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[tense music playing]
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[Dr. Nell, muffled] Mia?
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- Mia?
- [Mia murmurs]
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[Dr. Nell] How are you feeling?
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Good.
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I've been, uh, good.
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You know, been sticking to the meal plan,
taking it day by day, and...
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Yeah.
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[Dr. Nell] And your family?
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I know times have been a bit turbulent
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in the Polanco household.
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[murmurs]
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Yeah, we've been sorting it.
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You know, just got to
push through this bit.
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And friends?
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[sobbing] Oh fuck.
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Great.
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Yeah, they're all good.
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[Mia sighs]
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{\an8}Mia, how long have we been
seeing each other, would you say?
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- I don't know. A long time.
- [Dr. Nell] Mm.
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And do you feel
you can be truthful with me?
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Yeah.
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{\an8}Yeah. All right, then.
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{\an8}Mia.
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How are you feeling?
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[music builds, stops]
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Great.
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[tense music resumes]
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Okay. You all know what you're doing.
Lots of energy, big smiles.
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I'm looking at you, Martin.
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What?
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[reception telephone ringing]
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Okay, so these ladies and gents
don't get out much,
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so it's our job to keep their spirits up,
but blood pressures low. [chuckles]
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So, board games, card games,
and most importantly, tea.
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Lots of it.
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Yeah, okay?
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Come on, these 90-year-olds
have more spring in their step than you!
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[light jazz playing softly]
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Morning, folks. Who's ready for bingo?
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You're late.
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Or are you early?
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Ugh. I cannot believe
I'm spending my Sunday
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with the survivors
of the Great Fire of London.
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Ah. Entirely your fault for leaving your
Duke of Edinburgh community hours
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until last minute.
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Is she here?
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I haven't seen her all week.
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She hasn't responded since Carli-gate.
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Yep. Same.
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- She's gone full MIA on us.
- [chuckles]
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She's going through a difficult time.
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She is a difficult time.
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- Where are you going?
- [Alison] I don't know.
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[laughs]
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- Drag her!
- [Cameron chuckles]
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[groans] Right, I'll take bingo.
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Makes me want to reach
for the arsenic the least.
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Hey.
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You think they'd swing
for a better selection.
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[laughs] Right. It's not as if
we don't need a distraction.
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Exactly.
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- My daughter was here for a while.
- Ah.
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She moved to outpatients
about two months ago.
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Good for her. And you.
Good for everyone, really.
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Oh, thanks.
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- Are you here to see yours?
- He's ready for you now.
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Oh, excuse me.
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[sighs]
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Hey.
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You're Jenna's mum, right?
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Carol.
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Mia.
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Hi.
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I heard she got out. How is she?
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[inhales shakily]
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[aching organ music playing]
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She tried.
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No one could say she didn't try.
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I think she'd want people to know that.
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It was just too much for her out there.
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I'm so sorry.
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[exhales]
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[dramatic music playing]
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[Mia] I want to go skydiving.
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Raft the Colorado River.
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Maybe bungee jumping.
Or fly on a hot air balloon.
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Those all sound deeply costly
and potentially fatal.
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Hey, it's your list.
I'm just helping you out.
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Okay, what else is on there?
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I told you, you need to make your own.
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Yeah, but I just like
laughing at yours, so...
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[laughing]
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[Mia] Go on a Ferris wheel.
Are you serious? That is so boring, Jenna.
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Mia, I'm so sorry about your friend.
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If you ever want to talk about anything...
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- Nah. They told us not to keep in touch.
- Why not?
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They said it could be triggering.
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Remind us of the bad times.
Make things worse.
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But guess it didn't matter in the end, so...
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- [Viv] Darling.
- Mm?
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Don't forget your 11:00 a.m. snack.
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Right.
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Thanks.
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[Viv] If you want to talk about it, I...
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Uh, I'm gonna have a shower.
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I smell like hospital.
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[sighs] Okay.
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[suspenseful music playing]
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[sighs]
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[sighs]
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Mum.
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[sighs]
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What are you doing?
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Why do you keep doing this to us?
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Clearly, there is something wrong if this...
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I'm sorry, but I can't help you.
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I cannot watch you
end up like your friend.
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Mia...
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You need to go back to hospital.
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You need to see Dr. Nell.
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I'll get a bin bag,
and we can call him together,
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and we'll make a plan.
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[tense music playing]
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[sighs]
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[door rattling]
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[Viv] Mia?
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Mia!
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How are you?
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First time in a week
I haven't woken up crying.
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But we love character development, so...
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You didn't have to be here today.
Were you hoping to see her?
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Mm.
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Weren't you?
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[chuckling] No.
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No, she won't be here.
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Why?
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[woman coughing]
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Because Mia's a coward.
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At least she won't see me like this.
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Like what?
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[sighs]
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I mean, look,
you're still Alison. You know?
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- I'm still scared of you.
- [laughs]
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[propulsive music playing]
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Hey.
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Look, I'm sorry I haven't been in touch.
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You and everyone else.
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No one will talk to me.
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I've got shit going on too, you know.
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Carli, let's get out of here.
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- What?
- We can go.
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And we can have a day
of doing whatever we want.
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- Mia.
- Come on, Carli. I mean...
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Haven't you ever wanted to, like...
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chuck your phone out the window
and go fully off the map?
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And we can...
we can finish the fucking list.
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Fuck everyone else.
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Carli?
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When you finish up with this,
I need you to clean up the back.
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A kid's chundered everywhere.
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- I've got to work.
- But...
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But, you know what, it's fine.
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It's fine because you know what we can do?
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- We can just...
- [beans clattering]
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We can chuck these. Just like...
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- Come on. Come on.
- [laughing]
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Come out with me. Please, Carli.
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Please.
