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JELLY ROLL: Um...

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let me tell y'all something
I ain't told too many people.

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Some days I wake up
and wonder if I'm even

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doing the right thing, man.

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Some days I just wonder, dude,

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am I really chasing
the dream here,

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or am I just running
from the inevitable?

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[dramatic music]

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♪♪ ♪♪

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So much history
in this room for me.

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There's not another place
on Earth

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that'll be more special
than playing

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your hometown arena, ever.

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♪♪ ♪♪

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Dude, I'm petrified
to do this show tonight.

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I've always struggled
with self-worth, and value,

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and feeling like you
belong places, you know?

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I've been to jail
40 times in my life.

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I never made it out
of the ninth grade.

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I'm really a street kid
that had absolutely nothing

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going for him.

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To me, life was
about climbing mountains.

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They said we were too fat
to be in the music business.

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They told me that my voice
wasn't cool enough.

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They told me
I didn't have an image,

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it would never fit
in country music or any genre.

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These are all
to me as mountains

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we had to just climb
and conquer.

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- Ladies and gentlemen,

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from Bridgestone Arena,
Nashville, Tennessee,

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let's get ready to rumble!

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JELLY ROLL: I think what we're
gonna deal with tonight is,

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what do they call them,
an immovable force

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meets an unstoppable object?

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This is a collision course.
This is destiny.

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[cheers and applause]

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[crowd roaring]

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- ♪♪ I'm a long-haired son ♪♪
ALL: ♪♪ Of a sinner ♪♪

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- ♪♪ I'm searching
for new ways I can get gone ♪♪

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♪♪ I'm a pedal to the highway ♪♪

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♪♪ If you ever wonder why we ♪♪
ALL: ♪♪ Write these songs ♪♪

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[cheering]

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- You know,
I just started really singing

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a few years ago.

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So I'm still not
comfortable singing.

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I'm like a scared child
when I have to sing.

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And I just sing good because
I just sing from the stomach.

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Maybe that's
the magic to it, though.

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Maybe I'm a decent singer
because I don't know

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how to sing.

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You know, and I'm
the one dude that's just

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singing songs of the broken.

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This community has allowed me
to speak on our behalf,

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on behalf of the depressed,
the stressed,

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the anxious, the addicted.

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I'm just documenting what
I see and what I know.

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I've been a drug addict.
I've been a loser.

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I've been a stealer.

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I think that people
connect with the music

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because it's a reflection
of themselves.

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There's people lined up
around the buses every night.

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It's unreal, kind of.

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Signs in the crowd,
"Your music saved my life."

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I'm haunted at times because
you can close your eyes

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and think of that father
who cried on your shoulder

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because his daughter
overdosed at the Publix

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next to the venue, you know?

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You'll remember
that dude forever.

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- Thank you so very much,
Jelly Roll,

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for making
this grieving mama smile.

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- My boyfriend introduced me
to Jelly Roll's music

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because it helped him cope
with his addiction.

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It just kind of helped me
help him understand

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what he was going through.

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JELLY ROLL:
I've been in and out of jail

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my whole life, man.

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I've hurt so many people
along the way,

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and I still feel that guilt.

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And that still comes from
that place of worthlessness.

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I struggle
with imposter syndrome a lot.

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I struggle with survivor's
guilt just as much.

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[soft music]

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At what point, also,
do you make peace with it,

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and you quit apologizing,
and you actually move on?

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At what point
do I not feel like I have

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to carry the sins
of my past anymore,

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that I've finally
been redeemed of them,

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or I've done enough
to justify that I don't have

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to live back here much longer?

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♪♪ ♪♪

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It doesn't--I mean, you know,
just who'd have

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thought I could help people?

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Fuck, I needed help, you know?
I still need help, God.

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[dramatic music]

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When I say "Jelly,"
you say "Roll!"

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Jelly!
ALL: Roll!

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- Jelly!
ALL: Roll!

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- I didn't know anything
about him, literally nothing.

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I said, who--
who the fuck is Jelly Roll?

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He had even been
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as a guy who was a little bit
hip-hop, a little bit rock,

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and then he belts out this
ballad of this tormented soul.

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- I think "Save Me"
said a lot of stuff

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that people can't say,
but they feel.

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♪♪ Somebody save me ♪♪

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In the middle of the pandemic,
we put it on YouTube.

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We never spent
a dollar running an ad.

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I just looked up,
and it was at a million views.

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And then 5 million,
and then 20.

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And then we broke 100.

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Every record label
in America started calling.

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- He's really talking
about true heartbreak

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and true struggle.

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And it's authentic.

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And I was like, there's
something about this guy.

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I got to see where it goes.

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JELLY ROLL:
Our first show this year was,

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like,
at a thousand-person club.

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We was excited about that.

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I was like, you told me
I sold a thousand tickets

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in Connecticut?

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In three months' time,

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we're gonna do 16,000 plus
at the Bridgestone Arena

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in my hometown.

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I mean, this thing's
becoming a landslide.

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Big tours, baby!
Big fucking tours!

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MIKE: Week by week,
it just keeps getting bigger.

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I've never seen someone
climb this fast.

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Just to see
this very humble dude

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by just watching this rise
is killer.

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- Give it up for Jelly Roll!

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- This is fixing
to be absolute insanity.

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My DJ, DJ Chill, said,
"Our tour motto, EDN."

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I said, "What's that mean?"

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Chill said,
"Everything different now.

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Everything different now."

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He said, "We're not going back

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"to that thousand-cap club
no more.

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Everything's different now."

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Y'all changed my fucking life!

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I fucking love you!

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And I owe you the rest
of my fucking life.

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[soft guitar music]

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♪♪ ♪♪

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JELLY ROLL: We're doing
anywhere from 17 to 26 shows

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a month right now,

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somehow trying
to squeeze in time

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to get songs together
towards the album.

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You know, we're only
as big as our last hit.

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So there's a little
pressure there.

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All this stuff's brand-new
to me, by the way.

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I'm acclimating in real time.

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JOHN: In the middle of all
this, we also are gonna drop

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two singles, two videos

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between now
and the Bridgestone as well.

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It's been a really, really
impressive journey for him

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and the people around him.

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It's shocking really,
the ascension.

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♪♪ ♪♪

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JELLY ROLL: It's your favorite
time of the day.

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JACK: Set list time!
JELLY ROLL: Yeah!

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All right, you've got to
climb up the hill with us

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to talk about it, though.

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JACK: Oh!

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- Oh, no.
I'm not doing that this early.

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- Sounds like somebody
doesn't want a set list.

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[laughs]

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This set list is gonna
cost you a puff of weed.

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[laughs]
What about that, buddy?

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This is my favorite
pre-show ritual.

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Every city,
go sit out in the crowd,

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or where the crowd will be.

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And take a look
at where they're--

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what they're gonna see.

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It's fucking just crazy.

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It is as beautiful sitting in
it as it is looking up at it.

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You know?
JACK: This place is incredible.

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- This is unreal.

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This is 10,000 motherfuckers.

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This is it.

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It's like one of them places
you dream of playing.

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- You know what's crazy?

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I don't even think 14-year-old
Jason knew this was possible.

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If I wasn't a musician,
I'd be dead, for sure,

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or in prison doing life.

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I was in and out of juvenile
my whole childhood almost.

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And the way society looks

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at a troubled youth
is so wrong, right?

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They're like, they need
discipline, or they need--

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man, they need love.

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They need opportunity.
They need chance.

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They need to see
that people have made it

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from their circumstance.

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Every time
I drive by that juvenile,

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I'm just reminded
of people stuck in there

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that do not know
they have a chance

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to be whoever the fuck
they want to be in life.

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You know, I had a reminder
today of how important

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our journey really is.

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They knocked on my door
this morning at 7:00.

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I found out that a kid
I've been calling my nephew

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his whole life,
since he was born,

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was shot and killed outside
of a bar in South Nashville

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this morning.

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Young kid,
took care of his family,

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took care of his kids.

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Stray bullet.

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I'm not sure if it's
just the moment, you know,

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or having a kid I love
get killed this morning.

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[soft music]

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♪♪ ♪♪

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I've seen so much me in him.

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♪♪ ♪♪

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PERSON: Microphone, check.

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One, two, hey, hey.

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Rob, hey, check.

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Center forward microphone,
check.

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One, two, Rob.

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[soft guitar music]

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♪♪ ♪♪

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JELLY ROLL: All the family's
coming, you know?

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It's--it's dope--
I think there's 20 of us.

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- Bubba!

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- Agh!

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JELLY ROLL: The one thing
I love about my family is,

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man, they're cheering for me.

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They know where I came from.

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They know what
I've been through.

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It's like when you finally get
to see one of your own win,

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and your own have only done
nothing but lose, you know?

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That's my brother
right there, y'all.

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That's the middle one.
- Yeah.

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JELLY ROLL:
That's my closest brother.

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We can't tell
the other brother that.

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That's the rule.

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You can't tell
the other brother that.

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ROGER: Me.

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Me being the older brother,

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I've always been the influence,
been the shot-caller.

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But now that Jason's making
the money he's making,

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I think that we're gonna
pass the reins to him, see?

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[laughter]

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BUNNIE: Hi.
JELLY ROLL: Whoo.

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All right, all right,
all right, Miss Denim.

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BUNNIE: I told you, I'm bring--
- That outfit did work.

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BUNNIE:
I'm bringing denim back.

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- You don't take my credit
for my one fashion thing

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I finally did.

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- I'm bringing it back
for the bitches.

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- OK, I've had one good fashion
moment our whole relationship.

251
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So my daughter, Bailee Ann,
is 14 years old.

252
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To be able to share this
with her at Red Rocks

253
00:11:58,346 --> 00:12:00,483
tonight's big.

254
00:12:00,551 --> 00:12:02,386
10,000 people,
that'll make you nervous,

255
00:12:02,453 --> 00:12:05,359
which I just get nervous
before every show anyways.

256
00:12:05,426 --> 00:12:08,165
Just that insecure kid
in you still

257
00:12:08,232 --> 00:12:09,668
that just thinks
about everything

258
00:12:09,735 --> 00:12:12,206
that could go wrong.

259
00:12:13,008 --> 00:12:14,645
I've already been
not sleeping good,

260
00:12:14,712 --> 00:12:16,749
and altitude, and just stress.

261
00:12:16,816 --> 00:12:18,152
My health is horrible.

262
00:12:18,219 --> 00:12:20,156
You can't walk around
and treat your body

263
00:12:20,223 --> 00:12:21,960
the way I've treated mine
and be OK.

264
00:12:22,026 --> 00:12:23,396
That's the truth.

265
00:12:23,462 --> 00:12:25,299
What all did you put
in this puppy tonight?

266
00:12:25,366 --> 00:12:28,573
PERSON: Ooh, calcium,
magnesium, B12, B-complex,

267
00:12:28,640 --> 00:12:31,144
a ton of vitamin C, a ton
of glutathione, l-carnitine.

268
00:12:31,211 --> 00:12:32,380
And we're fixing
to put some Toradol.

269
00:12:32,447 --> 00:12:35,219
- Let's fucking go!
Oh, the songbird?

270
00:12:35,286 --> 00:12:36,354
PERSON: Songbird.
- All right.

271
00:12:36,421 --> 00:12:37,524
PERSON:
Songbird is going straight

272
00:12:37,591 --> 00:12:38,493
to the bloodstream tonight.

273
00:12:38,560 --> 00:12:40,362
- The songbird.

274
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♪♪ ♪♪

275
00:12:45,339 --> 00:12:48,112
- Hey, listen, y'all.
Tonight, we go the fuck out.

276
00:12:48,178 --> 00:12:49,615
PERSON: That's right!

277
00:12:49,681 --> 00:12:51,953
- Leave it here, because y'all
know what happens tomorrow.

278
00:12:52,019 --> 00:12:53,857
We start the road
to Bridgestone, baby.

279
00:12:53,923 --> 00:12:56,495
PERSON: Circle up, circle up.
Bow your heads, let us pray.

280
00:12:56,562 --> 00:12:58,265
Dear Heavenly Father,
thank you for everything

281
00:12:58,332 --> 00:13:00,670
you did to get us here
and everything you did

282
00:13:00,737 --> 00:13:02,107
for Jelly to get him here.

283
00:13:02,173 --> 00:13:03,910
Keep our families safe
while we're on the road.

284
00:13:03,977 --> 00:13:06,916
Lord, give us the opportunity,
the strength, and the courage

285
00:13:06,983 --> 00:13:08,519
to do this show tonight.

286
00:13:08,587 --> 00:13:09,487
In Jesus' name we pray.

287
00:13:09,555 --> 00:13:12,728
ALL: Amen, turn up!
Yeet, yeet!

288
00:13:12,795 --> 00:13:15,867
- Let's go make some music
with our friends at Red Rocks!

289
00:13:15,934 --> 00:13:20,409
[chanting]

290
00:13:20,476 --> 00:13:23,382
[crowd cheering]

291
00:13:28,525 --> 00:13:31,999
JELLY ROLL: What the fuck
is up, Colorado!

292
00:13:35,305 --> 00:13:38,913
This is the most tickets
we've sold to a Jelly Roll show

293
00:13:38,980 --> 00:13:40,750
in the United States
of America,

294
00:13:40,817 --> 00:13:43,890
right motherfucking now!

295
00:13:46,361 --> 00:13:48,265
I thank you for paying
for the ticket.

296
00:13:48,332 --> 00:13:50,069
I thank you
for waiting in line.

297
00:13:50,136 --> 00:13:52,540
I thank you for coming
on a fucking Sunday night.

298
00:13:52,608 --> 00:13:55,714
I thank you for walking up
that fucking hill.

299
00:13:55,780 --> 00:13:58,953
This will go down as one
of the most special shows

300
00:13:59,020 --> 00:14:00,924
of my whole motherfucking life.

301
00:14:04,163 --> 00:14:06,602
But more importantly,
I hope you listen

302
00:14:06,669 --> 00:14:07,972
to what I'm fixing to say.

303
00:14:08,039 --> 00:14:09,942
This will be
the most important thing

304
00:14:10,009 --> 00:14:11,646
I say all fucking night.

305
00:14:11,713 --> 00:14:13,650
Listen.

306
00:14:13,717 --> 00:14:16,622
[soft guitar music]

307
00:14:16,689 --> 00:14:23,636
♪♪ ♪♪

308
00:14:30,149 --> 00:14:34,625
♪♪ Somebody ♪♪
ALL: ♪♪ Save me ♪♪

309
00:14:34,692 --> 00:14:38,365
- ♪♪ Me from myself ♪♪

310
00:14:39,400 --> 00:14:43,208
♪♪ I spent so long ♪♪

311
00:14:43,275 --> 00:14:46,347
♪♪ Living in hell ♪♪

312
00:14:47,884 --> 00:14:51,892
♪♪ Well, they say my lifestyle ♪♪

313
00:14:51,959 --> 00:14:55,934
♪♪ Is bad for my health ♪♪

314
00:14:56,001 --> 00:15:00,343
I came to a conclusion early
that this wasn't a concert.

315
00:15:00,410 --> 00:15:02,781
This is a healing experience.

316
00:15:02,848 --> 00:15:04,718
It's an emotional exchange.

317
00:15:04,785 --> 00:15:06,589
It's an exchange of energy.

318
00:15:06,656 --> 00:15:10,462
♪♪ All of this drinking
and smoking is hopeless ♪♪

319
00:15:10,529 --> 00:15:15,272
♪♪ But feel like
it's all that I need ♪♪

320
00:15:15,339 --> 00:15:18,178
♪♪ Something inside
of me's broken ♪♪

321
00:15:18,245 --> 00:15:23,121
♪♪ I hold on to anything
that sets me free ♪♪

322
00:15:23,188 --> 00:15:26,495
♪♪ I'm a lost cause ♪♪

323
00:15:26,562 --> 00:15:30,369
I really look at this as
a form of church to a degree.

324
00:15:30,435 --> 00:15:33,175
I know the power of them
old back-road Baptist churches

325
00:15:33,241 --> 00:15:34,812
and the impact
they had on my life.

326
00:15:34,879 --> 00:15:38,620
And it always felt like I was
there to receive something.

327
00:15:38,686 --> 00:15:40,422
I feel like
that's why we're here.

328
00:15:40,489 --> 00:15:44,230
♪♪ I'm a ♪♪
ALL: ♪♪ Lost cause ♪♪

329
00:15:44,297 --> 00:15:49,273
♪♪ And, baby,
don't waste your time on me ♪♪

330
00:15:49,340 --> 00:15:53,482
♪♪ I'm so damaged
beyond repair ♪♪

331
00:15:53,550 --> 00:15:58,826
♪♪ Life has shattered
my hopes and my dreams ♪♪

332
00:15:58,893 --> 00:16:01,833
BUNNIE: My husband is
so therapeutic and so healing

333
00:16:01,900 --> 00:16:03,235
for so many people.

334
00:16:03,301 --> 00:16:05,038
They purge.

335
00:16:05,105 --> 00:16:08,111
You can feel the emotion
and just how much

336
00:16:08,178 --> 00:16:10,215
everybody needs
that moment with him.

337
00:16:10,282 --> 00:16:13,355
- This song--this song--

338
00:16:13,422 --> 00:16:17,030
was because you posted it
on Facebook and Instagram.

339
00:16:17,096 --> 00:16:19,400
This song was
because you posted it

340
00:16:19,467 --> 00:16:21,538
on Snapchat and TikTok.

341
00:16:21,605 --> 00:16:24,878
This fucking song is
because you picked up the phone

342
00:16:24,945 --> 00:16:26,447
and called a friend and said,

343
00:16:26,514 --> 00:16:29,186
you got to hear
this fucking song!

344
00:16:32,293 --> 00:16:33,963
One thing first.

345
00:16:34,030 --> 00:16:36,936
Can we light this motherfucker
up if music has ever

346
00:16:37,003 --> 00:16:38,806
changed your life tonight?

347
00:16:38,873 --> 00:16:41,712
[cheering]

348
00:16:41,779 --> 00:16:45,687
Y'all keep them motherfuckers
as high as you can.

349
00:16:45,754 --> 00:16:49,360
♪♪ ♪♪

350
00:16:49,427 --> 00:16:53,002
♪♪ I'm a ♪♪
ALL: ♪♪ Lost cause ♪♪

351
00:16:53,068 --> 00:16:57,611
- ♪♪ Baby, don't ♪♪
ALL: ♪♪ Waste your time on me ♪♪

352
00:16:57,678 --> 00:17:01,686
♪♪ I'm so damaged
beyond repair ♪♪

353
00:17:01,753 --> 00:17:05,761
♪♪ Life has shattered
my hopes and my dreams ♪♪

354
00:17:05,827 --> 00:17:07,096
- Louder!

355
00:17:07,163 --> 00:17:14,043
♪♪ ♪♪

356
00:17:14,110 --> 00:17:16,749
I think the music's always
a cry to help to whatever

357
00:17:16,816 --> 00:17:18,786
that higher power is.

358
00:17:18,853 --> 00:17:21,458
Even my friends in recovery,
the first thing they learn

359
00:17:21,525 --> 00:17:23,328
is that you've got
to find something

360
00:17:23,395 --> 00:17:25,967
that means more
to you than you.

361
00:17:26,034 --> 00:17:28,573
And that's the importance of
having some sort of a belief

362
00:17:28,640 --> 00:17:31,210
that there is something
out there that can help us.

363
00:17:31,277 --> 00:17:37,356
♪♪ ♪♪

364
00:17:37,423 --> 00:17:40,730
I fucking love you,
motherfuckers!

365
00:17:40,797 --> 00:17:47,744
♪♪ ♪♪

366
00:17:53,188 --> 00:17:55,961
They said almost-perfect
comes around all the time,

367
00:17:56,028 --> 00:17:58,331
but perfect never does.

