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MISSING

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ISTANBUL ENCYCLOPEDIA

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Interesting. Epic. So…

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Look at him.

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-Pelin.
-I got you.

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I'm sure you'll have more fun.

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Truth or dare?

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Truth.

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-How many times have you had sex?
-If she counted.

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How dare you? How are you so bold?
How can you ask me something like that?

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Kidding. How many times have I made love?
Take a guess.

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-Five.
-Seventy-three.

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-A thousand.
-Whoa!

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I'm honored, dear Dodo, but… Well…

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Zero.

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Okay, tell me the truth now.

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Zero, man.

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Wait, did I prepare you
for all those dates for nothing?

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I did your make-up.
You even told me it went great.

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-So, nothing happened?
-Nothing happened, somehow.

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What kind of friend group are we?
How on earth do you not like metal?

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-I don't.
-And you've never had sex?

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-Okay, whatever. Just go on.
-And that was my secret.

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-Zehra's closer to me than you.
-Come on.

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I think I made it count.

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-Who's spinning? Me?
-Yes.

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Let's go! Okay, truth or dare?

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-Truth.
-Damn! Enough with the truth!

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-Say dare so we can see something!
-What are you gonna ask?

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What is your red line in a relationship?
What makes you leave a girl?

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-I'll leave her if she lies.
-Shut it, Mr. Cliché.

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But it's true.
If she lies, it's over for me. That's it.

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And blondes aren't usually my type.
I like brunettes more.

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I like cute, oval faces.

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I like gazelle-eyed ones.

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-That's all.
-He likes girls named Zehra.

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Okay, I'm spinning.

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What's up?

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-Fine, you?
-I'm fine too.

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-May I ask a question?
-Sure.

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Thank you so much. Truth, dare?

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-Dare.
-Can I get a big round of applause?

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Finally.

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-Jump into the sea.
-What?

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-Jump into the sea.
-Harun, don't be silly.

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-You can do it.
-No.

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-Yeah, go on.
-Don't be silly.

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-Hey, it's a game, girl. Come on.
-No, no way. No.

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You can do it.

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No.

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But didn't we all promise
to go into the sea today?

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I didn't promise such a thing.

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Why?

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You don't know how to swim?

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What if I don't know?

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What's it to you?

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It's okay if you don't know.
Just say you don't know.

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-Hello.
-Hello.

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Welcome to the French oral test.

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Thank you.

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How are you?

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-I'm great.
-Very well.

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I'm going to be recording your voice
so that we can assess it later.

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-Do you agree?
-Yes, I do.

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Great. Let's begin.

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Please begin by introducing yourself.
What's your name and surname?

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Nesrin Caner.

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-Where were you born?
-In Amasya.

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When did you move to Istanbul?

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-Twenty-five years ago.
-That's a long time.

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What's your occupation?

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I'm a cardiovascular surgeon.
I'm not currently employed.

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-May I ask why?
-I resigned to pursue my career in France.

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You know what they say.

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You can't leave a city.
It keeps following you.

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I don't think it's fair

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for a first world country citizen
to say this.

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I want to live with you.

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I want us to solve your problems together.
I want to live with you.

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There's only one thing on my mind.

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Being with you.

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I'm begging you.

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Please let it happen.

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I love you, Nesrin. I love you.

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I love you so much.

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Louis.

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Can we continue please?

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You told me
you wanted to live in France, right?

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You seem like a woman
who has a lot of self-confidence.

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How can you be so sure that you can

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successfully pass this exam?

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It's admirable.

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SHARED APARTMENT WITH A FEMALE
15,000 TL - RENTAL

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Hi. I'm calling about
my dormitory application.

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You said you'd get back to me.

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So, I didn't get it?

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I understand.

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Would it change anything
if I came in person?

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It won't. Okay.

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Okay then. Bye, have a nice day.

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Are you upset?

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No.

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-You?
-No.

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Good.

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Any news about the dorm you mentioned?