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Okay, folks. Look alive,
or look as dead as I am. Yay.
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Whoo.
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I feel fine, 69.
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Oh, let me go, please.
I'll owe you everything forever.
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- You already owe me.
- [Will sighs]
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[groans]
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Lots of fun, young and full of cum, 41.
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Mia's mum?
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- [Viv] How has she been this week?
- I haven't seen her all half-term.
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Uh, none of us have.
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[Viv sighs]
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It's happening again.
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And I didn't even realize
I was watching it happen.
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[electric whirring]
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You're overreacting.
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Because she knows
if we're all worried about her,
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then we'll forget
about the shit she's done. Again.
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Cameron.
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She hasn't been eating all week.
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- I said I'll check around.
- All right. I'm coming with you.
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I thought you didn't want to see her.
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- Yeah, well, it's not about her.
- We can check the bandstand.
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- Or the skate park.
- Or Carli.
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That's who she's gonna be with, obviously.
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- If we find Carli, then we find Mia.
- Okay, but I shouldn't leave.
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I'll stay here.
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Yeah. Someone's got to keep
these wildcats in check.
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[melancholy music playing]
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[exhaling]
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[music fades]
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Going straight to voicemail for me too.
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I don't understand how this happened.
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You were supposed to sit
with her at mealtimes.
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You're supposed to watch her eat.
You've seen me do it enough times.
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I couldn't have left you
clearer instructions when I--
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When you left!
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You left us.
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If this is anyone's fault...
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How dare you try and put this on me
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when you've been
too busy with your new girlfriend
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to give a shit about this family?
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[exhales]
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Do you want to know where I met her?
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At the support group
for parents at the hospital.
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The one you never bothered to go to.
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I'm gonna try Mia again.
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And that is why you do not go home
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with the guy selling his mixtape
in the Lidl car park.
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Am I right? Am I right?
[laughs theatrically]
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Okay. Thirty-four, that's 34.
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Three-four, number 34.
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[big band music playing softly]
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Theo Mason.
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Um...
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Could you man the tea station?
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It'd be an honor.
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- [feedback whines]
- So, uh, anyone into cults?
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Yeah, why did Becca leave?
She was supposed to be running this.
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Oh, I know. It's just
some Mia stuff, but, um, she'll be back.
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This is legs, 11. Legs, 11.
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What does that mean? Is she okay?
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It's fine. It'll all be fine.
It's just a fuss about nothing.
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Uh, legs, 11. Legs, 11.
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Will, tell me.
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I guess, she hasn't been eating,
and no one knows where she is.
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- But it's fine.
- Are you serious?
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No, but it's fine.
We're peachy. We are peachy.
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It's all peachy, and that is 17.
And it is a peachy, peachy 17.
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Yeah, it sounds proper peachy.
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Mature as usual, Will.
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Okay. Okay, wakey-wakey, everyone.
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Yes, Beatrice, yes. Bring both eyes.
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Who is ready to have some real fun?
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Let's get some booze and tunes up in here.
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Prohibition is so yesterday. Okay?
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[amplified exhale]
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Okay.
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Hi. Excuse me. Have you seen Carli?
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She works here.
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She used to. Until she walked out
in the middle of her shift.
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Oh, okay. Was she with anyone?
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A girl?
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[Gareth] Yeah, they were giggling.
Flapping some paper about.
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The bucket list.
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Then next minute,
I'm down a shelf stacker.
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Uh, okay, great.
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Thank you, Gareth.
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Cheese Guy.
259
00:16:07,163 --> 00:16:08,723
You're Cheese Guy?
260
00:16:08,723 --> 00:16:10,563
- You what?
- Huh.
261
00:16:13,123 --> 00:16:15,003
["Free" by Bakar playing]
262
00:16:15,003 --> 00:16:16,643
- [Mia screaming]
- [Carli laughing]
263
00:16:16,643 --> 00:16:18,723
♪ How you tryna preach
If you ain't on your deen? ♪
264
00:16:18,723 --> 00:16:20,803
♪ How you tryna reach
If ain't got a dream? ♪
265
00:16:20,803 --> 00:16:23,043
♪ They see me in the streets
They say BK you're a king... ♪
266
00:16:23,043 --> 00:16:24,203
Told ya.
267
00:16:26,843 --> 00:16:27,723
Fuck.
268
00:16:28,283 --> 00:16:30,483
- [buzzing]
- [Carli laughing]
269
00:16:32,203 --> 00:16:33,443
[laughing]
270
00:16:33,443 --> 00:16:35,763
♪ It's amazin', it's amazin' ♪
271
00:16:35,763 --> 00:16:37,923
♪ How we got here in the first place ♪
272
00:16:37,923 --> 00:16:39,883
♪ Only got here
Now we're first place ♪
273
00:16:39,883 --> 00:16:40,923
Is this safe?
274
00:16:43,083 --> 00:16:44,363
Don't look down.
275
00:16:44,883 --> 00:16:47,083
I don't feel good.
I really don't feel good.
276
00:16:48,043 --> 00:16:50,403
♪ In Paris with Virgil at LV ♪
277
00:16:50,883 --> 00:16:53,163
♪ Peng Palace, I like it, it's on fleek
It's on me ♪
278
00:16:53,163 --> 00:16:57,403
♪ I been workin' all week
Get the shackles off me, I'm free ♪
279
00:16:57,403 --> 00:16:59,283
[laughing]
280
00:16:59,283 --> 00:17:01,683
- ♪ You destroy this truth for me ♪
- [glass shattering]
281
00:17:02,483 --> 00:17:06,323
♪ I'm just livin' proof
That you could take my soul from me ♪
282
00:17:06,323 --> 00:17:08,163
What's bothering you, love?
283
00:17:09,203 --> 00:17:11,603
I know a broken heart when I see one.
