- ♪ MTV ♪
- She's not feeling good today.
- What's wrong with her? - PCOS.
I don't know what to do.
That's what kills me.
- I ain't spoken to my attorney once at this point.
Just do your community service.
- He took this deal in exchange for, like, six years.
- Is that one of them deals that if he does anything--
- If he does anything wrong, they take away his deal.
- My dad called me and said he was in jail.
- What?
- I haven't even heard from him in over a year.
- I love him.
But at the end of the day, our relationship was toxic.
I used with him.
We enabled each other's addiction.
There's no way I can go back to that.
- So our realtor sent me this new listing.
- This house looks fancy.
- I know it does. - Doesn't it?
- Yeah. - You don't belong here.
It's not meant for trailer trash.
- It feels overwhelming because it's like,
our first really expensive house that
we've ever bought in our lives.
- "I was shooting my shot."
- Yep.
So he does still care about you.
- We got back from the trip.
And then when I got home, he texted me
and asked me, like, let's go to dinner.
We're going on a date.
- I think we need some family counseling.
- I'll reach out to my guy.
[upbeat rock music]
♪ ♪
- ♪ My heart, my heart ♪
♪ My boom-boom heart, it's a-beating ♪
♪ It's a thumping and I'm alive ♪
- So I'm going to a family gathering
with my sister, Victoria.
She just had a set of twins that are three months.
How crazy is that?
We both had a set of twins.
But things have been rough since Jay and I split,
and I'm genuinely just grateful that she lives close by
and I have her as support.
- ♪ If it feels like paradise ♪
♪ Running through your bloody veins ♪
♪ You know it's love heading your way ♪
♪ If it feels like paradise ♪
♪ Running through your bloody veins ♪
♪ You know it's love heading your way ♪
- All right, got all those kids downstairs.
They're jumping.
Let me see the babies.
Oh, my goodness. You're so cute.
- So I've been talking to dad a lot lately.
Have you?
- Last time I talked to him was when he went to jail
and apparently he needed bond-- I don't know what it was.
My dad became addicted to pain pills
after an accident at work when I was just a child.
He's been struggling with addiction ever since.
- It's been a little while.
I mean, we've talked on the phone, but--
- Yeah, it's been a while. - I was 13.
It's been hard with you not around.
- It's been hard for me too.
- When I got addicted to pain pills myself,
my dad enabled me and was a bad influence.
So I got clean.
- No matter what is going on, we will get through this.
- And I decided to distance myself from him.
- As his children and being the only people that he has,
I feel like it's our responsibility
to give firm love--
- Hold him accountable. Hold him accountable.
- Yes, OK, be like that.
- And have we ask him if he wanted the help?
- Yeah.
- So the first step with addiction,
you have to accept that you have an addiction.
- Mm-hmm. - We've asked him
and asked him and asked him. We support him.
I can love you from a distance,
but I will refuse to expose my children to this behavior
that I was exposed to-- - And I can respect that.
- --in my childhood, because I know
how that resulted in trauma in my early adult life.
And I will not allow it--
- You're not gonna do it with your children.
- --to continue. He isn't ready.
- I don't think all the things that Dad's done
throughout his life are things that he wanted to do.
[tense music]
- ♪ Hey, sugar, what ya doin'? ♪
♪ What ya doin', baby? Yeah ♪
♪ Poolside, gimme that cool tequila sunny, yeah ♪
♪ Break the rules ♪
- I'm glad they painted the door.
- Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
Oh, smells like paint.
Whoo.
Looking good in here. - It does.
Yeah, this is the first time you've seen it all white.
- Yeah, I wanted to wait.
I like to wait.
Yeah, it looks really good.
Punk.
♪ ♪
It's a big kid house.
This is something you used to say rich people
lived in when you were little.
- We have poverty trauma.
- Poverty trauma. [laughs]
- So, guys, we bought a new house.
We're super excited. It's moving super fast.
We want to make it a smooth transition,
so my mom's watching the girls while we can start to move in.
♪ ♪
I feel like I couldn't sleep last night.
- I couldn't either. Myeh.
- I know. It's sad.
We brought our two youngest babies home here.
- Well, I hope they respond with excitement and joy
when they come back and see their new house.
I don't know.
I mean, God damn. I don't know.
Is this the last time we're moving, honey?
