- ♪♪ MTV ♪♪
- I'm so pissed at myself for letting
myself even get to here.
Like, the gambling, I've gambled all my money away.
- She called me and started hysterically just, like,
crying and was like, I really think
I need to go to a facility.
And I'm like, you're going to die.
I just feel like I can't get married and be happy,
like, watching her like that.
- Last week, I talked to my mom's counselor.
They want me to come visit my parents,
but only if I want to.
- I think you should go.
- Yeah.
- Nate asked me to do the next season of The Challenge.
- Oh. - And I'm excited about it.
- I've, like, tried to distract her
all day because of her dad, and then he sent this video.
- Happy birthday.
I know it's sad I'm leaving on your birthday.
But either way, I love you.
- I don't know. I didn't show her.
- That's only going to make her sad.
- No, it's good.
If you want to show her that video now,
I think her mood would change.
- Like, all of this has been hard.
A breakup is hard.
- Did he ask you to sign a legal document
or anything not to share?
- I did agree not to.
- So you can't share with us.
- I cannot.
- Legally, you cannot share.
- Legally, I cannot share.
[dramatic music]
- And it's not just me that's involved.
I have three kids that I have to think about as well.
So [bleep] you.
- Luis just texted me saying that he's
stopping by to see Stella, but we haven't
heard from him in months.
Where the hell have you been?
- Home.
- What's his excuse now?
- He's overwhelmed.
- Bitch, and what are you?
- Generally, it's only two sessions,
two ketamine sessions.
And just see if it gets brought up.
- So you go out there for a few days,
and then I come out.
- Tell me why you're here.
- My wife was like, listen, I think you should dive deeper
into your sexual abuse trauma.
The sexual identity got robbed.
Your young hormones are raging.
You're young, whatever.
I mean, I literally had a child
that I had to place for adoption.
Pretty much, I think because of that, I--
- Mm-hmm. - Oh, man.
- How do you forgive yourself for that?
- I don't know if I ever can.
[upbeat music]
♪♪ ♪♪
- ♪♪ Waves and rows ♪♪
♪♪ The highway gold is in our hands ♪♪
- Hello?
- Hi, honey. How are you doing?
- I'm doing good.
How was your day today?
- It was good.
The session with Dr. Michael was
pretty intense, to be honest.
But it's good.
- Sharing hard stuff is never easy.
But I'll be interested to see how it goes for you tomorrow,
because I'm sure I'll be in the air just
landing when you get there.
- Yeah.
Well, I'll text you and let you know
what's going on. [sighs]
- Well, I'll see you tomorrow.
I can't wait to give you a hug, and I'm proud of you.
- Thanks, babe. - Yeah.
And I love you very, very much.
- I love you very, very much.
- ♪♪ Go high ♪♪
♪♪ ♪♪
♪♪ Let the story start ♪♪
♪♪ I am ready for a new world ♪♪
♪♪ Ready for a new world ♪♪
- Hey. - Hey.
- Welcome back. - How's it going?
- Here I am, back. - Nice to see you.
I'll take you back.
- OK, awesome. Let's go.
♪♪ ♪♪
- What are you noticing today?
- I'm just feeling--
I feel very ready.
[suspenseful music]
♪♪ ♪♪
- So now you're going to notice
that there may be a little bit of floatiness
over the next few seconds.
♪♪ ♪♪
Go into your mind.
♪♪ ♪♪
Tell me where you are.
- I'm in my childhood trailer.
- Hmm. - I'm about four.
- What are you doing?
- Hiding.
- Who are you hiding from?
- Bounty hunters coming for my dad.
- And how does that feel?
- Very scary.
- What did that little four-year-old in this trailer,
what did he need?
- He needed someone to save him, hold him.
- And now imagining that your higher self is
hugging all of the versions of Tyler.
Do you see that happening?
- Yeah. - What's coming up for you?
- I'm sorry.
Trust me.
- And when you can help that little boy feel safe,
it can be very easy to begin to trust yourself.
And I also wonder if some part of you
connected not being taken care of
and not being safe enough as not being worthy.
And you know what is the best gift that you can give
your kids for them to feel worthy and safe
is for you to feel worthy and safe.
- Yeah.
- When you think of your wife now,
what are the feelings that come over you?
- I'm so grateful.
- Yeah.
- Oh, man.
She's saved me in so many ways.
[sighs]
- What do you want to say to Catelynn?
- Thank you.
[crying]
[sighs]
She's given me everything.
- Yeah.
- And she's shown me more love than
I ever thought I ever deserved.
It's crazy.