284
00:17:15,163 --> 00:17:19,563
♪ Oh please, I just wanna be loved
Oh please, I need someone to trust ♪
285
00:17:19,563 --> 00:17:24,323
♪ Oh please, I just wanna be free ♪
286
00:17:24,803 --> 00:17:28,163
[Becca] What else is on the list?
We've read it like a million times.
287
00:17:28,163 --> 00:17:29,443
Shoplifting?
288
00:17:29,443 --> 00:17:31,643
Right, so that narrows it down to a shop.
289
00:17:31,643 --> 00:17:33,923
- This isn't funny, Cam.
- Yeah, I know.
290
00:17:33,923 --> 00:17:36,003
No. I don't think you do.
291
00:17:36,883 --> 00:17:38,683
This is my fault.
292
00:17:39,243 --> 00:17:43,643
She wasn't responding all week,
and I just assumed she needed space.
293
00:17:43,643 --> 00:17:44,683
Like we all did.
294
00:17:44,683 --> 00:17:45,723
[inhales emotionally]
295
00:17:47,563 --> 00:17:49,083
I'm such a terrible friend.
296
00:17:49,963 --> 00:17:50,843
No.
297
00:17:51,563 --> 00:17:53,363
None of this is on you. I mean...
298
00:17:53,363 --> 00:17:56,683
We can't keep blaming ourselves
when she blows her fucking life up.
299
00:17:56,683 --> 00:17:59,363
You're the fixer, Becs.
You make things good again.
300
00:17:59,363 --> 00:18:00,923
You're honest and loyal--
301
00:18:00,923 --> 00:18:02,123
I had an abortion.
302
00:18:09,963 --> 00:18:11,123
I didn't tell you.
303
00:18:21,403 --> 00:18:22,243
When?
304
00:18:24,723 --> 00:18:25,923
[Becca] Like a month ago.
305
00:18:26,563 --> 00:18:29,363
Just after we ended things.
306
00:18:30,803 --> 00:18:31,843
Uh...
307
00:18:31,843 --> 00:18:32,883
Is it...
308
00:18:33,803 --> 00:18:35,603
Are you... are you okay?
309
00:18:37,283 --> 00:18:38,283
I'm okay.
310
00:18:39,203 --> 00:18:40,563
I was then too.
311
00:18:41,363 --> 00:18:42,363
More or less.
312
00:18:44,203 --> 00:18:45,163
Fuck.
313
00:18:46,043 --> 00:18:47,563
I wish you would've told me.
314
00:18:48,363 --> 00:18:49,403
I'm sorry I didn't...
315
00:18:49,403 --> 00:18:51,523
No, no, I don't mean like that.
316
00:18:51,523 --> 00:18:52,523
Don't be.
317
00:18:54,043 --> 00:18:55,163
I just mean that...
318
00:18:57,003 --> 00:19:00,243
I wish I could have
made you feel like you could.
319
00:19:03,883 --> 00:19:05,283
Yeah. Well...
320
00:19:06,163 --> 00:19:07,363
It's over now.
321
00:19:10,363 --> 00:19:12,003
Let's keep looking for Mia.
322
00:19:13,323 --> 00:19:15,363
Do you want to know the worst part, Edith?
323
00:19:15,963 --> 00:19:19,163
Right now, she's not even thinking
about how much she hurt me.
324
00:19:20,163 --> 00:19:22,483
She's running around
with the girl she wanted more.
325
00:19:24,043 --> 00:19:25,923
And even though she broke my heart,
326
00:19:26,803 --> 00:19:28,443
I'm not allowed to be mad because...
327
00:19:29,363 --> 00:19:30,803
she's not well.
328
00:19:30,803 --> 00:19:34,963
And everyone's just expecting me
to build a bridge and get over it.
329
00:19:34,963 --> 00:19:36,043
You should.
330
00:19:37,363 --> 00:19:39,603
I've lived a long and colorful life,
331
00:19:39,603 --> 00:19:44,003
and if there's anything I've learned,
it's important to forgive,
332
00:19:44,683 --> 00:19:47,163
when forgiveness is earned.
333
00:19:47,163 --> 00:19:48,683
And if it isn't...
334
00:19:51,043 --> 00:19:52,883
Build that bridge, Alison.
335
00:19:53,603 --> 00:19:56,083
And then burn it to the fucking ground.
336
00:20:00,963 --> 00:20:02,163
- [Edith] Huh.
- [laughs]
337
00:20:04,923 --> 00:20:07,203
That young man's
been staring at you all afternoon.
338
00:20:07,203 --> 00:20:08,483
Go talk to your boyfriend.
339
00:20:10,603 --> 00:20:12,763
What? He's not
my boyfriend, Ivan. Shut up.
340
00:20:12,763 --> 00:20:14,043
Well, he should be.
341
00:20:14,643 --> 00:20:17,323
If I was your age, I wouldn't let him
slip through my fingers.
342
00:20:17,323 --> 00:20:19,963
[Carli and Mia laughing]
343
00:20:22,043 --> 00:20:25,003
[Carli] So why's
a Ferris wheel on your list?
344
00:20:25,003 --> 00:20:26,563
It was on someone else's.
345
00:20:29,323 --> 00:20:30,843
[man] Yeah. Number 42.
346
00:20:32,883 --> 00:20:34,083
Number 42?
347
00:20:38,363 --> 00:20:40,363
[dramatic music playing]
348
00:20:42,123 --> 00:20:43,123
[Jenna] Mia.
349
00:20:43,643 --> 00:20:44,643
Don't.
350
00:20:45,283 --> 00:20:46,643
Please, don't.
351
00:21:09,123 --> 00:21:11,123
[music continues]
352
00:21:20,523 --> 00:21:21,923
I got you one anyway.
