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(KEYBOARD CLICKING)
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CLARE: Dear Sugar,
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I've never written a fan letter before,
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but I read your advice column religiously.
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{an8}Probably because given the state of my life,
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{an8}I could use some advice.
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♪ Where they at? Where they at?
Where they at? Where they at? ♪
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♪ Where they at? Where they at?
Where they at? Come on now ♪
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♪ If you wanna go and take a ride with me ♪
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- (CLARE SINGING ALONG)
- ♪ We three-wheeling
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in the fo' with the gold D's ♪
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♪ Oh, why do I live this way? ♪
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- CLARE: ♪ Hey, must be the money ♪
- ♪ Hey, must be the money ♪
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- (CLARE SINGING ALONG)
- ♪ If you wanna go and get high with me ♪
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- (CLARE SINGING ALONG)
- ♪ Smoke an L
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in the back of the Benz-E... ♪
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(CLARE HUMMING)
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♪ Oh, must be the money ♪
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ELLEN: Which house is it again, dear?
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- Uh.
- Who can't find their way home?
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Oh, that's it. That's the one,
that's right there.
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Great job. (CONTINUES SINGING)
♪ with an attitude ♪
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You know, thank you so much,
and happy retirement.
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Oh, it's locked.
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- Sorry.
- (LOCKS CLICK OPEN, DOOR BEEPING)
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Thank you.
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Congratulations.
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♪ Ooh, must be the money ♪
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Shhh.
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(CAR DRIVING AWAY)
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Noo.
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(KNOCKS SOFTLY)
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(DISTANT DOG BARKING)
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Yes!
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(GRUNTING)
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(BAG THUDDING)
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(SING-SONG) Must be the money!
It's gotta be the money.
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- (THUDS)
- (GROANS) Fuck!
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- (GROANING)
- Don't you fucking move!
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Wha... Oh, my God. Danny, it's just me.
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- (FOOTSTEPS THUDDING UPSTAIRS)
- Shhh.
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Jesus, Clare! Shit, you had me...
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I was all about to call the cops!
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CLARE: Why?
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DANNY: What are you doing?
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What are you wearing?
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CLARE: Oh, I borrowed it.
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It was, um... It's Hawaiian themed.
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I didn't have my keys, and then I...
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The window was...
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- And it went so... late.
- You're drunk.
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Is there chicken? 'Cause it
smells chicken-y in here.
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Yeah, we had chicken. Six hours ago.
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Ugh. Ugh.
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Mmm. Mm.
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Aah.
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Ah.
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There were toasts and speeches
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and, ugh, it's all so tragic, you know?
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It's like 43 years of work
just whittled down
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to a tray of bacon-wrapped pineapple skewers
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and Retire-Mints. Get it?
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RAE: Mom?
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Oh, hey! Frankie, sweetie.
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- Rae.
- Hey, hon. You wan... You want some mints?
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No. No one wants mints. Ever.
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(SCOFFS)
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So there's no chicken?
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We ate all the fucking chicken, Clare.
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Why are you here?
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Whoa! Okay.
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Why is everyone being such assholes?
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What's going on?
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Are you... back?
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Wha... Huh?
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RAE: Well, I thought that you
weren't supposed to be here...
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or something.
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Oh.
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(MOANING)
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Why am I eating this?
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Because you literally took the wheel
when we drove past...
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Well, you shouldn't have let me.
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Shouldn't have let me.
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You cannot tell Frankie.
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It's Rae.
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I hate calling her that.
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But she's right, though,
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because they are horrible to gay people.
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Queer people. Sorry.
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But it isn't just their homophobia.
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It's... it's... Really, it's, like,
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look here, it's all this crap
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that's just gonna be floating
on the planet forever.
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You know, wedged into the
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nostril of some innocent turtle.
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But... (MOANS)
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...the butter and the pickles, it's just...
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Fucckk!
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- And those damn waffle fries.
- Ooh.
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So good.
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Yeah. It's what makes it all so hard.
