1 00:00:00,867 --> 00:00:03,002 - ♪ MTV ♪ 2 00:00:06,840 --> 00:00:08,375 - She's not feeling good today. 3 00:00:08,375 --> 00:00:10,343 - What's wrong with her? - PCOS. 4 00:00:10,343 --> 00:00:12,245 I don't know what to do. 5 00:00:12,245 --> 00:00:14,381 That's what kills me. 6 00:00:14,381 --> 00:00:17,083 - I ain't spoken to my attorney once at this point. 7 00:00:17,083 --> 00:00:19,018 Just do your community service. 8 00:00:19,018 --> 00:00:23,223 - He took this deal in exchange for, like, six years. 9 00:00:23,223 --> 00:00:25,692 - Is that one of them deals that if he does anything-- 10 00:00:25,692 --> 00:00:29,829 - If he does anything wrong, they take away his deal. 11 00:00:29,829 --> 00:00:32,165 - My dad called me and said he was in jail. 12 00:00:32,165 --> 00:00:33,600 - What? 13 00:00:33,600 --> 00:00:35,268 - I haven't even heard from him in over a year. 14 00:00:35,268 --> 00:00:36,803 - I love him. 15 00:00:36,803 --> 00:00:39,172 But at the end of the day, our relationship was toxic. 16 00:00:39,172 --> 00:00:41,174 I used with him. 17 00:00:41,174 --> 00:00:43,243 We enabled each other's addiction. 18 00:00:43,243 --> 00:00:45,879 There's no way I can go back to that. 19 00:00:45,879 --> 00:00:48,681 - So our realtor sent me this new listing. 20 00:00:48,681 --> 00:00:50,083 - This house looks fancy. 21 00:00:50,083 --> 00:00:51,418 - I know it does. - Doesn't it? 22 00:00:51,418 --> 00:00:52,685 - Yeah. - You don't belong here. 23 00:00:52,685 --> 00:00:54,587 It's not meant for trailer trash. 24 00:00:54,587 --> 00:00:56,689 - It feels overwhelming because it's like, 25 00:00:56,689 --> 00:00:59,125 our first really expensive house that 26 00:00:59,125 --> 00:01:00,493 we've ever bought in our lives. 27 00:01:02,529 --> 00:01:05,131 - "I was shooting my shot." 28 00:01:05,131 --> 00:01:06,266 - Yep. 29 00:01:06,266 --> 00:01:08,001 So he does still care about you. 30 00:01:08,001 --> 00:01:11,070 - We got back from the trip. 31 00:01:11,070 --> 00:01:12,872 And then when I got home, he texted me 32 00:01:12,872 --> 00:01:14,908 and asked me, like, let's go to dinner. 33 00:01:14,908 --> 00:01:16,576 We're going on a date. 34 00:01:16,576 --> 00:01:19,846 - I think we need some family counseling. 35 00:01:19,846 --> 00:01:21,848 - I'll reach out to my guy. 36 00:01:23,149 --> 00:01:26,052 [upbeat rock music] 37 00:01:26,052 --> 00:01:33,126 ♪ ♪ 38 00:01:37,464 --> 00:01:39,532 - ♪ My heart, my heart ♪ 39 00:01:39,532 --> 00:01:42,202 ♪ My boom-boom heart, it's a-beating ♪ 40 00:01:42,202 --> 00:01:44,971 ♪ It's a thumping and I'm alive ♪ 41 00:01:44,971 --> 00:01:47,440 - So I'm going to a family gathering 42 00:01:47,440 --> 00:01:49,409 with my sister, Victoria. 43 00:01:49,409 --> 00:01:52,278 She just had a set of twins that are three months. 44 00:01:52,278 --> 00:01:53,413 How crazy is that? 45 00:01:53,413 --> 00:01:55,548 We both had a set of twins. 46 00:01:55,548 --> 00:01:59,185 But things have been rough since Jay and I split, 47 00:01:59,185 --> 00:02:03,289 and I'm genuinely just grateful that she lives close by 48 00:02:03,289 --> 00:02:05,558 and I have her as support. 49 00:02:05,558 --> 00:02:07,093 - ♪ If it feels like paradise ♪ 50 00:02:07,093 --> 00:02:08,895 ♪ Running through your bloody veins ♪ 51 00:02:08,895 --> 00:02:12,232 ♪ You know it's love heading your way ♪ 52 00:02:12,232 --> 00:02:14,067 ♪ If it feels like paradise ♪ 53 00:02:14,067 --> 00:02:15,935 ♪ Running through your bloody veins ♪ 54 00:02:15,935 --> 00:02:17,937 ♪ You know it's love heading your way ♪ 55 00:02:17,937 --> 00:02:20,974 - All right, got all those kids downstairs. 56 00:02:20,974 --> 00:02:22,041 They're jumping. 57 00:02:22,041 --> 00:02:23,476 Let me see the babies. 58 00:02:23,476 --> 00:02:25,812 Oh, my goodness. You're so cute. 59 00:02:25,812 --> 00:02:27,947 - So I've been talking to dad a lot lately. 60 00:02:27,947 --> 00:02:29,382 Have you? 61 00:02:29,382 --> 00:02:31,050 - Last time I talked to him was when he went to jail 62 00:02:31,050 --> 00:02:33,953 and apparently he needed bond-- I don't know what it was. 63 00:02:33,953 --> 00:02:36,456 My dad became addicted to pain pills 64 00:02:36,456 --> 00:02:39,792 after an accident at work when I was just a child. 65 00:02:39,792 --> 00:02:42,095 He's been struggling with addiction ever since. 66 00:02:42,095 --> 00:02:43,630 - It's been a little while. 67 00:02:43,630 --> 00:02:45,365 I mean, we've talked on the phone, but-- 68 00:02:45,365 --> 00:02:48,201 - Yeah, it's been a while. - I was 13. 69 00:02:48,201 --> 00:02:49,969 It's been hard with you not around. 70 00:02:49,969 --> 00:02:51,471 - It's been hard for me too. 71 00:02:51,471 --> 00:02:53,540 - When I got addicted to pain pills myself, 72 00:02:53,540 --> 00:02:56,476 my dad enabled me and was a bad influence. 73 00:02:56,476 --> 00:02:58,177 So I got clean. 74 00:02:58,177 --> 00:03:01,848 - No matter what is going on, we will get through this. 75 00:03:01,848 --> 00:03:04,584 - And I decided to distance myself from him. 76 00:03:04,584 --> 00:03:08,421 - As his children and being the only people that he has, 77 00:03:08,421 --> 00:03:10,290 I feel like it's our responsibility 78 00:03:10,290 --> 00:03:12,559 to give firm love-- 79 00:03:12,559 --> 00:03:14,327 - Hold him accountable. Hold him accountable. 80 00:03:14,327 --> 00:03:15,762 - Yes, OK, be like that. 81 00:03:15,762 --> 00:03:17,330 - And have we ask him if he wanted the help? 82 00:03:17,330 --> 00:03:18,565 - Yeah. 83 00:03:18,565 --> 00:03:20,366 - So the first step with addiction, 84 00:03:20,366 --> 00:03:22,969 you have to accept that you have an addiction. 85 00:03:22,969 --> 00:03:24,304 - Mm-hmm. - We've asked him 86 00:03:24,304 --> 00:03:25,638 and asked him and asked him. We support him. 87 00:03:25,638 --> 00:03:27,173 I can love you from a distance, 88 00:03:27,173 --> 00:03:29,108 but I will refuse to expose my children to this behavior 89 00:03:29,108 --> 00:03:30,677 that I was exposed to-- - And I can respect that. 90 00:03:30,677 --> 00:03:32,211 - --in my childhood, because I know 91 00:03:32,211 --> 00:03:35,048 how that resulted in trauma in my early adult life. 92 00:03:35,048 --> 00:03:36,449 And I will not allow it-- 93 00:03:36,449 --> 00:03:37,550 - You're not gonna do it with your children. 94 00:03:37,550 --> 00:03:39,986 - --to continue. He isn't ready. 95 00:03:40,753 --> 00:03:43,222 - I don't think all the things that Dad's done 96 00:03:43,222 --> 00:03:46,859 throughout his life are things that he wanted to do. 97 00:03:46,859 --> 00:03:50,363 [tense music] 98 00:03:50,363 --> 00:03:51,931 - ♪ Hey, sugar, what ya doin'? ♪ 99 00:03:51,931 --> 00:03:53,733 ♪ What ya doin', baby? Yeah ♪ 100 00:03:53,733 --> 00:03:56,669 ♪ Poolside, gimme that cool tequila sunny, yeah ♪ 101 00:03:56,669 --> 00:03:57,770 ♪ Break the rules ♪ 102 00:03:57,770 --> 00:03:59,339 - I'm glad they painted the door. 103 00:03:59,339 --> 00:04:01,007 - Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. 104 00:04:02,575 --> 00:04:05,178 Oh, smells like paint. 105 00:04:05,178 --> 00:04:06,646 Whoo. 106 00:04:06,646 --> 00:04:08,481 Looking good in here. - It does. 107 00:04:08,481 --> 00:04:10,049 Yeah, this is the first time you've seen it all white. 108 00:04:10,049 --> 00:04:11,117 - Yeah, I wanted to wait. 109 00:04:11,117 --> 00:04:12,585 I like to wait. 110 00:04:12,585 --> 00:04:14,988 Yeah, it looks really good. 111 00:04:14,988 --> 00:04:16,489 Punk. 112 00:04:16,489 --> 00:04:19,892 ♪ ♪ 113 00:04:19,892 --> 00:04:21,628 It's a big kid house. 114 00:04:21,628 --> 00:04:23,429 This is something you used to say rich people 115 00:04:23,429 --> 00:04:25,098 lived in when you were little. 116 00:04:25,098 --> 00:04:26,432 - We have poverty trauma. 117 00:04:26,432 --> 00:04:28,735 - Poverty trauma. [laughs] 118 00:04:30,336 --> 00:04:32,705 - So, guys, we bought a new house. 119 00:04:32,705 --> 00:04:35,875 We're super excited. It's moving super fast. 120 00:04:35,875 --> 00:04:37,944 We want to make it a smooth transition, 121 00:04:37,944 --> 00:04:41,447 so my mom's watching the girls while we can start to move in. 122 00:04:41,447 --> 00:04:45,752 ♪ ♪ 123 00:04:45,752 --> 00:04:47,286 I feel like I couldn't sleep last night. 124 00:04:47,286 --> 00:04:48,421 - I couldn't either. Myeh. 125 00:04:48,421 --> 00:04:49,756 - I know. It's sad. 126 00:04:49,756 --> 00:04:51,924 We brought our two youngest babies home here. 127 00:04:51,924 --> 00:04:54,560 - Well, I hope they respond with excitement and joy 128 00:04:54,560 --> 00:04:57,030 when they come back and see their new house. 129 00:04:57,030 --> 00:04:58,231 I don't know. 130 00:04:58,231 --> 00:05:00,000 I mean, God damn. I don't know. 131 00:05:00,000 --> 00:05:00,466 I mean, God damn. I don't know. 132 00:05:00,466 --> 00:05:01,768 Is this the last time we're moving, honey? 