353
00:21:22,523 --> 00:21:25,483
Nah, you shouldn't have.
I'm, like, really not hungry.
354
00:21:26,003 --> 00:21:28,443
Well, we haven't eaten yet today.
It's almost five.
355
00:21:28,443 --> 00:21:32,003
You know what we should do next?
We should get out of London.
356
00:21:32,003 --> 00:21:34,003
We can go on a train
and we can go anywhere.
357
00:21:34,003 --> 00:21:36,363
Go to Manchester,
check out your old haunts. Okay?
358
00:21:36,363 --> 00:21:38,523
- Mia!
- I just want to have one good day, Carli.
359
00:21:38,523 --> 00:21:42,003
- Okay? And we can finish the list.
- Why do we have to finish it today?
360
00:21:42,003 --> 00:21:43,403
What's the rush?
361
00:21:45,323 --> 00:21:47,243
Why are you being so boring?
362
00:21:47,923 --> 00:21:50,443
I mean, if you don't want to do it,
I'll just do it myself.
363
00:21:51,003 --> 00:21:53,123
- There'll be other days.
- Oh really?
364
00:21:53,123 --> 00:21:56,563
Do you know what the average
recovery time for anorexia is?
365
00:21:58,283 --> 00:21:59,563
Seven years.
366
00:22:00,363 --> 00:22:03,283
And I have seven years left
to work and worry and fuck up,
367
00:22:03,283 --> 00:22:04,603
and that's if I'm lucky.
368
00:22:04,603 --> 00:22:07,923
It's like not even half
the people make it that far.
369
00:22:07,923 --> 00:22:09,883
And I deserve one day,
370
00:22:10,523 --> 00:22:12,923
Carli, one day to be free.
371
00:22:13,803 --> 00:22:17,083
My friend died,
but she was the stronger one.
372
00:22:17,083 --> 00:22:19,643
And if she couldn't make it,
what chance do I have?
373
00:22:24,683 --> 00:22:25,643
[Carli] None.
374
00:22:27,363 --> 00:22:29,163
If you keep running away.
375
00:22:35,683 --> 00:22:36,843
[Viv sighing]
376
00:22:42,443 --> 00:22:43,483
[Rick] I'm sorry.
377
00:22:49,283 --> 00:22:50,203
[sighs]
378
00:23:06,763 --> 00:23:08,163
I'm so scared.
379
00:23:13,283 --> 00:23:15,243
We'll find her,
get her the right treatment.
380
00:23:15,243 --> 00:23:16,803
No, I don't mean that.
381
00:23:19,083 --> 00:23:20,243
All the time.
382
00:23:22,363 --> 00:23:24,803
Since she was born,
I never knew what to do.
383
00:23:27,403 --> 00:23:28,843
Me too. [chuckles]
384
00:23:32,843 --> 00:23:35,403
Really, I was just
making it up as I went along.
385
00:23:38,683 --> 00:23:39,523
Would've been...
386
00:23:41,283 --> 00:23:42,683
easier maybe...
387
00:23:47,163 --> 00:23:48,723
to be scared together.
388
00:23:49,443 --> 00:23:51,563
[emotional music playing]
389
00:23:56,203 --> 00:23:57,563
[Viv sighs]
390
00:24:09,323 --> 00:24:11,763
[Mia] I just don't understand.
391
00:24:11,763 --> 00:24:15,843
Like, I'm eating when I should.
I'm taking all the meds.
392
00:24:15,843 --> 00:24:19,443
I'm coming to see you.
And I did all the right things,
393
00:24:19,443 --> 00:24:22,163
but I still didn't feel any different.
394
00:24:22,683 --> 00:24:24,283
Being me wasn't easier,
395
00:24:24,283 --> 00:24:26,323
and waking up
in the morning wasn't easier.
396
00:24:26,323 --> 00:24:30,043
And I just, I couldn't try anymore.
397
00:24:30,043 --> 00:24:32,843
And now I'm right back where I started,
398
00:24:32,843 --> 00:24:36,163
only worse, because now
I know there's no way out and...
399
00:24:38,083 --> 00:24:39,763
And I'm so lonely.
400
00:24:41,683 --> 00:24:45,163
I'm trying so hard,
but I can't connect with people,
401
00:24:45,163 --> 00:24:46,963
and I don't understand why.
402
00:24:46,963 --> 00:24:52,683
Well, it's because anorexia was
your companion all day, every day.
403
00:24:53,363 --> 00:24:57,923
It means that you were never alone
with the painful thoughts.
404
00:24:57,923 --> 00:25:00,443
[melancholy music playing]
405
00:25:01,043 --> 00:25:06,083
You've been holding on to a friend
that was never a real friend.
406
00:25:07,683 --> 00:25:10,323
But that doesn't mean
the grief isn't real.
407
00:25:17,883 --> 00:25:19,203
You know what I felt...
408
00:25:21,403 --> 00:25:23,043
when I found out about Jenna?
409
00:25:24,003 --> 00:25:25,163
Go on.
410
00:25:25,163 --> 00:25:26,363
The first thought.
411
00:25:30,083 --> 00:25:31,203
I didn't cry.
412
00:25:32,163 --> 00:25:34,043
I didn't scream or anything.
413
00:25:38,043 --> 00:25:40,043
I just thought that she won.
414
00:25:42,123 --> 00:25:44,883
That she beat me
415
00:25:44,883 --> 00:25:48,483
because her illness
took her to a place that mine never had.
416
00:25:50,163 --> 00:25:51,083
Because...
417
00:25:52,123 --> 00:25:56,283
she didn't have to get better, and I did.
418
00:25:58,243 --> 00:26:02,723
And that's the first thought that I felt
when I heard my friend had died.
419
00:26:06,763 --> 00:26:08,523
I'm so proud of you.
