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(insects chirring)
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(vehicle approaching,
music playing)
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♪ Drivin' circles
around this town ♪
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♪ So many times
I thought about leavin' ♪
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♪ Got my ass kicked
tryin' to com... ♪
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(metallic creak)
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Good luck not eating this.
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Pork buns
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from Qian's.
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(sighs)
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(Alan sighs)
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What, are you giving me
the silent treatment?
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Doesn't seem very sophisticated
for a therapist.
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I'm not your therapist anymore.
I'm your prisoner.
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I understand why
you would think that, but...
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...you have to...
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Don't worry.
It's not a head or anything.
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Oh, that's a relief.
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You ever heard
of the John Doe Killer?
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I think so.
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The whole idea was
to make it look like robberies.
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So the police didn't get one
of those task forces going.
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So, you know, I took...
I took all this.
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And...
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next think I know, they're
calling me the John Doe Killer
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'cause sometimes
it took 'em a few days
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to figure out
who these people were
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without their IDs and stuff.
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And... now I'm kind of stuck
with it.
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You believe me now?
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You don't think I believed you?
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I get why it's easier
for you to think
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that maybe
I'm not telling the truth.
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I believed you.
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Would you like a watch?
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No, thanks.
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Keep track of time for yourself.
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I mean, they still work.
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Most of 'em.
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♪ ♪
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(birds singing)
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♪ ♪
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BETH:
It's hard at first for everyone,
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but especially someone like you.
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Someone like me?
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So in your head.
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That's where everything takes
place, including meditation.
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Like I said,
it's hard for someone like you.
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(mutters mockingly)
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(laughs)
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(door opens)
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I'll be home by 5:00.
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(metallic creak)
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(chains dragging on floor)
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(truck engine starts)
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(sighs)
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(groans softly)
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(soft clicking)
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(softly):
Oh, come on.
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(grunts)
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(rattling)
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Shit.
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(groans)
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-(grunts)
-(rattling)
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Oh, fuck.
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(groans)
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(grunting)
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(groans)
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(sighs)
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Ah.
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Okay.
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(panting)
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(rattling upstairs)
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(scraping and thudding upstairs)
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Thai food tonight.
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I got us Kaeng tai pla.
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This place makes their own sauce
using fermented fish entrails,
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which I know sounds gross,
but it gives it a lot of flavor.
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And then, Khanom moa gang.
They use
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taro and duck eggs.
That's dessert.
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You usually can't find it
this way.
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(grunting)
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I don't think you can open that
with a plastic fork.
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After I do it,
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I'm... just...
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I bet most people couldn't...
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feel like that.
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It's not a normal feeling.
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It's more like... dead.
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I need to get better.
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Isn't that what you...
enjoy doing?
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Isn't healing people?
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I brought you here
so we could work together.
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I know you hate it, but...
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if you're not going
to be a part of the process,
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where is that gonna leave us?
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♪ ♪
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(chains jingling)
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(chains jingling)
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Successful therapy requires
a safe environment.
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The patient and the therapist
have to be able
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to dig into...
complicated emotional territory
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without anything like fear
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hanging over every session.
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I don't know
what to do about that.
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At least I want you...
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to make me a promise that while
we are in therapy together,
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that you will not commit
any acts of physical violence
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against me or anyone else
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unless you talk to me first.
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You mean you want me
to talk to you before I...?
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Yes.
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-So you can talk me out of it?
-So I can
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try to help you...
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get out of it.
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So together,
we can try to understand
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where this terrible need is
coming from, and to address it.
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You have no idea what it's like.
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-I understand.
-These fucking people...
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I work with a lot of people
with very serious,
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almost impossible-to-resist
compulsions.
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Making this kind of commitment
is key to the process.
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-I don't think it's the same.
-I'm not saying it's the same.
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I'll do my best.
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(sighs)
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(clattering upstairs)
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(soft clattering continues)
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(birds singing)
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(sighs)
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(inhales, exhales)
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And actually,
it was my wife's idea.
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Uh, she's known
Chava's mother her whole life.
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So, if we have anyone to thank,
it's the rebbetzin.
