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[crowd cheering]
[dramatic music]
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- Decent scar, isn't it?
Pretty impressive.
[vocalizing]
Very nice.
[cheering]
When I think about how far we've come,
and definitely even-- even all of us,
do you know what I mean?
is if, like--it would be a good celebration to that,
man, definitely.
Definitely.
- That's nice, that is.
- Yes, real piece, that buckle, yeah.
- You got him that, then?
[laughter]
- This is gonna be fun.
- Come on!
[all yelling]
all: Hey!
Go, go, go!
[upbeat music playing]
[crowd cheering]
- Hello. - Hi, you all right?
- What's your name? - My name is Louis Tomlinson.
- Louis Tomlinson. And Louis, how old are you?
- I'm 18.
I remember I got the call, and they said
that they wanted me to come to the TV audition,
and I'd never got any news like that in my life.
[dramatic music]
[overlapping chatter]
There was this instant bond and chemistry.
Yeah, we know we're incredibly lucky
to be in the position that we're in
and we're just really enjoying it.
We're trying to make the most of it
and not take it too seriously because,
you know, we don't know if it's gonna last.
So we're gonna just try and have fun while we can.
It felt like once it started, it just went.
It felt like we were unstoppable.
The memories, the relationship, the experiences,
the countries that we saw, the shows that we went to.
It was incredible.
It was so fucking fun.
We were really just as tight as could be as mates.
When Zayn left, that was like, maybe this--
maybe this is the start of the end.
The more you kind of start thinking, well,
maybe this isn't gonna last forever,
I'm like, oh, have we become the band
that we didn't wanna be?
Starting to feel disconnect, and then all of a sudden now
we're talking about maybe we'll go on a break
for a couple of years.
It hit me like a ton of bricks.
I was not prepared for it. Not at all.
[cheering]
- Ladies and gentlemen, One Direction!
- I knew how much it meant to Louis.
And I thought, this is something
he's really gonna miss.
- I know that it was a pretty fraught time, really,
because they were enjoying it so much.
He was having a ball.
- He didn't say much.
He didn't ever say, oh, I'm so broken the band's finishing,
but I knew he was.
- So hi, everybody.
We just wanna say a massive thank you to "X Factor."
Obviously, for us, this is the place it all started,
and we think it's the best way to end this chapter here.
But we just wanna say thank you to all the team,
everybody's been whatever.
- And I think we should just-- a general thank you.
- It did feel a bit subdued backstage, and all of that.
I don't think all of the band wanted it to go that way,
but it was going that way.
- Just to think of it all coming to an end was hard,
but I guess because they had called it a break,
it made it feel better, but it was a very emotional day.
- So any confusion on that format?
- Nope.
- I didn't really know what he would do after that
because he was so committed to the band
and so full of it.
- You wanna go through "History"? Okay.
- I remember he just pealing his eyes out.
And I've never seen Louis cry.
I've never ever seen him cry.
You know, we don't show that emotion.
And he was just there, proper upset.
He loved the band. He loved what he was doing.
And I think he just--
I think he just loved that journey,
and he never wanted it to end.
[indistinct chatter]
- How long, Sal? - 15.
- Okay, good, so if you're up there and you just
feel like you're losing everything
because of the moment, just feel what you're doing.
- Okay.
- Just dig into the feeling of what you're doing
because it will save you.
- All right. I hope so, yeah.
- Because it could be like that tonight.
- Okay. Yeah. - Yeah?
- I'm not gonna be able to say what I wanna say
'cause I'm too emotional, so.
- Well, this takes me back five years ago
when I met five guys.
I know you're gonna take a break.
You deserve the break.
And I wanna really just take the chance now
to say thank you.
You have been an absolute pleasure to work with.
- And here, performing for one last time tonight,
through a song from their number one album,
"Made in the A.M."
Ladies and gentlemen, it's One Direction with "History."
[crowd cheering]
all: ♪ You and me got a whole lot of history ♪
♪ We could be the greatest team ♪
♪ That the world has ever seen ♪
♪ You and me got a whole... ♪
- Even right up until we went on the break,
there was still really no closure on that idea.
We didn't really, or at least I didn't understand
what it was gonna be.
- ♪ Minibars, expensive cars ♪
♪ Hotel rooms, new tattoos ♪
♪ Good champagne, private planes ♪
♪ But they don't mean anything ♪
♪ 'Cause the truth is out ♪
♪ I realize that without you here ♪
♪ Life is just a lie ♪
♪ This is not the end, this is not the end ♪
♪ We can make it, you know it, you know ♪
all: ♪ You and me... ♪
- I think the feeling that I remember the most was
a little bit of anger because, like,
I didn't want it to go on a break.
It didn't just upset me. It shocked me.
I wasn't prepared for it.
I thought for me it was the band or nothing.
I couldn't really--I'd never--
it's not as if on the five years I was in the band
I'd ever dreamed about being a solo artist.
And not once, not once, because I was so obsessed
with us moving as a unit and being part of this team.
I've spent all these years doing this,
and I don't really see myself doing anything else.
[crowd cheering]
I didn't know at the start who I was within One Direction.
I can remember singing a couple of different verses
on the first single.
There's a lot of pressure on this.
I remember the first time we listened to it,
and I wasn't on it.
So then when we got a song that we thought
could be our second single, I went in with a producer.
All I want is just to sing a bit of this next song,
and, like, we're just gonna stay here
until I get it right.
And he completely embraced me.
He was really, really kind, and we stayed there,
and we chipped away at it, chipped away at it.
So I was there for a long time, because, at that stage,
I was naive enough to think, he's the producer,
he's putting it all together,
and he makes all the decisions.
So he's gonna put this song together,
and he's gonna put me in that verse.
And I remember very clearly when I listened back
to that song for the first time,
and I've listened to the first verse and to the chorus,
and my bit was gonna be on the second verse.
And the whole time the song was playing,
I'm just waiting for that second verse to come in.
And I think, off the top of my head,
it was Harry on that second verse.
And I remember that feeling--
felt there was an element of me feeling like,
it doesn't matter what I do, I'm not really
in control here, and I want--
I don't see where I sit within this band.
[pensive music]
I was like, well, if I'm not gonna fucking sing, then,
like, what else--what else can I do for this band?
And it always been in my mind that it'd be cool
if we weren't just a standard boy band
who just got given songs and just sang them.
Like, maybe we should be writing our own songs.
Though, I could feel, like, stuff bubbling through us,
and I could see that we'd got people's attention.
I realized that we might be able to make
a few of our own decisions.
And that was the first moment in my One Direction career
that I felt ownership in what we were doing.
It almost felt more powerful than I might have felt
had I sang that verse on that single back in the day.
And all of a sudden, I felt in control again,
and that's what the first 2 and 1/2 years.
I just felt like I wasn't in control of myself,
and certainly not necessarily had an influence on the band.
When I think about how proud I am of One Direction,
I think of us as a collective.
But if I think about what makes me the most proud as me
as an individual in that band, it's definitely having
the most writing credits.
That makes me feel, you know, important to the band,
and that's all I ever wanted when I were a young lad.
♪ ♪
By the end of it, I knew exactly who I was in the band
because I'm like, well, I finally understand
what my role is and who I am in this band.
I wanted to stay in the band,
but that was not an option at the time.
[yelling]
It's only really now I've left the band
that I see the enormity of everything else.
You know, there were definitely a time
in our career where we're just breaking record
after record after record, and it was just
fucking, like, mind numbing. It was crazy.
You know, like, the importance of those shows
to the people that were there.
And also the importance of, like,
the whole culture of One Direction
and the fact that we grew up together,
you know, buzzing the fans at me.
It was part of the magic, was that you were going
through this completely life-altering,
head-fuck situation, but we amaze,
and that's what made it feel amazing.
So much has changed in this year, but actually
in a weird way, that's made it so much more exciting,
you know, because it's challenging.
But I think what's so great is, about our relationship
as a four is, any time we do get
any kind of stumbling block like that,
we do all bond together,
and I think, you know, that's a sign of good mates.
[crowd cheering]
- Oh, lads.
Ladies and gentlemen, One Direction!
Oh, my God.
That was such an emotional performance.
- It's like someone going to you,
you have the best job in the world,
go and enjoy your last day at work
because tomorrow you're not working it,
and it's like, you know, as much as you want to enjoy it,
in reality, you just can't help but think about everything
and think about, you know, all the good times that you've had
and the fact that that is coming to an end.
- Amazing.
Well, listen, we'll have a beer after the show, guys.
Let's hear it one more time for the amazing...
- As far as I'm concerned, there's no guarantee,
and there's no security, nobody knows
what's gonna happen after this.
Anything could come next.
Absolutely anything.
It's like starting again, to be honest, for me.
I kind of just take it as it comes, I suppose.
[pensive music]
I didn't know what the next two years looked like,
never mind the next ten years.
Wasn't like I was thinking about calling it a day
or anything like that, I just-- I didn't see a way back.
Not even musically, just to do anything.
Eventually took more meetings with managers,
and I started to feel a bit, oh, well,
maybe I do have some individual worth.
And it was there when he said to me, you know,
what about making some music on your own?
And I was like, well, I'll have to think about it.
I remember calling my mum, and, like, it almost felt
to me like she'd waited for me to go through this process
and have this call with her.
Because, like, by the time I told her,
she was like, well, that's obviously
what you're gonna do. That's what you should do.
That's what you deserve to do. You love music.
That's what you should do.
♪ ♪
- For Johannah to pass so suddenly, maybe six--
maybe five or six months after we heard the news,
I can't even imagine it.
I still admire him for all of it.
