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JONNY: 'Is the silence...

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'..that little pause just before you
decide which way you're gonna go?'

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I guess...

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..I...

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I scared myself,
getting to that point.

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It was a real...

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..a real reality check.

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CLEARS HER THROAT

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I think that's...
us done for today.

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As in I have to stay here
another night?

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At least.
Come on.

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A nurse will see you back to...
No, I don't need...

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What have you even written anyway,
like, one sentence?

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I worry you're telling me
what I want to hear.

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So that's why I started getting...

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..off my face. It's just...

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It's just easier.

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And you'd never experienced
any other mental health issues

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until your father passed away?

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Agh, this is just irritating, man.

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What do you want me to say?
This isn't about my dad?

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Cos it is.
And then you want me to say,

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oh, how bad it makes me feel
and how sad I am.

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Like, what is the fucking point
of that?

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Yes, it makes me feel sad,

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it's a lot for anyone to deal with,
isn't it?

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Yes.

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It is, Jonny. It is.

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I'm going to ask,
do you still want to end your life?

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Jonny?

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Right now?
Right now.

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No.

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Oh...

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Through the worst of it.

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We need to stop at the chemist
on the way home.

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For your medication? Course.

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And, erm, well, then I thought we
could get some nice food for later.

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Maybe watch a film?
What do you think?

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We can do whatever you want.

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'How can I be honest when
other people aren't honest with me?'

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ZIA: I really want this to be good.

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REGAN: Course it will.
There's gonna be a gong bath.

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Don't know.
Not sure about the colours.

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I think they're OK.

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Stop at the printers'
to get them to sort it. OK.

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I'll get my stuff.

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Oh, hi.
Hey.

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Is Nan all right?
She's great. Found a film to watch.

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Cool.

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Regan, I've been on to the agency.

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They're gonna get someone else
to come,

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as soon as they can organise.
OK.

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I think it makes sense.

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Yeah. So do I, that's why I said OK.

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Brilliant.

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You coming?
Yeah.

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Bit of an atmosphere
between you and her.

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Not for long.
Nan's getting a new carer.

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And you're OK with that?
Yeah, totally fine.

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Yeah. It's not like it was a huge
deal between the two of you, was it?

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DOOR OPENS

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I need to go and collect Alix.
What time are you going out tonight?

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I'm not going out.

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Oh.
What?

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I'm just not used to you staying in.

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We can all spend some time together.
Sure.

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What... What is that?

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Nothing.
That's not nothing, Mei.

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Huh?
I wanna go back to Canada.

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What?

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Please.

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I'm sorry, no.

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Where would you live? With who?

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I'm sorry.

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I don't belong here.
This isn't my home.

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I've got nothing and no-one here.
That's not true.

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You don't wanna help me.
No-one does.

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UPBEAT POP MUSIC PLAYS

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Brought you a protein shake.
Thanks.

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It's proper easy to make this one.

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You just get your protein powder
and your oat milk,

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whack them together, put that
in the fridge for, like, 24 hours.

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You get your cashews
and your collagen,

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put those together,
and put it on a slow blend,

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maximise that nutrition.

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What?
It's that easy, is it (?)

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Oh - and finally,
I add two raw eggs in at the end,

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but I don't mix 'em in.

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Eurgh!

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I'm teasing. No stress.

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But you're gonna need this if you're
gonna keep smashing those curls.

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Yeah. I'm feeling it... Yeah.

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Not bad.

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There's a few of us
going up the hill on Saturday.

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They might have a fire, if you...
Oh.

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Like a date?

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I mean... Kinda? I...

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All right. Count me in.
Saturday sounds fun.

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Hey.

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Hi.

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Can we have a word?

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Can't talk now.
Gotta get to the venue.

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It won't take long.

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So, the other night, at the party,

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I think I might have been
a bit rude.

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I didn't mean it when I said

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you were all man of the match,
Duke of Edinburgh.

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And when I said you were
fucking pathetic and arrogant

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and over-achieving
and didn't have a life and sad...

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OK.

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You know what?

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Er, you guys go. I'll catch up.

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See you later, man of the match!
All right, bye!

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FRIENDS LAUGH

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I'm sorry.

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You're much nicer
when you're not wasted.

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Apology accepted.

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CHUCKLES
Thank you.

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Oh, and I've got
an interview shortlist

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for the volunteering programme!

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No fucking way! Oh, that's great.

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Hey, you know I've got a friend
out there. Name's Alec...

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There's no way you have a friend.
I-I mean...

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Pizza's in the oven.

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Not sure if Andrew'll
get back in time, but...

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What's wrong?

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Do you want me
to call your therapist?

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No, it's not right.

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It takes time, Jonny, for... for
the body to adjust to medication.

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It feels like there's this...
huge hole in the ground

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and we're just...

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dancing around it,
trying to pretend it does not exist.

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Grief can feel like that.
It's not grief, Mum!

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It's not grief.

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Last week, I was stood with a bunch
of pills in my hand, and I just...

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"What is the point of me?"
That's what I thought.

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I just felt like
this massive weight

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for everyone else to carry round.

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You're not.

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Then why can't you talk to me?

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Be honest with me. Why can no-one
in this family do that?

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Jonny, there are...

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There are thing...

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What, Mum?

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I can't.

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Why can't you?
DOOR CLOSES

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What's going on?

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Nothing. I'm off to work.

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Yep. Nothing.

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'Nothing.

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'So that's what I'm gonna do.

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'Act like nothing's happened.'

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STUDENTS CHATTER

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GIRL: Have you seen this?

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VIDEO ON PHONE: 'I'm not crazy.
Why the fuck are you filming me?