133 00:05:01,768 --> 00:05:03,536 - Yes. - Are you sure? 134 00:05:03,536 --> 00:05:04,804 - Yeah, I moved my whole life. 135 00:05:04,804 --> 00:05:06,305 I hate it. 136 00:05:06,305 --> 00:05:07,674 - ♪ I like that ♪ 137 00:05:07,674 --> 00:05:10,309 - Well, the whole house is pretty much packed. 138 00:05:10,309 --> 00:05:12,111 - How do you feel about, like, moving? 139 00:05:12,111 --> 00:05:13,680 - I remember growing up as a little kid, 140 00:05:13,680 --> 00:05:15,248 I always wanted to live in a house for some reason. 141 00:05:15,248 --> 00:05:16,382 You know what I mean? 142 00:05:16,382 --> 00:05:17,684 Like, I just wanted a house. 143 00:05:17,684 --> 00:05:19,285 We were always living in the trailer park. 144 00:05:19,285 --> 00:05:21,754 I remember my mom got kicked out of her trailer. 145 00:05:21,754 --> 00:05:23,156 Well, we got kicked out of it. 146 00:05:23,156 --> 00:05:24,691 - Remember I helped move? 147 00:05:25,892 --> 00:05:27,994 What about your photo album, Carly? 148 00:05:29,829 --> 00:05:31,731 - So much drama and so much craziness, 149 00:05:31,731 --> 00:05:34,333 just, like, moving and, you know, 150 00:05:34,333 --> 00:05:35,868 like, not having money, 151 00:05:35,868 --> 00:05:38,671 like, having our water get shut off. 152 00:05:38,671 --> 00:05:40,606 It stresses me out. 153 00:05:40,606 --> 00:05:42,742 - Are you OK, honey? 154 00:05:44,010 --> 00:05:45,545 - Whatever. I'll fend for myself, 155 00:05:45,545 --> 00:05:47,647 and I'll go to a shelter or something. 156 00:05:47,647 --> 00:05:49,615 - Oh, my gosh. That'd be so crazy. 157 00:05:49,615 --> 00:05:51,851 - What else can I do? 158 00:05:51,851 --> 00:05:53,786 - Basically, living at your house 159 00:05:53,786 --> 00:05:55,488 and having nowhere to go when I was younger-- 160 00:05:55,488 --> 00:05:57,490 couldn't imagine doing it to my kids. 161 00:05:57,490 --> 00:05:58,591 - Because you know what it felt like. 162 00:05:58,591 --> 00:05:59,692 - Oh, my God. It felt horrible. 163 00:05:59,692 --> 00:06:01,160 - It's constant anxiety. - Yeah. 164 00:06:01,160 --> 00:06:03,863 - My mom had a house, but she had to work at the bar 165 00:06:03,863 --> 00:06:05,631 every weekend for my whole life. 166 00:06:05,631 --> 00:06:06,766 - Yeah, she didn't have time to spend with you guys. 167 00:06:06,766 --> 00:06:07,867 - We had no money for nothing. 168 00:06:07,867 --> 00:06:09,435 We barely had anything to eat. 169 00:06:09,435 --> 00:06:11,204 We couldn't put our thermostat 170 00:06:11,204 --> 00:06:13,072 higher than, like, 65 or something like that. 171 00:06:13,072 --> 00:06:14,540 Something happened where I remember we were like, 172 00:06:14,540 --> 00:06:15,742 oh, [bleep], we have to choose. 173 00:06:15,742 --> 00:06:17,110 She said what do you want to do? 174 00:06:17,110 --> 00:06:19,145 You want to have light or you want to be warm? 175 00:06:19,145 --> 00:06:21,214 Me and Amber were like, ah. 176 00:06:21,214 --> 00:06:23,116 That's crazy. 177 00:06:23,116 --> 00:06:25,284 - Our parents were just trying their best to survive, 178 00:06:25,284 --> 00:06:26,786 you know, really. 179 00:06:26,786 --> 00:06:28,354 - I'm just happy that we don't have to worry 180 00:06:28,354 --> 00:06:30,690 about providing for our kids. 181 00:06:30,690 --> 00:06:32,825 It's kind of crazy when you think about it. 182 00:06:32,825 --> 00:06:35,328 You know, we take little steps to get to certain places 183 00:06:35,328 --> 00:06:36,863 in your life. - Mm-hmm. 184 00:06:36,863 --> 00:06:39,499 - It's really important to just like, sit back--whew. 185 00:06:39,499 --> 00:06:41,534 All right, let's go back to the beginning, 186 00:06:41,534 --> 00:06:44,337 acknowledge the growth. 187 00:06:44,337 --> 00:06:45,838 [bleep]. 188 00:06:47,306 --> 00:06:50,476 - ♪ Eat your heart out ♪ 189 00:06:50,476 --> 00:06:53,713 ♪ We won't stop now ♪ 190 00:06:53,713 --> 00:06:55,047 ♪ Bleeding our blood on the drums ♪ 191 00:06:55,047 --> 00:06:57,216 - I was on your team last time. Play with Benny. 192 00:06:57,216 --> 00:06:59,652 I know. Benny sucks. I know. 193 00:06:59,652 --> 00:07:02,255 ♪ ♪ 194 00:07:02,255 --> 00:07:04,757 All right, let's go. 195 00:07:04,757 --> 00:07:07,126 - Are you gonna pass? [laughter] 196 00:07:07,126 --> 00:07:08,895 - Your ball. You're good. 197 00:07:08,895 --> 00:07:11,097 Go, Mav. 198 00:07:11,097 --> 00:07:14,033 Goal! - Goal! 199 00:07:14,033 --> 00:07:17,069 ♪ ♪ 200 00:07:17,069 --> 00:07:18,704 - Hey, y'all. 201 00:07:18,704 --> 00:07:22,742 I'm kind of frustrated because, for the last couple of years, 202 00:07:22,742 --> 00:07:25,678 but really the last year, 203 00:07:25,678 --> 00:07:27,847 I've been dealing with a lot of different symptoms. 204 00:07:27,847 --> 00:07:31,484 And it's not, like, related to PCOS. 205 00:07:31,484 --> 00:07:33,553 It's not something that, you know, 206 00:07:33,553 --> 00:07:35,855 I've ever had to deal with before. 207 00:07:35,855 --> 00:07:40,092 And it's starting to, like, affect my everyday life. 208 00:07:40,092 --> 00:07:42,562 I don't know. I'm in a weird spot. 209 00:07:42,562 --> 00:07:45,631 ♪ ♪ 210 00:07:45,631 --> 00:07:47,733 Are my eyes red? 211 00:07:47,733 --> 00:07:50,837 - A little bit. Yeah. - They're itchy. 212 00:07:50,837 --> 00:07:53,472 Like, I feel like they're itchy all the time now. 213 00:07:53,472 --> 00:07:55,308 And dry. 214 00:07:55,308 --> 00:07:57,577 And blurred vision. 215 00:07:57,577 --> 00:07:59,045 It's weird. 216 00:07:59,045 --> 00:08:01,214 - ♪ Cross that bridge another time ♪ 217 00:08:01,214 --> 00:08:04,650 ♪ I'm too tired to say what's on my mind ♪ 218 00:08:04,650 --> 00:08:07,220 ♪ Promise you'll be fine ♪ 219 00:08:07,220 --> 00:08:10,623 ♪ ♪ 220 00:08:10,623 --> 00:08:12,592 - I'm so tired. 221 00:08:12,592 --> 00:08:14,093 - Like fatigued? 222 00:08:14,093 --> 00:08:16,562 - I feel like there's never a day 223 00:08:16,562 --> 00:08:19,732 where I'm not so exhausted. 224 00:08:19,732 --> 00:08:22,602 - Think that's because of, like, PCOS? 225 00:08:22,602 --> 00:08:24,003 - I don't know. 226 00:08:24,003 --> 00:08:26,239 I just feel like I'm not sleeping good 227 00:08:26,239 --> 00:08:30,476 because I keep waking up in hives. 228 00:08:30,476 --> 00:08:36,582 ♪ ♪ 229 00:08:36,582 --> 00:08:37,783 - Sup? 230 00:08:37,783 --> 00:08:40,453 - Oh, nothing. 231 00:08:40,453 --> 00:08:43,122 There's this thing that I've recently learned about. 232 00:08:43,122 --> 00:08:45,057 It's called breast implant illness. 233 00:08:45,057 --> 00:08:48,928 And your cousin had experienced it, 234 00:08:48,928 --> 00:08:50,596 and she-- 235 00:08:50,596 --> 00:08:52,531 it's called explanting. - Mm-hmm. 236 00:08:52,531 --> 00:08:54,166 - She got her implants taken out, 237 00:08:54,166 --> 00:08:57,637 but I have, like, 95% of these symptoms. 238 00:08:57,637 --> 00:08:59,138 - Which symptoms do you have? 239 00:08:59,138 --> 00:09:03,175 - Chronic fatigue, brain fog, muscle aches and pains, 240 00:09:03,175 --> 00:09:05,912 dry skin, eyes, mouth, and hair, 241 00:09:05,912 --> 00:09:08,915 night sweats, skin rashes, insomnia, 242 00:09:08,915 --> 00:09:12,685 sudden food intolerances. 243 00:09:12,685 --> 00:09:14,820 - That is a lot of stuff that you have. 244 00:09:14,820 --> 00:09:17,590 - Tell me why you want to have an augmentation. 245 00:09:17,590 --> 00:09:19,558 - Before I had my son, 246 00:09:19,558 --> 00:09:23,262 they were higher and actually bigger. 247 00:09:23,262 --> 00:09:25,898 And then, once I had him, all that's there is, 248 00:09:25,898 --> 00:09:28,234 like, pretty much skin and stretch marks. 249 00:09:28,234 --> 00:09:29,502 - Right. - That's it. 250 00:09:29,502 --> 00:09:31,704 - Thank you guys. - You're welcome, sweetie. 251 00:09:31,704 --> 00:09:33,205 - Thank you. 252 00:09:33,205 --> 00:09:35,574 That's very-- kind of intimidating, 253 00:09:35,574 --> 00:09:37,276 because I'm like, I've never heard of this. 254 00:09:37,276 --> 00:09:38,844 - Yeah. 255 00:09:38,844 --> 00:09:42,181 - It seems very, I don't know, like, hard to really grasp. 256 00:09:42,181 --> 00:09:43,349 - Yeah. 257 00:09:43,349 --> 00:09:45,318 - It's like an autoimmune disease. 258 00:09:45,318 --> 00:09:47,119 - You think you've dealt with this the whole time? 259 00:09:47,119 --> 00:09:48,587 Because you've had them for a long time. 260 00:09:48,587 --> 00:09:50,289 - I think that's what it is. 261 00:09:50,289 --> 00:09:52,358 Because, I mean, going to the doctor 262 00:09:52,358 --> 00:09:54,193 and doing blood work and all the stuff, 263 00:09:54,193 --> 00:09:56,095 like, there's nothing that gives 264 00:09:56,095 --> 00:09:58,230 a hint of, like, Lyme disease or lupus 265 00:09:58,230 --> 00:09:59,799 or something like that. - That's crazy. 