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I've only been obsessed
with three people my whole life.
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When we make mistakes, we learn from them.
Just like a kid, you know.
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I guess I just don't regret anything,
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but I just wish that
it would have turned out differently.
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Sometimes in my head,
I-- I think about certain things I did.
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They say that's considered stalking,
but still, I don't think that's stalking.
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When I will do those things,
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I will get, like… I guess, crazy.
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I'm a little scared, to be honest.
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I'd rather be considered
a murderer than a stalker,
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you know what I mean?
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I wanted the intensity
of, like, of her feeling watched.
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Anybody could be a stalker.
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It's all boogeyman talk.
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I'm still that crazy.
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My name is Deketrice Jackson.
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I'm here for stalking.
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It's a four-year sentence,
and I've been in here for two years.
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My addiction is women.
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I don't drink coffee, I don't smoke
cigarettes, or things like that,
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but for some reason,
it's, like, women that, you know…
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It drives me, and it's like…
I guess I just love love.
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I went into one of my
foster homes about six years old.
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I got taken because
my birth mom didn't want me.
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I was bounced around
to about 12 total homes.
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I was abused a lot
in some of my foster homes,
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so, like, mistreated…
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and not loved.
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At ten years old,
I-- I started liking women.
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And at ten, 11,
I started fightin' at school
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'cause I was picked on
because I liked women.
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And I went to different foster homes
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because they didn't want me,
'cause they said I was bad,
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or they didn't want me in a home
with the other children because I was gay.
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So I just felt unloved and unwanted.
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I was in this foster home
in Milwaukee, Wisconsin.
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And we used to go to church,
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and there was this lady who was probably
about… maybe 24 at the time,
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and she was, like, really pretty,
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and I-- I guess I just wanted her
to, like, mother me.
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She'd just, like, buy me gifts
for Christmas, birthday,
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and, like, she let me go over her house
every Sunday after church.
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I kept wanting her to, um… to parent me.
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Well, throughout every time I see her,
I get excited and I, like,
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used to try to call her "Mom,"
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and she would sit down and say,
"No, I'm not your mom."
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I felt rejected,
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not never really having
that stable mom-- mom figure, you know?
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When I first met Dee,
she was a little girl.
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She was introduced to the church,
and she was very shy.
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This is the church that Dee grew up in.
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Um, Divine Temple.
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A small church, but it has a big heart
with a lot of love.
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My name is Tunya King,
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and I knew Dee
when she attended our church.
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I felt like
she was longing for something.
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It's like when you go to the pound
and you see a puppy
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and they are just like,
"Pick me up. Hold me. Love me."
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Um, I got that sense
that she needed to be loved.
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So we were at my house.
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She was like, um… "You should adopt me."
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And I'm like, "No!" Like, "Girl, no!"
Laughing it off.
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Looking back, I never turned around
to see her face.
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Now, I feel like I probably
offended her, um, by saying no like that.
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I think she took it as a,
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"Why am I not good enough
for you to be my mom?"
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When Dee was younger, our relationship,
I think, was very pure and very beautiful.
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But as she got older,
it just started to change.
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When I was dating my first husband,
I would go visit him on the weekends,
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and wouldn't--
sometimes didn't make it to church.
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And so she wouldn't see me.
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She didn't want me to go.
She wanted to hang out with me.
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And I'm like,
"No, I already made plans. I'm going."
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And she-- It was like she was trying
to persuade me to spending time with her.
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And I'm like, "Dee, we're not havin'
this conversation."
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"I said no. Like, that's it."
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She just kept asking, you know, like,
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"If I ask her 50 times,
she's gonna change her mind."
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She was persistent.
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Um… I would tell her,
"Dee, I'll call you back."
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And she's, like,
still trying to keep me on the phone.
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And I'm like, "Dee, I'm hanging up now."
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And then when I would hang up,
she would call right back.
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It got to the point where I had
to disassociate myself with her,
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because it was just like…
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I-- I saw where we were going,
and I didn't appreciate it.
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When she got married,
I was very emotionally distraught.
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It's like, I felt like I lost her.
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It brings me back to my childhood,
Like, "I'll never be enough."
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"I'll never be loved.
I'll never have that love."
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It's like, if my own mom didn't love me,
and then she didn't love me…
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When I met Tiffanie, she used
to give me that attention that I craved.
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I had, uh, a picture
that she gave me of her, and I used to…
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at the time, I would, like,
kiss her picture goodnight.
