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You're onstage,

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and you don't know the script,
or you don't know what you're doin'.

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"You don't deserve it."

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"You can't do it."

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You know, constantly havin' to deliver,

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it just makes you feel queasy.

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You just wanna run away sometimes.

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I'm in a situation
that's completely unreal.

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It came true for me

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onstage in Leeds.

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People are just waitin' for me to fuck up.

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Yesterday, with Leeds,

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I had to experience an awful lot.

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I feel as though I'm wearing it today.
It was a prolonged car crash.

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As the days have progressed,
doing this process, it seems that I've...

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I've been on...

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The dark night of the soul
turned into a long weekend.

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Hello.

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Very gonzo, this.

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This filming.
Not a fuckin' clue what I'm doing.

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Um...

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But that's my life.

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I've already done an hour's blog
on this camera in this room,

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but we didn't turn the mic on.

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It would be good
for people that can lipread.

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I can't remember this.

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- At all?
- No.

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- What... What year is it?
- So this is 2007.

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2007.

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I can't remember

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anythin' about this.

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It's... It's an instantly
uncomfortable watch for some reason

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'cause I'm getting
some sort of energy from me that's...

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All is not well.

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<i>This video blog has turned into somethin'
different than I thought it was gonna be.</i>

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<i>♪ Don't tell anyone I'm Jesus ♪</i>

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<i>♪ All men are fools ♪</i>

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<i>- ♪ And what makes them fools... ♪</i>
- I remember that now.

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<i>I started to write a song today,</i>

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and it's called,
"Don't Tell Anybody I'm Jesus."

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It's a bit like "Mack The Knife" but, um...

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sacrilegious.

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I'm off the wagon.
That's where I am.

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Change the battery pack.

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Addicted to, um, prescribed speed...

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Is it not plugged in?

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...OxyContin, Adderall,

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Vicodins, morphine.

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You know, the greatest hits.

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Fuckin' 'ell. Dunno if you can see
the shiner I've got on my eye.

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I had an altercation with, uh,

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the bathroom floor.

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Slipped

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and took out the lighting... buttons.

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What they called? Lighting buttons?

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<i>Light switches.</i>

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In the middle of the night,
I got up to go to the toilet,

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and my legs weren't working
because I'd just taken a load of stuff.

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I literally couldn't figure out
how to use my legs,

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but I needed to go the toilet,
and I collapsed and fell into the wall.

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I've also decided that

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I'm not fit for purpose
when it comes to relationships.

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I'd be with somebody
but then see somebody else and think,

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"Oh. Want that one."

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I'm a want monster, I...

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I need... everything.

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Concerning who I sleep with,

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it's as old as time,

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the rock star
sleeping with the groupie or the fan.

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You know, I'm not the first,
and I won't be the last.

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A friend of mine
suggested that I have a date

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with this person
that was a good friend of his,

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and, uh, I looked her up
and was like, "Oh yeah!"

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Please welcome the lovely Ayda Field.

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- Well, hello.
- Yeah.

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Hello!

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I was actually
in a really good place, I think,

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when I met Rob.

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I had this dinner party I was going to.

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I was like, "Do you wanna go
to the dinner party with me?"

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He's like, "I'd rather
stick knives in my eyes."

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I was like,
"Okay, that's a strong response."

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He's like, "Let's meet up afterwards,"
and I was like, "Okay."

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<i>♪ My love must be a kind of blind love... ♪</i>

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She came over to my house
after being at a party.

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I'd just seen off my dealer,
that I was sleeping with at the time.

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The house is completely fuckin' dark.

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No candles. No lights.
I'm like, "Ooh, this is weird."

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So we're just sitting there talking.
We have nothing in common.

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And I was like,
"Oh, this is not working out."

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"I'd better take her back
to the party she's just come from."

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<i>♪ Are the stars out tonight? ♪</i>

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Unbeknownst to me, Rob is actually
gonna ditch me at this party.

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I guess we start... Maybe 'cause
we'd both surrendered to the fact

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that we were not each other's person,
and this was a total mess,

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we were completely loose with each other.

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We were saying funny shit in the car,
and I was like, "Oh, he's funny."

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And I was like,
"Oh. I'll come in for five minutes."

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And there was just this moment
we were laughing,

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and I cannot even tell you what happened.
It was like the universe opened up.

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And I had this moment
where I felt I'd known her forever.

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I guess I chose to ignore it.

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All of a sudden, Rob's like,
"I need to go to the bathroom."

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I'm, like, waiting.

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I'm like, "God.
Is he, like, taking a dump?"

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Um...

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I then did some coke.

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I got this tic. It was like...

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So I'm like, "I'm gonna get out
and see what's happened."

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There he is, pacing.
He's thrown up, and he's clucking.

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I was like, "Ah, we gotta go."

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She ended up comin' home and nursing me.

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Then we just talked all night.

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I think he explained
that he'd been sober for a very long time.

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He had just relapsed.

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It was like my entryway into addiction.

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<i>I shall try and remember
what it was that I was sayin'.</i>

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You wouldn't notice
his personality change,

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but all of a sudden,
he would just throw up, like, watching TV.

