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The South Island of New Zealand,
it's an epic place.
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It's wet, it's cold, it's snowy.
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If you don't respect
the environment here,
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it will slap you hard.
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I just need to bring some food in.
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Look at that stonker!
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Last night, there was deer
all around me.
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That's freaking delicious.
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I know how tough it's going to be.
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Oh, my God, I miss them.
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You've got to feel safe,
otherwise, you just die out here.
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It doesn't feel as bad
as it looks, feels worse.
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This shit just got lit.
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Jesus! I'm scared enough to have
my emergency tap-out in my hand.
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The last person standing,
they take home $250,000.
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(SOBS) Somebody help me!
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Oh, oh, I think he's bigger
than the other one.
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I'm eating a lot of greens,
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that I haven't really found
overly palatable.
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But I'm not going to waste
this opportunity.
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In the back of my head,
I've always been saying,
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"100 days. Let's try 100 days."
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I'm learning that my capacity
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to bring in protein here
is very limited.
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Time to finish off
the little mouse trap.
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I have no food.
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I've seen a couple of mice around
and possum. That worked.
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This is my future protein supply.
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Oh, oh,
that is just freaking awful.
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I know my wife would be saying,
"Just listen to your heart.
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"Your heart's
where the answers are."
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I am calling up to officially
bow out of Alone Australia.
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I look forward to the loving embrace
of my wife again.
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Time to return to family.
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Something changed yesterday,
big time.
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It's freezing cold.
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(THUNDER RUMBLING)
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Got up this morning,
it was a very cold morning
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after a very cold night.
Ice everywhere.
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Just not a lot of fuel,
unfortunately.
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Haven't caught some fresh trout
in a while.
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I think it could be the cold snap.
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Hey, this is exciting.
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It's the first snow.
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A little bit more
and we've got snow angels
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and snowmen and snow fights.
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It looks awesome.
I love it.
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In Sweden,
when the first snow comes,
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you get up in the morning
and you go, "Yeah!"
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Like, I just love running
into first snow.
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It's sort of cool to walk around
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and there's some snow
on the ground
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and when you're walking it,
it squeaks.
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As soon as it comes in,
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it just lifts the light
a little bit.
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It gets a little bit lighter.
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It's still a bit of wet rain,
so I've got to get in shelter.
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Even though, like,
it looks beautiful,
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let's be real here.
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Like, it's much more serious.
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I need to get food
and, like, snow makes it harder.
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So, I've had two weeks now
without any protein,
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two weeks with tree fern fronds
and a few berries.
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Now I'm sitting in a situation,
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the weather has been so cold
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that not even the mice
are out on camera.
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So, trapping is sort of out
for the moment,
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where hunting had no luck.
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And fishing is the most challenging
concept.
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Like, it is super high water.
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Today I've got planned
a whopper of a day.
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Um, I plan to go and get
some fern fronds.
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Um, the reason I go is I only
have two pieces of fern frond left
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and they are two skinny pieces,
which is hardly any food.
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Um, and because I can't get
anything else,
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that's my only food source.
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So, I have to go, no matter what.
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Mud. For me to go and get
the only food I can get,
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tree fern fronds,
it's 45 minutes each way.
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It's a hard trip.
You have to move slow.
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You're tired.
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Snow mixed with mud,
mixed with wet logs...
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..is a lethal combination.
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Argh!
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There's some good tree ferns,
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I'll take a couple.
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This is a big energy expenditure
for me
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and, to be honest, I don't even
think the calories you get out of it
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is worth the walk you're doing,
right.
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But what options do you have?
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You either try or give up
and I don't give up.
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Fingertips are really cold,
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just going to heat them up
a little bit.
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Get your hands in your armpits
and just wait.
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Might as well process these.
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On face value, I don't think
that a lot of my city friends
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and acquaintances pick me
as a hunter and gatherer.
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But, then again,
my hunter-gatherer friends
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wouldn't pick me being
a city person, modelling either.
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I guess I've done alright.
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Not bad for a model
from Darlinghurst, right?
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Alright, I think I'm done.
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This should see me through
to protein arrives.
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(THUNDER RUMBLING)
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So, I've been lying here for what?
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The last three hours or so trying
to fall asleep.
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Yay!
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Ha.
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My brain is going
a million miles an hour.
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Just thinking about
completely random stuff.
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Thinking about...
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..how much the average
walking speed of humans
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has increased over the last couple
thousands of years
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with the average increase in height
of people.
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Hm. Yeah.
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If anyone's got any tips for how
to slow the mind down out here...
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..send smoke signals or something.
Hm.
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Didn't sleep much last night at all.
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Again, mind races, can't sleep.
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F is for fort.
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I'm making a little sign
for our shelter.
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Something that says Fort Kick Ass.
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I do feel tired.
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Why am I finding it
so hard to fall asleep here?
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Yeah. When I was 11,
I got diagnosed with ADHD.
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And as most kids in what would've
been the '90s,
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and they got diagnosed with that,
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it was straight off to the Ritalin.
