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(wind blowing)

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(groaning)

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(shuddering)

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Viktor.

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Viktor.

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Wake up, Viktor.

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(yelps)

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You were having a nightmare.

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Didn't you read my book?

10
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I said not to wake
the person up.

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(gasps)

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(breathes heavily)

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(metal scraping)

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(scraping continues)

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(chain rattles)

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Sharper than it looks.

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I mean, a little.

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Good.

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And it's perfectly normal

20
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to want to kill a patient that's
leaving therapy prematurely.

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(chuckles)

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CHARLIE:
Your dream.

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(sighs)

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Auschwitz.

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Viktor Frankl is lying there,
having a nightmare.

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Remember what he said not
to do, in his book?

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Reality is worse
than a nightmare

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when you're in Auschwitz--
don't wake him up.

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I woke him up.

30
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Maybe the dream
is trying to say...

31
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the human spirit can prevail.

32
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You should keep working,

33
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keep being a therapist,
no matter what.

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How's it saying that?

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I don't know.
That's in his book.

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Or maybe it's telling me,
don't die like a fucking sheep.

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Sam!

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(louder):
Sam!

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I know it's early.

40
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I'm sorry to wake you up,
but there's some things

41
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that we need to discuss.

42
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We need to talk
before you go to work.

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Please sit.

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I don't think that you should go
to see a new therapist.

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Sometimes it's true, a patient
needs to try somebody else.

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But sometimes it is a way
of running away.

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And I think that

48
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is what is happening here.

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And I think we're making
real progress.

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You are opening up more
than you ever did before.

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You are trying
to contain your impulses,

52
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even if we haven't found
anything that works yet.

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I know things are getting
worse right now.

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It's part of the process.

55
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It's where the cliché
comes from,

56
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things get worse
before they get better.

57
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I've come to care
about you, Sam,

58
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as I always do
with my patients.

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You and I have developed
a relationship.

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No matter how strange
the situation is,

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that's the bottom line.

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Therapists and patients develop
genuine feelings.

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I know there are feelings,
but...

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(sighs)

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I told you, it's not working.

66
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And I'm going to see
Mr. Buchella next week.

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That still gives us a week.

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Let's see what we can
accomplish, hmm?

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At least send you off to him
in the best shape we can.

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I know what you're trying to do.

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(snorts)
Of course, I'm a human being.

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I don't want you to get
another therapist

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and then kill me.

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(chuckles)

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Sam, you can leave this room
at any time,

76
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you are not chained
to the floor,

77
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but I have some things
to say.

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(sighs)

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I am going to tell you
about a man named Viktor Frankl.

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He was a psychiatrist in Austria
in the 1930s and '40s.

81
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He survived the Nazi
concentration camps,

82
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and he wrote a book called
<i>Man's Search for Meaning.</i>

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And his main point is that

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people need meaning
in their lives,

85
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probably more
than anything else.

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And I think that is a way
for you to take your next step.

87
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So, the deepest place
that we can find meaning

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is in relationships.

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We all need friends and romance,
people to be close to.

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For everyone,
that's what fills us up.

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That's what makes life
good to live.

92
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And without it,
anyone can go to dark places.

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(sighs)

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So, like Mary.

95
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Yes, like Mary.

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When I was with her,
I didn't feel any different.

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I understand,
but you're changing now.

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If you had a girlfriend now,

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I bet it would be different.

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For some reason, I'm just,
I'm not...

101
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I'm not great at meeting women.

102
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How did you meet Mary?

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We went to high school
together.

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We were, like, friends, kind of.

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And then my mom went to her
for physical therapy

106
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when she broke her wrist,

107
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and Mom gave her my number.

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That's good.

109
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Obviously, when she called,
you handled it well.

110
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Maybe you're better with women
than you think.

111
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What attracted you to Mary?

112
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(sighs)

113
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I, I-- can we not talk
about Mary, please?

114
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ALAN:
Why?

115
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She didn't want
the marriage to end.

116
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But she didn't know
if I loved her.

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<i>Loved </i>loved her.

118
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Maybe I could get
some meaning from Hara.

119
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Our kid in Bangladesh.

120
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Mary and me would lie in bed

121
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sometimes and she would pretend
that we were all together.

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Us and Hara.

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Mm-hmm, that sounds nice.

124
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But then, other times,
if she didn't understand

125
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or agree with something that
I was trying to say to her,

126
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she would... get really upset.

