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米雅?

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米雅?

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感覺如何?

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很好

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我一直都很好

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我都有遵循飲食計畫,一天天進步...

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就這樣

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那妳的家人呢?

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我知道...

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波藍柯家裡狀況這陣子變動很大

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對,我們有在處理,要撐過這陣子

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那朋友呢?

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他媽的

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很棒

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對,他們都很好

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{\an8}米雅,妳說我們認識多久了?

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{\an8}不知道,很久吧

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{\an8}妳想妳能對我說實話嗎?

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{\an8}可以啊

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{\an8}那麼好吧

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{\an8}米雅

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感覺如何?

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很棒

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《青春進行中》

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你們知道該怎麼做
精力充沛,笑容燦爛

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我在看著你,馬丁

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怎樣?

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這些老人家不常出門

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所以我們的工作是替他們振奮精神
但不能讓血壓升高

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桌遊、玩牌,還有最重要的茶

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喝很多茶

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好嗎?

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振作點,這些90歲的人比你們有精神

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各位早安,誰準備好玩賓果?

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你們遲到了

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還是妳來早了?

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我不敢相信我的星期天

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要和倫敦大火的倖存者一起度過

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完全是你的錯,誰叫你拖到最後一刻

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才申請社區服務

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她在這嗎?

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我整個星期都沒看到她

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自從卡莉門案之後,她就不回訊息

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我也是

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她對我們搞失蹤

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她這陣子很難受

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她很難搞

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-妳要去哪裡?
-不知道

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嗆她!

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好,我負責賓果

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這是最讓我不想去找砒霜的活動

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嘿

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妳以為他們會有更好的刊物

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對啊,好像我們不需要分心似的

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沒錯

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我女兒在這裡待了一陣子

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大約兩個月前,她轉到門診部

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這樣對她很好啊,對妳和每個人都好

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謝謝

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-妳是來看小孩的嗎?
-他準備好了

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失陪了

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嘿

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妳是珍娜的媽媽吧?

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卡蘿

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米雅

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嗨

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聽說她出院了,她好嗎?

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她盡力了

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沒有人能說她沒盡力

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她會希望大家明白她盡力了

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外面對她來說太難承受了

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請節哀順變

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我想去跳傘

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在科羅拉多河泛舟

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也許去高空彈跳,或是坐熱氣球

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聽起來好昂貴,還有可能致命

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這是妳的清單,我只是在幫妳

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好,還有什麼?

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我說過了,妳要自己寫一份

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但我就是喜歡開妳玩笑...

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坐摩天輪,真的假的?

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那很無聊,珍娜

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米雅,妳朋友的事我很遺憾

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如果妳想聊聊任何...

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-他們叫我們不要聯絡
-為什麼不呢?

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那可能會讓我們想起那些不好的回憶

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讓病情變得更糟

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不過到最後都無所謂了...

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親愛的

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別忘了十一點的點心

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好

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謝了

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如果妳想聊聊,我...

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我要去洗澡,我聞起來像醫院

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好

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媽

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妳在做什麼?

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妳為什麼一直這樣對我們?

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顯然有事情不對勁...

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對不起,但我幫不了妳

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我不能眼睜睜看著妳變成妳朋友那樣

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米雅...

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妳必須回去醫院

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妳得去見奈爾醫生

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我去拿垃圾袋,我們一起打給他

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然後訂出計畫

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米雅?

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米雅!

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妳好嗎?

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一週以來第一次沒有哭著醒來

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但我們都喜歡人格發展...

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妳今天不必來這裡

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妳想見到她嗎?

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你不想嗎?

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不

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她不會來的

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為什麼?

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因為米雅是個孬種

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至少她不會看到我這樣

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怎樣?

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聽著,妳還是艾莉森,妳知道嗎?

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我還是會怕妳

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(媽:妳在哪?)

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(我要打給妳爸)

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嘿

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很抱歉我沒跟妳聯繫

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妳和其他人都是

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沒人要跟我說話

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我也有很多事要做

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卡莉,我們離開這裡吧

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-什麼?
-我們可以離開

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一整天做任何想做的事

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-米雅
-來吧,卡莉...

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妳難道沒有想過把手機丟到窗外

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消失得無影無蹤嗎?

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我們可以完成這份清單

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管其他人去死

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卡莉

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等妳整理完,我要妳清理後面

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有小孩吐得到處都是

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我得工作

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這樣吧,沒關係
妳知道我們能做什麼?