266 00:09:59,799 --> 00:10:00,000 I've never even heard of this. 267 00:10:00,000 --> 00:10:01,367 I've never even heard of this. 268 00:10:01,367 --> 00:10:04,270 - Like, between PCOS and this, I've never, as an adult, 269 00:10:04,270 --> 00:10:07,373 gone to the doctor and gotten answers. 270 00:10:07,373 --> 00:10:11,410 It stresses me out thinking about having 271 00:10:11,410 --> 00:10:12,912 a very invasive surgery. 272 00:10:12,912 --> 00:10:15,748 And I'd feel like I'm so crazy 273 00:10:15,748 --> 00:10:19,018 for being like "something is wrong." 274 00:10:19,018 --> 00:10:21,520 Why is something always wrong? 275 00:10:21,520 --> 00:10:24,123 ♪ ♪ 276 00:10:26,167 --> 00:10:27,502 - ♪ Don't let 'em push you our and pull you under ♪ 277 00:10:27,502 --> 00:10:28,936 ♪ Somebody says you gotta ♪ 278 00:10:28,936 --> 00:10:30,872 ♪ Go and get yourself together ♪ 279 00:10:30,872 --> 00:10:33,708 ♪ Somebody said, but they don't know ♪ 280 00:10:33,708 --> 00:10:35,176 - Hey, ladies. 281 00:10:35,176 --> 00:10:37,011 I just got back from a date with Devoin, 282 00:10:37,011 --> 00:10:39,380 and it went really, really well. 283 00:10:39,380 --> 00:10:44,786 I told him, in order for us to "try to figure out" 284 00:10:44,786 --> 00:10:46,788 how to become a couple, 285 00:10:46,788 --> 00:10:49,624 that he needs to book us a therapy session. 286 00:10:49,624 --> 00:10:51,392 So I'm just going to wait on that. 287 00:10:51,392 --> 00:10:53,761 But honestly, I can't even think about that right now, 288 00:10:53,761 --> 00:10:55,830 because Luis just texted me, 289 00:10:55,830 --> 00:10:57,799 saying that he's stopping by to see Stella. 290 00:10:57,799 --> 00:11:00,201 But we haven't heard from him in months, 291 00:11:00,201 --> 00:11:02,036 so it's like, what is happening? 292 00:11:02,036 --> 00:11:04,105 So I'm just--there's just so much going on right now, 293 00:11:04,105 --> 00:11:06,240 but I will definitely keep you ladies updated. 294 00:11:06,240 --> 00:11:07,542 [doorbell chimes] 295 00:11:07,542 --> 00:11:09,210 Come in! 296 00:11:11,212 --> 00:11:12,580 Hey, hey. 297 00:11:12,580 --> 00:11:14,248 - Hey, what's up? 298 00:11:14,248 --> 00:11:15,416 - What's going on? 299 00:11:15,416 --> 00:11:17,552 What have you been doing? 300 00:11:17,552 --> 00:11:19,720 - Work. - Work? 301 00:11:19,720 --> 00:11:21,255 - About it. 302 00:11:21,255 --> 00:11:22,690 - Let me call Stella. 303 00:11:22,690 --> 00:11:24,392 Stella! - What? 304 00:11:24,392 --> 00:11:25,960 - Come here. 305 00:11:27,562 --> 00:11:28,830 - Hi. 306 00:11:28,830 --> 00:11:30,965 Look, I got you something. Go get it. 307 00:11:30,965 --> 00:11:32,834 No, open it. It's for you. 308 00:11:32,834 --> 00:11:34,702 It's not wrapped or anything. 309 00:11:35,870 --> 00:11:38,372 - What is that? 310 00:11:38,372 --> 00:11:39,740 - Lipstick? 311 00:11:39,740 --> 00:11:41,375 - Aw, this is so cute. 312 00:11:41,375 --> 00:11:42,577 It's a Barbie. 313 00:11:42,577 --> 00:11:44,112 In a cup? 314 00:11:44,112 --> 00:11:46,080 [doorbell rings] 315 00:11:46,080 --> 00:11:47,415 - Hi! 316 00:11:47,415 --> 00:11:48,783 Oh, my breath. 317 00:11:48,783 --> 00:11:50,084 Oh, [bleep]. Hey, Luis. 318 00:11:50,084 --> 00:11:51,185 - What up? 319 00:11:51,185 --> 00:11:53,020 - Where's Nova? - In the room. 320 00:11:53,020 --> 00:11:54,989 - I'm gonna go say hi to Nova. 321 00:11:59,727 --> 00:12:01,395 - Where the hell have you been? 322 00:12:01,395 --> 00:12:02,964 - Home. 323 00:12:02,964 --> 00:12:05,099 - It just sucks, you know. You've been kind of MIA. 324 00:12:05,099 --> 00:12:08,269 And I feel like calling us, checking up on her, 325 00:12:08,269 --> 00:12:10,638 would be something. - Yeah. 326 00:12:10,638 --> 00:12:13,341 I mean, like, things were going all right, 327 00:12:13,341 --> 00:12:15,443 and then something else came up. 328 00:12:15,443 --> 00:12:18,412 And I was just like, [bleep]. Like, I got overwhelmed. 329 00:12:18,412 --> 00:12:21,516 - I don't know what to do anymore. 330 00:12:21,516 --> 00:12:24,385 I should not have to rely on my mom and my sister 331 00:12:24,385 --> 00:12:26,087 for everything. 332 00:12:26,087 --> 00:12:29,657 Luis texted me, saying, when is the graduation? 333 00:12:29,657 --> 00:12:31,292 I said, now. 334 00:12:31,292 --> 00:12:33,427 I felt like I could kind of rely on Luis a little bit, 335 00:12:33,427 --> 00:12:34,996 so it's really sad. 336 00:12:34,996 --> 00:12:37,732 - I guess I didn't think about how being distanced 337 00:12:37,732 --> 00:12:40,268 and shutting down affects you. 338 00:12:40,268 --> 00:12:43,004 And I want to apologize for that. 339 00:12:43,004 --> 00:12:44,839 - I'm sorry. I don't mean to cry. 340 00:12:44,839 --> 00:12:48,142 ♪ ♪ 341 00:12:50,745 --> 00:12:52,180 - It's right here. 342 00:12:54,315 --> 00:12:55,850 - Yes, I did. 343 00:12:55,850 --> 00:12:57,852 - Ooh, let me see your nails. 344 00:12:57,852 --> 00:12:59,387 Ooh. Pretty. 345 00:13:01,923 --> 00:13:04,592 - Do my pinky first. 346 00:13:04,592 --> 00:13:05,760 - Do your pinky first? 347 00:13:05,760 --> 00:13:06,928 - And then this one. 348 00:13:06,928 --> 00:13:08,429 - Look at that little nail. 349 00:13:11,766 --> 00:13:13,134 - No, he just wanted to come by. 350 00:13:13,134 --> 00:13:14,835 He randomly popped up today. 351 00:13:14,835 --> 00:13:16,404 - What's his excuse now? 352 00:13:16,404 --> 00:13:17,638 - He's overwhelmed. 353 00:13:17,638 --> 00:13:19,540 - Bitch, and what are you? 354 00:13:19,540 --> 00:13:21,509 What are you? [laughs] 355 00:13:21,509 --> 00:13:23,844 At some point, you need to put your foot down. 356 00:13:23,844 --> 00:13:25,346 - Yeah. 357 00:13:25,346 --> 00:13:27,982 - Tell him to paint her [bleep] toenails and to go home. 358 00:13:27,982 --> 00:13:32,420 'Cause his presence is-- his presence is overwhelming. 359 00:13:32,420 --> 00:13:34,455 - He'll leave, I'm sure. 360 00:13:34,455 --> 00:13:37,191 - You told me something about one baby daddy the other day, 361 00:13:37,191 --> 00:13:39,427 and now, you got the other baby daddy in here. 362 00:13:39,427 --> 00:13:40,895 - I don't know what the [bleep] is going on. 363 00:13:40,895 --> 00:13:42,330 - Is it an eclipse or something? 364 00:13:42,330 --> 00:13:43,464 What's your sign? 365 00:13:43,464 --> 00:13:44,732 I don't know that astrology [bleep], 366 00:13:44,732 --> 00:13:45,800 but we need to start looking into it. 367 00:13:45,800 --> 00:13:47,201 Is it like a blood moon? 368 00:13:47,201 --> 00:13:49,237 Are you bleeding out your coochie, where it's like-- 369 00:13:49,237 --> 00:13:51,138 the pheromone? I don't [bleep] know. 370 00:13:51,138 --> 00:13:52,740 - I don't even know what's going on right now. 371 00:13:52,740 --> 00:13:53,975 - How was it with Devoin? 372 00:13:53,975 --> 00:13:55,710 - Yesterday? - Yes. 373 00:13:55,710 --> 00:13:58,379 That's why I came here, to talk about the cheese man. 374 00:13:58,379 --> 00:14:01,282 And I see this [bleep] potato head on the couch. 375 00:14:01,282 --> 00:14:03,117 - I don't know what's going on with Devoin right now. 376 00:14:03,117 --> 00:14:06,420 That's just-- I'm so overwhelmed. 377 00:14:06,420 --> 00:14:10,358 ♪ ♪ 378 00:14:11,792 --> 00:14:14,762 [somber music] 379 00:14:14,762 --> 00:14:19,033 ♪ ♪ 380 00:14:19,033 --> 00:14:20,501 - [sniffles] 381 00:14:22,970 --> 00:14:24,338 - What's going on? 382 00:14:24,338 --> 00:14:25,640 - Hello. 383 00:14:25,640 --> 00:14:31,812 ♪ ♪ 384 00:14:33,147 --> 00:14:35,082 - You know, with Deandre's passing, 385 00:14:35,082 --> 00:14:38,953 you know, the family did definitely take a major loss. 386 00:14:38,953 --> 00:14:42,490 We always try to be as transparent as we can, 387 00:14:42,490 --> 00:14:45,459 and--just like we've always tried to. 388 00:14:45,459 --> 00:14:49,330 So, you know, Ashley did decide to open up and share that story 389 00:14:49,330 --> 00:14:53,200 and, you know, let everybody in and see what it's like 390 00:14:53,200 --> 00:14:55,736 to have to go through losing a brother, you know, 391 00:14:55,736 --> 00:14:57,938 or a relative like this. 392 00:14:57,938 --> 00:14:59,774 This is her first time losing somebody. 393 00:14:59,774 --> 00:15:01,375 This is one of those things where it's like, you know, 394 00:15:01,375 --> 00:15:03,077 it could even break the toughest people. 395 00:15:03,077 --> 00:15:05,012 So she's doing the best that she could. 396 00:15:05,012 --> 00:15:06,480 I'm trying to do the best that I can, 397 00:15:06,480 --> 00:15:08,849 as far as being here to the best of my ability. 398 00:15:10,484 --> 00:15:12,153 - He was my only brother, 399 00:15:12,153 --> 00:15:15,289 and that's just a different relationship that 400 00:15:15,289 --> 00:15:18,392 I had with my sister than I had with my brother. 401 00:15:18,392 --> 00:15:20,127 He would teach me things. 402 00:15:20,127 --> 00:15:21,729 It just was different. 403 00:15:21,729 --> 00:15:24,000 It was just different. 404 00:15:24,000 --> 00:15:24,131 It was just different. 