127
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She... did I tell you she
complained all the time?

128
00:09:05,044 --> 00:09:07,046
She wasn't...

129
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Wasn't what?

130
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I don't know.

131
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Maybe she didn't have
enough meaning in her life.

132
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I wish I could meet her.

133
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Why?

134
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If I could see
the two of you together,

135
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I could help figure out

136
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if this is the right direction
for you to go in.

137
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Therapists can figure out what
two people go best together?

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It's hard to predict
what couples will work.

139
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But sometimes we can make
a pretty good guess

140
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about what won't work.

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Mm.

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This is going to sound
kind of strange.

143
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But I wonder, is there a way
that I could meet her?

144
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I mean, not in person,
but...

145
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On the phone?

146
00:10:00,600 --> 00:10:02,727
Yeah, maybe, or...

147
00:10:02,810 --> 00:10:04,562
(scoffs)

148
00:10:04,645 --> 00:10:08,190
Maybe you could have her over

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00:10:08,274 --> 00:10:10,860
for lunch or dinner, upstairs.

150
00:10:10,943 --> 00:10:16,115
You could leave the door open,
talk loudly.

151
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That's a terrible idea.

152
00:10:17,325 --> 00:10:20,453
(stammers) Yeah, yeah.

153
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Or, you know,

154
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my daughter, with her kids,
had this nanny cam.

155
00:10:29,170 --> 00:10:31,547
And she could see and hear
everything

156
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that they were doing in
their room.

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Maybe you could get
one of those.

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And I could watch

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and hear you two interacting.

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And then I could give you
my professional opinion.

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00:10:45,728 --> 00:10:48,939
That feels like it would be...

162
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not honest.

163
00:10:51,859 --> 00:10:54,654
It's normally not healthy
to spy on another person,

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especially someone
you are trying

165
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to explore
a trusting relationship with.

166
00:11:01,118 --> 00:11:04,955
But these are
extreme circumstances.

167
00:11:09,543 --> 00:11:11,587
Hmm.

168
00:11:13,089 --> 00:11:15,883
Mom?!

169
00:11:15,966 --> 00:11:18,886
Can you come down here?

170
00:11:22,932 --> 00:11:24,934
-(door opens)
-(footsteps approaching)

171
00:11:26,477 --> 00:11:27,645
I'm inviting Mary over

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for brunch.

173
00:11:29,355 --> 00:11:30,523
What?

174
00:11:30,606 --> 00:11:33,526
I'm inviting Mary
over for brunch.

175
00:11:33,609 --> 00:11:37,029
Dr. Strauss wants to meet her,
he's gonna watch on a nanny cam.

176
00:11:37,113 --> 00:11:40,032
I'm not sure I...

177
00:11:41,534 --> 00:11:43,786
You want Mary to come over?

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00:11:43,869 --> 00:11:48,207
I was telling Sam he needs
to develop more relationships

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in order to expand the meaning

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in his life.

181
00:11:51,711 --> 00:11:54,714
I think that kind of meaning
can start to help take the place

182
00:11:54,797 --> 00:11:56,716
of his problematic obsessions.

183
00:11:56,799 --> 00:11:59,343
But... Mary?

184
00:11:59,427 --> 00:12:03,013
-Shouldn't it be someone new?
-Maybe.

185
00:12:03,097 --> 00:12:06,517
But my thinking is,
he's already gotten very far

186
00:12:06,600 --> 00:12:08,519
in his relationship with Mary.

187
00:12:08,602 --> 00:12:09,603
-(phone chimes)
-And at this point,

188
00:12:09,687 --> 00:12:11,605
-he has a strong need to...
-SAM: She's coming.

189
00:12:11,689 --> 00:12:15,025
Tomorrow at 10:00.

190
00:12:16,736 --> 00:12:18,571
Well...

191
00:12:18,654 --> 00:12:20,656
I always liked Mary.

192
00:12:25,161 --> 00:12:28,330
(metal scraping)

193
00:12:41,010 --> 00:12:42,511
(sighs)

194
00:12:52,855 --> 00:12:55,649
CHARLIE: You already got Elias
killed.

195
00:12:55,733 --> 00:12:58,486
That wasn't totally your fault.

196
00:12:58,569 --> 00:13:00,946
But if Sam chokes Mary to death?

197
00:13:01,030 --> 00:13:03,324
That's a hundred percent on you.

198
00:13:03,407 --> 00:13:04,825
What do you want me to do?

