1 00:00:07,007 --> 00:00:09,009 (insects chirring) 2 00:00:14,014 --> 00:00:16,016 (vehicle approaching, music playing) 3 00:00:19,352 --> 00:00:23,898 ♪ Drivin' circles around this town ♪ 4 00:00:26,151 --> 00:00:29,237 ♪ So many times I thought about leavin' ♪ 5 00:00:29,320 --> 00:00:32,741 ♪ Got my ass kicked tryin' to com... ♪ 6 00:00:34,909 --> 00:00:36,911 (metallic creak) 7 00:00:44,502 --> 00:00:48,131 Good luck not eating this. 8 00:00:48,214 --> 00:00:49,966 Pork buns 9 00:00:50,050 --> 00:00:52,343 from Qian's. 10 00:00:55,055 --> 00:00:56,556 (sighs) 11 00:00:56,639 --> 00:00:58,641 (Alan sighs) 12 00:01:03,021 --> 00:01:05,273 What, are you giving me the silent treatment? 13 00:01:08,443 --> 00:01:11,446 Doesn't seem very sophisticated for a therapist. 14 00:01:11,529 --> 00:01:14,532 I'm not your therapist anymore. I'm your prisoner. 15 00:01:14,616 --> 00:01:17,827 I understand why you would think that, but... 16 00:01:19,621 --> 00:01:21,998 ...you have to... 17 00:01:38,348 --> 00:01:40,058 Don't worry. It's not a head or anything. 18 00:01:40,141 --> 00:01:42,435 Oh, that's a relief. 19 00:01:45,396 --> 00:01:47,482 You ever heard of the John Doe Killer? 20 00:01:47,565 --> 00:01:49,234 I think so. 21 00:01:49,317 --> 00:01:51,361 The whole idea was to make it look like robberies. 22 00:01:51,444 --> 00:01:54,239 So the police didn't get one of those task forces going. 23 00:01:54,322 --> 00:01:57,200 So, you know, I took... I took all this. 24 00:01:57,283 --> 00:01:59,786 And... 25 00:01:59,869 --> 00:02:02,622 next think I know, they're calling me the John Doe Killer 26 00:02:02,705 --> 00:02:04,040 'cause sometimes it took 'em a few days 27 00:02:04,124 --> 00:02:05,667 to figure out who these people were 28 00:02:05,750 --> 00:02:07,252 without their IDs and stuff. 29 00:02:07,335 --> 00:02:10,463 And... now I'm kind of stuck with it. 30 00:02:10,547 --> 00:02:11,840 You believe me now? 31 00:02:11,923 --> 00:02:13,925 You don't think I believed you? 32 00:02:14,008 --> 00:02:16,177 I get why it's easier for you to think 33 00:02:16,261 --> 00:02:18,513 that maybe I'm not telling the truth. 34 00:02:18,596 --> 00:02:21,558 I believed you. 35 00:02:31,151 --> 00:02:32,193 Would you like a watch? 36 00:02:32,277 --> 00:02:33,611 No, thanks. 37 00:02:33,695 --> 00:02:35,613 Keep track of time for yourself. 38 00:02:35,697 --> 00:02:37,282 I mean, they still work. 39 00:02:37,365 --> 00:02:39,367 Most of 'em. 40 00:02:45,039 --> 00:02:47,041 ♪ ♪ 41 00:02:51,004 --> 00:02:52,922 (birds singing) 42 00:02:54,966 --> 00:02:57,385 ♪ ♪ 43 00:03:12,734 --> 00:03:15,361 BETH: It's hard at first for everyone, 44 00:03:15,445 --> 00:03:17,322 but especially someone like you. 45 00:03:18,114 --> 00:03:19,699 Someone like me? 46 00:03:19,782 --> 00:03:21,492 So in your head. 47 00:03:21,576 --> 00:03:25,872 That's where everything takes place, including meditation. 48 00:03:25,955 --> 00:03:28,708 Like I said, it's hard for someone like you. 49 00:03:28,791 --> 00:03:30,084 (mutters mockingly) 50 00:03:31,294 --> 00:03:33,588 (laughs) 51 00:03:35,715 --> 00:03:37,675 (door opens) 52 00:03:54,275 --> 00:03:56,402 I'll be home by 5:00. 