- I know when she was very, very ill, she would text him
and text him and text him.
And, you know, I've seen some of her texts to him,
and, you know, he said, Mum, I'll be with you shortly.
Don't worry. I'm on my way now.
- She would not have allowed us to kind of sit
and let stuff take over our life,
or let anything ruin our lives.
So she brought us up to be strong,
and she brought us up to look after each other
and just to get on with things.
- In the pipeline was this "X Factor" show
that he had lined up.
I think maybe Johannah died midweek,
and it was the next Friday or something.
- ♪ What do you do when a chapter ends ♪
♪ To close the book? ♪
- I remember watching him perform thinking,
how are you doing this? But I know he--
I know he wanted to do it, and that's why
I was so pleased when he hopped on it
because there was no chance he wasn't doing that performance.
- ♪ Oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh ♪
♪ If it all goes wrong ♪
[upbeat music]
I wanted to do it for me mum, and the bottom line is,
I didn't want me mum feeling like what happened to her
was gonna jeopardize my career
because I just got this feeling from her
and the things that she was saying that
I was just to keep doing what I'm doing
and try and, you know, keep strong, whatever.
So really I got up on that day for her more than I did me.
♪ Darling, just hold on ♪
But still looking back on that performance,
I don't think I'll ever have a moment
that's more challenging in my career.
- Simon, I know you wanted to say a couple of words.
- Uh, Louis, you know what?
I have to say something to you.
I've known you now for six years.
What you've just done, and the bravery,
I respect you as an artist,
I respect you as a person, and--
[crowd cheering]
And, you know, your mum was so proud of you, Louis,
and she was so looking forward to tonight.
She's watching down on you now, and you've done her proud.
Thank you so much.
- It felt like from that moment, for years,
I couldn't win.
Life was just against me, and it didn't want me to succeed,
and it wanted me to--
you know, it kept dealing--
I kept having all of these difficult things to deal with.
So, you know, finding out about my mum
was, obviously, emotionally draining, and then going
through the process of being with her
and she looked relatively normal,
and then as she starts looking more ill.
Like, that's obviously more things to process.
And then, when she passes, you've gotta process that.
And then when you're at the funeral,
you've gotta process that.
And then it's not too long after that
when Félicité passed.
- We did a lot, me and Louis, worked together
to try and help Fizz, and obviously it didn't work.
So I felt that.
I felt, like, kind of,
how could we not get her out of this?
I can only imagine how he felt.
I'm sure it was heightened, one, because he's her brother,
and two, because he probably felt
the responsibility from our mum.
- That hit him hard.
That hit him hard because it's the trauma--you're dealing
with one trauma already, then you've got
a new trauma to deal with.
And then it's just like, my life's shit, isn't it?
That's how you start thinking.
You're losing people around you that you can't--
you can never replace them.
- Life always throws shit at you.
Yes, I've had maybe more to deal with than most people
my age, but then when the natural things happen in life,
where things weren't going my way,
I couldn't deal with it because it was like,
but I've already had so much to deal with.
So when am I gonna start winning?
- I think that was always in the back for him,
you know, the feeling of the loss from the band,
and then he's had more loss on top of it.
So I think it was a tough few years for him.
♪ ♪
- But he was nowhere near the person or the artist
he is now then.
I think he was just treading water
just trying to find a lane or an avenue to go down.
- He knew what he wanted to do.
He just felt that no one was listening to him.
I think that was the biggest problem.
And I think what he was struggling with
was working out the pathway to do what he wants to do.
He wanted to go on tour. He loved touring.
It was his favorite part of being in One Direction.
And I think he was trying to work out
how he gets back to that point with the music that he enjoys.
And I think he was struggling to find out how he gets--
how he does that.
- Coming out of a band like One Direction,
and for the type of band that it was,
you know, it's very easy to listen to other opinions
and think, well, maybe I can't make the music
I wanna make because, you know,
it's gonna be hard to be seen as truly
credible or truly musical.
Where I left One Direction was,
I'd come off stage feeling like a god.
Now I'm doing my own performances,
and it feels like the opposite.
It was bad. It was bad.
It feels like two different versions of myself.
A good one that I think represents me
and is respectful, and then the other one
that is just bullshit.
Oh, fucking hell.
You know what I mean?
I feel a little bit like, before now,
like I'm at football and I've had a bad injury
for, like, a year, you know what I mean?
So I've not quite to me.
It was very easy for me to imagine
Harry having a solo career, Liam having a solo career.
It was harder for me to imagine, like,
myself doing that.
It was like, what the fuck am I gonna do?
Then I'd see, like, on social media, like, everyone, like,
all the support and saying, like,
you just do what you wanna do,
we're gonna be here for you, blah, blah, blah.
Then that's when I started at least embracing my gut feeling
and what it is that I wanted to do.
And I'd say the first breakthrough moment of that
was when we wrote "Kill My Mind" and "Walls."
[pensive music]
The momentum that I built up from those two songs,
and the confidence that I've built up being like,
well, this is a far cry from the first two singles,
but it feels really comfortable,
and it feels in line with what I wanna do.
And all of a sudden, I could have a vision for, okay,
if the first album sounds like this,
maybe the second album I could go a little bit further,
and the third I'm a bit further,
and before you know it,
I'm doing exactly what I wanna do.
But it was a process that I got to just from having
the confidence of knowing that I've got the fan support,
and obviously it's always in the back of your mind.
You're like, well, I hope they're still gonna be around
if I make the music I wanna make.
- We're always fighting the fact
that people underestimate him, but I think that gives us
more fight, to be honest.
We've got a point to prove.
He's got a point to prove, and I have as well in this.
I think we all--we want him to succeed and be, you know--
be at the level he should be.
- ♪ Came up short ♪
♪ Now I stand taller than them all ♪
♪ These high walls never broke my soul ♪
- When I found out he was doing it,
it means there's gonna be plenty of our fans.
- I think it's gonna be a good crowd.
- I suppose it is a bit weird, innit?
- It is strange. I don't think you think
about that shit, though, do you, when it's happening?
- No. No.
And that's one thing about Niall's show.
When you're watching another One Direction song,
you know what I mean, and someone else is doing it,
and you watch it that first time, it's fucking weird.
- Yeah, that's so strange. How's your singles been?
- Good. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
We just--video came out today.
- Nice. - Came out today, yeah.
- See you around then. All right, lads.
- Bless you.
I didn't actually know he was gonna do
some One Direction songs, and he did "Little Things."
When it came to my part that he was singing,
it just left me feeling a mixture of,
like, proud because I normally have been part
of that song and part of that experience,
and I'd be stood next to Liam.
And there was an element, I'm sure when I listen back to it,
like, can we not just rewind the clock
and just get back in that band
and carry on singing as we were,
you know what I mean?
[rhythmic knocking]
How long till we actually need to go?
- Actually, we need to go. - Right now?
- Yes. - Really?
- Yeah.
- Do you know what? I'll send you this.
- I'll be back in about an hour.
Will you be gone?
- Yeah, we're leaving at half past 11:00, so.
- All right. All right, lads. - Peace and love.
- Well, fucking smashed it.
Look at you trying to get on camera all buff.
- I was just seeing you outside the door, that's all.
It's nice to walk people to the door.
It's nice to be nice.
Doesn't cost anything.
- I'll see you when I see you.
- Have a good one. - Yeah, will do.
And you fucking-- you sounded wicked.
- Nice one, mate. Good to see you again.
- Thank you, mate.
- Do you want me to mention it to him?
- Yeah.
I know once I got on stage and once I've done
that first line, and I can see it, you know what I mean?
The fans. I'll feel good then. I'll feel good.
[crowd cheering]
all: [chanting] Louis! Louis!
- Fucking hell, I'll be happy when it's done now,
I'm not gonna lie. I'm looking forward to it,
but I'll be relieved, with all the hard work I've put in,
when I've actually done what I've set out to do.
You know what I mean?
- It's a big moment. - Yeah, yeah, no, I'm excited.
- It's a big moment for you for many, many other reasons
that maybe only you and I know.
- Yeah, yeah, exactly.
Preparations and new things today.
Yeah, yeah.
- And then it just becomes excitement.
- Yeah. Yeah, definitely.
No, I feel good. Feel good.
I think I wanna say I'm ready, ready.
- How's it going?
It's been, like, three years in making,
and now finally he's here and he's on stage
finally doing what he wants to do.
So it is good.
[crowd cheering]
- Madrid!
I cannot tell you how long I have waited for this moment.
This is my first ever headline show.
Ten songs with you guys.
I just wanna say thank you.
The rain has been fucking awful.
Thank you very much for staying out here.
Let's have a good time.
I'm gonna sing a few of me singles, a few new ones.
This one is called "Don't Let It Break Your Heart."
I'm shitting myself a bit here.
♪ Time takes times to heal it ♪
♪ You can't do it by yourself ♪
♪ Oh, whatever tears you apart ♪
♪ Don't let it break your heart ♪
♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh ♪
I am buzzing. I am buzzing. I've just fell out of the car.
I'm proud that I got through it, you know what I mean?
That's the first one. First one.
[pensive music]
♪ ♪
You know, when people fucking ask me in interviews and shit,
they say like, oh, you're just so down to Earth,
or whatever they fucking say.
Um, I put that down to, you know what I mean?
Having people, like, all around me,
fucking just good people from back home.
- I would say I am like a touring PA for Louis
who tries to keep his life together
a bit better than he can.
But I'm not great at it.
- Are we ready for this? All right, let's do it.
[crowd cheering]
[announcer speaking indistinctly]
- All right, see you out there.
- James Corden!
- I wanna talk to you about this.
