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Withdrawal is like dying
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and rebirth happening at once.
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But with no family
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to lovingly send you off
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or to greet you with big smiles
and open arms,
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a drinker like me...
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...is always alone.
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Matt, Matt get in.
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- Look like you could use
a cup of coffee, huh?
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I could use a beer.
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It was a joke, you literal
prick, it was a joke.
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It's a, it's a seatbelt.
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Yeah, I know what it is.
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Thanks, Papa Fred.
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-Nice.
-Onward, valet. Onward.
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Tell me about your,
your big plan.
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Punching a bartender, huh?
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-Worked, didn't it? It worked.
-Oh.
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Oh, 48 hours, Matt. That's it.
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Ye-- you, you don't have
no room to get cocky here.
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Why are you mocking that?
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How am I being cocky?
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Come on, Matt.
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One day at a time,
one minute at a time,
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one second at a time.
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Shoot, this car don't move
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until the metal's in the groove.
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I need you to understand
that this is, this is the time.
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-There might not be
another chance.
-No chance.
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-Why?
-Because your plans
don't work for me.
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They would
if you commit to them.
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I've had 20 successful
sponsees, man.
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-Twenty.
-I know that because
you've mentioned it a lot.
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Go home now
and you'll be drunk in an hour.
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Dude, stop.
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Or dead in a month.
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What the, happened to all
that positive self-talk
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you were so good at?
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Okay, Matt. What's your plan?
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Step one, get sober.
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Check.
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Step two,
I will finish the hutch.
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I'll start that tomorrow.
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And then step three, um,
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I will stay sober...
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...for 30 days...
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...so that I can see
my mom, uh...
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...before she dies.
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Matt, I'm, I'm sorry.
I didn't know it was that bad.
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Listen, listen, I've,
I've got that cabin.
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-That little cabin
next to our house.
-Yeah.
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-You know the one
I'm talking about, right?
-I do.
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-Yeah.
-Why don't you come out there
and finish the hutch?
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Rachael's not even there.
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She's,
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she's back East with family,
all right? She's, uh...
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I don't wanna live on a farm.
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It's not a, it's not a farm.
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What do you mean, "It's not
a farm?" You have chickens.
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Matt, sobriety is something
that you can't do on your own.
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Sobriety is something
that I have to do on my own.
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Matt, think big picture.
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I am.
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I am, I'm just thinking
differently than you.
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Oh.
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Dear Matt,
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well, the doctors finally
hit their last option.
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They moved me to hospice.
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It's not so bad,
there's a TV in my room.
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I haven't seen you in 15 years,
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and you'd think by now
I'd give up on my stubbornness
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because the idea
of not seeing you
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before I kick the bucket
hurts more than all
the surgeries combined.
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But I'm holding on
to what I can hold onto,
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my final dream.
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Get sober
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and come say goodbye.
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I love you.
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Mom.
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We're doing this.
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Yeah, Matt.
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-Thirty days.
-Thirty days.
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Thirty days.
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- We're gonna talk about
that ugly hat you're wearing.
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Deal.
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My whole life...
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...unable to rest...
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...in pursuit of some
unavowed dream...
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...masked in this insane
compulsive desire to self-bleed.
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Multiple vices brought my way,
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but not the kind that
takes one's breath away,
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but the kind that tears
one's self away.
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Let's get after it.
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Morning, morning.
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Uh, uh, morning, oh, Oh.
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Did I disturb you?
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No, no,
the knock did. Okay.
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Some leftover benzos.
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-Oh, thanks man.
-I got plenty of coffee
in the truck.
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I don't really
feel like hearing how big
a piece of shit I am,
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right now,
to be honest with you.
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Matt, I get it,
you don't like meetings.
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Yeah.
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I need you to show up.
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It's a reasonable request.
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Yeah, yeah, yeah, it is.
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It's a reasonable request.
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All right, I'll pick you up.
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- Wait, you're not coming in?
-I already went.
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-That figures.
-All right.
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-I got a favor to ask you, man.
-What's that?
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I'd like to ask you
not to wear that hat.
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Uh, what do you mean?
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-I'm Lakota.
-I know.
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So basically you're a walking
billboard for a stereotype
about native people.
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Matt, we're not Braves
or Redskins,
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or-- we're not even Indians.
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-We're real people just--
-I, I know.
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Just wear this instead, please.
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This hat is symbolic of
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real players,
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and real people,
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and a real team
that was part of my childhood.
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I'm not, it's not a, a,
a racist thing.
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All right. Imagine you're a,
you're a kid...
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-Yeah.
-...off the reservation, and
you, and, and you come to a game
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and you idolize these people
and you want to be
a professional baseball player,
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and, and, and you get there
and, and you see people,
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adults, dressed up like,
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like what they think...
you're supposed to look like.
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What they think, in their mind,
an "Indian" looks like,
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and, and, and they're going
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act-- acting like idiots.
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That affects us.
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Like I, I'm not saying
that that's great,
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I don't get how
it affects you though.
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That affects my self-esteem.
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That affects
these kids' self-esteem.
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I'm not a mascot.
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I'm not a goofy cartoon
or a, or a chant,
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or, or, we don't do
the Tomahawk chop.
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That makes a difference
in how we feel about ourself,
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that affects kids' self-esteem.
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Okay.
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-Thank you.
-Yep, yep.
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You win, you win.
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Uh, are you picking me up after?
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I'll be here.
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-Thanks, man.
-I got you.
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My father was a violent man.
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He was a marine...
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...sniper scout,
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Pacific Theater during
World War II.
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He took Iwo Jima, Saipan,
Tinian, Roi-Namur,
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and the Marianas.
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And...
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...he had this hair trigger
temper when he drank...
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...and God forbid,
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you were in his line of fire,
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'cause that wasn't
gonna be a good day.
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When I was a boy,
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I had this dog named Caesar...
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...and he was my buddy,
you know, my pal.
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In a scary world,
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he was like my champion.
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And then, uh, one day my dad...
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...just went into one
of his ragers and...
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I was sitting there
with Caesar petting him.
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And... he beelines it
right at us, you know?
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And I thought, "Oh, he's going,
he's gonna lay into me, man."
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And then, you know,
with one hit...
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...he snapped his spine in half.
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I'll never forget
the sound he made...
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...'cause I, I knew that was it,
and he was dying.
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So, I put my head...
against his chest and pet him.
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You know, that...
was the only thing I could do.
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I've done a lot
of forgiving since then,
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I'm gonna tell you
that was a hard one.
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- All right.
- That was tough, man.
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You know, the pulls are
a great community event.
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-Meet a lot of good people.
-What are they?
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Uh, dog pulls,
train your sled dogs?
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So, like mushing and all that?
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Yeah, something like that.
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It's kind of tough being
the new guy in the group, huh?
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It was tough for me too
in the beginning,
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but you know, I kind of
stick out around here.
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Why? Because you don't drink?
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Well, no, I, I'm a guest
from Al-Anon.
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So, you're fine.
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Well, not fine, but you know,
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alcoholism, it's,
it's a family disease.
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Not if they're not around.
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Listen, I'm in Al-Anon
and I give my number out,
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so you know,
if you're interested...
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No, I'm good.
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All right, well,
I'll let you get back to it
and, uh, it's great meeting you.
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-I need this.
-He's a stray.
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So am I, and look
how much you like me.
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You remember Kevin,
you remember Kevin?
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He asked his sponsor
for a little job,
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and, and his sponsor sent him
out to the garden
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to pick some dandelions,
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just a little bit
of light weeding.
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He marches through the river,
over the woods,
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catches the bus one hour
one way just to drink.
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-Sorry, what does that have
to do with me?
-Stress, Matt.
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Stress. This dog is stress.
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-You don't need
stress right now.
-I'm not asking permission.
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-This is my house, man.
-Then I will leave your house.
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Do you see what you're doing?
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Do you even hear what
you're doing right now?
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Matt, if I let him stay
and things go wrong,
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you have your excuse, and if...
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-I'm listening.
-...if I stand my ground...
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...you have your excuse.
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He was licking chickens.
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- That's not cute.
That's brain damage.
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Hmm.
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- See?
- Bless you.
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That's how
he protests absurdity.
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After my dad died...
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...my Newfoundland that I had,
his name was Basil...
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...was how that I knew
that my world had not ended.
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And when he died, the care
that had been in my home
was completely gone.
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So, I would scrape my knee
and it wasn't,
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"Hey, are you okay?"
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It was, "Put a band aid on it
and move on."
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I need this.
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How about we give it a week?
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-One week, Matt.
-Deal.
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There's one problem.
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What now?
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We have to name him.
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This, this is your new dog.
You pick.
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Okay. Yup'ik.
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- Oh, Matt.
- Yeah, yeah.
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-Really?
-Yeah, really.
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It's a great name,
you named him.
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It's great. It's great.
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Heartfelt.
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That's right. You know,
you know the smells.
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Shut up!
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- Shut up, shut up. Shut up,
shut up, shut up.
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At least you're housebroken.
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Come on, let's go.
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Yup'ik, let's go.
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Hey.
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Yeah, yeah. Hey, hey.
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00:20:54,055 --> 00:20:57,158
I blame my mom for the way
she shut down after my dad died,
251
00:20:57,290 --> 00:21:00,260
- The truth was somehow
too straight forward.
252
00:21:00,728 --> 00:21:02,797
He crashed into a tree
on his way to work.
253
00:21:02,930 --> 00:21:06,834
Broad daylight, no alcohol,
no other cars involved.
254
00:21:36,964 --> 00:21:37,865
Hmm.
255
00:21:38,733 --> 00:21:40,601
- Hey, how is it coming along?
-Great.
256
00:21:40,735 --> 00:21:43,370
It's real great,
real great, real great.
257
00:21:43,771 --> 00:21:45,740
-You're not gonna take him
with you?
-Nope.
258
00:21:45,873 --> 00:21:48,009
Well, he's your dog,
you can't just leave him.
259
00:21:49,043 --> 00:21:50,310
What do you want from me?
260
00:21:51,311 --> 00:21:52,880
I want you to take him with you.
