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[upbeat tune]
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Thank you very much.
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Thank you!
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[indistinct chatter]
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[shouting]
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[giggling]
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[indistinct chatter]
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[rainfall]
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[applause]
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[orchestra playing]
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[tempo builds up]
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[applause]
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[applause]
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[orchestra music continues]
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[applause]
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If I wanted to sing
that song so much,
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it's because in the words
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Serge made me sing:
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Une chose entre autres que tu ne sais pas.
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Tu as eu plus qu'un autre,
L'meilleur de moi.
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So thank you,
Serge Gainsbourg.
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[applause]
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['Pleasant'
by SebastiAn playing]
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Did you make one for everyone?
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I have 50 to do.
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[giggling]
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[indistinct chatter]
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I love it, it's so...
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precious.
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[indistinct chatter]
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- Thank you.
- You're welcome.
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The idea is to look at you
as I never have before,
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or have dared to look at you.
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Filming you with a camera
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is basically an excuse
just to look at you.
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That's a brief explanation of...
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I see.
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...the process, OK?
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The background music is nice...
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[both laughing]
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I don't know the song enough
to know when it ends.
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Can I Just a
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Oh, I should wait?
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[chuckles]
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I know what I'd like to ask you first,
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because I feel it strongly,
though perhaps you don't:
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we both have a shyness
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when we're together.
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I don't know where it comes from.
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I know that we're...
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It's partly due to our personalities,
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but I don't think
you have that with Lou
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nor that you had it with Kate.
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Perhaps not.
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But I think this is because...
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you were intimidating
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as a child...
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- Not as a young child?
- Yes.
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Very early on.
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Very early on.
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I felt privileged
to be in your presence.
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It wasn't the same as...
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It wasn't trivial.
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And so...
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This is off to a good start.
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So it's true that...
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I never wanted to do wrong
in regards to you.
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I never scolded you the same way
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I dared scold Kate,
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as people do,
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ordinarily,
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when they're angry.
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You were much more
mysterious to me, like...
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uncharted territory.
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Your answers always surprised me.
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You were very...
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You were so private, and so...
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so secretive.
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I didn't have any clues.
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[tranquil music playing]
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When you were about 14 years old,
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I was dying to see you naked.
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I did the same with Alice,
who thought it was awful.
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I asked to touch your breasts.
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I know.
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I really wanted to,
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but I also knew
you might take it the wrong way,
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and say no,
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or worse,
you'd feel obligated to say yes,
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making you feel
extremely embarrassed.
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But I just found you so beautiful
and I wanted to know how it felt
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and how you'd developed.
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Because you hid your body
at an early age.
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You became secretive very early on.
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I didn't know whom you were with,
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you didn't tell me
if you had boyfriends,
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I had no idea.
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You replied: "Yes, go ahead."
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So I touched you, and I felt...
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almost perverse
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for asking to touch you,
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and that you had to say yes.
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I knew it would be the last time
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I could ever do that.
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And...
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I wanted to be tactile with you.
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I tried with Alice, but she refused.
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Are you very tactile with them?
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When they were young, yes.
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And in an extremely natural
and strong manner,
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it came back with Ben,
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but with Alice,
there is a lot of awkwardness.
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I don't feel awkward,
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but it's awkward
because I sense she's embarrassed.
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And with Jo,
I make the most of it.
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Of course.
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It's fascinating.
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They allow you to observe
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because it isn't sexual yet
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nor is it awkward yet.
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Perhaps I wouldn't have liked
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my mother asking to look at my body.
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I didn't want her to see,
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for I felt so anxious
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about not developing.
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[tranquil music playing]
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I used to be taller than you,
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and now you're taller.
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I was wondering if...
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being middle children,
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you,
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me,
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and Alice,
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we have things in common.
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Do we have a bond,
as middle children?
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I've wondered that, too.
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It seems to me
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we have a sort of... sisterhood.
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We always mess up with the first,
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for me, personally.
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Your first reactions have
such an influence on them.
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Not as young children,
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but as teenagers.
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And the second's personality
is so different from the first's.
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Yes.
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But...
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I was quite happy
not to be in first or last position.
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You go unnoticed in certain aspects.
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You feel more agile, in a way.
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[chuckles]
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Perhaps more agile,
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but also...
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I think all three of us were very...
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privileged by our fathers.
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Yes, it's true.
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But I sense a lot of jealousy.
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I...
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It's one of my personality traits
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and I see it in Alice, too.
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- Jealousy?
- Yes.
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You're always making sure
things are fair.
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Always counting, in a way.
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Yes, I noticed that.
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- I saw it...
- You weren't that way?
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No, on the contrary,
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my father would unfairly
display pictures of me everywhere.
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And I sensed that for my sister,
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it must have felt...
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strange
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to have a sister who was
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always shining in her father's eyes.
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I feel as though I took everything.
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And...
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And without deserving it.
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That's why I have complications
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in terms of the guilt I feel,
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for I didn't truly
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deserve his devotion.
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Yes.
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- I think you had the same...
- I know.
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...place in Serge's heart.
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[upbeat music playing]
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Photographs were a nightmare for me,
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at first, being photographed.
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Did you enjoy it?
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I loved it.
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- Really?
- Yes.
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Being photographed was so stimulating.
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It was so exciting:
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the music, the atmosphere, all of it.
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I loved it, because I was so young
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and therefore always looked pretty.
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I didn't care about looking bad.
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Yes.
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And then, came the...
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You start to see yourself.
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I really aged these last few years.
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In the last two years.
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Quite a bit.
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You try to tell yourself:
"I don't mind,
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"for there are so many women I love
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"whose faces
look like an elephant's knees."
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I thought I'd get used to
having wrinkles all over,
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around my mouth,
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A doctor told me yesterday:
"Lips completely disappear
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"unless you do something about it."
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He removed his mask
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and I saw
he'd done something about it.
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If I don't do that,
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I'll have flat lips, like dad's,
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now that I think about it.
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At what point do you stop caring?
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I think I'm reaching that point
of not caring.
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[camera clicks]
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When Kate died
and I fell down the stairs,
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I changed a lot physically.
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Right before that,
I was doing Arabesque.
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I was already older,
but 20 years after it began,
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I was still wearing the same dresses.
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After that,
I changed a lot physically.
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I became a bit more stout and portly.
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A lot.
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We can no longer wear the same things
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forcing us to become a bit blurry.
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[chuckles]
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[camera clicks]
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At one point,
you no longer recognize yourself
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in the mirror.
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Only when you touch your skin,
but not your reflection.
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So... you remove the mirrors,
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stop thinking about it, write,
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do other things,
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try to make people laugh.
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Your voice doesn't change,
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which is nice,
you can keep singing.
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But as far as visual aspects go,
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it's best to take off your glasses
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so everything is blurry
and won't matter.
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What music can we use?
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We don't hear it anyways.
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- And we won't have the rights.
- That's true.
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What about your music?
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Oh, how awful!
That would be terrible.
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How about some Bach?
Bach? Yes?
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He won't sue us?
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Bach? No, I don't think so.
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[Johann Sebastian Bach playing]
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[camera clicks]
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Why did you cut your hair short?
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Why do you like short hair so much,
on you and others?
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It was perfect for the Bataclan,
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because I wanted to remove
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all my attributes that were feminine
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and doll-like.
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It was important to me.
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As though you had cast off
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all those previous pictures of you
we all know.
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To move on.
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It wasn't quite that dramatic, but...
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I wanted people to listen to the lyrics
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and how I sang them,
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instead of focusing on my appearance.
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I see.
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[camera clicks]
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I remember, my mother said:
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"It's fine, because you look boyish
but watch out,
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"or you may soon look like a man."
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And I thought:
"Oh no! Perhaps she's right."
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[camera clicks]
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Can you say something?
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OK, um...
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How is your... how are you?
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Hold on, let me make an adjustment.
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My mum
is the best mummy in the world.
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I'm hearing all the sounds
of the station.
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Hold on,
I'm going use the original settings.
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00:18:51,960 --> 00:18:55,168
Can you hear all the conversations?
278
00:18:55,335 --> 00:18:59,668
Well, it's a microphone,
and if I point it at you,
279
00:18:59,835 --> 00:19:02,585
I hear your voice the loudest.
280
00:19:03,710 --> 00:19:04,793
Where are we going?
281
00:19:05,835 --> 00:19:07,335
Where are we going?
282
00:19:08,335 --> 00:19:10,418
To Brittany to visit grandma.
283
00:19:15,030 --> 00:19:16,450
[water rustling]
284
00:19:26,400 --> 00:19:27,570
[feedback]
285
00:19:29,418 --> 00:19:31,126
What a funny tripod!
286
00:19:31,793 --> 00:19:36,210
It's really great,
it can bend to any shape.
287
00:19:36,376 --> 00:19:40,876
I see that!
It looks like Andrew's DNA things.
288
00:19:41,043 --> 00:19:42,626
It's true!
289
00:19:42,793 --> 00:19:44,126
Molecules.
290
00:19:50,570 --> 00:19:51,700
[birds chirping]
291
00:20:03,293 --> 00:20:04,335
Grandma,
292
00:20:04,501 --> 00:20:06,085
I brought some plants.
293
00:20:06,251 --> 00:20:08,460
- To plant?
- Yes, I brought them.
294
00:20:08,626 --> 00:20:09,626
Can I see?
295
00:20:10,668 --> 00:20:12,251
Oh, they're seeds!
296
00:20:13,710 --> 00:20:14,543
So?
297
00:20:14,700 --> 00:20:17,320
"Morning Glory,
my mother's favorite."
298
00:20:17,320 --> 00:20:19,450
Oh, Morning Glory,
that would be lovely.
299
00:20:20,030 --> 00:20:22,320
Uh, very vigorous plant.
300
00:20:23,751 --> 00:20:25,751
Should I keep some for Paris?
301
00:20:25,918 --> 00:20:28,418
No, no. Here is great.
302
00:20:28,585 --> 00:20:32,001
Where and when should we plant them?
303
00:20:32,530 --> 00:20:36,450
So "In open ground
and small shallow holes".
304
00:20:36,585 --> 00:20:38,126
That's good for us.
305
00:20:38,293 --> 00:20:41,043
Weren't you afraid
to have Kate so young?
306
00:20:41,210 --> 00:20:42,751
Not at all.
307
00:20:44,668 --> 00:20:46,418
That's all I wanted.
308
00:20:47,710 --> 00:20:50,418
Every time I couldn't start having her,
309
00:20:50,585 --> 00:20:52,418
I was full of despair.
310
00:20:54,918 --> 00:20:56,376
Found it, grandma.
311
00:20:56,543 --> 00:20:57,626
Did you find it?
312
00:20:57,793 --> 00:21:01,126
- We found some trivial things.
- We found a shovel.
313
00:21:01,668 --> 00:21:04,460
Where are the seeds?
314
00:21:04,626 --> 00:21:06,543
- The what?
- The seeds?
315
00:21:06,450 --> 00:21:07,820
In my hand.
316
00:21:11,668 --> 00:21:15,043
After your marriage failed,
317
00:21:15,210 --> 00:21:18,543
did you feel it was a problem
for your parents?
318
00:21:18,918 --> 00:21:21,126
Or did you accept the separation?
319
00:21:21,918 --> 00:21:25,668
I think my parents understood
and gave me a lot of support.
320
00:21:26,210 --> 00:21:28,876
They knew John Barry
had already had two wives
321
00:21:29,043 --> 00:21:30,085
two children,
322
00:21:30,251 --> 00:21:32,460
that he was a known womanizer,
323
00:21:33,001 --> 00:21:35,835
and that he had
a very seductive personality,
324
00:21:36,001 --> 00:21:37,668
but also very selfish.
325
00:21:38,376 --> 00:21:42,251
My father was the one
who told me he'd left for Rome,
326
00:21:42,418 --> 00:21:43,376
and not alone.
327
00:21:44,210 --> 00:21:46,960
- He's the one who told you?
- Yes.
328
00:21:47,126 --> 00:21:51,126
So I packed my bags,
329
00:21:51,293 --> 00:21:53,251
picked up poor little Kate,
330
00:21:53,418 --> 00:21:56,126
called my parents from a phone booth,
331
00:21:56,751 --> 00:21:59,418
and they told me
to come back right away.