420
00:26:08,523 --> 00:26:10,003
What? Proud? I just told you--
421
00:26:10,003 --> 00:26:15,883
I know what you told me, but I also know
that your disorder thrives on secrecy.
422
00:26:15,883 --> 00:26:18,683
And that anorexic voice inside you
423
00:26:18,683 --> 00:26:21,603
relies on you living in shame.
424
00:26:21,603 --> 00:26:23,443
And what have you done today?
425
00:26:23,443 --> 00:26:25,003
You've been honest.
426
00:26:25,003 --> 00:26:26,683
You've asked for help.
427
00:26:26,683 --> 00:26:29,363
Two things you would
never have done a year ago.
428
00:26:30,763 --> 00:26:32,683
You are different.
429
00:26:32,683 --> 00:26:34,603
[joyous music playing]
430
00:26:37,083 --> 00:26:39,083
- [sobbing]
- Hey, hey.
431
00:26:39,643 --> 00:26:40,483
[sighs]
432
00:26:40,483 --> 00:26:42,523
You are different.
433
00:26:42,523 --> 00:26:45,483
And I'll keep telling you
until you believe it.
434
00:26:45,483 --> 00:26:47,803
[sobbing]
435
00:26:50,163 --> 00:26:51,643
[cell phone buzzing]
436
00:26:54,403 --> 00:26:55,523
He's on his phone.
437
00:27:01,323 --> 00:27:03,003
[Will exhales] I need a minute.
438
00:27:10,443 --> 00:27:11,483
[Theo] Will.
439
00:27:17,403 --> 00:27:19,083
- What's going on?
- [exhales]
440
00:27:21,803 --> 00:27:23,923
I'm sorry. I... I actually can't do it.
441
00:27:23,923 --> 00:27:26,123
- Shh. It's all right.
- No, it's not all right.
442
00:27:26,123 --> 00:27:28,163
It's not, because... because, like...
443
00:27:29,203 --> 00:27:32,123
It's not been all right for years,
and I didn't even notice.
444
00:27:32,123 --> 00:27:36,043
Like, I was too busy
trying to make everyone laugh.
445
00:27:36,923 --> 00:27:38,843
And she didn't need a laugh, she needed...
446
00:27:38,843 --> 00:27:41,803
she needed a friend,
and someone who would listen to her,
447
00:27:41,803 --> 00:27:43,003
and I didn't.
448
00:27:43,803 --> 00:27:45,243
I... I... I couldn't.
449
00:27:46,643 --> 00:27:47,483
And...
450
00:27:50,283 --> 00:27:51,483
I'm sorry, I'm...
451
00:27:52,323 --> 00:27:54,043
I'm pathetic. I look like shit.
452
00:27:54,043 --> 00:27:56,323
No, don't even think it. Look, Will.
453
00:27:56,843 --> 00:27:58,003
[sighs]
454
00:27:58,003 --> 00:28:00,603
You're allowed to feel
the bad stuff, you know?
455
00:28:01,203 --> 00:28:02,683
And you can talk to me.
456
00:28:03,443 --> 00:28:05,203
Like you did in the bathtub.
457
00:28:06,563 --> 00:28:11,123
No, Bathtub Will was drunk and crying,
458
00:28:11,123 --> 00:28:13,043
and he was boring.
459
00:28:13,043 --> 00:28:15,483
Yeah, well, I liked Bathtub Will.
460
00:28:16,883 --> 00:28:17,923
He was real.
461
00:28:21,483 --> 00:28:22,723
Well, he liked you.
462
00:28:24,443 --> 00:28:25,443
So much.
463
00:28:27,763 --> 00:28:28,643
Yeah?
464
00:28:30,763 --> 00:28:33,643
- Would you call it an emo crush?
- Oh God.
465
00:28:35,003 --> 00:28:36,683
Yeah, I'm so sorry that I said that.
466
00:28:36,683 --> 00:28:37,643
It's... [sniffs]
467
00:28:38,203 --> 00:28:40,483
I... I didn't mean it.
468
00:28:41,963 --> 00:28:44,243
Because you are more. I just...
469
00:28:44,803 --> 00:28:48,923
I just didn't have a word for all the more
you are, and I panicked and...
470
00:28:48,923 --> 00:28:50,123
[sobbing]
471
00:28:56,763 --> 00:28:59,683
It's okay to be scared
because you care, Will.
472
00:29:00,403 --> 00:29:02,443
Just say it.
473
00:29:03,723 --> 00:29:04,683
All of it.
474
00:29:06,363 --> 00:29:07,363
Come here.
475
00:29:36,763 --> 00:29:37,763
You okay?
476
00:29:40,123 --> 00:29:41,283
I'm really sorry.
477
00:29:42,123 --> 00:29:43,203
[Rick] Sweetheart.
478
00:29:45,723 --> 00:29:47,963
All I care about is that you're okay.
479
00:29:52,203 --> 00:29:53,043
Oh.
480
00:29:58,803 --> 00:30:00,083
I'd love to see you.
481
00:30:02,083 --> 00:30:07,283
When you're ready, maybe you and Al
could come round for Scrabble and a movie.
482
00:30:08,483 --> 00:30:10,043
[laughs] Yeah, I'd like that.
483
00:30:10,043 --> 00:30:11,363
[chuckling] Yeah.
484
00:30:12,363 --> 00:30:13,243
Okay.
485
00:30:13,243 --> 00:30:14,523
[cell phone buzzing]
486
00:30:14,523 --> 00:30:15,443
Shit.
487
00:30:15,443 --> 00:30:18,163
Sorry, that's my cab. Um...
488
00:30:19,323 --> 00:30:21,163
I can... I'll stay.
489
00:30:21,163 --> 00:30:22,243
No, I'm fine.
