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[Muffled doctor's office noise]

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[Ears ringing]

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(Doctor Cohn) Jake?

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Jake, are you listening?

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It looks benign to me, but we'll
know more when the tests come back.

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There's no reason to stress right now, so it's
important to stay calm and keep your mind clear.

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Go home, get some rest, and
try to take your mind off of it.

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The last thing you need right
now is anxiety on top of everything.

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You're a writer, right?

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Do some writing, get some work done, maybe write
about something new, something you're not used to.

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Something that you can really
dive into and... escape... you know?

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I'll give you a call as soon as I hear back on the test

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results, shouldn't be any
later than tomorrow morning.

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Take care, Jake.

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[Bach's Cello Suite No. 1, Prélude]

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♫ ♫

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[Door opens and closes]

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[Bach's Cello Suite No.1 II-Allemande]

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♫ ♫

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♫ ♫ [Muffled shouting]

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♫ ♫

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[Upbeat pop/rock music plays on jukebox]

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(Jake voiceover) It's hard to
reflect in a loud bar, but when

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you're three drinks deep and
alone, that's all you want to do.

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The world's ending, that's how it feels sometimes.

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Anyway, I don't know if everyone's
world is like that or if it's just mine.

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I can't stand cliches, but the deeper I
fall into myself, the more of them I find.

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A smile, though... a smile can change everything.

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[Laughing]

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(Brett) What is it, huh? Is it me?

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(Jill) No it's not you.

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Well I don't know why I keep attracting
these guys every time, these assholes.

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Maybe I should just finally leave town.

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Moving around isn't gonna leave you an
escape from yourself, believe me, I've tried.

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Fair enough.

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(Jill) This is a good place, it's a very good place.

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(Brett) There's lots of beer.

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That's the spirit!

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I'm not giving you the
satisfaction of laughing at that.

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Oh what's that?

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Some good shit, that's what. You want some?

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Absolutely

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To-(Jill) No no, this is not for toast drinking.

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You mix emotions up with the bourbon, no no.

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Okay, well fuck it then.

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Fuck it.

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Journaling at the bar?

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I wish...

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Thought I'd try the tortured artist
thing for a bit and see how that works.

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It works on you.

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Thanks.

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What are you drinking?

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Oh, you don't have to-

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Oh it's fine, Jill won't mind, I need a new one anyway.

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Damn... cheers.

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Cheers.

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Brett.

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Jake.

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I don't think I’ve seen you around here.

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Well I just moved here a little while ago, and uh...

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I tend to drink alone more often than not.

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But uh...

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Drinking alone kinda sucks, so...

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Here I am. (chuckles)

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Well welcome.

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Drinking alone does suck... but it's
better than not drinking alone at all.

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(Jill) Just decided to help yourself, huh?

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Oh, I, uh... (stammers)

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[Laughing]

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[Laughing] Oh, okay, holy shit... this is why I drink alone.

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[Upbeat pop/rock music plays on jukebox]

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♫ ♫

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So... you said that you don't have a story,
but that's bullshit, everyone has a story.

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Do you live around here?

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Yup, Select Street.

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Alright, family?

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Not so much.

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Parents?

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Uh... like I said, I like to drink alone.

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I get that.

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Well hey, here's to drinking together.

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What kind of music do you listen to? I can
totally take over the jukebox at any time.

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Oh, uh, I'll pretty much listen to anything.

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Something new or old?

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How about something old?

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Hey, I'll be right back, okay?

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Mhm.

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[Phone unlocks, typing]

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[Ringing]

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(Voicemail) Thank you for
calling the office of Dr. Cohn.

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Our office hours are Monday to Friday, 9am to 5pm-

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[Jake sighs]

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Alright.

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[Upbeat pop/rock music]

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♫ ♫

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♫ Then you pull me through, and it feels new. ♫

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(Brett) It's a happy ending.

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(Jake) It absolutely is not a
happy ending, it's a tragedy.

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But he achieved his goal,
how is that not a happy ending?

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Because it's not the ending that he wanted.

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I don't think that really
matters, though, you can still

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have a happy ending even if
you don't get what you want.

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But isn't happiness subjective? Like, what makes one

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person happy doesn't necessarily
make another person happy.

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But it makes the audience happy.

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[Chuckles] you were happy?

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First he said that it wasn't his life, his
family, but he accepts them for who they are.

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And as soon as he did that he was all in.

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That's so sad.

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Sad maybe, but not tragic.

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He started as an anti-hero, err, he started as
a hero and then transitioned to an anti-hero...

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And from there he achieved
his goals. How is that a tragedy?

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Romeo and Juliet was a tragedy.

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Their goals were to end up together emotionally
and physically, but they both died...

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Separately emotionally but together physically.

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What do you do?

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Teach.

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That explains a lot, actually.

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Does it?

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And you are a... diary reviewer?

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[Jake laughs]

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No, but that sounds like a pretty cool job.

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Right? Especially if you could
give, like reviews and things.

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Oh yeah. [laughs]

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(Sarcastically) Sexual frustration... 8 out of 10.

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Story pacing... 4 out of 10.

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Self awareness... 5 out of 10.

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[Laughing]

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I'm a writer.

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That makes more sense.

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By choice or profession?

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I guess by choice first, and then both...

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And now just profession?

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Feels like it sometimes.

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Yeah I get that.

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So what do you teach?

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High school English.

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Damn, that's awesome.

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It can be.

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So like Tom Sawyer, Huckleberry Finn, To Kill a

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Mockingbird, Of Mice and Men,
Grapes of Wrath, the usuals?

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I try to stay away from "the usuals" as
much as possible... but yes to all of those.

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We also did Dracula, Jekyll and Hyde, Fahrenheit 451.

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Damn [chuckles] wish I had you in high school.

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We also did a hallway project for Dante's Inferno.

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But we had to take it down because one
of the teachers accused us of witchcraft.

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Wow.

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But no, that's great, that's like the
highest compliment that you can possibly get.

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That's fair.

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I mean like, suppose all the townsfolk
accuse you of witchcraft, like my god...