332
00:21:59,585 --> 00:22:01,001
They adored Kate
333
00:22:01,168 --> 00:22:04,710
and I think
they were secretly relieved.
334
00:22:07,376 --> 00:22:08,210
Go on, Jo.
335
00:22:08,376 --> 00:22:10,668
- Try to dig a hole over here.
- Here?
336
00:22:10,835 --> 00:22:12,543
No, no. Keep going!
337
00:22:12,710 --> 00:22:14,085
- Here?
- Yeah.
338
00:22:15,126 --> 00:22:16,668
Is it very hard?
339
00:22:20,450 --> 00:22:21,570
[shovel scraping]
340
00:22:25,543 --> 00:22:27,460
It's horribly dry, isn't it?
341
00:22:32,293 --> 00:22:34,085
That's a lot of water.
342
00:22:34,543 --> 00:22:37,501
The ground was very, very dry.
343
00:22:39,251 --> 00:22:41,085
Do you want some, grandma?
344
00:22:41,251 --> 00:22:45,168
Yes, please.
Would you add an extra egg for me?
345
00:22:45,335 --> 00:22:46,251
Sure.
346
00:22:47,585 --> 00:22:50,460
I think we might need more eggs.
347
00:22:50,950 --> 00:22:52,700
[TV background noises]
348
00:22:56,376 --> 00:22:58,126
F-R-U-I-T.
349
00:22:58,293 --> 00:23:00,835
- What? You can't say "fruit"?
- No!
350
00:23:01,001 --> 00:23:03,210
- And "banana"or "peach"?
- No problem.
351
00:23:03,376 --> 00:23:04,918
- Apricot?
- Perhaps.
352
00:23:05,085 --> 00:23:07,293
- And in English?
- It's even worse.
353
00:23:07,460 --> 00:23:10,626
- Are you thinking of the truck driver?
- I'm tired of hitchhiking.
354
00:23:21,835 --> 00:23:24,751
I saw a ton of rabbits, Jo.
355
00:23:24,918 --> 00:23:27,126
- Here?
- I saw three rabbits.
356
00:23:27,293 --> 00:23:31,043
You have to come here
around 8 at night.
357
00:23:31,210 --> 00:23:33,710
Maybe before we leave
for the restaurant.
358
00:23:34,460 --> 00:23:36,835
- Why don't you remove these?
- I should.
359
00:23:37,543 --> 00:23:40,085
Was this for the swing?
360
00:23:40,251 --> 00:23:43,335
It was the swing you and Kate
played on in Normandy.
361
00:23:43,501 --> 00:23:44,626
I remember.
362
00:23:44,918 --> 00:23:47,835
You know I'm neurotic
about throwing things away.
363
00:23:48,001 --> 00:23:50,293
But keeping this
is completely pointless.
364
00:23:50,460 --> 00:23:53,376
There isn't even a swing
and it's ugly.
365
00:23:54,043 --> 00:23:57,710
But this isn't a nice part
of the garden anyhow.
366
00:23:58,168 --> 00:24:01,418
I should finish painting the shed.
367
00:24:01,835 --> 00:24:05,626
- But it isn't in a nice spot.
- No.
368
00:24:06,085 --> 00:24:08,835
- You agree? It's too...
- It's too shaded.
369
00:24:09,001 --> 00:24:12,460
It's too cold a spot for the swings.
370
00:24:21,293 --> 00:24:23,585
You don't care about order?
371
00:24:25,835 --> 00:24:28,376
I think order is very peaceful.
372
00:24:28,543 --> 00:24:29,960
I admire it in others.
373
00:24:30,126 --> 00:24:30,793
Yes.
374
00:24:30,960 --> 00:24:37,418
But because I'm incapable
of throwing anything away...
375
00:24:38,043 --> 00:24:40,793
Were you this way in Normandy?
I don't recall.
376
00:24:40,960 --> 00:24:43,960
As early as Paris, and even London.
377
00:24:44,126 --> 00:24:45,585
- Really?
- Yes.
378
00:24:46,001 --> 00:24:50,293
You're going to have a ball
throwing all this stuff away.
379
00:24:51,335 --> 00:24:54,126
But watch out,
because in certain boxes,
380
00:24:54,751 --> 00:24:58,835
you'll find letters
from certain people...
381
00:24:59,460 --> 00:25:01,793
I'll have to sort through them
for you.
382
00:25:01,960 --> 00:25:04,710
And why can't you throw things away?
383
00:25:07,710 --> 00:25:11,751
It's really hard for me.
I think it's a mild illness.
384
00:25:12,668 --> 00:25:16,751
It's crap from a whole lifetime.
I don't know how people do it.
385
00:25:16,918 --> 00:25:19,168
It isn't just memorabilia.
386
00:25:19,460 --> 00:25:23,918
If you open a drawer,
you'll find a distressing accumulation
387
00:25:24,085 --> 00:25:25,960
of dead batteries,
388
00:25:26,668 --> 00:25:28,085
old markers,
389
00:25:29,376 --> 00:25:32,418
children's illustrations,
you don't know whose...
390
00:25:35,710 --> 00:25:38,418
But you remember
the story behind each object.
391
00:25:38,585 --> 00:25:40,251
Yes, even the crap.
392
00:25:40,418 --> 00:25:43,460
At the entrance,
there's a little barbecue grill,
393
00:25:43,626 --> 00:25:47,960
which was a chimney
that Serge had bought for me
394
00:25:48,126 --> 00:25:49,751
that had a small funnel.
395
00:25:50,418 --> 00:25:52,918
I remember,
a chimney with a roof on top.
396
00:25:53,085 --> 00:25:55,543
Well, the chimney fell over,
so did the roof,
397
00:25:55,710 --> 00:25:58,085
and you'll find the remains over there,
398
00:25:58,251 --> 00:26:03,668
with three wheels instead of four
because it was made of cheap plastic.
399
00:26:03,918 --> 00:26:08,126
It stays at the entrance
because I can't throw it away.
400
00:26:08,626 --> 00:26:13,710
When we left for New York with nothing,
401
00:26:14,210 --> 00:26:15,710
it was so nice.
402
00:26:16,876 --> 00:26:20,001
So nice not to have
accumulated more things.
403
00:26:20,918 --> 00:26:25,585
I like when others sort my things
and throw out the old wires,
404
00:26:27,001 --> 00:26:29,585
used coal packaging...
405
00:26:29,751 --> 00:26:32,501
But I wouldn't be able to do it myself.
406
00:26:48,570 --> 00:26:49,950
[footsteps]
407
00:26:53,460 --> 00:26:56,418
Remember when Dolly
used to swim here and there?
408
00:26:56,835 --> 00:26:58,085
It was so sweet.
409
00:27:01,001 --> 00:27:05,501
When the day comes, you can do
whatever you want with this house.
410
00:27:07,376 --> 00:27:10,668
- It is a kind house.
- Yes.
411
00:27:11,293 --> 00:27:13,835
Even living here alone,
without Dolly...
412
00:27:16,168 --> 00:27:20,626
Well, in fact,
nothing is fun alone, without Dolly.
413
00:27:20,793 --> 00:27:24,626
- That's true.
- Even in the south of France.
414
00:27:24,793 --> 00:27:27,126
Even in nicer places.
415
00:27:27,460 --> 00:27:29,251
I have a hard time.
416
00:27:30,876 --> 00:27:33,293
It's really hard and so boring.
417
00:27:33,460 --> 00:27:36,210
Going on vacation alone is so boring.
418
00:27:48,543 --> 00:27:51,543
Have you ever tried
making a documentary?
419
00:27:52,668 --> 00:27:54,043
I've had some about me.
420
00:27:54,210 --> 00:27:56,585
- But have you ever made one?
- No.
421
00:27:58,001 --> 00:27:59,418
Because it's...
422
00:28:00,293 --> 00:28:03,668
I have a very specific approach,
423
00:28:03,835 --> 00:28:05,168
however...
424
00:28:08,543 --> 00:28:12,043
I'm starting to understand
what people are always saying,
425
00:28:12,210 --> 00:28:14,751
that you build as you go along.
426
00:28:14,918 --> 00:28:17,835
You don't write a screenplay
beforehand.
427
00:28:19,460 --> 00:28:21,126
If it's alright with you,
428
00:28:21,293 --> 00:28:25,043
I'd like to film
as many short sequences as I can
429
00:28:25,210 --> 00:28:27,501
before September.
430
00:28:32,293 --> 00:28:34,001
Isn't it a bit gloomy here?
431
00:28:34,168 --> 00:28:35,918
No, it's very pretty.
432
00:28:41,126 --> 00:28:42,418
No, it's lovely.
433
00:28:46,210 --> 00:28:47,751
It isn't at all gloomy.
434
00:28:48,960 --> 00:28:51,543
The light here is beautiful.
435
00:28:51,710 --> 00:28:55,085
It's hard to know.
I look fine in this mirror.
436
00:28:56,335 --> 00:28:58,543
That's the flattering mirror.
437
00:28:58,710 --> 00:29:03,085
I once cut my hair in front of it
because it made me look pretty.
438
00:29:03,251 --> 00:29:03,960
Really?
439
00:29:04,126 --> 00:29:07,168
The kitchen scissors were right here,
440
00:29:07,335 --> 00:29:10,168
so I just kept cutting:
"Just a bit more!
441
00:29:10,335 --> 00:29:12,251
"Goodness, what a pretty face!"
442
00:29:12,418 --> 00:29:16,793
The mirror in the veranda
is also flattering.
443
00:29:16,960 --> 00:29:18,043
I know the one.
444
00:29:18,210 --> 00:29:22,043
Then I saw myself in my room:
"I'm a monster! Too late, too late."
445
00:29:28,400 --> 00:29:29,820
[tranquil music playing]
446
00:29:46,280 --> 00:29:48,450
[overhead announcement]
447
00:29:50,780 --> 00:29:51,950
[sirens blaring]
448
00:29:52,751 --> 00:29:55,710
Do you remember the first time
you came to New York?
449
00:29:56,376 --> 00:29:59,543
I think it was with Serge...
No, with John Barry!
450
00:29:59,710 --> 00:30:02,293
I don't remember
what he was working on.
451
00:30:05,751 --> 00:30:07,585
And then Los Angeles.
452
00:30:08,835 --> 00:30:13,043
But I don't have
particularly happy memories of it,
453
00:30:13,793 --> 00:30:15,376
nor lasting ones.
454
00:30:16,710 --> 00:30:19,501
Just memories
of being with someone who was...
455
00:30:20,543 --> 00:30:22,043
a bit glorious.
456
00:30:23,376 --> 00:30:25,085
And I trailed behind him.
457
00:30:25,418 --> 00:30:27,668
I've only seen New York with you.
458
00:30:35,710 --> 00:30:37,751
When will Yvan shoot his movie?
459
00:30:37,918 --> 00:30:38,918
Now.
460
00:30:39,085 --> 00:30:41,418
And you're going to be in it?
461
00:30:41,585 --> 00:30:42,543
Yes.
462
00:30:43,918 --> 00:30:45,626
Do you have a nice part?
463
00:30:46,251 --> 00:30:46,960
Yes.
464
00:30:47,126 --> 00:30:48,043
Good.
465
00:30:49,210 --> 00:30:50,876
Will Jo be in it as well?
466
00:30:51,043 --> 00:30:53,168
She'll be in one scene.
467
00:30:53,876 --> 00:30:57,710
Good. He has to capture her
as she is now.
468
00:30:57,876 --> 00:30:58,543
Yes.
469
00:30:58,710 --> 00:31:01,376
Because it'll never be the same.
470
00:31:01,543 --> 00:31:02,585
Varda was right.
471
00:31:02,751 --> 00:31:04,835
- Yes.
- You must capture the present.
472
00:31:04,950 --> 00:31:06,530
[camera clicks]
473
00:31:08,650 --> 00:31:10,700
[both playing and singing]
474
00:31:14,820 --> 00:31:16,700
[tranquil music playing]
475
00:31:50,418 --> 00:31:52,001
That was great.
476
00:31:53,335 --> 00:31:55,126
The last line should be...
