1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:02,627 --> 00:00:05,088 (dramatic music) 3 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 4 00:00:20,186 --> 00:00:23,106 (dramatic music) 5 00:00:40,040 --> 00:00:43,752 (dramatic music continues) 6 00:01:00,143 --> 00:01:03,772 (dramatic music continues) 7 00:01:19,913 --> 00:01:23,667 (dramatic music continues) 8 00:01:39,974 --> 00:01:43,770 (dramatic music continues) 9 00:02:00,120 --> 00:02:03,748 (dramatic music continues) 10 00:02:20,015 --> 00:02:23,852 (dramatic music continues) 11 00:02:27,856 --> 00:02:32,360 - It's bad enough I had a messed-up childhood, 12 00:02:34,487 --> 00:02:39,492 but now I gotta have a dysfunctional adulthood, too? 13 00:02:39,534 --> 00:02:40,368 God, 14 00:02:45,165 --> 00:02:46,499 what do you want from me? 15 00:02:49,502 --> 00:02:52,797 You shoulda took my life years ago. 16 00:02:57,761 --> 00:03:02,849 You know, I'm, I ended up in two failed marriages, 17 00:03:05,143 --> 00:03:07,979 and these were supposed to be men of your cloth. 18 00:03:15,737 --> 00:03:19,366 I'm supposed to be this so-called woman of God, 19 00:03:20,784 --> 00:03:24,037 helping, helping everybody but myself has made me 20 00:03:24,079 --> 00:03:27,123 such a weak vessel for, for men to just use, 21 00:03:27,165 --> 00:03:28,625 and abuse, and, and hurt. 22 00:03:30,919 --> 00:03:34,214 God. 23 00:03:34,255 --> 00:03:37,133 Why didn't you just end my life 24 00:03:37,175 --> 00:03:39,511 when I was in that coma for three months? 25 00:03:45,100 --> 00:03:46,059 (Mahogany sobs) 26 00:03:46,101 --> 00:03:46,851 Tired. 27 00:03:52,190 --> 00:03:56,194 And I know you, I know you're happy, right? 28 00:03:56,236 --> 00:03:59,781 You're happy to see me suffer the way that I do. 29 00:03:59,823 --> 00:04:01,116 (Mahogany laughs) 30 00:04:01,157 --> 00:04:03,827 (wine sloshing) 31 00:04:05,203 --> 00:04:06,454 But I am not you. 32 00:04:09,374 --> 00:04:10,542 I'm not you. 33 00:04:11,918 --> 00:04:12,711 You know, 34 00:04:14,921 --> 00:04:17,882 everybody said you're this mother, this great mom, 35 00:04:17,924 --> 00:04:20,301 and, and, and a strong woman, but you're not. 36 00:04:21,594 --> 00:04:25,974 You wouldn't even earn or live up to your mistakes. 37 00:04:30,311 --> 00:04:33,773 But I'm not gonna be like you, 38 00:04:33,815 --> 00:04:36,526 and I refuse to be what you said I was. 39 00:04:38,737 --> 00:04:42,240 I miss my brother. (frame clattering) 40 00:04:42,282 --> 00:04:45,118 (Mahogany sobbing) 41 00:04:45,160 --> 00:04:47,746 So, since everybody got this whole idea 42 00:04:47,787 --> 00:04:49,456 on, on how I'm supposed to be (dramatic music) 43 00:04:49,497 --> 00:04:51,624 and, and, and this big old woman of God, 44 00:04:51,666 --> 00:04:53,043 and how I'm supposed to treat people, 45 00:04:53,084 --> 00:04:56,129 then what I'm gonna do is just end it all for all of you. 46 00:04:56,171 --> 00:04:57,130 I'm tired. 47 00:04:57,172 --> 00:04:58,798 (dramatic music continues) 48 00:04:58,840 --> 00:05:01,384 (Mahogany sobs) 49 00:05:02,802 --> 00:05:06,306 And maybe that'll make y'all happy for my brother. 50 00:05:06,348 --> 00:05:09,100 (frame and container clattering) 51 00:05:09,142 --> 00:05:10,226 I'm sick. 52 00:05:10,268 --> 00:05:11,353 I'm tired. 53 00:05:12,354 --> 00:05:16,566 You know, it's all because, it's your fault. 54 00:05:16,608 --> 00:05:21,112 I changed my simple life for you, and this is what I get. 55 00:05:23,656 --> 00:05:24,324 So, 56 00:05:24,366 --> 00:05:27,285 (pills rattling) 57 00:05:27,327 --> 00:05:28,953 I'll take my life. 58 00:05:28,995 --> 00:05:29,788 (container thudding) 59 00:05:29,829 --> 00:05:30,538 Tired. 60 00:05:31,664 --> 00:05:36,086 (dramatic music continues) 61 00:05:36,127 --> 00:05:38,171 (wine sloshing) 62 00:05:38,213 --> 00:05:39,214 (hand knocking) 63 00:05:39,255 --> 00:05:41,049 Who the heck is this at my door? 64 00:05:41,091 --> 00:05:42,300 And I know it's not you, God, 65 00:05:42,342 --> 00:05:44,052 'cause you never come to my rescue. 66 00:05:45,136 --> 00:05:47,138 (wine sloshing) 67 00:05:47,180 --> 00:05:49,849 Hmm, see who the heck this is. 68 00:05:49,891 --> 00:05:52,686 Who is it? 69 00:05:52,727 --> 00:05:54,270 Ooh, Jesus. 70 00:05:54,312 --> 00:05:56,773 (door clattering) 71 00:05:56,815 --> 00:05:57,399 (door squeaking) 72 00:05:57,440 --> 00:05:58,608 May I help you? 73 00:05:58,650 --> 00:06:01,111 - Hello, um, I'm Mrs. Celeste White. 74 00:06:02,237 --> 00:06:03,321 You have missed a couple of appointments. 75 00:06:03,363 --> 00:06:04,781 We talked about a month ago. 76 00:06:04,823 --> 00:06:08,493 - Um, appointments, what'd you say your name was again? 77 00:06:08,535 --> 00:06:09,661 - I'm Celeste White. 78 00:06:09,703 --> 00:06:11,371 I'm a domestic violence advocate 79 00:06:11,413 --> 00:06:14,124 down at the Crisis Center on Market Street. 80 00:06:14,165 --> 00:06:15,083 Uh, can I come in? 81 00:06:15,125 --> 00:06:15,917 Can we talk? 82 00:06:15,959 --> 00:06:17,002 - I'm sorry, yes. 83 00:06:17,043 --> 00:06:18,503 Um, come on in. 84 00:06:22,465 --> 00:06:25,218 (door squeaking) 85 00:06:25,260 --> 00:06:26,386 Thank you, come on in. 86 00:06:26,428 --> 00:06:27,220 Excuse me. 87 00:06:27,262 --> 00:06:28,304 Um, come on in. 88 00:06:28,346 --> 00:06:30,557 Uh, excuse my house. 89 00:06:30,598 --> 00:06:31,766 I was tidying up a bit, 90 00:06:31,808 --> 00:06:33,643 and, uh, it normally don't look like this. 91 00:06:33,685 --> 00:06:34,894 I normally have it together. 92 00:06:34,936 --> 00:06:36,896 You can come into my living room. 93 00:06:36,938 --> 00:06:41,234 - Um, if you want, I mean, I can, I can come back, 94 00:06:41,276 --> 00:06:43,445 but, um, this is not a good time. 95 00:06:43,486 --> 00:06:44,904 - Oh, no, it's- 96 00:06:44,946 --> 00:06:46,406 - However, you did miss some scheduled appointments, 97 00:06:46,448 --> 00:06:48,283 so I was a little concerned we didn't hear from you. 98 00:06:48,324 --> 00:06:49,993 - Scheduled appointments. 99 00:06:50,035 --> 00:06:51,578 I'm sorry, Ms. White, have a seat please. 100 00:06:51,619 --> 00:06:54,539 And, and would you like a, um, a glass of wine, 101 00:06:54,581 --> 00:06:56,624 or some water, or, or something 102 00:06:56,666 --> 00:06:58,418 to drink? - Mm, no, no, thank you. 103 00:06:58,460 --> 00:07:00,587 Um, like I mentioned, if this is not a good time, 104 00:07:00,628 --> 00:07:02,297 we can reschedule. 105 00:07:02,339 --> 00:07:03,757 - No, it's fine. 106 00:07:03,798 --> 00:07:05,842 Um, I just remembered you're the woman I talked 107 00:07:05,884 --> 00:07:08,511 to at the Crisis Center a couple months ago, right? 108 00:07:08,553 --> 00:07:09,721 - Yes. - Okay. 109 00:07:09,763 --> 00:07:11,639 - And you said that you wanted help, 110 00:07:11,681 --> 00:07:14,184 but you said you were in a domestic violence situation. 111 00:07:14,225 --> 00:07:15,352 Are you okay? 112 00:07:15,393 --> 00:07:16,561 - I'm okay, but I wasn't 113 00:07:16,603 --> 00:07:19,105 in a domestic violence relationship. 114 00:07:19,147 --> 00:07:21,775 I came to the center because I wanted to kill someone 115 00:07:21,816 --> 00:07:24,611 who I felt like hurt me and my child to the point 116 00:07:24,652 --> 00:07:26,654 that I really wanted to kill him. 117 00:07:29,240 --> 00:07:30,408 - Okay. 118 00:07:30,450 --> 00:07:32,702 - So, you guys do house calls now, Ms. White? 119 00:07:32,744 --> 00:07:35,080 - Yeah, I mean we do, especially if we feel 120 00:07:35,121 --> 00:07:38,333 like somebody's in danger or they need our help. 121 00:07:38,375 --> 00:07:39,959 Um, excuse me for asking, 122 00:07:40,001 --> 00:07:43,463 but you're not taking those pills with alcohol, are you? 123 00:07:43,505 --> 00:07:46,299 - No, these are prescribed by my doctor, nosy, 124 00:07:46,341 --> 00:07:50,053 and I left the lid off last night. 125 00:07:50,095 --> 00:07:51,346 (container thudding) 126 00:07:51,388 --> 00:07:53,973 - Okay, well, again, uh, the reason for my visit is 127 00:07:54,015 --> 00:07:55,475 that you had missed several appointments 128 00:07:55,517 --> 00:07:56,893 at the Crisis Center. 129 00:07:56,935 --> 00:07:59,979 So, I'm here to follow up on your case, 130 00:08:00,021 --> 00:08:02,982 and we left messages, and you didn't return any phone calls, 131 00:08:03,024 --> 00:08:07,696 so it kind of raised a alarm, and then it states here 132 00:08:08,863 --> 00:08:12,200 that you were in a bad marriage and that you were trying 133 00:08:12,242 --> 00:08:13,785 to seek help to get a divorce 134 00:08:13,827 --> 00:08:16,454 before someone ended up hurt or dead? 135 00:08:16,496 --> 00:08:18,164 - No, no, no, no worries. 136 00:08:18,206 --> 00:08:19,624 I'm outta that situation. 137 00:08:19,666 --> 00:08:22,961 Um, but the reason I came there was 138 00:08:23,003 --> 00:08:25,964 because, you know, I mean I always seem to find myself 139 00:08:26,006 --> 00:08:28,508 in some type of failed relationship, you know? 140 00:08:28,550 --> 00:08:29,884 But I guess God spared his life 141 00:08:29,926 --> 00:08:31,219 like he did the first marriage. 142 00:08:31,261 --> 00:08:34,472 - Okay, so are you saying that God spared his life 143 00:08:34,514 --> 00:08:36,683 like the other relationships? 144 00:08:36,725 --> 00:08:40,478 Um, were you in a domestic violence relationship before? 145 00:08:40,520 --> 00:08:42,647 - But this wasn't physical. 146 00:08:42,689 --> 00:08:47,027 You know, this was mental and, and, and spiritual. 147 00:08:47,068 --> 00:08:49,320 - Oh, I'm sorry to hear that, but I am glad 148 00:08:49,362 --> 00:08:50,530 that you did get out of that marriage 149 00:08:50,572 --> 00:08:52,198 before somebody got hurt. 150 00:08:52,240 --> 00:08:54,659 Um, if you don't mind, can we talk about it, 151 00:08:54,701 --> 00:08:56,494 and I can take some notes? (paper rustling) 152 00:08:56,536 --> 00:08:57,704 - Sure, no problem. 153 00:08:57,746 --> 00:09:00,874 - All right, so what drove you to the point 154 00:09:00,915 --> 00:09:02,584 to where you wanted to take another human life? 155 00:09:02,625 --> 00:09:05,045 I mean, you did say at the Crisis Center 156 00:09:05,086 --> 00:09:06,588 it was life or death. 157 00:09:10,008 --> 00:09:12,052 Well, I mean we can start from the beginning, 158 00:09:12,093 --> 00:09:15,388 I mean, if you want, but we can start with a little prayer. 159 00:09:15,430 --> 00:09:16,473 - Ms. White, I don't know 160 00:09:16,514 --> 00:09:18,683 how much God is gonna listen to me. 161 00:09:18,725 --> 00:09:20,560 You know, (sighs) I've been calling 162 00:09:20,602 --> 00:09:23,480 on that man all my life, and he has never answered. 163 00:09:23,521 --> 00:09:25,065 - Mahogany, listen. 164 00:09:25,106 --> 00:09:28,318 God hears all of our prayers and all of our requests- 165 00:09:28,360 --> 00:09:29,152 - Yeah, okay. 166 00:09:29,194 --> 00:09:30,612 - known or unknown. 167 00:09:30,653 --> 00:09:33,239 You just have to believe and trust the process, 168 00:09:33,281 --> 00:09:34,616 no matter what it is. 169 00:09:36,451 --> 00:09:37,535 - Okay. 170 00:09:37,577 --> 00:09:39,829 - Look, let's say a prayer. 171 00:09:39,871 --> 00:09:42,540 God, we just ask that you be on the, in the midst 172 00:09:42,582 --> 00:09:43,792 of our conversation on the day. 173 00:09:43,833 --> 00:09:46,544 In Jesus name we pray, amen. 174 00:09:46,586 --> 00:09:47,379 - Thank you. 175 00:09:47,420 --> 00:09:48,338 - All right. 176 00:09:48,380 --> 00:09:49,589 (paper rustling) 177 00:09:49,631 --> 00:09:51,174 So, let's start from where you wanna begin. 178 00:09:52,258 --> 00:09:56,763 - Well, I hope you got enough pen and paper 179 00:09:56,805 --> 00:10:00,725 because, and the time, because, um, 180 00:10:01,810 --> 00:10:03,269 well, let me see, wanna start when I was younger, 181 00:10:03,311 --> 00:10:06,773 uh, when I first would hear that I was damaged goods. 182 00:10:06,815 --> 00:10:09,776 - So, the abuse started at a young age? 183 00:10:09,818 --> 00:10:11,528 - Yeah, the first type of abuse 184 00:10:11,569 --> 00:10:15,782 that I experienced was sexual, then mental, 185 00:10:15,824 --> 00:10:20,912 physical, emotional, and spiritual. 186 00:10:22,163 --> 00:10:23,289 You know, any type of abuse that you can experience, 187 00:10:23,331 --> 00:10:24,666 I have experienced, Ms. White, 188 00:10:24,708 --> 00:10:26,960 and then I became the abuser myself. 189 00:10:27,002 --> 00:10:30,422 - So, what led you to become the abuser? 190 00:10:30,463 --> 00:10:35,802 I mean, tell me, you know, what made you feel that way. 191 00:10:35,844 --> 00:10:39,305 - Let me enlighten you, Ms. White, on the hell I've been 192 00:10:39,347 --> 00:10:43,518 through and the journey of my life as an adult. 193 00:10:43,560 --> 00:10:45,311 - Would you like to talk about the marriage 194 00:10:45,353 --> 00:10:46,813 that brought you to the center, 195 00:10:46,855 --> 00:10:49,482 or do you wanna talk about the one that made you the abuser? 196 00:10:49,524 --> 00:10:52,861 - Um, both, I guess. 197 00:10:52,902 --> 00:10:56,489 Um, let's start when I was first abused 198 00:10:56,531 --> 00:10:58,450 and then when I became the abuser. 199 00:10:59,701 --> 00:11:01,786 - Okay, and how did this make you feel, I mean, 200 00:11:01,828 --> 00:11:04,122 to realize that you were being abused, 201 00:11:04,164 --> 00:11:06,666 but then you were becoming that same person? 202 00:11:06,708 --> 00:11:10,837 - Um, Ms. White, I ain't always do things right, 203 00:11:10,879 --> 00:11:14,132 but you know, I felt like a monster. 204 00:11:14,174 --> 00:11:16,343 I felt like I was becoming like the, 205 00:11:16,384 --> 00:11:19,596 I was being like the ones that hurt me, you know? 206 00:11:19,637 --> 00:11:24,392 Um, and I was damaging a soul. 207 00:11:24,434 --> 00:11:25,560 - And that's okay to admit. 208 00:11:25,602 --> 00:11:26,519 You know why? 209 00:11:26,561 --> 00:11:28,229 Because that's your truth. 210 00:11:28,271 --> 00:11:29,647 - Oh. 211 00:11:29,689 --> 00:11:31,691 - So, are you saying that there were no male role models 212 00:11:31,733 --> 00:11:33,693 in your life, I mean, like, consistent to show you 213 00:11:33,735 --> 00:11:35,236 any other type of love? 214 00:11:35,278 --> 00:11:39,366 - No, I mean I had my father, but he wasn't there like that. 215 00:11:39,407 --> 00:11:44,454 Um, his drinking took over him, and he was an alcoholic. 216 00:11:44,496 --> 00:11:45,705 But the only love 217 00:11:45,747 --> 00:11:47,415 that I ever truly felt was from my brother, 218 00:11:47,457 --> 00:11:50,877 and he was killed when I was in my 20s, so I don't, 219 00:11:50,919 --> 00:11:53,713 there's no love and trust that I had from a man. 220 00:11:53,755 --> 00:11:55,757 - Okay, so that made you, like, really scared 221 00:11:55,799 --> 00:11:57,717 to receive love from any other male? 222 00:11:57,759 --> 00:11:59,010 - Yeah. 223 00:11:59,052 --> 00:12:00,512 - Let's, let's talk about those things. 224 00:12:00,553 --> 00:12:03,515 - What, about me being abused, or when I was the abuser? 225 00:12:03,556 --> 00:12:04,641 - Both. (dramatic music) 226 00:12:04,683 --> 00:12:08,103 - Okay, well, (laughs) let's just say 227 00:12:08,144 --> 00:12:11,773 I didn't always do things right, you know, um. 228 00:12:14,234 --> 00:12:17,654 Uh, I was in this serious domestic violence relationship 229 00:12:17,696 --> 00:12:18,780 with this guy. 230 00:12:18,822 --> 00:12:20,657 You know, I thought he was a good guy. 231 00:12:20,699 --> 00:12:21,908 He paid for bills and all of that. 232 00:12:21,950 --> 00:12:25,078 My kids were like, what, ages four, two, and one. 233 00:12:25,120 --> 00:12:26,329 - Okay. 234 00:12:26,371 --> 00:12:27,330 - They were too young to understand, though, 235 00:12:27,372 --> 00:12:28,748 what was going on. 236 00:12:28,790 --> 00:12:30,959 - So, was it their father that abused you? 237 00:12:31,001 --> 00:12:35,255 - No, I left his butt when my last child was born, child. 238 00:12:35,296 --> 00:12:37,590 He ain't want nothing out of life. 239 00:12:37,632 --> 00:12:38,800 And I wanted more for my kids. 240 00:12:38,842 --> 00:12:40,260 I wanted them to have the best, you know, 241 00:12:40,301 --> 00:12:41,386 things that I never had, 242 00:12:42,804 --> 00:12:47,142 but the abuse that I had endured, Ms. White, it was just, 243 00:12:48,643 --> 00:12:49,686 it coulda ended my life. 244 00:12:49,728 --> 00:12:51,104 You know, I should have left 245 00:12:51,146 --> 00:12:53,231 after the first blow to the head. 246 00:12:53,273 --> 00:12:54,441 (dramatic music) 247 00:12:54,482 --> 00:12:55,692 (Mahogany groaning) 248 00:12:55,734 --> 00:12:57,736 - So, you think you going leave me? 249 00:12:57,777 --> 00:12:58,945 You must be out your mind you think you 250 00:12:58,987 --> 00:13:01,614 'bout to sneak outta here without me knowing. 251 00:13:01,656 --> 00:13:04,701 - Lemar, please stop licking me. 252 00:13:04,743 --> 00:13:06,453 Lemar, please. 253 00:13:06,494 --> 00:13:08,079 My kids, they can't see this. 254 00:13:08,121 --> 00:13:10,206 I can't allow them, please. 255 00:13:11,499 --> 00:13:13,418 I don't want them to grow up thinking this is normal. 256 00:13:13,460 --> 00:13:16,338 - What, you think I'm not good enough for your kids? 257 00:13:16,379 --> 00:13:18,131 My money be feeding and clothing them brats. 258 00:13:18,173 --> 00:13:20,633 I put a roof over their heads when they had nothing, 259 00:13:20,675 --> 00:13:21,801 when you had nothing, 260 00:13:21,843 --> 00:13:24,012 when they dad didn't do nothing for them. 261 00:13:25,305 --> 00:13:27,682 - No, please, I appreciate everything you do for us. 262 00:13:27,724 --> 00:13:30,477 I just, somebody's gonna get hurt. 263 00:13:30,518 --> 00:13:31,811 - So, you used me, trick. 264 00:13:31,853 --> 00:13:32,729 (Mahogany whimpering) 265 00:13:32,771 --> 00:13:35,857 - No, no. (foot thudding) 266 00:13:35,899 --> 00:13:38,234 (Mahogany screaming) (fist thudding) 267 00:13:38,276 --> 00:13:39,486 - [Lemar] Let me tell you something. 268 00:13:39,527 --> 00:13:42,322 Get it through your messed-up brain of yours. 269 00:13:42,364 --> 00:13:43,823 I own you, 270 00:13:43,865 --> 00:13:45,158 (fist thudding) (Mahogany screaming) 271 00:13:45,200 --> 00:13:47,869 much money as I spend up on you and your kids trick. 272 00:13:50,538 --> 00:13:52,832 - [Mahogany] (sobbing) I can pay you back. 273 00:13:52,874 --> 00:13:54,167 Please don't do this. 274 00:13:54,209 --> 00:13:57,879 - You can double pay me back. (Mahogany sobbing) 275 00:13:57,921 --> 00:14:02,425 Then again, you can either with your blood 276 00:14:02,467 --> 00:14:04,052 or your kids, one by one. 277 00:14:06,429 --> 00:14:07,681 - But I stayed. 278 00:14:07,722 --> 00:14:09,766 (fist thudding) (Mahogany groaning) 279 00:14:09,808 --> 00:14:12,310 - [Lemar] (laughs) Are you really that stupid? 280 00:14:12,352 --> 00:14:15,689 You believing in something that you can't see? 281 00:14:15,730 --> 00:14:17,857 Did your God ever help you before? 282 00:14:17,899 --> 00:14:20,151 Nah. (laughs) 283 00:14:20,193 --> 00:14:21,903 And he's not gonna help you now. 284 00:14:24,739 --> 00:14:26,449 - Go ahead and beat me. 285 00:14:26,491 --> 00:14:30,704 You're not gonna win since you like beating women. 286 00:14:30,745 --> 00:14:31,871 You're not gonna win. 287 00:14:31,913 --> 00:14:33,540 - Nah, nah, nah, nah. 288 00:14:33,581 --> 00:14:35,458 I'm not gonna kill you. (laughs) 289 00:14:35,500 --> 00:14:37,377 But I will make you suffer. 290 00:14:37,419 --> 00:14:39,713 (Mahogany whimpering) 291 00:14:39,754 --> 00:14:41,381 Now, like I said, please me, 292 00:14:43,550 --> 00:14:45,885 and you better not bite, or I'm gonna blow your brains 293 00:14:45,927 --> 00:14:47,846 out all over this place. 294 00:14:47,887 --> 00:14:50,890 (Mahogany whimpering) 295 00:14:50,932 --> 00:14:55,478 - (sobbing) Lemar, please, please. 296 00:14:55,520 --> 00:14:58,606 (Mahogany whimpering) 297 00:15:02,360 --> 00:15:04,738 - [Celeste] So, how long did you stay 298 00:15:04,779 --> 00:15:07,157 in that domestic violence relationship? 299 00:15:08,158 --> 00:15:10,618 - For two years, I endured that abuse, 300 00:15:11,619 --> 00:15:15,040 and I had prayed to God to give me a way out. 301 00:15:15,081 --> 00:15:18,293 - Okay, so I mean you did have a relationship with God. 302 00:15:18,335 --> 00:15:21,004 - No, not really. (gentle music) 303 00:15:21,046 --> 00:15:24,299 I just remember what my grandmother would say to me 304 00:15:24,341 --> 00:15:28,762 that if we pray, and if we believe in our hearts 305 00:15:28,803 --> 00:15:31,348 that, you know, God would answer our prayers 306 00:15:31,389 --> 00:15:35,352 and, and see our tears, and we just had to believe, 307 00:15:35,393 --> 00:15:37,937 truly believe, and it would come to pass. 308 00:15:37,979 --> 00:15:41,191 - Yeah, well, I will say, you had a wise grandmother 309 00:15:41,232 --> 00:15:44,110 'cause that sounds like a really crazy relationship 310 00:15:44,152 --> 00:15:46,363 that you was getting ready to get into with this man. 311 00:15:46,404 --> 00:15:51,534 - It was, you know, and it became more violent every day. 312 00:15:51,576 --> 00:15:52,786 I had to fight every night. 313 00:15:52,827 --> 00:15:54,496 - Wow. - And be forced 314 00:15:54,537 --> 00:15:55,872 to have sex in ways I hated. 315 00:15:55,914 --> 00:15:56,998 - No. 316 00:15:57,957 --> 00:16:00,877 - Like this one time, I remember 317 00:16:00,919 --> 00:16:03,505 when this man beat me so bad with a pistol 318 00:16:03,546 --> 00:16:05,715 that he broke my nose. 319 00:16:05,757 --> 00:16:06,925 - So, how were you able to leave 320 00:16:06,966 --> 00:16:09,386 that toxic domestic violence relationship? 321 00:16:11,346 --> 00:16:13,390 - This one night was really different. 322 00:16:14,974 --> 00:16:17,477 I had took my kids over to my relative's house, 323 00:16:17,519 --> 00:16:18,687 - [Celeste] Mm-hmm. 324 00:16:18,728 --> 00:16:21,481 - And he had left his gun at home by accident. 325 00:16:21,523 --> 00:16:22,941 - 'Kay. 326 00:16:22,982 --> 00:16:27,654 - And I had said, "God, give me a sign or gimme a way out, 327 00:16:29,406 --> 00:16:32,158 and if you don't step in for me, 328 00:16:32,200 --> 00:16:34,369 then it's gonna be his life or mine." 329 00:16:35,912 --> 00:16:36,996 - Oh, my God, you was gonna take his life? 330 00:16:37,038 --> 00:16:39,666 - I was so tired. (gentle music continues) 331 00:16:39,708 --> 00:16:43,336 I mean I was tired of seeing the busted lips 332 00:16:43,378 --> 00:16:47,048 and the black eyes, and I said, 333 00:16:48,091 --> 00:16:50,427 "It's gonna be him or me." 334 00:16:50,468 --> 00:16:51,219 - Mm. 335 00:16:52,637 --> 00:16:55,348 - I know I haven't done everything right, 336 00:16:56,433 --> 00:16:59,185 and I know I make mistakes, (dramatic music) 337 00:16:59,227 --> 00:17:01,062 and I'm not your favorite person, 338 00:17:02,063 --> 00:17:04,315 but I need to ask you something right now. 339 00:17:06,026 --> 00:17:09,112 Lord, you said, my grandmother always said, 340 00:17:09,154 --> 00:17:11,865 "If you wanna know if God's word is real, 341 00:17:11,906 --> 00:17:13,408 then give it back to him." 342 00:17:14,409 --> 00:17:17,328 So, I'm asking you, is your word real? 343 00:17:18,288 --> 00:17:21,750 Because you said in Psalms 18:48 344 00:17:24,044 --> 00:17:26,504 and in 1:41 and, and four 345 00:17:26,546 --> 00:17:31,217 and Jeremiah 15:21 and 2 Samuels 22 and 49 346 00:17:31,259 --> 00:17:35,221 that you would deliver us from the evils man hand 347 00:17:37,432 --> 00:17:40,643 and that you would rescue us from the wicked man's hand. 348 00:17:42,854 --> 00:17:44,647 Lord, just like you did for David 349 00:17:44,689 --> 00:17:46,274 when he asked you to help him, 350 00:17:47,484 --> 00:17:52,113 (sobbing) I'm asking you please, please step in and help me. 351 00:17:53,782 --> 00:17:55,241 I can't do this anymore, Lord. 352 00:17:55,283 --> 00:17:58,953 I just wanna raise my children right. 