[sighs]
- Look at how far you've come.
There's a reason why you are here.
Yes, Tyler.
You were meant--
you are meant to be here.
- I am.
[sighs]
- Wow, Tyler.
- What a gift.
Oh, man.
- Want this?
- Thank you.
- What a gift.
- [sighs]
[hip-hop music]
♪♪ ♪♪
- [crying]
- Cory's been away doing The Challenge
for three weeks now.
And Ryder's been having a really hard time with it.
♪♪ ♪♪
[line ringing]
Hey. How are you doing?
- I'm fine.
I just am more so concerned about all the kids.
- Yeah.
- Like, Mila on her birthday,
I kept her awake to talk to him.
Then when he got on the phone,
she just started bawling her eyes out.
You could tell he was upset. - Yeah.
- And then the other day, she thought
Daddy was coming to pick her up.
And I'm like, no.
- Aww. - No, he's not coming.
- I feel like Ryder has struggled
this time more than the past.
And it's--
- It's so weird because I figured
she'd be, like, a little better now that she's older...
- Right.
- And understands.
But I don't know.
- ♪♪ So I, I wait patiently ♪♪
♪♪ I won't complain ♪♪
♪♪ Oh, no, no, no, no, no ♪♪
♪♪ I won't keep on cruising away I go ♪♪
♪♪ Keep on cruising away I go ♪♪
- Can I get a tabbouleh salad
and then a chicken shawarma plate?
- I'll do the Greek salad
and the chicken shawarma.
- Can I get an Armenian salad?
- Yeah, sure.
- How are you?
Are you OK?
- Now that Cory's gone doing The Challenge,
I feel like I'm just...
- One day at a time. - One day at a time.
So Ryder's gotten to talk to her dad, well, twice now.
He left on Ryder's birthday to go do The Challenge.
- But he was at the party.
- He was at--right, her birthday was the next day.
- Her birthday was after.
- Yeah, he left that day
on her birthday to go do the show.
- And how did she feel about that?
- Oh, [bleep].
- I think she's a little upset with him.
And last night, she kind of cried a little bit,
and was upset, and was like, who leaves
on someone's actual birthday?
And I'm laying there and I'm like--
- How did that conversation even come up?
- It must have been stewing.
- It had to be stewing.
- Yeah.
- Right now, she's like, what the hell is going on?
Because not only did he leave, Taylor left
and the girls left.
- Oh, they did?
- Yeah, because Taylor doesn't have any family out here.
So the day he left... - She went home.
- She went home to Seattle.
- Yeah. - So her world...
- Is now minimized.
- It's just making me feel guilty.
- Not a good thing at all.
- I can't do anything about it.
Like, this is just what it is.
You're--you're going to have two homes forever.
- Yeah. - Yeah.
- I think that Ryder is truly trying to figure it out.
I asked her, like, do you want to tell him how you feel
and how you've been feeling?
And she said, no, I want you to tell him.
And now, I'm like, help.
- That's hard.
- Help me. - That's very hard because...
- Because he's there for a reason.
- Yeah.
- I don't want to mess up his head.
- And that is a big portion of getting
through The Challenge is, like, the mental stability, right?
- It's mental, yeah.
- Because once you disconnect from the goal
and you start allowing the life to get in--
- He might as well come home.
- He might as well just come home, yeah.
I just don't want it to be an instance where, like,
you know, Ryder's older, and she has
all the things that she wants.
But then she still feels empty from the relationships.
♪♪ ♪♪
[upbeat pop music]
♪♪ ♪♪
- OK, we're ready.
- All right.
I love you.
Have a safe trip.
- So me, Cheyenne, and Margaret had
a really good conversation.
I decided that I am going to go and visit my parents
while they're in rehab.
So first, I'm going to fly to Texas.
I'm going to visit my mom.
And then right after, I'm going to fly to Arizona
and visit my dad.
My aunt, which is my mom's sister,
is going to come with me for some moral support
because I definitely don't want to do this visit alone.
♪♪ ♪♪
My aunt's never flown on a plane.
- Oh.
- [chuckling]
♪♪ ♪♪
- Oh, got an iron and ironing board.
- What are you ironing?
What are you ironing?
- I'm old school, baby.
I like some creases.
- Some creases.
Oh.
Yeah, I'm gong to need to take off my shoes
and get comfortable.
- So what time do we see your mom tomorrow?
- So we're going to go to the facility At 12:30.
- What do you expect from tomorrow?
- I have hope.
I don't have expectation, but I have hope.
- Don't set expectations. - Yeah.
I don't set expectations.