405 00:15:24,131 --> 00:15:26,434 - I remember you screaming out loud. 406 00:15:26,434 --> 00:15:29,303 I ain't never heard her scream like that in my life. 407 00:15:29,303 --> 00:15:30,705 Ever. 408 00:15:30,705 --> 00:15:32,306 And we done get through some traumatic [bleep]. 409 00:15:32,306 --> 00:15:35,376 - And then, Holly, like, she doesn't even know still. 410 00:15:35,376 --> 00:15:36,911 What do you tell a five-year-old 411 00:15:36,911 --> 00:15:38,679 about something like this? 412 00:15:38,679 --> 00:15:41,816 - I feel like because he was somebody very important to her, 413 00:15:41,816 --> 00:15:44,218 the rest of the family got to get through some stuff 414 00:15:44,218 --> 00:15:48,389 before we start going into the kids that 415 00:15:48,389 --> 00:15:50,958 don't really understand what's happening. 416 00:15:50,958 --> 00:15:52,526 'Cause she can't really understand, 417 00:15:52,526 --> 00:15:55,496 and so you can only explain it to her so much. 418 00:15:55,496 --> 00:15:58,966 - I learned about it at that age, about five years old. 419 00:15:58,966 --> 00:16:02,336 - I've seen my first person go at six, 420 00:16:02,336 --> 00:16:04,305 so it was right around that age. 421 00:16:04,305 --> 00:16:05,973 - So where's Holly now? 422 00:16:05,973 --> 00:16:07,475 - Holly is at school. 423 00:16:07,475 --> 00:16:11,312 And I don't think she will understand. 424 00:16:12,713 --> 00:16:15,483 I just don't have the words. 425 00:16:15,483 --> 00:16:17,017 I'm sorry. 426 00:16:17,017 --> 00:16:19,687 [sobbing] 427 00:16:19,687 --> 00:16:22,390 - You'd be surprised with kids, though. 428 00:16:22,390 --> 00:16:27,094 You know, they don't have the same finite ideas about life. 429 00:16:27,094 --> 00:16:29,563 - No, but I know that once she understands 430 00:16:29,563 --> 00:16:31,298 that I'm going through something, 431 00:16:31,298 --> 00:16:33,467 that's what she'll hold on to. - Yeah. 432 00:16:33,467 --> 00:16:36,036 - I don't know what else to do. 433 00:16:37,538 --> 00:16:40,141 [crying] Sorry. 434 00:16:40,141 --> 00:16:43,177 [Boundary Run's "Going Under"] 435 00:16:43,177 --> 00:16:50,251 ♪ ♪ 436 00:16:51,585 --> 00:16:54,822 - ♪ Been standing on holy ground ♪ 437 00:16:54,822 --> 00:16:57,625 ♪ ♪ 438 00:16:57,625 --> 00:17:01,962 ♪ Been sending these signals up ♪ 439 00:17:01,962 --> 00:17:03,130 ♪ ♪ 440 00:17:03,130 --> 00:17:05,900 ♪ I've been waiting my turn ♪ 441 00:17:05,900 --> 00:17:07,568 - I mean, you got to think. 442 00:17:07,568 --> 00:17:10,204 We're going to his funeral in, like, three days, bro. 443 00:17:10,204 --> 00:17:12,606 And I feel so bad 'cause, like, I can't-- 444 00:17:12,606 --> 00:17:14,108 I can't help her. 445 00:17:14,108 --> 00:17:16,277 I'm so familiar with death, you feel me? 446 00:17:16,277 --> 00:17:18,179 Like-- - That's--that's the thing. 447 00:17:18,179 --> 00:17:19,880 When you told me about it, you were like, 448 00:17:19,880 --> 00:17:23,217 she's never gone through anything like this, right? 449 00:17:23,217 --> 00:17:26,253 - ♪ Been sending these signals up ♪ 450 00:17:26,253 --> 00:17:28,456 [Ashley crying] 451 00:17:32,127 --> 00:17:33,928 [Blood Bronco's "Take Back Your Mind"] 452 00:17:33,928 --> 00:17:36,364 ♪ ♪ 453 00:17:36,364 --> 00:17:37,932 - ♪ Get it right, get it right ♪ 454 00:17:37,932 --> 00:17:39,267 ♪ Do it one more time ♪ 455 00:17:39,267 --> 00:17:41,770 ♪ Looking for the afterglow ♪ 456 00:17:41,770 --> 00:17:45,140 ♪ Nobody knows, nobody knows ♪ 457 00:17:45,140 --> 00:17:49,711 ♪ ♪ 458 00:17:49,711 --> 00:17:52,047 ♪ No one knows, no one knows, no one knows ♪ 459 00:17:52,047 --> 00:17:53,815 ♪ No, no ♪ 460 00:17:53,815 --> 00:17:56,151 ♪ ♪ 461 00:17:58,586 --> 00:18:00,822 - Last meal at this dining room table. 462 00:18:00,822 --> 00:18:02,090 - Isn't it weird? 463 00:18:02,090 --> 00:18:03,992 - It is. 464 00:18:03,992 --> 00:18:06,094 - Everyone's gone. - Mm-hmm. 465 00:18:06,094 --> 00:18:07,395 - Yeah, it's sad we're leaving, 466 00:18:07,395 --> 00:18:09,197 but we did what we came here to do. 467 00:18:09,197 --> 00:18:11,199 We took the space, redid it. 468 00:18:11,199 --> 00:18:13,535 Some other family's going to come in here. 469 00:18:13,535 --> 00:18:15,070 - I love it. I love this house, too. 470 00:18:15,070 --> 00:18:16,504 It's got great-- - Yeah. 471 00:18:16,504 --> 00:18:18,139 - I feel like if it was only me and you, 472 00:18:18,139 --> 00:18:19,774 and we didn't have two kids, it probably would have been fine. 473 00:18:19,774 --> 00:18:23,111 Each kid adds a lot of [bleep] to a place. 474 00:18:23,111 --> 00:18:24,446 I think they're almost done with the-- 475 00:18:24,446 --> 00:18:25,847 - So we're ready to leave? 476 00:18:25,847 --> 00:18:28,149 - Moving the outside stuff. I think soon, yeah. 477 00:18:28,149 --> 00:18:30,552 - I've never had movers. - Mm-mm. me neither. 478 00:18:30,552 --> 00:18:32,620 - ♪ I get it going, I get it popping ♪ 479 00:18:32,620 --> 00:18:34,589 ♪ I get it started, you know what it is ♪ 480 00:18:34,589 --> 00:18:36,524 ♪ This is the moment, act like I own it ♪ 481 00:18:36,524 --> 00:18:38,460 ♪ High as a rocket, I get it going ♪ 482 00:18:38,460 --> 00:18:40,395 ♪ I get it going, I get it jumping ♪ 483 00:18:40,395 --> 00:18:41,996 ♪ I get into it from beginning to end ♪ 484 00:18:41,996 --> 00:18:44,332 ♪ This is a passion, this is forever ♪ 485 00:18:44,332 --> 00:18:46,534 ♪ This how I do it, 'cause I get it going ♪ 486 00:18:46,534 --> 00:18:48,837 ♪ ♪ 487 00:18:48,837 --> 00:18:49,971 [grunting] 488 00:18:49,971 --> 00:18:51,206 - I didn't make it very far. 489 00:18:51,206 --> 00:18:52,741 - It's all right, it's all right. 490 00:18:52,741 --> 00:18:55,310 ♪ ♪ 491 00:18:55,310 --> 00:18:57,011 - I hope that she likes it. 492 00:18:57,011 --> 00:18:59,447 - I'm going through all this trouble because I want 493 00:18:59,447 --> 00:19:02,050 the house to feel very calm and put together 494 00:19:02,050 --> 00:19:03,451 when they come home tomorrow. 495 00:19:03,451 --> 00:19:05,120 - You want your babies to be comfy. 496 00:19:05,120 --> 00:19:06,554 - I do. 497 00:19:07,789 --> 00:19:09,357 My mom already texted me today and said 498 00:19:09,357 --> 00:19:11,226 Nova's so excited to see what her room looks like. 499 00:19:11,226 --> 00:19:12,327 - Really? She is? 500 00:19:12,327 --> 00:19:14,329 - Yeah. - Ooh! See? 501 00:19:14,329 --> 00:19:16,131 - And I was like, oh, I can't wait to show her. 502 00:19:16,131 --> 00:19:17,799 - It's a big move for them. 503 00:19:17,799 --> 00:19:19,667 - It is. - You know? 504 00:19:19,667 --> 00:19:21,202 So I think it's kind of our job, isn't it? 505 00:19:21,202 --> 00:19:22,670 - Uh-huh. 506 00:19:22,670 --> 00:19:24,606 - Make the transition as easy as possible for 'em? 507 00:19:24,606 --> 00:19:26,474 It's a lot of stuff, big house. 508 00:19:26,474 --> 00:19:28,576 It's just a transition. 509 00:19:28,576 --> 00:19:30,979 - Will you come in here and help me, babe? 510 00:19:30,979 --> 00:19:34,716 Move--just lift her mattress off a little bit. 511 00:19:34,716 --> 00:19:36,618 - It's bittersweet, I guess I could say. 512 00:19:36,618 --> 00:19:37,952 - Yeah. 513 00:19:37,952 --> 00:19:39,187 - I'm excited for the new start here, obviously. 514 00:19:39,187 --> 00:19:40,588 - I know. 515 00:19:40,588 --> 00:19:41,923 This morning, I kind of got a little emotional 516 00:19:41,923 --> 00:19:43,358 when I was setting up their playroom and stuff, 517 00:19:43,358 --> 00:19:45,560 'cause I was like, man, 518 00:19:45,560 --> 00:19:47,328 the [bleep] that we've given our kids 519 00:19:47,328 --> 00:19:49,063 that we didn't get, you know? 520 00:19:49,063 --> 00:19:51,966 Like, it's crazy. 521 00:19:51,966 --> 00:19:53,468 It's like, wow. 522 00:19:53,468 --> 00:19:54,836 - I just feel proud to be able to give it to 'em. 523 00:19:54,836 --> 00:19:56,538 - Me too. 524 00:19:56,538 --> 00:19:58,773 Like, it's just a world of a difference, you know? 525 00:19:58,773 --> 00:20:00,942 - It's all you ever want as a parent, you know? 526 00:20:00,942 --> 00:20:02,944 - Mm-hmm. 527 00:20:02,944 --> 00:20:04,512 We're doing it. 528 00:20:04,512 --> 00:20:07,916 - ♪ It's in the middle of the blue sea ♪ 529 00:20:07,916 --> 00:20:10,819 [Jamie Lono's "Right Here Right Now"] 530 00:20:10,819 --> 00:20:14,155 - ♪ Just pick a number and I'm ready to go ♪ 531 00:20:14,155 --> 00:20:16,825 ♪ It's time to levitate and put on a show ♪ 532 00:20:16,825 --> 00:20:20,094 - [squealing] 533 00:20:20,094 --> 00:20:23,164 - ♪ This is my kinda party, and I'm letting it flow ♪ 534 00:20:23,164 --> 00:20:24,833 - Oh, Mom, I have a big question. 535 00:20:24,833 --> 00:20:27,101 - Hmm? - Can we get another puppy? 536 00:20:27,101 --> 00:20:28,570 - No. 537 00:20:28,570 --> 00:20:29,671 - [sighs] 538 00:20:30,839 --> 00:20:32,207 But what if-- 539 00:20:32,207 --> 00:20:34,275 what if I die if I don't get a puppy? 