one day.
You'll never see me again.
That's right, Charlie, by life may be it for you, but it's sharing for me.
I'm special.
Mama's gonna feel real stupid when she finds out won't she.
One day, the whole world's know my name.
Don't you.
I,
what are.
Yeah.
Your twin diligent animals said foolishness.
It's just dance.
Mom.
Selfish is what it is with all the farm he gone.
I can't do every single to myself.
I help
it's the mice off and hold time and further.
Anything for me in the post today?
No
thera have taken control of France.
You can read it after supp Theona.
This can be the end of the war do, as I ask per you don't want to hear
about any more dead Germans tonight.
Supper is ready.
Daddy
bless us.
So Lord, and which we are to receive from Christ.
My pressure is per it feels as if it has been an eternity without you.
All we do is walk.
It seems, I never know if we'll get to where they say we are gone,
they have us true one boy on cubes.
So we don't notice the pains in our feet.
I find it most frightening at night in the trenches, the mortar shells are definite.
Many soldiers have gone mad with the fear.
Garnished from the gas has shown me things I won't soon and forget.
And thinking of giving has been my only reprieve.
I will always be proud to serve my country.
But one thing is for, has made clear is that I cannot wait to return
home and cannot laugh together.
I never wanna be away from you again to death's part, your love and husband.
I'll go to tomorrow, pick up more medicine,
which means I could stop have pictures.
Don't tell em, show all of the best dancers at the pictures
could be on the line of those girls.
One day.
I I'm good.
Huh?
I didn't wanna to hot water.
The money for his medicine is on the kitchen table.
Remember to cover your face.
Don't linger, close to anyone.
Papers are warning of an all lethal research.
It's like for bed sickness returns to.
Fews please.
Or Johnny pass somewhere in sunny, France of a girl by,
she looked loved to dance play.
So he loved
you.
Enjoy the picture
cigarette.
I'll go on.
I don't have the bug.
You like the movies?
I like dancing.
Oh, future tiller girl.
I can see it now.
I wish.
Why not?
You're pretty enough.
I'm kind of a husband.
I gather he's overseas, but my father's in firm, so I have to help at home.
I'm sorry to hear that.
You wanna come watch the second show?
Free admission.
I'm the projectionist
I need to get going.
Mom was expecting me, but I appreciate the, um, stay there
for just one minute with you.
Okay.
Um,
from what you just saw, you showing it again.
Ah sure.
But it's only one frame.
Nobody nobody'll notice once that splice it back together, you know, caring
for your family during these times is admirable in order to take pride in
that don't forget to live your life too.
I wouldn't mind seeing you up on that screen one day, Mrs.
Pearl.
Well, if you come back, knock on this door, I'm always here and I can
run the pictures as much as I like.
Thank you.
I will.
May I have this.
What took you so long?
It's far ride mama.
What is on your head?
Found it along the road.
Do not ring it inside.
It may be covered insurance.
Wash your hair feel lucky it's only full of lights.
When you finish your father needs changes.
Don't let him sit in his mess.
Sign picture today, eat a black that girls will all flawless.
There's no room for even the tiniest lack of precision and a troop like that takes
absolute perfection with trauma life.
It must be to start in the movies.
Are.
Bless us all Lord and his gifts, which we are about to receive
from Ty through Christ, our Lord.
Amen.
The rest of the money I, you,
I can count per 8 cents missing, have gone some hard candy for the trip home.
That is enough.
Then you ate the candy.
That was your supper.
The food I worked hard to prepare alone is not.
But mama, I wrote all that way.
I'm starving.
You may have what's left of it in the morning.
Where are you going to bed?
I did not excuse you from the tablety.
We happen here.
Feel guilt to the tighten Haven end that Pearl to DF snakes or lights.
Next time is leak.
Get know, and deer me, you believe,
act some.
I know, and I am careful.
Leman for, for, for two
father kindling is
good TOK,
please.
Lord, make me the biggest star of the world is ever known so that
I make it far away from this.
Afternoon, Pearl.
Hi MIY.
I like your dress.
Oh, thank you.
Feels wonderful.
To finally be out to Dawn something pretty again.
It's the first time we've left home in weeks.
Mother is so afraid of getting them mama too.
Well.
We were a bit worried about the both of you being out here all alone.
So we brought some food.
That's very kind.
How have you been getting all and in new letters somehow?