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And so it was on that for
a couple of years
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and that really turned me into
a bit of a zombie.
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Well, because I really didn't
concentrate at school,
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and with it, without it,
I still didn't really concentrate.
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I am more of a visual learner.
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So, classes where it was more
hands-on and stuff, I excelled at.
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So, things like, ceramics,
metalwork, woodwork, home economics,
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loved those classes
and did really well in those.
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But stuff where I'm sitting
in a classroom for, like, six hours
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staring at a blackboard, no, no way.
Not my way of learning.
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So I found a way to cope
and it works.
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And there's definitely
a bit of Aspy in there as well.
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But, hey, this makes me
more interesting.
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I think that's part of the reason
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why I really like
the outdoors as well.
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'Cause any skills you learn
for the outdoors are all hands on.
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Ah, could I just have an epiphany?
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Lightning just struck my brain.
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Well, that must have hurt.
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Fort Kick Ass!
Pretty chuffed with that.
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Morning.
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It's cold.
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There was ice on everything
this morning.
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Maybe 'cause I'm losing weight,
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but I'm just finding it harder
and harder to stay warm.
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I have zero to eat.
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My belly is saying,
"Come on, come on."
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Fish were on, bam and hit me
at once, then nothing.
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I have to fish more.
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There's something happening
in my body,
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there's this weakness that's just
overcome me at the moment.
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It's like my mind is just
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a microsecond ahead of my body
all the time now,
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it's like I'm walking,
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but I'm not quite keeping up
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and the ledge is dangerous.
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But I'm back to drinking
lots of water
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'cause every time I feel hungry,
I just drink water.
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You know, it's not just hunger,
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it's not just doing without
a few meals.
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I'm starving!
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Now, I know it's cold, fishios.
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God, even if I saw
a trout swim past,
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I'd be happy at the moment.
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Just tell me if I get a fish on,
I'll wake up.
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Oh, my God.
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This big one
just right in front of me.
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Oh, my God, that was just...
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Fuck!
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Snapped her.
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That was so freaking big.
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Oh, fucking missed one.
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Oh!
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Oh!
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I knew it would be
a good time to fish.
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(SOBS)
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I wanted to catch that thing
and eat it.
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I was so hungry.
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Oh!
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(SOBS) So hungry.
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Well, I don't think I've felt quite
as frustrated as this yet.
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My patience is just so thin
at the moment.
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Like, so thin.
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And I think it's just
because I haven't got enough sugar
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going in my brain and I'm just,
argh, I'm hangry basically.
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And just frustrated.
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(SIGHS DEEPLY)
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I've been fishing every day
for a number of weeks now
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with a number of lines in the water
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with a few different sorts of lures.
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Uh, no bites.
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Doing a huge amount of foraging.
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So, lots of berries,
lots of supplejack shoots.
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The agriculture's what I know
and the foraging.
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But it's just like,
if I want to be here on day 80,
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I need to get more food.
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Um, so one thing popped into mind,
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which was this sedge on this point
right here behind me.
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And I check that out today.
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It may have viable seed in its head.
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If it does,
I'll be harvesting it.
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Beautiful Sedge.
This looks promising.
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Yeah, that's got seed in it.
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OK. These chunky ones are probably
the female ones.
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The seeds are actually
a little green.
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See those lovely, lovely seeds?
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So that's carbohydrate,
those seeds.
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I think I'm starting to harvest
them now.
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It's just happening.
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OK, let's do this.
I'll just stick 'em in my pocket.
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Collecting the seed at the end
of the season is my job at home.
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Harvesting the rocket seed
and the kale seed and the parsley
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and celery and tomato and pumpkin,
that's what I do.
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I'm the seed woman.
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And the intelligence in a seed
that then turns into a plant
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that then fruits
and that we can eat that fruit
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and then save some of that seed
for next year.
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The seed is a miraculous thing.
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Just separating the seed pod
from the husk.
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And you can see that the seed,
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so the seed's, the green bit
and the husk is the brown bit.
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So, the seeds have come out
of the husk.
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So, we just want to be left
with the little green seeds.
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I'll be harvesting as much as I can
and roasting it
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and grinding it and making
a sort of a carbohydrate.
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This is so much more labour
intensive
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than any calories
I might get out of it,
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but I'm really enjoying myself,
so...
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Smells really good.
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Smells like roasting sesame seed.
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Mm, it's like a seeded biscuit.
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So good. So good.
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I think I should leave some
for tomorrow.
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Yeah, it's really good...
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..if you're into grit.
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Wow.
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What a beautiful evening
and I feel happy.
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I started physically
missing my pack,
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missing the skin contact,
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the silk and fur of Toby
and Charlie...
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..and the warmth of John's body.
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I just really wanted
that skin-on-skin touch,
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00:21:44,960 --> 00:21:47,520
contact with my pack.
