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<i>It's an illusion. He creates</i>
<i>an illusion for people to believe.</i>

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I haven't spoke to Doc since this came out
but he's not happy about it.

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Everywhere there seems to be the cry.

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We hear people shouting
in the name of peace,

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but they want to fight for peace.

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{\an8}This is the Two of Hearts.

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{\an8}Ninety-eight percent accuracy.

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I'll probably never get over it.
My mother always likes to bring that up.

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She goes, "He was the love of your life."
I'm like, "Yeah, he was."

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Nobody's ever gonna change that.

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Me and Kevin,
that was his name back then,

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I met him in high school.

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And before we started dating,
my boyfriend lived next door to him.

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So I used to go to Kevin's house
to spend time with my boyfriend,

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'cause Kevin's mother didn't care.

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She was like, "Cool Mom."

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{\an8}But, he broke up with me
so that he could be with Kevin's mother.

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Didn't people think it was strange
that she started having sex

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with your teenage boyfriend?

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Only the people that knew about it,
which was only us.

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She felt bad because she said,
"Well, I know you're upset about this."

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"Why don't you try dating Kevin?"

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Meaning her son. And I did.

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Of course I fell in love.

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I wanted to be with him all the time.

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Oh, he was a rebel.

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He always wanted to be in trouble.

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He actually sought out trouble.

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After we got married,
we changed our names

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because we went
to this one-month retreat at Yogaville

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to become certified yoga instructors.

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And Swami Satchidananda
gave us a new name.

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I went from Betsy to Brahmi.

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And he went from Kevin Antle
to Sri Mahatmayavi Bhagavan Antle.

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Pretty big change.

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How old was he?

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The worst part is that
the other women that lived around there,

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they actually thought that I condoned it.

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They were like,
"Oh, I thought you were okay with it."

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I was like,
"Are you kidding me? Of course not."

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You have to remember
I was always the last person to know.

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I didn't know
it was Sumati's honeymoon.

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I was spending all of my time snorkeling.

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Apparently he was
spending all day screwing women.

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I didn't know that.

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One of his many lies.

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But she was really young

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and I can imagine that
she would've believed him, of course.

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Sumati lived in a tent
right behind my house.

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He was only interested in me
as long as I looked like I was 12.

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Until the age of 30, I weighed 100 pounds.

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I had no curves, just nothing.

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That's what he liked, he liked women
who looked like they were still teenagers.

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Did you ever see him
lose his temper in a way that was scary?

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He didn't like to hit
because it'd leave a scar,

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so he used to strangle me
because it didn't leave a mark.

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He got so mad at me when I got pregnant.
He said it was my fault.

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When I started giving birth,

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somebody tracked him down, and of course
he was with his girlfriend at the time,

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and so then,
while I'm still in labor, he calls.

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"Is it okay if I just don't show up?"
And I was like, "No!"

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So what he did was he actually came
and he laid on the bed next to me

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and slept while I was having a baby.

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Luckily, you're in so much pain
that you don't think about it too much,

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but yeah, it was sad, but…

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That whole thing about
what doesn't kill you makes you stronger?

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Well, guess what.

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There's not a whole lot of things
that will happen to me worse than that.

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As soon as the baby was born,
he was gone.

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He was back
on the road with his girlfriend.

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He used to tell Sumati,

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"I can do some kind of voodoo magic on you
and you'll never get pregnant."

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She believed he could put a spell on her
and she wouldn't get pregnant.

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But my daughter had just been born
and she was already showing.

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<i>Tilakam's mom was a crazy teenager</i>

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<i>that, you know, I just happened to have</i>
<i>been hanging out with a little too long,</i>

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<i>and she got pregnant.</i>

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<i>I drug her ass</i>

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<i>to the Downtown Marriott in Washington DC,</i>
<i>and didn't follow through</i>

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<i>on the birth control</i>
<i>the way we were supposed to do it</i>

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<i>and, lo and behold, baby!</i>