But you know, I've been around this rodeo
so many times that I know when someone's just
trying to lie and manipulate me or trying to tell
me what I want to hear.
For so long, my feelings were not acknowledged.
I wasn't acknowledged.
My trauma was downplayed and never acknowledged.
- You know, you might feel better after this too.
- I know.
- Getting it all out on the table.
- But just because you know you need to do
something doesn't make it less hard to do it, you know?
- It is hard. This is your mother, and--
- I just know I'm getting into when I do this whole
meeting thing, it's just like I know
I'm getting to this really vulnerable place
of just so much emotions.
And like, it's overwhelming to think about how much
work that needs to be done.
- Yeah.
[hip-hop music]
- I'm seeing my mom for the first time today
and doing a private therapy session with her.
And I haven't slept at all.
I had a panic attack.
My nerves are just, like, shot.
I think I've just dealt with this for so long,
and it's just a lot of anxiety.
And I don't know how this meeting
is going to affect our relationship moving forward.
- How do you feel?
- My brain is, like, hurting.
Like, I just want the day to be over.
♪♪ ♪♪
I'm already about to have a [bleep] heart attack.
- Oh, my gosh.
I'll rub you real quick.
Oh, just breathe and relax.
♪♪ ♪♪
- ♪♪ Everyone will go and make waves ♪♪
♪♪ Shine like the summer sun rays ♪♪
♪♪ Heat like a hundred degrees ♪♪
♪♪ Oh, no, you can't touch me ♪♪
♪♪ ♪♪
- Hello?
- Hey, what's up? - What's going on?
- There's a daddy-daughter dance coming up,
and I wanted to know if you could take both the girls.
- Yeah, of course.
- Yeah?
All right, I'll keep you updated.
- All right, cool.
- All right, bye. Thanks.
- Yeah, no problem.
- Hey, girls.
So I just did something,
and I hope it was the right call.
There's a daddy-daughter dance and I ended up asking Devoin
if he could take both the kids,
because Luis hasn't seen Stella in months.
I know Devoin isn't perfect, but he really has stepped up.
[upbeat music]
♪♪ ♪♪
- How was school today?
- Good.
- What did you guys do?
Anything new? - No.
- No?
- Give me a kiss.
I love you.
[smooching]
Well, you smell good.
- What's up?
- There's a daddy-daughter dance coming up.
- Mm-hmm.
- And I was talking to Nova about it.
- Mm-hmm.
- I was telling Nova, like, hey.
You're going to go, right? And she's like, yeah.
And I'm like, OK, Stella's going to go too.
And Devoin is going to bring you guys.
And she's like, ugh, I don't really want that.
- Why?
- And I'm just like, I get it.
You want to spend alone time with your dad.
But right now, Luis hasn't seen Stella since December.
We're almost in June.
- Nuh-uh.
- So then I'm in the car with them.
And I'm explaining the whole situation to Stella and Nova,
and Stella starts crying.
She's like, I want Luis to go.
I want my dad to go. I miss my dad.
- Because she wants to feel included.
- And I'm like, are you sure you just don't
want to go with Devoin? And she's like, no.
I want my dad. Call him.
So now I'm in a situation where...
- That's crazy to me.
- A part of me doesn't even want to reach out to him
because it's [bleep] him.
But the way Stella cried for him hurt my heart so bad...
- You have to suck it up.
- That I have to suck it up, put my feelings aside,
and reach out.
I'm going to call him real quick.
[line ringing]
- Hello?
- Hey. - Hey.
- How are you?
- I'm all right.
- Um, there is a daddy-daughter dance
coming up in a few days, and Stella
asked for you to be there.
Would you be able to go?
- Yeah, of course I'll be there.
- Don't say you're going to come and then don't come.
You have to show up.
- I'll show up.
Just send me the info.
- All right.
I will send you all the information
so you can be a part of this.
She really wants you there.
She, like, cried and everything.
- OK, I'll be there.
- OK.
- All right.
- Why are we the ones reaching out to him so that he can be
a part of his daughter's life?
It should be the other way around.
- We know how it feels to have a dad and then
the mother[bleep] disappear.
He's going to keep doing this to her
for the rest of her life.
So her as a five-year-old upset
is going to be the same thing when she's 15 and upset.
At that point, that's when you're going to
have to tell her the damn truth about her dad.
- ♪♪ And on and on and on ♪♪
♪♪ We're running, running ♪♪
♪♪ Till love, love is all we got and got it ♪♪
♪♪ This time, this time, this time got nothing, nothing ♪♪
- So I was organizing some things downstairs
and I ran into a photo album that
was actually Jaylan's.
