[music playing]
MAN (VOICEOVER): The South Island of New Zealand.
It's an epic place.
It's wet.
It's snowy.
If you don't respect the environment here,
it will slap you hard.
WOMAN (VOICEOVER): I just need to bring some food in.
MAN (VOICEOVER): Look at that stonker.
ANDREAS (VOICEOVER): Last night there was deer all around me.
That's freaking delicious.
WOMAN (VOICEOVER): I know how tough it's going to be.
Oh my god, I miss them.
You've got to feel safe, otherwise
you just die out here.
It doesn't feel as bad as it looks. It feels worse.
MAN (VOICEOVER): This [bleep] just got real.
MAN (VOICEOVER): Jesus!
I'm scared enough to have my emergency tap-out held
in my hand.
MAN (VOICEOVER): The last person standing
may take home $250,000.
Somebody help me!
MAN (VOICEOVER): It's a male.
Such a sense of relief knowing I have food for a couple of days.
I'm going to take a chance and I'm going to move to the sun.
Oh, I've arrived.
Everything's wet underfoot, so you just fall over.
Not real good for a bow hunter.
MAN (VOICEOVER): It's not just surviving the hunting
and the fishing.
Oh.
I think I've got a couple of 100 bites on me now.
I've come to berry land.
[burps]
I've had diarrhea all night.
I'm wondering if that might take me out.
I've noticed that happen a few times where I've sort of gotten
a bit lightheaded.
I honestly don't know how I'm still functioning.
It's so easy to get lost in here.
I don't trust my judgment, I don't trust my physicality,
and I sort of don't trust my own psychology either.
I feel trapped.
I feel trapped in this little spot.
I'm finished.
Yeah, I'm officially tapping out.
Yeah, I can't.
I can't keep going.
I've reached the limits of what I can do.
Hello.
Oh, sand flies love the eyeballs.
I just-- I feel like I don't trust myself out
in this environment and getting these dizzy spells,
and I just feel really sort of muddled and stretched,
I suppose.
Yeah, I think I've reached my physical
but probably more my mental limit as well.
I don't know if I can go another day without food in the belly.
It's-- yeah.
I think psychologically it's too much to deal with, and, yeah,
I'm--
I'm ready to--
I'm ready to call it a day.
I feel like I've tried everything within my--
my skill set to be able to make a go of it here, but the land,
it just kicked my ass.
It's bittersweet, but I definitely
don't have any regrets.
It's been a massive learning curve
for how much I don't know about my physical and mental
limitations.
It's been pretty frustrating, but I guess often
the best experiences that we can have do humble us.
Probably more than anything, I just--
I feel just an overwhelming sense
of gratitude for the experience that I've been able to have.
It really is a once in a lifetime experience.
Going to work this area, see what we can get out of it
as far as worms.
Oh, straight off the cuff.
This is a good one too.
Robin, Robin, where's your digging stick?
I come here and turn it over and you take all the worms.
You go and get yourself a digging stick.
I've got the water, shelter, fire squared away, but then
after that comes in food on the priority list,
so I'll go and sort that out, get some lines in the water.
Going to be a good day.
Don't get me wrong, I want something in my stomach,
and to be honest, it's probably surprised me in some ways
that I haven't been overly hungry.
It's only when I think about it that you sort of start thinking
of home and you think of your wife's potato bake
or her cauliflower and cheese sauce and things like that.
Oh, we might have something on here.
We had caught up in sticks and stuff.
Nobody.
Come on, come on, come on, come on.
Oh, it's an eel.
Sorry, buddy.
Bear with me.
I'll get you back in that water.
There you go.
Off.
Off to live for another 50 years.
Once again, the ebbs and flows.
Excited to catch something.
Sad that it was an eel.
You think just because you've got worms
on the end of a hook and some--
some line out in the water and you've seen fish you think,
oh, see, it'll be easy.
I beg to differ.
I had intentionally not wanted to eat for the first week.
I wanted my body to know that you're without food
and you are to start utilizing ketosis to start eating up
the fat.
Well, hopefully the eels are disappearing for the day
and trout have taken over.
I've been fishing most of the day.
I've had numerous lines in.