477
00:31:55,293 --> 00:31:57,168
More spoken, yes.
478
00:31:58,793 --> 00:32:00,710
Should it be spoken?
479
00:32:00,876 --> 00:32:02,835
- It should be what?
- Spoken.
480
00:32:03,001 --> 00:32:07,626
No, it's should be more interpreted,
more heartfelt, you see?
481
00:32:08,960 --> 00:32:10,001
I understand.
482
00:32:10,168 --> 00:32:10,918
It's perfect.
483
00:32:11,085 --> 00:32:12,793
- OK.
- Very beautiful.
484
00:32:12,960 --> 00:32:16,043
We can do it again if you'd like,
but for me, it's perfect.
485
00:32:16,950 --> 00:32:18,530
[upbeat music playing]
486
00:32:34,168 --> 00:32:35,293
I don't like it.
487
00:32:35,460 --> 00:32:37,210
Wasn't there a Bull Terrier?
488
00:32:37,376 --> 00:32:38,418
- No.
- Yes.
489
00:32:38,585 --> 00:32:40,418
I like them better.
490
00:32:40,585 --> 00:32:42,210
I think they're funny!
491
00:32:42,376 --> 00:32:44,126
- Really?
- Of course!
492
00:32:44,835 --> 00:32:46,668
Especially the brindle dogs.
493
00:32:46,835 --> 00:32:49,376
- Like this.
- They're so funny.
494
00:32:50,626 --> 00:32:52,626
You've helped me choose.
495
00:32:52,793 --> 00:32:55,835
I especially like
the one you showed me.
496
00:32:56,293 --> 00:33:00,001
The short-legged
white and brindle one.
497
00:33:00,168 --> 00:33:02,793
He looked so funny, so charming.
498
00:33:03,668 --> 00:33:05,626
I don't know how to do this.
499
00:33:07,293 --> 00:33:10,793
- In regards to Yvan?
- Yes, I don't know how to...
500
00:33:11,335 --> 00:33:13,876
do my own thing
501
00:33:14,460 --> 00:33:17,335
without taking him
into consideration at all.
502
00:33:19,168 --> 00:33:21,668
Maybe he'll love it
when he sees it.
503
00:33:21,835 --> 00:33:24,918
I think so.
I think it'll be like with Milo.
504
00:33:25,085 --> 00:33:30,626
He couldn't stand Milo, the fur, etc.,
but in the end, he loved him.
505
00:33:31,543 --> 00:33:33,626
So give him the options,
506
00:33:34,918 --> 00:33:37,626
so he'll feel like it's his decision.
507
00:33:38,751 --> 00:33:40,751
Yes, that's what I'll do.
508
00:33:40,820 --> 00:33:42,570
Merci. Thank you.
509
00:33:43,320 --> 00:33:45,820
Thank you.
Thank you. Thank you.
510
00:33:46,960 --> 00:33:49,168
Do you recall
your first time on stage?
511
00:33:49,335 --> 00:33:53,668
I remember the Bataclan
as though it were yesterday.
512
00:33:54,043 --> 00:33:56,085
Is it an old memory to you?
513
00:33:56,251 --> 00:33:57,168
Yes.
514
00:33:58,168 --> 00:34:00,460
It all seems so far in the past.
515
00:34:01,610 --> 00:34:02,860
[horns blaring]
516
00:34:05,360 --> 00:34:08,360
[indistinct chatter]
517
00:34:08,990 --> 00:34:11,490
[man] And we have something
for you Ms. Gainsbourg.
518
00:34:11,490 --> 00:34:13,610
You want to come over here
where it's not raining?
519
00:34:15,543 --> 00:34:17,126
I got you.
520
00:34:17,950 --> 00:34:21,860
And then I have a nice photo,
if you could sign it?
521
00:34:22,740 --> 00:34:24,860
- Yes.
- Who's this to?
522
00:34:24,860 --> 00:34:27,740
You want to put it to my son,
Sean? S-E-A-N.
523
00:34:27,900 --> 00:34:29,820
- S?
- ...E-A-N.
524
00:34:38,860 --> 00:34:40,490
Thank you so much!
525
00:34:40,650 --> 00:34:41,860
I'm really looking forward...
526
00:34:42,030 --> 00:34:43,490
I'm a bartender,
I took the night off.
527
00:34:43,860 --> 00:34:45,990
- Thank you.
- Thank you.
528
00:34:45,990 --> 00:34:48,450
You think you could just...
529
00:34:48,610 --> 00:34:49,990
Very grateful.
530
00:34:49,990 --> 00:34:51,570
Thank you.
531
00:34:53,700 --> 00:34:55,360
- Thank you so much.
- Thank you.
532
00:34:55,530 --> 00:34:57,700
We're really looking
forward to this. Thank you.
533
00:34:57,990 --> 00:35:00,570
I saw you at the Town Hall
two years ago.
534
00:35:00,740 --> 00:35:02,320
- Oh yeah!
- It was great.
535
00:35:02,490 --> 00:35:03,610
- Thank you!
- Thank you. Goodbye.
536
00:35:04,501 --> 00:35:07,085
Why had you never sung on stage
before that?
537
00:35:07,251 --> 00:35:08,918
Why did you start so late?
538
00:35:09,085 --> 00:35:10,293
It was bewildering.
539
00:35:10,460 --> 00:35:12,918
Until then, I had always pretended.
540
00:35:13,085 --> 00:35:15,876
Everything was lip-synched
on TV shows,
541
00:35:16,043 --> 00:35:18,751
and more-or-less well done.
542
00:35:18,918 --> 00:35:21,043
My lips weren't really moving.
543
00:35:21,210 --> 00:35:25,085
I didn't learn very much.
I didn't take anything seriously.
544
00:35:25,450 --> 00:35:27,360
[indistinct chatter]
545
00:35:27,860 --> 00:35:30,360
OK. One more time. Good.
546
00:35:31,085 --> 00:35:34,710
But at the Bataclan,
when Philippe Lerichomme said
547
00:35:35,668 --> 00:35:37,543
I would have to turn around
548
00:35:37,710 --> 00:35:41,251
with a band behind me
to sing in front of people...
549
00:35:41,418 --> 00:35:43,543
What nudity! What panic!
550
00:35:43,710 --> 00:35:46,376
And my voice sounded nothing like
551
00:35:46,543 --> 00:35:49,085
the voice I'd heard in the studio.
552
00:35:49,251 --> 00:35:52,293
But Philippe said:
"It'll sound different with an audience."
553
00:35:52,460 --> 00:35:53,710
I said: "Oh...!"
554
00:35:54,293 --> 00:35:58,126
I practically said:
"How could you have let me do this?"
555
00:35:58,626 --> 00:35:59,918
That's very nice.
556
00:36:00,085 --> 00:36:03,460
Red for you and bold for you both.
557
00:36:03,626 --> 00:36:05,460
Thank you for the compliment.
558
00:36:08,168 --> 00:36:10,376
Is it plugged in?
559
00:36:10,860 --> 00:36:12,860
Please. Is it ok?
560
00:36:13,610 --> 00:36:16,450
For the microphone
for Jane and Charlotte?
561
00:36:16,610 --> 00:36:17,860
- Yeah.
- Yeah?
562
00:36:18,360 --> 00:36:19,700
Charlotte?
563
00:36:20,335 --> 00:36:21,376
Is this mine?
564
00:36:21,543 --> 00:36:23,501
Would you come over here?
565
00:36:23,668 --> 00:36:25,210
Yes, we're coming.
566
00:36:25,376 --> 00:36:28,710
- Where is the prompter?
- We'll play it as she enters.
567
00:36:28,876 --> 00:36:30,793
Why isn't there a teleprompter?
568
00:36:30,960 --> 00:36:32,126
It isn't working.
569
00:36:32,293 --> 00:36:33,168
Hold on...
570
00:36:33,335 --> 00:36:35,043
Where is Jane's microphone?
571
00:36:37,820 --> 00:36:39,490
[piano playing]
572
00:36:59,570 --> 00:37:01,610
Sorry, the microphone
isn't working.
573
00:37:02,360 --> 00:37:03,860
Alright, now it's working.
574
00:37:04,490 --> 00:37:05,820
[piano plays]
575
00:37:07,126 --> 00:37:09,001
Jane, step to the side.
576
00:37:11,751 --> 00:37:13,251
Charlotte, stay there.
577
00:37:16,626 --> 00:37:18,835
I don't know how athletes do it.
578
00:37:19,001 --> 00:37:21,918
How do people do premieres
579
00:37:22,543 --> 00:37:24,876
and scary things like this?
580
00:37:26,501 --> 00:37:28,168
Don't move, Jane.
581
00:37:28,950 --> 00:37:31,200
[singing]
582
00:37:31,793 --> 00:37:34,626
When I played Elektra,
my eyes were completely dry.
583
00:37:34,793 --> 00:37:37,835
I couldn't even cry,
because I was so...
584
00:37:38,626 --> 00:37:42,876
preoccupied with
what the critics thought of me.
585
00:37:43,043 --> 00:37:44,835
- Right!
- So it was horrible.
586
00:37:45,001 --> 00:37:47,418
It wasn't touching or moving.
587
00:37:47,585 --> 00:37:50,085
I was just stricken with fear.
588
00:37:50,626 --> 00:37:53,418
It catches up to you
during certain shows.
589
00:37:54,085 --> 00:37:55,918
And it won't go away.
590
00:37:56,085 --> 00:37:59,126
But you don't seem to have
stage fright anymore.
591
00:37:59,293 --> 00:38:01,501
Since the teleprompter was invented.
592
00:38:02,168 --> 00:38:03,960
It's true, what a revelation!
593
00:38:04,126 --> 00:38:05,501
They're wonderful.
594
00:38:05,668 --> 00:38:08,043
Yes, they're really amazing.
595
00:38:09,570 --> 00:38:11,240
[singing in French]
596
00:38:12,860 --> 00:38:15,610
[both rehearsing lyrics]
597
00:38:29,168 --> 00:38:31,293
Close call, but it was perfect.
598
00:38:32,626 --> 00:38:33,751
OK, we're done!
599
00:38:34,876 --> 00:38:36,085
Did it go well?
600
00:38:36,251 --> 00:38:37,043
Yes.
601
00:38:38,376 --> 00:38:40,668
Look, I only have one song.
602
00:38:40,835 --> 00:38:44,376
- Grandma has 21.
- I sang at all the wrong moments!
603
00:38:45,585 --> 00:38:46,418
And...
604
00:38:47,376 --> 00:38:49,126
I can't remember any of this.
605
00:38:50,501 --> 00:38:51,585
What can I do?
606
00:38:54,360 --> 00:38:55,860
[indistinct chatter]
607
00:39:07,610 --> 00:39:09,360
[indistinct chatter]
608
00:39:13,490 --> 00:39:14,740
[crowd chatter]
609
00:39:26,251 --> 00:39:28,960
New York wasn't terrifying this time.
610
00:39:29,126 --> 00:39:30,335
But last time...
611
00:39:30,668 --> 00:39:32,376
At one point,
612
00:39:32,543 --> 00:39:37,168
I ate everything in the minibar.
All the peanuts, etc.
613
00:39:37,335 --> 00:39:41,085
I was sick all night
and didn't sleep a wink.
614
00:39:41,251 --> 00:39:44,626
So I was in a very sorry state.
615
00:39:44,793 --> 00:39:46,335
It was really...
616
00:39:47,085 --> 00:39:48,293
It was...
617
00:39:48,460 --> 00:39:49,668
The result was awful.
618
00:39:49,835 --> 00:39:52,626
Maybe people couldn't tell
from far away.
619
00:39:52,793 --> 00:39:58,210
I begged to have a smaller theater
for two nights
620
00:39:58,376 --> 00:40:01,418
to avoid the stress of Carnegie Hall.
621
00:40:01,585 --> 00:40:05,001
Anyone can get Carnegie Hall,
you just need to fill it.
622
00:40:05,168 --> 00:40:06,418
You rent it.
623
00:40:06,860 --> 00:40:08,320
[applause]
624
00:40:10,293 --> 00:40:12,626
But it was really beautiful anyways.
625
00:40:13,376 --> 00:40:15,376
All that stress for nothing.