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我們可以...

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把這些丟掉,像這樣...

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走啦

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跟我出去,拜託,卡莉

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拜託

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各位,打起精神,或學我垂頭喪氣

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我很好,69號

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讓我走吧,拜託,我會永遠虧欠妳

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你早就虧欠我了

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樂趣十足,耐用好操,41號

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米雅媽媽?

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-她這週怎麼樣?
-這週假期我都沒見到她

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我們都沒有

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又發生了

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我甚至不知道我看著這件事發生

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妳太大驚小怪了

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因為她知道如果我們都擔心她

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我們就會忘記她做過的事,又是這樣

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卡麥倫

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她整個星期都沒吃東西

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-我要去找她
-好,我陪妳去

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我以為你不想見到她

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-對,這跟她無關
-我們可以去音樂亭

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-或是滑板公園
-或是卡莉

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顯然她會去找她

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-如果能找到卡莉,就能找到米雅
-好,但我不該離開

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我會留下來

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總要有人顧好這群野貓

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我也直接轉到語音信箱

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我不明白怎麼會發生這種事

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吃飯的時候,妳應該坐在她旁邊

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妳應該看著她吃飯
妳看過我這麼做很多次

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我留下的說明很清楚...

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你離開了

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你離開了我們

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如果要怪任何人...

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你怎麼敢怪在我頭上?

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明明是你忙著交新女友
沒時間理會這個家

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妳想知道我在哪認識她嗎?

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醫院的家長互助協會

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妳從來不去的那個

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我要再打給米雅

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這就是為什麼不能跟

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在停車場賣混音帶的人回家

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我說得對不對?

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好,34,34號

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三跟四,34號

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席奧梅森

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能請你準備茶水嗎?

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00:14:30,363 --> 00:14:31,443
這是我的榮幸

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那麼...

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有人喜歡邪教嗎?

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貝卡怎麼走了?這是她要負責的

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我知道,米雅有事,但她會回來的

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下個號碼是11號公車

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什麼意思?她沒事吧?

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沒事,不會有事的,小題大作而已

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11號公車

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威爾,告訴我

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她沒吃東西,沒人知道她在哪裡

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-但沒關係
-你是認真的嗎?

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不是,但沒關係,我們都很好

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全都很好,17號,美妙的17號

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對,聽起來很美妙

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像往常一樣成熟,威爾

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好了,快醒醒,各位

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碧翠絲,對,睜開雙眼

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誰準備好享受真正的樂趣?

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來喝酒,聽音樂

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禁酒令早就過時了,好不好?

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好

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嗨,請問你有看到卡莉嗎?

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她在這裡工作

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那是過去式了,她值班到一半就走了

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好吧,她有跟任何人在一起嗎?

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一個女生?

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有,她們拿著一張紙嘻嘻笑笑的

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願望清單

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接著我就少了一位補貨人員

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好,很好

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謝謝,蓋瑞斯

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起司男

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你是起司男?

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你說什麼?

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我就說吧

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媽的

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(紋身)

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(嗨茫)

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這樣安全嗎?

232
00:16:43,083 --> 00:16:44,363
不要往下看

233
00:16:44,883 --> 00:16:47,443
我感覺不太好,很不舒服

234
00:16:52,803 --> 00:16:54,923
(塗鴉)

235
00:17:06,403 --> 00:17:08,163
妳在煩惱什麼,親愛的?

236
00:17:09,203 --> 00:17:11,483
我看得出來妳心碎了

237
00:17:24,763 --> 00:17:28,163
清單上還有什麼?
我們讀過一百萬遍了

238
00:17:28,163 --> 00:17:29,443
在商店偷東西?

239
00:17:29,443 --> 00:17:31,643
對,這能把範圍縮小到某家商店

240
00:17:31,643 --> 00:17:33,923
-這不好笑,小卡
-我知道

241
00:17:33,923 --> 00:17:36,003
不,我想你不知道

242
00:17:36,883 --> 00:17:38,563
這都是我的錯

243
00:17:39,243 --> 00:17:43,643
她整個星期都沒有回訊息
我以為她需要空間

244
00:17:43,643 --> 00:17:44,683
像我們一樣

245
00:17:47,563 --> 00:17:49,083
我真是個糟糕的朋友

246
00:17:49,963 --> 00:17:50,843
不

247
00:17:51,563 --> 00:17:53,363
這不是妳的錯

248
00:17:53,363 --> 00:17:56,683
她毀了自己的人生
我們不能老是責怪自己

249
00:17:56,683 --> 00:17:59,363
妳擅長解決問題,總會讓一切好起來

250
00:17:59,363 --> 00:18:00,923
妳誠實又忠心...