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"Robbie Williams is music
for people who don't feel."

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I didn't know this... this area
where someone could be doing drugs

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and have a problem
and it be, like, deadly.

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"Robbie's a showbiz chancer." Yeah, I am.

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The meanness, nasty, vitriolic bollocks,

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that "Robbie Williams is a shit joke."

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I remember that being very scary
'cause all of a sudden, I was, like...

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I was really... liking this person a lot.

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<i>Do I hate music, then?</i>

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<i>Is that what I do?</i>

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"To me, Robbie Williams
is a crime against music."

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"What don't <i>I</i> love about music?"
"You have so much rage."

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Fuckin' hate...

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<i>Do you really think God is more proud</i>

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<i>of Bobby Gillespie</i>

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or Gareth Gates?

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...wants to set me on fire.

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<i>Somebody to hate.</i>

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Here was this incredibly troubled soul

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who was, like,
a rock star in some other country

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and clearly fucked up about it
and a complete mess

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and yet so

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my person. Like, my fucking soulmate.

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<i>...didn't know who the fuck I was.</i>

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Yeah, I mean, that, um...

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that stare there doesn't look like mine.

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I did have a sense
of what I was doin' to myself.

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And I didn't care.

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And... And there is a... a sense of

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"It would be best if I sorta passed away."

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Um...

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I didn't care, and it'd be all right.

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That's where your addiction takes you.

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That's where it ends up.

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The natural progression

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of "Let's see how far we can take this."

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<i>"Robbie Williams is music
for people who don't feel."</i>

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The thing that would destroy me

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has also made me successful.

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Big. More.

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Touch the fire. Touch the button.
Push when it says "pull."

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All of those things
have given me my career,

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but there's also
a detrimental side to it too.

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Depends which wolf you feed.

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For me to change, I've gotta be dyin'.

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Die or stop what you're doin'.

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I remember it was, like, 2 a.m.

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I called him.
I was just getting on the highway.

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"Are you driving?"
"Just got on the highway."

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He was like, "Call me when you get home."

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I tell her,
"Look, my management have come,

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and they've done an intervention,
and they're gonna take me to rehab."

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And he is like,
"I can't be in a relationship."

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"I have to get better,
and I can't be with you."

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"I have to break up with you."
I was just like...

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And it was, like, I un...
I understood it 'cause I was like...

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I saw that he was unwell,
and I... I remember thinking,

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"I just want you to get better.
Whatever you need to do,"

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and I was just so crestfallen.

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He was my soulmate, and then he was gone.

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<i>Robbie Williams is waking up
in rehab this morning</i>

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<i>on his 33rd birthday.</i>

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<i>You can't miss
the front pages this morning.</i>

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<i>Full of the tragedy
that seems to follow in the wake</i>

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<i>of Robbie Williams
and his turbulent lifestyle.</i>

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<i>It's claimed today
that he's gone into rehab</i>

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<i>to avoid doing himself some harm.</i>

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<i>After admitting to being hooked
on a cocktail of prescription drugs,</i>

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<i>he needed to check into rehab
before, in Robbie's words,</i>

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<i>he did "something silly."</i>

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Rehab.
It's not a country club.

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It's a hospital.

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Some people can envision rehab
as being like, um,

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a health retreat.

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It's not that.

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Surrounded by

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other people that are completely depressed

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and, um, have just fucked up their lives.

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Understanding the nature
of what and who you are.

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An addict.

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Rehab cut the circuit on the addiction.

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It gave me a moment to recalibrate

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and see if I can live.

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My professional career
had become that big,

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the only thing
that I could do for self-preservation

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was to take myself out of it.

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If you don't start the process,

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then the process seldom finds you.

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At this period
in my life, I know I'm retired.

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Taking down the dam.

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Tryin' to undo all pop-starry apparel.

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Me and Ayda got back together again.

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I remember we went to Morocco,

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Egypt.

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I thought, "Better go and see these places

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that I've been to for work
and never seen."

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I remember me mate, Calvin,
takin' a picture of Ayda.

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She was dancin' on somethin'.

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I just remember
lookin' at the picture and just goin',

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"What a life force."

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"What a spirit."

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But I remember that photo. It's...

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It's burned into my mind.

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There was a cementing of a relationship
between me and my future wife.

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But, um...

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if you'd have asked me
what I was doing during that,

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I wouldn't have known that.

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There became enough space
between me and my career...

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...to fall in love.

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- Okay.
- Do her.

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- I'll just do... I'll do Sarah.
- Do Sarah.

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I'll do Sarah.

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I've lost 17 inches in my face.

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Three in my dimples alone.
All while eating cheesecake.

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- Very good.
- Love creamy foods.

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Really creamy foods.

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That is unbelievable.

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- <i>Isn't it?</i>
- <i>I know, isn't it weird?</i>

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Change to normal face...
So, high five!

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- Change back.
- "Change back"!

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- That is--
- It's a new game. Change!

