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Okay. Okay.
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After you talk to her,
I will discuss some options.
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Okay. Are you, uh--
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- Yeah, yeah, yeah.
- Yeah?
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It's my job.
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I'll need a second.
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- Oh, man.
- He can talk.
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- Yeah.
- Hi.
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- Hi.
- Hi.
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I'm Amy.
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- Hi. Sorry.
- Hi.
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Well, now that Dr. Pankowitz
has talked to you,
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I'm here to talk to you about hospice.
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What do you mean a hospice?
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Has Dr. Pankowitz…
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Shoot.
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Eh, shoot, shoot. Um--
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You know what? Don't worry about it.
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I'm gonna come back later. How about that?
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Hi. There was
a little misunderstanding and,
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I'm not gonna sugarcoat it, I boned this.
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Oh, Jesus, Amy!
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Molly. Hey.
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I'm so sorry you found out this way.
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Hi.
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Hi, Molly.
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Dr. P.
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Uh, we got the results
from the lumbar puncture,
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and they showed that the cancer has spread
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to the lining of your spinal cord
and your brain.
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So you failed?
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You said five years.
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- I didn't.
- He didn't.
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I think we're looking at a few weeks
to a few months.
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But we could still do
another round of chemotherapy.
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We could do… We could do…
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What the fuck… Immunotherapy.
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If that's what you want.
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I ca… I can't do that.
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Okay.
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- Okay?
- Yeah.
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I can come back at better time.
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Well, fuck, Amy.
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Now we need you.
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Goodbye, Jerry. Thank you.
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Bye, Molly.
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- Bye, Nikki.
- See you around.
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Yeah.
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Ooh, welcome.
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Let me know
if I can help you with anything.
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You gals like puzzles? Or books?
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I got so many art supplies.
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Hey, you can put anything
on the walls too.
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Just don't drill into 'em.
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Yeah.
We didn't bring a drill to hospice.
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Oh, you'd be surprised.
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You'd be surprised.
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Hey.
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You have the power here.
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You tell Amy what you wanna feel and when.
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What I want to feel.
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Thank you.
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Thank you.
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I want a different room.
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I wanna change rooms.
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Hmm. I think they're all
pretty much the same,
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but we can make this good.
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We can decorate.
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Not that painting.
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That painting's screwed on.
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I think it's a masterwork,
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but why don't you tell me what you think
is worst part of this gorgeous painting?
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The fishermen.
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No, it's the boat.
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Hmm.
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Actually, the fish.
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Why are there so many fish?
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Such an in-your-face, like,
obscene amount of fish.
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I think my mom is calling.
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My phone's not ringing.
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Hmm.
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- Is it--
- Oh, my God!
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How did you know that?
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I think I'm starting to be magic.
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I believe it.
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Mom, hi.
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I'm in hospice.
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Okay. Okay.
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I, uh… I'm here if you need me.
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You just tell me
when you need me. I'm nearby.
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Where are you?
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I'm in the lobby.
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Of the hospital?
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- Yes.
- Of this hospital?
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I'm in the lobby.
How many times do I have to say it?
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Where else was I going to be?
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I want you here, Mom.
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- Hi, there. Are you--
- Gail. My name is Gail.
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Mom!
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Mom.
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Oh, baby girl.
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My baby girl.
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Hey.
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That kid over there was wondering
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if he could play with that puzzle
for a little while.
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No.
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No. Okay. I'll tell him that.
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She wants to stick with it.
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Is she dying?
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No.
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But neither are you.
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Neither am I, so let's just be cool.
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How about search a word?
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Hi, Gail. I'm just…
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I just need to get my bag.
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The nurse is gonna bring a cot in
so I can sleep here.
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Oh, good, Gail.
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Well, I'll just be in the, um…
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the waiting room finishing my puzzle.
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- Nikki.
- Yeah.
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What you've done for her…
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Oh…
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Uh, who's taking care of your dogs
while you're gone?
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Scotty, my lover.
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Would you… Would you like
to finish your puzzle in here?
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This is cheese.
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This is lemon.
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Lemon! No, cheese.
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This is sun.
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We're gonna have
to start another pile for the sun.
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I'll do sun.
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Okay, good. And can you also do the mouse?
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Oh, I'd love to do the mouse. Thank you.