251
00:18:00,923 --> 00:18:02,243
我墮胎了

252
00:18:09,963 --> 00:18:11,123
我沒跟你說

253
00:18:21,403 --> 00:18:22,243
什麼時候?

254
00:18:24,723 --> 00:18:25,923
一個多月前

255
00:18:26,563 --> 00:18:29,363
就在我們分手之後

256
00:18:32,003 --> 00:18:32,883
這...

257
00:18:33,803 --> 00:18:35,603
妳還好嗎?

258
00:18:37,283 --> 00:18:38,163
我很好

259
00:18:39,203 --> 00:18:40,563
我當時也是

260
00:18:41,363 --> 00:18:42,363
還過得去

261
00:18:46,083 --> 00:18:47,563
真希望妳有跟我說

262
00:18:48,363 --> 00:18:49,403
對不起我沒有...

263
00:18:49,403 --> 00:18:51,523
不,我不是那個意思

264
00:18:51,523 --> 00:18:52,523
別道歉

265
00:18:54,043 --> 00:18:55,163
我的意思是...

266
00:18:57,003 --> 00:19:00,243
我希望我能讓妳覺得妳能信任我

267
00:19:03,883 --> 00:19:05,403
好吧...

268
00:19:06,163 --> 00:19:07,363
已經過去了

269
00:19:10,363 --> 00:19:12,003
繼續去找米雅

270
00:19:13,363 --> 00:19:15,363
妳知道最糟的是什麼嗎?

271
00:19:15,963 --> 00:19:19,363
現在她根本沒想到她對我傷害有多深

272
00:19:20,163 --> 00:19:22,483
她正跟心儀的女孩到處亂跑

273
00:19:24,043 --> 00:19:25,923
雖然她傷了我的心

274
00:19:26,803 --> 00:19:28,723
我卻不能生她的氣,因為...

275
00:19:29,363 --> 00:19:30,283
她病了

276
00:19:30,883 --> 00:19:31,843
然後...

277
00:19:32,403 --> 00:19:34,963
每個人都要我向前看,放下她

278
00:19:34,963 --> 00:19:36,043
妳應該要放下

279
00:19:37,363 --> 00:19:39,603
我這一生活得漫長且豐富

280
00:19:39,603 --> 00:19:42,243
若要說我學到了什麼

281
00:19:42,243 --> 00:19:44,003
那就是原諒固然重要

282
00:19:44,683 --> 00:19:47,163
但原諒是要爭取來的

283
00:19:47,163 --> 00:19:48,683
如果沒有的話...

284
00:19:51,043 --> 00:19:52,883
向前看吧,艾莉森

285
00:19:53,603 --> 00:19:56,003
把她忘得一乾二凈

286
00:20:02,723 --> 00:20:04,843
(有消息嗎,貝卡?)

287
00:20:04,843 --> 00:20:08,483
那個年輕人整個下午都在盯著你看
去跟你男朋友聊聊

288
00:20:10,603 --> 00:20:12,763
他不是我男朋友,伊凡,閉嘴

289
00:20:12,763 --> 00:20:14,003
他應該要是

290
00:20:14,643 --> 00:20:17,443
我在你這個年紀,絕對不會讓他溜走

291
00:20:22,043 --> 00:20:25,003
摩天輪為什麼在妳的清單上?

292
00:20:25,003 --> 00:20:26,563
那在別人的清單上

293
00:20:29,323 --> 00:20:30,683
好,42號

294
00:20:32,883 --> 00:20:33,963
42號

295
00:20:42,123 --> 00:20:42,963
米雅

296
00:20:43,643 --> 00:20:44,643
不要

297
00:20:45,283 --> 00:20:46,643
拜託,不要

298
00:21:20,523 --> 00:21:21,923
我順便買了妳的份

299
00:21:22,523 --> 00:21:25,483
別這麼客氣,我真的不餓

300
00:21:26,003 --> 00:21:28,443
我們今天還沒吃東西,快五點了

301
00:21:28,443 --> 00:21:32,203
妳知道我們接下來該怎麼做嗎?
我們應該離開倫敦

302
00:21:32,203 --> 00:21:34,003
坐上火車去任何地方

303
00:21:34,003 --> 00:21:36,363
去曼徹斯特看看妳以前常去的地方

304
00:21:36,363 --> 00:21:39,323
-米雅!
-我只想有個美好的一天,卡莉

305
00:21:39,323 --> 00:21:42,003
-我們可以完成清單
-為什麼要今天完成?

