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It's my husband,
I think he's overdosed.

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- OK.
- I'm a doctor. He's got a weak pulse,

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and I think he's going
into respiratory arrest.

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- Guy.
- Pinpoint pupils.

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Can we try naloxone?

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He's coming round.

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Guy?

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Guy, can you hear me?

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Guy. Guy, can you hear me?

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- What've we got?
- Overdose. Naloxone administered.

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He'll be coming round
and ready for you on the acute ward.

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- Bad news for City last night.
- Nah, it's a test of faith.

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We'll pull through, you'll see.
Just got to make the most of...

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Forty-year-old male.
Presumed opiate overdose.

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One shot of naloxone.
Still low-level consciousness,

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and I'm concerned
about his resp rate.

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On my count. Three, two, one, slide.

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Guedel airway, resps are low.

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Saturation's 93%.

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I'm not happy about this
level of consciousness.

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- Resp rate's dropping. - He needs another shot of naloxone.
- Get me another shot of naloxone.

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Guy?

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Get a naloxone infusion set up.
Go and get your consultant. Guy?

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- What?
- Get Marco.

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'Promise Keeper' by Agnes Obel

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Resp rate recovering.

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Oxygen saturation's improving.

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Catherine.

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- Have I got my dates muddled, or...?
- Er, yeah.

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I came with a heart. Been in
a transplant operation all night.

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Oh, wow. How did...

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And I was just filling Lars in
on the new hierarchy.

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Great.

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Oh, well, elective
backlog calls, so, erm...

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Catherine, would you swing by
my office?

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- I've got the investigation panel today.
- When you have a moment.

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Sure

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- I was going to tell you.
- I'm sorry.

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- Yeah.
- Yeah.

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It's not...

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Actually, are you free for a minute?

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- Yeah.
- Thanks.

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Hello, Sami's sister.

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We met when you were born.

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You probably don't remember.

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I don't know what to do.

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I'm scared of what will happen
to you if...

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..we don't take you.

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I'm scared of what will
happen to me if we do.

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And none of this is your fault.

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I can't keep this up, Lars.

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It was supposed to be
a tough few months

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until I got the consultant job.

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I'm paying as much as I earn
in childcare,

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and I'm barely seeing her.

56
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Well, you know,
there is another solution.

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Get another consultant's job, yes,
but that's gonna take some time.

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Elis could come live with us.

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I... Look...
I'm not judging your parenting.

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But this is pragmatic.

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But you think she'd be best-off
with you.

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Well, you can't do
General and Trauma

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and raise a child on your own,
you said so yourself.

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I could retrain...
and change specialties.

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You'd be happy just throwing away
a decade of education?

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- There are ways I could build on it.
- Do you wanna give it up?

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Why should I have to?

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I mean, you didn't have
to give up your career.

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Cos I have Brigitta.

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It's a wonderful...
amazing place to raise children.

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And you'd still be part of her life.

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Just a different balance. Right?
And you're right,

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why should you have to give up
on the job that you love?

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The job you're good at...
..so good at.

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Just think about it.

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Mae, I can't talk right now.

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'Sorry, I know you've got
the investigation today,

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'but Jakub Wozniak is back
with another chest infection.

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'They're asking for you.
Wh-What shall I...?'

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I-I'm on my way.

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It's not appropriate
for you to be here.

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We agreed restricted duties
for your own sake.

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I mean, it is visiting hours,
so I could just wander in there.

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He's not responded
to three rounds of antibiotics.

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- A line for the fourth has just gone.
- Can I go in?

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I mean, where do we
stand legally if I treat him?

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Maryam...

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I don't think there's
very much clinically

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that you can still do for him.

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Even if we trialled a fifth round,
he's got no veins left.

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- We're not winning.
- Well, let me try, at least.

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Come in with me, and
then we can say you did it.

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Dobroho ronku. Zoya, Kateryna.

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- Hi.
- Hello.

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Pryvit, Jakub.

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That is a tiny vein.

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Well done.

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Dyakuyu.

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Helen, where have you been?
Didn't you get my messages?

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Lars has just...

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Helen?

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Catherine, it's not time yet, is it?

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Hi.

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Have you seen him
since they brought him in?

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No. I'm the last person
he wants to see.

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Why wouldn't he want to see you?

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- You saved his life.
- He didn't want saving.

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If Maggie had remembered his...

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Fuck! I haven't dropped off
Maggie's swimming costume!

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Fuck...

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I don't understand
how things got so bad.

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He got suspended, er, a couple
of days ago for drinking on call.

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Oh, God.

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Well, how'd that happen?
How'd they...?

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I reported him.

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You know, this isn't your fault.

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He found out that I
slept with someone...

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..else.

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Hiya. We can't get him onto HDU,
he's on the Acute Ward.

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- He can't be on his own ward!
- There's no space anywhere.

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He'll be with his
patients, for God's sake.

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No, it... it's fine. It's OK.
Is he there now, or...?

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- Yeah.
- OK.

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- I'll come with you, OK?
- Yeah.

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Settling in, then?

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I officially start as
Consultant yesterday.

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As promised, new rota.

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The trust waived my
notice period so I can

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- pitch in clearing the waiting lists.
- Jack, I'm...

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I'll be taking on
an extra elective list

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on a Saturday, where possible.

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I'm either on call, on nights
or on weekends the whole...

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Three out of four
weeks, I'm on call!

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Yeah, well, with
my promotion, it's...

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It's what the department needs.

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You're gonna have to
look at this again. I can't...

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You telling me you can't do
the job that's required?

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What?

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I can't do any favours, Catherine.

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Take some time with it.

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Let me know tomorrow.