490
00:30:23,083 --> 00:30:24,203
Dad, I promise.
491
00:30:26,723 --> 00:30:28,243
I'll call you about Scrabble.
492
00:30:29,563 --> 00:30:31,243
Miss you, guys. [clears throat]
493
00:30:38,163 --> 00:30:39,203
Come here.
494
00:30:41,283 --> 00:30:42,803
I am so sorry.
495
00:30:42,803 --> 00:30:44,043
[Alex] It's okay.
496
00:30:51,243 --> 00:30:52,283
[laughs]
497
00:30:52,283 --> 00:30:55,603
[dreamy pop vocals harmonizing]
498
00:30:56,523 --> 00:30:57,363
Right.
499
00:30:58,483 --> 00:30:59,363
Shall we?
500
00:31:17,923 --> 00:31:19,923
[music fades]
501
00:31:20,523 --> 00:31:22,723
- Is she...
- [exhaling]
502
00:31:24,323 --> 00:31:25,363
She's okay.
503
00:31:27,043 --> 00:31:27,883
[sighs]
504
00:31:35,603 --> 00:31:38,163
At least we know
she's with someone that cares about her.
505
00:31:40,243 --> 00:31:41,283
Oh.
506
00:31:41,763 --> 00:31:43,483
I'm sorry about Carli.
507
00:31:44,083 --> 00:31:45,003
You seem...
508
00:31:46,443 --> 00:31:48,163
You must have really liked her.
509
00:31:48,163 --> 00:31:49,123
[exhales]
510
00:31:50,843 --> 00:31:51,843
I don't know.
511
00:31:53,803 --> 00:31:55,363
I think it was my fault.
512
00:31:55,963 --> 00:31:57,003
Some of it.
513
00:31:57,843 --> 00:31:59,523
With me and Carli, it was...
514
00:32:00,443 --> 00:32:01,843
It was never right.
515
00:32:04,923 --> 00:32:05,923
Why?
516
00:32:09,363 --> 00:32:11,283
[cell phone buzzing]
517
00:32:11,283 --> 00:32:13,243
Why is the front desk calling me?
518
00:32:17,683 --> 00:32:20,163
- [disco music playing]
- ♪ You make me feel ♪
519
00:32:20,163 --> 00:32:21,283
Hey, let's go!
520
00:32:21,283 --> 00:32:23,563
- Hey! Hey! Hey!
- ♪ Mighty real ♪
521
00:32:23,563 --> 00:32:24,603
Get down.
522
00:32:25,083 --> 00:32:26,963
♪ You make me feel ♪
523
00:32:26,963 --> 00:32:29,083
[Will] Happy days, happy days, happy days.
524
00:32:29,083 --> 00:32:31,643
♪ Mighty real ♪
525
00:32:31,643 --> 00:32:33,963
[Will] Break it down. Come on!
526
00:32:33,963 --> 00:32:37,923
♪ And it's nice and dark
And the music's in me ♪
527
00:32:37,923 --> 00:32:41,123
♪ And I'm still real hot
Then you kiss me there ♪
528
00:32:41,123 --> 00:32:42,923
Hey! Hey! Hey! Hey! Hey!
529
00:32:42,923 --> 00:32:49,723
♪ And I know you'll love me
Like you should ♪
530
00:32:49,723 --> 00:32:52,003
[all clapping, cheering]
531
00:32:52,003 --> 00:32:53,843
[dishes clattering]
532
00:33:04,323 --> 00:33:05,283
[sighing]
533
00:33:07,763 --> 00:33:10,723
For months, I've been
giving them board games,
534
00:33:10,723 --> 00:33:12,883
when all they wanted was some brandy.
535
00:33:14,323 --> 00:33:15,563
No wonder they hated me.
536
00:33:17,083 --> 00:33:18,723
How can anybody hate you?
537
00:33:24,523 --> 00:33:25,563
I love you.
538
00:33:27,723 --> 00:33:29,003
I do. [chuckles]
539
00:33:29,003 --> 00:33:32,003
And that can mean
whatever you want it to mean.
540
00:33:33,003 --> 00:33:35,283
I'll be whatever you need me to be.
541
00:33:37,083 --> 00:33:38,683
I could be a friend or...
542
00:33:40,443 --> 00:33:41,363
Or more.
543
00:33:44,563 --> 00:33:45,403
[Jonah] Hey, babe.
544
00:33:46,003 --> 00:33:46,843
You ready?
545
00:33:47,883 --> 00:33:49,163
Yeah, sure.
546
00:33:49,723 --> 00:33:51,043
[bag rustling]
547
00:33:54,043 --> 00:33:55,123
Bye, Cam.
548
00:33:57,563 --> 00:33:59,403
[dramatic music playing]
549
00:34:00,203 --> 00:34:01,763
- [kisses]
- [Becca laughs]
550
00:34:09,563 --> 00:34:11,603
Love is the actual worst, right?
551
00:34:19,083 --> 00:34:20,883
Do you want to get really fucking drunk?
552
00:34:23,203 --> 00:34:24,043
Yeah.
553
00:34:35,563 --> 00:34:39,563
That is frankly
a suspicious amount of cabbage.
554
00:34:42,203 --> 00:34:43,123
How are you?
555
00:34:44,203 --> 00:34:46,883
Better. Much better.
556
00:34:49,243 --> 00:34:50,923
I think I'm going to be...
557
00:34:51,963 --> 00:34:53,603
- Better?
- Yeah.
558
00:34:53,603 --> 00:34:55,243
[both laugh]
559
00:34:59,323 --> 00:35:02,283
Look, I know that things got...
560
00:35:05,043 --> 00:35:06,323
I'm so sorry.
561
00:35:07,083 --> 00:35:08,243
I know you are.