261
00:21:53,014 --> 00:21:54,949
Fine, I'll take him with me
and leave him for the cougars.
262
00:21:55,082 --> 00:21:56,651
Great? Great, great.
263
00:22:21,042 --> 00:22:24,111
Yup'ik!
You're on your own asshole!
264
00:23:31,411 --> 00:23:35,182
Hey, you all right? Good.
All right, here, go ahead,
go ahead, go ahead.
265
00:23:35,316 --> 00:23:37,785
Go ahead, go ahead, okay.
266
00:23:39,520 --> 00:23:42,823
Good, yeah, yeah, good, good.
267
00:23:45,526 --> 00:23:46,794
- Hey.
- Hey.
268
00:23:46,928 --> 00:23:48,329
I have a package for Fred.
269
00:23:49,030 --> 00:23:53,034
Uh, yeah, I'll sign
for it. Uh...
270
00:23:53,734 --> 00:23:56,370
-You can sign here.
-Great, oh.
271
00:23:56,504 --> 00:23:57,972
Wow, you guys got
dumped on out here.
272
00:23:58,739 --> 00:24:01,909
- Yeah, yeah it's Montana. It'll
probably be gone tomorrow with.
273
00:24:02,276 --> 00:24:06,180
-Oh, I love your husky.
-Uh, he's a pound puppy.
274
00:24:08,349 --> 00:24:11,886
He's an Alaskan Husky
with some Siberian in him.
275
00:24:12,019 --> 00:24:13,821
Seriously?
276
00:24:13,955 --> 00:24:16,357
Yep, third generation
dog musher right here.
277
00:24:16,724 --> 00:24:17,825
People still do that?
278
00:24:17,959 --> 00:24:19,961
Well, sure I mean,
I don't anymore,
279
00:24:20,094 --> 00:24:21,829
but there are a lot of them
out there.
280
00:24:22,330 --> 00:24:24,999
-Yeah.
-Well, huskies can look
kind of muddy
281
00:24:25,132 --> 00:24:27,001
'cause they're not really
a "breed" breed,
282
00:24:27,134 --> 00:24:28,769
but they're
kind of a special dog,
283
00:24:28,903 --> 00:24:31,138
bred for power, speed,
and endurance.
284
00:24:31,739 --> 00:24:33,874
Not for looks. Right?
285
00:24:34,008 --> 00:24:35,276
-Definitely not.
-Yeah.
286
00:24:35,409 --> 00:24:37,011
But this guy's an epic athlete.
287
00:24:37,945 --> 00:24:40,381
-Wait.
-Um, what's the name?
288
00:24:40,514 --> 00:24:41,449
Uh, Yup'ik.
289
00:24:41,882 --> 00:24:43,751
-Yeah.
-Your name is Yup'ik?
290
00:24:45,820 --> 00:24:47,655
- No, I'm Matt, he's Yup'ik.
- Oh.
291
00:24:47,788 --> 00:24:49,824
I, what kind of parent would
name a kid Yup'ik, right?
292
00:24:49,957 --> 00:24:52,760
Yeah, that's a good question,
Uh, I'm Julie.
293
00:24:52,893 --> 00:24:55,596
-Hi.
-They're great sled dogs,
but they're also,
294
00:24:55,730 --> 00:24:57,531
they love to pull.
There's nothing in the world
295
00:24:57,665 --> 00:24:59,633
an Alaskan Husky loves
more than pulling.
296
00:25:00,001 --> 00:25:06,307
I, I don't know. Is that what
those signs are around town with
like the... big prize money...
297
00:25:06,440 --> 00:25:07,475
-Yeah. Oh.
-...thing?
298
00:25:07,608 --> 00:25:08,809
Where are you from?
299
00:25:08,943 --> 00:25:11,012
Uh, I grew up
in Whitefish mostly...
300
00:25:11,145 --> 00:25:13,748
-and then I was in, uh,
Glendive for a bit...
-Hmm.
301
00:25:13,881 --> 00:25:16,484
- ...and Miles City.
- Yeah, fancy boy.
302
00:25:16,617 --> 00:25:19,620
Yeah that's, that's me,
that's me.
303
00:25:19,754 --> 00:25:24,158
Um... well, hey, I, I gotta go.
304
00:25:24,525 --> 00:25:26,160
Hey, uh, what do I do,
305
00:25:26,293 --> 00:25:29,463
uh, if I want to have him
pull like you're saying?
306
00:25:29,597 --> 00:25:30,765
Uh, harness him up.
307
00:25:31,665 --> 00:25:33,734
I don't, actually--
Uh, what does that mean?
308
00:25:34,301 --> 00:25:36,804
It means fancy boy,
put a harness on him.
309
00:25:37,471 --> 00:25:41,642
Uh, I work at Murdochs
this weekend. Come by.
I'll hook this guy up.
310
00:25:42,443 --> 00:25:43,244
Okay.
311
00:25:44,445 --> 00:25:46,013
All right. Come on,
312
00:25:46,515 --> 00:25:48,082
we'll try this. All right.
313
00:25:48,215 --> 00:25:51,052
Okay, okay.
What's happening here?
314
00:25:51,185 --> 00:25:54,922
So we, like this.
315
00:25:55,056 --> 00:25:57,992
Come on, come on,
come on, you're good.
316
00:25:58,125 --> 00:25:59,727
I'm just gonna take
this off of you.
317
00:26:07,701 --> 00:26:11,172
Okay, ready, okay?
318
00:26:11,572 --> 00:26:14,608
Good boy, it's okay, it's okay.
319
00:26:14,742 --> 00:26:19,046
Yeah, here we go, here we go.
320
00:26:23,884 --> 00:26:26,720
Good job. Here we go.
321
00:27:23,777 --> 00:27:26,780
More weight!
322
00:27:27,549 --> 00:27:29,083
-Come here.
-Come on, Yup'ik.
323
00:27:33,154 --> 00:27:35,422
- Come on.
- Atta boy.
324
00:27:40,828 --> 00:27:43,664
What was that?
325
00:27:43,797 --> 00:27:44,899
He almost pulled it.
326
00:27:45,600 --> 00:27:50,671
-Wow, good job. Good job,
good job buddy.
-What? Good boy!
327
00:27:50,804 --> 00:27:53,474
- Ugh.
- Good Yup'ik, yeah, yeah.
328
00:27:53,608 --> 00:27:56,944
Are you getting cold?
Hm? Are you getting cold?
329
00:27:57,077 --> 00:28:01,448
-Matt, the parking brake was on.
-Wait, what?
330
00:28:01,583 --> 00:28:03,450
The parking break was on.
331
00:28:05,052 --> 00:28:10,958
No. What, what, what?
332
00:28:25,239 --> 00:28:28,442
Yeah! Woo-hoo.
333
00:28:37,351 --> 00:28:38,852
Okay, yeah, we--
334
00:28:38,986 --> 00:28:40,854
Sorry, we can't afford it buddy.
335
00:28:41,889 --> 00:28:44,491
Let's see.
336
00:28:51,131 --> 00:28:52,266
Yup'ik!
337
00:28:52,866 --> 00:28:54,802
You made it.
338
00:28:56,170 --> 00:28:57,905
I'm gonna give you a treat.
339
00:28:58,038 --> 00:29:00,741
I just need to ask you
about the, the dog pulling.
340
00:29:01,208 --> 00:29:03,477
-Weight pulling. Uh...
-Weight pulling.
341
00:29:03,612 --> 00:29:04,979
...mushing's more my specialty,
342
00:29:05,112 --> 00:29:06,715
but you should talk to this guy.
343
00:29:06,847 --> 00:29:08,983
He's the best.
He, his dogs are legend,
344
00:29:09,116 --> 00:29:12,086
and he's lived here a long time.
A native guy from Alaska.
345
00:29:12,219 --> 00:29:14,723
-Okay.
-Uh, he's got
really good stories.
346
00:29:14,855 --> 00:29:19,159
-You should ask him
about Nugget.
-Nugget, okay, Nugget.
347
00:29:21,128 --> 00:29:22,496
Did you hook him up?
348
00:29:22,997 --> 00:29:25,399
- Yeah.
- I told you.
349
00:29:25,533 --> 00:29:28,269
-Right.
-Hey also, the weight pull's
just outside.
350
00:29:28,670 --> 00:29:31,606
Um, give it a go. If he pulls
weight, you qualify for state.
351
00:29:32,607 --> 00:29:36,711
-Cash or card?
-Uh, let's do card please.
352
00:29:36,844 --> 00:29:40,981
Also, uh, make sure that you mix
it with water when you feed him,
it prevents bloat.
353
00:29:41,115 --> 00:29:42,216
Okay.
354
00:29:45,219 --> 00:29:46,120
Yeah.
355
00:29:48,055 --> 00:29:50,824
Your total is $71.37.
356
00:29:51,559 --> 00:29:52,793
Okay.
357
00:30:00,267 --> 00:30:02,336
I'm sorry. It didn't go through.
358
00:30:02,469 --> 00:30:04,972
Just gimme my card back,
it's, it's like an old card.
359
00:30:05,105 --> 00:30:08,042
I think the stripe
is actually bad on it.
360
00:30:08,175 --> 00:30:09,977
-How much do you have?
-I have money,
361
00:30:10,110 --> 00:30:12,813
I'm just finishing up
a project right now, so...
362
00:30:14,148 --> 00:30:18,085
Mm, 42 bucks, perfect.
363
00:30:18,952 --> 00:30:20,020
I told you I'd hook you up.
364
00:30:20,689 --> 00:30:22,923
Don't worry about it,
employee discount.
365
00:30:23,692 --> 00:30:25,059
Um, gimme Greg's card.
366
00:30:30,565 --> 00:30:31,800
I can show you our dogs.
367
00:30:31,932 --> 00:30:33,834
I've just been out
of the game a while.
368
00:30:47,181 --> 00:30:48,282
Good boy.
369
00:30:55,389 --> 00:30:57,157
I'm sorry, we're finished.
370
00:30:57,291 --> 00:30:59,493
Uh, can I just
get my dog out there?