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It's not certain yet.

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But it will work out. Why wouldn't it?

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What if it doesn't?
We have to find a solution.

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I don't know.

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My life has always been filled
with uncertainties.

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I guess I have to learn to live with it
instead of fighting it.

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What do you mean?

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You know.

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There are billions of people
in this world.

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I'm not the main character in the world,
after all.

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Everyone is going through something.

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Things work out somehow.

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When you overcome one mountain,
another one pops up.

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I think so.

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That's why you can never know
exactly who you are

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or see the path you're on.

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But I think that's normal.

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-It is.
-It is.

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So, there's no problem.

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I mean, at least for now.

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When will you get your exam results?

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They should've been out by now.

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I'm sure you passed.

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I hope so.

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I hope so.

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AMAZON
AN EXPERIMENTAL PLAY

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-Hi.
-Hi.

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-Are we cool?
-We're cool.

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-Good luck.
-Thanks.

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You're not stuck on yesterday, right?

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No, I'm not.

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How's my hair? Does it look good?

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It does.

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What are you gonna do with your hair?

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WRITTEN AND DIRECTED BY CIHAN TAYLAN
AMAZON

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-Enjoy the play.
-Thanks.

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-What's going on?
-Go on.

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Dichotomy has never left me alone.

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I don't know if it's my chronic indecision

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or the constant search
driven by the feeling

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that I'm not truly alive
unless I experience things.

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But I've always been stuck
between these polar opposites.

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Did I have to choose something?

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I don't know.

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I can't tell you how much I admire
people who can choose a path.

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Those who say,
"This is what I want, this is my goal."

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Or those who say,
"I hate this. No, never."

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I feel like…

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my tongue is tied,

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my heart is burdened,

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and my mind is frozen.

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There's even a name for it
in the literature, you know?

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I'm a diagnosed and registered case
of ambivalence.

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Experiencing two contradictory feelings,

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two opposing emotions,
beliefs, and desires simultaneously

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and being paralyzed.

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Ambivalence is
not being able to do anything.

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And this feels like the bottom of the sea.

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Airless.

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You must be wondering. No, no one told me
or this character to cover up her head.

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So, why did I do it?

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Due to a divine feeling?

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Or was it a reaction
to the looks directed at my mom?

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Was it in solidarity
with the woman I came from? I don't know.

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But even if I knew the answer…

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it wouldn't justify your looks.

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Don't ever forget that.

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It was my first day in Istanbul.

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I didn't want to cover myself that day.

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I didn't actually plan it.

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It was the will of an unknown reason,

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and sometimes you can make a decision
even if you're so confused.

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Maybe I was afraid of being categorized,

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of being judged, tagged,
and etched on someone's mind irreversibly.

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Because I'm actually a flighty person.

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Like a balloon.

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A balloon has air inside it.
But no one sees or pays attention to it.

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They only look at its exterior.

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So, I was afraid of getting stuck
in those looks.

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I wanted to be seen unfiltered
like everyone does,

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as much as everyone wants.

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So, I created two spaces for myself.

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And I can't say I wasn't ashamed,
because I was very ashamed.

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To find a common ground
with the outside world,

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I removed some stones in between
with an anxious will.

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And now, in retrospect…

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I've become rather desolate.

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And I don't even know what type of soil
I want to grow in anymore.

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The only thing I know

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is to roam within myself.

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To hang onto a word.

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Not every piece of gold shines.

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And not every traveler has lost their way.

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Yes, that's right.

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That's the way disasters are.

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Don't they happen
when everything is going well?

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Because who can know where those who think
they're on the right path actually stand?

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And who can know that getting lost,
that the doubt, isn't a part of the path?

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Because I'll probably wake up tomorrow
and have no idea what I want to do.

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A headscarf, a cap,
a hoodie, a wig, or bald.

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The only thing I know is,
"Thank God, I could leave the house."

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If disasters are the stops
when everything is going well,

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then maybe miracles are found
along the route of getting lost.