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'I'm not crazy.
Why the fuck are you filming me?'

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Sure about that, hun?

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Hey!

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'I'm not crazy.
Why the fuck are you filming me?

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'I'm not crazy.
Why the fuck are you filming me?

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'I'm not crazy.
Why the fuck are you filming me?'

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I kinda need my phone back?
'I'm not crazy. Why the fuck...'

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Thanks.

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Thank you for meeting me.

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I was surprised to hear from you.

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How are you?
OK.

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I'm just finding it really hard
right now.

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College?
Just everything.

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Life.

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I told Mom I wanted
to go back to Canada.

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But she was totally foot down,
no chance.

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That would be a huge decision.
I know.

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But I'm not happy here.

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Mei, listen.

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I know I haven't been all you hoped.

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That there isn't...
a real relationship between us.

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But you are my daughter.

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I could help out.

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With the financial side.

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I could cover your ticket and...

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your rent for the first six months
or so.

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Right.

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And if you feel
that's where you truly belong...

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I don't belong here, do I?

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Should have got Horrocks a mic.

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He's so nervous,
no-one's gonna be able to hear him.

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Well, he's not making
an actual speech, is he?

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Well, yes, he is.

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Oh. Well, I'm sure he'll be fine.

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Just really want today to work.

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Even if it's shit,
it ends up on your CV.

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Why are you being weird?

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Can we take a minute to appreciate
the irony of you asking me that

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next to the "good listeners" sign?
What?

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Jaz. Is it Jaz?

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You're right.
Maybe it wasn't a huge deal.

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But tell me,
how long until it counts as one?

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More than a fortnight? Six years?

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No, that's not what I meant.

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You can just walk through town
and ten guys will ask for your Snap.

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Welwyn's like a pick 'n' mix
for you.

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It's not quite that easy for me.

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You said that you were totally fine.

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Do I sound fine?

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I like the whole
"flirty texts from a hot guy" vibe.

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Yeah, sounds like fun.

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STUDENTS CHATTER
Guys?

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Everyone?

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Hello!
HE LAUGHS NERVOUSLY

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Guys!

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Everyone!

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Hello!
CHATTER CONTINUES

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Erm, if I could just have, erm,
a minute of your time.

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Thanks so much for coming
to today's wellness event.

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CHATTER CONTINUES

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So, some of the things, erm,

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we have on offer today that
I'd like to make you aware of...

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Oi! Listen to him!

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Thanks, Jonny.

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Yeah, so, just one or two
of the things, I suppose, is...

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No, he listens to you. The least
you can do is listen to him.

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Or are you all too busy
sharing memes about someone

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who is actually hurting?

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Who doesn't deserve it
just to make yourselves feel better

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for, like, a fucking millisecond?

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That's not quite
what I was going to...

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I'm talking about myself here, too.
I'm just as bad.

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Said some horrible things.
And I'm sorry about that.

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So, laugh at me.

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Take the piss out of me if it makes
you feel better about yourselves.

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If it helps you forget
what's going on in here.

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Cos that's all we're trying to do,
isn't it?

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Make ourselves
feel less horrible inside.

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CHATTER CONTINUES

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Thank you, Jonny.
Er, stay mindful, everyone!

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No, I'm at the college.

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Yeah, Neve's coming back with me.

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I'm just gonna make some lunch,
so...

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Yes, Mum.

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OK, love you. See you later.

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You told your mum
I'm coming back to yours? Mm-hm.

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She made me promise
to use the good plates.

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My mum wouldn't want us left alone.

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Oh, does she know about
her daughter's wild party girl side?

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What time you got to be back?

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Private study this afternoon.
I can do that anywhere.

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Ah...

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Mum won't be back for hours,
so she won't disturb our "studies".

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Ah, you wanna help me again?

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Mm-hm.

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You're back early.

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Can I...?

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Yep.

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It's not her fault, you know.

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00:17:18,960 --> 00:17:20,960
She's never been good
with saying what's going on.

256
00:17:21,960 --> 00:17:23,000
Not like Dad.

257
00:17:24,960 --> 00:17:27,959
There was never any mystery
about how Dad felt.

258
00:17:27,960 --> 00:17:29,959
Happy pissed.

259
00:17:29,960 --> 00:17:31,320
Scary cross.

260
00:17:33,960 --> 00:17:35,960
Do you remember when he cried
at your graduation?

261
00:17:36,960 --> 00:17:41,959
"I'm not crying!
I've got allergies."

262
00:17:41,960 --> 00:17:44,960
Well... must be where I got it from,
eh?

263
00:17:50,960 --> 00:17:51,960
What?

264
00:17:53,960 --> 00:17:55,800
She found her own dad.

265
00:17:56,960 --> 00:17:58,320
Mum did.

266
00:18:01,960 --> 00:18:04,960
What do you mean? Found him where?
In their garage.

267
00:18:05,960 --> 00:18:06,960
In his car.

268
00:18:08,160 --> 00:18:09,960
He'd taken his own life.

269
00:18:10,960 --> 00:18:12,960
She was younger than you
when it happened.

270
00:18:14,960 --> 00:18:15,959
What?

271
00:18:15,960 --> 00:18:18,479
They never told you because...
Because what?

272
00:18:18,480 --> 00:18:22,959
Cos... we know
how easily things upset you.

273
00:18:22,960 --> 00:18:25,960
You've always been... sensitive.

274
00:18:28,960 --> 00:18:30,959
MAN IN DISTANCE: Andrew?

275
00:18:30,960 --> 00:18:32,960
Don't tell her I told you.