252
00:21:52,200 --> 00:21:55,280
I'm feeling lots of emotion
coming up,
253
00:21:55,280 --> 00:21:59,120
but I'm, I'm OK with that.
254
00:21:59,120 --> 00:22:01,560
I feel, I feel strong still.
255
00:22:34,360 --> 00:22:39,880
I thought I'd go to bed last night
or yesterday afternoon
256
00:22:39,880 --> 00:22:42,560
'cause I just, I didn't want to look
after the fire.
257
00:22:45,160 --> 00:22:49,440
I just, I just didn't want to do
anything, to be honest.
258
00:22:50,960 --> 00:22:57,360
Laying in bed for 15, 16 hours
probably did my body good.
259
00:22:58,680 --> 00:23:02,800
But don't know about
the mental state
260
00:23:02,800 --> 00:23:06,280
for the first time out here.
261
00:23:11,040 --> 00:23:16,400
I feel like I've done a lifetime
of therapy in one night,
262
00:23:16,400 --> 00:23:17,920
but without support.
263
00:23:23,400 --> 00:23:26,600
When I first met my husband,
264
00:23:26,600 --> 00:23:30,320
I used to have these dreams,
I call 'em shredded dreams
265
00:23:30,320 --> 00:23:35,040
because it feels like
I'm shredding up life.
266
00:23:35,040 --> 00:23:38,280
And I figured, I put it down
and still do put it down
267
00:23:38,280 --> 00:23:43,040
to the trauma of being
in the police force
268
00:23:43,040 --> 00:23:46,400
and the things that...
269
00:23:48,960 --> 00:23:52,040
..I did,
things that I witnessed,
270
00:23:52,040 --> 00:23:55,720
things that other people did,
all of it.
271
00:23:56,840 --> 00:24:00,600
And I was drinking pretty hard
by then.
272
00:24:00,600 --> 00:24:03,160
Anyway...
273
00:24:03,160 --> 00:24:06,920
I haven't had those dreams
for 10 years or so.
274
00:24:06,920 --> 00:24:10,520
They, they, they stopped.
275
00:24:10,520 --> 00:24:13,480
So, last night, I had one.
276
00:24:16,360 --> 00:24:17,760
But...
277
00:24:20,560 --> 00:24:25,760
..tenfold on the vividness.
278
00:24:31,240 --> 00:24:32,560
And so...
279
00:24:34,200 --> 00:24:39,000
..I don't need to get
into graphics, trust me,
280
00:24:39,000 --> 00:24:43,560
just take your worst nightmare ever,
281
00:24:43,560 --> 00:24:49,080
wrap your family up in it
and just play it out for hours.
282
00:24:57,160 --> 00:25:03,080
Add a really good dash
of helplessness...
283
00:25:05,280 --> 00:25:08,840
..and then wake up...
284
00:25:15,160 --> 00:25:17,720
..and not know where you are.
285
00:25:25,720 --> 00:25:31,960
Last night was the first night
I actually really got to...
286
00:25:35,480 --> 00:25:39,160
..look inside the depths
287
00:25:39,160 --> 00:25:42,360
of what's happened in my life.
288
00:25:46,480 --> 00:25:49,240
And I don't want to run
because I know...
289
00:25:51,280 --> 00:25:55,320
..it's probably really good for me.
290
00:25:57,840 --> 00:26:01,560
I've actually realised I have PTSD
from the police force.
291
00:26:01,560 --> 00:26:03,520
I didn't realise.
292
00:26:04,760 --> 00:26:09,320
I probably should have got some help
long, long ago.
293
00:26:14,280 --> 00:26:16,320
No crazy old ride out here,
294
00:26:16,320 --> 00:26:17,840
let me tell you.
295
00:26:39,880 --> 00:26:42,960
Uh, I'm so laid up,
296
00:26:42,960 --> 00:26:44,640
I can hardly move.
297
00:26:46,160 --> 00:26:49,960
There's snow-covered alps around.
298
00:26:49,960 --> 00:26:51,400
Thick white snow.
299
00:26:51,400 --> 00:26:54,280
It was cold last night
and I feel a bit cold now. So...
300
00:26:54,280 --> 00:26:57,840
I've just got all the rain gear
and all the stuff on
301
00:26:57,840 --> 00:27:00,640
because I have a plan today.
302
00:27:00,640 --> 00:27:03,120
I'm off for a little fishing trip.
303
00:27:04,640 --> 00:27:07,120
Getting fish is getting to the point
where it's...
304
00:27:08,760 --> 00:27:10,640
You know,
305
00:27:10,640 --> 00:27:14,520
that's gonna be the difference
between me staying or leaving.
306
00:27:20,600 --> 00:27:23,040
I did an explore trip a while back
307
00:27:23,040 --> 00:27:24,880
where I walked up the river.
308
00:27:27,000 --> 00:27:30,400
And there's a bit of a bush bash,
to be honest.