- Yes. - Are you sure?
- Yeah, I moved my whole life.
I hate it.
- ♪ I like that ♪
- Well, the whole house is pretty much packed.
- How do you feel about, like, moving?
- I remember growing up as a little kid,
I always wanted to live in a house for some reason.
You know what I mean?
Like, I just wanted a house.
We were always living in the trailer park.
I remember my mom got kicked out of her trailer.
Well, we got kicked out of it.
- Remember I helped move?
What about your photo album, Carly?
- So much drama and so much craziness,
just, like, moving and, you know,
like, not having money,
like, having our water get shut off.
It stresses me out.
- Are you OK, honey?
- Whatever. I'll fend for myself,
and I'll go to a shelter or something.
- Oh, my gosh. That'd be so crazy.
- What else can I do?
- Basically, living at your house
and having nowhere to go when I was younger--
couldn't imagine doing it to my kids.
- Because you know what it felt like.
- Oh, my God. It felt horrible.
- It's constant anxiety. - Yeah.
- My mom had a house, but she had to work at the bar
every weekend for my whole life.
- Yeah, she didn't have time to spend with you guys.
- We had no money for nothing.
We barely had anything to eat.
We couldn't put our thermostat
higher than, like, 65 or something like that.
Something happened where I remember we were like,
oh, [bleep], we have to choose.
She said what do you want to do?
You want to have light or you want to be warm?
Me and Amber were like, ah.
That's crazy.
- Our parents were just trying their best to survive,
you know, really.
- I'm just happy that we don't have to worry
about providing for our kids.
It's kind of crazy when you think about it.
You know, we take little steps to get to certain places
in your life. - Mm-hmm.
- It's really important to just like, sit back--whew.
All right, let's go back to the beginning,
acknowledge the growth.
[bleep].
- ♪ Eat your heart out ♪
♪ We won't stop now ♪
♪ Bleeding our blood on the drums ♪
- I was on your team last time. Play with Benny.
I know. Benny sucks. I know.
♪ ♪
All right, let's go.
- Are you gonna pass? [laughter]
- Your ball. You're good.
Go, Mav.
Goal! - Goal!
♪ ♪
- Hey, y'all.
I'm kind of frustrated because, for the last couple of years,
but really the last year,
I've been dealing with a lot of different symptoms.
And it's not, like, related to PCOS.
It's not something that, you know,
I've ever had to deal with before.
And it's starting to, like, affect my everyday life.
I don't know. I'm in a weird spot.
♪ ♪
Are my eyes red?
- A little bit. Yeah. - They're itchy.
Like, I feel like they're itchy all the time now.
And dry.
And blurred vision.
It's weird.
- ♪ Cross that bridge another time ♪
♪ I'm too tired to say what's on my mind ♪
♪ Promise you'll be fine ♪
♪ ♪
- I'm so tired.
- Like fatigued?
- I feel like there's never a day
where I'm not so exhausted.
- Think that's because of, like, PCOS?
- I don't know.
I just feel like I'm not sleeping good
because I keep waking up in hives.
♪ ♪
- Sup?
- Oh, nothing.
There's this thing that I've recently learned about.
It's called breast implant illness.
And your cousin had experienced it,
and she--
it's called explanting. - Mm-hmm.
- She got her implants taken out,
but I have, like, 95% of these symptoms.
- Which symptoms do you have?
- Chronic fatigue, brain fog, muscle aches and pains,
dry skin, eyes, mouth, and hair,
night sweats, skin rashes, insomnia,
sudden food intolerances.
- That is a lot of stuff that you have.
- Tell me why you want to have an augmentation.
- Before I had my son,
they were higher and actually bigger.
And then, once I had him, all that's there is,
like, pretty much skin and stretch marks.
- Right. - That's it.
- Thank you guys. - You're welcome, sweetie.
- Thank you.
That's very-- kind of intimidating,
because I'm like, I've never heard of this.
- Yeah.
- It seems very, I don't know, like, hard to really grasp.
- Yeah.
- It's like an autoimmune disease.
- You think you've dealt with this the whole time?
Because you've had them for a long time.
- I think that's what it is.
Because, I mean, going to the doctor
and doing blood work and all the stuff,
like, there's nothing that gives
a hint of, like, Lyme disease or lupus
or something like that. - That's crazy.