Louis, we all know you came to fame in One Direction,
but that wasn't your first band.
You were in a band before One Direction.
What happened to them? Where are they now?
- Yeah, I think I was about 14 when I first got--
I've actually got the name of the band--
it's called The Rogue-- tattooed on me legs here.
- Right.
- So, you know, a special part of me life.
- How old were you at this point?
- 14, I think, when I first started.
Just said that. Um.
[laughter]
- Listen.
- It's a talk show. It's not a listen show.
- Anyway.
All right, see you. - Stay in touch.
Don't go quiet on me.
- Hi. - Don't go quiet on us.
- You know I love you.
- Yeah, but don't go quiet on us.
I know, but you just-- you vanish.
You change your number.
No one knows.
You send a text, you get nothing back.
- Yeah, yeah, yeah, you always give me a hard time.
- Just one text to say I'm all right, I'm alive,
I'm all good. It's all we ask for.
We care about you.
- Hi, can I get a hug? - Yeah, of course.
- Right here.
One, two, and three.
Got it. Next one. Go ahead.
One, two, and three. Got it.
[indistinct chatter]
- Can I have my phone?
Thank you.
- See you in a bit. Bye!
- Bye! I love you!
- It's mental, you just get out for just a second.
Still don't necessarily buy into it as a reality as such
because, you know, with all the--
just the reality of a celebrity, anyway,
and how exciting each of those people are.
And in reality, you know, I'd like to sit down with them
and go fucking-- think about it.
What is it you're getting so excited about?
You know what I mean?
I live in my fucking bubble of normality,
you know what I mean?
And that's any time I'm not at work.
I live in this fucking--
my own head where I'm fucking, you know I mean?
I live a normal life.
And there's moments like then where
I come into that kind of situation,
and it takes me a second to adjust from that world
that I've just been in, that I'm super comfortable in,
where I'm completely meself, you know what I mean?
And then there is more that is expected of me
in that situation, which I feel.
You know what I mean?
So it's an interesting contrast.
Like when Ben and James went--
went to speak to me at first, I was literally thinking,
I bet they're gonna go away from it and go,
I hope he's all right.
You know what I mean?
But I was literally just for about ten minutes just--
just fucking full on, you know what I mean?
So it takes me a second to acclimatize to the madness.
♪ ♪
- So now that you're finally solo in the way
that you're doing this on, like, on your own way,
like, what has changed for you?
What's, like, the whole experience of just, like,
doing big things on your own?
- Well, everything's different, to be honest.
You know, I kind of had to learn
how to do everything on me own, really,
as opposed to being part of a group.
So, you know, that meant writing the songs,
but also, you know, sitting in interviews
and talking all the time instead of some days, you know,
I could just blend into the background
if I was feeling a bit tired or whatever.
[crowd cheering]
- To finally come here to be on the same, like, bill.
- Yeah, no, that's strange for me.
- It's weird. - Be on the same thing.
- As I had with Liam before,
it's only weird once it comes to life,
and I'm stood beside the stage,
or like you will be, you know what I mean,
if you're gonna watch or whatever.
- Oh, you came to watch me? - Yeah, oh, yeah, mate.
- In the Troubadour, there was about 50 people there.
- Yeah, man, it's a weird experience.
And especially, did you do any
One Direction songs on that set?
Do you know? - Yeah, "Fool's Gold."
- Yeah, oh, yeah, "Fool's Gold," yeah.
That's when it's weird, man, you know what I mean?
It's like fucking out of body or something.
It's weird.
- Yeah, but it's cool.
- And Liam did "Little Things" when I've seen him.
- Oh, did he? In Madrid? - Yeah.
When I saw him in Madrid, yeah, yeah.
- You better get ready, then. - I probably should.
- One hour. - Yeah.
I'm not gonna lie, this was the first time
one of the lads has watched me,
so I'm just maybe a bit more nervous, I'm not gonna lie.
♪ You kill my mind ♪
♪ Raise my body back to life ♪
♪ And I don't know what I'd do without you now ♪
[upbeat rock music]
♪ ♪
Mexico, you have been incredible!
I cannot wait to see you again!
I'll be back in May!
♪ ♪
[crowd cheering]
Careful, careful, careful, careful.
Careful. Be careful.
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. Whoa, back up.
Back up. Be careful. Back up, back up.
Be careful. Back up. Don't get clever.
Be careful.
Never ever looked so fucking tall.
- Yeah.
It'll never be that big again. - Yeah.
- Let me be the first to say congratulations
because it's midnight.
Officially, your album is out right now.
- Yes, yes, yes.
[crowd cheering]
- Congratulations. - Thank you.
- How does it feel? How does it feel to have it?
- It's a relief to be here.
I mean, as I said before, it's been four years in the making,
and what I was used to with One Direction was, like,
an album a year, you know.
So I've had to be, like, patient and, like, sensible
and kind of, you know, understand the process.
I feel like I've learned a lot along the way.
But I think it took me a couple of years, 18 months, 2 years,
to actually find my feet and work out who I am.
Yeah, I'm really proud of it. Really proud.
- Yeah, all your singles have been fantastic.
- Oh, thank you.
- They've been streamed over a billion times.
A billion times.
[cheering]
[pensive music]
- When I think of being a kid, and when I think of growing up
in Doncaster, the first feeling, or the first thought,
that comes to my mind is, obviously, family.
I've always been part of a pretty big family.
- Slept well?
- Uh, yeah, not well enough, not long enough.
I got set back off at 12:00. - Yeah, love.
Yeah, love. - Oh, okay. Oh, yeah.
I'll show you these, Lou.
- What have you got for us?
Are you showing Nana off to me again?
- No, I'm showing me off. - Oh, oh, nice.
[laughter]
- Look at the abs on that.
- He says, where's those pictures?
- You're like a Bond villain.
- I know. I did have a body at one time.
- What was he like as a little kid?
- As a baby? - Yeah.
- Gorgeous.
Yeah, he was. He was good.
And, of course, he was on his own as a baby for seven years
before Lottie came along.
So he was pretty much the center--
he was the center of attention for seven years.
Um, but he was, he was lovely.
He was--I won't tell you, Charlie,
because I'll get upset.
- Oh, I'm sorry.
- To say Jay didn't have a lot of money in the days
when Louis was little, everything that she possibly
could do with him, she did.
I was always amazed at what she managed to do with him.
And, yeah, they were very close.
- There's always been a fantastic bond
between Louis and his mum.
And, of course, in the early days,
she lived in a little flat.
- My biological dad was never around,
not at all, for my life, but I never felt
like I missed out on having the love of a parent
because it kind of just doubled down with my mum there.
- I always looked up to him, really,
because he was my big brother, and I think
he was quite protective over me.
I think he was about six when I came along,
and then Fizz was born two years later,
and then the twins, Phoebe and Daisy.
But I think Louis always wanted a brother,
and then he got his four sisters.
- At times, I liked being the only lad and being
the lad that--you know, being the older brother
to so many sisters.
- Louis was made to be a brother of all of these girls
because he's just, like-- - He's like--
- I mean, we used to think controlling,
and now we probably just think he's looking out for us.
- Yeah. - And he does look out for us,
and most of the time, he was right.
- Yeah.
- It wasn't until I got a bit older that I actually
understood that the relationship that I had
with my mum was really, really special.
Because--and I think that's a natural thing.
You know, she had me when she was 19,
and, you know, it wasn't planned.
You know, me mum was still kind of a kid, really,
when she had me.
And I think any situation like that, you--
there's such a natural bond.
And, obviously, you know, I was her first.
But it was always just like a best friend relationship.
Like, I can remember when I lost my virginity,
I literally rang me mum straight away,
dead excited, as if you would telling any of your lad mates.
So Mum just-- she looks like Lottie.
- Yeah, she does.
- She looks like Lottie there, isn't she?
I don't think I've seen
pictures of her where she looks like that.
- Oh, that is lovely that, isn't it, eh?
He's at school, Louis, there.
- At what? About 15 there, maybe?
- Well, she would have been, wouldn't she?
Yeah. - Has she dyed her hair there?
- Her hair was quite light, you know, for a while, yeah.
She may have done, but I don't remember doing it.
- Oh, his mum was the biggest influence on him.
Um. [sighs]
♪ ♪
Yeah. - Do you need a minute?
- Just give me a minute.
I mean, what we went through with losing--
No parent should go through that--
losing their children before they go.
And I always thought it would devastate Lou
because he was just so close.
[sighing]
And I think that's why he's so strong.
- What? I'm Louis Tomlinson.
[cheers and applause]
- You can't really imagine how some families
can go through so much and come through it
as decent people, really.
But we, I think that's where we score, we--
we do.
We just move on, and--
because we know that's what they'd want.
- There's one common theme that runs throughout, you know,
why I'm here today, and--
and also why I like to think I'm relatively resilient now,
is because that--me mum wouldn't have it any other way.
So she wouldn't-- you know, I wouldn't really--
be allowed to feel sorry for meself,
but not in such a way where I'd bury me head in the sand.
Like where they were doing auditions
for the musical "Grease," and I think
I was on my way home that day, and I called me mum,
which is always what I'd do when I'd be feeling
a little bit kind of unsure.
And it wasn't a great day for me.
I didn't really introduce meself to anyone.
I felt pretty lonely going from being relatively social
and popular at my other school to, like, you know,
not really knowing anyone at this next school.
And I remember saying to her, you know,
I've read this noticeboard,
and I'm thinking about doing this audition,
but the more I think about it, I don't wanna do it.
And she didn't give me an option.
She's like, well, I'm gonna come pick you up
and drive you to your "Grease" audition.