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Did you hear about Guy
Cavendish? Helen's husband.

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He tried to take his
own life this morning.

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Have you seen her?

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Can you give me something to do?

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Is he gonna be OK?

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Mm.

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I'm so sorry.

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Thank you.

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I'm in love with him.

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This is not your fault.

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Whatever happened
between the two of you...

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..whatever he said

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or he didn't say to you...

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..what he did this morning
is not your fault.

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Do you hear what I'm saying?

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You should go home.

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No. No, I wanna...

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I'd rather keep busy...

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..like you.

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Can I sit with him?

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When he's well enough for visitors,

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it will be his parents
and his children.

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Fuck! Fuck!

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Helen.

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Hey, stop!

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Hey, hey, hey. Come on.

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Hey.

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Hey! It's OK. Oh, it's OK.

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It's OK.

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I keep thinking,
this time yesterday...

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If I could just go back and...

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And, what, stop him?

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00:14:07,099 --> 00:14:09,200
This didn't start
yesterday, though, did it?

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I knew he'd been struggling.

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I mean,
we'd... we'd tried counselling

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after he told me about Louise.

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Fucking Louise!

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- Not that I'm any better.
- Don't.

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Your judgement was so loud,

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it was practically a speech
bubble above your head.

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I'm sorry.

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- You know, right?
- Yeah.

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Did you tell him?

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00:14:36,913 --> 00:14:38,132
Yeah.

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- What did he say?
- Helen, go back and be with Guy.

187
00:14:42,833 --> 00:14:45,804
I'm so angry with him.
I feel like I could kill him myself.

188
00:14:45,806 --> 00:14:47,360
You'd have to use your left hand.

189
00:14:49,713 --> 00:14:51,359
And how could he do this to me?

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00:14:51,360 --> 00:14:52,733
How... How could he do it
to the kids?

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I mean, what the fuck
am I supposed to tell them?

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Life's never gonna be
the same again, is it?

193
00:14:59,627 --> 00:15:03,267
You'd tell your patients
to take it one day at a time.

194
00:15:04,360 --> 00:15:07,018
How did I let this happen? Ow, fuck!

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00:15:07,020 --> 00:15:09,066
- Sorry.
- My hand's really sore.

196
00:15:10,439 --> 00:15:12,571
I'm gonna be late
for Maryam's meeting.

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Oh, "Help." OK, erm... I'll be back.

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00:15:17,386 --> 00:15:18,606
Catherine...

199
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..just look out for her.

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Go back and sit with Guy.

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00:15:31,200 --> 00:15:33,039
Our recommendation for actions

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may include changes
to processes or systems,

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or further training and support
for individuals.

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We can...

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00:15:40,833 --> 00:15:42,033
Excuse me.

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We can offer stronger action
against individuals

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00:15:46,580 --> 00:15:48,580
where there is a case
for culpability.

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00:15:49,665 --> 00:15:51,664
So, shall we make a start?

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00:15:51,666 --> 00:15:55,459
Dr Afridi, as the lead physician
treating Edward Williams,

210
00:15:55,460 --> 00:15:58,819
what prevented you from
administering antibiotics

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within the recommended timeframe?

212
00:16:01,221 --> 00:16:05,499
I gave what I believed to be
a direct instruction to Dr Segman

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00:16:05,500 --> 00:16:06,979
to call Microbiology,

214
00:16:06,980 --> 00:16:08,459
so that they could find
an antibiotic

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00:16:08,460 --> 00:16:10,459
that Edward could tolerate.

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00:16:10,460 --> 00:16:12,053
But that call wasn't made.

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00:16:12,826 --> 00:16:14,065
Hm.

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00:16:14,460 --> 00:16:17,631
The instruction to call Microbiology
wasn't in Edward's notes

219
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at the time of his death.

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00:16:18,853 --> 00:16:20,946
Er, that was an oversight
on my part.

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00:16:20,948 --> 00:16:23,459
- It was an extremely busy shift.
- And your first full shift back

222
00:16:23,460 --> 00:16:25,499
after, what,
28 months of maternity leave.

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In an acute setting,

224
00:16:27,460 --> 00:16:29,979
which was in breach of Dr
Afridi's return-to-work plan.

225
00:16:29,980 --> 00:16:32,960
Did you raise concerns
about being given pagers

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or being placed in CAU?

227
00:16:35,435 --> 00:16:38,233
I definitely tried to say
something to Dr Fisher.

228
00:16:38,235 --> 00:16:41,460
- We were by the hand-dryers.
- And you felt fit to practise?

229
00:16:42,280 --> 00:16:43,493
Yes.

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00:16:44,133 --> 00:16:46,686
Let's make an exception
and give him more time.

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00:16:47,280 --> 00:16:48,480
All right.

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00:16:51,793 --> 00:16:52,993
Matt?

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00:16:54,460 --> 00:16:57,246
- Was that Psychiatry?
- Yeah, erm...

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00:16:57,248 --> 00:16:59,878
I... Basically, I told them
he's not fit to be assessed.

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00:16:59,880 --> 00:17:02,053
Do you think they'll section him?

236
00:17:02,055 --> 00:17:05,060
Erm... if it's what he
needs, then, yeah.

237
00:17:05,379 --> 00:17:06,606
I keep...

238
00:17:06,947 --> 00:17:09,946
..thinking back over our
conversations, trying to find the...

239
00:17:09,948 --> 00:17:12,459
the language, or the tells.

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00:17:12,893 --> 00:17:14,459
I think I knew he was struggling.

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00:17:14,460 --> 00:17:17,459
He left a... a note.