540 00:20:34,275 --> 00:20:36,244 - Um, I mean-- 541 00:20:36,244 --> 00:20:37,679 - Oh! 542 00:20:37,679 --> 00:20:39,681 - So I've been thinking about my dad a lot 543 00:20:39,681 --> 00:20:41,783 after the conversation with my sister. 544 00:20:41,783 --> 00:20:44,118 And I'm open to having a conversation with him, 545 00:20:44,118 --> 00:20:46,654 as long as he's off of any kind of pain pills. 546 00:20:46,654 --> 00:20:47,889 We'll see. 547 00:20:47,889 --> 00:20:49,657 I think that getting my friend's advice 548 00:20:49,657 --> 00:20:52,961 will be helpful while I'm making the decision 549 00:20:52,961 --> 00:20:55,797 whether I should even have a conversation with him. 550 00:20:55,797 --> 00:20:57,632 - We're going out to dinner? - Huh? 551 00:20:57,632 --> 00:20:59,267 - We're going out to dinner? - You're not. 552 00:20:59,267 --> 00:21:00,802 I'm going to let you hang out with Grandpa. 553 00:21:00,802 --> 00:21:03,271 I'm going to meet Nicole for dinner. 554 00:21:03,271 --> 00:21:06,241 - But, like, Papa will play tag with me. 555 00:21:06,241 --> 00:21:08,176 We'll wrestle each other. 556 00:21:08,176 --> 00:21:10,812 And we'll make his favorite cake. 557 00:21:10,812 --> 00:21:12,647 ♪ ♪ 558 00:21:12,647 --> 00:21:15,149 - ♪ Get bold, here we go ♪ 559 00:21:15,149 --> 00:21:17,452 ♪ ♪ 560 00:21:17,452 --> 00:21:20,188 ♪ Get bold, here we go ♪ 561 00:21:20,188 --> 00:21:21,856 - Oh, [bleep]! 562 00:21:21,856 --> 00:21:23,525 [crashing] 563 00:21:23,525 --> 00:21:26,294 [soft dramatic music] 564 00:21:26,294 --> 00:21:27,829 ♪ ♪ 565 00:21:27,829 --> 00:21:29,697 Oh, my God. 566 00:21:29,697 --> 00:21:34,769 ♪ ♪ 567 00:21:34,769 --> 00:21:36,237 - Is she OK? 568 00:21:36,237 --> 00:21:38,540 - Yes, everybody's OK. 569 00:21:39,807 --> 00:21:41,075 - Hey. 570 00:21:41,075 --> 00:21:43,378 Dude, I just wrecked. 571 00:21:43,378 --> 00:21:45,079 It's bad. I just wrecked. 572 00:21:45,079 --> 00:21:46,481 It's so bad. 573 00:21:46,481 --> 00:21:48,249 - OK, I'll be there in a minute. 574 00:21:48,249 --> 00:21:55,390 ♪ ♪ 575 00:21:56,291 --> 00:21:57,525 [bleep] 576 00:21:59,093 --> 00:22:00,495 - It's fine, okay? 577 00:22:00,495 --> 00:22:01,863 - I'm freaking out. 578 00:22:04,432 --> 00:22:07,368 - Oh, my God, this is awful. 579 00:22:07,368 --> 00:22:09,370 My [bleep] car. 580 00:22:09,370 --> 00:22:13,708 ♪ ♪ 581 00:22:15,619 --> 00:22:18,789 [upbeat rock music] 582 00:22:18,789 --> 00:22:20,791 ♪ ♪ 583 00:22:20,791 --> 00:22:22,526 - ♪ Weakness is beautiful ♪ 584 00:22:22,526 --> 00:22:24,094 ♪ Being you is far above ♪ 585 00:22:24,094 --> 00:22:25,629 - Hey, guys. 586 00:22:25,629 --> 00:22:29,533 I've done some more research on the explant surgery. 587 00:22:29,533 --> 00:22:31,602 One thing that's kind of sticking out in my mind 588 00:22:31,602 --> 00:22:33,770 is the recovery time. 589 00:22:33,770 --> 00:22:36,406 You know, it's not just a couple of days. 590 00:22:36,406 --> 00:22:37,941 It's a while. 591 00:22:37,941 --> 00:22:39,376 So it's kind of-- 592 00:22:39,376 --> 00:22:41,011 I don't know-- intimidating to me. 593 00:22:41,011 --> 00:22:43,981 But I'm going to reach out to Taylor's cousin, 594 00:22:43,981 --> 00:22:46,216 who recently explanted, 595 00:22:46,216 --> 00:22:49,520 and see how her experience was 596 00:22:49,520 --> 00:22:53,123 and hopefully get some good information from her. 597 00:22:53,123 --> 00:22:55,359 [ding] 598 00:22:55,359 --> 00:22:56,760 Hi. 599 00:22:56,760 --> 00:22:58,362 Can you hear me and see me? - How are you? 600 00:22:58,362 --> 00:23:00,230 - Good. How are you? - Good. 601 00:23:00,230 --> 00:23:01,698 - OK. 602 00:23:01,698 --> 00:23:03,567 So I wanted to talk to you, because you had mentioned 603 00:23:03,567 --> 00:23:06,370 something about explanting 604 00:23:06,370 --> 00:23:08,172 and, like, breast implant illness. 605 00:23:08,172 --> 00:23:12,409 You know how some people will post their symptom list 606 00:23:12,409 --> 00:23:14,244 that the doctor gives them? - Yes. 607 00:23:14,244 --> 00:23:17,214 - I swear, like, if there's 100 things on the list, 608 00:23:17,214 --> 00:23:18,682 I'm checking 90 of them. 609 00:23:18,682 --> 00:23:22,619 Like, fatigue, so high off the scale of severity. 610 00:23:22,619 --> 00:23:25,889 - I 100% relate to the fatigue. 611 00:23:25,889 --> 00:23:28,992 I could not function. It was horrible. 612 00:23:28,992 --> 00:23:34,231 I probably checked off about 80% to 90% of the symptoms. 613 00:23:34,231 --> 00:23:36,266 When I had that explant surgery, 614 00:23:36,266 --> 00:23:37,768 I started to feel better. 615 00:23:37,768 --> 00:23:40,170 Within days and weeks, probably, 616 00:23:40,170 --> 00:23:44,141 I could only check off 15% to 20% of those symptoms. 617 00:23:44,141 --> 00:23:46,710 - Mm-hmm. I'm to a point where, 618 00:23:46,710 --> 00:23:51,114 if I do it, and say, a couple of things go away 619 00:23:51,114 --> 00:23:53,584 or maybe a couple of things get better, 620 00:23:53,584 --> 00:23:55,986 but it doesn't really solve anything, 621 00:23:55,986 --> 00:23:58,522 I still think I'll be glad that I did it. 622 00:23:58,522 --> 00:24:00,791 - I now personally know 623 00:24:00,791 --> 00:24:06,063 six women who have explanted, 624 00:24:06,063 --> 00:24:09,233 and not one single one had zero improvement. 625 00:24:09,233 --> 00:24:11,568 Knowing what I know and feeling the way I feel 626 00:24:11,568 --> 00:24:14,338 having had them out, I'm like, I made the right decision. 627 00:24:14,338 --> 00:24:15,839 - Yeah. - I trusted my gut, 628 00:24:15,839 --> 00:24:17,641 and this was the right thing for me. 629 00:24:17,641 --> 00:24:19,276 - Yeah, that's awesome. 630 00:24:19,276 --> 00:24:22,813 - It did take me a little bit to get used to, like, 631 00:24:22,813 --> 00:24:25,082 buying bras again and buying swimsuits again 632 00:24:25,082 --> 00:24:26,516 and all of that. 633 00:24:26,516 --> 00:24:29,419 - I would have to, like, rebuy everything. 634 00:24:29,419 --> 00:24:30,721 - Yes. - OK. 635 00:24:30,721 --> 00:24:31,922 I'll reach out to you, though. 636 00:24:31,922 --> 00:24:33,957 I'm going to-- hopefully, I could do, 637 00:24:33,957 --> 00:24:36,593 like, a virtual consultation or something. 638 00:24:36,593 --> 00:24:38,562 - They were doing virtual when I was. 639 00:24:38,562 --> 00:24:40,931 But I do think they may still offer 640 00:24:40,931 --> 00:24:43,467 the virtual consultation. - Yeah. OK. 641 00:24:43,467 --> 00:24:46,603 And I'll text you if I have any questions. 642 00:24:46,603 --> 00:24:48,038 - Yes, do. 643 00:24:48,038 --> 00:24:49,606 I'm an open book, so whatever you have-- 644 00:24:49,606 --> 00:24:52,476 - Thank you so much. I appreciate it. 645 00:24:52,476 --> 00:24:54,044 - Tell everybody I said hi. - I will. 646 00:24:54,044 --> 00:24:55,345 Same here. 647 00:24:55,345 --> 00:24:56,780 Bye. - Bye. 648 00:24:56,780 --> 00:24:59,950 [inspiring rock music] 649 00:24:59,950 --> 00:25:04,254 ♪ ♪ 650 00:25:04,254 --> 00:25:06,356 [line ringing] 651 00:25:06,356 --> 00:25:07,791 - Hello? 652 00:25:07,791 --> 00:25:11,361 - Yes, I was calling to get some information 653 00:25:11,361 --> 00:25:14,531 about explanting, 654 00:25:14,531 --> 00:25:17,901 and also maybe scheduling a consultation. 655 00:25:17,901 --> 00:25:19,903 - He does consults on Wednesdays and Fridays 656 00:25:19,903 --> 00:25:21,672 and does virtual ones too. 657 00:25:21,672 --> 00:25:23,674 - Virtual would be great, because I'm actually-- 658 00:25:23,674 --> 00:25:25,542 I live in Tennessee, so-- 659 00:25:25,542 --> 00:25:27,077 - Yeah, not very close. 660 00:25:27,077 --> 00:25:28,612 - Yeah. 661 00:25:28,612 --> 00:25:30,947 I had no idea breast implant illness was a thing. 662 00:25:30,947 --> 00:25:32,349 I didn't know it could have anything 663 00:25:32,349 --> 00:25:33,784 to do with my implants. 664 00:25:33,784 --> 00:25:36,586 I just--super ignorant to the whole thing. 665 00:25:36,586 --> 00:25:37,988 It sounds good. 666 00:25:37,988 --> 00:25:39,356 - Well, if you think of any other questions, 667 00:25:39,356 --> 00:25:40,724 give us a call. - OK. Thank you. 668 00:25:40,724 --> 00:25:42,893 - You're welcome. - OK, bye. 669 00:25:42,893 --> 00:25:44,928 It's kind of scary, because then I'm like, oh, great, 670 00:25:44,928 --> 00:25:47,531 another situation that isn't really recognized 671 00:25:47,531 --> 00:25:49,733 or paid attention to by medical providers, 672 00:25:49,733 --> 00:25:51,168 just like PCOS. 673 00:25:51,168 --> 00:25:54,171 So let's start this journey all over again. 674 00:25:54,171 --> 00:25:57,841 I also have three kids, and so having surgery is serious, 675 00:25:57,841 --> 00:25:59,509 and I'm sick of not feeling good. 676 00:25:59,509 --> 00:26:01,278 It's just very frustrating, 677 00:26:01,278 --> 00:26:02,713 especially for someone like me 678 00:26:02,713 --> 00:26:04,581 who's very active in my kids' lives. 