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Everything good turns out to be bad.
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(CHUCKLES)
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You're welcome.
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You kicked me out. You want a "thank you"?
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You do realize you're not the victim?
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Well, neither are you, Danny.
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- That's great.
- CLARE: Neither are you!
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- All right. Absolutely great.
- Yeah, great, great. Thank you!
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(DRINK SPLASHES)
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(PENSIVE MUSIC PLAYING)
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My life is a mess, Sugar.
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My daughter hates me.
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My husband kicked me out a few nights ago,
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and he thinks I'm crashing on
my best friend's couch,
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but I'm not.
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I'm sitting on her stoop
waiting for an Uber... Pool.
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♪
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Wondering how the hell
my life ended up here,
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looking for comfort
from a woman I don't even know.
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And also wondering,
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has anyone ever written in
to offer comfort to you?
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Then I told my mom,
"Bitch, college is for pussies.
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All that money to graduate for what?"
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- (BOY CONTINUES TALKING)
- CLARE: I read your response
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in this week's column,
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and one sentence
buried deep within your advice
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compelled me to write.
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It was a sentence about
your sister and her cancer.
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MALE PASSENGER: I just paid
for a blow job in Bit coin.
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CLARE: I'm sorry that she died
too young and too soon.
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Oh, wait. This is good.
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Wait. Stop, stop, stop.
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MALE PASSENGER: Cool pad.
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(DEVICE BEEPS)
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CLARE: But that's the thing about grief,
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you can't cry it away or eat it away
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or punch it away.
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It's just... there,
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and you have to survive it.
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You have to endure it.
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You have to live with it,
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which is the hardest thing in the world.
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(KEYBOARD CLICKING)
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I was 22 when my mother was diagnosed.
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FRANKIE: Everyone, ready?
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- Yes.
- YOUNG LUCAS: Yes.
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Clare Marie Pierce
is an award-winning essay writer
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and soon-to-be college graduate with a 4.0,
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who is committed to summiting
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- Machu Picchu over spring break!
- Mexico!
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Come on out, Clare!
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- (BOTH CHEERING)
- (DOG BARKING)
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And now, a high school senior
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who cannot get a tattoo until he graduates,
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no matter how compelling his argument,
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- and who's...
- Is still a virgin!
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YOUNG LUCAS: Stop saying that.
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...worn the same T-shirt
for four days running
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and appears to have
no intention of taking it off!
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- Get out here, Lucas!
- YOUNG CLARE: Lucas!
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(BOTH CHEERING)
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Yeah.
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Are we ever gonna be too old for this?
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We'll be doing this when I'm 80.
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- YOUNG CLARE: Merry Christmas.
- Merry Christmas.
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CLARE: And lately, I keep playing our last
Christmas together
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- over and over in my mind.
- (KEYBOARD CLICKING)
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FRANKIE: Me first.
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Me first.
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I get to go first.
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Ooh.
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YOUNG LUCAS: Oh, no way!
Is it vintage or something?
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I knew you wanted one.
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It was your father's.
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He sent it?
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I refurbished it.
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- (TOOL CLATTERS)
- Lucas, don't be a little shit.
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Somebody gives you something, you take it.
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You take it.
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I'm not the one who's ever
wanted anything from him.
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It's okay. He doesn't have to.
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All right, you go ahead, honey.
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Jess said that you needed one.
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And I thought that it would
be great for New York.
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Do you like it?
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Yeah, I love it.
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Uh... I do. I... I love it.
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(MOCKINGLY) You do? You love it?
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Hey.
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Uh, it's... It's long
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and subs... substantial.
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I thought it was unique.
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I just wonder, does it...
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Does it make more sense to get black?
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Because it's dirty in New York,
and it'll probably last longer.
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And it's... it's probably easy to exchange.
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Sure. Sure. You should have
what you want, honey.
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CLARE: I hope, in your sister's death,
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you'll be able
to do something that I haven't.
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- (KEYBOARD CLICKING)
- Create something of her life.