276
00:18:38,960 --> 00:18:40,959
'Honesty's great, isn't it?

277
00:18:40,960 --> 00:18:44,960
'Until you learn the thing...
you wish you didn't know.'

278
00:18:55,960 --> 00:18:58,960
What you reckon? Fig and Thyme,
or Ocean Morning?

279
00:18:59,960 --> 00:19:00,960
What difference does it make?

280
00:19:02,960 --> 00:19:05,959
Hey, today was good.
It will help a lot of people.

281
00:19:05,960 --> 00:19:09,640
And some people'll be dicks,
but that's not down to you, is it?

282
00:19:10,960 --> 00:19:12,799
What's the candle for?

283
00:19:12,800 --> 00:19:14,959
I've got my driving test tomorrow.
Mmm.

284
00:19:14,960 --> 00:19:16,799
Wanna turn up chilled.

285
00:19:16,800 --> 00:19:18,999
Yeah, well,
you'll need more than a candle.

286
00:19:19,000 --> 00:19:22,959
Here, little trick. Ready?

287
00:19:22,960 --> 00:19:26,959
Fan your fingers out.
Press down on your chest.

288
00:19:26,960 --> 00:19:29,959
Take a deep breath.
HE INHALES

289
00:19:29,960 --> 00:19:32,959
Hold it. Let it out super slow.

290
00:19:32,960 --> 00:19:34,959
HE EXHALES

291
00:19:34,960 --> 00:19:36,960
Repeat until chilled.

292
00:19:40,960 --> 00:19:41,999
How long does this normally take?

293
00:19:42,000 --> 00:19:44,959
I... Half an hour.

294
00:19:44,960 --> 00:19:45,959
That's quite a long time.

295
00:19:45,960 --> 00:19:48,959
No shit.

296
00:19:48,960 --> 00:19:51,960
I used to have to do it whenever
I wanted to leave the house.

297
00:19:55,960 --> 00:19:59,959
I used to think
I'd get hit by a car.

298
00:19:59,960 --> 00:20:03,959
Or a plane would fall down
from the sky and land on me.

299
00:20:03,960 --> 00:20:05,959
Or my house.

300
00:20:05,960 --> 00:20:07,959
And I'd be stood
in front of a pile of rubble

301
00:20:07,960 --> 00:20:09,960
knowing my mum and dad were inside.

302
00:20:11,800 --> 00:20:12,960
Fucking hell, Zia.

303
00:20:14,960 --> 00:20:18,319
I don't really tell people
what I just told you.

304
00:20:18,320 --> 00:20:19,960
I was young.

305
00:20:21,960 --> 00:20:23,800
Glad you told me.

306
00:20:38,960 --> 00:20:39,960
Hey.

307
00:20:41,960 --> 00:20:43,800
Hi.

308
00:20:44,960 --> 00:20:47,959
I just wanted to say thank you.
For today.

309
00:20:47,960 --> 00:20:50,959
And sorry for everything else.
No, you don't need to be.

310
00:20:50,960 --> 00:20:51,960
I do.

311
00:20:53,480 --> 00:20:55,960
Because I don't know
if I'm ever gonna see you again.

312
00:20:58,960 --> 00:20:59,960
What?

313
00:21:00,960 --> 00:21:02,960
I'm moving back to Canada.

314
00:21:04,800 --> 00:21:05,960
What? Why?

315
00:21:06,960 --> 00:21:08,640
There's nothing for me here.

316
00:21:09,960 --> 00:21:10,960
Yeah, well, same.

317
00:21:12,960 --> 00:21:15,960
Everything that means something
is either going or gone.

318
00:21:17,960 --> 00:21:20,960
Maybe you should try Canada.
Maybe I should.

319
00:21:25,960 --> 00:21:27,959
Maybe I should.

320
00:21:27,960 --> 00:21:30,960
I could stay with you
for a few weeks, or whatever.

321
00:21:31,960 --> 00:21:35,159
No, Jonny. You can't mean that.

322
00:21:35,160 --> 00:21:37,800
Why? This place isn't good
for either of us.

323
00:21:38,960 --> 00:21:41,960
We're the same.
We're the not-OKs, aren't we?

324
00:21:42,960 --> 00:21:44,960
We didn't wanna split up.

325
00:21:45,960 --> 00:21:48,960
So let's try again -
in Canada, together.

326
00:21:56,960 --> 00:21:59,960
MUSIC: 'Get Up'
by CID RIM

327
00:22:01,800 --> 00:22:05,959
PHONE BUZZES

328
00:22:05,960 --> 00:22:09,480
# Get up

329
00:22:10,960 --> 00:22:16,000
# Or do you wanna be late again?

330
00:22:17,960 --> 00:22:20,799
# I don't know why I can't

331
00:22:20,800 --> 00:22:23,960
# Get up

332
00:22:25,960 --> 00:22:30,960
# Or do you wanna be late again?

333
00:22:32,000 --> 00:22:33,959
# I don't why I can't... #

334
00:22:33,960 --> 00:22:35,960
KNOCK ON DOOR

335
00:22:36,960 --> 00:22:39,959
You gonna need a lift tomorrow?
Tomorrow?

336
00:22:39,960 --> 00:22:42,960
Well, you've got an appointment,
haven't you? Therapy.

337
00:22:43,960 --> 00:22:44,959
Er, yeah.

338
00:22:44,960 --> 00:22:47,960
Yeah, I'm staying at Mei's tonight,
so I'll just go from there.

339
00:22:49,960 --> 00:22:50,960
You OK?

340
00:22:52,480 --> 00:22:53,959
Yeah, why?