309
00:27:30,400 --> 00:27:33,200
But I saw a few big trunks
310
00:27:33,200 --> 00:27:36,440
and then I ended up at this place
which was really accessible
311
00:27:36,440 --> 00:27:37,760
that had a big sand bank on it.
312
00:27:37,760 --> 00:27:42,320
And there was like
one sort of turbulent deep pool
313
00:27:42,320 --> 00:27:44,560
that looked like
it should hold fish.
314
00:27:46,640 --> 00:27:48,280
We'll see. We'll see.
315
00:27:50,800 --> 00:27:52,760
Almost there.
316
00:28:02,640 --> 00:28:06,640
Getting protein
is difficult right now.
317
00:28:06,640 --> 00:28:10,000
Like, it's a crazy to think
just a few weeks ago
318
00:28:10,000 --> 00:28:13,560
I would see, you know,
five to 10 of them cruising.
319
00:28:22,720 --> 00:28:25,800
Alright, we just got a revelation.
320
00:28:25,800 --> 00:28:31,120
I've just physically watched
two pairs of trout spawning.
321
00:28:31,120 --> 00:28:34,920
So, this is not post spawn,
which I thought it was,
322
00:28:34,920 --> 00:28:40,120
this is actually during spawn,
which changes everything.
323
00:28:40,120 --> 00:28:42,840
Fishing's gonna be
seriously, seriously tough
324
00:28:42,840 --> 00:28:46,680
because they're obviously
not focusing on eating.
325
00:28:49,040 --> 00:28:50,920
Now just across the river
326
00:28:50,920 --> 00:28:55,160
in the water on the other side,
327
00:28:55,160 --> 00:28:58,720
there is a self dead spawn trout...
328
00:29:00,880 --> 00:29:03,000
..which I want to eat.
329
00:29:03,000 --> 00:29:05,200
Now just where I am,
330
00:29:05,200 --> 00:29:06,680
it's not very deep.
331
00:29:06,680 --> 00:29:09,600
I can get over mid thigh,
332
00:29:09,600 --> 00:29:11,400
so I'm gonna take my pants off,
333
00:29:11,400 --> 00:29:12,880
walk over, grab the fish,
334
00:29:12,880 --> 00:29:14,840
walk back over.
335
00:29:14,840 --> 00:29:16,280
I'm hoping there's a fish.
336
00:29:16,280 --> 00:29:18,680
It looks like a fish
and I'm happy to eat that.
337
00:29:18,680 --> 00:29:19,880
That's not a problem.
338
00:29:22,000 --> 00:29:24,040
Here we go.
339
00:29:24,040 --> 00:29:27,080
Oh.
I haven't had food for so long
340
00:29:27,080 --> 00:29:30,520
that even a self dead pawn trout
is wanted.
341
00:29:30,520 --> 00:29:31,920
So, I'm gonna take the risk.
342
00:29:31,920 --> 00:29:33,440
I'm gonna say over here.
343
00:29:36,280 --> 00:29:37,640
Oh, it's just...
344
00:29:48,360 --> 00:29:50,800
..got to watch
where you step on the rocks.
345
00:29:53,400 --> 00:29:55,200
Get the holes.
346
00:29:56,600 --> 00:29:58,320
Oh, shit.
347
00:30:10,120 --> 00:30:12,240
Dammit.
348
00:30:12,240 --> 00:30:14,400
It looks like there's a hole
in between
349
00:30:14,400 --> 00:30:16,400
and it's deeper than I want.
350
00:30:16,400 --> 00:30:17,880
Deeper than I can go.
351
00:30:23,080 --> 00:30:27,080
No, not worth the risk.
352
00:30:32,880 --> 00:30:34,640
Oh!
353
00:30:38,760 --> 00:30:41,160
Oh! Jesus!
354
00:30:43,240 --> 00:30:45,080
And this one first, one second.
355
00:30:46,640 --> 00:30:49,120
I misjudged it.
356
00:30:49,120 --> 00:30:51,840
It's in front of that...
357
00:30:51,840 --> 00:30:57,480
I meant to pass over in front
of that triangular rock you see.
358
00:30:58,640 --> 00:31:03,200
And the clear water makes it look
like it's groin-deep,
359
00:31:03,200 --> 00:31:05,040
but it's a big hole.
360
00:31:07,480 --> 00:31:09,800
Like, I'm hungry, right?
I want to eat.
361
00:31:11,400 --> 00:31:16,800
But cold water and current
is not a good combination.
362
00:31:16,800 --> 00:31:22,440
And what would it mean
if I didn't get it
363
00:31:22,440 --> 00:31:24,480
is I'm hungry.
364
00:31:24,480 --> 00:31:26,200
I'm here.
365
00:31:26,200 --> 00:31:27,840
I can keep fighting.
366
00:31:27,840 --> 00:31:29,720
If I fall in,
367
00:31:29,720 --> 00:31:31,320
I'm home.
368
00:31:31,320 --> 00:31:33,640
So I'm gonna head back.
369
00:31:44,200 --> 00:31:46,560
Fishing wasn't that interesting,
370
00:31:46,560 --> 00:31:49,040
but I found something wading.
