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SHE SIGHS

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Don't fuck this up.

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What's going on?

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Oh, you're here.

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Thought you were at Alex's.
I was working on my portfolio.

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Right, we ready?

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Family meeting.
Now?!

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I have my interview.
He got the idea from you.

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Dad, I...
DOOR BELL RINGS

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Oh, that'll be Mina.
Mina's coming?

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Yeah.

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Right. Um...

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I just... Thank you all for coming,
by the way.

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Some things have arisen
over the past few weeks that affect,

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well, all of us.

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And I thought it might be an idea
for us to sit down...

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Sorry. Sorry to...

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I think it's great we're having
a family meeting

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and talking about stuff.

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I just have an interview later,

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so I might not be able to stay
for the whole family meeting.

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Can I ask a question
about the family meeting?

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Er... Sure.

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Why is Mina here?
Are you two back together?

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Uh...
No.

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No. But, uh...

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Cos I thought only family members
were at a family meeting.

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Oh, what about Finbar?
Finbar's my partner.

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If Tom and Mina aren't partners...
I'm here as Tom's friend.

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For support.
Jesus...

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Actually, Bernie, if I might...

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I think it's wonderful that Mina
is here.

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For Tom and... and for all of us.

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I've sat on many a committee
throughout my academic career,

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and believe me, there is
no substitute for diversity...

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...of opinion.

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All voices welcome here.

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OK, er, right.

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I'm aware that we might have thrown
a curveball...

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We?
I.

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...in mentioning selling the house,

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which is why I wanted
to give everyone a chance

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to air their feelings in an open
and a reasonable manner.

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Very sensible.
So, who wants to go first?

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I'll go first.

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I don't want to sell this house.

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Oh. Bernie...

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This is the house
where I raised my family,

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where Ant was born,
where my mother died,

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not to mention my first-born son.

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You might as well cut out my heart
and stamp it into the ground!

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Anyone else?

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Do we have to sell the house?

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Well, I wish we didn't...

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But, like, is it the best time?

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Just feels very sudden and, like,
there's a lot of uncertainty

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and, uh, choices and...
Mum's recovery.

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I'm not the problem here.

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I know. I know that...

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Tom can't live in a shed forever.
No-one's making him live in a shed!

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Yeah, but where else can I go?
What about renting?

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Have you any idea what
the rental market's like these days?

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He's plenty of money!
He's not working.

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I mean...
Why's he not working?

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You've been using my car.

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Er, um, we can talk about
this later, OK?

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What's going on, Tom?
Nothing.

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Well, you told Shiv.
Oh, he didn't tell me.

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So how do you know?
It doesn't matter.

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Oh, is this another
of your little secrets?

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What?
I thought we were here to be honest.

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I'm just respecting Dad's privacy,
OK?

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Why, what's he done?
Nothing!

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Sounds a bit fishy, Tom.

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Yeah, look, can we just please...?

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So you're not working,
and you haven't told anyone...

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Except Shiv.
Can we just leave it?

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He's going through a lot.

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What's he going through?
Nothing! Oh, for God's sake!

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Just tell us what's happened!
No! Why?

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Because!
Because what?

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Because it's not for me to say!
Why?

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Because!
Because what?

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Because he was smearing shit
on a van!

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Whose shit?
Uh...

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It was just some dog shit.

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Whose van?
My boss'.

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Ah, Tom, no.
They, uh...

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They let me go.

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They fired me.
Before the... dog shit thing.

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Is this why you came to see me, hm?

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What, you went to see Mina?

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Well...
She asked me to visit you.

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Oh, is...

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...that why you...?

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Ah, I see. I see. Uh...

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Look, I admit, it hasn't been
the greatest few weeks.

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And, uh, maybe I didn't handle
things as well as I...

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But I've had some time
to think now, and, er...

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We've moved on, Bernie.

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We don't need this house.

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We could, uh, sell up now,

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and both of us come out of it
pretty all right.

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Now, Ant's, er, got some figures...

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Yep. So, er, in the current market,
you guys could sell this place,

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split the cash, probably come out
with an apartment each.

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An apartment?

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Yeah, nice little one-bed
somewhere local.