341
00:22:53,960 --> 00:22:56,959
You haven't taken the piss
out of what I'm...

342
00:22:56,960 --> 00:22:57,999
Never mind.

343
00:22:58,000 --> 00:23:00,800
# But I feel it doesn't matter

344
00:23:01,960 --> 00:23:03,960
# And I really don't care

345
00:23:04,960 --> 00:23:07,959
# Just a little bit longer... #

346
00:23:07,960 --> 00:23:08,959
'What's the point?'

347
00:23:08,960 --> 00:23:10,959
# I'll be quick, I swear... #

348
00:23:10,960 --> 00:23:14,960
'I know who I really am now.
It's in the blood.'

349
00:23:15,960 --> 00:23:18,000
# And I really don't care

350
00:23:19,480 --> 00:23:21,960
# Just a little bit longer

351
00:23:22,960 --> 00:23:26,000
# I'll be quick, I swear

352
00:23:27,160 --> 00:23:30,960
# Get up

353
00:23:31,960 --> 00:23:32,960
# Or do you... #

354
00:23:33,960 --> 00:23:35,320
What are you doing?

355
00:23:37,960 --> 00:23:40,159
What is going on?
I, um...

356
00:23:40,160 --> 00:23:41,959
You shouldn't be looking
at my stuff.

357
00:23:41,960 --> 00:23:43,799
Who is this Brett?

358
00:23:43,800 --> 00:23:46,799
What? Why is he sending you
these disgusting photographs?

359
00:23:46,800 --> 00:23:47,959
You're a minor.

360
00:23:47,960 --> 00:23:49,959
He's just a guy,
a creepy fucking guy.

361
00:23:49,960 --> 00:23:52,999
I barely know him.
Was it him who did that to you?

362
00:23:53,000 --> 00:23:54,960
No, it wasn't.

363
00:23:56,960 --> 00:24:00,959
I'm calling the police.
No, Mom, please. It was nothing.

364
00:24:00,960 --> 00:24:01,959
OK? Me and Jonny
are back together now.

365
00:24:01,960 --> 00:24:03,959
I'm happy, OK?

366
00:24:03,960 --> 00:24:06,479
Are you?
Yes.

367
00:24:06,480 --> 00:24:08,960
I'm gonna go stay over at his
tonight, if that's all right?

368
00:24:10,960 --> 00:24:11,959
Are you sure you're OK?

369
00:24:11,960 --> 00:24:13,960
Yes.

370
00:24:17,960 --> 00:24:18,960
Hm.

371
00:24:33,960 --> 00:24:37,799
MEI ON VIDEO: 'I'm not crazy.
Why the fuck are you filming me?'

372
00:24:37,800 --> 00:24:38,959
Sorry.

373
00:24:38,960 --> 00:24:41,960
This meme has got to me a bit.
Mei didn't deserve that.

374
00:24:42,960 --> 00:24:45,959
After everything she's done,
you still care? That's cool.

375
00:24:45,960 --> 00:24:48,319
You're pretty cool.
Yeah, it has been said.

376
00:24:48,320 --> 00:24:50,960
Oh, has it?
Yeah, it actually has.

377
00:24:51,960 --> 00:24:53,960
Ooh. So...

378
00:24:54,960 --> 00:24:56,959
What you, er...
What you doing later?

379
00:24:56,960 --> 00:24:59,959
Erm, depends.
What are you doing later?

380
00:24:59,960 --> 00:25:01,639
I-I'm not doing anything later.
Oh.

381
00:25:01,640 --> 00:25:02,959
So...
Hi, Neve. How you doing?

382
00:25:02,960 --> 00:25:04,959
You need anything?

383
00:25:04,960 --> 00:25:07,959
No, thanks.
Weekend tomorrow, though.

384
00:25:07,960 --> 00:25:09,960
I'll be busy, so...
Really, it's cool.

385
00:25:10,960 --> 00:25:11,960
What about you, mate?

386
00:25:13,960 --> 00:25:16,959
I'm not your mate, dickhead.
You should watch your mouth.

387
00:25:16,960 --> 00:25:18,959
I'm not scared of you.
You sure about that?

388
00:25:18,960 --> 00:25:20,959
What the fuck?
Come on, then!

389
00:25:20,960 --> 00:25:22,959
Look, this prick
acts like he's your friend, OK?

390
00:25:22,960 --> 00:25:25,960
He's not.
And you're worth more than this.

391
00:25:28,960 --> 00:25:30,959
Marcus, stop!
What?

392
00:25:30,960 --> 00:25:32,480
What's this about?

393
00:25:33,320 --> 00:25:35,959
HE SIGHS

394
00:25:35,960 --> 00:25:36,960
My mate...

395
00:25:38,960 --> 00:25:40,959
My best mate, really,
he knew that guy.

396
00:25:40,960 --> 00:25:44,160
Your dealer.
Pff, your "friend", yeah?

397
00:25:45,000 --> 00:25:47,960
OK?
Fucked my mate's life up.

398
00:25:49,960 --> 00:25:52,959
Now he's doing 18 months
in young offenders.

399
00:25:52,960 --> 00:25:54,960
That's horrible.
Yeah.

400
00:25:56,960 --> 00:25:58,959
But that's not my fault.

401
00:25:58,960 --> 00:26:00,959
I-I get how it is when you see
your friend going through shit,

402
00:26:00,960 --> 00:26:04,319
but what I do has nothing to do
with where he's ended up.

403
00:26:04,320 --> 00:26:05,479
I know. I'm not saying...

404
00:26:05,480 --> 00:26:08,959
People project stuff on me
all the time, and you're projecting.