371
00:31:49,040 --> 00:31:50,960
I'll show you.
372
00:31:50,960 --> 00:31:53,600
There's a deer print here.
373
00:31:53,600 --> 00:31:56,440
Couple of hoof prints.
374
00:31:56,440 --> 00:32:00,280
And you can see how they've got
rain dripples in it.
375
00:32:00,280 --> 00:32:04,200
So, I would say this is last night,
not this morning.
376
00:32:04,200 --> 00:32:05,720
Looks like one deer...
377
00:32:08,280 --> 00:32:10,720
..but they didn't walk up here.
378
00:32:10,720 --> 00:32:12,520
They continued out.
379
00:32:12,520 --> 00:32:16,280
I don't know
if you can see through the water.
380
00:32:16,280 --> 00:32:17,880
Just pebbles there.
381
00:32:17,880 --> 00:32:19,160
And that's deer poop.
382
00:32:19,160 --> 00:32:21,040
Red deer poop.
383
00:32:21,040 --> 00:32:24,400
So, that puts the question to me.
384
00:32:25,720 --> 00:32:28,120
Is it worth just taking
the bow and arrow
385
00:32:28,120 --> 00:32:29,320
and just sit here?
386
00:32:30,440 --> 00:32:32,040
Just in case?
387
00:32:33,280 --> 00:32:35,040
I think so.
388
00:32:40,800 --> 00:32:43,640
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389
00:32:43,640 --> 00:32:46,800
It's the ultimate
human endurance challenge.
390
00:32:46,800 --> 00:32:49,440
The battle is on to survive alone
391
00:32:49,440 --> 00:32:50,720
in the rugged
New Zealand wilderness
392
00:32:50,720 --> 00:32:55,840
with the winner taking home
a prize worth $250,000.
393
00:33:25,400 --> 00:33:28,680
Well, it's another day.
394
00:33:30,480 --> 00:33:33,160
I've actually got
quite a headache this morning.
395
00:33:33,160 --> 00:33:34,920
Really late, falling asleep again.
396
00:33:34,920 --> 00:33:38,720
And it just means
I'm sleeping in later as well.
397
00:33:38,720 --> 00:33:41,600
It's annoying. I'm quite tired.
398
00:33:43,880 --> 00:33:45,920
I'm beyond tired. I'm exhausted.
399
00:33:48,880 --> 00:33:50,840
Such is life,
400
00:33:50,840 --> 00:33:52,360
as one criminal once said.
401
00:33:55,840 --> 00:33:59,480
I mean, I do miss my family
and I miss Erin.
402
00:33:59,480 --> 00:34:01,720
She definitely gets me.
403
00:34:01,720 --> 00:34:05,280
The most supportive person
in my world and my best friend.
404
00:34:05,280 --> 00:34:07,960
If it wasn't for her,
I wouldn't be on this adventure.
405
00:34:07,960 --> 00:34:10,880
I'm just gonna climb
in my sleeping bag
406
00:34:10,880 --> 00:34:13,240
and try and sleep this headache off.
407
00:34:15,640 --> 00:34:17,520
(GROANS)
408
00:34:19,160 --> 00:34:21,760
Yeah, there is a bit of spinning
409
00:34:21,760 --> 00:34:26,640
going from vertical to horizontal.
410
00:34:26,640 --> 00:34:28,920
Oof.
411
00:34:30,640 --> 00:34:32,160
Oh, man!
412
00:34:33,600 --> 00:34:35,200
That vertigo.
413
00:34:37,560 --> 00:34:40,720
(GROANS)
414
00:34:47,200 --> 00:34:49,360
Uh, it's making me feel nauseous.
415
00:34:51,080 --> 00:34:53,840
I hope I can shake the vertigo.
416
00:34:53,840 --> 00:34:57,040
(GROANS)
417
00:34:57,040 --> 00:35:00,120
I want to see how long
I can last out here,
418
00:35:00,120 --> 00:35:03,480
but between the headache
and the lack of energy...
419
00:35:03,480 --> 00:35:06,240
(GROANS)
420
00:35:06,240 --> 00:35:08,560
..I don't think
it'll be too much longer.
421
00:35:33,680 --> 00:35:35,120
Well, I've got to say,
422
00:35:35,120 --> 00:35:37,800
I feel like crap, physically.
423
00:35:39,160 --> 00:35:41,080
I wouldn't be safe on a ledge.
424
00:35:42,080 --> 00:35:44,520
I'm so tired, I can't get up.
425
00:35:44,520 --> 00:35:47,040
(LAUGHS)
426
00:35:47,040 --> 00:35:49,160
(SIGHS)
427
00:35:52,800 --> 00:35:54,840
(GEESE QUACK IN DISTANCE)
428
00:35:58,520 --> 00:36:00,960
Oh, my God,
I haven't caught a bloody trout
429
00:36:00,960 --> 00:36:02,480
in days and days.