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That's amazing, that's like a
5-star rating at a restaurant.

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So please... please... don't ever change.

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Hey, I got a proposition for you.

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Damn, that was quick.

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Do you... want to take... this to the next level?

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I thought you'd never ask.

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[Retro pop/rock music plays on jukebox]

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♫ ♫

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♫ It's all around me, but it's gone without you.
Show me I see what's wrong with their truth? ♫

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♫ Why should it be something that I choose? No one
else sees it's you I breathe through. And turn away. ♫

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[Billiard balls crack]

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(Jake) Not bad.

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I do okay.

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So you're like, good at this?

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(Jake) Apparently not good enough.

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You're up, asshole.

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(Jake) Boom!

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(Brett) Uh, you're stripes.

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So I've never actually played this before.

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[Retro pop music plays on jukebox]

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If you don't mind me asking, how old are you?

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29.

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Do you ever get the feeling that life's passing
by so fast that you don't really get to live it?

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All the time.

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♫ Could never make it on my own but it was hard to see.
Every time I turned around I felt you turning me. ♫

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♫ And every time I lost the way you showed
me what I needed. To see this for you. ♫

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Stop.

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Stop... just stop...

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(Jill) You want another?

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Please.

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(Brett) I'm going out for a smoke.

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She's been through a lot.

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Haven't we all.

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You know, you shouldn't smoke, it's bad for you.

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You know what else is bad for you?

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What's that?

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Telling people what is and isn't bad for them.

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Fair point.

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I've wanted to quit for years, just...

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Life got in the way?

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Something like that.

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You know... I'm not exactly in a
position to judge other people's decisions.

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Eh, don't make excuses for
me, shit's gonna kill me someday.

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[Sighs] A lot of shit can kill you.

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I should go.

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You got some place to be?

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Something like that.

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Yeah, I should go. I got shit to deal with at home.

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(Jake) You know, I'm no stranger to dealing with shit.

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The hardest part is figuring out what
shit is worth dealing with and what isn't.

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Because... some shit... some
shit just isn't worth your time.

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Hey, you ever play basketball?

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You know, I haven't touched a basketball in years.

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Are you sure you've ever touched one?

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[Indie rock music]

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♫ I don't know where I've been.
I don't know where I'm going. ♫

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♫ Been holding on to the past
but this life keeps on moving. ♫

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(Jake) Damn, you're so good at everything, huh?

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(Brett) [Chuckles] I was an athlete in high school.

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So you and I would have never spoken.

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Wait.. if you were an athlete...

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And then you quit the team...

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Did you have that moment with your dad when you were
like "dad, I'm quitting the team to pursue literature?"

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But then your dad was like "No Brett!
You cannot give up on your dream!"

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But then you were like "But no, dad, I'm giving up on yours!"

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(Brett) [Laughs] Nope, my dad was actually a book nerd too.

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He gave me shit for playing sports all the time.

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Let's play HORSE... you do know how to play HORSE, right?

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Is it like Polo?

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[Laughs] It's exactly like Polo.

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Oh, then I've never played it before.

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It's easy, there's no dribbling involved.

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I think I'm a pretty good
dribbler, if you know what I mean.

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(Brett) [Laughing] Like I said, there's no dribbling.

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[Indie rock music plays]

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♫ I don't know where I've been.
I don't know where I'm going. ♫

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♫ Been holding on to the past but this
life keeps on moving. It keeps on moving. ♫

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♫ I can turn back now and leave this all behind.
I don't know if I'll ever make it out alive. ♫

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00:31:04,447 --> 00:31:12,447
♫ I can turn back now and leave this all behind.
I don't know if I'll ever get out alive. ♫

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So what are you writing?

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Articles, stuff about the human
mind, veganism, breweries, micro-

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Just the gamut of...

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Pretentious hipster bullshit?

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I mean...

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You're not wrong, I know what I am.

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Self-awareness is important.

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00:31:52,870 --> 00:31:56,081
So... what's this?

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Something else.

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Is it like a Helter Skelter manifesto or something?

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No... (mockingly) I am writing
an adaptation of Mein Kampf.

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It's about Hitler, who is starting up a
tech company, and he's the CEO, in Brooklyn.

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Sounds... interesting... can't wait to read it.

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(Brett) They say that writing is
just bleeding into a typewriter.

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(Jake) If only it were that simple.

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00:32:36,914 --> 00:32:39,917
The first cut is always the hardest.

246
00:32:49,844 --> 00:32:53,972
(Jake) You said you were an
English teacher. You ever write?

247
00:32:54,014 --> 00:32:56,016
(Brett) Once upon a time.

248
00:32:56,058 --> 00:32:59,019
(Jake) Why did you stop?

249
00:32:59,061 --> 00:33:02,356
Got tired of bleeding.

250
00:33:02,398 --> 00:33:04,608
Why do you ask?

251
00:33:04,650 --> 00:33:07,319
Just curious.

252
00:33:07,361 --> 00:33:09,071
You're not seeing any of it.

253
00:33:09,113 --> 00:33:12,116
Oh come on, I'm sure it's really good.

254
00:33:14,827 --> 00:33:17,830
I'll show you mine if you show me yours.

255
00:33:18,748 --> 00:33:21,751
Pass.

256
00:33:22,501 --> 00:33:25,504
That's what I thought.

257
00:33:33,345 --> 00:33:37,766
You know this is top shelf, right?
I'm gonna have to start you a tab.

258
00:33:37,808 --> 00:33:40,436
But it was down here.

259
00:33:40,478 --> 00:33:43,147
That's not what top shelf means.

260
00:33:43,189 --> 00:33:46,192
[Phone buzzes]

261
00:33:47,610 --> 00:33:51,238
Uh, hey, I'll be right back.

262
00:33:53,282 --> 00:33:56,243
I'm just saying, it's not clear, is what I meant.

263
00:33:56,285 --> 00:33:59,288
Doesn't have to be clear, it's my bar.

264
00:34:06,128 --> 00:34:08,005
[Answers phone]

265
00:34:10,132 --> 00:34:13,168
(Automated voice) This is an
automated call from... Rising

266
00:34:13,210 --> 00:34:16,138
Sun Media... reminding you
of your upcoming deadlines.