One, two, three, four for part of the day,
and three for most of the day.
I'd love to give you a stack more good news,
but, hey, I'm fresh out of it.
The fish are less plentiful than I expected,
more difficult to catch, and as yet unsuccessful in securing
anything from the water.
Just going along, pulling the lines in.
This is the last of--
the last of the daylight.
Oh, we might be on.
What are?
Hey, cam, on recording.
Recording.
Hey, hey, hey, we've got something.
It's on the surface.
It's not an eel.
Come on, baby.
Come on, come on.
Bring it in.
Come on, little trout.
All the way.
All the way, here we go.
Here we go.
Oh, yeah!
Hello, trout.
Oh, so grateful for you.
Oh, look at that.
Look at that.
You beautiful thing.
Thank you.
Let's make this humane.
Thank you so much.
Let's do this quickly.
It's all over.
Oh, thank you so much for the sustenance you will bring me.
I hope you've had a beautiful life.
Let's get that fire going, baby.
[cheers]
This is a confirmation that I can sustain myself here.
If there's-- if there's trout like this in this water,
I'm good.
Here we go.
This is going to be a-- this is going to be a great challenge.
Back to you.
Keep it going.
One fillet will be a reasonably large meal.
I can do half a fillet and see how I go.
And there's your heart.
If I overdo my intake of food if I haven't eaten for eight days,
last thing I want to do is feel nauseous at the end of it.
I went out there for my first bit.
Had a few bones in him.
I can work around them.
Mm.
The side bit is coming away from the skin.
Ain't going to be able to consume the skin, which has got
lots of good fats in it.
He's not an overly fatty fish, but if there's any fats,
it'll be in the skin.
Surprisingly quiet filling.
And the rest-- it's cold weather.
That'll keep for a day or two.
That's not a problem.
I ate.
Done and dusted.
Taking it off.
Awesome.
Looking forward to a good night's sleep.
[yawns]
I'm having such vivid, vivid dreams.
I dreamed I was at home last night.
In my dream, I really, really thought I was at home
and I'm looking at my feet, my bare feet, and thinking,
how did I get here?
Obviously, I've finished my "Alone" journey early.
When I woke up, I thought--
my immediate thought was, I don't want to be here.
And I just feel so weak.
If I had gastro at home, John would probably make me a soup.
Don't drink my tea, Tobes.
I live in a forest at home with my husband and the dogs,
two beautiful, warm little dogs that snuggle up
against my tummy and behind my knees at night time in bed.
I feel a bit daunted by the idea of being out there by myself
without you guys.
John has done some really incredible adventures
like walking across Australia unassisted, living off
bush foods, so motivates me to perhaps go further than I've
gone before in myself.
Listen to your dreams.
I know they come to you in the night
and provide the answers, so--
but I don't need to tell you any of that.
I miss him.
So I went down the hill this morning to get more water.
It was such an effort.
I so wanted to throw up.
And I just kept telling myself, no, you're
not going to throw up, and stopping and breathing deeply,
and--
because once I start throwing up, it's game over.
Can't stay hydrated if I'm throwing up my water.
I had this huge effort of will this morning not to throw up.
[burps]
I thought about clean, crisp celery.
That helped.
It's not a very nauseating vegetable.
Right here, right now, I don't feel like I'm going to be here
much longer, but John said to me,
don't let those voices of hopelessness run the show.
Stay with the voice that keeps on trying.
I think of celery.
Crisp, clean celery.
[burps]
It's drizzling out here at the moment,
so I'm just going to get off the beach.
Just go in the forest here.
There's a little mamaku sprout.
I'm just going to go grab him.
This is going to be tea tonight.
Been on the boil.
Pretty hot.
Mm, look at that.
Great.
Let's try this mamaku fern.
Oh, she's hot.
Sat on the beach today, bored out my skull,
thinking about home too much.
Yes, thinking about home way too much.
That's the worst part about this place,
not having anything to do.
Wow, that's boring.
That is boring.
Especially coming from a bloke like me, who doesn't
do anything rarely ever alone.
In the Army, you don't even go to lunch alone.
Pretty flavorless.
Edible, though, I guess.
So now I'm just sitting here facing the reality of missing
my friends and my family, and Annie.
