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[nostalgic music playing]

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[nostalgic music continues]

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MISSING

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ISTANBUL ENCYCLOPEDIA

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[indistinct chatter]

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-[Dodo] Ha! Na-na-na-na! I got you.
-Mm…

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I know that Dodo is gonna have some fun.

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Truth or dare, Pelin?

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I choose truth.

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How many times have you had sex?

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-She can't count that high.
-[Pelin] How dare you?

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Man, how could you even ask me
something so totally personal, huh?

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-Kidding, babe.
-[laughs]

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So how many times have I had sex?

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-Ten.
-[Zehra] Seventy-three.

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-A thousand.
-[Zehra] Whoa!

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Oh, wow, Dodo, I'm honored, you know, but…

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Never.

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[chuckles]

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You're supposed to tell the truth, though.

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Zero's the truth, though.

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But wait, but-- but so I did
all that work making you look perfect,

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all the makeovers were some--

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You said the dates went well,
you stayed the night.

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-So, nothing happened?
-It was lovely, of course.

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It just felt wrong.

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This is some group of friends.
You're not a heavy metal fan, how come?

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You're still a virgin, what's that about?

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[Dodo] Let's just move on.

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My terrible secret revealed.

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Somehow I know Zehra
better than my friends?

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[Pelin] I dunno, I think I made it count.

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-Who's spinning, me?
-[Harun] Selin.

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-Let's go!
-[Dodo] Alright.

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[Selin] Alright then. Truth or dare?

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-[Harun] Truth.
-[Selin] Oh! Enough with the truth.

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-Someone say dare so we can see something!
-[Harun] Ask away.

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[chuckles]

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Your dealbreaker in a relationship.
What's gonna make you leave a girl?

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-I'd say if she lies, it's over.
-[Pelin] Shut up, so cliché.

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Yeah, whatever, It's true.
If she lies, I'd leave. That's it.

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And blondes aren't usually my type.
I'm more into brunettes.

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-Cute ones, uh… Oval face, very pretty.
-[chuckles]

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-[Selin] Yeah.
-Huge eyes are a good thing.

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-[Selin] Okay.
-And if she's named Zehra he goes wild.

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What's up?

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-Nothing.
-That's cool.

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-May I speak to you?
-Please.

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That's very kind Truth or dare?

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-Let's say dare.
-Applause, friends, if you please.

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Yeah, Zehra.

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-Go in the sea.
-[Zehra] What?

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-Go in the sea.
-[chuckles] Harun, come on. For real?

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-Just do it.
-No. Come on.

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-[Dodo] Yeah, go.
-No way, man, be for real.

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-[Pelin] Hey, it's a game. Come on.
-No, no way, I can't.

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You can.

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No way.

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We promised we'd go in the water today.
How come this big show?

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I didn't promise anything like that.

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Why?

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Can't swim, I suppose? Or what is it?

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Maybe I can, maybe I can't.

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So what?

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If you don't,
perhaps you should come clean, Zehra.

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No need to be tough with your friends.

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[slow music builds]

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[music turns poignant]

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[music turns gentle]

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[door opens]

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[door closes]

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-[Louis in French] Hello.
-Hello.

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Welcome to the French speaking test.

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Thank you.

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How are you?

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-I'm great.
-Very well.

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I'm going to be recording your voice
so that we can assess it later.

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-Do you agree?
-Yes, I do.

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Great. Let's begin.

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[beep]

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Please begin by introducing yourself.
What's your name and surname?

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Nesrin Caner.

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-Where were you born?
-In Amasya.

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When did you move to Istanbul?

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-Twenty-five years ago.
-That's a long time.

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What's your occupation?

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I'm a cardiovascular surgeon.
I'm not currently employed.

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-May I ask why?
-I resigned to pursue my career in France.

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Ah.

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You know what they say.

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You can't leave a city,
it keeps following you.

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I don't think it's fair

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for a first world country citizen
to say this.

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[beep]

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I want to live with you.

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I want to solve your problems together.
I want to live with you.

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There's only one thing on my mind.

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Being with you.

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I'm begging you.

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Please let it happen.

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[in English] You know I love you, Nesrin.

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I do, I love you.

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[in French] I love you so much.

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Louis.

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Can we continue, please?

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[sniffles]

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[beep]

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You told me
you wanted to live in France, right?

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Um…

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You seem like a woman
who has a lot of self-confidence.

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How can you be so sure that you can

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successfully pass this exam?

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It's admirable.

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SHARED APARTMENT WITH A FEMALE
15,000 TL - RENTAL

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[line calling]

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[Zehra] Hi there, I'm uh, calling about
a dormitory application I sent in.

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I was told I would get a call back.

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You gave it to someone?

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Oh, I understand, mm.

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Maybe I could come by in person,
would that help me?

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Well, if it won't help…

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Okay, thank you, you have a nice day then.

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[sighs]

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[seagulls squawking]

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Are you okay?

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Yeah.

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-And you?
-Yeah.

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That's great.

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You mentioned there was a dorm room.
Any news there?

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I might hear something tomorrow.

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I'm sure it'll all work out fine.

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And if it doesn't all work out fine?

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We have to find
a suitable place for you to live.