I've never even heard of this.
- Like, between PCOS and this, I've never, as an adult,
gone to the doctor and gotten answers.
It stresses me out thinking about having
a very invasive surgery.
And I'd feel like I'm so crazy
for being like "something is wrong."
Why is something always wrong?
♪ ♪
- ♪ Don't let 'em push you our and pull you under ♪
♪ Somebody says you gotta ♪
♪ Go and get yourself together ♪
♪ Somebody said, but they don't know ♪
- Hey, ladies.
I just got back from a date with Devoin,
and it went really, really well.
I told him, in order for us to "try to figure out"
how to become a couple,
that he needs to book us a therapy session.
So I'm just going to wait on that.
But honestly, I can't even think about that right now,
because Luis just texted me,
saying that he's stopping by to see Stella.
But we haven't heard from him in months,
so it's like, what is happening?
So I'm just--there's just so much going on right now,
but I will definitely keep you ladies updated.
[doorbell chimes]
Come in!
Hey, hey.
- Hey, what's up?
- What's going on?
What have you been doing?
- Work. - Work?
- About it.
- Let me call Stella.
Stella! - What?
- Come here.
- Hi.
Look, I got you something. Go get it.
No, open it. It's for you.
It's not wrapped or anything.
- What is that?
- Lipstick?
- Aw, this is so cute.
It's a Barbie.
In a cup?
[doorbell rings]
- Hi!
Oh, my breath.
Oh, [bleep]. Hey, Luis.
- What up?
- Where's Nova? - In the room.
- I'm gonna go say hi to Nova.
- Where the hell have you been?
- Home.
- It just sucks, you know. You've been kind of MIA.
And I feel like calling us, checking up on her,
would be something. - Yeah.
I mean, like, things were going all right,
and then something else came up.
And I was just like, [bleep]. Like, I got overwhelmed.
- I don't know what to do anymore.
I should not have to rely on my mom and my sister
for everything.
Luis texted me, saying, when is the graduation?
I said, now.
I felt like I could kind of rely on Luis a little bit,
so it's really sad.
- I guess I didn't think about how being distanced
and shutting down affects you.
And I want to apologize for that.
- I'm sorry. I don't mean to cry.
♪ ♪
- It's right here.
- Yes, I did.
- Ooh, let me see your nails.
Ooh. Pretty.
- Do my pinky first.
- Do your pinky first?
- And then this one.
- Look at that little nail.
- No, he just wanted to come by.
He randomly popped up today.
- What's his excuse now?
- He's overwhelmed.
- Bitch, and what are you?
What are you? [laughs]
At some point, you need to put your foot down.
- Yeah.
- Tell him to paint her [bleep] toenails and to go home.
'Cause his presence is-- his presence is overwhelming.
- He'll leave, I'm sure.
- You told me something about one baby daddy the other day,
and now, you got the other baby daddy in here.
- I don't know what the [bleep] is going on.
- Is it an eclipse or something?
What's your sign?
I don't know that astrology [bleep],
but we need to start looking into it.
Is it like a blood moon?
Are you bleeding out your coochie, where it's like--
the pheromone? I don't [bleep] know.
- I don't even know what's going on right now.
- How was it with Devoin?
- Yesterday? - Yes.
That's why I came here, to talk about the cheese man.
And I see this [bleep] potato head on the couch.
- I don't know what's going on with Devoin right now.
That's just-- I'm so overwhelmed.
♪ ♪
[somber music]
♪ ♪
- [sniffles]
- What's going on?
- Hello.
♪ ♪
- You know, with Deandre's passing,
you know, the family did definitely take a major loss.
We always try to be as transparent as we can,
and--just like we've always tried to.
So, you know, Ashley did decide to open up and share that story
and, you know, let everybody in and see what it's like
to have to go through losing a brother, you know,
or a relative like this.
This is her first time losing somebody.
This is one of those things where it's like, you know,
it could even break the toughest people.
So she's doing the best that she could.
I'm trying to do the best that I can,
as far as being here to the best of my ability.
- He was my only brother,
and that's just a different relationship that
I had with my sister than I had with my brother.
He would teach me things.
It just was different.
It was just different.
- I remember you screaming out loud.
I ain't never heard her scream like that in my life.
Ever.