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So this is what my life has come to?

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A windowless one-bedroom apartment?
Huh!

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Not... Not windowless.

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No, we-we can't stay
living like this, Bernie.

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You know,
we've worked hard all our lives.

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We're mortgage-free.

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Well, almost, yeah.
Almost?

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Which is quite a privilege
when you think about it.

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I've been meaning to tell you.

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I re-mortgaged the house.

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When?
A few weeks ago.

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For what?!
This and that.

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What?! "This and that"?
What are you saying, Bernie?!

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Tom, if-if I might, erm...

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I found a little pied-a-terre
in the west, er,

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between the mountains and the sea.
Very reasonably priced.

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It would have been a crime
to let it go,

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and I've, uh,
taken on a little mortgage.

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Bernie has kindly provided
the deposit.

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FINBAR CLEARS
HIS THROAT

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It's where I'll write my next book.

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TOM YELLS

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How could you do this?!

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It's an investment!
For who?!

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If we could all just calm down...

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You don't even know this man,
and you're buying him property.

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I have a lot of experience
with conflict resolution.

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First rule - stay in the room.

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I'm not staying
in that fucking room!

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Wha...?

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How did you re-mortgage
without my signature?

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Did you forge it?

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Look, Tom,
the payments aren't that much.

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I can manage it.
Jesus Christ, Bernie! That's fraud!

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Oh, don't be so hysterical.

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Why did I bother calling
a family meeting?

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Clearly, we only make
unilateral decisions around here.

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Ant!
Yeah?

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Tell your boss
to come do that valuation.

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Are you sure?
Yes!

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So, what? You're gonna just go ahead
with this?

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Why not? You did.

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Look...

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It's only 100 grand!

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He'll pay it back now
if you're so upset. Won't you?

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We're selling the house, Bernie.

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You can do what you want
with your share.

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I don't even know you any more.

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I bought that.

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DOOR SLAMS

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Well, I hope you're happy!
Me?! What did I do?

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You brought her back. That woman!
That witch!

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She's the one putting ideas
into his head,

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he was grand out there till now.

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Mum, did you forge Dad's signature?

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What if I did? It's my house!

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What the fuck?

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FINBAR CLEARS
HIS THROAT

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They made peace in Northern Ireland.
They'll make peace here.

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MOBILE PHONE CHIMES

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Shiv?
Caroline, I really have to go...

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I'll give you a lift.
OK.

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And it's not just the fact that she
blames me for literally everything,

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it's the total self-absorption, too,
you know? Yeah.

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Like, the lack of interest
in anyone else's life!

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Shiv, there's something that I...
And do you know,

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not one person has asked me
what this interview is for? Shi...

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I, um...

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And I'm not saying that
to make you feel bad, by the way.

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But, you know...
you haven't asked me, either, so...

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How could she do that?

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So you're definitely up for this, yeah?

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Cos if I go to my boss
and you change your mind, it's...

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I won't change my mind.
Cos I really need this, Dad.

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I'm done.

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I'm fucking done.

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Thanks, Dad. You're amazeballs.

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Eddie! Caught that fish.

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♪ I look at her, she looks at me

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♪ In her eyes, I see the sea

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♪ And I don't know
What she'd see in me. ♪

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KNOCK ON DOOR

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Cuppa?
Sorry. I just needed to think.

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You don't need to explain.

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I probably should have said
something to Tom.

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Little white lie
for the greater good.

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Totally understandable.

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I'm going to the shops.
Do you need anything? No.

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Have a soak in the tub.
Bit of me-time.

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FINBAR: Text if you think
of anything!

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DOOR SHUTS

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OK, I accept not everybody
gives a shit about art.

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Can you slow down?!

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It's not like medicine
is so fucking riveting, either.

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Shiv...
OK, it might save a few more lives.

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Oh. Will you shut the fuck up?!

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I'm...
Shiv?

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Oh, for God's sake!

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Jack, wh...?
What are you doing here?

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I'm here for the interview.

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What are you doing?
Are you here for the interview?

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Erm, kinda, yeah.
Right.

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And what time is your...?
Can you hold Stevie for a sec?

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What?
I'm just bursting for a piss.