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<i>I've no idea how I developed this talent.</i>

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<i>Do you think it's because</i>

243
00:17:32,363 --> 00:17:34,843
<i>you can fit more marshmallows
in your mouth?</i>

244
00:17:35,643 --> 00:17:37,643
Yeah, I mean, what a package, man.

245
00:17:39,643 --> 00:17:41,079
Silly and, uh,

246
00:17:41,163 --> 00:17:45,523
doesn't take herself seriously
and smart and beautiful.

247
00:17:47,563 --> 00:17:48,923
Makes me feel great,

248
00:17:49,563 --> 00:17:50,563
you know?

249
00:17:52,603 --> 00:17:55,043
When you look there, it's obvious that

250
00:17:56,803 --> 00:17:59,003
something really special's happenin'.

251
00:18:00,003 --> 00:18:01,083
It's really cool.

252
00:18:02,723 --> 00:18:05,163
- <i>You know why he doesn't like it?</i>
- <i>Why?</i>

253
00:18:06,203 --> 00:18:09,519
- He has to win at everything.
- He did it when he was watching.

254
00:18:09,603 --> 00:18:11,519
- Yeah, he was like...
- Try and do it.

255
00:18:11,603 --> 00:18:14,599
- You do it and watch Rob.
- Come on, Boozy, you can do it.

256
00:18:14,683 --> 00:18:17,959
She sees the best in me,
and I see the best in her.

257
00:18:19,963 --> 00:18:21,003
Fuck you.

258
00:18:24,083 --> 00:18:26,079
- You know how I like to eat a lot?
- Yeah.

259
00:18:26,163 --> 00:18:28,683
That's the face of the future.

260
00:18:29,723 --> 00:18:32,323
- Yeah, you've seen mine, so that's okay.
- Aw.

261
00:18:49,083 --> 00:18:53,003
So I don't do anything for three years.

262
00:18:54,843 --> 00:18:57,163
The powers had gone. The mojo had gone.

263
00:19:00,283 --> 00:19:03,319
I... I had a big realization
that I needed purpose.

264
00:19:03,403 --> 00:19:07,443
That I needed to be creative
and have a voice.

265
00:19:08,243 --> 00:19:11,159
<i>This is Robbie Williams.
This is what I do for a livin'.</i>

266
00:19:11,243 --> 00:19:12,283
<i>Right here.</i>

267
00:19:12,963 --> 00:19:17,279
<i>I'm a singer, I'm a songwriter,
and I'm a born entertainer.</i>

268
00:19:20,123 --> 00:19:21,403
Thank God for Ayda.

269
00:19:22,083 --> 00:19:24,963
Solace and safety and sanctuary and...

270
00:19:28,443 --> 00:19:29,803
all of the good things.

271
00:19:32,323 --> 00:19:33,883
She gave me enough space

272
00:19:35,803 --> 00:19:37,483
for it to be a possibility.

273
00:19:41,683 --> 00:19:43,683
You're so pretty, aren't you?

274
00:19:44,243 --> 00:19:47,159
Yes, you are!
You doing your little sashay for us?

275
00:19:47,243 --> 00:19:49,603
Are we in the right house? Think we are.

276
00:19:52,083 --> 00:19:54,043
Ah, pretty girl.

277
00:19:55,523 --> 00:19:59,123
- What you calling the new album?
- <i>Reality Killed the Video Star.</i>

278
00:20:00,683 --> 00:20:02,763
Or <i>Il Protagonista.</i>

279
00:20:03,643 --> 00:20:06,763
Or <i>PoliteBox</i>
'cause the last one was <i>RudeBox</i> .

280
00:20:07,723 --> 00:20:09,563
<i>Ding When You're Ding-Dong Dingin'.</i>

281
00:20:10,203 --> 00:20:11,119
Uh...

282
00:20:11,203 --> 00:20:13,883
Or... What were the good ones, bab?

283
00:20:15,163 --> 00:20:18,843
Oh yeah. <i>Robbie Williams
and the Cock of Justice.</i> I love that.

284
00:20:21,563 --> 00:20:23,199
It was gonna take a while <i>,</i>

285
00:20:23,283 --> 00:20:28,003
but <i>Reality Killed the Video Star</i>
was a tentative step back

286
00:20:29,083 --> 00:20:30,599
into public life.

287
00:20:37,323 --> 00:20:39,119
After the <i>RudeBox</i> album,

288
00:20:39,203 --> 00:20:43,643
I head into very safe musical waters.

289
00:20:44,243 --> 00:20:47,483
<i>♪ How do you rate the morning sun? ♪</i>

290
00:20:50,483 --> 00:20:53,519
<i>♪ Good morning Mr. McCarrower ♪</i>

291
00:20:53,603 --> 00:20:56,759
<i>♪ We'll love the same old Jesus again ♪</i>

292
00:20:56,843 --> 00:21:00,723
<i>♪ Stoke the flames lit by the fuse... ♪</i>

293
00:21:01,243 --> 00:21:03,759
I have to collect myself and... and... and...

294
00:21:03,843 --> 00:21:06,119
put some real thought
behind this fuckin' thing.

295
00:21:06,203 --> 00:21:09,079
Or else my career's gonna fall to shit.