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Make it beautiful.
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And then, please, tell me how you did it.
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Love, Clare.
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♪
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(CLARE SIGHING)
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- (CLARE SIGHING)
- (RESIDENTS INDISTINCT CHATTERS)
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CLARE: Uh, that can come down.
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SHAN: You were so wasted last night.
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How are you even walking this morning?
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CLARE: I don't know, Shan.
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Somehow I stagger on,
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despite fielding the vitriol
of an entitled millennial.
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SHAN: I mean, literally walking.
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When you fell off the stage
after Me and Bobby McGee,
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I thought you, like,
broke a hip... or something.
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Would you just take the fucking
sign down, Shan? Thank you.
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Oh, Bev's daughter wanted you
to come by. Room 19.
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She told me it was urgent.
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- When?
- Like, an hour ago.
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(CLARE SCOFFS)
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(CLARE SIGHS) Dammit.
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SHAN: And I'm a Zoomer.
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CLARE (SOFTLY): Morning.
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CLARE: Krystal, I'm so sorry
to keep you waiting.
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I just got your message.
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- Did you sleep in here last night?
- Uh...
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My mom said the admissions lady
slept here last night.
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I know that you get lonely sometimes.
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And even though you know
that I can't sleep in here,
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I will always keep you company
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and make sure you're feeling cozy
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and all tucked in, right?
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- Right?
- Mmm.
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(WHISPERING) It's the Alzheimer's.
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- MAN: There you go.
- Thank you.
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Gentleman. Hm.
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- What?
- Wow.
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CLARE: Oh, my God!
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Sam! What're you doing here?
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- SAM: Oh, it's been...
- CLARE: Been forever! Shit!
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- You look great!
- Wha... Oh.
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- Wait, when was the last time...
- I don't know!
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Was it, uh, Bread Loaf?
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Uh, uh, City Lights. Hannah's reading.
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Oh, fuck! Yeah.
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Aah. Wait, are you still at,
uh, uh, The Believer?
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No. They folded in March.
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But I left for The Mantros years ago.
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Oh, I love The Mantros.
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Essays... Dear Sugar...
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I know! I got your fan letter last night!
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You wrote into Dear Sugar.
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I'm Sugar.
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I'll explain. Do you want to go somewhere?
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Do you still not drive?
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An advice column is easy clicks.
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But who... who wants to get advice
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- from some middle-aged White dude?
- I've literally been reading
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this column for the last three months,
and it's fucking you?
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- How can it be you?
- I'm detecting some disdain here.
262
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Well, you're pretending to be a... a woman?
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- I know. I know!
- What?
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I am living a lie.
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But then... you wrote in.
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And I saw your name
and I remembered your writing
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and the essay... That fucking essay.
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And I realized that this woman
that I'm pretending to be,
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you know, working class,
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pulled herself up by her bootstraps,
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- kinda disheveled...
- Okay.
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- She's literally you!
- Okay. Okay.
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- Okay, just take a left at Elm.
- You should be
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the one doing this.
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Doing what?
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- Being Sugar!
- What? No.
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I mean, it doesn't pay.
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And... And, you know,
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there's no credit 'cause it's anonymous.
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But I would be your point.
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And all you have to do is answer,
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like, one letter a week and...
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Sam, stop it.
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I'm not giving anybody advice.
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My life is a fucking shit show!
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And I...
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I'm not a writer!
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You're one of the best writers I know.
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You didn't get a book deal
off of that essay for nothing.
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Doesn't count if you don't write the book.
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Everything counts, Sugar.
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Don't call me that!
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I'm sorry about your sister.
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Clare, I don't have
a fucking sister. I made it up.
295
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You made up someone having fucking cancer?
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Take a right.
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SAM: Yes, I made it all up!
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- (CLARE SCOFFS)
- SAM: This is why I need you!
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Oh, you are the worst, Sam!
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I can't believe I almost ever
slept with you. Pull over!
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- SAM: What are you doing?
