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<i>Doc, how pleased are you</i>
<i>with </i>{\an8}Tiger King's<i> depiction of you?</i>

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<i>This is not a documentary.</i>

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{\an8}<i>Not a documentary.</i>

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<i>It's fake. It's a silly fake show.</i>

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<i>An incredible wild ride</i>
<i>of a fanticiful tale.</i>

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<i>[John Reinke] Doc Antle hated </i>Tiger King.

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<i>He thought he was</i>
<i>misrepresented in a bunch of lies.</i>

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<i>[Doc] They hid the fact that this facility</i>

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<i>is the Ritz-Carlton of keeping big cats.</i>

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<i>No one's even close to the grandeur</i>
<i>and beauty of this facility.</i>

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<i>[Joe Exotic] </i>It's an illusion. He creates
an illusion for people to believe.

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<i>I haven't spoke to Doc since this came out</i>
<i>but he's not happy about it.</i>

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<i>[Barbara Fisher]</i>
<i>Doc is a very skilled con artist.</i>

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<i>He thinks that he's smarter</i>
<i>than the rest of the world</i>

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<i>and he designs his environment</i>
<i>around him to confirm that.</i>

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<i>[Barbara] He creates his own truth always.</i>

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{\an8}<i>[motor whirring]</i>

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{\an8}<i>[Barbara] He doesn't live in a world</i>
<i>where people challenge him.</i>

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<i>He doesn't--</i>
<i>He's not used to that anymore.</i>

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<i>The silly little girl Barbara Fisher,</i>
<i>that bitch is on there talking, saying,</i>

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{\an8}<i>"They forced me to get a boob job</i>
<i>after a month." Like, are you mad?</i>

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<i>She was obsessed with having boobs.</i>

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<i>Those boobs didn't live here,</i>
<i>she's living out there,</i>

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<i>test driving them on every</i>
<i>Tom, Dick, and Harry she can find.</i>

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<i>[host laughs]</i>

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<i>-That's why she's pregnant all the time.</i>
<i>-Oh, fuck.</i>

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<i>In terms of what he said about me,</i>
<i>it's pure misogyny, that's what it is.</i>

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<i>[somber melodic music plays]</i>

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<i>[Barbara] Since </i>Tiger King<i>, we had people</i>
<i>coming by the house, recognizing the dog.</i>

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<i>Just the fact that everybody</i>
<i>probably could figure out where I lived</i>

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<i>and that means Doc knew where I lived.</i>

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<i>That was scary to me,</i>
<i>so we just went out into the </i>deep<i> country</i>

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<i>and that's where we remain.</i>

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<i>[Barbara] Doc has gotten away with this</i>
<i>for so long, he thinks he's bulletproof.</i>

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<i>But after </i>Tiger King,<i> all these people</i>
<i>contacted me with their own stories.</i>

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<i>I knew that if I came forward,</i>
<i>other people would too.</i>

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<i>[dramatic music plays]</i>

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<i>[Barbara] There is safety in numbers.</i>

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<i>[Barbara] Maybe he doesn't think</i>
<i>that you'll look back into his past.</i>

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<i>But what's going on with Doc</i>
<i>won't survive in sunlight.</i>

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<i>[music crescendos]</i>

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<i>[mysterious music plays]</i>

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<i>[guide] Good morning!</i>
<i>It's nice and warm today, isn't it?</i>

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<i>-[crowd] Yeah!</i>
<i>-[guide] Just a couple rules on it.</i>

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<i>No cameras are going</i>
<i>to be allowed at all today.</i>

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<i>This is your final warning.</i>

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<i>If we see recording or taking pictures,</i>
<i>you will be asked to leave.</i>

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<i>I'm Dr. Bhagavan Antle,</i>
<i>director here at Myrtle Beach Safari.</i>

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{\an8}<i>Myrtle Beach Safari</i>
<i>is an incredible wildlife encounter</i>

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<i>where you get to have</i>
<i>an up-close, interactive experience</i>

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<i>with a variety</i>
<i>of incredible exotic animals</i>

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<i>up-close, uncaged</i>
<i>and unbelievable interaction.</i>

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<i>[insects chirping]</i>

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<i>[crowd laughs]</i>

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<i>A handful of people in the world</i>
<i>get to have an eagle living in your house.</i>

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<i>Sitting on the glove</i>
<i>watching </i>Game of Thrones<i>.</i>

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<i>That doesn't happen</i>
<i>a whole lot for a lot of people.</i>

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<i>When I was 12 years old, I got a photo</i>
<i>taken in Myrtle Beach, South Carolina.</i>

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<i>I looked at my mom and said, "This is what</i>
<i>I want to do for the rest of my life."</i>

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<i>And when senior year came around,</i>
<i>I called up Doc Antle and I said,</i>

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<i>"Please let me come volunteer for you,"</i>

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<i>and he said,</i>
<i>"Well, how soon can you move here?"</i>

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<i>And it was like I'd gotten</i>
<i>the golden ticket for </i>American Idol<i>.</i>

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<i>I'm like, "Ah! Okay."</i>

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<i>[melodic music plays]</i>

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<i>[Jewels] I worked for Doc Antle</i>
<i>for seven years.</i>

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<i>My parents were actually really happy</i>
<i>that I was doing something</i>

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<i>that I believed I wanted to do.</i>

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<i>I don't think they realized</i>
<i>what I was really signing up for,</i>

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<i>which is just 24/7 working</i>
<i>at a place that I can't really leave.</i>

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<i>Barbara was the first person</i>
<i>to come and talk to me.</i>

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<i>Me and Barb focused a lot</i>
<i>on training little cubs</i>

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<i>to become walking adolescents.</i>

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<i>We would go to this place</i>
<i>called Barefoot Landing every day,</i>

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<i>and we would do photos</i>
<i>with tiger cubs and big cats.</i>

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<i>[indistinct chatter]</i>

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<i>[Shavit Perel] One summer, I went</i>
<i>to call a friend of mine in Myrtle Beach,</i>

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{\an8}<i>and he offered me a job operating</i>
<i>a climbing wall in Barefoot Landing.</i>

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<i>[Shavit] As the summer went on,</i>
<i>I started developing relationships</i>

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{\an8}<i>with the people that worked</i>
<i>at Preservation Station.</i>

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<i>It started with Barbara,</i>
<i>and then it was China.</i>

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<i>Everybody looked like Crocodile Dundee.</i>

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<i>And everybody was tan</i>
<i>and blond and had a knife</i>

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<i>and it was really impressive.</i>

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<i>And then eventually Doc would show up.</i>

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<i>He just blew me away.</i>

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<i>By the time we reached the end of summer,</i>
<i>he said, "How about you come work for me?"</i>

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<i>I said, "I'm in."</i>

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<i>I stayed at the barn</i>
<i>where the elephant was living.</i>

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<i>So I would go to sleep with Bubbles</i>
<i>and I would wake up with Bubbles.</i>

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<i>Who the heck am I</i>
<i>to be lucky enough to be in this position?</i>

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<i>And then they would give me those clothes,</i>
<i>and I got my knife.</i>

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<i>Now I'm looking</i>
<i>like Crocodile Dundee, right?</i>

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<i>I'm the cool guy.</i>

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{\an8}<i>And it got to the point,</i>
<i>like, I'm living a dream.</i>

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<i>But everything completely turned on</i>
<i>its head once Julie came into the picture.</i>

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<i>I'm talking to Doc and he goes,</i>

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<i>"I just want to let you know,</i>
<i>there's a couple of new girls."</i>

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<i>"I don't want you getting involved."</i>

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<i>Somebody told me,</i>
<i>"Hey, Doc rated you a nine."</i>

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<i>Part of me was like, "Oh, yeah,"</i>
<i>and then part of me is like, "What?"</i>

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<i>[Magenta Brooks]</i>
<i>Women and men at Doc's compound</i>

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<i>were treated very differently.</i>

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<i>He definitely showed off his giant bed</i>
<i>a few more times than was necessary</i>

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<i>to do with an employee.</i>

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<i>I had always wondered</i>
<i>if I had misread things,</i>

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<i>and then seeing</i> Tiger King

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<i>and hearing Barbara talk,</i>
<i>it was so cathartic.</i>

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<i>It was just this amazing confirmation</i>
<i>that I didn't make this up,</i>

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<i>and other people saw it too. [sighs]</i>

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<i>[Magenta] I am a polyamory</i>
<i>relationship coach</i>

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<i>and I've been noticing that people keep</i>
<i>talking about Doc as being polyamorous.</i>

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<i>Polyamory requires</i>
<i>respect that flows both ways.</i>

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<i>It requires autonomy.</i>

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<i>And Doc is not encouraging his partners</i>

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<i>to create healthy relationships</i>
<i>outside of him.</i>

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<i>-It's a harem, it's not polyamory.</i>
<i>-[cryptic music plays]</i>

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<i>[Doc] I have my three beloved partners</i>
<i>who've been with me for 20 years each.</i>

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<i>My son, my three daughters.</i>