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Oh, erm...

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What is he doing here?
Wha...?

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He doesn't need this,
it's for emerging artists.

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He's not emerging, he's emerged.

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Unless he's on the judging panel.

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Oh, my God, he's on
the judging panel. Of course he is.

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This is fucking typical!
He's on the fucking...

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CAROLINE SNIFFS

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Why are you crying?

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Oh, my God, you're pregnant.
Shh!

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How far along?
Almost four months.

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I only found out the other week.
I...

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I thought it was just
really bad indigestion.

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Oh, Caroline...

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Is it Shane's?

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Yes, it's Shane's!
Of course it's Shane's!

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I'm like... 84% sure it's Shane's.

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So you've told him?

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Of course I haven't told him!
OK.

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So, what are you gonna do?

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Get rid of it, obviously.

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Really?
Yes.

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You sure?

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I've booked the flights,
I'm going Saturday, it's done.

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I just needed to tell someone
in case...

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I don't know, something came up.

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Do you think
maybe you need some more time?

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This wasn't meant to happen, Shiv.
It's not on my timeline.

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What the fuck am I supposed to do
with a fucking baby?!

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There y'are!

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Thought you'd kidnapped my kid.

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Why's she crying?

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Everywhere I go, women crying.

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Hey, Max. Thanks for seeing me.

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God, I'm... I'm sorry, Tom.
That sounds awful.

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So how... How could I...?
I need a lawyer.

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Tom, I respect both you and Bernie.

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I don't think I should...

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I'm not trying to put you in
an awkward situation here, Max.

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I'm not. It's just, you know,
I've always felt you and I have a...

253
00:15:15,960 --> 00:15:17,960
special connection, you know?

254
00:15:18,960 --> 00:15:20,960
Anyway, I value your advice.

255
00:15:20,960 --> 00:15:25,960
Yeah, well,
divorce is a nasty business, Tom.

256
00:15:25,960 --> 00:15:27,960
My advice is, try some mediation.

257
00:15:27,960 --> 00:15:30,960
Ah, no, no! No mediation.

258
00:15:33,960 --> 00:15:34,960
We're past that.

259
00:15:37,960 --> 00:15:39,960
I need a shark.

260
00:15:43,960 --> 00:15:46,640
Have you ever had an abortion?

261
00:15:50,960 --> 00:15:51,960
Yeah.

262
00:15:53,800 --> 00:15:54,960
When?

263
00:15:56,960 --> 00:16:00,000
Five years ago. In London.

264
00:16:05,960 --> 00:16:07,960
Do you ever regret it?

265
00:16:12,960 --> 00:16:13,960
No.

266
00:16:16,960 --> 00:16:18,960
Then I won't, either.

267
00:16:23,960 --> 00:16:26,480
I'm a different person to you.

268
00:16:29,960 --> 00:16:32,960
Look, I don't think anyone
should have to be a mother

269
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if they don't want to be.
Life's hard enough without that.

270
00:16:37,960 --> 00:16:41,960
Just make sure it is
what you want... for you.

271
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Not just cos it doesn't fit
into some timeline.

272
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Siobhan Sheridan?

273
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Good luck.

274
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Dearbhla...
Shiv.

275
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Didn't realise that was you.

276
00:17:16,960 --> 00:17:19,160
Your leaflet inspired me to apply.

277
00:17:19,160 --> 00:17:22,960
Well... it did say YOUNG artists,

278
00:17:22,960 --> 00:17:26,960
but never mind,
the judges liked you. Come on in.

279
00:17:34,960 --> 00:17:35,960
Hello, Shiv.

280
00:17:53,960 --> 00:17:57,960
Hi. This is Caroline Sheridan.
I've an appointment this weekend.

281
00:17:59,800 --> 00:18:01,960
I'd like to push it back.

282
00:18:06,960 --> 00:18:08,960
Just putting out the bins.

283
00:18:28,960 --> 00:18:29,960
Hello.

284
00:18:39,960 --> 00:18:43,960
So you call this A Cycle Of Shame:
Meditations On Addiction.

285
00:18:46,960 --> 00:18:49,960
Can you talk about that?
Sure.