And that's the most important thing, your family.
It's the most important thing to me
and has been for a long time.
I've got a bit of a confession.
Right before I got on this show, right before I got on the show,
I found out I was going to be a father for the first time.
Eight weeks, day one.
When I got out here, she was eight weeks.
Like nine and a half weeks tomorrow, and a couple
of days after, you can find out whether it's a boy or a girl.
They're all big moments I'm not there for.
I'd be absolutely killing myself if that wasn't wreaking havoc
on my mind this whole time.
Like, I'm not struggling, Annie.
It's not hard.
You can just fish and hunt and eat the [bleep]
off the shore for the rest of your bloody life
if you want it too.
But home's calling, and it's a hard call to ignore.
The only thing keeping me here, really,
is the prospect of $250,000 to kickstart that child's life.
But every time I sit still, the voice comes back up.
How's she doing?
Not even 12 weeks yet.
You're not even out of the bloody danger period,
and you're here, not there.
Don't know what's going on.
I don't know how she's doing, so Aria.
[sighs]
So, yep, I'm going to sleep on it.
I'll talk to you guys tomorrow.
I think this is how Queenslanders enjoy the South
Island.
It's just with their eyeballs.
So I'm just finishing off the--
the fireplace.
That fire I think has kept me here.
Even though I've had no food, it's
like if you're warm and cozy in your home,
that's half the battle.
I wanted to double layer the rocks
because there's a fair bit of--
I don't know what you do.
It's just this heat almost.
And I imagine that if that really dries out, that it could
just, you know, just like that.
So, yeah, it's coming along nicely.
Goes up there to my chimney out the back.
I know that's my wall, but it's only temporary.
One of the problems I'm faced with
is that I can't rely on any kind of binding structure
like a clay or soil.
I'm totally reliant on rocks.
I've got to fill in all the gaps with rocks.
So it might end up looking like a bit of a mountain,
but so be it to sleep peacefully and not smoke myself out.
Everything you do requires some effort.
Because I don't have a lot coming in,
I'm trying to minimize my energy output.
Might see a little worm down here while I'm digging.
There's a cool breeze coming in the front door.
I think there's a nice little storm brewing, definitely
coming from the mountains, and that breeze
has just kicked in big time.
You can see the waves on the lake, normally very still,
so I've turned my attention to my shelter.
Try and batten it down a bit.
Having a solid wall around you is the best sense of security.
Every minute it's picking up big time,
and I'm going to keep building.
This is just a wind protection.
Haven't actually got my inside wall yet,
so I'll get my tarp ready in case I need to string it
and it starts pouring or something.
So as you can see, I'm just sort of propping up wood
at the moment, and then I'm hoping to sort of lash it
all in.
Scared the bejesus out of me.
Just trying to get some bit of protection going for the night.
Oh, that's a nice light one.
There you go, mate.
There you go.
This is my home here.
You've got to feel comfortable and safe.
Oh, that instantly feels better.
Blocked out oncoming wind.
Warm, dry, food.
That's what keeps you alive.
On a personal note, I've started bleeding again.
I just had a normal cycle.
Now I'm having another one.
It's just god knows what, my body gone into shock releasing
its last of its eggs for life or something.
Well, you just start to worry.
You start to stress that you're going to lose these extra
calories and you're--
it's not in the game plan.
I'm not having any more babies, so begone.
Both kids were-- what they were like in my womb
and growing inside of me is exactly what they're like now.
One was slow and patient and rolly,
and then my second, complete opposite.
Full of life, kicking and screaming.
Of all the bleeds in my life, I wouldn't give any of it up.
Hello, peaches.
Happy to have such a beautiful family.
It looks like there was some snow up on the peaks up there.
Beautiful sight.
So I think what I'd like to do today, walk into the bush
here and set up a trail cam, because now we've
had a little bit of rain, hopefully creatures
will be moving around a little bit more.
So I'm going to take the bow with me.
You never know what you're going to encounter.
I've never been hunting in my life
without breakfast and food in my backpack,
with only hot water for breakfast.
Just trying to conserve as much energy as possible.
I came here with about 10 kilos more than my usual weight.