405
00:26:08,960 --> 00:26:11,959
I might wanna get stoned
or off my face once in a while,

406
00:26:11,960 --> 00:26:12,959
and I don't have to do it
in front of you,

407
00:26:12,960 --> 00:26:15,479
and if you can handle that,
we can still see each other.

408
00:26:15,480 --> 00:26:18,960
But if you can't...
I'm not changing for anybody.

409
00:26:33,960 --> 00:26:36,959
Louis!
What are you doing here?

410
00:26:36,960 --> 00:26:38,959
Came to wish you good luck.

411
00:26:38,960 --> 00:26:41,959
I've already taken the test.

412
00:26:41,960 --> 00:26:44,959
Oh, shit. Sorry.

413
00:26:44,960 --> 00:26:46,959
What for?

414
00:26:46,960 --> 00:26:51,479
Passed.
Ah! First time, that's fantastic!

415
00:26:51,480 --> 00:26:53,960
Yeah. It is fantastic.

416
00:26:56,960 --> 00:26:58,959
Erm...

417
00:26:58,960 --> 00:27:00,960
Do you wanna go and celebrate
or something?

418
00:27:01,960 --> 00:27:03,960
It's just
I'm working at the gym later.

419
00:27:04,960 --> 00:27:08,960
Course. Well, see you on Saturday.

420
00:27:10,960 --> 00:27:12,639
Louis Hamilton.

421
00:27:12,640 --> 00:27:14,959
Who?
Lewis Hamilton.

422
00:27:14,960 --> 00:27:18,959
He's a famous race car driver?
Yeah, I know.

423
00:27:18,960 --> 00:27:20,959
I'm joking.
HE CHUCKLES

424
00:27:20,960 --> 00:27:22,960
Oh.
SHE LAUGHS

425
00:27:29,960 --> 00:27:31,960
DOOR OPENS

426
00:27:32,960 --> 00:27:34,320
DOOR CLOSES

427
00:27:35,960 --> 00:27:38,959
OK, I'm all done.
Here are your charts.

428
00:27:38,960 --> 00:27:40,960
Newbie starts tomorrow, so...

429
00:27:41,960 --> 00:27:44,959
Susan already gave me a card.

430
00:27:44,960 --> 00:27:46,960
Can you just open it, please?

431
00:27:48,960 --> 00:27:50,960
"Not sorry you're leaving."

432
00:27:53,960 --> 00:27:55,480
Er, it's sort of a joke.

433
00:27:57,960 --> 00:27:58,959
OK?

434
00:27:58,960 --> 00:28:03,479
I'm not sorry you're leaving
because...

435
00:28:03,480 --> 00:28:05,960
I don't think we could go out
if you worked here?

436
00:28:06,960 --> 00:28:09,960
And I'd like us to have a go...
going out.

437
00:28:12,480 --> 00:28:15,959
And you have, like,
little systems and things

438
00:28:15,960 --> 00:28:19,959
for your relationships, too,
that I should know about?

439
00:28:19,960 --> 00:28:23,960
Cos the last thing I want to do
is mess up and do something wrong.

440
00:28:25,160 --> 00:28:27,000
Hm, OK.

441
00:28:31,960 --> 00:28:34,959
Erm... Ah, they're laminated.

442
00:28:34,960 --> 00:28:36,959
Fuck!

443
00:28:36,960 --> 00:28:37,999
JAZ CHUCKLES

444
00:28:38,000 --> 00:28:39,960
Aren't some of those
quite important?

445
00:28:41,480 --> 00:28:43,960
Yeah, er, they are, actually.

446
00:29:14,800 --> 00:29:15,959
Right, where do you wanna eat, then?

447
00:29:15,960 --> 00:29:17,960
Oh, my God. My bag.
What, is it all right?

448
00:29:21,960 --> 00:29:24,320
SHE LAUGHS
What? It is.

449
00:29:28,160 --> 00:29:29,640
What gate are we?

450
00:29:32,960 --> 00:29:34,959
I'm not doing your laundry,
by the way.

451
00:29:34,960 --> 00:29:35,959
Oh, I thought we had a deal.

452
00:29:35,960 --> 00:29:39,480
THEY GIGGLE
No.

453
00:29:44,960 --> 00:29:46,960
PHONE BUZZES

454
00:30:15,960 --> 00:30:18,959
'My grandad couldn't face things,

455
00:30:18,960 --> 00:30:21,320
'so he... ran away.

456
00:30:22,320 --> 00:30:25,960
'My mum's selling up,
which is her way of doing the same.

457
00:30:29,960 --> 00:30:31,960
'They're both part of who I am.

458
00:30:35,640 --> 00:30:38,960
'But so is the strongest person
I've ever known.'

459
00:30:43,800 --> 00:30:47,960
JOHN: 'You've got to learn
to swim like a bastard.'

460
00:30:57,800 --> 00:31:00,959
'The person he'd want me
to be honest with now...

461
00:31:00,960 --> 00:31:02,640
'is me.'

462
00:31:04,960 --> 00:31:06,960
ALARM RINGS

463
00:31:13,960 --> 00:31:15,960
Hey.
Hey.

464
00:31:17,800 --> 00:31:18,960
It's time to go.

465
00:31:19,960 --> 00:31:20,960
Home.

466
00:31:25,960 --> 00:31:27,959
No, Jonny.
Mei...

467
00:31:27,960 --> 00:31:29,960
You said you wanted to come with me.
And I shouldn't have.

468
00:31:31,960 --> 00:31:32,960
I'm sorry.