267
00:34:16,180 --> 00:34:21,185
Should you need an extension, please call your
HR department during normal business hours...

268
00:34:21,227 --> 00:34:26,273
Which are Monday to Friday, 9am to 5pm... thank you...

269
00:34:27,983 --> 00:34:30,194
[Call ends]

270
00:34:34,907 --> 00:34:37,326
I prefer scotch.

271
00:34:37,368 --> 00:34:40,621
I'm not even sure I can tell the difference.

272
00:34:40,663 --> 00:34:46,752
Scotch is... smokier... bourbon
is more cinnamony and sweet.

273
00:34:46,794 --> 00:34:50,547
I'm not sure what type of cinnamon you're cooking
with, but you should probably throw that out.

274
00:34:50,589 --> 00:34:53,550
(Jake) Now who's the pretentious hipster?

275
00:34:53,592 --> 00:34:55,260
[Laughing]

276
00:34:55,302 --> 00:34:58,305
I think we all have a little
pretentious hipster in us.

277
00:34:59,139 --> 00:35:00,808
That's beautiful.

278
00:35:00,850 --> 00:35:02,685
Thank you.

279
00:35:15,364 --> 00:35:17,032
Everything alright?

280
00:35:17,074 --> 00:35:19,117
Yeah, just work being up my ass.

281
00:35:19,159 --> 00:35:22,037
Jesus, they call you this late?

282
00:35:22,079 --> 00:35:26,667
Yeah they have an automated
system that nags you night and day.

283
00:35:26,709 --> 00:35:29,712
Innovative.

284
00:35:30,838 --> 00:35:34,299
I think I'm starting to put the pieces together.

285
00:35:34,341 --> 00:35:35,592
Oh yeah?

286
00:35:35,634 --> 00:35:37,803
Yeah.

287
00:35:37,845 --> 00:35:43,725
Okay, well please go on... enlighten me.

288
00:35:43,767 --> 00:35:48,146
Your articles are bullshit, but they're
your bullshit, the type that you can handle.

289
00:35:48,188 --> 00:35:55,487
And you would like to write for yourself, and you're
getting pretty sick of writing for other people, but...

290
00:35:55,529 --> 00:36:00,868
You're scared that it takes a lot of
commitment, so you're here, wasting time.

291
00:36:02,912 --> 00:36:05,915
You're mostly... mostly right...

292
00:36:06,790 --> 00:36:09,751
Mostly?

293
00:36:09,793 --> 00:36:15,299
I absolutely came here to waste time...

294
00:36:16,300 --> 00:36:19,303
But... but but but...

295
00:36:21,305 --> 00:36:25,100
I think I... uh... found something...

296
00:36:27,186 --> 00:36:30,898
That... isn't...

297
00:36:31,857 --> 00:36:34,860
A waste of time.

298
00:36:43,410 --> 00:36:46,413
You wanna go for a walk?

299
00:36:51,085 --> 00:36:54,922
[Retro pop music plays on jukebox]

300
00:36:54,964 --> 00:36:55,564
♫ ♫

301
00:37:10,396 --> 00:37:18,396
♫ Is it only me who just can't see we finally
made it better? It's finally back together. ♫

302
00:37:28,163 --> 00:37:29,831
Had my first date there.

303
00:37:29,873 --> 00:37:31,750
Oh yeah? How was that?

304
00:37:31,792 --> 00:37:35,837
He was a perfect gentleman. His mom
dropped us off and my mom picked us up.

305
00:37:35,879 --> 00:37:37,840
Classic.

306
00:37:38,882 --> 00:37:40,550
Had my first kiss there.

307
00:37:40,592 --> 00:37:41,969
Same guy?

308
00:37:42,011 --> 00:37:43,720
Nope, his brother.

309
00:37:43,762 --> 00:37:45,430
Damn. [Chuckles]

310
00:37:45,472 --> 00:37:48,475
He was way cuter.

311
00:37:49,518 --> 00:37:54,064
So what made you move here? Is there, like,
a budding art scene that I wasn't aware of?

312
00:37:54,106 --> 00:37:56,775
Creative inspiration, actually.

313
00:37:56,817 --> 00:37:58,777
Really?

314
00:37:58,819 --> 00:38:02,281
Yeah... there's something about...

315
00:38:05,367 --> 00:38:10,038
Something about trucks just passing by...

316
00:38:10,080 --> 00:38:15,627
[Loud truck drives by]

317
00:38:15,669 --> 00:38:18,630
It really gets the creative juices flowing!

318
00:38:18,672 --> 00:38:21,258
[Laughing]

319
00:38:21,300 --> 00:38:25,763
No no no, actually, everything closes at like 6pm.

320
00:38:27,347 --> 00:38:30,392
So no distractions.

321
00:38:30,434 --> 00:38:33,687
Except the bars.

322
00:38:33,729 --> 00:38:38,275
Oh, the bars, right, totally forgot about that. [Laughs]

323
00:38:38,317 --> 00:38:38,917
♫ ♫

324
00:39:08,013 --> 00:39:11,016
I grew up in the city.

325
00:39:15,479 --> 00:39:18,524
My parents used to take me here in the fall...

326
00:39:20,150 --> 00:39:26,824
And we'd do the whole apple
picking, pumpkin patch thing...

327
00:39:28,826 --> 00:39:31,829
That city people love to do.

328
00:39:33,956 --> 00:39:41,421
One year, as I was getting
older... I decided I didn't want to go.

329
00:39:43,841 --> 00:39:50,472
I had a friend whose parents
had a penthouse in Manhattan...

330
00:39:52,683 --> 00:39:55,686
Which was a dream for me.

331
00:39:57,521 --> 00:40:00,858
He invited me to stay there for the weekend...

332
00:40:02,776 --> 00:40:06,029
And uh... so I did...

333
00:40:07,823 --> 00:40:12,661
And my parents made the
usual trip up here by themselves...

334
00:40:17,875 --> 00:40:20,878
And they... uh...

