1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:00:51,217 --> 00:00:53,762         (PROJECTOR WHIRRING)         4 00:00:59,434 --> 00:01:02,145        MISS CARMEN: Why should             we care that you make it?      5 00:01:03,438 --> 00:01:06,107         I don't care if y'all             don't care if I do make it.     6 00:01:09,652 --> 00:01:13,198          This is my journey.             It's not nobody else journey.    7 00:01:13,239 --> 00:01:15,992         Nobody's gonna walk,                 walk with these shoes        8 00:01:16,076 --> 00:01:17,410           I got on my feet.          9 00:01:17,452 --> 00:01:20,413        Only one that can walk               with these shoes is me.       10 00:01:22,624 --> 00:01:23,583                Simple.               11 00:01:23,625 --> 00:01:25,960      MISS CARMEN: You don't want           nobody to walk with you?       12 00:01:26,002 --> 00:01:27,754              Of course.              13 00:01:27,796 --> 00:01:29,881         You can hold my hand.        14 00:01:29,923 --> 00:01:32,175           You can look back                    from a distance.           15 00:01:36,805 --> 00:01:39,265         You still won't feel                     what I feel.             16 00:01:40,391 --> 00:01:42,811      You still won't look at it             from my point of view.        17 00:01:44,062 --> 00:01:46,272    When everybody got an opinion,    18 00:01:46,564 --> 00:01:47,816             judgement...             19 00:01:48,525 --> 00:01:50,151           Like they God...           20 00:01:51,152 --> 00:01:52,487                 Okay.                21 00:01:53,154 --> 00:01:54,531                 Okay.                22 00:02:03,206 --> 00:02:05,667      (MELANCHOLIC MUSIC PLAYING)     23 00:02:11,256 --> 00:02:12,715             (BABY COOING)            24 00:02:21,599 --> 00:02:23,351            (GIA SHUSHING)            25 00:02:30,859 --> 00:02:33,236         (GIA CLICKING TONGUE)        26 00:02:37,407 --> 00:02:42,662     It's okay, baby. Okay, okay.                    Ready?                27 00:02:43,705 --> 00:02:45,415             (BABY COOING)            28 00:02:52,881 --> 00:02:54,257         (GIA SOFTLY CHUCKLES)        29 00:03:33,463 --> 00:03:35,924        (INDISTINCT CHATTERING)       30 00:03:37,300 --> 00:03:39,302                (SIGHS)               31 00:03:39,385 --> 00:03:41,971             -(BABY CRIES)                 -(CAMERA SHUTTER CLICKING)      32 00:03:49,312 --> 00:03:50,813        (CAMERA SHUTTER CLICKS)       33 00:03:52,440 --> 00:03:54,817          (CAR ENGINE STARTS)         34 00:03:58,988 --> 00:04:00,323      (THEN YOU CAN TELL ME GOODBYE                  PLAYING)               35 00:04:00,365 --> 00:04:02,992           Kiss me each morning       36 00:04:04,077 --> 00:04:08,665           For a million years        37 00:04:11,084 --> 00:04:14,128           Hold me each evening       38 00:04:14,170 --> 00:04:17,340               By your side           39 00:04:21,928 --> 00:04:24,847           Tell me you love me        40 00:04:24,889 --> 00:04:27,350             For a million...         41 00:04:27,976 --> 00:04:29,811             A million years          42 00:04:31,646 --> 00:04:37,151      - Then if it don't work out         - If it don't work out...     43 00:04:37,193 --> 00:04:38,987     MAN 1: Man, shut the fuck up                  with that.              44 00:04:39,070 --> 00:04:40,363     MAN 2: I'm serious, I swear.     45 00:04:40,405 --> 00:04:41,489      It was more like matriphagy                 or some shit.            46 00:04:41,531 --> 00:04:43,116      MAN 1: What? What is that?      47 00:04:43,199 --> 00:04:44,617     MAN 2: Bro, I'm telling you.           Like, the mom gives birth      48 00:04:44,659 --> 00:04:46,327      and then she feeds herself                 off to the baby           49 00:04:46,411 --> 00:04:48,162      till there's nothing left.                  It was crazy.            50 00:04:48,204 --> 00:04:50,373          Nigga, there ain't               no crab spiders in the Bay.     51 00:04:50,456 --> 00:04:52,333          On my mama there is                    in my backyard.           52 00:04:52,417 --> 00:04:53,751     Nah, cuz. I'm not buying it.     53 00:04:53,835 --> 00:04:55,211        I'm telling you, it was             the most sacrificial shit      54 00:04:55,253 --> 00:04:56,671           -I've ever seen.                        -Hell, nah.             55 00:04:56,713 --> 00:04:58,298         GIA: This was opened                   when I found it.           56 00:04:58,381 --> 00:04:59,507       It's missin' some pieces.      57 00:04:59,590 --> 00:05:01,884     I can only give you 15% off.     58 00:05:02,385 --> 00:05:03,720              MAN 1: Yes.             59 00:05:03,761 --> 00:05:05,805          That'll be $29.75.          60 00:05:05,847 --> 00:05:08,057           (MEN CHATTERING)           61 00:05:09,350 --> 00:05:11,519           (KEYPAD BEEPING)           62 00:05:12,020 --> 00:05:13,688        Your card is declined.        63 00:05:14,188 --> 00:05:16,190       GIA: Just put $28 on it.       64 00:05:16,232 --> 00:05:17,942        -(CASH REGISTER WHIRS)                   -(COINS JINGLE)           65 00:05:17,984 --> 00:05:19,360              Thank you.              66 00:05:21,321 --> 00:05:23,531          (COINS CLATTERING)          67 00:05:26,075 --> 00:05:28,578        (HIP HOP MUSIC PLAYING                   ON CAR STEREO)            68 00:05:31,998 --> 00:05:34,417          (CAR HORN BLARING)          69 00:05:46,304 --> 00:05:48,765     (CAR HORN CONTINUES BLARING)     70 00:05:50,808 --> 00:05:51,934             (MUSIC STOPS)            71 00:05:52,018 --> 00:05:53,102               (EXHALES)              72 00:05:56,856 --> 00:05:59,067        (PHONE KEYPAD BEEPING)        73 00:06:01,319 --> 00:06:03,529               -(SIGHS)                          -(LINE RINGING)           74 00:06:03,613 --> 00:06:05,239                -Hello?                          -JASMINE:   Gia,            75 00:06:05,281 --> 00:06:07,617         they're already waiting.               How long will it take                      to get here?            76 00:06:07,700 --> 00:06:09,118            Traffic's bad.                      Can you tell 'em           77 00:06:09,202 --> 00:06:10,578        -I'll be a little late?                      -How late?             78 00:06:10,620 --> 00:06:14,123           AUTOMATED VOICE:                    Your balance is $2.49.       79 00:06:14,207 --> 00:06:15,625             Make a payment.           80 00:06:15,708 --> 00:06:18,669        TREY: Make another one,                  curve it again.           81 00:06:18,711 --> 00:06:22,131               (SNIFFS)                   And then you use the yellow.     82 00:06:22,173 --> 00:06:23,549       (CHALK WRITING ON BOARD)       83 00:06:23,591 --> 00:06:27,553            Swirl it around                    and use the green.          84 00:06:28,137 --> 00:06:29,472             (TREY SNIFFS)            85 00:06:37,939 --> 00:06:39,565             (GIA EXHALES)            86 00:06:40,358 --> 00:06:41,651               (KISSES)               87 00:06:42,652 --> 00:06:44,946      -GIA: (WHISPERS) You okay?                     -Yeah.                88 00:06:45,029 --> 00:06:47,031      TREY: Let's sit. Let's sit.     89 00:06:47,115 --> 00:06:48,783          All right, come on.         90 00:06:51,411 --> 00:06:52,829        Hey, you want to feel?        91 00:06:55,915 --> 00:06:58,126     -(WHISPERS) Do you feel that?                   -Yeah.                92 00:07:00,420 --> 00:07:02,463           (IN NORMAL VOICE)                I got something for you.       93 00:07:07,218 --> 00:07:09,095            Could wear 'em                     all together, see?          94 00:07:09,178 --> 00:07:11,055           (BREATHES DEEPLY)          95 00:07:11,764 --> 00:07:15,017      When you look on the back,         you can see what your mood is.    96 00:07:15,309 --> 00:07:16,644                 Okay?                97 00:07:19,188 --> 00:07:21,107       Are they nice to you guys                in the new place?          98 00:07:21,190 --> 00:07:23,192                -Yeah.                               -Yeah?                99 00:07:23,818 --> 00:07:27,530     Okay. See, Mama got you guys              sticking together.          100 00:07:28,656 --> 00:07:30,241    You taking care of each other?    101 00:07:30,283 --> 00:07:31,659                 Yeah.                102 00:07:32,827 --> 00:07:33,995               Shaynah?               103 00:07:37,248 --> 00:07:38,749         Shaynah, you at least                  gonna look at me?          104 00:07:38,833 --> 00:07:41,544         -(CRAYON SCRIBBLING)                       -(SNIFFS)              105 00:07:42,753 --> 00:07:45,673    (SIGHS) What's going on, baby?    106 00:07:48,301 --> 00:07:49,886       Is it 'cause I was late?       107 00:07:55,349 --> 00:07:56,893        (WHISPERS) Play, okay?        108 00:07:58,394 --> 00:07:59,979              (GIA SIGHS)             109 00:08:04,692 --> 00:08:06,235        (IN NORMAL VOICE) Hmm?        110 00:08:12,700 --> 00:08:14,243          (GIA SIGHS HEAVILY)         111 00:08:15,828 --> 00:08:17,038               Shaynah.               112 00:08:19,290 --> 00:08:20,583               Shaynah.               113 00:08:25,421 --> 00:08:26,756                Listen.               114 00:08:30,051 --> 00:08:31,761          I'm trying my best.         115 00:08:34,639 --> 00:08:36,724         This is not so easy.         116 00:08:37,558 --> 00:08:39,227          But I'm right here.         117 00:08:41,562 --> 00:08:42,939             I'm here now.            118 00:08:44,565 --> 00:08:45,566               Shaynah.               119 00:08:45,608 --> 00:08:47,818       Don't be like that Mama.                    Look at me.             120 00:08:47,902 --> 00:08:49,987       JASMINE: How's it going,                  Shaynah, Trey?            121 00:08:50,029 --> 00:08:51,113               Shaynah?               122 00:08:52,990 --> 00:08:54,116               Shaynah?               123 00:08:54,659 --> 00:08:56,911           Shaynah? Shaynah?          124 00:08:56,994 --> 00:08:57,703                 Shh.                 125 00:08:57,745 --> 00:08:59,539       JASMINE: Everything okay,                    sweetie?               126 00:08:59,622 --> 00:09:00,790      What are you saying to her?     127 00:09:00,873 --> 00:09:04,043               Shaynah.                    At least say, "Bye, Mama."      128 00:09:04,418 --> 00:09:05,753               Shaynah.               129 00:09:18,474 --> 00:09:20,309        JASMINE: Come on, Trey.       130 00:09:20,351 --> 00:09:22,353             -(TREY SOBS)                     -She'll be back soon.        131 00:09:22,395 --> 00:09:23,938        He doesn't want to go.        132 00:09:25,231 --> 00:09:26,899        JASMINE: Come on, now.        133 00:09:26,941 --> 00:09:30,152            -Come on, now.                -He doesn't want to go, see?     134 00:09:30,778 --> 00:09:32,280        JASMINE: Come on, now.        135 00:09:37,201 --> 00:09:38,744            Come on, Trey.            136 00:09:39,453 --> 00:09:41,247             -(GIA SIGHS)                            -Okay.                137 00:09:52,758 --> 00:09:55,928          (BREATH TREMBLING)          138 00:09:56,470 --> 00:09:58,848         (TENSE MUSIC PLAYING)        139 00:10:00,683 --> 00:10:02,977                (SIGHS)               140 00:10:06,480 --> 00:10:08,274               (SNIFFS)               141 00:10:21,537 --> 00:10:23,414       JASMINE: Your DSR hearing                  is next week             142 00:10:23,456 --> 00:10:24,624        on Friday at 3:00 p.m.        143 00:10:24,707 --> 00:10:26,292             I'm curious.                     What are your plans?         144 00:10:26,375 --> 00:10:27,585               For what?              145 00:10:27,627 --> 00:10:30,087      We're still completing your          reunification requirement.      146 00:10:30,129 --> 00:10:31,631                -So...                              -So what?              147 00:10:31,714 --> 00:10:33,507           (PAPERS RUSTLING)          148 00:10:33,549 --> 00:10:35,551      You started this case plan                   a year ago.             149 00:10:35,593 --> 00:10:36,844     Now there's four months left,    150 00:10:36,927 --> 00:10:39,347             six if I ask                      for some more time.         151 00:10:39,722 --> 00:10:41,849              (GIA SIGHS)             152 00:10:41,932 --> 00:10:44,810             Ms. Jasmine,                   I'm here for every visit.      153 00:10:44,894 --> 00:10:47,021        I've passed every test.       154 00:10:47,855 --> 00:10:49,148       I've gone to every class                  you put me in.            155 00:10:49,231 --> 00:10:50,900         Gia, you've been late                on several occasions.        156 00:10:50,983 --> 00:10:54,362        You've yet to complete            a successful home assessment.    157 00:10:54,445 --> 00:10:55,946           And you've missed                 child support payments.       158 00:10:55,988 --> 00:10:58,616             Ms. Jasmine,                  I can't get any more hours      159 00:10:58,699 --> 00:11:01,160        with all of the courses             y'all are making me take.      160 00:11:01,243 --> 00:11:03,204         So how am I supposed                to pay for all of that?       161 00:11:03,245 --> 00:11:05,414     I'll try to ensure this child            remains in the home,         162 00:11:05,498 --> 00:11:06,832            at least while                    you're breastfeeding.        163 00:11:06,916 --> 00:11:08,501        But unless you complete                   the program,             164 00:11:08,542 --> 00:11:11,003      I can't guarantee the child           will remain in the home.       165 00:11:11,879 --> 00:11:13,130     Your children need stability     166 00:11:13,172 --> 00:11:14,674          and at the moment,                 we haven't seen enough.       167 00:11:14,715 --> 00:11:15,883     What more do you need to see?    168 00:11:15,925 --> 00:11:18,177           Have you finished                the housing application?       