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What happened to your hair?
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What?
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- Wait, is there something weird about it?
- Yeah.
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Oh, my God! What did you do to me?
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It wasn't me, man!
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It just seems like you might
be coming down with something.
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- She always wanted pink hair.
- She wouldn't let me.
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It looks dope.
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Thank you.
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So, as you are filling out those forms,
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who would like to hear
about what happens when you're dying?
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That's good enough for me.
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Death is not a mystery.
It is not a medical disaster.
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It is a bodily process,
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like giving birth,
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or like going to the bathroom,
or coughing,
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having an orgasm.
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'Cause your body knows what to do.
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Your body knows how to die!
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How cool is that?
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Okay. Here's what to expect.
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In the last month of your life,
you're gonna stop getting out of bed.
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You're gonna to eat and drink a lot less,
and you're gonna sleep a lot more.
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Uh, delirium is common.
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And some people say
they get this feeling like…
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time stops being real.
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Is that something
that you've been feeling?
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- Yes!
- Yes.
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Okay. Two to three weeks out,
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you're gonna need help
with all daily activities.
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But my favorite part
of the dying process is--
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Amy!
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I know. I've been talked to
about my enthusiasm.
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I should dial it back. Sorry.
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It doesn't work for me right now.
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Should I keep going?
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Yeah. But will you hold my hand?
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Your body knows what's coming
and it goes into a state of ketosis,
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which decreases hunger and pain
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and it increases the sense of euphoria.
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And when you start active dying--
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What's active dying?
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Oh, active dying is a sacred time.
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At least it used to be, and it still is
in some parts of the world.
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It's the moment
when you're very close to death,
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and your body starts shutting down.
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How's everyone doing?
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I'm looking at you, Gail.
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If, uh, Molly wants to hear it,
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I can hear it.
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You guys, come here.
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I'm good. I'm good. I'm good.
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In active dying,
you won't be fully conscious.
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And your jaw muscles will relax.
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Your breathing changes.
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And there might be this gurgling
at the back of your throat,
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caused by something, unfortunately,
called terminal secretions.
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I know.
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And when you are very close to death,
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your breathing goes into a cycle
of deep slow breaths and long pauses.
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And then eventually, there's a breath out…
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that is not followed by a breath in.
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And that's it.
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- Hey.
- Yeah, yeah.
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Can you make sure
that my mouth isn't open when I die?
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Okay.
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Just don't bite me.
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Why would I bite you?
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I don't know
why I need you to tell me this,
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but please say that you won't bite me.
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How long have you had that fear?
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I understand that you would not.
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It's very intense in here.
I… It's an irrational fear!
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Okay. And at a certain time,
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if you're just feeling too weak or…
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you know, too much pain
or you're just done,
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you can talk to me about sedating you,
but then you'll be unconscious.
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I-I wanna feel everything
for as long as I can.
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Okay, good.
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Wait, I forgot to tell you
about the rally!
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God! Jesus!
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The last week of life,
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some people experience
what's called the rally.
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And it's this just surge
of energy and mental clarity.
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So enjoy the rally.
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Just know that you're another step
closer to death, okay?
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I fucking love your vibe, Amy!
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You're nuts, man!
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I didn't know
if you were gonna wanna see me.
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Honestly,
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I just like making you cry.
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Cool.
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You in pain?
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Yeah.
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I had a lot of stuff
that I wanted to tell you in here,
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but I'm blanking on everything.
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Um, Beth is pregnant.
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Oh, that's so good.
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- Yeah.
- Yeah.
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I've been reading a lot of baby books.
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And did you know for the first few months
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they think everything they see
is a part of them?
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Isn't that wild?
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Like, they don't know
the difference between themselves
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and the rest of the world.
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Wow. Yeah, I like that.
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Yeah.
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Me too.
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Hey!
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Hey, Johnny!
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The fish are really biting today, huh?
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Time to get all these goddamn fish!
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- Molly.
- Molly.
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- Molly.
- Molly.
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- Molly.
- Molly.
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- Molly.
- Molly.
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- Molly.
- Molly.
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- Molly.
- Molly.
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- Molly.
- Molly.
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Molly. Hi.
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Oh.
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Oh, bye, little fella.
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Mom!