353 00:17:58,995 --> 00:18:00,705 (dramatic music continues) 354 00:18:00,747 --> 00:18:02,415 I just wanna serve you right. 355 00:18:03,750 --> 00:18:06,586 Oh, I just don't want us to depart from your word. 356 00:18:08,213 --> 00:18:13,218 Father, God, please just manifest this for me, Jesus. 357 00:18:13,259 --> 00:18:16,262 (Mahogany sobbing) 358 00:18:17,889 --> 00:18:18,640 Oh, God. 359 00:18:20,100 --> 00:18:23,978 Either that's you coming to get me, or that's that devil, 360 00:18:24,020 --> 00:18:25,980 and he left his key out. 361 00:18:26,022 --> 00:18:27,440 It's 3:00 AM. 362 00:18:27,482 --> 00:18:30,110 He shoulda just stayed where he was at. 363 00:18:30,151 --> 00:18:32,070 - Hello, ma'am, your door was open. 364 00:18:32,112 --> 00:18:33,196 Are you Mahogany Noble? 365 00:18:33,238 --> 00:18:35,115 - [Mahogany] Yes, I am. 366 00:18:35,156 --> 00:18:36,616 Um, how can I help you? 367 00:18:36,658 --> 00:18:39,327 - Do you mind if I come in and talk to you about Lemar Luv? 368 00:18:39,369 --> 00:18:40,286 - Lemar? 369 00:18:40,328 --> 00:18:41,454 Yes, please come in. 370 00:18:41,496 --> 00:18:42,622 I'm sorry. 371 00:18:42,664 --> 00:18:44,749 - What's your relations to Lemar? 372 00:18:44,791 --> 00:18:48,128 - His girlfriend, but he would say fiance, why? 373 00:18:48,169 --> 00:18:49,045 Did he get locked up? 374 00:18:49,087 --> 00:18:50,130 I'm not coming to get his butt. 375 00:18:50,171 --> 00:18:51,631 I'm tired of bailing him out. 376 00:18:51,673 --> 00:18:52,757 You could just keep him. 377 00:18:53,883 --> 00:18:54,843 - Ma'am, I'm sorry to tell you, 378 00:18:54,884 --> 00:18:56,136 but Lemar was killed last night. 379 00:18:56,177 --> 00:18:57,345 - Killed? 380 00:18:57,387 --> 00:18:59,472 - This was the address listed on his ID. 381 00:18:59,514 --> 00:19:00,515 - What? 382 00:19:00,557 --> 00:19:03,101 Wait a minute, who, what happened? 383 00:19:03,143 --> 00:19:04,144 - He was shot multiple times 384 00:19:04,185 --> 00:19:05,979 and pronounced dead on the scene. 385 00:19:06,021 --> 00:19:07,063 - Dead? 386 00:19:07,105 --> 00:19:08,356 Do you got anybody in custody? 387 00:19:08,398 --> 00:19:10,025 Do you know who did this? 388 00:19:10,066 --> 00:19:11,151 - We do. 389 00:19:11,192 --> 00:19:12,819 I can't give much details, but it started 390 00:19:12,861 --> 00:19:15,822 with an argument between him and his brother-in-law, 391 00:19:15,864 --> 00:19:18,450 and Mr. Stems took matters into his own hands. 392 00:19:18,491 --> 00:19:19,200 - What? 393 00:19:20,744 --> 00:19:22,245 My God, this is crazy. 394 00:19:22,287 --> 00:19:24,122 - Are you gonna be okay? 395 00:19:24,164 --> 00:19:25,790 Is there anyone here with you? 396 00:19:25,832 --> 00:19:29,085 - I'll be okay, but no, there's no one here. 397 00:19:29,127 --> 00:19:33,381 I, I'm by myself, but I need to call his mom. 398 00:19:34,382 --> 00:19:36,426 Could you gimme this time, please? 399 00:19:36,468 --> 00:19:37,052 - Yes. 400 00:19:37,093 --> 00:19:38,261 - I can't believe- 401 00:19:38,303 --> 00:19:39,721 - Again, I'm sorry for your loss. 402 00:19:39,763 --> 00:19:42,307 If you need anything, have any questions, take this card. 403 00:19:42,349 --> 00:19:44,059 Contact Detective Morris. 404 00:19:44,100 --> 00:19:45,185 (Mahogany exhales) 405 00:19:45,226 --> 00:19:46,603 Again, I'm sorry for your loss. 406 00:19:47,937 --> 00:19:50,273 - God. 407 00:19:50,315 --> 00:19:51,441 (Mahogany sighs) 408 00:19:51,483 --> 00:19:52,484 (Mahogany clicks tongue) 409 00:19:52,525 --> 00:19:53,234 Jesus. 410 00:19:55,945 --> 00:19:56,863 Thank you, Lord. 411 00:19:58,990 --> 00:20:02,118 (Mahogany sobbing) 412 00:20:02,160 --> 00:20:03,161 - [Celeste] So, how did that make you feel 413 00:20:03,203 --> 00:20:04,913 to hear that Lemar got murdered? 414 00:20:06,122 --> 00:20:10,335 - At first, I felt happy, but as time went by, 415 00:20:10,377 --> 00:20:12,295 I didn't know how to feel, you know. 416 00:20:12,337 --> 00:20:14,839 I mean, watching his children, and his mom, 417 00:20:14,881 --> 00:20:21,054 and his siblings mourn over him, it made me confused. 418 00:20:21,096 --> 00:20:24,516 But, um, (laughs) I felt like I was the cause of him dying. 419 00:20:24,557 --> 00:20:25,642 - Why? 420 00:20:25,684 --> 00:20:27,435 - Because I had prayed to God, I said, 421 00:20:27,477 --> 00:20:29,938 "You better do something about this man, or I will." 422 00:20:29,979 --> 00:20:32,941 - Listen, you got to know you had nothing to do with that. 423 00:20:32,982 --> 00:20:37,195 Only God knows our departure and our arrival on this Earth. 424 00:20:37,237 --> 00:20:40,073 So, after that, what happened? 425 00:20:40,115 --> 00:20:43,368 - Well, I had became this young, angry lady. 426 00:20:44,661 --> 00:20:48,790 You know, I wanted someone to pay for the pain, the hurt, 427 00:20:48,832 --> 00:20:50,458 the lies, the abandonment, 428 00:20:50,500 --> 00:20:51,876 the rape, the abuse. (hands smacking) 429 00:20:51,918 --> 00:20:54,129 I wanted someone to pay for my angry tears. 430 00:20:54,170 --> 00:20:55,422 - I understand what you're saying, 431 00:20:55,463 --> 00:20:57,424 but hurt people hurt people. 432 00:20:57,465 --> 00:21:01,177 I mean, so is that when you felt like you became the abuser? 433 00:21:01,219 --> 00:21:02,637 - Yes. 434 00:21:02,679 --> 00:21:04,264 You know, I thought I could love him, 435 00:21:04,305 --> 00:21:06,141 but I couldn't allow him in that space. 436 00:21:06,182 --> 00:21:07,267 - Well, how could you love him 437 00:21:07,308 --> 00:21:09,436 when you really couldn't love yourself? 438 00:21:09,477 --> 00:21:11,688 You never knew what real love was, and I mean, 439 00:21:11,730 --> 00:21:13,481 and you didn't even get help for it. 440 00:21:13,523 --> 00:21:16,276 - Yeah, but why would I wanna afflict pain 441 00:21:16,317 --> 00:21:17,944 on someone that was good? 442 00:21:17,986 --> 00:21:21,448 - Well, the reason why victims become victimizers is 443 00:21:21,489 --> 00:21:23,950 because they're trying to get their power and control back 444 00:21:23,992 --> 00:21:27,412 over their lives, and there's a lack of social support 445 00:21:27,454 --> 00:21:29,581 and socioeconomic support. 446 00:21:29,622 --> 00:21:31,332 - You know, I truly didn't understand that. 447 00:21:31,374 --> 00:21:34,586 I don't understand how I could love someone and stay 448 00:21:34,627 --> 00:21:37,589 in a relationship that long with someone like that. 449 00:21:37,630 --> 00:21:38,965 And I couldn't even love someone 450 00:21:39,007 --> 00:21:41,134 that loved me and my children. 451 00:21:41,176 --> 00:21:42,969 - They call it Stockholm syndrome. 452 00:21:43,011 --> 00:21:45,680 It's a condition they call emotional attachment. 453 00:21:45,722 --> 00:21:48,266 You develop it as a child, and you're looking 454 00:21:48,308 --> 00:21:50,602 for love any way you can receive it. 455 00:21:50,643 --> 00:21:53,021 - So, I would want to inflict pain 456 00:21:54,189 --> 00:21:55,648 for love or love for pain 457 00:21:55,690 --> 00:21:57,567 and then become the abuser? (gentle music) 458 00:21:57,609 --> 00:21:59,402 - Well, let's talk about some of those things 459 00:21:59,444 --> 00:22:02,197 that made you feel like you became the abuser. 460 00:22:02,238 --> 00:22:05,116 - After Lemar's death, (laughs) 461 00:22:05,158 --> 00:22:07,369 you know, it became hard for me, 462 00:22:08,703 --> 00:22:11,456 but, um, I met this nice guy, 463 00:22:11,498 --> 00:22:13,500 and he was nice to my children, too. 464 00:22:13,541 --> 00:22:14,751 He didn't have any kids, 465 00:22:14,793 --> 00:22:17,045 so he treated mines like they were his. 466 00:22:17,087 --> 00:22:18,296 - Awesome. 467 00:22:18,338 --> 00:22:20,298 - (clicks tongue) And couple months went by, 468 00:22:20,340 --> 00:22:21,633 and we got a place together. 469 00:22:22,717 --> 00:22:24,636 Things were going good for a while. 470 00:22:25,887 --> 00:22:29,015 But my anger, it would always get in the way. 471 00:22:29,057 --> 00:22:32,686 - Hmm, okay, so tell me about some of those things 472 00:22:32,727 --> 00:22:33,561 that upset you. 473 00:22:34,771 --> 00:22:37,691 - Well, when he didn't respect me, 474 00:22:37,732 --> 00:22:41,903 and I had to have control, like this one time. 475 00:22:46,241 --> 00:22:49,452 (door clattering) 476 00:22:57,127 --> 00:23:00,088 - I can't keep taking too much of your abuse, Mahogany. 477 00:23:00,130 --> 00:23:03,675 I mean, I gotta go to work with marks and scratches 478 00:23:03,717 --> 00:23:05,343 on my face and arms. 479 00:23:05,385 --> 00:23:07,220 - Then, stop provoking me. (brush clanking) 480 00:23:07,262 --> 00:23:09,639 You do some stupid things sometimes. 481 00:23:09,681 --> 00:23:12,308 You know, I really think something is wrong with you. 482 00:23:12,350 --> 00:23:14,019 (Mahogany laughs) 483 00:23:14,060 --> 00:23:14,936 I think you're slow. 484 00:23:16,354 --> 00:23:18,690 I don't even know why I stay with you, Evander. 485 00:23:18,732 --> 00:23:19,899 You don't make me feel good. 486 00:23:19,941 --> 00:23:22,610 - Yeah, yeah, yeah, you say that all the time. 487 00:23:22,652 --> 00:23:23,445 (laughing) "You don't make me feel good," 488 00:23:23,486 --> 00:23:25,989 and yet you still here. 489 00:23:26,031 --> 00:23:28,116 People always be asking me why I allow you 490 00:23:28,158 --> 00:23:29,200 to treat me the way you do. 491 00:23:30,285 --> 00:23:32,203 - I care less what people say. 492 00:23:33,329 --> 00:23:34,539 I don't care. You the one do. 493 00:23:34,581 --> 00:23:35,874 Just leave, dang. 494 00:23:37,709 --> 00:23:40,211 I want someone else anyway. 495 00:23:40,253 --> 00:23:46,509 You don't make me feel good with your non-dressing behind. 496 00:23:46,551 --> 00:23:48,428 - I mean, I ain't never hurt you. 497 00:23:48,470 --> 00:23:52,474 I go to work, come home, bring my check to you. 498 00:23:52,515 --> 00:23:53,391 I mean, what more do you want 499 00:23:53,433 --> 00:23:54,976 from me? - Everything. 500 00:23:56,144 --> 00:23:57,103 You know what? 501 00:23:57,145 --> 00:23:59,314 I don't love you, Evander. 502 00:23:59,356 --> 00:24:01,149 I tolerate you. 503 00:24:01,191 --> 00:24:02,817 My kids like you, for one thing. 504 00:24:02,859 --> 00:24:04,986 That's the only reason why I'm with you. 505 00:24:05,028 --> 00:24:06,905 - You gonna regret that. 506 00:24:06,946 --> 00:24:09,074 - Regret what, huh? 507 00:24:09,115 --> 00:24:10,492 You threatening me? 508 00:24:10,533 --> 00:24:12,744 You just like the rest of them scums. 509 00:24:12,786 --> 00:24:14,412 - (laughing) I ain't nothing like the rest of them. 510 00:24:14,454 --> 00:24:17,123 I truly care about you, Mahogany, and the kids. 511 00:24:17,165 --> 00:24:18,166 - Care? (laughs) 512 00:24:18,208 --> 00:24:19,417 Love? 513 00:24:19,459 --> 00:24:21,294 You wouldn't even know what those words are. 514 00:24:21,336 --> 00:24:23,088 They're lies, Evander. 515 00:24:24,005 --> 00:24:25,423 - It's true. 516 00:24:25,465 --> 00:24:28,218 Mahogany, you need anger management and counseling. 517 00:24:28,259 --> 00:24:29,636 I mean, I'll go with you. 518 00:24:29,678 --> 00:24:31,596 - What you're trying to say, I'm crazy? 519 00:24:31,638 --> 00:24:34,140 Boy, I will cut you. (dramatic music) 520 00:24:34,182 --> 00:24:34,891 Believe that. 521 00:24:35,892 --> 00:24:37,477 - Man, this violence got to stop. 522 00:24:37,519 --> 00:24:38,436 The kids watching this and all. 523 00:24:38,478 --> 00:24:40,480 You know this ain't right. 524 00:24:40,522 --> 00:24:43,900 - I will break every bone in your dang body 525 00:24:43,942 --> 00:24:47,487 if you ever think about turning my kids against me. 526 00:24:47,529 --> 00:24:48,988 Hate your stupid crazy butt. 527 00:24:49,030 --> 00:24:51,574 You're not even my type, Evander. 528 00:24:51,616 --> 00:24:52,659 You're too weak, for one. 529 00:24:52,701 --> 00:24:53,993 - Then, let me leave. 530 00:24:54,994 --> 00:24:58,123 I ain't trying to get you upset, man. 531 00:24:58,164 --> 00:24:59,416 You need anything while I'm out? 532 00:24:59,457 --> 00:25:01,084 - No, I don't need you getting me anything 533 00:25:01,126 --> 00:25:02,377 with your dumb, stupid butt. 534 00:25:02,419 --> 00:25:04,295 You ain't gonna bring back the right things anyway. 535 00:25:04,337 --> 00:25:05,505 Just leave me the money. 536 00:25:05,547 --> 00:25:07,048 I'll get it myself. (dramatic music continues) 537 00:25:07,090 --> 00:25:09,509 Brush your teeth before you try to kiss me. 538 00:25:09,551 --> 00:25:10,844 - Someday, you gonna regret the way you treat me. 539 00:25:10,885 --> 00:25:13,471 - You just leave so a good man can come up in here 540 00:25:13,513 --> 00:25:15,015 and deal with me? - Everything you said 541 00:25:15,056 --> 00:25:17,017 about you being abused, 542 00:25:17,058 --> 00:25:19,352 look in the mirror for once, Mahogany. 543 00:25:19,394 --> 00:25:20,770 - Look in the mirror? 544 00:25:20,812 --> 00:25:23,356 You always in the mirror abandoned with your sissy self. 545 00:25:23,398 --> 00:25:24,774 (door slamming) 546 00:25:24,816 --> 00:25:28,236 - So, how long did the physical and mental abuse go on? 547 00:25:28,278 --> 00:25:31,197 I mean, were you able to get help for your anger problems? 548 00:25:31,239 --> 00:25:32,615 (Mahogany clicks tongue) 549 00:25:32,657 --> 00:25:37,579 - 13 years, this was the longest relationship I had had. 550 00:25:37,620 --> 00:25:40,832 You know, I cheated on him, and he stayed. (laughs) 551 00:25:40,874 --> 00:25:45,503 My dad, my mom, my brother had died, 552 00:25:45,545 --> 00:25:46,755 and he still stayed. 553 00:25:48,298 --> 00:25:51,551 I had blamed him like he was the one that killed them, 554 00:25:51,593 --> 00:25:52,802 and he stayed. 555 00:25:53,470 --> 00:25:54,763 - Hmm. 556 00:25:54,804 --> 00:25:56,514 Well, it sounds like, I mean, like he loved you, 557 00:25:56,556 --> 00:25:59,934 and he cared for you, so what broke you guys up? 558 00:26:01,227 --> 00:26:03,521 - I guess he got tired of the way I was treating him, 559 00:26:03,563 --> 00:26:07,275 and he cheated on me with my friend's sister, 560 00:26:07,317 --> 00:26:09,235 so I dumped his butt. 561 00:26:09,277 --> 00:26:10,403 - But wait a minute. 562 00:26:10,445 --> 00:26:14,240 I mean, you did say that you cheated on him, 563 00:26:14,282 --> 00:26:16,785 and he still stayed, and you couldn't forgive him? 564 00:26:17,869 --> 00:26:19,579 - It was different, Ms. White. 565 00:26:19,621 --> 00:26:21,456 I, I can't explain it. 566 00:26:21,498 --> 00:26:23,583 All I know I didn't want him, 567 00:26:23,625 --> 00:26:26,336 but I didn't want anyone else to have him. 568 00:26:26,378 --> 00:26:27,170 (Celeste clicks tongue) 569 00:26:27,212 --> 00:26:28,546 - You know what I think? 570 00:26:28,588 --> 00:26:32,926 I think, deep down inside, you knew he was a good man. 571 00:26:32,967 --> 00:26:36,846 You knew that he loved you, and he loved those kids, 572 00:26:36,888 --> 00:26:41,434 and you were too afraid to open up and let him in. 573 00:26:41,476 --> 00:26:42,977 (dramatic music continues) 574 00:26:43,019 --> 00:26:46,523 - I believe I just wanted someone to pay for the pain 575 00:26:46,564 --> 00:26:48,692 that I had been enduring, you know? 576 00:26:50,610 --> 00:26:52,946 So, this man rescued me and my kids, 577 00:26:52,987 --> 00:26:57,951 but I mentally and physically abused him. 578 00:26:59,160 --> 00:27:00,787 - Okay, so how did that make you feel 579 00:27:00,829 --> 00:27:03,206 to face that you were the abuser? 580 00:27:03,248 --> 00:27:05,291 I mean, did that give you some type of control 581 00:27:05,333 --> 00:27:07,419 or, or power over your life? 582 00:27:07,460 --> 00:27:08,712 - I thought it would, but no, 583 00:27:08,753 --> 00:27:11,464 it, it, it made me feel like all the monsters 584 00:27:11,506 --> 00:27:16,511 that had hurt me, you know, that I was no better than them 585 00:27:16,553 --> 00:27:18,263 because I was damaging a soul. 586 00:27:20,056 --> 00:27:21,808 And this man, I just didn't know 587 00:27:21,850 --> 00:27:23,768 how to love him the way he loved me. 588 00:27:25,520 --> 00:27:30,191 - And you know what, that's okay because that's your truth. 589 00:27:30,233 --> 00:27:32,235 I mean, I just felt like you wasn't ready 590 00:27:32,277 --> 00:27:34,612 to receive those feelings. 591 00:27:34,654 --> 00:27:36,781 Were you able to get help with the abuse? 592 00:27:36,823 --> 00:27:40,076 (dramatic music continues) 593 00:27:40,118 --> 00:27:43,455 - No, I mean, I had been in counseling all my life, 594 00:27:43,496 --> 00:27:44,831 and it's never helped. 595 00:27:44,873 --> 00:27:47,334 All they do is just drug you with medicine 596 00:27:47,375 --> 00:27:49,586 that do not ease the pain. 597 00:27:49,627 --> 00:27:50,378 It don't go away. 598 00:27:52,547 --> 00:27:54,382 So, after three years alone, 599 00:27:55,592 --> 00:27:57,927 I decided to go and get back in church 600 00:27:57,969 --> 00:28:00,138 because I wanted my children to get a foundation 601 00:28:00,180 --> 00:28:02,515 just like my grandmother had gave me. 602 00:28:02,557 --> 00:28:03,516 - Okay, all right, that's great. 603 00:28:03,558 --> 00:28:05,226 I mean, so did that help? 604 00:28:06,561 --> 00:28:08,855 - Well, do you want something to drink, 605 00:28:08,897 --> 00:28:10,732 a bottle of water or something? 606 00:28:10,774 --> 00:28:13,568 Because what I'm gonna tell you is gonna shock you. 607 00:28:13,610 --> 00:28:14,778 - Okay, you know what? 608 00:28:14,819 --> 00:28:15,904 I'm gonna take you up on that bottle of water. 609 00:28:15,945 --> 00:28:17,322 Is it okay if I take off my jacket? 610 00:28:17,364 --> 00:28:18,281 - Yeah. 611 00:28:18,323 --> 00:28:19,282 - Okay. - Be right back. 612 00:28:19,324 --> 00:28:20,367 - All right. - All right. 613 00:28:20,408 --> 00:28:23,703 (jacket rustling) 614 00:28:23,745 --> 00:28:26,331 (Celeste sighs) 615 00:28:29,459 --> 00:28:31,836 (paper rustling) 616 00:28:31,878 --> 00:28:36,341 (dramatic music continues) 617 00:28:36,383 --> 00:28:37,634 Here you go, sweetie. 618 00:28:37,676 --> 00:28:38,885 - Oh, thank you. 619 00:28:38,927 --> 00:28:39,928 - [Mahogany] Mm-hmm. 620 00:28:39,969 --> 00:28:41,012 - I appreciate that. - Yeah. 621 00:28:41,054 --> 00:28:42,222 - Um, so you made- - Ooh. 622 00:28:42,263 --> 00:28:45,600 - mention, um, that you got back in church? 623 00:28:45,642 --> 00:28:47,769 - Mm-hmm, I did. 624 00:28:47,811 --> 00:28:50,355 And I had gotten into a new relationship 625 00:28:51,398 --> 00:28:54,109 with this guy that had invited me to his church. 626 00:28:54,150 --> 00:28:56,069 - All right, that's good, spiritual help. 627 00:28:56,111 --> 00:28:59,864 All right, so I mean, how did that work out for you? 628 00:28:59,906 --> 00:29:02,701 - It was the worst mistake that I could have made. 629 00:29:02,742 --> 00:29:03,993 - [Celeste] Oh. 630 00:29:04,035 --> 00:29:05,954 - After one year of being in this church, 631 00:29:06,955 --> 00:29:09,666 this man had invited me over to his house 632 00:29:09,708 --> 00:29:11,835 to watch a movie, you know? 633 00:29:11,876 --> 00:29:17,924 And he, he seemed nice, and he seemed harmless. 634 00:29:17,966 --> 00:29:18,883 - And what, I mean, what do you mean? 635 00:29:18,925 --> 00:29:20,635 What happened? 636 00:29:20,677 --> 00:29:21,970 - You know, this church that I thought was 637 00:29:22,012 --> 00:29:27,600 my rescue village end up having to arrange a marriage 638 00:29:27,642 --> 00:29:28,393 between me and this guy 639 00:29:29,644 --> 00:29:31,855 to cover up something bad that had happened. 640 00:29:31,896 --> 00:29:33,356 - Arrange marriage? 641 00:29:33,398 --> 00:29:34,691 How? 642 00:29:34,733 --> 00:29:37,360 I mean, how did you even end up married to this guy? 643 00:29:39,029 --> 00:29:41,698 - The pastor had to cover up the crime of rape. 644 00:29:41,740 --> 00:29:42,615 - Oh, my God, he raped you? 645 00:29:42,657 --> 00:29:43,825 - Yes. 646 00:29:43,867 --> 00:29:45,660 I mean the night that I went over there 647 00:29:45,702 --> 00:29:47,120 to watch the movie with him, 648 00:29:47,162 --> 00:29:49,956 he had, he had put something, some kind of date-rape drug 649 00:29:49,998 --> 00:29:51,583 in my, in my drink. 650 00:29:51,624 --> 00:29:52,584 - Oh, my God. 651 00:29:52,625 --> 00:29:53,793 I mean, did you tell a pastor? 652 00:29:53,835 --> 00:29:56,463 I mean, did you, did you tell anyone else? 653 00:29:56,504 --> 00:29:58,048 - I went to the pastor, 654 00:29:59,049 --> 00:30:02,177 and he said it's best that we marry 655 00:30:03,178 --> 00:30:06,306 because we don't take our affairs to the law. 656 00:30:06,348 --> 00:30:07,515 We deal with them. 657 00:30:07,557 --> 00:30:08,975 And that's what the Bible was teaching us. 658 00:30:09,017 --> 00:30:11,811 I was told, if I disobeyed the pastor, 659 00:30:11,853 --> 00:30:13,188 and if I went over his head, 660 00:30:14,689 --> 00:30:16,816 that me and my children would be punished, 661 00:30:16,858 --> 00:30:18,526 and we would burn in hell. 662 00:30:20,528 --> 00:30:25,825 He would always quote this scripture from Hebrews 13. 663 00:30:25,867 --> 00:30:27,118 - Mm-hmm. 664 00:30:27,160 --> 00:30:28,995 - And it would say, "Obey those that have ruled 665 00:30:29,037 --> 00:30:30,997 over your, your soul," you know, 666 00:30:31,039 --> 00:30:35,502 because they have to take account to what we say and do. 667 00:30:35,543 --> 00:30:36,795 - That's crazy. 668 00:30:36,836 --> 00:30:38,213 I mean, I mean, I'm not gonna talk ill 669 00:30:38,254 --> 00:30:40,340 of a man of the cloth or anything, 670 00:30:40,382 --> 00:30:43,259 but, um, yeah, that was definitely a crime. 671 00:30:43,301 --> 00:30:46,179 And that's truly out of context to fit their logic. 672 00:30:46,221 --> 00:30:48,515 - (clicks tongue) Yeah, I would say so, too. 673 00:30:48,556 --> 00:30:50,141 I mean I understand that now 674 00:30:50,183 --> 00:30:53,478 that I'm studying and reading the word for myself. 675 00:30:53,520 --> 00:30:56,022 - So, how long did you stay in that marriage? 676 00:30:56,064 --> 00:30:58,775 - I stayed in that relationship five years, 677 00:30:58,817 --> 00:31:03,363 and I endured mental, spiritual, 678 00:31:03,405 --> 00:31:05,407 and emotional abuse. 679 00:31:05,448 --> 00:31:06,741 - Mm. 680 00:31:06,783 --> 00:31:10,578 - He had isolated me from my family and my friends. 681 00:31:10,620 --> 00:31:11,538 - Wow. 682 00:31:11,579 --> 00:31:12,706 - I couldn't deal with nobody 683 00:31:12,747 --> 00:31:13,957 unless they was inside that church. 684 00:31:13,998 --> 00:31:16,251 - So, so what about your children? 685 00:31:17,502 --> 00:31:20,755 - He had convinced me that my children were evil 686 00:31:20,797 --> 00:31:22,382 and that they were from Satan. 