368
00:17:58,398 --> 00:18:00,502
And that is
what Red Rocks was.

369
00:18:00,570 --> 00:18:03,743
It was almost perfect.

370
00:18:03,810 --> 00:18:07,250
Nate getting killed was
such an eye-opening reality

371
00:18:07,317 --> 00:18:11,224
that some things never change.

372
00:18:14,632 --> 00:18:16,569
I thought we grew
past that, man.

373
00:18:16,636 --> 00:18:19,406
I just thought that all of
my guys from the neighborhood

374
00:18:19,473 --> 00:18:21,444
and all the guys
from out there had just--

375
00:18:21,511 --> 00:18:22,981
everybody had
kind of grown up.

376
00:18:23,048 --> 00:18:25,152
I thought we'd escaped.

377
00:18:27,858 --> 00:18:29,828
We're in Antioch.

378
00:18:29,895 --> 00:18:34,672
As soon as we took that right
right there, we're in Antioch.

379
00:18:35,574 --> 00:18:39,513
When Nashville started getting
too big early, they grew out.

380
00:18:39,581 --> 00:18:44,390
How New York City grew up,
we grew out, kind of like LA.

381
00:18:44,457 --> 00:18:47,363
[somber music]

382
00:18:47,430 --> 00:18:49,869
♪♪ ♪♪

383
00:18:49,935 --> 00:18:52,941
I think a lot of the people
that listen to my music lived

384
00:18:53,007 --> 00:18:56,448
in some version of Antioch.

385
00:18:56,514 --> 00:18:59,588
This is Anytown, USA.

386
00:18:59,654 --> 00:19:02,695
It's just middle-lower-class
America, man.

387
00:19:02,761 --> 00:19:04,832
You know?

388
00:19:04,899 --> 00:19:08,305
A bunch of apartments,
a bunch of trailer parks,

389
00:19:08,371 --> 00:19:12,715
a bunch of, you know,
single-family homes.

390
00:19:12,781 --> 00:19:15,854
Antioch is full of memories
of me being a troublesome kid,

391
00:19:15,920 --> 00:19:17,791
you know?

392
00:19:17,858 --> 00:19:20,529
♪♪ ♪♪

393
00:19:20,596 --> 00:19:23,001
Caught my first
crawdad over there.

394
00:19:23,068 --> 00:19:25,405
Right here.

395
00:19:26,374 --> 00:19:29,247
[light guitar music]

396
00:19:29,314 --> 00:19:31,652
♪♪ ♪♪

397
00:19:31,718 --> 00:19:34,123
I'm a third-generation
Nashvillian.

398
00:19:34,190 --> 00:19:38,666
My grandfather came here
to start his meat business

399
00:19:38,733 --> 00:19:42,875
that my father
ended up taking over.

400
00:19:42,941 --> 00:19:44,845
Wanted to get a house
for the family.

401
00:19:44,912 --> 00:19:46,782
That's when my dad
started booking bets.

402
00:19:46,849 --> 00:19:48,686
He was booking them
a little bit,

403
00:19:48,753 --> 00:19:51,190
but he started really getting
into hustling hard.

404
00:19:51,257 --> 00:19:53,429
At least, that's the story I
was told at the kitchen table

405
00:19:53,495 --> 00:19:55,465
when I was a kid.

406
00:19:57,170 --> 00:19:58,673
This is the house.

407
00:19:58,740 --> 00:20:01,946
I learned how to ride my bike
in this front yard right here.

408
00:20:02,012 --> 00:20:03,883
I haven't got to spend
this much time in front of it

409
00:20:03,950 --> 00:20:06,087
since I moved out of it.

410
00:20:06,154 --> 00:20:08,024
Well, I was in one
of those households

411
00:20:08,091 --> 00:20:10,028
where everybody listened to
something different, you know?

412
00:20:10,095 --> 00:20:12,668
I was the baby.
I never controlled the radio.

413
00:20:12,734 --> 00:20:15,172
So if I went to sister's room,
we're listening to Nirvana,

414
00:20:15,239 --> 00:20:16,508
Metallica, or Pearl Jam.

415
00:20:16,576 --> 00:20:18,144
If I go to big brother's room,

416
00:20:18,211 --> 00:20:20,784
we're listening
to Tupac or Three 6 Mafia.

417
00:20:20,851 --> 00:20:22,988
You go with your mother,
and she's listening

418
00:20:23,055 --> 00:20:24,658
to Motown or oldies.

419
00:20:24,725 --> 00:20:26,294
Your daddy's listening
to outlaw country

420
00:20:26,360 --> 00:20:27,765
and James Taylor.

421
00:20:27,831 --> 00:20:31,805
And I was just influenced
by all these different musics.

422
00:20:33,441 --> 00:20:37,116
This was the only house that
we ever lived at as a family.

423
00:20:37,183 --> 00:20:40,656
And that's why this address
always comes back to mind.

424
00:20:40,723 --> 00:20:42,259
- Let me tell you a story
about Jelly Roll

425
00:20:42,326 --> 00:20:43,963
hanging Christmas lights.

426
00:20:44,029 --> 00:20:46,267
He was on the roof hanging
Christmas lights up there,

427
00:20:46,334 --> 00:20:47,804
about 350 pounds.

428
00:20:47,871 --> 00:20:49,908
Our mother comes out
on the front porch

429
00:20:49,975 --> 00:20:52,346
and says,
"Jason, get off the roof!"

430
00:20:52,412 --> 00:20:55,119
And the next thing you hear
is, doo, doo, doo, doo, boom,

431
00:20:55,185 --> 00:20:57,724
right into the bushes there.

432
00:20:57,791 --> 00:20:59,460
And what does she say?
"Get up!

433
00:20:59,527 --> 00:21:00,963
You're scaring the neighbors!"

434
00:21:01,030 --> 00:21:03,001
[laughter]

435
00:21:03,068 --> 00:21:04,672
♪♪ ♪♪

436
00:21:04,739 --> 00:21:07,009
Mama was "life of the party"
type person.

437
00:21:07,076 --> 00:21:09,447
Vibrant, very magnetic.

438
00:21:09,514 --> 00:21:11,151
And then we don't know.

439
00:21:11,218 --> 00:21:14,023
I mean, she just slowly
started going downhill.

440
00:21:14,090 --> 00:21:16,796
And all of a sudden,
just one day, the normality

441
00:21:16,863 --> 00:21:20,335
is that she's laying
in the bed in her nightgown.

442
00:21:20,402 --> 00:21:24,109
- I would just watch her go
doctor to doctor to doctor.

443
00:21:24,176 --> 00:21:26,181
And this doctor would
give her this for pain.

444
00:21:26,248 --> 00:21:29,053
This doctor would give her
this as a muscle relaxer.

445
00:21:29,120 --> 00:21:31,759
This doctor would give her
this for her anxiety.

446
00:21:31,825 --> 00:21:35,398
And I watched that slowly spin
into a drug addiction.

447
00:21:36,669 --> 00:21:39,574
It was like watching
a woman lock herself up

448
00:21:39,641 --> 00:21:41,478
in a corner
of the house and just--

449
00:21:41,545 --> 00:21:43,783
you had to go up there
to see her.

450
00:21:43,850 --> 00:21:46,520
She couldn't even come
down the steps, man.

451
00:21:48,091 --> 00:21:49,761
That top room up there
to the right,

452
00:21:49,828 --> 00:21:52,266
she never left that room, man.

453
00:21:52,332 --> 00:21:53,936
She never left that room.

454
00:21:54,003 --> 00:21:55,238
And if she did,
she'd come down to the kitchen.

455
00:21:55,305 --> 00:21:56,675
That was a big day, man.

456
00:21:56,742 --> 00:21:58,546
That was a big deal when she
came down to the kitchen,

457
00:21:58,613 --> 00:22:00,015
lit up a cigarette,
and turned on a record.

458
00:22:00,082 --> 00:22:02,286
I mean, she was a great woman,
good mother.

459
00:22:02,353 --> 00:22:05,159
But she was clearly a woman
who was struggling

460
00:22:05,226 --> 00:22:06,796
with drugs and mental health.

461
00:22:06,862 --> 00:22:08,699
- I don't really like
to think about it

462
00:22:08,766 --> 00:22:11,672
simply because,
from start to finish,

463
00:22:11,739 --> 00:22:13,743
she was a totally
different person.

464
00:22:13,809 --> 00:22:16,314
And she robbed herself
of a lot of life.

465
00:22:16,381 --> 00:22:17,584
- Yeah.

466
00:22:17,651 --> 00:22:19,454
- And she robbed us
of a lot of life.

467
00:22:19,521 --> 00:22:20,923
- My mother,
I love her to death.

468
00:22:20,990 --> 00:22:22,292
She's 71 years old.

469
00:22:22,359 --> 00:22:24,396
And they're still trying
to get the right "combination"

470
00:22:24,463 --> 00:22:27,002
of medicine for her.

471
00:22:27,069 --> 00:22:29,540
Losing this house
was probably the beginning

472
00:22:29,608 --> 00:22:31,612
of a real spiral for me.

473
00:22:31,679 --> 00:22:34,150
I think that,
when mom and dad divorced,

474
00:22:34,217 --> 00:22:37,022
it just kind of, you know,
went back to the other side

475
00:22:37,089 --> 00:22:39,026
of the train tracks.

476
00:22:45,239 --> 00:22:48,144
[soft guitar music]

477
00:22:48,211 --> 00:22:50,784
♪♪ ♪♪

478
00:22:50,851 --> 00:22:52,820
JELLY ROLL:
My mother was a drug addict.

479
00:22:52,887 --> 00:22:55,894
My child's mother struggled
with drug addiction.

480
00:22:55,961 --> 00:23:00,436
It has been the plague
of my entire neighborhood,

481
00:23:00,502 --> 00:23:04,276
my entire lifestyle,
my entire life.

482
00:23:04,343 --> 00:23:07,182
We just try to go do
all the things we can.

483
00:23:07,249 --> 00:23:11,658
We try to go to probably 20,
30 rehabs a year.

484
00:23:11,725 --> 00:23:15,198
This program does 45 days in
and 45 days out.

485
00:23:15,265 --> 00:23:16,868
So everybody in here is going

486
00:23:16,935 --> 00:23:18,305
through the hard time
right now.

487
00:23:18,372 --> 00:23:20,342
Sobriety is always hard.

488
00:23:20,409 --> 00:23:23,114
But this is the hardest part.

489
00:23:23,181 --> 00:23:24,551
How are y'all?

490
00:23:24,618 --> 00:23:26,254
- Hi.
- Good, how are you?

491
00:23:26,321 --> 00:23:28,024
- For those of y'all that don't
know, my name is Jelly Roll.

492
00:23:28,091 --> 00:23:29,628
I'm a musician.
I'm not a public speaker.

493
00:23:29,694 --> 00:23:31,832
So work with me.
We'll start there.

494
00:23:31,899 --> 00:23:34,003
I sing because I'm not
great at fucking talking.

495
00:23:34,069 --> 00:23:37,644
But I've struggled
with my own issues

496
00:23:37,710 --> 00:23:41,652
with addiction,
and alcohol, and things.

497
00:23:41,719 --> 00:23:46,093
I smoked meth out of
a light bulb at 15 years old.

498
00:23:46,160 --> 00:23:48,498
I had tripped acid
by the time I was 15.

499
00:23:48,566 --> 00:23:50,670
I'd done mushrooms
by the time I was 15.

500
00:23:50,737 --> 00:23:52,273
I took every pill
you could think of

501
00:23:52,339 --> 00:23:54,143
by the time I was 15, 16.

502
00:23:54,210 --> 00:23:56,080
Done cocaine.

503
00:23:56,147 --> 00:23:59,621
Nothing about anything
I was doing at any moment

504
00:23:59,688 --> 00:24:03,829
during my childhood felt
like I was out of place.

505
00:24:03,896 --> 00:24:05,232
You know what
they say about us.

506
00:24:05,299 --> 00:24:07,502
We always trade one addiction
for another, right?

507
00:24:07,570 --> 00:24:10,342
I started realizing that if
I could channel that energy

508
00:24:10,408 --> 00:24:13,148
into obsessing about the things
that made me better,

509
00:24:13,214 --> 00:24:15,753
like the same way that I would
chase that street shit

510
00:24:15,820 --> 00:24:17,255
every single day,
and I woke up,

511
00:24:17,322 --> 00:24:19,828
and that's all that fucking
mattered until I fell asleep

512
00:24:19,895 --> 00:24:21,866
is how I started
treating music.

513
00:24:21,932 --> 00:24:23,635
And that's not healthy
neither, frankly.

514
00:24:23,702 --> 00:24:27,042
But it worked for me
because I made it healthy.

515
00:24:27,109 --> 00:24:31,051
So I just want to encourage
y'all to look at the gift

516
00:24:31,117 --> 00:24:34,223
that you think has been a curse
and how that applies

517
00:24:34,290 --> 00:24:36,294
to something in your life.

518
00:24:36,360 --> 00:24:38,397
There are people that listen
to my music that have

519
00:24:38,464 --> 00:24:40,035
figured it out more than me.

520
00:24:40,102 --> 00:24:43,408
I just hope that people judge
the music and not the man.

521
00:24:43,474 --> 00:24:46,615
I no longer have
a deadly addiction

522
00:24:46,681 --> 00:24:48,953
to pain pills or codeine.

523
00:24:49,020 --> 00:24:51,691
I no longer have a deadly
addiction to cocaine.

524
00:24:51,758 --> 00:24:53,295
There was times in my life
where I feel like

525
00:24:53,361 --> 00:24:55,933
I could have died
from any one of those drugs.

526
00:24:56,000 --> 00:24:59,841
But I still smoke a little weed
to keep my head straight.

527
00:24:59,908 --> 00:25:01,745
I will still get
blackout drunk.

528
00:25:01,812 --> 00:25:05,419
And every now and then,
we'll do something wild.

529
00:25:05,486 --> 00:25:06,755
CHASE: What's up, baby?

530
00:25:06,822 --> 00:25:08,960
- How are you, brother?
Good to see you, man.

531
00:25:09,026 --> 00:25:11,197
CHASE: People in recovery
can relate to him

532
00:25:11,264 --> 00:25:15,807
because he has a similar story
to a lot of people.

533
00:25:15,874 --> 00:25:17,643
That just lets people
know that,

534
00:25:17,710 --> 00:25:20,717
no matter what
you've been through,

535
00:25:20,783 --> 00:25:23,623
you don't have
to live every day of life

536
00:25:23,689 --> 00:25:26,461
with drugs and alcohol
and be miserable.

537
00:25:26,528 --> 00:25:28,599
- I'm really proud
of everyone here.

538
00:25:28,665 --> 00:25:31,070
- Aw, that's awesome.
- Yeah.

539
00:25:31,137 --> 00:25:33,040
- I am too, and I don't know
you motherfuckers.

540
00:25:33,107 --> 00:25:35,245
[laughter]

541
00:25:35,312 --> 00:25:38,719
I just want to tell y'all
that I believe in you

542
00:25:38,786 --> 00:25:42,092
and that I think you can do it.

543
00:25:43,261 --> 00:25:45,532
And I know the statistics
are against us all.

544
00:25:45,600 --> 00:25:47,870
And life fucking sucks.

545
00:25:47,937 --> 00:25:50,709
And that's why we wanted
to come spread some joy.

546
00:25:50,776 --> 00:25:53,749
[applause]

547
00:25:53,816 --> 00:25:54,985
- Hey, how are you?
- Good.

548
00:25:55,052 --> 00:25:57,256
I'm Noelle.
- What's up, Noelle?

549
00:25:57,322 --> 00:25:59,159
NOELLE:
When I heard "Save Me," like,

550
00:25:59,226 --> 00:26:00,930
that's how I felt a lot
of the time.

551
00:26:00,996 --> 00:26:04,537
You kind of feel just,
like, helpless

552
00:26:04,605 --> 00:26:07,811
and like you can't
save yourself.

553
00:26:07,878 --> 00:26:12,019
I had never
really heard anyone talk

554
00:26:12,085 --> 00:26:16,160
about exactly how I was feeling
in that way before,

555
00:26:16,227 --> 00:26:22,305
especially someone famous
that was,

556
00:26:22,372 --> 00:26:25,078
I don't know,
battling the same thing.

557
00:26:28,484 --> 00:26:30,557
- Aw, baby, I'm so sorry.

558
00:26:30,623 --> 00:26:33,862
That's what I say, he or she,
right--we all know somebody.

559
00:26:35,365 --> 00:26:37,202
- How are you doing now?

560
00:26:37,269 --> 00:26:38,472
I was crying
the whole time in there.

561
00:26:38,538 --> 00:26:39,674
It means a lot.

562
00:26:39,741 --> 00:26:41,511
When I was like 15,
I just started

563
00:26:41,579 --> 00:26:42,814
with the smoking
and the drinking,

564
00:26:42,880 --> 00:26:44,818
kind of, like, a peer thing.

565
00:26:44,885 --> 00:26:46,420
But then once it got
to the harder drugs,

566
00:26:46,487 --> 00:26:48,024
I really realized,
like, I'm gonna die

567
00:26:48,091 --> 00:26:50,328
from this if I don't get help.

568
00:26:50,395 --> 00:26:51,565
- You know what's crazy?

569
00:26:51,632 --> 00:26:52,968
When you look in their faces,
you just see people

570
00:26:53,034 --> 00:26:55,673
that are trying
to figure it out.

571
00:26:55,740 --> 00:26:57,677
You're watching somebody
in the middle

572
00:26:57,744 --> 00:26:59,147
of the most pivotal life change

573
00:26:59,213 --> 00:27:01,050
they're having
in their entire life.

574
00:27:01,117 --> 00:27:03,856
Nothing will be more important
than this transition

575
00:27:03,923 --> 00:27:06,361
from heavy addiction
into sobriety.

576
00:27:06,427 --> 00:27:09,466
[soft music]

577
00:27:09,533 --> 00:27:11,303
♪♪ ♪♪

578
00:27:11,370 --> 00:27:13,241
It's a little emotional,
right?

579
00:27:13,308 --> 00:27:15,278
You just have this little
thing, where it's just--

580
00:27:15,345 --> 00:27:17,783
the amount of times I had
to stop from crying in there,

581
00:27:17,850 --> 00:27:21,725
that'll just weigh on you
just by default.

582
00:27:21,792 --> 00:27:27,169
♪♪ ♪♪

583
00:27:27,236 --> 00:27:30,041
The biggest demon in my life
is my mental health,

584
00:27:30,108 --> 00:27:34,885
which is a direct correlation
with the obesity.

585
00:27:34,952 --> 00:27:36,955
I've had this struggle
since I was a kid.

586
00:27:37,022 --> 00:27:40,028
Like, I just had
so many issues.

587
00:27:40,094 --> 00:27:41,898
And I have such
an addictive nature

588
00:27:41,965 --> 00:27:45,205
that as I would weave
in and out of drug use,

589
00:27:45,271 --> 00:27:49,012
I would always find
that comfort in food.

590
00:27:50,382 --> 00:27:54,691
Well, I was diagnosed
with severe depression.

591
00:27:54,758 --> 00:27:57,062
I really struggle, man.

592
00:27:57,129 --> 00:28:00,402
I wish I understood it.
To be honest, I don't.

593
00:28:00,469 --> 00:28:03,341
I have a personal tool kit
that I use that I've

594
00:28:03,408 --> 00:28:05,078
got through therapists.

595
00:28:05,145 --> 00:28:07,483
No matter what,
just go to the kitchen,

596
00:28:07,550 --> 00:28:10,522
and drink water at the kitchen
table for a few minutes.