679 00:26:04,581 --> 00:26:06,483 At this point, I'm like, I'll try anything. 680 00:26:08,618 --> 00:26:11,988 - ♪ Did I make a big mistake? ♪ 681 00:26:11,988 --> 00:26:14,858 ♪ Or did I just follow my heart? ♪ 682 00:26:14,858 --> 00:26:18,462 - Why are you putting makeup on your dad? 683 00:26:18,462 --> 00:26:19,863 - Stop. 684 00:26:21,064 --> 00:26:23,734 - Why are you taking my lips off? 685 00:26:23,734 --> 00:26:25,402 - All right, baby. 686 00:26:25,402 --> 00:26:27,037 Say bye to your daddy. 687 00:26:27,037 --> 00:26:30,240 And tell him that you love him and you'll see him soon. 688 00:26:30,240 --> 00:26:32,576 - Give me a kiss. 689 00:26:32,576 --> 00:26:34,077 Love you. 690 00:26:34,077 --> 00:26:35,946 - All right, Briana, talk to you. 691 00:26:35,946 --> 00:26:37,147 - All right. 692 00:26:37,147 --> 00:26:39,449 - Oh, you're leaving too? - Basically. 693 00:26:39,449 --> 00:26:41,618 - ♪ Oh, I need to know ♪ 694 00:26:41,618 --> 00:26:47,257 ♪ 'Cause I'm falling apart from the inside out ♪ 695 00:26:47,257 --> 00:26:49,559 [text dings] 696 00:26:49,559 --> 00:26:51,428 - How are you? - I'm good. 697 00:26:51,428 --> 00:26:53,029 How are you? - Good. 698 00:26:53,029 --> 00:26:54,631 What's going on? 699 00:26:54,631 --> 00:26:56,366 What? Tell me. 700 00:26:56,366 --> 00:26:58,168 - Girl, it's been so much. 701 00:26:58,168 --> 00:27:01,271 Like, in the last 24 hours, I've just been through 702 00:27:01,271 --> 00:27:03,340 a mind-[bleep] by both baby daddies. 703 00:27:03,340 --> 00:27:05,976 I'm going on a date with one, another one that's 704 00:27:05,976 --> 00:27:08,245 popping up randomly the next day. 705 00:27:08,245 --> 00:27:10,680 - So tell me what happened. Where did you go with Devoin? 706 00:27:10,680 --> 00:27:13,950 - We went out to eat some dinner, 707 00:27:13,950 --> 00:27:14,000 and we just sat and spoke. 708 00:27:14,000 --> 00:27:15,852 and we just sat and spoke. 709 00:27:15,852 --> 00:27:17,421 We're just, like, trying to figure it out, 710 00:27:17,421 --> 00:27:18,789 like what are we doing? 711 00:27:18,789 --> 00:27:21,224 And he was like, we'll just take it slow. 712 00:27:21,224 --> 00:27:24,795 And I'm like, OK. 713 00:27:24,795 --> 00:27:27,664 But I'm dealing with this other [bleep] person here. 714 00:27:27,664 --> 00:27:28,999 Luis. 715 00:27:28,999 --> 00:27:30,534 - Luis, to me, is just like-- 716 00:27:30,534 --> 00:27:31,935 it's just the same thing every time. 717 00:27:31,935 --> 00:27:33,570 There's no change. - How about Devoin? 718 00:27:33,570 --> 00:27:35,505 - Tread lightly. - Yeah. 719 00:27:35,505 --> 00:27:36,973 - I say tread lightly. 720 00:27:36,973 --> 00:27:40,076 - I told him I would take him serious 721 00:27:40,076 --> 00:27:44,948 if he booked a counseling session for the both of us. 722 00:27:44,948 --> 00:27:46,650 'Cause there are still a lot of things that we need to-- 723 00:27:46,650 --> 00:27:47,851 - Hash out. - Hash out. 724 00:27:47,851 --> 00:27:49,519 And he was like, OK, I'll do that. 725 00:27:49,519 --> 00:27:51,054 And he did it. 726 00:27:51,054 --> 00:27:53,590 - He booked one? Already? - Mm-hmm. 727 00:27:53,590 --> 00:27:55,158 Well, he texted me, but-- - What? 728 00:27:55,158 --> 00:27:56,827 Didn't you just go out last night? 729 00:27:56,827 --> 00:27:59,162 - Girl, tell me about a mind [beep]. 730 00:27:59,162 --> 00:28:00,363 - What! 731 00:28:00,363 --> 00:28:03,834 - He hit up his therapist in Texas, 732 00:28:03,834 --> 00:28:05,602 where he went to rehab at. 733 00:28:05,602 --> 00:28:06,970 He wants us to go out there. 734 00:28:06,970 --> 00:28:08,772 - You guys can't find a therapist here? 735 00:28:08,772 --> 00:28:10,307 - I think he's comfortable with him. 736 00:28:10,307 --> 00:28:12,008 - So you're going to fly out to Texas 737 00:28:12,008 --> 00:28:14,778 to a therapy date session? 738 00:28:14,778 --> 00:28:17,414 [laughter] 739 00:28:17,414 --> 00:28:21,485 I feel like these guys always 740 00:28:21,485 --> 00:28:23,653 are, like, the best father 741 00:28:23,653 --> 00:28:26,356 or, like, the best co-parenting person 742 00:28:26,356 --> 00:28:30,293 when they're interested in you or want to date you. 743 00:28:30,293 --> 00:28:32,095 Aye, aye, aye, Bri. 744 00:28:32,095 --> 00:28:33,563 Tread lightly. 745 00:28:33,563 --> 00:28:36,700 ♪ ♪ 746 00:28:38,569 --> 00:28:41,238 [upbeat music] 747 00:28:41,238 --> 00:28:43,707 ♪ ♪ 748 00:28:43,707 --> 00:28:46,043 - So we've officially moved into the new house. 749 00:28:46,043 --> 00:28:47,911 Ty and I have been working really, really hard 750 00:28:47,911 --> 00:28:50,214 on getting the girls' rooms all set together. 751 00:28:50,214 --> 00:28:52,015 I'm going to go get them from my mom's house 752 00:28:52,015 --> 00:28:53,750 and bring them home, and I cannot 753 00:28:53,750 --> 00:28:55,519 wait to see their reactions. 754 00:28:55,519 --> 00:28:58,755 ♪ ♪ 755 00:28:58,755 --> 00:29:00,824 All right. Let's go to Mama's car. 756 00:29:00,824 --> 00:29:02,693 All right, let's get in our seat. 757 00:29:02,693 --> 00:29:06,330 ♪ ♪ 758 00:29:06,330 --> 00:29:07,898 Good job, Vaeda. 759 00:29:07,898 --> 00:29:09,733 You want a drink? - Mm-hmm. 760 00:29:09,733 --> 00:29:11,935 - Oh, my gosh. 761 00:29:13,971 --> 00:29:17,241 Nova, are you so excited to see your new room? 762 00:29:19,009 --> 00:29:20,544 Are you? 763 00:29:20,544 --> 00:29:21,712 - It's gonna be our new house! 764 00:29:21,712 --> 00:29:23,280 - Yeah. 765 00:29:23,280 --> 00:29:25,749 - ♪ I see the light at the end of the tunnel ♪ 766 00:29:25,749 --> 00:29:27,451 ♪ At the end of the tunnel ♪ 767 00:29:27,451 --> 00:29:30,654 ♪ I'm feeling fine, coming out of the rubble ♪ 768 00:29:30,654 --> 00:29:32,556 ♪ Coming out of the rubble ♪ 769 00:29:32,556 --> 00:29:34,558 - Aw, there's Daddy! - Oh, my God! 770 00:29:34,558 --> 00:29:35,792 Yo, hurry up! 771 00:29:35,792 --> 00:29:37,461 What are you doing! 772 00:29:37,461 --> 00:29:39,596 - Daddy! 773 00:29:39,596 --> 00:29:43,533 ♪ ♪ 774 00:29:43,533 --> 00:29:45,702 - Whoo! 775 00:29:45,702 --> 00:29:47,738 - Let's go see the toys. 776 00:29:47,738 --> 00:29:49,773 Oh, there's toys in here. I believe you. 777 00:29:49,773 --> 00:29:52,075 This one. Ready? 778 00:29:52,075 --> 00:29:54,077 Let's see. 779 00:29:54,077 --> 00:29:56,546 - Whoa! 780 00:29:56,546 --> 00:29:58,448 - Wow! 781 00:29:58,448 --> 00:29:59,883 - Mom, there's a TV! 782 00:29:59,883 --> 00:30:02,352 - I know. It's all your stuff. 783 00:30:02,352 --> 00:30:04,321 I know. 784 00:30:04,321 --> 00:30:07,391 - ♪ It's time for the come-up ♪ 785 00:30:07,391 --> 00:30:09,426 - Do you guys want to go see your bedrooms? 786 00:30:09,426 --> 00:30:10,727 - Yeah. 787 00:30:10,727 --> 00:30:12,562 - ♪ So close to the sun-up ♪ 788 00:30:12,562 --> 00:30:14,298 ♪ There's better days ahead ♪ 789 00:30:14,298 --> 00:30:15,766 - What the-- 790 00:30:15,766 --> 00:30:17,935 ♪ ♪ 791 00:30:17,935 --> 00:30:20,037 - [gasps] Look at Vaeda's room! 792 00:30:20,037 --> 00:30:22,105 - Wow! 793 00:30:22,105 --> 00:30:24,074 [squealing] 794 00:30:24,074 --> 00:30:26,009 - Look. 795 00:30:26,009 --> 00:30:27,544 - ♪ I was sleeping on the floor ♪ 796 00:30:27,544 --> 00:30:28,912 ♪ Didn't know what to do ♪ 797 00:30:28,912 --> 00:30:30,914 - Look at under your bed. Look at the lights. 798 00:30:30,914 --> 00:30:32,683 - I like this room. 799 00:30:32,683 --> 00:30:34,051 - You like it? 800 00:30:34,051 --> 00:30:35,118 - Cozy! 801 00:30:35,118 --> 00:30:37,521 - Cozy-wozy! 802 00:30:37,521 --> 00:30:39,990 So nice. 803 00:30:39,990 --> 00:30:42,326 - Me and Ty definitely had the thoughts of the new house 804 00:30:42,326 --> 00:30:44,361 of being like, yeah, definitely out of our league, 805 00:30:44,361 --> 00:30:46,830 this is too pretty of a house for people like us. 806 00:30:46,830 --> 00:30:47,965 Give me a kiss! 807 00:30:47,965 --> 00:30:50,167 But the kids were so happy. 808 00:30:50,167 --> 00:30:52,736 They were so excited, running around their rooms, 809 00:30:52,736 --> 00:30:54,571 and they loved it. 810 00:30:54,571 --> 00:30:56,273 It just made me feel good. 811 00:30:56,273 --> 00:30:58,842 I did the right thing by, like, truly focusing on them first. 812 00:30:58,842 --> 00:31:00,243 And that's why my bedroom 813 00:31:00,243 --> 00:31:02,479 still looks like a [bleep] show. 814 00:31:02,479 --> 00:31:03,981 [laughs] 815 00:31:03,981 --> 00:31:05,882 - ♪ Big dreams to go live ♪ 816 00:31:05,882 --> 00:31:09,086 ♪ We are the chosen ♪ 817 00:31:09,086 --> 00:31:11,321 - Are you, like, not terrified of driving? 818 00:31:11,321 --> 00:31:13,123 - Yes, I am. 819 00:31:13,123 --> 00:31:16,193 I can't believe Addie told you guys that I got in a wreck. 820 00:31:17,427 --> 00:31:19,763 - OK, I'm just confused. How did it happen? 821 00:31:19,763 --> 00:31:22,399 - It really just happened so fast. 822 00:31:22,399 --> 00:31:24,668 - No. It was terrifying. 