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- She's not feeling good today.
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- What's wrong with her?
- PCOS.
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I don't know what to do.
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That's what kills me.
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- I ain't spoken to my
attorney once at this point.
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Just do your community service.
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- He took this deal in
exchange for, like, six years.
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- Is that one of them deals
that if he does anything--
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- If he does anything wrong,
they take away his deal.
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- My dad called me
and said he was in jail.
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- What?
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- I haven't even heard
from him in over a year.
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- I love him.
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But at the end of the day,
our relationship was toxic.
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I used with him.
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We enabled each
other's addiction.
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There's no way
I can go back to that.
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- So our realtor sent me
this new listing.
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- This house looks fancy.
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- I know it does.
- Doesn't it?
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- Yeah.
- You don't belong here.
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It's not meant
for trailer trash.
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- It feels overwhelming
because it's like,
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our first really
expensive house that
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we've ever bought
in our lives.
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- "I was shooting my shot."
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- Yep.
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So he does still
care about you.
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- We got back from the trip.
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And then when I got home,
he texted me
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and asked me, like,
let's go to dinner.
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We're going on a date.
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- I think we need
some family counseling.
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- I'll reach out to my guy.
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[upbeat rock music]
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♪ ♪
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- ♪ My heart, my heart ♪
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♪ My boom-boom heart,
it's a-beating ♪
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♪ It's a thumping
and I'm alive ♪
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- So I'm going to
a family gathering
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with my sister, Victoria.
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She just had a set of twins
that are three months.
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How crazy is that?
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We both had a set of twins.
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But things have been rough
since Jay and I split,
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and I'm genuinely just grateful
that she lives close by
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and I have her as support.
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- ♪ If it feels like
paradise ♪
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♪ Running through
your bloody veins ♪
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♪ You know it's love
heading your way ♪
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♪ If it feels like paradise ♪
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♪ Running through
your bloody veins ♪
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♪ You know it's love
heading your way ♪
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- All right, got all
those kids downstairs.
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They're jumping.
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Let me see the babies.
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Oh, my goodness.
You're so cute.
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- So I've been talking
to dad a lot lately.
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Have you?
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- Last time I talked to him
was when he went to jail
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and apparently he needed bond--
I don't know what it was.
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My dad became
addicted to pain pills
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after an accident at work
when I was just a child.
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He's been struggling
with addiction ever since.
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- It's been a little while.
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I mean, we've talked
on the phone, but--
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- Yeah, it's been a while.
- I was 13.
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It's been hard
with you not around.
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- It's been hard for me too.
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- When I got addicted
to pain pills myself,
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my dad enabled me
and was a bad influence.
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So I got clean.
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- No matter what is going on,
we will get through this.
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- And I decided to
distance myself from him.
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- As his children and being
the only people that he has,
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I feel like it's
our responsibility
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to give firm love--
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- Hold him accountable.
Hold him accountable.
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- Yes, OK, be like that.
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- And have we ask him
if he wanted the help?
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- Yeah.
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- So the first step
with addiction,
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you have to accept that
you have an addiction.
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- Mm-hmm.
- We've asked him
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and asked him and asked him.
We support him.
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I can love you
from a distance,
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but I will refuse to expose
my children to this behavior
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that I was exposed to--
- And I can respect that.
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- --in my childhood,
because I know
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how that resulted in trauma
in my early adult life.
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And I will not allow it--
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- You're not gonna do
it with your children.
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- --to continue.
He isn't ready.
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- I don't think all
the things that Dad's done
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throughout his life are
things that he wanted to do.
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- ♪ Hey, sugar,
what ya doin'? ♪
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♪ What ya doin', baby? Yeah ♪
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♪ Poolside, gimme that
cool tequila sunny, yeah ♪
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♪ Break the rules ♪
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- I'm glad they painted
the door.
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- Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
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Oh, smells like paint.
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Whoo.
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Looking good in here.
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Yeah, this is the first time
you've seen it all white.
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- Yeah, I wanted to wait.
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I like to wait.
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Yeah, it looks really good.
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Punk.
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It's a big kid house.
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This is something you
used to say rich people
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lived in when you were little.
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- We have poverty trauma.
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- Poverty trauma. [laughs]
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- So, guys,
we bought a new house.
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We're super excited.
It's moving super fast.
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We want to make it
a smooth transition,
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so my mom's watching the girls
while we can start to move in.
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I feel like I couldn't
sleep last night.
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- I couldn't either. Myeh.
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- I know. It's sad.
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We brought our two
youngest babies home here.
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- Well, I hope they respond
with excitement and joy
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when they come back
and see their new house.
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I don't know.
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I mean, God damn. I don't know.
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I mean, God damn. I don't know.
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Is this the last time
we're moving, honey?
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- Yes.
- Are you sure?
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- Yeah, I moved my whole life.
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I hate it.
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- ♪ I like that ♪
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- Well, the whole house
is pretty much packed.
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- How do you feel
about, like, moving?
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- I remember growing
up as a little kid,
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I always wanted to live
in a house for some reason.
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You know what I mean?
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Like, I just wanted a house.
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We were always living
in the trailer park.
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I remember my mom got
kicked out of her trailer.
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Well, we got kicked out of it.
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- Remember I helped move?
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What about your
photo album, Carly?
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- So much drama
and so much craziness,
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just, like, moving
and, you know,
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like, not having money,
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like, having our water
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It stresses me out.
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- Are you OK, honey?
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- Whatever.
I'll fend for myself,
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and I'll go
to a shelter or something.
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- Oh, my gosh.
That'd be so crazy.
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- What else can I do?
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- Basically, living
at your house
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and having nowhere
to go when I was younger--
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couldn't imagine
doing it to my kids.
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- Because you know
what it felt like.
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- Oh, my God.
It felt horrible.
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- It's constant anxiety.
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- My mom had a house,
but she had to work at the bar
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every weekend
for my whole life.
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- Yeah, she didn't have
time to spend with you guys.
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- We had no money for nothing.
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We barely had anything to eat.
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We couldn't put our thermostat
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higher than, like,
65 or something like that.
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Something happened
where I remember we were like,
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oh, [bleep], we have to choose.
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She said what do you want
to do?
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You want to have light
or you want to be warm?
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Me and Amber were like, ah.
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That's crazy.
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- Our parents were just
trying their best to survive,
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you know, really.
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- I'm just happy that
we don't have to worry
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about providing for our kids.
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It's kind of crazy when
you think about it.
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You know, we take little
steps to get to certain places
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in your life.
- Mm-hmm.
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- It's really important
to just like, sit back--whew.
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All right, let's go back
to the beginning,
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acknowledge the growth.
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- ♪ Eat your heart out ♪
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♪ We won't stop now ♪
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♪ Bleeding our blood
on the drums ♪
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- I was on your team last time.
Play with Benny.
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I know. Benny sucks. I know.
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All right, let's go.
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- Are you gonna pass?
[laughter]
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- Your ball. You're good.
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Go, Mav.
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Goal!
- Goal!
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- Hey, y'all.
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I'm kind of frustrated because,
for the last couple of years,
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but really the last year,
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I've been dealing with
a lot of different symptoms.
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And it's not, like,
related to PCOS.
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It's not something
that, you know,
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I've ever had
to deal with before.
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And it's starting to, like,
affect my everyday life.
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I don't know.
I'm in a weird spot.
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Are my eyes red?
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- A little bit. Yeah.
- They're itchy.
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Like, I feel like they're
itchy all the time now.
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And dry.
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And blurred vision.
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It's weird.
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- ♪ Cross that bridge
another time ♪
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♪ I'm too tired to say
what's on my mind ♪
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♪ Promise you'll be fine ♪
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- I'm so tired.
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- Like fatigued?
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- I feel like
there's never a day
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where I'm not so exhausted.
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- Think that's because of,
like, PCOS?
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- I don't know.
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I just feel like I'm
not sleeping good
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because I keep
waking up in hives.
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- Sup?
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- Oh, nothing.
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There's this thing that
I've recently learned about.
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It's called
breast implant illness.
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And your cousin had
experienced it,
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and she--
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it's called explanting.
- Mm-hmm.
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- She got her implants
taken out,
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but I have, like,
95% of these symptoms.
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- Which symptoms do you have?
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- Chronic fatigue, brain fog,
muscle aches and pains,
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dry skin, eyes, mouth,
and hair,
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night sweats, skin rashes,
insomnia,
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sudden food intolerances.
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- That is a lot
of stuff that you have.
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- Tell me why you want
to have an augmentation.
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- Before I had my son,
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they were higher
and actually bigger.
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And then, once I had him,
all that's there is,
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like, pretty much skin
and stretch marks.
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- Right.
- That's it.
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- Thank you guys.
- You're welcome, sweetie.
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- Thank you.
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That's very--
kind of intimidating,
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because I'm like,
I've never heard of this.
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- Yeah.
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00:09:38,844 --> 00:09:42,181
- It seems very, I don't know,
like, hard to really grasp.
256
00:09:42,181 --> 00:09:43,349
- Yeah.
257
00:09:43,349 --> 00:09:45,318
- It's like an
autoimmune disease.
258
00:09:45,318 --> 00:09:47,119
- You think you've dealt
with this the whole time?
259
00:09:47,119 --> 00:09:48,587
Because you've had
them for a long time.
260
00:09:48,587 --> 00:09:50,289
- I think that's what it is.
261
00:09:50,289 --> 00:09:52,358
Because, I mean,
going to the doctor
262
00:09:52,358 --> 00:09:54,193
and doing blood work
and all the stuff,
263
00:09:54,193 --> 00:09:56,095
like, there's
nothing that gives
264
00:09:56,095 --> 00:09:58,230
a hint of, like,
Lyme disease or lupus
265
00:09:58,230 --> 00:09:59,799
or something like that.
- That's crazy.
266
00:09:59,799 --> 00:10:00,000
I've never even heard of this.