371
00:30:59,627 --> 00:31:01,962
-Come to our next pull.
-Wh-- when is that?
372
00:31:02,096 --> 00:31:04,498
Qualifier's in Butte next week.
373
00:31:05,933 --> 00:31:08,168
Could we just practice?
374
00:31:08,670 --> 00:31:10,337
Not today.
375
00:31:13,508 --> 00:31:15,943
You're taking this kind
of seriously, aren't you?
376
00:31:16,544 --> 00:31:17,244
I am?
377
00:31:17,878 --> 00:31:21,583
Yeah, I'm just asking
to see what my dog can do.
378
00:31:23,384 --> 00:31:25,285
I'll spare you the suspense.
379
00:31:25,419 --> 00:31:28,556
- Excuse me?
- It's a little dog.
380
00:31:31,392 --> 00:31:32,594
I'm sorry.
381
00:31:36,497 --> 00:31:40,434
-Greg said I should stop by.
-Greg sent you?
382
00:31:40,802 --> 00:31:42,903
-Yeah, Greg Peters.
-Mm-hmm.
383
00:31:44,471 --> 00:31:48,041
Hey,Greg-ums, guy here
says you sent him over.
384
00:31:51,011 --> 00:31:52,547
-Hey, Matt, right?
-Yeah.
385
00:31:52,680 --> 00:31:54,948
- Good to see you again.
- Yeah, you too.
386
00:31:55,082 --> 00:31:57,184
Yeah, I think he's worth
checking out.
387
00:31:57,317 --> 00:31:59,920
- He ever pulled?
- Sure.
388
00:32:00,889 --> 00:32:02,256
Yeah, he's young.
389
00:32:02,791 --> 00:32:04,793
He's got feet like clown shoes.
390
00:32:05,693 --> 00:32:09,196
-Let's get a rig on him,
see what he can do.
-Are you serious?
391
00:32:14,401 --> 00:32:15,936
All right, make sure it's snug.
392
00:32:16,069 --> 00:32:17,104
We had a big malamute in there
393
00:32:17,237 --> 00:32:18,338
last run of the day.
394
00:32:18,807 --> 00:32:20,340
Sampson, you may have seen him.
395
00:32:20,842 --> 00:32:23,210
Your dog's a little smaller.
396
00:32:24,178 --> 00:32:27,347
- It's funny, that's,
that's real funny, yeah.
397
00:32:27,481 --> 00:32:30,417
-So what'd you name him?
-Uh, his name's Yup'ik.
398
00:32:31,285 --> 00:32:32,787
- Really?
- Hey, come here, here.
399
00:32:32,921 --> 00:32:33,888
And how'd you come about that?
400
00:32:34,054 --> 00:32:35,088
That's kind of a joke.
401
00:32:35,557 --> 00:32:38,726
I gotta see this,
don't wanna jinx the next pull.
402
00:32:38,860 --> 00:32:40,427
Uh, he's superstitious.
403
00:32:40,562 --> 00:32:42,463
Into the Zodiac
and stuff like that.
404
00:32:42,597 --> 00:32:44,331
Yeah, that seems
pretty on brand for him.
405
00:32:44,465 --> 00:32:46,099
Come on, Yup'ik.
Come on, come on. Go, go, go.
406
00:32:46,233 --> 00:32:47,968
Hey Greg, just so this
kid doesn't kill his dog,
407
00:32:48,101 --> 00:32:50,037
we should probably take
the weight down a little bit.
408
00:32:50,170 --> 00:32:51,171
How much is on there?
409
00:32:51,539 --> 00:32:54,274
Uh, Sampson's original 2100.
410
00:32:54,408 --> 00:32:56,711
Oh, let's knock it down to 500,
411
00:32:56,845 --> 00:32:58,145
just to give him a feel for it.
412
00:32:58,278 --> 00:32:59,948
Yeah, well he almost
pulled a car earlier.
413
00:33:00,380 --> 00:33:01,215
- Yeah?
- Yeah.
414
00:33:01,348 --> 00:33:02,282
You never set your dog
415
00:33:02,416 --> 00:33:03,885
up to fail, it shames him.
416
00:33:04,017 --> 00:33:05,252
This guy's a total amateur.
417
00:33:05,385 --> 00:33:06,788
We were all amateurs once.
418
00:33:06,921 --> 00:33:09,122
That trust is a difficult
thing to earn back.
419
00:33:09,624 --> 00:33:11,458
Yeah, and I know something
about that.
420
00:33:11,960 --> 00:33:13,494
Oh, okay.
421
00:33:13,628 --> 00:33:15,630
-Yeah.
-Well, here's how it works,
422
00:33:16,063 --> 00:33:17,665
Each of those bricks
is 50 pounds.
423
00:33:18,098 --> 00:33:22,102
After each successful pull,
the weight goes up 100 pounds.
424
00:33:22,236 --> 00:33:25,472
You are starting at 2100 pounds.
All right?
425
00:33:25,607 --> 00:33:29,209
- Okay.
-So you're gonna go down to the end of the lane, that's 16 feet.
426
00:33:29,343 --> 00:33:34,248
Your time starts when you call
your dog or when your dog makes
a move off the line.
427
00:33:34,716 --> 00:33:38,252
-Thirty seconds for him to get--
-You've got 30 seconds to get
the front of the sled
428
00:33:38,385 --> 00:33:41,321
- across that line.
- Okay, got it.
429
00:33:41,756 --> 00:33:43,023
You're on, Sparky.
430
00:33:50,832 --> 00:33:52,332
Okay. Yup'ik, come.
431
00:33:54,569 --> 00:33:57,471
You're right.
He's really strong.
432
00:33:59,206 --> 00:34:01,208
Prick.
433
00:34:04,979 --> 00:34:06,446
Yup'ik, come.
434
00:34:11,019 --> 00:34:12,520
He's not interested.
435
00:34:16,423 --> 00:34:18,292
The dog just won't listen, man.
436
00:34:18,425 --> 00:34:20,995
Yup'ik, not "the dog".
437
00:34:21,128 --> 00:34:22,630
"Not the dog,"
does that really matter?
438
00:34:23,063 --> 00:34:27,167
Yes. When you call Yup'ik,
mean it.
439
00:34:27,301 --> 00:34:29,269
I do mean it.
440
00:34:31,471 --> 00:34:34,876
Remember a time
when you had fun with him.
441
00:34:35,543 --> 00:34:37,512
- Remember a time when I had fun with him?
- -Yes.
442
00:34:37,645 --> 00:34:40,515
Breathe into that,
it's very simple.
443
00:34:54,194 --> 00:34:56,196
Stay in that place.
444
00:35:03,671 --> 00:35:06,206
When you're ready, call him.
445
00:35:08,108 --> 00:35:10,511
Yup'ik, come.
446
00:35:13,180 --> 00:35:16,851
-Wait, wait, wait, wait.
-When he puts his head
down, you leave him.
447
00:35:16,985 --> 00:35:18,853
Wh-- Sorry, why are you
yelling at me?
448
00:35:18,987 --> 00:35:20,888
Because you are a moron.
449
00:35:21,421 --> 00:35:23,423
You work at a doggy
weight pull, man.
450
00:35:23,558 --> 00:35:25,258
How often do you think
your wife brags about you?
451
00:35:25,392 --> 00:35:26,226
Oh, yeah?
452
00:35:32,000 --> 00:35:35,903
Oh shit. Quick, quick, come,
come, yep, good, good.
453
00:35:36,037 --> 00:35:37,605
Nine seconds.
454
00:35:38,338 --> 00:35:40,140
-Not bad.
-Yeah.
455
00:35:42,810 --> 00:35:44,244
Yeah, you know?
456
00:35:45,145 --> 00:35:49,851
Hey, so, I, I just wanted to say
that I'm going through kind of
a, a rough patch.
457
00:35:49,984 --> 00:35:51,586
Yeah, I get it.
458
00:35:52,020 --> 00:35:52,920
Yeah, look...
459
00:35:53,988 --> 00:35:56,189
...bring this with you
to the qualifier.
460
00:35:56,323 --> 00:35:57,759
It'll get you in for free.
461
00:35:57,892 --> 00:35:59,192
It's got my name on it.
462
00:35:59,560 --> 00:36:01,161
Right, so you think
he can qualify?
463
00:36:01,663 --> 00:36:05,566
I wouldn't get too excited
just 'cause you got him
to cross the line once,
464
00:36:05,967 --> 00:36:09,202
- doesn't mean you can do it again.
- Good luck, champ.
465
00:36:11,939 --> 00:36:12,974
Matthew...
466
00:36:13,875 --> 00:36:16,077
...Yup'ik is a very
special name.
467
00:36:16,811 --> 00:36:21,415
It's a Yup'ik word,
spelled Y-U-P-I-K,
468
00:36:22,016 --> 00:36:23,518
and it's sacred.
469
00:36:25,318 --> 00:36:26,888
He's a sensitive dog...
470
00:36:27,722 --> 00:36:30,290
...and you will have
to become sensitive, too.
471
00:36:31,191 --> 00:36:33,460
Lean into that connection, okay?
472
00:36:36,064 --> 00:36:37,197
You're doing a good job.
473
00:36:49,610 --> 00:36:51,445
Okay, Yup'ik come.
474
00:36:55,215 --> 00:37:00,287
I thought we had a deal,
I lean in and you respond.
475
00:37:05,126 --> 00:37:06,293
What's the problem?
476
00:37:09,897 --> 00:37:12,365
I'm sorry
about the car earlier, okay?
477
00:37:12,499 --> 00:37:14,669
I didn't mean
to shame you with it.
478
00:38:34,015 --> 00:38:36,684
So, you wanna make sure
and make eye contact with him.
479
00:38:37,518 --> 00:38:38,719
And go very slowly.
480
00:38:38,853 --> 00:38:41,522
Make sure that
he's following the treat.
481
00:38:46,326 --> 00:38:48,428
-Okay, you try.
-Okay.
482
00:38:49,564 --> 00:38:53,601
-So, I make eye contact.
-With Yup'ik.
483
00:38:53,734 --> 00:38:57,705
With Yup'ik, right,
right, and go slowly.