53 00:04:00,698 --> 00:04:03,243 (metallic creak) 54 00:04:04,994 --> 00:04:06,913 (chains dragging on floor) 55 00:04:06,996 --> 00:04:09,207 (truck engine starts) 56 00:04:25,139 --> 00:04:26,975 (sighs) 57 00:04:45,952 --> 00:04:48,121 (groans softly) 58 00:04:48,204 --> 00:04:49,872 (soft clicking) 59 00:04:49,956 --> 00:04:51,833 (softly): Oh, come on. 60 00:04:55,420 --> 00:04:56,963 (grunts) 61 00:04:59,590 --> 00:05:01,676 (rattling) 62 00:05:01,759 --> 00:05:04,178 Shit. 63 00:05:06,347 --> 00:05:08,016 (groans) 64 00:05:08,099 --> 00:05:10,893 -(grunts) -(rattling) 65 00:05:10,977 --> 00:05:12,729 Oh, fuck. 66 00:05:12,812 --> 00:05:14,314 (groans) 67 00:05:18,901 --> 00:05:21,487 (grunting) 68 00:05:30,538 --> 00:05:31,873 (groans) 69 00:05:33,249 --> 00:05:35,126 (sighs) 70 00:05:35,209 --> 00:05:37,211 Ah. 71 00:05:37,295 --> 00:05:39,213 Okay. 72 00:05:39,297 --> 00:05:41,299 (panting) 73 00:05:58,649 --> 00:06:01,069 (rattling upstairs) 74 00:06:03,613 --> 00:06:07,283 (scraping and thudding upstairs) 75 00:06:24,467 --> 00:06:25,927 Thai food tonight. 76 00:06:28,262 --> 00:06:30,390 I got us Kaeng tai pla. 77 00:06:30,473 --> 00:06:34,394 This place makes their own sauce using fermented fish entrails, 78 00:06:34,477 --> 00:06:37,522 which I know sounds gross, but it gives it a lot of flavor. 79 00:06:37,605 --> 00:06:40,733 And then, Khanom moa gang. They use 80 00:06:40,817 --> 00:06:43,027 taro and duck eggs. That's dessert. 81 00:06:43,111 --> 00:06:45,238 You usually can't find it this way. 82 00:06:46,489 --> 00:06:48,074 (grunting) 83 00:07:11,639 --> 00:07:14,600 I don't think you can open that with a plastic fork. 84 00:07:27,196 --> 00:07:29,991 After I do it, 85 00:07:30,116 --> 00:07:33,161 I'm... just... 86 00:07:34,162 --> 00:07:36,247 I bet most people couldn't... 87 00:07:36,330 --> 00:07:38,791 feel like that. 88 00:07:38,875 --> 00:07:40,877 It's not a normal feeling. 89 00:07:41,961 --> 00:07:45,756 It's more like... dead. 90 00:07:45,840 --> 00:07:48,384 I need to get better. 91 00:07:48,468 --> 00:07:50,928 Isn't that what you... enjoy doing? 92 00:07:51,012 --> 00:07:55,475 Isn't healing people? 93 00:07:57,685 --> 00:08:00,480 I brought you here so we could work together. 94 00:08:02,523 --> 00:08:06,152 I know you hate it, but... 95 00:08:06,235 --> 00:08:09,822 if you're not going to be a part of the process, 96 00:08:09,906 --> 00:08:12,116 where is that gonna leave us? 97 00:08:20,708 --> 00:08:22,710 ♪ ♪ 98 00:08:30,218 --> 00:08:32,136 (chains jingling) 99 00:08:38,100 --> 00:08:40,478 (chains jingling) 100 00:09:02,875 --> 00:09:07,129 Successful therapy requires a safe environment. 101 00:09:07,213 --> 00:09:11,300 The patient and the therapist have to be able 102 00:09:11,384 --> 00:09:15,429 to dig into... complicated emotional territory 103 00:09:15,513 --> 00:09:20,268 without anything like fear 104 00:09:20,351 --> 00:09:23,104 hanging over every session. 105 00:09:26,274 --> 00:09:28,776 I don't know what to do about that. 106 00:09:33,114 --> 00:09:35,408 At least I want you... 107 00:09:35,491 --> 00:09:40,121 to make me a promise that while we are in therapy together, 108 00:09:40,204 --> 00:09:44,917 that you will not commit any acts of physical violence 109 00:09:45,001 --> 00:09:48,462 against me or anyone else 110 00:09:48,546 --> 00:09:50,965 unless you talk to me first. 