267
00:10:00,000 --> 00:10:01,367
I've never even heard of this.
268
00:10:01,367 --> 00:10:04,270
- Like, between PCOS and this,
I've never, as an adult,
269
00:10:04,270 --> 00:10:07,373
gone to the doctor
and gotten answers.
270
00:10:07,373 --> 00:10:11,410
It stresses me out
thinking about having
271
00:10:11,410 --> 00:10:12,912
a very invasive surgery.
272
00:10:12,912 --> 00:10:15,748
And I'd feel like I'm so crazy
273
00:10:15,748 --> 00:10:19,018
for being like
"something is wrong."
274
00:10:19,018 --> 00:10:21,520
Why is something always wrong?
275
00:10:21,520 --> 00:10:24,123
♪ ♪
276
00:10:26,167 --> 00:10:27,502
- ♪ Don't let 'em push you
our and pull you under ♪
277
00:10:27,502 --> 00:10:28,936
♪ Somebody says you gotta ♪
278
00:10:28,936 --> 00:10:30,872
♪ Go and get yourself
together ♪
279
00:10:30,872 --> 00:10:33,708
♪ Somebody said,
but they don't know ♪
280
00:10:33,708 --> 00:10:35,176
- Hey, ladies.
281
00:10:35,176 --> 00:10:37,011
I just got back
from a date with Devoin,
282
00:10:37,011 --> 00:10:39,380
and it went really,
really well.
283
00:10:39,380 --> 00:10:44,786
I told him, in order for us
to "try to figure out"
284
00:10:44,786 --> 00:10:46,788
how to become a couple,
285
00:10:46,788 --> 00:10:49,624
that he needs to book us
a therapy session.
286
00:10:49,624 --> 00:10:51,392
So I'm just going
to wait on that.
287
00:10:51,392 --> 00:10:53,761
But honestly, I can't even
think about that right now,
288
00:10:53,761 --> 00:10:55,830
because Luis just texted me,
289
00:10:55,830 --> 00:10:57,799
saying that he's stopping by
to see Stella.
290
00:10:57,799 --> 00:11:00,201
But we haven't heard
from him in months,
291
00:11:00,201 --> 00:11:02,036
so it's like,
what is happening?
292
00:11:02,036 --> 00:11:04,105
So I'm just--there's just
so much going on right now,
293
00:11:04,105 --> 00:11:06,240
but I will definitely
keep you ladies updated.
294
00:11:06,240 --> 00:11:07,542
[doorbell chimes]
295
00:11:07,542 --> 00:11:09,210
Come in!
296
00:11:11,212 --> 00:11:12,580
Hey, hey.
297
00:11:12,580 --> 00:11:14,248
- Hey, what's up?
298
00:11:14,248 --> 00:11:15,416
- What's going on?
299
00:11:15,416 --> 00:11:17,552
What have you been doing?
300
00:11:17,552 --> 00:11:19,720
- Work.
- Work?
301
00:11:19,720 --> 00:11:21,255
- About it.
302
00:11:21,255 --> 00:11:22,690
- Let me call Stella.
303
00:11:22,690 --> 00:11:24,392
Stella!
- What?
304
00:11:24,392 --> 00:11:25,960
- Come here.
305
00:11:27,562 --> 00:11:28,830
- Hi.
306
00:11:28,830 --> 00:11:30,965
Look, I got you something.
Go get it.
307
00:11:30,965 --> 00:11:32,834
No, open it. It's for you.
308
00:11:32,834 --> 00:11:34,702
It's not wrapped or anything.
309
00:11:35,870 --> 00:11:38,372
- What is that?
310
00:11:38,372 --> 00:11:39,740
- Lipstick?
311
00:11:39,740 --> 00:11:41,375
- Aw, this is so cute.
312
00:11:41,375 --> 00:11:42,577
It's a Barbie.
313
00:11:42,577 --> 00:11:44,112
In a cup?
314
00:11:44,112 --> 00:11:46,080
[doorbell rings]
315
00:11:46,080 --> 00:11:47,415
- Hi!
316
00:11:47,415 --> 00:11:48,783
Oh, my breath.
317
00:11:48,783 --> 00:11:50,084
Oh, [bleep].
Hey, Luis.
318
00:11:50,084 --> 00:11:51,185
- What up?
319
00:11:51,185 --> 00:11:53,020
- Where's Nova?
- In the room.
320
00:11:53,020 --> 00:11:54,989
- I'm gonna go say hi to Nova.
321
00:11:59,727 --> 00:12:01,395
- Where the hell have you been?
322
00:12:01,395 --> 00:12:02,964
- Home.
323
00:12:02,964 --> 00:12:05,099
- It just sucks, you know.
You've been kind of MIA.
324
00:12:05,099 --> 00:12:08,269
And I feel like calling us,
checking up on her,
325
00:12:08,269 --> 00:12:10,638
would be something.
- Yeah.
326
00:12:10,638 --> 00:12:13,341
I mean, like, things were
going all right,
327
00:12:13,341 --> 00:12:15,443
and then something
else came up.
328
00:12:15,443 --> 00:12:18,412
And I was just like, [bleep].
Like, I got overwhelmed.
329
00:12:18,412 --> 00:12:21,516
- I don't know
what to do anymore.
330
00:12:21,516 --> 00:12:24,385
I should not have to rely
on my mom and my sister
331
00:12:24,385 --> 00:12:26,087
for everything.
332
00:12:26,087 --> 00:12:29,657
Luis texted me, saying,
when is the graduation?
333
00:12:29,657 --> 00:12:31,292
I said, now.
334
00:12:31,292 --> 00:12:33,427
I felt like I could kind of
rely on Luis a little bit,
335
00:12:33,427 --> 00:12:34,996
so it's really sad.
336
00:12:34,996 --> 00:12:37,732
- I guess I didn't think
about how being distanced
337
00:12:37,732 --> 00:12:40,268
and shutting down affects you.
338
00:12:40,268 --> 00:12:43,004
And I want to apologize
for that.
339
00:12:43,004 --> 00:12:44,839
- I'm sorry.
I don't mean to cry.
340
00:12:44,839 --> 00:12:48,142
♪ ♪
341
00:12:50,745 --> 00:12:52,180
- It's right here.
342
00:12:54,315 --> 00:12:55,850
- Yes, I did.
343
00:12:55,850 --> 00:12:57,852
- Ooh, let me see your nails.
344
00:12:57,852 --> 00:12:59,387
Ooh. Pretty.
345
00:13:01,923 --> 00:13:04,592
- Do my pinky first.
346
00:13:04,592 --> 00:13:05,760
- Do your pinky first?
347
00:13:05,760 --> 00:13:06,928
- And then this one.
348
00:13:06,928 --> 00:13:08,429
- Look at that little nail.
349
00:13:11,766 --> 00:13:13,134
- No, he just
wanted to come by.
350
00:13:13,134 --> 00:13:14,835
He randomly popped up today.
351
00:13:14,835 --> 00:13:16,404
- What's his excuse now?
352
00:13:16,404 --> 00:13:17,638
- He's overwhelmed.
353
00:13:17,638 --> 00:13:19,540
- Bitch, and what are you?
354
00:13:19,540 --> 00:13:21,509
What are you? [laughs]
355
00:13:21,509 --> 00:13:23,844
At some point, you need
to put your foot down.
356
00:13:23,844 --> 00:13:25,346
- Yeah.
357
00:13:25,346 --> 00:13:27,982
- Tell him to paint her [bleep]
toenails and to go home.
358
00:13:27,982 --> 00:13:32,420
'Cause his presence is--
his presence is overwhelming.
359
00:13:32,420 --> 00:13:34,455
- He'll leave, I'm sure.
360
00:13:34,455 --> 00:13:37,191
- You told me something about
one baby daddy the other day,
361
00:13:37,191 --> 00:13:39,427
and now, you got the
other baby daddy in here.
362
00:13:39,427 --> 00:13:40,895
- I don't know what
the [bleep] is going on.
363
00:13:40,895 --> 00:13:42,330
- Is it an eclipse
or something?
364
00:13:42,330 --> 00:13:43,464
What's your sign?
365
00:13:43,464 --> 00:13:44,732
I don't know that
astrology [bleep],
366
00:13:44,732 --> 00:13:45,800
but we need to start
looking into it.
367
00:13:45,800 --> 00:13:47,201
Is it like a blood moon?
368
00:13:47,201 --> 00:13:49,237
Are you bleeding out your
coochie, where it's like--
369
00:13:49,237 --> 00:13:51,138
the pheromone?
I don't [bleep] know.
370
00:13:51,138 --> 00:13:52,740
- I don't even know
what's going on right now.
371
00:13:52,740 --> 00:13:53,975
- How was it with Devoin?
372
00:13:53,975 --> 00:13:55,710
- Yesterday?
- Yes.
373
00:13:55,710 --> 00:13:58,379
That's why I came here,
to talk about the cheese man.
374
00:13:58,379 --> 00:14:01,282
And I see this [bleep]
potato head on the couch.
375
00:14:01,282 --> 00:14:03,117
- I don't know what's going
on with Devoin right now.
376
00:14:03,117 --> 00:14:06,420
That's just--
I'm so overwhelmed.
377
00:14:06,420 --> 00:14:10,358
♪ ♪
378
00:14:11,792 --> 00:14:14,762
[somber music]
379
00:14:14,762 --> 00:14:19,033
♪ ♪
380
00:14:19,033 --> 00:14:20,501
- [sniffles]
381
00:14:22,970 --> 00:14:24,338
- What's going on?
382
00:14:24,338 --> 00:14:25,640
- Hello.
383
00:14:25,640 --> 00:14:31,812
♪ ♪
384
00:14:33,147 --> 00:14:35,082
- You know,
with Deandre's passing,
385
00:14:35,082 --> 00:14:38,953
you know, the family did
definitely take a major loss.
