.

613
00:48:59,440 --> 00:49:04,600
So this could be a whole new
level of exploration.

614
00:49:04,680 --> 00:49:08,720
And it might even attach
the two longest caves in the world.

615
00:49:11,000 --> 00:49:14,280
At the time, I had thousands of log dives
under my belt,

616
00:49:14,360 --> 00:49:18,200
and I had just been inducted
into the Women Divers Hall of Fame.

617
00:49:18,280 --> 00:49:21,160
And that was a big deal for me.

618
00:49:21,240 --> 00:49:25,880
So I headed off with a great deal
of confidence on that expedition.

619
00:49:35,480 --> 00:49:39,920
At the time Jill was exploring in The Pit,
it was an entirely different world.

620
00:49:40,000 --> 00:49:42,000
Everything was really remote.

621
00:49:42,080 --> 00:49:46,360
Divers had to hike way back
out into the forest

622
00:49:46,440 --> 00:49:48,440
to even access the dive site.

623
00:49:50,320 --> 00:49:54,360
So there's a lot of risks involved
in doing this type of dive

624
00:49:54,440 --> 00:49:57,040
because if something goes wrong,

625
00:49:57,640 --> 00:50:01,760
you don't have a fast and easy
support network.

626
00:50:03,560 --> 00:50:05,520
This is a dive that at the time

627
00:50:05,600 --> 00:50:09,160
probably not a lot of people
were really qualified to do.

628
00:50:11,080 --> 00:50:12,480
[ominous music playing]

629
00:50:53,040 --> 00:50:54,680
[tense music playing]

630
00:50:57,800 --> 00:51:01,400
[Heinerth] When you first put your face in
and you look down,

631
00:51:03,600 --> 00:51:06,680
it's like you're in
a giant witch's cauldron.

632
00:51:08,680 --> 00:51:15,600
Deep below you is this hazy, foggy layer
with tree branches sticking up out of it.

633
00:51:16,960 --> 00:51:20,840
And that layer is caused
by rotting vegetation,

634
00:51:20,920 --> 00:51:24,400
causing a chemical
called hydrogen sulfide.

635
00:51:27,160 --> 00:51:30,720
When you actually descend
through the hydrogen sulfide,

636
00:51:30,800 --> 00:51:35,000
all of your senses are just assaulted
with this rotten egg smell

637
00:51:35,080 --> 00:51:40,160
that somehow gets past your scuba mask,
and even makes your eyes tear up.

638
00:51:42,480 --> 00:51:45,200
But it was below the hydrogen sulfide,

639
00:51:45,280 --> 00:51:49,440
deep into this witch's cauldron,
where the magic was.

640
00:51:49,520 --> 00:51:50,920
[foreboding music playing]

641
00:52:35,000 --> 00:52:38,240
There was nothing like this
in the Yucatan,

642
00:52:38,840 --> 00:52:42,280
and we knew that we had found
something pretty remarkable.

643
00:52:47,560 --> 00:52:50,800
I'll admit, it's a complete rush

644
00:52:50,880 --> 00:52:53,440
when you are breaking into the unknown

645
00:52:53,520 --> 00:52:57,600
and exploring a place
that nobody's ever been before.

646
00:52:57,680 --> 00:52:59,800
It's enticing,

647
00:52:59,880 --> 00:53:04,000
and there's definitely something
that's always drawing you forward.

648
00:53:20,800 --> 00:53:21,840
[regulator hissing]

649
00:53:34,920 --> 00:53:40,200
We'd made it to 120 meters, and we were
at the back of a really large room.

650
00:53:41,960 --> 00:53:45,000
But ahead of us was a small restriction.

651
00:53:50,760 --> 00:53:55,280
Now, continuing on
might have netted a connection

652
00:53:55,360 --> 00:53:59,640
to bring together the two longest
cave systems in the world.

653
00:54:06,960 --> 00:54:10,440
But we were really deep,
and we'd been down for an hour,

654
00:54:10,520 --> 00:54:12,680
so I knew it was time to turn around.

655
00:54:12,760 --> 00:54:16,040
Every minute longer that we stayed there

656
00:54:16,120 --> 00:54:21,440
was gonna start to net a lot more
decompression and a lot more risk.

657
00:54:25,480 --> 00:54:28,680
[Gibb] So the deeper you go
and the longer you stand in water,

658
00:54:28,760 --> 00:54:31,800
the more nitrogen you get
into your system.

659
00:54:31,880 --> 00:54:34,000
You can't go straight up to the surface

660
00:54:34,080 --> 00:54:37,600
without having that nitrogen form bubbles
in your system.

661
00:54:41,360 --> 00:54:46,320
This can be avoided through
a series of stops as we ascend.

662
00:54:46,400 --> 00:54:51,080
That will reduce the chances
of decompression sickness.

663
00:54:51,160 --> 00:54:55,040
However, there is no way to guarantee

664
00:54:55,120 --> 00:55:00,160
that a diver will 100 percent
not get bent on a dive.

665
00:55:00,240 --> 00:55:01,680
[ominous music playing]

666
00:55:10,160 --> 00:55:11,320
[music intensifies]

667
00:55:28,360 --> 00:55:32,840
[Heinerth] Where we had to decompress
was a massive opening,

668
00:55:32,920 --> 00:55:35,360
you know, the size of a football stadium.

669
00:55:37,920 --> 00:55:42,520
When I got to the point
about 20 meters deep,

670
00:55:42,600 --> 00:55:47,600
hours into the dive,
I felt something odd happening.

671
00:55:47,680 --> 00:55:48,920
[tense music playing]

672
00:55:49,000 --> 00:55:53,320
The first symptom
was this sense of impending doom.

673
00:55:53,920 --> 00:55:56,680
I knew something was very wrong.

674
00:55:57,160 --> 00:56:02,240
I sensed this odd sensation
in my thighs first.

675
00:56:02,320 --> 00:56:07,680
It felt like there were ants crawling
all over my legs inside my suit.