335
00:40:23,422 --> 00:40:26,425
They never came home.

336
00:40:28,468 --> 00:40:31,888
I... uh...

337
00:40:31,930 --> 00:40:34,933
It was a cold fall...

338
00:40:39,646 --> 00:40:42,649
And they were driving up here...

339
00:40:46,403 --> 00:40:51,241
And they... uh... hit a patch of black ice.

340
00:40:54,745 --> 00:40:58,290
The car wrapped around a tree.

341
00:40:58,332 --> 00:41:01,293
(Brett) I'm so sorry.

342
00:41:01,335 --> 00:41:04,338
I... uh...

343
00:41:11,678 --> 00:41:14,681
I thought...

344
00:41:16,850 --> 00:41:19,811
I guess I thought...

345
00:41:19,853 --> 00:41:27,853
I thought moving up here would make me feel better...

346
00:41:30,280 --> 00:41:33,241
But...

347
00:41:33,283 --> 00:41:36,286
It hasn't.

348
00:41:41,291 --> 00:41:44,294
And I still feel guilty about it every day.

349
00:41:50,968 --> 00:41:58,767
Some days are better, some days are worse.

350
00:42:02,312 --> 00:42:10,312
But... hey, I'm still close enough to Penguin
Random House if they decide to publish me.

351
00:42:16,076 --> 00:42:20,622
Having dreams is great and all, but that's a lofty goal.

352
00:42:20,664 --> 00:42:27,379
Well dreaming is part of my process.

353
00:42:29,423 --> 00:42:32,384
Let's go get more to drink.

354
00:42:32,426 --> 00:42:35,429
Yeah, my buzz is dying.

355
00:42:41,685 --> 00:42:44,688
[Crickets]

356
00:42:58,368 --> 00:43:01,371
[Car passes by]

357
00:43:04,541 --> 00:43:12,257
[Distant train passing through town]

358
00:43:20,474 --> 00:43:24,519
My mom used to coach my tee-ball team.

359
00:43:24,561 --> 00:43:29,983
She'd bring orange slices for
everyone, even the other team.

360
00:43:30,025 --> 00:43:35,739
She'd cheer for them, build them up, everyone loved her.

361
00:43:38,158 --> 00:43:45,165
And then... she cheated on my dad... and left him.

362
00:43:45,207 --> 00:43:49,461
She went off with her new family
and never really looked back.

363
00:44:01,932 --> 00:44:09,147
When I grew up and left the house
she reappeared... and he took her back.

364
00:44:09,189 --> 00:44:12,651
That sucks.

365
00:44:12,693 --> 00:44:16,196
I mean I love my dad, but...

366
00:44:16,238 --> 00:44:19,491
I haven't spoken to either
of them in a really long time.

367
00:44:22,619 --> 00:44:29,667
It's not that I hate my mom, I just... don't
really know her... or care to know her.

368
00:44:29,709 --> 00:44:32,712
That probably sounds really shitty to you.

369
00:44:33,588 --> 00:44:37,425
It doesn't.

370
00:44:37,467 --> 00:44:43,139
You know, we're all broken in different places.

371
00:44:43,181 --> 00:44:47,936
And we're supposed to grow from that brokenness, but...

372
00:44:47,978 --> 00:44:50,981
It really hurts sometimes.

373
00:44:54,151 --> 00:44:57,112
Yes it does.

374
00:44:57,154 --> 00:45:01,658
My dad keeps trying to call me
and get me to talk to him, but...

375
00:45:03,785 --> 00:45:06,788
I really can't bring myself to do it.

376
00:45:31,771 --> 00:45:34,774
To the broken places.

377
00:45:36,359 --> 00:45:39,362
Cheers.

378
00:45:40,405 --> 00:45:41,614
[Phone buzzes]

379
00:45:41,656 --> 00:45:44,367
Speak of the...

380
00:45:44,409 --> 00:45:47,412
Your dad?

381
00:45:52,792 --> 00:45:55,795
Hey you okay?

382
00:45:58,381 --> 00:46:01,342
I have a boyfriend. (Jake) Oh.

383
00:46:01,384 --> 00:46:05,138
Well, maybe an ex now, I'm not really sure.

384
00:46:05,180 --> 00:46:08,391
I went to the the bar to get over him...

385
00:46:08,433 --> 00:46:12,062
But it wasn't enough.. it never
really seems to be enough.

386
00:46:13,563 --> 00:46:17,192
And I left my favorite scarf at his house.

387
00:46:17,234 --> 00:46:20,195
That's bullshit. (Brett) What?

388
00:46:20,237 --> 00:46:23,865
Look, I don't know what your
relationship is like, only you do.

389
00:46:23,907 --> 00:46:27,285
But you are enough.

390
00:46:27,327 --> 00:46:33,458
I mean, how long have we known
each other? What, like a couple of hours?

391
00:46:33,500 --> 00:46:38,171
That's long enough for me
to realize that you are enough.

392
00:46:38,213 --> 00:46:44,802
And look, I know you're vulnerable right now and I'm
not gonna be one of those assholes that hits on you.

393
00:46:44,844 --> 00:46:49,265
Because that's messed up and that's wrong, but...

394
00:46:49,307 --> 00:46:54,229
Looking at you right now...

395
00:46:54,271 --> 00:46:57,190
You are enough.

396
00:47:02,571 --> 00:47:05,532
I've had a lot of fun tonight.

397
00:47:05,574 --> 00:47:08,535
Like, more fun than I've had in a long time.

398
00:47:08,577 --> 00:47:11,538
(Sarcastically) Oh, well I am a fun guy.

399
00:47:11,580 --> 00:47:14,541
I mean, I wanna keep having fun.

400
00:47:14,583 --> 00:47:20,046
Just for tonight, nothing else
matters, no one else matters, just fun.

401
00:47:21,464 --> 00:47:24,425
I can do that.