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Look at this!
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Wake up.
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Mom, wake up!
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Wake up!
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Molly, I'm here!
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- Molly.
- Mom.
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- Good morning, Molly.
- I've got your morning pills…
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- Good morning, Molly.
- …check on your blood pressure.
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- …your left arm.
- Molly, over here!
269
00:16:32,241 --> 00:16:35,745
♪ Time isn't real ♪
270
00:16:35,828 --> 00:16:37,914
♪ It's a circle ♪
271
00:16:37,997 --> 00:16:41,667
♪ You're gonna die pretty soon ♪
272
00:16:57,183 --> 00:16:58,976
I've been having these visions.
273
00:17:00,061 --> 00:17:05,274
Like, shit is flying off the walls
and rotating around the room.
274
00:17:05,358 --> 00:17:06,943
Wow!
275
00:17:07,026 --> 00:17:10,279
Like, it felt like I was unlinking
or something.
276
00:17:10,363 --> 00:17:12,365
Like from the world?
277
00:17:13,324 --> 00:17:16,702
Yeah, and also from, like, time?
278
00:17:16,786 --> 00:17:18,037
Hmm.
279
00:17:18,120 --> 00:17:19,205
Like…
280
00:17:21,082 --> 00:17:23,000
I think everything exists at once.
281
00:17:23,084 --> 00:17:25,044
Like, I'm talking to you,
282
00:17:25,586 --> 00:17:28,881
but I'm also talking
to every version of you I've ever known.
283
00:17:28,965 --> 00:17:30,967
And it's all in the room with me.
284
00:17:31,050 --> 00:17:32,051
Holy shit.
285
00:17:32,885 --> 00:17:36,264
Like the version of me from 2009
when I got the same hairstyle as you?
286
00:17:37,598 --> 00:17:38,599
Yeah.
287
00:17:40,268 --> 00:17:41,561
Is it scary?
288
00:17:41,644 --> 00:17:42,645
No.
289
00:17:43,938 --> 00:17:45,982
I can see how much pain she's in.
290
00:17:46,983 --> 00:17:48,150
What should I do?
291
00:17:48,943 --> 00:17:49,944
Well, take a breath.
292
00:17:50,611 --> 00:17:54,323
'Cause it is very common
for people to hold on
293
00:17:54,407 --> 00:17:56,200
when they're waiting
for something to resolve
294
00:17:56,284 --> 00:18:00,454
or they're just concerned about
causing their loved one a lot of pain.
295
00:18:01,872 --> 00:18:03,332
You think she's worried about you?
296
00:18:06,919 --> 00:18:07,920
No.
297
00:18:10,798 --> 00:18:11,799
Not me.
298
00:18:12,300 --> 00:18:14,552
I just wish I could see into the future.
299
00:18:15,511 --> 00:18:17,888
I wish I could see you when you're old.
300
00:18:17,972 --> 00:18:21,225
Oh, that? I mean,
we're basically almost there.
301
00:18:21,309 --> 00:18:24,312
That's gonna be exactly
whatever you think it's gonna be.
302
00:18:24,395 --> 00:18:29,692
It's like, "Oh, hello.
I take art classes at the museum,
303
00:18:29,775 --> 00:18:32,987
and I have loose mints
that are rolling around in my purse.
304
00:18:33,863 --> 00:18:36,449
And I… My breath smells like crayons,
305
00:18:36,532 --> 00:18:40,453
and my farts sound like little marbles
being dropped on a floor."
306
00:18:45,082 --> 00:18:46,083
I wish…
307
00:18:46,834 --> 00:18:48,919
I wish you could be there for that too.
308
00:18:59,263 --> 00:19:01,307
Did you call Noah yet to tell him?
309
00:19:02,099 --> 00:19:03,559
No. I'm…
310
00:19:05,269 --> 00:19:06,979
No.
311
00:19:07,063 --> 00:19:08,397
Oh, hey.
312
00:19:09,190 --> 00:19:10,358
I just matched with someone.
313
00:19:10,441 --> 00:19:12,943
Oh. Whew. Just in the nick of time.
314
00:19:13,861 --> 00:19:15,488
Oh.
315
00:19:15,571 --> 00:19:16,572
Look at that.
316
00:19:17,073 --> 00:19:18,157
"What are you up to?"