676
00:56:08,360 --> 00:56:11,600
And then it dawned on me.

677
00:56:12,160 --> 00:56:15,280
It's not bugs.
This is decompression sickness.

678
00:56:15,360 --> 00:56:19,360
I'm bent. Those were bubbles.

679
00:56:19,440 --> 00:56:26,280
Absolute bubbles inside my body,
ripping apart tissues, causing pain.

680
00:56:30,520 --> 00:56:34,200
I knew I needed to stay underwater
as long as possible

681
00:56:34,280 --> 00:56:38,880
to let the effects of the pressure
maybe push those back into my body.

682
00:56:39,960 --> 00:56:41,440
But it was already too late.

683
00:56:42,600 --> 00:56:47,680
I started to feel pain from my neck
to my wrists to my ankles.

684
00:56:47,760 --> 00:56:50,840
I was hurting, aching everywhere.

685
00:56:50,920 --> 00:56:52,560
[breathing rapidly]

686
00:57:01,000 --> 00:57:05,360
Paul was actually swimming laps
around the sinkhole at this point

687
00:57:05,440 --> 00:57:06,680
because he was cold.

688
00:57:06,760 --> 00:57:10,320
I expected him to sort of step in
and take over,

689
00:57:10,400 --> 00:57:13,240
but I think he felt powerless to help me.

690
00:57:14,400 --> 00:57:16,720
I felt so alone.

691
00:57:17,560 --> 00:57:21,960
This explosion of thoughts
were just competing in my head.

692
00:57:22,040 --> 00:57:25,360
What's happening? Am I going to get worse?
Am I going to be paralyzed?

693
00:57:25,440 --> 00:57:26,720
Am I gonna die?

694
00:57:26,800 --> 00:57:29,480
What about my career?
I don't know what to do.

695
00:57:29,560 --> 00:57:34,800
It was so confusing and the anxiety
was just, like, filling my brain.

696
00:57:35,640 --> 00:57:37,840
[disembodied voices] You're gonna die.
Your career's over. You fucked up.

697
00:57:37,920 --> 00:57:40,560
You aren't good enough. You should quit.
You'll be left in the dive shop.

698
00:57:40,640 --> 00:57:42,960
What are you going to do now?
People will think you screwed up.

699
00:57:43,040 --> 00:57:46,120
What the fuck were you thinking?
You've wasted your life.

700
00:57:46,200 --> 00:57:47,800
Your career's over. Stay out of it.

701
00:57:47,880 --> 00:57:49,400
[suspenseful music playing]

702
00:58:17,360 --> 00:58:18,480
[music intensifies]

703
00:58:26,720 --> 00:58:29,480
[Heinerth] By the time I got
to the surface of the water, I thought,

704
00:58:29,560 --> 00:58:35,080
"Oof, I'll just take off my gear,
and I'll climb the ladder,

705
00:58:35,160 --> 00:58:37,720
and everything's gonna be okay."

706
00:58:38,920 --> 00:58:40,120
But it wasn't.

707
00:58:41,000 --> 00:58:43,760
With every rung of that ladder,

708
00:58:43,840 --> 00:58:48,360
my body felt heavier, I felt more pain,

709
00:58:48,440 --> 00:58:52,560
and the whole emotional sensation
of what was going on

710
00:58:52,640 --> 00:58:55,120
was just starting to come to light.

711
00:58:56,720 --> 00:58:58,040
By the time I got to the top,

712
00:58:58,120 --> 00:59:02,120
I literally just rolled off into the dirt
and crawled over into the jungle

713
00:59:02,200 --> 00:59:05,040
just to lay down on my sleeping mat.

714
00:59:05,120 --> 00:59:09,520
But as I looked down at my biceps
and my thighs, they were swollen.

715
00:59:09,600 --> 00:59:13,280
I mean, like, I looked like Popeye
swollen in my biceps,

716
00:59:13,360 --> 00:59:17,640
and there were these, like,
weird, mottled,

717
00:59:17,720 --> 00:59:22,320
like, ribbons of bruising
turning up on all over my body.

718
00:59:22,400 --> 00:59:25,120
It was really, really scary.

719
00:59:25,640 --> 00:59:26,840
[tense music playing]

720
00:59:27,560 --> 00:59:31,520
What would this mean?
Would I recover from this?

721
00:59:31,600 --> 00:59:33,600
Was this the end of my career?

722
00:59:36,000 --> 00:59:40,400
And eventually,
I laid there and I thought,

723
00:59:41,120 --> 00:59:44,560
I can't walk out of the jungle right now.

724
00:59:44,640 --> 00:59:47,280
I'm gonna have to treat myself here.

725
00:59:50,160 --> 00:59:53,720
So, the next morning,
I spent hours in the water,

726
00:59:53,800 --> 00:59:59,560
breathing pure oxygen,
down to about 15 meters,

727
00:59:59,640 --> 01:00:04,400
which, in a normal situation,
could throw someone into a seizure.

728
01:00:04,480 --> 01:00:08,520
But I knew that was the best medicine
for what had happened to me.

729
01:00:16,000 --> 01:00:18,200
By the time I got to the surface
of the water,

730
01:00:18,280 --> 01:00:22,320
I called out to the highway
to the dive shop that was helping us out.

731
01:00:23,120 --> 01:00:25,840
People hiked in and walked me out.

732
01:00:28,000 --> 01:00:31,600
I was in agony and exhausted.

733
01:00:33,440 --> 01:00:38,560
I could barely walk 10 steps
to just collapse and lie down.

734
01:00:42,960 --> 01:00:47,240
When I finally got to Playa del Carmen
to get treatment,

735
01:00:47,320 --> 01:00:51,200
what I needed was time
in a recompression chamber.

736
01:00:51,280 --> 01:00:54,840
So a recompression chamber
is usually at a hospital facility.

737
01:00:54,920 --> 01:00:57,200
Basically, it's a room
that can be pressurized.