Well, mother has been riddled with worry.
They say no news is good news though.
pH Lee, his pride hadn't gotten him involved in this dreadful war.
You know, we had a doctor willing to declare him eligible anyone
would've taken that opportunity.
Not Howard.
First, he runs off to become a farmer.
Now the army.
The length my brother will go to, just to spot his father.
All this isolation has been enough to make one, man.
It hasn't, it really has.
No, they don't sick.
God's
cannot share a secret with you.
Pearl
mother would throttle me if she knew I was planning on a Tanon there's a dance
audition this Saturday at our church for Christmas chorus line to bring me to
folks throughout the state, during the holidays where it is, they're putting
together arou and we'll be torn seven different cities before the year ends.
Doesn't that sound exciting?
I would love so much to be a part of it.
So would I, we should go together, Anne, but you can too
assume I would never explain it.
It'll be our secret method.
I better SCADA.
We got three more pigs to drop off this afternoon, Saturday at 11.
Okay.
Sister-in-laws have to stick together, right?
MIY time to go see you later.
Pearl.
Bye.
MIY C
Charlie.
This could be it.
Pen.
Wow.
I didn't expect to see you again.
This.
Can't believe you get to see the pictures every day for free.
Yeah.
Not a bad gig.
Huh?
Thank you.
So to what do I know this pleasure?
I've been thinking a lot about what you said to me the other day.
I'm not forgetting to live my life and well, there's a dance
audition coming up at the church.
Oh, I like the sound of that.
but I've never really danced in front of anyone before.
What if I'm not perfect?
You can do anything if you want it bad enough.
I want it.
I don't let anything stand in your way.
What would you like to see?
Palace Folley?
Oh, come on.
You saw that already.
How about something different tonight?
How about,
how about a film?
Nobody else has seen.
Okay.
I picked this one up while I was in the service in France.
Do you live in here?
Yes, ma'am.
I laid my head on that pillow from time to time, but I wouldn't say
I live anywhere in particular.
I'm what more civilized people refer to as Bohemian?
I don't know what that is means I can pack up and leave whenever I want to.
Sounds like a dream.
Just as long as I can keep from waking up.
What is this?
Ever seen anything like that before now, have you, there are all kinds
of underground stag like this out there, so illegal doing it.
Yeah.
Filming it.
No, not here anyway.
Will be eventually people paying arm and all a to see this pictures, like this
are gonna revolutionize the industry.
And I, for one plan on capitalizing narrative it's reality and there's no
denying, we all share a fascination in seeing people as they truly are.
I don't like reality
where I live.
I mean, so leave.
It's not that easy.
Well, sure it is.
There's a road right out front there.
That'll take you all the way to New York city.
One day, my mother and father will be gone.
I can do what I want, man.
What if that's too late?
The fact and truth, the matter is Pearl, you only get one take of this life.
And if you don't make the most of it, when you're young, you
don't get a second chance.
If only they would just die.
Pardon?
Nothing.
It's real nice to be able to talk to someone for change being
CAPD up on that farm for so long.
Sometimes I worry that.
Not the same as other people.
Why would you ever want to be like everybody else?
I don't know.
Sometimes it just seems more peaceful, I guess.
Did she mean what you said by wanting to see me up on that screen?
Sure.
I did.
I do anything to be up there.
Well, then y'all ought to go overseas when this pandemic is, that's what I'm doing.
The arts are so much more live in Europe.
You can be whoever you want to be there.
Really.
You can even be in pictures like this.
I know.
I'd watch you.
I should go now.
Thank you.
And what for, for seeing me tonight.
Okay.
What are you staring?
I'm leaving soon.
I can't stay here any longer.
Howard was supposed to take me away.
It'd be easier for me if I didn't feel like I was abandoning you.
You understand though,
I love you daddy, but this is no way to,
I tell you to quit.
I'm talking with daddy.
They need to get him back to the house.
Why do you hate me, mom?
I only want what's best.
When do I get what I want
when they understand that?
Getting what you want?
Isn't what's important.
Making the most of what you have is life really turns out how you expect
you need to be prepared for that.
If you ever want to be happy, come back inside.
Yeah.
Where are.
Stop staring at me.
How'd you find that I am apply to what goes on once here.
Take your dinner, stand the bunkhouse, but it's freezing out there.
You should have told her there before putting west isolate yourself
until we know you are not here.
