[SR] Mommy is... [SR] stretchable.
[SR] What do you mean [SR] by stretchable?
[SR] Daddy's hard. [SR] You can't move him.
[SR] He gets mad, and that's it.
[SR] Mommy gets mad too,
[SR] but she's more like putty.
[SR] Mm.
[SR] And she gets sad too.
[SR] That's when it's [SR] the most stretch.
[SR] Putty, um... I wonder [SR] how is it that you stretch her?
[SR] You just--
[SR] Can I... [SR] Can I talk now? Please?
[SR] Um...
[SR] -Is it okay if Mommy talks? [SR] -Yep.
[SR] Okay.
[SR] I'm not stretchable. [SR] I'm not putty.
[SR] Well, that's her [SR] experience of you.
[SR] That isn't true.
[SR] I try very hard to be in [SR] control of her and everything,
[SR] but, um, may as well not even [SR] be there at all.
[SR] Well, perception [SR] is reality, so--
[SR] Also, I don't get sad.
[SR] You seem sad right now.
[SR] You do seem sad right now.
[SR] We're here to talk about [SR] how to get you better.
[SR] All we do is talk about me.
[SR] I can be sad. I mean, [SR] I'm allowed to be sad, right?
[SR] Well, of course.
[SR] But, um, you must know that [SR] this is all tangled up together
[SR] and you of all people [SR] should know--
[SR] I know. I know, but, um...
[SR] this... [SR] this isn't how things...
[SR] ...are gonna get better. Um...
[SR] Mommy, please don't cry...
[SR] No, no. I--
[SR] -...because then I'll cry. [SR] -Sweetie.
[SR] -She... [SR] -Sweetie, it's okay. It's okay.
[SR] We want the tube removed. Now.
[SR] -No, you can't kill me! [SR] -And to do that, we need...
[SR] No, she won't do what [SR] she has to do
[SR] because she knows [SR] that she has this safety net.
[SR] Things are not [SR] stable enough right now to--
[SR] It's clear that we have [SR] different goals.
[SR] You want her to get better [SR] before the tube can be removed.
[SR] I think the tube needs [SR] to come out,
[SR] and then she can get better.
[SR] We all have [SR] the same goal here.
[SR] But what I'm learning [SR] as we're talking all together
[SR] is that you and I need to spend [SR] some time, just the two of us,
[SR] without her here...
[SR] ...to talk about some [SR] serious issues.
[SR] I'm gonna need you to
[SR] restart the tube feedings [SR] at night
[SR] and I need you [SR] to start doing...
[SR] Did you get the kind [SR] with no cheese?
[SR] I can't explain this to you [SR] every time, sweetie.
[SR] They would just laugh at me [SR] and say it's bread, okay?
[SR] I'll take the cheese off [SR] when we get home, of course.
[SR] Is it the kind with the little
[SR] green and black things [SR] in the sauce?
[SR] It's the same kind [SR] we always get.
[SR] That kind has the things [SR] in the sauce.
[SR] I can't... I can't eat it.
[SR] Like, can you scrape it off--
[SR] Do you even want the tube out or [SR] is it just me who wants it out?
[SR] You have to be...
[SR] Jesus.
[SR] Oh, poo.
[SR] Oh...
[SR] You got your wish. No cheese.
[SR] -Did you will that to happen? [SR] -Yeah.
[SR] Are you some kind of [SR] witch or something?
[SR] Hey, straight to the table. [SR] Actually, no.
[SR] Wash hands first, [SR] and then straight to the table.
[SR] I don't have to go [SR] to the bathroom though.
[SR] No one's making you [SR] go to the bathroom.
[SR] I'm just asking you [SR] to wash your hands, please,
[SR] like we always do.
[SR] Is Daddy coming? [SR] Where's Daddy?
[SR] Uh, he said [SR] maybe bedtime.
[SR] When does he go again?
[SR] He just got back, [SR] so... in a month?
[SR] Mommy?
[SR] Yeah.
[SR] I did have to [SR] go to the bathroom.
[SR] Okay.
[SR] This might take a while.
[SR] Okay.
[SR] Mommy?
[SR] Yeah?
[SR] The bathroom [SR] has water in it.
[SR] Okay, well, that's good.
[SR] No, I mean on the floor.
[SR] Come quickly!
[SR] Are you coming?
[SR] Mommy!
[SR] Oh, my God. What?
[SR] Why didn't you tell me [SR] as soon as you came in here?
[SR] I just noticed...
[SR] because I had to go [SR] to the bathroom so bad.
[SR] I don't like how it [SR] feels on my socks.
[SR] Where's it coming from? [SR] How deep is it?
[SR] Are we gonna die?
[SR] Is the house gonna [SR] fall on top of us?
[SR] Mommy?
[SR] Can you lift me up [SR] and carry me out?
[SR] Yep, just [SR] stay there, okay? Hold on.
[SR] Mom, why are you leaving me? [SR] Where are you going?
[SR] Just please stay on the toilet, [SR] okay?
[SR] No.
[SR] Can you please come...
[SR] Can you come now?
[SR] Oh, my...
[SR] Oh...
[SR] ...my fucking God.
[SR] Mommy!
[SR] Mommy, you're not [SR] telling me what it is!
[SR] Mommy!
[SR] -What's going on? [SR] -What?
[SR] What's happening, Mom?
[SR] Are we gonna die?
[SR] -Hey. [SR] -Hey, yeah.
[SR] We just got home, [SR] and you would not believe--
[SR] Oh, my God! Oh, my God!
[SR] No, no, no! Do not come here.
[SR] Do not come in here!
[SR] Right now, go, go, go! [SR] Right now! Right now!
[SR] Go, go, go, go!
[SR] Go! Oh, my God!
[SR] Nothing is familiar [SR] or real.
[SR] Ever.
[SR] Every time I feel this way [SR] I get further and further away
[SR] from being in myself, and, [SR] like, I can never get back.
[SR] When you think about time,
[SR] how do you see it?
[SR] How do I see time?
[SR] Um...
[SR] Time is a series of things [SR] to get through.
[SR] Each goal is a cliff.
[SR] There's nothing [SR] at the end of it,
[SR] but then it comes, [SR] and there's just another cliff.
[SR] I'm so mad at you!
[SR] Oh, shit.
[SR] Yo, you know about [SR] holotropic breathing?
[SR] Mm-mm.
[SR] Yo, this shit is lit.
[SR] Basically, you trick your brain [SR] into thinking it's dead,
[SR] and you see [SR] the fucking universe.
[SR] You know what I'm saying?
[SR] So you won't feel paranoia [SR] and guilt if something's wrong.
[SR] I've got a friend who [SR] does Reiki and shit like that.
[SR] Nah, see what I'm saying? [SR] This is like hyperventilating.
[SR] When you die, they say [SR] you let off this chemical.
[SR] And when you're dreaming, [SR] you let off the same chemical.
[SR] It's sort of like that, [SR] you know?
[SR] You make your brain [SR] think it's dead,
[SR] but being brain-dead [SR] is still alive.
[SR] -Holographic breathwork? [SR] -Holotropic.
[SR] Tropic. Holotropic.
[SR] -Is that real? [SR] -What?
[SR] -The... the dead brain thing? [SR] -Oh, yeah.
[SR] I mean, shit. [SR] I guess anything could be real.
[SR] I mean, anything [SR] could be bullshit too.
[SR] You know what I'm saying?
[SR] But you know that feeling [SR] like when you're not...
[SR] Yeah.
[SR] Oh, you're making fun of me.
[SR] -Miss, I don't even know you. [SR] -Right.
[SR] Okay. Um, yes on these, [SR] but no on the wine.
[SR] Why?
[SR] The law prohibits me from [SR] selling you this wine right now.
[SR] But it isn't even 2:00.
[SR] It's 1:58.
[SR] Right, but--
[SR] By the time I ring these up, [SR] it will be past two.
[SR] Huh. Um...
[SR] I'll just get [SR] the peanut butter cups.
[SR] You can put them on my room.
[SR] Will do.
[SR] I can't talk [SR] about this anymore.
[SR] I'm telling you. Please.
[SR] Hey, hey. Look, if that's [SR] what Dr. Spring thinks is best,
[SR] then we have to listen [SR] to Dr. Spring.
[SR] There is no "we" though.
[SR] It's just me. I... I'm...
[SR] -It's not fair. I'm telling you. [SR] -Whoa!
[SR] Fair? Listen, [SR] I'm working, all right?
[SR] I'm dealing with a lot of [SR] assholes. You have no idea.
[SR] And I cannot do anything about
[SR] what's going on there [SR] from here.
[SR] We need to be a team. [SR] You have to go there today
[SR] and check in and let them know
[SR] -that this whole thing is not-- [SR] -I know. I know.
[SR] The problem with that logic, [SR] though,
[SR] is that I'm not a housewife.
[SR] -I work too. [SR] -Whoa, whoa, whoa.
[SR] Mommy, [SR] this hotel food is gross.
[SR] -Good morning. [SR] -This is disgusting.
[SR] Wow.
[SR] You guys look just like twins. [SR] Anybody ever tell you that?
[SR] Uh, no. [SR] You're the first person
[SR] to notice and/or say that.
[SR] Everyone says that.
[SR] -Hey, cutie. Wanna see a trick? [SR] -Yeah.
[SR] Whoa. How'd you do that?
[SR] Mommy?
[SR] You should take it. [SR] She's never gonna eat it.
[SR] Okay.
[SR] Am I gonna throw up now?
[SR] -Yeah? [SR] -You hung up on me.
[SR] Look, I know you have [SR] a lot on your plate,
[SR] but she's getting better,
[SR] and the rest of it [SR] is totally temporary.
[SR] The ceiling will get fixed, [SR] I promise.
[SR] The sky is not falling. [SR] None of this is your fault.
[SR] -I love you. [SR] -I'm sorry. I love you too.
[SR] What's so bad about [SR] a hotel anyway?
[SR] And while you're there, [SR] take advantage of the pool.
[SR] They got a pool, right?
[SR] You always said you wish [SR] you had a pool,
[SR] so now you have one.
[SR] Why don't you go? You can [SR] do some laps, lounge a little.
[SR] Get a floatie. Kick back, [SR] get a couple of margarita...
[SR] Okay.
[SR] Did you know that you can [SR] train hamsters to love you?
[SR] No.
[SR] You can train them to love you.
[SR] Well, I would love if you would [SR] finish your bacon.
[SR] That way I can tell everybody [SR] you got 100% on breakfast.
[SR] And once they love you, you can [SR] get them to do everything
[SR] including tricks.
[SR] Let's start with one bite.