199
00:13:04,909 --> 00:13:07,119
I'm not the Terminator.

200
00:13:07,203 --> 00:13:09,538
I stab him with this bullshit
half-knife,

201
00:13:09,622 --> 00:13:13,501
what, is he just gonna lie down
on the floor and bleed out?

202
00:13:13,584 --> 00:13:15,669
I'll be lucky if I get
one good jab in.

203
00:13:15,753 --> 00:13:19,715
But with Mary upstairs,
I can stab him,

204
00:13:19,799 --> 00:13:21,592
scream,
and she'll call the police.

205
00:13:21,675 --> 00:13:24,053
Him going for this
is a fucking miracle.

206
00:13:24,136 --> 00:13:26,514
It's a gift from God.

207
00:13:26,597 --> 00:13:28,891
Except you're assuming,
when you stab him

208
00:13:28,974 --> 00:13:32,102
with your foot cream tube
and scream for help,

209
00:13:32,186 --> 00:13:35,606
his mom won't just whomp Mary
over the head with a frying pan.

210
00:13:35,689 --> 00:13:38,108
Right, that's what I'm assuming.

211
00:13:38,192 --> 00:13:41,737
A Hail Mary with Mary.

212
00:14:00,840 --> 00:14:02,216
<i>Can you hear me?</i>

213
00:14:02,299 --> 00:14:03,926
I can hear!

214
00:14:13,060 --> 00:14:16,355
They didn't have these
when my kids were babies.

215
00:14:19,817 --> 00:14:22,152
-Dr. Strauss.
-Mm.

216
00:14:22,236 --> 00:14:25,030
You're not gonna...

217
00:14:26,490 --> 00:14:28,200
You probably think

218
00:14:28,284 --> 00:14:30,953
that I wouldn't hurt Mary
because I care about her.

219
00:14:31,996 --> 00:14:34,248
And that's true.

220
00:14:37,626 --> 00:14:41,714
But if-if you did
something stupid

221
00:14:41,797 --> 00:14:44,300
and she found out
that you were down here...

222
00:14:44,383 --> 00:14:47,511
if you created a situation where
I had no other choice, I...

223
00:14:47,595 --> 00:14:51,056
Sam, my only goal

224
00:14:51,140 --> 00:14:53,851
is for this brunch date
to go well for you.

225
00:14:59,648 --> 00:15:01,400
What are you serving?

226
00:15:01,483 --> 00:15:03,777
Indian from Maruti.

227
00:15:03,861 --> 00:15:05,654
Mmm, does Mary like Indian?

228
00:15:05,738 --> 00:15:07,114
No, not that much.

229
00:15:07,197 --> 00:15:10,659
I... you know, Sam,
I would encourage you

230
00:15:10,743 --> 00:15:12,745
to think about what she might
like to eat.

231
00:15:12,828 --> 00:15:14,747
You're the host,

232
00:15:14,830 --> 00:15:17,333
and you want her
to have a good time, right?

233
00:15:18,626 --> 00:15:19,752
Yeah.

234
00:15:21,086 --> 00:15:22,254
That's a good idea.

235
00:15:30,930 --> 00:15:32,973
What do I say to her?

236
00:15:33,057 --> 00:15:37,645
Well... you guys used
to talk, right?

237
00:15:37,728 --> 00:15:40,022
Yeah.

238
00:15:41,565 --> 00:15:43,776
Would you be comfortable
trying some role-play?

239
00:15:43,859 --> 00:15:45,152
That's where you practice

240
00:15:45,235 --> 00:15:47,196
a situation that you're going
to be in.

241
00:15:47,279 --> 00:15:48,864
I can play the part of Mary,

242
00:15:48,948 --> 00:15:52,242
and we could just try
to have a conversation.

243
00:15:52,326 --> 00:15:55,162
Like a real,
like a real conversation?

244
00:15:55,245 --> 00:15:57,456
Yes.

245
00:15:57,539 --> 00:16:01,669
Why don't you try saying,
"How have you been?"

246
00:16:03,253 --> 00:16:05,130
How have you been?

247
00:16:05,214 --> 00:16:08,550
How, how have, how have you--
how have you been?

248
00:16:08,634 --> 00:16:11,095
How have you been?

249
00:16:11,178 --> 00:16:14,223
Pretty good, how about you?

250
00:16:16,266 --> 00:16:19,228
Pretty good, pretty good.