And we done get through some traumatic [bleep].
- And then, Holly, like, she doesn't even know still.
What do you tell a five-year-old
about something like this?
- I feel like because he was somebody very important to her,
the rest of the family got to get through some stuff
before we start going into the kids that
don't really understand what's happening.
'Cause she can't really understand,
and so you can only explain it to her so much.
- I learned about it at that age, about five years old.
- I've seen my first person go at six,
so it was right around that age.
- So where's Holly now?
- Holly is at school.
And I don't think she will understand.
I just don't have the words.
I'm sorry.
[sobbing]
- You'd be surprised with kids, though.
You know, they don't have the same finite ideas about life.
- No, but I know that once she understands
that I'm going through something,
that's what she'll hold on to. - Yeah.
- I don't know what else to do.
[crying] Sorry.
[Boundary Run's "Going Under"]
♪ ♪
- ♪ Been standing on holy ground ♪
♪ ♪
♪ Been sending these signals up ♪
♪ ♪
♪ I've been waiting my turn ♪
- I mean, you got to think.
We're going to his funeral in, like, three days, bro.
And I feel so bad 'cause, like, I can't--
I can't help her.
I'm so familiar with death, you feel me?
Like-- - That's--that's the thing.
When you told me about it, you were like,
she's never gone through anything like this, right?
- ♪ Been sending these signals up ♪
[Ashley crying]
[Blood Bronco's "Take Back Your Mind"]
♪ ♪
- ♪ Get it right, get it right ♪
♪ Do it one more time ♪
♪ Looking for the afterglow ♪
♪ Nobody knows, nobody knows ♪
♪ ♪
♪ No one knows, no one knows, no one knows ♪
♪ No, no ♪
♪ ♪
- Last meal at this dining room table.
- Isn't it weird?
- It is.
- Everyone's gone. - Mm-hmm.
- Yeah, it's sad we're leaving,
but we did what we came here to do.
We took the space, redid it.
Some other family's going to come in here.
- I love it. I love this house, too.
It's got great-- - Yeah.
- I feel like if it was only me and you,
and we didn't have two kids, it probably would have been fine.
Each kid adds a lot of [bleep] to a place.
I think they're almost done with the--
- So we're ready to leave?
- Moving the outside stuff. I think soon, yeah.
- I've never had movers. - Mm-mm. me neither.
- ♪ I get it going, I get it popping ♪
♪ I get it started, you know what it is ♪
♪ This is the moment, act like I own it ♪
♪ High as a rocket, I get it going ♪
♪ I get it going, I get it jumping ♪
♪ I get into it from beginning to end ♪
♪ This is a passion, this is forever ♪
♪ This how I do it, 'cause I get it going ♪
♪ ♪
[grunting]
- I didn't make it very far.
- It's all right, it's all right.
♪ ♪
- I hope that she likes it.
- I'm going through all this trouble because I want
the house to feel very calm and put together
when they come home tomorrow.
- You want your babies to be comfy.
- I do.
My mom already texted me today and said
Nova's so excited to see what her room looks like.
- Really? She is?
- Yeah. - Ooh! See?
- And I was like, oh, I can't wait to show her.
- It's a big move for them.
- It is. - You know?
So I think it's kind of our job, isn't it?
- Uh-huh.
- Make the transition as easy as possible for 'em?
It's a lot of stuff, big house.
It's just a transition.
- Will you come in here and help me, babe?
Move--just lift her mattress off a little bit.
- It's bittersweet, I guess I could say.
- Yeah.
- I'm excited for the new start here, obviously.
- I know.
This morning, I kind of got a little emotional
when I was setting up their playroom and stuff,
'cause I was like, man,
the [bleep] that we've given our kids
that we didn't get, you know?
Like, it's crazy.
It's like, wow.
- I just feel proud to be able to give it to 'em.
- Me too.
Like, it's just a world of a difference, you know?
- It's all you ever want as a parent, you know?
- Mm-hmm.
We're doing it.
- ♪ It's in the middle of the blue sea ♪
[Jamie Lono's "Right Here Right Now"]
- ♪ Just pick a number and I'm ready to go ♪
♪ It's time to levitate and put on a show ♪
- [squealing]
- ♪ This is my kinda party, and I'm letting it flow ♪
- Oh, Mom, I have a big question.