- CLARE: I'm... I'm getting out.
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Wait, what do you mean, "almost"?
We never slept together? Why not?
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'Cause you're an asshole.
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Oh, so you're done with me now? That's it?
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I have therapy. Thank you for the ride.
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- What? You're an asshole!
- Okay, fine.
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SAM: No, no, no, no. Here. Wait. I...
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I printed out the letters
that I didn't answer
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because I can't... (MUMBLES)
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Just... read 'em.
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And if you want, just answer one.
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(CLARE LAUGHS)
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Everyone's lives are a fucking shit show!
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People, they need help.
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You said it yourself,
"Create something of her life.
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Make it beautiful."
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EMPLOYEE: Let me see if I can help you.
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Did you happen to save the receipt?
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I... did not save the receipt.
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It was final sale.
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EMPLOYEE: I... I can try to look it up.
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FRANKIE: I appreciate that.
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EMPLOYEE: I may need to talk
to my supervisor.
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- Did it work out?
- Mm-hmm.
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- It's okay?
- It's okay.
326
00:15:52,159 --> 00:15:53,159
(ELEVATOR BELL DINGS)
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You're late.
328
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I'm actually two minutes early
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'cause she's always five minutes late, so.
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- (PHONE DINGS)
- CLARE: (SOFTLY) Now,
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make sure that's off.
332
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Who is it?
333
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- Hmm?
- DANNY: (SCOFFS) Lucas again?
334
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MEL: I'm glad you both are
choosing to be here today.
335
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I know, in the past, that hasn't
always been the case.
336
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This feels like a particularly
hard moment in your marriage.
337
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I think a lot has been said.
338
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And maybe... a lot hasn't been said.
339
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Yeah. No, um, I... I feel that same way.
340
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Honestly, it's, um...
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Uh...
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Yeah.
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Jung once said,
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"I am not what has happened to me.
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I am what I choose to become."
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Does that bring up anything for you, Clare?
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No.
348
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How long am I supposed
to stay out of my own home?
349
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Well, how long do you think you
need to stay out of your home?
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What are we doing?
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What is this space supposed to accomplish?
352
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Or is it just, like,
one long, torturous experiment
353
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to slowly turn my own daughter against me?
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It was her college fund!
355
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Part of. That he will pay back!
356
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You just gave it away
without even talking to me!
357
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What? You just thought I wouldn't notice?
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CLARE: What did you want me to fucking do?
359
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Leave him homeless?
360
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It was our childhood home!
361
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It's my mother's house!
362
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He lives there! And it was under water.
363
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Yeah, because he fucked up.
364
00:17:38,640 --> 00:17:39,682
Yeah, he fucks up all the time!
365
00:17:39,683 --> 00:17:41,059
Yeah, he does fuck up all the time and...
366
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Yeah, fine, fine!
But family takes care of family.
367
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I'm it for him. What would you do?
368
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Would you leave me on the fucking street?
369
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Oh! (SCOFFS)
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MEL: Clare, have you ever heard
of the phrase
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"financial infidelity"?
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Oh, my God.
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MEL: It can be as destabilizing
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and damaging as sexual
infidelity. Even more so.
375
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Yeah. Okay. That's not even
in the same ballpark,
376
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- 'cause there's no betrayal here.
- Right.
377
00:18:04,333 --> 00:18:06,250
- I needed to take care of my brother.
- (DANNY SCOFFS)
378
00:18:06,251 --> 00:18:08,544
Yeah, when you do something wrong, it's...
It's different rules.
379
00:18:08,545 --> 00:18:09,837
This is not about rules.
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Not everybody comes from
where you come from,
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- or just... or, you know,
- DANNY: Jesus, this.
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Starts life with an even playing field.
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I'm a Black man in America. I know people
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don't come from
an equal playing field, Clare.
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00:18:18,806 --> 00:18:20,848
That's not what I mean.
I'm talking about being rich!
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- I grew up middle class.
- Yeah, that's rich.