386
00:14:38,953 --> 00:14:42,490
We always try to be as
transparent as we can,
387
00:14:42,490 --> 00:14:45,459
and--just like
we've always tried to.
388
00:14:45,459 --> 00:14:49,330
So, you know, Ashley did decide
to open up and share that story
389
00:14:49,330 --> 00:14:53,200
and, you know, let everybody
in and see what it's like
390
00:14:53,200 --> 00:14:55,736
to have to go through
losing a brother, you know,
391
00:14:55,736 --> 00:14:57,938
or a relative like this.
392
00:14:57,938 --> 00:14:59,774
This is her first time
losing somebody.
393
00:14:59,774 --> 00:15:01,375
This is one of those things
where it's like, you know,
394
00:15:01,375 --> 00:15:03,077
it could even break
the toughest people.
395
00:15:03,077 --> 00:15:05,012
So she's doing the best
that she could.
396
00:15:05,012 --> 00:15:06,480
I'm trying to do
the best that I can,
397
00:15:06,480 --> 00:15:08,849
as far as being here
to the best of my ability.
398
00:15:10,484 --> 00:15:12,153
- He was my only brother,
399
00:15:12,153 --> 00:15:15,289
and that's just a different
relationship that
400
00:15:15,289 --> 00:15:18,392
I had with my sister than
I had with my brother.
401
00:15:18,392 --> 00:15:20,127
He would teach me things.
402
00:15:20,127 --> 00:15:21,729
It just was different.
403
00:15:21,729 --> 00:15:24,000
It was just different.
404
00:15:24,000 --> 00:15:24,131
It was just different.
405
00:15:24,131 --> 00:15:26,434
- I remember you
screaming out loud.
406
00:15:26,434 --> 00:15:29,303
I ain't never heard her
scream like that in my life.
407
00:15:29,303 --> 00:15:30,705
Ever.
408
00:15:30,705 --> 00:15:32,306
And we done get through
some traumatic [bleep].
409
00:15:32,306 --> 00:15:35,376
- And then, Holly, like,
she doesn't even know still.
410
00:15:35,376 --> 00:15:36,911
What do you tell
a five-year-old
411
00:15:36,911 --> 00:15:38,679
about something like this?
412
00:15:38,679 --> 00:15:41,816
- I feel like because he was
somebody very important to her,
413
00:15:41,816 --> 00:15:44,218
the rest of the family got
to get through some stuff
414
00:15:44,218 --> 00:15:48,389
before we start going into
the kids that
415
00:15:48,389 --> 00:15:50,958
don't really understand
what's happening.
416
00:15:50,958 --> 00:15:52,526
'Cause she can't
really understand,
417
00:15:52,526 --> 00:15:55,496
and so you can only
explain it to her so much.
418
00:15:55,496 --> 00:15:58,966
- I learned about it at
that age, about five years old.
419
00:15:58,966 --> 00:16:02,336
- I've seen my first
person go at six,
420
00:16:02,336 --> 00:16:04,305
so it was right
around that age.
421
00:16:04,305 --> 00:16:05,973
- So where's Holly now?
422
00:16:05,973 --> 00:16:07,475
- Holly is at school.
423
00:16:07,475 --> 00:16:11,312
And I don't think
she will understand.
424
00:16:12,713 --> 00:16:15,483
I just don't have the words.
425
00:16:15,483 --> 00:16:17,017
I'm sorry.
426
00:16:17,017 --> 00:16:19,687
[sobbing]
427
00:16:19,687 --> 00:16:22,390
- You'd be surprised
with kids, though.
428
00:16:22,390 --> 00:16:27,094
You know, they don't have the
same finite ideas about life.
429
00:16:27,094 --> 00:16:29,563
- No, but I know that
once she understands
430
00:16:29,563 --> 00:16:31,298
that I'm going
through something,
431
00:16:31,298 --> 00:16:33,467
that's what she'll hold on to.
- Yeah.
432
00:16:33,467 --> 00:16:36,036
- I don't know what else to do.
433
00:16:37,538 --> 00:16:40,141
[crying] Sorry.
434
00:16:40,141 --> 00:16:43,177
[Boundary Run's "Going Under"]
435
00:16:43,177 --> 00:16:50,251
♪ ♪
436
00:16:51,585 --> 00:16:54,822
- ♪ Been standing
on holy ground ♪
437
00:16:54,822 --> 00:16:57,625
♪ ♪
438
00:16:57,625 --> 00:17:01,962
♪ Been sending
these signals up ♪
439
00:17:01,962 --> 00:17:03,130
♪ ♪
440
00:17:03,130 --> 00:17:05,900
♪ I've been waiting my turn ♪
441
00:17:05,900 --> 00:17:07,568
- I mean, you got to think.
442
00:17:07,568 --> 00:17:10,204
We're going to his funeral in,
like, three days, bro.
443
00:17:10,204 --> 00:17:12,606
And I feel so bad 'cause,
like, I can't--
444
00:17:12,606 --> 00:17:14,108
I can't help her.
445
00:17:14,108 --> 00:17:16,277
I'm so familiar with death,
you feel me?
446
00:17:16,277 --> 00:17:18,179
Like--
- That's--that's the thing.
447
00:17:18,179 --> 00:17:19,880
When you told me about it,
you were like,
448
00:17:19,880 --> 00:17:23,217
she's never gone through
anything like this, right?
449
00:17:23,217 --> 00:17:26,253
- ♪ Been sending
these signals up ♪
450
00:17:26,253 --> 00:17:28,456
[Ashley crying]
451
00:17:32,127 --> 00:17:33,928
[Blood Bronco's
"Take Back Your Mind"]
452
00:17:33,928 --> 00:17:36,364
♪ ♪
453
00:17:36,364 --> 00:17:37,932
- ♪ Get it right,
get it right ♪
454
00:17:37,932 --> 00:17:39,267
♪ Do it one more time ♪
455
00:17:39,267 --> 00:17:41,770
♪ Looking for the afterglow ♪
456
00:17:41,770 --> 00:17:45,140
♪ Nobody knows,
nobody knows ♪
457
00:17:45,140 --> 00:17:49,711
♪ ♪
458
00:17:49,711 --> 00:17:52,047
♪ No one knows, no one knows,
no one knows ♪
459
00:17:52,047 --> 00:17:53,815
♪ No, no ♪
460
00:17:53,815 --> 00:17:56,151
♪ ♪
461
00:17:58,586 --> 00:18:00,822
- Last meal at this
dining room table.
462
00:18:00,822 --> 00:18:02,090
- Isn't it weird?
463
00:18:02,090 --> 00:18:03,992
- It is.
464
00:18:03,992 --> 00:18:06,094
- Everyone's gone.
- Mm-hmm.
465
00:18:06,094 --> 00:18:07,395
- Yeah, it's sad we're leaving,
466
00:18:07,395 --> 00:18:09,197
but we did what
we came here to do.
467
00:18:09,197 --> 00:18:11,199
We took the space, redid it.
468
00:18:11,199 --> 00:18:13,535
Some other family's
going to come in here.
469
00:18:13,535 --> 00:18:15,070
- I love it.
I love this house, too.
470
00:18:15,070 --> 00:18:16,504
It's got great--
- Yeah.
471
00:18:16,504 --> 00:18:18,139
- I feel like if
it was only me and you,
472
00:18:18,139 --> 00:18:19,774
and we didn't have two kids, it
probably would have been fine.
473
00:18:19,774 --> 00:18:23,111
Each kid adds a lot
of [bleep] to a place.
474
00:18:23,111 --> 00:18:24,446
I think they're
almost done with the--
475
00:18:24,446 --> 00:18:25,847
- So we're ready to leave?
476
00:18:25,847 --> 00:18:28,149
- Moving the outside stuff.
I think soon, yeah.
477
00:18:28,149 --> 00:18:30,552
- I've never had movers.
- Mm-mm. me neither.
478
00:18:30,552 --> 00:18:32,620
- ♪ I get it going,
I get it popping ♪
479
00:18:32,620 --> 00:18:34,589
♪ I get it started,
you know what it is ♪
480
00:18:34,589 --> 00:18:36,524
♪ This is the moment,
act like I own it ♪
481
00:18:36,524 --> 00:18:38,460
♪ High as a rocket,
I get it going ♪
482
00:18:38,460 --> 00:18:40,395
♪ I get it going,
I get it jumping ♪
483
00:18:40,395 --> 00:18:41,996
♪ I get into it
from beginning to end ♪
484
00:18:41,996 --> 00:18:44,332
♪ This is a passion,
this is forever ♪
485
00:18:44,332 --> 00:18:46,534
♪ This how I do it,
'cause I get it going ♪
486
00:18:46,534 --> 00:18:48,837
♪ ♪
487
00:18:48,837 --> 00:18:49,971
[grunting]
488
00:18:49,971 --> 00:18:51,206
- I didn't make it very far.
489
00:18:51,206 --> 00:18:52,741
- It's all right,
it's all right.
490
00:18:52,741 --> 00:18:55,310
♪ ♪
491
00:18:55,310 --> 00:18:57,011
- I hope that she likes it.
492
00:18:57,011 --> 00:18:59,447
- I'm going through all
this trouble because I want
493
00:18:59,447 --> 00:19:02,050
the house to feel very calm
and put together
494
00:19:02,050 --> 00:19:03,451
when they come home tomorrow.
495
00:19:03,451 --> 00:19:05,120
- You want your babies
to be comfy.
496
00:19:05,120 --> 00:19:06,554
- I do.
497
00:19:07,789 --> 00:19:09,357
My mom already texted me
today and said
498
00:19:09,357 --> 00:19:11,226
Nova's so excited to see
what her room looks like.
499
00:19:11,226 --> 00:19:12,327
- Really? She is?
500
00:19:12,327 --> 00:19:14,329
- Yeah.
- Ooh! See?
501
00:19:14,329 --> 00:19:16,131
- And I was like, oh,
I can't wait to show her.