- Hmm? - Can we get another puppy?
- No.
- [sighs]
But what if--
what if I die if I don't get a puppy?
- Um, I mean--
- Oh!
- So I've been thinking about my dad a lot
after the conversation with my sister.
And I'm open to having a conversation with him,
as long as he's off of any kind of pain pills.
We'll see.
I think that getting my friend's advice
will be helpful while I'm making the decision
whether I should even have a conversation with him.
- We're going out to dinner? - Huh?
- We're going out to dinner? - You're not.
I'm going to let you hang out with Grandpa.
I'm going to meet Nicole for dinner.
- But, like, Papa will play tag with me.
We'll wrestle each other.
And we'll make his favorite cake.
♪ ♪
- ♪ Get bold, here we go ♪
♪ ♪
♪ Get bold, here we go ♪
- Oh, [bleep]!
[crashing]
[soft dramatic music]
♪ ♪
Oh, my God.
♪ ♪
- Is she OK?
- Yes, everybody's OK.
- Hey.
Dude, I just wrecked.
It's bad. I just wrecked.
It's so bad.
- OK, I'll be there in a minute.
♪ ♪
[bleep]
- It's fine, okay?
- I'm freaking out.
- Oh, my God, this is awful.
My [bleep] car.
♪ ♪
[upbeat rock music]
♪ ♪
- ♪ Weakness is beautiful ♪
♪ Being you is far above ♪
- Hey, guys.
I've done some more research on the explant surgery.
One thing that's kind of sticking out in my mind
is the recovery time.
You know, it's not just a couple of days.
It's a while.
So it's kind of--
I don't know-- intimidating to me.
But I'm going to reach out to Taylor's cousin,
who recently explanted,
and see how her experience was
and hopefully get some good information from her.
[ding]
Hi.
Can you hear me and see me? - How are you?
- Good. How are you? - Good.
- OK.
So I wanted to talk to you, because you had mentioned
something about explanting
and, like, breast implant illness.
You know how some people will post their symptom list
that the doctor gives them? - Yes.
- I swear, like, if there's 100 things on the list,
I'm checking 90 of them.
Like, fatigue, so high off the scale of severity.
- I 100% relate to the fatigue.
I could not function. It was horrible.
I probably checked off about 80% to 90% of the symptoms.
When I had that explant surgery,
I started to feel better.
Within days and weeks, probably,
I could only check off 15% to 20% of those symptoms.
- Mm-hmm. I'm to a point where,
if I do it, and say, a couple of things go away
or maybe a couple of things get better,
but it doesn't really solve anything,
I still think I'll be glad that I did it.
- I now personally know
six women who have explanted,
and not one single one had zero improvement.
Knowing what I know and feeling the way I feel
having had them out, I'm like, I made the right decision.
- Yeah. - I trusted my gut,
and this was the right thing for me.
- Yeah, that's awesome.
- It did take me a little bit to get used to, like,
buying bras again and buying swimsuits again
and all of that.
- I would have to, like, rebuy everything.
- Yes. - OK.
I'll reach out to you, though.
I'm going to-- hopefully, I could do,
like, a virtual consultation or something.
- They were doing virtual when I was.
But I do think they may still offer
the virtual consultation. - Yeah. OK.
And I'll text you if I have any questions.
- Yes, do.
I'm an open book, so whatever you have--
- Thank you so much. I appreciate it.
- Tell everybody I said hi. - I will.
Same here.
Bye. - Bye.
[inspiring rock music]
♪ ♪
[line ringing]
- Hello?
- Yes, I was calling to get some information
about explanting,
and also maybe scheduling a consultation.
- He does consults on Wednesdays and Fridays
and does virtual ones too.
- Virtual would be great, because I'm actually--
I live in Tennessee, so--
- Yeah, not very close.
- Yeah.
I had no idea breast implant illness was a thing.
I didn't know it could have anything
to do with my implants.
I just--super ignorant to the whole thing.
It sounds good.
- Well, if you think of any other questions,
give us a call. - OK. Thank you.
- You're welcome. - OK, bye.
It's kind of scary, because then I'm like, oh, great,
another situation that isn't really recognized
or paid attention to by medical providers,
just like PCOS.
So let's start this journey all over again.
I also have three kids, and so having surgery is serious,
and I'm sick of not feeling good.