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Maybe… I don't know. Maybe I just felt
safer because, I don't know, like…
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You know, being molested as-- as a child,
I didn't really like men,
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but I didn't see me as being gay,
I didn't even know what gay was.
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It was just more of, "I like that sex."
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Like, you know, "Oh, she's pretty."
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I never-- I just realized I never said
to a guy, like, "Oh, he's pretty."
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It was just, you know, the women part.
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This is Tiffanie.
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Beautiful young lady.
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This is all during the time
that Dee was in our lives.
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Tiffanie was able
to give Dee the attention
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that she wasn't getting from me anymore.
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I think we were at Tiffanie's mom's house.
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Tiffanie was like,
"I think she's in love with both of us,
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or she was in love with you
and now she's in love with me."
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And I was so like, "Whoa, hold on."
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That was totally not
the nature of our relationship.
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I didn't see signs of that.
I thought it was more,
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"You wanted me to be your mother."
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Tiffanie was younger,
and Dee gravitated toward her,
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and their relationship got weird as well.
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My niece brought it to my attention
where she changed--
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Dee changed her Facebook name.
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She named herself "Tiffanie Jackson"
and sent friend requests to both of us.
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And when I saw it there was no picture,
and I'm like, "Pfft! Delete."
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And my niece was like, "That's Dee."
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And I'm like, "Oh my goodness."
I'm like, "Wait a minute."
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"Where's the Tiffanie comin' from?"
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And she was like, "Exactly.
Like, this is getting weird to me."
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And that's when she was like,
"I think she was trying to mimic my life."
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And I'm like, "Oh my God."
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When I was 18,
I had my first relationship.
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And then the second was Rachel.
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I started getting clingy
and liking her more and more,
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and it was mutual in the beginning,
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but the more I was, like,
"Don't go anywhere," or "Come back,"
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and "Are you gonna leave me?"
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the more she got
very uncomfortable with me.
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I think because I never really had a mom,
so, like, bouncing around,
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it's just like, "Love me, love me."
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And if it's like… I don't know, like,
they reject or don't want me,
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I get crazy, you know, like depressed or…
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you know, a lot of different feelings,
a lot of emotions I can't deal with.
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Maybe it was just how I picked 'em, but…
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each relationship just made me realize
that, like, I wasn't enough.
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When I first met Dee,
she introduced herself as Tiffanie.
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And I didn't find out until probably
about six, seven months after that
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exactly what her real name was.
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I didn't know it was Deketrice
until later on.
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My name's Christine.
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And Deketrice was in a relationship
with my daughter, Rachel.
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Dee was nice.
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I mean, she seemed very nice at first,
and she was polite,
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and, like, well-mannered.
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Next thing I know,
she's, like, startin' to…
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staying at the house, and…
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next thing I know, she's, like, movin' in.
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I don't know,
I was just gettin' vibes, I guess,
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that she wasn't really, uh,
the right person for Rachel.
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Tiffanie would just get these things
in her head,
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just thinkin' that Rachel would be
doing somethin', and she's not.
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She's just at home sittin' there.
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Tiffanie wanted Rachel
to just look a certain way.
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And, um, if Rachel didn't want to do…
you know, go out or somethin' like that,
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then Tiffanie would get mad or…
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Then they would fight and argue.
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And she don't get her way,
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then she can flip, turn…
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kind of be a little mean.
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With Rachel,
I was, you know, obsessed.
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I used to, like, follow her, like,
when she would say she'd be at work,
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and I would stalk her
by going to see if she's at work.
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And then there are days
where I'd go there and she's not at work,
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and that's when, like,
I started having those--
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that stalking tendencies.
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I guess it has to do with trust.
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I didn't trust her.
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Like, going through her cellphone
and things like that.
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I guess that's when I started, like,
stalking, in a way.
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She kept trying to leave me.
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I'd do anything and everything
to try to get her to stay.
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But when I get rejected…
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It's like, I want them…
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I guess I'm vindictive sometimes,
because, like,
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when they're hurting me,
it's like I want them to hurt.
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You know, slappin' her around
and things when she would do things
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that I wasn't okay with.
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I used to call her a whore,
things like that, and, like…
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So I guess
I was emotionally abusive as well.
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I came home that one evening.
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When I pulled up to the house,
the front door was open,
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and they were arguing,
and I'm not really for sure about what.
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That's when I seen her really flip out.
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Oh, she threatened to do a lot of things.
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It scared me, you know. I don't--
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I-- I don't wanna die.
I didn't want to die then.
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The next day after that happened,
that's where we got the restraining--
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Both of, uh-- I did, Rachel and myself
each got a restraining order.