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<i>[birds chirping]</i>

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<i>And that group of people,</i>

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<i>along with the peripheral characters</i>
<i>around them,</i>

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<i>love doing this</i>
<i>and plan on to continue to do it.</i>

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<i>So if I move</i>
<i>to the Himalayan Mountains today,</i>

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<i>those guys should be able to step up</i>
<i>and run some facsimile of it.</i>

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<i>[Magenta] He's got this very</i>
<i>highly overinflated sense of self.</i>

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<i>He sees himself as kind of a guru.</i>

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<i>And so, having followers</i>
<i>or having animals that are</i>

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<i>subservient to him</i>

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<i>kind of bolsters that narrative.</i>

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<i>[Barbara] After we all changed our names,</i>
<i>he gave a bunch of us different chains.</i>

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<i>The medallion signified to all of us</i>

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<i>this union of us all being one family.</i>

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<i>It's a symbol for the integral yoga</i>
<i>that Swami Satchidananda purported.</i>

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<i>He was the guru that opened Woodstock.</i>

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<i>A picture of the big bearded guy going,</i>
<i>"Let's start."</i>

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<i>That's Swami Satchidananda.</i>

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<i>[Doc] Tons of famous people</i>
<i>are longtime devotees.</i>

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<i>[crowd murmurs]</i>

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{\an8}<i>[Barbara] He met Swamiji Satchidananda</i>
<i>in Yogaville.</i>

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{\an8}<i>[eerie music plays]</i>

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{\an8}<i>[Barbara] All these people devoted</i>
<i>to Swamiji</i>

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{\an8}<i>and listening to everything he says,</i>

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<i>and basing every aspect</i>
<i>of their life around him.</i>

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<i>[Barbara] If there's somebody</i>
<i>he idolized, it's Swamiji.</i>

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<i>The way he talks about him,</i>
<i>it's beyond hero worship.</i>

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<i>[man] How did you go</i>
<i>from Yogaville to being a--</i>

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<i>[Doc] Once you add Yogaville,</i>

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<i>you're dropping in</i>
<i>this incredibly complicated,</i>

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<i>cult-ridden, strange entity, like, "What?"</i>

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<i>[female voice] </i>The Reverend
Sri Swami Satchidananda

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<i>experienced the spiritual oneness</i>
<i>of all creation</i>

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<i>and dreamed of creating a shrine</i>
<i>where that oneness could be seen and felt.</i>

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<i>[gently melodic music plays]</i>

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<i>Swami Satchidananda</i>
<i>used to always laughingly say</i>

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<i>that the yoga institutes were asylums</i>
<i>and we were all the inmates.</i>

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<i>And people would go,</i>
<i>"Ha-ha-ha. That's so funny, Swamiji."</i>

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<i>But it was true.</i>

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<i>-We were having crisis times.</i>
<i>-[tense music plays]</i>

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<i>People were choosing between yoga</i>
<i>and Scientology, and I thought,</i>

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<i>"I wasn't raised by wolves.</i>
<i>I am going to go with yoga."</i>

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<i>[Satchidananda]</i>
<i>Everywhere there seems to be the cry.</i>

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<i>We hear people shouting</i>
<i>in the name of peace,</i>

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<i>but they want to fight for peace.</i>

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<i>Most of the people at Yogaville</i>
<i>are loving, caring individuals,</i>

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<i>who want to better themselves spiritually</i>
<i>and want to better the world.</i>

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<i>[melodic music plays]</i>

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<i>[female voice] Yogaville is</i>
<i>an intentional community</i>

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<i>where people choose to live together</i>

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<i>practicing yoga,</i>
<i>vegetarian diet, meditation.</i>

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<i>There's probably</i>
<i>close to 250 permanent residents.</i>

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<i>My parents met Swami Satchidananda</i>
<i>when I was five years old,</i>

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<i>and I started meditating myself</i>
<i>when I was 11, by choice.</i>

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<i>I was doing, I don't know,</i>

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<i>four to six hours a day</i>
<i>of yoga and meditation, yeah.</i>

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<i>We were a very peaceful,</i>
<i>loving, accepting…</i>

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<i>[chuckles] …community.]</i>

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<i>[crowd singing indistinctly]</i>

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<i>Hari om, hari om, hari om.</i>

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<i>[female voice] People believe</i>
<i>Swami Satchidananda is a god.</i>

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<i>-A Jesus Christ. He can do no wrong.</i>
<i>-[gentle music plays]</i>

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<i>They would drop to the ground</i>
<i>when he walked into the room</i>

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<i>and bow to his feet.</i>

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<i>Kiss his feet.</i>

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<i>[Sachi] I watched </i>Tiger King<i>,</i>
<i>and I was like, "Damn."</i>

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<i>"They don't even know</i>
<i>the story before that."</i>

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<i>Doc Antle got ideas</i>
<i>from Swami Satchidananda.</i>

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<i>He was attracted to the power</i>
<i>that he wielded over other people.</i>

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<i>Bhagavan was</i>
<i>a very well-known character at Yogaville.</i>

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<i>Swami Satchidananda loved him.</i>
<i>He was, you know, lots of flash.</i>

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<i>He had Bubbles, the little baby elephant.</i>

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<i>[applause]</i>

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<i>He was like a celebrity there.</i>

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<i>[female announcer] </i>Bhagavan Antle
of Bhagavan's Celestial Magic.

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<i>[mystical music plays]</i>

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<i>[crowd cheering]</i>

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<i>[applause]</i>

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<i>[Joan] He was the cute boy of the '80s.</i>
<i>He had long dark hair, a mustache.</i>

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<i>He was a magic man.</i>

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<i>["Magic" by Pilot plays]</i>

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<i>♪ Oh, ho, ho it's magic, you know ♪</i>

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<i>[cheers and applause]</i>

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<i>♪ Never believe it's not so ♪</i>

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<i>♪ It's magic, you know ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Never believe it's not so… ♪</i>

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<i>[Steven Diamond] The two of us had</i>
<i>an instant connection through magic.</i>

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<i>I was about 15 or 16.</i>

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<i>I had my own career at that time,</i>
<i>so I was doing fairs and festivals.</i>

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<i>And I was very popular</i>
<i>all up and down the East Coast.</i>

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{\an8}<i>Bhagavan saw me</i>
<i>as a great way to make some money.</i>

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<i>[camera snaps]</i>

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<i>[Steven] And so, right away we kind of</i>
<i>formed this little informal partnership.</i>

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<i>A 50/50 plan was the deal.</i>

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<i>[Steven] Come down, guys! Run!</i>

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<i>["Theme from Superman"</i>
<i>by John Williams plays]</i>

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<i>[Steven] He had this place called</i>
<i>The Buckingham Zoological Park.</i>

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<i>Right outside of Yogaville.</i>

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<i>You'd drive down this little country road</i>
<i>and you wouldn't know that it was there</i>

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<i>unless you knew exactly how to find it.</i>

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<i>You walked through the little gate</i>
<i>and you see this A-frame house.</i>

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<i>It kind of looked</i>
<i>like something a hobbit might live in.</i>

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<i>And immediately, as soon as you walked in,</i>
<i>you could see an elephant in the distance,</i>

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<i>and you could see tigers back there,</i>
<i>you could see lions.</i>

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<i>Good boy.</i>

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<i>[Steven] In the beginning,</i>
<i>it was such a great place.</i>

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<i>[soothing music plays]</i>

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<i>What I liked about the Buckingham Zoo</i>
<i>was the community that Bhagavan had built.</i>

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<i>[man] I met Bhagavan</i>
<i>right out of high school.</i>

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<i>He would do local shows</i>
<i>around here for schools.</i>

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<i>And then I worked with him</i>
<i>at the Renaissance Festival.</i>

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<i>[David] I made my living</i>
<i>as a juggler for like 25 or 30 years.</i>

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<i>[motor whirring]</i>

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<i>[David] I'm sort of an entrepreneur.</i>

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<i>I had a video business</i>

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<i>and I used to videotape</i>
<i>his magic show that he would perform.</i>

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<i>[hissing, popping]</i>

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<i>[mystical music plays]</i>

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<i>By the constant practice</i>
<i>of the control of the life force,</i>

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<i>you will not only be able to control</i>
<i>the life force of your mind and body,</i>

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<i>you will also be able to control</i>
<i>the life force of the universe, as well.</i>

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<i>[David] Bhagavan supposedly</i>
<i>had psychic powers</i>

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<i>because he had practiced yoga</i>
<i>and his pranayama and acquired</i>

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<i>these superpowers.</i>

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<i>He would walk on coals and he would</i>
<i>supposedly levitate things and whatnot.</i>

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<i>[mysterious music plays]</i>

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<i>Your body can become so fit</i>

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<i>that you are immune to the outside world</i>
<i>coming in and influencing you.</i>

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<i>[Steven] He would create this illusion</i>

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<i>that if you listened to him</i>
<i>and you followed his ways,</i>

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<i>you would be able</i>
<i>to do some of the same things.</i>