306
00:21:42,003 --> 00:21:43,403
妳急什麼?

307
00:21:45,403 --> 00:21:47,243
妳幹嘛這麼無聊?

308
00:21:47,923 --> 00:21:50,563
如果妳不想做,我就自己來

309
00:21:51,043 --> 00:21:53,123
-以後日子還很多
-真的嗎?

310
00:21:53,123 --> 00:21:56,443
妳知道厭食症平均恢復期有多久嗎?

311
00:21:58,283 --> 00:21:59,323
七年

312
00:22:00,363 --> 00:22:03,283
我剩七年可以努力、擔心、搞砸

313
00:22:03,283 --> 00:22:04,603
如果我幸運的話

314
00:22:05,163 --> 00:22:07,923
甚至不到一半的人能活那麼久

315
00:22:07,923 --> 00:22:10,003
我值得有一天

316
00:22:10,523 --> 00:22:12,763
有一天自由,卡莉

317
00:22:13,803 --> 00:22:17,123
我朋友過世了,她比我堅強

318
00:22:17,123 --> 00:22:19,643
如果連她都應付不來
我還有什麼機會?

319
00:22:24,683 --> 00:22:25,643
完全沒有

320
00:22:27,443 --> 00:22:29,163
如果妳繼續逃避的話

321
00:22:42,443 --> 00:22:43,483
對不起

322
00:23:06,763 --> 00:23:08,003
我好害怕

323
00:23:13,283 --> 00:23:15,243
我們會找到她,讓她接受治療

324
00:23:15,243 --> 00:23:16,563
我不是說那件事

325
00:23:19,083 --> 00:23:20,123
我一直都很害怕

326
00:23:22,363 --> 00:23:24,923
她出生後,我總是手足無措

327
00:23:27,403 --> 00:23:28,323
我也是

328
00:23:32,843 --> 00:23:35,403
說真的,我這一路上邊做邊學

329
00:23:38,683 --> 00:23:39,523
說不定...

330
00:23:41,283 --> 00:23:42,683
一起害怕...

331
00:23:47,163 --> 00:23:48,723
會更輕鬆

332
00:24:09,323 --> 00:24:12,083
我實在想不透

333
00:24:12,883 --> 00:24:15,843
我有按時間吃東西,也有吃藥

334
00:24:15,843 --> 00:24:19,403
我有來看你,我做了所有正確的事

335
00:24:19,403 --> 00:24:22,163
但我還是覺得跟以前沒兩樣

336
00:24:22,683 --> 00:24:26,283
做我並不容易,早上起床也不容易

337
00:24:26,283 --> 00:24:30,043
我現在連嘗試都做不到了

338
00:24:30,043 --> 00:24:32,843
如今我又回到了原點

339
00:24:32,843 --> 00:24:36,163
甚至更糟,因為我知道沒有出路...

340
00:24:38,083 --> 00:24:39,763
我好孤單

341
00:24:42,163 --> 00:24:45,163
我很努力了,但我無法與人建立關係

342
00:24:45,163 --> 00:24:46,963
我不明白為什麼

343
00:24:46,963 --> 00:24:52,643
那是因為厭食症時時刻刻伴隨著妳

344
00:24:53,363 --> 00:24:57,923
這表示妳從來沒有
獨自面對痛苦的想法

345
00:25:01,043 --> 00:25:06,083
妳一直在挽留一位
從來都不是真正朋友的朋友

346
00:25:07,683 --> 00:25:10,323
但這不代表妳的悲傷不是真的

347
00:25:17,883 --> 00:25:19,203
你知道我發現...

348
00:25:21,403 --> 00:25:23,163
珍娜去世有什麼感受嗎?