251
00:16:19,311 --> 00:16:23,273
Pretty good, I've been pretty,
I've been pretty good.

252
00:16:23,357 --> 00:16:25,359
I've been pretty good--
can I be Mary?

253
00:16:25,442 --> 00:16:27,444
Uh... sure, yes.

254
00:16:27,528 --> 00:16:30,531
Let's try that.

255
00:16:30,614 --> 00:16:34,326
It's so good to see you again,
Mary, how have you been?

256
00:16:37,830 --> 00:16:40,207
Pretty good, how about you?

257
00:16:40,290 --> 00:16:42,876
Um, I've been doing okay.

258
00:16:42,960 --> 00:16:45,295
A lot going on at work.

259
00:16:45,379 --> 00:16:47,423
How are things going
at work for you?

260
00:16:49,633 --> 00:16:51,885
Pretty good.

261
00:16:55,222 --> 00:16:56,724
I don't want to do this.

262
00:17:11,280 --> 00:17:12,406
Dr. Strauss.

263
00:17:13,949 --> 00:17:15,367
If...

264
00:17:16,577 --> 00:17:19,163
If Mary and I had a baby...

265
00:17:21,457 --> 00:17:23,834
...would it be like me?

266
00:17:27,588 --> 00:17:31,008
Nobody knows how their kids
are going to turn out, Sam.

267
00:17:50,611 --> 00:17:52,613
♪ ♪

268
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♪ ♪

269
00:18:52,297 --> 00:18:54,299
♪ ♪

270
00:18:56,844 --> 00:19:00,556
(grunting)

271
00:19:03,934 --> 00:19:06,603
(deep breath)

272
00:19:20,450 --> 00:19:22,619
(silverware clinking)

273
00:19:22,703 --> 00:19:24,997
This is the, uh,
Waldorf salad from Milo's.

274
00:19:25,080 --> 00:19:27,958
Oh... I love that.

275
00:19:28,041 --> 00:19:30,752
But you didn't have to get me
something special.

276
00:19:30,836 --> 00:19:33,422
You get gas when you
eat Indian food.

277
00:19:40,804 --> 00:19:43,056
(Sam sighs, clears throat)

278
00:19:54,610 --> 00:19:56,486
(grunts)

279
00:20:21,637 --> 00:20:25,474
(sighs deeply)

280
00:20:39,821 --> 00:20:41,865
Mm.

281
00:20:41,949 --> 00:20:43,116
The salad's great.

282
00:20:55,671 --> 00:20:57,005
Mm.

283
00:20:59,299 --> 00:21:02,511
A Jew was sentenced
to death.

284
00:21:03,971 --> 00:21:06,723
A British guy says...

285
00:21:06,807 --> 00:21:08,100
No, he's French.

286
00:21:08,183 --> 00:21:10,310
French guy.

287
00:21:10,394 --> 00:21:13,689
A French guy said to kill him
with the guillotine.

288
00:21:13,772 --> 00:21:15,941
He's-- he's sentenced
to death, too.

289
00:21:16,024 --> 00:21:19,069
<i>That's the-- they're all--</i>
<i>so the British guy--</i>

290
00:21:19,152 --> 00:21:20,821
<i>there's another British guy</i>
<i>there, and...</i>

291
00:21:20,904 --> 00:21:25,284
The British guy...
sentenced to death...

292
00:21:25,367 --> 00:21:27,286
he wanted to be shot

293
00:21:27,369 --> 00:21:30,497
in the head, he says,

294
00:21:30,580 --> 00:21:31,999
"Uh, shoot me."

295
00:21:32,082 --> 00:21:33,750
So they shoot him in the head.

296
00:21:33,834 --> 00:21:38,380
<i>And the Jewish guy--</i>
<i>they said, "How?"</i>

297
00:21:38,463 --> 00:21:40,382
They said, "How?"

298
00:21:40,465 --> 00:21:45,220
And then the Jewish guy says,
"Old age."

299
00:21:47,306 --> 00:21:49,933
(sighs)

300
00:21:51,810 --> 00:21:53,020
I'll be right back.

301
00:21:59,484 --> 00:22:00,652
<i>CANDACE:</i>
<i>Some more tea?</i>

302
00:22:00,736 --> 00:22:02,070
<i>MARY:</i>
<i>Oh, no, I'm good, thank you.</i>

303
00:22:02,154 --> 00:22:05,157
-(door opens)
-(footsteps approaching)

304
00:22:06,533 --> 00:22:07,701
<i>CANDACE:</i>
<i>I have all these kinds of tea.</i>

305
00:22:07,784 --> 00:22:10,162
<i>A whole cabinet.</i>

306
00:22:10,245 --> 00:22:11,955
<i>I don't even remember</i>
<i>buying it all.</i>

307
00:22:14,082 --> 00:22:15,667
(quietly):
It's going really bad.