597
00:28:10,590 --> 00:28:13,328
And if I can get through that,
then it's like,

598
00:28:13,395 --> 00:28:16,467
go take a walk,
go stand outside.

599
00:28:18,237 --> 00:28:19,941
And sometimes,
I just curl the fuck up

600
00:28:20,008 --> 00:28:23,415
and go back to sleep
and cancel my day.

601
00:28:23,481 --> 00:28:24,483
That's the truth.

602
00:28:24,551 --> 00:28:26,520
That's the truth
we never talk about.

603
00:28:26,588 --> 00:28:30,495
♪♪ ♪♪

604
00:28:36,908 --> 00:28:39,614
[soft music]

605
00:28:39,681 --> 00:28:41,484
JELLY ROLL:
When my father passed away,

606
00:28:41,552 --> 00:28:43,822
I stepped outside
to smoke a joint,

607
00:28:43,889 --> 00:28:46,160
and it gave me
the worst anxiety

608
00:28:46,227 --> 00:28:47,764
I've ever had in my life.

609
00:28:47,830 --> 00:28:51,972
And I quit smoking for almost
two years until recently.

610
00:28:52,039 --> 00:28:55,345
I started smoking again
to cut back on drinking.

611
00:28:56,648 --> 00:28:59,453
Growing up, drugs were
just always a thing.

612
00:28:59,520 --> 00:29:00,757
Nobody questioned it.

613
00:29:00,823 --> 00:29:04,932
I never seen anybody ever act
like it was weird to them

614
00:29:04,998 --> 00:29:08,271
that, you know,
people--everybody

615
00:29:08,337 --> 00:29:13,448
popped pills, or smoked weed,
or drank, or did cocaine,

616
00:29:13,514 --> 00:29:14,851
you know?

617
00:29:14,918 --> 00:29:16,622
Or did crack--
especially crack.

618
00:29:16,688 --> 00:29:19,526
God, everybody smoked crack.

619
00:29:19,594 --> 00:29:23,034
Here's the thing
about being a teenager.

620
00:29:23,101 --> 00:29:25,438
I thought selling drugs
was a means to an end.

621
00:29:25,505 --> 00:29:28,477
I think it was me thinking,
OK, I don't want to be here.

622
00:29:28,544 --> 00:29:31,150
To be somewhere better,
it's going to cost money.

623
00:29:31,217 --> 00:29:35,091
I need to find money
to be somewhere better.

624
00:29:35,158 --> 00:29:38,198
I don't know if I thought
I deserved a better life.

625
00:29:38,264 --> 00:29:43,074
But I was willing to do
whatever it took to have one.

626
00:29:43,141 --> 00:29:44,644
RANDY:
I actually first met him

627
00:29:44,711 --> 00:29:47,082
when he was about 10 or 11.

628
00:29:47,149 --> 00:29:51,457
He wasn't in school, but he
didn't want to be either.

629
00:29:51,523 --> 00:29:54,163
I always said,
you can't run from me.

630
00:29:54,229 --> 00:29:55,766
I can actually catch you.

631
00:29:55,833 --> 00:29:57,535
You're the only one
I can catch.

632
00:29:57,603 --> 00:29:59,841
[chuckles]

633
00:29:59,907 --> 00:30:01,544
Because he
was a little chubby guy,

634
00:30:01,612 --> 00:30:03,214
and so was I.

635
00:30:03,281 --> 00:30:04,584
[chuckles]

636
00:30:04,651 --> 00:30:06,588
I think sometimes
that was part

637
00:30:06,655 --> 00:30:09,527
of his inner struggle too.

638
00:30:09,594 --> 00:30:11,965
You know, kids can be cruel.

639
00:30:12,032 --> 00:30:13,234
They made fun of him for that.

640
00:30:13,300 --> 00:30:15,505
They made fun
of him for his mom.

641
00:30:15,573 --> 00:30:19,280
They made fun of him
for what he wore,

642
00:30:19,347 --> 00:30:21,450
how he lived, where he lived.

643
00:30:21,517 --> 00:30:24,156
- I think I was just a kid
that wanted to be accepted.

644
00:30:24,223 --> 00:30:26,795
And I knew money
brought acceptance.

645
00:30:26,862 --> 00:30:30,102
And I knew people thought
drugs were cool.

646
00:30:30,168 --> 00:30:32,607
And it doesn't make any reason
to get into it, right.

647
00:30:32,674 --> 00:30:36,413
But I think it all just came
from a real insecure spot.

648
00:30:36,480 --> 00:30:38,619
RANDY: We got word
Jelly was selling weed.

649
00:30:38,685 --> 00:30:40,388
To be a little weed dealer,

650
00:30:40,454 --> 00:30:41,991
you didn't really get
a lot of attention.

651
00:30:42,058 --> 00:30:44,564
But you were on the radar.

652
00:30:44,631 --> 00:30:46,333
JELLY ROLL: I was in and out
of jail for, like,

653
00:30:46,400 --> 00:30:49,974
weed, or cigarettes,
or the kind of stuff

654
00:30:50,041 --> 00:30:53,716
you arrest high-schoolers
and middle-schoolers for.

655
00:30:53,782 --> 00:30:58,091
14 to 17, that two, three-year
window was that whole stretch.

656
00:30:58,158 --> 00:31:00,863
And then people realized
you can make a lot

657
00:31:00,929 --> 00:31:02,199
of money selling cocaine.

658
00:31:02,265 --> 00:31:04,303
And then everybody
starts selling cocaine.

659
00:31:04,370 --> 00:31:07,275
When I got arrested,
all I felt was anger.

660
00:31:07,342 --> 00:31:10,783
I was just so mad at everybody

661
00:31:10,850 --> 00:31:12,687
but who I
should have been mad at.

662
00:31:12,754 --> 00:31:15,124
♪♪ ♪♪

663
00:31:15,191 --> 00:31:19,099
I'd already gave up hope
on anything.

664
00:31:19,166 --> 00:31:21,437
I just didn't have
any self-worth.

665
00:31:21,504 --> 00:31:23,575
I didn't understand
the importance of life.

666
00:31:23,642 --> 00:31:27,115
I didn't understand
the importance of time.

667
00:31:27,182 --> 00:31:30,221
When I was 16,
I ended up going to juvenile

668
00:31:30,288 --> 00:31:31,891
and being charged as an adult.

669
00:31:31,958 --> 00:31:34,396
♪♪ ♪♪

670
00:31:34,463 --> 00:31:37,335
I caught
a strong-armed robbery case.

671
00:31:37,402 --> 00:31:39,206
To the juvenile judge,
I looked like a kid

672
00:31:39,273 --> 00:31:40,943
that had just done nothing
but get in trouble.

673
00:31:41,010 --> 00:31:42,747
And she was totally right.

674
00:31:42,814 --> 00:31:45,351
We were pleading
to try to give me a program

675
00:31:45,418 --> 00:31:49,727
to help me, you know,
like a real program, not jail.

676
00:31:49,794 --> 00:31:51,631
♪♪ ♪♪

677
00:31:51,698 --> 00:31:53,869
We were waiting
to hear back from the judge,

678
00:31:53,936 --> 00:31:56,575
and they called me one day
and told me, pack my stuff.

679
00:31:56,642 --> 00:31:58,444
[police sirens wailing]

680
00:31:58,511 --> 00:32:00,683
When I got down there, I said,
"Where they got me going?"

681
00:32:00,749 --> 00:32:02,486
And I'll never forget
that lady's face

682
00:32:02,553 --> 00:32:04,223
when she looked at me
with sadness and said,

683
00:32:04,290 --> 00:32:05,458
"You're going
across the street.

684
00:32:05,525 --> 00:32:07,062
"You've been charged
as an adult.

685
00:32:07,129 --> 00:32:09,166
Is there anybody
you'd like to call?"

686
00:32:09,233 --> 00:32:10,703
♪♪ ♪♪

687
00:32:10,770 --> 00:32:12,773
I picked up the phone,
and I called my dad.

688
00:32:12,840 --> 00:32:14,476
I said, "Dad,
they charged me as an adult.

689
00:32:14,543 --> 00:32:16,380
I'm on my way to
the Criminal Justice Center."

690
00:32:16,447 --> 00:32:18,150
He said,
"Well, the only good news is,

691
00:32:18,217 --> 00:32:19,788
you should have a bond,
and I'll be there."

692
00:32:19,855 --> 00:32:21,256
And he came and got me.

693
00:32:21,323 --> 00:32:22,861
And I fought the case
from the streets

694
00:32:22,927 --> 00:32:24,463
for about nine months.

695
00:32:24,530 --> 00:32:26,000
And they ended up
making me go do

696
00:32:26,067 --> 00:32:28,170
18 months day for day in jail.

697
00:32:28,237 --> 00:32:33,548
♪♪ ♪♪

698
00:32:33,615 --> 00:32:35,384
[sniffs]

699
00:32:37,456 --> 00:32:40,161
Then I came home on probation.

700
00:32:41,029 --> 00:32:43,869
And I fucked that up.

701
00:32:43,936 --> 00:32:46,040
We were selling crack
right before I went

702
00:32:46,106 --> 00:32:48,378
to jail for it, the last time
I went to jail ever.

703
00:32:48,444 --> 00:32:50,716
I think at that point,
I was just so engulfed

704
00:32:50,783 --> 00:32:53,555
in the street life,
and I was just so angry.

705
00:32:53,622 --> 00:32:55,759
And I'm not asking
for sympathy for this.

706
00:32:55,826 --> 00:32:58,131
I'm not asking
for anybody to understand.

707
00:32:58,197 --> 00:32:59,901
And I know more today
than I've ever known

708
00:32:59,968 --> 00:33:02,940
how absolutely fucking horrible
what I did was.

709
00:33:03,007 --> 00:33:06,113
Anything that hurt people,
I wish I could change that.

710
00:33:06,180 --> 00:33:09,319
♪♪ ♪♪

711
00:33:09,386 --> 00:33:10,990
But I was just a kid, man.

712
00:33:11,056 --> 00:33:13,829
And I was just
running fucking wild.

713
00:33:13,896 --> 00:33:20,842
♪♪ ♪♪

714
00:33:24,918 --> 00:33:28,024
My wife always says
that the songwriting process

715
00:33:28,091 --> 00:33:30,729
is where I let my demons out.

716
00:33:30,796 --> 00:33:34,570
That's where I exorcise
the darkness inside of me.

717
00:33:34,637 --> 00:33:36,073
♪♪ ♪♪

718
00:33:36,140 --> 00:33:38,912
My preference is to treat it
like a hang that...

719
00:33:38,979 --> 00:33:40,415
PERSON: Yeah.
JELLY ROLL: You can write at.

720
00:33:40,482 --> 00:33:41,785
PERSON: That's fun.
- You know what I mean?

721
00:33:41,852 --> 00:33:43,087
Like, we're really just gonna
sit here and drink

722
00:33:43,154 --> 00:33:44,222
and smoke pot, but--

723
00:33:44,289 --> 00:33:45,525
[laughter]

724
00:33:45,592 --> 00:33:47,462
But if somebody wants
to hook a melody,

725
00:33:47,529 --> 00:33:48,999
or got a beat, or something,
you know what I mean,

726
00:33:49,066 --> 00:33:50,603
then let's fuck with it.

727
00:33:50,670 --> 00:33:53,508
I haven't put an album out
in 18 months.

728
00:33:53,575 --> 00:33:56,881
So that brings a lot
of pressure on an artist, man.

729
00:33:56,948 --> 00:34:00,789
I am in need of writing songs,
and more than just

730
00:34:00,856 --> 00:34:04,463
for the pressure
of continuing to follow this.

731
00:34:04,530 --> 00:34:07,737
I've got to get some
of this shit out of me.

732
00:34:07,803 --> 00:34:09,840
This is therapy.

733
00:34:09,907 --> 00:34:12,913
So we're dropping
the album in April or May.

734
00:34:12,980 --> 00:34:16,020
And we're going to drop the
next radio single December 9th.

735
00:34:16,087 --> 00:34:18,257
- On country radio?
- Country radio.

736
00:34:18,324 --> 00:34:19,526
That's why we're here.
- Oh.

737
00:34:19,593 --> 00:34:22,432
- I need y'all's help.
Like, it was funny.

738
00:34:22,499 --> 00:34:25,806
I came into this genre
expecting to be judged

739
00:34:25,872 --> 00:34:28,444
and people be
prejudiced against me.

740
00:34:28,511 --> 00:34:32,352
And it was me, in turn,
I was the prejudiced one.

741
00:34:32,418 --> 00:34:36,026
I was the one looking
at country music like, no way.

742
00:34:36,093 --> 00:34:38,197
I've been writing most
of this album by myself

743
00:34:38,264 --> 00:34:42,372
or with a very select one
or two people in the room.

744
00:34:42,439 --> 00:34:44,076
Hey, sexy.
BUNNIE: Hey.

745
00:34:44,143 --> 00:34:45,512
JELLY ROLL: Oh, my God.

746
00:34:45,579 --> 00:34:48,250
BUNNIE: Tequila.
JELLY ROLL: The tequila fairy.

747
00:34:48,317 --> 00:34:49,386
BUNNIE: Here you go.

748
00:34:49,453 --> 00:34:50,889
WHITWORTH: Yes,
thank you so much.

749
00:34:50,956 --> 00:34:52,426
JELLY ROLL: Normally I only
write with guys I know,

750
00:34:52,492 --> 00:34:54,129
like Whitworth,
the guy with the hair.

751
00:34:54,196 --> 00:34:56,466
I can look at Whitworth
and go, I don't like that.

752
00:34:56,533 --> 00:34:58,739
And he won't get offended,
and vice versa.

753
00:34:58,805 --> 00:35:00,943
It takes a lot
of honesty in the room.

754
00:35:01,010 --> 00:35:04,450
- All right, well, let's try
Jelly's tequila maybe, I guess.

755
00:35:04,516 --> 00:35:06,520
- Let's try it, cheers.
- Cheers.

756
00:35:06,588 --> 00:35:07,990
HILLARY:
That's a big shot for me.

757
00:35:08,057 --> 00:35:09,459
PERSON: Let's go.

758
00:35:09,526 --> 00:35:10,896
JELLY ROLL:
This lady, Hillary, is just--

759
00:35:10,963 --> 00:35:12,733
she's a Hall of Fame
songwriter.

760
00:35:12,800 --> 00:35:14,704
So when the opportunity
came up to write with her,

761
00:35:14,771 --> 00:35:16,608
I was like, yeah, I normally
don't write with people.

762
00:35:16,675 --> 00:35:19,881
But I'd love
to write with her.

763
00:35:19,948 --> 00:35:22,886
- [humming]

764
00:35:24,757 --> 00:35:27,195
WHITWORTH: I feel like even in
country, it's not gonna be

765
00:35:27,261 --> 00:35:29,533
a love song for you, right?

766
00:35:29,600 --> 00:35:31,270
It's gonna need
to be like a dark--

767
00:35:31,336 --> 00:35:33,742
JELLY ROLL: Well, I think we--
I think we write love songs.

768
00:35:33,809 --> 00:35:36,080
I just think we got
to be more abstract

769
00:35:36,147 --> 00:35:37,449
about what
they're written about.

770
00:35:37,515 --> 00:35:40,121
WHITWORTH: Right.
- What are we in love with?

771
00:35:40,188 --> 00:35:42,425
WHITWORTH: Tequila.
- Right.

772
00:35:42,492 --> 00:35:44,730
- Can you play a little bit
now for inspiration?

773
00:35:44,797 --> 00:35:46,868
- You think I can play this?
- Oh.

774
00:35:46,935 --> 00:35:48,204
[laughter]

775
00:35:48,271 --> 00:35:49,105
WHITWORTH:
He said he's a guitar stand,

776
00:35:49,172 --> 00:35:50,308
not a guitar player.

777
00:35:50,375 --> 00:35:51,477
- Did you hear me
playing earlier?

778
00:35:51,544 --> 00:35:52,880
- I did.
- That was me at max.

779
00:35:52,947 --> 00:35:54,149
[laughter]

780
00:35:54,216 --> 00:35:55,820
As good as it gets.

781
00:35:55,886 --> 00:36:00,461
I'm still kind of shy
in certain things, you know?

782
00:36:00,528 --> 00:36:02,131
I'm very insecure.

783
00:36:02,198 --> 00:36:06,240
But I think that's what makes
me who I am too kind of.

784
00:36:06,307 --> 00:36:08,711
[percussive guitar music]

785
00:36:08,778 --> 00:36:11,083
ALYSA: So it feels dark.
JELLY ROLL: That's dope.

786
00:36:11,150 --> 00:36:13,254
- Yeah, that's cool.

787
00:36:13,321 --> 00:36:15,357
♪♪ ♪♪

788
00:36:15,424 --> 00:36:18,297
WHITWORTH: That feels cool.
ALYSA: Yeah.

789
00:36:18,364 --> 00:36:20,903
[Hillary vocalizing]

790
00:36:20,970 --> 00:36:22,138
JELLY ROLL: Yeah.

791
00:36:22,205 --> 00:36:24,644
[both vocalizing]

792
00:36:24,711 --> 00:36:27,315
ALYSA: Sick.

793
00:36:27,381 --> 00:36:29,086
WHITWORTH: That feels great.

794
00:36:29,153 --> 00:36:31,290
JELLY ROLL: What if we write
a song about keeping a--

795
00:36:31,356 --> 00:36:33,193
keeping a problem away
from your spouse?

796
00:36:33,260 --> 00:36:35,531
ALYSA: Oh, keeping a what?
- Yeah.

797
00:36:35,599 --> 00:36:36,835
HILLARY: It does sound
kind of sneaky.

798
00:36:36,902 --> 00:36:38,271
- Like, the secret
I'm keeping from you

799
00:36:38,337 --> 00:36:39,907
isn't what you think it is.

800
00:36:39,974 --> 00:36:41,811
HILLARY: Oh, it ain't a girl.
- Yeah, it's not a girl.

801
00:36:41,878 --> 00:36:43,014
HILLARY: Oh, shit.

802
00:36:43,080 --> 00:36:44,684
- It's the girl versus--
you know what I mean?

803
00:36:44,750 --> 00:36:46,988
But you write it
in that super abstract way of,

804
00:36:47,055 --> 00:36:49,426
like, I know I'm wrong,
you know what I mean?

805
00:36:49,493 --> 00:36:52,065
- Hm, that's cool.

806
00:36:52,132 --> 00:36:57,275
♪♪ ♪♪

807
00:36:57,342 --> 00:36:58,544
- ♪♪ She's got a-- ♪♪

808
00:36:58,612 --> 00:37:00,281
Like, this is bullshit.
- Super bluesy.

809
00:37:00,347 --> 00:37:01,450
- Is that too bluesy?

810
00:37:01,517 --> 00:37:03,187
- I like the bluesy-ness
of it though.

811
00:37:03,254 --> 00:37:04,490
- ♪♪ Nah, nah ♪♪

812
00:37:04,557 --> 00:37:07,730
♪♪ Baby, I'm holding you ♪♪

813
00:37:07,797 --> 00:37:12,807
♪♪ But she's got a hold on me ♪♪

814
00:37:12,874 --> 00:37:14,009
I don't know.
ALYSA: Yes.

815
00:37:14,075 --> 00:37:15,579
- Too bluesy.
ALYSA: No, it's sick.

816
00:37:15,646 --> 00:37:18,384
- ♪♪ Baby, I'm-- ♪♪
It's too low for me.

817
00:37:18,450 --> 00:37:19,888
Where is that for you?

818
00:37:19,954 --> 00:37:21,122
♪♪ Baby, I'm-- ♪♪

819
00:37:21,189 --> 00:37:23,461
WHITWORTH: He's got
a surprisingly high voice.

820
00:37:23,528 --> 00:37:24,931
- Yeah, I can go wherever
you want me to go with it.