169 00:11:18,219 --> 00:11:19,220               Not yet.               170 00:11:19,261 --> 00:11:20,680      Look, we're here to ensure      171 00:11:20,763 --> 00:11:22,765          the best interests                   for your children.          172 00:11:22,807 --> 00:11:24,058             All you need                are three more certificates...    173 00:11:24,141 --> 00:11:25,810             I don't need                     no fuckin' gold star         174 00:11:25,851 --> 00:11:27,436      to tell me I'm a good mom.      175 00:11:32,942 --> 00:11:34,568       If the courts require us                   to intervene,            176 00:11:34,610 --> 00:11:35,820      are there any other family                     members               177 00:11:35,903 --> 00:11:37,238          that can look after                      this child?             178 00:11:37,279 --> 00:11:38,698     -Someone we could recommend?           -'Cause I got no choice,       179 00:11:38,739 --> 00:11:40,616      but to be a single parent.      180 00:11:40,658 --> 00:11:41,992         I'm getting punished                     for that too?            181 00:11:42,076 --> 00:11:45,371        Gia, I don't need your              disrespect in my office.       182 00:11:45,955 --> 00:11:47,748        Now, if you don't mind?       183 00:11:48,207 --> 00:11:49,750              (GIA SIGHS)             184 00:12:17,445 --> 00:12:18,779                  Oh.                 185 00:12:22,700 --> 00:12:24,952           (EXHALES HEAVILY)          186 00:12:25,703 --> 00:12:28,372        I swear his little ass                  gonna come early.          187 00:12:28,414 --> 00:12:30,082           (TRINA CHUCKLES)           188 00:12:30,166 --> 00:12:32,626           Okay. How was it?          189 00:12:32,710 --> 00:12:34,003              Talk to me.             190 00:12:35,212 --> 00:12:36,505            It's draining.            191 00:12:38,340 --> 00:12:40,176        You'll get 'em back, G.       192 00:12:40,926 --> 00:12:43,846            That's not what                   my caseworker saying.        193 00:12:43,888 --> 00:12:46,807         Don't listen to what                 your caseworker said.        194 00:12:46,849 --> 00:12:49,518       Miss C got her kids back                  after how long?           195 00:12:49,602 --> 00:12:51,061          Twenty-four months?         196 00:12:51,687 --> 00:12:54,273       Wouldn't you rather that               than nothing at all?         197 00:12:54,315 --> 00:12:56,734         Sometimes that's just                 how this shit work.         198 00:12:56,776 --> 00:13:00,362      You got to play their game.          And do what you got to do.      199 00:13:03,073 --> 00:13:06,327            -(CAR STARTING)                    -I got some tacos.          200 00:13:07,536 --> 00:13:09,997        (INDISTINCT CHATTERING)       201 00:13:11,207 --> 00:13:12,750               Hey, boo.              202 00:13:12,833 --> 00:13:16,003             WOMAN 1: Man,             there's like 30 condoms in here.  203 00:13:18,714 --> 00:13:20,883      WOMAN 2: Well, well, well.      204 00:13:22,051 --> 00:13:24,261    TRINA: You real slick, Miss C.    205 00:13:24,345 --> 00:13:25,554        Yeah. Thank you, Jesus.       206 00:13:25,596 --> 00:13:27,014     Miss Carmen, what you trying                 to say today?            207 00:13:27,097 --> 00:13:29,183        WOMAN 3: I mean, damn,             how much fucking you think      208 00:13:29,225 --> 00:13:30,768         we about to be doing,                    Miss Carmen?             209 00:13:30,851 --> 00:13:32,019              -(LAUGHTER)                          -That part.             210 00:13:32,061 --> 00:13:33,979       No, maintain family size,                 remember that.            211 00:13:34,063 --> 00:13:36,649     I mean, I can try to help you          get your kids back home,       212 00:13:36,690 --> 00:13:38,901        but I can't if you keep            multiplying the household.      213 00:13:38,943 --> 00:13:40,486     WOMAN 4: Oh, okay, because...           MISS CARMEN: All right,       214 00:13:40,528 --> 00:13:41,779         let's get going here.        215 00:13:41,862 --> 00:13:44,198        (INDISTINCT CHATTERING)       216 00:13:46,742 --> 00:13:47,827     MISS CARMEN:   How do you think    217 00:13:47,910 --> 00:13:50,538              she feels,                    when you call her "Mom"?       218 00:13:50,621 --> 00:13:54,208              Can't tell                      if she's disappointed        219 00:13:55,000 --> 00:13:57,878         or embarrassed by me.        220 00:13:59,797 --> 00:14:02,216        She has that blank look                   on her face.             221 00:14:02,675 --> 00:14:04,260             Just ices me.            222 00:14:06,428 --> 00:14:08,681       It's as if me being there      223 00:14:08,722 --> 00:14:11,225         makes her feel worse                    about herself.            224 00:14:12,393 --> 00:14:15,062     TRINA:   At the end of the day,                that's my mama.           225 00:14:16,188 --> 00:14:18,566        And that's gonna always                    be my mama.             226 00:14:21,235 --> 00:14:24,947         But you can't choose               your parents... You know?      227 00:14:27,241 --> 00:14:28,576                 So...                228 00:14:30,369 --> 00:14:31,579           it is what it is.          229 00:14:32,872 --> 00:14:36,417       MISS CARMEN: Do you think                 speaking to her           230 00:14:37,668 --> 00:14:40,129    about how you feel would help?    231 00:14:44,341 --> 00:14:45,593             No, I don't.             232 00:14:46,844 --> 00:14:48,262              She's busy.             233 00:14:54,435 --> 00:14:59,607         Her addiction created                an anxiety inside me.        234 00:15:00,983 --> 00:15:02,443              And, um...              235 00:15:03,444 --> 00:15:06,572     That anxiety has been passed               down to my child.          236 00:15:08,782 --> 00:15:11,285         And I don't know how                 to save her from it.         237 00:15:14,622 --> 00:15:16,498     I'm scared to lose her to it.    238 00:15:18,834 --> 00:15:22,588          Instead of healing,                     I ignored it.            239 00:15:22,963 --> 00:15:24,465            Covered it up.            240 00:15:26,759 --> 00:15:28,594           Used substances,           241 00:15:29,053 --> 00:15:30,638          so I wouldn't feel.         242 00:15:32,348 --> 00:15:36,977       I used so much that when             I stopped, I had to learn      243 00:15:37,561 --> 00:15:39,605          how to feel again.          244 00:15:42,524 --> 00:15:44,151            It's not easy.            245 00:15:52,826 --> 00:15:54,286                 Gia.                 246 00:15:55,621 --> 00:15:57,289            What about you?           247 00:16:03,087 --> 00:16:04,546           MISS CARMEN: No?           248 00:16:06,799 --> 00:16:08,092                 Okay.                249 00:16:08,133 --> 00:16:09,843          When you're ready.          250 00:16:09,885 --> 00:16:11,345         Well, we have someone                   new here today.           251 00:16:11,387 --> 00:16:14,306         Why don't you come up               and introduce yourself?       252 00:16:19,645 --> 00:16:21,772        Hi, I'm... I'm Alexis.        253 00:16:21,855 --> 00:16:26,318         Um, I'm from Fresno,                California, originally.       254 00:16:27,611 --> 00:16:28,862                And...                255 00:16:28,946 --> 00:16:30,114             (GIA SCOFFS)             256 00:16:30,155 --> 00:16:31,490      TRINA: There's nothing like                a rambling-ass            257 00:16:31,573 --> 00:16:33,117      white bitch to piss me off.     258 00:16:33,158 --> 00:16:35,577        TRINA: Gia, I don't get              why you act like that.        259 00:16:37,121 --> 00:16:39,039            Act like what?            260 00:16:39,123 --> 00:16:41,208           You got to start                   speaking up in class.        261 00:16:41,250 --> 00:16:42,918          And pretend, like,                  you paying attention         262 00:16:43,002 --> 00:16:44,795            or these people                    gonna write you up.         263 00:16:44,878 --> 00:16:46,130             And you know                      that's the only way         264 00:16:46,171 --> 00:16:48,215           your court report                    is gonna change.           265 00:16:51,051 --> 00:16:52,845            I'm just trying                     to help you out.           266 00:16:52,886 --> 00:16:54,304        GIA: Well, you're not.        267 00:16:54,388 --> 00:16:57,057              (R&B MUSIC                     PLAYING ON CAR STEREO)        268 00:16:59,852 --> 00:17:01,562           (CHUCKLES SOFTLY)          269 00:17:01,603 --> 00:17:03,188     GIA: What are you smiling at?    270 00:17:03,230 --> 00:17:05,566        (SUCKS TEETH) Nothing.        271 00:17:05,607 --> 00:17:07,109              He's dumb.              272 00:17:08,610 --> 00:17:09,778                Nobody?               273 00:17:10,029 --> 00:17:12,448              No. Nobody.             274 00:17:13,991 --> 00:17:16,118             I don't know                   why you're being all shy.      275 00:17:16,201 --> 00:17:18,245           (SCOFFS) I'm not.          276 00:17:19,663 --> 00:17:21,623              -How long?                        -(CLICKS TONGUE)           277 00:17:23,250 --> 00:17:26,003     Uh, probably about 12 inches.    278 00:17:26,045 --> 00:17:29,006     I ain't even gonna hold you.                  (CHUCKLES)              279 00:17:29,089 --> 00:17:31,925      For real, though. How long            you been talking to him?       280 00:17:31,967 --> 00:17:34,011           It's been, like,                    a couple of months.         281 00:17:34,053 --> 00:17:36,055          A couple of months               and you ain't told me shit?     282 00:17:36,138 --> 00:17:40,267    Yes, a couple of months, 'cause      I don't need you judging me.     283 00:17:41,727 --> 00:17:42,811               Whatever.              284 00:17:44,354 --> 00:17:46,774     Whoever it is, just make sure        they don't leave you hanging     285 00:17:46,815 --> 00:17:48,317          like the last one.          286 00:17:48,692 --> 00:17:50,069                 Damn!                287 00:17:50,110 --> 00:17:52,196      This is exactly why I don't            tell you nothing, Gia.        288 00:17:52,237 --> 00:17:54,156           Because you don't                      trust nobody.            289 00:17:54,198 --> 00:17:55,365        You're right. I don't.        290 00:17:55,449 --> 00:17:56,909     Eventually, you're gonna meet                 a real one              291 00:17:56,992 --> 00:17:59,036              and realize                   not every man is a nigga.      292 00:17:59,078 --> 00:18:01,038                Right.                293 00:18:01,080 --> 00:18:04,750        I just think right now,              you're just too tense.        294 00:18:04,792 --> 00:18:07,169             You just need                      to be gripped up,          295 00:18:07,211 --> 00:18:09,588        flipped over, clapped.        296 00:18:09,630 --> 00:18:13,133             -(BOTH LAUGH)                 -And thrashed. Like, relax.     297 00:18:13,217 --> 00:18:14,885              -No thanks.                           -(LAUGHS)              298 00:18:14,927 --> 00:18:16,553         I'd rather be single               for the rest of my life.       299 00:18:16,595 --> 00:18:18,972            At least I know                   what to expect, then.        300 00:18:19,014 --> 00:18:20,599            (TRINA SCOFFS)            301 00:18:20,641 --> 00:18:21,725       Now, you and I both know       302 00:18:21,809 --> 00:18:23,393              that's some                     depressing-ass shit.         303 00:18:23,727 --> 00:18:25,187             Stop, please.            304 00:18:25,229 --> 00:18:27,523               -(LAUGHS)                       -GIA: I'm serious.          305 00:18:27,606 --> 00:18:30,150         It's the last mistake                 that I wanna make.          306 00:18:31,026 --> 00:18:33,695             Look, friend,                  it's not even a mistake.       307 00:18:33,737 --> 00:18:37,866       God was just looking down          and wanted to bless your ass.    308 00:18:42,538 --> 00:18:44,790    But he need to be blessing you               with a new car.           309 00:18:44,873 --> 00:18:46,834      -This shit raggedy as hell.                   -(LAUGHS)              310 00:18:48,877 --> 00:18:50,671        (INDISTINCT CHATTERING)       311 00:18:50,754 --> 00:18:52,131           TRINA: You ready?          312 00:18:52,214 --> 00:18:55,259       -(INDISTINCT CHATTERING)                 -TRINA: Three...           313 00:18:55,342 --> 00:18:57,052     EARL: Hey, ma, check it out.                 SHORT: Yeah.             314 00:18:57,136 --> 00:18:58,637         Yeah, I know you went              shopping for me, though.       315 00:18:58,720 --> 00:19:00,556     EARL: Hold on, listen. That's       a new, little top you wearing?    316 00:19:00,597 --> 00:19:02,474       SHORT: Why are you always               looking like that?          317 00:19:02,516 --> 00:19:04,268          -GIA: No, I'm cool.                   -You sure, Mama?           318 00:19:04,351 --> 00:19:05,477         GIA: Yeah, I'm good.         319 00:19:05,519 --> 00:19:07,020         ERAK: At least smile                     for somebody.            320 00:19:07,104 --> 00:19:08,522       AMES: You know damn well               she don't never smile        321 00:19:08,605 --> 00:19:10,065          -with her mean ass.              -EARL: Hella boosie though.     322 00:19:10,107 --> 00:19:11,275                JAMES:                      Always trippin' and shit.      323 00:19:11,358 --> 00:19:12,860          All right, just...                    Just chill, man.           324 00:19:12,901 --> 00:19:14,153             Chill, bruh.                      Ya'll hella hyphy.          325 00:19:14,194 --> 00:19:15,612            EARL: Nah, man.                    Hey, check it out.          326 00:19:15,696 --> 00:19:17,364     JAMES: It's always something              with these females.         327 00:19:17,447 --> 00:19:18,699      EARL: Got a janky attitude.     