626
00:40:26,820 --> 00:40:28,740
[orchestra playing]
627
00:40:46,570 --> 00:40:47,740
[cheering]
628
00:40:51,360 --> 00:40:54,610
[indistinct shouting]
629
00:41:03,740 --> 00:41:05,490
[train rattling]
630
00:41:09,168 --> 00:41:12,251
This train is travelling to Brest
631
00:41:12,418 --> 00:41:16,335
and will be stopping in Saint-Brieuc
and Brest, its last stop.
632
00:41:16,501 --> 00:41:18,335
Have a pleasant trip.
633
00:41:19,460 --> 00:41:22,793
Do you ask them if they're dominant?
634
00:41:23,126 --> 00:41:26,460
I think we can ask them.
635
00:41:27,168 --> 00:41:28,793
They must know, they see it.
636
00:41:28,960 --> 00:41:32,168
They roll them onto their backs
637
00:41:32,668 --> 00:41:37,085
and if they stay on their backs,
it means they aren't alpha dogs.
638
00:41:37,501 --> 00:41:41,210
If they refuse to stay on their backs,
like Dora,
639
00:41:41,626 --> 00:41:42,918
they're alpha dogs.
640
00:41:43,085 --> 00:41:43,835
What about Dolly?
641
00:41:45,335 --> 00:41:47,918
I think I could roll Dolly
onto her back.
642
00:41:48,335 --> 00:41:49,251
I see.
643
00:41:49,626 --> 00:41:52,751
It comes down to how you train them.
644
00:41:52,918 --> 00:41:54,001
Yes.
645
00:41:54,168 --> 00:41:57,585
People forget that.
That sweetie you just saw,
646
00:41:57,751 --> 00:42:02,460
will look something like this,
if we're lucky.
647
00:42:03,668 --> 00:42:07,251
Can you bring them anywhere,
to the restaurant?
648
00:42:07,418 --> 00:42:08,918
Not all restaurants.
649
00:42:09,085 --> 00:42:12,376
And Dolly knew it.
She'd see me make a fuss.
650
00:42:12,835 --> 00:42:17,585
Remember in front of the restaurant,
with Yvette and everyone?
651
00:42:17,751 --> 00:42:21,793
I was yelling at the taxi driver,
and she crouched down.
652
00:42:21,960 --> 00:42:24,293
Jo was petting her,
653
00:42:25,126 --> 00:42:28,168
because she understood
it was because of her.
654
00:42:28,335 --> 00:42:29,960
I'm certain she knew.
655
00:42:32,043 --> 00:42:33,626
They don't like it when you yell.
656
00:42:33,793 --> 00:42:37,293
- No, just like children.
- Exactly.
657
00:42:38,126 --> 00:42:40,835
It's another child, in a way.
658
00:42:42,335 --> 00:42:45,585
They're with you all the time,
more than children.
659
00:42:45,751 --> 00:42:47,710
It's the first thing you do
in the morning
660
00:42:47,876 --> 00:42:49,501
and the last thing at night.
661
00:42:50,001 --> 00:42:51,668
And they live for you.
662
00:42:54,001 --> 00:42:57,668
They're a gift from Heaven, truly.
663
00:42:58,960 --> 00:43:02,168
Look at him!
And you said Dolly was fat.
664
00:43:02,490 --> 00:43:03,610
[laughs]
665
00:43:04,626 --> 00:43:08,793
Yes, this male has many traits:
many wrinkles, many...
666
00:43:08,960 --> 00:43:11,501
- I love him.
- Yes, everyone does.
667
00:43:12,251 --> 00:43:13,793
And his babies are beautiful.
668
00:43:16,001 --> 00:43:17,501
They're so tiny!
669
00:43:18,335 --> 00:43:19,960
When was she born?
670
00:43:21,293 --> 00:43:25,251
So they'll be four weeks old
on Tuesday.
671
00:43:25,585 --> 00:43:28,918
Yes, because I had one...
672
00:43:31,001 --> 00:43:35,418
But it's strange,
the resemblance is so...
673
00:43:35,585 --> 00:43:37,210
Where did I put my...?
674
00:43:39,126 --> 00:43:42,960
- We knew you would like her.
- She has a pretty face.
675
00:43:46,543 --> 00:43:49,126
She'll definitely be
bigger than her mother.
676
00:43:49,293 --> 00:43:52,460
You can tell just by her head.
We can see it.
677
00:43:52,626 --> 00:43:53,585
Anyways...
678
00:43:53,751 --> 00:43:54,876
Hello, baby.
679
00:43:56,251 --> 00:43:56,918
Hi, baby.
680
00:43:57,085 --> 00:43:59,210
- Would you like to hold her?
- Yes.
681
00:44:04,543 --> 00:44:07,460
- Is she pretty from where you are?
- Very.
682
00:44:09,501 --> 00:44:12,543
The parents have undergone
cardio tests.
683
00:44:12,710 --> 00:44:15,376
We don't want to breed dogs
that have...
684
00:44:15,835 --> 00:44:18,835
tiny defects, or tiny flaws.
685
00:44:19,960 --> 00:44:24,293
Dolly had
an introverted-eyelash problem.
686
00:44:24,460 --> 00:44:26,085
Yes, "ectopic cilia".
687
00:44:26,251 --> 00:44:29,918
They also had to do an operation
for her breathing.
688
00:44:30,418 --> 00:44:32,085
She had trouble breathing.
689
00:44:32,251 --> 00:44:37,335
I think she was too fat.
We went through Covid together,
690
00:44:37,501 --> 00:44:40,001
and we both gained a lot of weight.
691
00:44:41,835 --> 00:44:44,085
Do yours fart a lot?
692
00:44:44,251 --> 00:44:47,376
- Of course!
- Mine fart all the time.
693
00:44:47,543 --> 00:44:50,376
Especially when we're watching TV
at night!
694
00:44:50,543 --> 00:44:54,418
We'll feed them bread
if we have guests we don't like.
695
00:44:56,543 --> 00:45:00,126
I overfed Dolly,
so I try to be careful now.
696
00:45:00,293 --> 00:45:02,668
Because they love to eat.
697
00:45:02,835 --> 00:45:05,918
Between their regular meals
and leftovers from dinner...
698
00:45:06,085 --> 00:45:07,710
- Oh, yes.
- That isn't good.
699
00:45:07,876 --> 00:45:09,210
I know.
700
00:45:20,210 --> 00:45:22,418
I'm very optimistic.
701
00:45:23,835 --> 00:45:27,501
I generally tend to think
everything will turn out OK.
702
00:45:32,210 --> 00:45:34,501
I don't take things seriously enough,
703
00:45:34,668 --> 00:45:36,501
nor the danger of things.
704
00:45:36,668 --> 00:45:41,460
I love that about you:
your faith in life, in people...
705
00:45:41,626 --> 00:45:45,210
I can't imagine how things
might turn out differently.
706
00:45:45,835 --> 00:45:49,501
No, you simply aren't distrustful.
I think it's great.
707
00:45:50,710 --> 00:45:54,043
Yes, and to get excited about things.
708
00:45:55,501 --> 00:45:57,668
We didn't watch the news.
709
00:45:59,251 --> 00:46:01,085
We can. What time is it?
710
00:46:02,043 --> 00:46:04,543
- It's...
- Shoot! We didn't watch the news.
711
00:46:04,710 --> 00:46:05,835
...6:20 p.m.
712
00:46:06,001 --> 00:46:07,626
Oh! C dans l'air!
713
00:46:07,793 --> 00:46:09,335
Oh, good!
714
00:46:14,710 --> 00:46:18,376
I often didn't feel very responsible.
715
00:46:18,543 --> 00:46:23,793
I behaved more
like a childish mother or a friend.
716
00:46:23,960 --> 00:46:26,335
Perhaps I wasn't responsible enough.
717
00:46:52,251 --> 00:46:53,626
Did the others see this?
718
00:46:53,876 --> 00:46:56,668
No. They didn't ask.
719
00:46:57,460 --> 00:46:58,960
Did Lulu ask?
720
00:46:59,126 --> 00:47:02,501
Lulu asked.
He even did a music video...
721
00:47:03,210 --> 00:47:04,876
not that long ago.
722
00:47:06,335 --> 00:47:09,793
I'd never have come here
if you hadn't asked.
723
00:47:09,960 --> 00:47:11,168
I never thought...
724
00:47:11,335 --> 00:47:13,793
I'd never have dared ask to come.
725
00:47:13,960 --> 00:47:16,585
- Really?
- Yes! Never, in 30 years.
726
00:47:17,251 --> 00:47:21,376
I just assumed it was something
you wouldn't want to do.
727
00:47:21,543 --> 00:47:25,751
No, I didn't feel
I was allowed to do it without you.
728
00:47:25,918 --> 00:47:27,460
That it belonged to you.
729
00:47:27,626 --> 00:47:30,668
Which was only natural, so... no.
730
00:47:30,835 --> 00:47:35,293
I never even took a peek,
even out of curiosity.
731
00:47:35,460 --> 00:47:39,293
But then you no longer feel
you have the right.
732
00:47:39,835 --> 00:47:41,418
No right at all.
733
00:48:04,835 --> 00:48:06,210
Does it smell the same?
734
00:48:06,376 --> 00:48:07,585
It smells the same.
735
00:48:18,085 --> 00:48:20,293
No, nothing's changed.
736
00:48:22,918 --> 00:48:25,376
But you made it sound...
737
00:48:27,626 --> 00:48:29,210
a lot dustier.
738
00:48:30,751 --> 00:48:32,460
It isn't dusty at all.
739
00:48:37,376 --> 00:48:40,793
It's almost like being in a dream.
740
00:48:40,960 --> 00:48:42,418
It's very strange.
741
00:48:47,835 --> 00:48:52,626
His upright piano was here.
Is it important that it's gone?
742
00:48:54,835 --> 00:48:58,043
Well, it only matters to your memories.
743
00:48:58,585 --> 00:49:02,376
But when I was here,
there wasn't this one nor that one.
744
00:49:02,543 --> 00:49:03,710
Only the Steinway.
745
00:49:04,501 --> 00:49:07,585
I don't know if I was still living here,
746
00:49:07,751 --> 00:49:10,668
- because when I came back...
- I think it was after.
747
00:49:10,835 --> 00:49:13,918
And the first album
was Baby Alone in Babylone,
748
00:49:14,085 --> 00:49:15,751
he would play the piano
749
00:49:15,918 --> 00:49:20,585
and set his cigarette on the ashtray
to the left of the piano.
750
00:49:20,751 --> 00:49:25,335
The smoke came directly into my eye.
751
00:49:26,001 --> 00:49:30,460
I coughed or waved my hand
and he said: "So now it bothers you?"
752
00:49:35,210 --> 00:49:39,085
Dear Homme à la tête de choux!
I was convinced he was underneath.
753
00:49:39,251 --> 00:49:41,960
That if a thumb fell, we'd find a bone.
754
00:49:43,251 --> 00:49:46,126
It wasn't inconceivable
to find him in there.
755
00:49:48,210 --> 00:49:49,543
I love this.
756
00:49:49,710 --> 00:49:51,293
I love it so much.
757
00:49:52,210 --> 00:49:55,626
She isn't as smooth.
She's rougher now.
758
00:49:57,001 --> 00:50:00,335
- Because there's a layer of...
- Dust?
759
00:50:00,501 --> 00:50:01,335
No!
760
00:50:01,501 --> 00:50:03,335
It's a bit grainy.
761
00:50:04,543 --> 00:50:06,835
I knew it when it was made of...
762
00:50:07,293 --> 00:50:11,001
not plaster, but a material
that was starting to be...
763
00:50:11,168 --> 00:50:16,126
He called me at rue de La Tour
saying: "You've developed blisters!"
764
00:50:16,293 --> 00:50:17,918
I said: "Sorry?"
765
00:50:18,085 --> 00:50:21,793
It was my statue
that had developed blisters.
766
00:50:21,960 --> 00:50:23,960
He had it smoothed-down.
767
00:50:24,543 --> 00:50:25,960
So now it's...
768
00:50:27,668 --> 00:50:29,168
purer than anything.
