She's in the ICU.
Our dad wants us to see her. Sabi, thinks it's too soon.
But what do you want to do?
I hate hospitals.
I know. Because your cousin Samir, who's an exquisite rebel.
Your face!
Oh, my God. It finally happened.
Like mom just saw me in makeup.
Mom and I are never going to talk again. Are we?
Nope.
How does it make you feel to think of your mum not being conscious?
Am I like a bad person? Because I haven't cried about her yet.
-Sorry. One second. I have some... -Totally cool.
At 1 am?
You must stop telling yourself how badly this family needs you.
I could be living in Berlin right now but I'm not.
Dad's not around. You can start thinking your own thoughts now.
Just talk to Sabi!
-Are you just getting here? -Only if you are not leaving...
I know you said you weren't able to take on more hours.
I found room in my schedule.
How can I talk to him if he won't pick up?
Live your life.
This fridge is so full, it's obscene!
7ven likes to be prepped for a party!
So much papaya and watercress.
Yeah. Oh my God. That's her mom. She's obsessed with anti-aging.
Every light bulb is a flattering 2,700 Kelvin.
Even the one in the fridge.
It works. You look amazing.
When they said I had to move to Toronto...
I'm a Noogler, by the way.
-What's that? -New hires at Google.
First, I was like, yas Googs!
Canada is like America after tons of therapy.
I want to go there.
But let me tell you, people have sticks very far up their asses here.
I'm so lonely. I'm going to masturbate myself to death.
Yeah. I mean it's rough out here for the divergent, for sure.
For like relationships but also just like basic friendship.
What race are you?
What's that look for?
No, that just was very direct.
Most people are always just like, "Where are you from?"
My parents came here from Pakistan. I was born here.
My race is brown.
Do your parents know you're trans?
-Everything is pretty much the same. -S he should be improving by now.
Well, there are no shoulds. Okay?
There's just so much that we don't know.
But there are things that we do know!
The longer she remains in coma, the worst the prognosis becomes.
I'm sorry, but I've got to take this call.
Thanks, robot-doctor.
Well, if it isn't Sleeping Beauty! Sorry, bad reference. Considering...
-Is Mom okay? -I mean, yeah.
-You okay? -Yeah, sure. Yeah.
Do you want a cup of cappuccino?
Don't take this in the wrong way, but do you even know how to make one?
YouTube does.
...now put the frothed milk on for a beautiful Italian cappuccino.
That's actually good.
So... it's been 28 days.
I should probably go visit her.
-Okay. Well of course. -Can Sabi take me?
Sure, but why do you feel that I can't take you?
Well...
My therapist said you find it hard to let me have bad feelings
because you love me.
So you try to have the bad feelings for me before I get the chance to.
Therapists aren't always right. I say that as one.
That's confusing - you're the one that made me go to therapy.
Your school made you go... I'm not arguing with you today.
Great. So you'll call Sabi?
My parents don't "know" know, but they know.
I mean, I kind of don't even know.
My dad just kind of looks at me like his soul is crushed.
My mom is kind of trying...
last night I got this weird voicemail from her saying "live your life."
Girl, that's definitely trying!
Did you always know you wanted to transition?
I regret nothing. And I lost nothing that I miss.
Not my folks, not feeling safe at night.
Not even the male privilege.
Sabi we're not so different than everyone else, you know.
We happen, like everything happens...
Partly because of how we're made,
and partly because of whatever forces are acting on us.
Everything in the galaxy is one thing becoming another thing,
and everyone is constantly growing into another version of themselves,
into another and another.
We're all in transition. It's the most natural thing in the world.
Just don't skip your hormone pills. That feels very unnatural!
You're cutting a lot of bread...
Buongiorno, amici!
-I'm so hungry. -Me too!
The people in your life who are going to love you?
They're going to love you anyways.
So much sexual healing last night. Marvin Gaye is dancing in his grave!
-Olympia! Ah, hello! -Hi, babes!
Oh, hi.
How cool! You look good with clothes on.
Look at this charcoot! I can eat it myself, Sabi!
-All me! -I helped!
She cut the cheese.
A toast...
No! My parents don't let me touch the expensive stuff.
I brought this. I'm an adult!
Booze in the morning!
One second...
Hey.
So Mom sent me a voice message last night saying "live your life."
Me too. Amazing. Right?
Are you drunk? She's never said anything like that ever, Sabi.
And now she's not picking up.
She's fine.
Sabi, do I ever worry about Mom? Am I not self-absorbed Sabi?
Do I ever say Sabi this much?
Something is wrong! Come get me. We're going to Rexdale.
Okay...
Are you going?
Real life has the worst timing!
This is real life, too.
Not my real life. Here's my Lyft.
Take my number.
I couldn't get rid of the fuckboy. Sorry.
You want to take a minute, and de-femme for Mom?
I'm good like this.
Are you sure?
Hi, you've reached Sabi. I totally missed your call, but...
Sabi, always answers...
They've had very little time to themselves lately.
It's their day off. Let's respect that.
Nah, it's cool. We'll go another day.
I hope Mom won't freak out when she sees you like this.
I'm telling you she's losing her shit.
She's fine, Aqsa. She's just lonely. And full of regret.
-Aray! -I smell chicken Karahi. All's well!
I see Mom waving at me where I should only be seeing wall.
So I'm going with all is not well...
Aray, As-salamu alaykum, my kids!
-Food? -Yes.
Vi?
Vi, I made you hot chocolate as...
-Hi, dad. -Where are you?
I called 7ven and asked for a ride to the hospital.