317
00:19:19,742 --> 00:19:22,036
Um, funny that you asked.
318
00:19:22,745 --> 00:19:24,246
Where have you been all my life?
319
00:19:36,050 --> 00:19:37,259
Yeah.
320
00:19:40,096 --> 00:19:42,431
This is a corner piece. Yes!
321
00:19:43,182 --> 00:19:44,433
And that's for me.
322
00:19:44,517 --> 00:19:45,559
Hey.
323
00:19:46,477 --> 00:19:47,478
Hi.
324
00:19:49,063 --> 00:19:51,148
What's… What are you doing here?
325
00:19:51,232 --> 00:19:52,358
Gail called me.
326
00:19:53,150 --> 00:19:55,277
Molly wanted me
to play percussion for her.
327
00:19:55,361 --> 00:19:57,738
Gail said she's been listening
to a lot of classical music.
328
00:19:59,240 --> 00:20:00,658
- Hey, man.
- Hey.
329
00:20:01,200 --> 00:20:03,452
- I don't want to put this on you…
- I thought it would be a nice surprise.
330
00:20:03,536 --> 00:20:05,746
…but it is actually insane
what is going on here.
331
00:20:05,830 --> 00:20:07,331
She broke into my phone.
332
00:20:07,415 --> 00:20:09,709
Guilty. I used her face.
333
00:20:09,792 --> 00:20:11,711
- Mom.
- While I was sleeping, she did that to me.
334
00:20:11,794 --> 00:20:14,672
Is this real, or am I hallucinating again?
I hope it's real.
335
00:20:14,755 --> 00:20:17,133
And her master plan was
to get in touch with Noah
336
00:20:17,216 --> 00:20:20,010
and then she wanted me
to get back together with him,
337
00:20:20,094 --> 00:20:21,262
so that you would be happy.
338
00:20:21,345 --> 00:20:22,763
I'm not… I'm not really sure.
339
00:20:22,847 --> 00:20:23,973
Mom.
340
00:20:24,974 --> 00:20:27,184
You said you would
be respectful of boundaries.
341
00:20:27,268 --> 00:20:28,853
With you, not Nikki.
342
00:20:28,936 --> 00:20:30,062
Oh, my God.
343
00:20:30,146 --> 00:20:33,858
She thinks that you're worried
about leaving me alone.
344
00:20:35,943 --> 00:20:39,238
If that's the case,
you can completely not worry about me.
345
00:20:39,321 --> 00:20:43,784
Like, I am gonna be okay,
and I'm cool. Like, I'm good.
346
00:20:43,868 --> 00:20:45,745
Just don't,
don't even keep that in your mind.
347
00:20:45,828 --> 00:20:47,705
I'm not… I'm good. I'm okay.
348
00:20:47,788 --> 00:20:49,540
Okay, well, I hope not that okay.
349
00:20:52,710 --> 00:20:53,836
Noah.
350
00:20:55,796 --> 00:20:57,548
I'm sorry
that I asked her to do this with me
351
00:20:57,631 --> 00:20:59,800
right when you were beginning
to make a life together.
352
00:20:59,884 --> 00:21:01,635
Oh, I'm not sorry.
353
00:21:03,053 --> 00:21:04,054
She loves you.
354
00:21:05,139 --> 00:21:06,640
With everything that she has.
355
00:21:07,600 --> 00:21:08,684
I'm not sorry about that.
356
00:21:10,269 --> 00:21:12,438
I think that you should break up
with your girlfriend.
357
00:21:12,521 --> 00:21:13,522
It's my dying wish.
358
00:21:13,606 --> 00:21:15,983
Whoa. Don't break up with your girlfriend.
That's… I don't--
359
00:21:16,066 --> 00:21:17,651
You should break up with your girlfriend
360
00:21:17,735 --> 00:21:19,987
or I'll haunt the shit out of you
in your dreams.
361
00:21:20,070 --> 00:21:21,572
- Why is everyone being insane?
- We broke up.
362
00:21:21,655 --> 00:21:23,073
Oh, Okay.
363
00:21:23,157 --> 00:21:24,158
Oh.
364
00:21:24,658 --> 00:21:25,785
Yeah.
365
00:21:25,868 --> 00:21:26,952
- When did you break up?