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Who knows?

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The only thing I know is…

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I'm still me.

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Zehra.

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Is everyone here?

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Yeah. So…

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It was good. I mean…

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It wasn't bad.

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Of course,
I have detailed notes for everyone.

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But let me tell you this.

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At this point of the play,

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we can't make additions or deletions
as we wish, Zehra.

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But, Professor, you said,

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"If you have an experience on stage,
embrace it."

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-"The continuity doesn't matter--"
-It was for rehearsals. For rehearsals.

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Rehearsals are a part of
the creative process, right?

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It's with an audience.
It's the play's rehearsal.

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Aren't we repeating the same things
for two weeks?

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You did anything different?

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Everyone was free to create any character
they wanted in the first two weeks.

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Have I interfered at all?

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I wasn't damaging any other character,
only in my monologue…

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No, each monologue here
affects the others.

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When you acted like that,
when we heard you act like that,

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Harun and I panicked.

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You two have a scene five minutes after.

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Doesn't he need to change his reactions?
Because, you know…

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You can appreciate that the characters
facing a headscarf-wearing character

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behave accordingly.
They relate accordingly.

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"They relate accordingly"?

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Of course. Don't we have compartments
in our minds, Zehra? I mean…

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Okay, let me put it this way.
Picture me as a female stage director.

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Right? You can probably do that.

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What are you imagining?

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Beautiful.

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Thanks, Selin, but that's not my point.
Am I wearing a headscarf?

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You're not.

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That's what I'm talking about.
There are compartments in our minds.

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We put the characters in them.
You messed up their calibration.

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For example, what was that class called,
Istanbul Encyclopedia?

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Professor Özlem's class, right?

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Can you imagine Professor Özlem
teaching wearing a headscarf?

251
00:21:49,333 --> 00:21:52,041
But we can imagine
the lady in the dining hall.

252
00:21:53,291 --> 00:21:54,750
You mean it's a class thing?

253
00:21:55,250 --> 00:21:58,416
I'm not talking about
a purely economic class difference.

254
00:21:58,500 --> 00:22:01,333
Honestly, I can imagine anyone in any way.

255
00:22:02,000 --> 00:22:04,375
I think it's absurd
we're even discussing this.

256
00:22:04,458 --> 00:22:09,041
Doğukan, what are you talking about?
We're not trying to badmouth anyone here.

257
00:22:09,791 --> 00:22:13,250
We're not advocating banning anything.
It's about consistency.

258
00:22:13,333 --> 00:22:15,875
As artists, we chase reality.

259
00:22:15,958 --> 00:22:20,041
As I told you, it's about
placing people in certain spots.

260
00:22:20,541 --> 00:22:24,458
I'm not saying what Zehra did is wrong.
But she wasn't doing that until today.

261
00:22:24,958 --> 00:22:27,458
This wasn't the Zehra character
we practiced.

262
00:22:28,083 --> 00:22:30,000
Otherwise, it's a credible character.

263
00:22:30,083 --> 00:22:32,000
I'm not saying it won't work,

264
00:22:32,083 --> 00:22:34,708
but she wouldn't be like that
in the next scenes.

265
00:22:34,791 --> 00:22:37,125
Or Harun's character
wouldn't say those things.

266
00:22:37,625 --> 00:22:40,791
If Zehra's character
was a lead role in a show,

267
00:22:40,875 --> 00:22:43,333
can you imagine the writer
wearing a headscarf?

268
00:22:43,416 --> 00:22:48,916
Or how do you picture the female executive
who decides whether that show airs?

269
00:22:49,416 --> 00:22:51,375
Is it because of people's prejudice?

270
00:22:51,458 --> 00:22:54,750
What about the prejudice
of the people wearing headscarves?

271
00:22:55,375 --> 00:23:00,041
They refuse this kind of job
for some reason and this is the result.

272
00:23:00,125 --> 00:23:04,208
It's easy to label people as prejudiced
without digging deeper.