It's just very frustrating,
especially for someone like me
who's very active in my kids' lives.
At this point, I'm like, I'll try anything.
- ♪ Did I make a big mistake? ♪
♪ Or did I just follow my heart? ♪
- Why are you putting makeup on your dad?
- Stop.
- Why are you taking my lips off?
- All right, baby.
Say bye to your daddy.
And tell him that you love him and you'll see him soon.
- Give me a kiss.
Love you.
- All right, Briana, talk to you.
- All right.
- Oh, you're leaving too? - Basically.
- ♪ Oh, I need to know ♪
♪ 'Cause I'm falling apart from the inside out ♪
[text dings]
- How are you? - I'm good.
How are you? - Good.
What's going on?
What? Tell me.
- Girl, it's been so much.
Like, in the last 24 hours, I've just been through
a mind-[bleep] by both baby daddies.
I'm going on a date with one, another one that's
popping up randomly the next day.
- So tell me what happened. Where did you go with Devoin?
- We went out to eat some dinner,
and we just sat and spoke.
We're just, like, trying to figure it out,
like what are we doing?
And he was like, we'll just take it slow.
And I'm like, OK.
But I'm dealing with this other [bleep] person here.
Luis.
- Luis, to me, is just like--
it's just the same thing every time.
There's no change. - How about Devoin?
- Tread lightly. - Yeah.
- I say tread lightly.
- I told him I would take him serious
if he booked a counseling session for the both of us.
'Cause there are still a lot of things that we need to--
- Hash out. - Hash out.
And he was like, OK, I'll do that.
And he did it.
- He booked one? Already? - Mm-hmm.
Well, he texted me, but-- - What?
Didn't you just go out last night?
- Girl, tell me about a mind [beep].
- What!
- He hit up his therapist in Texas,
where he went to rehab at.
He wants us to go out there.
- You guys can't find a therapist here?
- I think he's comfortable with him.
- So you're going to fly out to Texas
to a therapy date session?
[laughter]
I feel like these guys always
are, like, the best father
or, like, the best co-parenting person
when they're interested in you or want to date you.
Aye, aye, aye, Bri.
Tread lightly.
♪ ♪
[upbeat music]
♪ ♪
- So we've officially moved into the new house.
Ty and I have been working really, really hard
on getting the girls' rooms all set together.
I'm going to go get them from my mom's house
and bring them home, and I cannot
wait to see their reactions.
♪ ♪
All right. Let's go to Mama's car.
All right, let's get in our seat.
♪ ♪
Good job, Vaeda.
You want a drink? - Mm-hmm.
- Oh, my gosh.
Nova, are you so excited to see your new room?
Are you?
- It's gonna be our new house!
- Yeah.
- ♪ I see the light at the end of the tunnel ♪
♪ At the end of the tunnel ♪
♪ I'm feeling fine, coming out of the rubble ♪
♪ Coming out of the rubble ♪
- Aw, there's Daddy! - Oh, my God!
Yo, hurry up!
What are you doing!
- Daddy!
♪ ♪
- Whoo!
- Let's go see the toys.
Oh, there's toys in here. I believe you.
This one. Ready?
Let's see.
- Whoa!
- Wow!
- Mom, there's a TV!
- I know. It's all your stuff.
I know.
- ♪ It's time for the come-up ♪
- Do you guys want to go see your bedrooms?
- Yeah.
- ♪ So close to the sun-up ♪
♪ There's better days ahead ♪
- What the--
♪ ♪
- [gasps] Look at Vaeda's room!
- Wow!
[squealing]
- Look.
- ♪ I was sleeping on the floor ♪
♪ Didn't know what to do ♪
- Look at under your bed. Look at the lights.
- I like this room.
- You like it?
- Cozy!
- Cozy-wozy!
So nice.
- Me and Ty definitely had the thoughts of the new house
of being like, yeah, definitely out of our league,
this is too pretty of a house for people like us.
Give me a kiss!
But the kids were so happy.
They were so excited, running around their rooms,
and they loved it.
It just made me feel good.
I did the right thing by, like, truly focusing on them first.
And that's why my bedroom
still looks like a [bleep] show.
[laughs]
- ♪ Big dreams to go live ♪
♪ We are the chosen ♪
- Are you, like, not terrified of driving?