286
00:18:49,960 --> 00:18:53,960
I'm drawn to both the abstract
and figurative in my work,

287
00:18:53,960 --> 00:18:54,960
so I've used harsh lines

288
00:18:54,960 --> 00:18:56,960
and a repetition of colour
to evoke...

289
00:18:56,960 --> 00:18:59,960
Yes. But why shame as a theme?

290
00:18:59,960 --> 00:19:02,960
Have you done something
to be ashamed of?

291
00:19:04,960 --> 00:19:06,960
Well, the piece is about addiction.

292
00:19:06,960 --> 00:19:08,960
Yes, a brave choice
of subject matter,

293
00:19:08,960 --> 00:19:10,960
given that it's such a cliche.

294
00:19:12,480 --> 00:19:13,960
I'm an alcoholic.

295
00:19:15,480 --> 00:19:19,960
I tried getting sober
in my early 30s and kept failing.

296
00:19:19,960 --> 00:19:22,960
Last year, I was doing pretty well,
made it to six months

297
00:19:22,960 --> 00:19:26,960
before I fell spectacularly off
the wagon.

298
00:19:27,960 --> 00:19:29,960
I did some things I'm not proud of.

299
00:19:31,800 --> 00:19:33,480
We addicts drink to get rid
of our shame.

300
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And then we do things
when we're drunk

301
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that make us more ashamed,

302
00:19:36,960 --> 00:19:39,960
so it kind of becomes
a vicious cycle.

303
00:19:39,960 --> 00:19:43,000
And what about the things you did
when you were not drunk?

304
00:19:45,960 --> 00:19:47,960
Are you ashamed of those, too?

305
00:19:49,000 --> 00:19:50,960
Of course.

306
00:19:51,960 --> 00:19:53,960
That's what I'm exploring
in this piece -

307
00:19:53,960 --> 00:19:59,960
how one can be sober
but still... messy.

308
00:19:59,960 --> 00:20:02,960
But aren't we sick of the trope
of the "messy" woman?

309
00:20:02,960 --> 00:20:05,160
What about the women
who just get on with it?

310
00:20:05,160 --> 00:20:07,640
Who have jobs and raise kids,

311
00:20:07,640 --> 00:20:11,960
and aren't endlessly talking about
their problems or their... pussies?

312
00:20:14,960 --> 00:20:15,960
Well...

313
00:20:17,320 --> 00:20:19,960
...would that make great art?

314
00:20:19,960 --> 00:20:22,960
Is this great art?

315
00:20:22,960 --> 00:20:25,960
I just don't think young women
relate to this any more.

316
00:20:25,960 --> 00:20:27,960
They're bored by it.

317
00:20:27,960 --> 00:20:29,960
I think it's easy to be bored
when you're 23

318
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and you haven't made any mistakes.

319
00:20:31,960 --> 00:20:33,640
You know, come back to me
when you're 40

320
00:20:33,640 --> 00:20:34,960
and your life's in the shitter.

321
00:20:34,960 --> 00:20:37,960
If you ask me, women are owed
at least several more centuries

322
00:20:37,960 --> 00:20:39,960
of "messy". I mean, Jesus,

323
00:20:39,960 --> 00:20:43,960
we've had a millennia of just being
baby factories or whores.

324
00:20:43,960 --> 00:20:45,960
So you consider yourself a feminist?

325
00:20:45,960 --> 00:20:46,960
Oh, yeah.

326
00:20:46,960 --> 00:20:50,640
So would you consider it feminist
to, erm, accept a job from a woman

327
00:20:50,640 --> 00:20:51,960
who is eight months pregnant,

328
00:20:51,960 --> 00:20:54,960
and then fuck her boyfriend
behind her back?

329
00:20:54,960 --> 00:20:57,960
Or would you simply put that down
to being... "messy"?

330
00:21:12,160 --> 00:21:13,960
Oh.

331
00:21:14,960 --> 00:21:16,960
Apology Champagne.
Oh?

332
00:21:19,640 --> 00:21:21,960
Did you get my flowers last week?
I did.

333
00:21:21,960 --> 00:21:25,160
I am really sorry
about what happened. Erm...