296
00:21:09,163 --> 00:21:11,999
<i>♪ I always wanted more from life ♪</i>

297
00:21:12,083 --> 00:21:14,959
<i>♪ But you didn't have the appetite ♪</i>

298
00:21:16,803 --> 00:21:18,163
"Find a hit, fatty."

299
00:21:21,843 --> 00:21:26,243
<i>♪ Tell me how do you
Raise the morning sun? ♪</i>

300
00:21:29,243 --> 00:21:31,839
Trevor had made
a lot of albums that I love,

301
00:21:31,923 --> 00:21:37,443
and everybody that I work with and me
knew that we were just in safe hands.

302
00:21:39,603 --> 00:21:41,719
- Hey, it's not bad.
- It's not bad.

303
00:21:41,803 --> 00:21:43,319
- It's not bad, yeah.
- Yeah.

304
00:21:43,403 --> 00:21:47,803
I don't think I've ever been
this much unsure of myself, comin' back.

305
00:21:48,723 --> 00:21:51,083
Returning to the scene of the accident.

306
00:22:00,963 --> 00:22:02,999
Press release was in, uh...

307
00:22:03,083 --> 00:22:05,723
has gone out sayin' the new album's called

308
00:22:06,283 --> 00:22:08,083
<i>Reality Killed the Video Star.</i>

309
00:22:08,763 --> 00:22:09,723
And, uh...

310
00:22:11,123 --> 00:22:14,519
it's number two in the BBC News most read,

311
00:22:14,603 --> 00:22:15,523
so that's cool.

312
00:22:16,403 --> 00:22:17,363
Uh...

313
00:22:19,283 --> 00:22:20,843
And apparently, the, uh,

314
00:22:22,003 --> 00:22:24,599
website statistics
have gone through the roof.

315
00:22:24,683 --> 00:22:26,563
I'm very 'appy. Very 'appy.

316
00:22:27,803 --> 00:22:29,563
Uh, day two. "Bodies."

317
00:22:42,763 --> 00:22:46,079
We had three years
of our relationship with Rob

318
00:22:46,163 --> 00:22:48,363
before I was really introduced to Robbie.

319
00:22:48,963 --> 00:22:51,883
Robbie is like
a completely different person.

320
00:22:52,643 --> 00:22:55,679
I was excited for him,
but I was a little worried

321
00:22:55,763 --> 00:22:59,999
because I don't know what it's like
to have 80,000 people looking at you

322
00:23:00,083 --> 00:23:03,163
on a nightly basis
and what that does to your psychology.

323
00:23:04,283 --> 00:23:07,563
I've gotta get back on this wild horse

324
00:23:08,083 --> 00:23:09,759
that keeps buckin' me off.

325
00:23:09,843 --> 00:23:12,003
Yeah, it's weird. I've not done any

326
00:23:12,763 --> 00:23:14,883
singin' and dancin' for three years.

327
00:23:15,523 --> 00:23:19,119
Last time, this wild horse
did the equivalent of breakin' my neck.

328
00:23:19,203 --> 00:23:20,683
What's it gonna do this time?

329
00:23:24,803 --> 00:23:27,119
<i>Now he's back, and boy, is he back.</i>

330
00:23:27,203 --> 00:23:31,759
He is one of the greatest entertainers
this country's ever known. We love him.

331
00:23:31,843 --> 00:23:35,359
This is Mr. Robbie Williams.

332
00:23:41,003 --> 00:23:42,999
When I came back in 2009,

333
00:23:43,083 --> 00:23:45,839
I did a performance
of "Bodies" on <i>The X Factor</i>

334
00:23:45,923 --> 00:23:48,119
and just completely had a freak-out.

335
00:23:48,203 --> 00:23:49,839
<i>♪ God gave me the sunshine ♪</i>

336
00:23:49,923 --> 00:23:51,759
<i>♪ Then showed me my lifeline ♪</i>

337
00:23:51,843 --> 00:23:53,439
<i>♪ I was told it was all mine ♪</i>

338
00:23:53,523 --> 00:23:55,279
<i>♪ I got laid on the ley line ♪</i>

339
00:23:55,363 --> 00:23:57,279
<i>♪ What a day, what a day ♪</i>

340
00:23:57,363 --> 00:23:59,479
<i>♪ And then Jesus really died for me ♪</i>

341
00:23:59,563 --> 00:24:00,759
How you doin'?

342
00:24:02,723 --> 00:24:05,399
- Robbie didn't come <i>.
- ♪ Jesus really tried for me... ♪</i>

343
00:24:05,483 --> 00:24:09,519
And the everyday Rob was there instead.

344
00:24:09,603 --> 00:24:11,079
<i>♪ Wanna feed off the energy ♪</i>

345
00:24:11,163 --> 00:24:13,079
<i>♪ I love living like a deity ♪</i>

346
00:24:13,163 --> 00:24:14,839
<i>♪ One a day, one day ♪</i>

347
00:24:14,923 --> 00:24:17,599
<i>♪ And then Jesus really died for me ♪</i>

348
00:24:17,683 --> 00:24:19,923
What a pleasure. What a pleasure.