469
00:31:34,960 --> 00:31:36,960
I know he doesn't love you.

470
00:31:39,960 --> 00:31:41,320
Your dad.

471
00:31:42,960 --> 00:31:44,960
And I know how much that hurts.

472
00:31:46,960 --> 00:31:48,960
I mean, that's the thing, isn't it?

473
00:31:49,960 --> 00:31:51,960
The reason you feel sick inside.

474
00:31:56,160 --> 00:31:57,960
Yes.

475
00:31:58,960 --> 00:31:59,960
That doesn't go...

476
00:32:01,960 --> 00:32:02,960
..if you run away.

477
00:32:04,960 --> 00:32:06,960
Stay. Face it.

478
00:32:07,960 --> 00:32:09,640
All of it.

479
00:32:12,000 --> 00:32:13,960
Guess I'm flying solo, then.

480
00:32:14,960 --> 00:32:16,960
Mei.

481
00:32:40,960 --> 00:32:42,960
'It's that silence again.

482
00:32:46,960 --> 00:32:47,960
'That little pause...

483
00:32:50,960 --> 00:32:53,960
'..before you decide
which way you're gonna go.'

484
00:33:05,960 --> 00:33:07,959
Do you know,
I think it probably started

485
00:33:07,960 --> 00:33:11,959
when I was 14 or just before.

486
00:33:11,960 --> 00:33:14,960
Actually, because, erm...

487
00:33:15,960 --> 00:33:17,959
..we were going out
for birthday pizza,

488
00:33:17,960 --> 00:33:19,960
which was my favourite.

489
00:33:22,960 --> 00:33:24,480
And...

490
00:33:26,960 --> 00:33:28,959
..I...

491
00:33:28,960 --> 00:33:31,960
just didn't wanna do anything.

492
00:33:32,960 --> 00:33:35,959
And did these episodes
become more frequent?

493
00:33:35,960 --> 00:33:38,960
Yeah, I missed a couple of days
of school quite a few times.

494
00:33:41,960 --> 00:33:44,319
But then summer, just gone.

495
00:33:44,320 --> 00:33:45,999
Three weeks?

496
00:33:46,000 --> 00:33:48,959
Yeah, no,
I-I couldn't get out of bed.

497
00:33:48,960 --> 00:33:52,959
Felt like pain, you know, like...
like real pain.

498
00:33:52,960 --> 00:33:54,320
I could... I could feel it.

499
00:33:56,960 --> 00:34:00,959
But no, that's...
that's the worst that it got.

500
00:34:00,960 --> 00:34:05,800
Until the other night,
when you contemplated suicide?

501
00:34:07,960 --> 00:34:10,960
Jonny, can you describe...?
No.

502
00:34:12,960 --> 00:34:15,000
Sorry. Can't.

503
00:34:16,960 --> 00:34:18,960
Not yet.
Then we'll wait.

504
00:34:20,960 --> 00:34:23,959
But we're making
really good progress.

505
00:34:23,960 --> 00:34:24,960
Don't you think?

506
00:34:28,320 --> 00:34:29,959
Yeah, yeah.

507
00:34:29,960 --> 00:34:30,960
I'll look forward
to our next session.

508
00:34:32,640 --> 00:34:35,960
Zipping up the hills.
That's why I clip in before I go.

509
00:34:37,160 --> 00:34:38,960
Morning, love.

510
00:34:39,960 --> 00:34:41,159
Morning.

511
00:34:41,160 --> 00:34:44,959
How was your, erm... you know?

512
00:34:44,960 --> 00:34:46,960
Therapy? Yeah, it was good.

513
00:34:51,960 --> 00:34:53,960
Mm.

514
00:34:55,960 --> 00:34:59,000
She's good... this therapist.

515
00:35:02,960 --> 00:35:06,960
All she wants from me is honesty.
For me to tell her the truth.

516
00:35:07,960 --> 00:35:09,959
Well, that... that makes sense.

517
00:35:09,960 --> 00:35:11,959
Yeah,
it's exactly what you need to do.

518
00:35:11,960 --> 00:35:15,320
Yeah, and then I come home...
and it's the opposite.

519
00:35:17,480 --> 00:35:18,960
It's like nothing here works.

520
00:35:20,960 --> 00:35:25,000
What? I mean, we can't even
tell each other really huge stuff.

521
00:35:26,960 --> 00:35:29,319
Like, I didn't even have
a proper conversation with you

522
00:35:29,320 --> 00:35:31,960
until... this week?

523
00:35:34,960 --> 00:35:37,960
And now I feel like
I don't even know you.

524
00:35:38,960 --> 00:35:40,959
We're not all touchy-feely.

525
00:35:40,960 --> 00:35:43,960
We're not,
and we might not ever be...

526
00:35:45,320 --> 00:35:47,319
..but if we're ever
gonna get stronger than this,

527
00:35:47,320 --> 00:35:48,959
something needs to change.

528
00:35:48,960 --> 00:35:51,959
And what?
How do you think we should change?

529
00:35:51,960 --> 00:35:54,480
I don't know, Andrew.
I don't know. I...

530
00:35:55,960 --> 00:35:57,960
But maybe the therapist can help.

531
00:35:59,640 --> 00:36:03,959
You know, if we actually
all go together and actually try.

532
00:36:03,960 --> 00:36:04,960
ANDREW SCOFFS

533
00:36:10,960 --> 00:36:12,160
Is that what you want?

534
00:36:20,960 --> 00:36:21,960
OK.

535
00:36:25,960 --> 00:36:27,160
Come here.

536
00:36:39,960 --> 00:36:43,640
When I said
I was in Ireland last summer...