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We will.

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My life's a mess of uncertainty,
but it works.

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I should be pretty used to it by now,
I just keep on fighting back, though.

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How so?

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You know.

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There are billions of people
on this planet.

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And I'm not the main character,
or even a supporting role.

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We all have our issues,

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but somehow
things keep working out for us.

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One mountain just hides
another mountain, but we go on.

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Yeah, absolutely.

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That’s why nobody ever--
Nobody knows the path they're on.

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And nobody knows who they might become.

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Maybe that's a normal experience.

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-It is.
-It is.

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-So, no problem.
-[both chuckle]

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[Zehra] I mean, at least for now.

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When are you gonna find out
about your test?

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Actually the results
should've been announced by now.

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Oh. Hmm.

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I already know you passed,
no worries there.

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I hope so.

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[Zehra] ]Me too.

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AMAZON
AN EXPERIMENTAL PLAY

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-[Selin] Hello.
-[Zehra] Hi there.

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-Are we cool?
-We're cool.

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-Good luck out there.
-Thank you.

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About yesterday, you're not upset?

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No, I'm not.

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How's my hair? Am I too beautiful?

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You look amazing.

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What do you think
you'll be doing with your hair?

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WRITTEN AND DIRECTED BY CIHAN TAYLAN
AMAZON

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-Enjoy the play.
-Thanks.

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[ethereal music playing]

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[exhales]

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Duality's a major part of being me.

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Chronic indecision could be at fault.

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Also, to blame could be the terrible fear

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surrounding me always, that if I don't
try things, I'm going to miss out on them.

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I'm always stuck
between two distant opposites.

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But do I have to choose something?

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Probably.

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But for you, who seem
to understand your path,

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I have so much admiration for you.

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For you, with your dreams, who never
have doubts about what you want.

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But also aren't afraid to say,
"That's not for me. Thanks, though."

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But I feel like…

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I feel like I'm mute.

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And like my heart's a heavy stone.

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Like my mind is frozen.

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My condition's been very well documented
in the literature and history books.

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This condition of mine is named
ambivalence and I'm certified.

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To contain contradictions.

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To contain desires at odds with each other
is to get locked in a maze

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where I feel paralyzed and stuck.

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I feel so stuck. Not being able
to move at all is ambivalence.

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It feels more like being…

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trapped at the bottom of the ocean.

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Suffocating.

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I guess you’re wondering whether anyone
made me wear the scarf here tonight,

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but nobody did, it was all me.

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But why cover my head?

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To feel close to the divine?

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Or is it a reaction to the looks
that my mother had to endure?

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Is it out of some sense of solidarity
with the woman I came from?

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Even if the motivation was clear to me,

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I feel no explanation
could justify your stares.

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I beg you to remember that.

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I arrived in this city and from day one,

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I didn't want to have
this hijab on my head.

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I mean I didn't plan to make a statement.

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Something beckoned me to retreat

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and then I saw that it was easier
to avoid being what confused me,

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it was easier to hide.

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I was afraid, I think,
to get stuck in some box here.

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To get judged by every single person,
and get put in that category forever.

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Can you believe me
when I tell you a secret?

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I'm a bit like a balloon.

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Balloons are always full of air.

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Nobody ever thinks about it.
They just don't seem to care.

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They know a balloon by its shape.

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So I was afraid they'd see me one way
and then I'd be stuck.

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Like everyone here, I just want
the world to see me as I am,

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totally unfiltered.

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I created two facades
and acted out versions of me.

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I was ashamed to be doing
something like that, I won’t lie to you.

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I tried any way that I could
to be a part of the world.

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And I was frantically creating
interpretations of myself to fit in.

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Looking back now,
it's obvious to me I felt just…

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completely alone, completely.

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I'm not even sure in which type of soil
I'm supposed to be planted.

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But I have a job.

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To navigate on my own.

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To grasp some poetry.

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As Tolkien said,
"All that is gold does not glitter,

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and not all those who wander are lost."

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Of course, yes.

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Catastrophes work like that.

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When things are going well,
that's when something happens.

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And who knows where we're going
or where we are?

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I think this is the right way,
sure I do, but who am I to say?

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But it may be the case
that being lost, the confusion in that,

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was designed to be a part of the journey.

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I'll wake up in bed tomorrow
and I just won't know.

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What should I put on
to be me in the world?

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A hijab? Some hat?
Shave myself bald, or wear a silly wig?

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There's one thing I know, "Allah,
I'm grateful I can leave the house."

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If disasters occur when all
is going according to plan,

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then I guess miracles are maybe

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something that happens
when nothing is going according to plan.

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What do you think?

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But something I'm sure of.

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I'm still me.

248
00:19:07,541 --> 00:19:08,541
Zehra.

249
00:19:22,166 --> 00:19:23,541
Is everyone here?

250
00:19:30,291 --> 00:19:31,416
So…

251
00:19:31,500 --> 00:19:33,708
Yeah. So, uh…

252
00:19:35,208 --> 00:19:36,583
It was good.

253
00:19:37,458 --> 00:19:39,416
It definitely wasn't bad.

254
00:19:39,500 --> 00:19:43,125
Uh, of course, I have
very detailed notes for each of you.