349
00:24:20,523 --> 00:24:23,319
<i>♪ Jesus really tried for me... ♪</i>

350
00:24:23,403 --> 00:24:25,719
I just couldn't latch onto anythin'

351
00:24:25,803 --> 00:24:28,403
to make it make sense
while I was performin'.

352
00:24:32,163 --> 00:24:35,479
Everything felt
completely unnatural and scary.

353
00:24:35,563 --> 00:24:37,759
<i>♪ Oh ♪</i>

354
00:24:37,843 --> 00:24:41,439
It's just everythin' was
so overwhelming, and I couldn't hide it.

355
00:24:41,523 --> 00:24:42,839
I loved it. I loved it.

356
00:24:42,923 --> 00:24:45,839
Great audience.
What a fantastic audience. Thank you!

357
00:24:45,923 --> 00:24:47,999
The whole thing that happened in Leeds

358
00:24:48,083 --> 00:24:53,839
had a... a lasting effect
that had damaged me psychologically.

359
00:24:57,563 --> 00:24:58,599
I'm just unsure

360
00:24:58,683 --> 00:25:01,243
of everythin', everybody, and everything.

361
00:25:01,763 --> 00:25:02,803
Apart from Ayda.

362
00:25:05,763 --> 00:25:07,963
I'm so uncomfortable in my skin 'ere.

363
00:25:12,723 --> 00:25:14,563
<i>The door's always open for Rob.</i>

364
00:25:16,763 --> 00:25:19,399
If ever he's bored one day,
and we're on the road,

365
00:25:19,483 --> 00:25:21,559
and he's sat at home,
and he wants to come up and,

366
00:25:21,643 --> 00:25:23,079
you know, sing a song,

367
00:25:23,163 --> 00:25:27,443
he's more than welcome to do that.
We'll 'ave a spare mic ready for 'im.

368
00:25:28,243 --> 00:25:31,479
<i>One of Britain's
biggest boy bands, Take That, split up.</i>

369
00:25:31,563 --> 00:25:35,599
<i>But, a decade on, they're back together,
albeit without Robbie Williams,</i>

370
00:25:35,683 --> 00:25:37,799
<i>and they're back at the top of the charts.</i>

371
00:25:37,883 --> 00:25:40,239
I watched the <i>Circus</i> tour <i>.</i>

372
00:25:40,323 --> 00:25:42,403
It's one of the best shows I'd ever seen.

373
00:25:43,083 --> 00:25:44,043
And I got

374
00:25:45,043 --> 00:25:46,923
incredibly excited by it.

375
00:25:49,123 --> 00:25:51,563
And then a door opened where I was like...

376
00:25:53,603 --> 00:25:54,643
"Cor, I wanna...

377
00:25:56,043 --> 00:25:57,439
wanna experience <i>that</i> ."

378
00:26:10,803 --> 00:26:13,559
There's a reason
why I left Take That so angry.

379
00:26:13,643 --> 00:26:16,999
I want you to know
that I probably will be a bit quiet.

380
00:26:17,083 --> 00:26:21,519
I'm just a bit nervous and a bit scared,
and I have been for a few days, you know,

381
00:26:21,603 --> 00:26:22,799
and I wanna, um...

382
00:26:22,883 --> 00:26:25,679
It's gonna take a while though, mate.
It's took us four years.

383
00:26:25,763 --> 00:26:29,039
Shoulda seen us lot
when we got back together after that time.

384
00:26:29,123 --> 00:26:31,643
Took us a long time to get to know
each other again, didn't it?

385
00:26:32,643 --> 00:26:34,879
My anger has dissipated and gone now,

386
00:26:34,963 --> 00:26:37,759
and all that's left
is the four lads in a room,

387
00:26:37,843 --> 00:26:41,719
and I realized very quickly
that they love me, and I love them.

388
00:26:41,803 --> 00:26:44,439
To me, it seems like
just a beautiful moment

389
00:26:44,523 --> 00:26:46,919
for us to be intro-ing you,
saying hi to you.

390
00:26:47,003 --> 00:26:49,079
"Here's our friend, Robbie." Off you go.

391
00:26:49,163 --> 00:26:51,879
I remember
havin' a meetin' with my management,

392
00:26:51,963 --> 00:26:54,679
Dave and Tim, at the time,
and they got these flip charts out.

393
00:26:54,763 --> 00:26:57,079
They were just, like, "Right, okay."

394
00:26:57,163 --> 00:26:59,879
"So, if you went on tour by yourself,

395
00:26:59,963 --> 00:27:01,399
this is what you would make."

396
00:27:01,483 --> 00:27:04,403
It was just, like,
unbelievable amounts of money.

397
00:27:05,963 --> 00:27:09,523
"And if you work
with Take That, you get this."

398
00:27:10,363 --> 00:27:11,883
And I was like,

399
00:27:12,403 --> 00:27:16,003
"Lads, I'm still gonna
be joinin' Take That."

400
00:27:19,043 --> 00:27:19,879
"Okay."