111 00:09:51,048 --> 00:09:54,260 You mean you want me to talk to you before I...? 112 00:09:54,343 --> 00:09:56,012 Yes. 113 00:09:56,095 --> 00:09:58,347 -So you can talk me out of it? -So I can 114 00:09:58,431 --> 00:10:01,350 try to help you... 115 00:10:01,434 --> 00:10:03,352 get out of it. 116 00:10:03,436 --> 00:10:07,356 So together, we can try to understand 117 00:10:07,440 --> 00:10:11,193 where this terrible need is coming from, and to address it. 118 00:10:12,737 --> 00:10:15,281 You have no idea what it's like. 119 00:10:15,364 --> 00:10:18,117 -I understand. -These fucking people... 120 00:10:18,200 --> 00:10:21,996 I work with a lot of people with very serious, 121 00:10:22,079 --> 00:10:25,166 almost impossible-to-resist compulsions. 122 00:10:25,249 --> 00:10:29,503 Making this kind of commitment is key to the process. 123 00:10:32,298 --> 00:10:35,468 -I don't think it's the same. -I'm not saying it's the same. 124 00:10:41,932 --> 00:10:43,934 I'll do my best. 125 00:11:05,498 --> 00:11:07,041 (sighs) 126 00:11:07,124 --> 00:11:09,126 (clattering upstairs) 127 00:11:11,128 --> 00:11:13,964 (soft clattering continues) 128 00:11:19,261 --> 00:11:22,264 (birds singing) 129 00:11:24,558 --> 00:11:26,560 (sighs) 130 00:11:29,313 --> 00:11:32,358 (inhales, exhales) 131 00:11:32,441 --> 00:11:35,444 And actually, it was my wife's idea. 132 00:11:35,528 --> 00:11:38,239 Uh, she's known Chava's mother her whole life. 133 00:11:38,322 --> 00:11:42,827 So, if we have anyone to thank, it's the rebbetzin. 134 00:11:42,910 --> 00:11:44,745 Chava can keep up with your son 135 00:11:44,829 --> 00:11:47,832 in-in both the intellectual area and with humor. 136 00:11:47,915 --> 00:11:49,959 Oh. 137 00:11:51,043 --> 00:11:52,420 I'm so sorry. 138 00:11:52,503 --> 00:11:54,130 I should have brought a real knife. 139 00:11:54,213 --> 00:11:55,214 -Oh, no, no. -No. 140 00:11:55,297 --> 00:11:56,298 It's fine. 141 00:12:01,762 --> 00:12:04,098 (exhales) 142 00:12:11,647 --> 00:12:13,858 -I was going to eat that. -This isn't funny. 143 00:12:13,941 --> 00:12:16,694 ALAN: I'm upset, too, but we need to let him be. 144 00:12:16,777 --> 00:12:18,362 Oh, please don't tell me you don't hate this 145 00:12:18,446 --> 00:12:19,488 just as much as I do. 146 00:12:19,572 --> 00:12:21,615 He's rebelling, Beth. 147 00:12:21,699 --> 00:12:23,242 Everyone does it. 148 00:12:24,535 --> 00:12:26,162 (exhales) 149 00:12:31,083 --> 00:12:33,919 (chains jingling) 150 00:12:34,003 --> 00:12:35,796 (sighs) 151 00:12:38,090 --> 00:12:40,468 (birds singing) 152 00:12:40,551 --> 00:12:43,262 So, should I tell you more about my life? 153 00:12:43,345 --> 00:12:45,014 Sure. 154 00:12:47,808 --> 00:12:50,227 (sighs) 155 00:12:50,311 --> 00:12:51,771 There's this guy, 156 00:12:51,854 --> 00:12:55,107 uh, and I can't stop thinking about him. 157 00:12:55,191 --> 00:12:57,943 I wish you knew what this feels like. Uh... 158 00:12:58,027 --> 00:13:00,279 I did an inspection a while ago 159 00:13:00,362 --> 00:13:03,949 at a... a Greek restaurant in Garten. 160 00:13:04,033 --> 00:13:06,911 Greek, but a-a modern take. 161 00:13:06,994 --> 00:13:10,414 They do these moussaka-filled gyozas 162 00:13:10,498 --> 00:13:13,876 that just... dissolve in your mouth. 