255
00:19:44,041 --> 00:19:46,125
In general, though, I'll say that…

256
00:19:46,208 --> 00:19:50,250
that, uh, we're at a point
in this project's process

257
00:19:50,333 --> 00:19:52,708
where making major changes
is very difficult.

258
00:19:52,791 --> 00:19:54,000
So please don't, Zehra.

259
00:19:57,125 --> 00:20:00,833
I'm sorry, but you said, If anything
happens, let it happen on stage."

260
00:20:00,916 --> 00:20:03,125
So I did that. You said that consistency--

261
00:20:03,208 --> 00:20:07,000
-It wasn't important to be completely--
-During rehearsals, not at showtime.

262
00:20:07,083 --> 00:20:08,125
-Okay.
-For rehearsals.

263
00:20:08,208 --> 00:20:09,583
Rehearsals are part of the process.

264
00:20:09,666 --> 00:20:11,958
I thought it would be okay
to make changes in rehearsal.

265
00:20:12,041 --> 00:20:13,916
It's rehearsal with the audience.
We have a show,

266
00:20:14,000 --> 00:20:17,208
and for the next two weeks,
repetition is all we're focusing on.

267
00:20:18,125 --> 00:20:20,125
Are you changing your performance, Dodo?

268
00:20:21,541 --> 00:20:22,875
Everyone for the first two weeks

269
00:20:22,958 --> 00:20:26,041
was allowed to create
any character they felt like creating.

270
00:20:26,125 --> 00:20:27,625
And I never interfered, right?

271
00:20:27,708 --> 00:20:30,416
I figured I wasn't doing any damage,
'cause it was just my monologue,

272
00:20:30,500 --> 00:20:31,583
not anybody's scene with me.

273
00:20:31,666 --> 00:20:34,708
No, we're all connected, everyone.
It's all one thing.

274
00:20:35,875 --> 00:20:38,916
Like when you started talking,
when we heard you go off book,

275
00:20:39,000 --> 00:20:40,791
I just panicked, we all did.
Harun as well.

276
00:20:41,625 --> 00:20:44,291
Five minutes later,
you two have a scene together.

277
00:20:44,375 --> 00:20:46,875
And now he has to change
his whole performance,

278
00:20:46,958 --> 00:20:49,291
because I'm sure you can appreciate

279
00:20:49,375 --> 00:20:53,291
that playing
opposite a character in a headscarf

280
00:20:53,375 --> 00:20:56,583
is different than someone without,
and he'd relate accordingly.

281
00:20:57,583 --> 00:20:59,375
What do you mean by, "accordingly"?

282
00:20:59,458 --> 00:21:04,416
Of course. Like, when we have compartments
in our minds, we have ideas of people…

283
00:21:04,500 --> 00:21:06,000
I'll put it another way, maybe.

284
00:21:06,083 --> 00:21:09,041
Picture a woman
directing the play here tonight.

285
00:21:10,458 --> 00:21:12,416
Get me?
You can picture a woman doing that.

286
00:21:13,375 --> 00:21:15,041
You're imagining what, exactly?

287
00:21:15,875 --> 00:21:16,875
Pretty.

288
00:21:17,708 --> 00:21:20,458
Thank you, Selin. But I meant,
am I wearing a headscarf?

289
00:21:20,541 --> 00:21:22,250
Like am I a devout Muslim?

290
00:21:23,916 --> 00:21:25,000
[Zehra] You're not.

291
00:21:28,166 --> 00:21:32,416
My point precisely. We've got
some particular compartments in our minds.

292
00:21:32,500 --> 00:21:36,333
And we put different characters in them.
And you broke all of that.

293
00:21:38,000 --> 00:21:41,833
For example, Istanbul Encyclopedia
was the class, yeah?

294
00:21:41,916 --> 00:21:43,833
Özlem's class that you're taking?

295
00:21:44,583 --> 00:21:49,250
Like, can you imagine Özlem teaching
that class while wearing a headscarf?

296
00:21:49,333 --> 00:21:52,041
[Selin] We'd imagine
she'd be a lady in the lunchroom.

297
00:21:52,125 --> 00:21:53,208
That's the point.

298
00:21:53,291 --> 00:21:55,166
So then class may be more accurate.

299
00:21:55,250 --> 00:21:58,416
Sure, maybe its economic differences,
but there must be more to it than that.

300
00:21:58,500 --> 00:22:01,916
Honestly, I feel that I can picture
anyone in any form.

301
00:22:02,000 --> 00:22:04,375
But it's absurd we have
to have this argument, okay?

302
00:22:04,458 --> 00:22:06,375
Dodo, pretend--
What are you talking about?

303
00:22:06,458 --> 00:22:08,916
We're not-- we're not badmouthing anybody.

304
00:22:09,708 --> 00:22:13,416
We're not banning any headscarves here,
but I'm trying to find consistency.

305
00:22:13,500 --> 00:22:15,875
If we're artists, we pursue reality.

306
00:22:15,958 --> 00:22:20,458
Maybe I need to be more clear. It's about
how the characters occupy our heads.

307
00:22:20,541 --> 00:22:22,625
What Zehra showed us
is perfectly appropriate.