687 00:31:22,424 --> 00:31:23,466 - What? - I mean, 688 00:31:23,508 --> 00:31:24,676 anybody that wasn't in their circle. 689 00:31:25,802 --> 00:31:28,179 - That had to have been hard to deal with. 690 00:31:28,221 --> 00:31:29,055 - It was. 691 00:31:30,223 --> 00:31:32,475 I was trying to be obedient, you know, 692 00:31:32,517 --> 00:31:35,311 to what the word of God says because I was in training 693 00:31:35,353 --> 00:31:38,815 to be a minister's wife, you know, (scoffs) stupid. 694 00:31:38,857 --> 00:31:40,400 - So, you thought being isolated 695 00:31:40,442 --> 00:31:42,861 from your loved ones and your children, 696 00:31:42,902 --> 00:31:45,280 that would help you get acceptance from God? 697 00:31:45,321 --> 00:31:47,407 (dramatic music) - Yes, in a way 698 00:31:47,449 --> 00:31:48,700 because I was doomed. 699 00:31:48,742 --> 00:31:51,745 You know, I was, I was damaged goods. 700 00:31:51,786 --> 00:31:53,455 You know, I was feeling trapped. 701 00:31:54,581 --> 00:31:58,918 I started asking God, "Is this your way of punishing me?" 702 00:31:58,960 --> 00:32:00,628 - You really think God would punish you like that? 703 00:32:00,670 --> 00:32:04,591 - Yeah, I mean, I was already doomed and damaged goods. 704 00:32:04,632 --> 00:32:05,925 You know, ever since I was a little girl, 705 00:32:05,967 --> 00:32:08,011 that's all I've been told. 706 00:32:08,053 --> 00:32:08,845 - You know what? 707 00:32:08,887 --> 00:32:10,096 Let's go back. 708 00:32:10,138 --> 00:32:11,931 Let's talk about the arranged marriage. 709 00:32:11,973 --> 00:32:13,266 (dramatic music continues) 710 00:32:13,308 --> 00:32:15,977 - Ms. White, let's start with the mind control. 711 00:32:17,354 --> 00:32:18,146 - Mm. 712 00:32:19,647 --> 00:32:22,609 (footsteps plodding) 713 00:32:22,650 --> 00:32:23,443 (paper rustling) 714 00:32:23,485 --> 00:32:24,861 (book thudding) 715 00:32:24,903 --> 00:32:26,946 - I know those aren't jeans you're wearing. 716 00:32:26,988 --> 00:32:28,865 What type of wife are you? 717 00:32:28,907 --> 00:32:30,367 (Rasalas laughs) 718 00:32:30,408 --> 00:32:32,077 See, I knew I should have married Sister Aquilla. 719 00:32:32,118 --> 00:32:35,580 She knew how to be obedient and a good wife. 720 00:32:35,622 --> 00:32:36,831 I hope you read those scriptures 721 00:32:36,873 --> 00:32:38,958 I left for you on the kitchen table. 722 00:32:39,000 --> 00:32:41,419 - Then, maybe you should have married her, God, 723 00:32:43,880 --> 00:32:47,092 because you know that this is not right. 724 00:32:48,677 --> 00:32:52,555 What type of God makes you marry a man that rapes you? 725 00:32:52,597 --> 00:32:53,848 (Rasalas scoffs) 726 00:32:53,890 --> 00:32:55,433 - So, playing the victim card again? 727 00:32:55,475 --> 00:32:57,644 How many times you gonna keep crying wolf? 728 00:32:59,688 --> 00:33:00,980 - Crying wolf? 729 00:33:01,022 --> 00:33:03,483 Are you serious right now? 730 00:33:03,525 --> 00:33:06,361 You and the pastor know that you raped me 731 00:33:07,362 --> 00:33:09,030 and brainwashed me to believe 732 00:33:09,072 --> 00:33:12,659 that you truly loved me and my kids, 733 00:33:12,701 --> 00:33:15,495 and if we didn't obey you or obey the pastor, 734 00:33:15,537 --> 00:33:17,372 then we would go straight to hell. 735 00:33:18,581 --> 00:33:21,042 - First off, you came to the church already damaged. 736 00:33:21,084 --> 00:33:23,837 Or, did you forget about all those testimonies you gave 737 00:33:23,878 --> 00:33:25,171 about how you were a loose woman 738 00:33:25,213 --> 00:33:28,258 and had all those men and boys run up inside you? 739 00:33:28,299 --> 00:33:29,300 (Mahogany clicks tongue) 740 00:33:29,342 --> 00:33:30,051 - Really? 741 00:33:31,511 --> 00:33:35,056 So, you take my past and my pain, and you use it against, 742 00:33:35,098 --> 00:33:37,350 and child abuse and use it against me? 743 00:33:37,392 --> 00:33:38,852 God. 744 00:33:38,893 --> 00:33:41,229 - Once a harlot, always a harlot, 745 00:33:41,271 --> 00:33:43,023 doesn't matter what age they start. 746 00:33:43,064 --> 00:33:43,857 (Rasalas scoffs) 747 00:33:43,898 --> 00:33:45,066 I mean, look at you. 748 00:33:45,108 --> 00:33:47,694 I cleaned you up to the woman you are today. 749 00:33:47,736 --> 00:33:49,988 So, instead of claiming, you should be thanking me 750 00:33:50,030 --> 00:33:52,032 and pastor for saving your reputation 751 00:33:52,073 --> 00:33:53,783 from being the whore that your mother was. 752 00:33:53,825 --> 00:33:58,288 - My pain of my past and who my mother was gives you 753 00:33:58,329 --> 00:34:01,041 a right to force yourself on me? 754 00:34:01,082 --> 00:34:02,375 (Rasalas scoffs) 755 00:34:02,417 --> 00:34:05,628 - See, first off, you know you wanted it that night, 756 00:34:05,670 --> 00:34:10,383 coming over to my apartment with those tight jeans on, 757 00:34:10,425 --> 00:34:11,176 and it was dark. 758 00:34:12,344 --> 00:34:14,012 Look like your body was just begging me 759 00:34:14,054 --> 00:34:16,389 to take those clothes off and give it to you. 760 00:34:16,431 --> 00:34:18,767 - The only thing that I was right about, 761 00:34:19,934 --> 00:34:21,978 and you got that right, (dramatic music) 762 00:34:22,020 --> 00:34:24,230 was coming over to your house alone believing 763 00:34:24,272 --> 00:34:26,524 that you were a true man of God. 764 00:34:28,610 --> 00:34:31,029 You know that you forced yourself on me. 765 00:34:31,071 --> 00:34:34,199 And when a woman says, no, Rasalas, 766 00:34:34,240 --> 00:34:37,243 that doesn't give you the right to force yourself on them. 767 00:34:37,285 --> 00:34:39,037 (dramatic music continues) 768 00:34:39,079 --> 00:34:40,789 You know that you drugged me. 769 00:34:42,457 --> 00:34:47,087 - In Philippians 3:13, I believe it tells us 770 00:34:47,128 --> 00:34:50,298 to forget those things that are behind you. 771 00:34:50,340 --> 00:34:54,094 And in Hebrews 13:17, it says, 772 00:34:54,135 --> 00:34:57,097 to obey those who have rule over you. 773 00:34:57,138 --> 00:35:01,101 And let's not forget the main course, 774 00:35:01,142 --> 00:35:02,811 since you are my wife. (paper rustling) 775 00:35:02,852 --> 00:35:04,062 And this will apply 776 00:35:04,104 --> 00:35:06,272 for the next time you reject me in the bed. 777 00:35:06,314 --> 00:35:09,943 First Corinthians 4 and 7, it says, 778 00:35:09,984 --> 00:35:11,528 "Your body is mine. 779 00:35:11,569 --> 00:35:15,990 It belongs to me now, and I will have it when I want it. 780 00:35:16,032 --> 00:35:18,493 (book thudding) 781 00:35:18,535 --> 00:35:22,288 - You will always have to take it, Rasalas, 782 00:35:22,330 --> 00:35:24,541 because you know that this is not right. 783 00:35:24,582 --> 00:35:26,960 You know, all the studying you've been having me do 784 00:35:27,002 --> 00:35:28,753 for you is teaching me 785 00:35:28,795 --> 00:35:30,547 that the, that the word of God is right, 786 00:35:30,588 --> 00:35:33,967 and what they're teaching down at that church is wrong. 787 00:35:34,009 --> 00:35:35,135 (dramatic music continues) 788 00:35:35,176 --> 00:35:38,263 - See, I see why your mother left you. 789 00:35:38,304 --> 00:35:40,640 You must be stupid to think you can outwin me 790 00:35:40,682 --> 00:35:41,599 in the word of God. 791 00:35:42,767 --> 00:35:44,227 Next time you wanna look at a scripture, 792 00:35:44,269 --> 00:35:47,313 look at 1 Corinthians 14 and 34. 793 00:35:47,355 --> 00:35:50,984 It says, "The woman should be silent 794 00:35:51,026 --> 00:35:53,153 and should not be permitted to speak 795 00:35:53,194 --> 00:35:56,156 but to be in submission, and she should ask the husband 796 00:35:56,197 --> 00:35:57,949 what she should learn." 797 00:35:57,991 --> 00:35:59,367 (dramatic music continues) 798 00:35:59,409 --> 00:36:04,873 - When I get one I will because you are a true imposter. 799 00:36:04,914 --> 00:36:07,167 - Just have my notes ready for my sermon on Sunday 800 00:36:07,208 --> 00:36:09,711 and don't have me looking stupid like you. 801 00:36:09,753 --> 00:36:13,131 - That's what I'm doing now. (footsteps plodding) 802 00:36:13,173 --> 00:36:16,259 (dramatic music continues) 803 00:36:16,301 --> 00:36:17,677 (paper rustling) 804 00:36:17,719 --> 00:36:21,014 - So, you saying that he controlled you with the Bible 805 00:36:21,056 --> 00:36:22,724 and talked down to you? 806 00:36:22,766 --> 00:36:24,601 I mean, how did that make you feel? 807 00:36:24,642 --> 00:36:26,936 - It made me feel like, like I was wrong 808 00:36:26,978 --> 00:36:30,190 for thinking the way I was and feeling the way I were. 809 00:36:30,231 --> 00:36:30,982 You know, because 810 00:36:35,070 --> 00:36:37,238 maybe I was confusing 811 00:36:37,280 --> 00:36:41,493 the rape from my past, you know, that it wasn't rape, 812 00:36:41,534 --> 00:36:44,704 and maybe I was wrong for going over there that night. 813 00:36:44,746 --> 00:36:48,708 - No, Mahogany, listen, if a woman tells a man no, 814 00:36:48,750 --> 00:36:51,044 then no means no. (dramatic music continues) 815 00:36:51,086 --> 00:36:52,379 That doesn't mean that he has the right 816 00:36:52,420 --> 00:36:53,755 to take advantage of you. 817 00:36:53,797 --> 00:36:56,466 And I don't care what the circumstances were. 818 00:36:56,508 --> 00:37:00,178 He does not have a right to violate that word no. 819 00:37:00,220 --> 00:37:01,805 - It was just like he was saying. 820 00:37:01,846 --> 00:37:05,016 Mahogany, don't concentrate on the actions of your past 821 00:37:05,058 --> 00:37:07,018 but concentrate on our marriage. 822 00:37:07,060 --> 00:37:08,687 But I couldn't get past thinking, 823 00:37:08,728 --> 00:37:11,231 what decent man would want a woman 824 00:37:11,272 --> 00:37:13,525 who was considered damaged goods? 825 00:37:13,566 --> 00:37:16,403 You know, like, I wasn't pure. 826 00:37:16,444 --> 00:37:18,279 I wasn't a virgin anymore. 827 00:37:18,321 --> 00:37:20,240 It was like God was punishing me. 828 00:37:20,281 --> 00:37:23,201 - Mahogany, God does not punish us by allowing us to be 829 00:37:23,243 --> 00:37:25,578 in relationships that's unhealthy. 830 00:37:25,620 --> 00:37:28,581 All that does is damage us and make it worse. 831 00:37:29,624 --> 00:37:32,043 Look, what we need to do is acknowledge and deal 832 00:37:32,085 --> 00:37:36,631 with our past and our failures, and address those actions 833 00:37:36,673 --> 00:37:39,050 of pain from the people that hurt us. 834 00:37:39,092 --> 00:37:43,763 And once we do that, we can move on, forgive, and let go. 835 00:37:44,973 --> 00:37:47,976 - Well, right now I feel like my lesson from that was 836 00:37:48,018 --> 00:37:50,937 to, "Mahogany, protect yourself." 837 00:37:50,979 --> 00:37:52,230 - Mm-hmm. - "Guard yourself." 838 00:37:52,272 --> 00:37:53,523 - Mm-hmm. - Because there are churches 839 00:37:53,565 --> 00:37:56,818 out here that will turn a deaf ear and a blind eye 840 00:37:56,860 --> 00:37:58,111 to what is going on, 841 00:37:58,153 --> 00:38:01,239 especially when it has to do with abuse, you know? 842 00:38:01,281 --> 00:38:03,450 They'll protect theirselves. 843 00:38:03,491 --> 00:38:08,079 - Wow, okay, so how long did you stay with Minister Rasalas? 844 00:38:08,121 --> 00:38:11,541 - (scoffs) Five years, and after five years of mental abuse, 845 00:38:11,583 --> 00:38:13,752 plus our financials had changed. 846 00:38:13,793 --> 00:38:14,878 - [Celeste] Hmm. 847 00:38:14,919 --> 00:38:15,962 - You know, the pastor would tell him, 848 00:38:16,004 --> 00:38:17,964 "Give her $50 every two weeks. 849 00:38:18,006 --> 00:38:18,882 She'll be fine. 850 00:38:18,923 --> 00:38:20,425 You pay all the bills." 851 00:38:20,467 --> 00:38:24,137 - So, you mean the pastor would coach your husband 852 00:38:24,179 --> 00:38:25,347 on y'all's finances? 853 00:38:25,388 --> 00:38:27,223 - He would also pull me in the office to talk 854 00:38:27,265 --> 00:38:31,519 about our sex life and, and say, 855 00:38:31,561 --> 00:38:35,148 "This is what you need to do to please your husband," 856 00:38:35,190 --> 00:38:37,776 and not to deny him my body. 857 00:38:37,817 --> 00:38:40,236 - So, I know that had to be uncomfortable talking 858 00:38:40,278 --> 00:38:42,655 to the pastor about what goes on in your bedroom. 859 00:38:42,697 --> 00:38:45,033 - It was because I hated it. 860 00:38:45,075 --> 00:38:46,326 You know, it wasn't love. 861 00:38:46,368 --> 00:38:49,329 This was rape, and I felt like he was raping me 862 00:38:49,371 --> 00:38:50,830 over and over again. 863 00:38:50,872 --> 00:38:52,832 You know, like, it, like, he was just using 864 00:38:52,874 --> 00:38:53,792 the bathroom on me. 865 00:38:53,833 --> 00:38:55,293 I hated it. 866 00:38:55,335 --> 00:38:57,837 - I am so sorry you had to endure that, Mahogany. 867 00:38:59,172 --> 00:39:01,341 But listen, God loves you. 868 00:39:01,383 --> 00:39:03,134 He's been with you the whole time, 869 00:39:03,176 --> 00:39:05,220 and he wants you to be delivered, 870 00:39:05,261 --> 00:39:08,098 and I really believe he sent me here. 871 00:39:08,139 --> 00:39:09,557 (gentle music) 872 00:39:09,599 --> 00:39:12,060 - I wanna believe that, and I wanna receive that from you. 873 00:39:12,102 --> 00:39:16,189 But it's just hard to say that or believe that for me 874 00:39:16,231 --> 00:39:21,194 because I, too, I pray, I pray, and I pray, 875 00:39:21,236 --> 00:39:23,405 and I try to live the right way. 876 00:39:23,446 --> 00:39:25,323 - I totally agree with what you're saying. 877 00:39:25,365 --> 00:39:26,866 You know why? 878 00:39:26,908 --> 00:39:30,120 Because what you don't know is that I, too, was abused. 879 00:39:30,161 --> 00:39:31,371 - What? 880 00:39:31,413 --> 00:39:35,417 - By my own father, his neighbors, his friends, 881 00:39:35,458 --> 00:39:39,337 and that went on from ages 10 to 18 years old. 882 00:39:39,379 --> 00:39:40,839 I had to deal with that. 883 00:39:40,880 --> 00:39:43,299 My mother, she abandoned me and my brother for drugs. 884 00:39:43,341 --> 00:39:44,300 She left us. 885 00:39:44,342 --> 00:39:45,760 - I'm sorry. 886 00:39:45,802 --> 00:39:49,305 - My father, he was our only caretaker at that time. 887 00:39:49,347 --> 00:39:53,351 So, listen, our story will help men and women 888 00:39:53,393 --> 00:39:55,395 to break those chains. 889 00:39:55,437 --> 00:39:56,563 - Yeah. - I mean, 890 00:39:56,604 --> 00:39:58,314 but can you just tell me how did you get 891 00:39:58,356 --> 00:40:00,358 the strength to leave? 892 00:40:00,400 --> 00:40:04,320 - Well, (clears throat) wasn't easy. 893 00:40:04,362 --> 00:40:05,530 (dramatic music) 894 00:40:05,572 --> 00:40:09,492 And Minister Rasalas was not pleased, you know. 895 00:40:10,577 --> 00:40:13,663 You know, this man had went as far as to kidnap me, 896 00:40:13,705 --> 00:40:16,124 to drug me, stalk me. 897 00:40:16,166 --> 00:40:20,628 He even, (sighs) they couldn't find out what it was 898 00:40:20,670 --> 00:40:22,088 that he drugged me with. 899 00:40:22,130 --> 00:40:24,341 It was some kind of unknown street substance. 900 00:40:24,382 --> 00:40:26,634 - You have a true testimony, 901 00:40:26,676 --> 00:40:29,512 and this is a movie that we could share with the world. 902 00:40:30,805 --> 00:40:33,099 Can you tell me a little bit more, though, about the events 903 00:40:33,141 --> 00:40:34,392 that took place? 904 00:40:34,434 --> 00:40:37,479 - I can remember my cousin, Starla, she came over, 905 00:40:37,520 --> 00:40:39,773 and she was trying to help me find a place 906 00:40:39,814 --> 00:40:42,609 'cause I was leaving Minister Rasalas, and like I said, 907 00:40:42,650 --> 00:40:44,527 he wasn't pleased about it. 908 00:40:44,569 --> 00:40:46,988 But this one night, (dramatic music) 909 00:40:47,030 --> 00:40:49,407 if she wouldn't have found me when she did, 910 00:40:49,449 --> 00:40:52,535 I wouldn't even be here to tell my story today. 911 00:40:52,577 --> 00:40:57,082 (footsteps plodding) (dramatic music) 912 00:40:57,123 --> 00:40:57,832 Hey. 913 00:40:59,250 --> 00:41:01,795 (bag thudding) 914 00:41:04,381 --> 00:41:07,509 (chair clattering) 915 00:41:09,803 --> 00:41:11,680 - I hope you enjoy your meal. 916 00:41:11,721 --> 00:41:13,473 I tried to get all your favorites 917 00:41:13,515 --> 00:41:16,017 from your favorite restaurant. 918 00:41:16,059 --> 00:41:17,185 (Mahogany laughs) 919 00:41:17,227 --> 00:41:19,896 - Well, thank you, this was a nice gesture. 920 00:41:19,938 --> 00:41:22,399 But, um, this still doesn't change anything. 921 00:41:22,440 --> 00:41:25,068 As soon as I find a place, leaving. 922 00:41:26,361 --> 00:41:27,404 - I understand. 923 00:41:27,445 --> 00:41:30,156 I just wanted to do something nice 924 00:41:30,198 --> 00:41:34,452 and to tell you that I believe you're right. 925 00:41:34,494 --> 00:41:37,664 I do need to actually read God's word, 926 00:41:38,707 --> 00:41:41,543 and, um, hopefully me and you can study the Bible 927 00:41:41,584 --> 00:41:43,503 when you, before you leave. 928 00:41:43,545 --> 00:41:47,215 - So, now you want to hear what God got to say? 929 00:41:47,257 --> 00:41:48,508 (Mahogany laughs) 930 00:41:48,550 --> 00:41:51,594 Okay, but I guess it's better late than never. 931 00:41:51,636 --> 00:41:54,514 Um, but I thought that you were prohibited 932 00:41:54,556 --> 00:41:56,516 from the pastor in drinking wine. 933 00:41:56,558 --> 00:41:57,559 I mean. 934 00:41:59,185 --> 00:42:04,482 - Well, like you said, to actually read what God is saying. 935 00:42:04,524 --> 00:42:07,944 And, um, I believe it said in, um, 936 00:42:07,986 --> 00:42:13,992 1 Timothy 5:23, says to have a little wine 937 00:42:14,034 --> 00:42:15,201 to settle the stomach and to help 938 00:42:15,243 --> 00:42:17,037 with all other infirmities. 939 00:42:17,078 --> 00:42:18,204 (Mahogany laughs) 940 00:42:18,246 --> 00:42:20,540 - Wait, so what was that scripture you used 941 00:42:20,582 --> 00:42:22,042 to beat me down with all the time 942 00:42:22,083 --> 00:42:24,919 when I would have a glass of wine once a month only? 943 00:42:24,961 --> 00:42:27,547 And it was for the reasons that you would say Rasalas, 944 00:42:27,589 --> 00:42:29,716 to settle my stomach because when I would eat 945 00:42:29,758 --> 00:42:32,135 certain sauces, they would hurt my stomach, 946 00:42:32,177 --> 00:42:34,346 and I would have a glass of wine only. 947 00:42:35,764 --> 00:42:38,058 And I believe that that was in Galatians, actually, 948 00:42:38,099 --> 00:42:40,894 where you would beat me down and say that it was impure, 949 00:42:40,935 --> 00:42:46,733 um, that I was wicked, uh, that I was envious of you. 950 00:42:46,775 --> 00:42:48,568 - I apologize for that. 951 00:42:48,610 --> 00:42:50,153 I was wrong. 952 00:42:50,195 --> 00:42:53,490 That's why I'm having a glass of wine with you. 953 00:42:53,531 --> 00:42:56,284 And, um, the guy that sold it to me said 954 00:42:56,326 --> 00:43:00,914 that this was a very nice, smooth, sweet red wine, 955 00:43:00,955 --> 00:43:02,999 and, uh, hope you enjoy it. 956 00:43:04,209 --> 00:43:07,545 - Well, I'm glad that you're reading your scriptures 957 00:43:07,587 --> 00:43:10,715 for yourself now, but read that chapter again 958 00:43:10,757 --> 00:43:12,884 because that was actually Galatians 19 and 20 959 00:43:12,926 --> 00:43:16,388 or verses five, chapter 5, verses 19 and 21 960 00:43:16,429 --> 00:43:20,141 where it actually speaks of the same reason you just stated, 961 00:43:20,183 --> 00:43:21,726 why I would drink that wine. 962 00:43:22,435 --> 00:43:23,770 (gentle music) 963 00:43:23,812 --> 00:43:26,981 - Well, let's just enjoy our meal, 964 00:43:27,023 --> 00:43:28,733 and I hope you like the flowers. 965 00:43:29,776 --> 00:43:31,528 - They're nice. 966 00:43:31,569 --> 00:43:32,320 Thank you. 967 00:43:33,655 --> 00:43:35,490 But this doesn't change anything. 968 00:43:35,532 --> 00:43:39,077 (gentle music continues) 969 00:43:46,501 --> 00:43:49,421 (dramatic music) 970 00:43:52,716 --> 00:43:55,260 - Mahogany, Mahogany, Mahogany. 971 00:43:57,846 --> 00:43:59,055 What in the world? 972 00:44:01,558 --> 00:44:04,728 (buttons clicking) 973 00:44:05,478 --> 00:44:06,479 Hello. 974 00:44:06,521 --> 00:44:07,522 - [Dispatcher] 911, what's- - Hello. 975 00:44:07,564 --> 00:44:08,732 - [Dispatcher] your emergency? 976 00:44:08,773 --> 00:44:11,818 - Yes, I need someone at 557 Tenderlane Drive. 977 00:44:11,860 --> 00:44:14,237 My cousin is on the floor and not responding. 978 00:44:16,114 --> 00:44:17,157 I don't know. 979 00:44:19,159 --> 00:44:19,951 What is CRP? 980 00:44:22,120 --> 00:44:23,705 Whatever, CPR. 981 00:44:24,539 --> 00:44:26,249 No, I'm not a doctor nor a nurse. 982 00:44:26,291 --> 00:44:27,125 Just hurry. 983 00:44:27,792 --> 00:44:30,420 Mahogany. (exhales) 984 00:44:30,462 --> 00:44:33,048 (air whooshing) 985 00:44:34,382 --> 00:44:37,469 Mahogany, are you sure you should be here? 986 00:44:37,510 --> 00:44:39,179 'Cause I don't trust this dude. 987 00:44:39,220 --> 00:44:40,847 And where did he go? 988 00:44:40,889 --> 00:44:42,432 - I don't, I don't know where he's at right now. 989 00:44:42,474 --> 00:44:43,933 And I don't care. 990 00:44:43,975 --> 00:44:46,436 He ain't gonna come back here after he found out I survived. 991 00:44:46,478 --> 00:44:49,689 I just gotta find that bottle of wine and have it tested. 992 00:44:49,731 --> 00:44:50,815 What in the world? 993 00:44:52,442 --> 00:44:53,526 Wait a minute. 994 00:44:53,568 --> 00:44:54,986 (fingers tapping) 995 00:44:55,028 --> 00:44:56,363 What happened to the bottle of wine, Starla, and the food, 996 00:44:56,404 --> 00:44:58,281 and the flowers that was on that table right there? 997 00:44:59,574 --> 00:45:01,368 - There was nothing on the table. 998 00:45:01,409 --> 00:45:04,204 The door was unlocked, and I only came over here 999 00:45:04,245 --> 00:45:06,456 because you didn't answer your phone. 1000 00:45:06,498 --> 00:45:07,832 (Mahogany sighs) 1001 00:45:07,874 --> 00:45:10,710 - No, there was food, these plates, a bottle of wine, 1002 00:45:10,752 --> 00:45:12,379 and flowers on that table. 1003 00:45:12,420 --> 00:45:13,922 I know he drugged me. 1004 00:45:13,963 --> 00:45:15,423 (dramatic music continues) 1005 00:45:15,465 --> 00:45:17,133 - When them doctors came in after they pumped your stomach 1006 00:45:17,175 --> 00:45:19,719 and asked were you on drugs, I wanted to cut him 1007 00:45:19,761 --> 00:45:21,137 with his own scalpel. 1008 00:45:21,179 --> 00:45:24,140 Like, just because you Black, you gotta be doing drugs. 1009 00:45:24,182 --> 00:45:25,266 - Yeah, right. 1010 00:45:25,308 --> 00:45:26,685 But they did find, say that they found 1011 00:45:26,726 --> 00:45:30,730 some kinda, um, unknown street drug in my system. 1012 00:45:30,772 --> 00:45:33,024 I just gotta find proof to press charges. 1013 00:45:34,275 --> 00:45:36,986 But thank God you came in and found me when you did, cuz. 1014 00:45:37,028 --> 00:45:39,531 - Hmm, I wish I could find this dude. 1015 00:45:39,572 --> 00:45:41,074 This is not cool, Mahogany. 1016 00:45:41,116 --> 00:45:43,076 You need to get outta this right now 1017 00:45:43,118 --> 00:45:46,746 because him and that church is on some Jim Jones mess. 1018 00:45:46,788 --> 00:45:49,624 Next, they'd be doing you like Jeffrey Dahmer, 1019 00:45:49,666 --> 00:45:51,543 crap and cook you. 1020 00:45:51,584 --> 00:45:53,712 - Cuz, you, you watch too much TV. 1021 00:45:53,753 --> 00:45:55,964 - No, I am serious. 