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00:17:17,460 --> 00:17:19,066
Do you think I...

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00:17:19,068 --> 00:17:21,820
I should read it,
or give it to Psychiatry, or...?

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00:17:22,873 --> 00:17:25,873
Shit, Helen, I don't...
I don't know. I'm so sorry.

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00:17:27,293 --> 00:17:28,993
Thank God you found him.

246
00:17:32,140 --> 00:17:34,684
What was the return-to-work plan

247
00:17:34,686 --> 00:17:36,804
you put in place with
the training director?

248
00:17:36,806 --> 00:17:40,459
We agreed we'd spend my first week
in a non-acute setting,

249
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and then assess my readiness
to return to full duties.

250
00:17:43,221 --> 00:17:46,459
But you were pulled out
of an IT induction by Dr Fisher

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on day one to carry
the labour ward pager?

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00:17:48,660 --> 00:17:52,659
I'm struggling to find staff
to meet the MINIMUM requirements

253
00:17:52,660 --> 00:17:54,459
across our services,

254
00:17:54,460 --> 00:17:56,186
never mind meet guidelines.

255
00:17:56,188 --> 00:17:58,153
Was Dr Afridi given the opportunity

256
00:17:58,155 --> 00:18:00,154
to come off the
acute and on-call rotas

257
00:18:00,156 --> 00:18:02,156
that she shouldn't have been on
in the first place,

258
00:18:02,157 --> 00:18:03,793
immediately following
Edward's death?

259
00:18:03,795 --> 00:18:05,213
No, she...

260
00:18:06,653 --> 00:18:07,873
No.

261
00:18:07,980 --> 00:18:10,460
What support was
she offered, Dr Fisher?

262
00:18:11,660 --> 00:18:15,260
Perhaps, and I regret
this assumption now,

263
00:18:15,262 --> 00:18:19,286
I saw Dr Afridi
as a fresh pair of legs.

264
00:18:19,288 --> 00:18:22,459
- My team are exhausted.
- I understand that Dr Afridi

265
00:18:22,460 --> 00:18:24,979
has recently been placed
on restricted duties.

266
00:18:24,980 --> 00:18:27,459
We both agreed that she should be
away from acute settings

267
00:18:27,460 --> 00:18:30,199
until the conclusion
of this investigation, yes.

268
00:18:30,201 --> 00:18:32,606
Do you think, in
hindsight, Dr Afridi,

269
00:18:32,608 --> 00:18:36,413
that you might have come back
too early from maternity leave?

270
00:18:43,006 --> 00:18:45,400
My instruction to
Simon wasn't clear.

271
00:18:47,820 --> 00:18:51,013
This is to call Microbiology?

272
00:18:53,380 --> 00:18:57,007
But I assumed he'd hear
it was for him, because...

273
00:18:58,126 --> 00:19:01,459
..when I was an F1, I wrote down
every syllable my reg said.

274
00:19:02,160 --> 00:19:04,911
I checked, I double checked,
I asked if I wasn't sure.

275
00:19:04,913 --> 00:19:08,926
That was my training. You show up,
you arrive early, you leave late.

276
00:19:08,928 --> 00:19:11,486
No matter how
insurmountable the challenge,

277
00:19:11,820 --> 00:19:13,833
you... always find a way
to make it work.

278
00:19:15,260 --> 00:19:17,459
You don't make mistakes,
but if you do,

279
00:19:17,460 --> 00:19:19,460
you take
responsibility for them.

280
00:19:20,340 --> 00:19:23,339
That's the standard I've held
myself to my whole career.

281
00:19:23,460 --> 00:19:26,459
Well, we appreciate
your candour, Dr Afridi.

282
00:19:26,460 --> 00:19:28,459
Were there other instructions

283
00:19:28,460 --> 00:19:32,260
Dr Afridi gave you during the day
that you understood WERE for you?

284
00:19:32,262 --> 00:19:34,261
- Yeah, sure.
- Like...?

285
00:19:34,579 --> 00:19:35,939
Edward's urine dip?

286
00:19:37,253 --> 00:19:40,459
- Yeah.
- But you didn't carry out that instruction.

287
00:19:40,460 --> 00:19:44,460
I thought she meant that I
could ask a nurse to do it.

288
00:19:45,873 --> 00:19:48,258
Can I ask, Dr Afridi,
what did you think

289
00:19:48,260 --> 00:19:50,997
coming back after maternity leave
was going to be like?

290
00:19:50,999 --> 00:19:52,999
I knew we were short-staffed.

291
00:19:54,740 --> 00:19:57,033
I'd heard a lot about burnout.

292
00:19:57,035 --> 00:19:59,459
I knew we were struggling
to meet the challenges

293
00:19:59,460 --> 00:20:01,459
children were facing
in their health and development.

294
00:20:01,460 --> 00:20:02,864
And in yourself?

295
00:20:02,866 --> 00:20:05,313
You said you felt fit to practise,

296
00:20:05,321 --> 00:20:07,731
but did you feel
confident coming back?

297
00:20:07,733 --> 00:20:08,933
No.

298
00:20:09,373 --> 00:20:10,725
I felt tired.

299
00:20:10,727 --> 00:20:13,040
I felt scared about being tired.

300
00:20:13,833 --> 00:20:15,152
I felt rusty.

301
00:20:15,154 --> 00:20:18,460
I hadn't cannulated a
patient in over two years.

302
00:20:19,973 --> 00:20:21,173
I felt...

303
00:20:26,253 --> 00:20:29,666
I couldn't remember the doctor
I was before I had children.

304
00:20:30,699 --> 00:20:33,720
- I feel changed.
- Changed how?