308
00:22:22,708 --> 00:22:24,833
The problem is we've never seen it.

309
00:22:24,916 --> 00:22:28,000
People didn't practice
with that character, nobody knows her.

310
00:22:28,083 --> 00:22:30,000
Of course she's a real human being, sure.

311
00:22:30,083 --> 00:22:32,000
No one's saying it's impossible.

312
00:22:32,083 --> 00:22:34,708
But what she does
in the next scene would be different.

313
00:22:34,791 --> 00:22:37,541
And the Harun character
would respond differently.

314
00:22:37,625 --> 00:22:40,875
Let's say this Zehra character
played a lead role in a show.

315
00:22:40,958 --> 00:22:43,625
Do you imagine the writer of that show
wearing a hijab?

316
00:22:43,708 --> 00:22:46,208
Or, I don't know, how do you picture
the female network executive

317
00:22:46,291 --> 00:22:49,166
who decides
whether that show even airs?

318
00:22:49,250 --> 00:22:51,458
You mean just because
of people's prejudices?

319
00:22:51,541 --> 00:22:55,208
What about the prejudices
coming from people who wear headscarves?

320
00:22:55,291 --> 00:22:58,875
They refuse these jobs for some reason
and this is the result of that.

321
00:22:58,958 --> 00:23:00,041
But that's the way it goes.

322
00:23:00,125 --> 00:23:02,083
It's easy to label people as prejudiced

323
00:23:02,166 --> 00:23:04,208
without taking the time
to listen to their story.

324
00:23:04,291 --> 00:23:06,666
But it's because
they act the ways they do,

325
00:23:06,750 --> 00:23:10,166
that people end up becoming prejudiced
against them in the first place.

326
00:23:10,750 --> 00:23:12,208
That's crystal clear.

327
00:23:12,291 --> 00:23:15,125
There are women all over campus
who have headscarves on.

328
00:23:15,208 --> 00:23:17,208
They should be allowed to do whatever.

329
00:23:17,291 --> 00:23:19,458
Even though they actually have
freedom to choose,

330
00:23:19,541 --> 00:23:22,083
when it comes to their religion,
maybe they don't believe they do.

331
00:23:22,166 --> 00:23:26,708
No, no, we're-- We seem
to be headed somewhere else with this.

332
00:23:26,791 --> 00:23:30,541
We're not on topic now. Our topic
remains the consistency in our play.

333
00:23:30,625 --> 00:23:31,625
So…

334
00:23:32,166 --> 00:23:36,666
We should do the show we prepared.
Because this play wasn't that.

335
00:23:36,750 --> 00:23:40,541
Anyway. It's late, we're tired.
There's still another semester.

336
00:23:40,625 --> 00:23:43,291
Perhaps you'll have fleshed out
all of your choices by then.

337
00:23:43,375 --> 00:23:47,666
Let's take care of the mats there.
Leave this place pristine. Mop up.

338
00:24:19,541 --> 00:24:23,291
Wow, Zehra. You're strange people.

339
00:24:30,208 --> 00:24:33,083
[upbeat music playing]

340
00:24:46,333 --> 00:24:48,541
-No, it was a big black one.
-[laughs]

341
00:24:48,625 --> 00:24:51,708
It was covered in fairy lights.
You didn't even see it.

342
00:24:51,791 --> 00:24:53,916
[indistinct chatter]

343
00:25:22,583 --> 00:25:24,375
[singing in Turkish]

344
00:25:24,875 --> 00:25:27,583
Oh, okay! [laughs] Chill out!

345
00:25:27,666 --> 00:25:29,625
No, don't do it! No! [screams]

346
00:25:30,625 --> 00:25:32,541
[laughter]

347
00:25:32,625 --> 00:25:36,416
♪ My soul burns
My soul doesn't know ♪

348
00:25:37,041 --> 00:25:43,375
♪ I have a soul
My soul doesn't think ♪

349
00:25:43,875 --> 00:25:50,166
♪ My soul is love
My soul doesn't change ♪

350
00:25:50,791 --> 00:25:53,041
♪ My soul ♪

351
00:25:53,125 --> 00:25:54,833
[laughing]

352
00:25:56,791 --> 00:25:59,333
Da, da, da, da, da!
And now it's the big finish!

353
00:25:59,416 --> 00:26:01,791
We pop off and finish this! Da!

354
00:26:01,875 --> 00:26:04,000
[laughing]

355
00:26:04,083 --> 00:26:06,833
Hey, put it down! [screams] Put it down!

356
00:26:08,083 --> 00:26:10,083
[upbeat music continues]

357
00:26:12,666 --> 00:26:14,041
[yelling]

358
00:26:14,125 --> 00:26:15,291
Ta-da!

359
00:26:16,208 --> 00:26:17,375
I'm so tired!

360
00:26:19,875 --> 00:26:21,041
[exhaling]

361
00:26:22,083 --> 00:26:23,541
Watch out!

362
00:26:23,625 --> 00:26:25,625
[laughter]

363
00:26:28,208 --> 00:26:29,375
Are you okay?