502
00:19:16,131 --> 00:19:17,799
- It's a big move for them.
503
00:19:17,799 --> 00:19:19,667
- It is.
- You know?
504
00:19:19,667 --> 00:19:21,202
So I think it's kind
of our job, isn't it?
505
00:19:21,202 --> 00:19:22,670
- Uh-huh.
506
00:19:22,670 --> 00:19:24,606
- Make the transition as
easy as possible for 'em?
507
00:19:24,606 --> 00:19:26,474
It's a lot of stuff, big house.
508
00:19:26,474 --> 00:19:28,576
It's just a transition.
509
00:19:28,576 --> 00:19:30,979
- Will you come in here
and help me, babe?
510
00:19:30,979 --> 00:19:34,716
Move--just lift her
mattress off a little bit.
511
00:19:34,716 --> 00:19:36,618
- It's bittersweet,
I guess I could say.
512
00:19:36,618 --> 00:19:37,952
- Yeah.
513
00:19:37,952 --> 00:19:39,187
- I'm excited for the new
start here, obviously.
514
00:19:39,187 --> 00:19:40,588
- I know.
515
00:19:40,588 --> 00:19:41,923
This morning, I kind of
got a little emotional
516
00:19:41,923 --> 00:19:43,358
when I was setting up
their playroom and stuff,
517
00:19:43,358 --> 00:19:45,560
'cause I was like, man,
518
00:19:45,560 --> 00:19:47,328
the [bleep] that
we've given our kids
519
00:19:47,328 --> 00:19:49,063
that we didn't get, you know?
520
00:19:49,063 --> 00:19:51,966
Like, it's crazy.
521
00:19:51,966 --> 00:19:53,468
It's like, wow.
522
00:19:53,468 --> 00:19:54,836
- I just feel proud to be
able to give it to 'em.
523
00:19:54,836 --> 00:19:56,538
- Me too.
524
00:19:56,538 --> 00:19:58,773
Like, it's just a world
of a difference, you know?
525
00:19:58,773 --> 00:20:00,942
- It's all you ever want
as a parent, you know?
526
00:20:00,942 --> 00:20:02,944
- Mm-hmm.
527
00:20:02,944 --> 00:20:04,512
We're doing it.
528
00:20:04,512 --> 00:20:07,916
- ♪ It's in the middle
of the blue sea ♪
529
00:20:07,916 --> 00:20:10,819
[Jamie Lono's
"Right Here Right Now"]
530
00:20:10,819 --> 00:20:14,155
- ♪ Just pick a number
and I'm ready to go ♪
531
00:20:14,155 --> 00:20:16,825
♪ It's time to levitate
and put on a show ♪
532
00:20:16,825 --> 00:20:20,094
- [squealing]
533
00:20:20,094 --> 00:20:23,164
- ♪ This is my kinda party,
and I'm letting it flow ♪
534
00:20:23,164 --> 00:20:24,833
- Oh, Mom, I have
a big question.
535
00:20:24,833 --> 00:20:27,101
- Hmm?
- Can we get another puppy?
536
00:20:27,101 --> 00:20:28,570
- No.
537
00:20:28,570 --> 00:20:29,671
- [sighs]
538
00:20:30,839 --> 00:20:32,207
But what if--
539
00:20:32,207 --> 00:20:34,275
what if I die if
I don't get a puppy?
540
00:20:34,275 --> 00:20:36,244
- Um, I mean--
541
00:20:36,244 --> 00:20:37,679
- Oh!
542
00:20:37,679 --> 00:20:39,681
- So I've been thinking
about my dad a lot
543
00:20:39,681 --> 00:20:41,783
after the conversation
with my sister.
544
00:20:41,783 --> 00:20:44,118
And I'm open to having
a conversation with him,
545
00:20:44,118 --> 00:20:46,654
as long as he's off
of any kind of pain pills.
546
00:20:46,654 --> 00:20:47,889
We'll see.
547
00:20:47,889 --> 00:20:49,657
I think that getting
my friend's advice
548
00:20:49,657 --> 00:20:52,961
will be helpful while
I'm making the decision
549
00:20:52,961 --> 00:20:55,797
whether I should even have
a conversation with him.
550
00:20:55,797 --> 00:20:57,632
- We're going out to dinner?
- Huh?
551
00:20:57,632 --> 00:20:59,267
- We're going out to dinner?
- You're not.
552
00:20:59,267 --> 00:21:00,802
I'm going to let you
hang out with Grandpa.
553
00:21:00,802 --> 00:21:03,271
I'm going to meet
Nicole for dinner.
554
00:21:03,271 --> 00:21:06,241
- But, like, Papa will
play tag with me.
555
00:21:06,241 --> 00:21:08,176
We'll wrestle each other.
556
00:21:08,176 --> 00:21:10,812
And we'll make
his favorite cake.
557
00:21:10,812 --> 00:21:12,647
♪ ♪
558
00:21:12,647 --> 00:21:15,149
- ♪ Get bold, here we go ♪
559
00:21:15,149 --> 00:21:17,452
♪ ♪
560
00:21:17,452 --> 00:21:20,188
♪ Get bold, here we go ♪
561
00:21:20,188 --> 00:21:21,856
- Oh, [bleep]!
562
00:21:21,856 --> 00:21:23,525
[crashing]
563
00:21:23,525 --> 00:21:26,294
[soft dramatic music]
564
00:21:26,294 --> 00:21:27,829
♪ ♪
565
00:21:27,829 --> 00:21:29,697
Oh, my God.
566
00:21:29,697 --> 00:21:34,769
♪ ♪
567
00:21:34,769 --> 00:21:36,237
- Is she OK?
568
00:21:36,237 --> 00:21:38,540
- Yes, everybody's OK.
569
00:21:39,807 --> 00:21:41,075
- Hey.
570
00:21:41,075 --> 00:21:43,378
Dude, I just wrecked.
571
00:21:43,378 --> 00:21:45,079
It's bad.
I just wrecked.
572
00:21:45,079 --> 00:21:46,481
It's so bad.
573
00:21:46,481 --> 00:21:48,249
- OK, I'll be there
in a minute.
574
00:21:48,249 --> 00:21:55,390
♪ ♪
575
00:21:56,291 --> 00:21:57,525
[bleep]
576
00:21:59,093 --> 00:22:00,495
- It's fine, okay?
577
00:22:00,495 --> 00:22:01,863
- I'm freaking out.
578
00:22:04,432 --> 00:22:07,368
- Oh, my God, this is awful.
579
00:22:07,368 --> 00:22:09,370
My [bleep] car.
580
00:22:09,370 --> 00:22:13,708
♪ ♪
581
00:22:15,619 --> 00:22:18,789
[upbeat rock music]
582
00:22:18,789 --> 00:22:20,791
♪ ♪
583
00:22:20,791 --> 00:22:22,526
- ♪ Weakness is beautiful ♪
584
00:22:22,526 --> 00:22:24,094
♪ Being you is far above ♪
585
00:22:24,094 --> 00:22:25,629
- Hey, guys.
586
00:22:25,629 --> 00:22:29,533
I've done some more research
on the explant surgery.
587
00:22:29,533 --> 00:22:31,602
One thing that's kind of
sticking out in my mind
588
00:22:31,602 --> 00:22:33,770
is the recovery time.
589
00:22:33,770 --> 00:22:36,406
You know, it's not
just a couple of days.
590
00:22:36,406 --> 00:22:37,941
It's a while.
591
00:22:37,941 --> 00:22:39,376
So it's kind of--
592
00:22:39,376 --> 00:22:41,011
I don't know--
intimidating to me.
593
00:22:41,011 --> 00:22:43,981
But I'm going to reach out
to Taylor's cousin,
594
00:22:43,981 --> 00:22:46,216
who recently explanted,
595
00:22:46,216 --> 00:22:49,520
and see how her experience was
596
00:22:49,520 --> 00:22:53,123
and hopefully get some
good information from her.
597
00:22:53,123 --> 00:22:55,359
[ding]
598
00:22:55,359 --> 00:22:56,760
Hi.
599
00:22:56,760 --> 00:22:58,362
Can you hear me and see me?
- How are you?
600
00:22:58,362 --> 00:23:00,230
- Good. How are you?
- Good.
601
00:23:00,230 --> 00:23:01,698
- OK.
602
00:23:01,698 --> 00:23:03,567
So I wanted to talk to you,
because you had mentioned
603
00:23:03,567 --> 00:23:06,370
something about explanting
604
00:23:06,370 --> 00:23:08,172
and, like,
breast implant illness.
605
00:23:08,172 --> 00:23:12,409
You know how some people
will post their symptom list
606
00:23:12,409 --> 00:23:14,244
that the doctor gives them?
- Yes.
607
00:23:14,244 --> 00:23:17,214
- I swear, like, if there's
100 things on the list,
608
00:23:17,214 --> 00:23:18,682
I'm checking 90 of them.
609
00:23:18,682 --> 00:23:22,619
Like, fatigue, so high
off the scale of severity.
610
00:23:22,619 --> 00:23:25,889
- I 100% relate to the fatigue.
611
00:23:25,889 --> 00:23:28,992
I could not function.
It was horrible.
612
00:23:28,992 --> 00:23:34,231
I probably checked off about
80% to 90% of the symptoms.
613
00:23:34,231 --> 00:23:36,266
When I had that
explant surgery,
614
00:23:36,266 --> 00:23:37,768
I started to feel better.
615
00:23:37,768 --> 00:23:40,170
Within days and weeks,
probably,
616
00:23:40,170 --> 00:23:44,141
I could only check off 15%
to 20% of those symptoms.
617
00:23:44,141 --> 00:23:46,710
- Mm-hmm. I'm to a point where,
618
00:23:46,710 --> 00:23:51,114
if I do it, and say,
a couple of things go away
619
00:23:51,114 --> 00:23:53,584
or maybe a couple of things
get better,
620
00:23:53,584 --> 00:23:55,986
but it doesn't really
solve anything,
621
00:23:55,986 --> 00:23:58,522
I still think I'll be glad
that I did it.