Has a lot of his family photos in it.
So I definitely want to reach out to him
and let him know that I have it
if he wants to meet up and get them.
Jay and I broke up about six months ago,
and I've come a long way.
I genuinely think it's the right thing to do,
and I want to give it back to him.
- ♪♪ We laughed until the sun went down ♪♪
♪♪ Crying till our tears ran out ♪♪
♪♪ Laughed until, laughed until ♪♪
♪♪ Laughed until the tears ran out ♪♪
- [clears throat]
[line ringing]
- Hello?
- Hey, what's up?
- Hey, what's going on?
- I'm trying to go through some things
because the community is doing, like,
a little garage sale for the community.
- OK.
- And I found some of your family portraits.
- OK.
- I'll be running downtown shortly and I can meet you.
I have to run some errands.
- OK, sounds good. That works.
I can meet you.
- All right. All right.
- I appreciate it.
- You're welcome.
I have to go to Taylor Books.
So if you want to meet me outside Taylor Books,
we can do that.
- OK, that works. I can meet you there.
- All right.
All right, I'll see you in a bit.
- All right, sounds good.
- All right, bye.
[somber music]
♪♪ ♪♪
[line ringing]
- Hello?
- I'm running errands.
And I was organizing for a garage sale coming up
and found some of Jaylan's family portraits.
And I would have shipped them to him.
But honestly, what if they got damaged?
I wouldn't want them to get damaged.
- Yeah. - So I'm going to meet him
and give him those. - Are you meeting him today?
- Yeah, I'm about to meet him right now.
I went through a lot of emotions after--
after the breakup because I genuinely loved someone.
And it takes time to get over, you know what I mean,
a breakup?
- Just keep in mind why you all broke up.
- I asked Lee for his blessing.
- You don't need his permission.
I just want you to know that you're the man.
- I just want to enjoy this time.
This is not the time to--
are we done?
- I just think the entire year and a half
of my life was a façade.
♪♪ ♪♪
- ♪♪ Moving along, moving along ♪♪
♪♪ Moving along, moving along ♪♪
- Hi.
- Hi, honey bunny.
[smooches]
- ♪♪ It feels so right ♪♪
- How are you? - How are you?
- Good.
So do you know what's happening tomorrow?
Dr. Mike said it's like a couples session,
so I'm like, OK.
- You came up a lot.
- I did? - Yes.
- Oh, no.
- No, no, no.
It's a good thing. - [giggles]
- ♪♪ Whoo-hoo, uh-huh, uh-huh ♪♪
♪♪ It got me through, whoo-hoo ♪♪
♪♪ Uh-huh, uh-huh ♪♪
- Have a seat here.
- Yeah. - Yeah.
♪♪ ♪♪
- Catelynn. Catelynn, nice to see you.
- Yes, good to see you too.
- So today, we're going to do a little couples therapy.
So I like to start couples therapy with an intention
because trauma is a family disease.
It affects not only you, but also your relationship.
Why don't you just talk to each other?
- So I guess my intention for us would be, yeah,
deeper understanding, I guess.
- I know Tyler and I, you and I have been talking
about it all week about your feelings of giving up
your first child for adoption.
What do you want Catelynn to know about that?
- Sexual abuse, I think, created hypersexual behavior
which resulted in us being irresponsible,
and then that happened.
And I'm really, really sorry.
- Sorry for what?
- We didn't get to parent her.
I just felt very guilty that that behavior,
like, resulted with Carly.
And you had to go through so much [bleep].
- And what did you learn about yourself this week?
- I learned that it wasn't my fault.
I was just so--
I was a wounded kid.
- Well--
- We both were.
- Yeah.
- What makes sense about that?
Does that make sense to you?
- Oh, my gosh, yes, you know?
We were just two little kids that in the beginning,
were very much trauma-bonded.
- What does your inner child want
to say to her inner child?
- That I got you. - Mm.
- Yeah, you're safe.
- Mm, thanks. - [chuckles]
- And what does yours want to say to his?
- That you're worthy of my love...
- [sighs] Thank you.
- And our kids' love. - Mm-hmm.
- Yeah, we made some dumb decisions
that led to an unplanned pregnancy.
But I truly feel like if it wasn't for that child,
we probably wouldn't be as far as where we are today.
I do feel like she was the catalyst that pushed us
both to really dig deep into ourselves
and to start working hard on ourselves so that way one day,
we would be ready for the beautiful kids
that we do get to raise, you know?
- Yeah.
- What would you say to Carly now?