308
00:22:15,751 --> 00:22:18,545
I don't,
I don't know what to say.

309
00:22:18,628 --> 00:22:21,340
I think you should try asking
her a question.

310
00:22:21,423 --> 00:22:25,177
Either what's going on at work,
or how's her family?

311
00:22:27,095 --> 00:22:29,598
Okay.

312
00:22:29,681 --> 00:22:31,475
<i>CANDACE:</i>
<i>How are your parents, Mary?</i>

313
00:22:31,558 --> 00:22:34,102
<i>MARY:</i>
<i>Normal, I guess.</i>

314
00:22:34,186 --> 00:22:35,771
Why is this so hard?

315
00:22:35,854 --> 00:22:38,982
It just is.
It's hard for everyone.

316
00:22:39,066 --> 00:22:40,692
<i>CANDACE:</i>
<i>Your dad okay?</i>

317
00:22:40,776 --> 00:22:42,694
<i>MARY:</i>
<i>Yeah, he's doing okay.</i>

318
00:22:42,778 --> 00:22:45,822
<i>He's not walking</i>
<i>like he used to.</i>

319
00:22:45,906 --> 00:22:48,241
<i>Mom thinks he needs</i>
<i>cataract surgery.</i>

320
00:22:50,827 --> 00:22:52,704
<i>At our age, it all goes wrong</i>

321
00:22:52,788 --> 00:22:55,248
<i>one thing at a time,</i>
<i>but I'm sure he'll be fine.</i>

322
00:22:55,332 --> 00:22:57,501
<i>MARY: Yeah, that's what he says--</i>
<i>"It'll be fine."</i>

323
00:22:57,584 --> 00:22:59,419
<i>But then we'll be, like,</i>
<i>in the middle of dinner...</i>

324
00:23:00,837 --> 00:23:03,256
You're gonna get
that girl killed.

325
00:23:05,092 --> 00:23:07,844
<i>CANDACE: It's easy to take it</i>
<i>for granted.</i>

326
00:23:07,928 --> 00:23:09,388
(choking)

327
00:23:10,430 --> 00:23:12,349
<i>MARY: I've been trying</i>
<i>to exercise more.</i>

328
00:23:12,432 --> 00:23:14,518
<i>CANDACE:</i>
<i>Good for you.</i>

329
00:23:14,601 --> 00:23:16,603
I should get back up.

330
00:23:18,230 --> 00:23:19,898
<i>MARY:</i>
<i>It's so boring.</i>

331
00:23:22,275 --> 00:23:24,277
You don't like
the lox and bagels?

332
00:23:24,361 --> 00:23:26,029
<i>CANDACE:</i>
<i>I wish.</i>

333
00:23:26,113 --> 00:23:27,447
<i>One day.</i>

334
00:23:27,531 --> 00:23:29,533
I'd rather have Indian.

335
00:23:30,575 --> 00:23:33,245
Okay. I might need more advice.

336
00:23:33,328 --> 00:23:37,666
<i>MARY: You know that pill that stops</i>
<i>you from having a heart attack?</i>

337
00:23:37,749 --> 00:23:39,209
<i>There are all these people</i>

338
00:23:39,292 --> 00:23:42,671
<i>who just eat whatever they want,</i>
<i>don't exercise,</i>

339
00:23:42,754 --> 00:23:45,674
<i>and then they take</i>
<i>these pills called statins.</i>

340
00:23:47,509 --> 00:23:48,677
<i>CANDACE:</i>
<i>Maybe that should be plan B.</i>

341
00:23:48,760 --> 00:23:51,096
-(sighs deeply)
<i>-MARY: Probably.</i>

342
00:23:52,264 --> 00:23:54,599
<i>Heart attacks--</i>
<i>they don't really scare me</i>

343
00:23:54,683 --> 00:23:56,143
<i>too much, though.</i>

344
00:23:56,226 --> 00:23:58,895
Strokes, on the other hand.

345
00:23:58,979 --> 00:24:00,689
I don't think it runs
in the family,

346
00:24:00,772 --> 00:24:03,066
but, well, who knows?