484
00:38:57,839 --> 00:38:58,739
Yes.
485
00:38:59,339 --> 00:39:01,275
Okay, slow.
486
00:39:15,923 --> 00:39:17,558
Okay, just toss it to him now.
487
00:39:18,226 --> 00:39:19,794
Just toss it to him?
488
00:39:19,927 --> 00:39:21,329
Yeah, just pop it up in the air.
489
00:39:21,461 --> 00:39:23,297
Just pop it up in the air,
all right.
490
00:39:23,430 --> 00:39:26,567
-What if I hit him?
-He'll catch it. It's a treat.
491
00:39:50,925 --> 00:39:53,961
So, just like baseball,
it's all about the fundamentals.
492
00:39:54,095 --> 00:39:55,096
So, sit.
493
00:41:14,408 --> 00:41:16,377
Dang, how much bacon can he eat?
494
00:41:16,510 --> 00:41:18,145
I'm pretty sure he's bottomless.
495
00:41:18,879 --> 00:41:20,147
So, you all race ready?
496
00:41:21,015 --> 00:41:24,251
About as ready we're ever
gonna be, I guess.
497
00:42:15,770 --> 00:42:17,138
Wait, your mom was a musher?
498
00:42:17,271 --> 00:42:20,141
She trained
with Susan Butcher for years.
499
00:42:20,274 --> 00:42:21,642
I don't know who that is.
500
00:42:22,143 --> 00:42:24,278
It's just a four time
Iditarod winner.
501
00:42:26,747 --> 00:42:29,216
-She's pretty.
-Well, that's where I get it.
502
00:42:30,217 --> 00:42:33,687
-What's with the hat?
-It's called an ushanka,
503
00:42:33,821 --> 00:42:36,891
and it's Prada for mushers.
504
00:42:37,258 --> 00:42:38,726
Do you have one?
505
00:42:38,859 --> 00:42:41,062
Nah, it's for serious mushers.
506
00:42:41,796 --> 00:42:43,330
And, and you're not
a serious musher?
507
00:42:44,031 --> 00:42:49,370
I love it. I don't know,
it, it's kind of my mom's
thing, hard to live up to.
508
00:42:49,837 --> 00:42:51,472
Well, yeah,
especially without a...
509
00:42:51,906 --> 00:42:55,309
- ...u-- U--
- Ushanka.
510
00:42:55,443 --> 00:42:58,846
Ushanka, ushanka, okay.
511
00:43:01,282 --> 00:43:02,283
What about your dad?
512
00:43:04,685 --> 00:43:06,253
Carpenter, technically.
513
00:43:09,524 --> 00:43:11,258
Which is a noble profession.
514
00:43:13,727 --> 00:43:19,568
In my dad's case,
he was mostly an unemployed
and resentful house husband.
515
00:43:20,167 --> 00:43:25,072
My mom had this dream and
she was living it and he didn't.
516
00:43:26,073 --> 00:43:27,975
He did manage to keep
the dogs alive though.
517
00:43:28,109 --> 00:43:31,245
I'd come out here
occasionally to help out.
518
00:43:31,812 --> 00:43:34,782
So, that's my sob story,
what about you?
519
00:43:34,915 --> 00:43:36,650
How many days sober?
520
00:43:40,888 --> 00:43:43,157
I can be a bit much.
521
00:43:47,128 --> 00:43:49,263
Yeah, I don't really
like to talk about it.
522
00:43:51,699 --> 00:43:52,933
You got it.
523
00:43:58,873 --> 00:44:00,609
So, I was thinking
524
00:44:00,975 --> 00:44:03,210
I'd like to take you
and Yup'ik dog sledding.
525
00:44:03,644 --> 00:44:04,778
I think you'd love it.
526
00:44:08,883 --> 00:44:11,418
-Um...
-If not, I understand.
527
00:44:15,222 --> 00:44:18,259
I appreciate your help
with him so far.
528
00:44:18,392 --> 00:44:19,894
Like, really.
529
00:44:20,595 --> 00:44:24,131
-I'm not--
-Hey, this doesn't have
to be a thing.
530
00:44:26,200 --> 00:44:27,735
Thought you could use a friend.
531
00:44:29,003 --> 00:44:31,005
It's just a dog sled ride.
532
00:44:36,977 --> 00:44:38,712
Hola, amigo.
533
00:44:38,846 --> 00:44:40,047
Dang, the hutch's looking
pretty good.
534
00:44:40,181 --> 00:44:43,317
Yeah, she's coming along,
coming along.
535
00:44:43,450 --> 00:44:44,519
Got you something.
536
00:44:44,653 --> 00:44:46,787
-What's this?
-Just a small,
537
00:44:47,589 --> 00:44:50,559
-small present.
-Got me a bowling ball?
538
00:44:50,691 --> 00:44:53,360
- It's a necklace.
- Yes.
539
00:44:54,161 --> 00:44:56,263
-Heavy.
-It's a sweater.
540
00:44:56,665 --> 00:44:58,732
You opened it?
541
00:44:59,133 --> 00:45:00,701
I had to, man,
I had to look at it.
542
00:45:00,834 --> 00:45:03,137
A sweater, it's a sweater.
543
00:45:05,940 --> 00:45:07,908
Whoa, whoa, whoa.
544
00:45:12,012 --> 00:45:15,983
Two days away.
545
00:45:17,952 --> 00:45:20,888
It makes no damn sense to me
why they're your favorite team.
546
00:45:23,424 --> 00:45:26,393
- I think I got the font
as close as I could get it.
547
00:45:26,528 --> 00:45:28,929
We didn't have
a team in Montana...
548
00:45:29,997 --> 00:45:31,765
...and my dad loved them.
549
00:45:33,067 --> 00:45:36,270
And it was my thing with him.
550
00:45:39,039 --> 00:45:41,710
-Whew.
-That's why, huh? Your dad.
551
00:45:41,842 --> 00:45:44,345
-Okay, now I understand.
-Oh.
552
00:45:44,478 --> 00:45:47,549
I just couldn't put the team
name on there 'cause I--
553
00:45:47,948 --> 00:45:50,784
-Well, you know.
-I know. I do know.
554
00:45:51,318 --> 00:45:54,321
- But I got a baseball on there.
That's the symbol.
555
00:45:56,558 --> 00:45:58,759
That relationship between
you and your dad, Matt,
556
00:45:58,892 --> 00:46:01,228
-that's what's important.
-Yeah.
557
00:46:02,062 --> 00:46:05,232
I just don't wanna miss
the chance to get it to you
before the big race.
558
00:46:19,380 --> 00:46:22,483
I'd like to register
my dog, please.
559
00:46:22,983 --> 00:46:25,953
You have to have
your pull dog with you.
560
00:46:26,086 --> 00:46:27,855
Can I just have my bib please?
561
00:46:28,889 --> 00:46:32,459
- You're quite rude.
-It's okay, Tina, he's an acquired taste.
562
00:46:32,594 --> 00:46:35,162
Yeah, some people
just weren't raised right.
563
00:46:36,130 --> 00:46:38,365
You have a problem
with authority, kid.
564
00:46:39,099 --> 00:46:41,068
Come on, let's go.
565
00:46:45,005 --> 00:46:48,042
- Hey. Hey.
- Hey,
rat pull's next week, bud.
566
00:46:48,175 --> 00:46:49,910
Rat pull's in your pants, buddy.
567
00:46:50,044 --> 00:46:51,713
Crowd can get a little rowdy
at these things,
568
00:46:51,845 --> 00:46:52,846
don't take it personal.
569
00:46:52,980 --> 00:46:54,114
Let's get one thing straight...
570
00:46:54,248 --> 00:46:55,082
-Mm.
-...I don't need your help.
571
00:46:55,215 --> 00:46:56,518
Oh, whatever you say.
572
00:46:56,651 --> 00:46:57,519
Here, here, here.
573
00:46:57,652 --> 00:46:59,219
-Number?
-Uh, 88.
574
00:46:59,353 --> 00:47:00,988
-You're up next.
-Okay.
575
00:47:01,121 --> 00:47:04,224
Eighty-eight. It's a lucky
number, astrologically.
576
00:47:04,358 --> 00:47:06,093
The stars are
in your favor, pal.
577
00:47:06,561 --> 00:47:09,631
Stop, stop, stop. I can't
do this zodiac astrological
bullshit, okay?
578
00:47:09,764 --> 00:47:11,365
I'm trying to concentrate and
you're just yapping in my ear.
579
00:47:11,498 --> 00:47:13,967
Accept the help or don't,
but stop complaining.
580
00:47:14,101 --> 00:47:15,502
You sound like a little bitch.
581
00:47:19,106 --> 00:47:21,408
Our defending champion,
weighing in at a robust
582
00:47:21,543 --> 00:47:23,877
- One hundred
and forty-two pounds.
- Yeah.
583
00:47:24,011 --> 00:47:26,980
Malamute, Alaskan freight dog.
584
00:47:27,114 --> 00:47:30,017
He has size, heart, pure will.
585
00:47:30,150 --> 00:47:31,519
That's your competition.
586
00:47:32,152 --> 00:47:36,156
He's won state the last three
years and beat last year's
national record.
587
00:47:37,759 --> 00:47:40,060
-You're up.
-Okay, Yup'ik, come on.
Come on.
588
00:47:40,194 --> 00:47:42,096
Dog goes on the scale, not you.
589
00:47:42,229 --> 00:47:43,897
Hey, get up here, come on.
590
00:47:46,367 --> 00:47:48,837
Next up, we have Yup'ik
weighing in at
591
00:47:49,370 --> 00:47:52,873
a svelte, featherweight
44 pounds.
592
00:47:58,345 --> 00:48:00,314
All right, guys,
thank you all for coming.
593
00:48:00,447 --> 00:48:01,982
We got a really
quick event today.
594
00:48:02,116 --> 00:48:03,785
Each dog has 30 seconds
595
00:48:03,917 --> 00:48:05,452
to pull 1500 pounds
across the line.
596
00:48:05,587 --> 00:48:07,856
Cross the line,
they qualify for state.