738
01:00:57,280 --> 01:00:59,880
The patient gets put inside the chamber,

739
01:00:59,960 --> 01:01:01,400
the doors close behind them,

740
01:01:01,480 --> 01:01:05,360
and then the environment inside there
is pressurized with air.

741
01:01:05,440 --> 01:01:07,000
And once they're at that pressure,

742
01:01:07,080 --> 01:01:09,720
then we give them 100 percent oxygen
to breathe.

743
01:01:09,800 --> 01:01:12,040
And oxygen under pressure at those depths

744
01:01:12,120 --> 01:01:14,800
has a couple
of really important mechanisms.

745
01:01:14,880 --> 01:01:18,720
The first is just to provide oxygen
into the patient's body

746
01:01:18,800 --> 01:01:21,880
to help flush out the inert gas,
the nitrogen.

747
01:01:21,960 --> 01:01:25,000
There's a second
and equally important effect is that

748
01:01:25,080 --> 01:01:28,800
oxygen under high pressure like that
is actually an anti-inflammatory.

749
01:01:28,880 --> 01:01:31,080
It has an effect almost like steroids

750
01:01:31,160 --> 01:01:36,640
to quell the body's inflammatory response
to this attack by the bubbles.

751
01:01:36,720 --> 01:01:38,960
-[ominous music playing]
-[machine hissing]

752
01:01:50,400 --> 01:01:55,880
There was a whole week of treatments
and consulting with the doctor.

753
01:01:55,960 --> 01:02:00,680
And at the end of that week,
he only had three words for me.

754
01:02:00,760 --> 01:02:03,520
And they're the worst three words
I've ever heard.

755
01:02:03,600 --> 01:02:06,400
"Never dive again."

756
01:02:11,000 --> 01:02:12,720
[somber music playing]

757
01:02:14,280 --> 01:02:17,560
When I was told "never dive again,"

758
01:02:19,200 --> 01:02:20,760
my heart sank.

759
01:02:24,480 --> 01:02:28,480
I don't even know what my identity was,

760
01:02:28,560 --> 01:02:33,840
how I would move forward in my
friendships, relationships, career.

761
01:02:33,920 --> 01:02:36,880
So much was tied to that.

762
01:02:40,200 --> 01:02:43,680
The impact of being told by a doctor
in Mexico that you'll never dive again.

763
01:02:43,760 --> 01:02:45,840
I mean, that is massive
for someone like Jill.

764
01:02:45,920 --> 01:02:48,440
It would be massive
if that happened to me.

765
01:02:48,520 --> 01:02:52,080
You know, you're suddenly facing
an existential crisis, really.

766
01:02:52,160 --> 01:02:55,840
You know, your whole life
has been torn in half

767
01:02:55,920 --> 01:02:59,160
by telling you that you can't do
the one thing that defines you

768
01:02:59,240 --> 01:03:02,480
and makes you happy
and gives you an income as well.

769
01:03:02,560 --> 01:03:05,800
So, you know, that's a really,
that's a big moment for her.

770
01:03:11,800 --> 01:03:16,880
[Heinerth] After getting bent,
that caused me to reflect on

771
01:03:16,960 --> 01:03:20,080
whether I really wanted
to do this anymore.

772
01:03:25,120 --> 01:03:28,800
I realized that there wasn't
a single scenario

773
01:03:28,880 --> 01:03:32,800
that I could look at for a
quote-unquote "normal life"

774
01:03:32,880 --> 01:03:35,080
that was gonna satisfy me.

775
01:03:35,160 --> 01:03:39,240
I couldn't envision a life without diving.

776
01:03:40,480 --> 01:03:44,800
And it made me reflect on what were
my motivations in the beginning.

777
01:03:57,360 --> 01:04:03,040
When I graduated from university, I went
right into working in graphic design.

778
01:04:03,720 --> 01:04:09,200
That meant at times that I'm sitting at my
drafting table trying to meet a deadline,

779
01:04:09,280 --> 01:04:12,600
and I don't leave the office
for three days

780
01:04:12,680 --> 01:04:14,680
over the Christmas holidays.

781
01:04:15,200 --> 01:04:19,640
I'm there all night working,
and I'm never leaving work.

782
01:04:20,800 --> 01:04:24,600
And in my mind, I'm going like, "You're
gonna kill yourself by the time you're 30

783
01:04:24,680 --> 01:04:26,400
if you keep up this pace."

784
01:04:27,760 --> 01:04:30,840
I was teaching scuba, but it was a hobby.

785
01:04:30,920 --> 01:04:34,040
It was what I did on nights and weekends.

786
01:04:34,640 --> 01:04:37,840
I was constantly daydreaming about diving

787
01:04:37,920 --> 01:04:41,440
and envisioning that turquoise beauty.

788
01:04:42,720 --> 01:04:48,080
And in the long Canadian winter,
that's what my mind and my soul needed.

789
01:04:48,160 --> 01:04:49,720
[pensive music playing]

790
01:05:01,760 --> 01:05:03,120
[tense music playing]

791
01:05:04,480 --> 01:05:08,320
With every day that passed,
that office felt smaller,

792
01:05:08,960 --> 01:05:12,680
and the walls were closing in
and the ceiling's descending on me,

793
01:05:12,760 --> 01:05:16,200
until the point where I felt trapped.

794
01:05:16,280 --> 01:05:18,880
That's claustrophobia for me.

795
01:05:19,760 --> 01:05:23,440
But I have to say, it's those societal
pressures and familial pressures

796
01:05:23,520 --> 01:05:26,240
were the hardest to navigate
as a young woman.

797
01:05:27,240 --> 01:05:30,400
"What are you doing?
You're gonna be a scuba diver?

798
01:05:30,480 --> 01:05:34,200
You're doing what?
You're throwing it all away?

799
01:05:34,840 --> 01:05:38,920
How do you make money?
Your biological clock is ticking.

800
01:05:39,000 --> 01:05:42,080
You gotta move on. You gotta get married.
You gotta settle down.