622
00:23:58,522 --> 00:24:00,791
- I now personally know
623
00:24:00,791 --> 00:24:06,063
six women who have explanted,
624
00:24:06,063 --> 00:24:09,233
and not one single one
had zero improvement.
625
00:24:09,233 --> 00:24:11,568
Knowing what I know
and feeling the way I feel
626
00:24:11,568 --> 00:24:14,338
having had them out, I'm like,
I made the right decision.
627
00:24:14,338 --> 00:24:15,839
- Yeah.
- I trusted my gut,
628
00:24:15,839 --> 00:24:17,641
and this was
the right thing for me.
629
00:24:17,641 --> 00:24:19,276
- Yeah, that's awesome.
630
00:24:19,276 --> 00:24:22,813
- It did take me a little bit
to get used to, like,
631
00:24:22,813 --> 00:24:25,082
buying bras again
and buying swimsuits again
632
00:24:25,082 --> 00:24:26,516
and all of that.
633
00:24:26,516 --> 00:24:29,419
- I would have to, like,
rebuy everything.
634
00:24:29,419 --> 00:24:30,721
- Yes.
- OK.
635
00:24:30,721 --> 00:24:31,922
I'll reach out to you, though.
636
00:24:31,922 --> 00:24:33,957
I'm going to--
hopefully, I could do,
637
00:24:33,957 --> 00:24:36,593
like, a virtual consultation
or something.
638
00:24:36,593 --> 00:24:38,562
- They were doing
virtual when I was.
639
00:24:38,562 --> 00:24:40,931
But I do think they
may still offer
640
00:24:40,931 --> 00:24:43,467
the virtual consultation.
- Yeah. OK.
641
00:24:43,467 --> 00:24:46,603
And I'll text you if
I have any questions.
642
00:24:46,603 --> 00:24:48,038
- Yes, do.
643
00:24:48,038 --> 00:24:49,606
I'm an open book,
so whatever you have--
644
00:24:49,606 --> 00:24:52,476
- Thank you so much.
I appreciate it.
645
00:24:52,476 --> 00:24:54,044
- Tell everybody I said hi.
- I will.
646
00:24:54,044 --> 00:24:55,345
Same here.
647
00:24:55,345 --> 00:24:56,780
Bye.
- Bye.
648
00:24:56,780 --> 00:24:59,950
[inspiring rock music]
649
00:24:59,950 --> 00:25:04,254
♪ ♪
650
00:25:04,254 --> 00:25:06,356
[line ringing]
651
00:25:06,356 --> 00:25:07,791
- Hello?
652
00:25:07,791 --> 00:25:11,361
- Yes, I was calling
to get some information
653
00:25:11,361 --> 00:25:14,531
about explanting,
654
00:25:14,531 --> 00:25:17,901
and also maybe scheduling
a consultation.
655
00:25:17,901 --> 00:25:19,903
- He does consults on
Wednesdays and Fridays
656
00:25:19,903 --> 00:25:21,672
and does virtual ones too.
657
00:25:21,672 --> 00:25:23,674
- Virtual would be great,
because I'm actually--
658
00:25:23,674 --> 00:25:25,542
I live in Tennessee, so--
659
00:25:25,542 --> 00:25:27,077
- Yeah, not very close.
660
00:25:27,077 --> 00:25:28,612
- Yeah.
661
00:25:28,612 --> 00:25:30,947
I had no idea breast
implant illness was a thing.
662
00:25:30,947 --> 00:25:32,349
I didn't know it
could have anything
663
00:25:32,349 --> 00:25:33,784
to do with my implants.
664
00:25:33,784 --> 00:25:36,586
I just--super ignorant
to the whole thing.
665
00:25:36,586 --> 00:25:37,988
It sounds good.
666
00:25:37,988 --> 00:25:39,356
- Well, if you think
of any other questions,
667
00:25:39,356 --> 00:25:40,724
give us a call.
- OK. Thank you.
668
00:25:40,724 --> 00:25:42,893
- You're welcome.
- OK, bye.
669
00:25:42,893 --> 00:25:44,928
It's kind of scary, because
then I'm like, oh, great,
670
00:25:44,928 --> 00:25:47,531
another situation
that isn't really recognized
671
00:25:47,531 --> 00:25:49,733
or paid attention to
by medical providers,
672
00:25:49,733 --> 00:25:51,168
just like PCOS.
673
00:25:51,168 --> 00:25:54,171
So let's start this journey
all over again.
674
00:25:54,171 --> 00:25:57,841
I also have three kids, and
so having surgery is serious,
675
00:25:57,841 --> 00:25:59,509
and I'm sick
of not feeling good.
676
00:25:59,509 --> 00:26:01,278
It's just very frustrating,
677
00:26:01,278 --> 00:26:02,713
especially for someone like me
678
00:26:02,713 --> 00:26:04,581
who's very active
in my kids' lives.
679
00:26:04,581 --> 00:26:06,483
At this point, I'm
like, I'll try anything.
680
00:26:08,618 --> 00:26:11,988
- ♪ Did I make a big mistake? ♪
681
00:26:11,988 --> 00:26:14,858
♪ Or did I just
follow my heart? ♪
682
00:26:14,858 --> 00:26:18,462
- Why are you putting makeup
on your dad?
683
00:26:18,462 --> 00:26:19,863
- Stop.
684
00:26:21,064 --> 00:26:23,734
- Why are you
taking my lips off?
685
00:26:23,734 --> 00:26:25,402
- All right, baby.
686
00:26:25,402 --> 00:26:27,037
Say bye to your daddy.
687
00:26:27,037 --> 00:26:30,240
And tell him that you love him
and you'll see him soon.
688
00:26:30,240 --> 00:26:32,576
- Give me a kiss.
689
00:26:32,576 --> 00:26:34,077
Love you.
690
00:26:34,077 --> 00:26:35,946
- All right, Briana,
talk to you.
691
00:26:35,946 --> 00:26:37,147
- All right.
692
00:26:37,147 --> 00:26:39,449
- Oh, you're leaving too?
- Basically.
693
00:26:39,449 --> 00:26:41,618
- ♪ Oh, I need to know ♪
694
00:26:41,618 --> 00:26:47,257
♪ 'Cause I'm falling apart
from the inside out ♪
695
00:26:47,257 --> 00:26:49,559
[text dings]
696
00:26:49,559 --> 00:26:51,428
- How are you?
- I'm good.
697
00:26:51,428 --> 00:26:53,029
How are you?
- Good.
698
00:26:53,029 --> 00:26:54,631
What's going on?
699
00:26:54,631 --> 00:26:56,366
What? Tell me.
700
00:26:56,366 --> 00:26:58,168
- Girl, it's been so much.
701
00:26:58,168 --> 00:27:01,271
Like, in the last 24 hours,
I've just been through
702
00:27:01,271 --> 00:27:03,340
a mind-[bleep]
by both baby daddies.
703
00:27:03,340 --> 00:27:05,976
I'm going on a date with one,
another one that's
704
00:27:05,976 --> 00:27:08,245
popping up randomly
the next day.
705
00:27:08,245 --> 00:27:10,680
- So tell me what happened.
Where did you go with Devoin?
706
00:27:10,680 --> 00:27:13,950
- We went out to eat
some dinner,
707
00:27:13,950 --> 00:27:14,000
and we just sat and spoke.
708
00:27:14,000 --> 00:27:15,852
and we just sat and spoke.
709
00:27:15,852 --> 00:27:17,421
We're just, like,
trying to figure it out,
710
00:27:17,421 --> 00:27:18,789
like what are we doing?
711
00:27:18,789 --> 00:27:21,224
And he was like,
we'll just take it slow.
712
00:27:21,224 --> 00:27:24,795
And I'm like, OK.
713
00:27:24,795 --> 00:27:27,664
But I'm dealing with this
other [bleep] person here.
714
00:27:27,664 --> 00:27:28,999
Luis.
715
00:27:28,999 --> 00:27:30,534
- Luis, to me, is just like--
716
00:27:30,534 --> 00:27:31,935
it's just the same thing
every time.
717
00:27:31,935 --> 00:27:33,570
There's no change.
- How about Devoin?
718
00:27:33,570 --> 00:27:35,505
- Tread lightly.
- Yeah.
719
00:27:35,505 --> 00:27:36,973
- I say tread lightly.
720
00:27:36,973 --> 00:27:40,076
- I told him I would
take him serious
721
00:27:40,076 --> 00:27:44,948
if he booked a counseling
session for the both of us.
722
00:27:44,948 --> 00:27:46,650
'Cause there are still a lot
of things that we need to--
723
00:27:46,650 --> 00:27:47,851
- Hash out.
- Hash out.
724
00:27:47,851 --> 00:27:49,519
And he was like,
OK, I'll do that.
725
00:27:49,519 --> 00:27:51,054
And he did it.
726
00:27:51,054 --> 00:27:53,590
- He booked one? Already?
- Mm-hmm.
727
00:27:53,590 --> 00:27:55,158
Well, he texted me, but--
- What?
728
00:27:55,158 --> 00:27:56,827
Didn't you just
go out last night?
729
00:27:56,827 --> 00:27:59,162
- Girl, tell me
about a mind [beep].
730
00:27:59,162 --> 00:28:00,363
- What!
731
00:28:00,363 --> 00:28:03,834
- He hit up his
therapist in Texas,
732
00:28:03,834 --> 00:28:05,602
where he went to rehab at.
733
00:28:05,602 --> 00:28:06,970
He wants us to go out there.
734
00:28:06,970 --> 00:28:08,772
- You guys can't find
a therapist here?
735
00:28:08,772 --> 00:28:10,307
- I think he's
comfortable with him.