[SR] ♪ Ring, ding [SR] Ring-a-ring-a-ling-dang ♪
[SR] ♪ Ring-a-ling-a-ding-dang-do ♪
[SR] ♪ Ring, ling [SR] Ring-a-ling-a-ding-dang... ♪
[SR] ♪ Keeps him from lovin' you ♪
[SR] Is the parking guy gonna [SR] get mad again?
[SR] Double-park! Double-park! [SR] Double-park!
[SR] Okay.
[SR] Gotta be fast. You know [SR] what happened last time.
[SR] You've missed the last few weeks [SR] of family sessions.
[SR] Yeah.
[SR] I told you what happened.
[SR] Our entire ceiling fell down, [SR] and with all that chaos,
[SR] and we're living out [SR] of the hotel--
[SR] So we need to schedule something [SR] as soon as possible
[SR] to talk about her goals [SR] and the treatment process.
[SR] Yeah. Yeah, okay. Yeah.
[SR] Duh.
[SR] Yeah.
[SR] -Mm-hm. [SR] -Mm-hm.
[SR] Oh, you meant now? [SR] Okay. All right.
[SR] Um...
[SR] Well, uh, let me look [SR] at my schedule.
[SR] I should probably do that...
[SR] I know that you already [SR] know this,
[SR] but you can't start letting [SR] feelings of guilt and control
[SR] about this illness [SR] and treatment affect you.
[SR] It's no one's fault.
[SR] That's right. [SR] That's what I keep hearing.
[SR] Also, I really need you to [SR] start taking care of yourself.
[SR] Right. Yes.
[SR] No. [SR] Put my oxygen mask on first.
[SR] Mm-hm, mm-hm.
[SR] I'm just gonna have [SR] to get blunt here.
[SR] So she needs to reach her [SR] weight goal in the next week.
[SR] If she does that, [SR] then we can put tube removal
[SR] and discharge dates [SR] on the books
[SR] but if she doesn't do that,
[SR] I'm gonna have to reassess [SR] the level of care
[SR] because obviously something [SR] is not working here,
[SR] and this is what [SR] I need to talk to you about.
[SR] When can we sit down properly?
[SR] Yeah, fine. Uh, September 7th.
[SR] It's September 15th.
[SR] September 20. [SR] I mean, September...
[SR] September 20.
[SR] Hey!
[SR] Hey! I told you not to do that, [SR] and the next time
[SR] I will report you [SR] to the building.
[SR] You have no authority [SR] to report me.
[SR] You won't be allowed in the lot. [SR] I'll have you towed!
[SR] Oh, sure! Call them!
[SR] I'm not in there long enough
[SR] for them to even come!
[SR] Whatever!
[SR] Asshole.
[SR] The apartment is [SR] a 30-minute walk,
[SR] but it might as well be on Mars.
[SR] And I just, I can't...
[SR] Every time I go check, [SR] it looks worse,
[SR] and I... I have no control.
[SR] Have you tried [SR] discussing a compromise
[SR] with your landlord?
[SR] Perhaps they could section off [SR] the room with the hole,
[SR] then you could live freely [SR] in the rest of the apartment.
[SR] Live freely with asbestos
[SR] and 100-year-old dust [SR] and black mold spores?
[SR] That's your advice?
[SR] It's not advice. [SR] It's a question to consider.
[SR] I should really show [SR] you this hole.
[SR] It's an entire nightmare [SR] on my ceiling.
[SR] When does Charles return?
[SR] This is week three of eight.
[SR] I mean, you should know that. [SR] Don't you write things down?
[SR] It's your job to remember
[SR] the boring details [SR] of my fucking life.
[SR] We do have to stop now. [SR] We are out of time.
[SR] I have another [SR] patient coming, so...
[SR] Wait, now?
[SR] What about the [SR] ten-minute warning?
[SR] Yeah, I just wasn't [SR] paying attention.
[SR] You didn't respond to the email [SR] that I sent you about my dream.
[SR] I don't respond [SR] to my client's dream emails.
[SR] Okay. So, if you [SR] don't bring it up,
[SR] then what is the point?
[SR] Okay. Uh, you got me.
[SR] I had a dream, and I need [SR] to talk about it today,
[SR] and I didn't get any time
[SR] because you didn't [SR] give me a warning.
[SR] We can discuss the dream [SR] you emailed next session.
[SR] Well, it's actually [SR] a different dream.
[SR] -Well, I don't really-- [SR] -About you.
[SR] -Okay, quickly. [SR] -Okay.
[SR] I was in a hospital day room
[SR] or a recreation room [SR] or something,
[SR] and I knew my daughter [SR] was also in the hospital
[SR] but... but far away, [SR] another part,
[SR] and it didn't look like [SR] the hospital
[SR] she was in last year, though,
[SR] when everything happened. [SR] It was different. It was weird.
[SR] And I was waiting for Charles [SR] to come get me,
[SR] so we could pick her up
[SR] but instead, you were there,
[SR] and you wanted to sit [SR] really close to me.
[SR] And I was, like, inching away [SR] from you on the bench
[SR] and you kept inching closer.
[SR] And I got my phone [SR] out to text Charles
[SR] 'cause I was nervous he'd [SR] come in and he'd see
[SR] and then you tried [SR] to grab the phone
[SR] and then you started [SR] to tickle me...
[SR] ...to try to get me to drop it,
[SR] and I was, like...
[SR] I was really enjoying it,
[SR] but I was so scared that Charles [SR] would come in and he would see.
[SR] All right.
[SR] Okay?
[SR] All right. You got to tell me.
[SR] We'll talk about it next time.
[SR] Okay?
[SR] We won't [SR] talk about it next time.
[SR] You know that.
[SR] There's no thread. [SR] There's no thread at all.
[SR] Yes? [SR] What now?
[SR] Hi, yes. So sorry.
[SR] Have to leave. Stop work.
[SR] Uh, what?
[SR] Mother died. I have to leave. [SR] Work is going to take longer.
[SR] Uh, okay, uh, just--
[SR] I'll be one second.
[SR] Okay, what is the issue then? [SR] Can you tell me?
[SR] This has been going on [SR] for so long.
[SR] Do I need to get [SR] a new contractor?
[SR] It spread.
[SR] Uh, it's full. It's very full, [SR] you understand? Very full.
[SR] It spread?
[SR] Not easy to explain. [SR] Not my language.
[SR] ¡Yo hablo español! Explícame [SR] en tu idioma, ¡lo entenderé!
[SR] Sorry, but I don't [SR] understand those words.
[SR] How long will you be grieving [SR] for your mother?
[SR] I don't say. I don't know. [SR] I can't say.
[SR] Look, I need a date, okay? [SR] It needs to be fixed.
[SR] Just give me a date. My husband [SR] and I will be returning to--
[SR] I'll be back, one week.
[SR] Okay, well, fine. [SR] I'm going to be going there
[SR] and checking on [SR] what you have done so far,
[SR] and I'm going to be [SR] taking pictures, and I--
[SR] Vete a la mierda, el cabrón.
[SR] I can see you now.
[SR] I'm really happy to hold this [SR] silent space for you but...
[SR] ...as usual, I am curious as to
[SR] what you might be [SR] thinking about.
[SR] Riley.
[SR] That's all I can think about.
[SR] Tell me what's going on.
[SR] Well, I...
[SR] I keep telling you, it's--
[SR] It's like I keep saying [SR] to his doctor, he--
[SR] He doesn't smile. He--
[SR] He looks at me weirdly,
[SR] and he's just very [SR] uncomfortable all of the time,
[SR] and... and no one will do [SR] anything about it.
[SR] You know what I would love
[SR] and what I think would be [SR] extremely helpful
[SR] is if you could come [SR] to a session without Riley.
[SR] I think it would be...
[SR] -I know you think you can't-- [SR] -No, I can't.
[SR] But I think if you got a sitter [SR] who you trusted, who you could--
[SR] Did you hear about that nanny [SR] in New York?
[SR] The mom came home from work,
[SR] and the nanny had stabbed
[SR] both of her kids to death [SR] in the bathtub.
[SR] That is real. That happened.
[SR] A situation like that is [SR] very, very, very unusual, okay?
[SR] Most people have caregivers
[SR] -who can trust that... [SR] -I can't.
[SR] Well, I... I believe you can.
[SR] I just think you don't want to [SR] or you're afraid
[SR] so let's stick [SR] to some practical--
[SR] I need to protect him.
[SR] From something specific?
[SR] Because something [SR] very bad is happening.
[SR] I'm so... Can I just-- [SR] One second. I just have to...
[SR] This could be about my daughter. [SR] I'm... I'm so sorry.
[SR] Um...
[SR] Yeah. Look, look, I-- [SR] I'm not Riley's doctor
[SR] so I can't speak to what may [SR] or may not be going on with him.
[SR] We can only talk [SR] about your feelings
[SR] about what you perceive [SR] is going on with Riley,
[SR] which is why I do believe [SR] medication can be--
[SR] I'm not perceiving it.
[SR] It is happening.
[SR] And I feel awful about it.
[SR] Okay, listen.
[SR] When you're having [SR] these feelings of deep panic
[SR] at home with Riley,
[SR] just put him in his crib or [SR] carrier or somewhere safe...
[SR] ...and draw a bath.
[SR] Just breathe until your [SR] heart isn't racing anymore,
[SR] come out and get dressed,
[SR] start the day over again...
[SR] ...put on some real clothes.
[SR] These feelings that [SR] you're experiencing
[SR] they are... [SR] they're very, very, very scary.
[SR] Okay? And very dark.
[SR] And that's why [SR] you need to keep moving.
[SR] You need to keep going.
[SR] You need to be busy.
[SR] You can't sit inside the fear
[SR] and doubt
[SR] and scariness.
[SR] Breathwork is a deep healing [SR] in the nervous system,
[SR] where we hold trauma [SR] and trapped emotions.
[SR] We can't talk our way [SR] out of trauma.
[SR] The body needs to process
[SR] unprocessed emotions [SR] within the body.
[SR] And this is why breathwork [SR] is so powerful.
[SR] If you're looking for deeper [SR] ways of healing
[SR] and you're searching [SR] for alternatives,
[SR] don't wait any longer.
[SR] Let's connect and schedule [SR] your first breathwork session.
[SR] Directly before the [SR] judge read Ortega her sentence,
[SR] she begged for forgiveness [SR] for her unspeakable crime.
[SR] She stated she was sorry
[SR] for what the judge had called, [SR] "Pure evil."
[SR] She then spoke about how [SR] untreated mental illness...
[SR] Fuck.
[SR] -The judge was not convinced. [SR] -Shit.
[SR] She will be serving life [SR] in prison
[SR] with no possibility of parole, [SR] saying that--
[SR] You would not believe [SR] what I have been through today.