328 00:19:18,740 --> 00:19:20,534        SHORT: Take a long walk               off a short bridge...        329 00:19:20,617 --> 00:19:22,494      EARL: Ooh, look back at it          again. With an ass like that.    330 00:19:22,536 --> 00:19:24,121              -Like that.                      -SHORT: Yeah, man.          331 00:19:24,204 --> 00:19:26,206      JAMES: You peeking but you             ain't speaking though.        332 00:19:26,248 --> 00:19:27,833              (LAUGHTER)              333 00:19:27,916 --> 00:19:29,543           MEL: Stop playin'                     with them, bro.           334 00:19:29,626 --> 00:19:30,961       EARL: I just want to see                if you want to hit          335 00:19:31,003 --> 00:19:32,254          the bottle or not.          336 00:19:32,296 --> 00:19:33,589          Why you actin' like                you don't know nobody?        337 00:19:33,672 --> 00:19:35,382          -SHORT: Kick rocks.                    -You know what?           338 00:19:36,133 --> 00:19:37,885             You're always                    talking a lot of shit        339 00:19:37,926 --> 00:19:39,261              for a bunch                    of little-assed niggas        340 00:19:39,344 --> 00:19:42,139     -who ain't getting no pussy.                    -Uh-uh.               341 00:19:42,181 --> 00:19:44,057     -With them dusty-assed dicks.                 -SHORT: Oh.             342 00:19:44,099 --> 00:19:46,018       EARL: Nigga's just trying               to love you, girl.          343 00:19:46,101 --> 00:19:47,686      -JAMES: She talking to you.           -She ain't talking to me.      344 00:19:47,728 --> 00:19:50,355     She talkin' to y'all. I don't        know what you talkin' about.     345 00:19:51,315 --> 00:19:53,025    ARI: They always talking shit.    346 00:19:53,066 --> 00:19:55,402         (ARI CHUCKLES SOFTLY)        347 00:19:58,071 --> 00:20:00,824        TRINA: You see they got             new partners now, right?       348 00:20:00,866 --> 00:20:01,992              ARI: Cute?              349 00:20:02,075 --> 00:20:03,785         TRINA: Not your type.              ARI: And what's my type?       350 00:20:03,869 --> 00:20:05,871          -Niggas with money.                       -(LAUGHS)              351 00:20:05,954 --> 00:20:08,457         -I missed you, babe.                   -ARI: I miss you.          352 00:20:11,126 --> 00:20:12,628            Let me see, G.            353 00:20:16,048 --> 00:20:19,092      Shit, already this too much                    for me?               354 00:20:19,176 --> 00:20:22,262    I love you, but you're on your          own with this one, girl.       355 00:20:22,763 --> 00:20:23,931               I'm out.               356 00:20:26,391 --> 00:20:29,019            -ARI: Hey, sis.                      -(DOOR CLOSES)            357 00:20:29,061 --> 00:20:31,021            I'm gonna need                      the car tomorrow.          358 00:20:31,063 --> 00:20:33,315            Keys and stereo                       in the front.            359 00:20:34,942 --> 00:20:36,735         ARI: You're probably                   gonna need this.           360 00:20:38,320 --> 00:20:39,655              Thank you.              361 00:20:41,406 --> 00:20:43,992    (MUFFLED HIP-HOP MUSIC PLAYING               OVER SPEAKERS)            362 00:21:09,059 --> 00:21:10,602            ARI: You good?            363 00:21:11,144 --> 00:21:12,479                 Yeah.                364 00:21:17,818 --> 00:21:19,361                 Shit.                365 00:21:22,322 --> 00:21:24,533         (CELL PHONE RINGING)         366 00:21:24,616 --> 00:21:26,618            ARI: (ON PHONE)                    Hey, what you need?         367 00:21:27,411 --> 00:21:30,414            I got you for 90.                       Where you at?            368 00:21:30,455 --> 00:21:32,374            WOMAN: (ON TV)                 The mother sacrifices herself    369 00:21:32,416 --> 00:21:36,044       by laying into her children          and pressing against the web,    370 00:21:36,128 --> 00:21:38,505        encouraging their instinct                     to hunt.              371 00:21:39,423 --> 00:21:42,843       The baby spiders then swarm               over their mother...        372 00:21:44,219 --> 00:21:47,681             MAN: (ON TV)                      ...up to 3,500 years.        373 00:21:48,265 --> 00:21:50,684        From this fallen redwood,      374 00:21:51,184 --> 00:21:53,020            new sprouts grow.          375 00:21:54,104 --> 00:21:56,148       These twisted knots of wood     376 00:21:56,231 --> 00:21:58,358        nourish a vast root system     377 00:21:58,400 --> 00:22:03,363       that has spanned generations         and generations of human life.  378 00:22:03,447 --> 00:22:05,866      (MELANCHOLIC MUSIC PLAYING)     379 00:22:53,663 --> 00:22:56,416        (INDISTINCT CHATTERING                    IN DISTANCE)             380 00:23:05,550 --> 00:23:08,595           -(GIRL EXCLAIMS)                       -Okay, good.             381 00:23:08,929 --> 00:23:10,472         How about the dress?         382 00:23:11,139 --> 00:23:12,557              All right.              383 00:23:13,308 --> 00:23:15,811         -MEL: I'mma get you.                    -(BOY SQUEALS)            384 00:23:17,979 --> 00:23:19,064            (BOY EXCLAIMS)            385 00:23:19,147 --> 00:23:20,982             (MEL GROANS)             386 00:23:24,611 --> 00:23:26,613            -(BOY EXCLAIMS)                      -(GIRL SQUEALS)           387 00:23:28,365 --> 00:23:30,158           GIRL: She's dead.          388 00:23:30,867 --> 00:23:35,664         GIA: Just been tryna                    figure it out.            389 00:23:36,456 --> 00:23:38,458       They took 'em last year.       390 00:23:39,584 --> 00:23:41,545               -Oh, man.                             -So...                391 00:23:41,628 --> 00:23:42,838              -You know.                             -Yeah.                392 00:23:42,921 --> 00:23:45,006     GIA: What about you, though?                Where you been?           393 00:23:45,841 --> 00:23:48,802               -San Jo.                   -Feel like it's been forever.    394 00:23:49,886 --> 00:23:51,221                 Yeah.                395 00:23:51,263 --> 00:23:53,223         Well, I was supposed                 to come back but, uh,        396 00:23:53,306 --> 00:23:55,183         well, Moms got sick.         397 00:23:55,976 --> 00:23:57,477         Damn, she all right?         398 00:23:59,104 --> 00:24:00,647                 Mm...                399 00:24:01,314 --> 00:24:02,983         About a month ago...         400 00:24:04,484 --> 00:24:07,946       I went out a little later                   than usual.             401 00:24:07,988 --> 00:24:09,698       And, yeah, the next day,       402 00:24:09,781 --> 00:24:13,410              I woke up,                       lined up her meds,          403 00:24:13,452 --> 00:24:15,745        and walked in the room        404 00:24:15,829 --> 00:24:19,666     and she was completely still,          face down on the pillow.       405 00:24:20,542 --> 00:24:22,169               (EXHALES)              406 00:24:23,920 --> 00:24:25,172            So I came back.           407 00:24:27,132 --> 00:24:28,550          Are you all right?          408 00:24:31,094 --> 00:24:33,054                -Yeah.                           -Are you sure?            409 00:24:34,639 --> 00:24:37,684     Short and his girl let me in,                    so...                410 00:24:39,769 --> 00:24:41,688          MEL: What you doing                    Saturday, Mama?           411 00:24:41,730 --> 00:24:43,356     GIA: I don't know. What's up?    412 00:24:43,398 --> 00:24:45,025       I think there's gonna be                    a function.             413 00:24:45,066 --> 00:24:46,401          Do you wanna come?          414 00:24:46,485 --> 00:24:47,694           Maybe. We'll see.          415 00:24:47,736 --> 00:24:50,197         Well, I'll be around.                    Let me know.             416 00:24:50,280 --> 00:24:51,698            GIA: All right.           417 00:24:53,575 --> 00:24:55,702               -Thanks.                           -MEL: Mm-hm.             418 00:24:56,411 --> 00:24:58,830         (MELLOW MUSIC PLAYING                   OVER SPEAKERS)            419 00:25:17,599 --> 00:25:19,226        GIA: I like your dress.       420 00:25:19,935 --> 00:25:21,186              Thank you.              421 00:25:25,315 --> 00:25:27,734       (CAMERA SHUTTER CLICKING)      422 00:25:30,445 --> 00:25:32,072     What do you think about this?    423 00:25:32,822 --> 00:25:35,158      BROTHER: Yeah, I like that.     424 00:25:35,242 --> 00:25:37,202         Okay, red one it is.         425 00:25:40,539 --> 00:25:43,291    -MAN 1: Yeah, I like that one.                   -Okay.                426 00:26:05,605 --> 00:26:07,816              (WHISPERS)                     Okay, come on in, sis.        427 00:26:09,317 --> 00:26:10,527           (IN NORMAL VOICE)                We're just gonna have you      428 00:26:10,610 --> 00:26:11,570         right in the center.         429 00:26:11,611 --> 00:26:13,113         You can come forward.        430 00:26:14,030 --> 00:26:15,740              Okay. Good.             431 00:26:19,369 --> 00:26:21,830            Gonna have you                 place your hands like this.     432 00:26:21,913 --> 00:26:25,083    Okay? No pressure, but just...                    Nice.                433 00:26:25,166 --> 00:26:28,086         Come on in. I'm gonna               have you on this side.        434 00:26:30,213 --> 00:26:31,798          Maybe a hand here.          435 00:26:33,300 --> 00:26:36,344        Hmm, never mind. Come.        436 00:26:37,721 --> 00:26:39,264            This one here.            437 00:26:40,140 --> 00:26:42,976         Do whatever makes you               feel comfortable, okay?       438 00:26:45,312 --> 00:26:47,147      Why don't you just ask him?     439 00:26:48,773 --> 00:26:50,609            I hate begging.           440 00:26:50,692 --> 00:26:51,818      I don't think it's begging.     441 00:26:51,901 --> 00:26:54,863         I mean, you work here                  15 hours a week.           442 00:26:56,239 --> 00:26:58,033         You should be honest.        443 00:26:58,074 --> 00:27:00,994        He's not gonna deny you            when you're this pregnant.      444 00:27:02,912 --> 00:27:04,831              -We'll see.                          -We'll see.             445 00:27:05,999 --> 00:27:07,125                 Okay.                446 00:27:08,001 --> 00:27:09,044                  Hi.                 447 00:27:12,005 --> 00:27:14,716         -Uh, we prefer cash.                      -I got you.             448 00:27:16,760 --> 00:27:17,969       So my friend over there?       449 00:27:18,053 --> 00:27:21,139    She think you're kind of cute,                so what's up?            450 00:27:21,222 --> 00:27:23,850               Mm, okay.              451 00:27:25,560 --> 00:27:28,355           -What's her name?                     -Her name Naia.           452 00:27:29,522 --> 00:27:32,859         Beautiful. (CHUCKLES)        453 00:27:37,280 --> 00:27:39,407               Hey. Hi.               454 00:27:39,741 --> 00:27:42,494       Um, I was just wondering       455 00:27:42,577 --> 00:27:45,914     is there any way I could get                a $100 advance?           456 00:27:47,040 --> 00:27:48,541       I just don't want my baby                   coming out              457 00:27:48,625 --> 00:27:50,418      with no clothes or nothing.     458 00:27:51,252 --> 00:27:52,420                Please?               459 00:27:54,214 --> 00:27:56,424         (TRAIN HORN BLARING)         460 00:27:58,927 --> 00:28:01,262          (CHILDREN LAUGHING                AND PLAYING IN DISTANCE)       461 00:28:35,714 --> 00:28:38,216         (TRAIN HORN BLARING)         462 00:29:04,033 --> 00:29:06,077     WOMAN 1: I can't believe it.            Is that your stroller?        463 00:29:06,161 --> 00:29:07,579        WOMAN 2: The grey one?                     Yeah. Why?              464 00:29:07,662 --> 00:29:08,747               WOMAN 1:                  That woman just took something    465 00:29:08,788 --> 00:29:09,831        out of the back of it.        466 00:29:09,914 --> 00:29:11,291           WOMAN 2: Really?                      WOMAN 1: Yeah.            467 00:29:15,920 --> 00:29:17,505          WOMAN 2: Excuse me?         468 00:29:18,631 --> 00:29:20,216              Excuse me.              469 00:29:20,633 --> 00:29:22,177        WOMAN 1: Hello, ma'am.        470 00:29:22,510 --> 00:29:24,137          WOMAN 2: Excuse me.         471 00:29:25,305 --> 00:29:26,473                 Stop.                472 00:29:26,556 --> 00:29:28,308      Are you fucking kidding me?     473 00:29:36,149 --> 00:29:37,317                 Hey!                 474 00:29:38,443 --> 00:29:40,487            (ENGINE STARTS)           475 00:30:02,300 --> 00:30:03,968          (KNOCKING ON DOOR)          476 00:30:04,010 --> 00:30:05,136        GIA: (GASPS) Oh, fuck.        477 00:30:05,220 --> 00:30:07,931          (RAP MUSIC PLAYING                     OVER SPEAKERS)            478 00:30:08,014 --> 00:30:10,016     (KNOCKING ON DOOR CONTINUES)     479 00:30:28,868 --> 00:30:30,620         (TRINA GROANS SOFTLY)        480 00:30:30,703 --> 00:30:33,414          You saw I snuck you                 some extra taquitos?         481 00:30:35,333 --> 00:30:36,501        You're welcome, bitch.        482 00:30:36,918 --> 00:30:39,379      (MELANCHOLIC MUSIC PLAYING)     483 00:30:39,921 --> 00:30:41,589     MISS CARMEN:   In this program,    484 00:30:41,673 --> 00:30:44,843       we focus on your anxiety                and why it results          485 00:30:44,884 --> 00:30:48,137           in uncontrollable                   impulse reactions.          486 00:30:48,179 --> 00:30:51,266         Because addicts must               recognize their triggers       487 00:30:51,349 --> 00:30:55,603       if they want to take back             control of their lives.       488 00:30:55,645 --> 00:30:57,689            I've seen most                     of you here before.         