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<i>[David] These people getting paid</i>
<i>almost nothing in promise of getting</i>

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<i>these super powers from Bhagavan,</i>
<i>when he didn't really have them himself.</i>

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<i>He was not a great magician.</i>

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{\an8}<i>[Doc] This is the Two of Hearts.</i>

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{\an8}<i>[David] Ninety-eight percent accuracy.</i>

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<i>[muffled laughter]</i>

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<i>It was horrible. [laughs]</i>
<i>I mean, it just-- It was horrible.</i>

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<i>But people liked it because he was</i>
<i>the cool guy with the tigers.</i>

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<i>[melodic synth music plays]</i>

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<i>These things are nothing</i>
<i>in comparison to the accomplishments…</i>

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<i>of the thoughts-- of the control</i>
<i>of the thoughts and emotions of the mind.</i>

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<i>They are but a drop</i>
<i>in the ocean by comparison.</i>

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<i>The guru gave Bhagavan</i>
<i>all of his teachings, the yoga teachings.</i>

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<i>This philosophy and psychology</i>
<i>of how to approach the world.</i>

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<i>[sitar music plays]</i>

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<i>[Joy] I still love the yoga teachings,</i>

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<i>but the experience in retrospect</i>

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<i>taught me so much about how</i>

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<i>to be aware of a cult-type approach,</i>

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<i>of wanting to attract people</i>
<i>for the purpose of power or greed,</i>

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<i>and giving…</i>

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<i>the feeling that you're going to receive</i>
<i>something that isn't possible to get.</i>

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<i>[eerie music plays]</i>

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<i>[Joy] He had complete control.</i>

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<i>We had to wear a certain type of clothing,</i>
<i>we had to eat a certain type of food.</i>

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<i>I mean, you give everything.</i>

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<i>You give not just your material</i>
<i>possessions, but your whole belief system.</i>

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<i>One day, you'll be surprised</i>
<i>how obedient your mind is.</i>

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<i>One will have a body of all health</i>
<i>and vitality, free from disease.</i>

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<i>It will make the mind calm,</i>
<i>clear, and dynamic.</i>

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<i>[Joy] Bhagavan learned how to use</i>
<i>the teachings in a manipulative way.</i>

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<i>[Steven] To be part of the zoo,</i>

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<i>you give up your entire life,</i>
<i>you give up your name,</i>

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<i>you give up your world,</i>
<i>you give up your family, your friends.</i>

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<i>The tigers become the first priority</i>
<i>to the exclusion of everything else.</i>

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<i>And he's always been that way,</i>
<i>and it's just a way of getting free labor.</i>

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<i>[guide] Being in the presence</i>
<i>of a big cat</i>

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<i>can be a life-transforming event.</i>

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<i>When Doc started building his facility,</i>

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<i>he wanted to embody,</i>
<i>like, a Yogaville type of environment,</i>

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<i>where he's, kind of,</i>
<i>the leader of the group</i>

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<i>and everyone's working</i>
<i>for a greater cause, working with animals,</i>

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<i>and also incorporating yoga.</i>

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<i>[melodic music plays]</i>

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<i>[male interviewer] Do you practice yoga?</i>

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<i>Cult, cult, cult alarm, um… [chuckles]</i>

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<i>Myself, I have practiced yoga</i>
<i>throughout my life, I've practiced…</i>

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<i>Myself, I've practiced martial arts</i>
<i>from the time I was very young.</i>

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<i>I've practiced throughout my life.</i>

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<i>I always tell my staff</i>
<i>that they should go and practice yoga</i>

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<i>so they get a steadiness of mind and body.</i>

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<i>[pensive music plays]</i>

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<i>[Shavit] It makes so much sense</i>
<i>to use those characteristics of the guru</i>

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<i>to basically create a culture</i>
<i>where you're like God.</i>

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<i>[high-pitched growl]</i>

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<i>[Doc] They come as teenagers</i>
<i>and decades later they're still here,</i>

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<i>because there is a fulfillment</i>
<i>from spending time with wildlife.</i>

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<i>[growling]</i>

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<i>There's a song,</i>

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<i>"I'm on a vacation</i>
<i>because I love my occupation."</i>

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<i>"If you don't love what you're doing,</i>
<i>change your station."</i>

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<i>It's perfect. It's a perfect song.</i>

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<i>[insects chirping]</i>

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<i>Bhagavan definitely had the desire</i>
<i>to create his own following,</i>

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<i>and he did and he was very good at it.</i>

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<i>[birds chirping]</i>

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<i>[Steven] I met Joe</i>
<i>a couple times at his zoo.</i>

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<i>and I was shocked at what I was seeing,</i>

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<i>because in every way</i>
<i>it was a poor man's version,</i>

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<i>it was a copy of what Bhagavan had built.</i>

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<i>This is what we are going to create.</i>

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<i>Press play.</i>

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<i>[dramatic instrumental music plays]</i>

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<i>[Joe] I want you to look</i>
<i>at the landscaping here.</i>

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<i>One man does this entire park</i>
<i>because he takes pride in it.</i>

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<i>The staff take pride in what they do.</i>

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<i>Joe tried to make his park</i>
<i>look exactly like Doc Antle's.</i>

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<i>Everything was about Doc Antle.</i>

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{\an8}<i>We will buy safari-looking clothes</i>

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<i>so you feel</i>
<i>like you work in a jungle atmosphere.</i>

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<i>It's very simple, you get up</i>
<i>in the morning, you get dressed,</i>

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<i>you come to work</i>
<i>with a shiny, sparkly attitude.</i>

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<i>[Joe] Until you can get</i>
<i>some self-discipline,</i>

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<i>we can never do this.</i>

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<i>I have my own following and people.</i>
<i>It's called the Temple of the Beast.</i>

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<i>[Joe] We're a nondenominational church</i>
<i>here at the G.W. Zoo, and I'm Pastor Joe.</i>

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<i>And if you would like</i>
<i>to get married with tigers,</i>

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<i>we can decorate and do it all</i>

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<i>just for you.</i>

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<i>We are here today in the sanctuary</i>
<i>of the Church of the Beast</i>

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<i>where the sky is our ceiling</i>
<i>and the grass is our floor.</i>

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<i>[gentle music plays]</i>

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<i>[Jewels] People like Joe Exotic</i>
<i>and Doc Antle love dressing in costumes.</i>

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<i>That's their thing,</i>
<i>that's what they love to do is boast,</i>

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<i>"I'm Tiger King with all these,</i>
<i>you know, beautiful women around me</i>

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<i>that all have big boobs</i>
<i>and all dressed in leather."</i>

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<i>I can't believe I was actually okay</i>
<i>with wearing those costumes.</i>

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<i>I think the one thing that I said</i>
<i>absolutely not is not putting on tights.</i>

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<i>[dramatic instrumental music plays]</i>

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<i>[Barbara] I've been deep into</i>
<i>Bhagavan's closet before,</i>

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<i>and you can find</i>
<i>the most insane pieces of clothing.</i>

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<i>This is the Renaissance Fair outfit.</i>
<i>I was proud of my chain mail halter top.</i>

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<i>[male voice] </i>King Richard's Faire!
Weekends, September 4 through October 24.

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<i>[Steven] Renaissance Fairs</i>
<i>are this gathering</i>

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<i>of thousands of people that come</i>

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<i>and all the performers</i>
<i>and everybody that works at the fair,</i>

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<i>they're all dressed up</i>
<i>in these medieval type costumes.</i>

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<i>And there's usually a swordsmith there,</i>
<i>and there will be jugglers,</i>

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<i>and there will be any type of performer</i>

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<i>that might have lived</i>
<i>back in medieval times.</i>

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<i>Whenever we went to Renaissance Fairs,</i>
<i>Bhagavan was kind of on the prowl,</i>

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<i>searching for girls.</i>

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<i>There's no greater</i>
<i>pick-up line in the world than,</i>

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<i>"Do you want to pet my tiger?"</i>

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<i>[Magenta] That's how I met him.</i>

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<i>I was traveling from state to state</i>
<i>doing Renaissance Fairs</i>

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<i>and I was walking</i>
<i>my ferret through the forest area</i>

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<i>and ran smack into a guy walking a lion.</i>

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<i>Right now, he is gaining</i>
<i>almost a pound every single day.</i>

370
00:21:57,442 --> 00:21:59,319
<i>I said, "Do you ever hire people?"</i>

371
00:21:59,402 --> 00:22:03,698
<i>And a week later I was hauling</i>
<i>elephant poop. I had moved in.</i>

372
00:22:04,616 --> 00:22:06,326
<i>[Magenta] He can talk a good game.</i>

373
00:22:06,409 --> 00:22:09,287
<i>When he would talk about</i>
<i>the requirements of the job,</i>

374
00:22:09,371 --> 00:22:13,083
<i>like how many hours we had to put in,</i>
<i>how dedicated we had to be,</i>

375
00:22:13,166 --> 00:22:15,043
<i>it really was framed in a very, you know,</i>

376
00:22:15,126 --> 00:22:18,713
<i>"These animals come first</i>
<i>and it's going to be hard work</i>