402
00:47:24,467 --> 00:47:29,180
[Pop music]

403
00:47:29,222 --> 00:47:35,311
♫ Try not to spin out too much. Oh
but my mind keeps on tripping me up. ♫

404
00:47:35,353 --> 00:47:43,353
♫ Telling me lies ‘till I’m coming undone.
Emotionally drunk like I can’t get enough. ♫

405
00:47:44,029 --> 00:47:52,029
♫ Watch me fall down the rabbit hole. Spend
hours counting all the potential hypotheticals. ♫

406
00:47:52,746 --> 00:48:00,295
♫ Building walls just to knock them down.
Leave me on the ground in the fall out. ♫

407
00:48:00,337 --> 00:48:08,337
♫ I keep on leaving me a wreck. Words in my head,
yeah they’re dead set on running parallel. ♫

408
00:48:10,180 --> 00:48:18,180
♫ Why do I do it, why do I do it?
Always kicking myself, kicking myself. ♫

409
00:48:22,275 --> 00:48:22,875
♫ ♫

410
00:48:52,972 --> 00:48:54,849
Dammit.

411
00:48:54,891 --> 00:48:56,976
We're gonna find a game you're good at, I promise.

412
00:48:57,018 --> 00:48:59,270
I want a rematch.

413
00:48:59,312 --> 00:49:01,064
You're too careful.

414
00:49:01,106 --> 00:49:04,109
Tell me about it.

415
00:49:06,945 --> 00:49:09,948
You're reds.

416
00:49:38,476 --> 00:49:41,479
Shit.

417
00:49:46,609 --> 00:49:54,117
You know, it would be really polite
if you actually let me win for once.

418
00:49:55,994 --> 00:49:58,788
But what would you learn from that?

419
00:49:58,830 --> 00:50:01,791
(Jake) That human decency
and kindness are still alive!

420
00:50:01,833 --> 00:50:04,836
(Jill) Oh, those died a long time ago.

421
00:50:06,212 --> 00:50:08,005
Here you go.

422
00:50:08,047 --> 00:50:11,008
Thank you. (Jill) You're welcome.

423
00:50:11,050 --> 00:50:12,677
[50s rock and roll plays on jukebox]

424
00:50:12,719 --> 00:50:17,765
♫ Oh chasing love can drive you mad, make
you feel real good, make you feel so sad. ♫

425
00:50:17,807 --> 00:50:20,810
How about Scrabble?

426
00:50:22,812 --> 00:50:25,773
How about let's get your scarf back?

427
00:50:25,815 --> 00:50:27,734
What?

428
00:50:27,776 --> 00:50:30,737
Your scarf.

429
00:50:30,779 --> 00:50:33,740
You said that you left your scarf at his house.

430
00:50:33,782 --> 00:50:36,743
So lets get it back.

431
00:50:36,785 --> 00:50:39,120
It's just a scarf.

432
00:50:39,162 --> 00:50:42,165
Your favorite scarf.

433
00:50:44,042 --> 00:50:48,171
Look, I appreciate the energy, I really do, but it's fine.

434
00:50:52,592 --> 00:50:55,595
I'm gonna go have a smoke.

435
00:51:41,933 --> 00:51:46,020
Let's go get my fucking scarf back.

436
00:52:29,355 --> 00:52:36,237
You sure about this? It's okay if you... uh.. don't want to.

437
00:52:38,781 --> 00:52:41,784
Mister dumbass confidence over here.

438
00:52:54,380 --> 00:52:57,383
(Brett) Mike, it's me!

439
00:53:07,852 --> 00:53:10,813
(Mike) Who the fuck is that?
(Brett) I want my fucking scarf back.

440
00:53:10,855 --> 00:53:13,816
What? (Brett) My scarf, I want it.

441
00:53:13,858 --> 00:53:16,319
What the fuck are you talking about? Who is that?

442
00:53:16,361 --> 00:53:19,822
(Brett) Look, we're done, I'm over this,
I don't wanna keep doing this anymore.

443
00:53:19,864 --> 00:53:22,074
I want my fucking scarf.

444
00:53:22,116 --> 00:53:25,077
You're done? Fuck off.

445
00:53:25,119 --> 00:53:30,041
(Jake) Hey man! She just wants her scarf back.

446
00:53:31,376 --> 00:53:34,837
Look, I don't know who you are, but you need
to get the fuck out of here right now...

447
00:53:34,879 --> 00:53:37,882
Or I'm gonna knock your
fucking teeth down your throat.

448
00:53:39,509 --> 00:53:42,428
(Jake) Scarf thing kinda makes sense now.

449
00:53:42,470 --> 00:53:45,515
Are you fucking kidding me?

450
00:53:46,849 --> 00:53:49,852
(Jake) Shit, hey!

451
00:53:52,230 --> 00:53:56,567
[Jake groaning]

452
00:53:58,111 --> 00:54:01,114
[Glass shatters]

453
00:54:07,328 --> 00:54:10,873
(Brett) Are you okay?

454
00:54:10,915 --> 00:54:13,918
I'll live.

455
00:54:53,416 --> 00:54:56,419
It doesn't look that bad, come on.

456
00:55:14,979 --> 00:55:17,273
(Jill) Should be call the police?

457
00:55:17,315 --> 00:55:20,318
Nah, he'll be alright.

458
00:55:25,281 --> 00:55:28,284
(Jake) Nice scarf.

459
00:55:29,327 --> 00:55:32,747
Nice nose. (Jake) Thank you.

460
00:55:32,789 --> 00:55:35,792
It doesn't look too bad.

461
00:55:40,004 --> 00:55:43,007
Much obliged. (Jill) You're welcome.

462
00:55:44,842 --> 00:55:47,803
(Brett) I'm sorry about that.

463
00:55:47,845 --> 00:55:50,890
(Jake) No it's fine.

464
00:55:52,016 --> 00:55:56,854
I'm just glad you're okay, nobody
deserves to be treated like that.

465
00:56:00,608 --> 00:56:03,611
Must have felt great to smash that-

466
00:56:13,079 --> 00:56:16,290
(Brett) You wanna get really drunk with me?

467
00:56:16,332 --> 00:56:21,587
Honestly, I've been drunk for a while at this point.