736
00:28:10,307 --> 00:28:12,008
- So you're going
to fly out to Texas
737
00:28:12,008 --> 00:28:14,778
to a therapy date session?
738
00:28:14,778 --> 00:28:17,414
[laughter]
739
00:28:17,414 --> 00:28:21,485
I feel like these guys always
740
00:28:21,485 --> 00:28:23,653
are, like, the best father
741
00:28:23,653 --> 00:28:26,356
or, like, the best
co-parenting person
742
00:28:26,356 --> 00:28:30,293
when they're interested
in you or want to date you.
743
00:28:30,293 --> 00:28:32,095
Aye, aye, aye, Bri.
744
00:28:32,095 --> 00:28:33,563
Tread lightly.
745
00:28:33,563 --> 00:28:36,700
♪ ♪
746
00:28:38,569 --> 00:28:41,238
[upbeat music]
747
00:28:41,238 --> 00:28:43,707
♪ ♪
748
00:28:43,707 --> 00:28:46,043
- So we've officially
moved into the new house.
749
00:28:46,043 --> 00:28:47,911
Ty and I have been
working really, really hard
750
00:28:47,911 --> 00:28:50,214
on getting the girls' rooms
all set together.
751
00:28:50,214 --> 00:28:52,015
I'm going to go get them
from my mom's house
752
00:28:52,015 --> 00:28:53,750
and bring them home,
and I cannot
753
00:28:53,750 --> 00:28:55,519
wait to see their reactions.
754
00:28:55,519 --> 00:28:58,755
♪ ♪
755
00:28:58,755 --> 00:29:00,824
All right.
Let's go to Mama's car.
756
00:29:00,824 --> 00:29:02,693
All right, let's
get in our seat.
757
00:29:02,693 --> 00:29:06,330
♪ ♪
758
00:29:06,330 --> 00:29:07,898
Good job, Vaeda.
759
00:29:07,898 --> 00:29:09,733
You want a drink?
- Mm-hmm.
760
00:29:09,733 --> 00:29:11,935
- Oh, my gosh.
761
00:29:13,971 --> 00:29:17,241
Nova, are you so excited
to see your new room?
762
00:29:19,009 --> 00:29:20,544
Are you?
763
00:29:20,544 --> 00:29:21,712
- It's gonna be our new house!
764
00:29:21,712 --> 00:29:23,280
- Yeah.
765
00:29:23,280 --> 00:29:25,749
- ♪ I see the light at
the end of the tunnel ♪
766
00:29:25,749 --> 00:29:27,451
♪ At the end of the tunnel ♪
767
00:29:27,451 --> 00:29:30,654
♪ I'm feeling fine,
coming out of the rubble ♪
768
00:29:30,654 --> 00:29:32,556
♪ Coming out of the rubble ♪
769
00:29:32,556 --> 00:29:34,558
- Aw, there's Daddy!
- Oh, my God!
770
00:29:34,558 --> 00:29:35,792
Yo, hurry up!
771
00:29:35,792 --> 00:29:37,461
What are you doing!
772
00:29:37,461 --> 00:29:39,596
- Daddy!
773
00:29:39,596 --> 00:29:43,533
♪ ♪
774
00:29:43,533 --> 00:29:45,702
- Whoo!
775
00:29:45,702 --> 00:29:47,738
- Let's go see the toys.
776
00:29:47,738 --> 00:29:49,773
Oh, there's toys in here.
I believe you.
777
00:29:49,773 --> 00:29:52,075
This one. Ready?
778
00:29:52,075 --> 00:29:54,077
Let's see.
779
00:29:54,077 --> 00:29:56,546
- Whoa!
780
00:29:56,546 --> 00:29:58,448
- Wow!
781
00:29:58,448 --> 00:29:59,883
- Mom, there's a TV!
782
00:29:59,883 --> 00:30:02,352
- I know. It's all your stuff.
783
00:30:02,352 --> 00:30:04,321
I know.
784
00:30:04,321 --> 00:30:07,391
- ♪ It's time
for the come-up ♪
785
00:30:07,391 --> 00:30:09,426
- Do you guys want
to go see your bedrooms?
786
00:30:09,426 --> 00:30:10,727
- Yeah.
787
00:30:10,727 --> 00:30:12,562
- ♪ So close to the sun-up ♪
788
00:30:12,562 --> 00:30:14,298
♪ There's better days ahead ♪
789
00:30:14,298 --> 00:30:15,766
- What the--
790
00:30:15,766 --> 00:30:17,935
♪ ♪
791
00:30:17,935 --> 00:30:20,037
- [gasps] Look at Vaeda's room!
792
00:30:20,037 --> 00:30:22,105
- Wow!
793
00:30:22,105 --> 00:30:24,074
[squealing]
794
00:30:24,074 --> 00:30:26,009
- Look.
795
00:30:26,009 --> 00:30:27,544
- ♪ I was sleeping
on the floor ♪
796
00:30:27,544 --> 00:30:28,912
♪ Didn't know what to do ♪
797
00:30:28,912 --> 00:30:30,914
- Look at under your bed.
Look at the lights.
798
00:30:30,914 --> 00:30:32,683
- I like this room.
799
00:30:32,683 --> 00:30:34,051
- You like it?
800
00:30:34,051 --> 00:30:35,118
- Cozy!
801
00:30:35,118 --> 00:30:37,521
- Cozy-wozy!
802
00:30:37,521 --> 00:30:39,990
So nice.
803
00:30:39,990 --> 00:30:42,326
- Me and Ty definitely had
the thoughts of the new house
804
00:30:42,326 --> 00:30:44,361
of being like, yeah,
definitely out of our league,
805
00:30:44,361 --> 00:30:46,830
this is too pretty of a house
for people like us.
806
00:30:46,830 --> 00:30:47,965
Give me a kiss!
807
00:30:47,965 --> 00:30:50,167
But the kids were so happy.
808
00:30:50,167 --> 00:30:52,736
They were so excited,
running around their rooms,
809
00:30:52,736 --> 00:30:54,571
and they loved it.
810
00:30:54,571 --> 00:30:56,273
It just made me feel good.
811
00:30:56,273 --> 00:30:58,842
I did the right thing by, like,
truly focusing on them first.
812
00:30:58,842 --> 00:31:00,243
And that's why my bedroom
813
00:31:00,243 --> 00:31:02,479
still looks
like a [bleep] show.
814
00:31:02,479 --> 00:31:03,981
[laughs]
815
00:31:03,981 --> 00:31:05,882
- ♪ Big dreams to go live ♪
816
00:31:05,882 --> 00:31:09,086
♪ We are the chosen ♪
817
00:31:09,086 --> 00:31:11,321
- Are you, like, not
terrified of driving?
818
00:31:11,321 --> 00:31:13,123
- Yes, I am.
819
00:31:13,123 --> 00:31:16,193
I can't believe Addie told you
guys that I got in a wreck.
820
00:31:17,427 --> 00:31:19,763
- OK, I'm just confused.
How did it happen?
821
00:31:19,763 --> 00:31:22,399
- It really just
happened so fast.
822
00:31:22,399 --> 00:31:24,668
- No. It was terrifying.
823
00:31:24,668 --> 00:31:26,169
- Is the girl OK?
- Yeah.
824
00:31:26,169 --> 00:31:27,237
We were both OK.
825
00:31:27,237 --> 00:31:29,139
That's what I'm
so grateful for.
826
00:31:29,139 --> 00:31:31,975
Mm, gosh.
827
00:31:31,975 --> 00:31:34,945
So I'm still shaken up
about my wreck.
828
00:31:34,945 --> 00:31:37,047
And on top of that,
my sister called me
829
00:31:37,047 --> 00:31:39,683
to tell me that
our dad had a stroke.
830
00:31:39,683 --> 00:31:41,051
Hopefully,
everything's all good,
831
00:31:41,051 --> 00:31:42,719
and I'll let you guys know.
832
00:31:42,719 --> 00:31:44,488
♪ ♪
833
00:31:44,488 --> 00:31:46,590
[line ringing]
834
00:31:46,590 --> 00:31:48,258
- Hello.
- Hey.
835
00:31:48,258 --> 00:31:50,894
I heard that you had a stroke.
836
00:31:50,894 --> 00:31:52,462
- It wasn't a stroke.
837
00:31:52,462 --> 00:31:54,464
It was a pinched nerve.
838
00:31:54,464 --> 00:31:56,133
- Oh, wow.
839
00:31:56,133 --> 00:31:59,569
- And something terribly bad
happened to me today.
840
00:31:59,569 --> 00:32:01,138
- What?
841
00:32:01,138 --> 00:32:03,340
- I was in a car wreck.
842
00:32:03,340 --> 00:32:05,108
- How?
843
00:32:05,108 --> 00:32:08,178
- I lost control,
and come find out
844
00:32:08,178 --> 00:32:10,881
that my license is suspended.
845
00:32:10,881 --> 00:32:12,449
- Oh, wow.
846
00:32:12,449 --> 00:32:14,651
Well, I was in an accident,
but I had insurance,
847
00:32:14,651 --> 00:32:15,986
and my license were valid.
848
00:32:15,986 --> 00:32:18,388
And thank God, everyone was OK.
849
00:32:18,388 --> 00:32:20,524
I've never been in
a car accident before.
850
00:32:20,524 --> 00:32:23,493
- Well, I sure have.
Lord have mercy.
851
00:32:23,493 --> 00:32:25,429
- Many, actually.
852
00:32:26,596 --> 00:32:27,998
Staying clean?
853
00:32:27,998 --> 00:32:30,467
- Well, I take
my pain medication.
854
00:32:30,467 --> 00:32:32,335
Just takin' what
I'm supposed to.
855
00:32:32,335 --> 00:32:35,038
- All right.
Well, I'm glad that you're OK.
856
00:32:35,038 --> 00:32:36,640
- I wanna see y'all.
857
00:32:36,640 --> 00:32:38,842
Seems like everything in
the world's coming against me
858
00:32:38,842 --> 00:32:40,944
to be able to see y'all.