That is what's right.
There's a dance audition in town tomorrow.
I'm going on now?
You're not.
Yes, I am.
Why I not, if I'm good enough.
Good enough.
For what?
So
that this ungrateful stem home, how is it?
You find our life so easy.
You've always had the Wolf over your head food in your belly.
We not seem to came a great sacrifice from your father.
And I.
How do you think we are be needs?
You too.
I'm mentally about the rest of my days with you and daddy on this farm.
And so be it, but I'm only young once.
If I go to this audition and I don't get picked, then I'll come home
and I'll never speak of it again.
I swear, but I have to know that I tried her.
I'm gonna regret it for the rest of my life, please.
Mama.
You have no idea what I'm capable of.
Oh yes I do.
I've seen the things you've done in private.
You be, no one is watching.
You think won't notice you can't giggle true for another.
They really notice eventually, and they will be frightened just as I am.
You're wrong.
Am I?
They're not a fine woman.
You hope to become leaving your mother alone to lot.
So you can dance with a bunch of silly causes.
Let alone the illness you may contract and spread.
You see what it does to your father.
That's what you want for yourself and others.
And maybe that is what you wish for me.
Personal stop lying.
I can't stand the sound of it anymore.
It's so almost as your simple behavior, you are not when heard, it's only a matter
of time before you hurt someone else.
Malevolence is Fe in you.
I see it.
And I will not in good conscience.
Let you leave this farm again.
You can't stop me.
Oh yes.
I.
You don't want to know what I could do in New York.
I show that a burden you will never understand.
Spend my days feeding and wiping the snot of the face of the man I'm married.
You dare sit there and talk to me about regrets.
I was supposed to be his wife, not his mother.
Don't you speak that way to me again?
Don't you hear me?
Sorry.
No, you're not.
Are you in stop on this?
That's what you really desire?
Isn't it.
Perhaps I should kill him for you that why you don't have to care for him any longer
with the so just selfish dreams better.
And we can both go the dance your husband has gone.
So is mine who I, should we be selling this caring for them?
The work of this farm?
What about us getting what we want?
I won't suffer for you any longer.
You wanna leave, go, but when you fail.
And you would fail.
I wanted to remember what it feels like, because that's how I feel.
Every time I, everything I ever had has been taken from
you.
I just don't want him to block you.
Where are you going?
It's not 6:00 AM.
Yeah.
I have to practice my routine.
I need to be perfect for my audition the day.
You still think I'm pretty enough.
I know how much has changed in the last 24 hours?
Yes, it has.
Oh, you forgot this last time.
I'm glad you came back.
Let me at least drive it home.
Somebody, you know,
not really sure.
Well, it's hard to know who anyone is nowadays.
All these masks people are wearing.
Wait here a minute.
So
I'm gonna get you cleaned up real soon.
Okay.
I just have a guess right now.
My father,
please, to meet you, sir,
let me go to my bedroom now.
It doesn't seem so bad.
It is.
What was that?
Nothing.
Tell me more about Europe.
When can go don't you should think you should go check.
Nope.
I'm sorry, whatever that is.
We can't just ignore.
It could be your father for Christ six.
It's not my father, please.
Don't go.
What's the matter with you.
It's her dog.
She made a mess in the kitchen while I was away.
So I put her in the root cellar.
I.
That's Charlie.
She's always hungry.
We can't afford to feed her.
Like we used to.
And over here, this is Mary ain't.
She a dish.
This is Francis.
They're my best audience on named each of them.
After my favorite picture stars, I put on so many shows for them over the years.
It'll be sad to say goodbye, but like they say for not moving forward and
show business, you're moving backwards.
We used to have many more animals, but they hell died.
What about your dog?
Huh?
What's his name?
We don't have a dog.
I thought you said you, uh, did in the cellar.
Um, RA.
Yeah.
Well, um,
Oh boy.
Oh, I better be getting back.
You know
what?
Oh, I gotta go and screen the matinee, you know, but you gotta practice.
Remember you gotta get those dance moves.
Perfect.
Now it's not the time to be resting on your laurels is
it's nice seeing you Pearl.
Did I do something wrong?
No.
And why did you just go cold on me?
I don't know what you mean.
What did you see?
I didn't see anything.
You're lying.
I'm not.
Yes you are.
I know.
Cause I feel things very deeply.
look, I gotta get back to work.