- I would just want to tell her that
I'm blessed that she was born. - Mm.
[gentle guitar music]
♪♪ ♪♪
[tense music]
- I feel like I'm just, like, disassociating
from my own body.
- Yeah, don't do that.
Just breathe and relax.
Relax.
- All right, ready?
- Yeah.
- Okey-dokey.
- How are you all today?
- I'm OK. - Good.
- A little nervous?
- I'm sick to my stomach.
- You'll be good. - No, I'm not, but--
- I told her I think that this is
going to be a new, you know, breakthrough
for the relationship.
- I think it's going to be excellent, yeah.
- It's going to make it a whole lot better, yeah.
- So, Kim, we're going to have you in here.
And Jade, we're going to be down here.
- OK.
- Here we go.
- Hey.
- Hi.
How are you?
- Not OK.
- Why?
- I'm just, like, disassociating really bad,
and I'm--my stomach hurts.
I feel nauseous.
I--I'm not feeling good.
- Did you all go out in Austin last night?
- No. - Oh.
- So first, we're going to talk about kind of
the cycle of addiction, and recovery,
and what that looks like, and what it's going to
look like for her going forward.
I'm going to turn it over to Ryan
and let him talk about addiction and the 12 steps.
- What an addict is searching for in a substance
is wholeness.
The 12 steps are a clear-cut instruction manual
on how to have a spiritual awakening so that Christy can
experience this power and this wholeness
without the substance.
- When I got here I had, like, intensive, like, therapy
for my childhood trauma.
You know, like, sexual assaults and just [bleep]
I didn't even think I was holding on to.
I just thought I've let that go.
And I was just stuffing it down so deep inside
that finally, when I got here, I was just like,
oh, thank God.
It's hard to admit that you have
a problem just in general,
and then to announce it to the world.
I was on methamphetamine and I was [bleep]
my life up to the point of, like,
do I even want to live anymore?
Like, that's the point I was at.
Like, and I couldn't give anyone love or any respect
because I didn't have any for myself.
Drugs, gambling, it's just anything that feels good,
I had to have more of because I was missing something.
- Yeah.
To me, it's just everyone has something
that makes them feel empty.
I don't understand filling it with things
that you know are going to destroy you
and everyone around you.
To me, it's like that's where I just get confused.
- Well, your brain's wired different than mine.
- So I think what's important for you
to logically understand is that this
has to make sense to Christy.
You're not the first family member
to be resentful, if you are, at the fact that, like,
well, why--why can't I?
Why can't you?
Because truth be told, as much as it is a family illness
because it affects the family, this is Christy's
responsibility to deal with. - Right.
I totally understand that.
Like, I do Al-Anon.
And I have such a big understanding.
I feel like I don't have a lot of hatred, or anger,
or like, I'm not holding on to anything.
- Good.
- I just don't want to have any regrets, so I'm--
good thing I don't have no regrets.
- I've spoken very highly of Sean since I've been here.
And Sean's the reason I came.
I want what he [bleep] has.
- Yeah, he is--he's--
he's been doing good.
- The three major players in your life are now in recovery.
- Yeah.
- You probably put up with a lot of abuse,
a lot of negative behaviors directed directly towards you.
And so now, everybody around you is getting well.
You're going to have to make sure
that you're not trying to control this, this, and this.
- Yeah. - It's now theirs.
- You're always going to be more than welcome to hold
Christy accountable, but you also
can't control her recovery.
♪♪ ♪♪
Well, it was a pleasure meeting you.
- Yeah, it was nice to meet you too.
Thank you so much. - Yeah, absolutely.
- Thanks, Ryan. - All right.
Pray up, dude. - OK.
- So I'm going to ask
if you guys can kind of head out,
and the three of us are going to have some time
to go over some personal.
♪♪ ♪♪
- ♪♪ I'm floating, going through the motions ♪♪
♪♪ At least I don't feel hopeless, yeah ♪♪
- How was today at school?
- Good.
- OK.
So Daddy's going to call. - [gasps]
- Do you want to tell him what we talked about last night?
- You.
- If I told Daddy how you feel,
he's going to go, OK, Cheyenne.
But if you tell Daddy how you feel,
then he'll go, Rydee, tell me more.
- [giggles]
- Here, Ry. Your dad's calling.
- Hey. - Hey.
- What's up, Ry?
- Daddy.
Daddy, I'm sad that you left on my birthday,
my real birthday.
[gentle music]
- I know you're sad.
That was sad for me.
- And I cried.
I missed you.
- Guess what.
Daddy misses you too.
Daddy was crying.