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During the breakup,
I kept contacting her, I kept calling her.
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Didn't understand why she didn't want me.
The truth is, I didn't care.
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I was supposed to stay away from her,
and I didn't.
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I kept, like, popping up at her new house
which was with her mom.
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I just would, like,
follow her and things like that.
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Pop up to where she was going,
just let her know, like,
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"Hey, I'm sorry. Be with me,"
and things like that.
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The police said, "Don't go to the house."
Well, I went to the house anyhow.
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She kept breakin'
the restrainin' order,
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you know, comin' around.
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It's like she really didn't care
that I had one.
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Because she wasn't supposed to be
within 1,000 feet of either one of us,
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and she could, you know,
come over and start yellin' outside.
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"Oh, I love you," and,
"How can you do this to me?" and…
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I wouldn't open up the door
or even talk to her.
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-She just kept bangin' and bangin'.
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She tried breakin' in through the windows,
tore out all the screens.
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I was scared to death myself,
you know, that…
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she was gonna come and do somethin',
you know…
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to Rachel or whatever, and…
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But she would be gone by the time
the officers got there, of course.
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And how long did this go on for?
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At least, uh… a year.
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I guess I didn't think
about the consequences,
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because all what mattered
was that I wanted her.
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I think I have, like,
seven total assaults on my record.
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And I knew I shouldn't do that,
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but I did it because I wanted her
to feel like how I felt, hurt.
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It breaks me down sometimes, like, well,
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just knowing, like, the feeling of not,
like, finding that love.
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It's just, like, every woman wants
that, you know, picket fence,
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that ma-- that, um… husband…
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the kids, the great job.
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Um, I just feel like, I guess, in that…
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In my mindset, I wanted that,
just with a woman,
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and not-- not getting it is--
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I guess it just
breaks me down emotionally,
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where I get emotionally distraught.
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I just felt like, "Oh my God.
I'm never gonna find love."
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And some of my friends tell me,
you know, like,
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"You gotta find love
through God, through Jesus."
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Several years ago,
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Dee was walking down this alley,
very depressed.
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We had a sign leaning up against our shed
out here that said,
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"Bible study tonight, seven o'clock."
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She had just been very angrily
praying to God.
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And she said, "I want a sign."
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So she looked over and saw our sign,
and she took it as a sign.
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She came right up to the porch,
knocked on the door.
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I answered, and she said, "Are you
havin' Bible study tonight at seven?"
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And I said, "Well, we are now."
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I'm Steve Long.
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I was Dee's pastor for several years.
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I think everybody is desperate for love.
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I think many of us come from solid
families or solid social surroundings,
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and we don't even realize we need love
because we're getting it all the time.
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But this is a gal that, oh man.
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That was a… that was a terrible--
a terrible upbringing,
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and it-- and it seemed to go
from one thing to the next.
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One night, she called my wife and I over
because she was…
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she was thinkin' about committing suicide.
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So we went over there and she went…
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just this litany of things
she had gone through.
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And, I mean, we were just in tears,
and-- and just tryin' to love her.
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We just try to listen and help
as much as we can, and…
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And, uh… certainly, as a minister,
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I'm pointing them to Jesus Christ
and the hope in Jesus Christ.
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We never mentioned homosexuality to Dee.
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She would always mention it to us.
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Her sexuality, which she…
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um… doesn't think's right.
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She doesn't think it's right.
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And so, we believe that…
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that Dee's sexuality was
not in line with the Scripture,
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but we believed our love for her
was totally in line with the Scripture.
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The whole two years,
I was doing really well,
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and I was working at a day care.
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I was just growin',
going to church faithfully,
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when I-- I started gettin' those feelings
again for different women.
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I met her
at this community center.
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And I didn't know that I was gonna
become obsessed with her.
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I just did, like, crazy things…
like, to prove that I really loved her
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and wanted her to give me a chance.
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I would, like, buy her flowers.
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And when I would pop to her house,
she wouldn't answer her door.
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I would leave the gifts there
and come back ten minutes later.
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I'd just drive around her neighborhood.
280
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I would come back to see
if she took the gifts,
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and the gifts would be gone.
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So in my head I'm like, "Oh my God,"
like, you know, "She wanted them."
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And I thought that if I did all that,
then she'll, like, give me a chance.
284
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And there's things like that.
285
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And then there's more, but some of it is,
like, very, um… embarrassing,
286
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so I don't wanna say.
287
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This case came to light
after one year of constant harassment
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and physical stalking of this victim.