It was really hard to put it on because I work physically.
It's getting to crunch time now.
Like, if I'm losing weight--
I can tell I've lost some with my belt,
but how much I've got no idea.
Have an intersection here, and here we've
got a game trail coming that way, that way,
and through that tree there.
I am aware that this challenge, this challenge
will come to an end.
And if I haven't done my best, it will bug me forever,
so I am doing my best.
My aim is to make it to 100 days if I can.
Being able to hunt with my bow increases my chances
of doing that.
Oh, that got me excited, but it wasn't.
Sometimes your eyes play tricks on you.
It's called wishful thinking.
Let's go back.
It was a good walk.
It would have been better with--
with a harvest.
The plan was to place the trail camera, and I got that done,
so that's--
that's good.
I'm trying to conserve energy to last as long as I possibly can.
Hunting up in the hills uses up a lot of energy,
so that's why I need to eat first, get a feed of fish
into me.
If I can't catch fish, I can't stay here.
When I found out Annie was pregnant,
I didn't know what the hell to think or feel.
And so I just kept charging on forward like the right thing
to do now is to just--
just keep going.
Now I'm regretting leaving.
It feels like I kind of ran away from that problem a little bit.
There it is.
10 days.
Not much compared to the original plan
of a couple of months.
[beeping]
Hey, this is Chase.
I'm officially tapping out.
The severity and the reality of that situation
didn't set in until I was out here.
Mate, you're going to be a father.
You're going to have a family soon.
I think I was pushing those thoughts to the back of my mind
on my way here.
I was hoping to use that as my fire.
But then as the veil of this land peeled those layers away,
that fire was doused and an entirely different fire
was lit.
Here they come.
My ticket out of here.
Good day.
How are you feeling, mate?
Bit of relief.
Yeah, a bit of relief to see you coming in,
because I feel like I've made the right choice.
Why are you tapping out?
In the grand scheme of things, a couple of months isn't much.
I'm glad I got to do this.
There's absolutely no regrets in that.
This has been amazing.
It's been a fantastic experience.
It's just there's-- there's priorities elsewhere.
Maybe if circumstances were a little bit different and I
wasn't--
my heart wasn't yearning so badly, then maybe I absolutely
could go longer.
But circumstances are certainly not being conducive
to that, that's for sure.
And I suppose that's it.
Say goodbye to this beautiful place.
It's important to me now that I get home and take
care of my family.
Yeah, it was all mental for me.
A lot of your grand plans of what you think of survival
situation is eroded very quickly.
But, yeah, I think I've got what I came for.
To my-- my child to be, I'll do everything
I can to make sure you have a good life.
Well, I'm somewhat recovered today.
The nausea is gone, so physically I'm
feeling a lot better.
So I think I'm going to have enough energy to actually
do something today rather than just lie in my sleeping
bag all day sleeping like I did yesterday.
I wonder how many kilos I've lost.
I feel like I made a mistake on day one
setting myself up so far from the water.
Just so hard to know where the best place to camp
for the long term is, what to do.
I feel like I need to be bringing food in rather than
exploring to find the best place to camp.
Oh, I'm so wracked by indecision.
I'll put my hat on.
Yep, yep, I'll be decisive about that.
Right, hat on.
Hat on.
Yep, hat on.
There we go.
A decisive action.
There's that feeling of being unsettled.
There are so many possibilities on what's the right order
to do things in.
Yeah, I feel my energy lagging already.
Yeah, that gastro is really taking it out of me.
Yeah, it's a lot more exposed than where I am.
Well, it's a lot closer to the water
and it's a lot closer to what I think is the fishing rock.
And what am I going to do every day?
Am I going to fish every day?
Probably.
Oh, dilemmas, dilemmas.
Indecision.
I'm so exhausted today.
This game is all about the mind, really,
but I think I'm going to have to play a waiting game
to deal with this gastro.
Time for a little rest, I think.
I'm just trying to focus on the long game here,
but I can just feel a sense of sort of hopelessness
and despair.
Putangitangis.
I wish I could eat them, but they're pretty
and they keep me company.
The sun is out for the first time properly.
It is so unusual and so nice to get clear blue sky
and direct sun, so I'm trying to lap it up
because I know most likely it will change in an hour.