537
00:36:44,960 --> 00:36:45,959
..I was really just lying in bed.

538
00:36:45,960 --> 00:36:47,960
For three weeks?

539
00:36:48,960 --> 00:36:51,960
For three weeks, yeah.

540
00:36:52,960 --> 00:36:54,640
It got worse after...

541
00:36:55,960 --> 00:36:58,480
..my dad, and then the party, and...

542
00:36:59,960 --> 00:37:00,960
And nearly...

543
00:37:03,640 --> 00:37:06,480
I mean, I came this close to...

544
00:37:08,960 --> 00:37:10,799
There were pills and...

545
00:37:10,800 --> 00:37:12,960
Shit, Jonny!
I know it's a lot to take in.

546
00:37:14,960 --> 00:37:15,960
You really thought about...?

547
00:37:17,960 --> 00:37:19,639
Yeah, I just...

548
00:37:19,640 --> 00:37:22,960
I just didn't wanna be here
any more.

549
00:37:24,960 --> 00:37:25,960
But I do now.

550
00:37:26,960 --> 00:37:28,159
Good.

551
00:37:28,160 --> 00:37:31,959
Cos that's fucking scary.
No, don't be scared.

552
00:37:31,960 --> 00:37:35,159
I don't mind you being worried,
or concerned or looking out for me,

553
00:37:35,160 --> 00:37:36,960
cos I know that means that...

554
00:37:38,960 --> 00:37:40,959
You know.

555
00:37:40,960 --> 00:37:43,960
But not scared.
Scared's no good to anyone.

556
00:37:44,960 --> 00:37:48,960
Everyone's got
their own stuff going on, so...

557
00:37:51,320 --> 00:37:53,960
HE INHALES DEEPLY,
SIGHS

558
00:37:55,960 --> 00:37:56,960
I kissed someone.

559
00:37:58,640 --> 00:37:59,959
Zia?

560
00:37:59,960 --> 00:38:02,959
No.
Bakery girl Sarah?

561
00:38:02,960 --> 00:38:04,000
No.
Then what's her name?

562
00:38:05,000 --> 00:38:06,160
Kyle.

563
00:38:07,960 --> 00:38:10,959
Is it... Regan's party,
you and him were outside, yeah?

564
00:38:10,960 --> 00:38:14,960
Yeah.
Are you two, like, dating?

565
00:38:15,960 --> 00:38:16,960
It's complicated.

566
00:38:18,480 --> 00:38:19,960
And I need to speak to Zia.

567
00:38:21,320 --> 00:38:23,959
Just be honest with her.

568
00:38:23,960 --> 00:38:25,160
I thought you and her were over?

569
00:38:26,000 --> 00:38:28,480
Yeah, no, we are. Yeah.

570
00:38:30,960 --> 00:38:32,960
That's cool that you told us.

571
00:38:36,960 --> 00:38:38,960
Come here, brother.

572
00:38:52,960 --> 00:38:54,960
DOOR OPENS

573
00:39:05,160 --> 00:39:06,320
Hi.

574
00:39:09,960 --> 00:39:11,959
Well, what happened to Canada?
Nothing.

575
00:39:11,960 --> 00:39:15,960
It's still there, as far as I know,
and I'm still here.

576
00:39:16,960 --> 00:39:18,960
So... here.

577
00:39:23,000 --> 00:39:24,959
Well, what's this?

578
00:39:24,960 --> 00:39:26,960
I thought I needed your money...

579
00:39:27,960 --> 00:39:31,800
..but turns out,
I don't need anything from you.

580
00:39:47,800 --> 00:39:49,959
NEVE: OK.
So, predicted scores for tonight?

581
00:39:49,960 --> 00:39:51,959
Er, ooh.

582
00:39:51,960 --> 00:39:54,959
Depends if LouLou plans on getting
stuck up a tree like last time.

583
00:39:54,960 --> 00:39:56,959
He so didn't need
to call the fire brigade.

584
00:39:56,960 --> 00:39:59,959
Nah, that night was definitely
a vibe. Hey, guys.

585
00:39:59,960 --> 00:40:01,959
LOUIS: Hello.
GIRLS: Hi.

586
00:40:01,960 --> 00:40:05,959
Was it always this freezing up here?
JAZ: Yeah, it's so cold.

587
00:40:05,960 --> 00:40:07,959
Well,
I've got some blankets in the car.

588
00:40:07,960 --> 00:40:09,479
Yeah, Gareth made me bring 'em.

589
00:40:09,480 --> 00:40:10,959
I could always go and get 'em
if you want?

590
00:40:10,960 --> 00:40:12,960
REGAN: Yes, please.
Do you want a hand?

591
00:40:14,960 --> 00:40:16,960
Yeah.
All right.

592
00:40:17,960 --> 00:40:19,159
ZIA GRUNTS
See ya!

593
00:40:19,160 --> 00:40:20,959
NEVE: Oi,
do you think she knows about Kyle?

594
00:40:20,960 --> 00:40:22,959
Oh, mate, I don't know.
Really?

595
00:40:22,960 --> 00:40:24,960
THEY CHUCKLE

596
00:40:31,960 --> 00:40:34,960
You all right?
Yeah, I....

597
00:40:35,960 --> 00:40:37,960
Oh, now we're talking.
GIRL: Yes.

598
00:40:40,960 --> 00:40:42,960
Hey.
Hey.

599
00:40:44,000 --> 00:40:46,960
So, you came back?
I needed to sort something out.

600
00:40:48,000 --> 00:40:50,959
Your dad?
Er, no. Something else.