289
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Ms. Jackson and the victim
had only spoken a few times,
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and it was more
of an infatuation of the victim
291
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where there was no real foundation
of a relationship between the two.
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I'm Corporal David Hatch
of the Springfield Police Department.
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I was assigned the stalking case
involving Ms. Jackson.
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The victim reported
she had received a note at her residence,
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and that escalated
with voicemail messages,
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Christmas gifts, Easter gifts.
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She had dropped off flowers
with numerous notes.
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Even when the victim had moved,
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Ms. Jackson was able
to locate her address,
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and the gifts continued.
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It didn't matter what anyone said
to Ms. Jackson,
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she was gonna continue
the path she was on
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and continue to communicate
with the victim.
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At one point, she had walked into a bar
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where the victim was out with, uh…
someone she didn't even really know,
306
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and was talking to her and approached her.
307
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She was actually following her
wherever she was going.
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I followed her.
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I wanted to, like…
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It's embarrassing.
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I guess I just wanted to show up
where she was at and be like, "Oh hey!"
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Like I just got there.
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And she was like, "Get away from me."
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And when she didn't want to be with me,
I lost it.
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The victim, it got into that level
where she no longer believed she was safe
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leaving her home without
someone with her, uh… to protect her.
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It was, like, late.
Like maybe seven at night.
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And it was dark.
And I was taking her gifts.
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First, I rang the doorbell,
she didn't answer.
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So then I got in my car and I was, like,
321
00:30:17,603 --> 00:30:19,683
trying to text her,
and she wouldn't answer the phone.
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And when I see a guy go in her house,
for some reason, I took out my binoculars.
323
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Tried to look through her house.
It was dark.
324
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I wasn't trying to be harmful or anything,
325
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I guess I was just more thinking,
like, "Who is this guy?"
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The victim had contacted 911
stating the suspect, Ms. Jackson,
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uh, was outside of her residence,
328
00:30:59,763 --> 00:31:04,003
and she was afraid that Ms. Jackson
was gonna break into her residence.
329
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Ms. Jackson would not have stopped
330
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harassing or stalking the victim
in this case
331
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if law enforcement had not interjected
into-- into this and investigated it.
332
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When I looked at the history
of Ms. Jackson,
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uh, and reports filed here
at Springfield Police Department,
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I would say,
if there was no law enforcement,
335
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there's a high probability of, uh…
of this changing from love notes,
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to threats, to possible bodily harm.
337
00:32:24,363 --> 00:32:26,683
When I got to prison,
I was in denial.
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The longer I stay here, the more I realize
that I was stalking her.
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00:32:37,443 --> 00:32:41,123
When I go home, I am scared
that it may happen again.
340
00:32:56,323 --> 00:32:57,523
I just want to…
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not do this again.
342
00:33:00,203 --> 00:33:03,123
Like, I don't wanna do this again.
Like, it's not fun for me,
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00:33:03,203 --> 00:33:06,683
you know, like, cryin' and, like,
wonderin' why someone don't want me.
344
00:33:06,763 --> 00:33:07,883
Like, that's not fun.
345
00:33:11,523 --> 00:33:14,243
But I feel like,
with these whole two years,
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I wasn't taking my prison time serious.
347
00:33:16,763 --> 00:33:20,603
I would flirt and, you know,
be all in women faces,
348
00:33:20,683 --> 00:33:23,323
but I should have took this time
to actually, like…
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like, heal in my heart
and things, you know?
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00:33:28,643 --> 00:33:31,403
Well, right now I'm on psych meds
for my obsession thoughts.
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And sometimes it doesn't work,
because I get…
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00:33:34,603 --> 00:33:36,523
I'll start likin' women here, but…
353
00:33:37,603 --> 00:33:39,003
I don't know, I guess, like…
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00:33:41,363 --> 00:33:44,963
So it won't happen again, I guess I will
surround myself with, like, godly people.
355
00:33:48,163 --> 00:33:53,483
I think that I need to surrender to God
and repent and just…
356
00:33:54,443 --> 00:33:56,723
I guess, just pick up my cross
and follow him.
357
00:33:57,683 --> 00:34:00,123
I don't need love. I can love myself.
358
00:34:00,203 --> 00:34:03,163
I did go for two whole years,
and I wasn't seeking a relationship.
359
00:34:03,243 --> 00:34:06,443
And I realized that I was--
now I look back, I did really well.
360
00:34:07,203 --> 00:34:10,123
But I can't really say if it would
happen again or not, you know?