489 00:30:57,730 --> 00:30:59,607       And some of you are new.       490 00:30:59,691 --> 00:31:03,987           And I've seen you                 make the same mistakes.       491 00:31:04,028 --> 00:31:06,948      But the truth is you won't               be able to graduate         492 00:31:07,031 --> 00:31:10,618     from this program unless you        start to practice self-control.  493 00:31:10,660 --> 00:31:12,078             TALIA: Talia.            494 00:31:23,798 --> 00:31:25,133              Forty-six.              495 00:31:31,806 --> 00:31:34,142          -What's your name?                      -Gia Wilson.             496 00:31:36,394 --> 00:31:39,272          (URINATING, STOPS)          497 00:31:52,493 --> 00:31:53,620                (SIGHS)               498 00:31:59,626 --> 00:32:01,628           (TOILET FLUSHES)           499 00:32:12,388 --> 00:32:13,514             (DOOR CLOSES)            500 00:32:23,483 --> 00:32:26,986       TREY:   Make another line,                   curve it again.           501 00:32:27,070 --> 00:32:28,613              -(SNIFFLES)                        -TREY:   And then           502 00:32:28,655 --> 00:32:30,448           you use the yellow.         503 00:32:31,783 --> 00:32:33,534             Swirl it around.          504 00:32:33,618 --> 00:32:35,328            And use the green.         505 00:32:51,052 --> 00:32:55,014     MISS CARMEN: Imagine lowering          yourself into the earth.       506 00:32:57,183 --> 00:33:00,186               (EXHALES)                      The people around you        507 00:33:01,479 --> 00:33:02,730            supporting you.           508 00:33:04,190 --> 00:33:06,484         That thought running                     in your head?            509 00:33:10,405 --> 00:33:11,531              It's okay.              510 00:33:15,368 --> 00:33:18,746      It's not driving. You are.                 You're driving.           511 00:33:19,831 --> 00:33:21,958               And then,                    this bitch had the nerve       512 00:33:22,000 --> 00:33:24,585              to tell me                      to take the placenta         513 00:33:25,253 --> 00:33:26,963        and digest it as pills.       514 00:33:27,005 --> 00:33:28,339          WOMAN 1: The fuck?                      WOMAN 2: Oh.             515 00:33:28,423 --> 00:33:30,758       ALEXIS: Isn't it supposed           to be good for your system?     516 00:33:30,800 --> 00:33:32,135    That's some white people shit.    517 00:33:32,176 --> 00:33:34,387       WOMAN 3: Well, I bet you             all our ancestors did it.      518 00:33:34,429 --> 00:33:36,514            My nana told me               to bury it outside the house.    519 00:33:36,597 --> 00:33:39,058         It's like getting rid            of an evil twin or some shit.    520 00:33:39,142 --> 00:33:40,727               WOMAN 4:                      Do you hear this shit?        521 00:33:40,768 --> 00:33:42,895    TRINA: No. That is disgusting.    522 00:33:42,937 --> 00:33:45,189          (BREATH TREMBLING)          523 00:33:45,231 --> 00:33:48,234     Have you ever helped anybody            with an open adoption?        524 00:33:49,444 --> 00:33:50,570                I have.               525 00:33:51,988 --> 00:33:55,742         And for some people,             it's the best of both worlds.    526 00:33:55,783 --> 00:33:59,412         Finding a safe place                     for your kids            527 00:33:59,495 --> 00:34:01,873          and also being able                     to see them.             528 00:34:01,914 --> 00:34:05,793            But obviously,                that's not an easy decision.     529 00:34:07,086 --> 00:34:08,421               No shit.               530 00:34:10,006 --> 00:34:12,300        And it can be difficult                 for some parents.          531 00:34:12,341 --> 00:34:14,427               You know,                     it's very hard to find        532 00:34:14,844 --> 00:34:16,596      parents willing to do them.     533 00:34:17,221 --> 00:34:20,141                 -Why?                                -Hm.                 534 00:34:21,142 --> 00:34:22,351               Um, okay.              535 00:34:22,435 --> 00:34:24,979       Nowadays, a lot of people                  go overseas.             536 00:34:25,063 --> 00:34:27,315           Over there, bam,                     it's guaranteed.           537 00:34:27,815 --> 00:34:29,484       They come back over here.      538 00:34:30,568 --> 00:34:33,279       Birth mothers, you know,       539 00:34:33,362 --> 00:34:36,616          they often back out                     last minute.             540 00:34:38,659 --> 00:34:42,497      But you don't need to make            a decision straight away.      541 00:34:42,580 --> 00:34:45,708        You can see some of the           family, see if you like 'em.     542 00:34:45,750 --> 00:34:48,127          (BREATHING DEEPLY)          543 00:34:50,338 --> 00:34:53,341      It's not that I don't want             this baby, Miss Carmen.       544 00:34:54,759 --> 00:34:56,135                I know.               545 00:34:56,636 --> 00:34:58,262         I don't think you do.        546 00:35:00,640 --> 00:35:01,766                 I do.                547 00:35:04,102 --> 00:35:05,728               -(SIGHS)                        -You do not have to         548 00:35:05,770 --> 00:35:07,814          tell me that, Gia.          549 00:35:09,232 --> 00:35:10,691             I love them.             550 00:35:12,110 --> 00:35:13,152          Of course, you do.          551 00:35:13,236 --> 00:35:14,445      I don't even know them yet.     552 00:35:14,487 --> 00:35:16,823           And I love them.                    I really love them.         553 00:35:23,746 --> 00:35:25,456             (SIGHS) Hey.             554 00:35:26,165 --> 00:35:29,919          Why don't you meet                  some of the families,        555 00:35:30,002 --> 00:35:31,671          take a look at 'em?         556 00:35:32,839 --> 00:35:35,216          (FOLDER CLATTERING)         557 00:35:39,846 --> 00:35:41,848         (GIA SNIFFLES, SIGHS)        558 00:35:43,891 --> 00:35:45,226            (GIA SNIFFLING)           559 00:35:55,153 --> 00:35:56,571            They all white?           560 00:35:57,238 --> 00:35:58,739              (CHUCKLES)              561 00:35:58,823 --> 00:36:01,242        No, they not all white.       562 00:36:01,909 --> 00:36:03,244              Keep going.             563 00:36:04,287 --> 00:36:08,166          You know, we could                  choose a few and then        564 00:36:08,207 --> 00:36:10,251            maybe we could                     meet 'em in person.         565 00:36:10,293 --> 00:36:11,711          GIA: I don't know.          566 00:36:11,794 --> 00:36:13,254          It's kind of weird.         567 00:36:15,173 --> 00:36:17,842      (SIGHS) I'll let you know.      568 00:36:20,511 --> 00:36:22,763            -See you later.                   -MISS CARMEN: Mm-hm.         569 00:36:24,223 --> 00:36:26,434         (DOOR OPENS, CLOSES)         570 00:36:37,278 --> 00:36:38,905              What's up?              571 00:36:40,531 --> 00:36:42,617               I see you                      warmin' up to Miss C?        572 00:36:45,953 --> 00:36:47,413          Gia, listen to me.          573 00:36:48,539 --> 00:36:51,459        There's a lot of people               expecting us to fail.        574 00:36:52,585 --> 00:36:56,088       My whole life, I had shit               taken away from me.         575 00:36:56,589 --> 00:36:58,799              They tried                      to take our culture.         576 00:36:58,841 --> 00:37:00,843     They tried to take our homes.    577 00:37:00,885 --> 00:37:02,595      Tried to take our freedom.      578 00:37:04,222 --> 00:37:06,807       And you know they'll try             to take our babies, too.       579 00:37:08,392 --> 00:37:10,519      Same shit that's happening                 to us right now           580 00:37:10,561 --> 00:37:13,981        happened to your mama,                 happened to my mama         581 00:37:14,023 --> 00:37:15,816    and it happened to they mamas.    582 00:37:18,194 --> 00:37:21,822      That's exactly why we can't        stop fighting for our kids, G.    583 00:37:23,950 --> 00:37:28,329       It's our God-given right                 to have our kids.          584 00:37:31,374 --> 00:37:32,625     And I don't want you to allow    585 00:37:32,667 --> 00:37:35,461        anybody to convince you                    otherwise.              586 00:37:37,380 --> 00:37:39,340         I'm going to show you                     something.              587 00:37:42,468 --> 00:37:46,764     "For I know the plans I have         for you,' declares the Lord,     588 00:37:46,806 --> 00:37:50,476         "plans to prosper you                and not to harm you,         589 00:37:50,518 --> 00:37:53,813        "plans to give you hope                  and a future."            590 00:37:56,691 --> 00:37:57,858           How do you know?           591 00:37:58,651 --> 00:38:00,194           How I know what?           592 00:38:00,236 --> 00:38:02,780            How do you know                God plans for all of this?      593 00:38:04,365 --> 00:38:07,118           'Cause God gives                   his toughest battles         594 00:38:07,201 --> 00:38:08,995       to his toughest children.      595 00:38:17,420 --> 00:38:18,796           (CAR LOCK BEEPS)           596 00:38:36,939 --> 00:38:38,357              (GIA SIGHS)             597 00:38:43,779 --> 00:38:45,323          (BASEBALL ANNOUNCER                    SPEAKING ON TV)           598 00:38:45,364 --> 00:38:46,949         We used to be a team.        599 00:38:47,700 --> 00:38:50,661      Yeah, but you wanted to be               the next Sprewell.          600 00:38:50,703 --> 00:38:51,912              (CHUCKLES)              601 00:38:53,039 --> 00:38:55,374      I just never liked the idea     602 00:38:55,458 --> 00:38:57,626              of being in                       a women's league.          603 00:38:57,668 --> 00:39:00,254     -Like, what the fuck is that?           -(CELL PHONE VIBRATING)       604 00:39:00,296 --> 00:39:01,422                Right.                605 00:39:01,505 --> 00:39:03,966       Could body up any of them            'lil niggas in our class.      606 00:39:04,050 --> 00:39:05,718          -(CELL PHONE BEEPS)                       -Any day.              607 00:39:08,137 --> 00:39:09,221            Hold up, okay?            608 00:39:09,305 --> 00:39:10,598             TRINA: Okay.             609 00:39:12,850 --> 00:39:14,435      -(GRUNTS SOFTLY) Thank you.                    -Mm-hm.               610 00:39:14,477 --> 00:39:16,771           AUTOMATED VOICE:                  Your balance is 96 cents.      611 00:39:16,854 --> 00:39:18,439             Make a payment.           612 00:39:19,690 --> 00:39:20,441                Hello?                613 00:39:20,524 --> 00:39:22,860           (STATIC CRACKLES)          614 00:39:24,070 --> 00:39:25,446                Hello?                615 00:39:28,908 --> 00:39:30,076                 Trey?                616 00:39:31,452 --> 00:39:32,536             Is that you?             617 00:39:32,620 --> 00:39:35,414           TREY:   I want you                        to pick me up.           618 00:39:36,207 --> 00:39:37,541           What's going on?                    Is everything okay?         619 00:39:37,583 --> 00:39:40,252            -What they do?                         -I don't know.           620 00:39:40,336 --> 00:39:42,129          When can we come home?       621 00:39:42,213 --> 00:39:43,798          I don't know, Trey.         622 00:39:44,340 --> 00:39:45,633                 Soon.                623 00:39:46,884 --> 00:39:48,094              I promise.              624 00:39:49,845 --> 00:39:51,097             How's school?            625 00:39:52,139 --> 00:39:53,432                  Good.                626 00:39:53,974 --> 00:39:55,601       Did you do your homework?      627 00:39:56,644 --> 00:39:59,438         I did my English essay.       628 00:39:59,480 --> 00:40:00,981      So what'd you write about?      629 00:40:01,857 --> 00:40:03,150                The beach.             630 00:40:03,234 --> 00:40:04,610           (CHUCKLES SOFTLY)          631 00:40:05,111 --> 00:40:06,362                 Okay.                632 00:40:06,404 --> 00:40:08,781       Maybe when you get back,            we can go back there, okay?     633 00:40:10,199 --> 00:40:11,492                  Okay.                634 00:40:12,618 --> 00:40:13,994         Where's your sister?         635 00:40:15,329 --> 00:40:16,622                 In bed.               636 00:40:17,039 --> 00:40:18,624      Did you give her the ring?      637 00:40:19,083 --> 00:40:20,167                   Mm.                 638 00:40:21,961 --> 00:40:23,129           What color is it?          639 00:40:24,296 --> 00:40:28,217          I think it's dark blue                      or black.              640 00:40:28,300 --> 00:40:29,844              I'm not sure.            641 00:40:30,511 --> 00:40:31,971              It's okay.              642 00:40:34,473 --> 00:40:35,641       Why don't you get in bed,                      okay?                643 00:40:35,724 --> 00:40:37,810     Just pretend that I'm there.     644 00:40:38,978 --> 00:40:40,563                 Okay...               645 00:40:40,646 --> 00:40:43,774      You want to hear that song?          Help you get to sleep, too?     646 00:40:44,942 --> 00:40:46,193                Hmm. Yes.              647 00:40:47,153 --> 00:40:48,529                 Okay.                648 00:40:49,947 --> 00:40:52,158          (CASSETTE CLATTERS)         649 00:40:55,327 --> 00:40:56,787         (PLAY BUTTON CLICKS)         650 00:40:58,956 --> 00:41:01,375      (THEN YOU CAN TELL ME GOODBYE                  PLAYING)               651 00:41:01,459 --> 00:41:04,003               (EXHALES)              652 00:41:11,093 --> 00:41:13,721          Kiss me each morning        653 00:41:14,555 --> 00:41:19,185           For a million years        654 00:41:21,645 --> 00:41:24,648          Hold me each evening        655 00:41:24,732 --> 00:41:27,860              By your side            656 00:41:29,612 --> 00:41:32,156            (WIND BLOWING)            657 00:41:32,239 --> 00:41:35,326         Tell me you'll love me       658 00:41:35,367 --> 00:41:40,080              For a million,                     a million years           659 00:41:40,122 --> 00:41:41,290             (MUSIC STOPS)            660 00:41:41,582 --> 00:41:43,000            GIA:   You sleep?           