1022 00:45:56,006 --> 00:45:58,174 They all look crazy at that church. 1023 00:45:58,216 --> 00:46:00,760 It's like they robots at that program 1024 00:46:00,802 --> 00:46:03,763 by that serial predator leader of theirs. 1025 00:46:03,805 --> 00:46:05,056 Just stay with me tonight. 1026 00:46:05,765 --> 00:46:07,559 - I'll be okay, but thank you. 1027 00:46:07,600 --> 00:46:10,937 I don't, you know, I, I don't think he gonna come back here, 1028 00:46:10,979 --> 00:46:13,106 especially after he found out I survived. 1029 00:46:13,148 --> 00:46:16,443 I just gotta find that proof and press these charges. 1030 00:46:16,484 --> 00:46:20,321 - (sighs) Okay, but I will be calling you later on 1031 00:46:20,363 --> 00:46:21,573 and in the morning. 1032 00:46:21,614 --> 00:46:24,409 - Okay, thank you, cuz, thank you for coming in, 1033 00:46:24,451 --> 00:46:25,326 being there for me. 1034 00:46:26,703 --> 00:46:28,747 - That is what family does. (dramatic music continues) 1035 00:46:28,788 --> 00:46:30,623 Me and you are like sisters. 1036 00:46:30,665 --> 00:46:32,083 I'll just be glad when you get 1037 00:46:32,125 --> 00:46:35,295 outta this messed up marriage and have yourself back. 1038 00:46:37,088 --> 00:46:39,924 - I filed, so that's the first step. 1039 00:46:39,966 --> 00:46:43,762 - Mm, you shoulda asked for a little bit more, you know, 1040 00:46:43,803 --> 00:46:45,889 like that new car. 1041 00:46:45,930 --> 00:46:47,807 (laughs) But I'll check on you later. 1042 00:46:47,849 --> 00:46:49,059 - Okay. 1043 00:46:49,100 --> 00:46:50,810 Make sure you call me when you get home, okay? 1044 00:46:50,852 --> 00:46:51,728 - All right, give me a hug. 1045 00:46:51,770 --> 00:46:52,771 I love you. - All right. 1046 00:46:52,812 --> 00:46:53,521 Love you, too. 1047 00:46:54,439 --> 00:46:55,315 Thank you again. 1048 00:46:55,357 --> 00:46:56,733 - [Starla] All right. 1049 00:46:56,775 --> 00:46:57,859 - What in the world? 1050 00:46:58,985 --> 00:47:01,654 (Mahogany sighs) 1051 00:47:01,696 --> 00:47:02,447 Hmm. 1052 00:47:02,489 --> 00:47:03,907 (plate clanking) 1053 00:47:03,948 --> 00:47:05,033 - So, you believe he drugged you with that bottle of wine? 1054 00:47:05,075 --> 00:47:07,077 - I know he did, and he tried to act 1055 00:47:07,118 --> 00:47:09,621 like he was a changed man. 1056 00:47:09,662 --> 00:47:10,663 - Was you able to prove it? 1057 00:47:10,705 --> 00:47:11,915 - No. 1058 00:47:11,956 --> 00:47:13,833 I mean, if I had told someone at the hospital, 1059 00:47:13,875 --> 00:47:15,960 they woulda just thought I was crazy. 1060 00:47:16,002 --> 00:47:17,671 - Hmm. - Plus, he had the church 1061 00:47:17,712 --> 00:47:19,881 to back him up like he did before. 1062 00:47:19,923 --> 00:47:21,925 - What you mean like before? 1063 00:47:21,966 --> 00:47:23,343 - Not like that, Ms. Celeste. 1064 00:47:23,385 --> 00:47:26,971 What I mean is I exposed Minister Rasalas about the rape 1065 00:47:27,013 --> 00:47:31,434 to the church, and all they did was make us marry. 1066 00:47:31,476 --> 00:47:32,143 (Mahogany scoffs) 1067 00:47:32,185 --> 00:47:33,311 They didn't believe me. 1068 00:47:33,353 --> 00:47:34,813 - So, you went to the church members? 1069 00:47:34,854 --> 00:47:36,356 - I went to the church members, 1070 00:47:36,398 --> 00:47:38,733 and all they did was call the police and say 1071 00:47:38,775 --> 00:47:40,527 that I threatened them, and I was kicked 1072 00:47:40,568 --> 00:47:43,822 outta the, out of the church and wasn't allowed back. 1073 00:47:43,863 --> 00:47:45,323 - What? 1074 00:47:45,365 --> 00:47:46,866 So, I mean, I didn't even know you could stop somebody 1075 00:47:46,908 --> 00:47:49,369 from going to God's church and serving him. 1076 00:47:49,411 --> 00:47:50,870 That's crazy. 1077 00:47:50,912 --> 00:47:52,372 - Yeah, but that's because this wasn't God's church. 1078 00:47:52,414 --> 00:47:53,581 This was theirs. 1079 00:47:53,623 --> 00:47:54,541 - You got that right. - Mm-hmm. 1080 00:47:54,582 --> 00:47:55,583 - But you know what? 1081 00:47:55,625 --> 00:47:57,002 God is the judge. 1082 00:47:57,043 --> 00:47:59,212 So, what happened after that? 1083 00:47:59,254 --> 00:48:00,922 - Well, I got settled in bed. 1084 00:48:00,964 --> 00:48:02,882 I was still tired from feeling those effects 1085 00:48:02,924 --> 00:48:05,051 from the, uh, the, the drug or whatever, 1086 00:48:05,093 --> 00:48:06,803 and I was waiting on my cousin Starla- 1087 00:48:06,845 --> 00:48:07,887 - Mm-hmm. - to call me. 1088 00:48:07,929 --> 00:48:10,807 And I, I got tired and went to sleep. 1089 00:48:10,849 --> 00:48:12,392 - I can't even imagine. 1090 00:48:12,434 --> 00:48:15,353 Well, good thing is that it didn't do any serious damage, 1091 00:48:15,395 --> 00:48:16,521 whatever it was. 1092 00:48:16,563 --> 00:48:19,315 So, were you able to get any rest that night? 1093 00:48:19,357 --> 00:48:20,775 Did he come home? 1094 00:48:20,817 --> 00:48:23,278 - Well, after Starla called me and I told her I was okay, 1095 00:48:24,446 --> 00:48:28,158 all I remember is being dragged outta my bed by gunpoint, 1096 00:48:28,199 --> 00:48:30,410 talking about let's take a ride. 1097 00:48:30,452 --> 00:48:31,828 - Oh, my God. 1098 00:48:31,870 --> 00:48:33,329 Was it Minister Rasalas? - Yes. 1099 00:48:34,289 --> 00:48:36,166 And at first I thought I was having 1100 00:48:36,207 --> 00:48:37,876 a bad dream or something. 1101 00:48:37,917 --> 00:48:40,253 I didn't know if this was it for me, 1102 00:48:40,295 --> 00:48:42,380 but, and he looked like he was having some kind 1103 00:48:42,422 --> 00:48:45,842 of breakdown, and then I realized I was being kidnapped 1104 00:48:45,884 --> 00:48:47,677 at 1:00 AM. (dramatic music) 1105 00:48:47,719 --> 00:48:48,762 - Wow. 1106 00:48:48,803 --> 00:48:51,306 (footsteps plodding) 1107 00:48:51,348 --> 00:48:52,182 - Mahogany. 1108 00:48:54,809 --> 00:48:56,561 Mahogany, Mahogany. 1109 00:49:01,608 --> 00:49:04,527 (bag rustling) (keys jangling) 1110 00:49:04,569 --> 00:49:07,739 Keys, purse. 1111 00:49:07,781 --> 00:49:08,782 (Starla exhales) 1112 00:49:08,823 --> 00:49:09,574 Jesus. 1113 00:49:11,618 --> 00:49:12,410 Hello. 1114 00:49:13,536 --> 00:49:15,080 Mahogany, where are you? 1115 00:49:15,121 --> 00:49:17,832 I have been calling your phone for several days. 1116 00:49:17,874 --> 00:49:20,460 You need to pick up your phone. 1117 00:49:20,502 --> 00:49:21,336 The door is unlocked. 1118 00:49:21,378 --> 00:49:23,463 Your purse is here on the table. 1119 00:49:23,505 --> 00:49:26,174 If you do not call me back, I will call the police. 1120 00:49:27,509 --> 00:49:28,468 (phone clanking) 1121 00:49:28,510 --> 00:49:31,054 (phone buzzing) 1122 00:49:33,848 --> 00:49:35,433 - [Mahogany] Starla, it's me. 1123 00:49:35,475 --> 00:49:38,144 - Where are you, and what's going on? 1124 00:49:38,186 --> 00:49:40,313 - [Mahogany] Listen, I am fine. 1125 00:49:40,355 --> 00:49:42,899 I, I need you not to call the police, okay? 1126 00:49:42,941 --> 00:49:44,401 I'll be fine. 1127 00:49:44,442 --> 00:49:50,490 - Like I said, where are you, and who are you with? 1128 00:49:50,532 --> 00:49:51,825 Mahogany, you don't even sound right. 1129 00:49:51,866 --> 00:49:54,035 Send me the address right now. 1130 00:49:54,994 --> 00:49:57,497 - [Rasalas] Tell her you're with me, 1131 00:49:57,539 --> 00:49:58,957 and we got back together. 1132 00:49:58,998 --> 00:50:01,292 We went away for a couple days. 1133 00:50:03,128 --> 00:50:04,879 - And who voice was that? 1134 00:50:04,921 --> 00:50:07,590 I know you not with that rapist. 1135 00:50:07,632 --> 00:50:08,967 Like, come on, Mahogany. 1136 00:50:09,009 --> 00:50:10,760 What is wrong with you? 1137 00:50:10,802 --> 00:50:12,554 You just divorced this dude. 1138 00:50:13,221 --> 00:50:16,099 Send me the location right now. 1139 00:50:16,141 --> 00:50:17,726 (dramatic music continues) 1140 00:50:17,767 --> 00:50:19,019 - [Mahogany] I'll be okay, okay? 1141 00:50:19,060 --> 00:50:19,936 I promise. 1142 00:50:19,978 --> 00:50:22,188 Uh, don't call the, no police. 1143 00:50:22,230 --> 00:50:24,357 I will see you as soon as I, I can. 1144 00:50:24,399 --> 00:50:25,859 I'll call you when I get back. 1145 00:50:25,900 --> 00:50:28,528 - Mm-mm, this don't even feel right. 1146 00:50:28,570 --> 00:50:31,573 Just let me come see for myself, and then I will leave. 1147 00:50:32,907 --> 00:50:34,159 I'm coming to get you. 1148 00:50:34,993 --> 00:50:37,412 (phone beeps) 1149 00:50:37,454 --> 00:50:38,204 Hello? 1150 00:50:39,039 --> 00:50:40,206 Hello? 1151 00:50:41,041 --> 00:50:42,042 (Starla exhales) 1152 00:50:42,083 --> 00:50:43,376 Ooh, I know something wrong now. 1153 00:50:43,418 --> 00:50:46,004 (finger tapping) 1154 00:50:46,046 --> 00:50:47,630 Hello. 1155 00:50:47,672 --> 00:50:51,676 Yes, I need someone at 557 Tenderlane Drive ASAP. 1156 00:50:51,718 --> 00:50:53,970 My cousin has been kidnapped. 1157 00:50:54,012 --> 00:50:55,805 (dramatic music) 1158 00:50:55,847 --> 00:50:57,599 (Rasalas exhaling) 1159 00:50:57,640 --> 00:50:58,933 - Look what you made me do. 1160 00:50:58,975 --> 00:50:59,934 - Oh, my God. - You got these people 1161 00:50:59,976 --> 00:51:01,561 out here thinking I'm crazy. 1162 00:51:01,603 --> 00:51:03,855 All you had to do was be a good wife. 1163 00:51:03,897 --> 00:51:05,648 We would not be in this position. 1164 00:51:05,690 --> 00:51:06,358 (Mahogany whimpering) 1165 00:51:06,399 --> 00:51:07,984 - Boy, what do you mean? 1166 00:51:08,026 --> 00:51:10,570 That church got you messed up. 1167 00:51:10,612 --> 00:51:13,365 I mean, and the pastor controls everything. 1168 00:51:13,406 --> 00:51:16,409 He even got you thinking that raping me was okay. 1169 00:51:16,451 --> 00:51:17,827 - I told you. 1170 00:51:17,869 --> 00:51:21,790 God spoke to me and told me you were my wife that night. 1171 00:51:21,831 --> 00:51:23,375 I got a little anxious, okay? 1172 00:51:23,416 --> 00:51:25,543 But you will not reject the call of God. 1173 00:51:25,585 --> 00:51:27,754 You will not shame me in this way. 1174 00:51:27,796 --> 00:51:29,130 - Shame you how? 1175 00:51:29,172 --> 00:51:30,757 And this is not the call of God, 1176 00:51:30,799 --> 00:51:32,759 and I'm not your wife anymore. 1177 00:51:32,801 --> 00:51:35,970 - I guess I have to make you realize that you are, 1178 00:51:36,012 --> 00:51:38,098 so take off your clothes now. 1179 00:51:38,139 --> 00:51:40,725 - No, I'm not gonna take my clothes off. 1180 00:51:40,767 --> 00:51:43,687 And if you're gonna do something to me, just do it. 1181 00:51:43,728 --> 00:51:47,273 Like you all said, I was doomed from the beginning, right? 1182 00:51:47,315 --> 00:51:50,819 So, you taking my life is not gonna make me your wife. 1183 00:51:50,860 --> 00:51:54,906 - Matthew 5:31-32, it said, 1184 00:51:54,948 --> 00:51:58,868 "If he who divorces his wife makes her an adulteress," 1185 00:52:00,704 --> 00:52:03,665 and you gonna make me sin against God? 1186 00:52:04,666 --> 00:52:07,961 We are one, so if you die, I die. 1187 00:52:08,003 --> 00:52:09,004 God hates divorces. 1188 00:52:09,045 --> 00:52:11,548 - Rasalas, you did not divorce me. 1189 00:52:11,589 --> 00:52:14,134 I filed against you. (dramatic music continues) 1190 00:52:14,175 --> 00:52:16,678 So, whatever you going to do to me, just do it. 1191 00:52:17,929 --> 00:52:20,140 This is not a marriage, Rasalas, 1192 00:52:20,181 --> 00:52:22,183 and I am not your wife anymore. 1193 00:52:22,225 --> 00:52:24,519 And stop reading quotes from the Bible 1194 00:52:24,561 --> 00:52:27,022 that you truly don't understand. 1195 00:52:27,063 --> 00:52:31,234 - Not until you admit that you're my wife. 1196 00:52:31,276 --> 00:52:34,237 You forgive me from the past. 1197 00:52:34,279 --> 00:52:36,281 - Rasalas, I've been forgave you, 1198 00:52:36,322 --> 00:52:38,992 but I'm not your wife anymore. 1199 00:52:39,034 --> 00:52:41,077 I don't love you in that way. 1200 00:52:41,119 --> 00:52:42,412 Why would you want a wife that you have 1201 00:52:42,454 --> 00:52:43,997 to force them to be with you? 1202 00:52:44,039 --> 00:52:47,500 - Then, have sex with me one last time. 1203 00:52:47,542 --> 00:52:48,835 Those papers aren't signed yet. 1204 00:52:48,877 --> 00:52:52,047 You are still my wife, and then I'll let you go. 1205 00:52:52,088 --> 00:52:53,423 - Me sleeping with you 1206 00:52:53,465 --> 00:52:55,800 one last time is not gonna make me your wife. 1207 00:52:57,927 --> 00:53:00,388 - Genesis chapter 1, it says, 1208 00:53:00,430 --> 00:53:02,432 "When a man goes inside a woman, 1209 00:53:02,474 --> 00:53:04,309 they are a husband and wife." 1210 00:53:04,351 --> 00:53:08,396 And in a Matthew 19, it says, "A woman is put to death 1211 00:53:08,438 --> 00:53:09,731 if she divorces you." 1212 00:53:11,232 --> 00:53:13,151 - You really are messed up when it comes to the word of God 1213 00:53:13,193 --> 00:53:14,611 and what he's truly saying. 1214 00:53:14,652 --> 00:53:16,196 I don't believe that God is saying 1215 00:53:16,237 --> 00:53:19,866 that a man can rape a woman, or marry him, or die. 1216 00:53:19,908 --> 00:53:24,913 - All you had to do was be the wife and not be the husband. 1217 00:53:24,954 --> 00:53:26,915 What's so hard about that, huh? 1218 00:53:27,874 --> 00:53:30,460 Was it, did you want more money or something? 1219 00:53:30,502 --> 00:53:31,544 Or, was it that friend of yours 1220 00:53:31,586 --> 00:53:33,046 that got your head messed up? 1221 00:53:33,088 --> 00:53:35,382 - No, it's that church of yours that got you messed up. 1222 00:53:35,423 --> 00:53:37,092 - So, what happened? 1223 00:53:37,133 --> 00:53:39,386 How did you get out of this situation? 1224 00:53:39,427 --> 00:53:42,972 - Messed up as it is, and I hate to admit this, 1225 00:53:44,265 --> 00:53:49,771 but I, I had to do what I needed to do to survive 1226 00:53:49,813 --> 00:53:53,733 and to stay alive, so I slept with him. 1227 00:53:53,775 --> 00:53:54,484 - Mm. 1228 00:53:55,777 --> 00:53:58,822 - And I promised him that I would stay his wife, 1229 00:54:02,158 --> 00:54:04,327 you know, and as soon as he fell asleep, 1230 00:54:05,620 --> 00:54:07,122 I ran as fast as I could. 1231 00:54:07,163 --> 00:54:10,250 - So, did you call the police on him so he can get arrested? 1232 00:54:10,291 --> 00:54:13,086 I mean, 'cause that was rape by force. 1233 00:54:13,128 --> 00:54:15,672 He tried to kill you and, and kidnap you. 1234 00:54:15,714 --> 00:54:18,591 - To be honest, I was still messed up in the head 1235 00:54:18,633 --> 00:54:21,678 from being programmed and brainwashed, 1236 00:54:21,720 --> 00:54:24,264 I mean, believing what the Bible had told me about, 1237 00:54:24,305 --> 00:54:26,766 we do not take our brothers and sisters to the law, 1238 00:54:26,808 --> 00:54:28,852 that we handle them in our own way, 1239 00:54:28,893 --> 00:54:31,813 so that's what I wanted to do was handle him my own way. 1240 00:54:31,855 --> 00:54:33,023 - You know what? 1241 00:54:33,064 --> 00:54:34,941 (clears throat) A lot of people are brainwashed 1242 00:54:34,983 --> 00:54:38,862 by churches like this, like cults, and when I look at you, 1243 00:54:38,903 --> 00:54:42,449 I mean, I can see the hurt in your eyes just like me. 1244 00:54:42,490 --> 00:54:46,453 And I remember looking for help, and no one seemed to care. 1245 00:54:46,494 --> 00:54:48,204 (Mahogany exhales) 1246 00:54:48,246 --> 00:54:49,414 (Mahogany clicks tongue) 1247 00:54:49,456 --> 00:54:52,125 - So, you're saying that you care about me? 1248 00:54:52,167 --> 00:54:53,126 I mean, really? 1249 00:54:53,168 --> 00:54:54,210 Why me? 1250 00:54:54,252 --> 00:54:55,712 You don't even know me. 1251 00:54:55,754 --> 00:54:58,089 You know, maybe this is just another reason for you to write 1252 00:54:58,131 --> 00:55:02,010 down in your notepad like you've been doing sitting there. 1253 00:55:02,052 --> 00:55:02,844 You know what? (laughs) 1254 00:55:02,886 --> 00:55:03,887 That's, I mean (laughs)- 1255 00:55:03,928 --> 00:55:06,139 - No, no, Mahogany, that's not it. 1256 00:55:06,181 --> 00:55:07,223 I do care. 1257 00:55:07,265 --> 00:55:08,475 (Mahogany scoffs) 1258 00:55:08,516 --> 00:55:10,769 Listen, I went to the church for, for help, 1259 00:55:10,810 --> 00:55:15,023 for my pain, seeking help, and the bishop, I was raped 1260 00:55:15,065 --> 00:55:17,817 by the bishop, and my grandmother, she went to that church 1261 00:55:17,859 --> 00:55:22,989 for 25 years and had me to keep that quiet. 1262 00:55:23,031 --> 00:55:25,158 I ended up having a son by him. 1263 00:55:25,200 --> 00:55:27,243 - A son? - Yes. 1264 00:55:27,285 --> 00:55:30,246 And couldn't say anything. (dramatic music) 1265 00:55:30,288 --> 00:55:33,583 And when my son was 15, he found out, 1266 00:55:33,625 --> 00:55:37,712 and he committed suicide. 1267 00:55:38,922 --> 00:55:42,342 - What, I mean, what does that have to do with his death? 1268 00:55:42,384 --> 00:55:45,261 I mean, did, did he know that that was his father? 1269 00:55:45,303 --> 00:55:46,846 If you don't mind me asking. 1270 00:55:46,888 --> 00:55:49,224 - No, I don't, I don't mind sharing. 1271 00:55:49,265 --> 00:55:52,727 He, um, once he find out how he was conceived 1272 00:55:52,769 --> 00:55:57,148 and who his father really was, he was, he was depressed. 1273 00:55:57,190 --> 00:55:58,316 - Wow. 1274 00:55:58,358 --> 00:56:00,068 I'm so sorry that that happened to him. 1275 00:56:00,110 --> 00:56:04,322 And how did you ever forgive God for doing that to you? 1276 00:56:04,364 --> 00:56:05,865 (Celeste sighs) 1277 00:56:05,907 --> 00:56:08,702 - Look, the word of God wants us to share our testimonies 1278 00:56:08,743 --> 00:56:12,205 with each other and for us to be able to heal 1279 00:56:12,247 --> 00:56:14,290 and help others break the cycle. 1280 00:56:14,332 --> 00:56:16,167 - I'm so sorry that you lost your son 1281 00:56:16,209 --> 00:56:17,544 and that you had to go through that. 1282 00:56:17,585 --> 00:56:19,713 (dramatic music continues) 1283 00:56:19,754 --> 00:56:23,299 - Yeah, he was, um, he was my only son. 1284 00:56:23,341 --> 00:56:25,844 - Yeah, wow. 1285 00:56:25,885 --> 00:56:26,886 - Yeah. 1286 00:56:26,928 --> 00:56:28,388 (paper rustling) 1287 00:56:28,430 --> 00:56:32,767 But the word of God helped me to understand, Jeremiah 29:11, 1288 00:56:32,809 --> 00:56:37,272 "To prosper us, not to harm us." 1289 00:56:37,313 --> 00:56:38,565 - Mm. - And for us 1290 00:56:38,606 --> 00:56:41,067 to not take the law into our own hands. 1291 00:56:41,109 --> 00:56:42,110 - Not being smart. 1292 00:56:43,528 --> 00:56:46,114 But what does this have to do with the fact of every man 1293 00:56:46,156 --> 00:56:49,659 and every monster that has ever done anything to us? 1294 00:56:49,701 --> 00:56:50,910 You know, what does this have to do with them? 1295 00:56:50,952 --> 00:56:52,787 Don't they pay by that law that you say? 1296 00:56:52,829 --> 00:56:57,250 - Listen, I know how you feel, and that's why I'm here 1297 00:56:57,292 --> 00:56:58,752 because I do believe your story. 1298 00:56:58,793 --> 00:57:01,588 And once others hear it and read about it, 1299 00:57:01,629 --> 00:57:03,465 it will help others come clean. 1300 00:57:04,299 --> 00:57:06,926 So, listen, back to your story. 1301 00:57:06,968 --> 00:57:09,596 You, you said you, you ran, and, and you waited. 1302 00:57:09,637 --> 00:57:10,638 I mean, what happened? 1303 00:57:10,680 --> 00:57:11,931 What happened next? 1304 00:57:11,973 --> 00:57:15,393 - Well, the next day, my cousin came 1305 00:57:15,435 --> 00:57:16,936 over to my house, Starla. 1306 00:57:16,978 --> 00:57:18,271 - [Celeste] Yeah. 1307 00:57:18,313 --> 00:57:20,940 - And she had came with the police. 1308 00:57:20,982 --> 00:57:22,317 - Okay, great. 1309 00:57:22,359 --> 00:57:24,110 I mean, was you able to tell 'em what happened to you? 1310 00:57:24,152 --> 00:57:24,944 (Mahogany clicks tongue) 1311 00:57:24,986 --> 00:57:26,154 - No. 1312 00:57:26,196 --> 00:57:28,490 You know, because I was, I was still messed up 1313 00:57:28,531 --> 00:57:31,242 and brainwashed from what I was being taught. 1314 00:57:31,284 --> 00:57:32,202 But you know what? 1315 00:57:33,244 --> 00:57:35,955 I wanted to expose them myself. 1316 00:57:35,997 --> 00:57:37,624 So, I took the law into my own hands. 1317 00:57:37,665 --> 00:57:38,458 - [Officer Candace] Now, have you heard anything 1318 00:57:38,500 --> 00:57:39,668 at all from her? 1319 00:57:39,709 --> 00:57:41,169 - [Starla] I haven't heard anything. 1320 00:57:41,211 --> 00:57:42,337 - [Officer Candace] Looks like she just walked in. 1321 00:57:42,379 --> 00:57:43,630 (door clattering) 1322 00:57:43,672 --> 00:57:44,547 - [Mahogany] Starla. 1323 00:57:44,589 --> 00:57:45,548 - Mahogany. - Hey. 1324 00:57:45,590 --> 00:57:46,549 - Where have you been? 1325 00:57:46,591 --> 00:57:47,384 (Mahogany clears throat) 1326 00:57:47,425 --> 00:57:48,635 And are you okay? 1327 00:57:48,677 --> 00:57:51,262 - I'm okay, and why are the police at my home? 1328 00:57:51,304 --> 00:57:54,391 - I've been calling your phone all night and this morning. 1329 00:57:54,432 --> 00:57:55,392 - [Mahogany] Okay. 1330 00:57:55,433 --> 00:57:57,394 - Hello, I'm Officer Candace. 1331 00:57:57,435 --> 00:57:58,687 Are you okay, Ms. Noble? 1332 00:57:58,728 --> 00:58:00,814 Now, tell me, were you kidnapped? 1333 00:58:00,855 --> 00:58:04,484 - No, I, I'm fine as you can see, um, and if you don't mind, 1334 00:58:04,526 --> 00:58:06,027 you can leave. 1335 00:58:06,069 --> 00:58:06,861 - I know. 1336 00:58:06,903 --> 00:58:08,488 - What are you talking about? 1337 00:58:08,530 --> 00:58:10,281 You are not okay, Mahogany. 1338 00:58:10,323 --> 00:58:11,908 (paper rustling) 1339 00:58:11,950 --> 00:58:13,368 That punk kidnapped you yesterday, and when we were talking 1340 00:58:13,410 --> 00:58:15,537 on the phone, you hung up on me. 1341 00:58:16,538 --> 00:58:18,331 - Is this true, Ms. Noble? 1342 00:58:18,373 --> 00:58:20,333 Are you in any type of trouble? 1343 00:58:20,375 --> 00:58:22,377 And again, were you kidnapped? 1344 00:58:22,419 --> 00:58:24,796 - No, like I said, officer, I am fine. 1345 00:58:24,838 --> 00:58:27,841 My cousin called me, and she's overreacting 1346 00:58:27,882 --> 00:58:30,510 because I couldn't talk when she called. 1347 00:58:30,552 --> 00:58:32,345 - I overreacted? 1348 00:58:32,387 --> 00:58:33,430 Are you serious? 1349 00:58:33,471 --> 00:58:34,347 - [Mahogany] Mm-hmm. 1350 00:58:34,389 --> 00:58:36,266 - This man has drugged you. 1351 00:58:36,307 --> 00:58:38,518 He stalked you for several months. 1352 00:58:38,560 --> 00:58:40,687 He was hiding in your backyard at night, 1353 00:58:41,688 --> 00:58:44,357 and he was threatening to divorce you as well. 1354 00:58:44,399 --> 00:58:45,483 And we not even gonna talk 1355 00:58:45,525 --> 00:58:48,278 about that wacky church he belongs to. 1356 00:58:48,319 --> 00:58:49,571 - Is this true, Ms. Noble? 1357 00:58:49,612 --> 00:58:51,865 Are you afraid of your husband? 1358 00:58:51,906 --> 00:58:53,533 Now, do you want me to file a report? 1359 00:58:53,575 --> 00:58:55,452 Because it seems necessary at this point. 1360 00:58:55,493 --> 00:58:56,661 - [Mahogany] Are you serious, 1361 00:58:56,703 --> 00:58:58,079 officer, right now? - Very serious. 