821
00:37:24,997 --> 00:37:29,005
HILLARY: ♪♪ She's got
a hold on me ♪♪

822
00:37:29,072 --> 00:37:31,276
♪♪ Got a hold on me ♪♪

823
00:37:31,343 --> 00:37:33,380
- ♪♪ Got a hold-- ♪♪

824
00:37:33,447 --> 00:37:35,418
ALYSA: Fuck yeah.
No, it's fucking great.

825
00:37:35,485 --> 00:37:36,787
- Yeah, I see it.
ALYSA: I love that.

826
00:37:36,854 --> 00:37:38,592
- Yeah, that ain't high at all.

827
00:37:38,658 --> 00:37:41,764
I mean, frankly,
blues is gonna favor my voice

828
00:37:41,831 --> 00:37:44,136
just in general,
anything gritty.

829
00:37:44,203 --> 00:37:47,577
[guitar strumming]

830
00:37:47,643 --> 00:37:50,081
HILLARY: Is that right?
Yeah.

831
00:37:50,148 --> 00:37:53,086
- [humming]

832
00:38:06,915 --> 00:38:08,217
- That's cool.

833
00:38:08,284 --> 00:38:11,423
[vocalizing]

834
00:38:15,097 --> 00:38:17,703
- ♪♪ Got a hold on me ♪♪

835
00:38:17,770 --> 00:38:21,076
- That's cool.
[Jelly Roll vocalizing]

836
00:38:21,142 --> 00:38:24,683
[upbeat guitar music]

837
00:38:24,750 --> 00:38:25,686
HILLARY: Is my push wrong?

838
00:38:25,752 --> 00:38:27,188
ALYSA: No, it's good.

839
00:38:27,255 --> 00:38:29,860
[laughter]

840
00:38:29,927 --> 00:38:33,100
♪♪ ♪♪

841
00:38:33,167 --> 00:38:37,743
BOTH: ♪♪ You got curves just
like this bottle in my hands ♪♪

842
00:38:37,809 --> 00:38:41,885
♪♪ But I can't stop
but turning it back, baby ♪♪

843
00:38:41,951 --> 00:38:45,525
♪♪ It loves my lips like crazy ♪♪

844
00:38:45,592 --> 00:38:48,330
♪♪ You got eyes
that burn like tequila ♪♪

845
00:38:48,397 --> 00:38:52,372
♪♪ Ain't no man that
wouldn't kill to be with you ♪♪

846
00:38:52,439 --> 00:38:54,443
♪♪ Right now all wrapped up ♪♪

847
00:38:54,510 --> 00:38:57,850
♪♪ So why am I so fucked up ♪♪

848
00:38:57,917 --> 00:39:00,856
♪♪ Making strings
of bad decisions ♪♪

849
00:39:00,922 --> 00:39:06,233
♪♪ Leaving heaven
for this living hell ♪♪

850
00:39:06,300 --> 00:39:08,905
♪♪ Oh, yeah ♪♪

851
00:39:08,972 --> 00:39:14,784
♪♪ I know you're all I need ♪♪

852
00:39:14,850 --> 00:39:21,029
♪♪ But I just can't break free ♪♪

853
00:39:21,096 --> 00:39:25,304
♪♪ From this little devil
on my shoulder ♪♪

854
00:39:25,371 --> 00:39:27,542
♪♪ Swearing she's got wings ♪♪

855
00:39:27,610 --> 00:39:32,953
♪♪ You might be holding me ♪♪

856
00:39:33,020 --> 00:39:36,159
♪♪ But she's got a hold on me ♪♪

857
00:39:36,226 --> 00:39:38,832
♪♪ ♪♪

858
00:39:38,899 --> 00:39:43,808
♪♪ She's got the hold on me ♪♪

859
00:39:43,875 --> 00:39:50,288
♪♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah ♪♪

860
00:39:50,354 --> 00:39:52,358
WHITWORTH: Yeah, bro.

861
00:39:52,425 --> 00:39:54,964
JELLY ROLL: Music started
early with me as an option

862
00:39:55,031 --> 00:39:56,668
because even in middle school,

863
00:39:56,735 --> 00:39:58,270
I'd go to the lunch table
and rap.

864
00:39:58,337 --> 00:40:00,241
And I would gather crowds.

865
00:40:00,308 --> 00:40:02,445
And then I would rap
in jail or juvenile,

866
00:40:02,512 --> 00:40:03,948
and I would gather crowds.

867
00:40:04,015 --> 00:40:05,518
So it was just this thing
where I was like, man,

868
00:40:05,586 --> 00:40:08,123
every time I do this,
people stop what they're doing

869
00:40:08,190 --> 00:40:09,492
and watch me do it.

870
00:40:09,560 --> 00:40:12,165
I always felt like music
could have been it.

871
00:40:12,232 --> 00:40:15,471
I just wasn't sure how possible
it really fucking was.

872
00:40:15,537 --> 00:40:18,110
[percussive music]

873
00:40:18,176 --> 00:40:21,684
I didn't dream of CMA
red carpets when I was five.

874
00:40:21,750 --> 00:40:24,757
I dreamed of them
when I was 33 and I started

875
00:40:24,823 --> 00:40:26,293
having a big record growing.

876
00:40:26,360 --> 00:40:29,700
I was like, this might
actually fucking work.

877
00:40:29,767 --> 00:40:33,340
♪♪ ♪♪

878
00:40:33,407 --> 00:40:34,810
BUNNIE: I'm a West Coast girl.

879
00:40:34,877 --> 00:40:37,248
So living out here in Nashville
has been a culture shock.

880
00:40:37,315 --> 00:40:40,054
I'm like, do I have to start
wearing fucking rhinestones,

881
00:40:40,120 --> 00:40:42,759
and cowboy boots, and fucking
bellbottoms, and shit?

882
00:40:42,826 --> 00:40:44,329
Like, I don't even know.

883
00:40:44,396 --> 00:40:46,132
JELLY ROLL: I love the way
that they just doubled down

884
00:40:46,199 --> 00:40:47,770
on the flowers
right at the hoo-ha.

885
00:40:47,836 --> 00:40:49,038
- Yeah.
- Yes.

886
00:40:49,105 --> 00:40:50,642
- And the nipples.
- Doubling down on it.

887
00:40:50,709 --> 00:40:52,178
JELLY ROLL: Yeah, right?

888
00:40:52,245 --> 00:40:53,615
- Literally, there's nothing
in between here, but--yeah.

889
00:40:53,681 --> 00:40:54,950
No, it's crazy.

890
00:40:55,017 --> 00:40:55,919
JELLY ROLL: When it mattered,
he lit it up.

891
00:40:55,985 --> 00:40:57,421
BUNNIE: So I hold it like--

892
00:40:57,488 --> 00:40:58,958
JELLY ROLL: You just always
want to make sure that the--

893
00:40:59,025 --> 00:41:00,127
- Yeah, like that.
JELLY ROLL: Diamonds are front.

894
00:41:00,194 --> 00:41:01,764
- Like a football?
JELLY ROLL: Yeah.

895
00:41:01,831 --> 00:41:05,104
[laughter]
- No, do not do that.

896
00:41:05,171 --> 00:41:06,540
All right.

897
00:41:06,608 --> 00:41:08,177
JELLY ROLL: You know what I
love about this style, Crystal?

898
00:41:08,244 --> 00:41:09,580
CRYSTAL: What?

899
00:41:09,647 --> 00:41:10,983
JELLY ROLL: Is that you styled
it in a way that I would have

900
00:41:11,050 --> 00:41:13,019
looked great
without the jacket.

901
00:41:13,086 --> 00:41:15,992
And the jacket's just the fire.

902
00:41:16,059 --> 00:41:20,034
I think the evolution of my
music from rap to country

903
00:41:20,101 --> 00:41:22,104
has just been
the evolution of my human.

904
00:41:22,171 --> 00:41:24,977
It was all an evolution
of how the music came,

905
00:41:25,044 --> 00:41:27,014
you know, the songs I was
singing, the way I wrote them,

906
00:41:27,081 --> 00:41:28,383
my approach to everything.

907
00:41:28,450 --> 00:41:30,555
♪♪ ♪♪

908
00:41:30,622 --> 00:41:31,891
[chuckles]

909
00:41:31,958 --> 00:41:35,030
Somebody stop
and catch maniac, hoo-hoo.

910
00:41:35,097 --> 00:41:37,335
Some kid who had an orange
jumpsuit most of his life,

911
00:41:37,401 --> 00:41:39,072
look at him.

912
00:41:39,139 --> 00:41:41,577
Boy, my mom
would make fun of me.

913
00:41:41,644 --> 00:41:43,681
[laughing]

914
00:41:43,748 --> 00:41:47,255
Listen, this is a big
transition for me, y'all.

915
00:41:47,322 --> 00:41:48,759
If there was
a high school vote

916
00:41:48,825 --> 00:41:50,929
of least likely
to do anything cool,

917
00:41:50,996 --> 00:41:53,635
I would have
for sure won unanimously.

918
00:41:53,702 --> 00:41:56,139
[crowd cheering]

919
00:41:56,206 --> 00:41:58,912
I couldn't find
my way in anything.

920
00:41:58,979 --> 00:42:01,083
I always just ended up
with the outcasts,

921
00:42:01,149 --> 00:42:03,287
and the gang bangers,
and the drug dealers,

922
00:42:03,354 --> 00:42:04,657
and the drug users.

923
00:42:04,724 --> 00:42:08,397
Everywhere I went, I just
felt so less than average.

924
00:42:08,463 --> 00:42:09,700
I'm fucking shaking nervous.

925
00:42:09,767 --> 00:42:11,202
BUNNIE: Here we are.

926
00:42:11,269 --> 00:42:13,908
We're like the Addams family
of the country era.

927
00:42:13,975 --> 00:42:16,714
We don't belong here,
but we're here.

928
00:42:16,781 --> 00:42:18,551
- Right over here.

929
00:42:18,618 --> 00:42:20,120
- This is fun.

930
00:42:20,187 --> 00:42:22,893
[laughs]

931
00:42:22,960 --> 00:42:24,830
- And can we get
that down front, please?

932
00:42:24,897 --> 00:42:27,235
- How about right here?
- Hold it, hold it.

933
00:42:27,302 --> 00:42:29,105
[all shouting]

934
00:42:29,172 --> 00:42:31,644
- I don't think
I was prepared--

935
00:42:31,710 --> 00:42:33,781
I don't think anybody
is prepared--

936
00:42:33,848 --> 00:42:38,089
for what comes with the success
of entertainment.

937
00:42:38,156 --> 00:42:41,463
- Tell me about your name.
What is the inspiration?

938
00:42:41,530 --> 00:42:44,937
- Well, I was a pudgy kid.
You might not believe it.

939
00:42:45,004 --> 00:42:46,641
And my mother called me
"Jelly Roll."

940
00:42:46,707 --> 00:42:49,378
I used to like donuts.
Now I'm obese.

941
00:42:49,445 --> 00:42:50,715
- Oh, no--
- No, I'm joking.

942
00:42:50,782 --> 00:42:52,986
No, that is true.
She did give me the nickname.

943
00:42:53,053 --> 00:42:56,293
- It looks like you're trying
to get some forgiveness

944
00:42:56,359 --> 00:42:58,063
on your face
with that cross tattoo.

945
00:42:58,129 --> 00:43:00,534
- Oh, yes, sir.
I am a changed man.

946
00:43:00,602 --> 00:43:01,704
You know I've changed whenever

947
00:43:01,771 --> 00:43:02,707
I'm on the red carpet
talking to you.

948
00:43:02,773 --> 00:43:03,875
How about that?

949
00:43:03,942 --> 00:43:05,579
The boys back home,
I love y'all.

950
00:43:05,645 --> 00:43:07,315
Look, I did it, baby!

951
00:43:07,382 --> 00:43:08,852
- Ladies and gentlemen,

952
00:43:08,919 --> 00:43:12,291
my new favorite country
music star, Jelly Roll!

953
00:43:12,358 --> 00:43:13,561
- Whoo!

954
00:43:13,628 --> 00:43:15,999
- Is there any type
of music that he can't sing?

955
00:43:16,066 --> 00:43:18,805
It seems like any time--
any song you put him into,

956
00:43:18,872 --> 00:43:21,243
he kind of, like,
blends right in.

957
00:43:21,309 --> 00:43:22,780
- All I know is
I married a rapper,

958
00:43:22,846 --> 00:43:24,516
and now we're
at the Country Music Awards.

959
00:43:24,584 --> 00:43:26,588
So that speaks volumes.

960
00:43:26,654 --> 00:43:27,723
- Right, right.

961
00:43:27,790 --> 00:43:29,325
- That's her new thing.

962
00:43:29,392 --> 00:43:30,662
She's telling everybody,
"I married a rapper,

963
00:43:30,729 --> 00:43:31,998
"and now I'm
on the red carpet

964
00:43:32,065 --> 00:43:34,336
at the biggest night
in country music."

965
00:43:34,402 --> 00:43:35,438
I'm just glad to be here.

966
00:43:35,504 --> 00:43:37,876
This is one of them
real surreal experiences.

967
00:43:37,943 --> 00:43:40,314
As soon as we pulled up,
I was like, oh, this is real.

968
00:43:40,381 --> 00:43:42,251
BUNNIE: I don't know if it's
that we don't belong there.

969
00:43:42,318 --> 00:43:44,489
I think we don't fit in,
for sure.

970
00:43:44,556 --> 00:43:47,228
- Looking great.
Making sure the hair is good.

971
00:43:47,295 --> 00:43:48,363
Is it--

972
00:43:48,430 --> 00:43:49,766
- Making sure I look
as trashy as I feel.

973
00:43:49,833 --> 00:43:51,571
[laughter]

974
00:43:51,637 --> 00:43:54,009
BUNNIE: Country needs people
to shake some shit up.

975
00:43:54,075 --> 00:43:56,279
We need some
rock and roll country.

976
00:43:56,346 --> 00:43:59,252
Cookie cutter?
That's not us.

977
00:43:59,319 --> 00:44:01,590
We're like--we're over here
just smashing the cookies,

978
00:44:01,657 --> 00:44:04,529
ripping them apart, biting the
heads off like Alice Cooper,

979
00:44:04,597 --> 00:44:05,530
spitting them out.

980
00:44:05,598 --> 00:44:06,901
[chuckles]

981
00:44:06,968 --> 00:44:08,303
- Appreciate y'all.
I'm glad to be here.

982
00:44:08,370 --> 00:44:10,842
First red carpet, baby!
- Yay, he's killing it!

983
00:44:10,909 --> 00:44:13,480
You ready?
Turn around and smile.

984
00:44:13,548 --> 00:44:16,253
- [chuckles]
I'm just kidding.

985
00:44:16,320 --> 00:44:18,825
JELLY ROLL: It's unreal.
It's an unreal experience.

986
00:44:18,891 --> 00:44:22,364
I did not anticipate
any of what happened.

987
00:44:22,431 --> 00:44:24,368
I first came in, like,
does somebody got a drink?

988
00:44:24,435 --> 00:44:26,439
I'm trying to cool down.
I'm just nervous.

989
00:44:26,506 --> 00:44:27,575
But I settled into it.

990
00:44:27,642 --> 00:44:28,845
Seeing a couple of friends,

991
00:44:28,912 --> 00:44:31,349
that always makes you
feel better.

992
00:44:35,090 --> 00:44:37,095
- No way.
We love you, Reba.

993
00:44:37,161 --> 00:44:38,765
- Reba, we love you.
- I love you so much.

994
00:44:38,831 --> 00:44:40,602
You have no clue.
My name is Jelly Roll.

995
00:44:40,669 --> 00:44:42,138
And I just love you, Reba.

996
00:44:42,205 --> 00:44:44,744
- "Fancy" was my life--
- "Fancy" was our theme song.

997
00:44:44,810 --> 00:44:47,716
We lived it, Reba!
We lived it!

998
00:44:47,783 --> 00:44:48,885
Incredible day on the carpet.

999
00:44:48,952 --> 00:44:49,921
I couldn't ask
for anything better.

1000
00:44:49,987 --> 00:44:51,222
- I'm so proud of you.

1001
00:44:51,289 --> 00:44:52,659
- A dream come true,
to be honest.

1002
00:44:52,726 --> 00:44:53,995
[chuckles]

1003
00:44:54,061 --> 00:44:55,998
[soft music]

1004
00:44:56,065 --> 00:44:59,372
This wasn't a normal day
for kids like us.

1005
00:44:59,439 --> 00:45:02,312
I used to fear that one day
I'd be washed up

1006
00:45:02,378 --> 00:45:04,449
and be the guy
who had that one song

1007
00:45:04,515 --> 00:45:05,785
or those two or three songs.

1008
00:45:05,852 --> 00:45:09,359
But I don't worry
about that no more.

1009
00:45:09,426 --> 00:45:11,196
I'm literally
at a point in my life

1010
00:45:11,263 --> 00:45:13,568
now where I am making
music for people,

1011
00:45:13,635 --> 00:45:15,471
for love, and for legacy.

1012
00:45:15,538 --> 00:45:17,976
This has nothing
to do with money.

1013
00:45:18,043 --> 00:45:19,846
- What's up, Jelly Roll?
JELLY ROLL: What's up, y'all?

1014
00:45:19,913 --> 00:45:21,416
How are y'all?
- Good, how are you?

1015
00:45:21,482 --> 00:45:23,855
JELLY ROLL: Good to see y'all,
brother, bless y'all.

1016
00:45:23,922 --> 00:45:25,892
- Jelly Roll!

1017
00:45:25,958 --> 00:45:27,796
JELLY ROLL: I'm a hugger.
- Thank you, honey.

1018
00:45:27,862 --> 00:45:29,332
I know.
I love you guys.

1019
00:45:29,398 --> 00:45:31,302
- Oh, thank you.
- I'm straight on independent.

1020
00:45:31,369 --> 00:45:34,409
- How are you?
- Do you know, I'm her mother.

1021
00:45:34,475 --> 00:45:36,480
- All right,
I'd have never guessed.

1022
00:45:36,547 --> 00:45:38,049
- I watched your movie.
I'm 14 1/2 years, thank you.

1023
00:45:38,116 --> 00:45:39,319
- No, thank you.
- You saved me.

1024
00:45:39,385 --> 00:45:41,456
- Truly, thank you, baby.
- Oh, my God.

1025
00:45:41,523 --> 00:45:42,859
Can I get a picture?
- Yeah, of course.

1026
00:45:42,926 --> 00:45:44,462
- Oh, my God, I'm shaking.

1027
00:45:44,529 --> 00:45:46,232
JELLY ROLL: If it was
the money, baby, I'd have

1028
00:45:46,299 --> 00:45:47,569
already showed my character.

1029
00:45:47,636 --> 00:45:49,172
And you'd have seen
dollar bills flying out

1030
00:45:49,239 --> 00:45:51,644
the back of a drop-top, daddy.

1031
00:45:51,711 --> 00:45:58,858
♪♪ ♪♪

1032
00:46:03,067 --> 00:46:06,106
[crowd chanting]

1033
00:46:06,172 --> 00:46:09,078
Jelly Roll, Jelly Roll,
Jelly Roll!

1034
00:46:09,145 --> 00:46:11,651
- One, two, three!

1035
00:46:11,718 --> 00:46:14,590
[Jelly Roll's "Hate Goes On"]

1036
00:46:14,657 --> 00:46:18,564
♪♪ ♪♪

1037
00:46:18,631 --> 00:46:20,100
- ♪♪ We the type to pull up
to your party like ♪♪

1038
00:46:20,167 --> 00:46:21,737
♪♪ What's up with y'all? ♪♪

1039
00:46:21,804 --> 00:46:23,073
♪♪ Everybody in this bitch know
that we don't fuck ♪♪

1040
00:46:23,140 --> 00:46:24,576
♪♪ With y'all ♪♪

1041
00:46:24,643 --> 00:46:26,881
Travel is nonstop.
We're constantly on the road.