401
00:27:23,043 --> 00:27:25,163
<i>♪ Standing ♪</i>

402
00:27:25,883 --> 00:27:29,683
<i>♪ On the edge of forever ♪</i>

403
00:27:30,843 --> 00:27:34,203
<i>♪ At the start of whatever ♪</i>

404
00:27:35,563 --> 00:27:39,719
<i>♪ Shouting love at the world... ♪</i>

405
00:27:39,803 --> 00:27:41,679
When I'm in Take That,

406
00:27:41,763 --> 00:27:47,963
there's four other bodies next to you
displacing the responsibility of

407
00:27:48,683 --> 00:27:49,763
the eyes on you.

408
00:27:50,683 --> 00:27:53,519
<i>♪ Although no-one understood ♪</i>

409
00:27:53,603 --> 00:27:55,959
<i>♪ We were holding back the flood ♪</i>

410
00:27:56,043 --> 00:27:59,283
<i>♪ Yeah, we danced against the rain ♪</i>

411
00:28:00,403 --> 00:28:02,719
<i>♪ We were holding back the flood ♪</i>

412
00:28:02,803 --> 00:28:07,763
<i>♪ They said we'd never dance again ♪</i>

413
00:28:10,243 --> 00:28:12,199
<i>♪ We will meet you ♪</i>

414
00:28:12,283 --> 00:28:14,559
<i>♪ Where the lights are ♪</i>

415
00:28:14,643 --> 00:28:19,119
<i>♪ The defenders of the faith we are ♪</i>

416
00:28:19,203 --> 00:28:21,279
<i>♪ When the thunder turns around ♪</i>

417
00:28:21,363 --> 00:28:27,119
<i>♪ They'll run so hard
We'll tear the ground away... ♪</i>

418
00:28:27,203 --> 00:28:30,199
Rejoining Take That really helped me.

419
00:28:30,283 --> 00:28:31,759
Propelled me back in.

420
00:28:31,843 --> 00:28:35,399
Helped me to hide in public,
to be camouflaged but seen.

421
00:28:35,483 --> 00:28:37,483
<i>♪ Yeah ♪</i>

422
00:28:38,283 --> 00:28:44,003
<i>♪ Yeah ♪</i>

423
00:28:44,883 --> 00:28:47,719
Great Britain was ours for that summer.

424
00:28:47,803 --> 00:28:50,519
<i>♪ Although no-one understood ♪</i>

425
00:28:50,603 --> 00:28:53,159
<i>♪ There was more of them than us ♪</i>

426
00:28:53,243 --> 00:28:56,963
<i>♪ Learning how to dance the rain ♪</i>

427
00:28:57,563 --> 00:29:00,279
<i>♪ There was more of them than us ♪</i>

428
00:29:00,363 --> 00:29:04,843
<i>♪ Now they'll never dance again... ♪</i>

429
00:29:05,763 --> 00:29:07,963
I felt like pop star Robbie Williams.

430
00:29:08,603 --> 00:29:10,519
And rejoining Take That

431
00:29:10,603 --> 00:29:14,403
was a vitally important part of my journey

432
00:29:15,083 --> 00:29:16,559
to where I am now.

433
00:29:18,963 --> 00:29:22,883
Where I've gotten to and what's happened
to my career since then...

434
00:29:24,923 --> 00:29:26,283
is a miracle.

435
00:29:27,363 --> 00:29:29,999
The thing that's made me
feel safe a lot of the time,

436
00:29:30,083 --> 00:29:33,999
is no matter about the slings and arrows
or how I feel about myself in my head,

437
00:29:34,083 --> 00:29:37,359
there's this incredible audience
that comes and sees me.

438
00:29:40,163 --> 00:29:43,363
My audience has protected me
through the years.

439
00:29:45,283 --> 00:29:48,039
It's funny as I get older,
if somebody says,

440
00:29:48,123 --> 00:29:51,523
"I've been to a show
and really enjoyed it," I almost cry.

441
00:29:52,643 --> 00:29:54,363
W... We did that together.

442
00:30:00,123 --> 00:30:04,359
We understood each other,
and we created a moment together

443
00:30:04,443 --> 00:30:08,203
that will remain
etched in our souls and our spirit.

444
00:30:08,803 --> 00:30:14,123
And I'm... I'm ever so grateful
that we get to share that experience.

445
00:30:27,763 --> 00:30:29,563
How has this process been for you?

446
00:30:30,203 --> 00:30:32,003
It's a tough watch.

447
00:30:32,803 --> 00:30:34,843
But I feel good because...

448
00:30:37,043 --> 00:30:40,763
there was a lot of levity
and a lot of humor and a lot of silliness.

449
00:30:41,283 --> 00:30:42,963
There was a softness...

450
00:30:45,483 --> 00:30:48,203
in this footage
that I wasn't expectin' to see.

451
00:30:53,003 --> 00:30:54,519
It <i>is</i> cathartic.

452
00:30:54,603 --> 00:30:56,883
I will walk out of here

453
00:30:58,763 --> 00:31:02,163
less heavy, emotionally,
than I was before.

454
00:31:03,163 --> 00:31:05,443
I can stick a pin in this now and move on.