387
00:18:22,768 --> 00:18:25,686
What do you want me to say?
My brother's a fuck-up. I'm a fuck-up.
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Okay, I'm an awful person.
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I'm awful. I'm horrible. That's it.
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00:18:28,690 --> 00:18:30,818
I don't know what to say.
I don't know what to fucking say.
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00:18:31,485 --> 00:18:33,152
Let's just start
with how you're feeling, hm?
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I am feeling hungry. I am feeling tired.
393
00:18:37,074 --> 00:18:39,367
I'm feeling like a shell of a person.
394
00:18:39,368 --> 00:18:42,287
- Like I'm staring into an abyss...
- I get it.
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I mean, I'm not there yet,
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00:18:46,166 --> 00:18:47,708
but I think it's really common
397
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for women your age to feel this way.
398
00:18:49,545 --> 00:18:50,878
You've spoken before
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about your insecurities
with getting older and...
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00:18:53,048 --> 00:18:55,299
I thought we were talking
about me giving money to my brother.
401
00:18:55,300 --> 00:18:56,592
And with the age gap
402
00:18:56,593 --> 00:18:58,094
- between you and Danny...
- It's not that big.
403
00:18:58,095 --> 00:19:01,514
MEL: And the way our society
treats women over 50 as irrelevant...
404
00:19:01,515 --> 00:19:03,224
- I'm 49!
- You'll be 50 in a month.
405
00:19:03,225 --> 00:19:06,769
Women over 50 are treated
as if they are barely sexual beings.
406
00:19:06,770 --> 00:19:11,274
Their beauty is fading, or at least
our conventional ideas of beauty.
407
00:19:11,275 --> 00:19:13,234
Because of that, their power wanes.
408
00:19:13,235 --> 00:19:17,573
Their wants and desires are
considered as an afterthought.
409
00:19:18,407 --> 00:19:19,408
Okay.
410
00:19:24,204 --> 00:19:25,205
(KEYS JINGLE)
411
00:19:25,998 --> 00:19:27,916
(OFFICE CROWD CHATTERING)
412
00:19:34,590 --> 00:19:35,966
(ELEVATOR WHIRLING)
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00:19:38,927 --> 00:19:39,927
(ELEVATOR BELL DINGING)
414
00:19:43,015 --> 00:19:44,016
- Oh.
- (DOOR CLOSES)
415
00:19:49,855 --> 00:19:51,857
(MUFFLED CONVERSATION)
416
00:20:01,700 --> 00:20:04,202
(DANNY SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY)
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♪
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- (BAR MUSIC PLAYING)
- (PATRONS LAUGHING, CHATTERING)
419
00:20:10,209 --> 00:20:11,626
I mean, it's therapy!
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00:20:11,627 --> 00:20:12,877
It's not office hours.
421
00:20:12,878 --> 00:20:14,921
You don't stick around after class!
422
00:20:14,922 --> 00:20:18,591
You know, that's like a cesspool
full of bacteria, right?
423
00:20:18,592 --> 00:20:21,762
Okay, why don't you ask your hot
dishwasher to clean it out?
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00:20:22,387 --> 00:20:24,681
Oh, well, maybe I will.
425
00:20:26,225 --> 00:20:27,266
- Hello.
- MACARIO: There you go.
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00:20:27,267 --> 00:20:28,351
Oh, my God!
427
00:20:28,352 --> 00:20:31,020
AMY: Thank you. (LAUGHING)
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00:20:31,021 --> 00:20:32,313
Jesus Christ, Amy!
429
00:20:32,314 --> 00:20:34,399
(AMY SNICKERING)
430
00:20:34,900 --> 00:20:36,317
I'm naughty!
431
00:20:36,318 --> 00:20:38,152
Uh, are they having sex?
432
00:20:38,153 --> 00:20:39,821
They... Do they wanna have sex?