661 00:41:49,173 --> 00:41:50,549                Love you.              662 00:41:51,133 --> 00:41:53,552      (MELANCHOLIC MUSIC PLAYING)     663 00:42:27,836 --> 00:42:30,297     (MELANCHOLIC MUSIC CONTINUES)    664 00:43:05,416 --> 00:43:07,001             PHOTOGRAPHER:                   Do you have a name yet?       665 00:43:07,042 --> 00:43:08,711       MAN: We have some ideas.             WOMAN: We kind of want to      666 00:43:08,794 --> 00:43:11,130         wait till we see him                  to decide his name.         667 00:43:11,839 --> 00:43:13,841             PHOTOGRAPHER:                   That makes sense, yeah.       668 00:43:16,093 --> 00:43:18,345           -(WOMAN CHUCKLES)               -(CAMERA SHUTTER CLICKING)      669 00:43:25,769 --> 00:43:27,438          MILES:   You two have                   a beautiful family.         670 00:43:27,896 --> 00:43:29,982           -MAN: Thank you.                          -Yeah.                671 00:43:31,567 --> 00:43:33,193        What you have is rare.        672 00:43:33,235 --> 00:43:34,486            Right on, man.            673 00:43:35,112 --> 00:43:36,947            Well, trust me,                   we see a lot in here.        674 00:43:36,989 --> 00:43:38,991          -Appreciate y'all.                       -All right.             675 00:43:58,636 --> 00:44:02,348      I think it'd be okay if you         wanted to eat something now.     676 00:44:03,057 --> 00:44:04,308              I'll wait.              677 00:44:04,850 --> 00:44:06,894         What you hungry for?         678 00:44:06,977 --> 00:44:10,898     Uh, probably the white sauce            pasta and potato salad.       679 00:44:11,940 --> 00:44:13,484      MONICA: I think I know her.     680 00:44:13,525 --> 00:44:14,985           (WOMEN CHATTERING                      INDISTINCTLY)            681 00:44:15,069 --> 00:44:17,613            MONICA: I think               that's the lady right there.     682 00:44:17,696 --> 00:44:20,282           MISS CARMEN: Hey.                   Lovely to meet you.         683 00:44:20,366 --> 00:44:22,576     MONICA: You, too. (CHUCKLES)     684 00:44:22,618 --> 00:44:24,370     MISS CARMEN: And this is Gia.    685 00:44:25,371 --> 00:44:27,164                 -Hey.                                -Hi.                 686 00:44:29,541 --> 00:44:30,751                 -Hey.                                -Hey.                687 00:44:30,834 --> 00:44:32,211           (MONICA CHUCKLES)          688 00:44:32,878 --> 00:44:35,923      MISS CARMEN: Must be Amber.                   Oh, hey.               689 00:44:37,549 --> 00:44:38,926         (PAUL CLICKS TONGUE)         690 00:44:41,261 --> 00:44:43,055     We're so grateful to be here.    691 00:44:44,640 --> 00:44:45,683     AMBER: Nice to meet you too.     692 00:44:45,724 --> 00:44:47,226        Nice to meet you, too.        693 00:44:48,018 --> 00:44:49,853             This weather                      is something else.          694 00:44:49,937 --> 00:44:52,981       -Would you like a water?                   -Yes, please.            695 00:44:53,023 --> 00:44:54,692        You want me to get you                   some of that...           696 00:44:54,775 --> 00:44:56,068        -What about you, Amber?           -...Alfredo from the buffet?     697 00:44:56,151 --> 00:44:57,569    -You want a bit of everything?                  -Thanks.               698 00:44:57,611 --> 00:44:59,405             -Yeah? Okay.                   -MISS CARMEN: All right.       699 00:44:59,488 --> 00:45:01,907              -After you.                      -MONICA: Thank you.         700 00:45:02,324 --> 00:45:03,826     MISS CARMEN: I'm so sorry...     701 00:45:03,909 --> 00:45:06,245       (INDISTINCT CONVERSATION)      702 00:45:13,460 --> 00:45:14,920              (SLURPING)              703 00:45:19,717 --> 00:45:21,802          Must be really hot                        for you.               704 00:45:22,511 --> 00:45:23,887             Yeah. (SIGHS)            705 00:45:23,929 --> 00:45:25,597    It won't stop kicking, either.    706 00:45:25,639 --> 00:45:28,142       I think I got an athlete            in there. (CHUCKLES SOFTLY)     707 00:45:28,225 --> 00:45:32,271            -You play ball?                    -Yeah, but just JV.         708 00:45:32,312 --> 00:45:35,774            -What position?              -Guard, but sometimes my coach    709 00:45:35,858 --> 00:45:37,943              switches me                      to forward, though.         710 00:45:38,569 --> 00:45:39,903               You play?              711 00:45:39,987 --> 00:45:43,407          I did. I just kept                   getting banged up.          712 00:45:43,490 --> 00:45:45,242              -(CHUCKLES)                    -So skinny at your age.       713 00:45:45,325 --> 00:45:46,952       I just ended up quitting.      714 00:45:48,245 --> 00:45:49,455          You don't mind it?          715 00:45:49,872 --> 00:45:51,498     I don't like it much either,     716 00:45:51,540 --> 00:45:53,333          but I'm just trying                    to do whatever            717 00:45:53,375 --> 00:45:54,960        to get me to SF State.        718 00:45:55,043 --> 00:45:57,087             -That's good.                           -Yeah.                719 00:45:59,465 --> 00:46:00,716    You always wanted to go there?    720 00:46:00,758 --> 00:46:04,136           Well, my parents                     went there, so...          721 00:46:05,763 --> 00:46:07,931            I used to want                      to go there, too.          722 00:46:08,432 --> 00:46:09,516            Why didn't you?           723 00:46:10,392 --> 00:46:11,810             I had my son.            724 00:46:12,895 --> 00:46:14,688          You could still go.         725 00:46:14,730 --> 00:46:16,523    Just got different dreams now.    726 00:46:35,667 --> 00:46:37,377         MISS CARMEN: So where                are y'all from again?        727 00:46:37,419 --> 00:46:39,004    MONICA: We live in Novato now.    728 00:46:39,087 --> 00:46:44,551     Not far from the high school          on Rowland Drive but, uh...     729 00:46:45,719 --> 00:46:47,763        I grew up in Emeryville                 with my grandma.           730 00:46:47,846 --> 00:46:51,517     And I lived not far from the         North Berkeley BART station.     731 00:46:52,476 --> 00:46:54,019          We met in college.          732 00:46:54,102 --> 00:46:55,646               Were both                      dating other people,         733 00:46:55,729 --> 00:46:59,399    but soon realized they weren't          right for us, didn't we?       734 00:47:00,609 --> 00:47:02,319          She didn't leave me                     much choice.             735 00:47:02,402 --> 00:47:04,029       (PAUL AND MONICA CHUCKLE)      736 00:47:04,696 --> 00:47:07,574            I got pregnant                      soon after that.           737 00:47:08,742 --> 00:47:13,038      We were young, but (SIGHS)               we had our friends,         738 00:47:13,121 --> 00:47:16,083      people who took care of her               when we couldn't.          739 00:47:16,959 --> 00:47:19,586        We always wanted Amber             to have a sibling, though.      740 00:47:19,628 --> 00:47:22,631             So we waited.            741 00:47:22,673 --> 00:47:25,300             Wanted to be                      in a good position          742 00:47:25,342 --> 00:47:26,927       for when we had another.       743 00:47:27,553 --> 00:47:29,471         (CLICKS TONGUE) Then,        744 00:47:29,555 --> 00:47:31,598      when we were finally ready,     745 00:47:32,766 --> 00:47:34,101              I couldn't.             746 00:47:35,060 --> 00:47:37,187        (CLICKS TONGUE) I, uh,        747 00:47:38,480 --> 00:47:40,107    didn't realize how lucky I was    748 00:47:40,148 --> 00:47:42,609             to have Amber                   at the time that I did.       749 00:47:42,651 --> 00:47:43,986           MISS CARMEN: Mm.           750 00:47:44,027 --> 00:47:47,239       For the last four years,            we've been trying to adopt.     751 00:47:47,865 --> 00:47:50,033           -It's a process.                     -MISS CARMEN: Hm.          752 00:47:50,617 --> 00:47:51,785              Always is.              753 00:47:52,327 --> 00:47:54,329             Did you want                    to show her the, uh...        754 00:47:54,413 --> 00:47:56,039               Oh, yeah.              755 00:47:57,916 --> 00:48:01,879            I don't know if                     Trey and Shaynah           756 00:48:01,962 --> 00:48:04,131     are too old for this, but...     757 00:48:05,007 --> 00:48:07,217           Well, we thought                     it might be nice           758 00:48:07,259 --> 00:48:09,261           for the next time                      you see them.            759 00:48:10,262 --> 00:48:11,388                 Um...                760 00:48:11,638 --> 00:48:12,973              Thank you.              761 00:48:13,348 --> 00:48:14,766       I'm sure they'll love it.      762 00:48:14,808 --> 00:48:15,976    (MISS CARMEN AND PAUL CHUCKLE)    763 00:48:16,018 --> 00:48:17,686             PAUL: It was                     Amber's idea, really.        764 00:48:17,728 --> 00:48:19,229           MISS CARMEN: Mm.           765 00:48:19,271 --> 00:48:22,482       I would've loved to have            an older sister like Amber.     766 00:48:30,157 --> 00:48:34,077              MONICA: So,                     you live nearby here?        767 00:48:34,119 --> 00:48:36,496             MISS CARMEN:                    No, not really, but...        768 00:48:36,538 --> 00:48:38,999    (MONICA AND MISS CARMEN LAUGH)    769 00:48:39,041 --> 00:48:40,208       You're kind of out here.       770 00:48:40,292 --> 00:48:43,128      MONICA: She's being private                 on that one.             771 00:48:43,211 --> 00:48:46,340          MISS CARMEN: Amber,                  how's school going?         772 00:48:46,381 --> 00:48:48,050     AMBER: It's going good. Yeah.            MISS CARMEN: Really?         773 00:48:48,091 --> 00:48:49,801        You're just saying that             'cause they're here now?       774 00:48:49,843 --> 00:48:51,094    (MONICA AND MISS CARMEN LAUGH)    775 00:48:51,178 --> 00:48:52,471       Is she telling the truth?      776 00:48:52,512 --> 00:48:53,722      PAUL: She's great, I mean,      777 00:48:53,805 --> 00:48:56,266       she's a lot brighter than            I was when I was her age.      778 00:48:56,308 --> 00:48:57,726            She must get it                      from her mama.            779 00:48:57,809 --> 00:48:59,311         MONICA: I don't know                      about that.             780 00:48:59,394 --> 00:49:02,147            -(SOUND FADES)                  -(INDISTINCT CHATTERING)       781 00:49:15,160 --> 00:49:16,536          MISS CARMEN:   So...          782 00:49:17,412 --> 00:49:18,538           What'd you think?          783 00:49:19,665 --> 00:49:21,667    (SIGHS) I think they're great.    784 00:49:23,627 --> 00:49:24,711                 Yeah?                785 00:49:26,046 --> 00:49:28,840    Amber, she's sweet. (CHUCKLES)    786 00:49:28,924 --> 00:49:33,136           So you wanna meet                other families, or you...      787 00:49:33,178 --> 00:49:35,430              -No? Right.                      -I don't think so.          788 00:49:36,014 --> 00:49:38,016          Because, you know,                we don't have to do this       789 00:49:38,100 --> 00:49:39,685       if it doesn't feel right.      790 00:49:40,185 --> 00:49:41,687          Nah, it's not that.         791 00:49:44,898 --> 00:49:49,528         (SIGHS) Maybe we can                     invite Monica            792 00:49:50,320 --> 00:49:53,532            to one of your                   doctor's appointments?        793 00:49:54,992 --> 00:49:56,702        Is that what's supposed                  to happen next?           794 00:49:56,743 --> 00:49:58,078           Yeah, sometimes.           795 00:49:58,120 --> 00:50:00,497      You know, we can play this                however you want.          796 00:50:02,124 --> 00:50:04,376         There's no normal way                     to do this.             797 00:50:06,628 --> 00:50:08,213      When was your last checkup?     798 00:50:10,132 --> 00:50:11,550             I'm not sure.            799 00:50:11,591 --> 00:50:13,051      Maybe a couple months ago.      800 00:50:13,093 --> 00:50:16,263          Yeah. And they did                     the ultrasound?           801 00:50:16,722 --> 00:50:18,056             No, not yet.             802 00:50:19,516 --> 00:50:21,560            Don't you wanna                    hear the heartbeat?         803 00:50:22,394 --> 00:50:23,770              I do, I...              804 00:50:24,980 --> 00:50:27,691          I do, I just don't                  have insurance, so...        805 00:50:27,774 --> 00:50:29,609                No, no,                      I'll take care of that.       806 00:50:30,444 --> 00:50:33,572            We get you some                 Presumptive Eligibility.       807 00:50:35,365 --> 00:50:37,993        Yeah. We can go to our               local clinic, you know.       808 00:50:38,035 --> 00:50:41,121            They take care                 of all my mamas. (CHUCKLES)     809 00:50:43,415 --> 00:50:46,460            I know, I know                       it's not easy.            810 00:50:47,461 --> 00:50:51,214     But I promise you, it's a lot           better than not going.        811 00:50:51,298 --> 00:50:53,425       Gotta make sure this baby      812 00:50:53,467 --> 00:50:58,430        has everything it needs                  to be healthy.            813 00:50:58,805 --> 00:50:59,973               You, too.              814 00:51:00,057 --> 00:51:01,433            (CLICKS TONGUE)           815 00:51:03,310 --> 00:51:05,437         What if I can get you                    in this week?            816 00:51:11,818 --> 00:51:14,237        (INDISTINCT CHATTERING)       817 00:51:16,907 --> 00:51:19,451              -(LAUGHTER)                   -EARL: Are you good, ma?       818 00:51:21,995 --> 00:51:25,540            MEL: Yo, Mama,                  those were people around.      