377
00:22:18,797 --> 00:22:20,423
<i>and it's going to be difficult,</i>

378
00:22:20,507 --> 00:22:22,550
<i>and you've got</i>
<i>to be strong to manage this."</i>

379
00:22:22,634 --> 00:22:25,553
<i>And that appealed to me greatly.</i>

380
00:22:25,637 --> 00:22:27,138
<i>[music crescendos]</i>

381
00:22:27,847 --> 00:22:31,434
<i>[Joy] Bhagavan knew</i>
<i>how to work people beautifully,</i>

382
00:22:31,518 --> 00:22:36,731
<i>because he got his beginnings</i>
<i>of learning from Swami Satchidananda.</i>

383
00:22:36,815 --> 00:22:37,816
<i>[mystic music plays]</i>

384
00:22:37,899 --> 00:22:42,112
<i>[Joy] In order to be a Swami</i>
<i>you take vows of celibacy,</i>

385
00:22:42,195 --> 00:22:46,449
<i>obedience, selfless service, and poverty.</i>

386
00:22:47,283 --> 00:22:51,162
<i>He was Swami Satchidananda</i>
<i>and he had taken those vows,</i>

387
00:22:51,246 --> 00:22:54,749
<i>but they didn't apply to him anymore</i>
<i>because now he was enlightened.</i>

388
00:22:54,833 --> 00:23:01,089
<i>Yoga expects one to reform himself.</i>

389
00:23:02,090 --> 00:23:06,761
<i>[Joy] During the years that I was there,</i>
<i>the guru had sexualized the relationship</i>

390
00:23:06,845 --> 00:23:08,471
<i>with many of the disciples.</i>

391
00:23:08,555 --> 00:23:10,265
<i>[Satchidananda speaks inaudibly]</i>

392
00:23:10,348 --> 00:23:12,642
<i>[Joy] With any kind of sexual abuse,</i>

393
00:23:12,725 --> 00:23:16,855
<i>they bring you in, and they make you feel</i>
<i>like you're going to be…</i>

394
00:23:16,938 --> 00:23:18,189
<i>[pensive music plays]</i>

395
00:23:18,273 --> 00:23:20,775
<i>…friends with this powerful person.</i>

396
00:23:20,859 --> 00:23:25,488
<i>So, what they would want gets changed.</i>

397
00:23:25,572 --> 00:23:29,325
<i>No, they wouldn't want</i>
<i>an old man with a long beard</i>

398
00:23:29,409 --> 00:23:32,287
<i>to be fondling them</i>
<i>and having intercourse with him.</i>

399
00:23:32,370 --> 00:23:33,329
<i>Jerking him off.</i>

400
00:23:35,999 --> 00:23:38,334
<i>[interviewer] How many women</i>
<i>was he involved with?</i>

401
00:23:39,002 --> 00:23:42,255
<i>Oh, I don't know. I bet</i>
<i>there are some that never came forth.</i>

402
00:23:42,338 --> 00:23:43,256
<i>Um…</i>

403
00:23:43,840 --> 00:23:46,801
<i>But I would say at least a dozen.</i>

404
00:23:46,885 --> 00:23:50,096
<i>[dramatic instrumental music plays]</i>

405
00:23:50,180 --> 00:23:53,183
<i>[Joy] They believed</i>
<i>that this made them special somehow,</i>

406
00:23:53,266 --> 00:23:57,437
<i>that this close intimate</i>
<i>relationship gave them</i>

407
00:23:58,104 --> 00:24:01,274
<i>a certain connection to God.</i>

408
00:24:03,610 --> 00:24:06,154
<i>And Bhagavan was emulating the guru.</i>

409
00:24:06,905 --> 00:24:09,365
<i>[Joy] Women were very attracted</i>
<i>to Bhagavan.</i>

410
00:24:10,950 --> 00:24:13,077
<i>[Sumati] His first wife</i>
<i>was "Brahmi" Betsy.</i>

411
00:24:13,578 --> 00:24:16,831
<i>There was, you know, only "Brahmi"</i>
<i>for a little while on her own.</i>

412
00:24:18,374 --> 00:24:20,502
<i>[Joan] "Brahmi" was a beautiful woman.</i>

413
00:24:21,336 --> 00:24:24,130
<i>[Glen] She was beautiful.</i>
<i>Slender, long dark hair.</i>

414
00:24:25,298 --> 00:24:28,551
<i>[David] They seemed like</i>
<i>a happy married couple, in a sense.</i>

415
00:24:28,635 --> 00:24:31,846
<i>And Bhagavan used to use them</i>
<i>as an example about how happy they were</i>

416
00:24:31,930 --> 00:24:35,558
<i>and what a wonderful couple they were,</i>
<i>which is sort of interesting.</i>

417
00:24:36,142 --> 00:24:38,269
<i>I think it was not her lifestyle.</i>

418
00:24:38,353 --> 00:24:41,314
<i>You know, Bhagavan being</i>
<i>interested in multiple women.</i>

419
00:24:41,397 --> 00:24:42,982
<i>[somber music plays]</i>

420
00:24:43,066 --> 00:24:45,610
<i>[man] I have to believe</i>
<i>that's part of why my sister is</i>

421
00:24:45,693 --> 00:24:47,403
<i>where she's at now in her life.</i>

422
00:24:47,487 --> 00:24:49,072
<i>I mean, it has to be.</i>

423
00:24:49,155 --> 00:24:51,032
<i>She never dealt with it.</i>

424
00:24:51,115 --> 00:24:54,911
<i>And she's just been</i>
<i>destroying her life, slowly but surely.</i>

425
00:24:55,995 --> 00:24:58,957
<i>[Glen] She's had a problem</i>
<i>with drinking for a long time.</i>

426
00:24:59,040 --> 00:25:00,667
<i>She almost died a few years ago.</i>

427
00:25:01,876 --> 00:25:03,294
<i>It's a shame because she's--</i>

428
00:25:04,128 --> 00:25:06,839
<i>[sighs] I'm getting emotional.</i>

429
00:25:08,508 --> 00:25:12,554
<i>[Betsy] I'll probably never get over it.</i>
<i>My mother always likes to bring that up.</i>

430
00:25:12,637 --> 00:25:16,349
<i>She goes, "He was the love of your life."</i>
<i>I'm like, "Yeah, he was."</i>

431
00:25:16,432 --> 00:25:17,267
<i>[laughs]</i>

432
00:25:18,434 --> 00:25:20,186
<i>Nobody's ever gonna change that.</i>

433
00:25:20,270 --> 00:25:21,771
<i>[insects chirping]</i>

434
00:25:21,854 --> 00:25:23,773
<i>[mysterious music plays]</i>

435
00:25:23,856 --> 00:25:27,235
<i>[Betsy] Me and Kevin,</i>
<i>that was his name back then,</i>

436
00:25:28,236 --> 00:25:30,154
<i>I met him in high school.</i>

437
00:25:30,238 --> 00:25:35,451
<i>And before we started dating,</i>
<i>my boyfriend lived next door to him.</i>

438
00:25:35,535 --> 00:25:38,830
<i>So I used to go to Kevin's house</i>
<i>to spend time with my boyfriend,</i>

439
00:25:38,913 --> 00:25:41,374
<i>'cause Kevin's mother didn't care.</i>

440
00:25:41,457 --> 00:25:42,875
<i>She was like, "Cool Mom."</i>

441
00:25:42,959 --> 00:25:44,210
<i>[laughs]</i>

442
00:25:44,794 --> 00:25:48,256
{\an8}<i>But, he broke up with me</i>
<i>so that he could be with Kevin's mother.</i>

443
00:25:48,339 --> 00:25:50,300
<i>[interviewer]</i>
<i>Didn't people think it was strange</i>

444
00:25:50,383 --> 00:25:53,011
<i>that she started having sex</i>
<i>with your teenage boyfriend?</i>

445
00:25:53,094 --> 00:25:56,097
<i>Only the people that knew about it,</i>
<i>which was only us.</i>

446
00:25:56,180 --> 00:26:00,059
<i>She felt bad because she said,</i>
<i>"Well, I know you're upset about this."</i>

447
00:26:00,143 --> 00:26:02,770
<i>"Why don't you try dating Kevin?"</i>

448
00:26:02,854 --> 00:26:05,898
<i>Meaning her son. And I did.</i>

449
00:26:06,899 --> 00:26:08,651
<i>[Betsy] Of course I fell in love.</i>

450
00:26:09,152 --> 00:26:11,154
<i>I wanted to be with him all the time.</i>

451
00:26:11,237 --> 00:26:12,363
<i>[somber music plays]</i>

452
00:26:12,447 --> 00:26:15,992
<i>[Betsy] He was very confident</i>
<i>and really beautiful.</i>

453
00:26:16,868 --> 00:26:18,953
<i>[Glen] My sister used to bring him</i>
<i>to the house.</i>

454
00:26:19,037 --> 00:26:21,664
{\an8}<i>I don't think my dad</i>
<i>liked him a lot in the beginning.</i>