801
01:05:42,160 --> 01:05:45,400
It's time to stop this childish,
playful stuff."

802
01:05:45,480 --> 01:05:46,960
[dramatic music playing]

803
01:05:56,920 --> 01:05:59,040
I got to the point
where it was clear to me

804
01:05:59,120 --> 01:06:02,440
I could not go on living the way
I was doing,

805
01:06:02,520 --> 01:06:04,720
working the way I was working.

806
01:06:06,080 --> 01:06:10,440
I needed to be my own full authentic self.

807
01:06:26,480 --> 01:06:28,320
When I moved to the Cayman Islands,

808
01:06:28,400 --> 01:06:33,640
I did some of my first real cave dives
and my first real cave exploration.

809
01:06:34,320 --> 01:06:35,800
[regulator hissing]

810
01:06:35,880 --> 01:06:37,320
[pensive music playing]

811
01:06:42,480 --> 01:06:47,320
Every day was just an opportunity
to go around the next corner.

812
01:06:50,280 --> 01:06:53,480
To get a little bit further away
from the entrance.

813
01:06:55,240 --> 01:06:57,640
To see that next thing.

814
01:06:59,960 --> 01:07:05,080
And that newness, the freshness
was just so invigorating to me.

815
01:07:13,560 --> 01:07:18,200
I learned a lot about the psychological
development of a cave diver

816
01:07:18,280 --> 01:07:22,040
and how fear
is an important part of what I do.

817
01:07:25,320 --> 01:07:29,560
But I realized that fear and facing it

818
01:07:29,640 --> 01:07:35,320
is something I learned about
before I even started cave diving.

819
01:07:48,720 --> 01:07:51,320
In my third year of university,

820
01:07:51,400 --> 01:07:54,000
four other women and I found a house

821
01:07:54,080 --> 01:07:57,640
in the Lawrence West neighborhood
in Toronto

822
01:07:57,720 --> 01:08:01,120
that we could rent for the school year,
and we'd each take a bedroom.

823
01:08:03,280 --> 01:08:06,800
And the first night I slept in that house,
I slept there alone.

824
01:08:11,840 --> 01:08:17,240
And in the middle of the night,
I heard something.

825
01:08:18,200 --> 01:08:19,360
[glass breaking]

826
01:08:19,440 --> 01:08:20,840
[tense music playing]

827
01:08:28,200 --> 01:08:33,080
And then I realized, "Oh, my God,
there's a burglar in my house.

828
01:08:33,640 --> 01:08:38,480
If I just hide here, he won't notice me."

829
01:08:41,280 --> 01:08:44,480
Downstairs, I could hear footsteps.

830
01:08:44,560 --> 01:08:47,000
-I could hear drawers opening.
-[drawer opens]

831
01:08:48,080 --> 01:08:52,360
-I heard his feet start up the stairs.
-[footsteps approaching]

832
01:08:54,080 --> 01:08:56,800
And I thought, "How can I get help?"

833
01:08:56,880 --> 01:08:58,400
I don't have a phone.

834
01:08:58,480 --> 01:09:01,520
And that's when I knew
that I needed to find a weapon.

835
01:09:01,600 --> 01:09:04,320
I was gonna have to defend myself.

836
01:09:19,400 --> 01:09:21,400
And click, I would see a minute pass,

837
01:09:21,480 --> 01:09:24,040
and then I would hear him
coming up the stairs again.

838
01:09:24,120 --> 01:09:25,720
[footsteps approaching]

839
01:09:26,880 --> 01:09:28,440
And he came closer.

840
01:09:30,440 --> 01:09:32,280
And he came closer.

841
01:09:32,360 --> 01:09:34,360
[footsteps continue approaching]

842
01:09:43,400 --> 01:09:49,240
And it felt like an eternity
waiting for that door to open.

843
01:09:52,760 --> 01:09:54,000
[panting]

844
01:10:08,800 --> 01:10:11,800
And then suddenly, it's like an eruption.

845
01:10:11,880 --> 01:10:15,200
Vroom! The door flew open.
He almost ripped it out.

846
01:10:15,280 --> 01:10:16,880
And then he came after me.

847
01:10:17,680 --> 01:10:19,120
And in that moment,

848
01:10:20,400 --> 01:10:24,120
it's kill or be killed.

849
01:10:24,200 --> 01:10:28,480
I thought he was going to rape me
or kill me or--

850
01:10:28,560 --> 01:10:31,640
I didn't know what was gonna happen
but I just knew

851
01:10:33,160 --> 01:10:35,280
that something awful was gonna happen

852
01:10:35,360 --> 01:10:39,080
and I needed to find
every bit of strength that I had.

853
01:10:39,160 --> 01:10:42,400
And as terrified as I was,

854
01:10:42,480 --> 01:10:45,480
and shaking and barely able
to contain myself,

855
01:10:45,560 --> 01:10:50,600
I reached out, and I slashed
with the knife across his chest

856
01:10:50,680 --> 01:10:54,600
and ripped his shirt open
and tore into his flesh.

857
01:10:55,280 --> 01:11:00,080
And I watched the blood
soak through his shirt.

858
01:11:01,040 --> 01:11:04,920
I was staring into the face of impossible.

859
01:11:05,000 --> 01:11:07,760
I don't know how I'm going
to get through this.

860
01:11:35,760 --> 01:11:37,000
[panting]

861
01:11:43,040 --> 01:11:49,680
It took me so long to process
what had happened.

862
01:11:49,760 --> 01:11:53,040
And at first, it was just
all the victimization

863
01:11:53,120 --> 01:11:58,400
and the terror and just the violation

864
01:11:58,480 --> 01:12:03,320
of somebody in my space
and coming after me like that.

865
01:12:03,400 --> 01:12:05,880
I would wake up in the middle of night
in a cold sweat,

866
01:12:05,960 --> 01:12:08,880
and I was already fighting
that burglar in my dreams.