769
00:50:33,293 --> 00:50:34,543
The kitchen!
770
00:50:36,418 --> 00:50:37,710
It's so small.
771
00:50:38,501 --> 00:50:42,251
Here is his medicine cabinet.
772
00:50:43,126 --> 00:50:45,001
That's new to me.
773
00:50:46,876 --> 00:50:51,835
All the cans exploded,
one after the other.
774
00:50:52,876 --> 00:50:57,626
They... exploded.
I didn't know that could happen.
775
00:50:58,210 --> 00:51:00,043
You mean, cans of sardines?
776
00:51:00,210 --> 00:51:02,168
Canned food explodes.
777
00:51:02,751 --> 00:51:04,876
In the fridge, I kept...
778
00:51:06,751 --> 00:51:09,043
all that was left,
the chocolate bars...
779
00:51:09,210 --> 00:51:11,668
They must be totally rotten.
780
00:51:14,543 --> 00:51:17,001
They're like prehistoric objects.
781
00:51:21,585 --> 00:51:23,043
Just like Pompei.
782
00:51:26,668 --> 00:51:28,001
Crystallized.
783
00:51:28,585 --> 00:51:31,293
- Will you put up a rope here?
- Yes.
784
00:51:31,460 --> 00:51:33,293
A rope or glass?
785
00:51:33,460 --> 00:51:36,085
- I'm thinking plexi-glass.
- Yes.
786
00:51:37,001 --> 00:51:39,293
Kate used to scratch underneath.
787
00:51:39,918 --> 00:51:43,168
I wonder if
we can still see her scratch marks.
788
00:51:44,918 --> 00:51:46,293
She'd scratch at it?
789
00:51:46,460 --> 00:51:48,085
- Out of rage!
- Why?
790
00:51:48,251 --> 00:51:50,710
Rub your hand over it,
you can feel them.
791
00:51:50,876 --> 00:51:53,376
- When she was furious with Serge.
- Oh?
792
00:51:53,543 --> 00:51:56,543
When she was very young
and he scolded her.
793
00:51:57,168 --> 00:51:59,835
If he said
"close your mouth when you eat"...
794
00:51:59,860 --> 00:52:00,860
[growls]
795
00:52:01,501 --> 00:52:02,918
- That's crazy!
- Yes.
796
00:52:13,126 --> 00:52:14,501
My little room.
797
00:52:16,210 --> 00:52:18,626
I remember you had papers all over,
798
00:52:18,793 --> 00:52:19,835
and sweets...
799
00:52:20,001 --> 00:52:20,876
Yes.
800
00:52:21,960 --> 00:52:23,335
This hasn't changed.
801
00:52:24,543 --> 00:52:26,293
This was really beautiful.
802
00:52:29,376 --> 00:52:30,751
The chandelier was so low.
803
00:52:30,918 --> 00:52:34,126
When I was nine,
I reached up to here.
804
00:52:34,293 --> 00:52:36,001
I could barely touch it.
805
00:52:39,960 --> 00:52:41,376
It hasn't changed?
806
00:52:41,543 --> 00:52:42,460
No.
807
00:52:50,668 --> 00:52:53,710
Yes. And without the grates...
808
00:52:54,168 --> 00:52:56,543
- Where are the small chairs?
- I don't know.
809
00:52:56,710 --> 00:52:58,251
Everything has disappeared.
810
00:52:58,418 --> 00:53:00,543
Why has it disappeared?
811
00:53:00,710 --> 00:53:01,876
I don't know.
812
00:53:02,360 --> 00:53:03,490
[groans]
813
00:53:05,043 --> 00:53:08,376
There weren't any spikes
or security measures,
814
00:53:08,543 --> 00:53:09,751
so we were really...
815
00:53:09,918 --> 00:53:12,501
When the bell rang,
Serge would open the door.
816
00:53:12,960 --> 00:53:16,793
Looking back,
it's hard to imagine being so famous
817
00:53:16,960 --> 00:53:19,710
and to have so little security.
818
00:53:19,876 --> 00:53:20,751
It's true.
819
00:53:22,668 --> 00:53:24,335
All my old perfumes.
820
00:53:26,293 --> 00:53:28,085
I wonder if they still smell.
821
00:53:29,043 --> 00:53:31,793
- I had this one specially made.
- It still smells.
822
00:53:32,918 --> 00:53:33,835
Liu.
823
00:53:37,460 --> 00:53:40,460
I don't know where this came from.
824
00:53:40,876 --> 00:53:42,418
- The tapestry?
- Yes.
825
00:53:42,585 --> 00:53:46,085
I remember it well,
because of the torture scenes.
826
00:53:46,626 --> 00:53:50,168
And the people being tortured
are all smiling.
827
00:53:50,335 --> 00:53:51,585
I hadn't noticed.
828
00:53:51,751 --> 00:53:54,626
Oh yes, I see the slashed stomachs.
829
00:54:03,251 --> 00:54:06,001
It's strange
to have spent 12 years here.
830
00:54:08,668 --> 00:54:09,918
Yes, it's a long time.
831
00:54:10,626 --> 00:54:12,460
Very, very happy years.
832
00:54:16,960 --> 00:54:18,168
Very happy.
833
00:54:23,543 --> 00:54:24,751
It's like a dollhouse.
834
00:54:24,918 --> 00:54:26,168
It's so tiny.
835
00:54:27,335 --> 00:54:30,168
I wanted to keep everything, and yet,
836
00:54:30,585 --> 00:54:32,376
I've forgotten everything,
837
00:54:32,543 --> 00:54:34,710
having total amnesia of...
838
00:54:34,876 --> 00:54:37,626
- Of where everything went?
- Yes.
839
00:54:37,793 --> 00:54:40,085
And little by little...
840
00:54:41,585 --> 00:54:43,085
just a vague impression.
841
00:54:47,918 --> 00:54:49,460
It's worth opening.
842
00:54:50,001 --> 00:54:51,501
Definitely!
843
00:54:51,668 --> 00:54:53,043
It's a treasure.
844
00:54:54,543 --> 00:54:56,126
It's a treasure.
845
00:54:56,293 --> 00:55:00,460
But it's strange for me,
it seems like a whole other life.
846
00:55:00,626 --> 00:55:01,376
Yes.
847
00:55:01,543 --> 00:55:03,668
A whole other life.
848
00:55:04,210 --> 00:55:08,876
But it hasn't lost any of its charm,
beauty, or originality.
849
00:55:10,543 --> 00:55:13,168
It's like Sleeping Beauty.
850
00:55:13,793 --> 00:55:14,835
Truly.
851
00:55:16,585 --> 00:55:19,668
Yes, I've always felt
he might come back.
852
00:55:32,918 --> 00:55:34,460
It has a voyeur side to it.
853
00:55:34,626 --> 00:55:37,585
I like the voyeur aspect,
on the contrary.
854
00:55:40,585 --> 00:55:42,126
He would have liked it.
855
00:55:44,501 --> 00:55:46,751
Another part of me wants
856
00:55:47,501 --> 00:55:49,043
to let go of it all.
857
00:55:49,918 --> 00:55:53,418
And to think
it'll keep going without me.
858
00:56:01,876 --> 00:56:04,168
Perhaps it'll be less painful.
859
00:56:04,335 --> 00:56:05,210
Yes.
860
00:56:06,210 --> 00:56:07,585
It will be...
861
00:56:09,126 --> 00:56:10,960
the end of something.
862
00:56:13,168 --> 00:56:14,293
There...
863
00:56:15,835 --> 00:56:17,710
Well done, sweetheart.
864
00:56:21,570 --> 00:56:22,700
[groans]
865
00:56:26,570 --> 00:56:28,490
[upbeat music playing]
866
00:56:52,001 --> 00:56:55,543
I won't offer you any
because it's a special kind of tea.
867
00:56:55,710 --> 00:56:58,335
No, I don't want any of your tea.
868
00:56:59,626 --> 00:57:01,376
Special, special.
869
00:57:04,168 --> 00:57:05,751
- Are you OK?
- Wait.
870
00:57:07,751 --> 00:57:09,418
- This one?
- Yes.
871
00:57:10,168 --> 00:57:10,918
Oh, shit!
872
00:57:11,085 --> 00:57:12,085
It's very small.
873
00:57:12,251 --> 00:57:14,168
That's not it, it's full of chicken!
874
00:57:14,335 --> 00:57:16,835
- Oh, shit!
- I totally forgot.
875
00:57:17,210 --> 00:57:20,751
I can't wait for Alice to come back.
876
00:57:20,918 --> 00:57:22,543
She will.
877
00:57:23,043 --> 00:57:25,793
Sure, sure. You'll have to wait a bit.
878
00:57:25,960 --> 00:57:28,501
I think I'll have to wait a long time.
879
00:57:29,418 --> 00:57:31,251
Maybe not so long...
880
00:57:33,293 --> 00:57:37,210
It's hard to know,
because we have an annoying habit
881
00:57:37,376 --> 00:57:39,918
of thinking that others are like us.
882
00:57:40,585 --> 00:57:44,460
I'm always thinking of
what I'd have said.
883
00:57:44,626 --> 00:57:47,168
But actually, we aren't at all...
884
00:57:47,835 --> 00:57:49,376
We aren't the same.
885
00:57:49,543 --> 00:57:53,626
I'm sure that
what is going through Alice's mind
886
00:57:54,418 --> 00:57:56,585
is probably: "Yes! I'm free!"
887
00:57:56,751 --> 00:57:57,751
Yeah.
888
00:57:58,585 --> 00:58:01,376
I have no idea
what she's going through right now.
889
00:58:01,543 --> 00:58:03,210
She's living her freedom.
890
00:58:03,376 --> 00:58:06,501
- On the bottom or top rack?
- Top, I think.
891
00:58:07,960 --> 00:58:09,668
Careful...
892
00:58:11,626 --> 00:58:16,418
It's such a blessing to have girls,
because they come back.
893
00:58:19,335 --> 00:58:22,918
Along with their romances,
with their children.
894
00:58:23,085 --> 00:58:28,210
And no matter their age,
they come back.
895
00:58:28,376 --> 00:58:30,168
And that is...
896
00:58:31,001 --> 00:58:32,585
such a joy.
897
00:58:35,820 --> 00:58:37,360
Where is Alice?
898
00:58:39,490 --> 00:58:41,490
- Where indeed.
- Where is Alice?
899
00:58:41,490 --> 00:58:42,740
She's waking up.
900
00:58:42,740 --> 00:58:44,700
No. Six in the morning.
No. No. No.
901
00:58:44,860 --> 00:58:46,950
- In her jammies.
- [giggles]
902
00:58:47,835 --> 00:58:51,835
Which is our favorite, Jo?
903
00:58:52,610 --> 00:58:53,610
Daisy?
904
00:58:54,240 --> 00:58:55,360
Ruby?
905
00:58:56,320 --> 00:58:57,360
Honey?
906
00:58:57,860 --> 00:58:59,200
Rita?
907
00:58:59,860 --> 00:59:00,860
Poppy?
908
00:59:01,700 --> 00:59:02,860
Rosie?
909
00:59:03,700 --> 00:59:04,740
Bonny?
910
00:59:05,240 --> 00:59:06,700
Sugar?
911
00:59:07,126 --> 00:59:08,876
I really like Daisy.
912
00:59:09,043 --> 00:59:11,751
Daisy and Sugar are your favorites?
913
00:59:13,168 --> 00:59:14,126
And Poppy.
914
00:59:14,626 --> 00:59:16,668
OK. I'll list them by favorite.
915
00:59:16,835 --> 00:59:18,918
Which are your favorites, mum?
916
00:59:20,126 --> 00:59:21,793
Mine are exactly the same.
917
00:59:21,960 --> 00:59:24,710
- What about Ruby?
- I really like Poppy.
918
00:59:26,585 --> 00:59:29,543
So we'll name it Poppy.
919
00:59:30,543 --> 00:59:33,585
But I don't think Dad likes "Poppy".
920
00:59:35,001 --> 00:59:36,918
Shall we let him decide?
921
00:59:38,168 --> 00:59:39,335
If you want.