468
00:56:21,629 --> 00:56:24,632
[Retro pop/rock music]

469
00:56:24,674 --> 00:56:31,305
♫ We gotta get together and make
a way. It's all we've ever known. ♫

470
00:56:31,347 --> 00:56:39,347
♫ We're not the same, we never thought
it'd break. We're still holding on. ♫

471
00:56:40,106 --> 00:56:48,106
♫ Let's put it back together a
better way and never let it go. ♫

472
00:56:50,825 --> 00:56:58,825
♫ Carry through. Trust in what we never knew. ♫

473
00:57:01,544 --> 00:57:02,144
♫ ♫

474
00:58:05,524 --> 00:58:09,195
(Jake) Why do I suck so much?

475
00:58:09,237 --> 00:58:14,200
You don't suck, you're just... [hiccups] you're just worried.

476
00:58:23,834 --> 00:58:26,837
My doctor said I might be sick.

477
00:58:27,964 --> 00:58:30,925
Huh?

478
00:58:30,967 --> 00:58:33,970
Never mind.

479
00:58:35,554 --> 00:58:38,515
I can't write.

480
00:58:38,557 --> 00:58:41,518
I'm not even a real writer.

481
00:58:41,560 --> 00:58:44,563
I wish I was.

482
00:58:46,565 --> 00:58:48,985
You know, I started writing...

483
00:58:50,861 --> 00:58:54,240
Because I liked the way it made me feel.

484
00:58:56,200 --> 00:58:59,870
You know? Like... like I felt something.

485
00:59:13,592 --> 00:59:16,595
And...

486
00:59:17,638 --> 00:59:20,641
Like it scares me.

487
00:59:24,020 --> 00:59:27,023
You scare me.

488
00:59:30,318 --> 00:59:32,236
[Phone buzzes]

489
00:59:32,278 --> 00:59:35,281
Give it a fucking rest!

490
00:59:37,366 --> 00:59:44,248
I should probably go home and go to sleep, but...

491
00:59:47,001 --> 00:59:50,713
Honestly, that's the last place I want to be right now.

492
01:00:02,224 --> 01:00:05,185
Uh oh.

493
01:00:05,227 --> 01:00:08,230
[Brett puking]

494
01:00:16,197 --> 01:00:19,158
You okay Jill? [Laughing]

495
01:00:19,200 --> 01:00:22,203
Oh probably smart.

496
01:00:31,128 --> 01:00:34,131
One for you too. (Jake) Excuse me.

497
01:00:39,553 --> 01:00:42,556
[Jake puking]

498
01:00:43,808 --> 01:00:44,768
[Phone buzzing]

499
01:00:53,025 --> 01:00:58,948
Oh my god! You know what, fine, fine.

500
01:01:07,790 --> 01:01:10,751
Dad, it's the middle of the night...

501
01:01:10,793 --> 01:01:13,796
Whoa whoa, slow down... wait what?

502
01:01:16,215 --> 01:01:21,720
Slow down... yeah no... I can be up
there tonight. Do you need me to drive out?

503
01:01:23,472 --> 01:01:26,433
Are you okay? Are you sure?

504
01:01:26,475 --> 01:01:29,436
Okay, well I'll drive out and
I'll be there in the morning.

505
01:01:29,478 --> 01:01:32,773
Tomorrow of course... no I want to be there.

506
01:01:33,732 --> 01:01:36,693
Yeah that's fine, okay... I'll be there tomorrow.

507
01:01:36,735 --> 01:01:39,738
I love you too.

508
01:01:43,492 --> 01:01:46,495
Is everything alright?

509
01:01:47,621 --> 01:01:50,624
Brett?

510
01:01:57,882 --> 01:02:00,259
(Brett) I don't know.

511
01:02:00,301 --> 01:02:03,387
Are you okay? (Jake) Yeah I'm good.

512
01:02:04,263 --> 01:02:07,266
What's going on?

513
01:02:09,059 --> 01:02:11,478
My mom just died.

514
01:02:11,520 --> 01:02:14,523
(Jake) Shit. (Jill) I'm so sorry.

515
01:02:16,775 --> 01:02:22,740
You don't have to talk about it if you
don't want to, but if you do, we're here.

516
01:02:27,328 --> 01:02:29,746
I'm gonna go for a walk.

517
01:02:29,788 --> 01:02:32,791
(Jake) You want any company? (Brett) No.

518
01:02:50,267 --> 01:02:55,814
[Somber music]

519
01:02:58,859 --> 01:03:03,030
I'm gonna start cleaning up, do you need anything?

520
01:03:03,072 --> 01:03:06,033
No I'm good.

521
01:03:06,075 --> 01:03:09,036
Okay.

522
01:03:09,078 --> 01:03:12,957
Oh wait, actually, do you have another pen?

523
01:03:14,291 --> 01:03:17,294
I'm sure somewhere here.

524
01:03:18,420 --> 01:03:20,005
Here.

525
01:03:20,047 --> 01:03:23,008
Thank you. (Jill) You're welcome.

526
01:03:23,050 --> 01:03:31,050
♫ You can feel it, the end of the
year. You can see it falling down. ♫

527
01:03:31,642 --> 01:03:39,642
♫ But when the lights come on, it's time to come home. ♫

528
01:03:41,944 --> 01:03:42,544
♫ ♫

529
01:03:48,617 --> 01:03:56,617
♫ Supper time, every one is here. ♫

530
01:03:57,251 --> 01:03:57,851
♫ ♫

531
01:04:02,673 --> 01:04:10,673
♫ Are you near, like I wished so many times? ♫

532
01:04:11,307 --> 01:04:11,907
♫ ♫

533
01:04:48,177 --> 01:04:52,097
How do you say goodbye to a stranger?

534
01:04:58,812 --> 01:05:03,442
You weren't even a good parent, or a good partner to dad...

535
01:05:03,484 --> 01:05:08,447
Despite what everyone thought,
despite your... presentation.

536
01:05:16,121 --> 01:05:23,504
I'm not happy that you're gone, but
I'm also not really sad, and that sucks.

537
01:05:25,464 --> 01:05:30,928
You're supposed to care when your mom
dies, you're supposed to feel... something.