- Yes, I am.
I can't believe Addie told you guys that I got in a wreck.
- OK, I'm just confused. How did it happen?
- It really just happened so fast.
- No. It was terrifying.
- Is the girl OK? - Yeah.
We were both OK.
That's what I'm so grateful for.
Mm, gosh.
So I'm still shaken up about my wreck.
And on top of that, my sister called me
to tell me that our dad had a stroke.
Hopefully, everything's all good,
and I'll let you guys know.
♪ ♪
[line ringing]
- Hello. - Hey.
I heard that you had a stroke.
- It wasn't a stroke.
It was a pinched nerve.
- Oh, wow.
- And something terribly bad happened to me today.
- What?
- I was in a car wreck.
- How?
- I lost control, and come find out
that my license is suspended.
- Oh, wow.
Well, I was in an accident, but I had insurance,
and my license were valid.
And thank God, everyone was OK.
I've never been in a car accident before.
- Well, I sure have. Lord have mercy.
- Many, actually.
Staying clean?
- Well, I take my pain medication.
Just takin' what I'm supposed to.
- All right. Well, I'm glad that you're OK.
- I wanna see y'all.
Seems like everything in the world's coming against me
to be able to see y'all.
Now the license suspended.
I'd take off and get a rental car.
I'd take off and go see y'all.
- Yeah.
Take care of yourself.
- I am. I'm being good.
- All right. I love you.
- All right. Love you, too, babe.
- All right, bye.
[tense music]
♪ ♪
- Hey Lucky!
Hi.
- Guess what? - What?
- I just talked to my dad. - Like, for real?
- Yeah, he said he got in a car wreck today.
- You're lying! - I swear.
- But that's weird, though.
You were in a wreck, and then your dad was in a wreck.
- Yeah, it is weird. - It's really weird.
- And then, he's like, my license was suspended.
- Is he telling you that because you think
he wants you to do it for him?
- Yeah.
- Instead of saying, like, how are you?
How are the girls?
- Yeah, he didn't even ask, how are the girls.
And I knew that. - Mm-hmm.
- You think I don't recognize that?
That's my entire life.
And his words were slurring.
I was like, are you clean?
And he was like, I mean, I still take my medications.
- Hmm.
Yeah, that sucks. - You know what I mean?
OK, then you're still on it.
You're still on that [bleep].
Like, I know it. I know addiction.
- Yeah.
- There's-- you can't--
like, rock the boat. Does that make sense?
Like, you can't be like, oh, I'm just taking it--no.
- Mm-hmm.
I don't mean this to sound bitter, angry,
and I'm genuinely not, from the bottom of my heart.
I think that I've tried so many times in the past,
that I'm at a place in my life to respect me
and the growth that I've made,
there has to be boundaries on situations like this
when it comes to protecting my space
and what I've created for me and my family.
I'm not going to budge. - Mm-hmm.
- It sounds ruthless.
I don't mean it like-- if something happened tomorrow,
I know that I did everything I could, one, to get him
in a treatment facility-- he denied it--
two, you know, to help him, support him,
giving him money, like this and that.
There comes a point in time where
I just got to cut it off.
There were days I saw my dad OD'd on the floor
with, like, [bleep] down him.
And I don't want that around me.
I kind of felt guilt, because I was like,
should I call and check on him?
But I have no desire to ever
have a relationship with him ever,
unless he gets the help he needs.
[somber music]
♪ ♪
- So unfortunately with Deandre passing, you know.
I had to have a conversation with Holly,
basically, explain to her that, you know,
what happened with Deandre
without really telling her, you know,
and just kind of letting her know that
he unfortunately passed away.
And God has some angels,
and sometimes he has to come back and get them.
And it was just really kind of more so that.
But I didn't have to go into super detail,
because she kind of already understood what was going on
and already had, like, more of a positive outlook on it,
you know, and not really seeing it as a loss,
but more so as he went to heaven,
so he'll be all right.
- ♪ La, la, la, la, la ♪
♪ La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la ♪
♪ Live my life ♪
- Right now, I'm still in shock,
to be honest. - Just on autopilot.
- And so once all of this is over,
and all the hoopla dies down,
and then it's just me, the air, and God,
then it'll become something different.
But for right now, all I know is to just keep moving.