349
00:25:24,003 --> 00:25:25,163
說吧

350
00:25:25,163 --> 00:25:26,363
第一個念頭

351
00:25:30,083 --> 00:25:31,203
我沒哭

352
00:25:32,163 --> 00:25:34,003
也沒有大喊大叫

353
00:25:38,043 --> 00:25:39,883
我只是覺得她贏了

354
00:25:42,123 --> 00:25:44,883
她贏過我了

355
00:25:44,883 --> 00:25:48,403
因為她的病把她帶到我沒去過的地方

356
00:25:50,163 --> 00:25:51,043
因為...

357
00:25:52,123 --> 00:25:56,283
她不需要康復,而我需要

358
00:25:58,243 --> 00:26:02,723
這是我聽到朋友去世的第一個念頭

359
00:26:06,723 --> 00:26:08,523
我為妳感到驕傲

360
00:26:08,523 --> 00:26:09,963
什麼?驕傲?我說了...

361
00:26:09,963 --> 00:26:12,363
我知道妳說了什麼,但我也知道

362
00:26:12,363 --> 00:26:15,483
妳的疾病會隨著緘默變本加厲

363
00:26:15,963 --> 00:26:21,603
妳內心的厭食症聲音
仰賴著妳的羞恥感生存

364
00:26:21,603 --> 00:26:23,043
妳今天做了什麼?

365
00:26:23,523 --> 00:26:25,003
妳很誠實

366
00:26:25,003 --> 00:26:26,683
妳尋求幫助

367
00:26:26,683 --> 00:26:29,363
這兩件事是妳一年前絕對不會做的

368
00:26:30,763 --> 00:26:32,683
妳不一樣了

369
00:26:37,443 --> 00:26:38,643
嘿

370
00:26:40,563 --> 00:26:42,523
妳確實不一樣了

371
00:26:42,523 --> 00:26:45,963
我會不停告訴妳,直到妳相信為止

372
00:26:53,203 --> 00:26:54,363
(貝卡:卡莉打來)

373
00:26:54,363 --> 00:26:55,523
他在看手機

374
00:26:55,523 --> 00:27:01,243
(她和米雅在一起,她沒事)

375
00:27:01,923 --> 00:27:02,963
我需要一點時間

376
00:27:10,443 --> 00:27:11,483
威爾

377
00:27:17,403 --> 00:27:18,443
怎麼了?

378
00:27:21,803 --> 00:27:24,443
對不起,我真的做不到

379
00:27:24,443 --> 00:27:26,123
-沒關係
-不,這有關係

380
00:27:26,123 --> 00:27:28,163
這很重要,因為...

381
00:27:29,203 --> 00:27:32,123
這情況好幾年了,我從來沒注意到

382
00:27:32,123 --> 00:27:36,043
我總是忙著逗大家笑

383
00:27:36,923 --> 00:27:39,883
她不需要笑,她需要的是朋友

384
00:27:39,883 --> 00:27:43,003
和聽她說話的人,我沒有

385
00:27:43,803 --> 00:27:45,243
我做不到

386
00:27:50,283 --> 00:27:51,483
對不起,我...

387
00:27:52,323 --> 00:27:54,043
我很可悲,我看起來糟透了

388
00:27:54,043 --> 00:27:56,323
不,別這麼想,威爾

389
00:27:58,083 --> 00:28:00,603
你可以感受負面的情緒,知道嗎?

390
00:28:01,203 --> 00:28:02,683
你也可以跟我說啊

391
00:28:03,443 --> 00:28:05,203
就像你在浴缸裡那樣

392
00:28:06,563 --> 00:28:11,123
不,浴缸威爾喝醉了又愛哭

393
00:28:11,123 --> 00:28:13,043
而且他很無聊

394
00:28:13,043 --> 00:28:15,483
對,我喜歡浴缸威爾

395
00:28:16,883 --> 00:28:17,923
他很真誠

396
00:28:21,483 --> 00:28:22,723
他喜歡你

397
00:28:24,443 --> 00:28:25,363
非常喜歡

398
00:28:27,763 --> 00:28:28,643
是嗎?

399
00:28:30,763 --> 00:28:33,643
-你會稱之為意亂情迷嗎?
-天啊

400
00:28:35,003 --> 00:28:37,483
對,我很抱歉我這麼說...

401
00:28:38,203 --> 00:28:40,403
我不是故意的

402
00:28:41,963 --> 00:28:44,723
因為你很重要,我只是...