922
00:59:40,360 --> 00:59:41,860
[laughing]
923
00:59:48,990 --> 00:59:50,610
[wind blowing]
924
00:59:54,376 --> 00:59:56,751
What will we do with our dogs?
925
00:59:58,751 --> 01:00:03,085
- I'll teach it to pee on the balcony.
- You have to carry them for a month.
926
01:00:03,251 --> 01:00:06,793
- You can't set them down.
- You can't take them anywhere.
927
01:00:10,751 --> 01:00:14,001
I thought he would be glued to me.
928
01:00:15,240 --> 01:00:16,360
[chuckles]
929
01:00:17,876 --> 01:00:20,751
He will be,
because you'll be carrying him.
930
01:00:20,918 --> 01:00:21,876
Me too.
931
01:00:22,490 --> 01:00:23,820
[laughing]
932
01:00:24,793 --> 01:00:25,835
You have to...
933
01:00:31,001 --> 01:00:32,210
The storm.
934
01:00:45,210 --> 01:00:48,376
- Poor Charlotte. Are you really cold?
- I lack resistance.
935
01:00:48,543 --> 01:00:50,668
Because I'm chubbier.
936
01:00:50,835 --> 01:00:51,918
No!
937
01:00:52,876 --> 01:00:53,835
It's so pretty!
938
01:00:54,001 --> 01:00:56,585
With the sun right behind you.
939
01:00:56,740 --> 01:00:57,950
[camera whirring]
940
01:01:04,168 --> 01:01:06,335
If yours was born on August 9
941
01:01:06,501 --> 01:01:08,793
and mine was born on August 17,
942
01:01:09,710 --> 01:01:14,376
that's a difference of... 10 days.
943
01:01:14,960 --> 01:01:17,668
- You thought it was more?
- I did.
944
01:01:22,710 --> 01:01:25,793
Is it OK to drink wine at...
What time is it?
945
01:01:26,376 --> 01:01:29,085
- Oh, it's already 6:45 p.m.
- Well, then!
946
01:01:29,668 --> 01:01:31,085
It's fine!
947
01:01:42,501 --> 01:01:44,251
I'm not crazy about wine.
948
01:01:44,793 --> 01:01:46,085
In general?
949
01:01:46,251 --> 01:01:47,293
Not anymore.
950
01:01:47,460 --> 01:01:49,835
- I used to be quite a big...
- Drinker?
951
01:01:50,960 --> 01:01:52,710
I was going to say worse.
952
01:01:54,960 --> 01:01:57,918
After I was sick, it changed things.
953
01:01:58,085 --> 01:01:59,876
Yes. The taste.
954
01:02:00,043 --> 01:02:01,501
It isn't worth getting sick.
955
01:02:01,918 --> 01:02:05,668
With all the pills and everything,
it isn't worth it.
956
01:02:05,835 --> 01:02:07,460
Are you allowed to drink?
957
01:02:09,543 --> 01:02:11,251
- Not really.
- Did they tell you?
958
01:02:11,418 --> 01:02:13,460
I don't know. They never said.
959
01:02:17,085 --> 01:02:20,293
But there are
strange recommendations, like...
960
01:02:21,626 --> 01:02:26,085
no eating things like Seville oranges.
961
01:02:27,001 --> 01:02:30,376
And I'm not allowed
to eat grapefruits.
962
01:02:31,251 --> 01:02:33,418
And so you suddenly crave grapefruit.
963
01:02:33,585 --> 01:02:35,710
But oh well, goodbye grapefruits!
964
01:02:35,876 --> 01:02:38,168
Because it cancels out the effects?
965
01:02:38,335 --> 01:02:41,251
I think your doctor friend
says it doubles the effects.
966
01:02:41,668 --> 01:02:42,585
Yes.
967
01:02:43,835 --> 01:02:46,001
And the dosages are very specific.
968
01:02:52,751 --> 01:02:54,918
- And it doesn't tire you?
- No.
969
01:02:55,085 --> 01:02:57,001
- You don't feel it?
- No.
970
01:02:58,793 --> 01:03:00,960
I see it as a real lesson,
971
01:03:01,793 --> 01:03:03,001
a life lesson.
972
01:03:03,543 --> 01:03:06,418
- Yes. Well...
- One I hope to have.
973
01:03:06,585 --> 01:03:08,918
We don't have
much of a choice, you know.
974
01:03:09,543 --> 01:03:10,835
But we do!
975
01:03:11,001 --> 01:03:14,793
I haven't had any painful illnesses.
976
01:03:14,960 --> 01:03:16,126
I'm very lucky.
977
01:03:16,293 --> 01:03:20,001
Some people have very painful cancers,
but mine isn't.
978
01:03:20,168 --> 01:03:23,001
I fainted
and had to get to the hospital fast
979
01:03:23,168 --> 01:03:25,168
to be given some...
980
01:03:26,210 --> 01:03:29,293
transfusions, but it wasn't painful.
981
01:03:29,460 --> 01:03:31,418
You had horrible back pain.
982
01:03:31,710 --> 01:03:34,501
I had that mysterious illness
after Kate.
983
01:03:34,668 --> 01:03:35,460
Yes.
984
01:03:35,626 --> 01:03:39,376
The pain was unbearable.
985
01:03:39,543 --> 01:03:41,043
Like razors.
986
01:03:42,043 --> 01:03:45,293
They never figured out what it was.
I don't know.
987
01:03:46,168 --> 01:03:50,168
But I'm also certain
we're capable of anything.
988
01:03:50,501 --> 01:03:51,460
So...
989
01:03:51,626 --> 01:03:53,210
Yes, of creating things.
990
01:03:53,376 --> 01:03:54,418
Probably.
991
01:03:55,543 --> 01:03:56,585
I'm so cold.
992
01:03:57,751 --> 01:03:59,585
Yes, let's go.
993
01:03:59,751 --> 01:04:02,168
- Yes.
- Let's go, if you're freezing.
994
01:04:02,626 --> 01:04:04,210
Can I film you a bit?
995
01:04:04,376 --> 01:04:05,043
No.
996
01:04:05,210 --> 01:04:06,335
I can't?
997
01:04:06,501 --> 01:04:07,501
Oh no!
998
01:04:10,960 --> 01:04:12,460
- There we go!
- Is it working?
999
01:04:12,626 --> 01:04:15,293
Yes. I'm at 1 hour 21 minutes.
1000
01:04:16,543 --> 01:04:18,418
You want to put them out?
1001
01:04:18,585 --> 01:04:19,793
Can I try?
1002
01:04:22,335 --> 01:04:23,210
Shoot.
1003
01:04:24,126 --> 01:04:26,251
- I love the noise it makes!
- Burned!
1004
01:04:27,450 --> 01:04:28,950
[tapping]
1005
01:04:29,335 --> 01:04:31,876
You look like you're at an altar.
1006
01:04:32,376 --> 01:04:35,460
Yes. But be careful of the feathers.
1007
01:04:36,793 --> 01:04:40,085
You might catch on fire.
Be careful!
1008
01:04:40,240 --> 01:04:41,360
[tapping]
1009
01:04:41,360 --> 01:04:42,490
[humming]
1010
01:04:43,585 --> 01:04:47,668
We're so careful now.
We didn't used to be so cautious.
1011
01:04:48,460 --> 01:04:53,293
Now we're overly cautious
about everything: jumping...
1012
01:04:55,126 --> 01:04:57,043
We're much more prudent.
1013
01:04:58,490 --> 01:05:00,200
[stairs creaking]
1014
01:05:14,460 --> 01:05:18,751
You'll do as you like,
but I think I'm at the end of...
1015
01:05:19,460 --> 01:05:21,793
I don't have the energy.
1016
01:05:22,835 --> 01:05:23,960
To move?
1017
01:05:24,126 --> 01:05:25,668
No, I don't think so.
1018
01:05:25,835 --> 01:05:29,210
I was very worried when you...
1019
01:05:29,376 --> 01:05:30,251
Really?
1020
01:05:30,585 --> 01:05:32,793
Yes, when you wanted to leave here.
1021
01:05:32,960 --> 01:05:35,585
I was very happy it didn't work out.
1022
01:05:35,751 --> 01:05:39,043
But I think
you like things to stay put.
1023
01:05:39,210 --> 01:05:40,918
Yes, it's reassuring.
1024
01:05:41,335 --> 01:05:42,251
Of course.
1025
01:05:49,460 --> 01:05:53,293
I need to put
everything in your names...
1026
01:05:54,001 --> 01:05:56,001
seven years before dying.
1027
01:05:57,418 --> 01:05:59,418
So it's time. It's true.
1028
01:06:00,001 --> 01:06:02,335
It's like what happened to my father.
1029
01:06:02,501 --> 01:06:05,376
His great-aunt died
1030
01:06:05,876 --> 01:06:09,501
six and a half years
before she was supposed to.
1031
01:06:10,668 --> 01:06:14,460
After that, her children would've had
very little debts to pay.
1032
01:06:16,293 --> 01:06:18,210
She died in the summer.
1033
01:06:18,751 --> 01:06:21,668
But she was supposed
to die at Christmas.
1034
01:06:22,793 --> 01:06:23,918
But they said:
1035
01:06:24,085 --> 01:06:26,501
"It's fine, we have a deep freezer."
1036
01:06:26,668 --> 01:06:28,418
I remember this story.
1037
01:06:28,585 --> 01:06:32,043
So they put Maud in the freezer
1038
01:06:32,376 --> 01:06:34,626
and the family doctor
was in on it.
1039
01:06:34,793 --> 01:06:39,251
So when they took her back out
at Christmas,
1040
01:06:40,293 --> 01:06:43,085
it would've been fine,
but the doctor died.
1041
01:06:43,251 --> 01:06:46,460
So they were asked
to do an autopsy.
1042
01:06:47,501 --> 01:06:49,043
And they said:
1043
01:06:50,960 --> 01:06:52,835
"We found strawberries in her stomach!
1044
01:06:53,543 --> 01:06:55,751
"You've all been caught!"
1045
01:06:56,793 --> 01:06:59,210
And they said:
"But we have a freezer!"
1046
01:07:01,168 --> 01:07:03,126
Isn't that a fine story?
1047
01:07:03,293 --> 01:07:04,960
As Mr. Touffet would say...
1048
01:07:05,126 --> 01:07:06,210
Yes.
1049
01:07:06,918 --> 01:07:08,626
"That's so British."
1050
01:07:09,460 --> 01:07:10,585
He said that?
1051
01:07:11,126 --> 01:07:13,835
Yes, whenever I'd say
I loved my father so much,
1052
01:07:14,001 --> 01:07:17,585
I wanted to stuff him
and sit him on a chair in the kitchen.
1053
01:07:17,751 --> 01:07:20,418
He'd say: "That's so British."
1054
01:07:20,610 --> 01:07:22,320
[laughing]
1055
01:07:22,251 --> 01:07:25,918
Do you have to cook this
in white wine?
1056
01:07:26,085 --> 01:07:28,085
Or without anything?
1057
01:07:28,418 --> 01:07:29,918
No need to add anything.
1058
01:07:30,085 --> 01:07:31,668
Will you have some?
1059
01:07:31,835 --> 01:07:33,168
- Yes.
- OK.
1060
01:07:33,335 --> 01:07:36,043
- How much would you like?
- Let's see, we'll be...
1061
01:07:40,043 --> 01:07:43,585
- How many of us, Charlotte?
- About eight. Eight or ten.
1062
01:07:43,751 --> 01:07:44,876
For eight people?
1063
01:07:45,043 --> 01:07:46,126
- One kilo.
- OK.
1064
01:07:46,501 --> 01:07:48,626
- How is that?
- That's perfect.
1065
01:07:48,740 --> 01:07:50,610
[water running]
1066
01:07:51,043 --> 01:07:52,293
The light's fading.
1067
01:07:52,460 --> 01:07:54,043
All of a sudden...
1068
01:07:54,210 --> 01:07:56,918
We need to hurry, it's starting to...
1069
01:07:57,460 --> 01:07:59,543
Because it's behind a sheet.
1070
01:07:59,710 --> 01:08:02,293
I don't understand how it'll work.
1071
01:08:04,585 --> 01:08:08,251
Maybe I'll go out like this,
I don't think there are any...