597
00:48:11,191 --> 00:48:12,493
Come on, Sampson.
598
00:48:12,627 --> 00:48:15,697
Sampson, let's go, let's go.
599
00:48:19,366 --> 00:48:20,968
You got this, come on!
600
00:48:21,101 --> 00:48:23,838
Sampson, hey, come on.
601
00:48:24,471 --> 00:48:26,508
Let's go, let's go.
602
00:48:30,377 --> 00:48:33,480
That's seven seconds,
that's a new qualifying record.
603
00:48:33,615 --> 00:48:36,651
Come on, good boy, good boy.
604
00:49:04,779 --> 00:49:06,146
Yeah! Woo.
605
00:49:21,061 --> 00:49:22,597
Yup'ik, Yup'ik, come, come here.
606
00:49:24,632 --> 00:49:26,099
Yup'ik, come here.
607
00:49:26,734 --> 00:49:28,368
Yup'ik, come.
608
00:49:29,804 --> 00:49:30,605
Yup'ik.
609
00:49:42,015 --> 00:49:44,652
Ah, Yup'ik, come.
610
00:49:46,420 --> 00:49:47,988
Come. Ah!
611
00:49:48,590 --> 00:49:50,190
Come! Come!
612
00:50:02,402 --> 00:50:04,939
You do that shit at state,
I'm gonna kick your ass.
613
00:50:05,072 --> 00:50:07,642
So, we're not gonna
be carpooling together,
is that what you're saying?
614
00:50:11,880 --> 00:50:12,780
Hey.
615
00:50:13,313 --> 00:50:14,516
That was disgusting.
616
00:50:14,649 --> 00:50:16,283
-Another lecture, okay.
-The-- Hmm,
617
00:50:16,416 --> 00:50:18,218
-the only reason
you're not disqualified...
-Mm-hmm.
618
00:50:18,352 --> 00:50:20,420
-Hmm-mm.
-...is 'cause your friend was
going around telling everyone
619
00:50:20,555 --> 00:50:23,558
how stupid you are,
and I happen to agree with him.
620
00:50:23,691 --> 00:50:26,393
Pull that at state
and you're disqualified.
621
00:50:27,261 --> 00:50:29,864
Great.
622
00:50:30,899 --> 00:50:32,834
Hi, it's me, leave a message.
623
00:50:33,467 --> 00:50:36,838
Hey, Mom, it's Matt. Um,
624
00:50:37,471 --> 00:50:39,072
What do you say after 15 years?
625
00:50:39,206 --> 00:50:41,308
Oh.
626
00:50:46,014 --> 00:50:47,214
I made it.
627
00:50:52,352 --> 00:50:54,388
I'd like to see you. Uh...
628
00:50:56,925 --> 00:51:00,127
Oh, uh, call me back?
629
00:51:07,367 --> 00:51:11,405
Good, good, good.
Stay here, stay here.
630
00:51:11,539 --> 00:51:14,842
Hey, hey.
631
00:51:15,543 --> 00:51:17,277
- Hi, this is Matt.
- Hi Matt, I'm Denise,
632
00:51:17,411 --> 00:51:19,446
I'm one of your mom's
hospice nurses.
633
00:51:29,857 --> 00:51:32,125
-Hey, champ--
-Hey, did you get a letter
from my mom?
634
00:51:32,259 --> 00:51:33,327
Um...
635
00:51:34,261 --> 00:51:35,797
-...oh, uh, yeah. Hey.
-Where is it?
636
00:51:35,930 --> 00:51:38,165
-Where is it? Where is it?
-Sit down!
637
00:51:38,298 --> 00:51:39,667
-Sit down.
-Get your hands off me.
638
00:51:39,801 --> 00:51:40,735
I've had enough of this.
639
00:51:40,868 --> 00:51:42,235
-Get your ass down.
-So have I.
640
00:51:43,170 --> 00:51:46,841
Where, oh, fuck, where is it?
641
00:51:47,407 --> 00:51:50,110
-Where is it?
-It's on top of the hutch.
642
00:51:55,282 --> 00:51:57,217
You're so close
to 30 days, Matt.
643
00:52:31,451 --> 00:52:33,420
I understand why you're upset.
644
00:52:36,490 --> 00:52:39,727
And it's just that
you were doing so, so good.
645
00:52:40,227 --> 00:52:42,563
I asked you to be my sponsor,
646
00:52:42,964 --> 00:52:46,000
because you had a willpower
that I didn't have
647
00:52:46,134 --> 00:52:47,869
And I trusted you man.
648
00:52:48,002 --> 00:52:49,037
And I shouldn't have,
649
00:52:49,169 --> 00:52:51,405
because you are scared shitless
650
00:52:51,539 --> 00:52:52,940
of being out of control.
651
00:52:54,174 --> 00:52:55,342
And you lied to me.
652
00:52:55,475 --> 00:52:57,578
And for as long as
I've known you,
653
00:52:58,178 --> 00:53:00,615
you have taken the easy way out.
654
00:53:01,015 --> 00:53:04,184
Hey, that's what makes these
last 30 days so exceptional.
655
00:53:06,721 --> 00:53:10,024
There's no shortcuts
to sobriety, Matt,
656
00:53:10,158 --> 00:53:12,325
'cause believe me,
you would've found them by now.
657
00:53:13,460 --> 00:53:15,295
Your mom's death
isn't your fault.
658
00:53:17,565 --> 00:53:19,299
And where's your wife, Fred?
659
00:53:24,605 --> 00:53:26,239
No, don't do this.
660
00:53:28,308 --> 00:53:32,279
You talk about your life
like it's Eden.
661
00:53:32,747 --> 00:53:33,681
So where is she?
662
00:53:34,048 --> 00:53:35,750
Did she leave you for some
guy who'd let her choose
663
00:53:35,883 --> 00:53:38,485
what day of the week she wanted
to wash her underwear?
664
00:53:39,620 --> 00:53:42,289
You keep talking to me like
this, you can't stay here.
665
00:53:44,058 --> 00:53:45,626
We'll be gone tomorrow.
666
00:53:46,127 --> 00:53:46,994
Great.
667
00:53:48,763 --> 00:53:49,664
Great.
668
00:54:05,513 --> 00:54:07,749
Fuck. Get in there.
669
00:54:20,661 --> 00:54:22,864
Come here, come.
670
00:54:30,270 --> 00:54:33,406
Surprise!
Fred invited me for pizza.
671
00:54:34,108 --> 00:54:36,309
I thought, well,
we thought we'd celebrate.
672
00:54:37,779 --> 00:54:41,949
I get that you're lonely,
but I don't want this.
673
00:54:43,851 --> 00:54:45,820
What is it
that you don't want, Matt?
674
00:54:46,353 --> 00:54:49,456
My friendship,
a human connection,
675
00:54:49,590 --> 00:54:51,058
this card that I brought?
676
00:54:51,192 --> 00:54:53,961
-Let's be specific.
-I don't want any of it.
677
00:54:55,462 --> 00:54:57,665
I'm going through shit
right now.
678
00:54:59,066 --> 00:55:00,367
I don't have anybody.
679
00:55:01,002 --> 00:55:04,705
I just drove an hour here
to celebrate with you.
680
00:55:05,372 --> 00:55:06,473
Get out.
681
00:55:10,244 --> 00:55:11,344
Get out.
682
00:55:15,716 --> 00:55:17,317
Matt, Matt, I think
something's wrong.
683
00:55:17,450 --> 00:55:18,753
Get out.
684
00:55:18,886 --> 00:55:21,421
- Seriously.
- Seriously, get out!
685
00:56:07,434 --> 00:56:08,803
Hey.
686
00:56:36,530 --> 00:56:40,835
When I was ten,
a storm destroyed our deck.
687
00:56:41,434 --> 00:56:43,137
And my dad was excited.
688
00:56:44,138 --> 00:56:47,074
He couldn't wait to tear it out
and rebuild the damn thing.
689
00:56:47,842 --> 00:56:49,777
He made me get up early
for weeks to help him,
690
00:56:50,344 --> 00:56:52,280
he was even whistling
while we worked.
691
00:56:52,713 --> 00:56:55,816
Man, I was so mad at him
for being so cheerful
692
00:56:55,950 --> 00:56:57,952
about building the stupid deck.
693
00:56:58,886 --> 00:57:01,956
I hated every hammer swing
and every nail
694
00:57:02,356 --> 00:57:04,258
and every board we replaced.
695
00:57:05,393 --> 00:57:09,530
We finished on a Sunday right
before he got paged into work,
696
00:57:10,430 --> 00:57:12,633
and I was mad about that too,
him leaving.
697
00:57:13,401 --> 00:57:15,870
And I hated that beeper noise.
698
00:57:17,905 --> 00:57:19,273
And that was the last time
I saw him.
699
00:57:52,206 --> 00:57:53,207
It's ruined.
700
00:57:54,041 --> 00:57:57,511
No, Matt,
nothing's beyond repair.
701
00:58:41,255 --> 00:58:45,760
Um, so, this is
a peace offering.
702
00:58:49,997 --> 00:58:50,898
Here.
703
00:59:12,753 --> 00:59:16,290
- He's gonna be okay, right?
- -We're gonna do everything we can for him.
704
00:59:29,170 --> 00:59:30,971
Well, it's not the antifreeze.
705
00:59:32,306 --> 00:59:34,509
Wait what? So,
so what's wrong with him?
706
00:59:34,642 --> 00:59:35,776
We're unsure at this time,
707
00:59:35,910 --> 00:59:37,512
but as soon as we
can figure it out,
708
00:59:37,645 --> 00:59:38,446
we'll let you guys know.
709
00:59:45,953 --> 00:59:47,755
You were right.
710
00:59:48,689 --> 00:59:50,024
You needed him.
711
00:59:51,492 --> 00:59:54,128
I'd give anything
to have the fun you two do.
712
00:59:55,329 --> 00:59:58,766
He's my buddy, man,
he's my buddy.
713
01:00:08,609 --> 01:00:10,244
Matt, I need to tell you
something.