305
00:20:36,726 --> 00:20:39,459
I feel like all the pieces
of who I was

306
00:20:39,460 --> 00:20:41,333
have been thrown up in the air,
and...

307
00:20:43,460 --> 00:20:45,459
..some of them still haven't landed.

308
00:20:45,460 --> 00:20:50,460
'Woman' by Rosie Lowe
♪ I don't expect you to understand

309
00:20:51,660 --> 00:20:56,233
♪ You can't imagine how I'm feeling

310
00:20:57,786 --> 00:21:02,460
♪ I can't admit it to myself

311
00:21:03,686 --> 00:21:07,686
♪ So where would I even begin?

312
00:21:09,866 --> 00:21:14,520
♪ Cos I'm a proud woman... ♪

313
00:21:16,073 --> 00:21:19,312
Rather than asking someone
to judge themselves in hindsight

314
00:21:19,314 --> 00:21:21,314
on their readiness to return
to front-line medicine

315
00:21:21,315 --> 00:21:22,718
after maternity leave,

316
00:21:22,720 --> 00:21:25,651
perhaps it would be more useful
to consider

317
00:21:25,653 --> 00:21:27,459
why they weren't given
the support they needed

318
00:21:27,460 --> 00:21:29,459
to ensure they were ready.

319
00:21:29,460 --> 00:21:32,459
Why Dr Afridi wasn't
offered the support

320
00:21:32,460 --> 00:21:35,686
to process the trauma
of Edward's death.

321
00:21:35,688 --> 00:21:37,459
I'd like to bring us back
to the question

322
00:21:37,460 --> 00:21:40,459
of why the sepsis guidelines
were not followed.

323
00:21:40,460 --> 00:21:42,459
My clinical understanding
of Edward's condition

324
00:21:42,460 --> 00:21:44,459
is that it was against the odds
that Microbiology

325
00:21:44,460 --> 00:21:46,659
would have found
an antibiotic within the hour

326
00:21:46,660 --> 00:21:49,206
that didn't send him
into anaphylactic shock.

327
00:21:49,208 --> 00:21:52,213
And even if they had, we don't
know if he would have lived.

328
00:21:52,215 --> 00:21:54,979
- I think Edward was let down.
- Yes, I agree.

329
00:21:54,980 --> 00:21:57,459
Edward was let down
by the same systems

330
00:21:57,460 --> 00:21:59,459
that let Dr Afridi down.

331
00:21:59,460 --> 00:22:03,633
I understand the urge to pin
that failure on an individual.

332
00:22:03,635 --> 00:22:04,973
Oh, it's so much easier

333
00:22:04,975 --> 00:22:07,653
than fighting for real change
in a system.

334
00:22:08,153 --> 00:22:10,713
Besides, Dr Afridi's right.

335
00:22:11,546 --> 00:22:14,960
We keep finding ways in the NHS,
don't we?

336
00:22:15,553 --> 00:22:18,553
Somehow, we make it work.

337
00:22:19,286 --> 00:22:21,831
We try and hold it all
on our shoulders

338
00:22:21,833 --> 00:22:24,459
because we're the ones
who have to look patients

339
00:22:24,460 --> 00:22:27,459
and their families in the eye
and let them down.

340
00:22:27,460 --> 00:22:29,979
It costs us something
to hold ourselves

341
00:22:29,981 --> 00:22:31,684
to those incredibly high standards.

342
00:22:31,686 --> 00:22:34,013
And when we're pushed
to maintain those standards

343
00:22:34,015 --> 00:22:37,015
in impossible circumstances,
it costs us everything.

344
00:22:38,146 --> 00:22:42,633
♪ It's too painful
To even think about... ♪

345
00:22:43,460 --> 00:22:46,459
♪ So it would kill me
To say it out loud... ♪

346
00:22:46,460 --> 00:22:50,120
Hello. Hi! How are you? Are you OK?

347
00:22:50,122 --> 00:22:53,571
I wore Ariana's
spare swimming costume!

348
00:22:53,573 --> 00:22:54,979
Did you? Aw.

349
00:22:54,980 --> 00:22:58,459
- Er, she's not staying for after-school club today.
- OK.

350
00:22:58,460 --> 00:23:00,459
- Mummy, it had Nemo on it.
- Did it?

351
00:23:00,460 --> 00:23:02,459
Oh, can I have a cuddle?

352
00:23:02,460 --> 00:23:06,640
♪ And stay a proud woman... ♪

353
00:23:09,900 --> 00:23:15,060
Good afternoon, Dr Cavendish.
You're on AMU. Naloxone infusion.

354
00:23:15,062 --> 00:23:16,753
No intubation.

355
00:23:17,219 --> 00:23:18,786
- Here.
- Oh...

356
00:23:28,700 --> 00:23:31,111
Don't look too cogent,
Psychiatry have been round.

357
00:23:31,113 --> 00:23:33,959
- Don't.
- Er, don't what, mate?

358
00:23:36,320 --> 00:23:38,400
We didn't look after them properly.

359
00:23:43,032 --> 00:23:44,546
We should've done better.

360
00:23:56,373 --> 00:24:00,333
♪ I can't be a mad woman

361
00:24:02,739 --> 00:24:06,866
♪ I have analysed
Every single inch of my skin

362
00:24:08,746 --> 00:24:13,225
♪ And comparisons I can't seem
To break in my daily routine

363
00:24:13,227 --> 00:24:19,226
♪ I-I-I find myself obsessing
Imperfections that only I see

364
00:24:19,228 --> 00:24:21,227
♪ Break free

365
00:24:21,229 --> 00:24:24,458
♪ And I know it's such a waste
But the pressure is getting to me

366
00:24:24,460 --> 00:24:28,460
♪ I don't expect
You to understand. ♪

367
00:24:37,893 --> 00:24:40,626
I expected to feel
this wave of relief.