538
01:05:32,846 --> 01:05:36,433
Even in death, you're still taking from me.

539
01:05:36,475 --> 01:05:43,982
That's what you are, you're a taker... you were a taker.

540
01:05:45,943 --> 01:05:51,782
You were a smoker, so thanks for giving me that I guess.

541
01:05:59,623 --> 01:06:02,584
Where were you?

542
01:06:02,626 --> 01:06:06,171
My first date, my first real car...

543
01:06:08,674 --> 01:06:13,178
My first bra, my first kiss, my first day at college...

544
01:06:13,220 --> 01:06:16,223
Graduating with honors!

545
01:06:24,440 --> 01:06:28,902
You weren't there for any of
it, and dad was there for it all.

546
01:06:37,703 --> 01:06:41,790
I fucking hated you!

547
01:06:55,053 --> 01:06:58,014
I teach now.

548
01:06:58,056 --> 01:07:03,228
And I can see it in some of these kids' that
they have somebody like you in their lives...

549
01:07:03,270 --> 01:07:06,273
Or not in their lives.

550
01:07:08,150 --> 01:07:11,528
And every day I try to be the best that I can be for them...

551
01:07:11,570 --> 01:07:16,742
Because I know that the people in their lives
aren't always going to be the best for them.

552
01:07:18,076 --> 01:07:21,205
So I guess I have you to thank for that too.

553
01:07:23,832 --> 01:07:29,880
I don't care about you... but you made it
pretty clear that you don't care about me...

554
01:07:31,381 --> 01:07:35,010
So I'm not going to apologize for that.

555
01:07:35,052 --> 01:07:39,515
But... I am sorry...

556
01:07:42,017 --> 01:07:45,854
I'm sorry that it took me this long to stand up to you...

557
01:07:45,896 --> 01:07:49,817
And you stand up to myself.

558
01:07:59,743 --> 01:08:02,746
Bye mom.

559
01:08:45,956 --> 01:08:48,166
Wow.

560
01:08:48,208 --> 01:08:49,501
Oh, hey.

561
01:08:49,543 --> 01:08:51,837
You're writing.

562
01:08:51,879 --> 01:08:54,882
Oh, it's just some notes.

563
01:08:57,009 --> 01:08:59,135
You okay?

564
01:08:59,177 --> 01:09:00,637
Yeah.

565
01:09:00,679 --> 01:09:04,558
Oh, I found something that you might enjoy.

566
01:09:08,312 --> 01:09:11,315
A short story?

567
01:09:13,567 --> 01:09:17,738
Oh wow... wait...

568
01:09:19,865 --> 01:09:22,868
(Jake) By Brett Ashley.

569
01:09:29,041 --> 01:09:32,961
Listen, you won't regret sharing this with me.

570
01:09:35,923 --> 01:09:38,926
Thank you.

571
01:09:42,888 --> 01:09:45,891
[Pop/rock music plays on jukebox]

572
01:09:51,688 --> 01:09:54,691
(Brett) Jill! [Snaps fingers]

573
01:09:56,234 --> 01:10:00,155
(Brett) It's about closing time.
(Jill) Thought you'd never ask.

574
01:10:00,197 --> 01:10:07,787
♫ Let's go out, let's go out, and feel the ocean breeze. ♫

575
01:10:07,829 --> 01:10:15,829
♫ When we make out, we make out, I never want to leave. ♫

576
01:10:18,048 --> 01:10:26,048
♫ Smooth sailing through the tropical islands.
Ocean waves and me kissing your eyelids. ♫

577
01:10:27,015 --> 01:10:35,015
♫ All the mai tais and we wanted to die. ♫

578
01:10:35,107 --> 01:10:35,707
♫ ♫

579
01:10:41,405 --> 01:10:45,659
Seriously? (Brett) Run!

580
01:10:59,631 --> 01:11:02,592
A look inside your mind.

581
01:11:02,634 --> 01:11:05,637
Unfortunately.

582
01:11:20,360 --> 01:11:23,738
So, what's your writing style?

583
01:11:23,780 --> 01:11:26,741
What do you mean?

584
01:11:26,783 --> 01:11:29,744
What's your style of writing? I'm curious.

585
01:11:29,786 --> 01:11:35,792
Well... I did mention self loathing...

586
01:11:38,587 --> 01:11:42,340
And I guess drinking. [Chuckles]

587
01:11:45,218 --> 01:11:48,179
(Brett) You're a real classic, huh?

588
01:11:48,221 --> 01:11:51,224
I don't know.

589
01:11:52,350 --> 01:11:55,353
I think that's my problem.

590
01:11:58,398 --> 01:12:05,489
Like this shit, it's easy, you know?

591
01:12:06,948 --> 01:12:14,122
You do research, gather a bunch
of articles, write a mini essay.

592
01:12:19,294 --> 01:12:22,255
And that's it...

593
01:12:22,297 --> 01:12:25,258
But most of it's objective.

594
01:12:25,300 --> 01:12:28,303
But this...

595
01:12:30,639 --> 01:12:35,018
(Brett) You gotta look inside for that.

596
01:12:35,060 --> 01:12:38,563
And sometimes you don't like what you find.

597
01:12:40,482 --> 01:12:44,945
[Sighs] You may not like what you find...

598
01:12:47,322 --> 01:12:52,035
But you gotta learn to love it... unconditionally.

599
01:12:53,870 --> 01:12:56,873
And respect it.

600
01:13:00,001 --> 01:13:05,966
And if you do all that, you can find your voice.

601
01:13:08,301 --> 01:13:11,304
I'm still learning that.

602
01:13:12,264 --> 01:13:15,267
I think I am too.

603
01:13:17,435 --> 01:13:19,104
[Groans]

604
01:13:19,146 --> 01:13:21,314
What's wrong?

605
01:13:21,356 --> 01:13:23,358
No, it's... uh...

606
01:13:23,400 --> 01:13:24,901
Are you okay?

607
01:13:24,943 --> 01:13:27,946
No it's not you.

608
01:13:29,114 --> 01:13:35,036
I... uh... I have a lump...