273
00:23:04,291 --> 00:23:06,375
Maybe if they weren't this way,

274
00:23:06,458 --> 00:23:10,166
they would prevent others
from having prejudices, right?

275
00:23:11,000 --> 00:23:12,208
That's obvious.

276
00:23:12,291 --> 00:23:14,875
There are many people wearing headscarves
on campus.

277
00:23:15,375 --> 00:23:17,208
They should do whatever they want.

278
00:23:17,291 --> 00:23:22,083
Even if life gave them an opportunity,
would their religion allow them?

279
00:23:22,166 --> 00:23:26,416
No. No, let's drop it.
This is going somewhere else.

280
00:23:26,916 --> 00:23:30,541
This isn't our topic.
Ours is the consistency in our play, okay?

281
00:23:30,625 --> 00:23:31,625
I mean…

282
00:23:32,166 --> 00:23:35,541
That we should act as we wrote.
We didn't write this.

283
00:23:36,625 --> 00:23:39,208
Anyway. It's getting late and we're tired.

284
00:23:39,916 --> 00:23:42,500
We'll decide
how Zehra's character is going to be.

285
00:23:43,375 --> 00:23:47,083
Take the Styrofoam pieces in the back.
And mop here. Let's leave it clean.

286
00:24:19,541 --> 00:24:23,291
You really are a strange person.

287
00:24:51,791 --> 00:24:53,916
It's great. I've been here for 25 years.

288
00:25:22,583 --> 00:25:24,375
To this world

289
00:25:24,875 --> 00:25:28,000
Okay! Don't do it! Please!

290
00:25:31,541 --> 00:25:32,541
Jump!

291
00:25:32,625 --> 00:25:36,416
My soul burns
My soul doesn't know

292
00:25:37,041 --> 00:25:43,375
I have a soul
My soul doesn't think

293
00:25:43,875 --> 00:25:50,166
My soul is love
My soul doesn't change

294
00:25:50,791 --> 00:25:53,041
My soul

295
00:25:56,791 --> 00:26:01,583
Thump, thump! Doing the final hit
and I'm putting an end to this! Thump!

296
00:26:04,083 --> 00:26:06,833
Stop, put it down! Don't!

297
00:26:14,125 --> 00:26:15,125
Ta-da!

298
00:26:16,208 --> 00:26:17,375
I panicked.

299
00:26:28,208 --> 00:26:29,250
Stop.

300
00:26:54,083 --> 00:26:55,041
Easy.

301
00:26:55,125 --> 00:26:58,083
-Careful, those are fragile.
-Give it to me. Okay.

302
00:27:01,541 --> 00:27:04,583
FRAGILE

303
00:27:06,208 --> 00:27:07,208
Emel.

304
00:27:10,125 --> 00:27:13,041
There are some papers there.
See if they're important.

305
00:27:17,166 --> 00:27:21,375
-What will happen to the furniture, Emel?
-Nothing's left, everything's going.

306
00:27:23,166 --> 00:27:25,291
What are you gonna do? Where will you go?

307
00:27:26,500 --> 00:27:28,625
I can take care of myself.

308
00:27:30,041 --> 00:27:33,083
Mom? What about Mom?
What about our family?

309
00:27:33,583 --> 00:27:35,500
Everyone will be on their own.

310
00:27:36,416 --> 00:27:39,083
I have nothing more to offer
this institution.

311
00:27:42,750 --> 00:27:43,750
Emel.

312
00:27:48,291 --> 00:27:52,250
Emel. Emel, can you listen to me?
Just listen. Please, listen to me.

313
00:27:52,333 --> 00:27:54,708
Leave it. Put it somewhere. Put it down.

314
00:27:54,791 --> 00:27:56,208
-Nesrin, okay.
-Put it down.

315
00:27:59,958 --> 00:28:02,458
What are you gonna say?
What are you gonna ask from me?

316
00:28:14,666 --> 00:28:16,083
I understand you.