[SR] Okay, so, I don't [SR] know if you recall
[SR] but there was this pair of [SR] absolutely davoon-ianca,
[SR] davoon, gorge leather gloves
[SR] that I saw on The RealReal.
[SR] I wake up this morning, banned.
[SR] Banned. Yeah. I know.
[SR] Hey, my love!
[SR] So you been keeping up
[SR] and eating, [SR] and doing all the right things?
[SR] Yeah, I ate [SR] some cheese today!
[SR] -Mmm. [SR] -Cheese!
[SR] That's fantastic. [SR] I love cheese!
[SR] -Daddy, can I get a hamster? [SR] -No.
[SR] I already told you, [SR] you're not getting a hamster.
[SR] No, no. You know what, [SR] let's see, okay?
[SR] Maybe when we get [SR] back to the apartment...
[SR] No, no, no, no, no. [SR] She's not getting a hamster.
[SR] Daddy, [SR] when are you coming home?
[SR] She's not getting a hamster.
[SR] What, where are you? [SR] I can hear something weird.
[SR] Oh. Yeah, that. [SR] I'm catching a game.
[SR] -A game? [SR] -Yeah.
[SR] Yeah, we got here this morning,
[SR] and there's a [SR] minor league team here
[SR] on the island where we go. [SR] It's a little loud, so...
[SR] Oh, it must be nice, huh, [SR] doing things for yourself.
[SR] -What's that like? [SR] -Hey, hey, hey.
[SR] You wanna switch places?
[SR] You don't know [SR] what I'm dealing with here.
[SR] All right, [SR] I'll go sit on my ass...
[SR] -Daddy! [SR] -...all day in therapy...
[SR] I'm sorry. Ha-ha.
[SR] I mean, "sit on my butt" [SR] listening to people whine,
[SR] and you can captain this fu--
[SR] Uh... this stupid boat, okay?
[SR] Listen, I'm allowed [SR] to do things on my time off.
[SR] -Jesus Christ! [SR] -Time off? Oh, okay, um...
[SR] Daddy has to go now, [SR] and, uh, we have to drive,
[SR] -so say goodbye to Daddy, okay? [SR] -No. I don't have to go!
[SR] -Look, they're in the middle... [SR] -Jesus.
[SR] I told you, it's a rodent,
[SR] and just something [SR] to look after for no reason.
[SR] Please, please don't ask again,
[SR] and don't ask Daddy things [SR] I already say no to.
[SR] But Mommy, it's not fair!
[SR] Dr. Spring said this [SR] is a big week.
[SR] -Did she tell you that? [SR] -Yeah.
[SR] I think you can do it.
[SR] But I'm already doing [SR] it my best.
[SR] I know, but you have [SR] to do a little better
[SR] then we can [SR] get rid of this thing,
[SR] and everything will be okay.
[SR] I'll be better.
[SR] Okay. Well...
[SR] ...it's not up to me.
[SR] It's up to you.
[SR] What book can I read [SR] you tonight?
[SR] I'm too tired. [SR] Just a song.
[SR] Okay, what song?
[SR] -The dead whale one. [SR] -Okay.
[SR] ♪ Sit beside [SR] The breakfast table ♪
[SR] ♪ Think about your troubles ♪
[SR] ♪ Pour yourselves [SR] A cup of tea ♪
[SR] ♪ Think about the bubbles ♪
[SR] ♪ You can take your teardrops ♪
[SR] ♪ And drop 'em in a teacup ♪
[SR] ♪ Take 'em down [SR] To the riverside ♪
[SR] ♪ And throw them [SR] Over the side ♪
[SR] ♪ To be swept up by a current ♪
[SR] ♪ Then taken to the ocean ♪
[SR] ♪ To be swallowed by [SR] Some fishes ♪
[SR] ♪ Who were eaten by [SR] Some fishes ♪
[SR] ♪ And swallowed by a whale ♪
[SR] ♪ Who grew so old ♪
[SR] ♪ He decomposed ♪
[SR] I don't mean to say [SR] we're all robots,
[SR] but I wonder [SR] if you had been raised
[SR] the way your mother [SR] had been raised.
[SR] I mean, she had a father [SR] who just took off,
[SR] didn't come home.
[SR] Then another man [SR] entered her mother's life,
[SR] and she became attached to him, [SR] and he bailed out.
[SR] I know what you're saying.
[SR] I did have that same one. [SR] Very similar.
[SR] But... [SR] Okay, well, my question is
[SR] if you had been raised [SR] as your mother had been raised
[SR] do you think [SR] you probably would've
[SR] knocked your kids around too?
[SR] See how many [SR] you catch in your mouth.
[SR] Okay.
[SR] Okay, open.
[SR] Wait. Shh.
[SR] Fuck. [SR] This fucking drunk bitch...
[SR] Put this on my room, please. [SR] It's definitely before 2:00.
[SR] I'm gonna need to see [SR] your ID, ma'am.
[SR] You've never asked [SR] me that before.
[SR] Ma'am, I'm gonna need [SR] to see your ID.
[SR] You really want me to go
[SR] all the way back up to my room,
[SR] get my ID, and come [SR] all the way back down here?
[SR] It's the rule. Aren't you only [SR] on the second floor anyway?
[SR] When is this the fucking rule?
[SR] I have been in here [SR] every single night...
[SR] Maybe I cracked open [SR] the rulebook
[SR] and found some shit out.
[SR] Well, maybe you should [SR] find my ID that's behind...
[SR] Ladies, ladies, ladies...
[SR] -It's the rule, ma'am! [SR] -Ladies!
[SR] -I'm not going back!
[SR] Ladies, whoa, whoa!
[SR] -Ladies, calm it down, bro. [SR] -I'm fuckin' chill.
[SR] It's not that deep.
[SR] She fucking barking at me.
[SR] Just use my ID for it.
[SR] -I can't do that. [SR] -Why not?
[SR] I can't use your ID [SR] for her wine.
[SR] Well then it's my wine, [SR] she's just paying for it.
[SR] She fucking took it.
[SR] Hey!
[SR] What?
[SR] The name's Jamie, by the way.
[SR] Got a light?
[SR] I'm not interested.
[SR] -In what? [SR] -I need to be alone.
[SR] Rude as hell.
[SR] A motherfucking thank you [SR] would've been nice, miss.
[SR] I'm, uh, at the hotel.
[SR] I'm outside just getting [SR] some fresh air.
[SR] I don't like it when [SR] you leave her there by herself,
[SR] even for a second. [SR] It isn't safe.
[SR] I'm just outside for a minute [SR] getting some air.
[SR] The windows don't [SR] open in there.
[SR] To stop everyone from killing [SR] themselves, obviously.
[SR] All right. Yeah, yeah, yeah,
[SR] but what if she wakes up [SR] and she's scared or--
[SR] Well, she never wakes up,
[SR] and anyway, [SR] I have someone at the hotel now.
[SR] -A babysitter. [SR] -Really?
[SR] Where'd you find a babysitter? [SR] Who is it?
[SR] His name's James.
[SR] His name is James? [SR] He's a male babysitter?
[SR] Did you call just to call [SR] me a bad mother, or what?
[SR] You have no idea what it's like [SR] not to be able to go outside
[SR] even for a minute, by yourself.
[SR] You can go outside [SR] whenever you want to.
[SR] You can go [SR] wherever you want to.
[SR] The machine [SR] doesn't fucking stop...
[SR] and there's nothing to do in--
[SR] Hey, I am over here [SR] working my ass off!
[SR] Oh, my God! Who is the one who [SR] went to a baseball game today
[SR] and who is the one who filled [SR] her bag with gloop 500 times,
[SR] saw patients, picked her up,
[SR] had to do dinner where [SR] she only got 20 percent,
[SR] and then had to [SR] try to convince--
[SR] Can we please [SR] not do this?
[SR] Look, I gotta go.
[SR] The reception's really bad here. [SR] Everything's fine.
[SR] No, no, no. Wait, wait, wait. [SR] Did you go to the apart--
[SR] Yes. Yes.
[SR] Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes.
[SR] Here are pics of hole.
[SR] Forgot to send today.
[SR] I went during lunch.
[SR] What is movie...
[SR] ...babies, zombies, [SR] '80s, mothers eating babies?
[SR] Here's what I found.
[SR] A court has reopened...
[SR] ...nine-week-old baby really [SR] was taken and killed by a dingo
[SR] 24 years after Meryl Streep [SR] portrayed the Australian mother
[SR] wrongly jailed [SR] for killing her child.
[SR] Chamberlain has [SR] always insisted...
[SR] What?
[SR] Mom?
[SR] Hello?
[SR] Wake up, Mom. Wake up. Okay.
[SR] Mom. Mom. You hear us?
[SR] Come on, Mom. Snap out of it.
[SR] ♪ If you wanna know this [SR] If you wanna know that ♪
[SR] ♪ Come to my sugar shack ♪
[SR] Hey. Hey, you know [SR] what would be super fun
[SR] and like a really, really [SR] big kid type of thing to do?
[SR] I can't hear you.
[SR] I said, you know [SR] what would be super fun
[SR] and a big kid [SR] type of thing to do?
[SR] What?
[SR] If I drop you [SR] in front of the door
[SR] and you just go in by yourself. [SR] Oh, my God.
[SR] -That would be so cool of you. [SR] -No.
[SR] -Why not? [SR] -All the moms walk you in.
[SR] You're a mom. You have to walk [SR] me in. You have to sign me in.
[SR] Eva! Eva!
[SR] Can you walk her in today? [SR] Please, please, please?
[SR] I cannot deal with the parking.
[SR] Of course. No problem.
[SR] -No problem. [SR] -Thank you.
[SR] Okay. Exciting news. [SR] Guess what? Guess what?
[SR] Eva will walk you in! [SR] Go, go, go.
[SR] Let's go!
[SR] -Mommy, Addie scares me. [SR] -Come on.
[SR] She only eats Nutella. [SR] I need you!
[SR] -To be with you! [SR] -Honey, please. For Mama, okay?
[SR] -Please? Please? [SR] -You are my mom.
[SR] We'll go look at hamsters [SR] today if you do it.
[SR] "Look" at them?
[SR] I'll get you one, okay? [SR] Just go. Go!
[SR] Okay, see? I love you! [SR] I love you, okay?
[SR] Everything's gonna be... [SR] Shit.
[SR] -Hi. [SR] -Hi.
[SR] Shit! Shit! Shit!
[SR] I'm the worst. [SR] I'm the fucking worst!
[SR] And then you told me [SR] that if you touch a baby bird,
[SR] the mama bird will not come back [SR] if they know you touched them.
[SR] Hm. That must have been [SR] some dream.
[SR] -Do you-- [SR] -I'm not done.
[SR] You kissed me.
[SR] I said, you kissed me.
[SR] Yes. I heard you. [SR] In your dream, I kissed you.