163 00:13:13,959 --> 00:13:15,711 I actually used to go there with my wife, 164 00:13:15,795 --> 00:13:17,338 even before I inspected it. 165 00:13:18,005 --> 00:13:19,715 You're married? 166 00:13:19,799 --> 00:13:21,759 I was. 167 00:13:23,010 --> 00:13:25,679 That was one of those things I didn't, uh, tell you 168 00:13:25,763 --> 00:13:27,348 'cause I couldn't be fully truthful. 169 00:13:28,265 --> 00:13:31,227 Anyway, uh, there were items in the prep cooler 170 00:13:31,310 --> 00:13:32,895 that weren't dated, 171 00:13:32,978 --> 00:13:35,731 and the refrigerator door seal needed to be replaced. 172 00:13:35,815 --> 00:13:38,025 And these aren't uncommon things, 173 00:13:38,108 --> 00:13:39,652 but they need to be addressed, 174 00:13:39,735 --> 00:13:42,571 and they affect a restaurant's rating. 175 00:13:42,655 --> 00:13:45,199 I explained it all to the guy who runs the place, 176 00:13:45,282 --> 00:13:48,035 the owners' son, and... 177 00:13:48,118 --> 00:13:51,247 he didn't think it was a big deal. 178 00:13:51,914 --> 00:13:53,499 I told him it was. 179 00:13:53,582 --> 00:13:56,335 He said I should come back in a week, 180 00:13:56,418 --> 00:13:58,254 and everything would be fixed. 181 00:13:58,337 --> 00:14:00,256 I said the current wait time for reinspection 182 00:14:00,339 --> 00:14:02,424 in Lincoln County is seven months. 183 00:14:04,510 --> 00:14:06,720 He thought I was trying to get a bribe. 184 00:14:07,763 --> 00:14:10,516 And he starts talking to me 185 00:14:10,599 --> 00:14:12,601 in this funny way, like... 186 00:14:14,603 --> 00:14:17,064 ...he knows how things really work, 187 00:14:17,147 --> 00:14:19,441 and I don't, 188 00:14:19,525 --> 00:14:21,861 and I'm just some piece of shit. 189 00:14:23,028 --> 00:14:25,239 And when people talk to me like that... 190 00:14:32,621 --> 00:14:34,707 Anyway, I just left, 191 00:14:34,790 --> 00:14:37,459 which is what I do in those situations. 192 00:14:40,087 --> 00:14:42,256 Then a couple weeks later, my supervisor, 193 00:14:42,339 --> 00:14:46,218 Kyle, tells me to go back right away 194 00:14:46,302 --> 00:14:49,138 and redo the inspection, no reason given. 195 00:14:49,221 --> 00:14:51,432 And when I went there, everything is fixed, 196 00:14:51,515 --> 00:14:53,517 and the guy barely looks at me. 197 00:14:54,768 --> 00:14:56,395 Smug. 198 00:15:01,525 --> 00:15:02,943 When was this? 199 00:15:03,027 --> 00:15:05,279 (smacks lips) I don't know. 200 00:15:05,362 --> 00:15:07,907 About four months ago. 201 00:15:07,990 --> 00:15:10,492 And I haven't stopped... 202 00:15:10,576 --> 00:15:12,786 thinking about him. 203 00:15:15,831 --> 00:15:17,917 Every single day. 204 00:15:20,711 --> 00:15:22,713 I'm trying not to... 205 00:15:25,591 --> 00:15:28,469 I-I usually can't stop, but... 206 00:15:34,308 --> 00:15:36,185 I don't know if other people have this. 207 00:15:36,268 --> 00:15:37,937 Do other people have this? 208 00:15:38,020 --> 00:15:41,231 People get obsessed with interactions they've had, yes. 209 00:15:44,443 --> 00:15:46,445 I-I went back to the restaurant... 210 00:15:48,739 --> 00:15:51,325 ...the same night, and I parked across the street, 211 00:15:51,408 --> 00:15:53,535 and I waited until they closed. 