364
00:26:32,791 --> 00:26:34,208
[laughing]

365
00:26:38,041 --> 00:26:41,125
[panting]

366
00:26:54,083 --> 00:26:55,041
Easy.

367
00:26:55,125 --> 00:26:58,291
-Careful, those are fragile.
-Right here. Okay.

368
00:27:01,541 --> 00:27:04,583
FRAGILE

369
00:27:06,208 --> 00:27:07,208
Emel.

370
00:27:10,000 --> 00:27:13,041
There are some papers there.
They could be important.

371
00:27:17,166 --> 00:27:19,125
What are you gonna do
with the furniture, Emel?

372
00:27:19,208 --> 00:27:21,500
Well, everything is going away, isn't it?

373
00:27:22,666 --> 00:27:25,833
And what does this mean for you?
Where are you going to go?

374
00:27:25,916 --> 00:27:28,708
[sighs] I can take care of myself, Nesrin.

375
00:27:30,041 --> 00:27:33,500
And Mom? What does this mean for her?
And what about us?

376
00:27:33,583 --> 00:27:35,500
We all do whatever we feel like.

377
00:27:36,416 --> 00:27:39,083
I won't be giving myself
to this family ever again.

378
00:27:42,750 --> 00:27:43,750
Emel.

379
00:27:48,291 --> 00:27:52,250
Emel. Emel. Emel, can you listen to me?
Will you put that down? Hear me out.

380
00:27:52,333 --> 00:27:54,708
Put it somewhere, leave it. Put it down.

381
00:27:54,791 --> 00:27:56,750
-[Emel] Nesrin, it's fine.
-Put it down.

382
00:27:59,625 --> 00:28:02,458
[Emel] What? What are you gonna say?
What are you gonna ask?

383
00:28:14,375 --> 00:28:16,083
[voice breaks] I understand you.

384
00:28:19,458 --> 00:28:21,250
You do whatever you want.

385
00:28:22,000 --> 00:28:23,250
Whatever you want.

386
00:28:25,750 --> 00:28:27,041
I'll do this job.

387
00:28:28,791 --> 00:28:30,166
What're you gonna do?

388
00:28:30,750 --> 00:28:32,541
[crying] I don't know.

389
00:28:34,041 --> 00:28:36,000
But don't worry, I'll take care of Mom.

390
00:28:36,833 --> 00:28:38,625
So, you won't go to France?

391
00:28:43,916 --> 00:28:45,750
I guess I won't go, if I can't.

392
00:28:50,666 --> 00:28:53,375
I won't be a burden. Don't worry about it.

393
00:28:55,666 --> 00:28:56,833
Come here.

394
00:29:01,666 --> 00:29:03,541
Emel, I love you so much.

395
00:29:07,458 --> 00:29:08,708
Sevinç.

396
00:29:09,208 --> 00:29:13,000
-Sevinç.
-Emel, not Sevinç, Mom. Emel.

397
00:29:13,625 --> 00:29:16,833
-Uh… Emel?
-Emel. Yeah, your daughter Emel.

398
00:29:17,875 --> 00:29:19,458
[crying]

399
00:29:20,791 --> 00:29:23,958
-Let's pack up and go.
-Okay, sure. Okay, Mom.

400
00:29:24,041 --> 00:29:25,708
-To Sevinç.
-Okay, we will.

401
00:29:27,250 --> 00:29:29,500
-Sevinç is waiting for us.
-Okay.

402
00:29:29,583 --> 00:29:32,541
-So let's go soon.
-Okay, okay, Mom, we will.

403
00:29:35,416 --> 00:29:38,375
Shh.

404
00:29:49,791 --> 00:29:50,916
[meows]

405
00:29:51,791 --> 00:29:53,750
-[Zehra] Diego.
-[meows]

406
00:30:00,291 --> 00:30:01,333
[gasps]

407
00:30:04,875 --> 00:30:06,541
-Diego!
-[Nesrin] Zehra?

408
00:30:06,625 --> 00:30:08,416
[Zehra] I've found Diego!

409
00:30:08,500 --> 00:30:09,916
-Diego? For real?
-Yeah!

410
00:30:10,000 --> 00:30:11,666
-Stop it, come on!
-It's him. Look.

411
00:30:11,750 --> 00:30:13,958
-Must just be a cat that looks like him.
-I'm positive.

412
00:30:14,041 --> 00:30:15,208
Let me.

413
00:30:16,541 --> 00:30:19,458
Diego? Come here, boy.

414
00:30:19,541 --> 00:30:20,541
Diego!

415
00:30:20,625 --> 00:30:21,666
-Here, kitty-kitty.
-Here.

416
00:30:21,750 --> 00:30:24,708
Is that you? Come on out, baby.

417
00:30:26,541 --> 00:30:27,916
[grunts]

418
00:30:28,000 --> 00:30:31,375
Come. Here, kitty. Come here.

419
00:30:32,500 --> 00:30:34,416
Here, let me see. Come here, boy. Up.

420
00:30:34,500 --> 00:30:37,208
[grunts] Well, you're sure
as heavy as Diego.

421
00:30:37,291 --> 00:30:39,583
You are. Wow. I think you are him.

422
00:30:39,666 --> 00:30:40,708
It's really him, then?