819 00:51:25,582 --> 00:51:26,792              GIA: What?              820 00:51:26,875 --> 00:51:28,543            The ones poking                   through the windows.         821 00:51:28,627 --> 00:51:29,753                 CPS?                 822 00:51:30,128 --> 00:51:31,546              I guess so.             823 00:51:31,630 --> 00:51:32,798         GIA: What'd they do?         824 00:51:33,298 --> 00:51:34,841          Just kept knocking.         825 00:51:34,883 --> 00:51:36,218           No one was home.           826 00:51:36,301 --> 00:51:38,428     GIA: Good. I don't need them         coming in before my hearing.     827 00:51:38,512 --> 00:51:40,514        Can't your sister help                    or something?            828 00:51:40,555 --> 00:51:42,265           If they found out                 how she make a living,        829 00:51:42,349 --> 00:51:43,975             I might never                     see my kids again.          830 00:51:44,059 --> 00:51:45,602             -Want to go?                          -All right.             831 00:51:45,644 --> 00:51:47,813           (MEN CHATTERING)           832 00:51:49,731 --> 00:51:50,899           (CAR LOCK BEEPS)           833 00:51:50,982 --> 00:51:53,318           (WATER SPLASHING)          834 00:51:54,027 --> 00:51:55,737      I never knew this was here.     835 00:51:55,946 --> 00:51:57,197                 Yeah.                836 00:51:57,280 --> 00:52:00,659     We got the beach on one side         and the forest on the other.     837 00:52:00,742 --> 00:52:02,494      And don't nobody even come.     838 00:52:03,328 --> 00:52:05,664             Except people                    trying to disappear.         839 00:52:12,629 --> 00:52:14,840        -(CELL PHONE VIBRATING)                -(CALL DISCONNECTS)         840 00:52:16,133 --> 00:52:17,676         Why you don't answer?        841 00:52:17,759 --> 00:52:19,344      Ain't she your best friend?     842 00:52:21,638 --> 00:52:24,474    I'm thinkin' of givin' my baby              up for adoption.           843 00:52:28,061 --> 00:52:30,897      And Trina, she be on some,      844 00:52:30,939 --> 00:52:33,358              "You siding                     with the devil" shit.        845 00:52:34,276 --> 00:52:36,194     Why she so obsessed with God?    846 00:52:37,362 --> 00:52:40,699    I don't know. Make her believe              in herself more.           847 00:52:41,950 --> 00:52:43,243               I guess.               848 00:52:45,745 --> 00:52:47,622      Like, the way I'm feeling,      849 00:52:47,664 --> 00:52:50,959          at least this way,                I know where she's going.      850 00:52:51,042 --> 00:52:52,878           And I can choose                    where she's going.          851 00:52:54,379 --> 00:52:58,925      I don't have to see my baby              in a agency office.         852 00:53:00,719 --> 00:53:03,513      If the village ain't right,                find a new one.           853 00:53:05,140 --> 00:53:06,641          I just want my kids                    to remember me            854 00:53:06,725 --> 00:53:07,934          as they grow older.         855 00:53:10,020 --> 00:53:11,563         Of course, they will.        856 00:53:12,772 --> 00:53:13,940           I'm not so sure.           857 00:53:14,983 --> 00:53:16,568     You'll always be their mama.     858 00:53:21,615 --> 00:53:23,158            And, you know,               y'all got a way of doing that,    859 00:53:23,241 --> 00:53:26,286           just being there,              even when you're not around.     860 00:53:27,162 --> 00:53:30,582     They just say shit like that             to make it hurt less.        861 00:53:33,126 --> 00:53:36,129     (SIGHS) Well, sometimes, uh,     862 00:53:36,213 --> 00:53:37,797          when I'm by myself,         863 00:53:39,382 --> 00:53:41,593       I feel a hand on my back.      864 00:53:41,635 --> 00:53:44,137    And I think I'm just tripping,                  you know?              865 00:53:44,179 --> 00:53:48,433          And then I realize                it's just Moms, you know,      866 00:53:48,475 --> 00:53:51,269         letting me know that             everything gonna be all good.    867 00:53:52,520 --> 00:53:54,689            Sound like some                      God shit to me.           868 00:53:54,773 --> 00:53:56,733         Nah, just spiritual.         869 00:53:58,944 --> 00:54:00,445              -Same shit.                          -(CHUCKLES)             870 00:54:00,487 --> 00:54:02,989              Not at all.                   It's feelings, you know.       871 00:54:03,031 --> 00:54:05,450         Not some man-made law                     to live by.             872 00:54:07,118 --> 00:54:08,620        Does that comfort you?        873 00:54:09,120 --> 00:54:10,497           Yeah, somewhere.           874 00:54:13,083 --> 00:54:15,502        (GENTLE MUSIC PLAYING)        875 00:54:23,426 --> 00:54:25,804        GIA:   Hey, I wanna hear                  the story you wrote.        876 00:54:26,179 --> 00:54:27,681           TREY:   For school?          877 00:54:27,722 --> 00:54:30,517    GIA:   Mm-hm, that's the one you          was tellin' me about, right?    878 00:54:31,851 --> 00:54:33,979          TREY:   "When I lived                       with my mom,            879 00:54:34,062 --> 00:54:35,855        "we would go by the water.     880 00:54:35,939 --> 00:54:39,734        "Shaynah and me pretended             we were kings and queens.      881 00:54:39,818 --> 00:54:44,906             "On our island,                  we found lots of silver.,      882 00:54:44,990 --> 00:54:47,367         "I counted every piece.       883 00:54:47,450 --> 00:54:49,327              "We were rich.           884 00:54:49,369 --> 00:54:52,998           "Shaynah would dance                     in the leaves.           885 00:54:53,039 --> 00:54:57,752           "She loves the trees             and how long the roots growed.  886 00:54:58,378 --> 00:55:03,758        "And when we were done,              we'd lay on our throne,       887 00:55:03,842 --> 00:55:07,887          "and wait for Mama                  to come back for us."        888 00:55:11,141 --> 00:55:12,434          It's a great story.         889 00:55:12,517 --> 00:55:15,562              -Thank you.                     -Love it. Thank you.         890 00:55:17,105 --> 00:55:18,565              (GIA SIGHS)             891 00:55:20,859 --> 00:55:22,402      Do you want to read to us?      892 00:55:23,862 --> 00:55:25,155           -Okay, go 'head.                         -"The...               893 00:55:25,196 --> 00:55:28,408        "The mother bird stood        894 00:55:29,451 --> 00:55:32,495             "still un...             895 00:55:33,121 --> 00:55:39,544            "until her son                     came to her side."          896 00:55:40,587 --> 00:55:43,548               Good job.                     You want to keep going?       897 00:55:46,384 --> 00:55:47,844                "At...                898 00:55:48,928 --> 00:55:51,097              "At da..."              899 00:55:51,931 --> 00:55:53,516              Da-da-awn.              900 00:55:53,600 --> 00:56:01,066          "...dawn that day,             she had been feeding with him.    901 00:56:05,195 --> 00:56:09,407            "In the sil..."           902 00:56:09,491 --> 00:56:14,537               -Silent.                      -"...silent and fre...        903 00:56:14,579 --> 00:56:19,250            -"Fre..." Mmm.                         -Freshness.             904 00:56:19,292 --> 00:56:23,338    "...freshness of the morning."    905 00:56:23,380 --> 00:56:24,714               GIA: Mm.               906 00:56:25,215 --> 00:56:26,549               Good job.              907 00:56:27,050 --> 00:56:28,635      Do you want to keep going?      908 00:56:30,595 --> 00:56:36,476         "Then... Then fain...        909 00:56:37,185 --> 00:56:39,813             GIA: Faintly.                  SHAYNAH: "...faintly..."       910 00:56:49,823 --> 00:56:52,450       GIA: Let's see if we can                   have a power.            911 00:56:53,201 --> 00:56:55,537    Okay, one, two, three. (GASPS)    912 00:56:55,620 --> 00:56:59,624              (GIA MIMICS                     WHIRRING, WHOOSHING)         913 00:57:00,750 --> 00:57:02,961          (MIMICS EXPLOSION)                          See?                 914 00:57:03,002 --> 00:57:04,462              (CHUCKLES)              915 00:57:04,546 --> 00:57:05,922             That's good.             916 00:57:08,883 --> 00:57:11,219         It's the same color.                      It's crazy.             917 00:57:11,261 --> 00:57:13,096       Little purple and green.       918 00:57:22,689 --> 00:57:26,109      I won't let you guys down.                I promise, okay?           919 00:57:26,151 --> 00:57:29,154        (GENTLE MUSIC PLAYING)        920 00:58:08,109 --> 00:58:10,236            (WIND BLOWING)            921 00:58:40,600 --> 00:58:43,061    (INDISTINCT CHATTERING ECHOES)    922 00:59:04,541 --> 00:59:07,502         EARL: Probably, like,                      you know,              923 00:59:07,585 --> 00:59:09,379              five years old                    when they came in, and       924 00:59:09,462 --> 00:59:12,131           raided my mama house                      and took us.            925 00:59:13,049 --> 00:59:14,133                 Yeah.                926 00:59:15,677 --> 00:59:17,762     I'll never forget that shit.     927 00:59:18,429 --> 00:59:19,931        I ain't understand it.        928 00:59:20,557 --> 00:59:24,102       From then on, it was just              from house to house,         929 00:59:24,185 --> 00:59:25,436       group home to group home.      930 00:59:25,520 --> 00:59:27,939      (MELANCHOLIC MUSIC PLAYING)     931 00:59:29,732 --> 00:59:32,110               You know,                    not having no stability.       932 00:59:33,069 --> 00:59:34,279           Really got to me.          933 00:59:36,406 --> 00:59:38,074          I might look tough,         934 00:59:39,534 --> 00:59:40,952           but, you know...           935 00:59:42,662 --> 00:59:43,997            (MAN SNIFFLES)            936 00:59:45,915 --> 00:59:48,001         JAMES:   I remember it                  like it was yesterday.       937 00:59:48,042 --> 00:59:51,838          My mom was holding me              and this car just pulled up.    938 00:59:52,422 --> 00:59:53,715            They had suits on.         939 00:59:53,756 --> 00:59:55,675           They just grabbed me                 out of my mom's arms.        940 00:59:57,260 --> 00:59:59,429       Didn't say what's going on.     941 00:59:59,512 --> 01:00:00,888        Just, like, snatched me up     942 01:00:00,972 --> 01:00:03,099          like I'm being, like,                 abducted or something.       943 01:00:06,185 --> 01:00:08,896          From that day forward,             my life ain't been the same.    944 01:00:08,980 --> 01:00:11,858        In and out of foster care,            different ones, you know,      945 01:00:11,899 --> 01:00:14,027        and just wondering what's            going on, what's happening.     946 01:00:14,110 --> 01:00:18,656      How'd it go from me being with         my mom to total strangers?     947 01:00:25,288 --> 01:00:27,040          I just feel like...         948 01:00:28,458 --> 01:00:30,543       It just basically, like,               broke me into pieces,        949 01:00:30,627 --> 01:00:32,211           you know, like...          950 01:00:38,926 --> 01:00:40,303           And, like, the shit                      I went through           951 01:00:40,386 --> 01:00:41,679          in those foster homes        952 01:00:41,721 --> 01:00:43,306       really put me on a bad path.    953 01:00:43,389 --> 01:00:47,393      And to this day, that's a path          I still can't run from.       954 01:00:53,733 --> 01:00:55,068        But even through all that,     955 01:00:55,109 --> 01:00:57,195       I never once blamed my mom,                    you know.              956 01:01:00,907 --> 01:01:04,369      (MELANCHOLY MUSIC PLAYING)      957 01:01:13,544 --> 01:01:15,588             -(TV PLAYING)                       -(BABY CRYING)            958 01:01:15,630 --> 01:01:18,091     (INDISTINCT CHATTERING ON TV)    959 01:01:33,606 --> 01:01:36,067        (BABY CONTINUES CRYING)       960 01:02:45,094 --> 01:02:46,804            WOMAN: (ON TV)                    After the child is born       961 01:02:46,846 --> 01:02:49,682          the umbilical cord is                  snipped and clamped.        962 01:02:49,766 --> 01:02:52,810      Over the course of the baby's            first five days of life,      963 01:02:52,894 --> 01:02:54,979            the cord dries out                    to a hard texture          964 01:02:55,062 --> 01:02:58,316        and shifts to a dark brown                 or black color.           965 01:02:58,900 --> 01:03:00,151         It's extremely important      966 01:03:00,234 --> 01:03:02,612        not to interfere with this                 natural process.          967 01:03:02,695 --> 01:03:05,198              Do not touch,                   cut or pull at the cord...     968 01:03:05,239 --> 01:03:06,282             (BABY COOING)            969 01:03:06,365 --> 01:03:07,825        ...as it could potentially                 harm the child.           970 01:03:08,576 --> 01:03:10,703       (CONTINUES INDISTINCTLY)       971 01:03:10,787 --> 01:03:13,372         -MISS CARMEN: Oh, hi.                        -Hey.                972 01:03:14,040 --> 01:03:16,125                 -Hi.                             -MONICA: Hi.             973 01:03:17,210 --> 01:03:18,377              Thank you.              974 01:03:21,339 --> 01:03:22,465              (GIA SIGHS)             975 01:03:22,882 --> 01:03:24,258        Where's everybody else?       976 01:03:24,342 --> 01:03:26,260          Oh, Amber and Paul                  wanted to come but...        977 01:03:26,302 --> 01:03:27,845         MISS CARMEN: We just               thought it would be best       978 01:03:27,887 --> 01:03:29,305          with Monica today.          