714
01:00:11,479 --> 01:00:15,316
I don't know, know if I can
do another talk right now.
715
01:00:16,016 --> 01:00:18,119
I need this.
716
01:00:20,054 --> 01:00:20,955
Okay.
717
01:00:36,804 --> 01:00:38,739
Matt, I drank.
718
01:00:44,979 --> 01:00:47,014
That's why Rachael
went to her sister's.
719
01:00:55,823 --> 01:00:58,092
Thank you for telling me.
720
01:01:00,895 --> 01:01:02,997
Matt, I don't wanna
be your sponsor anymore.
721
01:01:03,532 --> 01:01:04,899
Oh.
722
01:01:06,800 --> 01:01:08,202
I just wanna be your friend.
723
01:01:11,506 --> 01:01:12,940
I, I could use both.
724
01:01:15,276 --> 01:01:18,212
It's gonna be a while,
we need you to go home.
725
01:01:19,046 --> 01:01:21,348
I, I would like to stay here.
726
01:01:21,482 --> 01:01:22,651
Go home and get some rest,
727
01:01:22,783 --> 01:01:24,385
we'll call you
as soon as he's up.
728
01:01:28,455 --> 01:01:29,723
Let's go get some coffee.
729
01:01:31,225 --> 01:01:34,028
I, I can't believe this,
but I want to go somewhere else.
730
01:01:36,897 --> 01:01:39,568
Uh, I'm Matt,
and I'm an alcoholic.
731
01:01:39,700 --> 01:01:41,435
- Hey, Matt.
- Hey.
732
01:01:41,570 --> 01:01:46,373
About a month ago after, uh,
a short bender, um...
733
01:01:52,446 --> 01:01:55,382
...I, uh, found out
734
01:01:55,517 --> 01:01:57,017
from a doctor that
735
01:01:57,151 --> 01:01:59,286
I was throwing up my stomach.
736
01:02:03,090 --> 01:02:05,726
And that if I didn't stop
drinking, I would die.
737
01:02:07,027 --> 01:02:08,963
I went from the appointment
to the bar...
738
01:02:10,965 --> 01:02:13,033
...uh, ready to drink
the place dry.
739
01:02:13,568 --> 01:02:17,238
A couple of drinks in,
I opened up a letter that...
740
01:02:18,739 --> 01:02:22,243
...I had received that day,
and I found out that my mom...
741
01:02:23,143 --> 01:02:24,579
...was going into hospice.
742
01:02:25,746 --> 01:02:28,382
She'd refused to see me
until I was 30 days sober,
743
01:02:28,516 --> 01:02:30,317
um, it'd been 15 years.
744
01:02:30,818 --> 01:02:37,324
So, I, uh, really smartly, um,
decided to punch a bartender...
745
01:02:38,759 --> 01:02:41,829
...so I could get thrown into
jail, um, 'cause I know that,
746
01:02:42,429 --> 01:02:47,134
knew that that's the only chance
I had...
747
01:02:48,102 --> 01:02:51,038
... to get sober.
That was my sobriety plan.
748
01:02:52,439 --> 01:02:54,041
After my, uh,
after my dad had died,
749
01:02:54,174 --> 01:02:56,678
I had a teacher who encouraged
me to write poetry
750
01:02:57,177 --> 01:02:58,779
as a way to process my feelings.
751
01:02:58,912 --> 01:03:00,715
So I'm gonna read
something I wrote.
752
01:03:00,848 --> 01:03:04,519
Um, I'm not really
good at this kind of thing.
753
01:03:04,653 --> 01:03:07,321
Um, it's called Broken Soul.
754
01:03:09,156 --> 01:03:12,159
"My whole life, unable to rest,
755
01:03:12,627 --> 01:03:14,962
in pursuit of some
unavowed dream,
756
01:03:15,496 --> 01:03:19,701
masked in this insane
compulsive desire to self-bleed.
757
01:03:19,833 --> 01:03:24,606
Multiple vices brought my way,
but not the kind that
takes one's breath away,
758
01:03:24,739 --> 01:03:27,542
but the kind that tears
one's self away."
759
01:03:27,676 --> 01:03:31,879
"My dad died and left me with
no life coming through my eyes
760
01:03:32,012 --> 01:03:33,548
and my mom's gone now too.
761
01:03:37,184 --> 01:03:40,120
In those moments
when I realize this,
762
01:03:40,254 --> 01:03:45,192
my mind goes one way, but then
my body refuses to own it,
763
01:03:45,326 --> 01:03:50,732
and my insides are rupturing
on the brink about to explode."
764
01:03:50,864 --> 01:03:54,234
"But it's not what you think.
It's pain and it's old.
765
01:03:54,368 --> 01:03:57,572
A broken heart in a broken soul,
766
01:03:59,039 --> 01:04:00,874
trying to escape."
767
01:04:01,609 --> 01:04:04,679
"But my mind's a square peg
and my body's a round hole.
768
01:04:05,412 --> 01:04:08,382
If I had a broken bone
or something visible,
769
01:04:08,516 --> 01:04:11,085
I think people
would be less critical.
770
01:04:13,987 --> 01:04:18,926
But you have a broken spirit
and the support, it's minimal.
771
01:04:20,861 --> 01:04:23,030
And now I see the illusion,
772
01:04:23,464 --> 01:04:27,602
an unexpected sunrise
unraveled the confusion.
773
01:04:28,770 --> 01:04:31,806
Wholeness happens in a flash
774
01:04:32,239 --> 01:04:35,042
and it's not extraordinary
because it lasts.
775
01:04:35,510 --> 01:04:36,343
The beauty,
776
01:04:36,910 --> 01:04:40,481
lives in that moment of
accepting the past is the past."
777
01:04:47,722 --> 01:04:51,024
Thanks, Matt. Thanks, Matt.
778
01:04:52,025 --> 01:04:53,160
Thanks, Matt.
779
01:05:20,889 --> 01:05:23,691
Hey, how are you?
780
01:05:30,998 --> 01:05:32,232
You're okay.
781
01:05:35,068 --> 01:05:36,437
It's okay.
782
01:05:37,605 --> 01:05:39,674
It's okay, it's okay,
it's okay.
783
01:05:40,140 --> 01:05:41,442
Yeah, it's okay.
784
01:05:43,977 --> 01:05:49,483
Uh, ooh, it's okay,
it's okay. Oh.
785
01:05:50,217 --> 01:05:51,586
Oh, buddy.
786
01:05:53,120 --> 01:05:56,457
All right, let's get
the patient over here.
787
01:05:56,858 --> 01:05:57,892
See what we're working with.
788
01:05:58,058 --> 01:05:58,959
Come here.
789
01:05:59,092 --> 01:06:00,427
Yeah, that's it, come here.
790
01:06:00,562 --> 01:06:03,430
Come here. You know me.
Come here. Come on.
791
01:06:03,565 --> 01:06:04,431
Hi.
792
01:06:04,566 --> 01:06:06,233
-See what we got here.
-Yeah.
793
01:06:07,334 --> 01:06:11,972
Whoa, buddy, what kind of voodoo
doctor put this together?
794
01:06:13,508 --> 01:06:15,409
I mean, it was the best
I could do.
795
01:06:15,543 --> 01:06:17,211
-You did this?
-Yeah.
796
01:06:17,344 --> 01:06:18,378
-Wow.
-Yeah.
797
01:06:18,513 --> 01:06:19,446
Okay.
798
01:06:20,080 --> 01:06:23,383
Yeah, I'll show you
what we got here.
799
01:06:24,919 --> 01:06:27,020
-What is that?
-It's the real deal, buddy.
800
01:06:27,154 --> 01:06:31,091
-Yup'ik version
of Neosporin and--
-Looks like pomade.
801
01:06:31,225 --> 01:06:33,761
-Okay.
-Yeah, it's the good stuff, man.
802
01:06:34,361 --> 01:06:35,864
What exactly did the vet say?
803
01:06:36,396 --> 01:06:43,638
Uh, he told me that, uh,
he had gas get into his stomach
and it flipped.
804
01:06:44,506 --> 01:06:47,107
Yeah. That usually happens
to big horses,
805
01:06:47,241 --> 01:06:50,678
and... dogs about his size
806
01:06:50,812 --> 01:06:53,413
and... pull dogs.
807
01:06:54,816 --> 01:06:57,451
But, listen here,
let's get you over here
808
01:06:57,585 --> 01:06:59,654
'cause you need to learn
how to do this.
809
01:07:26,848 --> 01:07:27,782
Call him.
810
01:07:28,348 --> 01:07:29,684
And you're sure this is okay?
811
01:07:29,817 --> 01:07:33,021
Yes, he will let you know
what he needs
812
01:07:33,153 --> 01:07:34,454
and what he doesn't need.
813
01:07:34,989 --> 01:07:40,193
Unlike you, he's not conditioned
to hide the way he truly feels.
814
01:07:45,265 --> 01:07:46,366
Okay.
815
01:07:47,401 --> 01:07:49,436
-Yup'ik come.
-Argh.
816
01:07:50,070 --> 01:07:51,773
I need you to be here.
817
01:07:53,073 --> 01:07:54,842
Here. Look around you.
818
01:07:54,976 --> 01:07:57,344
I need you to be here
with the mountains,
819
01:07:58,046 --> 01:07:59,614
be here with the snow.
820
01:08:01,415 --> 01:08:04,586
The relationship between human
being and dog is ancient.
821
01:08:04,953 --> 01:08:08,455
The pathway is there, he's just
waiting for you to use it.
822
01:08:25,940 --> 01:08:26,841
Yup'ik come.
823
01:08:31,178 --> 01:08:32,614
-Here, take this.
-All right.
824
01:08:33,246 --> 01:08:35,248
Ah, see what you just did?
825
01:08:35,382 --> 01:08:38,052
-Oh.
-That is reflex.
826
01:08:38,553 --> 01:08:40,487
I need you to be here.
827
01:08:40,622 --> 01:08:42,456
Be here in this moment
with this.
828
01:08:42,590 --> 01:08:47,028
Now, I'm gonna do it again
at the same tension,
but just go with it.