I didn't really know what to expect, to be honest.
But fucking hell, like, I was, like, blown away
when I did end up getting the lead role of Danny.
That was the moment, in fact,
that was the moment where maybe I allowed myself
to start dreaming.
♪ ♪
- I don't know if I've ever told you this,
but when you did the second "Grease" production
at the Civic Theater and we got in the car
to go home that night,
and I'll never forget you saying,
"This is what I wanna do now for the rest of my life,"
almost like an epiphany.
And you literally, you know, went from there.
You never looked back.
But it was almost spine tingling to look back at that
and think, God, how prophetic that actual one sentence was.
- Me going down to me "X Factor" audition was crazy
but still real life, almost.
So there must have been a time where it became harder for you
to understand and comprehend the world that I was in,
but it was running away with me.
And I know that Mum often got frustrated
because she went from policing everything I did...
- Yes.
- To having zero control.
It was just one day, you know, it kind of changed,
and I remember thinking that that
must have been difficult, especially
with how protective she was, you know what I mean?
Always.
- Mum worried about you inasmuch as she worried
about the knowing how--
how much it means to you to be--
not the kingpin as such, but to have an equal opportunity.
And if you weren't getting it, she knew
how much it would upset you.
And, of course, it upset her if you were upset.
- Yeah, I think that's where I felt how I'd done by her
where I didn't think that things were fair.
You know what I mean? - Yes.
- That was difficult for me.
And also without having any kind of understanding
of what I'm getting into, really.
- Yeah.
Probably if they'd have analyzed why you were
like that, they might have liked you more,
if you know what I mean. - Yeah, yeah.
You know, instead of just thinking you were a cocky.
- I had the luxury of a mum like mum,
growing up in Doncaster,
you know, it makes you a certain way.
both: ♪ Ah [piano note plays]
- [vocalizing scale]
- Okay, good. [plays jaunty melody]
So will you enjoy being on stage tonight?
- No.
- We need to speak about that. - [laughs]
No, I won't.
- It bugs me because for years you've been crying
about not being on stage.
Then when you're finally up there,
you say you wanna get off as quick as possible.
- I know, but I--
- You feel "I'm never good enough."
- Because I mean it.
Because the truth-- the truth of it is,
a lot of the time, it isn't. It isn't.
A lot of the time, I'll go back and I'll watch,
and it frustrates me that we'll stand in here
and I'll do a great job, and then
I'll go back and watch the TV performance
and be like, that's out of tune.
I know me brain's not playing tricks on me when I listen
to shit and it's out of tune.
- This is what you gotta beat because it's your head
telling you that you don't deserve to be up there
and you need to get off in a hurry.
You are up there and you're doing it.
You're singing tracks like "Walls."
That's not easy to sing acoustic.
You're smashing-- you're smashing it.
- Yeah, I know, I know.
I'm also not saying that I don't think
I'm capable of doing well, because I do.
I just think there is this thing that I have to get over.
You know what I mean?
- And it's a mental more than anything.
- Yeah. Yeah. - It's a confidence flaw.
- Oh, definitely. Yeah.
- You have an obligation to your audience.
- I came from Germany.
- Spain!
- We're from France. - France.
both: We've been kidnapped for 15 hours.
- Some people were there the day before at, like, 8:00 p.m.
- Someone before-- like, she came here
Tuesday in the morning.
- I'll leave my job, whatever I'm doing, I will go.
- 2,000 pounds for the ticket, I will take it.
- Man, someone just caught me.
Shitload tonight.
That's how much I'm shitting in me pants.
- Ready to go? - Yeah, yeah, ready, ready.
- Oh, look, great.
[all yelling]
- Scala London!
[crowd cheering]
[One Direction's "Little Black Dress"]
[upbeat rock music]
♪ ♪
♪ Little black dress just walked into the room ♪
♪ Makin' heads turn, can't stop looking at you ♪
♪ It's so right, it's so right, it's so right, you know ♪
♪ Little black dress, did you come here alone? ♪
♪ Little black dress, I can't take anymore ♪
♪ It's so right, it's so right, it's so right, you know ♪
♪ It's so right, it's so right, it's so late to go ♪
♪ I wanna see the way you move for me, baby ♪
♪ I wanna see the way you move for me ♪
♪ ♪
- That was everything. Fucking mega.
You know what's funny?
I didn't think about the vocals.
- No.
- Like after that, the second or third time, I settled down.
I didn't think about it because it was irrelevant to me
because the atmosphere, the energy,
what I could see I was doing
for people in the front row tonight.
Yeah, it was a breakthrough tonight.
It was a breakthrough. - It's all there.
- He smashed it.
The fans smashed it.
They were fucking boss.
It was sick--it was--
it was--it was better than One Direction gigs.
It were better, mate!
[ominous music]
- Leaving my house and knowing that I was going
to start that tour, I feel like from the minute
I shook my door, like, it all became real
and I was really excited about what was to come,
and I can pitch again on the tour bus for the first time,
and it's super nostalgic, and it looks just like the one
that we're in the band, and...
and really excited about the shows.
It's like a moment for me to show off
what the fuck I've been doing for the last four
or five years, do you know what I mean?
And really be like, this is who I am,
this is what we're working with.
♪ You kill my mind ♪
♪ Raise my body back to life ♪
♪ And I don't know what I'd do without you now ♪
I wasn't sure exactly how it was gonna be,
and I had these things in my head thinking, like,
going on tour on my own is not gonna be the same,
I'm not gonna have as much fun, and all these things.
But those shows were even better
than I could have imagined.
You know, the atmosphere and the love
and that feeling in the room was, like, amazing.
Those are the kind of things that I've had
to digest because I feel the importance of those shows
to some people.
Give it up for the fucking band!
[crowd cheering]
I love you!
And just the idea of finally getting
to what I've worked for, you know.
It just eliminated any doubt, you know.
I'm just like, okay, I can definitely do this.
I'm supposed to do this.
All these people are seeing it.
[all cheering]
- He comes across very...
yuh, yuh, a bit like this,
but he's so gentle
and so sensitive on the inside.
I think that's why I feel a little bit almost sad,
because I know he's gonna be a different person
in a month's time.
Come next tour, he's just gonna fly,
or even in, you know, at the end of the year.
This is like--it's just gonna keep going like this,
and he's off now.
That's it.
crowd: [chanting] Louis! Louis!
- And then we turned up the next day for the next show,
and, uh, there was more talk about COVID
and more talk about, like, a potential lockdown.
And I'm not gonna lie, like, I'm not really
taking it that seriously.
- If we wanna reroute it in the same way,
the likelihood is, we won't be able to get
the same venues and routing again until April, May
next year. - Because of the--
- Because everything in the autumn is already booked,
because tours are getting booked up
12, 18 months in advance.
- So, um, is there any way around that?
- Not really. - Different venues?
Everyone is booked.
- Everyone is trying to do the same thing.
- Yeah, it's just frustrating.
It's frustrating, especially because last night
was so special, and I'm like, right, that's fucking of it,
and then there was a potential that it could
be stopped, or just stop.
If I'm a betting man, which I am,
it looks like odds are,
you know, the rest of the world are gonna follow,
especially the places we were touring.
Um, so, yeah, shit.
Waiting for that break.
That easy fucking road and no bullshit, no stress.
I'll be waiting a little bit longer, I think.
[sentimental music]
♪ ♪
What's amazing for me in a life that's so manic
and so the opposite of normal, like when I've been on, like,
one leg of the tour, and then I'll come back to LA
and spend the time with Freddie,
and you go from, like, one extreme to the other,
it's actually a really comforting feeling, obviously,
but just that it feels so normal
and that I get to have those normal moments
of, you know, just taking him to the park or whatever it is.
Freddie lives in LA.
My family live in Doncaster.
So if I'm with Freddie, and I've been there
for three weeks, a month, whatever it is,
I really miss my grandparents, I miss my sisters,
and then when I go back to England,
then I have that same feeling,
but almost twice as hard with missing my Freddie.
So it's something that, it doesn't get any easier,
but it's something, I suppose, I've grown used to.
- Freddie is so important to him.
Any moment he can get off, you know,
he'll fly 20 hours back to LA to make sure he can see him.
I think that it just shows who he is as a person
because his family, his son,
all come well before anything else.
- Every time I call, and I spend all this time
with Freddie, and it just gets harder every time leaving him,
man, definitely, just because the older he gets,
the more of the little lad I see, you know what I mean?
Wait, watch me, watch me, watch me.
- Hey!
- Playing now with the kite just gives you an opportunity
to be a big kid again, do you know what I mean?
It is cool, man.
When you're running with it, it looks really good.
You should have a look because sometimes
you're just running forward and you're missing all the action.
Let me show you.
Easy, innit?
I've never feared being a dad.
I've kind of played that role anyways, big brother,
and then once me mum passed,
between me and me grandparents,
we kind of sit in this hybrid as parent to my sisters,
do you know what I mean?
So I kind of had a crash course in what it is to be a dad
before Freddie came around.
- When they brought the baby over to England,
you could tell immediately it was his little one,
and that was it.
- I mean, Freddie is in America most of the time.
We only see him very occasionally,
once a year, perhaps, and he's such a lovely lad.
It is Louis' absolute double.
- To see me family with him, man, it was just amazing.
I mean, I'm lucky to spend plenty of time with Freddie,
whereas me family, they really don't get to see him a lot.
We FaceTime all the time.
And it was just magical, man.
There were little moments where, you know,
I'd kind of just be, Emile and Ed, just looking around,
and it was lovely, man, lovely.