1072
01:08:11,530 --> 01:08:12,780
[tranquil music playing]
1073
01:08:52,501 --> 01:08:54,793
When did you take
your first sleeping pills?
1074
01:09:00,126 --> 01:09:03,043
When I was married to John Barry.
1075
01:09:03,793 --> 01:09:08,418
And I think dad was already
giving me some when I was 16.
1076
01:09:10,210 --> 01:09:12,710
And I was 17 when I met John Barry.
1077
01:09:13,460 --> 01:09:19,085
At 18, he was giving me two
so I'd stop yammering all night.
1078
01:09:19,251 --> 01:09:21,460
But at 16, he'd give you...?
1079
01:09:21,626 --> 01:09:23,168
Those were from my father.
1080
01:09:23,335 --> 01:09:25,376
Because you couldn't sleep?
1081
01:09:25,543 --> 01:09:26,293
Yes.
1082
01:09:27,293 --> 01:09:30,710
I've had insomnia
since I was very little.
1083
01:09:30,876 --> 01:09:32,710
I know I was very young
1084
01:09:32,876 --> 01:09:36,460
and that the family doctor
said to give me whisky.
1085
01:09:37,335 --> 01:09:39,751
Yes, and sleeping pills.
1086
01:09:40,251 --> 01:09:42,543
- Very young.
- And at boarding school?
1087
01:09:42,710 --> 01:09:46,418
There was nothing, unfortunately.
Nothing at all.
1088
01:09:46,585 --> 01:09:49,793
So every night in the dormitory:
1089
01:09:49,960 --> 01:09:51,835
"Is anyone awake?"
1090
01:09:52,168 --> 01:09:56,668
And when no one responded,
when all I heard were snores,
1091
01:09:56,835 --> 01:10:00,043
I'd stop asking if anyone was awake.
1092
01:10:00,543 --> 01:10:03,960
So you have vivid memories
of not being able to sleep.
1093
01:10:04,126 --> 01:10:05,293
Yes, terrible.
1094
01:10:05,460 --> 01:10:08,710
And I kept a stock of junior aspirin
1095
01:10:08,876 --> 01:10:11,960
that I'd buy at Woolworth's
1096
01:10:12,460 --> 01:10:13,876
just in case...
1097
01:10:14,043 --> 01:10:15,335
Did it have an effect?
1098
01:10:15,501 --> 01:10:19,418
If I took three, or four,
or five, or six... yes.
1099
01:10:20,710 --> 01:10:21,668
And...
1100
01:10:22,501 --> 01:10:25,293
And then I think pa
gave me one of his pills
1101
01:10:25,460 --> 01:10:26,918
and it was great.
1102
01:10:28,168 --> 01:10:29,376
And after that...
1103
01:10:29,543 --> 01:10:31,668
- You never stopped.
- No.
1104
01:10:31,835 --> 01:10:33,376
Did you ever try?
1105
01:10:33,793 --> 01:10:37,460
I quit when I was pregnant with...
1106
01:10:38,585 --> 01:10:39,960
Not with you.
1107
01:10:40,751 --> 01:10:44,460
I think I was taking sleeping pills,
but I'm not 100% sure.
1108
01:10:45,376 --> 01:10:47,960
I'm not 100% sure for you.
1109
01:10:48,126 --> 01:10:50,085
I know I quit for Lou.
1110
01:10:51,543 --> 01:10:53,251
And you were able to sleep?
1111
01:10:53,751 --> 01:10:56,751
Well...
I didn't mind not being able to sleep.
1112
01:10:56,918 --> 01:10:57,876
I understand.
1113
01:10:58,293 --> 01:11:01,585
Can you sleep?
No, not before a premiere in Paris.
1114
01:11:02,293 --> 01:11:04,210
I'm afraid. I'm very afraid.
1115
01:11:04,376 --> 01:11:06,043
But can you sleep?
1116
01:11:06,960 --> 01:11:09,043
Yes, I end up falling asleep.
1117
01:11:09,626 --> 01:11:14,460
But last night I woke up at four
from anxiety.
1118
01:11:14,626 --> 01:11:16,085
- About this?
- Yes.
1119
01:11:16,700 --> 01:11:18,320
[both giggling]
1120
01:11:23,251 --> 01:11:25,168
I can't let go of that fear.
1121
01:11:25,335 --> 01:11:27,001
Do you remember...
1122
01:11:28,293 --> 01:11:32,710
going to sleep
with the different men you lived with?
1123
01:11:32,918 --> 01:11:35,418
Because now
you're used to living alone.
1124
01:11:35,585 --> 01:11:36,585
Yes.
1125
01:11:36,751 --> 01:11:38,501
And you have your routine.
1126
01:11:38,918 --> 01:11:42,251
But did you have a routine
with each different man?
1127
01:11:43,918 --> 01:11:48,085
I suppose so,
but I think I drove John Barry crazy,
1128
01:11:48,710 --> 01:11:49,876
because I couldn't sleep,
1129
01:11:50,043 --> 01:11:52,168
because I wanted him
to say nice things,
1130
01:11:52,335 --> 01:11:56,376
because I wanted him to reassure me.
1131
01:11:57,293 --> 01:12:00,710
Which is where I got the idea
for Oh! pardon.
1132
01:12:00,876 --> 01:12:04,335
I read it in my diary,
from that time with John.
1133
01:12:04,793 --> 01:12:09,126
And then, with Serge,
we were so drunk that...
1134
01:12:09,585 --> 01:12:13,168
- Every night?
- We took so many sleeping pills!
1135
01:12:13,335 --> 01:12:14,960
We drank like fish.
1136
01:12:15,210 --> 01:12:17,168
It was really crazy.
1137
01:12:19,001 --> 01:12:21,168
I like this one!
1138
01:12:21,335 --> 01:12:22,668
It's very befitting.
1139
01:12:22,835 --> 01:12:23,668
Just a little click.
1140
01:12:23,835 --> 01:12:25,168
A little click, yes.
1141
01:12:26,626 --> 01:12:27,876
It's very soft.
1142
01:12:31,376 --> 01:12:35,835
And with Jacques,
you quit drinking alcohol?
1143
01:12:36,001 --> 01:12:38,543
I quit drinking alcohol and...
1144
01:12:39,960 --> 01:12:43,043
But I didn't quit the sleeping pills.
1145
01:12:45,210 --> 01:12:48,876
I recall Jacques being very upset,
1146
01:12:49,043 --> 01:12:52,251
because he was terrified of the dark.
1147
01:12:53,293 --> 01:12:58,918
So he'd leave the door open a crack
to get a sliver of light.
1148
01:12:59,085 --> 01:13:01,585
And it would make me totally crazy.
1149
01:13:02,168 --> 01:13:05,460
Plus, I get in a bad mood at night.
1150
01:13:05,626 --> 01:13:07,960
My bed had curtains all around.
1151
01:13:08,126 --> 01:13:09,710
Oh, that's right!
1152
01:13:10,710 --> 01:13:13,001
I understood later on,
1153
01:13:13,501 --> 01:13:15,168
after he told me:
1154
01:13:15,335 --> 01:13:17,293
"I hated sleeping in the dark,
1155
01:13:17,626 --> 01:13:20,043
"and I hated sleeping
with such a heavy blanket."
1156
01:13:20,210 --> 01:13:22,585
Because I'd sleep
with suitcases on top of me...
1157
01:13:23,001 --> 01:13:24,001
Why?
1158
01:13:24,168 --> 01:13:26,960
- I felt safer.
- Because of the weight?
1159
01:13:27,126 --> 01:13:27,793
Yes.
1160
01:13:27,960 --> 01:13:31,043
I was never able to sleep naked.
1161
01:13:31,835 --> 01:13:35,001
I needed to be covered up to my neck,
1162
01:13:35,168 --> 01:13:39,043
otherwise
I'm afraid of getting stabbed at night.
1163
01:13:39,210 --> 01:13:43,293
I did that too, when I was little,
for the vampires.
1164
01:13:43,876 --> 01:13:46,251
Serge thought it was funny,
1165
01:13:47,001 --> 01:13:50,043
I was naked all day, but at night...
1166
01:13:50,460 --> 01:13:51,918
All bundled up.
1167
01:13:56,168 --> 01:13:58,418
Only when Jacques and I separated
1168
01:13:59,668 --> 01:14:02,626
did he declare
how much he had hated it.
1169
01:14:03,418 --> 01:14:06,793
To him, it was like being in
1170
01:14:06,960 --> 01:14:09,251
a "box of death".
What are they called?
1171
01:14:09,418 --> 01:14:12,251
- Yes, a... coffin.
- Yes, that's right.
1172
01:14:15,293 --> 01:14:16,376
I understand.
1173
01:14:17,085 --> 01:14:18,626
Oh, how I understand!
1174
01:14:19,650 --> 01:14:21,530
[ominous music playing]
1175
01:14:29,710 --> 01:14:32,210
Do you like staying in bed
in the morning?
1176
01:14:32,376 --> 01:14:34,918
Worse than that.
If I have nothing to do,
1177
01:14:35,085 --> 01:14:37,960
I'll get up, pee, and think:
1178
01:14:38,126 --> 01:14:41,001
"I need to wake up,
the alarm went off.
1179
01:14:41,168 --> 01:14:44,710
"Who's coming today? No one."
So I'll go back to bed.
1180
01:14:44,876 --> 01:14:47,543
I have to tear myself away
from my bed.
1181
01:14:47,710 --> 01:14:49,251
Sometimes I'll stay in bed,
1182
01:14:49,418 --> 01:14:52,126
if there's nothing to do
and no one to see,
1183
01:14:54,460 --> 01:14:55,876
until 3 p.m.
1184
01:14:56,751 --> 01:14:57,418
Really?
1185
01:14:57,585 --> 01:14:59,835
Yes, it's so tempting.
1186
01:15:01,251 --> 01:15:03,501
- So tempting.
- Without doing anything?
1187
01:15:03,668 --> 01:15:05,210
Without doing anything.
1188
01:15:05,376 --> 01:15:09,668
- It started since Kate.
- After Kate.
1189
01:15:09,835 --> 01:15:12,960
Before Kate,
I don't think it ever happened to me.
1190
01:15:15,501 --> 01:15:17,168
But after Kate, yes.
1191
01:15:18,126 --> 01:15:24,585
I'd stare at the ceiling
and that fabric in my bedroom.
1192
01:15:24,751 --> 01:15:27,418
I stared up at that fabric
1193
01:15:27,585 --> 01:15:28,626
for two years.
1194
01:15:29,793 --> 01:15:30,918
Without...
1195
01:15:33,793 --> 01:15:35,835
Without doing anything at all.
1196
01:15:39,835 --> 01:15:43,376
But it isn't... demoralizing.
1197
01:15:43,543 --> 01:15:46,710
I think it happens to many people
as they get older.
1198
01:15:51,570 --> 01:15:53,820
[upbeat music playing]
1199
01:16:14,585 --> 01:16:18,251
Why didn't you and dad
have another child?
1200
01:16:19,126 --> 01:16:21,626
We didn't have another child together,
1201
01:16:21,793 --> 01:16:25,835
though I'd hoped for it,
despite everything,
1202
01:16:26,835 --> 01:16:30,751
because I didn't want
to be unfair to Kate.
1203
01:16:31,585 --> 01:16:34,793
I'd had Kate with John Barry,
and then you.
1204
01:16:35,168 --> 01:16:39,251
And I didn't want the balance to be...
unfair to her.
1205
01:16:39,418 --> 01:16:41,793
Because we'd have formed a new family.
1206
01:16:41,960 --> 01:16:44,668
- You're right.
- And she would have been...
1207
01:16:46,293 --> 01:16:47,418
off to the side.
1208
01:16:47,585 --> 01:16:50,001
These are stupid thoughts,
1209
01:16:50,960 --> 01:16:52,085
No, it's true!
1210
01:16:52,251 --> 01:16:55,918
And it's interesting
to have one child per father.
1211
01:16:56,085 --> 01:16:57,668
- It's...
- Yes.
1212
01:16:58,668 --> 01:17:00,335
There's logic to it.
1213
01:17:00,501 --> 01:17:02,126
In the end, yes.