867
01:12:10,040 --> 01:12:12,600
I remember sitting with Kim, my roommate,

868
01:12:12,680 --> 01:12:15,400
and I was probably complaining

869
01:12:15,480 --> 01:12:16,880
and telling her the same story

870
01:12:16,960 --> 01:12:21,320
that she'd heard over and over
and over again.

871
01:12:21,920 --> 01:12:24,640
I was processing these feelings
with someone

872
01:12:24,720 --> 01:12:27,680
who I really respected
and cared deeply about,

873
01:12:27,760 --> 01:12:31,880
and then she turned to me and said,
"When are you gonna get over this?

874
01:12:31,960 --> 01:12:34,240
What are you gonna do about it?"

875
01:12:34,320 --> 01:12:36,280
And I thought, "What?"

876
01:12:36,360 --> 01:12:38,880
Like, where are the hugs and love?

877
01:12:40,080 --> 01:12:43,560
And I guess for her, you know,
it was time for tough love.

878
01:12:43,640 --> 01:12:45,640
It was time to shake me out of it.

879
01:12:45,720 --> 01:12:49,760
If I couldn't get past
that moment in my life,

880
01:12:49,840 --> 01:12:53,200
it was gonna define everything
moving forward.

881
01:12:53,280 --> 01:12:55,960
And I needed to find something
in that experience

882
01:12:56,040 --> 01:12:59,200
that I could use
that would help me to grow.

883
01:12:59,280 --> 01:13:02,240
Without that near-death experience,

884
01:13:02,320 --> 01:13:07,240
I may well have not dealt with
some of my other near-death experiences

885
01:13:07,320 --> 01:13:09,040
in cave diving as well.

886
01:13:14,960 --> 01:13:18,280
It definitely defined
the direction of my life.

887
01:13:18,360 --> 01:13:19,680
[pensive music playing]

888
01:13:22,880 --> 01:13:25,520
It definitely gave me the courage

889
01:13:26,160 --> 01:13:29,720
to move forward and do things
that I thought were impossible.

890
01:13:39,680 --> 01:13:43,080
After getting bent, my doctor told me

891
01:13:43,840 --> 01:13:48,480
he knew I was gonna start to tread back
into that water one step at a time

892
01:13:49,440 --> 01:13:53,240
to decide whether I was
gonna be diving again.

893
01:13:59,080 --> 01:14:02,160
Ultimately, as the symptoms faded

894
01:14:02,240 --> 01:14:04,760
and my confidence started to return,

895
01:14:04,840 --> 01:14:08,600
I knew that I was going back to diving.

896
01:14:08,680 --> 01:14:10,600
But it was gonna be a slow progression.

897
01:14:10,680 --> 01:14:13,080
It was like dipping the toe in the water.

898
01:14:13,160 --> 01:14:16,240
My first swim gave me anxiety.

899
01:14:17,040 --> 01:14:20,320
My first dive I did on 100 percent oxygen

900
01:14:20,400 --> 01:14:26,320
because there's no way you can get bent
on 100 percent oxygen in shallow water.

901
01:14:27,400 --> 01:14:32,360
It was a slow progression,
a transition back to doing what I loved.

902
01:14:33,760 --> 01:14:37,000
And I suppose as I started
to feel a little bit better

903
01:14:37,080 --> 01:14:39,320
and my energy was restored,

904
01:14:39,400 --> 01:14:42,840
so was my defiance and my stubbornness.

905
01:14:43,640 --> 01:14:49,440
And there was this little voice growing
in the back of my head, "Just watch me."

906
01:15:04,200 --> 01:15:07,760
I was working on television projects
with Wes Skiles

907
01:15:07,840 --> 01:15:13,160
when we both decided
we wanted to do a full-length feature,

908
01:15:13,240 --> 01:15:14,640
a documentary film.

909
01:15:16,600 --> 01:15:20,000
The work that I do
in communicating about how

910
01:15:20,080 --> 01:15:22,360
cave divers can be citizen scientists

911
01:15:22,440 --> 01:15:25,880
and contribute to a better understanding
of the world,

912
01:15:27,360 --> 01:15:29,080
I got that from Wes.

913
01:15:31,960 --> 01:15:37,240
When he started cave diving, it was with
the intention to take pictures underwater.

914
01:15:37,320 --> 01:15:43,600
He really set the whole genre
into motion and inspired a lot of people.

915
01:15:55,480 --> 01:15:58,920
Both Wes and I
really wanted to go to Antarctica.

916
01:16:08,520 --> 01:16:09,880
[pensive music playing]

917
01:16:09,960 --> 01:16:13,480
I just wanted the experience
of going to this part of the planet

918
01:16:13,560 --> 01:16:14,880
that I'd never seen before.

919
01:16:14,960 --> 01:16:20,200
And when you grow up in Canada,
you're interested in the polar regions.

920
01:16:21,320 --> 01:16:22,520
And at first, we thought,

921
01:16:22,600 --> 01:16:26,920
"Well, maybe we'll follow in the historic
path of Ernest Shackleton."

922
01:16:28,320 --> 01:16:31,000
But we were also watching
these satellite images

923
01:16:31,080 --> 01:16:35,680
because these cracks were developing
in the Ross Ice Shelf down in Antarctica,

924
01:16:35,760 --> 01:16:39,320
and scientists were kind of interested
in what was happening.

925
01:16:41,200 --> 01:16:44,680
When the B-15 iceberg
calved away from Antarctica

926
01:16:44,760 --> 01:16:48,520
and I realized there was actually
more of a story,

927
01:16:49,560 --> 01:16:52,000
that was a big draw for me.

928
01:16:53,240 --> 01:16:57,600
And we pitched to National Geographic
that we were gonna go to Antarctica

929
01:16:57,680 --> 01:17:03,960
and be the first people to ever go
cave diving inside an iceberg.

930
01:17:04,040 --> 01:17:06,320
But not just any iceberg.

931
01:17:06,400 --> 01:17:09,080
The largest moving object on our planet.

932
01:17:09,160 --> 01:17:14,520
The biggest iceberg to ever calve away
from the Ross Ice Shelf in Antarctica.