347
00:24:04,651 --> 00:24:06,319
(Sam sniffs)

348
00:24:08,405 --> 00:24:10,991
So, how have you been doing
at work lately?

349
00:24:11,074 --> 00:24:12,909
Good.

350
00:24:12,993 --> 00:24:15,120
Um, do you remember Carolina?

351
00:24:15,203 --> 00:24:18,206
-Mm.
-She left about two months ago,

352
00:24:18,290 --> 00:24:21,042
and they haven't replaced her,
so I'm doing everything.

353
00:24:21,126 --> 00:24:22,586
SAM:
Are they going to replace her?

354
00:24:22,669 --> 00:24:25,797
They haven't even listed
the position yet.

355
00:24:25,881 --> 00:24:28,800
You're gonna have to keep
doing all of her work.

356
00:24:28,884 --> 00:24:29,926
That's not fair.

357
00:24:30,010 --> 00:24:33,555
Yeah, well, fair...

358
00:24:39,019 --> 00:24:41,354
<i>You're never going</i>
<i>to believe this, but...</i>

359
00:24:41,438 --> 00:24:44,316
I kind of miss the La-Z-Boy.

360
00:24:44,399 --> 00:24:45,692
(all chuckling)

361
00:24:45,775 --> 00:24:47,068
It's very comfortable.

362
00:24:47,152 --> 00:24:49,529
-Hmm.
-Yeah.

363
00:24:49,613 --> 00:24:52,657
I could, I could bring it back

364
00:24:52,782 --> 00:24:53,783
-if you want.
-Oh, no, that's okay.

365
00:24:53,867 --> 00:24:55,660
-No?
-No.

366
00:24:55,744 --> 00:25:00,165
<i>MARY: I have other good chairs,</i>
<i>and the couch.</i>

367
00:25:00,248 --> 00:25:02,334
That chair was his father's.

368
00:25:05,545 --> 00:25:07,380
My father beat me up a lot.

369
00:25:08,548 --> 00:25:10,425
When I was a kid.

370
00:25:10,509 --> 00:25:13,303
That's why I went into therapy.

371
00:25:14,596 --> 00:25:15,972
MARY:
Oh...

372
00:25:16,056 --> 00:25:19,017
Sam.

373
00:25:23,021 --> 00:25:24,648
<i>MARY:</i>
<i>So, my parents got a new cat.</i>

374
00:25:26,525 --> 00:25:29,027
The old one, well,
he's not old...

375
00:25:31,112 --> 00:25:33,198
Let me help you with that,
and then I need to get home.

376
00:25:33,281 --> 00:25:34,783
CANDACE:
No, no, dear, just let me do it.

377
00:25:38,537 --> 00:25:41,790
Help, Mary, I'm Sam's prisoner
down here!

378
00:25:41,873 --> 00:25:43,583
Call the police! Help!

379
00:26:01,017 --> 00:26:04,020
<i>SAM: So, uh, okay, let me</i>
<i>walk you to your car.</i>

380
00:26:19,953 --> 00:26:22,497
(chain rattling)

381
00:26:38,305 --> 00:26:40,307
(engine starts)

382
00:27:02,829 --> 00:27:04,706
Mary left.

383
00:27:06,124 --> 00:27:08,043
She said

384
00:27:08,126 --> 00:27:13,131
she thinks it's good for exes
to have a friendly relationship.

385
00:27:14,341 --> 00:27:17,886
And she thinks that we should do
this once a year.

386
00:27:20,388 --> 00:27:22,057
What are you feeling?

387
00:27:22,140 --> 00:27:25,685
Mary's not going to get
back together with me.

388
00:27:27,103 --> 00:27:29,898
How does that make you feel?

389
00:27:29,981 --> 00:27:31,191
Bad.

390
00:27:33,068 --> 00:27:35,028
Sad.

391
00:27:39,074 --> 00:27:43,161
That was a mistake,
her coming here was...

392
00:27:43,244 --> 00:27:45,121
Why did you have me do that?

393
00:27:45,205 --> 00:27:47,749
ALAN:
N-No, that's wrong.

394
00:27:47,832 --> 00:27:50,168
It wasn't a mistake.

395
00:27:50,251 --> 00:27:52,462
This is very important for you.

396
00:27:52,545 --> 00:27:56,841
To find meaningful
relationships.

397
00:27:56,925 --> 00:28:01,137
It means taking risks
and getting hurt.