1042
00:46:26,948 --> 00:46:28,752
We haven't been home
in months.

1043
00:46:28,818 --> 00:46:30,955
We're jumping from one city
straight to the next,

1044
00:46:31,022 --> 00:46:32,726
over and over again.

1045
00:46:32,793 --> 00:46:34,797
♪♪ No need to back down,
the king is back now ♪♪

1046
00:46:34,864 --> 00:46:37,134
♪♪ The king of white trash
is 'bout to act out ♪♪

1047
00:46:37,201 --> 00:46:40,007
This morning we woke up
and flew to Mississippi.

1048
00:46:40,074 --> 00:46:42,245
Sold out
Mississippi show, baby!

1049
00:46:42,311 --> 00:46:44,081
- I can't stop drinking,
every day.

1050
00:46:45,819 --> 00:46:49,525
- We got snow, booze,
friendship,

1051
00:46:49,593 --> 00:46:52,398
and a sold-out show, baby,
let's go.

1052
00:46:52,465 --> 00:46:54,001
- Actually, you want
to hear a story?

1053
00:46:54,068 --> 00:46:55,070
I woke up at 9:00
with a bunch of--

1054
00:46:55,137 --> 00:46:56,907
- No.
[laughter]

1055
00:46:56,974 --> 00:46:59,012
- Oh, good morning.

1056
00:46:59,078 --> 00:47:01,784
- My name's Eskimo Kountry.

1057
00:47:01,851 --> 00:47:03,621
And you are live.

1058
00:47:03,688 --> 00:47:05,357
- You guys are assholes.

1059
00:47:05,423 --> 00:47:06,894
JELLY ROLL:
I love all of my guys.

1060
00:47:06,961 --> 00:47:08,597
And I can say
I'm really blessed, man.

1061
00:47:08,664 --> 00:47:10,668
I've got a really,
really good team, for real.

1062
00:47:10,735 --> 00:47:11,904
- [vocalizing]

1063
00:47:11,971 --> 00:47:13,140
[laughter]

1064
00:47:13,206 --> 00:47:16,145
[soft music]

1065
00:47:16,212 --> 00:47:19,318
- Bus life, it is unglorifying.

1066
00:47:19,385 --> 00:47:21,323
Scary, you still
ain't rolled it.

1067
00:47:21,390 --> 00:47:22,759
What do you got?

1068
00:47:22,826 --> 00:47:24,897
I think one of the things
I pride myself on the most

1069
00:47:24,964 --> 00:47:26,533
is having guys around me
that have

1070
00:47:26,601 --> 00:47:29,172
been around me a long time,
and also second-chance guys.

1071
00:47:29,239 --> 00:47:31,944
SCARY: I was his merch guy
since he's been touring.

1072
00:47:32,011 --> 00:47:35,652
We've literally talked all this
into existence getting high

1073
00:47:35,719 --> 00:47:37,288
on my couch in my living room.

1074
00:47:37,355 --> 00:47:39,292
He was like,
"Man, Scary, one day you ain't

1075
00:47:39,359 --> 00:47:40,662
"even gonna have to do merch.

1076
00:47:40,728 --> 00:47:42,632
We're gonna be
selling out arenas."

1077
00:47:42,699 --> 00:47:44,402
JELLY ROLL: You know, a lot of
these guys that work with me

1078
00:47:44,469 --> 00:47:46,272
are guys that came
from where I came from

1079
00:47:46,339 --> 00:47:47,609
or I've known a long time.

1080
00:47:47,676 --> 00:47:49,312
And I'm giving them
an opportunity

1081
00:47:49,379 --> 00:47:52,118
and a chance not to have
to risk their freedom anymore.

1082
00:47:52,185 --> 00:47:54,388
BOSTON: Originally,
he was like, "Look, bro,

1083
00:47:54,455 --> 00:47:56,727
"I don't have a lot
of money for you right now.

1084
00:47:56,794 --> 00:47:57,796
But I promise you one thing."

1085
00:47:57,863 --> 00:47:59,132
And I said, "What's that?"

1086
00:47:59,199 --> 00:48:01,269
He said, "I promise
to show you things

1087
00:48:01,336 --> 00:48:03,039
you've never seen
all the time."

1088
00:48:03,106 --> 00:48:05,746
And he keeps that promise
to this day.

1089
00:48:05,812 --> 00:48:08,350
SCARY: We definitely came
from a shit place,

1090
00:48:08,416 --> 00:48:12,024
and you know,
some of us have been lucky.

1091
00:48:12,090 --> 00:48:14,896
And some of us
haven't been so lucky.

1092
00:48:14,963 --> 00:48:17,301
- I could rattle names
and bore you

1093
00:48:17,368 --> 00:48:19,673
with the caskets
we've had to carry of people

1094
00:48:19,740 --> 00:48:22,646
who were either shot
and killed or overdosed

1095
00:48:22,713 --> 00:48:24,916
on some sort of a drug.

1096
00:48:24,983 --> 00:48:29,091
I was in a tailspin
for a long, long time, man.

1097
00:48:29,158 --> 00:48:33,132
And it cost me a lot--a lot.

1098
00:48:33,199 --> 00:48:35,136
On more than one occasion,
my daughter

1099
00:48:35,203 --> 00:48:38,209
was a divine intervention
in my life.

1100
00:48:40,982 --> 00:48:43,554
♪♪ ♪♪

1101
00:48:43,621 --> 00:48:47,562
I met Bailee's mother when
I first came home from jail.

1102
00:48:47,629 --> 00:48:53,473
We met at a mutual
friend's house, I think.

1103
00:48:53,540 --> 00:48:56,078
I was focused
on selling drugs.

1104
00:48:56,145 --> 00:48:58,016
And then she got pregnant.

1105
00:48:58,083 --> 00:49:01,389
♪♪ ♪♪

1106
00:49:01,456 --> 00:49:06,634
And I violated probation,
and I went back to jail again.

1107
00:49:06,701 --> 00:49:09,639
♪♪ ♪♪

1108
00:49:09,706 --> 00:49:13,146
I was in Harding Place
at a facility called CCA

1109
00:49:13,213 --> 00:49:14,883
right here in Nashville,
Tennessee.

1110
00:49:14,950 --> 00:49:17,021
I was in the H unit.

1111
00:49:17,087 --> 00:49:20,494
I was in cell 223.

1112
00:49:20,561 --> 00:49:26,039
And the guard came and knocked
on my door May 22, 2008,

1113
00:49:26,106 --> 00:49:28,277
and told me I had a daughter.

1114
00:49:28,343 --> 00:49:30,247
He goes,
"You had a little girl today.

1115
00:49:30,314 --> 00:49:32,518
Your daughter
was born this morning."

1116
00:49:32,586 --> 00:49:34,021
I go to the door
as he walks away.

1117
00:49:34,088 --> 00:49:37,395
I bang on the door and go,
"Hey, hey, you know her name?"

1118
00:49:37,461 --> 00:49:39,065
He leans back
to the window and goes,

1119
00:49:39,132 --> 00:49:40,569
"Fuck, I don't know, man.

1120
00:49:40,635 --> 00:49:41,871
He's like, "I'm just telling
you what they told me

1121
00:49:41,938 --> 00:49:43,808
to tell you, buddy."

1122
00:49:43,875 --> 00:49:46,547
♪♪ ♪♪

1123
00:49:46,614 --> 00:49:50,420
I think I lived an extremely
selfish life to that moment.

1124
00:49:50,487 --> 00:49:52,792
And I think it was
the first time in my whole life

1125
00:49:52,859 --> 00:49:56,166
I thought about putting
somebody in front of me.

1126
00:49:56,233 --> 00:49:58,302
[baby crying]

1127
00:49:58,369 --> 00:50:01,142
In that moment,
I made a promise with her

1128
00:50:01,209 --> 00:50:02,912
that I had to be there
for her.

1129
00:50:02,979 --> 00:50:08,056
And it's almost like something
just clicked right then.

1130
00:50:08,122 --> 00:50:11,664
[electronic music]

1131
00:50:11,731 --> 00:50:14,970
I came out of jail
with a plan A and a plan B.

1132
00:50:15,037 --> 00:50:17,609
Plan A was,
I was gonna come home,

1133
00:50:17,676 --> 00:50:20,581
and I was gonna put every piece
of energy I had into music.

1134
00:50:20,648 --> 00:50:24,321
My plan B was getting my GED
while I was in jail

1135
00:50:24,388 --> 00:50:26,593
and come home and enroll
in a community college

1136
00:50:26,660 --> 00:50:28,230
and try to live
the square life.

1137
00:50:28,296 --> 00:50:30,968
And plan C was,
I was gonna go

1138
00:50:31,035 --> 00:50:32,504
back to what I'd always done.

1139
00:50:32,572 --> 00:50:35,812
I came home and bet
the farm on plan A.

1140
00:50:35,879 --> 00:50:37,514
♪♪ Came to my city,
I'm a writer ♪♪

1141
00:50:37,582 --> 00:50:39,318
♪♪ Antioch's prizefighter ♪♪

1142
00:50:39,385 --> 00:50:41,958
♪♪ And I'm higher
than a note hit by Mariah ♪♪

1143
00:50:42,024 --> 00:50:43,695
♪♪ I'm on fire ♪♪

1144
00:50:43,761 --> 00:50:45,397
Man, I rapped because I didn't
think I could sing for shit.

1145
00:50:45,464 --> 00:50:46,667
My whole family couldn't sing.

1146
00:50:46,734 --> 00:50:49,238
So I just assumed I was
in the bad singing club.

1147
00:50:49,305 --> 00:50:51,009
We were like alley cats,
you know?

1148
00:50:51,075 --> 00:50:53,313
[howling]

1149
00:50:53,380 --> 00:50:54,850
Before I rapped, I sold crack.

1150
00:50:54,917 --> 00:50:56,553
I really got money in 50 ways.

1151
00:50:56,620 --> 00:50:58,123
No lie, I went
to jail a few times

1152
00:50:58,189 --> 00:51:00,494
and did like 950 days.

1153
00:51:00,562 --> 00:51:03,066
Still getting money.
Swear to God, I got about 50K.

1154
00:51:03,133 --> 00:51:05,170
All right, shit, did it!

1155
00:51:05,236 --> 00:51:06,238
Told 'em!

1156
00:51:06,305 --> 00:51:07,875
I passed out mixtapes.

1157
00:51:07,942 --> 00:51:09,445
Then I started doing shows.

1158
00:51:09,511 --> 00:51:11,249
And I found out
about touring and how

1159
00:51:11,316 --> 00:51:12,619
people needed people to open.

1160
00:51:12,686 --> 00:51:14,355
You can get 100 bucks a night.

1161
00:51:14,422 --> 00:51:15,991
And bought an old van.

1162
00:51:16,058 --> 00:51:17,294
♪♪ Yo, man, I got him ♪♪

1163
00:51:17,361 --> 00:51:19,465
♪♪ Now I think we
got a problem ♪♪

1164
00:51:19,532 --> 00:51:22,304
I never had a house.
I slept in my van.

1165
00:51:22,371 --> 00:51:24,877
I was like the old,
weird van-rapper guy.

1166
00:51:24,944 --> 00:51:27,715
- You're gonna be doing
a lot of doobie rolling

1167
00:51:27,782 --> 00:51:31,924
when you're living
in a van down by the river!

1168
00:51:31,991 --> 00:51:35,831
♪♪ ♪♪

1169
00:51:35,898 --> 00:51:38,503
- I've never done anything
in my life half-assed.

1170
00:51:38,571 --> 00:51:40,273
Music was my Hail Mary.

1171
00:51:40,340 --> 00:51:42,444
It's a lifestyle
or bust with me.

1172
00:51:42,511 --> 00:51:44,114
♪♪ Everybody,
everybody screaming ♪♪

1173
00:51:44,181 --> 00:51:45,618
♪♪ We don't give a fuck ♪♪

1174
00:51:45,685 --> 00:51:48,691
♪♪ Screaming ♪♪
ALL: ♪♪ We don't give a fuck ♪♪

1175
00:51:48,757 --> 00:51:50,561
[country music]

1176
00:51:50,628 --> 00:51:52,197
- We were figuring it out,
man.

1177
00:51:52,264 --> 00:51:54,135
We were living in the van.

1178
00:51:54,201 --> 00:51:55,504
We were living off the land.

1179
00:51:55,571 --> 00:51:57,709
We were crashing on couches.

1180
00:51:57,776 --> 00:52:00,247
There was a lot
of living off the ladies,

1181
00:52:00,313 --> 00:52:01,415
that's for sure.

1182
00:52:01,482 --> 00:52:03,420
There was definitely--
[laughs]

1183
00:52:03,487 --> 00:52:05,758
- Daddy.
- Ey.

1184
00:52:05,825 --> 00:52:08,831
BUNNIE: When I met him, I was
just like, who is this dude?

1185
00:52:08,898 --> 00:52:09,866
And he was nobody.

1186
00:52:09,933 --> 00:52:11,903
They were playing
a room of 30 people.

1187
00:52:11,970 --> 00:52:13,674
It's always been,
oh, she's a gold digger.

1188
00:52:13,741 --> 00:52:16,112
And I'm just like,
bro, that's not the case.

1189
00:52:16,178 --> 00:52:18,718
He would, like, FaceTime me
and ask me for things

1190
00:52:18,785 --> 00:52:20,387
that he would need for Bailee.

1191
00:52:20,454 --> 00:52:22,191
I was just like,
why is this guy calling me,

1192
00:52:22,258 --> 00:52:23,761
asking me this about his kid?

1193
00:52:23,827 --> 00:52:26,432
You know, this is crazy.
But I didn't mind it.

1194
00:52:26,499 --> 00:52:28,737
That's the kind of pull
that J had on me.

1195
00:52:28,804 --> 00:52:30,173
JELLY ROLL:
Bunnie's always been

1196
00:52:30,240 --> 00:52:31,342
in the sex worker industry.

1197
00:52:31,409 --> 00:52:33,112
That was the culture in Vegas.

1198
00:52:33,179 --> 00:52:34,883
And I just related
to that so much

1199
00:52:34,950 --> 00:52:37,789
because I understood how much
an environment can affect you

1200
00:52:37,856 --> 00:52:39,559
and how you see things,
you know?

1201
00:52:39,626 --> 00:52:42,398
Bunnie was who she was.

1202
00:52:42,464 --> 00:52:44,569
I was who I was.

1203
00:52:44,636 --> 00:52:48,009
It was two people looking
to run wild together.

1204
00:52:48,076 --> 00:52:50,548
And I think that's what
attracted me to Bunnie,

1205
00:52:50,614 --> 00:52:51,650
you know?

1206
00:52:51,717 --> 00:52:52,986
BUNNIE:
Every time he would see me,

1207
00:52:53,053 --> 00:52:54,857
I would always
be the one giving him drugs.

1208
00:52:54,923 --> 00:52:56,927
So he would be like,
hey, you got a Xanax bar?

1209
00:52:56,993 --> 00:52:58,062
And I would give it to him.

1210
00:52:58,129 --> 00:52:59,465
Or he'd be like, hey,
you got a bump of coke?

1211
00:52:59,532 --> 00:53:02,037
And I'd stick my nail
up his nose, you know?

1212
00:53:02,104 --> 00:53:03,306
- Howdy.

1213
00:53:03,373 --> 00:53:05,210
- [laughs]

1214
00:53:05,276 --> 00:53:07,080
Guys, I'm off the market.

1215
00:53:07,147 --> 00:53:09,018
JELLY ROLL:
Oh, we got married quick.

1216
00:53:09,085 --> 00:53:12,358
We stumbled into a courthouse
at 11:59 blackout drunk

1217
00:53:12,424 --> 00:53:13,627
and got married.

1218
00:53:13,694 --> 00:53:16,867
[cheering]

1219
00:53:17,569 --> 00:53:20,273
- I'll probably still get
blackout drunk once a year

1220
00:53:20,340 --> 00:53:21,476
the rest of my life
just because you

1221
00:53:21,542 --> 00:53:23,513
never know what can happen.

1222
00:53:23,580 --> 00:53:25,350
Y'all didn't see
that coming, did you?

1223
00:53:25,417 --> 00:53:28,322
[laughs]
- Yeah, baby!

1224
00:53:31,564 --> 00:53:33,867
We were extremely toxic.

1225
00:53:34,703 --> 00:53:37,608
I was partying like crazy.

1226
00:53:37,675 --> 00:53:41,048
And he was partying as well.

1227
00:53:41,115 --> 00:53:44,088
And it's not--it's not a party
if it happens every night.

1228
00:53:44,155 --> 00:53:45,959
It's an addiction.

1229
00:53:46,026 --> 00:53:49,900
- I'm not sure that I wouldn't
have overdosed eventually.

1230
00:53:49,967 --> 00:53:53,373
I'm not sure that I wasn't
playing those dangerous games

1231
00:53:53,440 --> 00:53:54,910
enough every night.

1232
00:53:54,977 --> 00:53:57,716
I think I thought I was
chasing the bigger dream.

1233
00:53:57,782 --> 00:54:00,353
But I came close to breaking
that promise I made to Bailee

1234
00:54:00,420 --> 00:54:02,391
and myself a lot.

1235
00:54:02,457 --> 00:54:05,397
[soft music]

1236
00:54:05,464 --> 00:54:09,071
♪♪ ♪♪

1237
00:54:09,138 --> 00:54:12,745
- Do you need anything else?
JELLY ROLL: No, I'm good.

1238
00:54:12,812 --> 00:54:15,651
[coughing]

1239
00:54:15,718 --> 00:54:16,987
Ooh.

1240
00:54:17,054 --> 00:54:18,991
Dude, I pulled a muscle
right here, dude.

1241
00:54:19,058 --> 00:54:22,364
And it has been
the most painful thing

1242
00:54:22,431 --> 00:54:24,168
I've been through
in the last five years.

1243
00:54:24,235 --> 00:54:25,871
It is so bad, dude.

1244
00:54:25,938 --> 00:54:27,440
I wish I could
describe to you--

1245
00:54:27,507 --> 00:54:29,311
dude, I sneezed and cried.

1246
00:54:29,378 --> 00:54:31,382
[laughter]

1247
00:54:31,449 --> 00:54:32,686
- Getting too old
for this shit, man.

1248
00:54:32,753 --> 00:54:33,987
BUNNIE: You know, he's a man.

1249
00:54:34,054 --> 00:54:35,323
He doesn't take care
of himself.

1250
00:54:35,390 --> 00:54:36,727
He's been sick for two weeks.

1251
00:54:36,794 --> 00:54:38,062
Literally, we're on the phone.

1252
00:54:38,129 --> 00:54:39,365
I said,
"Baby, you don't sound good."

1253
00:54:39,431 --> 00:54:41,703
He's like, "I'm fine."

1254
00:54:41,770 --> 00:54:43,707
JELLY ROLL:
You definitely sacrifice a lot

1255
00:54:43,774 --> 00:54:47,047
of personal time for
the greater good of the music,

1256
00:54:47,114 --> 00:54:49,886
you know, and the message.

1257
00:54:49,953 --> 00:54:51,456
- Hi, baby.
- I love you.

1258
00:54:51,522 --> 00:54:53,192
- I love you.
- I'm sweating.

1259
00:54:53,259 --> 00:54:54,562
- Are you?

1260
00:54:54,629 --> 00:54:56,766
Baby, you're really going
through something.

1261
00:54:56,833 --> 00:54:59,305
- I'm puking still.
It's like phlegm.