933
01:17:15,240 --> 01:17:19,400
To get up there in front of this moving
iceberg the size of Connecticut

934
01:17:19,480 --> 01:17:22,400
and say, "We're gonna go under there
and see what there is."

935
01:17:22,480 --> 01:17:24,640
I mean, that even in and of itself,

936
01:17:24,720 --> 01:17:27,280
you're talking about water
that's minus 3C,

937
01:17:27,360 --> 01:17:30,040
you know, probably around
27 degrees Fahrenheit.

938
01:17:30,120 --> 01:17:32,400
And you go down there,

939
01:17:32,480 --> 01:17:36,760
and even with the best dry suit,
within 40 minutes,

940
01:17:36,840 --> 01:17:39,240
your hands are becoming dysfunctional.

941
01:17:39,320 --> 01:17:42,720
You know, and these guys were going
for way longer than that.

942
01:17:45,960 --> 01:17:47,200
[dramatic music playing]

943
01:18:06,200 --> 01:18:09,160
[Heinerth]
Most tourists that go to Antarctica today,

944
01:18:09,240 --> 01:18:13,440
they have about 24 hours
of uncomfortable seas

945
01:18:13,520 --> 01:18:16,600
going from South America
to the Antarctic Peninsula.

946
01:18:17,760 --> 01:18:19,200
But where we were going,

947
01:18:19,280 --> 01:18:22,560
we left from New Zealand
and made a 12-day crossing

948
01:18:22,640 --> 01:18:26,560
of the most violent seas on the planet.

949
01:18:31,960 --> 01:18:34,360
We had 20-meter waves.

950
01:18:34,440 --> 01:18:38,560
We had the boat icing so heavily
that it was starting to list.

951
01:18:38,640 --> 01:18:40,480
We had to get out on deck

952
01:18:40,560 --> 01:18:44,680
and smash the ice off the boat
with baseball bats and hammers.

953
01:18:45,400 --> 01:18:47,120
And I was seasick.

954
01:18:47,200 --> 01:18:49,880
I was seasick for 12 days.

955
01:18:51,600 --> 01:18:54,760
Even going to the bathroom was dangerous.

956
01:18:54,840 --> 01:18:59,080
The wave hit the boat and I was literally
launched out of that tub,

957
01:18:59,160 --> 01:19:00,640
against the wall,

958
01:19:00,720 --> 01:19:03,800
and cut and bruised and damaged.

959
01:19:04,640 --> 01:19:08,240
So, I didn't even know
if we were gonna get there.

960
01:19:10,120 --> 01:19:11,520
[tense music playing]

961
01:19:24,680 --> 01:19:29,400
After 12 days of torture,
we finally made it to Antarctica.

962
01:19:30,920 --> 01:19:33,480
It was like I'd landed on another planet.

963
01:19:46,960 --> 01:19:50,800
Diving in Antarctica
and going inside an iceberg,

964
01:19:50,880 --> 01:19:55,240
I would say that that's definitely
the most challenging dive of my life.

965
01:19:57,240 --> 01:19:59,280
There's so many risks that we faced.

966
01:19:59,360 --> 01:20:03,840
I mean, the wildlife itself,
leopard seals or orcas,

967
01:20:03,920 --> 01:20:06,440
there are so many uncertainties there.

968
01:20:08,440 --> 01:20:12,360
The cold water,
it's as cold as it can possibly be.

969
01:20:17,240 --> 01:20:19,880
There's nobody to call
for help down there.

970
01:20:19,960 --> 01:20:21,680
We don't have a recompression chamber,

971
01:20:21,760 --> 01:20:24,880
so if somebody gets bent,
there's no way to treat them.

972
01:20:24,960 --> 01:20:29,600
The US Coast Guard actually told us
we were on our own.

973
01:20:41,080 --> 01:20:46,400
About a month into our time in Antarctica,
Paul and I finally found

974
01:20:46,480 --> 01:20:48,560
what we thought was the cave

975
01:20:48,640 --> 01:20:52,320
that would let us deliver what we had
promised to National Geographic.

976
01:20:57,080 --> 01:20:58,800
[pensive music playing]

977
01:21:07,440 --> 01:21:12,520
We got to a place where we could swim
underneath the iceberg.

978
01:21:13,320 --> 01:21:19,040
And the seafloor's on the bottom,
and there's this arch of ice over my head.

979
01:21:19,120 --> 01:21:20,280
And it was beautiful.

980
01:21:20,360 --> 01:21:23,240
There was a carpet of life
all over the seafloor,

981
01:21:23,320 --> 01:21:26,480
just voraciously feeding in the current.

982
01:21:43,440 --> 01:21:49,040
Meanwhile, I'm hearing creaks and cracks
and thuds and retorts

983
01:21:49,120 --> 01:21:50,360
and all kinds of sounds

984
01:21:50,440 --> 01:21:52,640
that I could not only hear,

985
01:21:52,720 --> 01:21:56,480
but I could feel them in the sternum,
in my chest.

986
01:21:58,280 --> 01:22:03,920
Paul and I, at one point, had returned
to where we'd gone into the iceberg,

987
01:22:04,000 --> 01:22:07,360
and the doorway was blocked
with broken ice.

988
01:22:08,000 --> 01:22:11,520
So, Paul and I just start swimming
around and under all these blocks,

989
01:22:11,600 --> 01:22:14,480
and some of them
are sort of moving and shifting.

990
01:22:16,040 --> 01:22:20,040
And when I finally swam through
these chunks and I got to the surface,

991
01:22:20,120 --> 01:22:24,840
Wes is hanging over the boat
and his face was so animated.

992
01:22:24,920 --> 01:22:28,160
And he's like, "What happened?
We thought you were dead.

993
01:22:28,240 --> 01:22:32,520
When the ice wall just sort of broke away,
it created this huge wave

994
01:22:32,600 --> 01:22:34,760
and it almost threw us out of the boat.