829
01:08:47,160 --> 01:08:49,196
- Stop staring at the lead,
look at me.
830
01:08:49,964 --> 01:08:52,432
Just go with it, be here.
831
01:08:55,837 --> 01:08:56,804
Very good.
832
01:08:57,505 --> 01:08:59,540
It needs to be from here.
833
01:09:00,440 --> 01:09:03,111
Everything you do
needs to be from here.
834
01:09:03,511 --> 01:09:05,680
This is what your life
is missing.
835
01:09:07,749 --> 01:09:08,650
Try it again.
836
01:09:32,774 --> 01:09:33,741
Yup'ik, come.
837
01:09:36,077 --> 01:09:39,179
Good boy, hi, hi. Good boy.
838
01:09:39,312 --> 01:09:41,214
Okay. That's so good.
839
01:09:44,919 --> 01:09:46,087
Hey...
840
01:09:46,219 --> 01:09:48,890
...come here. Come here. Slow,
841
01:09:49,023 --> 01:09:50,323
gentle, gentle, gentle.
842
01:09:50,457 --> 01:09:51,626
You knucklehead.
843
01:09:51,759 --> 01:09:54,595
All right. Yeah, okay. Sit.
844
01:09:55,429 --> 01:09:57,197
Good, good. Okay.
845
01:09:57,832 --> 01:10:01,569
Okay, good. Yeah.
Just watch yourself.
846
01:10:02,103 --> 01:10:03,503
Okay, and what about this?
847
01:12:12,332 --> 01:12:13,935
I'll need your signature.
848
01:12:16,571 --> 01:12:17,672
Hey.
849
01:12:23,744 --> 01:12:27,414
Hey, Yup'ik,
I brought you something.
850
01:12:28,516 --> 01:12:29,917
- Can I give him a treat?
- Yeah.
851
01:12:36,691 --> 01:12:39,594
I heard about your mom,
I'm sorry.
852
01:12:40,094 --> 01:12:45,066
Yeah, that was rough, um,
thank you, thank you.
853
01:12:46,499 --> 01:12:49,436
Uh, I'm, uh, sorry.
854
01:12:49,937 --> 01:12:51,038
Um...
855
01:12:52,340 --> 01:12:55,710
I was hurting a lot
and I was so focused on me
856
01:12:56,143 --> 01:13:00,648
and I, I don't know, I, I didn't
listen to you... about the food.
857
01:13:01,082 --> 01:13:03,017
I didn't listen to you
about him.
858
01:13:04,518 --> 01:13:05,653
That night, he got sick.
859
01:13:06,053 --> 01:13:10,591
I just didn't listen
and... I didn't care.
860
01:13:11,826 --> 01:13:13,060
And I went after you.
861
01:13:20,467 --> 01:13:22,637
You know, we're all just trying.
862
01:13:25,539 --> 01:13:26,641
Yeah.
863
01:13:27,241 --> 01:13:28,142
Look...
864
01:13:29,543 --> 01:13:31,045
...I'm sorry that I pushed.
865
01:13:31,178 --> 01:13:33,748
I've never been great
at boundaries.
866
01:13:35,783 --> 01:13:41,188
I, I don't want boundaries.
I, I, I know boundaries
are good for us, but...
867
01:13:43,624 --> 01:13:46,861
...the truth is I don't
know what's good for me.
868
01:13:48,162 --> 01:13:49,263
But I think you are.
869
01:13:50,197 --> 01:13:54,835
And I actually got this
for... you.
870
01:13:56,469 --> 01:13:58,139
For me? Mm.
871
01:13:59,472 --> 01:14:03,277
So, you didn't reply to my text
messages, which is fine, uh,
872
01:14:03,411 --> 01:14:05,413
like I understand. Um,
873
01:14:05,913 --> 01:14:07,782
I needed a way
to apologize in person
874
01:14:07,915 --> 01:14:11,185
and so this was my, my plan.
875
01:14:13,554 --> 01:14:16,223
I thought it might
inspire you in some way.
876
01:14:24,799 --> 01:14:26,133
Can I give you a hug?
877
01:14:27,001 --> 01:14:27,902
Definitely.
878
01:14:35,475 --> 01:14:36,577
Mm.
879
01:14:38,512 --> 01:14:40,081
I'm going home for a bit.
880
01:14:41,716 --> 01:14:44,719
Because you have a ushanka now?
881
01:14:45,252 --> 01:14:47,888
No, I miss the dogs.
882
01:14:49,123 --> 01:14:51,192
But they'll love my new look.
883
01:15:04,405 --> 01:15:05,539
Uh, Julie?
884
01:15:06,607 --> 01:15:07,708
Yeah?
885
01:15:08,142 --> 01:15:09,477
If, if...
886
01:15:10,411 --> 01:15:13,080
...if I come out sometime
can we go dog sledding?
887
01:15:15,449 --> 01:15:17,051
Yeah, I'd like that.
888
01:15:18,452 --> 01:15:20,054
Me too, me too.
889
01:15:22,156 --> 01:15:23,924
Yeah, yeah.
890
01:15:48,215 --> 01:15:50,384
-What's this?
-It's everything I borrowed.
891
01:15:50,519 --> 01:15:53,554
My one year of community college
included a finance class,
892
01:15:53,687 --> 01:15:54,922
so interest is included.
893
01:15:55,890 --> 01:15:59,160
-Are you gonna have
enough to live off of?
-We'll make it work.
894
01:15:59,894 --> 01:16:01,362
You use this for the pull.
895
01:16:01,495 --> 01:16:02,830
Matt, I don't need it right now.
896
01:16:03,898 --> 01:16:06,233
-I'm not gonna have him pull.
-Why?
897
01:16:07,568 --> 01:16:09,236
He's healed,
I saw him out there.
898
01:16:10,237 --> 01:16:11,238
He is, but I'm not.
899
01:16:11,639 --> 01:16:15,943
And I was reckless with him
before. I was an idiot.
900
01:16:17,578 --> 01:16:18,979
And I'm overwhelmed.
901
01:16:22,750 --> 01:16:24,652
Uh, you know what they say?
902
01:16:26,587 --> 01:16:29,056
One day at a time.
903
01:16:29,190 --> 01:16:30,691
Music to my ears.
904
01:16:31,592 --> 01:16:35,796
The Pull's the day after
the memorial, um anyway, so.
905
01:16:36,531 --> 01:16:38,299
You need support at the service?
906
01:16:42,403 --> 01:16:43,304
We're okay.
907
01:16:48,042 --> 01:16:54,014
My, uh, mom and I had
a complicated relationship,
908
01:17:01,055 --> 01:17:04,291
This was the last letter
that she wrote me...
909
01:17:05,626 --> 01:17:08,162
...the day that she passed away.
910
01:17:10,664 --> 01:17:11,765
"Dear Matt...
911
01:17:13,568 --> 01:17:14,802
...I want you to know
912
01:17:15,302 --> 01:17:16,470
it is so hard
913
01:17:17,071 --> 01:17:19,306
to say what I have to say
to you now...
914
01:17:21,543 --> 01:17:24,645
...knowing this may be
my last chance to do so.
915
01:17:29,783 --> 01:17:32,953
I know it is hard for you
to believe...
916
01:17:39,493 --> 01:17:40,794
...but I love you...
917
01:17:42,796 --> 01:17:44,431
...and have always loved you.
918
01:17:49,103 --> 01:17:51,005
I remember
when you were born..."
919
01:17:53,207 --> 01:17:55,409
"...they brought you to me.
920
01:17:57,244 --> 01:18:00,582
"I looked into your sparkling,
weird little eyes
921
01:18:01,182 --> 01:18:03,217
while I held you
for the first time."
922
01:18:13,327 --> 01:18:16,263
"They were overbrimming
with light and life.
923
01:18:20,234 --> 01:18:24,738
I love that line by
Leonard Cohen, where he says...
924
01:18:29,743 --> 01:18:32,880
...'Ring the bell
that still can ring.
925
01:18:35,816 --> 01:18:37,885
Forget your perfect offering.
926
01:18:39,521 --> 01:18:40,854
There is a crack,
927
01:18:41,956 --> 01:18:43,891
a crack in everything.
928
01:18:47,161 --> 01:18:48,996
That's how the light gets in.'
929
01:18:55,102 --> 01:18:59,073
You and your sister came
to your father and me
930
01:18:59,708 --> 01:19:03,344
miraculously to give us life.
931
01:19:08,717 --> 01:19:13,153
And that will always remain
somewhere where everything
that matters happen."
932
01:19:17,491 --> 01:19:18,359
"Love, Mom."
933
01:19:41,048 --> 01:19:42,751
I never wanna do that again.
934
01:19:43,951 --> 01:19:45,886
Well, a tree could fall
935
01:19:46,020 --> 01:19:47,421
or we could have an earthquake.
936
01:19:47,921 --> 01:19:52,259
-And there's no final success,
so you can forget that.
-Dad.
937
01:19:53,193 --> 01:19:56,096
Argh, I gotta go to work.
938
01:19:57,197 --> 01:19:58,299
Here's the thing...
939
01:20:00,702 --> 01:20:02,102
...we don't leave things broken.
940
01:20:23,290 --> 01:20:24,191
Matty.
941
01:21:16,544 --> 01:21:18,646
Yes, ladies and gentlemen,
942
01:21:18,780 --> 01:21:21,181
it's our first pull of the day
and it's a great one.
943
01:21:21,315 --> 01:21:24,819
Fifteen hundred pounds from
our pit bull terrier, Sebastian,
944
01:21:24,952 --> 01:21:26,621
let's add on another
hundred pounds.
945
01:21:51,478 --> 01:21:55,983
Next up, we have Yup'ik,
our very own chihuahua.
946
01:22:28,415 --> 01:22:30,350
Ladies and gentlemen,
here we go.
947
01:22:30,484 --> 01:22:32,620
Let's see what
this little guy can do.
948
01:22:36,758 --> 01:22:39,226
Okay, all right.
949
01:22:40,862 --> 01:22:41,962
Come.
950
01:22:44,064 --> 01:22:45,299
Yup'ik, come.