Daddy cries here because I miss you so much.
I feel bad when you say that you have meltdowns
and you miss me.
But I'm glad that you're honest with me
and you tell me how you feel.
You be strong.
You hang in there.
Keep talking to your mom about
whatever you're feeling whenever you feel it.
I'll be home before you know it.
- OK.
- OK, Rydee.
Tell Daddy you love him, OK?
- I love you, Dada.
[smooches]
- Say, good luck.
- Good luck.
- All right.
- I'm doing good.
I'll see you guys.
- All right, bye.
- It's a hard situation with Cory
being gone for The Challenge.
I met Cory on The Challenge.
I have the most important person in the world
because of The Challenge.
But in this same voice, I hate that Ryder misses her dad.
I hate that Ryder is so sad because her dad is gone.
It's so confusing.
And I just want Ryder to grow up
in a non-confusing situation.
I just have to manage it the best I can.
♪♪ ♪♪
- ♪♪ What are you trying to be ♪♪
♪♪ I don't know quite yet ♪♪
♪♪ I guess I'm working it out ♪♪
- My sissy.
I love you. - Love you too.
Love you, Jade.
See you tomorrow.
- She's emotional.
- I love you. - All right, I love you.
I'll see you tomorrow. - See you tomorrow.
- Love you.
- Bye. - I love you, sissy.
You're beautiful.
So it was a good visit, though? - Yeah.
- Probably emotional and all the things.
- Oh, my God. I'm, like, exhausted.
You know, I said some things to her that I'm sure
were like... - Hard for her to hear?
- Yes.
I think the only thing that, like, sucks
is that all she can say is, like, I'm sorry,
and that wasn't me, that was, like, the addiction.
And I'm just like--
and sometimes you want to be like, that's not good enough.
It also was you too. Like, you know?
There has to be accountability.
- Accountability, yeah.
- And I feel like sometimes, it seems like
I don't like it to sound like a cop-out, you know?
She was saying, like, oh, that was the addiction.
That wasn't me.
Like, me in my right mind would never hurt you.
Me in--and I'm like, but you did hurt me.
- So do you think you're going to be
able to build that new relationship with your mother
and get, you know...
- It takes a long time.
And I told her that could take years, you know?
We just scratched the surface. You know what I mean?
There's so much work that has to be done at home.
This is just the beginning.
And you can't rush my healing process just like I can't
rush her healing process.
- So I'm going to ask you a question.
I mean, if it's too much, just let me know.
But do you feel resentment towards Sean
like you feel resentment towards your mom and dad?
Like, are you still healing from Sean and--
- Yeah.
I think I'm still healing with some stuff with Sean.
But also, your parents, you hold to a higher standard.
- Yeah.
- Sean is, at the end of the day, just some guy.
I told her, I was like, out of anything in life,
you will go in the books of being
my biggest heartbreak ever.
[somber music]
♪♪ ♪♪
[soft music]
[camera shutter clicking]
♪♪ ♪♪
[birds chirping]
- What's up?
How have you been?
- I've been good.
- So there's all of these and then--
- Oh, yeah, yeah.
- I swear there were some with your grandma and grandpa too,
but I got to-- - No, these are good.
- I'm going to find it. - Yeah, these are good.
I appreciate it.
- That works.
- How have you been?
- Good. - Yeah?
- Good.
- How are the girls doing? - Good.
- Yeah? - Getting big.
- Well, I'm glad we met.
- A lot of emotions.
It takes a little while. - I know. I understand.
I understand.
- It takes a little while, you know?
- That's what's up. - All right.
Well, I'll talk to you later. - OK.
Well, it was good seeing you. - You too.
- If you need anything, let me know.
- All right, for sure.
[soft music]
- ♪♪ If I could trade places ♪♪
♪♪ Trade places ♪♪
♪♪ Trade places with you ♪♪
- Hi.
- Oh, man.
Hungry. - Hey.
- Oh, hello.
- So pretty.
- Thank you.
- You're welcome.
- So you met Jaylan, right, and dropped the pictures off?
- Yeah. - Like, was it weird?
Was it awkward?
- I don't know.
I just don't look at him like I did.
You know what I mean? - Yeah, yeah.
- What did he say?
Like, was he-- did he say anything?
- Uh, asked me how I was doing.
I said, great. - And simple as that?
- Yeah.
- So do you think that'll be, like,
the last time you see him?
Like, do you think that you'll ever, like,
talk to him in the future?
- I think that I'm not going to make an attempt
to see him all the time. - Right.
- I mean, if I see him, I'm going to be cordial.