398
00:28:01,221 --> 00:28:04,140
Then taking another risk
and getting hurt again.

399
00:28:04,224 --> 00:28:07,686
Until you find
relationships that work.

400
00:28:07,769 --> 00:28:10,689
And that is exactly
what life requires.

401
00:28:10,772 --> 00:28:14,776
-I don't feel good.
-Yes, that's part of it.

402
00:28:14,859 --> 00:28:17,779
And that pain
is telling you something.

403
00:28:17,862 --> 00:28:20,990
You've been following it
in the wrong direction.

404
00:28:21,074 --> 00:28:24,494
But now that you're getting
to know yourself better,

405
00:28:24,577 --> 00:28:26,579
it will tell you
where you need to go.

406
00:28:26,663 --> 00:28:28,832
I promise.

407
00:28:28,915 --> 00:28:31,918
It doesn't matter.

408
00:28:32,001 --> 00:28:34,796
I'm going to see
Mr. Buchella next week.

409
00:28:38,758 --> 00:28:40,218
What are you going to tell him?

410
00:28:40,301 --> 00:28:42,512
I'll tell him the same stuff
I told you.

411
00:28:42,595 --> 00:28:45,473
But hopefully it works with him.

412
00:28:45,557 --> 00:28:47,058
ALAN:
You know...

413
00:28:47,142 --> 00:28:51,354
in therapy, Sam,
you can't push people.

414
00:28:51,438 --> 00:28:53,732
You have to let them
come to their own insights

415
00:28:53,815 --> 00:28:55,734
in their own time.

416
00:28:55,817 --> 00:29:00,405
That being said, I would suggest
and encourage you

417
00:29:00,488 --> 00:29:03,575
to talk with Mr. Buchella
specifically

418
00:29:03,658 --> 00:29:05,201
about what your father
did to you.

419
00:29:07,412 --> 00:29:09,706
I told you all about my father.

420
00:29:09,789 --> 00:29:11,583
It was the first thing
that I told you.

421
00:29:11,666 --> 00:29:13,168
-That is true.
-Mm-hmm.

422
00:29:13,251 --> 00:29:15,712
But you had trouble
giving me details.

423
00:29:15,795 --> 00:29:18,757
It was hard for you to tell me
a really full story.

424
00:29:18,840 --> 00:29:21,801
And for you to go forward
with Mr. Buchella

425
00:29:21,885 --> 00:29:24,721
or anyone, I think
it is very important

426
00:29:24,804 --> 00:29:26,514
that you try to access

427
00:29:26,598 --> 00:29:29,642
those memories and those
deeper feelings about him.

428
00:29:29,726 --> 00:29:31,853
I don't have any trouble
accessing my memories

429
00:29:31,936 --> 00:29:34,731
or my feelings.
I remember everything.

430
00:29:34,814 --> 00:29:37,484
You, you think
that I don't remember?

431
00:29:37,567 --> 00:29:39,611
I think about it all the time,
I think about...

432
00:29:39,694 --> 00:29:43,448
every time he hit me,
every time he looked at me,

433
00:29:43,531 --> 00:29:45,992
the way he looked at me,
the way he hated me.

434
00:29:46,075 --> 00:29:47,494
What the f...

435
00:29:47,577 --> 00:29:51,915
This, this-- Sam,
what's happening right now,

436
00:29:51,998 --> 00:29:53,708
how you're feeling...

437
00:29:53,792 --> 00:29:58,087
(sighs) When you get so angry
that you hurt someone,

438
00:29:58,171 --> 00:30:01,174
that's a version of what's
happening in this exact moment.

439
00:30:01,257 --> 00:30:04,093
And at the root of it is your
father, as we've discussed.

440
00:30:04,177 --> 00:30:08,181
It's not the people you hurt
that you're mad at, it's him.

441
00:30:13,812 --> 00:30:17,190
So you-you think that I kill
people because of him?

442
00:30:17,273 --> 00:30:20,235
Almost instead of him.

443
00:30:22,320 --> 00:30:23,446
Oh.

444
00:30:27,075 --> 00:30:28,743
I get it.

445
00:30:42,215 --> 00:30:44,217
(typing)

446
00:30:49,097 --> 00:30:52,392
This is a guy named
Edmund Kemper.

447
00:30:52,475 --> 00:30:57,230
He is the one guy who I feel,
he's the only one.

448
00:30:57,313 --> 00:30:59,983
Just, just watch this.