361
00:34:10,203 --> 00:34:11,803
Because no one knows the future,
362
00:34:11,883 --> 00:34:14,963
and no one knows at that moment
what would actually happen.
363
00:34:31,323 --> 00:34:33,923
There are certain things
that a parolee has to do
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to maintain their parole status.
365
00:34:35,723 --> 00:34:37,323
One is to not re-offend.
366
00:34:39,283 --> 00:34:41,723
Stalking re-offense is as high as 50%,
367
00:34:43,163 --> 00:34:46,603
sometimes with a repeat offense
in as little as only one day.
368
00:34:51,523 --> 00:34:52,603
My name's Will Worsham.
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00:34:52,683 --> 00:34:55,963
I was a former assistant prosecuting
attorney in Greene County, Missouri.
370
00:34:57,923 --> 00:35:01,203
I now serve as a municipal judge
and work in private practice.
371
00:35:15,683 --> 00:35:20,643
This docket sheet goes all the way back
to 2012 and runs through 2018,
372
00:35:20,723 --> 00:35:24,003
and it shows a significant history
of being on probation,
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violating probation.
374
00:35:25,803 --> 00:35:29,243
And the pattern just repeats
over and over for a period of six years.
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00:35:30,443 --> 00:35:34,403
Regardless of the length of sentence,
the pattern of behavior just continues.
376
00:35:45,643 --> 00:35:49,043
So on July 18th,
she's writing from jail to the judge.
377
00:35:49,123 --> 00:35:51,803
And she said, "I'm rebellious.
My mind is cluttered."
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00:35:51,883 --> 00:35:54,803
"I'm an abused child,
lost trust for authority,
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00:35:54,883 --> 00:35:59,123
admit I have attachment issues,
clingy, obsession, and so on."
380
00:35:59,203 --> 00:36:02,483
"Going to get therapy, go to church,
get involved with community,
381
00:36:02,563 --> 00:36:04,083
but scared I'll never change."
382
00:36:04,163 --> 00:36:05,403
"I want and need help."
383
00:36:07,643 --> 00:36:10,003
I think the most honest part here
is when she says,
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00:36:10,083 --> 00:36:12,443
"I'm scared I'll never change.
I want and need help."
385
00:36:12,523 --> 00:36:14,323
That's a great thing to hear in a letter.
386
00:36:15,603 --> 00:36:18,043
But what's obvious, I think,
from all of this
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00:36:18,123 --> 00:36:20,123
is that she needs mental health support.
388
00:36:20,203 --> 00:36:21,963
She needs to be in a program,
389
00:36:22,043 --> 00:36:25,203
so we can adjust her ways of thinking
and perceiving people.
390
00:36:25,283 --> 00:36:28,323
The difficulty is finding the resources
to make that happen for her.
391
00:36:31,483 --> 00:36:33,203
Remember, you're dealing with somebody
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that's been in a system
for her entire life.
393
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So she grew up in the foster system.
394
00:36:38,643 --> 00:36:42,763
So the system has always been
her de facto parent
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throughout all of this.
396
00:36:44,163 --> 00:36:47,883
She's never had the opportunity
to form a real relationship with a parent.
397
00:36:47,963 --> 00:36:50,043
She doesn't probably know how to do that.
398
00:36:50,123 --> 00:36:52,563
And so in a lot of ways, yeah,
the system has failed,
399
00:36:52,643 --> 00:36:55,163
and it continues, to some extent,
to fail her now.
400
00:36:59,123 --> 00:37:01,403
I have a lot of concern
about Deketrice's future.
401
00:37:01,483 --> 00:37:06,243
I'm not sure that there's going to be
services available for her that she needs.
402
00:37:06,323 --> 00:37:09,243
I mean, the church groups
are gonna offer forgiveness.
403
00:37:09,883 --> 00:37:12,363
But she's gonna need somebody,
professional or otherwise,
404
00:37:12,443 --> 00:37:14,163
to come alongside her
405
00:37:14,243 --> 00:37:16,523
and change her-- her way of thinking.
406
00:37:49,603 --> 00:37:50,843
-Hi!
-Hey.
407
00:37:53,203 --> 00:37:55,363
-How are you feeling?
-Um…
408
00:37:56,043 --> 00:37:57,443
Excited, anxious.
409
00:37:58,403 --> 00:38:01,883
I feel free from the inside, outside.
410
00:38:02,603 --> 00:38:04,123
-Grateful.
-Watch your head.
411
00:38:05,563 --> 00:38:06,403
Happy.