Like, I'm good.
- Yeah.
- And I know my boundaries.
I know when--when it's like, all right.
- You've learned--
- I mean, not here, but I've been--
- You've learned enough about people to know, like--
- Yeah.
And pain, and like-- like heartbreak.
And I know what I have to do to not go back to that place.
So it's like sometimes, you just don't get second chances.
You got to move--keep moving.
You got to keep moving.
You got to keep going.
- I agree.
- So cheers to continuing to move forward.
- Cheers to that.
♪♪ ♪♪
- Sometimes, things don't work out.
But it's going to be OK.
I got to go through these emotions.
I got to go through this pain, healing, grief.
And I know that there's a rainbow at the end.
♪♪ ♪♪
[upbeat music]
♪♪ ♪♪
- What are you guys doing?
- Nova, you hit so hard, girl.
- Stop it.
Stop, stop, stop, stop, stop.
- Stop what?
- So you guys have your daddy-daughter dance, right?
And I need to show you what you guys are going to wear.
Nova, I got you these little heels here that you
can--that you can wear.
- Those are pretty.
- You like that?
- Miss Stellita, I got you this one.
- Stella.
- You like this one?
- Let me see you stand up.
I want to see you next to it.
Put your--OK, you know what comes to mind?
- [vocalizing]
- You're like a Disney princess, period.
- [giggles]
- ♪♪ These are the days we'll remember ♪♪
- The daddy-daughter dance is today,
and the girls are super excited.
They look absolutely beautiful.
Luis texted me saying that he's on his way.
I'm only doing this because this is what Stella asked for.
♪♪ ♪♪
- Do I do a hairstyle or do I just leave it down?
- I would just leave it down.
It looks cute.
It's just little curls.
- Your child picked a pair of my heels
that actually fit her.
Hey, Luis.
Oh, you look nice.
He's still got a baby.
You have an adult.
- She fit your shoes?
- Yeah, she did.
But she--but they won't let her wear the heels,
because it's like too much of a heel.
But she was feeling it.
- Hey, you guys can come down.
♪♪ ♪♪
- Oh, no.
- Wait, wait, wait, wait.
Let me open the door.
- Oh, my God.
- Ooh.
♪♪ ♪♪
- Wow.
- No slack at all, huh?
Beautiful.
- Look at that, OK.
- With the heels too?
Beautiful.
- You guys ready? - Beautiful.
You're both pretty. - Grown.
They want to know, but I need y'all to stand right here
so I can take a picture of y'all.
- And when you walk in, all eyes on you.
Make sure you stand up tall, and you do that strut.
- Are you ready to go?
Yeah?
OK, give me a hug.
You're going to call me, right?
I love you.
You look so beautiful.
- Have fun. - Come on.
- Don't embarrass them.
- Right.
- Bye.
[soft music]
- I feel like we just took her--
sent her off to prom or something.
- I know. - It pretty much felt like it.
- I feel like it's good that they--
that they saw them look so grown up,
because, like, wake up.
You're missing [bleep].
- Luis looked miserable and Stella was uncomfortable.
He barely said a word to her.
- I personally think that Luis' mental health
is not all there. - 100%.
- But neither is Briana's. - Neither is mine.
- Damn it, Briana has a support system, Brittany.
That's the difference.
- But that's not Briana's fault
and that's not Briana's, like, fight.
That's for Luis to [bleep] be the--a man,
and reach out and do.
- Listen, if you eat [bleep] this far,
you might as well continue to eat [bleep],
because that little girl needs him.
- Honestly, they don't need
a piece of [bleep] person in their life.
- So then moving forward, you're going to have to make
that ultimate decision.
[phone ringing]
- Hello?
- Stella wants to go home.
- Stella wants to go home?
- I'm coming.
Oh, my God.
- What happened?
- Do you want me to pick her up?
- She's crying. - Do you want me to get her?
- No.
- Do you want me to go with you?
- [crying] No.
- I'm going to go with her.
I'll go with you.
- You got to be [bleep] kidding me.
[somber music]
♪♪ ♪♪
- Part of me was hoping
that the whole dance would be fine.
But then another part of me was like,
I feel like something's going to happen.
Even when I saw her just sitting there, like,
she looked happy, but she didn't look happy-happy.
Look, like, you go missing for so long
and your own daughter is not comfortable being with you.
It's just a [bleep] up situation.
I can't keep allowing Luis to come in and out.
And hopefully one day, I'm able to--
to find somebody that can, you know,
be a father figure to my girls because they need that,
you know?
And I don't know.
We'll see.