433
00:20:40,530 --> 00:20:44,992
Is couple's therapy some,
you know, sick psycho foreplay
434
00:20:44,993 --> 00:20:46,410
where they're just telepathically
435
00:20:46,411 --> 00:20:48,871
jerking each other off in front of me?
436
00:20:48,872 --> 00:20:52,375
And... is my insurance paying for it?
437
00:20:52,376 --> 00:20:53,542
AMY: Oh, my God!
438
00:20:53,543 --> 00:20:55,419
Maybe I should be a couple's therapist.
439
00:20:55,420 --> 00:20:57,129
CLARE: I mean, I'm the one who found her!
440
00:20:57,130 --> 00:20:58,381
He didn't even wanna go!
441
00:20:58,382 --> 00:20:59,632
And now he's like, what... He's what?
442
00:20:59,633 --> 00:21:01,884
He's, like, fucking some woman
443
00:21:01,885 --> 00:21:03,761
who decorates her office with
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00:21:03,762 --> 00:21:06,931
gnomes grabbing their
own weird stone vaginas?
445
00:21:06,932 --> 00:21:09,141
Okay. Danny loves you.
446
00:21:09,142 --> 00:21:13,855
He's not fucking his therapist
or any stone, uh, vaginas, okay?
447
00:21:15,399 --> 00:21:17,693
She called me barely a woman.
448
00:21:20,570 --> 00:21:21,780
Am I barely a woman?
449
00:21:22,197 --> 00:21:24,031
I mean, she probably said it to get laid.
450
00:21:24,032 --> 00:21:26,827
- Thanks, Amy.
- AMY: Hi there.
451
00:21:27,911 --> 00:21:30,205
(CAR ENGINE)
452
00:21:31,415 --> 00:21:32,958
(CAR BREAKS SQUEAKING)
453
00:21:35,127 --> 00:21:36,128
Thanks.
454
00:21:38,922 --> 00:21:39,922
(CAR DOOR CLOSES)
455
00:21:50,267 --> 00:21:51,268
Hey.
456
00:21:52,644 --> 00:21:53,645
Hey.
457
00:22:05,574 --> 00:22:08,909
- (SOFTLY) Hey.
- ("CANNONBALL" BY THE BREEDERS PLAYING)
458
00:22:08,910 --> 00:22:11,038
(MOANING)
459
00:22:15,417 --> 00:22:19,463
♪ Spitting in a wishing well ♪
460
00:22:19,963 --> 00:22:22,006
♪ Blown to hell, crash ♪
461
00:22:22,007 --> 00:22:25,427
(YOUNG CLARE MOANING)
462
00:22:27,929 --> 00:22:32,017
♪ I know you're a real cuckoo ♪
463
00:22:33,977 --> 00:22:37,063
- (YOUNG CLARE EXHALES SHARPLY)
- (RUMBLING)
464
00:22:37,064 --> 00:22:40,566
- (CLARE GRUNTING) Okay.
- ZACH: I can't get it in.
465
00:22:40,567 --> 00:22:42,944
CLARE: No, it's because, uh...
It's... it's... The angle is wrong
466
00:22:44,279 --> 00:22:46,531
- Okay, yeah, maybe we... Yeah, let's go.
- Yeah.
467
00:22:47,240 --> 00:22:48,449
(SQUISHING)
468
00:22:48,450 --> 00:22:51,494
What the f... Wait,
what the fuck is happening?
469
00:22:51,495 --> 00:22:53,162
Wait, is this a waterbed?
470
00:22:53,163 --> 00:22:55,414
Oh, my God! (LAUGHING) Oh, my God.
471
00:22:55,415 --> 00:22:57,750
Am I in 1979?
472
00:22:57,751 --> 00:23:01,754
Am I in a... Am I trapped
in a fucking Steely Dan song?
473
00:23:01,755 --> 00:23:03,799
Oh, my God.
474
00:23:04,674 --> 00:23:07,009
- Oh, my God. Oh, my God.
- What?
475
00:23:07,010 --> 00:23:09,678
(CLARE LAUGHING AND CRYING)
476
00:23:09,679 --> 00:23:10,847
Oh.