859
00:32:40,944 --> 00:32:43,880
Now the license suspended.
860
00:32:43,880 --> 00:32:46,216
I'd take off
and get a rental car.
861
00:32:46,216 --> 00:32:49,619
I'd take off and go see y'all.
862
00:32:49,619 --> 00:32:51,154
- Yeah.
863
00:32:51,154 --> 00:32:52,923
Take care of yourself.
864
00:32:52,923 --> 00:32:55,425
- I am. I'm being good.
865
00:32:55,425 --> 00:32:57,194
- All right. I love you.
866
00:32:57,194 --> 00:32:58,895
- All right.
Love you, too, babe.
867
00:32:58,895 --> 00:33:00,564
- All right, bye.
868
00:33:00,564 --> 00:33:03,366
[tense music]
869
00:33:03,366 --> 00:33:04,968
♪ ♪
870
00:33:04,968 --> 00:33:07,537
- Hey Lucky!
871
00:33:07,537 --> 00:33:09,106
Hi.
872
00:33:09,106 --> 00:33:10,607
- Guess what?
- What?
873
00:33:10,607 --> 00:33:13,009
- I just talked to my dad.
- Like, for real?
874
00:33:13,009 --> 00:33:14,878
- Yeah, he said he got
in a car wreck today.
875
00:33:14,878 --> 00:33:16,746
- You're lying!
- I swear.
876
00:33:16,746 --> 00:33:18,448
- But that's weird, though.
877
00:33:18,448 --> 00:33:20,083
You were in a wreck, and
then your dad was in a wreck.
878
00:33:20,083 --> 00:33:21,618
- Yeah, it is weird.
- It's really weird.
879
00:33:21,618 --> 00:33:23,320
- And then, he's like,
my license was suspended.
880
00:33:23,320 --> 00:33:24,788
- Is he telling you
that because you think
881
00:33:24,788 --> 00:33:26,256
he wants you to do it for him?
882
00:33:26,256 --> 00:33:27,491
- Yeah.
883
00:33:27,491 --> 00:33:28,692
- Instead of saying,
like, how are you?
884
00:33:28,692 --> 00:33:30,060
How are the girls?
885
00:33:30,060 --> 00:33:31,027
- Yeah, he didn't even ask,
how are the girls.
886
00:33:31,027 --> 00:33:32,896
And I knew that.
- Mm-hmm.
887
00:33:32,896 --> 00:33:34,097
- You think I don't
recognize that?
888
00:33:34,097 --> 00:33:35,599
That's my entire life.
889
00:33:35,599 --> 00:33:37,000
And his words were slurring.
890
00:33:37,000 --> 00:33:38,502
I was like, are you clean?
891
00:33:38,502 --> 00:33:40,937
And he was like, I mean,
I still take my medications.
892
00:33:40,937 --> 00:33:42,572
- Hmm.
893
00:33:43,907 --> 00:33:45,775
Yeah, that sucks.
- You know what I mean?
894
00:33:45,775 --> 00:33:47,144
OK, then you're still on it.
895
00:33:47,144 --> 00:33:48,879
You're still on that [bleep].
896
00:33:48,879 --> 00:33:51,448
Like, I know it.
I know addiction.
897
00:33:51,448 --> 00:33:52,616
- Yeah.
898
00:33:52,616 --> 00:33:55,986
- There's-- you can't--
899
00:33:55,986 --> 00:33:57,521
like, rock the boat.
Does that make sense?
900
00:33:57,521 --> 00:33:59,823
Like, you can't be like,
oh, I'm just taking it--no.
901
00:33:59,823 --> 00:34:01,124
- Mm-hmm.
902
00:34:01,124 --> 00:34:05,362
I don't mean this
to sound bitter, angry,
903
00:34:05,362 --> 00:34:08,165
and I'm genuinely not,
from the bottom of my heart.
904
00:34:08,165 --> 00:34:11,101
I think that I've tried
so many times in the past,
905
00:34:11,101 --> 00:34:15,639
that I'm at a place in my life
to respect me
906
00:34:15,639 --> 00:34:17,240
and the growth that I've made,
907
00:34:17,240 --> 00:34:19,576
there has to be boundaries
on situations like this
908
00:34:19,576 --> 00:34:22,179
when it comes to
protecting my space
909
00:34:22,179 --> 00:34:23,947
and what I've created
for me and my family.
910
00:34:23,947 --> 00:34:25,682
I'm not going to budge.
- Mm-hmm.
911
00:34:25,682 --> 00:34:27,684
- It sounds ruthless.
912
00:34:27,684 --> 00:34:30,420
I don't mean it like--
if something happened tomorrow,
913
00:34:30,420 --> 00:34:32,889
I know that I did everything
I could, one, to get him
914
00:34:32,889 --> 00:34:34,624
in a treatment facility--
he denied it--
915
00:34:34,624 --> 00:34:37,861
two, you know,
to help him, support him,
916
00:34:37,861 --> 00:34:39,296
giving him money,
like this and that.
917
00:34:39,296 --> 00:34:40,764
There comes a point
in time where
918
00:34:40,764 --> 00:34:43,533
I just got to cut it off.
919
00:34:43,533 --> 00:34:46,703
There were days I saw
my dad OD'd on the floor
920
00:34:46,703 --> 00:34:49,539
with, like, [bleep] down him.
921
00:34:49,539 --> 00:34:52,576
And I don't want
that around me.
922
00:34:52,576 --> 00:34:55,145
I kind of felt guilt,
because I was like,
923
00:34:55,145 --> 00:34:56,746
should I call and check on him?
924
00:34:56,746 --> 00:34:58,215
But I have no desire to ever
925
00:34:58,215 --> 00:35:00,016
have a relationship
with him ever,
926
00:35:00,016 --> 00:35:01,418
unless he gets
the help he needs.
927
00:35:06,072 --> 00:35:09,075
[somber music]
928
00:35:09,075 --> 00:35:12,279
♪ ♪
929
00:35:12,279 --> 00:35:15,715
- So unfortunately with
Deandre passing, you know.
930
00:35:15,715 --> 00:35:17,717
I had to have a
conversation with Holly,
931
00:35:17,717 --> 00:35:19,820
basically, explain to her
that, you know,
932
00:35:19,820 --> 00:35:22,622
what happened with Deandre
933
00:35:22,622 --> 00:35:24,124
without really telling her,
you know,
934
00:35:24,124 --> 00:35:25,458
and just kind of
letting her know that
935
00:35:25,458 --> 00:35:27,260
he unfortunately passed away.
936
00:35:27,260 --> 00:35:29,696
And God has some angels,
937
00:35:29,696 --> 00:35:31,698
and sometimes he has
to come back and get them.
938
00:35:31,698 --> 00:35:33,567
And it was just really
kind of more so that.
939
00:35:33,567 --> 00:35:35,468
But I didn't have to
go into super detail,
940
00:35:35,468 --> 00:35:38,505
because she kind of already
understood what was going on
941
00:35:38,505 --> 00:35:43,343
and already had, like, more
of a positive outlook on it,
942
00:35:43,343 --> 00:35:45,979
you know, and not really
seeing it as a loss,
943
00:35:45,979 --> 00:35:47,347
but more so
as he went to heaven,
944
00:35:47,347 --> 00:35:48,481
so he'll be all right.
945
00:35:48,481 --> 00:35:50,016
- ♪ La, la, la, la, la ♪
946
00:35:50,016 --> 00:35:52,018
♪ La, la, la, la, la,
la, la, la, la, la ♪
947
00:35:52,018 --> 00:35:53,653
♪ Live my life ♪
948
00:35:53,653 --> 00:35:55,388
- Right now,
I'm still in shock,
949
00:35:55,388 --> 00:35:57,123
to be honest.
- Just on autopilot.
950
00:35:57,123 --> 00:35:59,426
- And so once all
of this is over,
951
00:35:59,426 --> 00:36:02,095
and all the hoopla dies down,
952
00:36:02,095 --> 00:36:05,265
and then it's just me,
the air, and God,
953
00:36:05,265 --> 00:36:07,934
then it'll become
something different.
954
00:36:07,934 --> 00:36:10,637
But for right now, all I know
is to just keep moving.
955
00:36:10,637 --> 00:36:12,839
I know you've suffered
a lot of loss.
956
00:36:12,839 --> 00:36:14,007
- Yeah.
957
00:36:14,007 --> 00:36:15,976
- So how do you cope?
958
00:36:15,976 --> 00:36:17,777
- Honestly, I don't.
959
00:36:17,777 --> 00:36:19,212
- Just keep moving, huh?
960
00:36:19,212 --> 00:36:20,714
- I fall apart all the time,
honestly,
961
00:36:20,714 --> 00:36:22,482
over the people I lost.
I ain't gonna lie.
962
00:36:22,482 --> 00:36:23,917
That's why, like,
she's been asking.
963
00:36:23,917 --> 00:36:25,518
Like, she don't know
if she'll ever get over this.
964
00:36:25,518 --> 00:36:27,554
And it's like, you know,
I have to be honest.
965
00:36:27,554 --> 00:36:29,456
I mean, like, you know,
it's something that
966
00:36:29,456 --> 00:36:30,891
you probably ain't gonna
ever get over.
967
00:36:30,891 --> 00:36:33,493
The first thing I try to
think of when my anger settles
968
00:36:33,493 --> 00:36:35,428
is, I know everyone
that I've lost
969
00:36:35,428 --> 00:36:38,198
was not living the best life.
970
00:36:38,198 --> 00:36:40,867
It's a lot of pain stuck inside
and struggles and all of that.
971
00:36:40,867 --> 00:36:44,070
So I always try to look at
it and say, you know what?
972
00:36:44,070 --> 00:36:45,739
Everything do happen
for a reason.