317
00:28:19,583 --> 00:28:21,250
Do whatever you want.

318
00:28:22,000 --> 00:28:23,250
Whatever you want.

319
00:28:25,750 --> 00:28:27,041
I'll take care of it.

320
00:28:28,791 --> 00:28:29,958
What are you gonna do?

321
00:28:31,500 --> 00:28:32,541
I don't know.

322
00:28:34,041 --> 00:28:35,833
I'll take care of Mom somehow.

323
00:28:37,125 --> 00:28:38,625
You won't go to France?

324
00:28:43,916 --> 00:28:45,333
I won't, if necessary.

325
00:28:50,666 --> 00:28:53,375
I won't burden you. Don't worry.

326
00:28:55,666 --> 00:28:56,833
Come here.

327
00:29:01,666 --> 00:29:03,541
Emel, I love you so much.

328
00:29:07,458 --> 00:29:08,708
Sevinç.

329
00:29:09,208 --> 00:29:12,583
-Sevinç.
-She's not Sevinç, Mom. She's Emel.

330
00:29:14,208 --> 00:29:16,833
-Emel?
-Emel. Yes, your daughter Emel.

331
00:29:21,541 --> 00:29:23,958
-Let's pack up and go.
-Okay, Mom.

332
00:29:24,041 --> 00:29:25,541
-To Sevinç.
-Okay.

333
00:29:27,250 --> 00:29:29,000
-We're going to Sevinç.
-Okay.

334
00:29:29,583 --> 00:29:32,000
-Let's go.
-Okay, Mom, okay.

335
00:29:51,791 --> 00:29:52,791
Diego.

336
00:30:04,875 --> 00:30:06,541
-Diego!
-Zehra?

337
00:30:07,416 --> 00:30:08,416
I've found Diego!

338
00:30:08,500 --> 00:30:09,916
-Diego?
-Yes!

339
00:30:10,000 --> 00:30:11,666
-Stop it!
-Yes, it's him. Look.

340
00:30:11,750 --> 00:30:13,958
-It must be a lookalike.
-No, it's him. I'm sure.

341
00:30:14,041 --> 00:30:15,041
Let me see.

342
00:30:16,541 --> 00:30:18,958
Diego. My boy.

343
00:30:19,541 --> 00:30:20,541
Diego!

344
00:30:20,625 --> 00:30:21,666
-Kitty kitty.
-Come.

345
00:30:21,750 --> 00:30:24,208
Diego, is that you? My baby.

346
00:30:28,500 --> 00:30:31,208
Come. Here, kitty. Come here.

347
00:30:32,500 --> 00:30:37,208
Let's look at you. Come here.
You're surely as heavy as Diego.

348
00:30:37,291 --> 00:30:40,708
-Yes. I think you are him.
-Really?

349
00:30:41,458 --> 00:30:43,291
Yes. Yes! Diego.

350
00:30:44,041 --> 00:30:48,625
Where were you? Where did you go?

351
00:31:21,166 --> 00:31:22,166
What is it?

352
00:31:26,458 --> 00:31:28,125
I was thinking about Diego.

353
00:31:31,166 --> 00:31:35,333
He really missed you.
You'll never be apart again.

354
00:31:36,833 --> 00:31:39,208
-It's not that easy.
-Why?

355
00:31:40,041 --> 00:31:42,291
Diego can't travel anymore.

356
00:31:43,625 --> 00:31:44,541
How so?

357
00:31:45,375 --> 00:31:50,500
Because he's an old cat.
At this age, moving him would be cruel.

358
00:31:52,041 --> 00:31:56,708
Don't worry. He must have been through
some crazy adventures. He'll be fine.

359
00:32:03,583 --> 00:32:05,333
-Hello?
-Hello? Hello, Nesrin?

360
00:32:05,916 --> 00:32:06,916
Louis?

361
00:32:07,000 --> 00:32:11,416
The official exam results
arrived by email today.