- Gail…
366
00:21:27,036 --> 00:21:27,953
When did you break up?
367
00:21:28,037 --> 00:21:30,873
Um, like a week ago. So…
368
00:21:30,956 --> 00:21:31,791
Hmm.
369
00:21:31,874 --> 00:21:33,459
- Yeah, I didn't… That doesn't mean…
- Oh, no.
370
00:21:33,542 --> 00:21:34,710
I know. Of course not.
371
00:21:34,794 --> 00:21:36,837
I didn't come to hospice today
trying to hook up.
372
00:21:36,921 --> 00:21:38,297
That's not… No.
373
00:21:40,549 --> 00:21:42,259
You've got a big instrument.
374
00:21:42,343 --> 00:21:44,136
- Oh, God.
- Yeah. Thanks, Gail.
375
00:21:44,220 --> 00:21:46,472
Um… You wanna see what I can do with it?
376
00:21:46,555 --> 00:21:47,640
- No.
- No.
377
00:21:47,723 --> 00:21:48,557
No.
378
00:21:55,981 --> 00:21:57,942
If you gotta go, you can…
You don't have to…
379
00:21:59,485 --> 00:22:01,403
- Or you can wait. Okay.
- I want to.
380
00:22:09,703 --> 00:22:10,704
I…
381
00:22:12,748 --> 00:22:15,209
I didn't think that I was capable…
382
00:22:16,126 --> 00:22:18,045
of loving someone this much.
383
00:22:22,925 --> 00:22:24,718
But I know I can now.
384
00:22:28,055 --> 00:22:29,056
It's nice.
385
00:22:30,015 --> 00:22:32,017
Yeah, that's how I felt
when Winter was born.
386
00:22:33,060 --> 00:22:34,687
- Hmm.
- It's crazy. It's… Yeah.
387
00:22:36,105 --> 00:22:37,106
Yeah.
388
00:22:38,899 --> 00:22:42,278
For me, it's like I'm never gonna be there
at the start of someone's life,
389
00:22:42,361 --> 00:22:43,696
like at the beginning.
390
00:22:45,030 --> 00:22:48,659
But I am gonna be there at the end.
391
00:22:49,201 --> 00:22:54,915
And I'm just gonna love this person
right up until the end.
392
00:22:57,751 --> 00:22:58,752
That's amazing, Nikki.
393
00:23:06,343 --> 00:23:07,928
Probably go ahead and love you too.
394
00:23:16,812 --> 00:23:18,355
FYI.
395
00:23:22,484 --> 00:23:23,485
Got it.
396
00:23:32,745 --> 00:23:34,872
Oof.
397
00:23:49,178 --> 00:23:50,179
That's him.
398
00:23:52,681 --> 00:23:54,808
I don't wanna go,
but I got a five-star rating,
399
00:23:54,892 --> 00:23:55,935
and I'm not gonna fuck with that.
400
00:23:56,602 --> 00:23:58,270
- I understand.
- Yeah, I know.
401
00:23:58,354 --> 00:23:59,355
I know you do.
402
00:24:00,773 --> 00:24:01,774
Walk me out?
403
00:24:07,613 --> 00:24:10,115
♪ I wasn't in the running,
I wasn't in the race ♪
404
00:24:10,199 --> 00:24:12,493
♪ You move in a way
That I've known before ♪
405
00:24:12,576 --> 00:24:15,454
♪ Now I want your love, heart and soul ♪
406
00:24:15,537 --> 00:24:18,666
- ♪ Tired eyes, tears that dried ♪
- ♪ Leaving you ain't easy now ♪
407
00:24:18,749 --> 00:24:21,460
- ♪ On the bed where the love has died ♪
- ♪ Loving you's the harder part ♪
408
00:24:21,543 --> 00:24:23,837
- ♪ Through the door you go
- ♪ You never want me for myself ♪
409
00:24:23,921 --> 00:24:26,507
♪ Now I've needed you right
From the very start ♪
410
00:24:26,590 --> 00:24:28,509
♪ Everything you said was to the point ♪
411
00:24:28,592 --> 00:24:31,845
- ♪ Oh, won't you even try to? ♪
- ♪ Can't you try to? ♪
412
00:24:31,929 --> 00:24:34,556
♪ Give a little bit of heart and soul ♪
413
00:24:34,640 --> 00:24:36,850
♪ Give a little bit of love to grow ♪
414
00:24:36,934 --> 00:24:39,353
♪ Give a little bit of heart and soul ♪
415
00:24:39,436 --> 00:24:42,606
♪ And don't you make me beg for more ♪
416
00:24:42,690 --> 00:24:45,109
♪ Give a sign, I need to know ♪
417
00:24:45,943 --> 00:24:48,070
♪ A little bit of heart and soul ♪
418
00:24:48,153 --> 00:24:49,655
Whoa.