Seeing me nan and granddad so happy, me sisters,
all buzzing off Freddie, and him just loving
all the attention he's getting off everyone.
It was really, really nice, really nice.
both: Rock, paper, scissors, shoot.
- Oh!
Me nan and grandad will often say something about mum
or something about Fizzy or whatever.
And sometimes when I'm there, it's not until that moment
that I remember necessarily, sometimes you're just
in the moment and you're feeling it,
and then someone might say something
and then you feel the wave, whereas it was quite--
it was quite a different situation
when I was there with Freddie.
I felt really proud.
And I remember thinking, like, me mum would have loved this.
♪ ♪
Having the time in lockdown, it gave me a chance
to declutter in my head.
It gave me clarity.
It gave me moments for me to really analyze
what I wanted out of this record.
So it meant that when I started the writing process,
I started in a much more precise headspace,
and I knew what it is I wanted to get out of it,
or at least I had an idea.
And where I've ended up with this record,
there's definitely songs on this album that, you know,
when I was writing "Walls," I couldn't have even imagined
that I'd be a part of.
[mellow guitar music]
♪ ♪
I can hear and see and feel myself in this record
much more than I can on my first.
There wasn't months of treading water
of trying to experiment and work out
exactly what it is I wanted to do.
I had a much clearer idea going into it.
All the moments that have kind of chipped away at--
kind of at getting rid of that self-doubt
and actually enabling my confidence
naturally makes for better writing because it means
that you're willing to be brave
and you're willing to kind of go,
not outside of your comfort zone,
but kind of really, you know, enable myself
to do what it is I wanna do.
♪ ♪
So there's other songs I've included on my A list
that actually, if we're thinking about what I need
to vocal, we should just vocal everything else
that's a definite first, and any ones that
I'm hemming and hawing about, then later.
- Your voice is what ties all the tunes together,
so as long as--if you feel that you've done it right,
you've done it, and it says what it needs to say,
then you don't need to over-engineer it.
If you've it right, then that counts for more than--
than anything else. - Yeah, no, I feel you.
- If you can deliver it, it's fine.
- Right.
Are you ready for me to get ready?
- Yeah.
- She wants to do what we've done before, Louis,
and, like, sing along to the guide a few times.
- Let's do that just so I can warm up,
and then we can dissect.
Yeah, yeah, that's all right.
Let me know anything, by the way.
- Yes.
- ♪ Not for the last time ♪
♪ And I've been thinking about the things we used to do ♪
♪ Not for the first time ♪
♪ Not for the last time. ♪
- Brilliant.
- I'm just-- I'm just working out.
I mean, verse one, I think, is a bit more self-explanatory.
Verse two-- because it's really light,
that first verse, in terms of the way I'm singing it,
I should probably put it in my chest
a little bit more once we get to verse two
just so there's a bit of dynamic.
- Because Louis is so clear on what he wants to do,
he rarely changes his mind on anything,
and he's extremely good at making decisions there,
and then on something and sticking to them.
And I think because of that, because he knows his mind,
it allows us to make decisions quickly,
and it allows us to do more.
- ♪ Decided to take the pain away ♪
♪ Nobody stays the same ♪
♪ No matter how much you want it, some things change ♪
- Fuck yeah, mate. - Smashed it. We're on.
crowd: [chanting] Louis! Louis!
[crowd cheering]
- That's why I'm feeling this whole anticipation now.
It's been a long time coming.
And I think I know what it looks like,
but it's like getting out there and feel it again
because it's been a long time since I've felt that.
♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪
Come on, let's sing!
♪ 'Cause we made it ♪
♪ Underestimated and always underrated ♪
♪ Now we're saying goodbye, waving to the hard times ♪
♪ Yeah, we're gonna be all right ♪
♪ Like the first time ♪
♪ Met you at your doorstep ♪
♪ Remember how it tasted ♪
♪ Looking into your eyes, baby, you were still high ♪
♪ Never coming down with your hand in mine ♪
[crowd cheering]
This is me first show, all right,
I've told you already.
So I've speculated in me mind
over and over again what it might be like.
It took me about three songs for me heart
not to be beating like this.
But this is fucking unbelievable.
Everyone I've worked with, I talked about you lot.
Anyone who works with me knows all I ever fucking talk about
is how amazing you are.
And honestly, this is not just some typical shit
that people say on stage because whatever.
I mean, honestly, I feel I need you, and you need me,
and I fucking like it.
As I've said a million times, it's such a mutual benefit,
this, from me and the fans,
so if I feel like they've had a good time,
then that should mean that I feel good
and I feel confident about doing what I've done
because, you know, I've done everything
they expected and hopefully more.
Because I fucking feel your support.
The energy is undeniable in the room.
You know, if they were hating it, I'd certainly feel it.
If they weren't liking it that much, I'd certainly feel it.
And there's just this level of passion--
and, you know, even when I go wrong,
and I look into eyes at one of the girls at front,
and she's trying to show me that she doesn't really
notice that I've gone wrong.
But you just feel that support, whatever it is.
[indistinct chatter]
[sentimental music]
♪ ♪
- We are sitting on the corner of 6th and Burnside
in Portland, Oregon.
This is the second time we've been camped out
overnight this week.
- We've camped out for a total of 70 hours?
- 70, something like that, yeah.
- For only this week. - For night one and two.
- Yeah.
- That's one thing that I didn't think
I would see again, because I did see--we saw quite a lot
of that in One Direction.
It always blew my mind, people camping outside.
And, you know, sometimes, like, they've been there
hours and hours and hours and hours and days,
you know what I mean? Sometimes.
- I was up writing this essay to convince my mom
for me to camp out tonight.
"You letting me camp out for this second show
"would mean the world to me.
"Being able to spend more time with the company
"of my new friends, as well as being able
"to make more friends, is something that would make me
the happiest person in the world."
- I love you.
- We love you. Oh, don't cry.
Aw.
♪ ♪
- I was on the fence about camping for Oakland,
but if it's gonna be like that, I'm camping.
I don't care how dangerous it is.
- ♪ Conversation is currency ♪
[upbeat music]
- The American tour was really the chance for us
to get out there with everybody
and really pull the show together.
- The band really bonded on the first American run.
We'd finish a show and we'd all pile into the tour bus
and just head straight to the back lounge.
From what I hear, a lot of artists,
when they have a tour bus, they convert the back lounge
into a bedroom for them.
And if they wanna do that, that's fine,
but Louis didn't do that.
We had the back lounge as a back lounge.
He just had a bunk like everyone else.
So on that level, he was--you know,
he was sleeping in the same thing
that I was, two feet away from me.
You know, we were literally all
on the same page with that.
[crowd cheering]
- He just wants everyone to be there,
to be in the moment with him.
- He just wants everyone to have a good time, doesn't he?
But also, like, not take the piss and be shit.
Like, you've gotta be good.
- There's no separation.
Before the stage, we're together.
You know, we're all hanging out, listening to music,
having some beers, trying to get in the zone, you know?
- There's no kind of arrogance or kind of,
"I'm better than you" opinion on him.
He's just a down to Earth lad from Doncaster
that loves what he does, and that's him.
- Three, two, one. D, D, D, D!
- He was very, very loud when I joined his school.
He was really cocky, but very funny
and someone I'd definitely like to be mates with.
[crowd cheering]
[sentimental rock music]
- ♪ Nothing really matters ♪
♪ ♪
♪ Nothing really hurts ♪
♪ ♪
♪ We can talk about it ♪
♪ ♪
♪ It'll only make it worse ♪
♪ ♪
♪ There's a time for singing who did what ♪
♪ Where it went wrong ♪
♪ I wanna hear all that ♪
♪ But right now all I need you to know is ♪
♪ ♪
- Hello, is it filming? - Yeah.
You gotta ask me a question like you're interviewing me.
- Um, are you excited for the show tonight?
- I'm very excited for the show tonight.
Anything else? - That's it.
- Okay, great. Bye.
All right, be good. - Cut.
- It's beautiful, lovely to see
that I'm touring at the moment.
Because I just wanna spend all the time with him now,
and I know that I've got stuff to do to put the show on now.
And I just keep coming in for, like, ten minutes
just to make sure he's all right,
have a bit of time with him,
then I'm gonna go do something now.
So it's just-- it's pretty hectic.
Just a lot going on in the end, you know what I mean?
♪ So I will keep you day and night ♪
♪ Here until the day I die ♪
♪ I'll be living one life for the two of us ♪
♪ I will be the best of me ♪
♪ Always keep you next to me ♪
♪ I'll be living one life for the two of us ♪
There's a big, big, big difference
to kids seeing people,
and it doesn't matter if it's their family.
That's what I mean about tonight
when he sat in the room and it is live and real,
and he feels it.
I think it will all kind of make sense in that moment,
you know what I mean?
♪ I can feel your blood run through me ♪
He said something that made me say,
you know I'll be on stage tonight, that will be me.
And he was like, no, it's a different version
of you, though, isn't it, when you're up there.
And I'm like, fucking hell.
Smart.
I see you, lad! I see you!
[crowd cheering]
I can't even tell you, man, when I locked eyes with him.
He probably not even seen me, man, but--
- That's what it's all about, brother.
- So we're going backstage.
- You're gonna go say good night, aren't you?
And then I think you're heading home.
[upbeat rock music]
♪ ♪
- Did you enjoy it, son?
- Yeah.
- You made me cry, you know?
When I seen you, you made me cry.
Happiness.
You made me cry.
What did you think about that?
That was by far my favorite show, mate.
I love you.
- I wish you could have seen him watching you.
He was so stoked. So stoked.
- I've never been that emotional
watching the big man. That was next level.