951
01:23:08,355 --> 01:23:10,625
Good, good, yeah, yeah,
come, come.
952
01:23:13,695 --> 01:23:16,764
Mighty Mouse has done it, okay.
953
01:24:33,508 --> 01:24:36,544
And it looks like our trio
is down to two.
954
01:24:36,678 --> 01:24:39,313
Up next, we have
the Alaskan Assassin,
955
01:24:39,446 --> 01:24:41,649
the Mighty, Mighty Mouse
coming up.
956
01:24:42,584 --> 01:24:45,587
If he pulls this off,
he will be the first dog
957
01:24:45,720 --> 01:24:50,090
under 50 pounds in our history
to pull off 2,500 pounds.
958
01:25:21,421 --> 01:25:27,494
Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik,
Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik.
959
01:25:27,629 --> 01:25:30,130
Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik,
960
01:25:30,263 --> 01:25:34,234
Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik.
961
01:25:34,368 --> 01:25:36,403
- Come on.
- Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik.
962
01:25:43,276 --> 01:25:48,650
Okay, we have
Sampson up, attempting
a monstrous 2,600 pounds.
963
01:25:48,783 --> 01:25:50,183
If he succeeds,
964
01:25:50,652 --> 01:25:52,754
this will be the most weight
pulled by a dog
965
01:25:52,887 --> 01:25:55,188
in a competition
in the last two years.
966
01:25:55,556 --> 01:25:59,426
He is attempting to pull
a walrus across the ice, folks.
967
01:26:06,601 --> 01:26:09,469
Come on Sampson, good boy,
good boy.
968
01:26:12,840 --> 01:26:15,208
Come on, good boy.
Come on, good boy.
969
01:26:15,342 --> 01:26:17,011
Good boy. Come on, Sampson.
970
01:26:19,580 --> 01:26:20,815
I don't believe it folks.
971
01:26:21,481 --> 01:26:23,685
If Toothpick can pull
2,600 pounds,
972
01:26:23,818 --> 01:26:27,722
he will be our new champion
and record holder for the year.
973
01:28:11,058 --> 01:28:13,326
Yeah. Yeah.
974
01:28:13,460 --> 01:28:14,729
Yeah, baby!
975
01:28:15,462 --> 01:28:16,496
Ahh!
976
01:28:16,631 --> 01:28:18,465
-Oh.
-Thank you.
977
01:28:18,966 --> 01:28:20,500
-I'm proud of you guys.
-Thanks, man.
978
01:28:20,635 --> 01:28:24,471
Woo-hoo, and you, Yup'ik,
you did so good.
979
01:28:24,839 --> 01:28:27,175
-You did so good.
-He's a little diva now.
980
01:28:27,307 --> 01:28:30,377
So, you gotta be,
you gotta show respect.
You know, when you see him.
981
01:28:30,511 --> 01:28:33,714
- I didn't have a chicken
to lick for him, but--
- Yeah, funny.
982
01:28:33,848 --> 01:28:35,382
I'll see you guys
back at the ranch?
983
01:28:35,516 --> 01:28:36,918
Yeah, yeah, we--
984
01:28:39,020 --> 01:28:39,921
It's a farm.
985
01:28:41,055 --> 01:28:44,725
-It's not a farm bro.
-You have chickens, man.
What the fuck?
986
01:28:51,833 --> 01:28:54,535
So, how does it feel?
987
01:28:56,070 --> 01:28:59,040
Uh, pretty hard to describe.
988
01:29:04,444 --> 01:29:05,947
You know, Yup'ik...
989
01:29:06,881 --> 01:29:10,785
...means "Real person,
one who comes into themselves."
990
01:29:14,454 --> 01:29:18,025
Well, he, uh...
he did that today.
991
01:29:19,492 --> 01:29:20,595
So did you.
992
01:29:27,902 --> 01:29:32,306
Julie, uh, told me to ask you
about Nugget a while ago.
993
01:29:32,439 --> 01:29:33,841
Oh, she did, huh?
994
01:29:35,610 --> 01:29:39,213
Well... Emmett Peters,
995
01:29:39,914 --> 01:29:42,316
his lead dog
in the second Iditarod,
996
01:29:42,717 --> 01:29:45,086
was a Siberian named Nugget.
997
01:29:46,687 --> 01:29:49,924
She was 12 years old,
pregnant, had cancer.
998
01:29:50,057 --> 01:29:53,027
They broke the Iditarod
record by six days.
999
01:29:53,661 --> 01:29:56,831
She was the greatest
sled dog ever.
1000
01:29:57,899 --> 01:30:00,735
And Emmett,
that was my grandfather.
1001
01:30:01,602 --> 01:30:04,906
Well, Sampson,
that dog you just beat,
1002
01:30:05,039 --> 01:30:09,844
he's Nugget's great,
great, great grandson.
1003
01:30:11,345 --> 01:30:13,080
That's pretty epic, my friend.
1004
01:30:19,987 --> 01:30:20,888
Come on.
1005
01:30:22,189 --> 01:30:23,090
Come on.
1006
01:30:24,058 --> 01:30:24,959
Let's go.
1007
01:30:39,206 --> 01:30:40,107
Matt,
1008
01:30:40,508 --> 01:30:41,676
I wanted to catch you
1009
01:30:41,809 --> 01:30:43,878
to say congratulations,
in person.
1010
01:30:44,345 --> 01:30:45,546
-Yeah.
-I'm sorry for what?
1011
01:30:47,315 --> 01:30:48,916
I, I need to tell you that,
1012
01:30:49,050 --> 01:30:51,118
that you were right about me.
1013
01:30:51,252 --> 01:30:52,452
-Stop.
-No, you were.
1014
01:30:52,586 --> 01:30:54,221
We've all been through
hard times.
1015
01:30:54,355 --> 01:30:56,257
We've all needed a break, man.
1016
01:30:56,657 --> 01:30:59,327
Yeah, and I also thought you
should know
1017
01:30:59,459 --> 01:31:00,828
since you gave me so much shit
1018
01:31:00,962 --> 01:31:02,630
for my love of the metaphysical.
1019
01:31:02,763 --> 01:31:04,732
- It's weird, man.
- Hey, hey.
1020
01:31:04,865 --> 01:31:06,867
I, I just wanted
your ungrateful ass to know
1021
01:31:07,001 --> 01:31:08,636
that according
to the Chinese Zodiac,
1022
01:31:08,769 --> 01:31:10,571
this is the year of the dog.
1023
01:31:11,939 --> 01:31:14,942
Wait, what?
Wait are you serious?
1024
01:31:22,383 --> 01:31:26,454
If there is a cure
for addiction,
1025
01:31:27,054 --> 01:31:32,226
it is someone you care for
saying, "You're not alone...
1026
01:31:34,128 --> 01:31:35,162
...I love you."
1027
01:31:37,465 --> 01:31:41,869
The opposite of addiction
is not sobriety.
1028
01:31:42,870 --> 01:31:44,705
The opposite of addiction,
1029
01:31:44,839 --> 01:31:46,907
and maybe any suffering,
1030
01:31:47,441 --> 01:31:48,676
is connection...
1031
01:31:50,945 --> 01:31:52,113
...to yourself...
1032
01:31:53,914 --> 01:31:55,149
...to a passion...
1033
01:31:57,385 --> 01:31:58,552
...to a partner...
1034
01:32:00,755 --> 01:32:02,556
...or to a scrawny dog
1035
01:32:03,491 --> 01:32:04,692
with a sacred name.
1036
01:36:01,962 --> 01:36:05,165
Good, this is all in
the realm of fun and games.
1037
01:36:05,299 --> 01:36:07,334
Sorry, guys, this is
my first time hazing.
1038
01:36:09,270 --> 01:36:10,304
You did great.
1039
01:36:10,437 --> 01:36:12,239
One drunk away from, uh,
1040
01:36:13,240 --> 01:36:14,441
-losing that--
-One, one drink,
1041
01:36:14,576 --> 01:36:15,809
-one drink away from a drunk.
-What?
1042
01:36:15,943 --> 01:36:18,145
- One--
- One drink
1043
01:36:18,279 --> 01:36:19,748
One drink away from a drunk.
1044
01:36:19,880 --> 01:36:21,282
Oh, excuse me, sorry.
1045
01:36:21,415 --> 01:36:22,916
Uh, why don't you have
a drink with us?
1046
01:36:23,050 --> 01:36:24,653
-I'll just...
-No, no, come have a drink.
1047
01:36:25,119 --> 01:36:28,856
-That's really a good-looking
dog, like is, is-- yeah.
-Yeah, he's so cute.
1048
01:36:28,989 --> 01:36:30,625
-Mm.
-Mm.
1049
01:36:30,759 --> 01:36:32,860
-What, wha-- what's his name?
Oh, my God.
-Oh, my God.
1050
01:36:32,993 --> 01:36:34,962
That's a cute dog. My God.
1051
01:36:35,095 --> 01:36:36,797
- It's Yup'ik.
- Yup'ik?
1052
01:36:37,898 --> 01:36:39,900
- Yeah.
- Like toothpick?
1053
01:36:42,136 --> 01:36:45,039
You pick that yourself?
1054
01:36:45,172 --> 01:36:48,576
- That's okay, sit.
- Then, he walks off.
1055
01:36:48,710 --> 01:36:50,512
-Okay, look now.
-You're so good.
1056
01:36:50,645 --> 01:36:52,913
I'll take the plates and,
and if you would like,
1057
01:36:53,047 --> 01:36:56,551
-I'll, I'll wrap them up here
and, and, we'll--
-I'll help you clear.
1058
01:36:58,118 --> 01:36:59,987
Um, at this time I'd like to...
1059
01:37:00,921 --> 01:37:04,191
...offer the podium to anyone
who'd like to come share?
1060
01:37:04,992 --> 01:37:06,594
- Yeah, lay down in the grass.
-That's so good.
1061
01:37:06,728 --> 01:37:10,064
That's so good, you're so good.
You're so good.
1062
01:37:10,197 --> 01:37:12,933
Yeah, yeah. I know.