419
00:24:49,738 --> 00:24:51,323
What is going on here?
420
00:24:52,282 --> 00:24:53,951
It's the rally!
421
00:24:54,034 --> 00:24:55,828
We think it's the rally.
422
00:24:55,911 --> 00:24:58,247
♪ That was the heart
Of the love we shared ♪
423
00:24:58,330 --> 00:25:00,582
- ♪ Do you keep a secret left untold? ♪
- ♪ Is all that I need ♪
424
00:25:00,666 --> 00:25:03,335
♪ Can't give love, heart or soul ♪
425
00:25:03,419 --> 00:25:06,088
♪ I used to have a lover
With a Midas touch ♪
426
00:25:06,171 --> 00:25:08,882
♪ I turned to gold but he turned to dust ♪
427
00:25:08,966 --> 00:25:11,093
♪ Left me for another, I turned to stone ♪
428
00:25:11,176 --> 00:25:14,221
♪ Now give me love, heart and soul ♪
429
00:25:14,304 --> 00:25:17,391
- ♪ Tired eyes, tears that dried ♪
- ♪ Living in a fantasy ♪
430
00:25:17,474 --> 00:25:20,269
♪ There's never any room to breathe ♪
431
00:25:20,352 --> 00:25:22,521
♪ Hoping every waking hour ♪
432
00:25:22,604 --> 00:25:24,940
♪ You'll turn around
And say that we can start ♪
433
00:25:25,024 --> 00:25:27,109
♪ Everything you did just said it all ♪
434
00:25:27,192 --> 00:25:30,571
- ♪ Oh, won't you even try to? ♪
- ♪ Can't you try to? ♪
435
00:25:30,654 --> 00:25:33,240
♪ Give a little bit of heart and soul ♪
436
00:25:33,323 --> 00:25:35,909
♪ Give a little bit of love to grow ♪
437
00:25:53,052 --> 00:25:54,219
How's the water, honey?
438
00:25:56,388 --> 00:25:59,224
It's good.
439
00:25:59,308 --> 00:26:00,517
I'm gonna be outside.
440
00:26:01,310 --> 00:26:03,479
The labor and delivery nurse
told me you have 20 minutes,
441
00:26:03,562 --> 00:26:06,106
and then a rich person's gonna
come have a baby in here.
442
00:26:08,901 --> 00:26:09,902
Yeah.
443
00:26:23,582 --> 00:26:25,459
I thought it would feel good.
444
00:26:27,044 --> 00:26:28,754
But it just hurts.
445
00:26:28,837 --> 00:26:30,172
Oh, honey.
446
00:26:42,142 --> 00:26:43,685
I think I'm ready.
447
00:26:47,022 --> 00:26:49,149
Okay.
448
00:26:50,317 --> 00:26:51,318
Good.
449
00:26:52,027 --> 00:26:55,948
I'll go back to the room…
450
00:26:56,031 --> 00:26:57,241
and talk to Amy.
451
00:26:58,283 --> 00:27:00,869
Maybe she'll have some sedation option.
452
00:27:05,833 --> 00:27:06,959
Mom…
453
00:27:17,678 --> 00:27:18,679
I know.
454
00:27:21,014 --> 00:27:22,474
I already know.
455
00:27:26,895 --> 00:27:29,231
Anything you could say to me,
456
00:27:31,275 --> 00:27:32,526
I already know.
457
00:28:12,232 --> 00:28:14,985
My body did a really good job.
458
00:28:15,527 --> 00:28:16,528
Oh…
459
00:28:17,863 --> 00:28:19,281
It did so good.
460
00:28:33,587 --> 00:28:37,424
Okay, I have the first dose here for you.