- It's a video of a video.
[indistinct chatter]
- Good, innit? Good feeling, eh?
- Yeah, lovely.
- He must be worn out.
- As soon as I seen him, I'm like, ah!
And then, do you know what? Honestly, funny thing is,
I had to be selective when I looked at him
because I knew every time I looked at him
I'm gonna well up.
- I was like, like that.
- I saw your sign. Didn't you see me point to you?
Did you see me point to you? - What?
- 6,000 whole people in there.
I was glued to you all night.
[cymbals and drums banging]
[cheering]
Love you.
Okay, have fun with Jackson.
And make sure you go to the car, please.
Be a good boy, yeah?
Go.
Go, go, go.
Ready, sprint, sprint, sprint, sprint.
[sentimental rock music]
♪ ♪
- Whilst touring this first album and kind of giving
the fans, you know, the album that they've listened to
for so many years, we've also been trying
to make the new record, which, obviously, on the road
comes with complications.
But the experience of Louis being out on tour
and kind of touring himself solo
has actually had some influence on the new album,
so I think that they've kind of
complemented each other quite nicely.
- And Brad, let's go for it now.
[upbeat rock music]
Just little things were annoying,
like the drum fill before was too cheesy,
but I think it's that first chorus.
Now the way they've dealt with that
is by having a little break after the break
before it gets to the chorus.
So it almost goes... [imitates drum crash]
And it still feels really cool.
- You happy with the strings that he's done, though?
Honest. - Yeah, I don't know.
It just--I do want that last chorus to feel hopeful,
but it just felt still a little bit--
not emotional enough, actually.
Which I think maybe is the right--
- With the second album now, he kind of has gone into it
with the intention of writing a body of work,
which is the album. It's not individual songs.
It's not separate kind of entities as such.
It's a completely different piece of work
compared to his first.
[soft ambient music]
♪ ♪
- Good morning. [laughing]
- Next leg?
- Yes, starting over.
But absolutely bad last night.
We go again today.
As you can see.
Show one, Iceland.
Perfect.
- I woke up this morning. I was like, oh, no.
- It's not-- it's not great starting
day one on a hangover, is it?
Hey, yeah. - I'm ready.
all: Cheers, cheers, cheers, cheers, hey!
- Little one, little one.
all: [shushing]
- Well, that's what it was at the party.
- Shh. - There is a man.
- There's a man.
[laughter]
Not even a chin.
- I'm at the limit of chill.
This is minimum stress, maximum bless, baby.
- That really is. Here's Stevie Jones.
- This is him.
Minimum stress, maximum bless.
- I just keep thinking about every two minutes
on a loop in your brain, this is sick, this is sick,
over and over again.
Because there's so much pressure in my job,
and also, like, I put a lot of pressure on meself,
it means that when I turn up to work,
there's a real seriousness, man.
So what's been nice about this tour,
and especially like days like today is,
you can just feel the chemistry between us
as a band, bubbling, man.
And I haven't really had an opportunity to do that yet
because I've been in me head so much
about me own performance.
And as I'm getting more confident,
it gives me an opportunity to either interact
with the boys on stage, or even outside of stage,
just have these moments of togetherness, like today,
do you know what I mean? And that makes the show better.
- We got here on Sunday, and we started queuing straight away.
- So what day is it today? - Wednesday.
- You've been here since Sunday?
- Yes. - Yeah.
- We just wrapped ourselves on a bench
and then waiting for, like, four hours,
and then took turns on the second people, and four hours.
- We were worried for Louis and, like,
him being too tired, and, like, we're obviously
exhausted all the time.
And, like--like--like, we have to choose between,
like, queuing and, like, sightseeing because, like,
the shows are so close together.
But obviously, we chose to do this.
We're just very excited, but very tired about everything.
- Well, it's funny because you were actually
doing what we're doing. - Yeah.
- Yeah, we're doing that-- but we sleep on the concrete.
- We slept on the street for, like, three days.
- Driving and flying.
And, like, obviously, Louis is just, like,
sleeping on his bus, but, like, we're driving.
Like, we'll literally go to a show, leave the show,
immediately drive to the next city,
immediately fly to the next city,
get in the queue for that city, go to the show,
come back to--like, we'll just keep going.
- These are the venues.
- Europe upped itself pretty much to an arena tour.
Even he was slightly shocked about how big it was becoming
so quickly on the first album.
Because, you know, a lot of artists
would go out on the road and do a theater tour
with the hope to build to an arena tour,
and we were kind of doing this whilst on the tour.
- It was a really nice feeling going from not touring at all
to what felt like every leg of the tour
in terms of size getting bigger and bigger and bigger.
So that if we'd had it the other way around,
start with the big gigs and then towards the end,
you're doing the smaller gigs,
it would have felt much different.
♪ Hey, babe ♪
♪ It's written all over your face ♪
[cheering]
- Oh!
- Felt pretty good.
- It's wet! - It's really wet.
This is--this is for them too. Water hazard.
- I'm a good guy.
- It's become a bit of a thing for some reason
that I've started challenging people to races.
Because I used to be quick when I was about 16 years old,
and obviously, 14 years later,
I'm not as quick as maybe I think I am.
A broken wrist, maybe.
- Should we cancel tour? - What did you do, Louis?
- You front the bill, Chris. We'll cut to the top part.
- Cheers, Chris.
- Ah! Ah!
Fuck, man, that is painful.
Jesus fuck!
Fuck!
Oh, shit!
[groans]
[indistinct chatter]
[crowd cheering]
- Give me some! Give me some!
[laughter]
- Lost a bet.
Just not slow down quick enough.
There's a wall in front of me,
and I just put both me hands out.
I knew as soon as I hit the wall
it would be bad.
I've just seen a doctor now,
and they seem pretty confident it was a fracture,
in which case, I'll have to have a fucking cast,
which is shit.
But that's the breaks.
There's the breaks, isn't it, when you race, I suppose.
But it is--it is sore.
[crowd cheering]
- Wembley Arena, London!
- So to be playing a venue like this on my first fucking tour,
I'm mind blown.
I'm fucking--
[crowd cheering]
♪ Young man, hush your crying ♪
♪ Dry your tears away ♪
♪ Nothing is original ♪
♪ There's nothing left to say ♪
The Wembley show was a great show
because that's a very historic venue
for all of us in the band.
There was a lot of big moments for us in our career there.
It was often where we'd do the "X Factor" performance
when we'd go on the show and we'd perform
after being on the show.
That's where Boot Camp was.
That's where we were put together as a band.
I can remember the shows there with One Direction.
So, like, there is a lot of connection
I have to that venue.
So to then be going back and playing that show
on my own, and just another moment
in me career where I just-- I felt immensely proud
and felt like I'd got to a place
that I didn't think I would be at.
[crowd cheering]
- Fucking sick. Sick, man. Sick.
It's like--it's the venue
that everyone wants to do, isn't it?
You know, you see it growing up, and you see it--
you see your favorite bands play there,
you see everyone fucking play there, man.
Fuck! Sick!
- Yeah! - Oh, come on!
Oh!
I was just on stage, like, playing a normal gig,
like, this is great.
They look at me like, we're in fucking Wembley!
And I, like, turn up, like, Wembley!
- Seen someone say today, today is the 50th show, 50th.
It's fucking mad, innit?
- I haven't seen Louie since...
- 2015. - 2015.
So, like, I was so excited to be back for him.
And now this show as well, it's gonna be huge
because it's his home show, so I'm very excited.
- It's his hometown, so it's gotta be special.
- I've been waiting ten years for this.
- We've organized the queues. We did all the wristbands.
And then you guys got it literally, like, right after.
So four days, yeah? - Yeah.
- Yeah? Is it four days? Yeah, four days.
Three nights, four days. all: Yeah.
- I don't feel that relationship
between an artist and a fan
with any other artist that I like.
No other artist would do the things for us that Louis does
and make us feel as comfortable as he does.
We're a family. It's not fans and an artist.
It's a family.
- Trying to, like, not feel sad
about it being the last show.
We've been, like, suppressing that feeling.
So we've just been a bit drinking.
- Thank you for reminding me.
- I fucking love you, Louis. I fucking love you!
- How does it feel to be playing your hometown?
[laughter]
- Unbelievable, mate. - Yeah?
Does it feel special?
- Old school, old school.
♪ Nothing wakes you up ♪
♪ Like waking up alone ♪
[soft guitar music]
From the first two songs that I was out there,
it just felt so fucking special, man.
And, like, I never had this luxury of playing
Doncaster in the band.
♪ ♪
♪ The day you walked away... ♪
There's not loads to do in Donnie,
so I spent a lot of me youth here at the Dome
where I've played this gig, either ice skating
or fucking swimming or fucking whatever it is.
There was something really, really fucking lovely
about tonight, man.
♪ But these high walls ♪
♪ They came up short ♪
♪ Now I stand taller than them all ♪
There were moments like tonight where
it just becomes much more literal
and relevant, you know.
The stuff that, obviously, we've been through
as a family and whatever.
There was an element of it feeling, um,
more profound than just a celebration.
[indistinct]
crowd: ♪ Nothing wakes you up
♪ Like waking up alone ♪
[cheering]
Fucking yes, Doncaster.
I could feel the crowd, man, it was sick.
I'm just like, yeah, just overfilled with emotion.
Heavy.
[soft Latin music]
♪ ♪
- The tour in general has grown, I think,
pretty much in every area from when we first
put the first dates out there.
But South America has always been
amazing for me and the band.
[crowd cheering]
- I love you! - I love you!