423
00:30:40,791 --> 00:30:44,000
It's him! It's him! It's Diego!

424
00:30:44,083 --> 00:30:47,208
Where were you, little guy?
Where were you, huh?

425
00:30:47,291 --> 00:30:48,833
Where did you go?

426
00:30:49,791 --> 00:30:51,583
Oh!

427
00:30:51,666 --> 00:30:52,958
Sweet baby.

428
00:30:59,625 --> 00:31:01,625
[Diego purrs]

429
00:31:21,166 --> 00:31:22,166
What's the matter?

430
00:31:26,333 --> 00:31:28,125
Just thinking, now that Diego's back.

431
00:31:31,166 --> 00:31:33,125
He really missed you.

432
00:31:34,125 --> 00:31:36,125
He's not gonna leave you again.

433
00:31:36,833 --> 00:31:39,208
-I'm not so sure.
-Why's that?

434
00:31:40,041 --> 00:31:42,291
I don't think Diego can travel anymore.

435
00:31:43,625 --> 00:31:47,416
-How so?
-Well, because he's old for a cat.

436
00:31:47,500 --> 00:31:51,083
It'd be cruel to introduce
a new environment, he's too old for that.

437
00:31:52,041 --> 00:31:55,125
I'm sure he's been through
some really crazy adventures.

438
00:31:55,208 --> 00:31:57,125
He'll be okay, don't worry.

439
00:31:57,208 --> 00:31:59,208
[phone ringing]

440
00:32:03,583 --> 00:32:05,333
-Hello?
-[In French] Hello? Hello, Nesrin?

441
00:32:05,916 --> 00:32:06,916
Louis?

442
00:32:07,000 --> 00:32:10,166
The official exam results
arrived by email today.

443
00:32:10,250 --> 00:32:12,333
But I wanted to let you know personally.

444
00:32:13,708 --> 00:32:15,291
Okay.

445
00:32:15,375 --> 00:32:19,958
I wanted to let you know
whatever we had was great.

446
00:32:20,041 --> 00:32:22,958
Um… yes, of course it was.

447
00:32:24,250 --> 00:32:26,166
You passed the exam.

448
00:32:27,541 --> 00:32:29,625
With a very high score, at that.

449
00:32:30,291 --> 00:32:31,916
[sighs] Really?

450
00:32:33,125 --> 00:32:34,750
Have a good trip.

451
00:32:34,833 --> 00:32:37,833
Thank you.
Thank you for everything, Louis.

452
00:32:40,291 --> 00:32:41,791
[Zehra in English] What happened?

453
00:32:44,833 --> 00:32:46,250
If I go away,

454
00:32:48,125 --> 00:32:50,500
can you take care of Diego, Zehra?

455
00:32:52,916 --> 00:32:54,291
Of course, though I'm afraid

456
00:32:54,375 --> 00:32:57,291
I'm not sure I can take care of myself
if push comes to shove,

457
00:32:57,375 --> 00:32:59,666
but I'll get him
a great place to stay, though, I swear.

458
00:32:59,750 --> 00:33:02,208
How 'bout you stay here with him instead?

459
00:33:03,291 --> 00:33:04,833
You're not getting rid of this place?

460
00:33:05,958 --> 00:33:08,125
You take care of Diego and I'll keep it.

461
00:33:11,458 --> 00:33:12,458
Are you kidding me?

462
00:33:12,541 --> 00:33:13,833
Zehra.

463
00:33:15,833 --> 00:33:16,833
What's up?

464
00:33:17,875 --> 00:33:19,958
The exam is passed, I'm done.

465
00:33:20,041 --> 00:33:22,500
[laughing excitedly]

466
00:33:26,708 --> 00:33:30,041
That's amazing! I mean,
that's no surprise, though.

467
00:33:30,125 --> 00:33:32,625
-Because I knew you would.
-[Nesrin] Aw.

468
00:33:33,208 --> 00:33:35,125
Everybody here ready?

469
00:33:35,208 --> 00:33:37,166
You're in your final class with me.

470
00:33:37,250 --> 00:33:40,541
For sure it's been a bit atypical,
this class of ours.

471
00:33:40,625 --> 00:33:43,750
I heard that some of you
are discussing among yourselves

472
00:33:43,833 --> 00:33:46,708
whether this was
an architecture or literature class.

473
00:33:46,791 --> 00:33:49,625
But I'd like to think that by now
you've all understood my point.

474
00:33:49,708 --> 00:33:52,416
In the future, when you're designing
your own projects,

475
00:33:52,500 --> 00:33:56,041
you'll remember this, I hope,
and you might then act with forethought

476
00:33:56,125 --> 00:34:00,208
and be sensitive to the idea that you may
end up in someone's encyclopedia.

477
00:34:00,291 --> 00:34:02,166
Istanbul's still standing.

478
00:34:02,250 --> 00:34:06,833
It stands so gloriously, though time
is cruel, though humans try to destroy it.

479
00:34:06,916 --> 00:34:08,666
So please, remember what looms.

480
00:34:08,750 --> 00:34:12,708
Our city is suffocating, but do your job,
and it will breathe again.

481
00:34:12,791 --> 00:34:14,125
You can save it.