[SR] Yeah, and then the [SR] next day, I felt...
[SR] ...crushing guilt.
[SR] And I knew somehow [SR] that your husband
[SR] had called me an asshole.
[SR] You know, Stephen, [SR] we can talk about these feelings
[SR] apart from your dreams.
[SR] But...
[SR] I can't help it if in my dreams [SR] you always want to kiss me.
[SR] What's the difference
[SR] between going outside on hotel [SR] property when she's sleeping...
[SR] ...and going all the way home?
[SR] In one, I guess [SR] I'm just a regular mom
[SR] making a shitty choice,
[SR] and in the other, [SR] I'm a... I'm a...
[SR] a straight up shitty mom.
[SR] Well, it's not my role
[SR] to decide whether you should [SR] or whether you should not...
[SR] -That's not-- [SR] -No, no, no. I shouldn't.
[SR] I know I shouldn't.
[SR] I shouldn't even leave [SR] her for a second.
[SR] I mean, it is your job to say.
[SR] Just tell me not to do it.
[SR] Just tell me what to do.
[SR] I don't think you want me [SR] to tell you what to do.
[SR] You know what to do.
[SR] No one will tell me what to do.
[SR] I'm supposed to know [SR] how to fix this.
[SR] I'm supposed to know [SR] how to fix her.
[SR] What is it you think [SR] it's your job to fix?
[SR] She has to weigh 50 pounds [SR] by next week, Dr. Spring said.
[SR] That's a gain of 2.5 [SR] pounds, right?
[SR] Each day's supposed to be [SR] 2,500 calories in
[SR] compensating for her resting [SR] rate at 1,800 calories burned.
[SR] That's gotta be at least 80% [SR] of each meal for seven days
[SR] plus the tube, and that's [SR] if she just lays still all day.
[SR] And if it doesn't,
[SR] then something about [SR] not getting the tube out
[SR] and reassessing [SR] the level of care.
[SR] -What do I do? [SR] -Tonight...
[SR] I would like you [SR] to get a good night sleep.
[SR] So would I, [SR] but I'm asking you a thing.
[SR] An actual thing, a problem to [SR] fix, and I need help with this.
[SR] Am I supposed to just sit [SR] around and watch her fail
[SR] and this is just gonna [SR] go on forever? What do I do?
[SR] Okay. That means [SR] there's no drinking.
[SR] There's no drugs. There's no...
[SR] Are you listening to me?! [SR] Can you hear me?!
[SR] I'm asking you what [SR] I'm supposed to do!
[SR] Why don't you like me?
[SR] Why don't I like you?
[SR] I know you won't answer me. [SR] Just forget it.
[SR] That is incredibly unfair.
[SR] Why is this so important to you [SR] right now?
[SR] I just want someone [SR] to tell me what to do.
[SR] No one will tell me.
[SR] I love him, [SR] I love him, I love him.
[SR] -When we get home,
[SR] he can live a happy life there.
[SR] And we're gonna have [SR] him forever, and ever, and ever,
[SR] and ever, and ever.
[SR] I love him. I'm gonna kiss him, [SR] and I'm gonna hug him.
[SR] Oh, my God. Maybe [SR] his name should be S'mores.
[SR] That's really nice.
[SR] I said, don't open the box.
[SR] I just wanna see him. [SR] He's been scratching.
[SR] He doesn't like being [SR] in the box.
[SR] He's trying to get out.
[SR] Can you hold it closed, please? [SR] And keep it closed.
[SR] He's scratching me! [SR] He's supposed to love me.
[SR] Close the box.
[SR] I can't.
[SR] Mommy, he's getting out.
[SR] Just hand it to me. [SR] Hand it to me.
[SR] He's gonna jump out.
[SR] -He hates us. [SR] -Give it to me. I can't see.
[SR] Give it to me.
[SR] I think we got [SR] the wrong hamster.
[SR] Shit.
[SR] Ow! Shit.
[SR] -We're gonna die. [SR] -No, we're not gonna die,
[SR] but I have to pull over.
[SR] Ow! Shit!
[SR] -Maybe this isn't S'mores. [SR] -Oh, my God.
[SR] -It's out. It's out! Shit. Shit. [SR] -Oh, my...
[SR] Mommy. Oh, my God. It's out.
[SR] Why aren't you [SR] putting that back in?
[SR] Just put it back in.
[SR] Oh, my God. Oh, my God. [SR] Oh, my God. Oh, my God!
[SR] Please! Put him back in!
[SR] I don't want it. [SR] I don't want him anymore.
[SR] He's bad.
[SR] Okay. Okay, hey, hey, hey.
[SR] You're fine.
[SR] You're fine, and I'm fine, okay? [SR] Nobody is hurt.
[SR] Let's...
[SR] Take it with you! [SR] Take it with you!
[SR] -I'll be right back. [SR] -It's gonna hurt me!
[SR] I hate my hamster!
[SR] -Hey, man. What are you doing? [SR] -Hey, hey, hey.
[SR] Oh. You're lucky [SR] there's no damage.
[SR] We don't have to [SR] exchange information.
[SR] What? My kid is in that car. [SR] Do you hear her crying, huh?
[SR] You scared her to death, [SR] you dick.
[SR] Hey, Mom. [SR] It was barely just a tap.
[SR] Don't fucking call me Mommy. [SR] She thought we were gonna die.
[SR] Don't fuck with me [SR] about my child's safety. Huh?
[SR] -Give me all your information. [SR] -What the fuck is that?
[SR] -What?! [SR] -That! That!
[SR] Mommy!
[SR] Oh.
[SR] Mommy, what happened?! [SR] Mommy!
[SR] I love you. [SR] I miss you. Come back here.
[SR] Everything is under control.
[SR] Stop.
[SR] Do you know that I love you
[SR] and I think you're the best
[SR] and so proud of you [SR] for everything,
[SR] and you can do it, [SR] and you're almost all better.
[SR] -You're so good. [SR] -Mommy, stop.
[SR] What? I can't stop. [SR] I just love you too much.
[SR] You smell like wine.
[SR] Hello?
[SR] Hi, it's... it's Caroline.
[SR] Caroline Primm, your patient.
[SR] I'm sorry it's so late.
[SR] Um... Oh. [SR] Is this an emergency?
[SR] Because, um, [SR] if this is an emergency,
[SR] you need to hang up and--
[SR] It's not an emergency. I just--
[SR] I forgot to call you yesterday.
[SR] What?
[SR] Well, you told me [SR] to take Riley for a walk
[SR] after I took a bath [SR] and calmed down
[SR] and I did it, and I [SR] forgot to call you--
[SR] Oh. Okay, yes. Um...
[SR] Well, uh, that's good, [SR] and, um...
[SR] Uh, I-- I do feel though that I [SR] should tell you that this number
[SR] is really for emergencies [SR] only, okay?
[SR] Oh. I'm sorry. I just...
[SR] I just couldn't sleep [SR] thinking that you were worried.
[SR] I wasn't worried.
[SR] You... You weren't? [SR] You weren't thinking about me?
[SR] I said that you could [SR] call me if you...
[SR] I said you could call me [SR] if you couldn't calm down
[SR] not that you had to call me.
[SR] But, um... [SR] but are you safe, Caroline?
[SR] Are you...?
[SR] I'm... I'm sorry. [SR] I... I misunderstood.
[SR] Yeah, I'm so dumb. Um... [SR] Yes, I'm safe.
[SR] Okay. Well, let's talk about [SR] this in session, okay?
[SR] I'm sorry. [SR] I'm obviously bothering you.
[SR] It is not your fault, uh...
[SR] and I will-- [SR] I'll see you next week.
[SR] Well, can I come in tomorrow?
[SR] It's just waiting [SR] until next week seems too long.
[SR] Uh, well, let me [SR] check my schedule,
[SR] and I will text you a time, [SR] okay?
[SR] Okay. Um, I'm sor--
[SR] You've gotta be fucking [SR] kidding me! Shit!
[SR] Hello?
[SR] Hello!
[SR] Hello! Is anyone here [SR] doing their job?
[SR] Shit.
[SR] Want some help with that?
[SR] I know a trick. Got a knife.
[SR] Sweetie?
[SR] Little Bear, open up. [SR] It's Mommy.
[SR] Little Bear, open up.
[SR] What is she doing?
[SR] Whoa. Whoa, whoa.
[SR] -What the fuck's your problem? [SR] -What? Whoa.
[SR] What, you're obsessed with me [SR] or something?
[SR] What are you talking about? [SR] Don't flatter yourself.
[SR] Well, why are you looking at me? [SR] What? What do you want?
[SR] I don't want you just sitting [SR] outside and by yourself.
[SR] Some creep might walk past [SR] or something.
[SR] What creep?
[SR] How the fuck do I know, lady?
[SR] There's creeps [SR] all over this place.
[SR] -Don't call me lady. [SR] -My bad, miss.
[SR] Don't call me miss. [SR] Don't. Just don't.
[SR] Ma'am.
[SR] -Frau? [SR] -Yeah.
[SR] -Slag. [SR] -Oh, my God.
[SR] Your thottiness?
[SR] Housewife?
[SR] At this point, I don't even know [SR] what to refer to you as.
[SR] I'm gonna just call you female.
[SR] Yo, crazy pants.
[SR] I was gonna partake [SR] in surfing the web
[SR] for some things that I'm into,
[SR] if you catch my drift, and [SR] I'm just putting it out there,
[SR] you more than welcome to join.
[SR] No pressure. Just saying.
[SR] What kind of stuff?
[SR] Is that like [SR] the dark web?
[SR] Like where you can [SR] buy people and stuff?
[SR] I don't know. [SR] Never bought a person, so...
[SR] But you could? Or sell one?
[SR] I mean, I guess so, but [SR] I don't come on the dark web
[SR] searching for that [SR] kind of shit, so...
[SR] Aren't there places on there
[SR] where people, like, show [SR] each other videos of murders
[SR] and people they're [SR] holding captive?
[SR] Can we change the subject? [SR] Let's buy drugs.
[SR] Let's get some...
[SR] ...some shit, right? Come on. [SR] What do you want?
[SR] What are you into?
[SR] I don't know. [SR] Do they have, like...
[SR] cocaine or something?
[SR] When was the last time [SR] you tried cocaine?
[SR] What do you mean? [SR] It's a very popular drug.
[SR] I like it.
[SR] All right. Well, I'm getting [SR] molly, so we'll get both.
[SR] See, the thing is,
[SR] I don't get paid till next week, [SR] so I need you to cover me.
[SR] Oh. Oh, I'm-- No.
[SR] No, no. [SR] I see what this is about.
[SR] -Where you going? [SR] -I'm going back to my room.