455
00:31:07,923 --> 00:31:09,923
<i>♪ So many tears ♪</i>

456
00:31:13,163 --> 00:31:15,959
<i>♪ I've cried over you... ♪</i>

457
00:31:20,043 --> 00:31:22,683
I have, uh...
some acceptance and love for me.

458
00:31:24,323 --> 00:31:26,639
That... That feels huge, man.

459
00:31:26,723 --> 00:31:29,279
Yeah, that does feel... that does feel big.

460
00:31:29,363 --> 00:31:33,519
That's not what I was expecting
to feel at the end of this.

461
00:31:33,603 --> 00:31:35,603
<i>♪ And I bite my tongue ♪</i>

462
00:31:39,003 --> 00:31:44,483
<i>♪ Even though it causes the pain... ♪</i>

463
00:31:45,043 --> 00:31:46,759
I'm a different person now.

464
00:31:46,843 --> 00:31:48,283
<i>♪ ...inside me ♪</i>

465
00:31:49,083 --> 00:31:50,283
Thank the Lord.

466
00:31:52,963 --> 00:31:54,403
There is a happy endin'.

467
00:31:54,923 --> 00:31:56,199
For me, anyway.

468
00:31:56,283 --> 00:31:58,523
<i>♪ Running across the field ♪</i>

469
00:31:59,403 --> 00:32:01,759
<i>♪ Screaming full of joy ♪</i>

470
00:32:01,843 --> 00:32:04,603
<i>♪ Now, baby, I can see ♪</i>

471
00:32:05,123 --> 00:32:07,443
<i>♪ That I'm pretty perfect ♪</i>

472
00:32:08,283 --> 00:32:10,999
<i>♪ And everybody can see... ♪</i>

473
00:32:11,083 --> 00:32:15,079
I guess the god-shaped hole
has been filled with four kids and a wife.

474
00:32:15,163 --> 00:32:20,483
<i>♪ Everybody can see-ee-ee ♪</i>

475
00:32:21,483 --> 00:32:22,599
Good.

476
00:32:22,683 --> 00:32:26,203
<i>♪ Life's pretty perfect to me ♪</i>

477
00:32:26,883 --> 00:32:28,003
Full marks.

478
00:32:57,003 --> 00:32:58,919
- Morning, my love.
- Mornin', darlin'.

479
00:32:59,003 --> 00:33:01,959
- Can I get you anything?
- Uh, no, thank you.

480
00:33:02,043 --> 00:33:02,963
All good.

481
00:33:05,323 --> 00:33:06,683
Okay, I'll put this on.

482
00:33:10,683 --> 00:33:12,879
Daddy's going on a plane,
Beau-beaus.

483
00:33:12,963 --> 00:33:13,799
Why?

484
00:33:13,883 --> 00:33:16,559
- He's gotta go to work.
- I wanna go on plane.

485
00:33:16,643 --> 00:33:19,159
- You wanna go with Daddy to work?
- Yeah.

486
00:33:19,243 --> 00:33:21,679
- Are you gonna sing?
- Yeah.

487
00:33:21,763 --> 00:33:24,163
- What you gonna sing?
- Uh...

488
00:33:24,963 --> 00:33:27,719
<i>♪ Happy birthday to you ♪</i>

489
00:33:27,803 --> 00:33:29,239
Can I have a goodbye cuddle?

490
00:33:29,323 --> 00:33:30,243
Yes.

491
00:33:34,323 --> 00:33:35,799
- I love you.
- Okay.

492
00:33:35,883 --> 00:33:38,079
- Who loves you?
- Uh...

493
00:33:38,163 --> 00:33:39,479
- Mummy.
- Yes!

494
00:33:39,563 --> 00:33:41,319
Who else loves you?

495
00:33:41,403 --> 00:33:42,643
- You!
- Yeah.

496
00:33:44,163 --> 00:33:45,359
Yeah, I do.

497
00:33:45,443 --> 00:33:47,359
We love you so much, Beau-beaus.

498
00:33:47,443 --> 00:33:48,283
Yeah.

499
00:33:51,563 --> 00:33:52,483
Who loves <i>you</i> ?

500
00:33:53,003 --> 00:33:54,879
Daddy. Who loves <i>you</i> ?

501
00:33:54,963 --> 00:33:56,483
- Mummy.
- Mm-hmm.

502
00:34:00,163 --> 00:34:03,123
I really, like,
have had a knot in my stomach all day.

503
00:34:26,123 --> 00:34:29,483
I'm about to leave
for the longest that I've ever left them.

504
00:34:30,363 --> 00:34:31,363
I hate it.

505
00:34:32,483 --> 00:34:34,159
But it makes me feel happy,

506
00:34:34,243 --> 00:34:37,283
knowing what I can provide
for my kids and my wife.

507
00:34:38,803 --> 00:34:41,359
It gives me purpose, and I need purpose.

508
00:34:41,443 --> 00:34:44,119
Ted, come and give me a cuddle.
Mummy, will you get Charlie?

509
00:34:44,203 --> 00:34:45,043
Charlie!

