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-ALAN: Candace! Candace?
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Get down here! Now!
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Sam just left.
He is going to kill his father.
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-What did you say to him?
-He decided
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that killing his father
would make him better.
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Would it?
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Well, no, I don't think so.
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He could come back here and...
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Are you sure it won't work?
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Candace, I understand
that this man was brutal to you.
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But I'm supposed to care
what happens to him?
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Well... yes. Yes, a little.
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Can I come in?
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You hungry?
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I've been in this position
many times.
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There's nothing you can do.
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I usually have a beer
and try to relax.
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Bathroom?
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Uh, around the corner.
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You think I'm some sort
of a monster, too.
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But I'm not.
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I'm like anybody else.
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When he's... out, like now...
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I'm so scared for him.
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I'm so sad for
the life he's living.
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But the families...
the people he does this to...
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I make up stories
in my head about them.
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I live it, in a way.
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I picture... them as babies,
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with their mothers holding them.
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Their fathers playing
with them on the floor.
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These poor men.
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But you won't call the police?
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Candace... you won't
save them from this?
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I can't.
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I cannot.
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God.
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Why did you used to hit me
so much when I was a kid?
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I don't know.
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How did it make you feel?
When you...?
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What?
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When you used to hit me
all the time.
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How did it make you feel?
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I don't know.
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Bad, I guess.
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You were a weird kid.
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You couldn't follow rules,
you couldn't play games,
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you didn't have any friends.
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And your mother was
reading all her books,
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telling me it was all my fault
you were like that.
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Anyway, I'm sorry.
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My therapist said
not to kill you.
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And then I left.
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How do you feel?
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I was choking him and I could
feel him disappearing,
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and I stopped.
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It was like I didn't want to.
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Why not?
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I-I don't know.
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I mean, he said he was sorry,
but fuck him, right?
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I just, I hate him so much
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and usually that feeling,
it makes me want to
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go ahead and...
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But I was on top of him,
and I hated him.
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And this time, that feeling,
it-it made me not want to.
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I...
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Hmm.
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Do you know why I didn't do it?
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What was different,
between your father,
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and everyone else
that you've hurt?
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I don't know.
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What's the obvious difference?
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He hurt me the most.
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Okay, good. What else?
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What's the most
obvious difference?
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He's my father.
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Right.
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Sam, you were on top of him...
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the one who treated you
like this.
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If you killed him,
you'd be doing it, too.
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Acting just like him.
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Being just like him.
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You hate that part of him.
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You are trying to be different.
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Trying to get rid of
that ugly part of him
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that lives inside of you.
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You were right to
confront your father.
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But you didn't need to kill him.
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You needed to not kill him.
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This is it, Sam.
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It is a major breakthrough,
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even if you're not quite
feeling it yet.
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Not killing your father is...
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You wanted to change.
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Look at you. You've changed.
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How does it feel?
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Okay. I guess.
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It's everything that
we have been working towards.
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You-you stopped yourself.
This is extraordinary.
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Thanks.
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-Hmm.
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I'm gonna go and
get some dinner.
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Uh, is there anything
in particular that you'd...
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I'm-I'm not really hungry
right now.
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I, um... Sam...
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It's time to let me go home.
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You're ready.
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And I need to get back
to my family.
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Sometimes therapists
talk with their patients
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about their own lives.
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Because... well, you know,
we're all human beings.
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We all are struggling,
every last one of us.
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So... I want you to understand
a few things about me.
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You have been struggling
with your father.
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And you just had
a big breakthrough.
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I'm in the middle of
a struggle with my son, too.
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And I need to get back to him
for our breakthrough.
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I did a lot of damage
to my son, too.
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I know it's not the same
as what your father did.
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But, Sam...
people don't deserve to die
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for falling short.
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No matter how short.
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We're all... broken vessels.
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I need to get back to my son.
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I want you to come see me in
my office for regular sessions,
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every day at first,
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but pretty soon we can
go to three days a week.
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I have enormous faith in you.
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I also want to address
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your completely understandable
concern, I assume,
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that, if you let me go,
I will turn you in.
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As a therapist, I have a
legal and ethical obligation
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to keep your confidence.
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Including any, um,
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crimes that you may have
committed in the past.
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It only gets thorny if you are
clearly going to kill somebody.
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And if, at some point
in the future,
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you have an overwhelming urge
to kill again,
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and you don't think
you'll be able to control it,
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that will be the moment for us
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to find a therapeutic
institution for you.
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But I don't see that happening.
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I think that, by not
killing your father,
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you have demonstrated
great progress
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and likely permanent change.