1262
00:54:59,372 --> 00:55:01,577
- You look
really thin and pale.

1263
00:55:01,643 --> 00:55:03,313
Can you go to a doctor?
- Yeah, I'm gonna go today.

1264
00:55:03,380 --> 00:55:05,350
I just got to handle some shit.
- OK, I'm gonna go with you.

1265
00:55:05,416 --> 00:55:06,686
- OK.

1266
00:55:06,753 --> 00:55:08,256
We're rounding
third right now.

1267
00:55:08,323 --> 00:55:10,561
All roads are pointing
to the Bridgestone.

1268
00:55:10,628 --> 00:55:13,133
We got a lot of rehearsal
to do--new production,

1269
00:55:13,199 --> 00:55:14,970
new everything.

1270
00:55:15,036 --> 00:55:17,341
So it's starting
to become the stressful time.

1271
00:55:17,407 --> 00:55:19,144
- How do you feel?
- I feel OK.

1272
00:55:19,211 --> 00:55:21,516
I got a steroid shot.
- Yeah, I can see it in you.

1273
00:55:21,583 --> 00:55:23,352
- No, I'm burning up.

1274
00:55:23,419 --> 00:55:25,089
I feel fucking incredible.

1275
00:55:25,156 --> 00:55:27,428
But I am, like, sweating
out of my fucking knees.

1276
00:55:27,495 --> 00:55:28,764
- Poor baby.

1277
00:55:28,830 --> 00:55:30,133
JELLY ROLL:
At the end of the day,

1278
00:55:30,200 --> 00:55:33,039
I've always related
what I do to boxing.

1279
00:55:33,106 --> 00:55:34,776
And it's like,
you have a team of people

1280
00:55:34,843 --> 00:55:36,714
that are helping you get ready.

1281
00:55:36,780 --> 00:55:39,285
But you got to get
in that ring and fight.

1282
00:55:39,352 --> 00:55:42,490
[crowd cheering]

1283
00:55:47,636 --> 00:55:49,104
- I told y'all
that tonight would

1284
00:55:49,171 --> 00:55:51,408
be a night of celebration.

1285
00:55:53,714 --> 00:55:55,751
You're just always more
concerned with the people

1286
00:55:55,818 --> 00:55:57,087
that bought a ticket.

1287
00:55:57,153 --> 00:56:00,962
At the end of the day,
I got to deliver.

1288
00:56:01,029 --> 00:56:02,832
Period.

1289
00:56:02,899 --> 00:56:05,270
I've never been more
excited to share

1290
00:56:05,337 --> 00:56:07,675
and dedicate this song
to everybody who lives

1291
00:56:07,742 --> 00:56:10,814
between right and wrong.

1292
00:56:10,881 --> 00:56:12,885
It's their big night.

1293
00:56:12,952 --> 00:56:15,524
It ain't my big night.
This is their big night.

1294
00:56:15,592 --> 00:56:17,527
Minnesota,
my name's Jelly Roll,

1295
00:56:17,595 --> 00:56:19,232
and this is "Son of a Sinner"!

1296
00:56:19,298 --> 00:56:22,204
[crowd roaring]

1297
00:56:22,271 --> 00:56:25,845
♪♪ ♪♪

1298
00:56:25,911 --> 00:56:28,651
♪♪ I never get lonely ♪♪

1299
00:56:28,718 --> 00:56:31,623
♪♪ I got these ghosts
to keep me company ♪♪

1300
00:56:31,690 --> 00:56:35,330
♪♪ I took the rearview
off of this old Ford ♪♪

1301
00:56:35,397 --> 00:56:38,069
♪♪ I only see in front of me ♪♪

1302
00:56:38,136 --> 00:56:42,579
♪♪ Now the past is out
of sight and out of mind ♪♪

1303
00:56:42,645 --> 00:56:44,215
♪♪ I swore I changed ♪♪

1304
00:56:44,282 --> 00:56:47,922
♪♪ Now I'm back chasing
these white lines ♪♪

1305
00:56:47,989 --> 00:56:52,932
♪♪ I'm just a long-haired
son of a sinner ♪♪

1306
00:56:52,999 --> 00:56:58,610
♪♪ I'm searching for new ways
I can get gone ♪♪

1307
00:56:58,677 --> 00:57:01,382
♪♪ I'm a pedal to the highway ♪♪

1308
00:57:01,449 --> 00:57:07,026
♪♪ If you ever wonder
why we write these songs ♪♪

1309
00:57:07,093 --> 00:57:10,066
♪♪ ♪♪

1310
00:57:10,133 --> 00:57:12,638
♪♪ I'm only one ♪♪

1311
00:57:12,705 --> 00:57:15,410
ALL:
♪♪ Drink away from the devil ♪♪

1312
00:57:15,477 --> 00:57:17,314
JELLY ROLL: Being on tour
and seeing people every night

1313
00:57:17,380 --> 00:57:19,720
and realizing
how much this music has

1314
00:57:19,786 --> 00:57:24,696
an effect like church and how
much of an outlet concerts are

1315
00:57:24,763 --> 00:57:26,733
changed the way
I approach that.

1316
00:57:26,800 --> 00:57:28,603
ALL: ♪♪ Right and wrong ♪♪

1317
00:57:31,877 --> 00:57:33,512
JELLY ROLL:
My new album is just growth

1318
00:57:33,580 --> 00:57:35,417
and gratitude in real time.

1319
00:57:35,483 --> 00:57:38,422
[soft music]

1320
00:57:38,489 --> 00:57:43,199
♪♪ ♪♪

1321
00:57:43,266 --> 00:57:46,205
We've been scared and gone
to heaven for 30 albums.

1322
00:57:49,178 --> 00:57:52,451
This album that's fixing
to come out,

1323
00:57:52,517 --> 00:57:54,087
you know, it's--

1324
00:57:54,154 --> 00:57:56,325
it's time to get
a little hopeful, man.

1325
00:57:56,392 --> 00:58:00,266
♪♪ ♪♪

1326
00:58:00,333 --> 00:58:03,506
I was inspired to put a choir
in "Need a Favor"

1327
00:58:03,574 --> 00:58:07,013
because I felt like it needed
that back-road Baptist feel,

1328
00:58:07,080 --> 00:58:09,919
where the entire sermon
scares you to heaven.

1329
00:58:09,986 --> 00:58:13,760
And then the organ hits,
and they go, but there's hope.

1330
00:58:13,827 --> 00:58:16,031
That's what
this new music is for me,

1331
00:58:16,098 --> 00:58:19,037
is it's the organ hitting
and there being hope.

1332
00:58:19,104 --> 00:58:22,311
- I'm like, this is some--
some ish I would do.

1333
00:58:22,378 --> 00:58:23,747
- [chuckles]

1334
00:58:23,814 --> 00:58:25,350
- Because you know I like rock.

1335
00:58:25,416 --> 00:58:26,753
And that's like rock.

1336
00:58:26,819 --> 00:58:29,859
- It is like a rock,
country type of vibe.

1337
00:58:29,926 --> 00:58:32,698
- I said, oh,
this is gonna go.

1338
00:58:32,765 --> 00:58:34,903
- That's real
musicianship, baby.

1339
00:58:34,970 --> 00:58:37,307
- Yeah.

1340
00:58:37,374 --> 00:58:40,413
ALL: ♪♪ I need a favor ♪♪
- Yeah.

1341
00:58:40,480 --> 00:58:42,752
[chuckles]
- Yeah.

1342
00:58:42,819 --> 00:58:44,388
- What's up,
what's up, what's up?

1343
00:58:44,454 --> 00:58:46,392
How are y'all?
- Hi.

1344
00:58:46,458 --> 00:58:49,298
- This is so fucking awesome
to have y'all.

1345
00:58:49,365 --> 00:58:52,170
Y'all know when I dreamed
this up, I was like, no way.

1346
00:58:52,237 --> 00:58:53,641
I was like, there's no way
they'll say yes.

1347
00:58:53,707 --> 00:58:57,347
Like, we got to get the Fisk
Jubilee Singers on this song.

1348
00:58:57,413 --> 00:58:58,884
So nice to meet y'all, man.

1349
00:58:58,951 --> 00:59:00,487
I was born and raised
here in Nashville.

1350
00:59:00,555 --> 00:59:03,593
So I've always been familiar
with Fisk University

1351
00:59:03,660 --> 00:59:05,096
and what Fisk meant
to the community,

1352
00:59:05,162 --> 00:59:07,434
and especially the Black
community and the history

1353
00:59:07,500 --> 00:59:08,871
of the Fisk Jubilee Singers.

1354
00:59:08,938 --> 00:59:11,943
So that was a dream come true.

1355
00:59:12,010 --> 00:59:14,147
SHANNON: Fisk is a university
here in Nashville.

1356
00:59:14,214 --> 00:59:17,321
They're part of this HBCU,
a Black college here in town.

1357
00:59:17,388 --> 00:59:18,991
The Fisk Jubilee Singers
have just celebrated

1358
00:59:19,058 --> 00:59:20,895
150 years of existence.

1359
00:59:20,962 --> 00:59:23,099
They're an institution
in Nashville.

1360
00:59:23,166 --> 00:59:24,669
And so I was honored
to be able to facilitate

1361
00:59:24,735 --> 00:59:28,142
the joining of Jelly
and the Fisk Jubilee Singers.

1362
00:59:28,209 --> 00:59:29,377
JELLY ROLL: Have they asked
you yet how we've known

1363
00:59:29,444 --> 00:59:31,248
each other
my whole life almost?

1364
00:59:31,315 --> 00:59:34,488
- He was winning rap
battle competitions, right,

1365
00:59:34,555 --> 00:59:36,058
when he was in high school.

1366
00:59:36,125 --> 00:59:37,695
I don't even know--
bro, you weren't even old--

1367
00:59:37,761 --> 00:59:39,097
- True story.
- Enough to be in the club.

1368
00:59:39,164 --> 00:59:40,935
He was winning every week,
like, for months.

1369
00:59:41,001 --> 00:59:43,808
One, two, three, and--

1370
00:59:43,874 --> 00:59:49,250
ALL: ♪♪ Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa ♪♪

1371
00:59:49,317 --> 00:59:56,031
- And--
ALL: ♪♪ Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa ♪♪

1372
00:59:56,098 --> 01:00:02,978
♪♪ Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa ♪♪

1373
01:00:03,780 --> 01:00:05,083
SHANNON: Everybody,
just find your part.

1374
01:00:05,149 --> 01:00:06,553
Just do the Jubilee thing
on the "ooh."

1375
01:00:06,620 --> 01:00:11,329
♪♪ Ooh ♪♪

1376
01:00:11,396 --> 01:00:13,299
You feel me?

1377
01:00:13,365 --> 01:00:15,971
One, two, ready, and--

1378
01:00:16,038 --> 01:00:21,783
ALL: ♪♪ Ooh ♪♪

1379
01:00:21,850 --> 01:00:27,394
♪♪ Ooh ♪♪

1380
01:00:27,461 --> 01:00:29,364
SHANNON: Now "ah."

1381
01:00:29,431 --> 01:00:35,309
ALL: ♪♪ Ahh ♪♪

1382
01:00:35,376 --> 01:00:37,915
- So once we get oohs, ahhs,
then he'll have everything.

1383
01:00:37,982 --> 01:00:39,586
He can chop however
he wants to chop.

1384
01:00:39,652 --> 01:00:40,621
We're just giving
him the pieces.

1385
01:00:40,688 --> 01:00:41,857
He can treat them like samples.

1386
01:00:41,923 --> 01:00:43,727
Yeah, let's do it, y'all.
- Whoo!

1387
01:00:43,794 --> 01:00:47,300
It's time to sing, baby.

1388
01:00:47,367 --> 01:00:50,941
I can't think of a choir
in America that would

1389
01:00:51,008 --> 01:00:53,213
have meant more on this song.

1390
01:00:53,279 --> 01:00:55,517
The person there that knows
the least about music

1391
01:00:55,585 --> 01:00:58,824
knows way more than me.

1392
01:00:58,891 --> 01:01:00,928
Blown away that we
made this happen.

1393
01:01:00,995 --> 01:01:03,967
This is a really big deal.

1394
01:01:04,034 --> 01:01:05,938
Sanders, as humble as he is--

1395
01:01:06,005 --> 01:01:07,941
a couple of Grammys,
a couple of Oscars,

1396
01:01:08,008 --> 01:01:09,244
you know--
he's an old South Nashville

1397
01:01:09,311 --> 01:01:12,552
motherfucker still at heart.

1398
01:01:12,619 --> 01:01:15,457
I just kept imagining, like,
that old Southern back-road

1399
01:01:15,523 --> 01:01:18,329
Baptist church
just singing, and clapping,

1400
01:01:18,395 --> 01:01:20,968
and screaming, and hollering
like the churches

1401
01:01:21,035 --> 01:01:22,872
I went to as a child.

1402
01:01:22,938 --> 01:01:24,976
That shit is awesome.

1403
01:01:25,043 --> 01:01:26,946
God, it's so good.

1404
01:01:27,013 --> 01:01:29,117
God, it's fucking incredible.
How y'all feel?

1405
01:01:29,184 --> 01:01:30,219
ALL: Good.

1406
01:01:30,286 --> 01:01:33,425
SHANNON: One, two, ready, and--

1407
01:01:33,492 --> 01:01:39,538
ALL: ♪♪ Ooh ♪♪

1408
01:01:39,606 --> 01:01:42,644
♪♪ Ooh ♪♪

1409
01:01:42,711 --> 01:01:43,947
JELLY ROLL:
I have never felt hopeful

1410
01:01:44,014 --> 01:01:45,651
when I was writing an album.

1411
01:01:45,718 --> 01:01:48,957
I feel like I owe it
to my people to try to give

1412
01:01:49,024 --> 01:01:51,763
them hope and try to help.

1413
01:01:51,830 --> 01:01:57,942
ALL: ♪♪ Ahh ♪♪

1414
01:01:58,009 --> 01:01:59,879
- Can they come back?
- Is that them?

1415
01:01:59,945 --> 01:02:01,082
Yeah.
- Yeah, yeah.

1416
01:02:01,148 --> 01:02:05,223
- Can we come in?
- Yeah, course.

1417
01:02:05,290 --> 01:02:06,759
- Oh, my God.

1418
01:02:06,826 --> 01:02:08,997
- Hey, how are you, sweet lady?

1419
01:02:09,064 --> 01:02:10,400
So good to see you.

1420
01:02:10,467 --> 01:02:11,569
- [sobbing]

1421
01:02:11,636 --> 01:02:12,805
- Aw, baby, stop.

1422
01:02:12,872 --> 01:02:14,140
I said I wasn't
gonna cry tonight.

1423
01:02:14,207 --> 01:02:17,013
You're finna make it happen.
I'll cry with you.

1424
01:02:17,080 --> 01:02:20,922
- My brother's wife
was battling mental illness.

1425
01:02:20,988 --> 01:02:22,291
And we were trying
to get her help.

1426
01:02:22,357 --> 01:02:24,528
This is their daughter.
- Oh, OK.

1427
01:02:24,595 --> 01:02:28,268
- And I saw your song
on YouTube one day.

1428
01:02:28,335 --> 01:02:30,207
And it stopped me in my tracks.

1429
01:02:30,273 --> 01:02:35,283
I was like, that is my brother
singing to me, "save me."

1430
01:02:35,350 --> 01:02:39,191
And his wife
started harassing us.

1431
01:02:39,257 --> 01:02:45,169
And in March--
March 21, 2021,

1432
01:02:45,236 --> 01:02:47,473
she shot and killed him
in front of her

1433
01:02:47,540 --> 01:02:49,679
and their daughter.

1434
01:02:49,746 --> 01:02:55,724
And I know you hear this
all the time, but thank you.

1435
01:02:55,791 --> 01:02:57,962
It's like he's singing to us.

1436
01:02:58,029 --> 01:03:00,033
- I don't know how
to explain it,

1437
01:03:00,100 --> 01:03:03,674
but you are there.

1438
01:03:03,740 --> 01:03:07,681
You come from that person.
And you came from our son.

1439
01:03:07,748 --> 01:03:10,020
- Yes, ma'am.
- Exactly.

1440
01:03:10,086 --> 01:03:12,123
- You spoke for him.
- Exactly.

1441
01:03:12,190 --> 01:03:14,461
- God, I'm so glad
I got to meet y'all, man.

1442
01:03:14,527 --> 01:03:16,566
This is awesome.
God, thank you so much.

1443
01:03:16,633 --> 01:03:18,502
- I love you so much.
- Y'all are so sweet.

1444
01:03:24,347 --> 01:03:26,853
[sobbing]

1445
01:03:26,920 --> 01:03:28,590
- You're a strong
young lady, ma'am.

1446
01:03:28,656 --> 01:03:30,761
- Yes, she really is.

1447
01:03:30,828 --> 01:03:32,631
- There's an old phrase
that says that we overcome

1448
01:03:32,698 --> 01:03:35,169
by the power of our testimony.

1449
01:03:35,236 --> 01:03:38,008
You have
a real strong testimony.

1450
01:03:38,075 --> 01:03:39,344
And you're gonna
do a lot of good

1451
01:03:39,411 --> 01:03:41,015
for the world with it one day.

1452
01:03:41,082 --> 01:03:42,685
You hear me?

1453
01:03:42,752 --> 01:03:45,757
And never let nobody
tell you how to grieve.

1454
01:03:45,824 --> 01:03:47,962
You take your time.

1455
01:03:48,029 --> 01:03:49,431
You talk about him
every day if it's

1456
01:03:49,497 --> 01:03:51,235
what it takes
for you to get through it

1457
01:03:51,301 --> 01:03:54,074
because one day you'll talk
about him with a smile.

1458
01:03:54,140 --> 01:03:58,215
I promise. I promise.

1459
01:03:58,282 --> 01:04:00,320
Thank y'all, ladies.
- Thank you, honey.

1460
01:04:00,386 --> 01:04:02,859
Thank you so much.
- Thank you.

1461
01:04:02,925 --> 01:04:05,864
[soft music]

1462
01:04:05,931 --> 01:04:08,202
♪♪ ♪♪

1463
01:04:08,269 --> 01:04:10,006
JELLY ROLL:
I did drop a record today,

1464
01:04:10,073 --> 01:04:12,845
a song called "She."

1465
01:04:12,912 --> 01:04:14,180
"She" is extremely personal.

1466
01:04:14,247 --> 01:04:15,551
I know a lot of she's.

1467
01:04:15,618 --> 01:04:19,157
So this song is just
something I felt was needed.

1468
01:04:20,326 --> 01:04:23,432
[Jelly Roll's "She"]

1469
01:04:23,499 --> 01:04:27,440
♪♪ ♪♪

1470
01:04:27,507 --> 01:04:31,048
♪♪ I see the sunrise
in her eyes ♪♪

1471
01:04:31,114 --> 01:04:32,618
Oh, this is my thing.

1472
01:04:32,685 --> 01:04:35,089
Well, everybody,
today is a special day.

1473
01:04:35,156 --> 01:04:36,960
For the first time
in 14 months,

1474
01:04:37,027 --> 01:04:39,799
I have released new music.

1475
01:04:39,865 --> 01:04:42,537
Yes!
New music, y'all.

1476
01:04:42,605 --> 01:04:45,042
♪♪ Her smile ♪♪

1477
01:04:45,109 --> 01:04:47,247
♪♪ ♪♪

1478
01:04:47,314 --> 01:04:50,419
♪♪ You'd never know
that she's in pain ♪♪

1479
01:04:50,486 --> 01:04:53,025
The first time
my aunt heard it,

1480
01:04:53,092 --> 01:04:54,862
she texted me and said,

1481
01:04:54,929 --> 01:04:56,566
this is your mother.