368
00:24:40,933 --> 00:24:42,519
I feel like I got away with it.

369
00:24:44,353 --> 00:24:47,086
I've thought about him
every day since he died.

370
00:24:47,666 --> 00:24:49,213
I know I could have done better.

371
00:24:49,215 --> 00:24:51,460
That doesn't sound like
getting away with it to me.

372
00:24:52,713 --> 00:24:54,459
I don't know what to do with myself.

373
00:24:54,460 --> 00:24:56,186
I didn't expect
to still be a doctor.

374
00:24:56,188 --> 00:24:58,826
I think the question is, do
you still want to be a doctor?

375
00:25:01,260 --> 00:25:02,459
Are you on call?

376
00:25:02,460 --> 00:25:05,459
- No, but I think I have to scrub in anyway.
- Hm.

377
00:25:05,460 --> 00:25:07,653
Holding yourself
to impossible standards.

378
00:25:10,386 --> 00:25:11,586
Catherine.

379
00:25:13,153 --> 00:25:14,367
Thank you.

380
00:25:16,353 --> 00:25:17,759
Call you later.

381
00:25:30,386 --> 00:25:31,720
Did the line hold?

382
00:25:33,266 --> 00:25:34,546
No.

383
00:25:38,160 --> 00:25:41,160
I, erm... I know them best.

384
00:25:42,327 --> 00:25:43,853
I'm OK, honestly.

385
00:25:51,813 --> 00:25:53,053
Swab.

386
00:25:54,073 --> 00:25:57,159
He's just fucking hosing.
I can't see anything.

387
00:25:57,606 --> 00:25:59,299
Can someone sort the fucking lights?

388
00:25:59,300 --> 00:26:01,026
Blood pressure still dropping.

389
00:26:02,052 --> 00:26:04,740
- Mind if I assist?
- What are you doing here?

390
00:26:05,460 --> 00:26:07,973
Fourteen year old hit
by a car, ruptured spleen.

391
00:26:10,259 --> 00:26:12,258
Have you divided
the retroperitoneal attachments?

392
00:26:12,260 --> 00:26:13,526
I can't get to them.

393
00:26:13,528 --> 00:26:16,006
Blood pressure still dropping.
We need some more blood.

394
00:26:16,008 --> 00:26:17,246
Jack.

395
00:26:17,533 --> 00:26:18,733
Jack?

396
00:26:19,925 --> 00:26:21,125
Yeah.

397
00:26:23,313 --> 00:26:24,460
Can you get to them?

398
00:26:24,461 --> 00:26:27,253
I can't see the splenophrenic
or the splenorenal.

399
00:26:28,279 --> 00:26:30,118
No, still can't see them.

400
00:26:30,820 --> 00:26:32,459
When it's bleeding like this...

401
00:26:32,733 --> 00:26:35,293
you need to feel for them instead.

402
00:26:35,739 --> 00:26:37,240
Scissors, please.

403
00:26:40,499 --> 00:26:45,498
Run your scissors along your fingers
like this.

404
00:26:45,500 --> 00:26:48,926
OK. Roberts, please.

405
00:26:54,753 --> 00:26:56,179
Second Roberts.

406
00:26:59,833 --> 00:27:01,833
Blood pressure stabilising.

407
00:27:06,660 --> 00:27:09,366
Hold the tray up a bit higher
for me. Thank you.

408
00:27:10,093 --> 00:27:11,960
Spleen out.

409
00:27:12,567 --> 00:27:16,407
- Ligate or transfix?
- Always transfix. Stitch, please.

410
00:27:21,460 --> 00:27:22,953
Some scissors, please.

411
00:27:33,413 --> 00:27:34,799
- Yes?
- Uh-huh.

412
00:27:36,079 --> 00:27:37,293
Thank you.

413
00:27:43,206 --> 00:27:45,426
Clamp off slowly.

414
00:27:52,546 --> 00:27:54,546
OK, let's tidy him up.

415
00:27:55,313 --> 00:27:58,280
- More warm wash, please.
- No. No. That's enough.

416
00:27:58,580 --> 00:28:01,459
Catherine, can you close him up?
Great work, everyone.

417
00:28:01,460 --> 00:28:03,086
And, er, don't forget the drains.

418
00:28:13,220 --> 00:28:15,459
I think this might be the time
to consider

419
00:28:15,460 --> 00:28:17,166
that he may not survive this.

420
00:28:19,366 --> 00:28:21,460
Sometimes, our job as doctors...

421
00:28:22,393 --> 00:28:25,392
..is to accept there are things
that we can't fix.

422
00:28:26,000 --> 00:28:28,120
So I think the best
thing for Jakub,

423
00:28:29,726 --> 00:28:30,952
for you,

424
00:28:31,533 --> 00:28:34,266
is to give him a death
with some dignity.

425
00:28:41,140 --> 00:28:42,460
I can't.

426
00:28:43,940 --> 00:28:46,186
- I can't tell her.
- You can.

427
00:29:19,960 --> 00:29:21,660
I just saved
that boy's life in there,

428
00:29:21,661 --> 00:29:23,459
not to mention your arse.

429
00:29:23,460 --> 00:29:25,700
- Don't speak to me like I'm...
- What? My junior?

430
00:29:27,246 --> 00:29:29,245
Whatever's going on
between you and Helen,

431
00:29:29,247 --> 00:29:30,460
you need to stop it.