-What? -You would've said no.
Okay, 7ven is legally kidnapping you right now!
He says you're kidnapping me.
Hey Paul, what up?
Have some spiced pickle, Sabi.
Chicken Karahi is not as spicy as you like it.
And Aqsa. I know you don't like eating the carbs.
But when you are in my house, you respect curry and rice equally.
Take the napkin. If you don't want to dirty your... outfit.
Thanks. It's an old dress but I love it.
Your old clothes are upstairs, if you don't want to dirty it.
I'm doing touch up on the house!
-A touch up? -Yes!
I will even be taking old clothes and unwanted things to the mosque.
Okay, cool. There's a giant hole in the wall and I need to talk about it.
Well, I need light and space and open feelings in my life.
Renovations don't just happen. Your father won't pay for it, so it's DUI.
A DIY?
A little perspiration. A little inspiration.
Okay, yeah. But how?
YouTube!
My God. You can't leave wires like that.
-They're the least of our problems. -They can start a fire.
Hey, you can't leave me alone with her. She's unhinged.
Why must he always look like a "randi?"
That depends. What's a randi?
-Is the power there still on? -Yes!
-Prostitute! -I thought "kasbi" was.
That's Punjabi prostitute.
-Now? -Yes! Still on.
So I've been calling people Punjabi prostitute for years?
Mom, what's wrong?
That was Shehraz on the phone.
He's coming here to take the donations to the mosque.
Get your brother to change his clothes. He won't listen to me.
Your uncle and cousin will be here in 20 minutes!
What about now?
Please? Aqsa?
Hey, I just found out that Shehraz Uncle and Kareem are coming,
because they don't think that Mom can carry boxes into a car.
-Classic. -So maybe you want to go change?
Or wash your face?
Kinda cut the wires upstairs.
Henry where are you? Your sister's been kidnapped.
Well, not actually kidnapped. We're off to the hospital. Seen my keys?
Where's my jacket? Henry! Where are you?
-What are you thinking about? -I'm worried about my dad.
What?
It's like you already have this role in your family as a caregiver.
And you're a kid.
Do you see how you're trained to care for the male in all of this?
-Yeah. -It's a lot of pressure, you know?
Makes me want to scream sometimes.
-You want to scream? -I mean, maybe...
-What do you want to scream? -I don't know. You?
Pretty much all the time, I want to scream "fuck everything!"
-Oh, wow! -Yeah. Scream it. It'll feel good.
My gosh, I can't. I've never even said the F-word aloud!
OMG, Violet!
You're basically a teenager. It's time to say "fuck"!
-Why? -It's transgressive and liberating.
Fuck.
-Fuck... -Fuck everything!
Yeah, scream! You want to do it again?
-No, absolutely not. -Okay.
You know, you could charge $100 per hour...
-I have jobs. -Maybe you could have just one job?
We spent a lot of money on your schooling.
You spent way more on Aqsa's.
Go through the boxes in your room before your uncle and cousin come.
...and Mom basically never explains anything to me.
She's like "That's how it is." And I'm like, "Great. Thanks."
But there's value in figuring things out for yourself, right?
But it's only with me. She explains every little thing to Henry.
Ah, yes. Your mom's a feminist.
Toughen the girls and soften the boys.
She's hardening you up for the world. The world will be tough on you.
And on top of that, you're a mixie, like me.
So shit's already confusing, babe. You'll thank her one day.
You look pretty convincing.
Totally "Bend it like Beckham".
Samir was so badass!
-Crazy cousin Samir. -He just did whatever he wanted.
Yeah. Including driving while drunk and Muslim.
What? I can't be critical because he's dead?
There are consequences for our actions, Sabi.
I am not boy-ing up for them.
Fine. Great. Just stay in that freshly-fucked
afternoon-after- the-morning-after-look.
Seriously, you know what'll happen if Shehraz Uncle sees you like this?
He'll go straight to Dad,
who'll freak out and take a giant shit all over Mom.
You're so selfish.
Oh, I didn't realize me getting to be me is selfish.
-Why are you being like this? -I'm just trying to live my life.
What, are you punishing me? I've always been there for you.
And I wasn't there for you when you were out "studying"?
That's different. We're first gen Pakis. We lie.
You're right. You had a choice to lie about being at the library
while you sucked Christiano Boccia's dick. I got no choice about being me.
I did not suck Christiano Boccia's dick!
As-salamu alaykum, Shehraz Uncle. Hey, Kareem.
What is this?
What's going on around here?
They told me you can hear our voices.
It must be so weird being able to hear everything but not say anything.
I failed art because I didn't paint what I was told to. I got an F.
So I took it outside, and Jagger gave me a lighter.
Jagger worries me sometimes.
And then I lit the painting on fire.
...then the next day I had to stay in bed because I was suspended.
I thought about the time we took our class together, and we made a...
When I'm one way it's bad. When I'm another way it's bad?
Everybody does just whatever they want to.
Please, allow me.
Call a Lyft. I'll go get our stuff.
-I could have you arrested. -Settle down, Karen.
You're about to have a very special moment.
You're not going to believe it!
Call 7ven.
Christiano Boccia? He was the hairy one?
I had a full beard in grade eight.
Everyone does whatever they want.
Sabi, I'm like freaking out right now!
It's the most amazing thing I've ever seen!
She opened her eyes! Sabi, she opened her eyes!
Oh, my God. What happened now?
She opened her eyes, Sabi! Sabi!
-Sabi? -Sabi! Hello are you there?
-Hello, Sabi! -Sabi! Sabi!
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