1362 00:58:58,121 --> 00:59:00,415 - Like I said, I am fine. 1363 00:59:00,457 --> 00:59:02,042 My cousin here overreacted. 1364 00:59:02,083 --> 00:59:04,669 She's just upset because I decided to work things 1365 00:59:04,711 --> 00:59:07,672 out with my husband after I filed for a divorce. 1366 00:59:07,714 --> 00:59:09,049 - [Starla] Hmm. 1367 00:59:09,090 --> 00:59:10,842 - Now, if you don't mind leaving, 1368 00:59:10,884 --> 00:59:12,635 I would like to take a long bath. 1369 00:59:16,264 --> 00:59:19,309 And for the record, you should be asking my husband 1370 00:59:19,351 --> 00:59:20,477 if he's scared of me. 1371 00:59:20,518 --> 00:59:22,020 - Is your husband okay? 1372 00:59:22,062 --> 00:59:23,229 Is there a reason 1373 00:59:23,271 --> 00:59:25,357 why I should be asking your husband is he okay? 1374 00:59:25,398 --> 00:59:26,191 - I'm sorry. 1375 00:59:26,232 --> 00:59:27,359 He is fine. 1376 00:59:27,400 --> 00:59:28,526 He's just, it was just a joke. (laughs) 1377 00:59:28,568 --> 00:59:29,527 - Okay. 1378 00:59:29,569 --> 00:59:30,820 - Um, he's good. 1379 00:59:31,988 --> 00:59:33,615 You know I left him feeling real good, you know, 1380 00:59:33,656 --> 00:59:35,658 performing the last wifely duties a woman got 1381 00:59:35,700 --> 00:59:36,701 to do in the bedroom. 1382 00:59:36,743 --> 00:59:38,370 So, he is knocked out. 1383 00:59:39,579 --> 00:59:40,914 - Are you crazy? 1384 00:59:40,955 --> 00:59:42,582 - Mm-hmm, no. - Something is not right. 1385 00:59:42,624 --> 00:59:43,416 (Mahogany clears throat) 1386 00:59:43,458 --> 00:59:44,459 - Did he drug you again? 1387 00:59:44,501 --> 00:59:45,919 - Drug, what? - What? 1388 00:59:45,960 --> 00:59:48,296 - Because I know you did not go sleep with that scum. 1389 00:59:48,338 --> 00:59:49,589 - Oh, my goodness. 1390 00:59:49,631 --> 00:59:50,590 - What is really going on here, drugged you? 1391 00:59:50,632 --> 00:59:52,509 What is Ms. James talking about? 1392 00:59:52,550 --> 00:59:53,760 - Tell her. 1393 00:59:53,802 --> 00:59:55,136 - Officer, are you serious 1394 00:59:55,178 --> 00:59:56,304 right now? - Very serious. 1395 00:59:56,346 --> 00:59:57,931 - Look, it's, my cousin Starla's just upset. 1396 00:59:57,972 --> 01:00:00,642 She's a drama queen because I, again, like I said, 1397 01:00:00,684 --> 01:00:02,602 I decided to work things out with my husband. 1398 01:00:02,644 --> 01:00:04,604 You should understand that. 1399 01:00:04,646 --> 01:00:08,566 - No, I just thank you crazy and on drugs 1400 01:00:08,608 --> 01:00:09,984 if you went and did that. 1401 01:00:11,528 --> 01:00:12,821 (paper rustling) 1402 01:00:12,862 --> 01:00:15,115 - Well, if you change your mind, Ms. Noble, 1403 01:00:15,156 --> 01:00:16,449 because you're telling me that you're okay 1404 01:00:16,491 --> 01:00:18,576 and that there's absolutely nothing wrong- 1405 01:00:18,618 --> 01:00:19,828 - Right. 1406 01:00:19,869 --> 01:00:23,289 - I mean, I'll just make this a closed case then. 1407 01:00:23,331 --> 01:00:24,207 - Case? 1408 01:00:24,249 --> 01:00:25,458 Who said this was a case? 1409 01:00:25,500 --> 01:00:27,711 - I did, and the case just reopened 1410 01:00:27,752 --> 01:00:30,588 because I don't know what that man has done nor said 1411 01:00:30,630 --> 01:00:32,590 to you for you to be sitting in here acting 1412 01:00:32,632 --> 01:00:34,342 like nothing is wrong, Mahogany. 1413 01:00:36,469 --> 01:00:37,721 - Mm, mm, mm, mm. - Well, 1414 01:00:39,055 --> 01:00:41,641 if there's nothing wrong, ladies, I'll be going now. 1415 01:00:41,683 --> 01:00:43,143 - Okay. (paper rustling) 1416 01:00:43,184 --> 01:00:45,478 - But I will leave you with my card, Mrs. Noble. 1417 01:00:45,520 --> 01:00:47,981 Please, utilize this card at any time. 1418 01:00:50,108 --> 01:00:51,401 (card clattering) 1419 01:00:51,443 --> 01:00:54,988 - I will, and I'll be getting to the bottom of this. 1420 01:00:55,030 --> 01:00:56,072 Thank you. 1421 01:00:56,114 --> 01:00:57,115 - You're welcome. - Have a good day. 1422 01:00:57,157 --> 01:00:57,866 - Good day, ladies. 1423 01:00:57,907 --> 01:00:59,367 - Bye, officer, thank you. 1424 01:01:00,785 --> 01:01:04,205 - Okay, now tell me what the heck is going on. 1425 01:01:05,623 --> 01:01:06,958 And where are your shoes, Mahogany? 1426 01:01:07,000 --> 01:01:09,544 - Calm down first, Starla, and I'll tell you. 1427 01:01:09,586 --> 01:01:10,628 Look, I'm good. 1428 01:01:10,670 --> 01:01:12,756 I don't need the police involved. 1429 01:01:12,797 --> 01:01:15,342 I wanna handle him myself, okay? 1430 01:01:15,383 --> 01:01:17,177 Plus, you know that they're not gonna believe me. 1431 01:01:17,218 --> 01:01:18,636 They're gonna believe him over me, 1432 01:01:18,678 --> 01:01:22,140 especially with that new good pastor on his side. 1433 01:01:22,182 --> 01:01:22,766 God. (dramatic music) 1434 01:01:22,807 --> 01:01:23,975 I got a plan. 1435 01:01:24,017 --> 01:01:26,269 - Okay, then, 'cause you already know 1436 01:01:26,311 --> 01:01:28,313 I'm that ride-or-die sister, 1437 01:01:28,355 --> 01:01:29,773 so tell me what happened, 1438 01:01:29,814 --> 01:01:31,608 and what's the plan? (dramatic music) 1439 01:01:31,649 --> 01:01:32,734 - Okay. 1440 01:01:32,776 --> 01:01:34,527 So, how does it feel 1441 01:01:34,569 --> 01:01:36,321 when the tables are turned, minister? 1442 01:01:37,655 --> 01:01:38,531 - What are you doing? 1443 01:01:38,573 --> 01:01:39,699 Are you crazy? 1444 01:01:39,741 --> 01:01:40,408 You're not gonna get away with this. 1445 01:01:40,450 --> 01:01:41,534 - Oh, really? 1446 01:01:41,576 --> 01:01:43,161 I'm, am I crazy? 1447 01:01:43,203 --> 01:01:44,871 You should be asking yourself that. 1448 01:01:44,913 --> 01:01:47,499 I mean, after you had me captured 1449 01:01:47,540 --> 01:01:50,794 in that five-year long, disgusting marriage with you. 1450 01:01:50,835 --> 01:01:51,628 So, tell me. 1451 01:01:51,670 --> 01:01:53,338 How does it feel? 1452 01:01:53,380 --> 01:01:55,131 - Cut me loose now. 1453 01:01:55,173 --> 01:01:57,592 Are you that stupid like my pastor said you were? 1454 01:01:57,634 --> 01:01:58,551 (Mahogany laughs) 1455 01:01:58,593 --> 01:02:01,513 - Yeah, I believe I am stupid. 1456 01:02:02,972 --> 01:02:04,224 - They're gonna come looking for me. 1457 01:02:04,265 --> 01:02:07,435 - Who, that fake, greedy pastor of yours, baby? 1458 01:02:07,477 --> 01:02:08,687 No, no, no, no. 1459 01:02:08,728 --> 01:02:11,231 See, today was your payday, and so I made sure 1460 01:02:11,272 --> 01:02:14,567 to leave a nice donation in the basket 1461 01:02:14,609 --> 01:02:17,404 along with a note saying that we decided to work things out, 1462 01:02:17,445 --> 01:02:21,741 and we were gonna take a long trip to make things up. 1463 01:02:21,783 --> 01:02:22,617 (Mahogany laughs) 1464 01:02:22,659 --> 01:02:23,993 - You're sick. - Sick. 1465 01:02:24,035 --> 01:02:26,413 - He'll never believe that I'll miss church on Sunday. 1466 01:02:26,454 --> 01:02:30,458 - Uh, yes, he will because, see, I was taught by the best 1467 01:02:30,500 --> 01:02:33,670 that money can buy anything that you need to disappear. 1468 01:02:33,712 --> 01:02:35,255 Oh, how do you feel? 1469 01:02:35,296 --> 01:02:37,632 I hope Starla didn't drug you too much. 1470 01:02:37,674 --> 01:02:39,092 - What do you mean Starla drugged me? 1471 01:02:39,134 --> 01:02:41,386 I never seen her or drank anything she had. 1472 01:02:41,428 --> 01:02:42,554 - Yes, you did, baby. 1473 01:02:42,595 --> 01:02:43,930 Oh, yeah, I forgot you don't like Starla. 1474 01:02:43,972 --> 01:02:45,515 So, we had Aquilla Shine, 1475 01:02:45,557 --> 01:02:48,768 you know, the one you were supposed to marry besides me, 1476 01:02:48,810 --> 01:02:49,769 to give it to you. 1477 01:02:49,811 --> 01:02:51,980 So, who is the stupid one now? 1478 01:02:52,022 --> 01:02:55,650 I asked you, how does it feel, Rasalas? 1479 01:02:55,692 --> 01:02:57,152 - Nah, you're a liar. 1480 01:02:57,193 --> 01:02:58,862 Sister Aquilla would never be like you 1481 01:02:58,903 --> 01:03:01,281 and that harlot friend of yours. 1482 01:03:01,322 --> 01:03:04,826 She's a real wholesome woman that God chose to be my wife. 1483 01:03:04,868 --> 01:03:06,411 - [Mahogany] Really? 1484 01:03:06,453 --> 01:03:10,623 - Now, listen, let me go, and I will not bother you again. 1485 01:03:10,665 --> 01:03:11,916 - Bother me again? 1486 01:03:11,958 --> 01:03:12,959 (Mahogany laughs) 1487 01:03:13,001 --> 01:03:14,919 Now, why should I do that? 1488 01:03:15,712 --> 01:03:17,005 Don't you want me anymore? 1489 01:03:17,839 --> 01:03:19,841 What, you don't want my body? 1490 01:03:19,883 --> 01:03:21,384 I thought you did. 1491 01:03:21,426 --> 01:03:24,304 I mean, you did tell me that by drugging me by gunpoint, 1492 01:03:24,346 --> 01:03:26,389 it, that anytime that I would have sex with you, 1493 01:03:26,431 --> 01:03:27,724 let me think about it, 1494 01:03:27,766 --> 01:03:30,560 you would, you would just make me feel sick, right? 1495 01:03:30,602 --> 01:03:31,978 And I figured maybe this is 1496 01:03:32,020 --> 01:03:34,814 what men want, you know, is to take it. 1497 01:03:34,856 --> 01:03:36,191 So, I'm gonna take it. 1498 01:03:37,525 --> 01:03:39,611 - Look, I'm sorry, okay? 1499 01:03:39,652 --> 01:03:40,779 I moved on. (Mahogany laughs) 1500 01:03:40,820 --> 01:03:42,030 - You moved on? 1501 01:03:42,072 --> 01:03:43,782 Oh, you said that a few times 1502 01:03:43,823 --> 01:03:45,367 when you used the bathroom on me. 1503 01:03:45,408 --> 01:03:46,785 - Used the bathroom? (dramatic music) 1504 01:03:46,826 --> 01:03:47,702 What, what are you talking about? 1505 01:03:47,744 --> 01:03:48,870 Now, you're just making up stuff. 1506 01:03:48,912 --> 01:03:50,663 - Oh, no, I'm not, with that little worm 1507 01:03:50,705 --> 01:03:52,415 that you call a God-given pleasure. 1508 01:03:54,668 --> 01:03:55,460 Please. 1509 01:03:57,420 --> 01:03:58,838 - Listen. 1510 01:03:58,880 --> 01:04:00,674 - Listen, hmm? 1511 01:04:00,715 --> 01:04:02,842 - I said I was sorry. 1512 01:04:02,884 --> 01:04:03,885 - Oh, I'm sorry. - I moved on. 1513 01:04:03,927 --> 01:04:05,929 - You sorry? - I will never bother 1514 01:04:05,970 --> 01:04:06,805 you again. 1515 01:04:06,846 --> 01:04:07,847 I'm gonna get remarried soon. 1516 01:04:07,889 --> 01:04:10,934 - You, to who, Sister Aquilla? 1517 01:04:10,975 --> 01:04:11,976 Oh, that's what you thought. 1518 01:04:12,018 --> 01:04:13,687 (laughing) Now, that's a laugh. 1519 01:04:13,728 --> 01:04:15,605 No, baby, I think you want me. 1520 01:04:16,815 --> 01:04:18,942 - Listen, baby, I know you've been messed up 1521 01:04:18,983 --> 01:04:21,861 by many other people, and I did not go 1522 01:04:21,903 --> 01:04:23,321 about things the right way. 1523 01:04:23,363 --> 01:04:24,030 - Oh. 1524 01:04:24,072 --> 01:04:24,781 - But we can be friends. 1525 01:04:24,823 --> 01:04:25,865 - Friends? 1526 01:04:25,907 --> 01:04:27,033 - What do you need? 1527 01:04:27,075 --> 01:04:29,536 - Admit that you drugged and raped me, 1528 01:04:29,577 --> 01:04:32,789 or I'm gonna start cutting this thing off piece by piece, 1529 01:04:32,831 --> 01:04:34,624 starting with your freaking nuts. 1530 01:04:34,666 --> 01:04:36,835 - Mahogany, baby, listen, okay? 1531 01:04:36,876 --> 01:04:38,878 I will pay your rent for you as long as I need to. 1532 01:04:38,920 --> 01:04:40,171 - I pay my rent. 1533 01:04:40,213 --> 01:04:42,048 - I'll even buy you a car if I need to. 1534 01:04:42,090 --> 01:04:43,717 (sighs) Look, I'll even give you the $1,000 1535 01:04:43,758 --> 01:04:45,468 I give to the church every week. 1536 01:04:45,510 --> 01:04:46,636 - Wait a minute. 1537 01:04:46,678 --> 01:04:48,054 You give the church $1,000 a week 1538 01:04:48,096 --> 01:04:50,682 while we gotta live in a low-income apartment? 1539 01:04:50,724 --> 01:04:51,975 Really? 1540 01:04:52,017 --> 01:04:54,561 No wonder he drives a new truck and has a new suit 1541 01:04:54,602 --> 01:04:57,981 on every Sunday while you still got the same two tired suits 1542 01:04:58,023 --> 01:04:59,816 that you've been wearing for the last seven years. 1543 01:04:59,858 --> 01:05:01,860 Who is the stupid one? 1544 01:05:01,901 --> 01:05:02,819 (dramatic music continues) 1545 01:05:02,861 --> 01:05:04,070 - Listen. 1546 01:05:04,112 --> 01:05:05,655 - (laughs) Listen. - Let me loose, 1547 01:05:05,697 --> 01:05:06,573 and we can talk. 1548 01:05:06,614 --> 01:05:07,824 - [Mahogany] Boy. 1549 01:05:07,866 --> 01:05:09,909 - I never knew that I hurt you that much. 1550 01:05:09,951 --> 01:05:11,244 You're right. 1551 01:05:11,286 --> 01:05:13,371 I do need to find another church so I can understand 1552 01:05:13,413 --> 01:05:14,789 what God is really trying to say. 1553 01:05:14,831 --> 01:05:17,584 - (laughs) What do you think, I'm stupid? 1554 01:05:17,625 --> 01:05:20,378 What I want for you to do, Rasalas, is admit 1555 01:05:20,420 --> 01:05:22,839 that you drugged and raped me, and that you kidnapped me 1556 01:05:22,881 --> 01:05:25,425 at gunpoint, and that the whole church turned 1557 01:05:25,467 --> 01:05:28,094 a deaf ear and a blind eye to what's going on in there. 1558 01:05:28,136 --> 01:05:30,138 Babe, babe, babe, baby. - Baby? 1559 01:05:30,180 --> 01:05:31,806 - Look, look, look, look, look, listen, 1560 01:05:31,848 --> 01:05:32,849 listen. - Yeah, what? 1561 01:05:32,891 --> 01:05:33,641 - You got it all wrong. 1562 01:05:33,683 --> 01:05:34,893 - Got it wrong? - Okay? 1563 01:05:34,934 --> 01:05:37,687 Everything I say to you is from the Bible, 'kay? 1564 01:05:37,729 --> 01:05:39,230 You got it all wrong. 1565 01:05:39,272 --> 01:05:41,149 You've been hanging with those worldly friends 1566 01:05:41,191 --> 01:05:44,944 of yours again, and that Starla, she has a lot of spirits 1567 01:05:44,986 --> 01:05:47,614 in her, and I think they jumped into you, too. 1568 01:05:47,655 --> 01:05:50,617 And I can cast it out of you if you just let me go. 1569 01:05:50,658 --> 01:05:52,660 - You are a joke. 1570 01:05:52,702 --> 01:05:55,872 Something must be really wrong with that brain of yours, 1571 01:05:55,914 --> 01:05:58,291 but maybe we should just do a repeat of events 1572 01:05:58,333 --> 01:06:00,877 of what you did on me, hmm? 1573 01:06:00,919 --> 01:06:01,878 - Wait, we? 1574 01:06:01,920 --> 01:06:02,962 What do- - I wouldn't mind that. 1575 01:06:03,004 --> 01:06:03,797 - [Rasalas] What do you mean we? 1576 01:06:03,838 --> 01:06:04,964 Who's here with you? 1577 01:06:05,006 --> 01:06:06,091 - Me, (laughing) who's here with me? 1578 01:06:06,132 --> 01:06:08,468 Me and the spirits you claim are in me. 1579 01:06:08,510 --> 01:06:11,554 - So, you want to drug and rape me? 1580 01:06:11,596 --> 01:06:13,014 - Don't flatter yourself. 1581 01:06:13,056 --> 01:06:16,184 I would never upset myself with this half a pint 1582 01:06:16,226 --> 01:06:18,937 that you call a God-given pleasure. 1583 01:06:18,978 --> 01:06:20,939 As a matter of fact, I probably should have asked 1584 01:06:20,980 --> 01:06:22,399 for pain and suffering 1585 01:06:22,440 --> 01:06:25,819 for this no-good, actually, ugh, disgusting member. 1586 01:06:25,860 --> 01:06:27,362 And instead of using this big knife, 1587 01:06:27,404 --> 01:06:30,490 I shoulda got my paring knife because that's more your size. 1588 01:06:30,532 --> 01:06:32,909 - Okay, okay, I admit it. 1589 01:06:32,951 --> 01:06:34,661 I took advantage of you some years ago. 1590 01:06:34,703 --> 01:06:36,705 - You admit it. 1591 01:06:36,746 --> 01:06:39,708 And? - And. 1592 01:06:39,749 --> 01:06:41,751 (sighs) And. 1593 01:06:41,793 --> 01:06:42,544 - And? 1594 01:06:43,670 --> 01:06:46,047 - I know you said stop several times, 1595 01:06:47,340 --> 01:06:50,677 and I, and I knew you didn't drink, 1596 01:06:50,719 --> 01:06:54,472 so I put a little something in your wine to relax you. 1597 01:06:54,514 --> 01:06:56,683 And I really messed up by having sex 1598 01:06:56,725 --> 01:06:57,851 without your permission. 1599 01:06:57,892 --> 01:06:59,185 - And you raped me, 1600 01:06:59,227 --> 01:07:02,022 and you, and the pastor agreed it was okay, right? 1601 01:07:02,063 --> 01:07:03,023 - Yes. - God. 1602 01:07:03,064 --> 01:07:05,108 - Pastor Sims knows about it. 1603 01:07:05,150 --> 01:07:06,860 I admitted it to him. 1604 01:07:06,901 --> 01:07:08,695 He thought it would be a good idea 1605 01:07:08,737 --> 01:07:09,988 if we didn't get the law involved 1606 01:07:10,030 --> 01:07:14,075 and that I would just marry you to make it right. 1607 01:07:14,117 --> 01:07:17,162 I was up to being minister, and I needed a wife 1608 01:07:17,203 --> 01:07:19,122 before I got the title. 1609 01:07:19,164 --> 01:07:22,208 - So, you admit that you raped me 1610 01:07:22,250 --> 01:07:26,046 over, and over, and over again, right? 1611 01:07:26,087 --> 01:07:28,006 And the pastor agreed. 1612 01:07:28,048 --> 01:07:29,549 - Yes, you got your confession. 1613 01:07:29,591 --> 01:07:30,300 Now, let me go. 1614 01:07:30,342 --> 01:07:31,384 - Oh, no, no, no, no. 1615 01:07:31,426 --> 01:07:32,969 See, just a few more confessions 1616 01:07:33,011 --> 01:07:36,848 between you, me, and God, okay? 1617 01:07:36,890 --> 01:07:38,475 That night that we had dinner, 1618 01:07:38,516 --> 01:07:41,186 admit to me that you drugged and raped me 1619 01:07:41,227 --> 01:07:44,147 with some street drug, and you dragged me 1620 01:07:44,189 --> 01:07:47,901 outta here, Rasalas, to a hotel to have sex with you. 1621 01:07:47,942 --> 01:07:49,819 - Yes, I did it. 1622 01:07:49,861 --> 01:07:53,823 I went to my cousin's to get something from the projects, 1623 01:07:53,865 --> 01:07:55,408 some type of street drug. 1624 01:07:57,202 --> 01:07:59,913 And I did kidnap you and hold you at gunpoint. 1625 01:07:59,954 --> 01:08:02,248 But that was to keep my marriage. 1626 01:08:02,290 --> 01:08:03,708 But God spoke to me- 1627 01:08:03,750 --> 01:08:04,626 - What- - and said 1628 01:08:04,668 --> 01:08:06,127 that Aquilla was my wife. 1629 01:08:06,169 --> 01:08:07,962 That's why I left you alone. 1630 01:08:08,004 --> 01:08:10,090 (dramatic music continues) 1631 01:08:10,131 --> 01:08:11,174 (Mahogany laughs) 1632 01:08:11,216 --> 01:08:12,217 - Good one. 1633 01:08:13,760 --> 01:08:15,762 - (sighs) You mean to tell me all this time 1634 01:08:15,804 --> 01:08:18,139 you had us thinking that Sister Mahogany was crazy 1635 01:08:18,181 --> 01:08:20,934 and a liar, (laughing) that she was sent from the devil 1636 01:08:20,975 --> 01:08:23,186 to destroy all of God's men? 1637 01:08:23,228 --> 01:08:26,898 And all of this time you and pastor knew the whole time? 1638 01:08:26,940 --> 01:08:28,108 Really, Minister Rasalas? 1639 01:08:28,149 --> 01:08:30,276 - Sister Aquilla. - Yeah. 1640 01:08:31,194 --> 01:08:32,779 - This is a setup, okay? 1641 01:08:32,821 --> 01:08:34,239 She's jealous. 1642 01:08:34,280 --> 01:08:38,034 She's mad because I told her I should marry you and not her 1643 01:08:38,076 --> 01:08:41,121 'cause she's a scarlet, a Jezebel. 1644 01:08:41,162 --> 01:08:43,164 Look, call the police now. 1645 01:08:43,206 --> 01:08:45,458 Her and her friend drugged and kidnapped me. 1646 01:08:45,500 --> 01:08:47,127 - Like you did her several years ago? 1647 01:08:47,168 --> 01:08:48,294 - [Mahogany] Yeah. 1648 01:08:48,336 --> 01:08:49,129 - And not to forget that street drug 1649 01:08:49,170 --> 01:08:50,338 they found in her system 1650 01:08:50,380 --> 01:08:52,882 when she was about to leave your butt. 1651 01:08:52,924 --> 01:08:54,551 - Stop with the lies, devil. 1652 01:08:54,592 --> 01:08:58,096 I heard everything, and you will pay. 1653 01:08:58,138 --> 01:09:00,098 You are sick. 1654 01:09:00,140 --> 01:09:01,141 I would have never married you. 1655 01:09:01,182 --> 01:09:03,643 You were never my type. 1656 01:09:03,685 --> 01:09:05,103 - You are all harlots. 1657 01:09:05,145 --> 01:09:06,479 - What? - You are going to hell. 1658 01:09:06,521 --> 01:09:07,981 (Mahogany laughing) - Mahogany, gimme that knife- 1659 01:09:08,023 --> 01:09:09,315 - No, Starla. - so I can cut this off 1660 01:09:09,357 --> 01:09:11,317 so he'll never be able to use it again. 1661 01:09:11,359 --> 01:09:12,902 - No, don't worry. 1662 01:09:12,944 --> 01:09:16,239 He will not be able to use that to hurt anyone else again. 1663 01:09:16,281 --> 01:09:17,824 And he will not be telling anybody 1664 01:09:17,866 --> 01:09:19,784 what has happened here today, 1665 01:09:19,826 --> 01:09:22,370 not after I allow the bishop hear this confession. 1666 01:09:22,412 --> 01:09:24,205 Him and Pastor Sims will never preach 1667 01:09:24,247 --> 01:09:25,999 at anyone's church again. 1668 01:09:26,041 --> 01:09:27,667 - Let me talk. 1669 01:09:27,709 --> 01:09:29,002 I can pay you all. 1670 01:09:29,044 --> 01:09:30,337 - Pay, really? (dramatic music continues) 1671 01:09:30,378 --> 01:09:32,380 Do you think that money can buy everything, Rasalas, 1672 01:09:32,422 --> 01:09:34,966 all the pain I've been through, the lies I've been told, 1673 01:09:35,008 --> 01:09:37,344 the separation of me and my family? 1674 01:09:37,385 --> 01:09:39,179 - (laughs) No, but me castrating it 1675 01:09:39,220 --> 01:09:40,597 off can start the healing. 1676 01:09:40,638 --> 01:09:41,306 - Mm-hmm. 1677 01:09:41,348 --> 01:09:42,766 - Let me cut him. 1678 01:09:42,807 --> 01:09:43,850 - Wait a minute, no. 1679 01:09:43,892 --> 01:09:45,477 Like Sister Aquilla says, 1680 01:09:45,518 --> 01:09:49,522 'cause once bishop hears this confession, 1681 01:09:49,564 --> 01:09:53,276 Pastor Sims and Rasalas, they will have a lotta hell 1682 01:09:53,318 --> 01:09:56,112 to pay, and that's payment enough. 1683 01:09:56,154 --> 01:09:58,073 So, I'm gonna untie him. 1684 01:09:58,114 --> 01:10:02,077 (dramatic music continues) 1685 01:10:02,118 --> 01:10:05,747 - So, so what happened after you released him? 1686 01:10:05,789 --> 01:10:07,207 Did he go to the police? 1687 01:10:07,248 --> 01:10:09,918 I mean, did the confession go to the bishop? 1688 01:10:09,959 --> 01:10:12,587 I mean, how did you resolve your problem with him? 1689 01:10:12,629 --> 01:10:16,174 - To answer all those questions, yes, I released him, 1690 01:10:16,216 --> 01:10:17,759 but, and he was begging us not 1691 01:10:17,801 --> 01:10:20,095 to, you know, say anything 'cause he wanted 1692 01:10:20,136 --> 01:10:23,807 to save his pastorship and his career. 1693 01:10:23,848 --> 01:10:26,226 But it was time for him and Pastor Sims 1694 01:10:26,267 --> 01:10:28,728 to just face their consequences, you know? 1695 01:10:30,480 --> 01:10:33,233 And, uh, after some years, I had found out 1696 01:10:33,274 --> 01:10:37,112 that he had remarried and started his own church. 1697 01:10:37,153 --> 01:10:39,114 - Oh, wow, really? 1698 01:10:39,155 --> 01:10:40,573 - Mm-hmm. 1699 01:10:40,615 --> 01:10:43,201 - So, I mean, how did that make you feel after he hurt you 1700 01:10:43,243 --> 01:10:46,538 like he did, and he went and got remarried 1701 01:10:46,579 --> 01:10:48,123 and started another church? 1702 01:10:48,164 --> 01:10:49,958 - To be honest, I was angry with God. 1703 01:10:50,000 --> 01:10:53,420 I mean, how could you allow this man to use your word 1704 01:10:53,461 --> 01:10:56,131 to falsely just abuse people? 1705 01:10:56,172 --> 01:10:58,466 He was damaging souls, Ms. White. 