432
00:29:30,461 --> 00:29:33,499
What's coming next for her is
gonna be long and hard and messy,

433
00:29:33,500 --> 00:29:35,240
and you're not really up for that.

434
00:29:35,242 --> 00:29:37,459
- I care about Helen.
- Then leave her alone.

435
00:29:37,460 --> 00:29:40,164
I'm not your boyfriend any more,
Catherine, I'm your boss.

436
00:29:40,166 --> 00:29:41,833
Then fire me.

437
00:29:42,866 --> 00:29:44,233
But you might want to consider

438
00:29:44,235 --> 00:29:46,606
having at least one
decent surgeon around.

439
00:29:55,725 --> 00:29:57,453
His blood pressure is very low.

440
00:29:58,086 --> 00:29:59,660
Things are slowing down.

441
00:33:09,660 --> 00:33:11,640
Matt said that
you've been talking.

442
00:33:14,479 --> 00:33:16,479
Maybe you don't want to look at me.

443
00:33:19,547 --> 00:33:21,107
I wouldn't blame you.

444
00:33:35,546 --> 00:33:36,746
Hello.

445
00:33:39,460 --> 00:33:40,720
I'm here.

446
00:33:41,925 --> 00:33:43,346
I love you.

447
00:33:47,613 --> 00:33:51,240
Whatever you need to say,
I'm... I'm here to listen.

448
00:33:53,320 --> 00:33:54,660
I'm sorry.

449
00:33:58,279 --> 00:33:59,499
Me, too.

450
00:34:32,800 --> 00:34:34,312
Do you need me for something?

451
00:34:42,479 --> 00:34:44,105
I couldn't do what you just did.

452
00:34:48,053 --> 00:34:51,120
Everyone thinks it's about
the heroics and the saves, but...

453
00:34:53,306 --> 00:34:55,413
..this is what it means
to be a doctor.

454
00:34:55,733 --> 00:34:56,953
For me.

455
00:34:57,453 --> 00:34:59,313
You'll find out
what it means for you.

456
00:35:02,160 --> 00:35:04,307
I don't think
I'm cut out for paediatrics.

457
00:35:07,400 --> 00:35:08,919
What you got next?

458
00:35:10,460 --> 00:35:12,160
Er, orthopaedics.

459
00:35:12,866 --> 00:35:15,533
- People don't die of bad knees very often, do they?
- Hm.

460
00:35:19,493 --> 00:35:20,867
Are you on today?

461
00:35:35,319 --> 00:35:36,719
Yep. Come in!

462
00:35:41,746 --> 00:35:43,240
Have you been here all night?

463
00:35:44,673 --> 00:35:46,460
I can't do this any more.

464
00:36:07,793 --> 00:36:09,753
- Catherine, is it?
- Yes.

465
00:36:10,526 --> 00:36:11,752
Great.

466
00:36:12,053 --> 00:36:15,213
Myofascial release therapy
is a massage technique

467
00:36:15,215 --> 00:36:18,173
that breaks down the scar tissue
on your perineum

468
00:36:18,175 --> 00:36:19,604
caused by birth trauma,

469
00:36:19,606 --> 00:36:21,819
releasing the tension
in the web of muscles

470
00:36:21,820 --> 00:36:25,459
that holds your vagina
and other pelvic organs.

471
00:36:25,460 --> 00:36:26,846
This picture...

472
00:36:26,848 --> 00:36:29,266
I know where everything is,
I'm a surgeon.

473
00:36:29,268 --> 00:36:31,213
I just want to be able
to have sex again.

474
00:36:31,600 --> 00:36:35,086
OK. Why don't you just take
everything on your lower half off

475
00:36:35,088 --> 00:36:37,166
and hop up so I can take a look?

476
00:36:38,460 --> 00:36:40,733
I'll just warm the jelly up for you.

477
00:36:42,306 --> 00:36:45,305
Now, it can be quite
an intense sensation,

478
00:36:45,307 --> 00:36:46,846
so if you do need
a break at any point,

479
00:36:46,848 --> 00:36:48,920
- just tell me to stop.
- I'll be fine, thank you.

480
00:36:49,872 --> 00:36:51,946
OK. Here we go, then.

481
00:36:54,420 --> 00:36:55,653
Oh.

482
00:37:01,460 --> 00:37:02,686
Ah.

483
00:37:03,446 --> 00:37:04,666
Ow.

484
00:37:07,705 --> 00:37:09,179
Ow, ow.

485
00:37:13,673 --> 00:37:16,620
Aah!

486
00:37:16,626 --> 00:37:17,945
Ohh!

487
00:37:17,947 --> 00:37:21,740
- Are you OK?
- Erm, fine. Never better.

488
00:37:34,300 --> 00:37:36,360
Well done. When you're ready,

489
00:37:36,362 --> 00:37:38,362
swing your legs round
and stand up for me.

490
00:37:39,073 --> 00:37:41,459
I will step outside

491
00:37:41,460 --> 00:37:43,733
so you can get yourself
back together.

492
00:37:51,613 --> 00:37:52,906
You OK?

493
00:37:54,053 --> 00:37:55,286
Erm...

494
00:37:56,593 --> 00:37:57,833
Sorry, I...

495
00:37:59,466 --> 00:38:00,906
It just feels good...

496
00:38:04,860 --> 00:38:06,860
I feel like I'm in my body again.

497
00:38:08,553 --> 00:38:11,413
Good. You're OK.

498
00:38:11,893 --> 00:38:14,546
- Do you want a glass of water?
- Mm-hm.

499
00:38:33,139 --> 00:38:34,593
I can't let you take her.

500
00:38:35,140 --> 00:38:38,220
I appreciate
what a generous offer it is.