430
00:36:06,400 --> 00:36:10,080
I can hear the Canadian geese
going crazy.
431
00:36:13,880 --> 00:36:17,120
I swear I was thinking
about shooting one.
432
00:36:20,360 --> 00:36:22,800
It's just this whole...
433
00:36:22,800 --> 00:36:25,680
..could I do it?
Can I do it? Do I want to do it?
434
00:36:31,800 --> 00:36:35,000
I haven't eaten meat
for about eight years.
435
00:36:35,000 --> 00:36:36,960
I think when I first came out here,
436
00:36:36,960 --> 00:36:42,160
I decided that I wanted to try
and stick to trout fishing.
437
00:36:43,640 --> 00:36:49,200
I ruled out a lot of my food source
by not hunting.
438
00:36:51,720 --> 00:36:53,440
Ah!
439
00:36:54,480 --> 00:36:56,880
To kill, not to kill.
440
00:36:59,560 --> 00:37:01,480
I am gonna sit again,
441
00:37:01,480 --> 00:37:04,360
maybe even with my bow and arrow,
442
00:37:04,360 --> 00:37:05,880
down where they hang.
443
00:37:37,280 --> 00:37:40,040
The geese are on my shore almost.
444
00:37:40,040 --> 00:37:43,000
They're about two, three metres off.
445
00:37:47,600 --> 00:37:49,800
They are plump!
446
00:37:54,000 --> 00:37:55,320
Oh, my God.
447
00:37:55,320 --> 00:38:00,160
I could just plop you with my arrow.
448
00:38:00,160 --> 00:38:03,360
Oh, my God!
449
00:38:03,360 --> 00:38:06,400
I don't know what's gonna happen,
450
00:38:06,400 --> 00:38:08,040
if I will or not.
451
00:38:08,040 --> 00:38:11,920
I just thought I'd come
and put myself out of the torment.
452
00:38:27,600 --> 00:38:30,760
It's like, there's so many things
going around in my head.
453
00:38:36,440 --> 00:38:42,440
I've noticed if you are not
receiving healthy foods,
454
00:38:42,440 --> 00:38:47,720
your body goes into defend mode,
survival mode.
455
00:39:13,840 --> 00:39:20,120
What do I do? Do I take one,
stay a couple of days,
456
00:39:20,120 --> 00:39:24,520
then do I start taking
more and more,
457
00:39:24,520 --> 00:39:26,120
stay longer,
458
00:39:26,120 --> 00:39:28,800
doing something
I don't really want to do?
459
00:39:28,800 --> 00:39:30,840
(GOOSE QUACKS)
Yeah, there you go.
460
00:39:30,840 --> 00:39:32,280
I don't want to do it.
461
00:39:35,440 --> 00:39:37,360
No, I don't want to do it.
462
00:39:38,880 --> 00:39:41,000
(SNIFFLES)
463
00:39:41,000 --> 00:39:42,320
I don't want to...
464
00:39:44,600 --> 00:39:46,280
I don't want to kill it.
465
00:39:47,960 --> 00:39:51,200
I'm not here just to kill,
to stay longer.
466
00:39:53,000 --> 00:39:55,280
What if I hurt it?
467
00:39:58,280 --> 00:40:00,880
Oh, thank goodness!
468
00:40:15,120 --> 00:40:17,640
I tried!
469
00:40:17,640 --> 00:40:19,640
I can't.
470
00:40:19,640 --> 00:40:21,520
I don't want to kill anything else.
471
00:40:25,120 --> 00:40:29,720
I think I thought I was going to
bring in a bit of my childhood
472
00:40:29,720 --> 00:40:31,320
and, yeah,
473
00:40:31,320 --> 00:40:33,240
bit of survival mode,
474
00:40:33,240 --> 00:40:35,080
mix it all up and just...
475
00:40:37,640 --> 00:40:38,960
..hunt, I think.
476
00:40:45,240 --> 00:40:50,520
So, with that off my shoulders,
477
00:40:50,520 --> 00:40:52,680
where do I go from here?
478
00:41:04,600 --> 00:41:07,320
Alone Australia - powered by Kia.
479
00:41:07,320 --> 00:41:09,760
It's the ultimate
human endurance challenge.
480
00:41:09,760 --> 00:41:13,120
The battle is on
to survive alone
481
00:41:13,120 --> 00:41:14,520
in the rugged New Zealand wilderness
482
00:41:14,520 --> 00:41:19,640
with the winner taking home
a prize worth $250,000.
483
00:41:55,800 --> 00:41:59,520
Hey, it's Tamika.
I'm officially tapping out.
484
00:42:31,760 --> 00:42:34,760
MAN: How are you Tamika?
485
00:42:34,760 --> 00:42:36,080
50-50.
486
00:42:37,240 --> 00:42:39,640
But...
487
00:42:39,640 --> 00:42:42,640
I know it's...
I know it's time.
488
00:42:42,640 --> 00:42:45,480
Can't push anymore.