823 00:31:24,668 --> 00:31:26,169 - Is the girl OK? - Yeah. 824 00:31:26,169 --> 00:31:27,237 We were both OK. 825 00:31:27,237 --> 00:31:29,139 That's what I'm so grateful for. 826 00:31:29,139 --> 00:31:31,975 Mm, gosh. 827 00:31:31,975 --> 00:31:34,945 So I'm still shaken up about my wreck. 828 00:31:34,945 --> 00:31:37,047 And on top of that, my sister called me 829 00:31:37,047 --> 00:31:39,683 to tell me that our dad had a stroke. 830 00:31:39,683 --> 00:31:41,051 Hopefully, everything's all good, 831 00:31:41,051 --> 00:31:42,719 and I'll let you guys know. 832 00:31:42,719 --> 00:31:44,488 ♪ ♪ 833 00:31:44,488 --> 00:31:46,590 [line ringing] 834 00:31:46,590 --> 00:31:48,258 - Hello. - Hey. 835 00:31:48,258 --> 00:31:50,894 I heard that you had a stroke. 836 00:31:50,894 --> 00:31:52,462 - It wasn't a stroke. 837 00:31:52,462 --> 00:31:54,464 It was a pinched nerve. 838 00:31:54,464 --> 00:31:56,133 - Oh, wow. 839 00:31:56,133 --> 00:31:59,569 - And something terribly bad happened to me today. 840 00:31:59,569 --> 00:32:01,138 - What? 841 00:32:01,138 --> 00:32:03,340 - I was in a car wreck. 842 00:32:03,340 --> 00:32:05,108 - How? 843 00:32:05,108 --> 00:32:08,178 - I lost control, and come find out 844 00:32:08,178 --> 00:32:10,881 that my license is suspended. 845 00:32:10,881 --> 00:32:12,449 - Oh, wow. 846 00:32:12,449 --> 00:32:14,651 Well, I was in an accident, but I had insurance, 847 00:32:14,651 --> 00:32:15,986 and my license were valid. 848 00:32:15,986 --> 00:32:18,388 And thank God, everyone was OK. 849 00:32:18,388 --> 00:32:20,524 I've never been in a car accident before. 850 00:32:20,524 --> 00:32:23,493 - Well, I sure have. Lord have mercy. 851 00:32:23,493 --> 00:32:25,429 - Many, actually. 852 00:32:26,596 --> 00:32:27,998 Staying clean? 853 00:32:27,998 --> 00:32:30,467 - Well, I take my pain medication. 854 00:32:30,467 --> 00:32:32,335 Just takin' what I'm supposed to. 855 00:32:32,335 --> 00:32:35,038 - All right. Well, I'm glad that you're OK. 856 00:32:35,038 --> 00:32:36,640 - I wanna see y'all. 857 00:32:36,640 --> 00:32:38,842 Seems like everything in the world's coming against me 858 00:32:38,842 --> 00:32:40,944 to be able to see y'all. 859 00:32:40,944 --> 00:32:43,880 Now the license suspended. 860 00:32:43,880 --> 00:32:46,216 I'd take off and get a rental car. 861 00:32:46,216 --> 00:32:49,619 I'd take off and go see y'all. 862 00:32:49,619 --> 00:32:51,154 - Yeah. 863 00:32:51,154 --> 00:32:52,923 Take care of yourself. 864 00:32:52,923 --> 00:32:55,425 - I am. I'm being good. 865 00:32:55,425 --> 00:32:57,194 - All right. I love you. 866 00:32:57,194 --> 00:32:58,895 - All right. Love you, too, babe. 867 00:32:58,895 --> 00:33:00,564 - All right, bye. 868 00:33:00,564 --> 00:33:03,366 [tense music] 869 00:33:03,366 --> 00:33:04,968 ♪ ♪ 870 00:33:04,968 --> 00:33:07,537 - Hey Lucky! 871 00:33:07,537 --> 00:33:09,106 Hi. 872 00:33:09,106 --> 00:33:10,607 - Guess what? - What? 873 00:33:10,607 --> 00:33:13,009 - I just talked to my dad. - Like, for real? 874 00:33:13,009 --> 00:33:14,878 - Yeah, he said he got in a car wreck today. 875 00:33:14,878 --> 00:33:16,746 - You're lying! - I swear. 876 00:33:16,746 --> 00:33:18,448 - But that's weird, though. 877 00:33:18,448 --> 00:33:20,083 You were in a wreck, and then your dad was in a wreck. 878 00:33:20,083 --> 00:33:21,618 - Yeah, it is weird. - It's really weird. 879 00:33:21,618 --> 00:33:23,320 - And then, he's like, my license was suspended. 880 00:33:23,320 --> 00:33:24,788 - Is he telling you that because you think 881 00:33:24,788 --> 00:33:26,256 he wants you to do it for him? 882 00:33:26,256 --> 00:33:27,491 - Yeah. 883 00:33:27,491 --> 00:33:28,692 - Instead of saying, like, how are you? 884 00:33:28,692 --> 00:33:30,060 How are the girls? 885 00:33:30,060 --> 00:33:31,027 - Yeah, he didn't even ask, how are the girls. 886 00:33:31,027 --> 00:33:32,896 And I knew that. - Mm-hmm. 887 00:33:32,896 --> 00:33:34,097 - You think I don't recognize that? 888 00:33:34,097 --> 00:33:35,599 That's my entire life. 889 00:33:35,599 --> 00:33:37,000 And his words were slurring. 890 00:33:37,000 --> 00:33:38,502 I was like, are you clean? 891 00:33:38,502 --> 00:33:40,937 And he was like, I mean, I still take my medications. 892 00:33:40,937 --> 00:33:42,572 - Hmm. 893 00:33:43,907 --> 00:33:45,775 Yeah, that sucks. - You know what I mean? 894 00:33:45,775 --> 00:33:47,144 OK, then you're still on it. 895 00:33:47,144 --> 00:33:48,879 You're still on that [bleep]. 896 00:33:48,879 --> 00:33:51,448 Like, I know it. I know addiction. 897 00:33:51,448 --> 00:33:52,616 - Yeah. 898 00:33:52,616 --> 00:33:55,986 - There's-- you can't-- 899 00:33:55,986 --> 00:33:57,521 like, rock the boat. Does that make sense? 900 00:33:57,521 --> 00:33:59,823 Like, you can't be like, oh, I'm just taking it--no. 901 00:33:59,823 --> 00:34:01,124 - Mm-hmm. 902 00:34:01,124 --> 00:34:05,362 I don't mean this to sound bitter, angry, 903 00:34:05,362 --> 00:34:08,165 and I'm genuinely not, from the bottom of my heart. 904 00:34:08,165 --> 00:34:11,101 I think that I've tried so many times in the past, 905 00:34:11,101 --> 00:34:15,639 that I'm at a place in my life to respect me 906 00:34:15,639 --> 00:34:17,240 and the growth that I've made, 907 00:34:17,240 --> 00:34:19,576 there has to be boundaries on situations like this 908 00:34:19,576 --> 00:34:22,179 when it comes to protecting my space 909 00:34:22,179 --> 00:34:23,947 and what I've created for me and my family. 910 00:34:23,947 --> 00:34:25,682 I'm not going to budge. - Mm-hmm. 911 00:34:25,682 --> 00:34:27,684 - It sounds ruthless. 912 00:34:27,684 --> 00:34:30,420 I don't mean it like-- if something happened tomorrow, 913 00:34:30,420 --> 00:34:32,889 I know that I did everything I could, one, to get him 914 00:34:32,889 --> 00:34:34,624 in a treatment facility-- he denied it-- 915 00:34:34,624 --> 00:34:37,861 two, you know, to help him, support him, 916 00:34:37,861 --> 00:34:39,296 giving him money, like this and that. 917 00:34:39,296 --> 00:34:40,764 There comes a point in time where 918 00:34:40,764 --> 00:34:43,533 I just got to cut it off. 919 00:34:43,533 --> 00:34:46,703 There were days I saw my dad OD'd on the floor 920 00:34:46,703 --> 00:34:49,539 with, like, [bleep] down him. 921 00:34:49,539 --> 00:34:52,576 And I don't want that around me. 922 00:34:52,576 --> 00:34:55,145 I kind of felt guilt, because I was like, 923 00:34:55,145 --> 00:34:56,746 should I call and check on him? 924 00:34:56,746 --> 00:34:58,215 But I have no desire to ever 925 00:34:58,215 --> 00:35:00,016 have a relationship with him ever, 926 00:35:00,016 --> 00:35:01,418 unless he gets the help he needs. 927 00:35:06,072 --> 00:35:09,075 [somber music] 928 00:35:09,075 --> 00:35:12,279 ♪ ♪ 929 00:35:12,279 --> 00:35:15,715 - So unfortunately with Deandre passing, you know. 930 00:35:15,715 --> 00:35:17,717 I had to have a conversation with Holly, 931 00:35:17,717 --> 00:35:19,820 basically, explain to her that, you know, 932 00:35:19,820 --> 00:35:22,622 what happened with Deandre 933 00:35:22,622 --> 00:35:24,124 without really telling her, you know, 934 00:35:24,124 --> 00:35:25,458 and just kind of letting her know that 935 00:35:25,458 --> 00:35:27,260 he unfortunately passed away. 936 00:35:27,260 --> 00:35:29,696 And God has some angels, 937 00:35:29,696 --> 00:35:31,698 and sometimes he has to come back and get them. 938 00:35:31,698 --> 00:35:33,567 And it was just really kind of more so that. 939 00:35:33,567 --> 00:35:35,468 But I didn't have to go into super detail, 940 00:35:35,468 --> 00:35:38,505 because she kind of already understood what was going on 941 00:35:38,505 --> 00:35:43,343 and already had, like, more of a positive outlook on it, 942 00:35:43,343 --> 00:35:45,979 you know, and not really seeing it as a loss, 943 00:35:45,979 --> 00:35:47,347 but more so as he went to heaven, 944 00:35:47,347 --> 00:35:48,481 so he'll be all right. 945 00:35:48,481 --> 00:35:50,016 - ♪ La, la, la, la, la ♪ 946 00:35:50,016 --> 00:35:52,018 ♪ La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la ♪ 947 00:35:52,018 --> 00:35:53,653 ♪ Live my life ♪ 948 00:35:53,653 --> 00:35:55,388 - Right now, I'm still in shock, 949 00:35:55,388 --> 00:35:57,123 to be honest. - Just on autopilot. 950 00:35:57,123 --> 00:35:59,426 - And so once all of this is over, 951 00:35:59,426 --> 00:36:02,095 and all the hoopla dies down, 952 00:36:02,095 --> 00:36:05,265 and then it's just me, the air, and God, 953 00:36:05,265 --> 00:36:07,934 then it'll become something different. 954 00:36:07,934 --> 00:36:10,637 But for right now, all I know is to just keep moving. 