362
00:32:11,500 --> 00:32:14,958
-But I wanted to let you know personally.
-Okay.

363
00:32:15,041 --> 00:32:20,041
I wanted to let you know
whatever we had was great.

364
00:32:20,541 --> 00:32:22,958
Yes, of course it was.

365
00:32:25,291 --> 00:32:29,625
You passed the exam.
With a very high score, at that.

366
00:32:30,875 --> 00:32:31,916
Really?

367
00:32:32,958 --> 00:32:33,958
Have a good trip.

368
00:32:34,833 --> 00:32:37,833
Thank you.
Thank you for everything, Louis.

369
00:32:40,291 --> 00:32:41,291
What happened?

370
00:32:44,833 --> 00:32:46,333
If I go,

371
00:32:47,958 --> 00:32:49,583
will you take care of Diego?

372
00:32:53,083 --> 00:32:57,291
Of course I will, though I'm still unsure
how I'll take care of myself, so…

373
00:32:57,375 --> 00:32:59,666
But I'll definitely find him a place.

374
00:32:59,750 --> 00:33:01,791
How about you stay here with him?

375
00:33:03,291 --> 00:33:04,833
Won't you sell the house?

376
00:33:05,958 --> 00:33:08,125
If you look after Diego, I won't.

377
00:33:11,458 --> 00:33:12,458
Really?

378
00:33:12,541 --> 00:33:13,666
Zehra.

379
00:33:15,833 --> 00:33:16,833
Yes?

380
00:33:18,083 --> 00:33:19,333
I passed the exam.

381
00:33:26,708 --> 00:33:30,041
Congratulations! I'm not surprised.

382
00:33:30,125 --> 00:33:31,375
I knew it.

383
00:33:33,208 --> 00:33:37,041
All right, guys. This is our last class.

384
00:33:37,541 --> 00:33:40,541
I know this hasn't been a typical class.

385
00:33:40,625 --> 00:33:43,750
I even heard you discussing
among yourselves

386
00:33:43,833 --> 00:33:46,708
whether this was
architecture or literature.

387
00:33:46,791 --> 00:33:49,708
But I'd like to think
you understand my point.

388
00:33:49,791 --> 00:33:52,708
Maybe when you design your projects
in the future,

389
00:33:52,791 --> 00:33:55,875
you'll remember this assignment
and act sensibly,

390
00:33:55,958 --> 00:34:00,208
thinking you might be
in someone's encyclopedia.

391
00:34:00,291 --> 00:34:04,833
While years and people have been doing
all kinds of harm to the city,

392
00:34:04,916 --> 00:34:06,833
Istanbul is still lovely.

393
00:34:06,916 --> 00:34:11,041
But I will ask you to remember Istanbul
and let it breathe.

394
00:34:11,125 --> 00:34:14,125
Because the truth is,
this city is suffocating.

395
00:34:14,208 --> 00:34:18,250
But to be able to do this,
you need to have your own places.

396
00:34:18,958 --> 00:34:20,708
What affected you the most?

397
00:34:21,541 --> 00:34:24,916
What was your letter, your word?

398
00:34:25,416 --> 00:34:29,500
Yes, now let's share them.

399
00:34:30,166 --> 00:34:34,958
Maybe you have common places.
Or some of you will discover new places.

400
00:34:37,416 --> 00:34:38,916
Go ahead, please.

401
00:34:49,000 --> 00:34:51,750
Letter N. Nesrin's house.

402
00:34:54,291 --> 00:34:57,041
In the current dictionary,
this is stated for Nesrin.

403
00:34:57,833 --> 00:34:59,541
"The meaning of the name Nesrin,

404
00:34:59,625 --> 00:35:02,458
which has passed into our language
from Persian, is wild rose."

405
00:35:02,541 --> 00:35:07,208
"This name appears as 'Nasrin'
in Ottoman texts."