609
01:13:40,125 --> 01:13:45,463
The doctor said I have a lump.

610
01:13:45,505 --> 01:13:49,509
Oh, oh my god.

611
01:13:50,468 --> 01:13:53,429
No no no, don't... [Sighs]

612
01:13:53,471 --> 01:13:59,561
He said that it should be fine, I'm just...

613
01:13:59,603 --> 01:14:03,231
Waiting for test results.

614
01:14:06,401 --> 01:14:08,820
I want to, I really do, it's just-

615
01:14:08,862 --> 01:14:12,532
No it's fine, we don't have to.

616
01:14:15,243 --> 01:14:18,204
Do you want to go for another walk?

617
01:14:18,246 --> 01:14:21,207
A short one this time.

618
01:14:21,249 --> 01:14:27,130
Well, short-ish.

619
01:14:27,172 --> 01:14:34,221
[Footsteps, car passes by]

620
01:14:59,537 --> 01:15:00,257
[Birds sing]

621
01:15:32,070 --> 01:15:36,658
[Wind blows]

622
01:16:21,745 --> 01:16:24,956
A new day.

623
01:16:24,998 --> 01:16:29,878
Didn't seem like it would ever come.

624
01:16:47,687 --> 01:16:49,814
To us.

625
01:16:50,148 --> 01:16:52,150
To us.

626
01:17:10,168 --> 01:17:13,171
It's beautiful.

627
01:17:16,966 --> 01:17:21,888
Hey I'm... sorry about Mike.

628
01:17:21,930 --> 01:17:25,725
Don't be, it was a long time coming.

629
01:17:32,649 --> 01:17:36,236
You know... we could have been really great together.

630
01:17:39,280 --> 01:17:43,493
It's pretty to think so, isn't it?

631
01:17:48,873 --> 01:17:52,711
But... I think I need to be alone for a while, right now.

632
01:18:00,969 --> 01:18:04,681
(Brett) I really like this and I really like you.

633
01:18:07,100 --> 01:18:12,021
But I need to deal with my own shit before
I can expect somebody else to deal with it.

634
01:18:12,063 --> 01:18:15,024
My whole life, I've put my brain before my heart...

635
01:18:15,066 --> 01:18:19,028
Which has led to some pretty great nights, but...

636
01:18:19,070 --> 01:18:22,031
Also pretty lonely days.

637
01:18:23,741 --> 01:18:26,702
I think my heart is in the right place.

638
01:18:26,744 --> 01:18:32,459
But I need to make sure that my
brain is in the right place too, for once.

639
01:18:35,295 --> 01:18:38,298
I get that.

640
01:18:39,507 --> 01:18:44,387
We both have some work to do.

641
01:18:52,061 --> 01:18:55,815
(Brett) I think it's time for me to go.

642
01:19:30,433 --> 01:19:34,312
It's time to go.

643
01:19:43,446 --> 01:19:51,446
[Debussey's Clair de Lune]

644
01:19:54,624 --> 01:19:55,224
♫ ♫

645
01:21:56,996 --> 01:21:57,876
[Phone buzzes]

646
01:22:28,695 --> 01:22:35,326
Hello? Yes... good morning.

647
01:22:45,753 --> 01:22:50,675
[Birds chirp outside]

648
01:23:01,477 --> 01:23:06,858
[It starts to rain outside]

649
01:23:16,075 --> 01:23:19,954
Okay... thank you.

650
01:23:21,622 --> 01:23:24,625
Goodbye.

651
01:23:43,227 --> 01:23:46,230
[Typing]

652
01:24:12,799 --> 01:24:19,597
[Typing continues, rain falls]

653
01:24:19,639 --> 01:24:27,639
[Debussey's Clair de Lune continues]

654
01:24:30,817 --> 01:24:31,417
♫ ♫

655
01:27:49,056 --> 01:27:57,056
[Cars honking, people shouting]

656
01:28:17,376 --> 01:28:25,376
[Schumann's Kinderszenen, No. 1, Scenes from Childhood]

657
01:28:26,052 --> 01:28:26,652
♫ ♫

658
01:29:48,134 --> 01:29:51,095
(Jake) Thanks for coming.

659
01:29:51,137 --> 01:29:54,098
[Door opens and closes]

660
01:29:54,140 --> 01:29:59,270
[Bach's Cello Suite No. 1, Prélude plays over speaker]

661
01:30:10,990 --> 01:30:13,993
(Brett) Hi.

662
01:30:14,452 --> 01:30:17,454
Hi.

663
01:30:18,914 --> 01:30:20,958
(Brett) Big fan.

664
01:30:21,000 --> 01:30:23,961
Me too.

665
01:30:24,003 --> 01:30:27,464
So, can I get a signature or what?

666
01:30:39,143 --> 01:30:42,146
Thanks.

667
01:30:44,148 --> 01:30:47,902
So, uh... what time do you get off?

668
01:30:49,528 --> 01:30:53,157
I guess when all the books are gone.

669
01:31:15,221 --> 01:31:17,556
I'd like to buy all of these, please.

670
01:31:17,598 --> 01:31:20,601
(Bookstore clerk) All of them?

671
01:31:38,035 --> 01:31:41,246
(Bookstore clerk) Seventy fifteen.

672
01:31:41,288 --> 01:31:44,291
Here you go.

673
01:31:46,835 --> 01:31:49,838
[Cash register opens and closes]

674
01:32:00,432 --> 01:32:03,435
Thank you.

675
01:32:17,116 --> 01:32:20,619
I expect you to sign all of these, by the way.

676
01:32:27,710 --> 01:32:31,171
You wanna go get a drink?

677
01:32:33,215 --> 01:32:37,219
[Upbeat rock music]

678
01:33:18,009 --> 01:33:21,183
[Upbeat rock music continues]

679
01:34:01,808 --> 01:34:04,269
[Upbeat rock music continues]

680
01:34:31,372 --> 01:34:34,308
[Upbeat rock music continues]

681
01:34:57,463 --> 01:35:00,003
[Upbeat rock music continues]

682
01:35:33,839 --> 01:35:37,648
[Music trails off]