1706 01:11:00,135 --> 01:11:01,428 God. 1707 01:11:01,469 --> 01:11:03,013 And then I felt bad for the woman that he was with, 1708 01:11:03,054 --> 01:11:05,265 thinking maybe she went through the same thing I did. 1709 01:11:05,306 --> 01:11:06,391 (gentle music) 1710 01:11:06,433 --> 01:11:08,018 - So, okay, so he left the church. 1711 01:11:08,059 --> 01:11:09,644 What, what happened to the pastor? 1712 01:11:10,895 --> 01:11:12,439 - Well, the pastor was still running his church, 1713 01:11:12,480 --> 01:11:15,942 and, um, he wasn't, 1714 01:11:15,984 --> 01:11:18,611 you know, too full nowadays 1715 01:11:18,653 --> 01:11:20,113 because he had lost some members- 1716 01:11:20,155 --> 01:11:22,657 - Mm-hmm. - when the truth was told. 1717 01:11:22,699 --> 01:11:25,702 But some people stayed under that false leadership. 1718 01:11:25,744 --> 01:11:27,746 - Yeah, you know, I did some research on that, 1719 01:11:27,787 --> 01:11:31,249 like cults and things like that, and a lotta people, 1720 01:11:31,291 --> 01:11:33,376 they get really comfortable, and it's hard for them 1721 01:11:33,418 --> 01:11:34,878 to leave after a while. 1722 01:11:35,837 --> 01:11:38,840 - Yeah, well, I felt like a failure. 1723 01:11:41,092 --> 01:11:43,970 You know, no matter what I did, 1724 01:11:44,012 --> 01:11:46,181 it seemed like it just wasn't good enough, you know. 1725 01:11:46,222 --> 01:11:48,433 I, I just couldn't be proud of myself 1726 01:11:48,475 --> 01:11:50,685 even with raising my children. 1727 01:11:50,727 --> 01:11:53,438 I just felt like a void was missing. 1728 01:11:53,480 --> 01:11:56,191 - Listen, you are not a failure, Mahogany, 1729 01:11:56,232 --> 01:11:57,859 and I don't wanna hear you say that 1730 01:11:57,901 --> 01:12:00,320 because, yes, you've been through a lot, 1731 01:12:00,362 --> 01:12:02,322 but there are people who have done the same thing, 1732 01:12:02,364 --> 01:12:04,532 but they've committed suicide. 1733 01:12:04,574 --> 01:12:06,242 They're drinking alcohol. 1734 01:12:06,284 --> 01:12:07,452 They're taking drugs. 1735 01:12:07,494 --> 01:12:11,498 Listen, your story is gonna free so many. 1736 01:12:11,539 --> 01:12:14,167 - Well, my alcohol and my drug was the pain 1737 01:12:14,209 --> 01:12:16,086 that I endured from the men. 1738 01:12:16,127 --> 01:12:16,920 That's all I knew. 1739 01:12:18,463 --> 01:12:21,383 - So, what did you do after that? 1740 01:12:23,134 --> 01:12:26,513 - Well, I became celibate, 1741 01:12:28,181 --> 01:12:30,517 and I started an outreach ministry. 1742 01:12:31,476 --> 01:12:32,936 You know, I wanted to help people 1743 01:12:32,977 --> 01:12:38,942 like children, and, uh, homeless people, and women like me 1744 01:12:38,983 --> 01:12:40,151 that had been through the same thing. 1745 01:12:41,569 --> 01:12:43,863 - [Celeste] So, did you get in another relationship? 1746 01:12:43,905 --> 01:12:44,572 (gentle music continues) 1747 01:12:44,614 --> 01:12:45,532 - Yes, after 12 years. 1748 01:12:46,700 --> 01:12:48,076 - So, is this the marriage that led you 1749 01:12:48,118 --> 01:12:50,245 to the agency about a month ago? 1750 01:12:50,286 --> 01:12:51,871 - Yes, that's the one. 1751 01:12:51,913 --> 01:12:54,749 When I came to your agency that day, 1752 01:12:54,791 --> 01:12:58,795 I wanted to kill him for taking my life for 12 years. 1753 01:12:58,837 --> 01:13:01,339 - Um, okay, so can you elaborate on that? 1754 01:13:01,381 --> 01:13:02,549 I mean, I got here in my notes 1755 01:13:02,590 --> 01:13:04,592 that someone was in danger, 1756 01:13:04,634 --> 01:13:06,302 and it was a matter of life or death. 1757 01:13:06,344 --> 01:13:08,388 - Yeah, I guess it was life or death 1758 01:13:08,430 --> 01:13:10,598 because I wanted to kill him that day. 1759 01:13:11,766 --> 01:13:14,144 - Okay, so what was so different about this marriage 1760 01:13:14,185 --> 01:13:17,480 that make you wanna get in that mindset to kill someone? 1761 01:13:17,522 --> 01:13:19,733 - Where do you want me to start? 1762 01:13:19,774 --> 01:13:23,153 Because this marriage was so different. 1763 01:13:23,194 --> 01:13:24,404 You know, I really wanted 1764 01:13:24,446 --> 01:13:30,118 to kill him or kill myself. (laughs) 1765 01:13:30,160 --> 01:13:31,327 - Um. 1766 01:13:31,369 --> 01:13:32,245 (Mahogany laughing) 1767 01:13:32,287 --> 01:13:33,038 - Ooh. - Mahogany, 1768 01:13:33,079 --> 01:13:33,747 do we need to stop? 1769 01:13:33,788 --> 01:13:34,622 Do you need a moment? 1770 01:13:34,664 --> 01:13:36,124 - (laughing) No, I'm fine. 1771 01:13:36,166 --> 01:13:37,751 I want to get all of this out while I can, Ms. White. 1772 01:13:37,792 --> 01:13:38,418 - Okay. 1773 01:13:38,460 --> 01:13:39,586 - You know. 1774 01:13:41,338 --> 01:13:42,547 It's been a while since I've thought 1775 01:13:42,589 --> 01:13:45,258 about killing someone in that type of way, 1776 01:13:45,300 --> 01:13:47,260 I mean, murdering a man like that. 1777 01:13:47,302 --> 01:13:48,720 The last time I remember doing that was 1778 01:13:48,762 --> 01:13:50,180 when my brother got killed, 1779 01:13:50,221 --> 01:13:51,848 and I wanted to kill his murderer. 1780 01:13:51,890 --> 01:13:54,601 You know, he, he just made me go to a place, 1781 01:13:54,642 --> 01:13:56,478 to a person I hated- 1782 01:13:56,519 --> 01:13:57,437 - Well- - to become. 1783 01:13:57,479 --> 01:13:59,397 - Well, well who did you become? 1784 01:13:59,439 --> 01:14:05,236 - I became suicidal, low self-esteem again. 1785 01:14:05,278 --> 01:14:06,488 You know, it was just 1786 01:14:06,529 --> 01:14:09,240 like that damaged goods thing was just lingering 1787 01:14:09,282 --> 01:14:11,159 over my head like everyone said. 1788 01:14:12,327 --> 01:14:15,497 I was becoming what my mother wanted me to be, 1789 01:14:15,538 --> 01:14:17,207 that little girl. 1790 01:14:17,248 --> 01:14:18,291 - Hmm. 1791 01:14:18,333 --> 01:14:19,751 Okay, so tell me about that. 1792 01:14:19,793 --> 01:14:21,503 Talk, let's talk about the relationship 1793 01:14:21,544 --> 01:14:22,629 with you and your mother. 1794 01:14:22,671 --> 01:14:24,964 - I never had one, Ms. White. 1795 01:14:25,006 --> 01:14:27,258 And when I tried, it still was unstable. 1796 01:14:28,885 --> 01:14:31,471 - Okay, well, do you wanna talk about it? 1797 01:14:31,513 --> 01:14:32,806 (Mahogany scoffs) 1798 01:14:32,847 --> 01:14:36,351 - Even though I was going through in my own marriage 1799 01:14:36,393 --> 01:14:37,852 and having hardships- 1800 01:14:37,894 --> 01:14:39,479 - Mm-hmm. 1801 01:14:39,521 --> 01:14:41,523 - I still rearranged my life for her. 1802 01:14:42,399 --> 01:14:44,484 - Okay, so what happened to make you have 1803 01:14:44,526 --> 01:14:47,320 to rearrange your life for your mom? 1804 01:14:47,362 --> 01:14:49,322 - Well, she had became critically ill. 1805 01:14:49,364 --> 01:14:50,573 - [Celeste] Mm-hmm. 1806 01:14:50,615 --> 01:14:51,741 - And I had to go out of town, and get her, 1807 01:14:51,783 --> 01:14:54,452 and bring her back to my home with me. 1808 01:14:54,494 --> 01:14:55,787 - Okay. 1809 01:14:55,829 --> 01:14:58,873 - And this was the worst thing that I could have did 1810 01:14:58,915 --> 01:15:00,834 because I still had to experience, 1811 01:15:00,875 --> 01:15:04,004 like, rejection, neglect- (hands smacking) 1812 01:15:04,045 --> 01:15:04,879 - [Celeste] Wow. 1813 01:15:04,921 --> 01:15:06,756 - and, and abuse, mental abuse- 1814 01:15:06,798 --> 01:15:08,425 - [Celeste] Mm-hmm. 1815 01:15:08,466 --> 01:15:09,551 - from her. 1816 01:15:10,510 --> 01:15:11,302 - Wow. 1817 01:15:13,430 --> 01:15:17,934 - Mahogany, I'm not gonna let you 1818 01:15:17,976 --> 01:15:20,270 and nobody else hold me to my past. 1819 01:15:21,896 --> 01:15:25,567 Why do you keep living in the past? 1820 01:15:26,901 --> 01:15:28,111 - Mom. 1821 01:15:28,153 --> 01:15:29,529 - Just because you are allowing what happened 1822 01:15:29,571 --> 01:15:32,365 over 30 years ago ruin your life don't mean 1823 01:15:32,407 --> 01:15:33,742 I'm gonna let it ruin mine. 1824 01:15:35,493 --> 01:15:38,038 - Ma, (dramatic music) 1825 01:15:38,079 --> 01:15:40,915 all I was trying to do is 1826 01:15:40,957 --> 01:15:43,585 get you to understand what I have been through, 1827 01:15:44,753 --> 01:15:46,338 what me and my sister have been through 1828 01:15:46,379 --> 01:15:51,676 with the, with the men that you brought into our lives. 1829 01:15:51,718 --> 01:15:55,597 You will never admit or say sorry for anything, will you? 1830 01:15:57,182 --> 01:15:59,059 All I was trying to do was just bring us closer 1831 01:15:59,100 --> 01:16:01,478 by admitting what me and my sister had been 1832 01:16:01,519 --> 01:16:02,771 through with the men. 1833 01:16:04,773 --> 01:16:08,276 All I ever wanted was for you to say I'm sorry 1834 01:16:08,318 --> 01:16:10,195 and forgive me. 1835 01:16:10,236 --> 01:16:12,655 (Mahogany sobbing) 1836 01:16:12,697 --> 01:16:16,618 - My being here right now should be enough. 1837 01:16:18,620 --> 01:16:20,705 My past is my past. 1838 01:16:22,999 --> 01:16:23,792 - [Mahogany] Ma. 1839 01:16:27,545 --> 01:16:29,130 - Get over it. 1840 01:16:30,548 --> 01:16:31,341 - Ma. 1841 01:16:35,679 --> 01:16:39,849 - So, you didn't get the I love you, or the forgiveness, 1842 01:16:39,891 --> 01:16:43,395 or the I'm sorry that you needed from your mother? 1843 01:16:43,436 --> 01:16:45,647 - Yes, in a way, I did. 1844 01:16:45,689 --> 01:16:48,566 You know, it was after her funeral, though. 1845 01:16:48,608 --> 01:16:51,236 I found it in a box of her things. 1846 01:16:51,277 --> 01:16:52,654 She had wrote me a letter. 1847 01:16:53,947 --> 01:16:57,492 But I wanted her to tell me in person, you know, 1848 01:16:57,534 --> 01:16:59,661 to, to be there, you know, 1849 01:16:59,703 --> 01:17:03,790 to hug me like a mother would do a child 1850 01:17:03,832 --> 01:17:05,458 when they're hurting. 1851 01:17:05,500 --> 01:17:06,876 - I understand that. 1852 01:17:06,918 --> 01:17:09,212 I mean, you probably wanted to hear those words directly 1853 01:17:09,254 --> 01:17:11,631 from your mother, and I know that's hard 1854 01:17:11,673 --> 01:17:14,134 because that's a feeling that we all long for, 1855 01:17:15,135 --> 01:17:16,636 and it seems like she just didn't love you 1856 01:17:16,678 --> 01:17:18,638 the way that she needed to. 1857 01:17:18,680 --> 01:17:21,266 But you know, I think she expressed herself 1858 01:17:21,307 --> 01:17:24,436 the only way she knew how, and that was through a letter. 1859 01:17:24,477 --> 01:17:25,854 - Yeah. 1860 01:17:25,895 --> 01:17:28,148 - I mean, some people can't express themselves verbally. 1861 01:17:28,189 --> 01:17:30,650 And I mean, I learned that from my own parents. 1862 01:17:30,692 --> 01:17:32,652 - I believe that, too. 1863 01:17:32,694 --> 01:17:35,905 You know, in so many ways, I'm like her. (laughs) 1864 01:17:35,947 --> 01:17:38,658 You know, I express myself and how I feel 1865 01:17:38,700 --> 01:17:40,326 about people in my writing. 1866 01:17:41,578 --> 01:17:43,663 - Hmm, so did the letter, 1867 01:17:43,705 --> 01:17:45,874 did it give you any comfort or any release? 1868 01:17:45,915 --> 01:17:47,542 How did you cope with her death? 1869 01:17:47,584 --> 01:17:50,879 - In a way, you know, I truly felt my mother really loved me 1870 01:17:52,172 --> 01:17:54,215 and that she was sorry for what I had been through. 1871 01:17:54,257 --> 01:17:55,508 - [Celeste] Mm-hmm. 1872 01:17:55,550 --> 01:17:58,595 - She just didn't know how to express it, you know? 1873 01:17:58,636 --> 01:18:02,807 But if she truly got herself right with God, 1874 01:18:02,849 --> 01:18:05,268 (dramatic music continues) 1875 01:18:05,310 --> 01:18:09,356 then I'm okay with that, and that's okay with my soul. 1876 01:18:09,397 --> 01:18:11,483 - So, so let's switch gears. 1877 01:18:11,524 --> 01:18:12,609 Let's talk about the events that led 1878 01:18:12,650 --> 01:18:14,861 to you divorcing your third husband. 1879 01:18:16,404 --> 01:18:20,325 - Well, honestly, 1880 01:18:20,367 --> 01:18:21,951 I never seen this one coming. 1881 01:18:23,203 --> 01:18:26,289 No one could have ever prepared me for this one. 1882 01:18:26,331 --> 01:18:28,333 And do you know that I was blamed again 1883 01:18:28,375 --> 01:18:30,210 and told that this was my fault? 1884 01:18:30,251 --> 01:18:32,587 All my life, I've been told, "You know what? 1885 01:18:32,629 --> 01:18:34,255 You brought this on yourself." 1886 01:18:37,050 --> 01:18:38,677 And me and him, we dated for two years 1887 01:18:38,718 --> 01:18:40,345 before we got married. 1888 01:18:40,387 --> 01:18:42,764 - So, everything was good for two years, 1889 01:18:42,806 --> 01:18:46,226 I mean, no signs, nothing to make you think differently? 1890 01:18:46,267 --> 01:18:48,687 - I mean, we had our ups and downs 1891 01:18:48,728 --> 01:18:50,522 but nothing that we couldn't work through. 1892 01:18:52,357 --> 01:18:54,651 And plus, he was the only man that I ever trusted 1893 01:18:54,693 --> 01:18:56,611 besides my brother. 1894 01:18:56,653 --> 01:18:57,904 - Hmm. 1895 01:18:57,946 --> 01:19:00,365 - I never realized that I was with a, a womanizer, 1896 01:19:00,407 --> 01:19:02,742 a, a, a narcissist, a liar, 1897 01:19:02,784 --> 01:19:05,954 a whoremonger, a manipulator. (hand smacking) 1898 01:19:05,995 --> 01:19:09,124 So, are you ready to hear this one? 1899 01:19:10,375 --> 01:19:11,126 - Yes. 1900 01:19:12,377 --> 01:19:14,546 - Now, your problem is you got trust issues. 1901 01:19:14,587 --> 01:19:15,463 (Mahogany laughs) 1902 01:19:15,505 --> 01:19:16,840 Your past messed you all up. 1903 01:19:18,299 --> 01:19:20,427 - So, you gonna stand there and act like I'm crazy, right? 1904 01:19:20,468 --> 01:19:23,763 Like in my heart, I didn't see the Facebook messages 1905 01:19:23,805 --> 01:19:26,766 of you telling women that I'm crazy 1906 01:19:26,808 --> 01:19:29,978 and that you're not happy with me, Antares. 1907 01:19:30,020 --> 01:19:30,937 Really? 1908 01:19:30,979 --> 01:19:32,605 Hmm. 1909 01:19:32,647 --> 01:19:34,566 If you're not happy, then you can leave 1910 01:19:34,607 --> 01:19:36,776 'cause I'm not begging you to stay. 1911 01:19:36,818 --> 01:19:40,822 - Like I said, you're naive and dumb. 1912 01:19:40,864 --> 01:19:41,656 - Mm-hmm. 1913 01:19:41,698 --> 01:19:43,491 - They're lying to you. 1914 01:19:43,533 --> 01:19:44,701 The people I was with last night 1915 01:19:44,743 --> 01:19:46,870 I look at like sisters to me. 1916 01:19:46,911 --> 01:19:48,496 Woman, we grew up together. 1917 01:19:48,538 --> 01:19:51,416 - The only thing I did dumb is believing that you were a man 1918 01:19:51,458 --> 01:19:53,960 of God when you're acting like you're different 1919 01:19:54,002 --> 01:19:55,337 when you're all the same, 1920 01:19:56,796 --> 01:19:59,632 coming dressed up in God's clothes, and reading God's word, 1921 01:19:59,674 --> 01:20:02,052 and you don't even know nothing about it. 1922 01:20:03,470 --> 01:20:04,262 God. 1923 01:20:05,055 --> 01:20:06,931 Just to get what you want. 1924 01:20:09,267 --> 01:20:13,271 - You know, your people probably messed you up pretty bad, 1925 01:20:13,313 --> 01:20:16,024 but I'm only here to help you out. 1926 01:20:16,066 --> 01:20:16,608 - Hmm. 1927 01:20:18,234 --> 01:20:19,486 Help me? - Yeah. 1928 01:20:19,527 --> 01:20:20,445 - By lying to me? 1929 01:20:21,738 --> 01:20:22,822 Really, Antares? 1930 01:20:22,864 --> 01:20:24,366 You done lied. 1931 01:20:24,407 --> 01:20:25,825 You cheated with my cousin. 1932 01:20:25,867 --> 01:20:28,828 You cheated with my goddaughter and lied 1933 01:20:28,870 --> 01:20:30,538 and the women in the ministry, too, 1934 01:20:31,623 --> 01:20:35,627 telling everybody that I'm a witch and that I'm crazy. 1935 01:20:35,669 --> 01:20:36,461 (Antares laugh) 1936 01:20:36,503 --> 01:20:37,837 Really, Antares? 1937 01:20:37,879 --> 01:20:39,881 - You see, that's exactly what I'm talking about. 1938 01:20:39,923 --> 01:20:41,424 You are crazy. 1939 01:20:41,466 --> 01:20:42,384 - [Mahogany] Mm. 1940 01:20:42,425 --> 01:20:43,635 - You believe all that mess 1941 01:20:43,677 --> 01:20:45,804 when the whole time they want me. 1942 01:20:45,845 --> 01:20:47,889 Got you thinking I really want them. 1943 01:20:49,015 --> 01:20:52,435 - You keep just acting like I'm stupid and watch God. 1944 01:20:52,477 --> 01:20:54,354 (Antares sighs) 1945 01:20:54,396 --> 01:20:57,232 - Look here, babe, I married you. 1946 01:20:58,525 --> 01:21:02,696 A lot of women wanted me, but I decided to marry you. 1947 01:21:02,737 --> 01:21:08,576 So, your friends and your little cousins are only jealous 1948 01:21:08,618 --> 01:21:09,411 'cause I don't want them. 1949 01:21:10,537 --> 01:21:13,456 - Wow, really, and everybody wants Antares? 1950 01:21:13,498 --> 01:21:14,582 - You dang gone stippy 1951 01:21:14,624 --> 01:21:15,417 everybody wants me. - Mm-hmm. 1952 01:21:15,458 --> 01:21:16,209 - Look at me. 1953 01:21:17,252 --> 01:21:18,044 I sing. 1954 01:21:19,295 --> 01:21:21,381 You know, every woman loves a man that can sing. 1955 01:21:21,423 --> 01:21:22,799 - [Mahogany] Mm-hmm. 1956 01:21:22,841 --> 01:21:26,428 - I look good, and I'm a good man. 1957 01:21:26,469 --> 01:21:29,431 So, don't let nobody poison your little mind. 1958 01:21:29,472 --> 01:21:30,849 - Poison me? 1959 01:21:30,890 --> 01:21:34,853 The only one poisoning me is you with your lies, Antares. 1960 01:21:34,894 --> 01:21:37,897 Got people thinking I'm crazy and I'm stupid. 1961 01:21:37,939 --> 01:21:38,940 You know what? 1962 01:21:38,982 --> 01:21:40,108 I'm just so over this conversation. 1963 01:21:40,150 --> 01:21:41,943 I gotta go to ministry, too. 1964 01:21:41,985 --> 01:21:43,236 I'll talk to you later. 1965 01:21:44,112 --> 01:21:47,824 (footsteps plodding) 1966 01:21:47,866 --> 01:21:50,744 - You remarried, and then this husband, 1967 01:21:50,785 --> 01:21:52,162 he's committing infidelity? 1968 01:21:52,203 --> 01:21:53,413 - Yes. 1969 01:21:53,455 --> 01:21:56,875 You know, and I waited 12 years to remarry, 1970 01:21:56,916 --> 01:21:58,418 (pen clicking) 1971 01:21:58,460 --> 01:22:01,546 and I thought that this one was the one. 1972 01:22:01,588 --> 01:22:03,882 But, boy, was I wrong again. 1973 01:22:03,923 --> 01:22:05,342 - I know that had to have been hurtful, 1974 01:22:05,383 --> 01:22:07,844 especially after you just started trusting again 1975 01:22:07,886 --> 01:22:10,055 and falling in real love. 1976 01:22:10,096 --> 01:22:12,349 - Yeah, but maybe Lemar was right, you know, 1977 01:22:12,390 --> 01:22:15,477 that I'm just stupid and dumb to believe in people. 1978 01:22:15,518 --> 01:22:19,439 - Mahogany, never feel that you're dumb or stupid. 1979 01:22:19,481 --> 01:22:22,442 I mean, God has a purpose and a plan for your life. 1980 01:22:22,484 --> 01:22:25,570 I mean, we all make mistakes, and we trust the wrong people. 1981 01:22:25,612 --> 01:22:26,821 But give yourself some credit. 1982 01:22:26,863 --> 01:22:28,073 - Credit? 1983 01:22:28,114 --> 01:22:29,282 And I'm just tired of believing 1984 01:22:29,324 --> 01:22:31,409 that God has something good for me. 1985 01:22:32,535 --> 01:22:35,789 Oh, God, you know, 1986 01:22:35,830 --> 01:22:38,792 I will never, ever trust 1987 01:22:38,833 --> 01:22:41,961 or believe in a man again in my life. 1988 01:22:42,003 --> 01:22:45,256 God, this man Antares did the unthinkable. 1989 01:22:45,298 --> 01:22:46,841 - So, so, what did he do? 1990 01:22:46,883 --> 01:22:48,134 I mean, what was the unthinkable, 1991 01:22:48,176 --> 01:22:50,512 I mean, to make it be him or you? 1992 01:22:51,596 --> 01:22:55,308 - Let's just say he took me back to my past, way back. 1993 01:22:55,350 --> 01:23:00,063 But this time, he stuck the knife so deep in my heart 1994 01:23:00,105 --> 01:23:02,357 that there was no return from this. 1995 01:23:05,402 --> 01:23:07,987 He had drained the life outta me. 1996 01:23:08,029 --> 01:23:09,280 I became so cold. 1997 01:23:10,281 --> 01:23:14,244 You know, I gave this man 15 years of my life. 1998 01:23:14,285 --> 01:23:15,036 - Wow. 1999 01:23:16,788 --> 01:23:18,164 - Oh, I can't believe this. 2000 01:23:18,206 --> 01:23:20,333 Can't wait till I actually get, hey. 2001 01:23:20,375 --> 01:23:21,418 - Hey, girl. 2002 01:23:21,459 --> 01:23:22,961 - Ah, I was just talking about you, girl. 2003 01:23:23,003 --> 01:23:24,921 Electra, God better come down from heaven to Earth 2004 01:23:24,963 --> 01:23:26,339 and deal with me today. 2005 01:23:26,381 --> 01:23:29,134 Look at this mess that this devil wrote to my daughter. 2006 01:23:29,175 --> 01:23:30,927 I can't believe that he would just do this to me. 2007 01:23:30,969 --> 01:23:32,429 Just read this mess. 2008 01:23:32,470 --> 01:23:34,723 This don't make no sense, and you might have to lock me up. 2009 01:23:34,764 --> 01:23:35,974 - Wait a minute. - Girl. 2010 01:23:36,016 --> 01:23:36,933 - Just, just calm down, Mahogany. 2011 01:23:36,975 --> 01:23:38,226 - Please. - Calm down. 2012 01:23:38,268 --> 01:23:40,186 Nothing in the world is that bad it make you want 2013 01:23:40,228 --> 01:23:41,146 to kill somebody. 2014 01:23:41,187 --> 01:23:42,647 (Mahogany scoffs and laughs) 2015 01:23:42,689 --> 01:23:44,858 Although you probably should have killed him a long time ago 2016 01:23:44,899 --> 01:23:46,860 with all his cheating and lying ways. 2017 01:23:46,901 --> 01:23:48,278 And you already know, personally, me, 2018 01:23:48,319 --> 01:23:49,529 I woulda killed him as soon 2019 01:23:49,571 --> 01:23:51,031 as I found out he was sleeping with my cousin, 2020 01:23:51,072 --> 01:23:52,866 your so-called goddaughter. 2021 01:23:52,907 --> 01:23:53,908 - Just read that mess right there 2022 01:23:53,950 --> 01:23:56,036 because, after today, he is dead. 2023 01:23:56,077 --> 01:23:57,537 I can promise you that. 2024 01:23:57,579 --> 01:24:00,915 I can't believe that this scum with stoop this low. 2025 01:24:00,957 --> 01:24:01,875 Girl. 2026 01:24:01,916 --> 01:24:02,876 - Okay, I'm gonna read it. 2027 01:24:02,917 --> 01:24:04,002 I'm gonna read it, okay? 2028 01:24:04,044 --> 01:24:05,086 But I'm gonna tell you this. 2029 01:24:05,128 --> 01:24:06,379 I didn't come here to catch no case. 2030 01:24:06,421 --> 01:24:08,965 - Mm-hmm. - But I can, and I will. 2031 01:24:09,007 --> 01:24:10,383 (Mahogany scoffs) 2032 01:24:10,425 --> 01:24:12,385 - You might catch a couple after you read that. 2033 01:24:12,427 --> 01:24:14,888 - Wait. (Mahogany laughs) 2034 01:24:14,929 --> 01:24:16,181 What? - Mm-hmm. 2035 01:24:18,308 --> 01:24:19,601 - What, what the heck? 2036 01:24:21,853 --> 01:24:23,063 You're kidding me, right? 2037 01:24:23,104 --> 01:24:24,647 (Mahogany laughs) 2038 01:24:24,689 --> 01:24:26,149 Girl, where is Diamond? 2039 01:24:27,609 --> 01:24:30,695 First of all, we not gonna let this kill you, okay? 2040 01:24:30,737 --> 01:24:32,072 But give me a minute, baby girl, 2041 01:24:32,113 --> 01:24:34,240 'cause, uh, Lord knows I need one. 2042 01:24:34,282 --> 01:24:35,325 Hold on. - Mm-hmm. 2043 01:24:36,785 --> 01:24:38,536 - (sighs) Girl. 2044 01:24:38,578 --> 01:24:39,287 Wait a minute. 2045 01:24:40,497 --> 01:24:43,625 Did he just say, did he just ask her for sex? 2046 01:24:45,293 --> 01:24:49,714 Talking about sit on his face for $50, $50? 