979 01:03:29,764 --> 01:03:31,265         WOMAN: Maria Garcia.         980 01:03:31,307 --> 01:03:32,391                I see.                981 01:03:33,810 --> 01:03:35,228          How are you doing?          982 01:03:37,647 --> 01:03:39,565           I guess I'm just                     a little nervous.          983 01:03:40,858 --> 01:03:42,193              MONICA: Hm.             984 01:03:44,320 --> 01:03:46,030         Well, what about you?        985 01:03:47,156 --> 01:03:48,241               Me, too.               986 01:03:50,451 --> 01:03:51,869             But excited.             987 01:03:56,374 --> 01:03:59,335      Thank you for inviting me.      988 01:04:03,506 --> 01:04:05,383        (CELL PHONE VIBRATING)        989 01:04:06,050 --> 01:04:08,302              -Excuse me.                          -It's okay.             990 01:04:08,344 --> 01:04:09,929         (GIA CHUCKLES SOFTLY)        991 01:04:10,638 --> 01:04:11,889              Hey, Trina.             992 01:04:11,931 --> 01:04:13,224         TRINA:   What's up, G?                      Where you at?            993 01:04:13,307 --> 01:04:14,892              -The mall.                        -You want to tell me        994 01:04:14,934 --> 01:04:17,270        -why you been dodging me?               -I'm not, I swear.          995 01:04:17,353 --> 01:04:18,145              Gia, come on.            996 01:04:18,187 --> 01:04:19,814       You know God's watching you.    997 01:04:19,897 --> 01:04:21,524       I'mma hit you after this.      998 01:04:22,942 --> 01:04:24,360          (DISCONNECTS CALL)          999 01:04:27,864 --> 01:04:29,907        NURSE: Gia? Gia Wilson?       1000 01:04:33,661 --> 01:04:35,538             (BABY COOING)            1001 01:04:35,580 --> 01:04:36,956        (MISS CARMEN CHUCKLES)        1002 01:04:37,582 --> 01:04:39,625           -Bye. (CHUCKLES)                      -(BABY COOING)            1003 01:04:41,002 --> 01:04:43,838        NURSE: The bathroom is             down the hall to the left.      1004 01:04:43,921 --> 01:04:45,214         There's cups inside.         1005 01:04:45,298 --> 01:04:47,133           Leave your sample                     on the counter.           1006 01:04:47,174 --> 01:04:51,220      Then put this label on it.             Then meet us in Room 3.       1007 01:05:20,207 --> 01:05:22,460       -(BABY'S HEART POUNDING)               -DOCTOR: And that...         1008 01:05:22,543 --> 01:05:24,086           That's the heart.          1009 01:05:27,798 --> 01:05:30,259         (POUNDING CONTINUES)         1010 01:06:10,132 --> 01:06:12,134        (POUNDING INTENSIFIES)        1011 01:06:12,218 --> 01:06:14,637        (GIA BREATHING SHAKILY)       1012 01:06:26,774 --> 01:06:28,150     So your baby's head is down,     1013 01:06:28,192 --> 01:06:30,236         and in good position                     for delivery.            1014 01:06:30,277 --> 01:06:31,904    You're measuring 37 weeks now,    1015 01:06:31,988 --> 01:06:34,115         which means your baby                can come at any time.        1016 01:06:34,156 --> 01:06:35,700          But it is healthy.          1017 01:06:39,078 --> 01:06:40,496              Thank you.              1018 01:06:40,997 --> 01:06:42,665        And here are your pics.       1019 01:06:43,624 --> 01:06:44,667             One for you.             1020 01:06:44,709 --> 01:06:46,043          -MONICA: Thank you.                   -You're welcome.           1021 01:06:46,127 --> 01:06:48,796       -Congratulations, ladies.              -MISS CARMEN: Mm-hm.         1022 01:06:49,088 --> 01:06:50,297              Thank you.              1023 01:06:50,381 --> 01:06:52,216       DOCTOR: Have a good day.           MISS CARMEN: Have a good one.    1024 01:06:54,468 --> 01:06:55,678            How you doing?            1025 01:06:57,805 --> 01:06:59,306     I don't think I can do this.     1026 01:06:59,348 --> 01:07:00,975             -It's just...                        -(HESITATES)             1027 01:07:01,017 --> 01:07:03,436          Well... it's okay.          1028 01:07:03,894 --> 01:07:05,688              It's okay.              1029 01:07:05,771 --> 01:07:07,732           I just don't want                  to let anybody down.         1030 01:07:07,815 --> 01:07:09,233              Oh, no, no,                     you don't have to...         1031 01:07:09,275 --> 01:07:11,444            You don't have                    to worry about that.         1032 01:07:12,028 --> 01:07:13,446           I can't do this.           1033 01:07:14,238 --> 01:07:16,866              Now, look,                       it's not a decision         1034 01:07:17,324 --> 01:07:19,577     that you have to make today.     1035 01:07:22,872 --> 01:07:24,373           I can't do this.           1036 01:07:32,715 --> 01:07:33,799                 Gia.                 1037 01:07:34,759 --> 01:07:36,260          (MISS CARMEN SIGHS)         1038 01:07:39,597 --> 01:07:40,765                 Uh...                1039 01:07:42,099 --> 01:07:43,434              One second.             1040 01:07:45,269 --> 01:07:46,729        (MUTTERS INDISTINCTLY)        1041 01:07:50,941 --> 01:07:52,276                 Gia.                 1042 01:07:53,027 --> 01:07:54,403             (DOOR CLOSES)            1043 01:07:55,613 --> 01:07:57,114                 Um...                1044 01:07:57,156 --> 01:07:59,658      -If she doesn't want to...                  -Oh, well...             1045 01:08:11,003 --> 01:08:13,255     -(SIRENS WAILING IN DISTANCE)               -(WIND BLOWING)           1046 01:08:13,339 --> 01:08:16,509        (HIP-HOP MUSIC PLAYING               FAINTLY OVER SPEAKERS)        1047 01:08:16,550 --> 01:08:19,512             -(DOOR SHUTS)                 -(SIRENS WAILING DISTANTLY)     1048 01:08:21,722 --> 01:08:24,141             (BABY CRYING)            1049 01:08:43,327 --> 01:08:44,787              -ARI: What?                     -Can I get the keys?         1050 01:08:44,829 --> 01:08:46,122         -Man, nah, I'm busy.                   -(CLICKS TONGUE)           1051 01:08:46,205 --> 01:08:47,540             Ari, please?             1052 01:08:48,332 --> 01:08:49,625               -Please?                      -ARI: I said I'm busy.        1053 01:08:49,708 --> 01:08:51,627            Ari, let me get               the fucking keys to the car.     1054 01:08:51,669 --> 01:08:53,337      Man, get off my door, Gia.      1055 01:08:54,380 --> 01:08:56,423         GIA: Where you going?                  MEL: Wanna come?           1056 01:08:56,507 --> 01:08:58,592           -(SIRENS WAILING)                    -(MEN CHATTERING)          1057 01:08:58,676 --> 01:09:00,219         We ain't doing shit?         1058 01:09:01,595 --> 01:09:02,721               Let's go.              1059 01:09:03,764 --> 01:09:05,182     Hey, bro, you driving later?     1060 01:09:05,224 --> 01:09:08,060          EARL: Nah, brother.               You know, I don't drive.       1061 01:09:08,602 --> 01:09:10,688          But I do be yokin'                   this motherfucker.          1062 01:09:10,771 --> 01:09:12,356     SHORT: Let me slide through.     1063 01:09:12,940 --> 01:09:14,525            EARL: Goddamn.                    Where's your car at?         1064 01:09:14,567 --> 01:09:16,193       SHORT: You acting ancient                   right now.              1065 01:09:16,235 --> 01:09:18,237    MAN 1: What you talking about?             You acting ancient.         1066 01:09:18,279 --> 01:09:20,906    Walk your ancient ass on, then.        Got something on my gas?       1067 01:09:20,990 --> 01:09:23,200              SHORT: Yep.                    EARL: How much you got?       1068 01:09:23,242 --> 01:09:25,411          (TIRES SCREECHING)          1069 01:09:33,586 --> 01:09:36,255        (HIP-HOP MUSIC PLAYING                   OVER SPEAKERS)            1070 01:09:37,173 --> 01:09:41,343           SHORT: Hey, man.                 JAMES: Wassup with, cus?       1071 01:09:48,684 --> 01:09:51,729        WOMAN: Hey, slow down,               it ain't going nowhere.       1072 01:10:00,112 --> 01:10:02,573        (INDISTINCT CHATTERING)       1073 01:10:04,450 --> 01:10:06,076           GIA: I heard her                     heartbeat today.           1074 01:10:06,160 --> 01:10:08,454        MEL: That's what's up.                 How's it sounding?          1075 01:10:08,829 --> 01:10:11,290             Good, strong.            1076 01:10:11,832 --> 01:10:12,917                 But?                 1077 01:10:14,251 --> 01:10:15,961           GIA: I don't want                     to give her up.           1078 01:10:18,130 --> 01:10:19,506      We'll figure it out, Mama.      1079 01:10:19,548 --> 01:10:21,258             -Don't worry.                      -(ENGINE REVVING)          1080 01:10:21,300 --> 01:10:22,801          Come on, let's go.          1081 01:10:22,885 --> 01:10:25,304            (TIRES SCREECH)           1082 01:10:30,142 --> 01:10:32,394      (TIRES CONTINUE SCREECHING                  IN DISTANCE)             1083 01:10:32,436 --> 01:10:35,564         (INDISTINCT SHOUTING)        1084 01:10:37,274 --> 01:10:40,319     MAN: Bro, turn that shit off!             Turn that shit off.         1085 01:10:44,073 --> 01:10:46,575       MAN 2: Burh can't drive.             You know he got no bars.       1086 01:10:46,617 --> 01:10:48,494           MAN 3: Aw, shit!           1087 01:10:59,255 --> 01:11:01,674          (TIRES SCREECHING)          1088 01:11:11,892 --> 01:11:14,186                  -G.                            -MEL: Let's go            1089 01:11:14,228 --> 01:11:15,187                  G.                  1090 01:11:15,229 --> 01:11:17,064         -Why are you running?                      -I'm not.              1091 01:11:17,147 --> 01:11:19,108      Okay, then what you hiding?     1092 01:11:19,149 --> 01:11:20,317               Nothing.               1093 01:11:20,359 --> 01:11:22,027              Okay, Gia.              1094 01:11:22,987 --> 01:11:24,822        This your partner now?        1095 01:11:24,863 --> 01:11:26,365      At least she ain't a liar.      1096 01:11:26,407 --> 01:11:28,534             I didn't lie.            1097 01:11:28,617 --> 01:11:31,662             G, we 'posed                    to be in this together.       1098 01:11:31,745 --> 01:11:32,871              And we are.             1099 01:11:32,955 --> 01:11:36,000     So then why are you planning            on giving your baby up?       1100 01:11:36,834 --> 01:11:38,752      I haven't even decided to.      1101 01:11:38,794 --> 01:11:42,298    I just think the devil got you           so fucked up right now,       1102 01:11:42,381 --> 01:11:44,508            you're not even                      thinking clear.           1103 01:11:45,009 --> 01:11:46,176              MEL: Damn.              1104 01:11:46,218 --> 01:11:48,679      Why the fuck you care about           what I'm doing, anyways?       1105 01:11:48,762 --> 01:11:52,016      Gia, you 'bout to make the          biggest mistake of your life.    1106 01:11:52,057 --> 01:11:54,643           Turning your back                  on your fucking kids?        1107 01:11:54,727 --> 01:11:56,645       Your dumb ass don't even                 deserve no baby.           1108 01:11:56,687 --> 01:11:59,398          -The fuck you say?              -I said, your dumb ass don't     1109 01:11:59,440 --> 01:12:01,650           -deserve no baby.               -Get the fuck out my face.      1110 01:12:01,692 --> 01:12:03,027               Or what?               1111 01:12:03,110 --> 01:12:04,862        -Don't test me, Trina.                  -Or what, nigga?           1112 01:12:04,945 --> 01:12:06,196       Get the fuck out my face.      1113 01:12:06,280 --> 01:12:07,656      -WOMAN 2: No, Trina! Trina!              -(TIRES SCREECHING)         1114 01:12:07,698 --> 01:12:09,700         TRINA: Step up and be                  a fucking mother!          1115 01:12:10,701 --> 01:12:12,328        -She can't save you, G!                -MEL: Come on now.          1116 01:12:12,411 --> 01:12:14,413          MEL: Don't pay her              no mind, Mama. She don't know    1117 01:12:14,455 --> 01:12:15,956           -what she saying.                 -Stop callin' me that.        1118 01:12:16,040 --> 01:12:20,002     -Ma, chill. We got this, Ma.          -I'm not your fucking Moms.     1119 01:12:20,210 --> 01:12:21,253                 Okay?                1120 01:12:21,295 --> 01:12:22,463         TRINA: You know what?                    Fuck you, G!             1121 01:12:22,504 --> 01:12:24,923         (TENSE MUSIC PLAYING)        1122 01:12:32,431 --> 01:12:33,766                (SIGHS)               1123 01:12:46,153 --> 01:12:48,072          (BREATHING HEAVILY)         1124 01:12:49,990 --> 01:12:52,618     (CONTINUES BREATHING HEAVILY)    1125 01:13:17,059 --> 01:13:19,561          (ZIPPER UNFASTENS)          1126 01:13:41,417 --> 01:13:42,835          (BUCKLES CLICKING)          1127 01:13:45,295 --> 01:13:46,964           (CHAIR CREAKING)           1128 01:14:13,532 --> 01:14:15,701               (EXHALES)              1129 01:14:18,454 --> 01:14:23,542              -(INHALES)                        -(LIGHTER CLICKS)          1130 01:14:25,836 --> 01:14:27,045               (INHALES)              1131 01:14:28,130 --> 01:14:32,509              -(INHALES)                        -(LIGHTER CLICKS)          1132 01:14:34,803 --> 01:14:36,513               (INHALES)              1133 01:14:36,930 --> 01:14:39,516               (EXHALES)              1134 01:14:40,642 --> 01:14:43,145          (MELANCHOLIC MUSIC                        PLAYING)               1135 01:15:41,245 --> 01:15:43,747          (MELANCHOLIC MUSIC                       CONTINUES)              1136 01:16:21,034 --> 01:16:22,536             (MUSIC FADES)            1137 01:16:22,578 --> 01:16:24,997         (EERIE MUSIC PLAYING)        1138 01:16:49,104 --> 01:16:50,355           (EXHALES SHARPLY)          1139 01:16:50,814 --> 01:16:53,191          (BREATHING HEAVILY)         1140 01:16:54,484 --> 01:16:55,819                 Okay.                1141 01:16:56,403 --> 01:16:57,946              Okay, okay.             1142 01:16:58,822 --> 01:17:01,199      (HEAVY BREATHING CONTINUES)     1143 01:17:06,747 --> 01:17:08,040          -(CELL PHONE BEEPS)                        -Okay.                1144 01:17:08,081 --> 01:17:09,750           AUTOMATED VOICE:                   Your balance is 4 cents.      