489
00:42:45,480 --> 00:42:46,920
So...
490
00:42:46,920 --> 00:42:50,520
If the body gives out,
the body gives out
491
00:42:50,520 --> 00:42:53,120
and I don't want to hurt myself.
492
00:42:53,120 --> 00:42:54,840
And I just thought
493
00:42:54,840 --> 00:42:58,680
if I step on that ledge and I slip,
494
00:42:58,680 --> 00:43:01,320
I probably won't get
outta that water.
495
00:43:01,320 --> 00:43:04,560
You gotta do what's right,
I think, so...
496
00:43:04,560 --> 00:43:06,800
For yourself and for your family.
497
00:43:06,800 --> 00:43:09,480
So, it's the right decision.
498
00:43:09,480 --> 00:43:12,280
I'm gonna miss it. (CHUCKLES)
499
00:43:12,280 --> 00:43:14,160
But it's been...
500
00:43:14,160 --> 00:43:16,760
It's been great. Yeah.
501
00:43:23,280 --> 00:43:26,280
I am definitely happy
with 53 days
502
00:43:26,280 --> 00:43:29,640
because I think I've just done
the best that I could do.
503
00:43:33,800 --> 00:43:35,400
It's like safety first,
504
00:43:35,400 --> 00:43:38,680
but the killing aspect's
a very close second.
505
00:43:39,800 --> 00:43:43,200
And killing's not part of me
anymore.
506
00:43:45,600 --> 00:43:50,680
You know, there's this need to feed,
507
00:43:50,680 --> 00:43:53,040
but it's like my heart
doesn't want to.
508
00:43:56,240 --> 00:44:00,520
And I've just become someone
who prefers not to kill animals.
509
00:44:12,640 --> 00:44:15,440
I just want to hug my girls
and my husband.
510
00:44:15,440 --> 00:44:17,760
I can't wait.
511
00:44:20,520 --> 00:44:24,840
I put them in the depths
of my realm
512
00:44:24,840 --> 00:44:27,200
to try and not think about 'em
and then, yeah,
513
00:44:27,200 --> 00:44:28,800
I can't wait.
514
00:44:32,080 --> 00:44:34,080
I also believe I'm showing the girls
515
00:44:34,080 --> 00:44:37,520
that there's not just one path
in life.
516
00:44:38,960 --> 00:44:41,040
If I can show them
that I just gave it a crack
517
00:44:41,040 --> 00:44:42,960
and gave it a go
with all the things that I have,
518
00:44:42,960 --> 00:44:44,400
then I'd be happy.
519
00:45:08,320 --> 00:45:10,360
Got a bow and arrow.
520
00:45:10,360 --> 00:45:12,280
Literally just gonna go
521
00:45:12,280 --> 00:45:14,360
to the fishing area
where I saw the footprint
522
00:45:14,360 --> 00:45:15,480
and sit and wait.
523
00:45:23,200 --> 00:45:25,200
Don't really want
to get my hopes up,
524
00:45:25,200 --> 00:45:28,200
but it looks like a big deer
on the fence.
525
00:45:28,200 --> 00:45:30,680
It could have been a stag.
526
00:45:42,840 --> 00:45:45,680
It is quite hard to imagine
that other people are doing this.
527
00:45:45,680 --> 00:45:48,600
It's a tough gig, man.
528
00:45:48,600 --> 00:45:50,920
It's a tough gig.
529
00:45:53,240 --> 00:45:56,120
Mentally, it's probably one of
the toughest things I've done.
530
00:46:00,120 --> 00:46:02,960
I honestly think I need to rest,
531
00:46:02,960 --> 00:46:06,600
but I still obviously
want to win this thing.
532
00:46:06,600 --> 00:46:10,480
It's never been my way
of being passive
533
00:46:10,480 --> 00:46:13,360
and just do
the least amount of work.
534
00:46:13,360 --> 00:46:17,240
Like, I'd rather go out
guns blazing, you know?
535
00:46:18,760 --> 00:46:20,760
It's just who I am.
That's what I do.
536
00:46:23,680 --> 00:46:27,240
I'm gonna continue fishing
and hunting, trying to gather food,
537
00:46:27,240 --> 00:46:31,040
do the best I can
until I get sent home or I tap out.
538
00:46:45,200 --> 00:46:46,920
(EXHALES)
539
00:46:52,680 --> 00:46:54,880
Did not want to get up
and out of bed today.
540
00:46:56,360 --> 00:46:59,080
Headache's passed, thankfully.
541
00:46:59,080 --> 00:47:03,680
Uh, the light-headedness
is still there and um, yeah,
542
00:47:03,680 --> 00:47:06,000
I think the vertigo
is just malnutrition.
543
00:47:08,120 --> 00:47:11,080
And the only way
that's gonna get fixed
544
00:47:11,080 --> 00:47:15,200
is with some actual food.
545
00:47:18,680 --> 00:47:19,960
So, yeah...