455
00:26:21,748 --> 00:26:24,834
{\an8}<i>I know Kevin dropped out of high school,</i>
<i>maybe that was part of it.</i>

456
00:26:25,418 --> 00:26:26,794
<i>But he had long hair. [laughs]</i>

457
00:26:26,878 --> 00:26:30,173
<i>That was--</i>
<i>My dad didn't really like that.</i>

458
00:26:30,673 --> 00:26:32,175
<i>[Betsy] Oh, he was a rebel.</i>

459
00:26:32,759 --> 00:26:34,427
<i>He always wanted to be in trouble.</i>

460
00:26:34,927 --> 00:26:36,220
<i>[Betsy laughs, sighs]</i>

461
00:26:36,304 --> 00:26:38,681
<i>He actually sought out trouble. [chuckles]</i>

462
00:26:39,974 --> 00:26:42,644
<i>[Betsy] After we got married,</i>
<i>we changed our names</i>

463
00:26:42,727 --> 00:26:45,855
<i>because we went</i>
<i>to this one-month retreat at Yogaville</i>

464
00:26:45,938 --> 00:26:48,566
<i>to become certified yoga instructors.</i>

465
00:26:49,067 --> 00:26:51,653
<i>And Swami Satchidananda</i>
<i>gave us a new name.</i>

466
00:26:51,736 --> 00:26:53,988
<i>I went from Betsy to Brahmi.</i>

467
00:26:54,072 --> 00:26:59,619
<i>And he went from Kevin Antle</i>
<i>to Sri Mahatmayavi Bhagavan Antle.</i>

468
00:27:00,119 --> 00:27:01,287
<i>Pretty big change.</i>

469
00:27:01,371 --> 00:27:03,039
<i>[mysterious music plays]</i>

470
00:27:03,122 --> 00:27:07,418
<i>[Sumati] Bhagavan Antle in 1982</i>
<i>was very good-looking.</i>

471
00:27:07,502 --> 00:27:09,087
<i>He was very charming.</i>

472
00:27:09,170 --> 00:27:13,716
<i>He had a lot of bling, you know,</i>
<i>he drove a DeLorean and a Porsche.</i>

473
00:27:17,845 --> 00:27:20,723
<i>[Sumati] I first met him</i>
<i>in the Lotus Lake,</i>

474
00:27:20,807 --> 00:27:23,685
<i>which is a lake</i>
<i>around the Lotus Temple in Yogaville.</i>

475
00:27:23,768 --> 00:27:25,269
<i>I remember it very clearly</i>

476
00:27:25,353 --> 00:27:31,526
<i>because he hit on several</i>
<i>of the teenage girls that day in the lake.</i>

477
00:27:31,609 --> 00:27:34,696
<i>and I talked to them about it</i>
<i>and asked them like,</i>

478
00:27:34,779 --> 00:27:38,157
<i>"Did he touch your butt or boobs?"</i>

479
00:27:38,241 --> 00:27:40,993
<i>"I mean, did that happen to you guys too,</i>
<i>or was it just me?"</i>

480
00:27:41,077 --> 00:27:42,620
<i>[interviewer] How old was he?</i>

481
00:27:42,704 --> 00:27:46,624
<i>He was 22, yeah, and I was 14.</i>

482
00:27:47,375 --> 00:27:48,751
<i>[cryptic music plays]</i>

483
00:27:48,835 --> 00:27:51,587
<i>[Sumati] That's not legal</i>
<i>in the state of Virginia.</i>

484
00:27:51,671 --> 00:27:55,216
<i>He spent a long time,</i>
<i>he spent, like, six months</i>

485
00:27:55,299 --> 00:28:00,555
<i>sending me poetry,</i>
<i>getting me flowers, just really wooing me.</i>

486
00:28:02,515 --> 00:28:06,102
<i>[Sachi] I remember having</i>
<i>some outings with Bhagavan,</i>

487
00:28:06,769 --> 00:28:10,982
<i>you know, to the movies,</i>
<i>or, you know, out to dinner.</i>

488
00:28:11,065 --> 00:28:14,485
<i>He had all the toys.</i>
<i>I remember playing with a lot of toys.</i>

489
00:28:14,569 --> 00:28:19,323
<i>They had a Jacuzzi.</i>
<i>We'd play with the baby animals a lot.</i>

490
00:28:19,407 --> 00:28:23,411
<i>When you were over there,</i>
<i>you were in his world.</i>

491
00:28:27,790 --> 00:28:30,752
<i>[Sachi] I minimized everything</i>
<i>that went on,</i>

492
00:28:31,753 --> 00:28:34,964
<i>but now that I look at it as an adult,</i>

493
00:28:35,548 --> 00:28:38,509
<i>I was kind of passed on…</i>

494
00:28:39,969 --> 00:28:43,306
<i>to a person who worked with Bhagavan.</i>

495
00:28:44,140 --> 00:28:45,683
<i>I felt a pressure…</i>

496
00:28:47,101 --> 00:28:51,981
<i>to have a sexual relationship</i>
<i>with this person,</i>

497
00:28:52,064 --> 00:28:54,650
<i>and he was 30 years old.</i>

498
00:28:54,734 --> 00:28:56,027
<i>I was 15.</i>

499
00:28:56,110 --> 00:28:58,613
<i>[somber instrumental music plays]</i>

500
00:28:58,696 --> 00:29:02,366
<i>[Sachi] At the time, I thought</i>
<i>it was my choice and I played the role.</i>

501
00:29:03,075 --> 00:29:07,413
<i>I didn't have the tools</i>
<i>to make those kind of choices.</i>

502
00:29:08,247 --> 00:29:13,252
<i>It was part of the culture,</i>
<i>I think, that Bhagavan cultivated.</i>

503
00:29:14,086 --> 00:29:16,297
<i>There was a lot of photo shoots.</i>

504
00:29:18,007 --> 00:29:21,010
<i>[Sachi] There were some</i>
<i>inappropriate photos, definitely.</i>

505
00:29:22,804 --> 00:29:24,680
<i>And we were underage.</i>

506
00:29:24,764 --> 00:29:26,098
<i>Naked photos.</i>

507
00:29:29,769 --> 00:29:34,106
<i>[Sumati] He did a nude photo shoot of me</i>
<i>and a boa constrictor.</i>

508
00:29:34,774 --> 00:29:40,446
<i>And luckily his wife "Brahmi"</i>
<i>found those pictures and burned them.</i>

509
00:29:40,530 --> 00:29:44,659
<i>Otherwise, there could be nude photos</i>
<i>of me floating around who knows where.</i>

510
00:29:45,660 --> 00:29:48,621
<i>[Sachi] He preyed after young women</i>

511
00:29:49,121 --> 00:29:53,584
<i>and it was important to him</i>
<i>that they were virgins.</i>

512
00:29:54,627 --> 00:29:58,464
<i>My 15th birthday</i>
<i>was the first time that we slept together,</i>

513
00:29:58,548 --> 00:30:03,386
<i>but before we slept together,</i>
<i>we had a spiritual wedding ceremony</i>

514
00:30:03,469 --> 00:30:06,097
<i>in his meditation room</i>
<i>upstairs at his house.</i>

515
00:30:06,180 --> 00:30:09,600
<i>And he put a wedding band on me,</i>

516
00:30:09,684 --> 00:30:13,437
<i>and I was supposed to be his wife,</i>
<i>and he was supposed to be my husband,</i>

517
00:30:13,521 --> 00:30:15,106
<i>even though he was already married.</i>

518
00:30:16,107 --> 00:30:21,320
{\an8}<i>He told me she was totally polyamorous</i>
<i>and totally into an open marriage,</i>

519
00:30:21,404 --> 00:30:25,032
<i>and this was all copacetic,</i>
<i>and that was not the case.</i>

520
00:30:25,116 --> 00:30:28,703
<i>The worst part is that</i>
<i>the other women that lived around there,</i>

521
00:30:28,786 --> 00:30:31,330
<i>they actually thought that I condoned it.</i>

522
00:30:31,414 --> 00:30:34,542
<i>They were like,</i>
<i>"Oh, I thought you were okay with it."</i>

523
00:30:35,459 --> 00:30:37,920
<i>I was like,</i>
<i>"Are you kidding me? Of course not."</i>

524
00:30:38,004 --> 00:30:41,132
<i>You have to remember</i>
<i>I was always the last person to know.</i>

525
00:30:42,049 --> 00:30:46,262
<i>[Sumati] He took me on a honeymoon</i>
<i>down to the Virgin Islands</i>

526
00:30:46,345 --> 00:30:49,682
<i>with "Brahmi" Betsy, his first wife,</i>

527
00:30:49,765 --> 00:30:51,767
<i>which was really awkward for me</i>

528
00:30:51,851 --> 00:30:54,312
<i>because "Brahmi" and I</i>
<i>weren't talking about</i>

529
00:30:54,395 --> 00:30:56,689
<i>the fact that I was</i>
<i>in a relationship with him.</i>