[SR] For what? [SR] You don't even have a key.
[SR] Besides, your daughter's [SR] passed out.
[SR] Front desk lady's [SR] definitely in a coma by now.
[SR] Calm down. Come sit down. [SR] Let's order. Jeez.
[SR] I could put it on my [SR] credit card, I guess.
[SR] What? No.
[SR] The 400, I could put [SR] it on my credit card.
[SR] No, no. See, man, [SR] it can't be traced back to you.
[SR] It has to be anonymous.
[SR] Well, then how do you [SR] pay for the stuff?
[SR] All right, what we could do is
[SR] we could go to a pharmacy [SR] or something real quick
[SR] and put it on one of [SR] those gift cards
[SR] or maybe you got bitcoin, or [SR] crypto, or some shit like that?
[SR] No, I don't have [SR] any of that stuff,
[SR] and I can't get in a car
[SR] and leave my daughter alone [SR] in the middle of the night.
[SR] You leave your daughter alone [SR] all the time.
[SR] No, I don't. That's just [SR] if I go in the field.
[SR] Ha! I literally seen you leave [SR] your daughter alone myself
[SR] with my own two eyes.
[SR] -What's the problem this time? [SR] -What are you?
[SR] You stalking me or something?
[SR] I'm a concerned citizen. [SR] I mean, takes a village, right?
[SR] What?
[SR] Sweetie! Sweetie! It's Mommy!
[SR] You locked me out. Sweetie!
[SR] Sweetie! Open the door!
[SR] Little Bear, open the door!
[SR] Mommy...
[SR] Just wheel the machine over [SR] and open the door!
[SR] Little Bear!
[SR] Open the door!
[SR] I locked myself out!
[SR] It's Mom! It's Mommy!
[SR] Mommy?
[SR] Are you there?
[SR] I'm not sure how we can [SR] talk about anything helpful
[SR] if you won't even look [SR] me in the eye.
[SR] You asked me for this [SR] extra session.
[SR] I can't.
[SR] You must be so mad at me.
[SR] Mad? Oh, because you called me?
[SR] No, no, no. I'm not mad at you.
[SR] Let's move on. Please?
[SR] You have a daughter.
[SR] Why didn't you ever tell me?
[SR] Well, this isn't about me.
[SR] But now I know that you know.
[SR] You know.
[SR] I don't know. [SR] You need to tell me.
[SR] It's not your fault.
[SR] But it is mine.
[SR] Okay, you know, Caroline I think [SR] that it may be time that we...
[SR] um...
[SR] ...that we consult with someone
[SR] about some medication for you.
[SR] Well, I can't take medication. [SR] I'm breastfeeding.
[SR] -Do you want me to kill my baby? [SR] -Of course not.
[SR] I just think if a doctor thinks [SR] it could be beneficial,
[SR] then maybe we need to...
[SR] prioritize your... your... [SR] health over breastfeeding.
[SR] Just right now.
[SR] You know, you need to take [SR] care of yourself
[SR] so you can take care of Riley.
[SR] I have to go to the bathroom.
[SR] Um, well, we only have [SR] 15 minutes left.
[SR] I have to go now.
[SR] Okay, well, can you wait [SR] till after the session?
[SR] No?
[SR] Oh... Oh.
[SR] Shit.
[SR] Oh. Okay, okay. Okay.
[SR] Okay.
[SR] Caroline? Excuse me.
[SR] Caroline?
[SR] It's okay.
[SR] Caroline? Excuse me. Caroline?
[SR] I need you [SR] to help me out here. I...
[SR] Okay. I know. I know.
[SR] Caroline?
[SR] Okay. Okay.
[SR] Caroline!
[SR] Yeah. I know.
[SR] What is going on here? [SR] I'm in a session.
[SR] So, my patient, [SR] she has this baby
[SR] and she said she was [SR] going to the bathroom
[SR] and then she left the baby [SR] with me and I...
[SR] -She's gone. And now I can't-- [SR] -I'm with a patient.
[SR] Please, I need your help. [SR] I really need your help.
[SR] I'm with a patient.
[SR] Plus, also, [SR] I'm not your supervisor.
[SR] This is a professional issue. [SR] This is not a treatment issue.
[SR] Are you joking? [SR] This is an emergency!
[SR] Whatever's happening in here
[SR] is not as important [SR] as what I'm going through here!
[SR] -Okay, no. [SR] -I need your help!
[SR] -Goodbye. [SR] -I need your help!
[SR] This is an emergency.
[SR] -You can come back later. [SR] -Absolutely not.
[SR] No!
[SR] Okay.
[SR] -Hello? [SR] -Hello?
[SR] Hello. Hello. Yes.
[SR] Hello, I am [SR] your wife's psychotherapist...
[SR] Stop, I can't...
[SR] and she left today in [SR] the middle of her appointment.
[SR] I cannot hear you. [SR] I cannot hear you. Who is this?
[SR] Okay. Yes. [SR] This is your wife's therapist.
[SR] She left in the middle [SR] of her appointment today...
[SR] -All right. You gotta stop. [SR] -And...
[SR] You gotta stop. I have no idea [SR] what you're even talking about.
[SR] Who is this?
[SR] Is your wife named [SR] Caroline Primm?
[SR] And you are, um...
[SR] Your baby's name is Riley? [SR] And you are Nick Primm?
[SR] -Yes. [SR] -Okay, yes, right. Well--
[SR] My wife doesn't have [SR] a therapist.
[SR] Okay, well, [SR] she has been my patient
[SR] at The Center for [SR] Psychological Arts in Montauk
[SR] since she was about [SR] six months pregnant
[SR] with Riley, and today...
[SR] Well, this is news to me.
[SR] Mm. Well, whether...
[SR] ...you knew that she [SR] was my patient or not,
[SR] what I'm trying to say to you
[SR] is that this is an emergency, [SR] and I really...
[SR] She left your baby here with me,
[SR] and I need you to come [SR] and pick him up.
[SR] What do you mean? [SR] What do you mean?
[SR] What do you mean, [SR] what do I mean?
[SR] She left the baby?
[SR] She's not answering her phone...
[SR] She's probably in the bathroom
[SR] or by a fucking [SR] vending machine.
[SR] Okay.
[SR] I suggest that you call her.
[SR] Maybe she would pick up [SR] if it was you.
[SR] I'm gonna text you my address [SR] to come and get the baby.
[SR] Oh, Jesus Christ!
[SR] I'm sure she's okay. [SR] I'm sure she's okay.
[SR] I cannot even believe this.
[SR] I'm sure she's okay. I'm sure--
[SR] You know what? This is [SR] so fucking typical of her.
[SR] Okay. Well, she probably [SR] just needed some space.
[SR] I'm gonna text you [SR] my address where...
[SR] -so you can come and get her. [SR] -Okay, look. Listen to me.
[SR] -Him. [SR] -Listen to me.
[SR] I'm at work right now. [SR] I am at work right now.
[SR] That's why she's supposed to be
[SR] taking care [SR] of the fucking baby,
[SR] so I can work, okay?
[SR] Here's what I'm gonna do. [SR] I'm gonna text you my address.
[SR] I'm in Amagansett.
[SR] You can drop the baby off [SR] at this address, okay?
[SR] Okay, well, I can't do that,
[SR] and I am actually very [SR] concerned about your wife.
[SR] This is an emergency, and she--
[SR] You know, you've used [SR] that term twice now.
[SR] This isn't my emergency.
[SR] I'm not the one [SR] who lost my fucking wife!
[SR] I need you to come down here [SR] and get your baby immediately,
[SR] and if you're not here [SR] within a half an hour,
[SR] I'm going to call the police. [SR] I will text you the address.
[SR] -Thank you very much. [SR] -Oh, Jesus--
[SR] -Yes? [SR] -Hi, it's Stephen.
[SR] May I come in?
[SR] I'm expecting a patient. [SR] He just buzzed in.
[SR] Would you mind waiting [SR] in my office
[SR] down the hall [SR] just a few moments?
[SR] Your office? [SR] Who are you, the boss?
[SR] No. Just another therapist.
[SR] I have an office. [SR] It's down the hall.
[SR] Door is open. You'll see it.
[SR] This is my time. [SR] She's mine right now.
[SR] You can't make me wait, okay?
[SR] This is an emergency situation.
[SR] You can either wait in my office
[SR] or you need to [SR] leave the building entirely.
[SR] Is that a baby?
[SR] Is that your baby? [SR] You have a baby?
[SR] I mean, do you guys [SR] have a baby together?
[SR] Okay, this situation [SR] does not concern you, okay?
[SR] Make a choice.
[SR] Okay, I'll be in your office.
[SR] But I won't wait that long.
[SR] Okay.
[SR] Wow.
[SR] Can you believe that [SR] I got talked into getting
[SR] this fucking hamster [SR] after all of that? My God, I...
[SR] She's right. I really am [SR] so stretchable.
[SR] -It's disgusting. [SR] -You know...
[SR] when I was in medical school,
[SR] I had to do a stint [SR] in a medical experiments lab.
[SR] And we were testing [SR] the efficacy of a drug on rats.
[SR] Oh, I... So cool.
[SR] And the way it worked is [SR] we'd take the rats,
[SR] and we'd drop them [SR] in this guillotine thingy,
[SR] chop their heads off [SR] individually,
[SR] peel the skin back
[SR] and then look at their brains [SR] under a microscope.
[SR] I'm just so curious
[SR] about the process with that. [SR] I wonder--
[SR] The rats would claw [SR] and bite you...
[SR] ...when you put your hand [SR] in the cage to pick them up.
[SR] So they gave us [SR] these steel chain mail gloves.
[SR] They're German. [SR] They're beautiful.
[SR] So you put on the glove and [SR] you put your hand in the cage,
[SR] and the rats would just [SR] attach themselves to the glove,
[SR] clinging for dear [SR] life, you know?
[SR] And then when you got [SR] to the guillotine box,
[SR] you had to shake them off.
[SR] Really shake them.
[SR] I was always worried [SR] that the rat would get hurt
[SR] when it hit its head on the [SR] guillotine, you know?
[SR] But their brains [SR] were always fine
[SR] when we looked under [SR] the microscope.
[SR] Oh.
[SR] Rodents are [SR] resilient creatures.
[SR] Mm-hm. Yeah.
[SR] I'll tell Stephen [SR] your session's cancelled.
[SR] You have to take care [SR] of this, okay?
[SR] I love you.
[SR] Just tell me, was she suicidal? [SR] Homicidal?
[SR] No. Mm-mm. No.
[SR] No, she was obsessed [SR] with protecting the baby...
[SR] And, uh, yeah.
[SR] She wouldn't hurt the baby.
[SR] And she didn't talk [SR] about suicide.
[SR] She wouldn't abandon Riley.