1214
01:17:02,780 --> 01:17:04,570
[upbeat music playing]
1215
01:17:13,501 --> 01:17:15,876
Do you still think of that period?
1216
01:17:17,418 --> 01:17:20,085
I've thought back on it so often.
1217
01:17:24,460 --> 01:17:27,335
The guilt lasted for years and years.
1218
01:17:32,126 --> 01:17:33,376
The doubts, the questions...
1219
01:17:33,543 --> 01:17:36,210
When you asked about sleep yesterday,
1220
01:17:38,585 --> 01:17:43,835
If I have a hard time sleeping,
it's because I'm rewinding in my mind:
1221
01:17:44,001 --> 01:17:48,501
"What if I'd done this differently?
Should I have done it this way?"
1222
01:17:48,668 --> 01:17:51,335
About everything!
It happened just yesterday.
1223
01:17:51,501 --> 01:17:53,251
All the time. All the time.
1224
01:17:53,418 --> 01:17:58,501
I envy those who are "deep sleepers",
as they say.
1225
01:17:59,126 --> 01:18:03,251
I think I'm always tormented by...
1226
01:18:04,418 --> 01:18:06,960
- Decisions?
- By guilt.
1227
01:18:07,126 --> 01:18:09,501
I often wonder if it was all my fault,
1228
01:18:09,668 --> 01:18:12,085
if I should have done differently,
1229
01:18:12,501 --> 01:18:14,210
in regards to everything.
1230
01:18:15,751 --> 01:18:18,460
But don't you feel less guilt now?
1231
01:18:19,043 --> 01:18:21,543
No, these questions
run through my mind.
1232
01:18:21,710 --> 01:18:23,668
Just last night, I thought:
1233
01:18:24,043 --> 01:18:27,543
"I didn't take sleeping pills
while pregnant with Charlotte.
1234
01:18:27,710 --> 01:18:31,293
"Why did I say
I took some all the time
1235
01:18:31,751 --> 01:18:33,501
"while pregnant with you?"
1236
01:18:33,668 --> 01:18:37,085
Looking at images of you
on the swing and all that,
1237
01:18:37,251 --> 01:18:38,585
I wasn't taking anything.
1238
01:18:38,751 --> 01:18:39,460
Right.
1239
01:18:39,793 --> 01:18:42,626
We make up
so many stories in our heads,
1240
01:18:42,793 --> 01:18:46,001
sometimes I wonder
if I'm telling the truth, you know?
1241
01:18:46,168 --> 01:18:49,501
I've repeated these stories
so many times, they've become...
1242
01:18:50,126 --> 01:18:52,168
- the real story.
- Reality, yes.
1243
01:18:53,043 --> 01:18:55,501
We start to fear the real stories.
1244
01:18:55,668 --> 01:18:57,960
And even human history,
1245
01:18:58,126 --> 01:19:00,751
because we convince ourselves
it was one way
1246
01:19:00,918 --> 01:19:03,460
but perhaps it happened differently.
1247
01:19:04,210 --> 01:19:06,668
Of course, after tragedies,
1248
01:19:07,210 --> 01:19:08,293
like Kate,
1249
01:19:08,460 --> 01:19:11,376
you rewrite history:
"If I'd called her,
1250
01:19:11,543 --> 01:19:14,043
"if I'd taken her along on my tour,
1251
01:19:14,210 --> 01:19:15,126
"if..."
1252
01:19:15,293 --> 01:19:16,751
You know?
1253
01:19:16,918 --> 01:19:19,376
You invent different versions,
1254
01:19:19,543 --> 01:19:23,293
even if there's no point,
that's how it is.
1255
01:19:24,876 --> 01:19:31,126
And you can go back in time for years
doing this,
1256
01:19:31,876 --> 01:19:34,668
wondering if things
would've happened differently
1257
01:19:34,835 --> 01:19:37,668
if you had done something better.
1258
01:19:37,835 --> 01:19:38,585
Yes.
1259
01:19:38,751 --> 01:19:39,835
Of course.
1260
01:19:46,251 --> 01:19:52,335
I know I made mistakes,
with both of you, you and Lou.
1261
01:19:52,501 --> 01:19:54,585
I didn't think of you enough.
1262
01:19:55,418 --> 01:19:56,626
In what sense?
1263
01:19:58,376 --> 01:20:00,501
Of your distress.
1264
01:20:01,043 --> 01:20:03,168
I was so wrapped up in mine.
1265
01:20:03,543 --> 01:20:04,876
That's normal.
1266
01:20:05,751 --> 01:20:09,543
I judged myself harshly
for a long time because of it.
1267
01:20:09,710 --> 01:20:11,626
But it's only normal.
1268
01:20:12,793 --> 01:20:15,293
When I think back to...
1269
01:20:16,876 --> 01:20:18,626
to the aftermath...
1270
01:20:20,293 --> 01:20:23,751
you disappeared,
and it was normal that you did.
1271
01:20:37,793 --> 01:20:42,710
I don't think everyone makes
that same mistake.
1272
01:20:43,085 --> 01:20:45,210
And it's true that the place...
1273
01:20:46,710 --> 01:20:48,918
of a dead child
1274
01:20:51,168 --> 01:20:56,501
You speak a lot more of the dead
than of the living.
1275
01:20:57,585 --> 01:21:01,751
You purposefully try to include them
in conversations,
1276
01:21:01,918 --> 01:21:04,418
rather than pretend
you had two daughters.
1277
01:21:04,585 --> 01:21:05,710
No, you had three.
1278
01:21:06,293 --> 01:21:09,126
And perhaps
we talk about them even more.
1279
01:21:09,960 --> 01:21:14,460
And certainly
with a sense of glorification
1280
01:21:14,626 --> 01:21:16,126
in regards to the dead.
1281
01:21:16,918 --> 01:21:20,251
You raise them up a notch.
1282
01:21:23,043 --> 01:21:24,793
As optimistic as I am,
1283
01:21:24,960 --> 01:21:28,543
you suddenly realize
that anything could happen.
1284
01:21:28,710 --> 01:21:32,668
Even before it happened,
I often had sleepless nights,
1285
01:21:32,835 --> 01:21:35,210
worrying and wondering...
1286
01:21:35,585 --> 01:21:40,168
I mean, realizing
I'd put three beings into the world
1287
01:21:40,335 --> 01:21:41,751
who would die one day.
1288
01:21:41,918 --> 01:21:43,876
But how would it happen?
1289
01:21:44,043 --> 01:21:46,626
Would Kate die of cancer?
1290
01:21:47,210 --> 01:21:49,918
Would you die in a car accident?
1291
01:21:50,085 --> 01:21:51,376
Would Lou...?
1292
01:21:51,543 --> 01:21:54,251
All these different possibilities
1293
01:21:54,918 --> 01:21:57,668
and the fact that I won't be there
to comfort you.
1294
01:21:57,835 --> 01:21:58,876
I won't be there.
1295
01:21:59,043 --> 01:22:02,001
I put you in orbit...
1296
01:22:02,751 --> 01:22:05,876
And what? Just to bugger off?
So...
1297
01:22:06,418 --> 01:22:10,293
not being able to be there for you.
And yet...
1298
01:22:12,376 --> 01:22:14,960
the real nightmare is being here.
1299
01:22:31,168 --> 01:22:35,210
I haven't seen this or any other video
since Kate died.
1300
01:22:38,001 --> 01:22:40,293
I have so many Super 8 films.
1301
01:22:40,710 --> 01:22:45,251
I don't have the courage,
for all my memories of vacations
1302
01:22:45,793 --> 01:22:47,668
are obviously with her.
1303
01:22:47,835 --> 01:22:48,501
Of course.
1304
01:22:48,668 --> 01:22:51,960
All those winters, Christmases...
1305
01:22:52,126 --> 01:22:54,126
So I don't dare watch them.
1306
01:22:55,043 --> 01:22:56,501
Maybe it'd do me good.
1307
01:22:56,876 --> 01:22:58,126
I'm not sure.
1308
01:23:07,168 --> 01:23:09,876
- It's like a whole other life.
- Exactly.
1309
01:23:10,293 --> 01:23:11,335
In fact.
1310
01:23:13,668 --> 01:23:15,251
- Yes.
- Because it's...
1311
01:23:17,210 --> 01:23:20,085
- I'd rather not watch this.
- No, don't look.
1312
01:23:20,960 --> 01:23:22,168
We can stop.
1313
01:23:32,900 --> 01:23:34,700
[tranquil music playing]
1314
01:23:52,001 --> 01:23:55,376
This documentary
will have made me so sentimental.
1315
01:24:01,418 --> 01:24:04,376
I have Jo in mind
and her "I love you's".
1316
01:24:05,418 --> 01:24:07,126
The more I look at you,
1317
01:24:07,585 --> 01:24:09,126
the more I love you.
1318
01:24:22,835 --> 01:24:24,668
I have always loved you.
1319
01:24:27,835 --> 01:24:30,251
But it is so much clearer to me now.
1320
01:24:31,835 --> 01:24:34,835
Why do we learn to live
without our mothers?
1321
01:24:35,501 --> 01:24:38,085
It seems to be a purpose in life:
1322
01:24:38,626 --> 01:24:40,793
to free ourselves at any cost.
1323
01:24:41,668 --> 01:24:43,668
I don't want to free myself.
1324
01:24:44,418 --> 01:24:46,043
I want to cling on.
1325
01:24:48,960 --> 01:24:50,793
I don't trust myself.
1326
01:24:50,960 --> 01:24:52,001
Why?
1327
01:24:52,918 --> 01:24:54,751
I wish I were like you.
1328
01:24:55,251 --> 01:24:59,210
Having faith in life
seems to be your philosophy.
1329
01:24:59,960 --> 01:25:01,751
To live without mistrust.
1330
01:25:01,918 --> 01:25:04,543
To believe in humanity, in people.
1331
01:25:05,085 --> 01:25:08,210
To be curious about everything,
close to everything,
1332
01:25:08,376 --> 01:25:09,626
to everyone,
1333
01:25:09,793 --> 01:25:11,210
without any filters.
1334
01:25:12,710 --> 01:25:14,501
In my current state,
1335
01:25:14,668 --> 01:25:17,376
I need you to teach me to live,
1336
01:25:17,543 --> 01:25:21,168
to teach me again,
as if I hadn't understood before,
1337
01:25:21,335 --> 01:25:23,960
as if it were just a rehearsal.
1338
01:25:26,668 --> 01:25:30,293
I'm scared of your illness,
scared of your age,
1339
01:25:30,460 --> 01:25:34,251
scared of time that never stops
and passes by too fast.
1340
01:25:35,835 --> 01:25:37,668
My words are tactless,
1341
01:25:37,835 --> 01:25:40,960
but should I pretend
nothing will happen?
1342
01:25:41,126 --> 01:25:43,710
That you will be by my side forever?
1343
01:25:43,876 --> 01:25:47,126
That a life without you cannot exist?
1344
01:25:50,001 --> 01:25:52,793
We'd like to think
that there is no fear,
1345
01:25:52,960 --> 01:25:55,918
that there is peace, serenity.
1346
01:25:56,085 --> 01:25:59,293
We'd like to talk about it,
yet not at all.
1347
01:25:59,460 --> 01:26:01,543
It's only to feel reassured.
1348
01:26:04,168 --> 01:26:07,793
Today, I seek out
any reassuring detail I can find
1349
01:26:07,960 --> 01:26:11,293
that will bring me
tranquillity and warmth.
1350
01:26:12,835 --> 01:26:16,335
I find them in you,
through your touch.
1351
01:26:17,418 --> 01:26:20,168
I want to make the most of this luck,
1352
01:26:20,335 --> 01:26:22,168
and make it last.
1353
01:26:39,820 --> 01:26:41,530
[wind blaring]
1354
01:26:56,751 --> 01:26:58,418
Didn't expect this...
1355
01:26:59,335 --> 01:27:01,126
In my face...
1356
01:27:07,293 --> 01:27:08,293
Thank you.
1357
01:27:39,530 --> 01:27:40,900
[upbeat music playing]
1358
01:29:05,530 --> 01:29:07,200
[upbeat music playing]
1359
01:29:49,320 --> 01:29:51,200
[upbeat music playing]