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Chava can keep up with your son
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in-in both the intellectual area
and with humor.
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Oh.
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I'm so sorry.
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I should have brought
a real knife.
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-Oh, no, no.
-No.
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It's fine.
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(exhales)
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-I was going to eat that.
-This isn't funny.
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ALAN: I'm upset, too,
but we need to let him be.
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Oh, please don't tell me
you don't hate this
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just as much as I do.
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He's rebelling, Beth.
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Everyone does it.
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(exhales)
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(chains jingling)
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(sighs)
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(birds singing)
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So, should I tell you more
about my life?
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Sure.
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(sighs)
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There's this guy,
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uh, and I can't stop
thinking about him.
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I wish you knew
what this feels like. Uh...
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I did an inspection a while ago
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at a... a Greek restaurant
in Garten.
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Greek, but a-a modern take.
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They do
these moussaka-filled gyozas
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that just...
dissolve in your mouth.
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I actually used
to go there with my wife,
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even before I inspected it.
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You're married?
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I was.
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That was one of those things
I didn't, uh, tell you
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'cause I couldn't be
fully truthful.
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Anyway, uh, there were items
in the prep cooler
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that weren't dated,
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and the refrigerator door seal
needed to be replaced.
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And these aren't
uncommon things,
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but they need to be addressed,
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and they affect
a restaurant's rating.
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I explained it all to the guy
who runs the place,
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the owners' son, and...
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he didn't think
it was a big deal.
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I told him it was.
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He said I should come back
in a week,
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and everything would be fixed.
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I said the current wait time
for reinspection
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in Lincoln County
is seven months.
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He thought
I was trying to get a bribe.
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And he starts talking to me
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in this funny way, like...
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...he knows
how things really work,
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and I don't,
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and I'm just some piece of shit.
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And when people talk
to me like that...
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Anyway, I just left,
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which is what I do
in those situations.
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Then a couple weeks later,
my supervisor,
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Kyle, tells me
to go back right away
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and redo the inspection,
no reason given.
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And when I went there,
everything is fixed,
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and the guy barely looks at me.
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Smug.
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When was this?
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(smacks lips)
I don't know.
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About four months ago.
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And I haven't stopped...
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thinking about him.
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Every single day.
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I'm trying not to...
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I-I usually can't stop, but...
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I don't know
if other people have this.
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Do other people have this?
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People get obsessed with
interactions they've had, yes.
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I-I went back
to the restaurant...
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...the same night,
and I parked across the street,
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and I waited until they closed.
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I've never done anything that
they could trace back to me,
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but that night, I...
I was like...
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I didn't do it.
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How do you think
you managed that?
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I don't know.
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I didn't want to get caught.
I guess that helped.
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And you said
this was about four months ago?
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Yeah.
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Just before
you came to talk to me.
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And you thought
I could help you not hurt him.
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Mm-hmm.
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I need a pen and paper
for notes.
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I really thought through
all the things
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that you were going
to need here.
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I'm going
to need a pen and paper.
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I'm not going to attack you
with a piece of paper. (laughs)
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And you can find a pen
that doesn't worry you.
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The restaurant guy.
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The more time that passes,
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the less anyone would connect me
with that place.
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I think it's important to note
that you did not hurt him.
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But I want to.
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I want to right now.
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You asked me
to talk to you first.
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I am talking to you.
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It's not really helping.
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You've been holding this in
for four months, Sam.
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I get why it's hard.
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(inhales sharply)
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(exhales)
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(muffled urinating)
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(urinating continues)
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(urinating stops)
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(urinating resumes)
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(quietly):
Jesus.
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(birds singing)
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(door opens)
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I'm late for work.
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Let's have a session
after dinner.
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(metallic creak)
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(truck engine starts)
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(truck departing)
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(sighs)
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(thudding upstairs)
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(footsteps,
floorboards creaking)
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(loudly):
Hello?
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Hello?
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(chains jingling)
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(loudly):
Can you hear me up there?
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I can hear you!
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Are you okay?
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Can you talk?
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(doors opening)
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(footsteps approaching)
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(sniffles)
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(chains jingling)
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Hello.