All right.
I'll I'll see you later.
When what, when will I see you?
I don't know.
Pearl, it's just an expression.
You're not gonna take me to Europe.
Are you tell me the truth?
What did I do wrong?
Nothing.
No, why you wrong?
I understand you.
I do like you.
I just tell me the truth.
Why you you, why did you you're scaring me Pearl.
Okay.
I wish you the best luck with your audition.
Sincerely.
I'm not.
What it feels like.
Cause that's how I felt.
Every time you looked at me.
Okay, daddy, let's get you.
I wouldn't look at me.
Like,
what do you think.
You,
I know
just.
Oh, thank goodness you came.
I was beginning to think you weren't gonna show, sorry.
I had some chore to do around the house.
Well, I've been in such a flap all by myself.
I feel worse than I imagine.
I would've.
I contracted that over the flu.
What's in the suitcases, all my things I need for going on the road for.
Wow.
You're confident rumor has it.
They may only be taking one gal per TA.
It has to be me.
I don't think you meant to say that out loud, Pearl.
Well, if it's not me, then I hope too, right.
It has to be me
next
Stary Collins.
Can't say I'm too sad.
M for some people just think they're God's gift, you know, they always
get what's coming to them eventually.
I feel bad saying that actually she's a nurse.
I don't know how to do something like that.
Oh, Pearl.
I'm so nervous.
Why did they laugh me right off stage?
Oh my God could handle that.
How are you?
Not scared?
I'm guessing just more yeast to the feeling.
I don't think I can do this.
I'm too frightened.
What?
Come on, Pearl switch.
Before they open the doors again.
Come on.
No,
thank you.
You're a good friend,
Emma, of course you are.
Your sister-in-law is how to stick together, right?
Next, your turn, Tom.
Show them what you can do.
Show them all recollect.
Thank you, but it's going to be a no.
Pardon?
Sorry.
You just not what we had in mind.
Well, that was the best dancing I've ever done.
Yes, it was very nice, but we already had plenty of gals like you and the troop.
We're looking for something different today, you know, more.
All American, younger and blocked some of 'em with X factor.
What
next?
No, I'm afraid.
So miss down to go,
please.
You don't understand underneath this next in line, please.
I can make it better.
Come on, darling.
You don't wanna make a scene, spoil everything, please.
Just give me one more chance long down.
No, I'm a, I'm a star.
I.
How about I take you?
Is that our pig?
Should I go and infect your mother?
No.
How bad I get you something nice to drink.
Mama.
Always.
Right?
Never getting off this farm.
And where would you want to go?
Europe?
Europe.
What earth for, for be in ruins.
And you'll never get Howard back there.
I tell you, oh, come on now.
I know you're disappointed, but there's no sense in taking it this hard.
It just a lousy church group.
Those all adults, you know, the first thing about quality dancing.
You don't understand what don't I come on Pearl.
What's really the matter.
I don't feel well.
You're not coming down with someone, are you?
No, nothing like that.
Okay.
Goodness.
If I snuck out of the house, it ended up bringing home nothing but the germ,
my mother and father would just kill me.
I'm worried there, maybe something real wrong with me, MI
how do you mean?
Seems like there's something missing in me that the rest of the world has.
Have you told Howard I've never spoken about it a lot to anyone so
afraid of what people might think her.
Howard's your husband.
Hedos you shouldn't be afraid.
Tell him how you feel.
Scared him one.
Not say, well, practice on me first, then pretend I'm Howard.
And you say whatever's on your mind?
I can, yes, you can go on, get it loud.
Really?
Yes.
Trust me.
Hell,
go ahead.
I hate you so much for leaving me here.
Sometimes I hope you die.
Sorry.
I awful love living in that, but it's the truth.
I was curious about the other man.
I'm sure you don't want to hear about a stranger satisfying your life.
And I swear it was only once there a mistake.
It wasn't him that I wanted.
I know that now I just, things could just go back to the way they were
before, but I don't see how they could not, after the things I've done.
What else have you done, bro?
How I realize how this almost sound.
Honestly, there was a time.
I was flatter to have someone, his handsome as you bond over me.
You're such a good person.
I know that.
I make sure to always be mindful with your heart.
I never wanted you to feel jealous.
It's an awful feeling like rock the way it just twists and turns that you're inside.