973
00:36:45,739 --> 00:36:47,807
I can't understand this
right now, but what I do know
974
00:36:47,807 --> 00:36:50,210
is that they don't have to
keep dealing with the [bleep]
975
00:36:50,210 --> 00:36:52,212
that they was fighting
to survive through
976
00:36:52,212 --> 00:36:53,747
every day out here.
977
00:36:53,747 --> 00:36:56,917
- But sometimes, Bar,
it takes a little of that
978
00:36:56,917 --> 00:37:00,320
for people to change or turn
their life around,
979
00:37:00,320 --> 00:37:02,489
and they don't get
that opportunity.
980
00:37:02,489 --> 00:37:04,324
- And that's the bad part
about it for me.
981
00:37:04,324 --> 00:37:05,659
- But I think what makes it--
982
00:37:05,659 --> 00:37:07,193
- They died when
they was young.
983
00:37:07,193 --> 00:37:08,495
- Makes it surreal for me,
though,
984
00:37:08,495 --> 00:37:10,263
is because I've done
a lot of funerals.
985
00:37:10,263 --> 00:37:11,865
I've been to a lot of funerals.
986
00:37:11,865 --> 00:37:13,667
But this is my own.
987
00:37:13,667 --> 00:37:16,303
This is my own,
so this hit different.
988
00:37:16,303 --> 00:37:18,271
But as a woman,
989
00:37:18,271 --> 00:37:21,541
it's like my womb knows
that my child is gone.
990
00:37:21,541 --> 00:37:23,910
- Yeah. I couldn't imagine
how you feel.
991
00:37:23,910 --> 00:37:28,682
- I think just getting over the
devastation and the hurt is--
992
00:37:28,682 --> 00:37:30,483
- That's going
to be the hard part.
993
00:37:30,483 --> 00:37:32,252
- Yeah.
994
00:37:32,252 --> 00:37:35,188
[Tall Timbers' "Andrea Doria"]
995
00:37:35,188 --> 00:37:39,559
♪ ♪
996
00:37:39,559 --> 00:37:42,128
- I think if there
was one thing
997
00:37:42,128 --> 00:37:46,266
I would want people
to take from my brother,
998
00:37:46,266 --> 00:37:49,536
it's to have compassion.
999
00:37:49,536 --> 00:37:53,907
Because my brother always
had compassion for everybody,
1000
00:37:53,907 --> 00:37:57,010
no matter what he was
going through personally,
1001
00:37:57,010 --> 00:37:59,512
and it takes a lot to do that.
1002
00:37:59,512 --> 00:38:03,316
- ♪ You light right up
when you see a flash ♪
1003
00:38:03,316 --> 00:38:05,919
♪ It's permanently
breakneck speed ♪
1004
00:38:05,919 --> 00:38:09,155
- When people say heartbreak
is, like, actually real,
1005
00:38:09,155 --> 00:38:13,326
like you feel your heart
literally breaking,
1006
00:38:13,326 --> 00:38:16,062
that's the best way
I can describe it.
1007
00:38:16,062 --> 00:38:17,764
♪ ♪
1008
00:38:17,764 --> 00:38:19,733
You never know when
you're never
1009
00:38:19,733 --> 00:38:22,235
going to see someone again--
[sniffles]
1010
00:38:22,235 --> 00:38:24,671
Or what they're going through.
1011
00:38:26,239 --> 00:38:29,342
I don't know.
I just need time.
1012
00:38:32,212 --> 00:38:34,748
[tense music]
1013
00:38:34,748 --> 00:38:36,449
♪ ♪
1014
00:38:36,449 --> 00:38:39,486
- My brain is literally
going crazy.
1015
00:38:39,486 --> 00:38:41,621
I cannot believe that
Devoin booked
1016
00:38:41,621 --> 00:38:44,057
a therapy session out in Texas.
1017
00:38:44,057 --> 00:38:46,760
It's never a dull moment
in my life.
1018
00:38:46,760 --> 00:38:48,161
- What's going on?
1019
00:38:48,161 --> 00:38:50,330
- Devoin is really making
an effort and stepping up.
1020
00:38:50,330 --> 00:38:52,032
- What's he thinking?
Is it parenting?
1021
00:38:52,032 --> 00:38:53,533
Is he--
- I don't know.
1022
00:38:53,533 --> 00:38:55,402
I think we're still trying
to figure things out.
1023
00:38:55,402 --> 00:38:57,037
Like, I don't know
how to explain it.
1024
00:38:57,037 --> 00:39:00,373
- And has he called for
a therapist or for Nova?
1025
00:39:00,373 --> 00:39:02,409
- He wants me to go
to Texas with him.
1026
00:39:02,409 --> 00:39:04,978
- For what?
- To speak to his--
1027
00:39:04,978 --> 00:39:08,081
- You're not [bleep] flying
to Texas for a therapist.
1028
00:39:08,081 --> 00:39:11,317
No, let the therapist fly here.
1029
00:39:11,317 --> 00:39:12,852
Going to Texas
is not a good idea.
1030
00:39:12,852 --> 00:39:14,454
I don't care who you're
going to go see--the Pope--
1031
00:39:14,454 --> 00:39:16,623
it's not a good idea.
- Why?
1032
00:39:16,623 --> 00:39:18,458
- It's not a good idea.
- Why?
1033
00:39:18,458 --> 00:39:19,959
- It's leading him on.
1034
00:39:19,959 --> 00:39:22,128
- Well, not necessarily
leading him on.
1035
00:39:22,128 --> 00:39:24,330
The situation is complicated.
1036
00:39:24,330 --> 00:39:26,766
- Do you see it working out?
1037
00:39:26,766 --> 00:39:28,868
- I don't know.
- You're thinking?
1038
00:39:28,868 --> 00:39:30,637
You're thinking about it.
1039
00:39:30,637 --> 00:39:31,905
- Mm-hmm.
1040
00:39:31,905 --> 00:39:33,106
So I think I'm going to go.
1041
00:39:33,106 --> 00:39:34,507
I don't know exactly why.
1042
00:39:34,507 --> 00:39:35,809
- I can't deal with
the Texas trip.
1043
00:39:35,809 --> 00:39:37,377
When you talk to him,
do you feel open,
1044
00:39:37,377 --> 00:39:39,846
like you can really talk
to him?
1045
00:39:39,846 --> 00:39:41,181
My point.
1046
00:39:41,181 --> 00:39:43,116
We need therapy, not just
once every six months.
1047
00:39:43,116 --> 00:39:45,251
We need therapy once a week.
1048
00:39:47,487 --> 00:39:49,756
Flying out to Texas is like
a [bleep] mini vacation.
1049
00:39:49,756 --> 00:39:51,491
This is no time for a vacation.
1050
00:39:51,491 --> 00:39:53,493
This is intense.
We need therapy.
1051
00:39:53,493 --> 00:39:54,627
- I need a vacation.
1052
00:39:54,627 --> 00:39:55,929
- No, you need therapy.
1053
00:39:55,929 --> 00:39:58,331
[Justine Grove's
"Skinny Cigarettes"]
1054
00:39:58,331 --> 00:40:01,835
♪ ♪
1055
00:40:01,835 --> 00:40:04,737
- ♪ Oh, no,
there you go again ♪
1056
00:40:04,737 --> 00:40:05,000
♪ Dancing around
with fake humility ♪
1057
00:40:05,000 --> 00:40:08,007
♪ Dancing around
with fake humility ♪
1058
00:40:08,007 --> 00:40:11,511
♪ You try so hard
to be genuine ♪
1059
00:40:11,511 --> 00:40:14,747
♪ But trust me, darling,
I could see ♪
1060
00:40:14,747 --> 00:40:17,050
♪ Right through your facade ♪
1061
00:40:17,050 --> 00:40:20,854
♪ When you show me
your head and your heart ♪
1062
00:40:20,854 --> 00:40:22,555
♪ No ♪
1063
00:40:22,555 --> 00:40:25,525
♪ There you go again
with you pushing me ♪
1064
00:40:25,525 --> 00:40:28,027
♪ So awfully ♪
1065
00:40:28,027 --> 00:40:31,364
♪ Ice-cold shoulders
as silence go ♪
1066
00:40:31,364 --> 00:40:34,167
♪ You are the queen of those ♪
1067
00:40:34,167 --> 00:40:37,470
♪ "Maybe" this
or "this you may" ♪
1068
00:40:37,470 --> 00:40:41,374
♪ When all you want to do is ♪
1069
00:40:42,575 --> 00:40:46,146
♪ Sit by your window ♪
1070
00:40:46,146 --> 00:40:49,415
♪ Let the wind blow ♪
1071
00:40:49,415 --> 00:40:51,651
♪ ♪
1072
00:40:53,470 --> 00:40:54,772
- Next on "Teen Mom:
The Next Chapter"...
1073
00:40:54,772 --> 00:40:56,740
- I need to do something
to get my spirits higher.
1074
00:40:56,740 --> 00:40:57,808
[cheering]
1075
00:40:57,808 --> 00:40:59,209
- Oh!
1076
00:40:59,209 --> 00:41:01,579
- When we first walked
in the barn, I was scared.
1077
00:41:01,579 --> 00:41:03,347
- Equine therapy
has been beneficial.
1078
00:41:03,347 --> 00:41:04,848
- She was all
self-conscious about
1079
00:41:04,848 --> 00:41:06,250
wearing that to practice.
1080
00:41:06,250 --> 00:41:07,618
- Is that because
something happened?
1081
00:41:07,618 --> 00:41:09,753
- How are you and Maci
working out, Bentley?
1082
00:41:09,753 --> 00:41:12,890
- I haven't got a chance
to eat with him again.
1083
00:41:12,890 --> 00:41:13,924
- It may not work out.
1084
00:41:13,924 --> 00:41:15,726
- My surgery is today.
1085
00:41:15,726 --> 00:41:18,896
- I know it's been coming,
but I'm just like--
1086
00:41:18,896 --> 00:41:20,564
- Today is the day, man.