♪♪ ♪♪
[pop music]
- ♪♪ Where do we go now ♪♪
♪♪ Where do we go now ♪♪
- So I'm leaving Texas today.
This visit has been a lot.
So I'm going to visit with my mom one more time,
and just kind of have a chill visit,
and, you know, say our goodbyes.
I feel like the time has flown by.
- No.
- I feel like it's--
I feel like it's been quick.
To me, it felt like it was quick.
- Well, of course it's been quick to you.
I was like yesterday, I was like,
ooh, I get released in 18 days.
And the RA up there was like, released?
You mean discharged.
And I was like, no, released.
This was a 90-day sentence, ma'am.
[chuckles]
- So are you ready to come home, like, mentally,
physically, emotionally?
- Yes.
- Because the real test of rehabilitation
is applying everything that you learn into the real world.
Because this isn't the real world.
- I am more in tune with my emotions now
and I have tools to use when I get home to deal with things
and people to reach out to if I feel like, you know,
it's getting overwhelming or I don't know what to do.
Because I flipped over chairs and everything here.
- [bleep].
Huh.
Oh, that doesn't sound like you at all.
- But that's not like me now.
I'm nothing like I used to be.
When I first got here, I'm like, these bitches--
these bitches [bleep] hate me.
I can't stand these bitches ganging up on me.
And I would be pissed.
- Victim--victim mentality.
- I would be pissed.
But then when you start getting the same awarenesses
by a bunch of people at once, you're like, well,
maybe I should take a look at that.
- Maybe it's a me problem.
- I can't believe how good you look.
- Thanks.
- Your color, everything.
- Thanks.
- You're, like, glowing.
- I'm sweating.
It's probably sweat. OK.
You want to go up here and get something to drink and stuff?
It's hot out here.
- OK.
When the cameras were there, she seems good.
But the moment we had a private conversation,
she was like, I want to go home
and do fun stuff with you guys.
And then she looks at me and my aunt,
and she was like, oh, yeah.
We could do bingo together.
And I was like, what the [bleep]?
Why would we do bingo?
Like, you had a gambling problem, a drug problem.
Like, why would you even consider
doing bingo when the type of bingo you play
is gambling for money?
It's a huge red flag and a big problem.
And I have to be open and honest with her counselor
and tell her about my reservations
about her coming home and transitioning
into normal life.
- ♪♪ Will you help me when my heart beats fast ♪♪
♪♪ When my heart beats fast for you ♪♪
♪♪ Stay mine ♪♪
- This spot looks nice, see?
- I know. It is nice. - Dang.
We about to be picnicking on the hill.
Oh, yeah.
OK, first off.
[cork pops] - Oh.
- Hey, it did it by-- on its own, bro.
This is crazy how much connections I made.
I was like, damn, I never realized
that leaked into that, that leaked into that,
that leaked into that.
I was like, what the [bleep] man?
Because the flashbacks of me being
a little kid in the trailer, that was pretty intense.
- Yeah.
- Because it was one of my earliest memories.
But I felt like that really unlocked, like,
a deeper, like, really clear memory.
My first earliest memory was complete fear,
like, striking fear, bounty hunters
bashing on your window, and door,
and lights coming all in.
Like, dude, what the [bleep]?
- And it's weird too.
It just puts it all together. - Yeah.
That's why I wanted to make sure that I said sorry,
even if it wasn't necessary.
- Yeah.
- That's why it was important for me to say that.
- And I accept your apology.
- But you understand where I'm coming from, though?
- Yes, I do. - Yeah.
- I do.
- Because I'm a guy, I don't carry kids.
- Yeah. - You know?
- Mm-hmm. - So I don't--
yeah, I can't even really imagine that.
- Yeah, I mean, it was of the hardest things
I've ever had to do in my life, for sure.
But I knew it was necessary.
- I'm so thankful that you're the mother of my children.
I know that. - Oh, thanks.
- Because goddamn.
- I'm thankful you're the dad of my kids, yeah.
- [chuckles] Good.
- There's a lot of losers out there, you know?
- [laughs]
- ♪♪ Floating like water ♪♪
- I still love you.
- I love you too.
♪♪ ♪♪
- ♪♪ It's the start of something good ♪♪
♪♪ I got a feeling you and I could make ♪♪
♪♪ The stars shine like they should ♪♪
♪♪ Brighter than the fire in your eyes, in your eyes ♪♪
♪♪ It's the start of ♪♪
♪♪ It's the start of something ♪♪
♪♪ It's the start of ♪♪
♪♪ It's the start of something ♪♪