449
00:31:01,025 --> 00:31:04,445
<i>KEMPER (on video):</i>
<i>It was springtime, it was April.</i>

450
00:31:04,529 --> 00:31:07,782
<i>Uh, for two months</i>
<i>I hadn't killed.</i>

451
00:31:07,866 --> 00:31:10,660
<i>And I said it's not going</i>
<i>to happen to any more girls.</i>

452
00:31:10,743 --> 00:31:13,413
<i>It's got to stay between</i>
<i>me and my mother.</i>

453
00:31:13,496 --> 00:31:16,916
<i>That was one week</i>
<i>before I murdered my mother.</i>

454
00:31:17,000 --> 00:31:21,588
<i>I said, she's got to die, or</i>
<i>girls like that are gonna die.</i>

455
00:31:21,671 --> 00:31:24,591
<i>And that's when I decided</i>
<i>I'm going to murder my mother.</i>

456
00:31:24,674 --> 00:31:27,844
<i>In his case, he said publicly</i>
<i>that it was his mother</i>

457
00:31:27,927 --> 00:31:29,470
<i>that he was killing all along.</i>

458
00:31:29,554 --> 00:31:32,223
<i>And when he killed his mother,</i>
<i>that was the end.</i>

459
00:31:32,307 --> 00:31:33,892
<i>It's a very deep</i>
<i>psychological observation</i>

460
00:31:33,975 --> 00:31:36,185
<i>from himself.</i>
<i>It may be very accurate.</i>

461
00:31:36,269 --> 00:31:38,187
<i>Got on the telephone</i>
<i>and turned himself in.</i>

462
00:31:38,271 --> 00:31:40,356
<i>He said it was time</i>
<i>for the killing to stop.</i>

463
00:31:40,440 --> 00:31:44,235
<i>I came out of her vagina, see?</i>

464
00:31:44,319 --> 00:31:46,696
<i>I came out of my mother.</i>

465
00:31:46,779 --> 00:31:48,990
<i>And in a rage</i>
<i>I went right back in.</i>

466
00:31:49,073 --> 00:31:51,242
<i>I cut off her head.</i>

467
00:31:51,326 --> 00:31:54,329
<i>And, and I humiliated</i>
<i>her corpse.</i>

468
00:31:54,412 --> 00:31:56,372
He fucked her skull.

469
00:31:56,456 --> 00:32:00,919
<i>It had to stop, it had to stop.</i>
<i>Uh, once my mother was dead,</i>

470
00:32:01,002 --> 00:32:03,212
<i>there was almost a cathartic</i>
<i>process at that point.</i>

471
00:32:03,296 --> 00:32:06,090
<i>-I got physically...</i>
-See?

472
00:32:06,174 --> 00:32:08,009
Kemper said everyone he killed,

473
00:32:08,092 --> 00:32:11,554
he was just killing his mother
over and over again-- me, too.

474
00:32:11,638 --> 00:32:13,431
It's the same for me,
just with my father.

475
00:32:13,514 --> 00:32:14,724
-I don't think that this...
-You're the one who said

476
00:32:14,807 --> 00:32:19,562
I kill people instead of him,
so if I kill him, I'll be done.

477
00:32:19,646 --> 00:32:21,397
I won't have to kill
any other people.

478
00:32:21,481 --> 00:32:22,482
-Sam.
-And if there's one person, one person who

479
00:32:22,565 --> 00:32:24,651
needs to get what he deserves,
it's that piece of shit.

480
00:32:24,734 --> 00:32:26,152
ALAN:
Sam!

481
00:32:26,235 --> 00:32:28,821
Sam, you cannot and must not
kill your father.

482
00:32:28,905 --> 00:32:30,823
This is good.

483
00:32:30,907 --> 00:32:36,079
I feel like... I finally know
what I have to do.

484
00:32:36,162 --> 00:32:37,288
Sam, we, we should keep talking.

485
00:32:37,372 --> 00:32:39,999
We need to keep talking, Sam.

486
00:32:40,083 --> 00:32:41,584
I'm gonna kill my father,

487
00:32:41,668 --> 00:32:45,380
cut his head off,
and fuck his skull.

488
00:32:48,967 --> 00:32:51,135
I'm just kidding, I'm not
going to fuck his skull.

489
00:32:56,099 --> 00:32:58,893
<i>(gate creaks, clangs)</i>

490
00:34:38,993 --> 00:34:40,912
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