334
00:21:25,160 --> 00:21:27,960
Er, but I've got good news.

335
00:21:27,960 --> 00:21:30,960
My folks are selling the house,
and I brought it to Eddie,

336
00:21:30,960 --> 00:21:32,960
which means
I'll be getting commission,

337
00:21:32,960 --> 00:21:35,960
which means I won't need
mates rates, which means...

338
00:21:35,960 --> 00:21:38,000
I'm ready. To move in.

339
00:21:38,000 --> 00:21:41,640
Is it OK - I took your washing
out of the machine?

340
00:21:41,640 --> 00:21:43,960
Yeah, yeah. Of course.

341
00:21:43,960 --> 00:21:48,640
Er, Ant, you remember Mikhail?
Hi.

342
00:21:49,960 --> 00:21:52,960
He's subletting Pete's room
for a couple of months.

343
00:21:52,960 --> 00:21:55,160
Oh. OK.

344
00:21:55,160 --> 00:21:58,960
It just seemed like, you know,
after everything, that...

345
00:21:58,960 --> 00:22:02,960
it might be better for us
to take it slow, you know?

346
00:22:02,960 --> 00:22:05,960
Right, yeah.
Yeah. We're not in any rush.

347
00:22:05,960 --> 00:22:07,160
God, no! No!

348
00:22:07,160 --> 00:22:09,960
Sure. You were the one
with the foot on the accelerator.

349
00:22:09,960 --> 00:22:11,960
Are these yours?

350
00:22:11,960 --> 00:22:14,320
Oh, come on!
Did they shrink?

351
00:22:14,320 --> 00:22:18,960
Hey, give them! Give them to me!
Give them to me! Give...

352
00:22:18,960 --> 00:22:20,960
You're such a dick!

353
00:22:20,960 --> 00:22:21,960
He's such a dick.

354
00:22:21,960 --> 00:22:24,960
Yeah. Yeah, I can see that.

355
00:22:55,480 --> 00:22:59,960
This feels firm to me.
No, this is not a proper melon.

356
00:22:59,960 --> 00:23:02,960
Here, this one.
OK.

357
00:23:04,320 --> 00:23:06,960
Caroline!
Hey, hi!

358
00:23:06,960 --> 00:23:09,960
What are you... doing here?

359
00:23:09,960 --> 00:23:11,960
Fe-Feeling the-the melons...

360
00:23:13,160 --> 00:23:16,960
Hi, I'm Caroline...
Er, this is Marie-Luisa.

361
00:23:16,960 --> 00:23:17,960
We work together.

362
00:23:21,480 --> 00:23:23,960
And I am his girlfriend.

363
00:23:23,960 --> 00:23:26,960
Right. Wow.

364
00:23:28,960 --> 00:23:32,960
And you're Spanish?
Half Spanish, half Portuguese.

365
00:23:32,960 --> 00:23:35,960
Yes. Erm, I think Rory
might have mentioned you.

366
00:23:35,960 --> 00:23:38,960
When did you mention me?
Er, are you having a party or...?

367
00:23:38,960 --> 00:23:43,960
Oh, no. Just... sugar cravings.

368
00:23:43,960 --> 00:23:46,160
Period?

369
00:23:46,160 --> 00:23:48,800
Yep.
Yeah.

370
00:23:50,960 --> 00:23:53,160
Er, anyway...
Er, yeah.

371
00:23:53,160 --> 00:23:55,960
It was nice seeing you, Rory.
Yeah, you too.

372
00:24:03,960 --> 00:24:05,960
Why didn't you say
I was your girlfriend?!

373
00:24:05,960 --> 00:24:08,960
Ow, Jesus!
Argh!

374
00:24:11,960 --> 00:24:14,960
Kristen?
Yes?

375
00:24:17,160 --> 00:24:20,960
I just wanted to say I'm sorry...
for everything.

376
00:24:22,960 --> 00:24:24,960
I know I've caused you
a lot of pain.

377
00:24:24,960 --> 00:24:27,480
And I know you and Jack
aren't together any more.

378
00:24:27,480 --> 00:24:29,960
And I feel terrible for the part
I played in... Oh, please.

379
00:24:29,960 --> 00:24:31,960
Don't make yourself
more important than you are.