530
00:30:57,189 --> 00:30:59,442
<i>[Betsy] I didn't know</i>
<i>it was Sumati's honeymoon.</i>

531
00:30:59,525 --> 00:31:02,069
<i>I was spending all of my time snorkeling.</i>

532
00:31:02,153 --> 00:31:04,989
<i>Apparently he was</i>
<i>spending all day screwing women.</i>

533
00:31:05,072 --> 00:31:06,407
<i>But I didn't know that.</i>

534
00:31:06,490 --> 00:31:08,075
<i>[somber music plays]</i>

535
00:31:08,159 --> 00:31:10,536
<i>He would just reassure me</i>
<i>that she was okay with it.</i>

536
00:31:11,871 --> 00:31:13,831
<i>[Betsy chuckles] One of his many lies.</i>

537
00:31:13,915 --> 00:31:15,499
<i>But she was really young</i>

538
00:31:15,583 --> 00:31:19,086
<i>and I can imagine that</i>
<i>she would've believed him, of course.</i>

539
00:31:21,172 --> 00:31:23,758
<i>[Sumati] He did one of those power</i>
<i>and control maneuvers </i>

540
00:31:23,841 --> 00:31:25,426
<i>where he isolated me.</i>

541
00:31:26,302 --> 00:31:31,766
<i>I moved out of my parents' house at 15</i>
<i>and moved on to the Yogaville property.</i>

542
00:31:32,350 --> 00:31:35,227
<i>[Betsy] You know, he was pretty careful</i>
<i>about picking teenage girls</i>

543
00:31:35,311 --> 00:31:37,563
<i>whose parents</i>
<i>didn't pay attention to them.</i>

544
00:31:38,147 --> 00:31:40,483
<i>Sumati lived in a tent</i>
<i>right behind my house.</i>

545
00:31:41,275 --> 00:31:45,029
<i>He would come and visit me</i>
<i>in my tent in Yogaville sometimes.</i>

546
00:31:47,657 --> 00:31:52,662
<i>[Betsy] He was only interested in me</i>
<i>as long as I looked like I was 12.</i>

547
00:31:53,162 --> 00:31:56,082
<i>Until the age of 30, I weighed 100 pounds.</i>

548
00:31:56,582 --> 00:31:59,377
<i>I had no curves, just nothing.</i>

549
00:31:59,460 --> 00:32:05,174
<i>That's what he liked, he liked women</i>
<i>who looked like they were still teenagers.</i>

550
00:32:05,257 --> 00:32:06,300
<i>[somber music plays]</i>

551
00:32:06,384 --> 00:32:10,012
<i>[Magenta] You needed to be very,</i>
<i>very thin.</i>

552
00:32:10,096 --> 00:32:15,726
<i>I was eating Doc's very restricted diet,</i>
<i>so I was eating around 800 calories a day.</i>

553
00:32:15,810 --> 00:32:18,813
<i>A very nutrient-light food.</i>

554
00:32:20,022 --> 00:32:23,025
<i>[Doc] You cannot make someone</i>
<i>into an animal trainer.</i>

555
00:32:23,109 --> 00:32:25,820
<i>It takes a certain degree</i>
<i>of mental and physical toughness.</i>

556
00:32:25,903 --> 00:32:27,571
<i>One needs to be light on their feet,</i>

557
00:32:27,655 --> 00:32:31,617
<i>one needs to have</i>
<i>a physicality of timing and understanding.</i>

558
00:32:32,243 --> 00:32:33,494
<i>[Magenta] I was starving.</i>

559
00:32:34,161 --> 00:32:36,831
<i>I was blacking out when I stood up.</i>

560
00:32:36,914 --> 00:32:40,584
<i>I almost got killed because you're</i>
<i>working with wild animals and you…</i>

561
00:32:40,668 --> 00:32:43,963
<i>My blood pressure was so low,</i>
<i>I'd stand up and start to black out.</i>

562
00:32:45,089 --> 00:32:46,841
<i>One of the volunteers saved me.</i>

563
00:32:46,924 --> 00:32:50,886
<i>She had been taken out for her birthday,</i>
<i>and she comes back to me the next day,</i>

564
00:32:50,970 --> 00:32:54,181
<i>and she says,</i>
<i>"You don't know what's happening to you."</i>

565
00:32:54,724 --> 00:32:56,100
<i>"You're being brainwashed."</i>

566
00:32:56,183 --> 00:33:01,272
<i>"This is what cults do when they're</i>
<i>taking over people's psyches."</i>

567
00:33:01,355 --> 00:33:04,525
<i>And she says,</i>
<i>"You've been doing this for so long,</i>

568
00:33:04,608 --> 00:33:08,821
<i>you don't even know</i>
<i>how off your brain is right now."</i>

569
00:33:08,904 --> 00:33:12,616
<i>[cryptic instrumental music plays]</i>

570
00:33:12,700 --> 00:33:15,244
<i>[Magenta] So, she says, "You have to eat."</i>

571
00:33:15,327 --> 00:33:19,331
<i>And she ended up chasing me around</i>
<i>the parking lot with a Fig Newton bar,</i>

572
00:33:19,415 --> 00:33:21,876
<i>screaming,</i>
<i>"It's fat-free, for fuck's sake!"</i>

573
00:33:22,376 --> 00:33:26,964
<i>And I refused to eat it because</i>
<i>a Fig Newton bar was just too much,</i>

574
00:33:27,048 --> 00:33:29,091
<i>but I started eating carrots</i>

575
00:33:29,675 --> 00:33:31,969
<i>and I started thinking straight.</i>

576
00:33:32,053 --> 00:33:36,390
<i>My brain started working a little better,</i>
<i>and I went to Doc</i>

577
00:33:36,474 --> 00:33:38,893
<i>and I was like,</i>
<i>"I want to stay for the next year."</i>

578
00:33:38,976 --> 00:33:40,895
<i>I was going</i>
<i>to finish up my two-year thing.</i>

579
00:33:41,771 --> 00:33:43,939
<i>But I decided I didn't want the boob job.</i>

580
00:33:44,607 --> 00:33:46,942
<i>I decided that wasn't who I wanted to be.</i>

581
00:33:47,568 --> 00:33:51,530
<i>And he said, "If you're gonna look</i>
<i>like a fat ass, you don't need the tits."</i>

582
00:33:52,448 --> 00:33:55,534
<i>I mean, I was still skeletal,</i>
<i>I was still concave,</i>

583
00:33:55,618 --> 00:33:58,287
<i>and I thought,</i>
<i>"Oh, I'm never going to win this game."</i>

584
00:33:58,871 --> 00:34:00,581
<i>"And I'm starting to believe him."</i>

585
00:34:01,874 --> 00:34:06,170
<i>[Magenta] I felt like if I stayed,</i>
<i>I was going to be subsumed.</i>

586
00:34:06,879 --> 00:34:09,507
<i>[insects and birds chirping]</i>

587
00:34:09,590 --> 00:34:11,425
<i>[Doc] In the '80s when we started out,</i>

588
00:34:11,509 --> 00:34:15,596
<i>Swami Satchidananda had a new idea</i>
<i>that was really fresh,</i>

589
00:34:15,679 --> 00:34:20,351
<i>that what you act like, what you think,</i>
<i>what you eat, shapes your health.</i>

590
00:34:20,434 --> 00:34:23,979
<i>You are what you eat.</i>
<i>Please remember that.</i>

591
00:34:25,481 --> 00:34:30,069
<i>Most of our physical problems</i>
<i>are caused by our food that we eat.</i>

592
00:34:30,945 --> 00:34:34,532
<i>Swami led you to believe that he was…</i>

593
00:34:35,825 --> 00:34:41,831
<i>now an enlightened being</i>
<i>and a perfect instrument of God.</i>

594
00:34:41,914 --> 00:34:43,165
<i>[pensive music plays]</i>

595
00:34:43,249 --> 00:34:47,837
<i>[Joy] Bhagavan saw the guru as someone</i>
<i>that could get away with everything.</i>

596
00:34:48,796 --> 00:34:55,094
<i>I was very close to the person</i>
<i>who took care of Swami Satchidananda</i>

597
00:34:55,177 --> 00:34:59,515
<i>and she would confide in me,</i>
<i>she would tell me that he would hit her.</i>

598
00:34:59,598 --> 00:35:04,770
<i>If you want</i>
<i>to punish somebody who hurts you…</i>

599
00:35:06,897 --> 00:35:09,984
<i>do something beautiful to that person.</i>

600
00:35:10,067 --> 00:35:14,488
<i>She accepted it so easily and lovingly.</i>

601
00:35:15,072 --> 00:35:19,076
<i>It was totally crazy,</i>
<i>but now I think of it that way,</i>

602
00:35:19,160 --> 00:35:24,957
<i>but at the time, I just put on</i>
<i>my rosy-colored glasses, I guess.</i>

603
00:35:25,040 --> 00:35:27,293
<i>[giggling]</i>

604
00:35:27,835 --> 00:35:28,836
<i>[indistinct chatter]</i>

605
00:35:29,503 --> 00:35:34,466
<i>Stop. Oh no!</i>
<i>Flippity-floppity. You big old guy.</i>