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00:38:20,803 --> 00:38:23,043
-Put your seat belt on.
413
00:38:51,843 --> 00:38:54,363
All right, we're gonna start, eh,
and you can just…
414
00:38:54,443 --> 00:38:57,283
-So we're looking at verse three and four.
-Can we pray first?
415
00:38:57,363 --> 00:38:58,843
Yeah. We sure can.
416
00:38:58,923 --> 00:39:02,643
Father, we pray that you will,
even in this little short devotion,
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00:39:02,723 --> 00:39:04,483
that we might benefit from it,
418
00:39:04,563 --> 00:39:08,403
and that you would be glorified
in Jesus' name, amen.
419
00:39:08,923 --> 00:39:10,763
She has tried to change before.
420
00:39:11,323 --> 00:39:16,643
But I'm far more confident now,
because she seems to be… uh… humble.
421
00:39:16,723 --> 00:39:18,803
She seems to be very humble right now.
422
00:39:20,003 --> 00:39:24,443
Well, honestly, I'm looking to, like,
just keep chasing after God, you know?
423
00:39:24,523 --> 00:39:26,283
I feel like the more I read my Bible,
424
00:39:26,363 --> 00:39:28,043
the more I have
that relationship with Him,
425
00:39:28,123 --> 00:39:32,043
I think that everything will be okay
and that He's in control. He has this.
426
00:39:33,763 --> 00:39:36,523
Dee has a new affection,
and it's changed her life.
427
00:39:36,603 --> 00:39:39,883
She's in love with Jesus Christ.
She wants to please Him.
428
00:39:39,963 --> 00:39:43,243
And so everything, all her behaviors,
429
00:39:43,323 --> 00:39:46,843
are growing out of that new affection
she has.
430
00:39:48,403 --> 00:39:51,963
I realized that when I do do things
my way, everything falls apart.
431
00:39:52,883 --> 00:39:55,683
And when I do things His way,
everything lined up.
432
00:39:55,763 --> 00:40:01,043
So I just gotta remember not to, um… get,
like, into any law trouble or anything
433
00:40:01,123 --> 00:40:03,163
just by just obeying His commands.
434
00:40:03,243 --> 00:40:04,843
Not be a slave of sin,
435
00:40:04,923 --> 00:40:09,843
but to obey Him and give up everything,
like, for Him.
436
00:40:18,083 --> 00:40:19,563
I'm gonna stay out of prison.
437
00:40:21,483 --> 00:40:24,603
I'm gonna not ever be obsessed
with anyone again.
438
00:40:27,083 --> 00:40:29,923
And I just wanna take a day at a time.
439
00:40:42,963 --> 00:40:47,723
So I won't go on a bad path,
I've been avoiding… old friends.
440
00:40:47,803 --> 00:40:51,043
I've been avoiding… alcohol.
441
00:40:52,043 --> 00:40:53,683
And I've been avoiding women.
442
00:40:55,803 --> 00:40:57,963
It's just been better to just…
443
00:40:59,163 --> 00:41:02,723
you know, just work on myself,
and get on my feet.
444
00:41:04,043 --> 00:41:05,083
I have a job.
445
00:41:05,923 --> 00:41:07,723
I'm a server at Mexican Villa.
446
00:41:08,883 --> 00:41:11,443
So everything is going to plan.
447
00:41:14,243 --> 00:41:16,723
I always felt like
I was missin' somethin' in life
448
00:41:17,243 --> 00:41:19,123
because I didn't grow up with attention.
449
00:41:19,203 --> 00:41:21,123
I only got attention when I was bad.
450
00:41:21,203 --> 00:41:25,963
And I think that I found
what I was missing.
451
00:41:26,643 --> 00:41:28,803
It was always in my heart. I found Jesus.
452
00:41:32,083 --> 00:41:34,003
You know, it's a sin to be gay.
453
00:41:36,563 --> 00:41:38,563
Can you see that your obsessions
454
00:41:38,643 --> 00:41:40,963
and your sexuality
are two different things?
455
00:41:41,043 --> 00:41:43,763
And that there's actually
nothing wrong with being gay?
456
00:41:46,283 --> 00:41:49,323
I don't think it's wrong, but God does.
457
00:41:49,403 --> 00:41:52,883
And it doesn't matter what I think.
It matters what God thinks.
458
00:41:52,963 --> 00:41:56,643
And I would love to get married
with a woman, but…
459
00:41:57,483 --> 00:42:01,243
you know, God doesn't want that,
and I have to obey what He wants.