[SR] She just did abandon him.
[SR] Right, well, you know, [SR] I mean, um...
[SR] you know, permanently. Forever.
[SR] Is that it? [SR] I have another patient waiting
[SR] who really needs my help.
[SR] It's fine. It's more common [SR] than you think.
[SR] A woman tries to run away [SR] from all the responsibilities.
[SR] -Yeah. [SR] -Everybody gets all upset,
[SR] then they come back with [SR] their tails between their legs.
[SR] Okay. Okay.
[SR] Thank you, Officer.
[SR] When [SR] you have finished recording,
[SR] you may hang up or press one [SR] for more options.
[SR] Hi. Hi,
[SR] it's, uh... it's me again,
[SR] your tenant from [SR] 22 Algonquin, unit one.
[SR] You know, the one with the giant [SR] fucking hole in the ceiling!
[SR] Your repairs guy ran off, [SR] and it's getting worse
[SR] and I want to know why [SR] you're doing nothing,
[SR] and why you're happy for [SR] my daughter and I to be staying
[SR] at a flophouse full of freaks
[SR] while I continue [SR] to pay you rent!
[SR] And I have a very, very, [SR] very important patient
[SR] that is a prominent lawyer, [SR] and I am not afraid to--
[SR] Fuck!
[SR] I was after some [SR] Visa gift cards.
[SR] Uh, what denominations [SR] do you have?
[SR] Do you have a minute to talk [SR] before the children come out?
[SR] -Mm-hm. Sure. [SR] -Okay, come.
[SR] So, I've noticed that you still [SR] haven't made the appointment
[SR] for family therapy like [SR] we discussed the other morning.
[SR] I know. It's just been [SR] so crazy at work.
[SR] Right. So I can't stress to you [SR] enough how important this is.
[SR] I'm on your side here.
[SR] Yes. Yes. Yes, I understand.
[SR] We need her off the machine.
[SR] Yeah, so do I.
[SR] Okay. I'm gonna be frank.
[SR] We need her off of it as soon as [SR] possible for her to remain here.
[SR] And to do that, she needs [SR] to gain faster.
[SR] Okay. Well, but we have [SR] until next week, right?
[SR] -The 50 pound goal. [SR] -No.
[SR] The way things are going, uh, [SR] she's not gonna make that goal.
[SR] What are you saying?
[SR] We do weigh-ins every morning. [SR] She's not gonna make the goal.
[SR] Because the goal you set [SR] was impossible.
[SR] We were set up to fail.
[SR] -It's unrealistic. [SR] -No.
[SR] We're gonna have to reassess [SR] the level of care.
[SR] What does that mean?
[SR] Well, we can discuss [SR] it in our meeting.
[SR] You know what I would love, [SR] and think would be so good,
[SR] is if we could get a date [SR] on the calendar for the surgery.
[SR] A concrete goal that we can [SR] all work towards.
[SR] It's not... it's not a surgery.
[SR] The tube removal? Well, uh... [SR] procedure, whatever you call it.
[SR] It's not a procedure either.
[SR] Uh, when it's time to remove it, [SR] the doctor just pulls it out.
[SR] Pull it out?
[SR] Yeah, it just slides out.
[SR] They could just... [SR] really just pull it out?
[SR] Yeah, it's that simple.
[SR] Oh. But what happens [SR] to the hole?
[SR] It closes up on its own.
[SR] Oh.
[SR] It's kinda like when you [SR] get a cut on your tongue.
[SR] It wants to close up.
[SR] Oh.
[SR] Yeah?
[SR] Oh, hi. Uh, is James here?
[SR] Who are you?
[SR] I'm his neighbor. [SR] I'm there, in that room there.
[SR] He is not here.
[SR] Oh, uh, do you know when [SR] he'll be back?
[SR] I just have something [SR] to give him.
[SR] Give it to me.
[SR] -I'll see he gets it. [SR] -No, no.
[SR] I have to give it [SR] to him myself. It's, uh...
[SR] It's of value.
[SR] Of value?
[SR] Uh, yeah. Of value.
[SR] Relax your body.
[SR] Center in with yourself.
[SR] Right now, your only [SR] job is to breathe.
[SR] We're in the work phase [SR] of this...
[SR] The more you relax [SR] your body right now...
[SR] ...the easier it gets for you.
[SR] Recognize we're accessing [SR] the body's wisdom zone.
[SR] Let your mind go.
[SR] See if you can find [SR] your attention
[SR] within the movement [SR] of your breath.
[SR] Start noticing
[SR] any sensation in your body...
[SR] ...and see what catches [SR] your interest
[SR] or your curiosity,
[SR] and hold the space [SR] in a way you want to be held.
[SR] You'll probably notice
[SR] any intensity [SR] builds up in your body.
[SR] That's okay.
[SR] Rather than trying [SR] to control anything,
[SR] see if you can just allow...
[SR] the intensity to...
[SR] You're not helping!
[SR] Hold her legs that way. [SR] Hold her legs down.
[SR] We might have to restrain her.
[SR] -Mom! [SR] -Hold her down!
[SR] You're here [SR] to help us, come on!
[SR] That's not helping at all.
[SR] Mommy!
[SR] Try to help. [SR] Try to help.
[SR] Mommy!
[SR] Make yourself feel safe.
[SR] If things are getting intense,
[SR] recognize [SR] you can hold the space.
[SR] You can love yourself [SR] right now.
[SR] Don't avoid anything within. [SR] Don't abandon yourself.
[SR] Stay connected to yourself.
[SR] See if you can honor yourself
[SR] in this moment [SR] of reconnecting to yourself.
[SR] Use your voice [SR] and imagine your emotion.
[SR] Allow it to be...
[SR] Maybe you can even [SR] do it tonight.
[SR] Down here. This way.
[SR] It's in here. Here.
[SR] Okay, we gotta be quick because [SR] I have to get back, but...
[SR] I just... I just had to show [SR] someone what's going on in here.
[SR] Okay.
[SR] So, a room filled [SR] with plastic tarp everywhere.
[SR] Nice.
[SR] So, is this your kill room?
[SR] No. Come on, I told you.
[SR] The fucking ceiling fell down.
[SR] What the fuck is that?
[SR] That's it. That's the hole.
[SR] That's why I'm at the hotel.
[SR] That's why you're [SR] staying at the fucking hotel?
[SR] Oh, my God. Come on.
[SR] You could've slept on your couch [SR] for a couple of weeks.
[SR] What? Look at it.
[SR] It's been two months, [SR] and they refuse to fix it.
[SR] There's dust and... [SR] and mold everywhere.
[SR] Mm.
[SR] Yo, what is up there?
[SR] They've been [SR] renovating forever.
[SR] -They said a pipe burst. [SR] -Oh, shit.
[SR] It's right there. There you go.
[SR] I did the... that... you know, [SR] the thing, the breath thing.
[SR] What?
[SR] And I think it took me here.
[SR] -I think maybe I... [SR] -Oh, man...
[SR] That's why I wanted [SR] to come to see it.
[SR] Man, you need guidance [SR] with that shit.
[SR] You can't just be doing that.
[SR] -What are you doing? [SR] -Man, they lied to you, sis.
[SR] It ain't even no pipes in here.
[SR] Maybe you shouldn't [SR] get so close to it.
[SR] Shh. Look. Come see.
[SR] It's a clean break. [SR] I'm telling you.
[SR] Oh, my God.
[SR] Oh, my God. What the fuck?
[SR] Man, my cousin Craig [SR] is a general contractor.
[SR] He knows somebody [SR] that knows somebody that can
[SR] -fix this shit in a jiffy, yo. [SR] -Oh, my God.
[SR] It look like you got some
[SR] motherfucking debris [SR] on your furniture.
[SR] You know, I can reupholster it.
[SR] It's gonna cost you.
[SR] Let me go!
[SR] Don't touch me!
[SR] Mommy! Mommy! I don't want it!
[SR] -You are doing such a good job. [SR] -No!
[SR] No! Mommy!
[SR] You gotta hold her [SR] a lot harder than that.
[SR] No! No!
[SR] What the fuck?! [SR] Oh, shit!
[SR] Oh, fuck! Fuck! Fuck!
[SR] Fuck! Oh, fuck!
[SR] James?
[SR] Ah! Fuck! Fuck!
[SR] Fuck!
[SR] Oh, fuck!
[SR] Everybody settle. All right?
[SR] Get started. [SR] Hand out these, please.
[SR] Thank you.
[SR] All right.
[SR] So the topic today is something [SR] that's so fundamental
[SR] that it's actually [SR] a little silly to talk about.
[SR] But it is so important [SR] to your child's recovery,
[SR] and more than that,
[SR] to your ability [SR] to help your child recover.
[SR] Can anybody guess what it is?
[SR] Blame...
[SR] -...and, anybody? [SR] -Shame.
[SR] Yeah, thank you.
[SR] So, as parents, a lot of times
[SR] we look too [SR] closely at ourselves, right?
[SR] And we start to ask ourselves, [SR] is this my fault?
[SR] Could I have done anything [SR] differently?
[SR] What if this? What if that?
[SR] But all it does is create [SR] a thinking trap.
[SR] And that does not [SR] help your child.
[SR] So what I'd like to [SR] do, if we look...
[SR] Melanie...
[SR] do you want to put some [SR] words to your feelings?
[SR] Yeah.
[SR] I...
[SR] Sometimes, I just think [SR] that it is all my fault.
[SR] Do you have something [SR] to say to Melanie?
[SR] No. Whoa, no.
[SR] Never mind. Don't mind me.
[SR] No, no, no. I want to hear [SR] what you have to say.
[SR] Uh...
[SR] I just-- You keep telling us [SR] that it isn't our fault.
[SR] -Yeah. [SR] -Mm. But... but it is.
[SR] Excuse me?
[SR] I mean, if it isn't our fault, [SR] then we're really super fucked.
[SR] We're just walking around [SR] pretending
[SR] we have power [SR] to change something
[SR] that we don't even understand [SR] because it's not our fault,
[SR] but we know how to change it, [SR] even though it's not our fault.
[SR] No, this is actually good.
[SR] This is actually good because [SR] now we have a lot to unpack.
[SR] No, no, no. I know.
[SR] I can't do this. I have to go.
[SR] -Please sit down. [SR] -No, no, no. It's our fault.
[SR] It isn't fair, [SR] but it is our fault.
[SR] That's how I see it. That's it.
[SR] That's what this whole [SR] thing is, is our faults.
[SR] -Stop and sit down. [SR] -No, no, no.
[SR] No, I don't want [SR] to talk about it.
[SR] I already know it, [SR] and I don't have to meet you
[SR] because I know what [SR] you're going to say,
[SR] -which is that she's failed... [SR] -I need you to sit down!