2047 01:24:49,756 --> 01:24:50,590 Oh, no. 2048 01:24:50,632 --> 01:24:51,758 (Mahogany clicks tongue) 2049 01:24:51,800 --> 01:24:53,301 - Now you see why I want to kill this devil? 2050 01:24:53,343 --> 01:24:56,012 - He, girl, he say that he been digging her 2051 01:24:56,054 --> 01:24:57,514 for the last 10 years. 2052 01:24:57,555 --> 01:24:58,181 (Mahogany scoffs) 2053 01:24:58,223 --> 01:24:59,265 10 years, Mahogany? 2054 01:24:59,307 --> 01:25:00,558 - [Mahogany] Mm-hmm. 2055 01:25:00,600 --> 01:25:01,768 - That's 10 years of your marriage. 2056 01:25:01,810 --> 01:25:02,602 - I don't wanna hear it. 2057 01:25:02,644 --> 01:25:03,770 I know. 2058 01:25:03,812 --> 01:25:06,106 - Girl, where is Diamond? 2059 01:25:06,147 --> 01:25:07,023 (Mahogany laughs) 2060 01:25:07,065 --> 01:25:08,441 - She don't wanna be here. 2061 01:25:08,483 --> 01:25:09,943 Electra, she blaming herself thinking 2062 01:25:09,984 --> 01:25:11,861 she did something wrong just for coming 2063 01:25:11,903 --> 01:25:15,281 down to help her mom while I do my chemo treatments. 2064 01:25:15,323 --> 01:25:17,367 - This is not Diamond's fault. 2065 01:25:17,409 --> 01:25:19,119 It's that man's fault. 2066 01:25:19,160 --> 01:25:20,370 How in the world can he wanna sleep 2067 01:25:20,412 --> 01:25:22,163 with his own wife's daughter? 2068 01:25:22,914 --> 01:25:23,873 You know what, sis? 2069 01:25:25,250 --> 01:25:27,961 It's time to cut that little thingy thing thing he got 2070 01:25:28,003 --> 01:25:29,212 he called a snake. 2071 01:25:29,254 --> 01:25:30,714 We need to cut it off and hand it to him 2072 01:25:30,755 --> 01:25:31,965 on a silver platter- 2073 01:25:32,007 --> 01:25:34,801 - Yeah. - 'cause he just nasty. 2074 01:25:34,843 --> 01:25:35,677 But you know what? 2075 01:25:37,012 --> 01:25:39,389 I'm just saying I always thought it was a man lover. 2076 01:25:39,431 --> 01:25:40,598 - Hmm. 2077 01:25:40,640 --> 01:25:42,517 Now, you see why I want to kill this monster? 2078 01:25:42,559 --> 01:25:46,146 - I am so hurt for you, Mahogany, girl, for you even trying 2079 01:25:46,187 --> 01:25:48,732 to stay and work things out in this marriage- 2080 01:25:48,773 --> 01:25:49,441 - Ugh. - after all 2081 01:25:49,482 --> 01:25:50,859 he's put you through. 2082 01:25:50,900 --> 01:25:54,154 - Yeah, just imagine how my daughter felt, Electra. 2083 01:25:54,195 --> 01:25:55,780 She don't wanna be here. 2084 01:25:55,822 --> 01:25:58,658 You know what, this marriage, though, it is completely over. 2085 01:25:58,700 --> 01:26:00,118 It's finished. 2086 01:26:00,160 --> 01:26:03,371 No man is gonna ever come between me and mine. 2087 01:26:03,413 --> 01:26:07,792 You know, I am not my mother, and I would never be her. 2088 01:26:07,834 --> 01:26:09,919 - Diamond looked up to him as a father. 2089 01:26:09,961 --> 01:26:11,254 - Mm-hmm. 2090 01:26:11,296 --> 01:26:13,590 - And I never seen her look at him in any other way. 2091 01:26:13,631 --> 01:26:14,591 (Mahogany laughs) 2092 01:26:14,632 --> 01:26:15,342 (Electra laughs) 2093 01:26:15,383 --> 01:26:17,177 For him to disrespect you- 2094 01:26:17,218 --> 01:26:19,346 - Yeah. - as her mother 2095 01:26:19,387 --> 01:26:21,014 and her as his daughter- 2096 01:26:21,056 --> 01:26:22,349 - Hmm. 2097 01:26:22,390 --> 01:26:26,353 - Girl, right here makes me want to hate him. 2098 01:26:26,394 --> 01:26:28,146 - I know. - Oh, girl, 2099 01:26:28,188 --> 01:26:30,482 I do hate him. 2100 01:26:30,523 --> 01:26:33,526 No, (laughs) matter of fact, hate is an understatement. 2101 01:26:33,568 --> 01:26:34,694 - Hmm. 2102 01:26:34,736 --> 01:26:37,030 - If I could lose my job at the prison 2103 01:26:37,072 --> 01:26:38,948 for castrating his butt myself- 2104 01:26:38,990 --> 01:26:39,866 - Mm-hmm. 2105 01:26:39,908 --> 01:26:41,117 - girl, you know I would. 2106 01:26:41,159 --> 01:26:42,243 - Yeah. 2107 01:26:42,285 --> 01:26:43,411 - But you know what? 2108 01:26:43,453 --> 01:26:44,537 - Hmm? 2109 01:26:44,579 --> 01:26:46,748 - I wouldn't kill him, though, mm-mm. 2110 01:26:46,790 --> 01:26:49,834 No, but I'd make him suffer. (dramatic music) 2111 01:26:49,876 --> 01:26:50,669 (Electra laughs) 2112 01:26:50,710 --> 01:26:52,379 He got to suffer slowly, girl. 2113 01:26:52,420 --> 01:26:54,047 He got to feel the burn. 2114 01:26:54,089 --> 01:26:54,881 (Mahogany laughs) 2115 01:26:54,923 --> 01:26:56,299 - You know, people were saying 2116 01:26:56,341 --> 01:26:57,842 that I was making a big mistake by marrying this devil, 2117 01:26:57,884 --> 01:27:01,513 that he would destroy the woman of God I was becoming. 2118 01:27:01,554 --> 01:27:03,223 I'm tired of Antares Noble. 2119 01:27:03,264 --> 01:27:05,225 I, I've dealt with a lot myself. 2120 01:27:05,266 --> 01:27:07,894 I mean, I dealt with his disrespect, his lies, 2121 01:27:07,936 --> 01:27:10,355 his cheating his womanizing ways. 2122 01:27:10,397 --> 01:27:11,189 It's right here. 2123 01:27:11,231 --> 01:27:12,440 It's just, it cuts. 2124 01:27:12,482 --> 01:27:13,817 It's, it's overkill. 2125 01:27:13,858 --> 01:27:15,902 You know, Diamond was hurt to the core. 2126 01:27:15,944 --> 01:27:18,321 She didn't even wanna tell me this, Electra. 2127 01:27:18,363 --> 01:27:20,240 - Girl, you know, Diamond never would wanna hurt you 2128 01:27:20,281 --> 01:27:21,366 in this way. 2129 01:27:21,408 --> 01:27:23,076 You know that. 2130 01:27:23,118 --> 01:27:24,244 But the best thing about this 2131 01:27:24,285 --> 01:27:25,745 that you and her relationship is tight. 2132 01:27:25,787 --> 01:27:27,956 So, y'all gonna come through this together. 2133 01:27:27,997 --> 01:27:30,625 The only thing was that that man never once thought 2134 01:27:30,667 --> 01:27:32,836 for a second that she was gonna bring this 2135 01:27:32,877 --> 01:27:34,212 to your attention. - Mm. 2136 01:27:34,254 --> 01:27:36,673 - And that's because he was built straight from hell. 2137 01:27:36,715 --> 01:27:38,174 - Hmm. 2138 01:27:38,216 --> 01:27:40,510 You know, my baby wanted to make me happy 2139 01:27:40,552 --> 01:27:42,512 by never coming around again. 2140 01:27:42,554 --> 01:27:45,765 And I had to let her know, no, the devil is a liar. 2141 01:27:45,807 --> 01:27:48,101 You just gave me my keys to unlock that door 2142 01:27:48,143 --> 01:27:50,103 that the devil tried to set up for me. 2143 01:27:50,145 --> 01:27:51,146 (dramatic music continues) 2144 01:27:51,187 --> 01:27:52,605 - And that's exactly what God did- 2145 01:27:52,647 --> 01:27:54,899 - Mm-hmm. - is released you. 2146 01:27:54,941 --> 01:27:56,151 (Mahogany scoffs) 2147 01:27:56,192 --> 01:28:00,071 - Girl, God wants you to run and don't look back. 2148 01:28:00,113 --> 01:28:03,616 You know, your first true love is out there waiting for you. 2149 01:28:03,658 --> 01:28:05,702 He just waiting for you to be free, sis. 2150 01:28:05,744 --> 01:28:07,620 - I just can't believe that right now for me. 2151 01:28:07,662 --> 01:28:10,206 I'm just tired of dealing with men. 2152 01:28:10,248 --> 01:28:12,625 I used to pray about my first love, though, 2153 01:28:12,667 --> 01:28:15,795 the young guy that used to love on me when we were little. 2154 01:28:15,837 --> 01:28:17,630 You know, every time I would get hurt, 2155 01:28:17,672 --> 01:28:19,215 he would be right there caring for me. 2156 01:28:19,257 --> 01:28:20,717 - Mm. - And he would say, 2157 01:28:20,759 --> 01:28:23,053 "Mahogany, I'm gonna marry you when we get older." 2158 01:28:23,094 --> 01:28:24,512 (Mahogany laughs) 2159 01:28:24,554 --> 01:28:25,930 But I guess God just didn't have those cards dealt for me. 2160 01:28:25,972 --> 01:28:27,974 - Hey, you don't know what God got in store for you. 2161 01:28:28,016 --> 01:28:29,184 - Hmm. 2162 01:28:29,225 --> 01:28:30,560 - Hey, maybe after you get through all of this, 2163 01:28:30,602 --> 01:28:32,312 we can call him, look him up and call him or something. 2164 01:28:32,354 --> 01:28:34,022 Maybe we could talk to him a little bit, yay. 2165 01:28:34,064 --> 01:28:37,317 - Mm, nah, I care less to be with a man right now. 2166 01:28:37,359 --> 01:28:38,735 I can't trust one. (dramatic music continues) 2167 01:28:38,777 --> 01:28:41,321 Plus, I heard from a mutual friend of me and his 2168 01:28:41,363 --> 01:28:44,199 that he was probably on drugs or locked up somewhere. 2169 01:28:44,240 --> 01:28:46,618 - Well, I only can imagine who told you that. 2170 01:28:46,659 --> 01:28:48,036 - Mm. 2171 01:28:48,078 --> 01:28:49,829 - She been jealous of you guys anyway from the beginning. 2172 01:28:49,871 --> 01:28:51,164 - Mm-hmm. 2173 01:28:51,206 --> 01:28:52,665 - Matter of fact, if I'm not mistaken, she is the one 2174 01:28:52,707 --> 01:28:55,960 that actually, uh, convinced you to marry that devil. 2175 01:28:56,002 --> 01:28:57,128 (Mahogany scoffs) 2176 01:28:57,170 --> 01:28:58,046 So, whatever she's saying out her mouth, 2177 01:28:58,088 --> 01:28:59,422 I'm pretty sure she lying. 2178 01:28:59,464 --> 01:29:01,841 - (clicks tongue) I just can't, it don't matter anyway 2179 01:29:01,883 --> 01:29:05,136 because I don't want to be married ever again. 2180 01:29:06,554 --> 01:29:08,973 You know, there's no, no difference 2181 01:29:09,015 --> 01:29:11,267 in marrying a worldly man and a godly man. 2182 01:29:11,309 --> 01:29:12,185 They're all the same. 2183 01:29:12,227 --> 01:29:13,311 All they want is a little sex. 2184 01:29:13,353 --> 01:29:14,688 When you can't give it to 'em, please. 2185 01:29:14,729 --> 01:29:16,147 I'm good. 2186 01:29:16,189 --> 01:29:17,399 Hmm, I'm good. 2187 01:29:18,233 --> 01:29:20,318 - God does have that one for you. 2188 01:29:20,360 --> 01:29:21,111 Now, look. 2189 01:29:21,152 --> 01:29:22,529 - Hmm? 2190 01:29:22,570 --> 01:29:24,572 - We all do make bad choices, and sometimes we just got 2191 01:29:24,614 --> 01:29:26,366 to live and learn by them. 2192 01:29:26,408 --> 01:29:27,617 When I read that, I was ready 2193 01:29:27,659 --> 01:29:30,704 to take this man's life right there with you. 2194 01:29:30,745 --> 01:29:31,913 - Mm-hmm. 2195 01:29:31,955 --> 01:29:33,164 - But then I realized he wasn't worth it. 2196 01:29:33,206 --> 01:29:34,499 - Mm-hmm. 2197 01:29:34,541 --> 01:29:36,418 - And this is God got something in store for you, 2198 01:29:36,459 --> 01:29:38,503 and this is not how your story ends. 2199 01:29:38,545 --> 01:29:39,671 - But look at what I brought 2200 01:29:39,713 --> 01:29:41,548 around me and my children again, 2201 01:29:41,589 --> 01:29:44,801 another failed relationship, someone to come in 2202 01:29:44,843 --> 01:29:47,137 and hurt me and my child in this way. 2203 01:29:47,178 --> 01:29:50,306 I just blamed it on the fact that his, his father was 2204 01:29:50,348 --> 01:29:52,183 a cheater throughout his upbringing, 2205 01:29:52,225 --> 01:29:53,852 so he thought it was normal. 2206 01:29:53,893 --> 01:29:57,605 And I prayed, "God deliver this man," you know, 2207 01:29:57,647 --> 01:30:00,442 but nothing worked, not even my prayers. 2208 01:30:00,483 --> 01:30:01,401 (dramatic music continues) 2209 01:30:01,443 --> 01:30:03,236 - Listen, Mahogany, when I read 2210 01:30:03,278 --> 01:30:04,279 that thing he wrote to Diamond- 2211 01:30:04,320 --> 01:30:05,321 - Yeah. - girl, first thing 2212 01:30:05,363 --> 01:30:07,449 I thought is his phone was stolen, 2213 01:30:07,490 --> 01:30:09,492 somebody done hacked into it or something 2214 01:30:09,534 --> 01:30:11,286 'cause there's no way in the world 2215 01:30:11,327 --> 01:30:12,454 that Antares would write this to Diamond. 2216 01:30:12,495 --> 01:30:15,832 - Yeah, me too, until I got to that part 2217 01:30:15,874 --> 01:30:18,918 where he started mentioning places we used to stay 2218 01:30:18,960 --> 01:30:20,962 and to talk to my daughter about things 2219 01:30:21,004 --> 01:30:23,715 that we talked about in our marriage, in the bedroom, 2220 01:30:23,757 --> 01:30:26,551 things I didn't want to do to his stinking behind. 2221 01:30:27,719 --> 01:30:30,930 What evil is out there that hates me so much 2222 01:30:30,972 --> 01:30:33,600 that it would want to destroy my life in this way? 2223 01:30:33,641 --> 01:30:38,688 You know, I, I mean, I guess this is the plan for my life. 2224 01:30:38,730 --> 01:30:43,401 - You are a phenomenal wife, beautiful woman, 2225 01:30:43,443 --> 01:30:46,321 a good grandmother and mother. 2226 01:30:46,363 --> 01:30:49,407 Don't let nobody tell anything different. 2227 01:30:49,449 --> 01:30:51,576 I gotta go to work. 2228 01:30:51,618 --> 01:30:54,454 But if you need me to stay, I'll call in right now, 2229 01:30:54,496 --> 01:30:57,290 and I'll stay right here and help put this devil out. 2230 01:30:57,332 --> 01:30:59,918 - No, I need to handle this on my own. 2231 01:30:59,959 --> 01:31:00,835 - Are you sure? 2232 01:31:02,253 --> 01:31:04,589 Girl, 'cause if he says anything or do anything to you, 2233 01:31:04,631 --> 01:31:07,801 there is nothing on this Earth that's gonna stop me 2234 01:31:07,842 --> 01:31:11,346 from protecting my, my girl, my best friend. 2235 01:31:11,388 --> 01:31:13,515 - Mm-hmm, I know. 2236 01:31:13,556 --> 01:31:14,808 I'll be okay. 2237 01:31:14,849 --> 01:31:18,144 Antares Noble is not crazy, you know. 2238 01:31:19,104 --> 01:31:22,482 I need to make sure that he pack his things 2239 01:31:22,524 --> 01:31:25,151 and that I deal with this on my own. 2240 01:31:25,193 --> 01:31:29,781 You know, this is my marriage, and he just lost his wife. 2241 01:31:29,823 --> 01:31:32,158 - Okay, well, you know I love you, right? 2242 01:31:32,200 --> 01:31:33,993 - Yes, and I love you, too. 2243 01:31:34,035 --> 01:31:35,745 - I want you to take care of you. 2244 01:31:35,787 --> 01:31:37,414 - I am. - You hear me? 2245 01:31:37,455 --> 01:31:38,915 We already know that your blood pressure's high, 2246 01:31:38,957 --> 01:31:40,417 and you're not the best of health. 2247 01:31:40,458 --> 01:31:42,502 - I know it, but you said it right. 2248 01:31:42,544 --> 01:31:43,461 God got me. 2249 01:31:43,503 --> 01:31:44,713 - Mm-hmm, and he does. 2250 01:31:44,754 --> 01:31:46,297 - Mm-hmm. - And so do I, 2251 01:31:46,339 --> 01:31:47,465 your ride or die. 2252 01:31:47,507 --> 01:31:48,508 - Yes. 2253 01:31:48,550 --> 01:31:50,260 - All right, sugar. 2254 01:31:50,301 --> 01:31:51,136 I love you. 2255 01:31:51,177 --> 01:31:52,053 - I love you, too. 2256 01:31:52,095 --> 01:31:52,929 - All right, baby. 2257 01:31:52,971 --> 01:31:53,680 - Call me when you get to work. 2258 01:31:53,722 --> 01:31:54,931 - Get my darn water, 2259 01:31:54,973 --> 01:31:56,391 what I came for. - Mm-hmm. (laughs) 2260 01:31:56,433 --> 01:31:57,225 Love you. 2261 01:31:57,267 --> 01:31:57,976 - [Electra] Love you. 2262 01:32:01,771 --> 01:32:06,067 - Lord, what have I done to deserve this? 2263 01:32:06,109 --> 01:32:09,029 You better come in and step in right now 2264 01:32:09,070 --> 01:32:11,990 'cause I'm ready to kill this man. 2265 01:32:12,032 --> 01:32:12,741 God. 2266 01:32:13,783 --> 01:32:16,578 I am not my mother. 2267 01:32:16,619 --> 01:32:17,579 - My God. 2268 01:32:19,247 --> 01:32:20,415 (Celeste sighs) 2269 01:32:20,457 --> 01:32:21,541 Come here. 2270 01:32:21,583 --> 01:32:23,168 - Thank you. 2271 01:32:23,209 --> 01:32:23,918 - Mm. 2272 01:32:24,669 --> 01:32:26,463 - Thank you. 2273 01:32:26,504 --> 01:32:28,798 (gentle music) 2274 01:32:28,840 --> 01:32:30,717 And are you ready to finish hearing this? 2275 01:32:30,759 --> 01:32:34,554 - Yes, because I believe your story needs to be heard. 2276 01:32:34,596 --> 01:32:35,889 I mean, we were talking 2277 01:32:35,930 --> 01:32:37,932 about you finished off with your best friend. 2278 01:32:37,974 --> 01:32:40,018 You was telling her about the text messages 2279 01:32:40,060 --> 01:32:43,438 that your daughter shared with you about what he said, 2280 01:32:43,480 --> 01:32:45,899 by the way, which was despicable. 2281 01:32:45,940 --> 01:32:49,069 How can somebody love you or, or say their vows 2282 01:32:49,110 --> 01:32:53,198 and do something like that to you or their child? 2283 01:32:53,239 --> 01:32:55,200 Did you confront him about that? 2284 01:32:55,241 --> 01:32:56,409 (gentle music continues) 2285 01:32:56,451 --> 01:32:58,578 - You know, my mother said he was a dog. 2286 01:32:58,620 --> 01:32:59,829 - Hmm. 2287 01:32:59,871 --> 01:33:01,706 - But a dog was a understatement. 2288 01:33:03,291 --> 01:33:04,292 He didn't even know. 2289 01:33:05,502 --> 01:33:08,922 You know, Antares came home from work, (laughs) 2290 01:33:08,963 --> 01:33:11,925 acting like he, you know, was all having a good day, 2291 01:33:11,966 --> 01:33:14,803 and he had just hit the lottery or something, 2292 01:33:14,844 --> 01:33:17,013 styling and profiling. 2293 01:33:17,055 --> 01:33:18,098 - [Celeste] Mm. 2294 01:33:18,139 --> 01:33:19,766 - He didn't know I knew what he did. 2295 01:33:19,808 --> 01:33:24,854 * Move on in the water from grandma's home 2296 01:33:26,690 --> 01:33:27,982 - Mm, hey. 2297 01:33:28,775 --> 01:33:30,026 What's wrong with you? 2298 01:33:31,611 --> 01:33:33,196 And why you got it all dark up in here 2299 01:33:33,238 --> 01:33:34,406 looking like somebody died? 2300 01:33:35,865 --> 01:33:38,868 You, you know, I shoulda stayed at my cousin house 2301 01:33:38,910 --> 01:33:41,746 if I'da known I'll be coming home to something like this. 2302 01:33:41,788 --> 01:33:43,581 - Then, maybe you should have. 2303 01:33:43,623 --> 01:33:45,542 - Oh, here we go again. 2304 01:33:45,583 --> 01:33:48,253 You, you know, for you to be such a woman of God 2305 01:33:48,294 --> 01:33:51,589 that you proclaim to be, you really be allowing the devil 2306 01:33:51,631 --> 01:33:53,425 to use you a lot. 2307 01:33:53,466 --> 01:33:55,093 - Antares, I believe you're talking 2308 01:33:55,135 --> 01:33:58,471 about yourself right now 'cause I am good with God. 2309 01:33:58,513 --> 01:34:00,098 Believe that. 2310 01:34:00,140 --> 01:34:03,226 As a matter of fact, you probably should be asking God 2311 01:34:03,268 --> 01:34:04,811 if you're in his good graces. 2312 01:34:04,853 --> 01:34:08,523 - Oh, God, here we go again with this mental mess. 2313 01:34:08,565 --> 01:34:09,482 I mean- 2314 01:34:09,524 --> 01:34:10,650 - Who- - You don't even realize 2315 01:34:10,692 --> 01:34:13,528 how damaged you are in the head, do you? 2316 01:34:13,570 --> 01:34:15,321 (Mahogany laughs) 2317 01:34:15,363 --> 01:34:17,824 I'm starting to see why everybody in your past left you. 2318 01:34:17,866 --> 01:34:19,868 - Mm-hmm. - I mean, for real. 2319 01:34:19,909 --> 01:34:21,703 Even your kids talk about you. 2320 01:34:21,745 --> 01:34:24,080 - You better leave my kids' name out your mouth 2321 01:34:24,122 --> 01:34:26,541 and worry about why yours don't wanna deal 2322 01:34:26,583 --> 01:34:28,001 with you with your fake self. 2323 01:34:28,043 --> 01:34:31,004 - Once again, here you go mentally abusing me. 2324 01:34:31,046 --> 01:34:31,838 - Please. 2325 01:34:31,880 --> 01:34:33,089 - Well, you better be glad- 2326 01:34:33,131 --> 01:34:35,133 - Oh, Jesus. - I stay with your sorry butt 2327 01:34:35,175 --> 01:34:37,844 'cause I can have any woman I want. 2328 01:34:37,886 --> 01:34:41,556 - Then, they can have you after today, 2329 01:34:41,598 --> 01:34:42,682 and they better be worrying 2330 01:34:42,724 --> 01:34:44,684 about what kinda devil they're bringing 2331 01:34:44,726 --> 01:34:47,187 around their children and family members. 2332 01:34:47,228 --> 01:34:49,189 - Good, 'cause any place would be better 2333 01:34:49,230 --> 01:34:51,566 than staying here with you and your crazy butt. 2334 01:34:51,608 --> 01:34:52,776 (Mahogany laughs) 2335 01:34:52,817 --> 01:34:55,111 I only stayed this long 'cause I feel sorry. 2336 01:34:55,153 --> 01:34:55,820 (Mahogany laughs) 2337 01:34:55,862 --> 01:34:56,738 And I was only trying 2338 01:34:56,780 --> 01:34:58,073 to help you. - Jesus. 2339 01:34:59,240 --> 01:35:01,451 (Mahogany mumbling) 2340 01:35:01,493 --> 01:35:03,828 (laughing) Oh. 2341 01:35:03,870 --> 01:35:05,372 - Look what I'm talking about. 2342 01:35:06,623 --> 01:35:08,541 You know, something is really wrong with you, woman. 2343 01:35:08,583 --> 01:35:09,584 - [Mahogany] Mm-hmm. 2344 01:35:09,626 --> 01:35:11,670 - You're damaged, bad. 2345 01:35:11,711 --> 01:35:15,006 - Yeah, you, something is really wrong with me, 2346 01:35:15,048 --> 01:35:18,051 so you said something right for once. 2347 01:35:18,093 --> 01:35:20,637 So, what is this you text my daughter? 2348 01:35:20,679 --> 01:35:22,681 - Man, what you talking about? 2349 01:35:22,722 --> 01:35:24,057 I told you your daughter be nothing 2350 01:35:24,099 --> 01:35:25,558 but trouble staying here. (dramatic music) 2351 01:35:25,600 --> 01:35:27,769 She ain't got no respect for you or I, 2352 01:35:27,811 --> 01:35:29,688 coming in this house any time of night. 2353 01:35:29,729 --> 01:35:31,690 - So, you really gonna stand here 2354 01:35:31,731 --> 01:35:33,733 and lie of my face, Antares, 2355 01:35:33,775 --> 01:35:36,277 and act like I don't know what I'm talking about? 2356 01:35:36,319 --> 01:35:38,738 Since I, since you forgot, let me read this text. 2357 01:35:38,780 --> 01:35:40,323 (dramatic music continues) 2358 01:35:40,365 --> 01:35:44,953 "So, if you come sit on my face for $50 2359 01:35:44,994 --> 01:35:49,582 because your mother don't want to try anything new"? 2360 01:35:49,624 --> 01:35:50,959 - Now, baby, hold on. 2361 01:35:52,252 --> 01:35:54,587 Now, now, I was only texting her because you been going 2362 01:35:54,629 --> 01:35:55,755 through withdrawals lately, you know, 2363 01:35:55,797 --> 01:35:57,674 acting like you don't love me. 2364 01:35:57,716 --> 01:35:58,800 You're reading this all wrong. 2365 01:35:58,842 --> 01:36:00,719 - Oh, really, I'm reading this all wrong? 2366 01:36:00,760 --> 01:36:02,178 Then, let me continue, Antares. 2367 01:36:03,471 --> 01:36:06,766 "You, you know, I've been wanting you, to make love 2368 01:36:06,808 --> 01:36:09,060 to you since you, we lived on Beach Boulevard, 2369 01:36:09,102 --> 01:36:12,772 and all, I always wanted your mother instead of you 2370 01:36:12,814 --> 01:36:14,315 to tell you the truth." 2371 01:36:14,357 --> 01:36:15,400 - Baby, what are you doing? 2372 01:36:15,442 --> 01:36:18,778 Hey, your, your daughter's lying on me. 2373 01:36:18,820 --> 01:36:21,114 I told you it'd be a bad idea for her to stay here. 2374 01:36:21,156 --> 01:36:23,408 - You worthless piece of scum. 2375 01:36:23,450 --> 01:36:24,826 (dramatic music continues) 2376 01:36:24,868 --> 01:36:26,661 How could you do this? 2377 01:36:26,703 --> 01:36:28,830 My daughter's never done anything to you 2378 01:36:28,872 --> 01:36:32,751 but treat you like a stepfather, Antares. 2379 01:36:32,792 --> 01:36:36,129 How could you do this to me, my family? 2380 01:36:37,672 --> 01:36:39,591 - Baby, please. 2381 01:36:39,632 --> 01:36:41,676 Your daughter's lying on me. 2382 01:36:41,718 --> 01:36:43,553 Every time you leave for treatment, 2383 01:36:43,595 --> 01:36:47,140 she be walking around the house half naked looking at me, 2384 01:36:47,182 --> 01:36:49,267 saying all this negative stuff about you. 2385 01:36:49,309 --> 01:36:51,061 - Stop with the lies. (dramatic music continues) 2386 01:36:51,102 --> 01:36:53,480 My daughter's never done anything to you. 2387 01:36:53,521 --> 01:36:57,859 Antares, you better leave now before I catch a case. 2388 01:36:59,527 --> 01:37:02,864 I know too much to allow you to think that this is okay. 2389 01:37:04,032 --> 01:37:05,742 - [Antares] I don't know why I did it. 2390 01:37:05,784 --> 01:37:07,577 Maybe I ain't want nobody else staying with us, 2391 01:37:07,619 --> 01:37:08,828 and this was the only way 2392 01:37:08,870 --> 01:37:10,330 I could get your daughter to leave. 