995
01:22:34,840 --> 01:22:39,200
And then we realized where you
had gone in, it was blocked."

996
01:22:39,280 --> 01:22:43,560
We had no idea the stress
that everybody topside had experienced.

997
01:22:44,240 --> 01:22:46,040
[tense music playing]

998
01:22:48,800 --> 01:22:50,520
I often look at expeditions,

999
01:22:50,600 --> 01:22:55,800
and I realize there's a mounting pressure
that happens as the project moves on.

1000
01:22:56,560 --> 01:22:58,680
You start taking risks,

1001
01:22:58,760 --> 01:23:01,320
and it's to get the goods,
it's to get the job done.

1002
01:23:01,400 --> 01:23:04,680
It's because of the pressures
from everybody around you.

1003
01:23:10,400 --> 01:23:14,040
Wes hadn't even been inside the cave yet.

1004
01:23:14,720 --> 01:23:16,520
And we needed to show it to him,

1005
01:23:16,600 --> 01:23:19,600
to photograph what we needed
for our movie.

1006
01:23:33,200 --> 01:23:34,960
[pensive music playing]

1007
01:23:51,640 --> 01:23:55,840
We descended down that crack
and went underneath the iceberg.

1008
01:23:56,760 --> 01:24:00,440
We were filming all these beautiful
filter-feeding organisms,

1009
01:24:00,520 --> 01:24:03,680
and the dive was going perfectly well.

1010
01:24:09,000 --> 01:24:12,160
And then I felt the current picking up,

1011
01:24:13,720 --> 01:24:19,000
and getting faster and faster,
and it had literally turned now,

1012
01:24:19,080 --> 01:24:21,640
and it was sweeping us into the iceberg.

1013
01:24:22,720 --> 01:24:25,840
-And I thought, "Ooh, this is bad."
-[suspenseful music playing]

1014
01:24:25,920 --> 01:24:30,080
But simultaneously,
I also had a leak in my glove,

1015
01:24:30,160 --> 01:24:33,240
and my hand was soaking wet.

1016
01:24:33,320 --> 01:24:36,480
And I had put up with that
as long as I possibly could.

1017
01:24:36,560 --> 01:24:39,120
Between the current
and the pain in my hand,

1018
01:24:39,200 --> 01:24:41,520
I turned to the guys
and I called the dive.

1019
01:24:41,600 --> 01:24:43,000
It's time to go.

1020
01:24:47,680 --> 01:24:50,880
We turned around to try and escape
through this tunnel.

1021
01:24:53,840 --> 01:24:56,360
The current was getting too strong.

1022
01:24:56,440 --> 01:24:59,640
We dug our hands
into this doughy seafloor,

1023
01:24:59,720 --> 01:25:03,440
like throwing up these wispy silk piles

1024
01:25:03,520 --> 01:25:07,680
and displacing these animals
as we tried to pull ourselves along.

1025
01:25:11,680 --> 01:25:15,000
I'm fighting for my life,
and I hear Wes yell,

1026
01:25:15,080 --> 01:25:16,840
"Help me with the camera!"

1027
01:25:16,920 --> 01:25:19,280
I'm like, "Are you kidding me?

1028
01:25:19,360 --> 01:25:22,640
Fuck the camera.
We've got to get out of here."

1029
01:25:24,560 --> 01:25:27,840
I was doing everything I could to survive
at that point,

1030
01:25:27,920 --> 01:25:31,360
and I was leading the other two
out of the cave.

1031
01:25:31,440 --> 01:25:37,520
Well, Paul drifted back to help Wes,
and I'm thinking, "I'm pissed.

1032
01:25:38,400 --> 01:25:41,800
Equipment is not worth it.
Let's get out of here."

1033
01:25:41,880 --> 01:25:43,000
[music intensifies]

1034
01:25:56,720 --> 01:26:00,920
Finally we get to the point
where we're at the bottom of this crevice,

1035
01:26:01,000 --> 01:26:02,320
and we need to go up.

1036
01:26:02,400 --> 01:26:06,920
But the current is pressing me down
and back into the cave.

1037
01:26:10,040 --> 01:26:16,120
And I suddenly realized that these
little ice fish I'd been observing

1038
01:26:16,200 --> 01:26:18,160
had created burrows in the ice,

1039
01:26:18,240 --> 01:26:21,760
and I might be able to use those burrows
to stick my fingers in

1040
01:26:21,840 --> 01:26:24,000
and climb the ice wall.

1041
01:26:24,080 --> 01:26:28,560
And I thought,
"Uh-huh, you guys are pretty cool,

1042
01:26:28,640 --> 01:26:30,080
but I need those holes."

1043
01:26:30,840 --> 01:26:32,560
And I started using my finger

1044
01:26:32,640 --> 01:26:36,280
and pressing them into the holes
of the ice-fish burrows,

1045
01:26:36,360 --> 01:26:40,640
and using those like a climber
would to climb the ice wall.

1046
01:26:40,720 --> 01:26:43,480
And Wes and Paul copied and followed,

1047
01:26:43,560 --> 01:26:45,320
and we finally got up to the point

1048
01:26:45,400 --> 01:26:48,560
where we now had a decompression
obligation over our heads,

1049
01:26:48,640 --> 01:26:52,200
and we had to stay
in this freezing cold water,

1050
01:26:52,280 --> 01:26:56,840
turning a one-hour dive
into a three-hour ordeal.

1051
01:26:56,920 --> 01:26:58,040
[dramatic music playing]

1052
01:27:06,320 --> 01:27:08,560
When I finally swam back to that boat,

1053
01:27:10,880 --> 01:27:14,160
I remember the chief scientist
looking down on me.

1054
01:27:14,840 --> 01:27:20,000
And I'm holding on to the ladder and I'm
looking up at Greg on the boat and I said,

1055
01:27:20,080 --> 01:27:22,920
"The cave tried to keep us today."

1056
01:27:25,920 --> 01:27:27,160
And it was true.