380
00:24:33,960 --> 00:24:36,960
It's not like you were the only one.
It was Christmas.

381
00:24:36,960 --> 00:24:40,320
Apology not accepted.

382
00:24:40,320 --> 00:24:42,480
Go fuck yourself.

383
00:24:55,960 --> 00:24:59,000
Hey, Shiv. How'd it go?

384
00:24:59,000 --> 00:25:01,960
Why didn't you tell me
she was on the panel?

385
00:25:01,960 --> 00:25:03,960
I didn't wanna freak you out.

386
00:25:03,960 --> 00:25:05,800
She tore me to pieces in there.

387
00:25:05,800 --> 00:25:08,960
Fuck it! It's some shitty little
parochial bursary,

388
00:25:08,960 --> 00:25:11,960
you don't need it.
Actually, Jack, yes, I do!

389
00:25:11,960 --> 00:25:13,960
And by the way,
that's easy for you to say,

390
00:25:13,960 --> 00:25:15,960
you weren't in there
being totally fucking...

391
00:25:15,960 --> 00:25:17,960
HE CHUCKLES
What?!

392
00:25:17,960 --> 00:25:21,960
You look great when you're angry.
HE CHUCKLES

393
00:25:21,960 --> 00:25:22,960
Oh, my God.

394
00:25:24,960 --> 00:25:27,960
It doesn't matter what they think!

395
00:25:28,960 --> 00:25:30,960
WHISTLE

396
00:25:39,640 --> 00:25:42,960
So... how'd it go?

397
00:25:42,960 --> 00:25:46,960
It was a total fucking shit show.
What?! No!

398
00:25:48,960 --> 00:25:50,960
Is it something to do
with your ex being here?

399
00:25:50,960 --> 00:25:54,160
No. God...
Were yis fighting?

400
00:25:54,160 --> 00:25:56,960
He was just being himself.

401
00:25:58,480 --> 00:25:59,960
It wasn't just my ex.

402
00:25:59,960 --> 00:26:03,960
His ex was on the panel, my boss.

403
00:26:05,960 --> 00:26:08,320
So what's your news?
Your text this morning.

404
00:26:08,320 --> 00:26:10,960
You said you had something to...
Ah, it's not really...

405
00:26:10,960 --> 00:26:13,480
Oh, come on. It sounded important,
and I need a distraction.

406
00:26:18,960 --> 00:26:20,960
Look, I...
I didn't wanna do this here.

407
00:26:20,960 --> 00:26:22,160
Erm...

408
00:26:24,960 --> 00:26:26,960
I've been offered to go
to Australia.

409
00:26:26,960 --> 00:26:29,960
Australia?
One of my business partners,

410
00:26:29,960 --> 00:26:32,960
his brother lives in Melbourne,

411
00:26:32,960 --> 00:26:34,960
and he wants to open a restaurant
with us.

412
00:26:34,960 --> 00:26:38,960
When?
Soon.

413
00:26:38,960 --> 00:26:41,960
And obviously,
there's some considerations...

414
00:26:41,960 --> 00:26:44,960
Yeah, like what?

415
00:26:44,960 --> 00:26:45,960
Like you.

416
00:26:47,960 --> 00:26:51,480
The fact that I'm falling in love
with you.

417
00:26:54,320 --> 00:26:55,960
What d'you think?

418
00:26:57,640 --> 00:26:59,960
You wanna ride off
into the sunset with me?

419
00:27:03,640 --> 00:27:06,960
♪ Hey, baby, swing for the fences

420
00:27:06,960 --> 00:27:10,480
♪ Whatever consequences

421
00:27:12,960 --> 00:27:15,960
♪ I'm smiling like an idiot again

422
00:27:16,960 --> 00:27:26,960
♪ I'm smiling like an idiot again

423
00:27:28,960 --> 00:27:30,960
♪ I'm smiling like an idiot again

424
00:27:31,960 --> 00:27:34,960
♪ I'm smiling like an idiot again

425
00:27:36,320 --> 00:27:38,960
♪ I'm smiling like an idiot again. ♪

426
00:27:38,960 --> 00:27:40,960
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