2393 01:37:10,372 --> 01:37:13,249 - If my kids needed me, Antares, I should be able 2394 01:37:13,291 --> 01:37:17,045 to be there just like I was there for your kids, 2395 01:37:18,338 --> 01:37:22,092 and when my daughter, when I got sick, when she came home 2396 01:37:22,133 --> 01:37:24,386 when I got sick and I needed help. 2397 01:37:25,387 --> 01:37:27,764 - [Antares] Baby, really think about this now. 2398 01:37:27,806 --> 01:37:29,140 It's your fault in the first place 2399 01:37:29,182 --> 01:37:31,685 for allowing your grown daughter to stay here. 2400 01:37:31,726 --> 01:37:33,687 I ain't never want her in this house. 2401 01:37:33,728 --> 01:37:34,729 (dramatic music continues) 2402 01:37:34,771 --> 01:37:35,980 You were careless with your child. 2403 01:37:36,022 --> 01:37:39,651 (Mahogany whimpering) 2404 01:37:39,693 --> 01:37:44,739 - You better leave now before the devil make me do something 2405 01:37:44,781 --> 01:37:46,449 to you or something that you use 2406 01:37:46,491 --> 01:37:47,659 and think about all the time. 2407 01:37:48,868 --> 01:37:52,330 I'm not my mother, and I won't be, 2408 01:37:52,372 --> 01:37:55,500 so the next time I pull this trigger, 2409 01:37:55,542 --> 01:37:57,335 this gun is not gonna jam. 2410 01:37:58,294 --> 01:37:59,045 Leave. 2411 01:37:59,087 --> 01:38:01,256 Get out, devil. Leave. 2412 01:38:01,297 --> 01:38:02,757 - It's terrible that it got to that point 2413 01:38:02,799 --> 01:38:04,592 where you felt like you needed a weapon. 2414 01:38:04,634 --> 01:38:05,927 - Like I said, Ms. White, I, 2415 01:38:07,387 --> 01:38:10,765 he took me to a place of no return, you know? 2416 01:38:10,807 --> 01:38:14,811 But when I was younger, I didn't have no way 2417 01:38:14,853 --> 01:38:16,938 of defending myself, you know, against any 2418 01:38:16,980 --> 01:38:19,065 of the monsters that was hurting me. 2419 01:38:19,107 --> 01:38:22,527 But when I turned 14 years old, I fought. 2420 01:38:22,569 --> 01:38:24,154 I fought a lot. 2421 01:38:24,195 --> 01:38:28,742 You know, I, I had to fight my adopted foster siblings, 2422 01:38:28,783 --> 01:38:32,120 and I didn't allow anybody to hurt me 2423 01:38:33,455 --> 01:38:35,415 by any means necessary. 2424 01:38:35,457 --> 01:38:38,960 - So, so you're saying that you were being in situations 2425 01:38:39,002 --> 01:38:41,796 that made you become violent in that way? 2426 01:38:41,838 --> 01:38:42,714 - (clicks tongue) Yeah. 2427 01:38:44,132 --> 01:38:46,760 I mean, I was in so many foster homes that I lost count, 2428 01:38:46,801 --> 01:38:48,970 you know, and like I said before, 2429 01:38:49,012 --> 01:38:50,847 the siblings that I had in those foster homes, 2430 01:38:50,889 --> 01:38:52,098 they weren't cool, you know. 2431 01:38:52,140 --> 01:38:54,142 They, they fought me for no reason at all. 2432 01:38:54,184 --> 01:38:55,352 (dramatic music continues) 2433 01:38:55,393 --> 01:39:00,106 But when I was 16 years old, I got adopted. 2434 01:39:01,775 --> 01:39:02,901 - Hmm, okay, wow. 2435 01:39:02,942 --> 01:39:04,694 I mean, they must have really liked you 2436 01:39:04,736 --> 01:39:06,321 to adopt you at 16. 2437 01:39:06,363 --> 01:39:07,364 - Yeah. 2438 01:39:07,405 --> 01:39:09,407 It was a woman I met at a hospital. 2439 01:39:10,325 --> 01:39:11,743 Ms. White, she saved my life. 2440 01:39:12,827 --> 01:39:13,953 - Wow, that's wonderful. 2441 01:39:13,995 --> 01:39:15,163 Is she still alive? 2442 01:39:15,955 --> 01:39:17,457 - No. 2443 01:39:17,499 --> 01:39:18,291 - [Celeste] Hmm. 2444 01:39:18,333 --> 01:39:19,959 - She passed away from cancer. 2445 01:39:20,001 --> 01:39:20,794 (dramatic music continues) 2446 01:39:20,835 --> 01:39:22,045 - Sorry to hear that. 2447 01:39:22,087 --> 01:39:23,505 - Thank you. 2448 01:39:23,546 --> 01:39:25,799 - So, that situation with your husband, I mean, 2449 01:39:25,840 --> 01:39:26,966 did that make it, make you feel 2450 01:39:27,008 --> 01:39:28,635 like you were being attacked? 2451 01:39:28,677 --> 01:39:30,053 (Mahogany laughs) 2452 01:39:30,095 --> 01:39:31,805 - Yeah, but it was a, it was a different type of attack. 2453 01:39:31,846 --> 01:39:33,973 This attack was on my character. 2454 01:39:34,015 --> 01:39:34,808 - [Celeste] Mm. 2455 01:39:34,849 --> 01:39:36,184 - It was on my heart. 2456 01:39:36,226 --> 01:39:38,103 It was how I received and how I looked at people 2457 01:39:38,144 --> 01:39:40,939 and the love that, that I was supposed to have, 2458 01:39:40,980 --> 01:39:43,858 you know, from, from others. 2459 01:39:43,900 --> 01:39:45,151 This was different. 2460 01:39:45,193 --> 01:39:46,403 (dramatic music continues) 2461 01:39:46,444 --> 01:39:49,114 You know, it took me way back to my past. 2462 01:39:49,155 --> 01:39:52,033 - So, earlier you were telling a story. 2463 01:39:52,075 --> 01:39:53,993 You said you didn't want to be like your mother. 2464 01:39:54,035 --> 01:39:56,663 I mean, tell me a little bit more about that. 2465 01:39:56,705 --> 01:39:58,039 What did you mean by that? 2466 01:39:58,081 --> 01:40:00,000 - (exhales) When I was 17, Ms. White- 2467 01:40:00,041 --> 01:40:01,167 - [Celeste] Mm-hmm. 2468 01:40:01,209 --> 01:40:02,293 - I went to go visit my mother. 2469 01:40:02,335 --> 01:40:03,211 - Mm-hmm. 2470 01:40:05,880 --> 01:40:10,719 - And her boyfriend, her boyfriend raped me. 2471 01:40:10,760 --> 01:40:11,970 - Oh, my gosh. 2472 01:40:12,012 --> 01:40:13,680 - And I told her right away what happened, 2473 01:40:13,722 --> 01:40:16,808 and she didn't believe me even when my little sister tried 2474 01:40:16,850 --> 01:40:19,352 to tell her he did this to her. 2475 01:40:19,394 --> 01:40:20,395 - Oh, wow. 2476 01:40:20,437 --> 01:40:21,896 - She didn't believe what we said. 2477 01:40:21,938 --> 01:40:22,856 She decided to believe him. 2478 01:40:22,897 --> 01:40:24,065 She chose him. 2479 01:40:25,191 --> 01:40:29,529 - Wow, so, so your husband trying to sleep 2480 01:40:29,571 --> 01:40:31,364 with your daughter, I mean, that had to make you feel 2481 01:40:31,406 --> 01:40:33,950 like you were reliving the past. 2482 01:40:33,992 --> 01:40:34,743 - Yeah. 2483 01:40:35,744 --> 01:40:37,037 (Mahogany sniffs) 2484 01:40:37,078 --> 01:40:41,624 You know, I felt like God was punishing me. 2485 01:40:41,666 --> 01:40:43,710 - Mm-hmm, wow. 2486 01:40:43,752 --> 01:40:47,881 - You know, because of, by sending all these different men 2487 01:40:47,922 --> 01:40:50,050 in my life, it wasn't no good 2488 01:40:50,091 --> 01:40:53,678 because of how I treated the man that loved me. 2489 01:40:53,720 --> 01:40:54,471 - Hmm. 2490 01:40:55,805 --> 01:40:57,932 Well, Mahogany, I will say, 2491 01:40:57,974 --> 01:40:59,642 I believe all your sins are forgiven. 2492 01:41:00,769 --> 01:41:03,271 I believe that, once you dedicated your life to Christ, 2493 01:41:03,313 --> 01:41:05,023 that he wiped everything clean. 2494 01:41:05,065 --> 01:41:07,984 No more shall that be your report, 2495 01:41:08,026 --> 01:41:10,028 but that should be your testimony. 2496 01:41:10,070 --> 01:41:12,322 (dramatic music continues) 2497 01:41:12,364 --> 01:41:15,450 - I hear you, and I have heard and read that in the word, 2498 01:41:16,701 --> 01:41:19,954 that if we confess our sins, then God will cleanse us. 2499 01:41:19,996 --> 01:41:21,748 You know, in Michael 7:19, it talks 2500 01:41:21,790 --> 01:41:25,585 about God will cleanse our sins and cast them 2501 01:41:25,627 --> 01:41:28,630 to the sea of forgiveness if we confess with our hearts 2502 01:41:28,672 --> 01:41:33,134 and truly believe, never to be spoken of again. 2503 01:41:33,176 --> 01:41:34,719 Do we reap what we sow? 2504 01:41:35,762 --> 01:41:38,515 - Mm, listen, I mean, we all have that cross 2505 01:41:38,556 --> 01:41:42,102 to carry on judgment day, I mean, including me. 2506 01:41:42,143 --> 01:41:43,228 (dramatic music continues) 2507 01:41:43,269 --> 01:41:44,729 But I know that God is a merciful god, 2508 01:41:45,814 --> 01:41:49,359 and I know he knows the heart of all his children, 2509 01:41:49,401 --> 01:41:51,027 and through your long suffering, Mahogany, 2510 01:41:51,069 --> 01:41:52,612 he has something greater 2511 01:41:52,654 --> 01:41:55,782 than you, than you can even imagine. 2512 01:41:55,824 --> 01:41:57,742 (dramatic music continues) 2513 01:41:57,784 --> 01:41:59,869 - I find myself asking God, 2514 01:42:01,830 --> 01:42:04,457 "Why did you save me, huh, 2515 01:42:04,499 --> 01:42:07,335 you know, to endure all this suffering and pain?" 2516 01:42:07,377 --> 01:42:10,046 What's the purpose of my life? 2517 01:42:10,088 --> 01:42:11,715 You know, I love my kids. 2518 01:42:13,091 --> 01:42:15,343 I love my grandkids, and to see a great-grand, 2519 01:42:15,385 --> 01:42:17,012 that is a blessing. 2520 01:42:17,053 --> 01:42:18,304 - [Celeste] Mm-hmm. 2521 01:42:18,346 --> 01:42:22,684 - But what is this great calling all my life? 2522 01:42:25,562 --> 01:42:28,690 - Well, I mean, just what you just testified about. 2523 01:42:28,732 --> 01:42:31,151 I mean, if most people, (laughs) they couldn't even do that 2524 01:42:31,192 --> 01:42:33,278 or talk about it if they were in your shoes. 2525 01:42:33,319 --> 01:42:34,904 - I, I, I know I've made mistakes, 2526 01:42:34,946 --> 01:42:39,576 but, (sniffs) and if God has this plan for me, Ms. White, 2527 01:42:39,617 --> 01:42:42,454 then why did he allow my mind to go to a place 2528 01:42:42,495 --> 01:42:45,665 that wanted to end a life just for someone 2529 01:42:45,707 --> 01:42:47,083 that I really loved? 2530 01:42:47,125 --> 01:42:49,836 - Listen, now I understand what you're saying, 2531 01:42:49,878 --> 01:42:52,297 but hurt people hurt people. 2532 01:42:52,339 --> 01:42:54,299 And how could you love him 2533 01:42:54,341 --> 01:42:57,344 when you didn't even know what real love was? 2534 01:42:57,385 --> 01:43:00,055 - I thought I had it with Antares. 2535 01:43:00,096 --> 01:43:03,058 You know, I really thought he loved me, 2536 01:43:03,099 --> 01:43:04,893 but I guess I couldn't give him what he needed. 2537 01:43:06,353 --> 01:43:09,356 - You gave him everything he needed. 2538 01:43:09,397 --> 01:43:12,025 He just didn't understand the true woman of God 2539 01:43:12,067 --> 01:43:14,486 that you were to bless him. 2540 01:43:14,527 --> 01:43:15,904 Listen, I know, (gentle music) 2541 01:43:15,945 --> 01:43:18,198 and I really believe the reason you were uncomfortable 2542 01:43:18,239 --> 01:43:20,158 in your marriage Antares Noble is 2543 01:43:20,200 --> 01:43:22,243 because he made it seem like the sexual activities 2544 01:43:22,285 --> 01:43:23,995 in your bedroom was a bad thing. 2545 01:43:25,038 --> 01:43:26,748 - You know, in a way, Ms. Celeste, 2546 01:43:27,832 --> 01:43:30,377 I would do anything, and I was willing to do anything 2547 01:43:30,418 --> 01:43:35,090 to please my husband, except for when I felt rejected, 2548 01:43:35,131 --> 01:43:37,050 when I knew he was cheating on me. 2549 01:43:37,092 --> 01:43:39,010 He had all that infidelity. 2550 01:43:39,052 --> 01:43:44,891 - That's understandable, but what about you being pleased? 2551 01:43:44,933 --> 01:43:46,226 - What do you mean? 2552 01:43:46,267 --> 01:43:48,061 - I believe you weren't truly healed from your past, 2553 01:43:48,103 --> 01:43:50,730 because you were hindered because of trust, 2554 01:43:50,772 --> 01:43:55,694 I mean, belief, forgiveness, understanding, compassion. 2555 01:43:57,237 --> 01:43:58,571 And no matter who you were with, 2556 01:43:58,613 --> 01:44:00,240 you woulda still felt like you were raped 2557 01:44:00,281 --> 01:44:02,909 because you didn't have a relationship with God. 2558 01:44:02,951 --> 01:44:06,329 - Relationship with God, so what do you mean, Ms. White? 2559 01:44:06,371 --> 01:44:08,540 Are you saying I should have had sex with God? 2560 01:44:08,581 --> 01:44:11,543 - No, no, Mahogany, I'm not saying I have sex with God, 2561 01:44:11,584 --> 01:44:14,546 but what I'm saying is you can have a relationship with God 2562 01:44:14,587 --> 01:44:18,466 to show you how to be loved, how to receive love, 2563 01:44:18,508 --> 01:44:20,301 and also how to give love. 2564 01:44:21,344 --> 01:44:23,221 - I thought I had that with Antares. 2565 01:44:23,263 --> 01:44:24,973 I really thought he loved me, 2566 01:44:26,182 --> 01:44:29,519 but I, I just, I, I wouldn't, I wouldn't even know 2567 01:44:29,561 --> 01:44:31,479 where to start, you know. 2568 01:44:31,521 --> 01:44:36,359 I, every time I try to get close to God, 2569 01:44:37,485 --> 01:44:41,865 it seem like I gotta endure more pain, more suffering. 2570 01:44:41,906 --> 01:44:43,825 - He has a great calling on your life, 2571 01:44:44,909 --> 01:44:47,328 and Matthew 5:10 says that we are his blessed children 2572 01:44:47,370 --> 01:44:52,250 and that they reveal you and persecute you falsely 2573 01:44:52,292 --> 01:44:55,670 for his namesake, and you are his chosen vessel. 2574 01:44:57,464 --> 01:45:02,594 - You know, my grandmother, she used to say I was special. 2575 01:45:04,220 --> 01:45:05,722 Watch what you entertain, 2576 01:45:07,515 --> 01:45:09,184 that there was this great calling on my life. 2577 01:45:09,225 --> 01:45:10,393 - [Celeste] Mm-hmm. 2578 01:45:12,312 --> 01:45:13,563 (Mahogany sniffs) 2579 01:45:13,605 --> 01:45:16,816 - But I would always search for the love in others 2580 01:45:16,858 --> 01:45:19,861 because I didn't experience that with my family. 2581 01:45:19,903 --> 01:45:23,615 - Okay, well, Mahogany, have you forgiven yourself? 2582 01:45:25,825 --> 01:45:26,618 - I don't know. 2583 01:45:28,161 --> 01:45:30,038 The reason I say this, Ms. White, is 2584 01:45:30,080 --> 01:45:33,500 because every event that I have been going through, 2585 01:45:33,541 --> 01:45:35,835 I blame myself, (sniffs) you know, 2586 01:45:35,877 --> 01:45:39,297 for not being smart enough, not knowing enough, 2587 01:45:39,339 --> 01:45:41,174 not, not seeing enough, not caring enough, 2588 01:45:41,216 --> 01:45:44,344 you know, not being aware enough. 2589 01:45:44,386 --> 01:45:45,637 (sobbing) I- - Well, Mahogany, 2590 01:45:45,679 --> 01:45:50,266 but what about loving yourself enough to let go? 2591 01:45:50,308 --> 01:45:53,395 I mean, I've sit here with you for two hours, 2592 01:45:53,436 --> 01:45:55,397 and I feel like you're holding yourself captive 2593 01:45:55,438 --> 01:45:56,856 in your own prison. 2594 01:45:56,898 --> 01:45:58,817 Like, you're not forgiving yourself. 2595 01:45:59,859 --> 01:46:03,363 - Ms. White, I want, I wanna forgive myself. 2596 01:46:03,405 --> 01:46:04,322 (Mahogany sniffs) 2597 01:46:04,364 --> 01:46:05,573 I just don't know how to. 2598 01:46:07,200 --> 01:46:08,201 - Here you go, baby. 2599 01:46:08,243 --> 01:46:10,036 - (sobbing) Thank you. 2600 01:46:10,078 --> 01:46:11,454 (sniffs) I don't know how. 2601 01:46:11,496 --> 01:46:16,001 You know, I ask God. 2602 01:46:16,042 --> 01:46:19,671 I say, "Why? 2603 01:46:19,713 --> 01:46:21,339 What's, what's this great calling on my life?" 2604 01:46:21,381 --> 01:46:23,466 You know, "Save me. 2605 01:46:23,508 --> 01:46:25,260 Deliver me." 2606 01:46:25,301 --> 01:46:28,388 (Mahogany sobbing) 2607 01:46:28,430 --> 01:46:32,017 I don't wanna be alone in this life, (sobbing) 2608 01:46:35,895 --> 01:46:38,815 you know, because in God's word, he says 2609 01:46:38,857 --> 01:46:40,525 that we deserve somebody special. 2610 01:46:40,567 --> 01:46:42,193 That's what it's saying in his word. 2611 01:46:42,235 --> 01:46:43,153 - Mm-hmm. 2612 01:46:43,194 --> 01:46:45,739 It says in John 3:16, 2613 01:46:45,780 --> 01:46:49,617 "For God so loved the world that he gave his only son," 2614 01:46:49,659 --> 01:46:51,661 and that whoever believe in him should now, 2615 01:46:51,703 --> 01:46:56,166 shall not perish and have everlasting life. 2616 01:46:56,207 --> 01:46:57,167 - Oh, God. 2617 01:46:57,208 --> 01:46:58,585 (dramatic music continues) 2618 01:46:58,626 --> 01:47:00,920 Then, if that's true, 2619 01:47:00,962 --> 01:47:03,757 then when is my eternal life gonna happen, huh, 2620 01:47:03,798 --> 01:47:05,967 when I'm not here anymore, when I'm dead? 2621 01:47:06,009 --> 01:47:07,552 - Mahogany, are you ready to let go 2622 01:47:07,594 --> 01:47:10,013 and let God heal you totally? 2623 01:47:10,055 --> 01:47:12,766 - Yes, I've been ready. 2624 01:47:12,807 --> 01:47:15,268 - Well, then it's time for you to tell your truth. 2625 01:47:15,310 --> 01:47:17,145 I mean, I do believe you about the abuse, 2626 01:47:17,187 --> 01:47:21,441 I mean, emotionally, and, and physically, and mentally. 2627 01:47:21,483 --> 01:47:23,610 But violence has silenced your tongue. 2628 01:47:23,651 --> 01:47:26,780 It's time to give all the bad men back to God. 2629 01:47:26,821 --> 01:47:28,239 - Bad men. 2630 01:47:28,281 --> 01:47:29,866 I'm not with anyone, Ms. White. 2631 01:47:31,326 --> 01:47:32,160 - [Celeste] Yes, you are. 2632 01:47:32,202 --> 01:47:33,620 (Mahogany scoffs) 2633 01:47:33,661 --> 01:47:35,455 You, you sleep with 'em at night, and you wake up with 'em. 2634 01:47:35,497 --> 01:47:36,873 (Mahogany scoffs) 2635 01:47:36,915 --> 01:47:39,209 - I don't mean to be disrespectful, Ms. White, 2636 01:47:40,418 --> 01:47:41,961 but since you seem to know my bedroom, 2637 01:47:42,003 --> 01:47:43,630 you're gonna have to tell me the names of these men 2638 01:47:43,672 --> 01:47:45,006 because I am lost. 2639 01:47:45,048 --> 01:47:46,424 Okay, force- 2640 01:47:46,466 --> 01:47:49,969 - Force? - Obligation, denial, 2641 01:47:50,011 --> 01:47:52,263 fear, shame. 2642 01:47:52,305 --> 01:47:53,556 - Oh, God. 2643 01:47:53,598 --> 01:47:56,309 - And as soon as you let these things go, Mahogany, 2644 01:47:56,351 --> 01:47:58,311 then you will be healed. 2645 01:47:58,353 --> 01:48:00,855 - God, oh, my God, thank you. 2646 01:48:02,023 --> 01:48:03,274 - [Celeste] Come here. 2647 01:48:03,316 --> 01:48:04,859 - Thank you, Ms. White, thank you. 2648 01:48:04,901 --> 01:48:05,652 - Oh, mm. 2649 01:48:06,528 --> 01:48:07,487 (Mahogany sobs) 2650 01:48:07,529 --> 01:48:09,030 It's okay to let it go. 2651 01:48:09,072 --> 01:48:10,365 - Oh, God. (sobbing) 2652 01:48:10,407 --> 01:48:12,617 When you was naming 'em one by one, 2653 01:48:12,659 --> 01:48:14,577 I was feeling 'em falling off of me, 2654 01:48:14,619 --> 01:48:16,287 you know, just shedding. 2655 01:48:16,329 --> 01:48:17,205 - Mm-hmm. 2656 01:48:17,247 --> 01:48:19,332 - And I know what I gotta do. 2657 01:48:19,374 --> 01:48:20,667 (dramatic music continues) 2658 01:48:20,709 --> 01:48:23,962 I just gotta stop having a pity party for myself and- 2659 01:48:24,004 --> 01:48:25,130 - Yes. 2660 01:48:25,171 --> 01:48:26,339 - and shake the devil off. 2661 01:48:26,381 --> 01:48:27,549 - [Celeste] Mm-hmm. 2662 01:48:28,258 --> 01:48:29,509 - Oh, my God. 2663 01:48:29,551 --> 01:48:31,970 You know, what a mighty God we serve. 2664 01:48:33,430 --> 01:48:35,306 Oh, Ms. White, thank you so much. 2665 01:48:35,348 --> 01:48:37,475 My grandmother used to always say, 2666 01:48:37,517 --> 01:48:39,978 "To much is given much is required." 2667 01:48:40,020 --> 01:48:42,522 - Mm-hmm, I'd like to sponsor you. 2668 01:48:42,564 --> 01:48:43,732 - [Mahogany] Really? 2669 01:48:43,773 --> 01:48:45,400 - And I'd like to have your book published. 2670 01:48:45,442 --> 01:48:47,610 I have a guy down at B.R. Films. 2671 01:48:48,403 --> 01:48:49,279 - What's his name? 2672 01:48:49,320 --> 01:48:50,697 - Marquand Ragland. 2673 01:48:50,739 --> 01:48:53,992 You may know him, but, um, he would love to make a movie 2674 01:48:54,034 --> 01:48:56,077 outta your true life story, mm-hmm. 2675 01:48:57,370 --> 01:48:58,872 - Thank you. 2676 01:48:58,913 --> 01:49:02,083 Uh, thank you, I mean, I don't know what to say, you know? 2677 01:49:02,125 --> 01:49:03,335 Thank you. 2678 01:49:03,376 --> 01:49:04,502 - I mean, you can tell me the title you want 2679 01:49:04,544 --> 01:49:06,254 for your book and your movie. 2680 01:49:08,423 --> 01:49:10,008 - "You Got Me Twisted!" 2681 01:49:11,551 --> 01:49:13,011 - Okay. 2682 01:49:13,053 --> 01:49:14,471 - That's the one. - I like it. 2683 01:49:14,512 --> 01:49:16,181 How did you, how did you come up with that title? 2684 01:49:16,222 --> 01:49:17,515 (Mahogany sighs) 2685 01:49:17,557 --> 01:49:21,603 - Well, I need every queen and king to know 2686 01:49:23,188 --> 01:49:25,565 that we serve a mighty God. 2687 01:49:25,607 --> 01:49:27,108 - [Celeste] Yeah, we do. 2688 01:49:27,150 --> 01:49:32,655 - But the devil, he's real, and he comes to seek, kill, 2689 01:49:32,697 --> 01:49:34,449 and to try to destroy your destiny. 2690 01:49:34,491 --> 01:49:35,742 - [Celeste] Mm-hmm. 2691 01:49:35,784 --> 01:49:38,703 - But to know that no weapon formed 2692 01:49:38,745 --> 01:49:41,164 against you shall prosper. 2693 01:49:42,457 --> 01:49:43,541 You know why? 2694 01:49:43,583 --> 01:49:46,002 Because we belong to the most high god. 2695 01:49:46,044 --> 01:49:48,546 And when the devil come to your face, 2696 01:49:48,588 --> 01:49:51,174 you just gotta look him dead in the face and say, 2697 01:49:51,216 --> 01:49:53,468 "You got me twisted, boo. 2698 01:49:53,510 --> 01:49:55,595 I belong to the most high God." 2699 01:49:55,637 --> 01:49:56,513 (dramatic music) 2700 01:49:56,554 --> 01:49:58,264 * I'll take my crown now 2701 01:49:58,306 --> 01:50:02,519 * These voices in my head, I'm telling you to bow down 2702 01:50:02,560 --> 01:50:06,147 * You don't got control, no, so bow down 2703 01:50:06,189 --> 01:50:12,195 * I don't give you control, no, so bow down, yeah 2704 01:50:12,237 --> 01:50:13,863 * I'll take my crown now 2705 01:50:13,905 --> 01:50:17,909 * These voices in my head, I'm telling you to bow down 2706 01:50:17,951 --> 01:50:21,371 * You don't got control, so bow down 2707 01:50:21,413 --> 01:50:26,710 * I don't give you control, no, so bow down, yeah 2708 01:50:28,420 --> 01:50:30,005 * Bow down 2709 01:50:30,046 --> 01:50:33,133 * You gotta tell 'em, you gotta tell 'em to bow down 2710 01:50:33,174 --> 01:50:34,592 * If they don't match up with the word 2711 01:50:34,634 --> 01:50:36,886 * Then, you gotta tell 'em to bow down 2712 01:50:36,928 --> 01:50:41,307 * You gotta crown out, you gotta tell 'em to bow down 2713 01:50:41,349 --> 01:50:43,977 * Yeah, yeah, yeah 2714 01:50:44,019 --> 01:50:46,229 * Voices in my head telling me that I won't make it 2715 01:50:46,271 --> 01:50:47,981 * But I like a challenge 2716 01:50:48,023 --> 01:50:49,858 * So, I just keep going, trust in the Lord 2717 01:50:49,899 --> 01:50:51,860 * The more that I know, the more that I grow 2718 01:50:51,901 --> 01:50:53,486 * The more that I show the devil 2719 01:50:53,528 --> 01:50:57,365 * That he's on the bottom of my soul 2720 01:50:57,407 --> 01:50:59,701 * Yeah, he's on the bottom of 2721 01:50:59,743 --> 01:51:04,080 * I know, life comes, and life goes