212 00:16:01,752 --> 00:16:05,297 I've never done anything that they could trace back to me, 213 00:16:05,381 --> 00:16:07,424 but that night, I... I was like... 214 00:16:16,100 --> 00:16:18,102 I didn't do it. 215 00:16:22,731 --> 00:16:24,733 How do you think you managed that? 216 00:16:26,902 --> 00:16:28,612 I don't know. 217 00:16:28,696 --> 00:16:30,739 I didn't want to get caught. I guess that helped. 218 00:16:31,740 --> 00:16:34,743 And you said this was about four months ago? 219 00:16:35,619 --> 00:16:36,954 Yeah. 220 00:16:37,037 --> 00:16:39,331 Just before you came to talk to me. 221 00:16:39,790 --> 00:16:43,293 And you thought I could help you not hurt him. 222 00:16:47,506 --> 00:16:48,924 Mm-hmm. 223 00:16:51,510 --> 00:16:54,930 I need a pen and paper for notes. 224 00:16:59,143 --> 00:17:00,602 I really thought through all the things 225 00:17:00,686 --> 00:17:02,021 that you were going to need here. 226 00:17:02,104 --> 00:17:04,648 I'm going to need a pen and paper. 227 00:17:04,732 --> 00:17:09,194 I'm not going to attack you with a piece of paper. (laughs) 228 00:17:09,278 --> 00:17:12,990 And you can find a pen that doesn't worry you. 229 00:17:16,035 --> 00:17:18,037 The restaurant guy. 230 00:17:20,080 --> 00:17:22,249 The more time that passes, 231 00:17:23,167 --> 00:17:27,004 the less anyone would connect me with that place. 232 00:17:27,212 --> 00:17:30,424 I think it's important to note that you did not hurt him. 233 00:17:30,507 --> 00:17:32,509 But I want to. 234 00:17:33,552 --> 00:17:35,721 I want to right now. 235 00:17:37,556 --> 00:17:39,808 You asked me to talk to you first. 236 00:17:40,642 --> 00:17:43,103 I am talking to you. 237 00:17:46,106 --> 00:17:48,192 It's not really helping. 238 00:17:53,197 --> 00:17:56,909 You've been holding this in for four months, Sam. 239 00:17:56,992 --> 00:17:58,994 I get why it's hard. 240 00:18:10,798 --> 00:18:12,758 (inhales sharply) 241 00:18:12,841 --> 00:18:14,760 (exhales) 242 00:18:14,843 --> 00:18:16,845 (muffled urinating) 243 00:18:25,187 --> 00:18:27,189 (urinating continues) 244 00:18:34,822 --> 00:18:36,824 (urinating stops) 245 00:18:36,907 --> 00:18:38,951 (urinating resumes) 246 00:18:40,994 --> 00:18:43,038 (quietly): Jesus. 247 00:18:47,626 --> 00:18:49,795 (birds singing) 248 00:18:53,799 --> 00:18:55,259 (door opens) 249 00:18:57,386 --> 00:18:59,429 I'm late for work. 250 00:18:59,513 --> 00:19:01,598 Let's have a session after dinner. 251 00:19:06,812 --> 00:19:09,898 (metallic creak) 252 00:19:09,982 --> 00:19:12,067 (truck engine starts) 253 00:19:16,822 --> 00:19:19,950 (truck departing) 254 00:19:23,829 --> 00:19:26,081 (sighs) 255 00:19:27,499 --> 00:19:29,585 (thudding upstairs) 256 00:19:29,668 --> 00:19:34,047 (footsteps, floorboards creaking) 257 00:19:39,303 --> 00:19:41,180 (loudly): Hello? 258 00:19:45,142 --> 00:19:47,144 Hello? 259 00:19:52,566 --> 00:19:54,568 (chains jingling) 260 00:20:00,449 --> 00:20:02,826 (loudly): Can you hear me up there? 261 00:20:03,869 --> 00:20:05,662 I can hear you! 262 00:20:10,000 --> 00:20:11,835 Are you okay? 263 00:20:15,505 --> 00:20:17,049 Can you talk? 264 00:20:19,885 --> 00:20:23,138 (doors opening) 265 00:20:26,308 --> 00:20:28,310 (footsteps approaching) 266 00:20:30,020 --> 00:20:32,022 (sniffles) 267 00:20:35,359 --> 00:20:37,402 (chains jingling) 268 00:20:41,907 --> 00:20:43,992 Hello.