955 00:36:10,637 --> 00:36:12,839 I know you've suffered a lot of loss. 956 00:36:12,839 --> 00:36:14,007 - Yeah. 957 00:36:14,007 --> 00:36:15,976 - So how do you cope? 958 00:36:15,976 --> 00:36:17,777 - Honestly, I don't. 959 00:36:17,777 --> 00:36:19,212 - Just keep moving, huh? 960 00:36:19,212 --> 00:36:20,714 - I fall apart all the time, honestly, 961 00:36:20,714 --> 00:36:22,482 over the people I lost. I ain't gonna lie. 962 00:36:22,482 --> 00:36:23,917 That's why, like, she's been asking. 963 00:36:23,917 --> 00:36:25,518 Like, she don't know if she'll ever get over this. 964 00:36:25,518 --> 00:36:27,554 And it's like, you know, I have to be honest. 965 00:36:27,554 --> 00:36:29,456 I mean, like, you know, it's something that 966 00:36:29,456 --> 00:36:30,891 you probably ain't gonna ever get over. 967 00:36:30,891 --> 00:36:33,493 The first thing I try to think of when my anger settles 968 00:36:33,493 --> 00:36:35,428 is, I know everyone that I've lost 969 00:36:35,428 --> 00:36:38,198 was not living the best life. 970 00:36:38,198 --> 00:36:40,867 It's a lot of pain stuck inside and struggles and all of that. 971 00:36:40,867 --> 00:36:44,070 So I always try to look at it and say, you know what? 972 00:36:44,070 --> 00:36:45,739 Everything do happen for a reason. 973 00:36:45,739 --> 00:36:47,807 I can't understand this right now, but what I do know 974 00:36:47,807 --> 00:36:50,210 is that they don't have to keep dealing with the [bleep] 975 00:36:50,210 --> 00:36:52,212 that they was fighting to survive through 976 00:36:52,212 --> 00:36:53,747 every day out here. 977 00:36:53,747 --> 00:36:56,917 - But sometimes, Bar, it takes a little of that 978 00:36:56,917 --> 00:37:00,320 for people to change or turn their life around, 979 00:37:00,320 --> 00:37:02,489 and they don't get that opportunity. 980 00:37:02,489 --> 00:37:04,324 - And that's the bad part about it for me. 981 00:37:04,324 --> 00:37:05,659 - But I think what makes it-- 982 00:37:05,659 --> 00:37:07,193 - They died when they was young. 983 00:37:07,193 --> 00:37:08,495 - Makes it surreal for me, though, 984 00:37:08,495 --> 00:37:10,263 is because I've done a lot of funerals. 985 00:37:10,263 --> 00:37:11,865 I've been to a lot of funerals. 986 00:37:11,865 --> 00:37:13,667 But this is my own. 987 00:37:13,667 --> 00:37:16,303 This is my own, so this hit different. 988 00:37:16,303 --> 00:37:18,271 But as a woman, 989 00:37:18,271 --> 00:37:21,541 it's like my womb knows that my child is gone. 990 00:37:21,541 --> 00:37:23,910 - Yeah. I couldn't imagine how you feel. 991 00:37:23,910 --> 00:37:28,682 - I think just getting over the devastation and the hurt is-- 992 00:37:28,682 --> 00:37:30,483 - That's going to be the hard part. 993 00:37:30,483 --> 00:37:32,252 - Yeah. 994 00:37:32,252 --> 00:37:35,188 [Tall Timbers' "Andrea Doria"] 995 00:37:35,188 --> 00:37:39,559 ♪ ♪ 996 00:37:39,559 --> 00:37:42,128 - I think if there was one thing 997 00:37:42,128 --> 00:37:46,266 I would want people to take from my brother, 998 00:37:46,266 --> 00:37:49,536 it's to have compassion. 999 00:37:49,536 --> 00:37:53,907 Because my brother always had compassion for everybody, 1000 00:37:53,907 --> 00:37:57,010 no matter what he was going through personally, 1001 00:37:57,010 --> 00:37:59,512 and it takes a lot to do that. 1002 00:37:59,512 --> 00:38:03,316 - ♪ You light right up when you see a flash ♪ 1003 00:38:03,316 --> 00:38:05,919 ♪ It's permanently breakneck speed ♪ 1004 00:38:05,919 --> 00:38:09,155 - When people say heartbreak is, like, actually real, 1005 00:38:09,155 --> 00:38:13,326 like you feel your heart literally breaking, 1006 00:38:13,326 --> 00:38:16,062 that's the best way I can describe it. 1007 00:38:16,062 --> 00:38:17,764 ♪ ♪ 1008 00:38:17,764 --> 00:38:19,733 You never know when you're never 1009 00:38:19,733 --> 00:38:22,235 going to see someone again-- [sniffles] 1010 00:38:22,235 --> 00:38:24,671 Or what they're going through. 1011 00:38:26,239 --> 00:38:29,342 I don't know. I just need time. 1012 00:38:32,212 --> 00:38:34,748 [tense music] 1013 00:38:34,748 --> 00:38:36,449 ♪ ♪ 1014 00:38:36,449 --> 00:38:39,486 - My brain is literally going crazy. 1015 00:38:39,486 --> 00:38:41,621 I cannot believe that Devoin booked 1016 00:38:41,621 --> 00:38:44,057 a therapy session out in Texas. 1017 00:38:44,057 --> 00:38:46,760 It's never a dull moment in my life. 1018 00:38:46,760 --> 00:38:48,161 - What's going on? 1019 00:38:48,161 --> 00:38:50,330 - Devoin is really making an effort and stepping up. 1020 00:38:50,330 --> 00:38:52,032 - What's he thinking? Is it parenting? 1021 00:38:52,032 --> 00:38:53,533 Is he-- - I don't know. 1022 00:38:53,533 --> 00:38:55,402 I think we're still trying to figure things out. 1023 00:38:55,402 --> 00:38:57,037 Like, I don't know how to explain it. 1024 00:38:57,037 --> 00:39:00,373 - And has he called for a therapist or for Nova? 1025 00:39:00,373 --> 00:39:02,409 - He wants me to go to Texas with him. 1026 00:39:02,409 --> 00:39:04,978 - For what? - To speak to his-- 1027 00:39:04,978 --> 00:39:08,081 - You're not [bleep] flying to Texas for a therapist. 1028 00:39:08,081 --> 00:39:11,317 No, let the therapist fly here. 1029 00:39:11,317 --> 00:39:12,852 Going to Texas is not a good idea. 1030 00:39:12,852 --> 00:39:14,454 I don't care who you're going to go see--the Pope-- 1031 00:39:14,454 --> 00:39:16,623 it's not a good idea. - Why? 1032 00:39:16,623 --> 00:39:18,458 - It's not a good idea. - Why? 1033 00:39:18,458 --> 00:39:19,959 - It's leading him on. 1034 00:39:19,959 --> 00:39:22,128 - Well, not necessarily leading him on. 1035 00:39:22,128 --> 00:39:24,330 The situation is complicated. 1036 00:39:24,330 --> 00:39:26,766 - Do you see it working out? 1037 00:39:26,766 --> 00:39:28,868 - I don't know. - You're thinking? 1038 00:39:28,868 --> 00:39:30,637 You're thinking about it. 1039 00:39:30,637 --> 00:39:31,905 - Mm-hmm. 1040 00:39:31,905 --> 00:39:33,106 So I think I'm going to go. 1041 00:39:33,106 --> 00:39:34,507 I don't know exactly why. 1042 00:39:34,507 --> 00:39:35,809 - I can't deal with the Texas trip. 1043 00:39:35,809 --> 00:39:37,377 When you talk to him, do you feel open, 1044 00:39:37,377 --> 00:39:39,846 like you can really talk to him? 1045 00:39:39,846 --> 00:39:41,181 My point. 1046 00:39:41,181 --> 00:39:43,116 We need therapy, not just once every six months. 1047 00:39:43,116 --> 00:39:45,251 We need therapy once a week. 1048 00:39:47,487 --> 00:39:49,756 Flying out to Texas is like a [bleep] mini vacation. 1049 00:39:49,756 --> 00:39:51,491 This is no time for a vacation. 1050 00:39:51,491 --> 00:39:53,493 This is intense. We need therapy. 1051 00:39:53,493 --> 00:39:54,627 - I need a vacation. 1052 00:39:54,627 --> 00:39:55,929 - No, you need therapy. 1053 00:39:55,929 --> 00:39:58,331 [Justine Grove's "Skinny Cigarettes"] 1054 00:39:58,331 --> 00:40:01,835 ♪ ♪ 1055 00:40:01,835 --> 00:40:04,737 - ♪ Oh, no, there you go again ♪ 1056 00:40:04,737 --> 00:40:05,000 ♪ Dancing around with fake humility ♪ 1057 00:40:05,000 --> 00:40:08,007 ♪ Dancing around with fake humility ♪ 1058 00:40:08,007 --> 00:40:11,511 ♪ You try so hard to be genuine ♪ 1059 00:40:11,511 --> 00:40:14,747 ♪ But trust me, darling, I could see ♪ 1060 00:40:14,747 --> 00:40:17,050 ♪ Right through your facade ♪ 1061 00:40:17,050 --> 00:40:20,854 ♪ When you show me your head and your heart ♪ 1062 00:40:20,854 --> 00:40:22,555 ♪ No ♪ 1063 00:40:22,555 --> 00:40:25,525 ♪ There you go again with you pushing me ♪ 1064 00:40:25,525 --> 00:40:28,027 ♪ So awfully ♪ 1065 00:40:28,027 --> 00:40:31,364 ♪ Ice-cold shoulders as silence go ♪ 1066 00:40:31,364 --> 00:40:34,167 ♪ You are the queen of those ♪ 1067 00:40:34,167 --> 00:40:37,470 ♪ "Maybe" this or "this you may" ♪ 1068 00:40:37,470 --> 00:40:41,374 ♪ When all you want to do is ♪ 1069 00:40:42,575 --> 00:40:46,146 ♪ Sit by your window ♪ 1070 00:40:46,146 --> 00:40:49,415 ♪ Let the wind blow ♪ 1071 00:40:49,415 --> 00:40:51,651 ♪ ♪ 1072 00:40:53,470 --> 00:40:54,772 - Next on "Teen Mom: The Next Chapter"... 1073 00:40:54,772 --> 00:40:56,740 - I need to do something to get my spirits higher. 1074 00:40:56,740 --> 00:40:57,808 [cheering] 1075 00:40:57,808 --> 00:40:59,209 - Oh! 1076 00:40:59,209 --> 00:41:01,579 - When we first walked in the barn, I was scared. 1077 00:41:01,579 --> 00:41:03,347 - Equine therapy has been beneficial. 1078 00:41:03,347 --> 00:41:04,848 - She was all self-conscious about 1079 00:41:04,848 --> 00:41:06,250 wearing that to practice. 1080 00:41:06,250 --> 00:41:07,618 - Is that because something happened? 1081 00:41:07,618 --> 00:41:09,753 - How are you and Maci working out, Bentley? 1082 00:41:09,753 --> 00:41:12,890 - I haven't got a chance to eat with him again. 1083 00:41:12,890 --> 00:41:13,924 - It may not work out. 1084 00:41:13,924 --> 00:41:15,726 - My surgery is today. 1085 00:41:15,726 --> 00:41:18,896 - I know it's been coming, but I'm just like-- 1086 00:41:18,896 --> 00:41:20,564 - Today is the day, man.