546
00:47:21,520 --> 00:47:23,480
I guess it's that time.
547
00:47:29,080 --> 00:47:31,080
(PHONE BUTTONS BEEP)
548
00:47:36,440 --> 00:47:37,600
It's ringing.
549
00:47:40,200 --> 00:47:43,320
Hello? Yeah. Yeah.
550
00:47:44,920 --> 00:47:48,800
This is Krzysztof
and I am officially
551
00:47:48,800 --> 00:47:50,840
ordering a pizza.
552
00:47:50,840 --> 00:47:56,240
Half Aussie with onion,
half Roscoe with chilli, please.
553
00:47:56,240 --> 00:47:58,560
What do you mean, no?
554
00:47:58,560 --> 00:48:00,280
OK. Worth a try.
555
00:48:05,240 --> 00:48:07,320
And you thought I was gonna tap.
556
00:48:07,320 --> 00:48:08,960
Not happening.
557
00:48:08,960 --> 00:48:12,720
Only way I'm leaving
is if it's a medical emergency,
558
00:48:12,720 --> 00:48:14,480
the doctor says I'm unfit
559
00:48:14,480 --> 00:48:17,440
or Erin's here and says,
"We're going home."
560
00:48:19,360 --> 00:48:22,080
I'm gonna enjoy some sunshine.
561
00:48:22,080 --> 00:48:24,800
We're gonna catch some fish,
562
00:48:24,800 --> 00:48:26,880
we're gonna eat some fish,
563
00:48:26,880 --> 00:48:28,720
we're gonna feel good,
564
00:48:28,720 --> 00:48:30,240
life will be good.
565
00:48:30,240 --> 00:48:31,600
(GROANS)
566
00:48:31,600 --> 00:48:34,280
This is
a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity.
567
00:48:34,280 --> 00:48:35,960
I'm not gonna tap out.
568
00:48:35,960 --> 00:48:38,560
I'm gonna keep pushing
as long as I can.
569
00:48:38,560 --> 00:48:40,240
Hopefully something will come on.
570
00:48:55,680 --> 00:48:58,840
Ah, the fire on the beach
is pretty special.
571
00:49:01,880 --> 00:49:03,880
I am grateful
for a lot of things here.
572
00:49:03,880 --> 00:49:06,280
I'm grateful for the firewood.
573
00:49:06,280 --> 00:49:07,800
I'm grateful for the berries
574
00:49:07,800 --> 00:49:10,040
and the supplejack shoots
575
00:49:10,040 --> 00:49:12,200
and the sedge seed flower.
576
00:49:13,440 --> 00:49:16,880
I'm grateful
that I feel well and strong.
577
00:49:28,800 --> 00:49:31,400
I don't think my reason's changed
for being here.
578
00:49:32,760 --> 00:49:36,520
I came here because I thought
it was exciting to give it a go
579
00:49:36,520 --> 00:49:38,720
to see how I could go
580
00:49:38,720 --> 00:49:41,880
with my years of experience
in the outdoors
581
00:49:41,880 --> 00:49:45,880
and foraging and growing food
582
00:49:45,880 --> 00:49:47,360
and understanding plants
583
00:49:47,360 --> 00:49:50,120
and having a love
for the more-than-human world.
584
00:49:53,080 --> 00:49:59,480
And I would to, like, to bring home
the $250,000 for our family.
585
00:50:08,680 --> 00:50:10,200
Person who stays the longest...
586
00:50:10,200 --> 00:50:11,280
Come on!
587
00:50:11,280 --> 00:50:12,560
..wins.
588
00:50:15,560 --> 00:50:18,920
I feel a bit unstable today.
589
00:50:18,920 --> 00:50:21,600
I'm clumsy.
590
00:50:21,600 --> 00:50:22,840
(GROANS)
591
00:50:25,640 --> 00:50:29,440
If there's only one other person
still out here,
592
00:50:29,440 --> 00:50:32,720
I would just be handing them
$250,000.
593
00:50:32,720 --> 00:50:36,080
At this point in the game,
it's why I'm still here.
594
00:50:36,080 --> 00:50:40,320
Make no bones about it, that is why.
595
00:50:40,320 --> 00:50:42,480
Every day is another day.
596
00:50:42,480 --> 00:50:44,920
I surprised myself
I've made it this far.
597
00:50:44,920 --> 00:50:46,640
My body's giving out,
598
00:50:46,640 --> 00:50:50,440
things are shutting down
in order of least importance.
599
00:50:51,600 --> 00:50:54,480
It's just gonna be,
see how long I can last.
600
00:50:54,480 --> 00:50:55,760
(RETCHES)
601
00:50:58,400 --> 00:50:59,920
WOMAN: I'm sure you'll understand,
602
00:50:59,920 --> 00:51:02,160
based on the symptoms
that you're displaying...
603
00:51:03,800 --> 00:51:07,000
..it is no longer safe medically
for you to continue.
604
00:51:07,000 --> 00:51:09,960
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