♪ ♪
- By this point, because we'd had,
you know, America, we'd had Europe,
South America, at this point, was just huge.
crowd: [chanting] We love Lou! We love Lou!
- Regardless the size, obviously the size
makes it fucking amazing as well,
but these are the shows that when I was looking down
the tour list when we're first putting it all together,
these are the ones that you've kind of got your eye on.
They're a different kind of special.
There's a different kind of excitement in the air.
Fan culture is just that little bit more manic
in a fucking great way.
[crowd cheering]
All right, Santiago! This is "Kill My Mind!"
Give me everything you fucking got!
There's a moment in "Kill My Mind"
where we go up and down with the lights
and they create this amazing moment.
♪ Kill my ♪
♪ Kill my mind ♪
I was watching it.
And just the number of lights just start fucking out.
This is me first solo tour, you know what I mean?
I did not think I'd be in these kind of experiences
so soon into me touring career.
♪ You kill my mind ♪
♪ And you raise my body back life ♪
When I'm down in the pit, you can literally feel people
and the energy is literally right on top of you.
And it's always one of my favorite parts of the show.
But fucking hell, these--these acts that we've done here,
it's just taking off in a whole new level.
The way that feels, there's just
so much excitement in the room.
[upbeat rock music]
♪ You kill my mind ♪
- I don't think anyone can explain this.
There's a relationship between him and the fans
that transcends the music.
- I don't think you can
compare that fanbase to anyone.
The passion and how powerful they are.
I mean, the fans come first, on the music side,
for everything for Louis.
What they do for him, and like he says on stage,
you know, you need me, I need you.
It is that relationship.
It really is.
- He took from One D the best tour of One Defense,
and they all came to Lou.
♪ ♪
- Fucking yes, Santiago!
When you're ambitious, you're always thinking
about the next thing, and it means that you don't have time
to actually take everything in.
It's just one of those moments, just thinking,
I'm fucking touring South America.
It's just me fucking job, and look at the size of the shows.
[crowd cheering]
Loco, man, that's it.
[crowd cheering]
That one moment in the pit,
that is the most literal example
of the energy at a tour show, because you feel it.
You don't just feel it.
People are pulling on your shirt like it's gonna wrinkle
and trying to pull me ears out. That was tonight.
People were trying to pull me ears out.
Fucking hell. Maybe.
But honestly, I fucking love it.
I love it.
♪ ♪
[sirens wailing]
[upbeat salsa music]
♪ ♪
[crowd cheering]
- We've been camping here since 2020.
- How? - January, 2020.
- With the pandemic, we had to go,
but then we came back to here.
Five months we've camped.
- So you've been living here? all: Yeah!
- The fans are crazy here.
- He's completely right when he says
it's completely different.
I mean, the shows here are crazy.
- Everyone is really having the best time.
- They are so dedicated here, which is the thing.
- Oh, you know, oh, yeah. I mean, even the camping.
- Oh, yeah. - Yeah.
- That's insane. - Yeah.
- ♪ You know it's times like these we're so much happier ♪
♪ And nights like these when... ♪
- From everywhere, the hotel, that's crazy.
Outside the venue, it's crazy.
There's just so many people as well.
It's totally different to what Europe was
and what America was as well.
- Well, and the show definitely depends on the fans.
You know what I mean?
- Even in the back, they were having fun.
This is--this is way different than what
he's experienced before.
I'm really glad we could experience it
with him as well.
I'd have felt, like, sad if I didn't get to see
a Latin America show as well.
Like, this is just madness.
- What a gig, lad. Fucking hell, mate.
- It's crazy shit.
- Oh, man.
[sentimental music]
- I mean, there's been times when it's manic like that
and I do like it, but it's scary in the context of,
you see some of the reactions, and they're not processing
that they're running up to a car that's moving,
for example, and that, like, that's where it gets
a bit scary because you just-- you'd wanna make sure
no one gets hurt, obviously.
It feels good to be back in these places,
A, because I know that, you know, I'm lucky enough
to have people here who wanna see me,
but also it's--it's been--
it's been a bit of a struggle trying to get out
to these places, and especially
outside of the context of the tour.
- I love you!
- There can be difficult conversations
with, you know, like, record labels
about getting to as many places as you can.
That's why-- that's another reason
why I was so excited about getting on tour,
because that's--
It becomes less about what's the promo opportunity
and more about, you know, just getting to see
as many people as you possibly can.
That's what it should be about, really.
[fans cheering]
- [laughs] They're driving.
♪ ♪
This leg of the tour will be a part of my career
that I'll look back on saying I thought I could do it,
and then I proved to meself and the fans,
we've done that as a collective, that, you know,
that we can, and the shows deserve to be.
- We love you so much! - We love you!
- I slept here two days to see you!
[crowd cheering]
- If I told myself five years ago
that I was gonna play 80 shows, or 80-plus shows,
globally, bigger venues than I ever imagined,
I swear, I wouldn't believe you.
That's where I feel like, in the last 12 months,
I finally feel worthy of where I am, what I'm doing,
and the success that I'm having throughout this.
♪ ♪
[pensive music]
♪ ♪
- Ready to go.
This tour in general has just been non-stop,
so for everyone, man, it's just fucking good
to switch off, recharge.
Because it's been manic, man, do you know what I mean?
Even day in, day out, leaving the hotel,
seeing the fans outside, going to the venue,
feeling that energy.
It's unreal as it is, you know,
a break, as well, away from all that is amazing.
- When you're going over those hills, you're like,
it is mad, bro.
- The amount of times I hear each of the lads
individually say, you know, I've never been here before,
or I've never played this venue before.
And it just, from me, from my point of view,
having done everything that I did with the band,
you know, it's kind of a similar reason
why you should always bring your mates in the band,
because you just wanna be able to share these experiences,
but also not take them for granted.
- One, two. One, two, three.
- ♪ It's late now ♪
♪ I'm trying to find the words... ♪
I do think that this tour--
this is a special one.
And I'm not saying that the next tour won't be better.
It will, but in a different way.
This is--this for me has just got more--
there's more sentimental value in it for us as individuals.
- Yeah, I didn't anticipate how much it would be
all of us as a unit together all the time.
I--on previous things I've done, it's been the artist
and then the band is kept separate and,
you know, that's just how it often is.
- I've done gigs with artists where you're not even allowed
in their dressing room.
- And that's why for a long time,
I never went in your dressing room, I was like, oh, sorry.
And you're like, you could come in.
It's just some people are like--like looking at you,
like, why are you in my dressing room?
Get back to the face cupboard.
- But it is like that, though.
- I did fine as well, innit? - Yeah.
I didn't expect it to become, like,
a unit of people so quickly and for us.
Because to me, it feels like we're a band.
Do you know what I mean?
- Oh, definitely. Definitely, man.
But also, you know, it's just--
I can't--as amazing as that is to hear,
I can't imagine it any other way, man.
So let's say the other scenario, you know,
so like in the other setup where, you know,
as the band, you're maybe not on days like this, let's say.
So what, so I come in here, and it's me, Ollie, Johnny,
and Charlie, probably.
- Oh, shit. [laughter]
[yelling]
- Go over! - Do it!
- Get up, and let's do it together, lad, come on.
[cheering]
- When I first got the gig, I kind of thought
he would be a bit of a knob just because he's like--
I've had ten years of One Direction,
and he was really young when he got it.
I'm like, I just thought it'd be--
at least not down to Earth, like a bit away with it.
And then you, like, meet him,
and he's just, like, a normal guy.
There's not, like, a single person on this
that you think they're like a knob or anything, you know.
Unless it's me, which is usually the case.
Fuck, it is me, isn't it? [laughter]
- That's sick live. - That's live on air.
- It feels like a film cloud. - Yeah.
- I'm thinking.
- Like Drive or something like that.
Like, and imagine, like,
slam the door behind him and get in the car and just--
- Yeah.
- He's reverted a lot closer to the stuff we listened to
when we were on our own or growing up,
when we were going out, and that's definitely
where he wants to be heading now,
further and further in that direction.
- This new record is kind of a representation of him
now feeling like he can really go, this is what I wanna say,
and this is how it's gonna sound,
and here it is, and his fans are gonna love it.
[upbeat rock music]
♪ ♪
- Nobody, nobody is gonna stop that.
[crowd cheering]
[indistinct chatter]
- What's up, man? Good to see ya.
- I take a lot of pride in creating this festival
because it gives me an opportunity to also help out,
like, bands who are, like, up and coming,
and that's something that I've always
had a lot of interest in, like,
the stone playing it this year.
♪ ♪
When he first came on, you could see him
kind of warming up to it.
And by the end, everyone was loving it.
So for me, it's like, even just as a music fan,
to watch my fans react like that to music that I love,
that also means a lot to me. Definitely.
Smashed it, lad. Smashed it.
Amazing to watch you, man.
- Oh, yeah, fucking--
- Did you enjoy it? - Loved it.
Just happened to hear new music.
- Definitely, man. Definitely.
Well, I felt proud for me, man, like watching--watching you.
The fact that I could create that and create
these opportunities for the people as well as myself,
it's amazing.
But also--also, I've been waiting forever
to play at festivals.
And I just thought, I might as well just fucking
make me own, headline it meself.
It's the only way to do it.
[crowd cheering]
And that's the other thing, 'cause I end up
putting pressure on meself because I know I--
I really want to enjoy it tonight.
And then that even brings it's own freshness to--
- But in a year, there's been so much growth
and so much change, Louis.
- Yeah, definitely.
I'm sure, I'm confident I've come up with a good feeling.
It's just right now it's just a bit more attention than not.
I'll feel different even on these next few weeks
of these shows. It's just--I mean it.