I know you've suffered a lot of loss.
- Yeah.
- So how do you cope?
- Honestly, I don't.
- Just keep moving, huh?
- I fall apart all the time, honestly,
over the people I lost. I ain't gonna lie.
That's why, like, she's been asking.
Like, she don't know if she'll ever get over this.
And it's like, you know, I have to be honest.
I mean, like, you know, it's something that
you probably ain't gonna ever get over.
The first thing I try to think of when my anger settles
is, I know everyone that I've lost
was not living the best life.
It's a lot of pain stuck inside and struggles and all of that.
So I always try to look at it and say, you know what?
Everything do happen for a reason.
I can't understand this right now, but what I do know
is that they don't have to keep dealing with the [bleep]
that they was fighting to survive through
every day out here.
- But sometimes, Bar, it takes a little of that
for people to change or turn their life around,
and they don't get that opportunity.
- And that's the bad part about it for me.
- But I think what makes it--
- They died when they was young.
- Makes it surreal for me, though,
is because I've done a lot of funerals.
I've been to a lot of funerals.
But this is my own.
This is my own, so this hit different.
But as a woman,
it's like my womb knows that my child is gone.
- Yeah. I couldn't imagine how you feel.
- I think just getting over the devastation and the hurt is--
- That's going to be the hard part.
- Yeah.
[Tall Timbers' "Andrea Doria"]
♪ ♪
- I think if there was one thing
I would want people to take from my brother,
it's to have compassion.
Because my brother always had compassion for everybody,
no matter what he was going through personally,
and it takes a lot to do that.
- ♪ You light right up when you see a flash ♪
♪ It's permanently breakneck speed ♪
- When people say heartbreak is, like, actually real,
like you feel your heart literally breaking,
that's the best way I can describe it.
♪ ♪
You never know when you're never
going to see someone again-- [sniffles]
Or what they're going through.
I don't know. I just need time.
[tense music]
♪ ♪
- My brain is literally going crazy.
I cannot believe that Devoin booked
a therapy session out in Texas.
It's never a dull moment in my life.
- What's going on?
- Devoin is really making an effort and stepping up.
- What's he thinking? Is it parenting?
Is he-- - I don't know.
I think we're still trying to figure things out.
Like, I don't know how to explain it.
- And has he called for a therapist or for Nova?
- He wants me to go to Texas with him.
- For what? - To speak to his--
- You're not [bleep] flying to Texas for a therapist.
No, let the therapist fly here.
Going to Texas is not a good idea.
I don't care who you're going to go see--the Pope--
it's not a good idea. - Why?
- It's not a good idea. - Why?
- It's leading him on.
- Well, not necessarily leading him on.
The situation is complicated.
- Do you see it working out?
- I don't know. - You're thinking?
You're thinking about it.
- Mm-hmm.
So I think I'm going to go.
I don't know exactly why.
- I can't deal with the Texas trip.
When you talk to him, do you feel open,
like you can really talk to him?
My point.
We need therapy, not just once every six months.
We need therapy once a week.
Flying out to Texas is like a [bleep] mini vacation.
This is no time for a vacation.
This is intense. We need therapy.
- I need a vacation.
- No, you need therapy.
[Justine Grove's "Skinny Cigarettes"]
♪ ♪
- ♪ Oh, no, there you go again ♪
♪ Dancing around with fake humility ♪
♪ You try so hard to be genuine ♪
♪ But trust me, darling, I could see ♪
♪ Right through your facade ♪
♪ When you show me your head and your heart ♪
♪ No ♪
♪ There you go again with you pushing me ♪
♪ So awfully ♪
♪ Ice-cold shoulders as silence go ♪
♪ You are the queen of those ♪
♪ "Maybe" this or "this you may" ♪
♪ When all you want to do is ♪
♪ Sit by your window ♪
♪ Let the wind blow ♪
♪ ♪
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- I need to do something to get my spirits higher.
[cheering]
- Oh!
- When we first walked in the barn, I was scared.
- Equine therapy has been beneficial.
- She was all self-conscious about
wearing that to practice.
- Is that because something happened?
- How are you and Maci working out, Bentley?
- I haven't got a chance to eat with him again.
- It may not work out.
- My surgery is today.
- I know it's been coming, but I'm just like--
- Today is the day, man.