406
00:35:07,291 --> 00:35:11,750
"Especially in Diwan poetry,
often mentioned alongside rose and tulip,

407
00:35:11,833 --> 00:35:16,333
Nesrin symbolizes longing for the beloved
and the agony of love."

408
00:35:16,416 --> 00:35:19,708
House. "A house is a building
where people live,

409
00:35:20,583 --> 00:35:23,916
surrounded by walls, divided into rooms,

410
00:35:24,416 --> 00:35:27,958
which has its own roof
and sometimes a garden,

411
00:35:28,041 --> 00:35:30,541
and is made of wood, earth, or concrete."

412
00:35:30,625 --> 00:35:34,250
Nesrin's house.
The Rüyam Apartment in Moda Cape,

413
00:35:34,333 --> 00:35:37,666
built in 1968,
is notable for its geometric facade,

414
00:35:37,750 --> 00:35:40,291
wide windows and flowerbed design,

415
00:35:40,791 --> 00:35:45,791
and it is appropriately proportionate
to the street at a human scale.

416
00:35:45,875 --> 00:35:49,208
Here I started writing
my personal Istanbul Encyclopedia.

417
00:35:50,041 --> 00:35:52,625
Cats of Istanbul. Diego.

418
00:35:52,708 --> 00:35:56,333
The wise cat. I learned so many things
about life from him.

419
00:35:56,416 --> 00:35:59,041
He knows when to get lost
and when to return,

420
00:35:59,125 --> 00:36:01,208
and he faces the dire consequences.

421
00:36:01,875 --> 00:36:05,833
The science-student son
of a secular civil servant. Harun.

422
00:36:07,000 --> 00:36:09,958
He's full of life
with his never-ending energy.

423
00:36:10,041 --> 00:36:12,541
Do you know when I felt it the most?

424
00:36:13,250 --> 00:36:15,458
When I touched his throat in the sea.

425
00:36:16,875 --> 00:36:19,625
I can't explain it.
You have to try and see.

426
00:36:20,125 --> 00:36:22,083
Then the strangest thing happened.

427
00:36:22,916 --> 00:36:27,291
Our scheduled emails were delivered.
I'll keep what Harun wrote to myself.

428
00:36:27,375 --> 00:36:29,125
But I sent him this.

429
00:36:29,916 --> 00:36:31,625
"The letter to the future."

430
00:36:32,125 --> 00:36:37,083
"Do you realize we're now time traveling?
Of course you do."

431
00:36:37,875 --> 00:36:41,208
"You had turned Istanbul
into a galactic voyage."

432
00:36:41,291 --> 00:36:44,791
"When you held my hand
and got me through portals in Istiklal."

433
00:36:45,750 --> 00:36:48,458
"You are like the moment
a star explodes, Harun."

434
00:36:48,541 --> 00:36:52,250
"I watch your enthusiasm in amazement,
but I don't get it. What exactly are you?"

435
00:36:52,333 --> 00:36:54,291
"Are you Vega, or Sirius?"

436
00:36:54,375 --> 00:36:59,000
"All I know is, you're a bursting
beam of light and I can't look away."

437
00:36:59,500 --> 00:37:02,083
The male bureaucrat. Serdar.

438
00:37:02,166 --> 00:37:06,708
We met on the day he beat cancer,
which I always doubted was true.

439
00:37:06,791 --> 00:37:10,833
When I first saw him, it was like,
under his charming physical appearance,

440
00:37:10,916 --> 00:37:14,708
he had repressed emotions
ready to burst at any moment.

441
00:37:15,541 --> 00:37:18,291
The in-between Gen Y. Emel.

442
00:37:18,791 --> 00:37:21,416
She's one of the most unusual characters
I've ever known.

443
00:37:21,916 --> 00:37:25,583
I defined her as one who hides her beauty
in an endless darkness,

444
00:37:25,666 --> 00:37:29,583
with her complex state of mind
reflected in her body.

445
00:37:30,083 --> 00:37:33,875
The retired teacher.
Mrs. Nazife or Mrs. Auntie.