482
00:34:14,208 --> 00:34:18,250
But to be able to do this,
you need to have your own places here.

483
00:34:18,958 --> 00:34:20,708
What affected you the most?

484
00:34:21,541 --> 00:34:25,333
What letter did you choose?
What word did you choose?

485
00:34:25,416 --> 00:34:27,416
So then, here we go.

486
00:34:27,500 --> 00:34:29,708
Let's hear what some people have written.

487
00:34:29,791 --> 00:34:32,875
Your place could well be one
that another person chose.

488
00:34:32,958 --> 00:34:34,958
Or a new discovery in town.

489
00:34:37,416 --> 00:34:38,916
Please, go ahead.

490
00:34:39,916 --> 00:34:41,916
[gentle music playing]

491
00:34:49,000 --> 00:34:52,041
[Zehra] The Letter N. Nesrin's house.

492
00:34:54,291 --> 00:34:57,750
The Turkish dictionary
has this to say about Nesrin.

493
00:34:57,833 --> 00:35:01,500
"The literal meaning of the name Nesrin,
which comes to our language from Persian,

494
00:35:01,583 --> 00:35:02,458
is wild rose."

495
00:35:02,541 --> 00:35:07,583
"In Ottoman  it's written as 'Nasrin,'
especially in Diwan poetry,

496
00:35:07,666 --> 00:35:10,875
where it's often featured
alongside traditional rose, tulip,

497
00:35:10,958 --> 00:35:12,500
and other floral motifs."

498
00:35:12,583 --> 00:35:16,333
Nesrin symbolizes longing.
Longing for a loved one.

499
00:35:16,416 --> 00:35:19,708
House. "A house is a building
where people live."

500
00:35:20,583 --> 00:35:24,333
"It is surrounded by walls,
divided into rooms."

501
00:35:24,416 --> 00:35:27,958
"It is covered by a roof,
and sometimes has a garden,

502
00:35:28,041 --> 00:35:30,541
often made of wood, earth or concrete."

503
00:35:30,625 --> 00:35:34,250
Nesrin's house.
The Rüyam Apartment in Moda Point,

504
00:35:34,333 --> 00:35:38,125
built in 1968y, is notable
for its geometric façade,

505
00:35:38,208 --> 00:35:40,291
wide windows and flowerbed design,

506
00:35:40,791 --> 00:35:44,541
as well as its appropriate proportion
to the street at a human scale.

507
00:35:45,166 --> 00:35:49,208
This is where I started writing
my personal Istanbul Encyclopedia.

508
00:35:50,041 --> 00:35:52,625
Cats of Istanbul. Diego.

509
00:35:52,708 --> 00:35:56,333
The wise cat. I learned so many things
about life from him.

510
00:35:56,416 --> 00:35:59,041
He knows when to get lost,
and when to come back,

511
00:35:59,125 --> 00:36:01,208
and to accept
the consequences of his actions.

512
00:36:01,875 --> 00:36:05,833
A civil servant's son,
an architect in training. Harun.

513
00:36:07,000 --> 00:36:09,958
He is full of life
and never-ending energy.

514
00:36:10,041 --> 00:36:12,541
Do you know when I really
felt that most strongly?

515
00:36:13,250 --> 00:36:15,458
When I touched his neck in the sea.

516
00:36:16,875 --> 00:36:19,625
I can't explain it.
You just have to try and see.

517
00:36:20,125 --> 00:36:22,083
Then the strangest thing happened.

518
00:36:22,166 --> 00:36:23,000
[phone chimes]

519
00:36:23,083 --> 00:36:27,291
The emails we'd scheduled were sent.
I'll save what Harun wrote for myself,

520
00:36:27,375 --> 00:36:29,125
but this is what I sent to him.

521
00:36:29,916 --> 00:36:31,625
"A letter to the future."

522
00:36:32,125 --> 00:36:35,791
"Do you realize that we are now
travelling through time together?"

523
00:36:35,875 --> 00:36:37,791
"Of course you do."

524
00:36:37,875 --> 00:36:41,208
"You turned Istanbul
into a galactic voyage for me,

525
00:36:41,291 --> 00:36:44,708
when you took me by the hand
and led me through portals in Istiklal."

526
00:36:44,791 --> 00:36:48,458
"You. You are like the moment
a star explodes, Harun."

527
00:36:48,541 --> 00:36:52,250
"I marvel at your enthusiasm,
but I can't understand what you are."

528
00:36:52,333 --> 00:36:54,291
"Are you Vega? Are you Sirius?"

529
00:36:54,375 --> 00:36:59,000
"All I know is, you're a bursting
beam of light and I can't look away."

530
00:36:59,500 --> 00:37:02,083
The bureaucrat. Serdar.

531
00:37:02,166 --> 00:37:03,666
We met the day he overcame cancer,

532
00:37:03,750 --> 00:37:06,416
though I always wondered
whether that was true or not.

533
00:37:06,500 --> 00:37:10,083
When I first saw him, it was
as if beneath his charming appearance,

534
00:37:10,166 --> 00:37:14,708
there were raging emotions, repressed
and ready to burst out at any moment.

535
00:37:15,541 --> 00:37:18,708
The in-between Millennial. Emel.