606
00:35:34,967 --> 00:35:36,760
<i>[Steven] Bhagavan didn't like it</i>

607
00:35:36,844 --> 00:35:40,306
<i>when someone,</i>
<i>in any kind of way, challenged him</i>

608
00:35:40,848 --> 00:35:42,808
<i>and that was a problem between me and him.</i>

609
00:35:43,559 --> 00:35:48,314
<i>If I did it in front of a group of people,</i>
<i>there would be hell to pay.</i>

610
00:35:48,397 --> 00:35:49,565
<i>You got to not love me.</i>

611
00:35:49,648 --> 00:35:52,234
<i>[Steven] And I learned very quickly</i>
<i>not to go there.</i>

612
00:35:52,776 --> 00:35:54,320
<i>[woman] In order to get them…</i>

613
00:35:54,403 --> 00:35:57,198
<i>-We're trying to not let you film.</i>
<i>-[cameraman] Sorry. Okay.</i>

614
00:35:57,781 --> 00:36:01,410
<i>If you come here going, "That's not fair.</i>
<i>You didn't listen. I know the way,"</i>

615
00:36:01,493 --> 00:36:04,413
<i>we have no tolerance</i>
<i>or time for anyone like that.</i>

616
00:36:04,496 --> 00:36:05,456
<i>Look how calm…</i>

617
00:36:05,539 --> 00:36:07,499
<i>[Barbara] He had a bad temper for sure.</i>

618
00:36:08,167 --> 00:36:11,795
<i>You do not want to have something</i>
<i>you're attached to in front of Bhagavan</i>

619
00:36:11,879 --> 00:36:13,839
<i>because he will torture you with that.</i>

620
00:36:13,923 --> 00:36:16,842
<i>-[eerie music plays]</i>
<i>-I loved this one capuchin monkey.</i>

621
00:36:16,926 --> 00:36:19,720
<i>From the time that I saw her,</i>
<i>I just was obsessed with her.</i>

622
00:36:20,763 --> 00:36:24,850
<i>Bhagavan knew I loved her. He liked</i>
<i>that I was taking good care of her.</i>

623
00:36:24,934 --> 00:36:28,729
<i>But he did also like to torture me</i>
<i>with the fact that I was so attached.</i>

624
00:36:28,812 --> 00:36:33,734
<i>In one instance in particular,</i>
<i>he took her and put her in a freezer.</i>

625
00:36:33,817 --> 00:36:35,444
<i>I mean, she's a little tiny baby</i>

626
00:36:36,028 --> 00:36:38,739
<i>and he took her</i>
<i>and put her in the freezer and closed it</i>

627
00:36:39,240 --> 00:36:43,285
<i>and just stared at me, waiting for me</i>
<i>to stop being upset…</i>

628
00:36:43,369 --> 00:36:44,536
<i>[chuckles] …about that</i>

629
00:36:44,620 --> 00:36:48,457
<i>That's what he was telling me.</i>
<i>"I'm teaching you not to be so attached."</i>

630
00:36:48,540 --> 00:36:51,126
<i>"I need you to just</i>
<i>think about how you're feeling</i>

631
00:36:51,210 --> 00:36:54,171
<i>with the monkey in the freezer</i>
<i>and calm yourself down."</i>

632
00:36:54,255 --> 00:36:55,798
<i>[grim music plays]</i>

633
00:36:55,881 --> 00:37:01,387
<i>[Sachi] He was capable of doing harm</i>
<i>more than your average person.</i>

634
00:37:03,597 --> 00:37:07,935
<i>He could go</i>
<i>from very charming to very angry.</i>

635
00:37:09,645 --> 00:37:13,357
<i>[interviewer] Did you ever see him</i>
<i>lose his temper in a way that was scary?</i>

636
00:37:14,858 --> 00:37:15,776
<i>Yes.</i>

637
00:37:18,821 --> 00:37:21,448
<i>With me, one time.</i>

638
00:37:25,494 --> 00:37:27,746
<i>[sighs] Can we stop for a second?</i>

639
00:37:28,247 --> 00:37:30,541
<i>Yeah. I just need a drink and…</i>

640
00:37:33,168 --> 00:37:37,089
<i>There were four times in four years</i>
<i>where I thought he was going to kill me.</i>

641
00:37:37,172 --> 00:37:40,884
<i>He was so incredibly violent to me</i>
<i>that I thought, "That's it."</i>

642
00:37:41,635 --> 00:37:44,138
<i>"He got me. This is going to be the time."</i>

643
00:37:44,221 --> 00:37:45,222
<i>[somber music plays]</i>

644
00:37:45,306 --> 00:37:48,600
<i>The first couple times was,</i>
<i>I was going to leave him,</i>

645
00:37:48,684 --> 00:37:50,436
<i>it was soon in the relationship.</i>

646
00:37:50,519 --> 00:37:53,522
<i>I wanted to leave. I didn't want</i>
<i>to be in the relationship anymore.</i>

647
00:37:54,106 --> 00:37:57,609
<i>[voice breaks] And he would beat me</i>
<i>or be violent with me.</i>

648
00:37:57,693 --> 00:38:00,529
<i>And it scared me into staying with him.</i>

649
00:38:00,612 --> 00:38:04,533
<i>Choked me to the point where I passed out,</i>

650
00:38:04,616 --> 00:38:08,162
<i>and one time,</i>
<i>he even bragged to his girlfriends</i>

651
00:38:08,245 --> 00:38:11,749
<i>that he broke</i>
<i>two of my ribs to shut me up.</i>

652
00:38:12,416 --> 00:38:13,751
<i>And it's true, he did.</i>

653
00:38:15,461 --> 00:38:18,047
<i>[Betsy] He didn't like to hit</i>
<i>because it'd leave a scar,</i>

654
00:38:18,130 --> 00:38:22,551
<i>so he used to strangle me</i>
<i>because it didn't leave a mark.</i>

655
00:38:22,634 --> 00:38:24,678
<i>[grim instrumental music plays]</i>

656
00:38:24,762 --> 00:38:29,350
<i>He got so mad at me when I got pregnant.</i>
<i>He said it was my fault.</i>

657
00:38:29,433 --> 00:38:31,310
<i>When I started giving birth,</i>

658
00:38:31,852 --> 00:38:36,023
<i>somebody tracked him down, and of course</i>
<i>he was with his girlfriend at the time,</i>

659
00:38:36,690 --> 00:38:39,485
<i>and so then,</i>
<i>while I'm still in labor, he calls.</i>

660
00:38:39,568 --> 00:38:43,530
<i>"Is it okay if I just don't show up?"</i>
<i>And I was like, "No!"</i>

661
00:38:44,615 --> 00:38:48,035
<i>So what he did was he actually came</i>
<i>and he laid on the bed next to me</i>

662
00:38:48,118 --> 00:38:50,120
<i>and slept while I was having a baby.</i>

663
00:38:51,538 --> 00:38:55,084
<i>[Betsy] Luckily, you're in so much pain</i>
<i>that you don't think about it too much,</i>

664
00:38:55,167 --> 00:38:57,669
<i>but yeah, it was sad, but…</i>

665
00:38:58,462 --> 00:39:01,673
<i>That whole thing about</i>
<i>what doesn't kill you makes you stronger?</i>

666
00:39:02,674 --> 00:39:03,634
<i>Well, guess what.</i>

667
00:39:03,717 --> 00:39:07,888
<i>There's not a whole lot of things</i>
<i>that will happen to me worse than that.</i>

668
00:39:07,971 --> 00:39:09,431
<i>So…</i>

669
00:39:10,224 --> 00:39:12,851
<i>[Betsy] As soon as the baby was born,</i>
<i>he was gone.</i>

670
00:39:12,935 --> 00:39:15,562
<i>He was back</i>
<i>on the road with his girlfriend.</i>

671
00:39:16,480 --> 00:39:18,357
<i>[insects chirping]</i>

672
00:39:18,440 --> 00:39:21,652
<i>[Sumati] I remember I was shocked</i>
<i>when "Brahmi" got pregnant.</i>

673
00:39:21,735 --> 00:39:22,820
<i>[birds chirping]</i>

674
00:39:22,903 --> 00:39:25,572
<i>[Sumati] He told me</i>
<i>he wasn't even sleeping with her.</i>

675
00:39:25,656 --> 00:39:27,366
<i>[somber sitar music plays]</i>

676
00:39:27,449 --> 00:39:29,576
<i>[Betsy] He used to tell Sumati,</i>

677
00:39:29,660 --> 00:39:33,997
<i>"I can do some kind of voodoo magic on you</i>
<i>and you'll never get pregnant."</i>

678
00:39:34,915 --> 00:39:39,086
<i>She believed he could put a spell on her</i>
<i>and she wouldn't get pregnant.</i>

679
00:39:39,169 --> 00:39:43,424
<i>But my daughter had just been born</i>
<i>and she was already showing.</i>