461
00:28:38,216 --> 00:28:41,553
Gonna ease your pain. It's gonna make
your breathing so much easier.
462
00:28:48,810 --> 00:28:50,437
Know what?
463
00:28:50,520 --> 00:28:51,939
Honestly,
464
00:28:54,900 --> 00:28:56,902
it's not that fucking serious.
465
00:29:00,656 --> 00:29:02,199
Let's get this show on the road.
466
00:29:03,784 --> 00:29:04,910
I'm kind of excited.
467
00:29:07,162 --> 00:29:10,082
You know how many plans and trips…
468
00:29:11,291 --> 00:29:13,794
I've had to cancel
because I wasn't feeling well?
469
00:29:16,630 --> 00:29:22,386
And now it's like I get to go on a trip
that's just for me.
470
00:29:24,888 --> 00:29:26,807
- Yeah.
- Okay.
471
00:30:03,510 --> 00:30:06,513
I am so proud of you.
472
00:30:07,848 --> 00:30:09,266
And I love you.
473
00:30:10,684 --> 00:30:14,104
And I am so grateful for you.
474
00:30:19,234 --> 00:30:24,531
You are my favorite person
in the whole wide world.
475
00:31:38,522 --> 00:31:39,523
I'm here.
476
00:31:40,273 --> 00:31:41,608
I'm here and I got you.
477
00:32:22,732 --> 00:32:23,733
Oh, shit.
478
00:32:48,049 --> 00:32:49,801
Thank you for not biting me.
479
00:33:07,444 --> 00:33:09,321
Our revels now are ended.
480
00:33:10,947 --> 00:33:13,450
These are actors,
481
00:33:13,533 --> 00:33:17,204
As I foretold you, were all spirits
482
00:33:17,287 --> 00:33:19,998
And melted in the air, into thin air:
483
00:33:20,624 --> 00:33:23,835
And, like the baseless fabric
of this vision,
484
00:33:24,419 --> 00:33:28,965
The cloud-capp'd towers,
the gorgeous palaces,
485
00:33:30,342 --> 00:33:33,887
The solemn temples,
the great globe itself,
486
00:33:34,679 --> 00:33:36,264
Shall dissolve
487
00:33:36,348 --> 00:33:40,227
And, like this insubstantial
pageant faded,
488
00:33:40,310 --> 00:33:42,312
Leave not a rack behind.
489
00:33:43,438 --> 00:33:47,817
We are such stuff
As dreams are made of, and our little life
490
00:33:47,901 --> 00:33:49,611
Is rounded with a sleep.
491
00:33:59,579 --> 00:34:01,206
No!
492
00:34:01,289 --> 00:34:02,999
You're terrible. I can't…
493
00:34:03,750 --> 00:34:05,919
Tell me…
494
00:34:08,588 --> 00:34:09,839
Hey.
495
00:34:09,923 --> 00:34:11,132
Sorry we're late.
496
00:34:12,842 --> 00:34:15,136
Hi, Winter. How's school?
497
00:34:16,513 --> 00:34:21,851
♪ Well, I woke up
This morning without you ♪
498
00:34:22,936 --> 00:34:26,690
♪ Don't ask me how, but I got through ♪
499
00:34:28,149 --> 00:34:32,362
♪ The floor of this room
I've been pacing ♪
500
00:34:33,196 --> 00:34:36,700
♪ Trying to drown out
The sound my heart is making ♪
501
00:34:37,409 --> 00:34:40,787
♪ It's calling for you ♪
502
00:34:43,331 --> 00:34:48,461
♪ Well, I woke up
This morning without you ♪
503
00:34:49,504 --> 00:34:53,466
♪ Don't ask me how, but I got through ♪
504
00:34:54,676 --> 00:34:58,722
♪ The floor of this room, I was pacing ♪
505
00:34:59,973 --> 00:35:03,977
♪ Trying to drown out
The sound my heart was making ♪
506
00:35:04,060 --> 00:35:08,064
♪ It was calling for you ♪
507
00:35:09,858 --> 00:35:15,030
♪ Calling for you ♪
508
00:35:15,113 --> 00:35:18,074
♪ Calling for you ♪
509
00:35:18,158 --> 00:35:23,246
♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