Time to go back.
[groans]
Stood up too fast.
There's needs some once, and currently there's
been a lot of needs, basically food, fire, and water,
and hasn't been a lot of time or energy left for wants.
So I have started thinking about a bit more permanent shelter.
There's the two poles for A frame.
But that little possum has made me wonders,
and I feel like I have much more energy.
Oh!
The competition as such or the experience as such
is nothing like I thought it would be, in a way.
Good and bad, good and bad.
Hey, don't peck on my bow.
Oh, here I was worrying about rats.
I think it's going to be a far greater test mentally than I
anticipated.
So anyway, what we've got here is my new permanent shelter.
I can just fit in standing.
Basically seeing how things go, I might progress on this,
build a front, build a back, get a door.
We'll see.
The wetness is another thing.
Even on a perfect day like today, it was still damp.
So I think mentally that's just something
that I have to come to terms with and go,
I'm going to be wet and damp for maybe three months.
I was hungry today, so I took another piece of meat.
It'll be a possum drumstick again.
Can't believe how salty it tastes.
Crazy.
Wind changed.
Here comes the rain.
[thunder rumbling]
Oh, oh, [bleep].
Oh, talk to about lucky.
Beautiful day today, and now we've got this thundering rain,
and after this I really want to get some cover down low.
Even if it's not windproof, just a breeze coming through with
driplets.
I'm sleeping in the middle under the tarp for the moment.
I've rearranged things, and everything else gets slightly
damp again.
I can't quite do my pants up yet, which is a good thing,
but I keep on falling down.
I started this competition knowing I had,
you know, this excess weight that I would use
in the first few weeks, because I thought,
I really want to concentrate on shelter and food can come,
but because my periods have come back,
I feel that critical time period is right now,
where if you don't start bringing in some good quality
food, that it'll really shorten my time out here.
I've been veggo for a lot of years now.
Watch where I'm walking.
You never know what you might find.
I had a big struggle in applying to come here.
I knew I couldn't survive unless I ate meat.
Oh, look through here.
Just ferns.
I struggle with things that care for their young,
but the hard reality is, if I don't get proteins, I guess,
my body's going to start packing it in.
That might be a mamaku heart.
I wonder what if heart is still good and, like, how long
the heart's viable for.
Going to use my ax to try and trim away these extra fronds.
They're very hairy.
There's a heart inside, and that's the edible part.
I don't want to hack into it too much.
It's not massive, but so grateful.
Oh, it's getting softer there.
I just don't want to waste anything,
so I'm thinking if I roast it with a bit more fiber
on the outside still left, I can maybe crack him open.
Oh!
My bum's on fire.
Come on, mamaku.
I love you.
I can smell it.
It's time for a bit of mamaku.
[laughs]
I swear I'm drooling.
I'm just going to try the top section.
Holy hell.
It's like uncooked sweet potato.
With a hint of burnt carrot.
Well, I've got a little bit of something in my belly,
but I don't know if it equates to the energy output.
It feels nice going in, though.
Maybe it's more of a mental thing
until I get that protein sorted.
Going to leave the others still a bit longer just
to ease myself out for the whole afternoon, evening, you know?
I like that.
I think in my head right now I'm sort of banking
my long term survival here on deer, which
is a bit of a dangerous thing to do because, like, I've hunted
long enough to know that shooting a deer with a trad bow
in a country which you don't know and don't know
the movements of the deer is slim.
Like, you might get lucky, but you might not.
They're long gone today, so my plan is to move out of camp,
walk to those trail cameras, check what the trail camera's
doing.
Observe and see what's moving.
I'm just about 50 meters away from the first trail camera,
so I have to take it real slow from here,
just quietly check them.
FEMALE CONTESTANT: Man that wind, it's brutal.
MALE CONTESTANT: I am a little bit concerned.
I did hear a couple of limbs falling.
Here, fishy, fishy.
I saw a trout in the water.
Got him.
Oh, we've got a fight on our hands.
MALE CONTESTANT: I'm not at full strength.
I can feel my body getting weaker.
FEMALE CONTESTANT: I've been feeling this decision coming
for a few days.