403
00:28:45,283 --> 00:28:47,643
我不知道該如何說出你有多重要

404
00:28:47,643 --> 00:28:49,243
一時情急之下...

405
00:28:56,763 --> 00:28:59,683
因為在乎而感到害怕沒關係的

406
00:29:00,403 --> 00:29:02,603
說出來吧

407
00:29:03,723 --> 00:29:04,683
全說出來

408
00:29:06,363 --> 00:29:07,363
來

409
00:29:36,763 --> 00:29:37,763
妳還好嗎?

410
00:29:40,123 --> 00:29:41,283
真的很對不起

411
00:29:42,123 --> 00:29:43,083
親愛的

412
00:29:45,723 --> 00:29:47,723
我只關心妳是否沒事

413
00:29:58,803 --> 00:30:00,083
我很想見妳

414
00:30:02,083 --> 00:30:07,283
等妳準備好了
就跟艾力克斯來玩拼字遊戲跟看電影

415
00:30:08,763 --> 00:30:10,403
好啊

416
00:30:10,403 --> 00:30:11,363
好

417
00:30:12,363 --> 00:30:13,243
好吧

418
00:30:14,603 --> 00:30:15,443
靠

419
00:30:15,443 --> 00:30:17,323
抱歉,我的計程車來了

420
00:30:19,323 --> 00:30:21,163
我可以留下來

421
00:30:21,163 --> 00:30:22,243
不,我很好

422
00:30:23,083 --> 00:30:24,083
爸,我保證

423
00:30:26,723 --> 00:30:28,083
我們再約時間玩拼字遊戲

424
00:30:29,563 --> 00:30:30,723
我好想你們

425
00:30:38,163 --> 00:30:39,203
過來

426
00:30:41,283 --> 00:30:42,803
我很抱歉

427
00:30:42,803 --> 00:30:43,803
沒關係

428
00:30:56,523 --> 00:30:57,363
好了

429
00:30:58,483 --> 00:30:59,363
要走了嗎?

430
00:31:20,523 --> 00:31:21,563
她...

431
00:31:24,323 --> 00:31:25,283
她沒事

432
00:31:35,603 --> 00:31:38,163
至少我們知道她跟關心她的人在一起

433
00:31:41,763 --> 00:31:43,483
卡莉的事我很抱歉

434
00:31:44,083 --> 00:31:45,003
你似乎...

435
00:31:46,443 --> 00:31:48,163
你一定很喜歡她

436
00:31:50,843 --> 00:31:51,843
我不知道

437
00:31:53,843 --> 00:31:55,363
我想是我的錯

438
00:31:55,963 --> 00:31:56,803
某些部分吧

439
00:31:57,843 --> 00:31:59,523
我和卡莉...

440
00:32:00,443 --> 00:32:01,843
並不合適

441
00:32:04,923 --> 00:32:05,923
為什麼?

442
00:32:11,843 --> 00:32:13,363
前台為什麼打給我?

443
00:32:20,243 --> 00:32:21,283
跳起來

444
00:32:21,283 --> 00:32:23,563
嘿!

445
00:32:23,563 --> 00:32:24,603
一起跳!

446
00:32:31,763 --> 00:32:32,683
跟著節奏

447
00:32:33,203 --> 00:32:34,443
來吧!

448
00:33:07,763 --> 00:33:10,723
這幾個月來,我一直給他們玩桌遊

449
00:33:10,723 --> 00:33:12,883
他們想要的卻是白蘭地

450
00:33:14,323 --> 00:33:15,563
難怪他們討厭我

451
00:33:17,083 --> 00:33:18,723
怎麼會有人討厭妳?

452
00:33:24,523 --> 00:33:25,483
我愛妳

453
00:33:27,723 --> 00:33:29,003
是真的

454
00:33:29,563 --> 00:33:31,923
妳想怎麼解讀那句話都行

455
00:33:33,003 --> 00:33:35,283
妳要我做什麼,我都會去做

456
00:33:37,083 --> 00:33:38,683
我可以當朋友...

457
00:33:40,443 --> 00:33:41,363
或不只是朋友

458
00:33:44,563 --> 00:33:45,403
嘿,寶貝

459
00:33:46,003 --> 00:33:46,843
要走了嗎?

460
00:33:47,883 --> 00:33:49,163
好啊

461
00:33:54,043 --> 00:33:55,123
掰,小卡

462
00:34:09,563 --> 00:34:11,603
愛最糟糕了,對吧?