1057
01:27:27,240 --> 01:27:31,200
I think that's as close
as I've ever felt to death.

1058
01:27:38,720 --> 01:27:42,200
We put our gear aside
and went to have dinner.

1059
01:27:45,000 --> 01:27:48,640
And then I heard screams on the deck.

1060
01:27:48,720 --> 01:27:50,600
I thought, "What's going on?"

1061
01:27:51,280 --> 01:27:54,400
And we ran up on deck
and Wes grabbed the camera,

1062
01:27:54,480 --> 01:27:57,440
and I couldn't believe what I was seeing.

1063
01:27:57,520 --> 01:27:59,240
[dramatic music playing]

1064
01:28:11,360 --> 01:28:17,320
That cave I'd just been inside of
and just narrowly escaped was no more.

1065
01:28:17,400 --> 01:28:18,680
[tense music playing]

1066
01:28:32,080 --> 01:28:34,920
After seeing that whole iceberg collapse,

1067
01:28:35,000 --> 01:28:38,280
and really even after just
going to Antarctica,

1068
01:28:39,280 --> 01:28:41,680
I felt so small,

1069
01:28:41,760 --> 01:28:46,480
but I also felt the majesty and wonder
of Mother Nature

1070
01:28:46,560 --> 01:28:48,080
and the fragility.

1071
01:28:48,800 --> 01:28:51,920
And I wanted to communicate to people
about climate change

1072
01:28:52,000 --> 01:28:54,520
and water issues and beauty and wonder.

1073
01:28:54,600 --> 01:28:56,360
And when I shared my adventures,

1074
01:28:56,440 --> 01:28:58,920
I was gonna shove a little truth
in there too.

1075
01:28:59,000 --> 01:29:01,280
And hopefully teach people about

1076
01:29:02,080 --> 01:29:04,560
how magical this planet is,

1077
01:29:04,640 --> 01:29:06,920
and how we can protect it

1078
01:29:07,000 --> 01:29:09,880
if we all take care of our square foot

1079
01:29:09,960 --> 01:29:13,600
and make good choices
about the next step forward.

1080
01:29:23,600 --> 01:29:29,360
I still ask myself this whole question
about what is my legacy.

1081
01:29:29,440 --> 01:29:30,840
What am I doing?

1082
01:29:31,480 --> 01:29:33,600
Why am I doing this?

1083
01:29:35,400 --> 01:29:41,160
And today, I think my ultimate goal is
to be the woman that I wish I had met

1084
01:29:41,240 --> 01:29:42,920
when I was 10 years old.

1085
01:29:43,000 --> 01:29:44,480
[indistinct chatter]

1086
01:29:44,920 --> 01:29:46,240
[pensive music playing]

1087
01:29:50,160 --> 01:29:52,360
It's been my greatest honor

1088
01:29:53,000 --> 01:29:58,360
to come home and resettle myself
back in Canada,

1089
01:29:58,440 --> 01:30:03,680
and go into the school system and talk
to kids about exploration and discovery.

1090
01:30:04,320 --> 01:30:08,240
Education and outreach
are critical to what I do

1091
01:30:08,320 --> 01:30:10,120
and it gives me a sense of purpose.

1092
01:30:12,040 --> 01:30:15,880
I really hope that my work will inspire
young girls to know

1093
01:30:15,960 --> 01:30:17,920
that anything is possible,

1094
01:30:18,000 --> 01:30:19,640
anything they want to do,

1095
01:30:19,720 --> 01:30:23,200
despite the social, cultural,
or familial barriers

1096
01:30:23,280 --> 01:30:25,080
that they might be facing.

1097
01:30:25,160 --> 01:30:28,680
Anything is possible
when we put our minds to it.

1098
01:30:28,760 --> 01:30:32,720
If I can give people hope and optimism,
I will have done my job.

1099
01:30:39,040 --> 01:30:40,480
[dramatic music playing]

1100
01:31:55,800 --> 01:31:58,800
I've never lost sight
of wanting to be an astronaut.

1101
01:31:58,880 --> 01:32:02,760
It's been really exciting for me
to work with technologies underwater

1102
01:32:02,840 --> 01:32:04,960
that are now destined for space.

1103
01:32:17,680 --> 01:32:19,400
[dramatic music playing]

1104
01:32:40,160 --> 01:32:43,680
I'll be diving in one way or another
for the rest of my life.

1105
01:32:45,440 --> 01:32:48,200
I feel like an earthbound astronaut.

1106
01:32:55,240 --> 01:32:59,840
I want people
to really think about fear

1107
01:32:59,920 --> 01:33:03,080
and how that directs our lives,

1108
01:33:03,160 --> 01:33:06,000
how it can stifle us,

1109
01:33:06,080 --> 01:33:07,920
and how we can miss out.

1110
01:33:08,760 --> 01:33:10,120
[music intensifies]

1111
01:33:16,040 --> 01:33:17,840
If we don't face it and embrace it,

1112
01:33:17,920 --> 01:33:20,480
we're gonna run from it
for our whole lives.

1113
01:33:24,320 --> 01:33:28,720
Without exploration and discovery,
we are dead.

1114
01:33:28,800 --> 01:33:31,480
We will not progress as a society.

1115
01:33:35,240 --> 01:33:37,880
So the only answer is to face it...

1116
01:33:40,080 --> 01:33:41,640
and step into it.

1117
01:33:46,240 --> 01:33:47,760
Face the fear.

1118
01:33:50,200 --> 01:33:52,040
Step into the darkness.

1119
01:33:53,280 --> 01:33:54,560
Let your eyes adjust,

1120
01:33:54,640 --> 01:33:59,560
and then do something new
for yourself and for humanity.

1121
01:34:01,160 --> 01:34:02,360
[pensive music playing]

1122
01:34:03,320 --> 01:34:04,480
[regulator hissing]

1123
01:34:29,120 --> 01:34:31,160
[regulator hissing]

1124
01:34:38,160 --> 01:34:39,800
[pensive music playing]