1482
01:04:56,633 --> 01:04:59,070
♪♪ It started
with a little pill ♪♪

1483
01:04:59,137 --> 01:05:02,510
♪♪ ♪♪

1484
01:05:02,578 --> 01:05:05,349
You know, I've been writing
songs for Mom since I was 12.

1485
01:05:05,416 --> 01:05:08,189
That's what got me
writing songs, you know?

1486
01:05:08,255 --> 01:05:10,493
The only time I'd ever
see my mama downstairs

1487
01:05:10,560 --> 01:05:11,996
was with music.

1488
01:05:12,063 --> 01:05:13,800
She'd throw a record on,
and she'd dance

1489
01:05:13,867 --> 01:05:15,604
around the kitchen,
and music would play.

1490
01:05:15,671 --> 01:05:17,641
Or she'd listen to a song
and cry at the kitchen table,

1491
01:05:17,708 --> 01:05:19,010
and music would play.

1492
01:05:19,077 --> 01:05:21,047
It just felt like
it was something

1493
01:05:21,114 --> 01:05:23,787
therapeutic happening there.

1494
01:05:23,853 --> 01:05:25,824
Me and my wife talked
about it a lot.

1495
01:05:25,891 --> 01:05:28,597
And we thought the holidays
was the best time to drop it.

1496
01:05:28,663 --> 01:05:31,001
I know that normally whenever
I dealt with that stuff,

1497
01:05:31,068 --> 01:05:32,436
the hardest was
around the holidays.

1498
01:05:32,503 --> 01:05:34,174
So my real hope
is that somebody sees it,

1499
01:05:34,241 --> 01:05:36,011
and it awakens something
in them right here

1500
01:05:36,078 --> 01:05:37,514
in this holiday spirit.

1501
01:05:37,581 --> 01:05:39,050
While them heartstrings
are already being tugged on

1502
01:05:39,117 --> 01:05:40,554
and they're missing
their family,

1503
01:05:40,620 --> 01:05:42,992
I hope maybe this will
get somebody sober.

1504
01:05:43,058 --> 01:05:45,262
I'm just going
through my Instagram,

1505
01:05:45,329 --> 01:05:47,701
where people tag you
in their stories.

1506
01:05:47,768 --> 01:05:51,475
"Jelly Roll did something
special with this one."

1507
01:05:51,541 --> 01:05:54,882
A lot of people
just posting "She."

1508
01:05:54,949 --> 01:05:58,455
I'll be doing this for the rest
of the night, by the way.

1509
01:05:58,522 --> 01:06:00,827
Somebody said, "Didn't
even make it in 30 seconds,

1510
01:06:00,894 --> 01:06:03,265
and I'm already in tears."

1511
01:06:05,469 --> 01:06:07,540
Oh, let me see
if this is the one.

1512
01:06:07,608 --> 01:06:09,612
Here it is.
OK, here it is.

1513
01:06:09,678 --> 01:06:13,352
So they're playing
the song, right?

1514
01:06:13,418 --> 01:06:15,691
And it goes, "My sister,
this song is for you.

1515
01:06:15,757 --> 01:06:18,028
I hope you come home soon."

1516
01:06:57,006 --> 01:07:00,479
I'm not doing that today.

1517
01:07:00,546 --> 01:07:02,651
[sighs]

1518
01:07:05,958 --> 01:07:08,262
We're good?

1519
01:07:08,329 --> 01:07:09,498
- Just--I'm sorry.

1520
01:07:09,565 --> 01:07:12,671
Can we just get behind you--

1521
01:07:12,738 --> 01:07:14,041
- Not right now.

1522
01:07:14,107 --> 01:07:17,314
Nah, that's it for today, B.

1523
01:07:17,380 --> 01:07:20,252
[soft music]

1524
01:07:20,319 --> 01:07:27,466
♪♪ ♪♪

1525
01:07:33,780 --> 01:07:39,692
♪♪ I see the sunrise
in her eyes ♪♪

1526
01:07:39,759 --> 01:07:44,835
♪♪ Before
the cold November rain ♪♪

1527
01:07:46,438 --> 01:07:48,142
Some days I feel
like I'm still

1528
01:07:48,209 --> 01:07:50,647
running in circles because
I think no matter what I do,

1529
01:07:50,714 --> 01:07:51,983
it's not enough.

1530
01:07:52,050 --> 01:07:56,425
♪♪ You'd never know
that she's in pain ♪♪

1531
01:07:56,492 --> 01:07:58,229
You're supposed
to go home and give back.

1532
01:07:58,295 --> 01:07:59,865
That's the rule.
You know, that's what you do.

1533
01:07:59,932 --> 01:08:01,535
That's the golden rule.

1534
01:08:01,603 --> 01:08:04,374
Juvenile's where
it started for me.

1535
01:08:04,441 --> 01:08:07,380
♪♪ She was the life
of the party ♪♪

1536
01:08:07,446 --> 01:08:13,760
♪♪ She was the one everybody
used to wanna hang around ♪♪

1537
01:08:13,826 --> 01:08:17,400
♪♪ I bet they wonder
where she is now ♪♪

1538
01:08:17,467 --> 01:08:21,709
21 years ago, I spent two
Thanksgivings in a row here.

1539
01:08:21,775 --> 01:08:23,580
I know what's
happening in there.

1540
01:08:23,646 --> 01:08:26,852
I know that feeling.
Saddest day of the year, man.

1541
01:08:26,919 --> 01:08:29,124
I don't think
any one person has

1542
01:08:29,191 --> 01:08:31,395
the ability to fix the world.

1543
01:08:31,462 --> 01:08:34,534
But I think that if a bunch
of people do a little bit,

1544
01:08:34,601 --> 01:08:36,138
it gets a little bit better.

1545
01:08:36,205 --> 01:08:37,474
- Man, I appreciate
everything, man.

1546
01:08:37,540 --> 01:08:38,743
- I appreciate you, man.
We did it.

1547
01:08:38,810 --> 01:08:40,112
- We did it, man.
- We did what we said--

1548
01:08:40,179 --> 01:08:41,247
- Look where we at now.

1549
01:08:41,314 --> 01:08:43,352
- We back, baby.
- We back, baby.

1550
01:08:43,419 --> 01:08:44,889
- Who would have ever thought?

1551
01:08:44,956 --> 01:08:47,426
- Every time I see
them gates open, I'd be like,

1552
01:08:47,493 --> 01:08:49,331
Lordy, I'm back in here.

1553
01:08:49,397 --> 01:08:51,401
- I spent a lot
of years destroying.

1554
01:08:51,468 --> 01:08:55,276
I want to spend a lot
of future years building.

1555
01:08:56,011 --> 01:08:57,948
You know, it just feels good
to be able to come back

1556
01:08:58,015 --> 01:09:00,085
on the right side of the law.

1557
01:09:00,152 --> 01:09:02,558
I hope I can offer these guys
in here some advice.

1558
01:09:02,625 --> 01:09:05,462
I hope I can offer some hope.

1559
01:09:05,529 --> 01:09:07,500
This is where
the ping pong table was.

1560
01:09:07,568 --> 01:09:09,203
I'm still so fucking
good at that.

1561
01:09:09,270 --> 01:09:10,807
I'll smoke yo' ass.

1562
01:09:10,874 --> 01:09:12,811
You got to show
these kids you care.

1563
01:09:12,878 --> 01:09:14,982
You got to show up
on the holidays

1564
01:09:15,049 --> 01:09:16,118
when it matters the most.

1565
01:09:16,185 --> 01:09:18,422
These kids are used
to people failing them.

1566
01:09:18,489 --> 01:09:20,026
They're used to people
never showing up.

1567
01:09:20,092 --> 01:09:21,963
They're used to people
never doing what

1568
01:09:22,030 --> 01:09:23,532
they say they're gonna do.

1569
01:09:23,600 --> 01:09:26,438
The easiest way to break
that cycle they've created

1570
01:09:26,505 --> 01:09:27,674
is to show up.

1571
01:09:27,741 --> 01:09:29,010
- What's up, man?

1572
01:09:29,077 --> 01:09:30,446
JELLY ROLL: Robert Sherrill
and me have been friends

1573
01:09:30,512 --> 01:09:31,882
our whole lives,

1574
01:09:31,949 --> 01:09:33,620
met each other
through the juvenile system.

1575
01:09:33,686 --> 01:09:35,156
We both always been
very passionate

1576
01:09:35,222 --> 01:09:36,424
about the same thing.

1577
01:09:36,491 --> 01:09:38,528
ROBERT: Hey, y'all, hey.

1578
01:09:38,596 --> 01:09:41,301
Real quick while y'all eat,
it's Thanksgiving.

1579
01:09:41,367 --> 01:09:43,138
We could be a lot of places.

1580
01:09:43,205 --> 01:09:45,142
But we know y'all know we care.

1581
01:09:45,209 --> 01:09:46,278
And we love y'all.

1582
01:09:46,345 --> 01:09:47,548
I want y'all
to hear from Jelly.

1583
01:09:47,615 --> 01:09:52,356
Jelly was in here
for years in B pod, OK?

1584
01:09:52,423 --> 01:09:56,364
Jelly provided this meal, OK?

1585
01:09:56,431 --> 01:09:58,870
I want y'all to know that.

1586
01:09:58,937 --> 01:10:00,540
- Look, y'all, I'm not
gonna feed you the same shit

1587
01:10:00,607 --> 01:10:01,876
everybody else feeds you.

1588
01:10:01,942 --> 01:10:04,447
I'm just gonna shoot it
to y'all straight.

1589
01:10:04,514 --> 01:10:07,855
I spent my 15th birthday
in this facility--

1590
01:10:07,922 --> 01:10:09,424
16th, 17th.

1591
01:10:09,491 --> 01:10:11,662
Went on to spend my
18th, 19th, 20th, 21st,

1592
01:10:11,729 --> 01:10:15,871
and 22nd Thanksgiving in jail.

1593
01:10:15,938 --> 01:10:17,473
YOLANDA: All of the youth
here have been

1594
01:10:17,540 --> 01:10:19,277
charged with something.

1595
01:10:19,343 --> 01:10:20,948
It could be as simple
as a runaway,

1596
01:10:21,014 --> 01:10:24,989
or it can go all the way up
to a criminal homicide charge.

1597
01:10:25,055 --> 01:10:27,526
Jelly was always
into something when he

1598
01:10:27,594 --> 01:10:30,667
was in the detention center.

1599
01:10:30,733 --> 01:10:33,171
He had several disciplinary
reports written on him,

1600
01:10:33,238 --> 01:10:36,511
I'll just say that.

1601
01:10:36,579 --> 01:10:37,915
JELLY ROLL: I felt like
I didn't have no chance

1602
01:10:37,981 --> 01:10:39,184
when I left here.

1603
01:10:39,251 --> 01:10:41,455
And I ended up going
through the adult prison.

1604
01:10:41,521 --> 01:10:43,025
Never forget it.

1605
01:10:43,091 --> 01:10:45,564
I can tell y'all what
you don't know about me,

1606
01:10:45,631 --> 01:10:48,837
probably, is that I ended
up obsessing about music.

1607
01:10:48,904 --> 01:10:50,874
I dedicated
my whole life to passing

1608
01:10:50,941 --> 01:10:53,212
mixtapes out around town,
winning freestyle battles.

1609
01:10:53,278 --> 01:10:55,550
I'll out-rap everybody
in this facility times three.

1610
01:10:55,617 --> 01:10:58,723
I'll fuck them up bad.
It'll be embarrassing here.

1611
01:10:58,790 --> 01:11:02,397
And then I went on to do that
and build a business.

1612
01:11:02,463 --> 01:11:05,035
I promise y'all, this
ain't the average gag, dog.

1613
01:11:05,102 --> 01:11:07,708
Don't let anything
about my presence fool you.

1614
01:11:07,774 --> 01:11:10,980
- They've really been drawn
to him, just hearing his story

1615
01:11:11,047 --> 01:11:12,684
and knowing his story,
that he's been in here.

1616
01:11:12,751 --> 01:11:15,455
When he walks through
the facility, they're like,

1617
01:11:15,522 --> 01:11:16,659
is Jelly Roll coming over here?

1618
01:11:16,726 --> 01:11:18,028
Is Jelly Roll coming over here?

1619
01:11:18,094 --> 01:11:19,197
I'm like--
[chuckles]

1620
01:11:19,264 --> 01:11:21,836
JELLY ROLL: I know when
you're 15 years old,

1621
01:11:21,903 --> 01:11:24,173
it seems like it's all over,
and you'll never fix it.

1622
01:11:24,240 --> 01:11:26,713
But it's failures
that make you great.

1623
01:11:26,779 --> 01:11:29,150
You just fall and get
back up and go again.

1624
01:11:29,217 --> 01:11:31,521
I came here twice and had
to go do the DCS thing

1625
01:11:31,589 --> 01:11:32,824
before they
finally bowed me over.

1626
01:11:32,891 --> 01:11:34,629
I didn't learn
the first two times.

1627
01:11:34,695 --> 01:11:36,599
Please learn this time, bro.

1628
01:11:36,666 --> 01:11:38,235
We gon' talk
at the adult prison too.

1629
01:11:38,302 --> 01:11:41,107
Please don't let me see you
there in four years.

1630
01:11:42,978 --> 01:11:45,116
- I play a guitar.

1631
01:11:45,182 --> 01:11:46,819
- Are you teaching yourself?

1632
01:11:51,763 --> 01:11:52,798
- Yeah.

1633
01:11:52,865 --> 01:11:55,803
[guitar playing]

1634
01:11:55,870 --> 01:11:58,242
♪♪ ♪♪

1635
01:11:58,308 --> 01:12:01,080
Oh, shit.

1636
01:12:01,147 --> 01:12:04,955
♪♪ ♪♪

1637
01:12:05,022 --> 01:12:07,060
If you can get
that fire to spark

1638
01:12:07,127 --> 01:12:11,569
in these kids about anything,
music, HVAC, laying floor,

1639
01:12:11,636 --> 01:12:15,476
entrepreneurialism,
all these things,

1640
01:12:15,542 --> 01:12:18,482
if you can teach these kids
and they can obsess about any

1641
01:12:18,549 --> 01:12:21,120
of that, it can work.

1642
01:12:23,793 --> 01:12:26,899
[cheers and applause]

1643
01:12:29,070 --> 01:12:31,207
You can really play
the guitar.

1644
01:12:31,274 --> 01:12:33,411
I can't really play the guitar.

1645
01:12:33,478 --> 01:12:35,784
[chuckles]
Not like that.

1646
01:12:35,851 --> 01:12:37,386
I can't play like that.

1647
01:12:37,453 --> 01:12:39,758
Please keep playing.

1648
01:12:39,825 --> 01:12:42,130
I'ma talk to them
about getting you an acoustic.

1649
01:12:42,197 --> 01:12:45,135
If they'll let me get one,
I'll send it up today.

1650
01:12:46,438 --> 01:12:48,876
- He got her, like,
a really nice guitar.

1651
01:12:48,943 --> 01:12:51,649
So if you just could have seen
her eyes when she opened it,

1652
01:12:51,716 --> 01:12:55,522
it's just like, wow.

1653
01:12:55,590 --> 01:13:00,465
It's that kind of stuff,
like, it's...

1654
01:13:04,073 --> 01:13:06,311
It's priceless.

1655
01:13:06,378 --> 01:13:10,520
To be able to impact somebody

1656
01:13:10,587 --> 01:13:14,561
just like that.

1657
01:13:16,330 --> 01:13:18,401
It seems like
something so simple.

1658
01:13:18,468 --> 01:13:23,913
But it's like
you know the part--

1659
01:13:23,979 --> 01:13:26,752
the small part
that you played in it.

1660
01:13:28,690 --> 01:13:30,893
JELLY ROLL:
Seeing that same stale gray,

1661
01:13:30,960 --> 01:13:32,898
hearing these same charges,

1662
01:13:32,965 --> 01:13:34,902
hearing the system's
still doing the same thing--

1663
01:13:34,968 --> 01:13:36,772
there was multiple kids
that have been

1664
01:13:36,839 --> 01:13:37,908
in there more
than nine months,

1665
01:13:37,975 --> 01:13:40,880
a year, year and a half--

1666
01:13:40,947 --> 01:13:43,753
was just so much
perspective for me.

1667
01:13:49,263 --> 01:13:53,071
- I don't remember having
this much colored shit.

1668
01:13:53,138 --> 01:13:55,009
I mean, like, what were
we thinking last year?

1669
01:13:55,076 --> 01:13:56,377
- I don't know.
[chuckles]

1670
01:13:56,444 --> 01:13:57,513
- What the hell is this?

1671
01:13:57,581 --> 01:13:59,851
Is this even our stuff?

1672
01:14:01,622 --> 01:14:03,091
- I can start wrapping
the staircase.

1673
01:14:03,158 --> 01:14:05,630
- We can do these, yep.
JELLY ROLL: Fucking score, son.

1674
01:14:05,696 --> 01:14:06,999
BAILEE: It's almost like
I do this every year.

1675
01:14:07,066 --> 01:14:09,705
I'm a professional
stair-lighter.

1676
01:14:09,772 --> 01:14:12,610
- You are a professional
stair-lighter.

1677
01:14:14,013 --> 01:14:16,218
My daughter saved my life.

1678
01:14:16,284 --> 01:14:18,521
She wasn't old enough
to even know it.

1679
01:14:19,892 --> 01:14:22,196
- I started being around my dad
around the age of two.

1680
01:14:22,263 --> 01:14:23,966
This was when he
was first starting

1681
01:14:24,033 --> 01:14:25,570
to pick up his music career.

1682
01:14:25,637 --> 01:14:28,375
But nothing was
really working for him.

1683
01:14:28,442 --> 01:14:29,945
He didn't have a stable home.

1684
01:14:30,012 --> 01:14:31,114
So that's why I was never
in my dad's custody.

1685
01:14:31,180 --> 01:14:32,584
I was with my mom.

1686
01:14:32,651 --> 01:14:34,254
JELLY ROLL: Bailee's mother
made it hard on me at first.

1687
01:14:34,321 --> 01:14:37,727
She made me go
to court to even see her.

1688
01:14:37,794 --> 01:14:39,765
We never got
to build a relationship

1689
01:14:39,832 --> 01:14:42,437
in the early years because
I was traveling so much.

1690
01:14:42,503 --> 01:14:46,778
We were doing 250, 300 shows a
year back then out of the van.

1691
01:14:46,845 --> 01:14:49,317
I was a very
less-than-present father,

1692
01:14:49,384 --> 01:14:52,156
not to mention I was drinking
myself to sleep in the back

1693
01:14:52,223 --> 01:14:54,895
of that van every night.

1694
01:14:54,962 --> 01:14:57,366
Baby, we got lights
on the stairs, Bailee Ann.

1695
01:14:57,433 --> 01:14:58,970
BUNNIE: I'm so excited.

1696
01:14:59,037 --> 01:15:02,276
- Yeah, I'm gonna
do it right here.

1697
01:15:02,343 --> 01:15:04,548
JELLY ROLL: Bailee was seven
years old when her mother

1698
01:15:04,615 --> 01:15:07,821
started really going downhill.

1699
01:15:07,888 --> 01:15:10,794
Felicia has fibromyalgia.

1700
01:15:10,861 --> 01:15:13,866
And she's always in pain.

1701
01:15:13,933 --> 01:15:15,469
I could see the writing
on the wall,

1702
01:15:15,536 --> 01:15:19,879
that her pill addiction
was spiraling out of control.

1703
01:15:19,946 --> 01:15:23,786
And then I seen Felicia end up

1704
01:15:23,853 --> 01:15:27,192
in a full-blown
heroin addiction.

1705
01:15:27,259 --> 01:15:29,765
BUNNIE: He took me
over to Bailee's house.