501
00:38:38,222 --> 00:38:40,024
You and Brigitta are great parents,

502
00:38:40,026 --> 00:38:42,293
and Sweden sounds like
a wonderful place to grow up,

503
00:38:42,295 --> 00:38:45,295
but I can't do it.
My body won't let me.

504
00:38:46,620 --> 00:38:49,106
So are you gonna change jobs?

505
00:38:49,713 --> 00:38:51,033
I don't know.

506
00:38:51,653 --> 00:38:53,751
I'm gonna take it one day at a time

507
00:38:53,753 --> 00:38:55,459
for a little while longer,
I suppose.

508
00:38:56,020 --> 00:38:58,580
Yeah. Not sure that's good enough.

509
00:38:59,460 --> 00:39:00,993
It's going to have to be.

510
00:39:03,460 --> 00:39:06,060
I'll come by the flat later
and see her?

511
00:39:06,460 --> 00:39:07,980
Maybe we can talk some more.

512
00:39:08,879 --> 00:39:10,879
I'm sure Elis would love to see you.

513
00:39:13,140 --> 00:39:15,140
There's not much
more to say, is there?

514
00:39:16,607 --> 00:39:18,180
This... This, erm...

515
00:39:18,886 --> 00:39:20,873
This arrangement that we have,

516
00:39:21,380 --> 00:39:22,833
it's not sustainable.

517
00:39:29,027 --> 00:39:31,706
- It's post-natal depression.
- Is it?

518
00:39:31,940 --> 00:39:34,066
Cos whatever it is,

519
00:39:34,068 --> 00:39:35,698
I need to find a way
to work through it.

520
00:39:35,700 --> 00:39:37,459
Have you thought it might be PTSD?

521
00:39:37,460 --> 00:39:39,459
Would it make you feel better
to give it a label?

522
00:39:39,460 --> 00:39:41,459
You're a doctor,
I'm just trying to...

523
00:39:41,460 --> 00:39:44,126
I'm so tired of people telling me
how I must be feeling.

524
00:39:45,773 --> 00:39:48,513
- What do you want me to do?
- Listen to me.

525
00:39:49,387 --> 00:39:50,587
I'm listening.

526
00:39:51,840 --> 00:39:55,459
I'm in no fit state
to take on another baby.

527
00:39:55,460 --> 00:39:57,459
Don't. Please don't
say it, Maz, please.

528
00:39:57,460 --> 00:39:59,693
This is the hardest thing
I have ever done.

529
00:40:00,953 --> 00:40:04,960
If I don't put myself first,
I'm going to end up like Guy.

530
00:40:09,200 --> 00:40:11,100
I mean, could they
give us more time?

531
00:40:14,460 --> 00:40:15,906
There's another family.

532
00:40:18,280 --> 00:40:21,499
That's why they're pushing us
so hard for a decision.

533
00:40:21,500 --> 00:40:23,720
'Work' by Charlotte Day Wilson

534
00:40:26,286 --> 00:40:27,513
I'm sorry.

535
00:40:44,613 --> 00:40:47,113
♪ It's gonna take a little time

536
00:40:49,806 --> 00:40:53,373
♪ But with you by my side

537
00:40:55,679 --> 00:40:58,353
♪ I won't let go

538
00:41:01,093 --> 00:41:04,093
♪ Till I've got what's mine

539
00:41:05,220 --> 00:41:10,631
♪ Ooh-ooh

540
00:41:10,633 --> 00:41:13,459
♪ Ooh-ooh... ♪

541
00:41:13,460 --> 00:41:16,006
- Hi.
- Hi.

542
00:41:16,008 --> 00:41:18,900
How is he? Sorry, how are you?

543
00:41:18,902 --> 00:41:20,901
How are you both?

544
00:41:21,372 --> 00:41:22,906
He, er...

545
00:41:23,300 --> 00:41:25,299
He's fit to assess,

546
00:41:25,613 --> 00:41:27,613
according to Psychiatry.

547
00:41:28,460 --> 00:41:30,459
I just wanted to say, er,

548
00:41:30,793 --> 00:41:32,793
thank you for yesterday morning...

549
00:41:33,679 --> 00:41:37,293
..for stepping up and
taking such good care of him.

550
00:41:38,273 --> 00:41:39,880
It was really impressive.

551
00:41:42,820 --> 00:41:44,460
I should go and be with him.

552
00:41:44,461 --> 00:41:46,459
Oh, you know, they
were saying yesterday,

553
00:41:46,460 --> 00:41:50,133
they're gonna need a locum
or someone to act up as consultant.

554
00:41:50,135 --> 00:41:53,946
Yeah. Yeah. He's gonna be off
indefinitely, so...

555
00:41:54,900 --> 00:41:56,644
Did they mention any names or...?

556
00:41:56,646 --> 00:41:59,459
Right, I think they assumed
the most qualified person

557
00:41:59,460 --> 00:42:00,980
wouldn't be up for it, so...

558
00:42:01,693 --> 00:42:03,879
you have to let them know
if you were.

559
00:42:08,926 --> 00:42:10,600
Thanks, Tessa.

560
00:42:11,159 --> 00:42:14,159
♪ It's gonna take a bit of work

561
00:42:16,326 --> 00:42:19,166
♪ Oh-oh, work

562
00:42:22,266 --> 00:42:25,266
♪ Now that you're here

563
00:42:27,719 --> 00:42:30,346
♪ Whoa-oh, work

564
00:42:33,366 --> 00:42:36,046
♪ It's gonna take a bit of work

565
00:42:38,560 --> 00:42:41,360
♪ Oh-oh, work

566
00:42:44,460 --> 00:42:47,460
♪ Now that you're here... ♪

567
00:42:48,460 --> 00:42:50,760
Mummy, catch the bubbles.