601
00:40:50,960 --> 00:40:52,640
Anyway...

602
00:40:53,640 --> 00:40:56,320
Would I miss all of this?
THEY LAUGH SOFTLY

603
00:40:57,960 --> 00:40:59,000
Well, I'm really glad.

604
00:41:02,960 --> 00:41:04,959
Er, do you want to...?

605
00:41:04,960 --> 00:41:05,960
Yeah.

606
00:41:17,480 --> 00:41:18,959
Hi.
REGAN: Hey. Do you wanna drink?

607
00:41:18,960 --> 00:41:19,960
Yeah, thanks.

608
00:41:20,960 --> 00:41:22,959
Jonny?
Er, no, thanks.

609
00:41:22,960 --> 00:41:26,319
Ah, OK. But who are you, and
what have you done with real Jonny?

610
00:41:26,320 --> 00:41:27,960
Erm, well, this is the real Jonny.

611
00:42:03,960 --> 00:42:06,960
More here. Ooh, got it?
Yeah.

612
00:42:11,000 --> 00:42:14,960
OK.
Erm, so, er...

613
00:42:15,960 --> 00:42:19,959
Look, Zia,
I haven't been totally honest.

614
00:42:19,960 --> 00:42:20,960
There's, erm...

615
00:42:21,960 --> 00:42:25,960
There's, er...
er, something I need to tell you.

616
00:42:27,960 --> 00:42:30,960
Well, I... You don't need to.

617
00:42:33,960 --> 00:42:35,959
I don't?

618
00:42:35,960 --> 00:42:38,480
Not if what you're feeling
is the same thing I am.

619
00:42:57,640 --> 00:42:58,959
KYLE: Hey, guys.
NEVE: Hey, Kyle.

620
00:42:58,960 --> 00:43:00,319
GROUP: Hi.
You all right, mate?

621
00:43:00,320 --> 00:43:03,479
Yeah, I'm good.
I haven't been up here for ages.

622
00:43:03,480 --> 00:43:04,959
Yeah, innit?

623
00:43:04,960 --> 00:43:07,799
Is, er... Is Louis around?

624
00:43:07,800 --> 00:43:10,960
Yeah, yeah, man.
He's just over... there.

625
00:43:12,960 --> 00:43:16,960
Oh... Hi.
Hey.

626
00:43:18,960 --> 00:43:21,319
I'm Zia, by the way.
Ah.

627
00:43:21,320 --> 00:43:23,960
Here you are.
Thanks. I'm Kyle.

628
00:43:27,320 --> 00:43:29,959
Shall we get a drink, then?
Yes!

629
00:43:29,960 --> 00:43:31,159
Let's get a drink!
Let's do it.

630
00:43:31,160 --> 00:43:32,480
Here you go.

631
00:43:36,960 --> 00:43:39,960
Stop complaining now.
REGAN AND JAZ LAUGH

632
00:43:44,960 --> 00:43:46,960
MUSIC: '17'
by Youth Lagoon

633
00:43:51,000 --> 00:43:52,959
What are you doing here?

634
00:43:52,960 --> 00:43:55,960
Just came to hang out.
But, er, I wanted to say...

635
00:43:58,000 --> 00:43:59,959
..don't change.

636
00:43:59,960 --> 00:44:02,960
For anyone.
And especially not for me. OK?

637
00:44:05,960 --> 00:44:06,960
Is... Is that it?

638
00:44:10,960 --> 00:44:12,959
# Roaming the camp ground
Up by the lake... #

639
00:44:12,960 --> 00:44:14,000
Sorry.

640
00:44:15,960 --> 00:44:18,959
# We were hunting for snakes

641
00:44:18,960 --> 00:44:21,960
# But we couldn't find them... #

642
00:44:22,960 --> 00:44:27,959
JONNY: 'Ever had a day
that got you in a headlock,

643
00:44:27,960 --> 00:44:30,799
'stuck its tongue down your throat,

644
00:44:30,800 --> 00:44:33,960
'knocks you down
and puked you back up again?'

645
00:44:34,960 --> 00:44:37,960
Louis, come, get in closer. Smile!

646
00:44:40,960 --> 00:44:44,960
'I have. We all have.

647
00:44:47,480 --> 00:44:49,960
'And maybe no-one's ever
completely OK.

648
00:44:51,960 --> 00:44:53,480
'Maybe there's no such thing.

649
00:44:55,960 --> 00:44:57,960
'But you know what?

650
00:44:59,960 --> 00:45:00,960
'That's OK.'

651
00:45:01,960 --> 00:45:04,159
THEY CHEER

652
00:45:04,160 --> 00:45:06,959
# Said to me

653
00:45:06,960 --> 00:45:09,319
# Don't stop imagining

654
00:45:09,320 --> 00:45:11,959
# The day that you do
Is the day that you die

655
00:45:11,960 --> 00:45:15,479
# Now I pull a one-tonne carriage

656
00:45:15,480 --> 00:45:18,639
# Instead of the horses
Grazing the lawn

657
00:45:18,640 --> 00:45:21,479
# And I was having fun

658
00:45:21,480 --> 00:45:23,999
# We were all having fun

659
00:45:24,000 --> 00:45:26,959
# When I was 17

660
00:45:26,960 --> 00:45:29,959
# My mother said to me

661
00:45:29,960 --> 00:45:33,639
# Don't stop imagining

662
00:45:33,640 --> 00:45:36,639
# The day that you do
Is the day that you die

663
00:45:36,640 --> 00:45:38,959
# Now I pull
A one-tonne carriage... #

664
00:45:38,960 --> 00:45:40,960
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