1706
01:15:29,831 --> 01:15:32,336
And when I walked in,
my heart broke.

1707
01:15:32,403 --> 01:15:35,844
She was making dinner
for her two cousins

1708
01:15:35,910 --> 01:15:37,212
that were younger than her.

1709
01:15:37,279 --> 01:15:40,485
And it was a loaf of bread
with peanut butter.

1710
01:15:40,553 --> 01:15:44,126
I was like, we cannot let
her live like this anymore.

1711
01:15:44,193 --> 01:15:45,997
JELLY ROLL: And before
we could even make a move,

1712
01:15:46,064 --> 01:15:48,068
the police called me and told
me that Bailee's mother

1713
01:15:48,134 --> 01:15:51,876
had stole the television
of the neighbor next door

1714
01:15:51,942 --> 01:15:54,782
and pawned it
at the local pawn shop

1715
01:15:54,849 --> 01:15:58,455
and I needed
to come get Bailee.

1716
01:15:58,522 --> 01:16:01,061
And I'll never
forget that call.

1717
01:16:01,127 --> 01:16:02,898
It was the exact same
feeling I got

1718
01:16:02,965 --> 01:16:04,935
when that guard knocked
on that cell door

1719
01:16:05,002 --> 01:16:07,306
and told me I had a daughter.

1720
01:16:07,373 --> 01:16:11,648
It was that exact same
immediate rush to action.

1721
01:16:11,715 --> 01:16:15,022
And we went and got her
and got full custody of her.

1722
01:16:15,089 --> 01:16:17,795
And her mother
ended up battling

1723
01:16:17,861 --> 01:16:22,503
about a six-year-long
heroin addiction.

1724
01:16:22,571 --> 01:16:24,608
Completely disappeared
from Bailee's life

1725
01:16:24,675 --> 01:16:27,379
for probably four years.

1726
01:16:27,446 --> 01:16:29,851
And she's sober now.
We're really proud of her.

1727
01:16:29,918 --> 01:16:31,420
But it was really rough
on Bailee, man.

1728
01:16:31,487 --> 01:16:33,693
And it really helped me
straighten my shit out

1729
01:16:33,760 --> 01:16:35,529
because I realized
how important it was

1730
01:16:35,596 --> 01:16:38,301
for me to be there for her.

1731
01:16:40,072 --> 01:16:45,115
- Her mom was an addict,
and who was I to take her--

1732
01:16:45,182 --> 01:16:47,687
us take her from her mom
and bring her into our house?

1733
01:16:47,754 --> 01:16:49,457
And we're over here
just popping pills

1734
01:16:49,523 --> 01:16:50,927
and doing the same thing.

1735
01:16:50,994 --> 01:16:53,231
What makes us better?
You know?

1736
01:16:53,298 --> 01:16:55,570
I was just like, this is it.
I'm done.

1737
01:16:55,636 --> 01:16:58,976
And I literally never
touched a pill again.

1738
01:16:59,043 --> 01:17:02,516
- I had a very extra,
interesting,

1739
01:17:02,584 --> 01:17:04,253
traumatic childhood.

1740
01:17:04,320 --> 01:17:06,726
Bunnie did.
My dad did.

1741
01:17:06,792 --> 01:17:11,434
They're very important reasons
in why my mom is in my life

1742
01:17:11,500 --> 01:17:13,472
now and is sober.

1743
01:17:13,539 --> 01:17:15,342
As a teenager, I've moved on.

1744
01:17:15,408 --> 01:17:18,282
And I've worked
through my childhood.

1745
01:17:18,348 --> 01:17:21,655
But that doesn't make it
necessarily "go away."

1746
01:17:21,722 --> 01:17:22,958
It made me who I am today.

1747
01:17:23,024 --> 01:17:27,533
And without that,
I wouldn't be Bailee Ann.

1748
01:17:27,601 --> 01:17:29,738
BUNNIE: If we did what
you wanted to do,

1749
01:17:29,805 --> 01:17:31,642
we would literally
be an antique shop.

1750
01:17:31,709 --> 01:17:33,177
JELLY ROLL: You know how much
snow globes mean to me.

1751
01:17:33,244 --> 01:17:34,546
Bunnie; I know.
You do love a good snow globe.

1752
01:17:34,614 --> 01:17:37,386
- [laughs]

1753
01:17:37,452 --> 01:17:39,791
My dream was to build a home
where my whole family

1754
01:17:39,858 --> 01:17:42,396
could be at,
like my father did.

1755
01:17:42,463 --> 01:17:45,102
My father's intentions
from day one

1756
01:17:45,169 --> 01:17:47,774
were just to get us
to a better place, you know?

1757
01:17:47,841 --> 01:17:49,510
And I relate
because as a father,

1758
01:17:49,578 --> 01:17:50,479
that's my only intention,

1759
01:17:50,546 --> 01:17:51,815
is to get Bailee
to a better place.

1760
01:17:51,882 --> 01:17:53,184
Good job, kid.

1761
01:17:53,251 --> 01:17:55,256
Thank you for coming
to do this with us.

1762
01:17:55,322 --> 01:17:58,261
[soft music]

1763
01:17:58,328 --> 01:18:02,269
♪♪ ♪♪

1764
01:18:11,622 --> 01:18:16,064
[soft music]

1765
01:18:16,131 --> 01:18:18,101
JELLY ROLL: I don't want
my story to be where I'm

1766
01:18:18,167 --> 01:18:21,875
the one guy
that defied the rules.

1767
01:18:21,942 --> 01:18:24,080
I want it to be guideposts
for people to be

1768
01:18:24,147 --> 01:18:26,451
successful in the future.

1769
01:18:26,517 --> 01:18:30,091
I'm starting to realize how
much of an impact I can have.

1770
01:18:32,463 --> 01:18:34,366
YOLANDA: When you question
somebody who's been

1771
01:18:34,433 --> 01:18:36,470
in the business
as long as I have, like,

1772
01:18:36,537 --> 01:18:37,674
why am I still doing this,

1773
01:18:37,741 --> 01:18:40,312
why am I still doing this,
and then when I see you

1774
01:18:40,378 --> 01:18:43,351
and then what you have
accomplished, you are the why.

1775
01:18:43,418 --> 01:18:45,355
- Yes, ma'am, thank you.
- You are the why.

1776
01:18:45,422 --> 01:18:47,426
He's given me that fire
in the belly again.

1777
01:18:47,493 --> 01:18:48,629
[chuckles]

1778
01:18:48,696 --> 01:18:50,499
JOHN: He's trying
to figure out how

1779
01:18:50,567 --> 01:18:54,006
to be the guy in Antioch
while being Jelly Roll.

1780
01:18:54,073 --> 01:18:55,876
The challenges will be,

1781
01:18:55,943 --> 01:18:58,181
I have
this great responsibility.

1782
01:18:58,247 --> 01:19:00,285
How do I balance that
with the guilt,

1783
01:19:00,352 --> 01:19:05,730
the burden, the survivor's
guilt that we all hear about?

1784
01:19:05,797 --> 01:19:07,299
- As a Nashville
native myself,

1785
01:19:07,366 --> 01:19:09,571
I have grown up
with Jelly Roll.

1786
01:19:09,637 --> 01:19:12,309
We're the same age,
grew up in the same area.

1787
01:19:12,376 --> 01:19:15,348
And so it is so amazing
to see that he still cares

1788
01:19:15,415 --> 01:19:17,353
about the city
that birthed him.

1789
01:19:17,420 --> 01:19:21,595
Jelly, it is amazing to see you
pour back into a city

1790
01:19:21,662 --> 01:19:24,066
that loves you just as much
as when you lived here

1791
01:19:24,133 --> 01:19:26,237
and when you were rocking
and rolling in Antioch.

1792
01:19:26,304 --> 01:19:29,243
[applause]

1793
01:19:33,085 --> 01:19:35,957
JELLY ROLL: Howdy, howdy.
[chuckles]

1794
01:19:36,023 --> 01:19:38,562
This is
beyond surreal to me.

1795
01:19:38,629 --> 01:19:42,136
As a 37-year-old man,
a father, a business owner,

1796
01:19:42,203 --> 01:19:44,874
a community activist,
and a philanthropist,

1797
01:19:44,941 --> 01:19:46,511
unfortunately,
I still have to mark

1798
01:19:46,578 --> 01:19:49,985
that I am a criminal
because of a decision

1799
01:19:50,052 --> 01:19:52,122
I made when I was a kid.

1800
01:19:54,526 --> 01:19:56,097
With the Bridgestone show,
we're gonna put

1801
01:19:56,164 --> 01:19:57,634
our money where our mouth is.

1802
01:19:57,700 --> 01:19:59,772
We're gonna pledge
$1/4 million out the gate

1803
01:19:59,838 --> 01:20:02,677
into the juvenile facilities
and aftercare programs

1804
01:20:02,744 --> 01:20:06,083
and into helping
with the Impact Youth Outreach.

1805
01:20:06,150 --> 01:20:08,021
We're gonna first
build a studio

1806
01:20:08,087 --> 01:20:10,258
inside of the Juvenile
Justice Center.

1807
01:20:10,325 --> 01:20:13,031
We're gonna give away
$50,000 worth of scholarships

1808
01:20:13,097 --> 01:20:14,366
and start putting kids
in a program

1809
01:20:14,433 --> 01:20:16,538
to learn traits and trades.

1810
01:20:16,606 --> 01:20:19,410
There will be an alternate
to being charged as an adult.

1811
01:20:19,476 --> 01:20:22,884
I think that it is important
as a community

1812
01:20:22,951 --> 01:20:25,222
that we start
with our children first.

1813
01:20:25,289 --> 01:20:26,992
RONALD: We're gearing up
for Jelly's biggest show

1814
01:20:27,059 --> 01:20:30,298
of the year, 15,000 people,
sold out,

1815
01:20:30,365 --> 01:20:32,269
the biggest production
he's ever done.

1816
01:20:32,336 --> 01:20:33,639
A lot of moving parts.

1817
01:20:33,706 --> 01:20:36,243
A lot of people
working very hard.

1818
01:20:36,310 --> 01:20:39,316
- I had some anxiety that we
will not get the show

1819
01:20:39,383 --> 01:20:41,487
exactly the way
we discussed it.

1820
01:20:41,555 --> 01:20:43,057
Not worried at all.

1821
01:20:43,124 --> 01:20:45,095
- As a community,
we have to stand up,

1822
01:20:45,162 --> 01:20:46,497
and we have to do
something about it.

1823
01:20:46,565 --> 01:20:48,769
I am challenging
my musician friends,

1824
01:20:48,836 --> 01:20:51,842
roll your sleeves up, and
come down to this juvenile,

1825
01:20:51,909 --> 01:20:53,411
and feed these kids with us,

1826
01:20:53,478 --> 01:20:55,148
and see the problems that
we have in this community.

1827
01:20:55,215 --> 01:20:57,252
While you're riding up
and down Broadway and making

1828
01:20:57,319 --> 01:20:59,423
$1/4 million a show,
I'd like you to see

1829
01:20:59,489 --> 01:21:02,029
the side of the city
that can't afford dinner.

1830
01:21:02,096 --> 01:21:03,331
JOHN: He's like, listen,

1831
01:21:03,397 --> 01:21:05,803
I want to give $250,000
to this thing.

1832
01:21:05,870 --> 01:21:07,674
Let's figure out how
to make that happen.

1833
01:21:07,741 --> 01:21:10,613
So our goal would be,
hopefully, to raise millions

1834
01:21:10,680 --> 01:21:12,183
over the next ten years.

1835
01:21:12,249 --> 01:21:15,923
- At 37 years old, I can only
imagine how successful

1836
01:21:15,990 --> 01:21:18,696
I would have been at 27 years
old if I would have had

1837
01:21:18,762 --> 01:21:21,835
the right mentorship and the
right things in that juvenile

1838
01:21:21,902 --> 01:21:24,675
to show me other ways of life.

1839
01:21:24,741 --> 01:21:26,578
I don't know what I'm
supposed to do now.

1840
01:21:26,645 --> 01:21:28,582
I'm done talking.

1841
01:21:28,649 --> 01:21:31,555
[laughter, applause]

1842
01:21:35,195 --> 01:21:38,301
[crickets chirping]

1843
01:21:40,238 --> 01:21:43,511
[people chattering]

1844
01:21:47,086 --> 01:21:51,393
JELLY ROLL: Three months ago,
I feel like the Bridgestone,

1845
01:21:51,460 --> 01:21:56,471
for me was just
this hometown hero dream.

1846
01:21:56,537 --> 01:21:58,642
It ended up
becoming so much more

1847
01:21:58,709 --> 01:22:00,345
than I could
have even dreamed.

1848
01:22:00,412 --> 01:22:02,382
- There he is.
You nervous?

1849
01:22:02,449 --> 01:22:03,685
- Very.

1850
01:22:03,752 --> 01:22:05,690
Stressed almost, anyway.

1851
01:22:05,757 --> 01:22:07,092
For the longest,
I felt like there

1852
01:22:07,159 --> 01:22:09,263
was no redemption in this.

1853
01:22:10,833 --> 01:22:14,841
I used to think my demons were
just too dark to let go of.

1854
01:22:14,908 --> 01:22:18,147
[crowd cheering]

1855
01:22:20,118 --> 01:22:23,291
But now I feel
a lot different.

1856
01:22:23,358 --> 01:22:25,395
- Close your eyes,
bow your heads.

1857
01:22:25,462 --> 01:22:26,999
Dear Heavenly Father,
thank you, Lord, for getting us

1858
01:22:27,065 --> 01:22:28,569
here to the end of the year.

1859
01:22:28,636 --> 01:22:31,106
Thank you, Lord, for family,
for everything we do,

1860
01:22:31,173 --> 01:22:32,811
and giving us the strength
to do what we love.

1861
01:22:32,877 --> 01:22:34,313
In Jesus's name we pray--

1862
01:22:34,380 --> 01:22:37,453
ALL: Amen! Turn up!
Yeet, yeet!

1863
01:22:37,519 --> 01:22:41,561
- Let's go fuck up
Bridgestone

1864
01:22:41,628 --> 01:22:43,799
and play music
with our friends!

1865
01:22:43,866 --> 01:22:46,537
[all shouting]

1866
01:22:46,605 --> 01:22:50,980
[all chanting]
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey!

1867
01:22:51,047 --> 01:22:52,951
[bell dings]

1868
01:22:53,018 --> 01:22:58,929
- Sometimes,
a star, a superstar,

1869
01:22:58,996 --> 01:23:05,208
is born and raised right here
in Nashville, Tennessee.

1870
01:23:06,310 --> 01:23:10,085
Tonight, one such superstar

1871
01:23:10,152 --> 01:23:14,293
is proud
to return to his roots.

1872
01:23:14,360 --> 01:23:21,006
Presenting a proud native son
of Antioch, he is

1873
01:23:21,073 --> 01:23:26,986
Jelly...

1874
01:23:27,052 --> 01:23:31,795
Roll!

1875
01:23:31,862 --> 01:23:34,801
[crowd cheering]

1876
01:23:40,345 --> 01:23:41,748
JELLY ROLL: I have never
lived in the present

1877
01:23:41,815 --> 01:23:44,386
because I was so haunted
by the past.

1878
01:23:46,290 --> 01:23:48,161
And I think
I'm finally starting

1879
01:23:48,228 --> 01:23:52,535
to let my past go enough that
I can actually be present.

1880
01:23:54,039 --> 01:23:58,180
I'm not gonna continue
to carry that guilt.

1881
01:23:59,350 --> 01:24:02,188
I don't deserve
to feel that way.

1882
01:24:03,993 --> 01:24:07,800
I realized that the guy
standing in this arena

1883
01:24:07,867 --> 01:24:12,342
right this moment,
I deserve that.

1884
01:24:12,409 --> 01:24:14,881
I'm worthy of that moment.

1885
01:24:14,947 --> 01:24:18,188
I'm worthy of that show.
I'm worthy of that difference.

1886
01:24:18,254 --> 01:24:22,096
I'm worthy to be in
this position that I'm in now.

1887
01:24:22,163 --> 01:24:24,567
This is just about believing.

1888
01:24:25,435 --> 01:24:26,905
You can change.

1889
01:24:26,972 --> 01:24:29,577
But it starts with having
to believe in yourself.

1890
01:24:29,644 --> 01:24:33,084
We came a long fucking way,
Nashville!

1891
01:24:33,151 --> 01:24:36,156
[crowd cheering]

1892
01:24:38,696 --> 01:24:41,668
You can lift others up
and bring them with you.

1893
01:24:43,672 --> 01:24:45,777
You're worth a better life.

1894
01:24:45,843 --> 01:24:48,782
[dramatic music]

1895
01:24:48,849 --> 01:24:51,821
♪♪ ♪♪

1896
01:24:57,065 --> 01:24:59,971
[Jelly Roll's "Need a Favor"]

1897
01:25:00,038 --> 01:25:02,943
[choir vocalizing]

1898
01:25:03,010 --> 01:25:09,924
♪♪ ♪♪

1899
01:25:13,932 --> 01:25:15,903
♪♪ Hail Mary ♪♪

1900
01:25:15,970 --> 01:25:22,917
♪♪ ♪♪

1901
01:25:26,625 --> 01:25:32,368
- ♪♪ I only talk to God
when I need a favor ♪♪

1902
01:25:32,435 --> 01:25:39,016
♪♪ And I only pray
when I ain't got a prayer ♪♪

1903
01:25:39,082 --> 01:25:43,457
♪♪ So who the hell am I, who the
hell am I to expect a savior ♪♪

1904
01:25:43,524 --> 01:25:49,370
♪♪ Oh, if I only talk to God
when I need a favor? ♪♪

1905
01:25:49,437 --> 01:25:52,009
♪♪ And, God, I need a favor ♪♪

1906
01:25:52,075 --> 01:25:57,486
♪♪ I know "Amazing Grace," but I
ain't been living them words ♪♪

1907
01:25:57,554 --> 01:26:01,628
♪♪ Swear I spend most Sundays
drunk off my ass ♪♪

1908
01:26:01,694 --> 01:26:03,865
♪♪ Than I have in church ♪♪

1909
01:26:03,932 --> 01:26:07,974
♪♪ A hard cover King James
only been saving dust ♪♪

1910
01:26:08,040 --> 01:26:10,211
♪♪ On the nightstand ♪♪

1911
01:26:10,278 --> 01:26:15,422
♪♪ And I don't know what to say
by the time I fold my hands ♪♪

1912
01:26:15,489 --> 01:26:20,832
♪♪ I only talk to God
when I need a favor ♪♪

1913
01:26:20,899 --> 01:26:27,012
♪♪ And I only pray
when I ain't got a prayer ♪♪

1914
01:26:27,078 --> 01:26:31,788
♪♪ So who the hell am I, who the
hell am I to expect a savior ♪♪

1915
01:26:31,855 --> 01:26:35,996
♪♪ Oh, if I only talk to God ♪♪

1916
01:26:36,063 --> 01:26:38,735
♪♪ When I need a favor? ♪♪

1917
01:26:38,802 --> 01:26:42,208
♪♪ God, I need a favor ♪♪

1918
01:26:42,275 --> 01:26:47,085
♪♪ Amen, amen ♪♪

1919
01:26:47,152 --> 01:26:48,889
♪♪ ♪♪

1920
01:26:48,956 --> 01:26:50,391
♪♪ Amen ♪♪

1921
01:26:50,458 --> 01:26:52,061
♪♪ ♪♪

1922
01:26:52,128 --> 01:26:54,099
♪♪ Amen ♪♪

1923
01:26:54,166 --> 01:26:56,470
♪♪ ♪♪

1924
01:26:56,537 --> 01:26:58,675
♪♪ Amen ♪♪