536
00:37:18,791 --> 00:37:21,833
She's one of the most unusual people
I've ever known.

537
00:37:21,916 --> 00:37:25,583
I see her as someone
who hides her beauty in endless darkness,

538
00:37:25,666 --> 00:37:29,500
whose complex moods
are always reflected in her body.

539
00:37:29,583 --> 00:37:33,875
The retired teacher.
Mrs. Nazife or Mrs. Auntie.

540
00:37:34,708 --> 00:37:36,625
The memory of Türkiye.

541
00:37:37,500 --> 00:37:39,208
A vintage powder compact.

542
00:37:39,291 --> 00:37:42,708
She caresses you with a soft,
nostalgic familiarity.

543
00:37:42,791 --> 00:37:47,291
But you can tell she has stirred up
some devastating storms in her time.

544
00:37:47,375 --> 00:37:49,875
She divided herself into her daughters.

545
00:37:49,958 --> 00:37:52,625
She gave her twilight and thunder to Emel,

546
00:37:52,708 --> 00:37:55,708
and saved the quiet shores for Nesrin.

547
00:37:55,791 --> 00:37:58,750
Still, she is deeper
than the two of them combined.

548
00:37:59,333 --> 00:38:01,250
Is that what motherhood is?

549
00:38:01,750 --> 00:38:04,250
Being greater
than the sum of what you gave.

550
00:38:07,625 --> 00:38:10,583
A devout woman in college. Fatıma.

551
00:38:17,750 --> 00:38:20,375
Students worried about their futures.

552
00:38:20,458 --> 00:38:22,833
Yes, even our three friends.

553
00:38:23,708 --> 00:38:25,166
I love you all.

554
00:38:34,291 --> 00:38:35,750
A heart surgeon.

555
00:38:38,083 --> 00:38:40,458
My real hero, of course, Nesrin.

556
00:38:41,666 --> 00:38:43,208
When I first saw her,

557
00:38:44,750 --> 00:38:47,583
it was hard to tell if her exhaustion
was from being in surgery

558
00:38:47,666 --> 00:38:52,250
or if it was a chronic condition
etched into her face for all time.

559
00:38:52,333 --> 00:38:56,166
She looked as if she had already
experienced everything she needed to,

560
00:38:56,250 --> 00:38:59,875
and still believed in miracles,
but this hope of hers was buried deep,

561
00:38:59,958 --> 00:39:01,708
and mixed with her weariness.

562
00:39:01,791 --> 00:39:05,625
And then Nesrin became my Nesrin.

563
00:39:08,750 --> 00:39:10,166
ISTANBUL ENCYCLOPEDIA

564
00:39:10,250 --> 00:39:12,250
[gentle music playing]

565
00:39:48,166 --> 00:39:50,750
[Zehra, chuckling] Those balloons
were there the day I arrived.

566
00:39:50,833 --> 00:39:52,333
I took a video, remember?

567
00:39:52,875 --> 00:39:54,875
[Zehra and Nesrin chuckling]

568
00:40:06,250 --> 00:40:08,208
Thanks again. This is so…

569
00:40:09,000 --> 00:40:11,000
It's really special, thank you.

570
00:40:11,791 --> 00:40:12,916
Just like you are.

571
00:40:14,125 --> 00:40:15,750
I'm glad you like it.

572
00:40:18,000 --> 00:40:20,750
The book made me have
to get to know Istanbul well.

573
00:40:20,833 --> 00:40:24,875
[voice breaks] I hope it helps you
to always remember the life you had here.

574
00:40:34,541 --> 00:40:37,791
-Well maybe you'd like my Istanbul.
-[both laugh]

575
00:40:37,875 --> 00:40:40,083
I had this printed out for you.

576
00:40:45,375 --> 00:40:47,208
[laughing]

577
00:40:47,916 --> 00:40:50,333
That was so fun.

578
00:41:02,875 --> 00:41:04,875
[sobbing]

579
00:41:10,541 --> 00:41:12,791
[Nesrin] I'm so glad
you came into my life.

580
00:41:13,375 --> 00:41:15,416
So glad you decided to come here.

581
00:41:16,750 --> 00:41:18,666
[crying]

582
00:41:26,416 --> 00:41:28,250
Take care of yourself.

583
00:41:28,333 --> 00:41:30,125
Will you? Hear me?

584
00:41:39,000 --> 00:41:40,000
Psst.

585
00:41:41,083 --> 00:41:44,000
-[keys jangling]
-[chuckles]

586
00:41:45,041 --> 00:41:48,500
-You're always welcome to swing by.
-[both laugh]

587
00:41:58,458 --> 00:42:00,458
[crying]

588
00:42:52,208 --> 00:42:53,208
Hello.

589
00:42:57,291 --> 00:42:58,250
You're late.

590
00:43:01,333 --> 00:43:03,125
Nesrin went through security.

591
00:43:06,125 --> 00:43:07,125
Nesrin.

592
00:43:11,666 --> 00:43:13,541
You look like her a bit.

593
00:43:15,291 --> 00:43:16,666
I look like you too.

594
00:43:18,000 --> 00:43:20,000
[closing theme music playing]