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I'm really proud of you.
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I am proud of the progress
that you have made.
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And I think that you will
continue to make progress.
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I'll be right back.
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I get what you've been saying.
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I've been rushing you.
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Because I want to get better.
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But therapy takes time.
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Years, you said, sometimes.
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So, I'll get a TV and...
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I can stock the fridge
with anything you want.
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It's a miracle that everyone
who was beaten like that
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doesn't become
a serial killer.
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Why wouldn't they,
after suffering like that?
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It's like an effort to
turn them into a serial killer
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that doesn't always work.
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That poor kid...
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with all of it...
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he somehow managed
to not kill his father.
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Maybe this fucking therapy
is working after all.
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We know this story.
He needs a replacement father.
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That's why he wants to keep you
here for the next ten years.
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He understands, maybe
intuitively, that he needs
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to do it again.
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To relive his life
with a different model.
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Well, I'm not spending
the next ten years down here.
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No, you're not.
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A little meshuggener, maybe.
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Sam?
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Sam, could you
come out here, please?
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Sam, I don't think...
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I don't think that
I said what really
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needed to be said yesterday.
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It has been a problem
down here for me,
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to always know exactly
how to communicate with you.
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And to know what I'm feeling.
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I have something to say
that may be difficult to hear.
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That is part of
this process, though,
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honestly sharing the truth,
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even if it's hard.
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You brought me down here,
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and you asked me to treat you,
and I did.
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And I can't do it anymore.
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I have done the most I can.
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And I am telling you,
in my professional opinion,
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and I consider this
to be a near certainty,
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for you to get better, you
need to be physically stopped
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from acting out your compulsion.
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Being physically prevented
from hurting anyone else
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is what will give you
the freedom to actually heal
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your heart and your mind.
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It's what will give you
the space to heal
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what your father did to you.
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As much as it can be, Sam.
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That kind of pain
never heals entirely.
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But you can do enough of it to
allow you to live a better life.
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Sam, I have so much respect
for what you're trying to do.
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It's very brave.
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In the whole history of
people who have struggled
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with what you're
struggling with,
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I bet you stand alone
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in the strength of
your efforts to change.
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And...
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...it's time to
turn yourself in.
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Call the police
and turn yourself in.
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I now know, apart from
anything having to do with me,
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this is the only way for you.
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Our therapy is over.
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You need to make a choice.
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I'm making one,
and you have to make one, too.
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My choice is that I am not
doing therapy with you anymore.
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Your choice--
you can turn yourself in,
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or you can end this
the other way.
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I don't want to do that.
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Either one.
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I know. But it's time.
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And I'm not going to live
down here like a pet.
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Thank you.
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I know you want to go home...
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but... he's not ready.
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He's not.
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Candace, this needs to end now.
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No matter what happens,
we can't leave anything unsaid.
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This is going to
be hard to hear,
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and I want you to know
that I am saying it
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not just in my best interests,
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but in yours and Sam's as well.
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When he was a boy and
his father was abusing him,
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you didn't take
any steps to stop it.
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You didn't leave or get help.
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It wasn't your fault,
you didn't know what to do.
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But you did not protect him.
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You did not protect your son.
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-Ah! What are you doing?
-Sam! Sam?!
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Ow, ow! Stop.
What are you doing, Dr. Strauss?
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Sam, come downstairs
right now! Stop!
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I am sorry to be
in this position.
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I don't want to be doing this.
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I care about you, Sam,
I really do.
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But-- No, no! Stop!
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But I will kill her if
you don't call the police.
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Sam, I...
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Do it, Sam,
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-or I will cut her throat.
-Sam, please.
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-Dr. Strauss, you...
-I don't want to.
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I don't want to, Sam. What I
want is for you to call 911,
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and turn yourself in,
you have to. Turn yourself in!
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-Or I will do it!
-He's just bluffing, Mom.
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All he wants to do
is get out of here.
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I am not, Sam. Call 911!
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I-I don't--
I don't believe you...
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I am not bluffing, Sam!
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I am going to kill her.
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You said we shouldn't interrupt
each other down here!
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Goddamn it, we let
each other finish!
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You... you said
I was getting better.
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You-- I believed you.
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I told you last night.
You cannot get better
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unless you are stopped from
acting out your compulsions.
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That is the only way out
for you.
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This is the only way out for me.
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Make your choice.
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I don't want to.
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Then your mother's going to die.
And you'll kill me.
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I don't think you're the kind
of man that can even do it.
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CHAVA:
Alan?
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Alan?
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Are you okay?
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Just a bad dream.