1145 01:17:09,833 --> 01:17:12,169             -Make a payment.                 -(PHONE KEYPAD BEEPING)       1146 01:17:13,170 --> 01:17:15,380            (LINE RINGING)            1147 01:17:15,464 --> 01:17:16,632                -Hello?                  -AUTOMATED VOICE:   Your balance    1148 01:17:16,673 --> 01:17:17,883             -is zero cents.                     -My water broke.           1149 01:17:17,924 --> 01:17:19,468              -(BEEPING)                          -Make a payment.          1150 01:17:19,509 --> 01:17:21,845        My phone's cutting out.                    Can you...              1151 01:17:21,887 --> 01:17:23,805           -Can you just...                    -(LINE DISCONNECTS)         1152 01:17:25,307 --> 01:17:26,850        (PHONE KEYPAD BEEPING)        1153 01:17:27,100 --> 01:17:28,185              Okay, fuck.             1154 01:17:28,268 --> 01:17:30,687          (BREATHING HEAVILY)         1155 01:17:47,245 --> 01:17:49,706      (HEAVY BREATHING CONTINUES)     1156 01:18:10,477 --> 01:18:11,770                 Fuck.                1157 01:18:15,232 --> 01:18:17,442          (CAR HORNS HONKING)         1158 01:18:35,001 --> 01:18:37,087          -(HANDBRAKE CLICKS)                   -(CAR DOOR OPENS)          1159 01:18:49,266 --> 01:18:51,476          (BREATHING HEAVILY)         1160 01:18:57,691 --> 01:18:59,776         (EKG MACHINE BEEPING)        1161 01:18:59,860 --> 01:19:02,654     DOCTOR: Abruption. Two liters          estimated loss of blood.       1162 01:19:02,738 --> 01:19:04,948              -How long?                    -NURSE: Three weeks out.       1163 01:19:05,031 --> 01:19:07,617      DOCTOR: Is the father here?           NURSE: No, just a friend.      1164 01:19:07,701 --> 01:19:08,785           DOCTOR: Any word                     from her friend?           1165 01:19:08,869 --> 01:19:10,078     NURSE: Uh, water just broke.     1166 01:19:10,162 --> 01:19:12,080           DOCTOR: (MUFFLED)                   Are you doing okay?         1167 01:19:22,716 --> 01:19:25,135         (SOUNDS SLOWLY FADE)         1168 01:19:38,607 --> 01:19:40,984           (MONITOR BEEPING)          1169 01:19:44,696 --> 01:19:47,032             (BABY CRYING)            1170 01:19:56,792 --> 01:19:58,376       NURSE: Here's your mama.       1171 01:19:58,460 --> 01:20:00,879        (BABY CONTINUES CRYING)       1172 01:20:22,484 --> 01:20:24,861           (VELCRO RIPPING)           1173 01:20:58,728 --> 01:21:00,397         GIA: Can you give us                       a minute?              1174 01:21:01,940 --> 01:21:03,358              Of course.              1175 01:21:04,818 --> 01:21:06,945          Let me know if you                need anything, all right?      1176 01:21:07,445 --> 01:21:08,613              I got you.              1177 01:21:37,058 --> 01:21:41,146        MISS CARMEN: The doctor             told me the test results.      1178 01:21:46,985 --> 01:21:48,612       What am I supposed to do?      1179 01:21:52,866 --> 01:21:55,493        You've pushed yourself                right into a corner.         1180 01:21:56,119 --> 01:21:57,996       I didn't know what to do.      1181 01:21:58,622 --> 01:22:00,081          I gave you options.         1182 01:22:00,123 --> 01:22:02,000        How could I trust you?        1183 01:22:03,668 --> 01:22:05,337      You get paid to sell kids.      1184 01:22:07,797 --> 01:22:09,132                  No.                 1185 01:22:09,799 --> 01:22:12,469       I get paid to do my job.       1186 01:22:13,970 --> 01:22:15,805         Helping young mothers                 get out of a system         1187 01:22:15,847 --> 01:22:19,100           that was created                  to hurt people like us.       1188 01:22:19,142 --> 01:22:21,519        Do not put this on me.        1189 01:22:23,146 --> 01:22:26,942        You told me you wanted              to do right by this baby.      1190 01:22:26,983 --> 01:22:28,318                 I do.                1191 01:22:28,944 --> 01:22:30,362          Then what is this?          1192 01:22:31,821 --> 01:22:33,448          What are you doing?         1193 01:22:33,531 --> 01:22:37,077    I mean, why didn't you tell me          you still had a problem?       1194 01:22:37,118 --> 01:22:38,495        I could've helped you.        1195 01:22:38,536 --> 01:22:40,080      It's not a problem. It was          just the first time since...     1196 01:22:40,163 --> 01:22:41,957            And it's always                      the first time.           1197 01:22:41,998 --> 01:22:44,084         Miss Carmen, I swear.        1198 01:22:44,167 --> 01:22:48,088           I know you're 24,              but you have got to grow up.     1199 01:22:48,171 --> 01:22:49,965             It's not just                     about you anymore.          1200 01:22:50,048 --> 01:22:52,384          -I didn't mean to.                        -(SIGHS)               1201 01:22:53,760 --> 01:22:55,387    There's just so much going on.    1202 01:22:55,470 --> 01:22:58,348              Yeah, well,                  we all have a lot going on.     1203 01:22:59,099 --> 01:23:02,060           Doesn't mean that                you can abuse your child.      1204 01:23:04,020 --> 01:23:06,189          I didn't abuse her.         1205 01:23:07,691 --> 01:23:09,734               -You did.                          -(SOFTLY) No.            1206 01:23:09,776 --> 01:23:11,277               -You did.                         -No, I didn't.            1207 01:23:11,361 --> 01:23:15,323         (SOFTLY) What you did             to your body affected her.      1208 01:23:16,533 --> 01:23:18,576          You're both linked.         1209 01:23:22,122 --> 01:23:24,416           (SOBS, SNIFFLES)           1210 01:23:30,797 --> 01:23:34,759           They, uh, already                 called your caseworker.       1211 01:23:35,510 --> 01:23:36,678              (SNIFFLES)              1212 01:23:46,062 --> 01:23:48,064       So what do you wanna do?       1213 01:23:49,774 --> 01:23:53,778    Because you've got a few hours       before they'll decide for you.    1214 01:24:02,579 --> 01:24:03,747              (SNIFFLES)              1215 01:24:05,915 --> 01:24:07,292               (COOING)               1216 01:24:18,053 --> 01:24:19,471            GIA: I'm sorry.           1217 01:24:32,650 --> 01:24:33,818              I'm sorry.              1218 01:24:35,862 --> 01:24:37,280            (GIA SNIFFLES)            1219 01:24:39,616 --> 01:24:40,825              I'm sorry.              1220 01:24:52,087 --> 01:24:54,172        (BABY CONTINUES COOING)       1221 01:24:54,255 --> 01:24:56,674           (WHISPERS SOFTLY)          1222 01:25:02,972 --> 01:25:05,350           (BIRDS CHIRPING)           1223 01:25:45,640 --> 01:25:47,350           She's beautiful.           1224 01:25:50,979 --> 01:25:52,313               GIA: Mm.               1225 01:25:55,692 --> 01:25:56,901       (MONICA CHUCKLES SOFTLY)       1226 01:25:59,946 --> 01:26:02,574            I can't believe                    she's really here.          1227 01:26:05,285 --> 01:26:06,870         (MONICA SIGHS DEEPLY)        1228 01:26:08,872 --> 01:26:10,498        Do you wanna hold her?        1229 01:26:24,387 --> 01:26:26,514        MONICA: Hey, hey, hey.        1230 01:26:27,307 --> 01:26:29,475             (BABY COOING)            1231 01:26:29,684 --> 01:26:31,227                 Oh...                1232 01:26:34,856 --> 01:26:37,775          Look at your nose.          1233 01:26:38,943 --> 01:26:40,612          (MONICA CHUCKLING)          1234 01:26:42,322 --> 01:26:45,283       And your long eyelashes.       1235 01:26:53,041 --> 01:26:54,751         Just like your mama.         1236 01:27:02,258 --> 01:27:03,635                Can I?                1237 01:27:10,308 --> 01:27:12,977            -(BABY CRYING)                     -(MONICA SHUSHING)          1238 01:27:28,034 --> 01:27:29,661     (MONICA SPEAKS INDISTINCTLY)     1239 01:27:40,338 --> 01:27:42,924        What position you think                   she'll play?             1240 01:27:45,843 --> 01:27:48,346      I don't know, maybe point.      1241 01:27:54,686 --> 01:27:56,854           Don't let her get                 pushed around, though.        1242 01:27:59,315 --> 01:28:03,486      Gotta make sure she's a lot             stronger than I was.         1243 01:28:12,912 --> 01:28:15,331      (MELANCHOLIC MUSIC PLAYING)     1244 01:28:34,142 --> 01:28:36,686          (BREATH TREMBLING)          1245 01:28:52,785 --> 01:28:55,580            -(BABY COOING)                  -(MONICA CHUCKLES SOFTLY)      1246 01:29:16,476 --> 01:29:18,936          (MELANCHOLIC MUSIC                   CONTINUES PLAYING)          1247 01:29:40,875 --> 01:29:43,127          (BREATH TREMBLING)          1248 01:29:58,309 --> 01:30:00,645        WOMAN: I'd much rather                  be in Las Vegas.           1249 01:30:02,647 --> 01:30:04,565     We got the strip right here.     1250 01:30:05,566 --> 01:30:06,984        What? That's the strip?       1251 01:30:07,026 --> 01:30:08,444    This is it. Little bit larger.    1252 01:30:08,486 --> 01:30:10,029              How can...                      You can't even tell.         1253 01:30:10,113 --> 01:30:11,239         Look how dark it is.         1254 01:30:11,322 --> 01:30:12,615          -It is a bit, yeah.                    -For Las Vegas?           1255 01:30:12,698 --> 01:30:14,492         For Las Vegas, yeah.                  How about this one?         1256 01:30:14,534 --> 01:30:16,994        -This is Vegas. Right?             -Yeah, it looks a little...     1257 01:30:17,078 --> 01:30:18,329           -It looks better.                      -The desert?             1258 01:30:18,413 --> 01:30:19,622          But it just doesn't                really look like Vegas.       1259 01:30:19,705 --> 01:30:21,457         -You don't think so?                         -Mm.                 1260 01:30:21,499 --> 01:30:23,584        How about the hibiscus?                  Bahamas again.            1261 01:30:23,626 --> 01:30:26,462               Oh, yes.                   Well, I like hibiscus juice.     1262 01:30:26,546 --> 01:30:28,881           -Do you? (LAUGHS)                    -(SNORTS, LAUGHS)          1263 01:30:28,923 --> 01:30:30,091          Me too. (CHUCKLES)          1264 01:30:30,133 --> 01:30:31,259                 -Yes.                             -Beautiful.             1265 01:30:31,300 --> 01:30:32,635              The Bahamas                     is the spot to be at.        1266 01:30:32,677 --> 01:30:35,096           Beautiful. Okay.                 Let's talk about pricing.      1267 01:30:47,608 --> 01:30:49,026          You have a napkin?          1268 01:31:01,080 --> 01:31:02,206            (MEL CHUCKLES)            1269 01:31:14,135 --> 01:31:15,970        MISS CARMEN:   And since                  she's been coming up        1270 01:31:16,012 --> 01:31:17,722           negative every time.        1271 01:31:17,805 --> 01:31:20,808     But we'll continue to monitor                her progress.            1272 01:31:22,226 --> 01:31:23,561             JUDGE: I see.            1273 01:31:24,520 --> 01:31:26,981     Thank you. You may step down.    1274 01:31:27,857 --> 01:31:28,941                 Sure.                1275 01:31:29,233 --> 01:31:30,568              Thank you.              1276 01:31:39,619 --> 01:31:41,037              JUDGE: Yes?             1277 01:31:47,877 --> 01:31:50,087         I don't want my kids                     going through            1278 01:31:50,171 --> 01:31:51,589        what I've been through.       1279 01:31:52,673 --> 01:31:54,759           Or what I'm going                   through right now.          1280 01:31:57,428 --> 01:31:59,013        They deserve to see me.       1281 01:31:59,680 --> 01:32:03,100        More than once a week,               more than for an hour.        1282 01:32:05,394 --> 01:32:07,688          Look, I'm committed                      to my kids.             1283 01:32:08,356 --> 01:32:09,857         I've shown you that.         1284 01:32:12,401 --> 01:32:14,737             And although                     you might not believe        1285 01:32:14,779 --> 01:32:17,156        that I'm fit to parent                   them right now,           1286 01:32:17,865 --> 01:32:21,911            no matter what,                I'll always be their mama.      1287 01:32:27,250 --> 01:32:28,793         So what I'm asking...        1288 01:32:29,627 --> 01:32:32,964      What I really, really want      1289 01:32:36,050 --> 01:32:40,972        is for you to consider                more frequent, longer        1290 01:32:41,013 --> 01:32:44,892     and unsupervised visitations                 with my kids.            1291 01:32:50,147 --> 01:32:51,274              That's it.              1292 01:32:52,775 --> 01:32:54,735         (SNIFFLES) Thank you.        1293 01:32:55,778 --> 01:32:58,239      (MELANCHOLIC MUSIC PLAYING)     1294 01:33:16,924 --> 01:33:19,635     WOMAN:   Sometimes I feel like                 I'm not enough.           1295 01:33:20,428 --> 01:33:23,306       I... I just can't do enough.    1296 01:33:24,015 --> 01:33:26,058             I don't know if                 I'm more angry at my mother     1297 01:33:26,142 --> 01:33:30,146         for doing what she could                 with what she had.         1298 01:33:32,940 --> 01:33:38,321        Or if I'm angrier that I'm          doing the same to my children.  1299 01:33:38,904 --> 01:33:42,325             It's so hard                     to explain to a child        1300 01:33:44,035 --> 01:33:46,329          that you don't know                   better yourself.           1301 01:33:47,163 --> 01:33:48,664         That you're learning.        1302 01:33:49,790 --> 01:33:53,210      That each day that goes by,            you're just winging it.       1303 01:33:58,883 --> 01:34:01,552      I want to protect them like          they need to be protected,      1304 01:34:01,594 --> 01:34:04,680         but nobody was there                    to protect me.            1305 01:34:07,683 --> 01:34:09,894           (WATER SPLASHING)          1306 01:34:21,197 --> 01:34:22,448        (MELLOW MUSIC PLAYING)