[SR] ...and that I failed [SR] because you set us up to fail.
[SR] No one tries hard [SR] if they have a safety net.
[SR] -Sit down. [SR] -Nobody, okay?
[SR] And you should know [SR] that, Dr. Spring.
[SR] I'm gonna be here [SR] for the rest of my life
[SR] pouring shit down that tube.
[SR] -Every night until I die. [SR] -Do not leave that door!
[SR] And none of this is helping [SR] any of us. None of it.
[SR] Come back!
[SR] Hey! [SR] Hey, why are you calling?
[SR] Isn't a parent group [SR] going on right now?
[SR] I couldn't sit there. [SR] I'm in the car.
[SR] I'll pick her up later, [SR] but I can't stay there.
[SR] What do you mean [SR] you couldn't sit there?
[SR] I can't do it. [SR] I can't do it.
[SR] She's gotta get better, but [SR] she's not gonna make the goal,
[SR] and I-- I don't know [SR] what's gonna happen now.
[SR] You need [SR] to get back in there.
[SR] The hole is getting bigger.
[SR] What hole? [SR] Her tube hole?
[SR] -No! No, the apartment hole! [SR] -You told me--
[SR] The goddamn hole!
[SR] Why can't you just keep tabs [SR] on those guys?
[SR] Because the guy's gone [SR] for a week.
[SR] There's no one working on it.
[SR] What?! A week?! When [SR] were you gonna mention that?
[SR] I'm telling you now.
[SR] It's very complicated [SR] to explain over the phone.
[SR] Look, look, look. No, no, no.
[SR] Just-- just
[SR] -send me pictures... [SR] -No!
[SR] ...and I'll have somebody [SR] take care of it.
[SR] No, no, no. No more pictures. [SR] I'm not going back there.
[SR] I'm never going back there. [SR] And I talked to Roscoe...
[SR] -What are you talking about? [SR] -...and he's so full of shit.
[SR] He's not doing anything. [SR] And by the way,
[SR] I think he has a deal with the [SR] motel because there's another--
[SR] Okay. Stop, stop, stop, okay? [SR] Let me just get this straight.
[SR] You aren't going into [SR] the program anymore,
[SR] and you aren't going [SR] into our apartment anymore?
[SR] -That's right. [SR] -Why?
[SR] How do you expect anything [SR] to get back to normal then?
[SR] It won't.
[SR] What are you talking about?!
[SR] It won't!
[SR] All right. Are you...
[SR] are you in your right mind now? [SR] Are you done?
[SR] Also, there's a woman missing.
[SR] What? Who? What are you... [SR] Who's missing?
[SR] My patient. She's missing.
[SR] She left and she's not picking [SR] up her phone, and she's--
[SR] Oh, okay. Okay. [SR] Yeah, let's take a deep breath.
[SR] -Start from the beginning. [SR] -No, no, no.
[SR] I can't talk to you about this.
[SR] Why aren't you going [SR] back into the group?
[SR] I'll just talk to [SR] my therapist later. I-- This--
[SR] This is fine. [SR] Everything's fine.
[SR] Hey, hey. [SR] Slow down. Slow down.
[SR] Everything's fine.
[SR] How many times a week [SR] do you see that guy?
[SR] I just looked in the bank [SR] accounts. How often--
[SR] -Every day. Every day. [SR] -Every day?! Come on!
[SR] -Hold on. Hold on. Hold on. [SR] -That's costing us a fortune!
[SR] No sitting idle in vehicles. [SR] Please move the car or yourself.
[SR] I have a right to sit in my car [SR] without you harassing me!
[SR] -What [SR] -Yeah.
[SR] Are you talking to somebody?
[SR] Yeah, [SR] there's this creepy asshole
[SR] who's harassing me [SR] every fucking day!
[SR] He harasses me. [SR] He's obsessed with me.
[SR] He's back at my window [SR] wanting something!
[SR] What are you talking about?
[SR] Are you going to leave [SR] the parking lot
[SR] or get out of your car!
[SR] Oh, my God! Are you serious?
[SR] -I will call the police! [SR] -Oh, my God! Yeah, yeah, yeah.
[SR] -Call the police. [SR] -Move!
[SR] Call the police. Yeah, I'm gonna [SR] call the police on you!
[SR] I never want [SR] to see you here again!
[SR] Oh, my God!
[SR] You're harass-- [SR] This is harassment!
[SR] Anything in particular [SR] keeping you silent right now?
[SR] The fact that I want to be [SR] silent is keeping me silent.
[SR] -I think-- [SR] -This isn't about you.
[SR] What I mean is I--
[SR] I mean, I pay for your time.
[SR] Right? So I can do [SR] anything I want with that time,
[SR] and right now...
[SR] I just want to lay here [SR] without you talking.
[SR] Well, you did not have to [SR] come here for that.
[SR] Go lie on your own couch.
[SR] Do you wish I lied on my own [SR] couch instead of coming here?
[SR] All I'm saying is [SR] you chose not to be alone.
[SR] Oh, I'm alone.
[SR] No, you're not alone. I'm here.
[SR] But no, you aren't. Not really.
[SR] -What we can do-- [SR] -Can we just not?
[SR] Seriously.
[SR] Okay.
[SR] Do you know what?
[SR] Did I ever tell you [SR] that I was pregnant before?
[SR] Like, I've been pregnant twice.
[SR] I never tell anyone this.
[SR] It was when Charles and I [SR] were first dating and, um...
[SR] I got an abortion [SR] right away, like...
[SR] I took a pregnancy test
[SR] and then just went to [SR] a random clinic the next day.
[SR] I got the surgical kind [SR] with the vacuum thing.
[SR] And it...
[SR] hurt really badly, like...
[SR] A nurse held my hand.
[SR] And for some reason,
[SR] I didn't realize [SR] how badly it would hurt but...
[SR] ...it really did.
[SR] Yeah, it was almost [SR] 20 years ago.
[SR] I'd have a kid in college [SR] by now if I hadn't done that.
[SR] Maybe I got rid [SR] of the wrong one.
[SR] Why won't you say anything?
[SR] I can't breathe.
[SR] You don't get it. [SR] You don't see.
[SR] You... you love to tell me [SR] I don't get it.
[SR] What is it you think [SR] I don't get?
[SR] What is it you're so sure...
[SR] I can't help you with?
[SR] I'm one of those people that's [SR] not supposed to be a mom.
[SR] I'm not a mom. I'm not.
[SR] This isn't supposed to be [SR] what it's like.
[SR] This isn't it. [SR] This can't be it.
[SR] Will you say something?!
[SR] Not everyone can do it. [SR] I can't...
[SR] Do you have any kids?
[SR] Do you have a kid!?
[SR] Hello!
[SR] Why won't you talk to me?! [SR] Why won't you help me?!
[SR] I know what you're doing...
[SR] ...and I can't have it.
[SR] What am I doing?
[SR] This isn't working.
[SR] What do you mean?
[SR] We can't see [SR] each other anymore.
[SR] I got here early.
[SR] You'll have to wait outside.
[SR] Uh, look,
[SR] I don't know why [SR] you aren't answering your cell,
[SR] but Dr. Spring called and--
[SR] It's Dr. Spring.
[SR] You cannot bring your daughter [SR] here for further treatment
[SR] until we have--
[SR] You are too much, you know?
[SR] You are... I'm gonna--
[SR] Hey, thanks for checking in.
[SR] In case you forgot,
[SR] my wife still happens [SR] to be fucking missing.
[SR] You know, I don't know [SR] what kind of number--
[SR] What the fuck?
[SR] You...
[SR] You mentioned [SR] an aphorism from the Bible
[SR] about a millstone. [SR] Would you say what that is?
[SR] That it's better to tie a stone [SR] around your neck
[SR] and throw yourself into the sea
[SR] than to cause anyone [SR] to stumble-- stumble.
[SR] All right, let me [SR] make sure I'm getting that.
[SR] It's better to tie a millstone [SR] around your neck
[SR] and throw yourself in the sea [SR] rather than to do what?
[SR] Cause someone [SR] to stumble. Stumble.
[SR] To cause [SR] someone to stumble? Okay.
[SR] What were you trying [SR] to accomplish there
[SR] when you did take your [SR] children's lives?
[SR] ...all women, [SR] all Gen Z group think.
[SR] Like, what are your thoughts?
[SR] And?
[SR] Hello?
[SR] Yeah. Mm-hm. Mm-hm.
[SR] Mm-hm.
[SR] That is totally [SR] unbelievable, right?
[SR] That's completely unbelievable. [SR] All of it.
[SR] -But Dr. Spring said-- [SR] -I don't care what she said.
[SR] I'm telling you,
[SR] I had a work emergency [SR] and I couldn't stay.
[SR] I had to leave. [SR] It isn't my fault.
[SR] I came right back to pick you up [SR] when I was supposed to
[SR] like I always do. [SR] I just-- I just--
[SR] I just couldn't stay [SR] for the group, but, you know...
[SR] I work with [SR] a lot of very sick people,
[SR] -honey, and sometimes they are-- [SR] -Sicker than me?
[SR] Sick in a different [SR] way than you.
[SR] -But Dr. Spring said-- [SR] -I told you,
[SR] I don't care what she said.
[SR] I'm your mother.
[SR] She loves me though. [SR] She said so.
[SR] She said that?
[SR] She loves all of us. The kids.
[SR] She has no right to [SR] tell you that. She's a doctor.
[SR] -She doesn't have a right-- [SR] -It's true, though!
[SR] You know, I don't think we need [SR] the program anymore.
[SR] -I'm better? [SR] -Yeah. I think maybe, yeah.
[SR] Maybe we...
[SR] we just do it, you and me.
[SR] What would happen?
[SR] Uh... So many [SR] wonderful things. You would...
[SR] You'd be able [SR] to get the tube out,
[SR] and you could go back to school
[SR] and you'd be eating everything [SR] delicious in the whole word.
[SR] Wouldn't that be great?
[SR] You can do that?
[SR] Do what?
[SR] Make me better? [SR] I won't need the machine?
[SR] Well...
[SR] I'm better? They said that?
[SR] I think, maybe.
[SR] You know, and...
[SR] And if not, then [SR] we'll just do it, you know?
[SR] You're better than you were,
[SR] and Dr. Spring's [SR] not the boss of us.
[SR] Mommy?
[SR] Yeah?
[SR] I'm really [SR] sorry, but I'm not better.
[SR] Please don't be mad or sad [SR] that I said that.
[SR] Hello?
[SR] There's someone here
[SR] who wants to see you [SR] in the lobby.
[SR] What? Who?
[SR] Won't say. Come down or don't.
[SR] Thanks for checking on me.
[SR] Oh, you would not believe [SR] the day I had, honestly.