477
00:23:12,099 --> 00:23:14,392
- Oh, my God.
- ZACH: Are you okay?
478
00:23:14,393 --> 00:23:17,269
(CLARE CRYING)
479
00:23:17,270 --> 00:23:20,232
I am not okay.
480
00:23:21,858 --> 00:23:23,068
Wait, are you married?
481
00:23:23,735 --> 00:23:26,196
- What the...
- The ring on your finger?
482
00:23:27,114 --> 00:23:28,364
Are you gonna fucking judge me?
483
00:23:28,365 --> 00:23:30,199
You have a fucking waterbed!
484
00:23:30,200 --> 00:23:31,284
So?
485
00:23:34,037 --> 00:23:35,163
(CLARE EXHALES SHARPLY)
486
00:23:35,997 --> 00:23:37,749
ZACH: And I like Steely Dan.
487
00:23:38,834 --> 00:23:40,460
Well, they're a great band.
488
00:23:41,336 --> 00:23:43,255
- (GATE MOTOR)
- (DISTANT DOG BARKING)
489
00:23:51,346 --> 00:23:52,931
(PHONE CHIMES)
490
00:24:06,278 --> 00:24:07,486
♪
491
00:24:07,487 --> 00:24:09,281
(BUS ENGINE)
492
00:24:11,992 --> 00:24:13,493
(DEEP BREATH)
493
00:24:28,925 --> 00:24:30,217
WOMAN: Dear Sugar,
494
00:24:30,218 --> 00:24:32,596
I'm 22, and my question is short.
495
00:24:33,638 --> 00:24:35,389
What would you tell your 20-something self
496
00:24:35,390 --> 00:24:36,850
if you could talk to her now?
497
00:24:37,934 --> 00:24:39,811
Love, Seeking Wisdom.
498
00:24:42,022 --> 00:24:45,025
♪
499
00:24:47,235 --> 00:24:48,278
CLARE: Dear...
500
00:24:52,240 --> 00:24:53,241
Dear...
501
00:24:57,871 --> 00:24:59,664
Dear Seeking Wisdom.
502
00:25:00,749 --> 00:25:03,543
What would I tell my 22-year-old self?
503
00:25:05,086 --> 00:25:07,422
I'd say, stop worrying whether you're fat.
504
00:25:08,131 --> 00:25:09,966
Feed yourself, literally.
505
00:25:11,134 --> 00:25:12,384
The people worthy of your love...
506
00:25:12,385 --> 00:25:13,469
You look happy.
507
00:25:13,470 --> 00:25:15,305
CLARE: ...will love you more for this.
508
00:25:20,101 --> 00:25:24,898
I'd also say that most things
will be okay eventually,
509
00:25:26,441 --> 00:25:27,692
but not everything.
510
00:25:33,365 --> 00:25:35,241
One afternoon in your 20s,
511
00:25:35,242 --> 00:25:36,867
when you've gotten yourself ridiculously
512
00:25:36,868 --> 00:25:38,577
tangled up with heroin,
513
00:25:38,578 --> 00:25:40,454
you'll be riding the bus and thinking
514
00:25:40,455 --> 00:25:42,457
what a worthless piece of shit you are.
515
00:25:43,875 --> 00:25:46,168
A little girl will
get on the bus with her mother,
516
00:25:46,169 --> 00:25:48,338
holding the strings of two purple balloons.
517
00:25:49,089 --> 00:25:50,673
She will offer you one of the balloons,
518
00:25:50,674 --> 00:25:52,049
but you won't take it
519
00:25:52,050 --> 00:25:54,385
because you believe
you no longer have a right
520
00:25:54,386 --> 00:25:56,721
to such tiny beautiful things.
521
00:26:01,560 --> 00:26:02,561
You're wrong.
522
00:26:05,647 --> 00:26:06,648
You do.
523
00:26:08,942 --> 00:26:13,487
EMPLOYEE: That's $127.62. I'm so sorry.