- It's good, it's good.
- When I first walked out at the festival away from home,
I never had a feeling like that before because
I wasn't just turning up for a gig.
I was looking around at, like, what I'd created.
It's a big space, and there's bands
on the bill that I really like, and even
putting the lineup together and just creating this thing.
And it wasn't until I got out there,
and something as, like, small as, like,
the burger van in corner, and all of a sudden
it's starting to feel like a festival.
all: ♪ To their kicks on a Friday night ♪
- It just gave me so much confidence
that if I could do something in isolation
that wasn't necessarily a tour show
but it still be a success, then, you know,
that only left room for positive thoughts
in me brain, really.
♪ ♪
[pensive music]
♪ ♪
I've actually woken up with a lot of excitement.
Like, I do feel really, really good about doing today.
The whole tour I've just been completely
kind of in awe of the fact
that we've sold this many tickets for one gig.
So I've gone off on this gig the whole time,
which kind of brings its own pressure.
I'm definitely excited.
I'm definitely really, really excited for the gig,
but I'm almost not excited for the end
because that means it's over, you know what I mean?
[indistinct chatter]
[mellow acoustic music]
♪ 'Cause I feel alive ♪
♪ Now I realize that the world outside ♪
♪ Is bigger than me ♪
♪ ♪
♪ It's bigger than me ♪
♪ I've woken up from my sleep ♪
♪ ♪
- ♪ It's bigger than me ♪
♪ It's bigger than me, me ♪
Cool. Nice.
That was definitely much better.
There's no time where I feel like I'm just existing
more than this kind of time.
I can see and hear things going on around me,
but not really present to any of you.
There is this two minutes before stage
where I just kind of feel nothing.
It is just this weird kind of feeling
of knowing you're about to go and do something important,
and until you get out there and actually see everyone,
it doesn't really come to life.
But that first moment when you walk on stage,
that's powerful.
That gives you a very instant feeling
of being worthy of being on stage.
[upbeat rock music]
♪ ♪
It just surprised me so much
to play in a venue of that size.
Bear in mind, some of the shows we played in America
is a 2,000 cap.
And that's only six months ago.
Six months later, and now I'm doing it 30,000.
♪ Going out tonight ♪
♪ Changes into something red ♪
- To think that it could just keep getting bigger,
like, this--
how much bigger can you get?
- When you look out at the fans,
they are up for it every night.
What are we, like, 70 shows in now,
and I don't think I've had a bad show.
- ♪ Doesn't even know it yet ♪
- From the first show in Madrid to then now,
the confidence and stage presence and everything
is just, like, ramped up so much.
- ♪ We're only getting older, baby ♪
- Having now heard the second record, he's on his path now,
you know, and he knows exactly what he wants to do.
And I think the authenticity is even stronger
than it was on the first record.
- He looks further ahead now, I think.
I think at one point, probably when I met him,
he wasn't really sure what's next,
you know, what he should be doing.
Whereas now, I think there's a life ahead
that, perhaps at one point,
he wasn't sure what that looked like.
- Everyone wants to see this.
This isn't something that he can just stop.
This is something that he needs to keep doing
because people really need it.
- Finish it up!
♪ ♪
[crowd cheering]
[sentimental music]
I'm gonna sit here for a sec.
Let me try and make you understand
how I'm fucking feeling right now.
There was a long time in my solo career where I wondered,
would I ever do this tour?
Would it ever happen?
And the fact that I'm playing to such
an incredible amount of people,
honestly, it blows my fucking mind.
I've just been stood for however many songs we've had
just trying to take this in.
I cannot fucking believe it.
You're all fucking incredible for making this shit happen.
Getting emotional up in here.
Just standing out there today and trying to take it all in,
the fact that they're all there
for my fucking gig, I wasn't--
I was not prepared for that, man.
Like, just on sheer size, it's very evident
of where we started and where we've ended up.
And it feels like everything kind of comes
to fruition in that moment.
You're trying to take it in, you're trying to process it,
you're looking around.
Like, this is all I fucking ever wanted.
♪ ♪
I've just spent so long working to this moment,
and tonight was the fucking pinnacle of that idea.
What's just happened in my brain over 90 minutes,
probably less than about four hours for a normal person,
it's so immersive.
It goes right through your body and right over your head.
You feel like you're just right in the middle of it.
It's filled up-- me fucking life just flashed
before me eyes on stage.
And I'm taking everything and I'm thinking about
that first fucking "X Factor" gig.
I'm thinking about, like, the first time I went
and did a live show on me own.
I mean, I just--I just-- I just feel blessed, man.
I do just feel like, blessed.
♪ ♪
Yeah, I do feel like I deserve this, and that's--
that's probably the first time
I've actually said that out loud.
♪ When somebody told me I would change ♪
♪ I used to hide behind a smile ♪
♪ When somebody told me I would change ♪
♪ I was afraid, I don't know why ♪
♪ 'Cause so does the world outside, I realized ♪
- Three, two, three, one.
- Whoa!
- ♪ Walking different lines ♪
♪ I know I took a left ♪
♪ Tryna make it right ♪
♪ All of those voices, all of those choices ♪
♪ I don't hear them anymore ♪
[Louis Tomlinson's "Bigger Than Me"]
♪ Hear them anymore ♪
[crowd cheering]
♪ When somebody told me I would change ♪
♪ I used to hide behind a smile ♪
♪ When somebody told me I would change ♪
♪ I was afraid, I don't know why ♪
♪ 'Cause so does the world outside, I realized ♪
♪ It's bigger than me ♪
♪ ♪
♪ It's bigger than me ♪
♪ ♪
♪ I've woken up from my sleep ♪
♪ ♪
♪ It's bigger than me ♪
♪ ♪
♪ So come on, call me liar ♪
♪ Yeah, you're so quick to judge ♪
♪ ♪
♪ 'Cause, yeah, I might have changed ♪
♪ But everybody does ♪
♪ All of those voices, all of those choices ♪
♪ I don't hear them anymore ♪
♪ Hear them anymore ♪
So I just found out that my album "Faith in the Future"
is number one this week in the UK.
I'm absolutely blown away.
The support that everyone is showing me,
not just from the UK, from everywhere,
has been absolutely incredible,
so I just wanna send you guys a little message,
say thank you one more time.
Um, yeah, it feels amazing. Thank you.
♪ It's bigger than me ♪
♪ ♪
♪ It's bigger than me ♪
♪ ♪
♪ I've woken up from my sleep ♪
♪ ♪
♪ It's bigger than me ♪
♪ ♪
♪ It's bigger than me ♪
♪ ♪
♪ Do you ever ask why it's not black or white? ♪
♪ How you sleep at night when you're just like me? ♪
♪ ♪
♪ 'Cause I feel alive ♪
♪ Now I realize there's a world outside ♪
♪ It's bigger than me ♪
♪ ♪
♪ It's bigger than me ♪
♪ I've woken up from my sleep ♪
♪ ♪
♪ It's bigger than me ♪
♪ ♪
[crowd cheering]
[Louis Tomlinson's "That's the Way Love Goes"]
[gentle music]
♪ ♪
♪ Here are some words I know that you don't wanna hear ♪
♪ I think she's moved on, mate ♪
♪ It's almost been a year ♪
♪ We haven't seen you here, we've given you your space ♪
♪ Pick up the phone 'cause now it's time you learnt to say ♪
♪ That's the way, that's the way love goes ♪
♪ Remember when you told me I should give it time? ♪
♪ Well, here's the chance for you to take your own advice ♪
♪ We're going out to end up somewhere we'll regret ♪
♪ 'Cause in this town, it's easy to forget ♪
♪ That's the way, that's the way love goes ♪
♪ I guess that's the way, that's the way love goes ♪
♪ When it cuts you, when you bleed ♪
♪ That's when you're feeling it the most ♪
♪ That's the way, that's the way love goes ♪
♪ Ooh, ooh-ooh ♪
♪ Here are the words I know that you don't wanna hear ♪
♪ I think she's moved on, mate ♪
♪ It's almost been a year ♪
♪ Not gonna ask you, but we'll make sure you're okay ♪
♪ Who cares? It's her loss anyway ♪
♪ That's the way, that's the way love goes ♪
♪ When it cuts you, when you bleed ♪
♪ That's when you're feeling it the most ♪
♪ That's the way, that's the way love goes ♪
♪ When it cuts you, when you bleed ♪
♪ That's when you're feeling it the most ♪
♪ That's the way, that's the way love goes ♪
♪ Ooh, ooh-ooh ♪
♪ That's the way, that's the way love goes ♪
[Louis Tomlinson's "Out of My System"]
[thumping rock music]
♪ Slowly, I never wanna go slowly ♪
♪ I only wanna go faster towards disaster, every time ♪
♪ ♪
♪ With me, I know you wanna come with me ♪
♪ Take anything you can carry ♪
♪ And leave everything else behind ♪
♪ ♪
♪ I am only half of what I think I can be ♪
♪ Got to get it out of my system ♪
♪ Got to get it off of my chest ♪
♪ I've lived a lot of my life already ♪
♪ But I gotta get through the rest ♪
♪ ♪
♪ Demons, I'm takin' all of my demons ♪
♪ Putting them where I won't see them ♪
♪ 'Cause I just wanna feel alive ♪
♪ ♪
♪ I'm only half of what I think I can be ♪
♪ Gotta get it out of my system ♪
♪ Gotta to get it off of my chest ♪
♪ I've lived a lot of my life already ♪
♪ But I gotta get through the rest ♪
♪ ♪
♪ Gotta get it out of my system, system ♪
♪ Gotta get it out of my system ♪