562
00:35:11,083 --> 00:35:12,043
When I met you,
563
00:35:12,803 --> 00:35:17,563
it was the first time
I felt something stronger than my illness.
564
00:35:19,683 --> 00:35:25,603
And it made me want to get up
every day and keep going and...
565
00:35:29,203 --> 00:35:33,163
[voice breaking] Hoping for you
made everything brighter.
566
00:35:34,443 --> 00:35:36,683
[emotional music playing]
567
00:35:39,763 --> 00:35:41,563
You have no idea
568
00:35:42,683 --> 00:35:46,963
how many years I've spent
trying to save people who wouldn't let me.
569
00:35:47,643 --> 00:35:48,603
Mia.
570
00:35:49,443 --> 00:35:50,683
I can't save you.
571
00:35:50,683 --> 00:35:53,643
I know. And I don't want you to. I just...
572
00:35:53,643 --> 00:35:55,883
You know, we can figure this out and we...
573
00:35:55,883 --> 00:35:56,843
Hey.
574
00:36:01,843 --> 00:36:03,363
- We can't.
- No...
575
00:36:05,363 --> 00:36:08,363
Not until we learn
576
00:36:09,483 --> 00:36:11,763
to be more than a fantasy to each other.
577
00:36:12,603 --> 00:36:14,563
Not just another fix.
578
00:36:19,043 --> 00:36:20,283
I've got work.
579
00:36:25,083 --> 00:36:26,683
People need their cabbages.
580
00:36:26,683 --> 00:36:28,763
[laughing]
581
00:36:28,763 --> 00:36:32,483
["Best Day of My Life" playing]
582
00:36:42,923 --> 00:36:47,083
♪ I think today
Is the best day of my life ♪
583
00:36:47,083 --> 00:36:50,683
♪ Gonna rent a bicycle and ride ♪
584
00:36:50,683 --> 00:36:54,643
♪ Around the city
Around the city from nine to five ♪
585
00:36:58,203 --> 00:37:02,363
♪ I think today
Is the best day of my life ♪
586
00:37:02,363 --> 00:37:05,963
♪ Fuck thinking about
The future all the time ♪
587
00:37:05,963 --> 00:37:09,843
♪ Found a love
Now I'm alone and I don't mind ♪
588
00:37:09,843 --> 00:37:11,403
[cell phone chimes]
589
00:37:13,843 --> 00:37:17,203
♪ Movie stars in
Black and white pictures ♪
590
00:37:21,443 --> 00:37:24,963
♪ Warm beer and valium mixtures ♪
591
00:37:29,443 --> 00:37:35,523
♪ Am I in a dream?
Crazy as it seems ♪
592
00:37:40,683 --> 00:37:42,683
[song fades]
593
00:37:45,043 --> 00:37:46,563
Didn't think you'd come.
594
00:37:48,003 --> 00:37:49,363
No, neither did I.
595
00:38:05,923 --> 00:38:09,283
I remember the first time
I met Becca, in Year Seven.
596
00:38:10,683 --> 00:38:13,523
I thought she was
the coolest girl I'd ever seen.
597
00:38:14,963 --> 00:38:17,763
And when I first met Will,
I nearly weed myself
598
00:38:17,763 --> 00:38:19,763
from laughing so much.
599
00:38:25,523 --> 00:38:28,163
But I don't remember meeting you.
600
00:38:29,803 --> 00:38:30,683
You know?
601
00:38:32,603 --> 00:38:36,363
'Cause I can't remember a time
when you weren't there by my side.
602
00:38:37,483 --> 00:38:40,803
Making me feel like the whole world
was wherever we were.
603
00:38:43,243 --> 00:38:44,363
Like I was home.
604
00:38:47,323 --> 00:38:49,963
And I wouldn't be alive today
605
00:38:51,243 --> 00:38:53,163
if you hadn't had done what you did.
606
00:38:57,483 --> 00:38:59,803
You saved me, Cam.
607
00:39:03,123 --> 00:39:04,523
I'm so, so lucky.
608
00:39:10,563 --> 00:39:12,083
You're my home too, M.
609
00:39:13,043 --> 00:39:15,443
[gentle music playing]
610
00:39:20,043 --> 00:39:22,683
[sobbing softly]
611
00:39:24,323 --> 00:39:26,443
Sorry I haven't been there for you.
612
00:39:28,803 --> 00:39:29,723
Are you okay?
613
00:39:33,563 --> 00:39:34,883
Yeah, I'm fine.
614
00:39:36,123 --> 00:39:38,803
Oh well, doesn't this
look like a total hoot?
615
00:39:40,563 --> 00:39:41,803
Come on, Shawshank.
616
00:39:42,323 --> 00:39:43,883
[Mia] Oh ha, ha, ha.
617
00:39:43,883 --> 00:39:46,203
So nice of you
to grace us with your presence.
618
00:40:03,123 --> 00:40:06,843
I think I'm starting to understand
just how much I've put you all through.
619
00:40:08,163 --> 00:40:12,323
And I know I'm not always
an easy person to be friends with.
620
00:40:12,923 --> 00:40:15,203
We're not mad that you're not perfect.
621
00:40:15,203 --> 00:40:18,483
We're not meant to be.
We're meant to accept each other,
622
00:40:19,163 --> 00:40:20,203
warts and all.
623
00:40:22,643 --> 00:40:23,723
It's a verruca.
624
00:40:24,403 --> 00:40:27,003
Cut off on Saturday, in the bin by Sunday.
625
00:40:27,003 --> 00:40:28,883
- That's it. Let's leave it.
- Disgusting.
626
00:40:28,883 --> 00:40:31,283
I just want you to know
I'm going to put the work in.
627
00:40:32,083 --> 00:40:33,363
I'm going to get better.