524
00:26:13,488 --> 00:26:16,073
CLARE: And someday, you'll look
back on that one Christmas,
525
00:26:16,074 --> 00:26:18,409
when your mother gave you
a mustard-yellow coat
526
00:26:18,410 --> 00:26:20,662
that she'd saved for months to buy.
527
00:26:22,747 --> 00:26:25,750
♪
528
00:26:29,337 --> 00:26:32,131
Don't hold it up and say it's longer than
you like your coats to be,
529
00:26:32,132 --> 00:26:36,094
and too puffy, and possibly even too warm.
530
00:26:38,054 --> 00:26:40,306
Because your mother
will be dead by spring...
531
00:26:40,307 --> 00:26:41,391
(DOOR OPENS)
532
00:26:42,559 --> 00:26:44,978
...and that coat will be the
last gift she ever gave you.
533
00:26:46,021 --> 00:26:47,021
RAE: Are you okay?
534
00:26:51,943 --> 00:26:53,320
I love you. (SNIFFLES)
535
00:26:54,821 --> 00:26:56,238
You know that, right?
536
00:26:56,239 --> 00:26:58,741
Ab... About the money,
it's... it's not gone.
537
00:26:58,742 --> 00:27:00,284
It's not about the money.
538
00:27:00,285 --> 00:27:01,369
Then what?
539
00:27:05,665 --> 00:27:06,958
Do you want me to bring that in?
540
00:27:13,173 --> 00:27:15,257
CLARE: And you will regret
the small thing you didn't say
541
00:27:15,258 --> 00:27:16,468
for the rest of your life.
542
00:27:17,385 --> 00:27:18,386
RAE: Have a good night.
543
00:27:20,560 --> 00:27:21,598
You too.
544
00:27:21,599 --> 00:27:23,058
When a gift is given,
545
00:27:23,642 --> 00:27:24,808
say "thank you".
546
00:27:24,809 --> 00:27:25,810
Mom?
547
00:27:32,359 --> 00:27:33,360
You dropped something.
548
00:27:34,736 --> 00:27:38,990
CLARE: When a gift is given,
say "thank you".
549
00:27:45,705 --> 00:27:48,249
When a gift... is given...
550
00:27:51,044 --> 00:27:52,211
(DOOR CLOSES)
551
00:27:52,212 --> 00:27:53,296
Thank you.
552
00:27:55,048 --> 00:27:58,120
sync and corrections by solfieri
www.MY-SUBS.com
553
00:27:58,468 --> 00:28:01,471
♪
554
00:28:02,931 --> 00:28:06,643
♪ I'm trying to tell you
something 'bout my life ♪
555
00:28:08,186 --> 00:28:12,564
♪ Maybe give me insight
between black and white ♪
556
00:28:12,565 --> 00:28:16,403
♪ And the best thing
that you ever done for me ♪
557
00:28:17,654 --> 00:28:21,323
♪ Is to help me
take my life less seriously ♪
558
00:28:21,324 --> 00:28:24,160
♪ It's only life after all ♪
559
00:28:27,539 --> 00:28:29,915
♪ I went to the doctor ♪
560
00:28:29,916 --> 00:28:32,334
♪ I went to the mountains ♪
561
00:28:32,335 --> 00:28:34,795
♪ I looked to the children ♪
562
00:28:34,796 --> 00:28:37,256
♪ I drank from the fountains ♪
563
00:28:37,257 --> 00:28:41,009
♪ There's more than one answer
to these questions ♪
564
00:28:41,010 --> 00:28:43,680
♪ Pointing me in a crooked line ♪
565
00:28:44,597 --> 00:28:48,308
♪ And the less I seek my source ♪
566
00:28:48,309 --> 00:28:52,647
♪ The closer I am to fine ♪
567
00:28:53,606 --> 00:28:57,777
♪ Closer I am to fine ♪
568
00:28:58,403 --> 00:29:03,408
♪ Closer I am to fine ♪