[SR] After you just left me [SR] all alone,
[SR] abandoned in your [SR] spooky-ass apartment,
[SR] with my bone sticking [SR] out my leg.
[SR] I called you an ambulance.
[SR] No big deal.
[SR] What else did you expect me [SR] to do?
[SR] It's really painful.
[SR] I had to get back here [SR] to my kid, okay?
[SR] Mother of the fucking year. [SR] I almost forgot.
[SR] I don't care.
[SR] And what exactly [SR] am I supposed to do
[SR] with your brick of cocaine?
[SR] -Flush it. [SR] -Okay.
[SR] It must be nice.
[SR] Why didn't they give [SR] you any crutches?
[SR] Fuck them crutches.
[SR] It's... It is you!
[SR] You-- you're here.
[SR] I hope that's okay.
[SR] I accidentally followed you [SR] this one time, and...
[SR] You live here?
[SR] Are... are you okay?
[SR] -I'm okay. [SR] -Okay. Okay.
[SR] Where did you go?
[SR] I just... [SR] I-- I had to get out of there.
[SR] -Okay, I understand. So, let's-- [SR] -Do you?
[SR] Do you really, [SR] really understand?
[SR] I think so.
[SR] Oh, shit. No. This is...
[SR] This is a mistake.
[SR] This is a mistake [SR] because I thought...
[SR] I thought that you understood,
[SR] and that [SR] I wouldn't even have to say--
[SR] Let's calm down.
[SR] I think what we should do [SR] is get in a car right now
[SR] and go straight [SR] to the emergency room.
[SR] A hospital?
[SR] -Yes. [SR] -Why? Why?
[SR] Because [SR] it's just a safe place to go...
[SR] Why? Why? No, I'm fine.
[SR] ...if you don't feel ready [SR] to go home.
[SR] Well, what about your daughter?
[SR] -My daughter? [SR] -Where is your daughter?
[SR] She's upstairs. She's sleeping.
[SR] I don't want to go [SR] to a hospital.
[SR] I don't want to [SR] go to a hospital.
[SR] Okay.
[SR] I want you to help me.
[SR] I'm trying to.
[SR] -I am trying to help you. [SR] -Please help me.
[SR] No, no, because you [SR] don't understand.
[SR] You don't see it. [SR] All of their faces.
[SR] Their little faces. [SR] They look at us,
[SR] -and there is nothing there. [SR] -Okay, you need to calm down.
[SR] -No! No! [SR] -You need to calm down.
[SR] No, I am fine! Okay?
[SR] -But I just need you... [SR] -Let's just breathe.
[SR] -No, but you don't know... [SR] -Just breathe.
[SR] In and out, Caroline.
[SR] Just take a breath.
[SR] -Just breathe with me. [SR] -Stop.
[SR] Just start with a breath.
[SR] Caroline, wait!
[SR] Stop!
[SR] Caroline!
[SR] If this is an emergency,
[SR] hang up and call 911.
[SR] Otherwise, call back [SR] during normal business hours.
[SR] Okay, call me back.
[SR] Call me back tonight, okay?
[SR] Please? Please, you said [SR] that you could help me.
[SR] Please. Please, just [SR] call me back, okay?
[SR] I need you. Bye.
[SR] Mommy?
[SR] Go back to sleep. [SR] Everything's okay.
[SR] My tummy is wet.
[SR] Sh-sh-sh. It's okay. [SR] I made it better, okay?
[SR] Go back to sleep.
[SR] Hello?
[SR] Oh!
[SR] Why are you here?
[SR] Are you okay?
[SR] Where...
[SR] When did you get here? [SR] Why are you here?
[SR] Where is she?
[SR] She's asleep.
[SR] -With the babysitter? [SR] -Yes.
[SR] Look, I just...
[SR] I couldn't think. [SR] I couldn't function.
[SR] I couldn't do anything.
[SR] All I was doing was thinking [SR] about you,
[SR] and her, and the apartment
[SR] so I had to come back. [SR] I was scared.
[SR] -I wanted to help. [SR] -Wait, wait, wait. Wait, I--
[SR] What? You just gotta [SR] know how to talk to these guys.
[SR] That's all.
[SR] Did you look at it, the hole? [SR] Did you see it?
[SR] Did you see anything?
[SR] Oh, yeah. No, it, uh... [SR] It was not fixed.
[SR] Now it's fixed.
[SR] Okay. Okay, I think we should [SR] just... Let's just go now.
[SR] I just don't see [SR] how it got so bad.
[SR] How did it get so bad?
[SR] Are you trying to blame me?
[SR] No, I'm not blaming you. [SR] I just...
[SR] I just want to get out of here.
[SR] -It was a huge hole. [SR] -I want to get out of here.
[SR] Do you love me?
[SR] Yeah.
[SR] -Hey, hey. Wait, wait, wait. [SR] -What?
[SR] What's the rush?
[SR] You were the one who was [SR] in a rush to get back here.
[SR] I don't want [SR] to be here anymore.
[SR] We are here, all right?
[SR] Let's relieve the babysitter. [SR] I'm exhausted.
[SR] I want to get to sleep,
[SR] and I'm excited to see her [SR] even if she's sleeping.
[SR] I know, but why don't [SR] you go downstairs
[SR] and get us some wine [SR] or something
[SR] and I can relieve the sitter
[SR] and then you can come [SR] back up and then we can...
[SR] What's going on? [SR] What's going on?
[SR] There's nothing going on.
[SR] Open the door.
[SR] -Me? [SR] -I don't have a key.
[SR] Right, yeah. Okay.
[SR] Oh, God. Don't tell me [SR] you left her here
[SR] -without having a key. Come on. [SR] -No, no, no. No.
[SR] Of course, I have a key. [SR] What do you think I am?
[SR] Hey. I'm her dad. I'm Charles.
[SR] Nice to meet you. [SR] You must be the babysitter.
[SR] -Babysitter? [SR] -Yeah, James, right?
[SR] -Jamie, right. [SR] -Oh, thank you for...
[SR] Oh, hell no.
[SR] I'm not doing this [SR] shit with you, yo.
[SR] Not doing what? [SR] What are you talking about?
[SR] I'm not a fucking [SR] babysitter, dude.
[SR] Excuse me?
[SR] Your daughter woke up [SR] and was crying, scared shitless.
[SR] So I pounded on the fucking door [SR] till she finally opened it.
[SR] I had to tell her [SR] I was a friend of your wife.
[SR] Bro, it took me forever [SR] to get her to go to sleep.
[SR] And by the way, [SR] I had to give her a Band-Aid.
[SR] She has some shit oozing [SR] from her stomach or something.
[SR] Hey. Okay, okay, hold on. [SR] Hold on.
[SR] -Listen, who the fuck are you... [SR] -Watch the leg, man.
[SR] ...and what the hell [SR] are you doing in my room?
[SR] -Your room? [SR] -Yeah. This is my wife.
[SR] That's my child.
[SR] -Mommy? [SR] -My room.
[SR] I just fucking told you [SR] who I was,
[SR] and you need to ask your wife [SR] why I got this cast on my leg.
[SR] It's-- I don't... [SR] -Who is this guy?
[SR] -He's the babysitter. [SR] -He's not the babysitter!
[SR] He just told me [SR] he's not the babysitter.
[SR] I don't know [SR] what he's talking about.
[SR] -Who the fuck is he? [SR] -She's awake.
[SR] Can we just go inside?
[SR] She can hear everything [SR] you're saying.
[SR] Can you even explain to me [SR] why her machine is off
[SR] and the tube [SR] is outside of her body?
[SR] Daddy! Are you out there?
[SR] -I ain't in this shit, man. [SR] -Come see me!
[SR] -Let's go inside. [SR] -Daddy! Daddy!
[SR] Hey. Hey. Lookit. Yes, hi.
[SR] Daddy's home!
[SR] Mom said we didn't need [SR] the program anymore.
[SR] Oh, my gosh. [SR] Look at you! You're beautiful.
[SR] But I didn't believe her [SR] because Dr. Spring said I do.
[SR] -But look, she was right! [SR] -What? What are you saying?
[SR] -Look! No tube! [SR] -What?
[SR] The tube is garbage now.
[SR] I can go back to school!
[SR] Oh, my God.
[SR] -Oh, my God. [SR] -But Daddy...
[SR] I still don't want to [SR] eat food...
[SR] What...
[SR] -...because it's too squishy. [SR] -What's going on?
[SR] Will you take me [SR] to the playground tomorrow?
[SR] What did you do?
[SR] What did you do?!
[SR] Mommy!
[SR] Don't touch me!
[SR] Mommy!
[SR] Mommy, I'm here.
[SR] Mommy, please!
[SR] Mommy!
[SR] Please!
[SR] ♪ Sit beside [SR] The breakfast table ♪
[SR] ♪ Think about your troubles ♪
[SR] ♪ Pour yourself a cup of tea ♪
[SR] ♪ Then think about [SR] The bubbles ♪
[SR] Mommy?
[SR] I'll be better. I promise.
[SR] I'll be better.
[SR] ♪ Sit beside [SR] The breakfast table ♪
[SR] ♪ Think about your troubles ♪
[SR] ♪ Pour yourself a cup of tea ♪
[SR] ♪ Then think [SR] About the bubbles ♪
[SR] ♪ You can take your teardrops ♪
[SR] ♪ Drop them in a teacup ♪
[SR] ♪ Take them down [SR] To the riverside ♪
[SR] ♪ And throw them [SR] Over the side ♪
[SR] ♪ To be swept up by a current ♪
[SR] ♪ Then taken to the ocean ♪
[SR] ♪ To be eaten by some fishes ♪
[SR] ♪ Who were eaten by [SR] Some fishes ♪
[SR] ♪ Swallowed by a whale ♪
[SR] ♪ Who grew so old ♪
[SR] ♪ He decomposed ♪
[SR] ♪ Doo-doo ♪
[SR] ♪ He died and left his body ♪
[SR] ♪ To the bottom of the ocean ♪
[SR] ♪ Now everybody knows ♪
[SR] ♪ That when a body decomposes ♪
[SR] ♪ The basic elements ♪
[SR] ♪ Are given back to the ocean ♪
[SR] ♪ And the sea does [SR] What it oughta ♪
[SR] ♪ And soon [SR] There's salty water ♪
[SR] ♪ Not too good for drinking ♪
[SR] ♪ 'Cause it tastes [SR] Just like a teardrop ♪
[SR] ♪ So they run it [SR] Through a filter ♪
[SR] ♪ It comes out from a faucet ♪
[SR] ♪ And it pours into a teapot ♪
[SR] ♪ Which is just about [SR] To bubble ♪
[SR] ♪ Now ♪
[SR] ♪ Think about your troubles ♪