680
00:39:45,426 --> 00:39:48,512
<i>[Sumati] Right before</i>
<i>the Lotus Temple opened,</i>

681
00:39:48,595 --> 00:39:52,891
<i>I told Bhagavan</i>
<i>that I was pregnant with Tilakam.</i>

682
00:39:53,600 --> 00:39:56,186
<i>First he said it wasn't his child… [sighs]</i>

683
00:39:56,270 --> 00:39:58,647
<i>…and then he said</i>
<i>I needed to get an abortion,</i>

684
00:39:58,730 --> 00:40:00,691
<i>and he tried to guilt trip me into one.</i>

685
00:40:01,608 --> 00:40:03,610
<i>[Doc] </i>Tilakam's mom
was a crazy teenager

686
00:40:03,694 --> 00:40:07,406
<i>that, you know, I just happened to have</i>
<i>been hanging out with a little too long,</i>

687
00:40:07,489 --> 00:40:08,449
<i>and she got pregnant.</i>

688
00:40:08,532 --> 00:40:09,867
<i>I drug her ass</i>

689
00:40:09,950 --> 00:40:13,996
<i>to the Downtown Marriott in Washington DC,</i>
<i>and didn't follow through</i>

690
00:40:14,079 --> 00:40:16,457
<i>on the birth control</i>
<i>the way we were supposed to do it</i>

691
00:40:16,540 --> 00:40:18,167
<i>and, lo and behold, baby!</i>

692
00:40:19,001 --> 00:40:22,838
<i>[Sumati] I called Swami Satchidananda</i>
<i>and I finally confessed to him</i>

693
00:40:22,921 --> 00:40:27,426
<i>I'd been in a relationship with Bhagavan</i>
<i>for four years and I was pregnant.</i>

694
00:40:27,509 --> 00:40:28,594
<i>[somber music plays]</i>

695
00:40:29,178 --> 00:40:32,890
<i>He basically said,</i>
<i>"You're going to be a great mother."</i>

696
00:40:33,474 --> 00:40:37,269
<i>He said, "If Bhagavan will marry you,</i>
<i>he can stay in Yogaville."</i>

697
00:40:37,352 --> 00:40:41,273
<i>"If he continues with the women</i>
<i>like he is now, he's gonna have to leave."</i>

698
00:40:41,356 --> 00:40:47,321
<i>There was a family meeting</i>
<i>that was called to deal with this</i>

699
00:40:47,946 --> 00:40:50,199
<i>devastating news.</i>

700
00:40:50,282 --> 00:40:53,243
<i>And in the family meeting, they…</i>

701
00:40:54,578 --> 00:40:58,040
<i>were trying to blame the girls</i>

702
00:40:58,874 --> 00:41:02,503
<i>for their… wanton behavior.</i>

703
00:41:03,295 --> 00:41:06,340
<i>[Joan] My husband and I said, "Excuse me."</i>

704
00:41:07,799 --> 00:41:12,888
<i>"This is a man who was promoted</i>
<i>by our teacher as this great Yogi,</i>

705
00:41:12,971 --> 00:41:15,974
<i>and you're saying</i>
<i>the girls should not have trusted him?"</i>

706
00:41:16,058 --> 00:41:22,147
<i>"That doesn't seem reasonable.</i>
<i>It seems to me the bad guy is the adult."</i>

707
00:41:22,231 --> 00:41:23,857
<i>[tense music plays]</i>

708
00:41:23,941 --> 00:41:28,237
<i>[Sachi] There was a culture</i>
<i>of pointing the finger at women.</i>

709
00:41:29,196 --> 00:41:33,867
<i>We were </i>seducing<i> men,</i>
<i>that somehow it was our fault.</i>

710
00:41:34,493 --> 00:41:36,954
<i>All of a sudden, the community decided</i>

711
00:41:37,037 --> 00:41:42,292
<i>that every student, and parent,</i>
<i>and teacher involved in the school</i>

712
00:41:42,376 --> 00:41:44,711
<i>should sign a pledge.</i>

713
00:41:44,795 --> 00:41:47,130
<i>Basically saying that they won't date.</i>

714
00:41:47,965 --> 00:41:52,094
<i>[Sachi] And also there's something about</i>
<i>not questioning Swami Satchidananda.</i>

715
00:41:52,928 --> 00:41:55,305
<i>We felt like we were being punished.</i>

716
00:41:55,389 --> 00:41:58,809
<i>We needed to just cover up, shut up.</i>

717
00:41:59,393 --> 00:42:02,563
<i>Get permission to do… anything.</i>

718
00:42:03,480 --> 00:42:07,317
<i>People of the opposite sex would not</i>
<i>be in the same room together alone.</i>

719
00:42:08,110 --> 00:42:12,739
<i>And if a parent, a child, or a teacher</i>
<i>was unwilling to sign the pledge,</i>

720
00:42:12,823 --> 00:42:15,117
<i>they couldn't attend</i>
<i>or teach at the school.</i>

721
00:42:18,704 --> 00:42:20,998
<i>I didn't want to sign it.</i>

722
00:42:21,081 --> 00:42:23,792
<i>When I spoke out, the community</i>

723
00:42:25,544 --> 00:42:26,712
<i>asked me to leave.</i>

724
00:42:27,963 --> 00:42:32,092
<i>[Sachi] Swami Satchidananda</i>
<i>told me directly.</i>

725
00:42:32,175 --> 00:42:33,927
<i>He was like, "You're a rotten apple."</i>

726
00:42:34,595 --> 00:42:39,391
<i>"You're going to make the other shiny,</i>
<i>bright apples rotten, too."</i>

727
00:42:42,686 --> 00:42:46,982
<i>[Sachi] Being excommunicated</i>
<i>and shunned was painful.</i>

728
00:42:47,691 --> 00:42:52,738
<i>My whole world was Yogaville.</i>
<i>I didn't know anything else.</i>

729
00:42:52,821 --> 00:42:55,699
<i>Yogaville failed our kids</i>

730
00:42:56,199 --> 00:42:59,911
<i>by not taking a stand.</i>

731
00:42:59,995 --> 00:43:01,955
<i>By the time I got pregnant,</i>

732
00:43:02,039 --> 00:43:06,168
<i>he was already in a relationship</i>
<i>with another 14-year-old.</i>

733
00:43:06,251 --> 00:43:08,795
<i>Once you've married a 14-year-old…</i>
<i>[scoffs]</i>

734
00:43:09,338 --> 00:43:11,923
<i>…what could possibly…</i>

735
00:43:13,884 --> 00:43:15,177
<i>hold you back?</i>

736
00:43:15,260 --> 00:43:17,804
<i>[cryptic music plays]</i>

737
00:43:17,888 --> 00:43:20,015
<i>[Radha Hirsch] Never in a million years</i>

738
00:43:20,098 --> 00:43:25,812
<i>did I ever think I would be sharing</i>
<i>this story publicly. [laughs]</i>

739
00:43:28,315 --> 00:43:34,071
<i>When I hear myself,</i>
<i>I'm like, "Wow, it is pretty crazy."</i>

740
00:43:34,905 --> 00:43:38,492
<i>I was 14 and he was 25.</i>

741
00:43:39,618 --> 00:43:45,123
<i>My mom was wanting me to realize</i>
<i>how inappropriate the situation was.</i>

742
00:43:45,207 --> 00:43:47,250
<i>And I remember him saying,</i>

743
00:43:47,334 --> 00:43:51,380
<i>"Don't worry, we're going to deal with it.</i>
<i>It's all going to work out."</i>

744
00:43:51,463 --> 00:43:53,423
<i>"Don't worry. We're going to be together."</i>

745
00:43:53,965 --> 00:43:57,010
<i>Bhagavan and I were talking on the phone</i>

746
00:43:57,094 --> 00:44:02,349
<i>and he wanted me to give him</i>
<i>very specifically my route to school.</i>

747
00:44:03,141 --> 00:44:08,271
<i>We went over it and over it,</i>
<i>and he came and pulled up next to me</i>

748
00:44:08,355 --> 00:44:10,232
<i>in a disguise of some sort.</i>

749
00:44:10,315 --> 00:44:15,195
<i>He looked bizarre, like all the hair</i>
<i>up in a hat and like, crazy funky glasses.</i>

750
00:44:15,278 --> 00:44:21,410
<i>And I jump in the car,</i>
<i>I dumped my book bags in a dumpster</i>

751
00:44:21,493 --> 00:44:22,869
<i>and we flew off.</i>

752
00:44:23,704 --> 00:44:27,499
<i>In my mind, I ran away, yes,</i>
<i>but I still, kind of, wasn't thinking</i>

753
00:44:27,582 --> 00:44:29,584
<i>that it was really an abduction.</i>

754
00:44:29,668 --> 00:44:31,712
<i>[sirens wailing]</i>

755
00:44:31,795 --> 00:44:33,046
<i>[music crescendos]</i>

756
00:44:34,423 --> 00:44:38,427
<i>[closing theme music playing]</i>