446
00:37:34,708 --> 00:37:36,625
She's like vintage powder.

447
00:37:37,500 --> 00:37:40,708
She covers you up
in a soft and nostalgic familiarity.

448
00:37:41,458 --> 00:37:45,958
But you can definitely tell she was like
a force of nature back in the day.

449
00:37:46,583 --> 00:37:49,000
She divided herself into her daughters.

450
00:37:49,958 --> 00:37:55,291
She gave her quirks and storms to Emel,
and saved the quiet shores for Nesrin.

451
00:37:55,791 --> 00:37:58,750
Still, Mrs. Nazife is deeper
than the two of them combined.

452
00:37:59,333 --> 00:38:01,250
I wonder if this is what motherhood is.

453
00:38:01,750 --> 00:38:04,250
Being greater than
the sum of what you give.

454
00:38:07,625 --> 00:38:10,583
The devout woman in university. Fatıma.

455
00:38:17,750 --> 00:38:20,125
The students worried about their future.

456
00:38:20,625 --> 00:38:22,583
Yes, the trio of our group.

457
00:38:23,708 --> 00:38:24,750
I love you.

458
00:38:34,291 --> 00:38:35,583
The cardiac surgeon.

459
00:38:38,083 --> 00:38:40,166
My real heroine is…

460
00:38:42,166 --> 00:38:43,208
Nesrin, of course.

461
00:38:43,291 --> 00:38:45,833
When I first saw her, it was hard to tell

462
00:38:45,916 --> 00:38:49,458
whether her obvious tiredness
was due to the surgeries

463
00:38:49,541 --> 00:38:52,250
or a chronic condition
that'd been etched into her face.

464
00:38:52,333 --> 00:38:56,166
She was like she had experienced
everything she needed to,

465
00:38:56,250 --> 00:38:59,875
and her hope, still believing in miracles
but buried deep inside,

466
00:38:59,958 --> 00:39:01,708
was mixed with this tiredness.

467
00:39:01,791 --> 00:39:05,208
Then Nesrin became my Nesrin.

468
00:39:08,750 --> 00:39:10,166
ISTANBUL ENCYCLOPEDIA

469
00:39:48,166 --> 00:39:51,708
That balloon was there the day I arrived.
Look, I filmed it.

470
00:40:06,250 --> 00:40:08,125
Thanks again for this

471
00:40:09,041 --> 00:40:10,750
special gift.

472
00:40:11,791 --> 00:40:12,916
Just like you.

473
00:40:14,125 --> 00:40:15,750
Thank you.

474
00:40:18,000 --> 00:40:20,750
It helped me a lot
to get to know Istanbul.

475
00:40:20,833 --> 00:40:23,416
I hope it helps you not forget it.

476
00:40:34,541 --> 00:40:36,791
And this is Istanbul through my eyes.

477
00:40:38,166 --> 00:40:39,875
I printed it for you.

478
00:40:48,083 --> 00:40:49,291
I remember this.

479
00:41:10,625 --> 00:41:11,958
I'm so glad you came.

480
00:41:13,583 --> 00:41:15,416
So glad you entered my life.

481
00:41:26,416 --> 00:41:27,750
Take care of yourself.

482
00:41:45,041 --> 00:41:46,500
You can come anytime.

483
00:42:34,333 --> 00:42:41,333
Flight number 955 from Cyprus
has landed at our airport.

484
00:42:52,208 --> 00:42:53,208
Mom?

485
00:42:57,083 --> 00:42:58,166
You're late.

486
00:43:01,333 --> 00:43:02,875
Nesrin just left.

487
00:43:06,125 --> 00:43:07,125
Nesrin.

488
00:43:11,750 --> 00:43:13,125
You look like her.

489
00:43:15,291 --> 00:43:16,666
I look like you too.

490
00:46:50,500 --> 00:46:55,500
Subtitle translation by:
M. Levent Yılmazoğlu