463
00:34:19,083 --> 00:34:21,083
妳想喝到爛醉嗎?

464
00:34:23,203 --> 00:34:24,043
好啊

465
00:34:35,563 --> 00:34:39,563
坦白說,高麗菜的數量也太可觀了吧

466
00:34:42,203 --> 00:34:43,083
妳好嗎?

467
00:34:44,203 --> 00:34:46,883
比之前好多了

468
00:34:49,243 --> 00:34:50,923
我想我會...

469
00:34:51,963 --> 00:34:53,723
-康復?
-對

470
00:34:59,323 --> 00:35:02,123
我知道情況變得...

471
00:35:05,043 --> 00:35:06,323
我很抱歉

472
00:35:07,083 --> 00:35:08,123
我知道

473
00:35:11,083 --> 00:35:12,803
我認識妳的時候

474
00:35:12,803 --> 00:35:17,563
那是我第一次感受到
比這疾病更強烈的感覺

475
00:35:19,683 --> 00:35:25,603
那讓我每天都想起床繼續前進...

476
00:35:29,403 --> 00:35:33,123
對妳的盼望讓一切變得更美好

477
00:35:39,763 --> 00:35:41,563
妳不知道

478
00:35:42,683 --> 00:35:46,963
我花了多少年拯救不讓我救的人

479
00:35:47,643 --> 00:35:48,523
米雅

480
00:35:49,443 --> 00:35:50,683
我救不了妳

481
00:35:50,683 --> 00:35:53,643
我知道,我也不要妳救我...

482
00:35:53,643 --> 00:35:55,883
我們可以想辦法解決,然後...

483
00:35:55,883 --> 00:35:56,843
嘿

484
00:36:01,843 --> 00:36:02,843
不行

485
00:36:05,363 --> 00:36:08,683
直到我們學會

486
00:36:09,563 --> 00:36:11,763
不將彼此視為幻想中的人

487
00:36:12,603 --> 00:36:14,443
不當作另一個慰藉

488
00:36:19,123 --> 00:36:20,203
我得工作了

489
00:36:25,083 --> 00:36:26,683
人們需要高麗菜

490
00:37:13,723 --> 00:37:18,883
(艾莉森:他媽的
不敢相信我們昨晚做了什麼)

491
00:37:45,043 --> 00:37:46,563
沒想到你會來

492
00:37:48,003 --> 00:37:49,363
我也是

493
00:38:05,923 --> 00:38:09,283
我記得我國一第一次見到貝卡

494
00:38:10,683 --> 00:38:13,523
我當時覺得她是我見過最酷的女生

495
00:38:14,963 --> 00:38:16,843
我第一次見到威爾時

496
00:38:16,843 --> 00:38:19,763
差點笑到尿出來

497
00:38:25,523 --> 00:38:28,083
可是我不記得認識你的時候

498
00:38:29,803 --> 00:38:30,683
你知道嗎?

499
00:38:32,603 --> 00:38:36,483
因為我不記得
你有什麼時候不在我身邊

500
00:38:37,483 --> 00:38:40,803
無論我們在哪裡,我都有歸屬感

501
00:38:43,243 --> 00:38:44,483
就像回到家那樣

502
00:38:47,323 --> 00:38:49,963
要不是你做了那件事

503
00:38:51,243 --> 00:38:53,443
我也不會活到今天

504
00:38:57,483 --> 00:38:59,803
你救了我,小卡

505
00:39:03,123 --> 00:39:04,483
我真的很幸運

506
00:39:10,563 --> 00:39:12,083
妳也是我的家,米雅

507
00:39:24,323 --> 00:39:26,443
對不起,我沒有陪在你身邊

508
00:39:28,803 --> 00:39:29,723
你還好嗎?

509
00:39:33,563 --> 00:39:34,883
我很好

510
00:39:36,123 --> 00:39:38,803
這畫面看起來是不是很有趣?