510
00:34:46,003 --> 00:34:48,199
- Come here, Charlie.
- Oh, there he is.

511
00:34:48,283 --> 00:34:50,439
- Where's Coco?
- I love you, mate.

512
00:34:50,523 --> 00:34:52,719
- Where's Coco?
- I love you, mate.

513
00:34:52,803 --> 00:34:56,999
- Will you get Coco?
- Look at me. I'm really proud of you.

514
00:34:57,083 --> 00:34:58,843
- Do you have to go?
- Yeah.

515
00:35:06,363 --> 00:35:08,643
- I love you, Boozy.
- Love you, guys.

516
00:36:06,803 --> 00:36:08,563
Who knows what's to come?

517
00:36:09,083 --> 00:36:11,519
But now I realize that in this period,

518
00:36:11,603 --> 00:36:14,763
and for the longest period
in my life ever, I suppose,

519
00:36:15,523 --> 00:36:18,403
yeah, this is, um... a golden period.

520
00:36:35,683 --> 00:36:37,483
I live in a different way now.

521
00:36:38,003 --> 00:36:39,843
I live in a different manner.

522
00:36:41,683 --> 00:36:45,763
There is an acceptance to what my life is.

523
00:36:48,283 --> 00:36:51,483
And I don't try
to push against it or fight against it.

524
00:36:52,243 --> 00:36:54,563
And I've figured out how to live <i>in</i> it.

525
00:36:57,963 --> 00:36:58,919
I'm comfortable.

526
00:36:59,003 --> 00:37:02,363
I'm a dad of four
in a lovin' marriage with a lovin' wife.

527
00:37:03,523 --> 00:37:05,803
I'm on my way
to bein' really, really happy.

528
00:37:20,883 --> 00:37:24,323
The miracles that have been
bestowed upon me in this life...

529
00:37:27,603 --> 00:37:28,963
are so bountiful

530
00:37:30,403 --> 00:37:32,083
and so incredible,

531
00:37:34,603 --> 00:37:37,123
there is a need and a want in me

532
00:37:38,563 --> 00:37:42,163
to be able
to figure out how to enjoy this,

533
00:37:42,723 --> 00:37:44,403
by any means necessary.

534
00:37:50,203 --> 00:37:51,483
It's different now.

535
00:37:52,563 --> 00:37:53,763
What a joy.

536
00:37:54,963 --> 00:37:56,523
What a glorious adventure.

537
00:38:19,883 --> 00:38:22,763
<i>♪ Come on, hold my hand ♪</i>

538
00:38:23,963 --> 00:38:27,523
<i>♪ I wanna contact the living ♪</i>

539
00:38:29,363 --> 00:38:32,283
<i>♪ Not sure I understand ♪</i>

540
00:38:34,283 --> 00:38:37,643
<i>♪ This role I've been given ♪</i>

541
00:38:39,323 --> 00:38:42,003
<i>♪ I sit and talk to God ♪</i>

542
00:38:43,683 --> 00:38:47,283
<i>♪ And he just laughs at my plans ♪</i>

543
00:38:48,963 --> 00:38:51,923
<i>♪ My head speaks a language ♪</i>

544
00:38:53,883 --> 00:38:56,603
<i>♪ I don't understand ♪</i>

545
00:38:59,083 --> 00:39:03,239
<i>♪ I just wanna feel real love ♪</i>

546
00:39:03,323 --> 00:39:06,243
<i>♪ Feel the home that I live in ♪</i>

547
00:39:08,723 --> 00:39:10,883
<i>♪ 'Cause I got too much life ♪</i>

548
00:39:11,363 --> 00:39:13,203
<i>♪ Running through my veins ♪</i>

549
00:39:13,723 --> 00:39:16,043
<i>♪ Going to waste ♪</i>

550
00:39:18,683 --> 00:39:20,963
<i>♪ I don't wanna die ♪</i>

551
00:39:22,723 --> 00:39:25,683
<i>♪ But I ain't keen on living either ♪</i>

552
00:39:28,363 --> 00:39:30,763
<i>♪ Before I fall in love ♪</i>

553
00:39:32,763 --> 00:39:36,443
<i>♪ I'm preparing to leave her ♪</i>

554
00:39:38,203 --> 00:39:40,483
<i>♪ I scare myself to death ♪</i>

555
00:39:42,843 --> 00:39:45,683
<i>♪ That's why I keep on running ♪</i>

556
00:39:47,843 --> 00:39:50,443
<i>♪ Before I've arrived ♪</i>

557
00:39:52,363 --> 00:39:55,363
<i>♪ I can see myself coming ♪</i>

558
00:39:57,843 --> 00:40:02,079
<i>♪ I just wanna feel real love ♪</i>

559
00:40:02,163 --> 00:40:05,123
<i>♪ Feel the home that I live in ♪</i>

560
00:40:07,523 --> 00:40:09,643
<i>♪ 'Cause I got too much life ♪</i>

561
00:40:10,163 --> 00:40:11,883
<i>♪ Running through my veins ♪</i>

562
00:40:12,603 --> 00:40:14,403
<i>♪ Going to waste ♪</i>