628
00:40:33,363 --> 00:40:35,963
We're not giving you any other choice.
629
00:40:40,163 --> 00:40:41,163
[Mia] Mmm.
630
00:40:43,563 --> 00:40:44,603
[sighing]
631
00:40:45,163 --> 00:40:46,643
How'd it go with Alison?
632
00:40:47,443 --> 00:40:48,483
Yeesh.
633
00:40:49,483 --> 00:40:53,243
[Mia] Well, I wrote her a letter,
but I haven't heard anything back yet.
634
00:40:58,283 --> 00:41:00,043
Just give it a bit more time.
635
00:41:04,923 --> 00:41:07,883
Now all the crying is over,
how are we gonna while away the hours?
636
00:41:07,883 --> 00:41:09,803
Why, you got a hot date with Jonah?
637
00:41:09,803 --> 00:41:12,363
Uh, actually, that's not a thing anymore.
638
00:41:16,043 --> 00:41:19,043
Okay, so when in doubt,
we consult the list, right?
639
00:41:19,043 --> 00:41:21,283
- What's left?
- What's left on the list?
640
00:41:21,283 --> 00:41:24,403
- Get rid of the fucking list.
- Yeah, let's burn the motherfucker.
641
00:41:24,403 --> 00:41:27,923
No, I say we make a new list.
Together. One that's for all of us.
642
00:41:27,923 --> 00:41:29,483
Number one, plan Will a party.
643
00:41:29,483 --> 00:41:30,403
Ugh.
644
00:41:31,203 --> 00:41:33,603
- My birthday is only 53 days away.
- Okay.
645
00:41:33,603 --> 00:41:34,643
[Becca] Southend?
646
00:41:34,643 --> 00:41:37,443
[Cameron] Bollocks to that.
Let's go on holiday.
647
00:41:37,443 --> 00:41:39,683
How about Greece? Or, no, backpacking.
648
00:41:39,683 --> 00:41:42,003
Excuse me, can you imagine
this face in a hostel?
649
00:41:42,003 --> 00:41:44,123
[Becca] I know you'll
shaft me with all the admin.
650
00:41:44,123 --> 00:41:46,003
[Jenna] Okay, I think I'm done.
651
00:41:46,003 --> 00:41:47,723
[Mia] Okay, let's have a look.
652
00:41:50,883 --> 00:41:53,243
- What? Eat in a restaurant?
- Preferably Italian.
653
00:41:53,243 --> 00:41:54,523
Family games night?
654
00:41:54,523 --> 00:41:56,043
- Jenna!
- What?
655
00:41:56,043 --> 00:41:58,123
It's supposed to be aspirational.
656
00:41:58,123 --> 00:42:00,763
I mean, this is just stuff
that anyone could do.
657
00:42:01,443 --> 00:42:02,963
No, not anyone.
658
00:42:03,923 --> 00:42:05,363
Not you or me yet.
659
00:42:06,043 --> 00:42:09,043
I want to be well enough
to just get up every day
660
00:42:09,043 --> 00:42:11,603
and do things that make me happy.
661
00:42:12,563 --> 00:42:15,083
Even small things.
Especially small things.
662
00:42:16,083 --> 00:42:19,603
Like ride a bike. Or eat a sandwich.
663
00:42:19,603 --> 00:42:21,043
[all groaning]
664
00:42:21,043 --> 00:42:23,563
[Will] I'm so clever. Um...
Okay. I want to go somewhere hot.
665
00:42:37,963 --> 00:42:39,043
[Mia] Am I winning?
666
00:42:39,923 --> 00:42:41,243
Doesn't feel like it.
667
00:42:42,443 --> 00:42:43,963
Feels like a sandwich.
668
00:42:44,803 --> 00:42:46,563
Maybe, for now,
669
00:42:47,363 --> 00:42:48,483
that's enough.
670
00:42:49,603 --> 00:42:50,803
That's everything.
671
00:42:50,803 --> 00:42:53,003
♪ I spent a long time ♪
672
00:42:53,003 --> 00:42:56,403
♪ Thinking about the things
I should change ♪
673
00:42:56,403 --> 00:42:59,363
♪ Trying to make way for a new day ♪
674
00:42:59,923 --> 00:43:02,563
♪ Looking for a reason why I should stay ♪
675
00:43:03,363 --> 00:43:09,163
♪ I spent a long while
Thinking about a place I could go ♪
676
00:43:09,683 --> 00:43:12,483
♪ Haven't seemed too unusual ♪
677
00:43:13,083 --> 00:43:15,803
♪ Take me to the place where I do belong ♪
678
00:43:26,683 --> 00:43:29,483
♪ I spent a long time ♪
679
00:43:29,483 --> 00:43:32,483
♪ Thinking about the things
I should change ♪
680
00:43:32,483 --> 00:43:36,003
♪ Trying to make way for a new day ♪
681
00:43:36,003 --> 00:43:39,003
♪ Looking for a reason why I should stay ♪
682
00:43:56,323 --> 00:43:59,123
♪ I spent a long time ♪
683
00:43:59,123 --> 00:44:02,243
♪ Thinking about the things
I should change ♪
684
00:44:02,243 --> 00:44:05,723
♪ Trying to make way for a new day ♪
685
00:44:05,723 --> 00:44:08,843
♪ Looking for a reason why I should stay ♪
686
00:44:09,563 --> 00:44:15,443
♪ I spent a long while
Thinking about a place I could go ♪
687
00:44:20,723 --> 00:44:24,923
[vocalizing]
688
00:44:36,043 --> 00:44:38,843
♪ I spent a long time ♪
689
00:44:38,843 --> 00:44:41,963
♪ Thinking about the things
I should change ♪
690
00:44:41,963 --> 00:44:45,083
♪ Trying to make way for a new day ♪