511
00:39:40,563 --> 00:39:41,883
來吧,肖申克

512
00:39:43,963 --> 00:39:46,203
感謝妳大駕光臨

513
00:40:03,123 --> 00:40:06,843
我開始意識到我讓你們受了多少委屈

514
00:40:08,163 --> 00:40:12,323
我也知道我不是個好相處的朋友

515
00:40:12,923 --> 00:40:14,803
我們不會因為妳不完美而生氣

516
00:40:15,283 --> 00:40:16,483
我們不該是完美的

517
00:40:17,203 --> 00:40:18,483
我們要互相接納

518
00:40:19,163 --> 00:40:20,283
包容彼此的缺點

519
00:40:22,643 --> 00:40:23,643
就像疣那樣

520
00:40:24,403 --> 00:40:27,003
週六切除,週日丟進垃圾桶

521
00:40:27,003 --> 00:40:28,883
-就這樣,別管它
-真噁心

522
00:40:28,883 --> 00:40:31,283
我想讓你們知道我會付出努力

523
00:40:32,083 --> 00:40:33,363
我會好起來的

524
00:40:33,363 --> 00:40:35,963
我們沒有給妳其他選擇

525
00:40:45,163 --> 00:40:46,643
妳跟艾莉森怎麼樣?

526
00:40:49,483 --> 00:40:53,323
我寫了一封信給她,但還沒收到回覆

527
00:40:58,283 --> 00:41:00,043
再給她一點時間

528
00:41:04,923 --> 00:41:06,323
現在難過的事結束了

529
00:41:06,323 --> 00:41:07,883
我們要怎麼消磨時間?

530
00:41:07,883 --> 00:41:09,843
妳要跟喬納去約會嗎?

531
00:41:10,403 --> 00:41:12,363
其實我們沒在一起了

532
00:41:16,043 --> 00:41:19,043
有疑問的時候,就看看清單吧

533
00:41:19,043 --> 00:41:21,283
-還剩什麼?
-清單上還有什麼?

534
00:41:21,283 --> 00:41:24,403
-把該死的清單丟掉
-對,把它燒掉

535
00:41:24,403 --> 00:41:27,923
不,我提議我們一起列張新的
屬於我們的清單

536
00:41:27,923 --> 00:41:29,923
第一,為威爾辦派對

537
00:41:31,203 --> 00:41:33,603
- 53天後是我的生日
-好

538
00:41:33,603 --> 00:41:34,643
去南部?

539
00:41:34,643 --> 00:41:37,443
才不要,我們去度假吧

540
00:41:37,443 --> 00:41:39,683
-去希臘如何?
-或是當背包客

541
00:41:39,683 --> 00:41:42,123
不好意思
你能想像我住青年旅館嗎?

542
00:41:42,123 --> 00:41:44,123
我知道你們會要我安排行程

543
00:41:44,123 --> 00:41:46,003
好了,我寫完了

544
00:41:46,003 --> 00:41:47,643
好,來看看

545
00:41:50,883 --> 00:41:53,243
-什麼?在餐廳吃飯?
-最好是義大利餐廳

546
00:41:53,243 --> 00:41:54,523
家庭遊戲之夜?

547
00:41:54,523 --> 00:41:56,043
-珍娜!
-怎麼了?

548
00:41:56,043 --> 00:41:58,123
這應該要讓人嚮往才對

549
00:41:58,123 --> 00:42:00,763
這是任何人都做得到的事

550
00:42:01,443 --> 00:42:02,803
不,不是任何人

551
00:42:03,923 --> 00:42:05,363
我跟妳還做不到

552
00:42:06,043 --> 00:42:09,043
我希望能康復到每天能起得來

553
00:42:09,043 --> 00:42:11,603
做讓自己開心的事

554
00:42:12,563 --> 00:42:15,083
即使是小事,尤其是小事

555
00:42:16,083 --> 00:42:19,603
像是騎腳踏車、吃三明治

556
00:42:21,123 --> 00:42:23,563
我真聰明,我想去熱帶地方

557
00:42:37,963 --> 00:42:38,883
我贏了嗎?

558
00:42:39,923 --> 00:42:41,243
沒有贏的感覺

559
00:42:42,443 --> 00:42:43,883
感覺像三明治

560
00:42:44,803 --> 00:42:46,563
也許就目前來說

561
00:42:47,363 --> 00:42:48,483
那就夠了

562
00:42:49,603 --> 00:42:50,803
那是最重要的

563
00:42:52,763 --> 00:42:56,603
(如果您或您認識的人
患有飲食疾患)

564
00:42:56,603 --> 00:43:00,443
(請至畫面上的網站參閱相關資源)

565
00:44:44,723 --> 00:44:48,643
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