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About when you were... away?
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Not exactly.
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Then what was it?
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I'll tell you in
about ten years.
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Keep your stuff together,
here we go.
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Everyone, let's go.
It's dinnertime.
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I'm just saying, I don't know
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how Shmuel ended up
being the coach.
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Shush. Dov likes him.
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You can't shield him
from the truth.
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I'm not so sure about that.
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Coach Shmuel was captain
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of the intermural baseball team
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-at UMass.
-Yes, we know.
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We all know. That's my point.
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Thank you.
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Stop! Stop! Stop! Don't!
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Don't, Sam!
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Stop! Stop! Stop!
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No! No...
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No, no, no...
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Oh, Sam.
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SAM:
"Dear children of Dr. Strauss,
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"I am writing to
let you know the bad news
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"that your dad is dead.
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"He helped me a lot.
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"I know from him it's important
for you Jews to have a body
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"when someone dies, so I
put it where you can find it.
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"It's ten yards back
in the trees
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"by the northwest entrance
to Finch Ridge Preserve.
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I am enclosing a letter
he left for you."
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ALAN:
"Dear Shoshana and Ezra,
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"I love you both so much.
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"I'm sorry this happened to you,
and I'm sorry it happened to me.
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"But here we are.
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"I want you to know
I haven't suffered.
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"And I've had a lot
of time to think.
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-"You know I like to do that.
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"The two of you gave my life,
and your mother's life, meaning.
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"All parents love
their children,
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"but no one loved their kids
more than we did.
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"You are extraordinary people.
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"I want you both to go forward
without my death
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"defining your lives.
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"I also want to make sure that
some of the conflicts we had
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"don't define how you remember
our relationships either.
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"Shoshana, you and I and
your mother had our issues,
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"but mostly it has been easy
and full of caring.
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-"I thank you for that gift.
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"You are the brightest,
most extraordinary young woman
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"I can imagine.
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"In these dark times,
I have thought about you
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"and your beautiful family
constantly,
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"and it has given me joy,
pride and solace.
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"Ezra, my dear son,
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"you are a bright light
in this world.
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"We both know it hasn't been
such smooth sailing between us.
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"And your mother.
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"I have spent a lot of time
thinking back on everything
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"that happened,
and I see things now
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"that I was unable to grasp
when they were happening.
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"I want you to know
that I understand now
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"everything you said to me.
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00:38:03,614 --> 00:38:06,325
"You were right. Mostly.
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"I was judgmental, I didn't
accept you for who you were,
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00:38:11,622 --> 00:38:14,583
"and worst of all,
I allowed your mother
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"to take the blame for this,
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00:38:16,294 --> 00:38:20,631
"when I was as much
at fault as anyone.
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"More.
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"I want you to know that
I see this and I'm sorry.
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"Through it all,
I always loved you.
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"And I want you to know
how very much
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"I respect who you are
and the choices you've made.
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"You've built a beautiful family
and a beautiful life.
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You are a special
and truly wonderful person."
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A little meshuggener, maybe.
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SAM:
I think I really changed.
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The therapy worked.
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I'm not going to do it again.
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I am never going to
hurt anyone again.
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00:40:07,363 --> 00:40:09,740
That's not true.
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00:40:09,824 --> 00:40:12,701
You're going to do it again.
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We both know it.
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Mom! Can you come down here?!
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Did you know him?
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00:42:33,926 --> 00:42:36,053
Not personally.
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00:42:36,136 --> 00:42:38,681
I have colleagues who
were students of his.
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And I read his book.
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00:42:40,891 --> 00:42:43,227
You know, I never read it.
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00:42:44,687 --> 00:42:47,773
I don't even have a copy.
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00:42:47,856 --> 00:42:50,442
Although, I think
I'm about to inherit
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like three boxes of them.
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00:42:52,903 --> 00:42:56,949
I think one of the sections
is on parenting.
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00:42:57,032 --> 00:42:59,034
Huh.
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00:42:59,118 --> 00:43:01,287
I guess I should read it.
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00:43:04,790 --> 00:43:06,875
So, how are you getting along?
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00:43:10,421 --> 00:43:13,132
What happened was...
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I'm just worried for my kids.
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And my wife.
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And my sister.
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What about you?
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It's been hard, but I'm okay.
377
00:43:45,748 --> 00:43:49,084
Do you want to tell me a little
more about yourself, Ezra?
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00:43:50,836 --> 00:43:55,299
I'm... I'm not sure
where to start.
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00:43:55,382 --> 00:43:58,010
Really anywhere's okay.
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I...