I know that it can so well, I feel it whenever I see others whose
lives can be easy because truth is, I'm not really a good person.
Pearl.
I think I should.
The reason I kept my eyes to the around, around other men
was never to avoid hurting you.
It's cuz I understood how lucky I was to have your attention.
I may be a poor farm girl have, but I'm not stupid.
I spotted you the moment you came to live with us, you weren't hard.
Let the other farm end speak.
You were different.
You're from somewhere, a nice, comfortable place that you could
return to whenever you wanted.
I'm so desperate to have that all my life I've wanted off this
farm, you are my ticket out.
So I made sure to never let you see who I really was.
I worked like a charm too.
Then when you finally brought me back to your home to meet your
family, it was just as I hoped life straight out of the pictures, at
least that's what it felt like to me.
And you didn't want it.
You just wanted to stay here with our farm.
And that made me so angry, but you certain, I hated it.
He must have.
How could you be so selfish and cruel after a while that doesn't make you happy?
I was even pregnant with your baby.
I never wanted to be a mother.
I love the feeling of it growing inside me for that sickness, pulling, sucking on
me and let some needy animal in the barn.
How could I be responsible for another life?
Life terrifies me.
It's hard and bleak and draining . I was so relieved when it died.
It was a little less late keeping me trapped here, but then the
war came and you left me too.
Why did you leave me Howard?
I hate feeling like this.
So pathetic do people like you ever feel this way?
Figure you don't.
You seem so perfect on time.
Lord was too generous to you.
He never answers any of my prayers.
I don't know why, what did I do?
What is wrong with me?
Please?
Just tell me so maybe I can get better.
I don't wanna end up my mama.
I wanna be dancing up on the screen.
Like the prey girls in the pictures.
I want what they have so badly to be perfect, to be loved from
as many people as possible to make up for all my time spent.
And
times I wake in the middle of the night and the fear washes over me.
Cuz what if this is it?
What is I belong?
I'm not pretty I'm naturally pleasant or friendly.
I'm not smart.
You're funny or confident.
I'm exactly what mama said.
I was weak.
I don't know why, what did I do?
Why was in my family like yours?
I hate what it feels like to be me and not you.
I'm so scared that when you finally come home, you'll see me and be frightened.
Like everyone else is.
I know what I've done.
Bad things, terrible, awful murderous things.
I regret them now, but I lied how they felt.
I wish I didn't, but I did.
At first it was only animals smaller than myself.
Nothing with feeding, nothing that could hurt me back felt good.
Killings easier than you think.
until recently the mom were, and the boy from the picture
house, they were different.
They were more meaningful.
I heard them.
So they too might know what it feels like to suffer, but apart
that he didn't deserve that, I wish I hadn't done what I did.
Mom went well, she had a hard laugh.
She don't even wanted a home to feel safe.
And I can see that.
I thought I hated her, but I just wanna feel safe too.
Lord,
I made such a mess of things.
I don't know how much more I can take.
I need to clean this up.
All of it.
I need to make things right before you see me again.
I can turn this farm into a home for it.
Like you want it.
Things will finally be different.
I can forgive.
I can be who you want me to be.
If you just stay with me, can do that, please.
I can't be all by myself anymore.
It's too hard.
We can love each other.
I'll do that for you.
If you really meant all that till dev do us part, it'd be enough.
Just you and me here on this farm.
All I really wanted is to be loved.
I having such a hard time without her lately.
I should probably get going.
Now mother, be wondering where I am.
If I'm not home soon,
are you frightened of me?
No,
of course.
No problem.
You think I'm sick?
No, thank you.
I'm happy for you.
What became the park and dance trip?
You deserved it.
I didn't get the part.
It's okay.
Don't have to pretend anymore.
My feelings.
Don't be it wasn't me.
I'm glad it was you.
Right.
But Pearl, I like this don't lie to me.
Well, yes.
Thank you.
It's gonna be real swell, dancing around the state.
Hope you can come see this show sometime.
You always get everything on
I'm younger.
My blonde.
I have to go now.
I'm not gonna say anything.
Are you?
No,
I really do love Howard.
I know nobody has to know.
I can fix things.
Can be our secret.
I won't
it's anymore.
Mitzy.
I think the best of what I.
She,
um,
Bless us.
So Lord, and that he.
Which we are about to receive from
through Christ.
Our Lord.
Amen.
I'm so happy.
You're home.