568
00:42:50,762 --> 00:42:52,762
♪ Oh-oh, work... ♪

569
00:43:01,326 --> 00:43:03,460
Er... Fast asleep.

570
00:43:09,973 --> 00:43:11,273
Are you sure?

571
00:43:12,173 --> 00:43:13,373
Yes.

572
00:43:17,013 --> 00:43:20,006
I need to, erm... check dates.

573
00:43:20,008 --> 00:43:23,340
I don't know when I can
get back over here again.

574
00:43:26,859 --> 00:43:28,379
I don't wanna leave her.

575
00:43:29,473 --> 00:43:31,593
There has to be a
better way to work this.

576
00:43:33,047 --> 00:43:35,520
- Can you move to Sweden?
- No, I can't.

577
00:43:36,947 --> 00:43:38,147
Well...

578
00:43:39,753 --> 00:43:42,786
..there has to be some way
to help you to...

579
00:43:43,413 --> 00:43:46,793
- I... I don't know.
- Me neither.

580
00:43:47,713 --> 00:43:49,459
There must be a better solution.

581
00:43:49,460 --> 00:43:51,260
'Like A Hunger' by Wilma Archer

582
00:43:51,262 --> 00:43:53,261
♪ I can't wait

583
00:43:53,273 --> 00:43:55,272
♪ Any longer

584
00:43:55,274 --> 00:43:57,274
♪ For me to feel your body

585
00:44:00,346 --> 00:44:02,346
♪ Am I going insane?

586
00:44:03,093 --> 00:44:05,092
♪ It's like a hunger

587
00:44:05,094 --> 00:44:07,094
♪ It leaves your body

588
00:44:10,199 --> 00:44:13,558
♪ I can't wait
Come on over now, baby

589
00:44:13,560 --> 00:44:15,459
♪ The touch is driving me crazy

590
00:44:15,460 --> 00:44:16,800
♪ I can't wait... ♪

591
00:44:19,467 --> 00:44:21,106
When do you start?

592
00:44:21,108 --> 00:44:24,458
Erm... I will be acting up
as consultant

593
00:44:24,460 --> 00:44:25,660
as soon as I'm ready to come back.

594
00:44:25,661 --> 00:44:27,659
So, I don't know, maybe next week.

595
00:44:27,660 --> 00:44:29,744
A junior doctor no more.
You've made it.

596
00:44:29,746 --> 00:44:32,480
Congratulations. Well deserved.

597
00:44:33,806 --> 00:44:37,573
Slightly dark circumstances,
but... thanks.

598
00:44:38,873 --> 00:44:40,393
When are you coming back?

599
00:44:41,606 --> 00:44:43,818
- I dunno.
- Give it a while. I might have to wait

600
00:44:43,820 --> 00:44:46,459
till Professor Thomas dies,
and I don't want to be the last.

601
00:44:46,460 --> 00:44:48,684
- I'll keep an eye on the obituaries.
- Mm.

602
00:44:48,686 --> 00:44:51,911
And all thoughts on alternative
surgical specialties welcome.

603
00:44:51,913 --> 00:44:54,459
- Boobs.
- Very mature.

604
00:44:54,460 --> 00:44:56,703
No, breast surgery.
They have these fellowships.

605
00:44:56,705 --> 00:44:58,704
Because women do women's bits?

606
00:44:58,706 --> 00:45:01,946
No, because it's all elective,
so the hours are decent.

607
00:45:03,213 --> 00:45:06,878
Take as much time as
you need, though, Maryam.

608
00:45:06,880 --> 00:45:08,526
It's really important.

609
00:45:10,200 --> 00:45:13,764
- Oh, er... how was the fanny witch?
- Oh, yeah.

610
00:45:13,766 --> 00:45:17,333
Well, her power is real,

611
00:45:17,793 --> 00:45:19,793
so, regrettably,
we'll have to burn her.

612
00:45:20,460 --> 00:45:22,659
Does this mean
you can have sex again?

613
00:45:22,953 --> 00:45:25,458
Yeah. Hypothetically.

614
00:45:25,460 --> 00:45:28,459
- Oh...
- Make good choices.

615
00:45:28,460 --> 00:45:29,660
Mm-hm.

616
00:45:30,460 --> 00:45:32,459
Do boobs pay well enough
to cover childcare?

617
00:45:32,460 --> 00:45:36,738
You just paid someone
like 50 quid to get fingered.

618
00:45:36,740 --> 00:45:39,380
And she said I still need
three more sessions, so...

619
00:45:42,326 --> 00:45:43,873
What?

620
00:45:46,660 --> 00:45:48,459
Oh, wow.

621
00:45:48,460 --> 00:45:50,680
You and vaginas, honestly.

622
00:45:52,759 --> 00:45:54,759
♪ The touch is driving me crazy

623
00:45:57,966 --> 00:45:59,460
♪ Am I going insane?

624
00:45:59,461 --> 00:46:01,644
♪ Do I need to be loved? Yeah

625
00:46:01,646 --> 00:46:04,373
♪ Would I need you?
I can't wait

626
00:46:07,820 --> 00:46:09,460
♪ I can't wait

627
00:46:10,220 --> 00:46:11,900
♪ I can't wait

628
00:46:14,773 --> 00:46:16,360
♪ Am I going insane?

629
00:46:19,806 --> 00:46:21,393
♪ I can't wait

630
00:46:24,620 --> 00:46:26,013
♪ Am I going insane? ♪