You good?
Yeah, I just, smoking a cigarette.
You don't smoke.
I don't know, man. I was just I'm getting some air.
Yeah?
Yeah.
You didn't talk to me all service.
Was focused.
- Yeah, I don't like the way this feels. - I mean, neither do I, so.
Well, what's up?
What?
Talked to Pete.
Yeah.
I wanted to talk to you about that.
Well, here we are.
Okay.
Yeah, I should have I should have you're leaving.
- No. No, that's I'm not leaving. - You are quitting
- no. No, I'm not quitting. - And you are leaving me
- with all of this shit. - I'm not leaving anything.
- And you couldn't even tell me. - No that's not how it is.
- I had to find it out from Pete. - Syd, can you just
- okay, can you just hold on? - So
can you hold on? Can you just
please. Give me a second.
It's the best thing for the restaurant. Okay?
We have to put the restaurant first.
Cool.
Cool?
Yeah, I mean, cool.
If that's what you got for me, then that's what I have for you, you know?
That's what I got for you? What does that
it's not good enough. You're going to have to say something else.
Yeah, I'm trying. I'm trying to think of what I can say.
It's for the best of the restaurant?
- That's why we have to put... - I thought you'd be psyched.
- Psyched? - Yes!
Psyched? Psyched for what?
Psyched for the restaurant that's losing money every fucking second
- and is gonna shut down? - No, it's not like that, okay?
- Then tell me. - I'm gonna get us out of the debt.
I'm gonna get us in the clear before I leave, okay?
I didn't know that. Well, thank you very much for that offer.
- Don't fucking do that. - Then don't fucking do this.
- Sydney, please, just... - what the fuck is the plan, mind you?
What is your master plan for getting us out of this debt?
This debt that you put us in, by the way.
I know, but you can't blame it all on me, okay? We're gonna figure it out.
I'm not blaming it all on you. Maybe somewhere from 50 to 75%.
But, I mean, not all of it. What is it though? What's the figuring it out?
- What's the plan? Tell me. - We have the correct team in place now.
Okay? All right? We're doing this the correct way.
Okay, wait, so the correct way, with the correct team
that you're removing yourself from? Or
Sydney, please. I'm trying to explain it to you, okay?
No. I don't wanna... Could I actually just not hear you talk, please,
for one fucking second?
You don't you don't do that.
Well, then fucking help me, please.
This is all I've ever done.
It's all I've ever known.
So now why is that my problem?
That's that's what I'm saying.
That it's my problem?
No, that it shouldn't be.
Explain.
I think I did this so I didn't have to do other things.
Opened a restaurant?
Become a cook.
Like like, what? Like an escape?
Sure, yeah.
I mean I mean, then join the fucking club.
I don't know what to tell you. You you love this.
I used to, yeah.
Not now?
No.
I just I feel like I don't have anything to draw on, you know?
I don't have anything to pull from.
Jesus Christ.
You love this.
Yeah, for whatever fucked-up reason, yeah. Yeah, I do.
It wasn't a question.
If I didn't love it, I wouldn't put up with so much bullshit,
- present bullshit included. - I understand.
- I understand that. I understand. - What do you understand?
I just.
I think... I think I put a lot of things in the way
of dealing with very real things and I am aware of that, okay?
I think I was trying to, like, put... put hurdles in the way.
Hurdles?
- Hurdles. - Hurdles like like what?
- Like... - like changing the menu every day
- probably. - And not communicating
- yes, probably. I think so. - And not apologizing to people.
And just being a fucking menace in general.
- I think I yes, okay? - Okay.
I think, yes. But you also
you can't act like you weren't trying to get the fuck out of here.
What the fuck are you talking about?
- Sydney... - no, I don't wanna do this right now.
This is not what this is fucking about. I do not wanna do this right now.
Don't.
- I've known Adam for a very long time. - Fuck off.
- You realize that, right? - Yeah, okay, well
can you stop doing that?
You're not good at smoking.
I'm gonna get good.
I was gonna tell you.
And then it all fucking just got weird and blew up
and annoying and he - I understand why you did it.
- I understand. Yes, I do. - No, no.
- I get it. It makes sense.
But I should have told you and I'm sorry that I didn't tell you.
- It's okay. - No, but it's not okay,
and it's a fucking symptom of this whole fucking shit that I didn't tell you.
And I'm sorry that I didn't tell you, but you were being a fucking maniac.
- I know I was being a maniac. - No, actually a maniac.
And that's what I'm trying to tell you.
I'm trying to tell you I'm sorry for that. That's what I'm saying.
For driving the business in the ground and fucking yelling at Richie?
- And fucking yelling at everybody? - I would want to leave too.
- I fucking get it! - I know you know that, but no, car my.
I need you to know because, like, I'm sorry that it fucking even got to this.
And I'm sorry for everything that you've been through,
- and that your family... - that's not what this is!
Yes, it is what it is - no, it's not. Please.
Because it's the fucking elephant in the fucking restaurant, man.
And I'm so sorry that your family has had to go through this shit
- stop. Stop, Syd. - And the fact that you
and nat - please stop. You don't have to do that.
And Richie have to come to work every day.
And fucking work your way through this shit.
I'm not gonna fucking stop it. I'm sorry.
I'm not 'cause it's awful
and the little of it that I understand, it's a fucking nightmare.
And I'm sorry that it's happened to you and it's happening to you,
but when you take it out on the restaurant and the people who work here
and the fucking business and on me, it's beyond the fucking
I know that. That's why I have to remove myself. That's what I'm saying.
Why? To go do fucking what?
To make me not like this.
How?
I
I think I have put a lot of stuff in the way, right? Of of of not
of not dealing with other stuff. Okay?
And-and-and I think I'm really I'm trying to run into that.
All right? So I'm not blocked by it anymore.
I'm not scared of it anymore. I'm not sprinting from it anymore.
Hey, I think that's great.
- You do? - Of course I do.
Okay, and I think it's great that Adam wants you to be at his restaurant.
I mean, I think that's a really great opportunity, and
and, you know, I think he's actually he's pretty good, so
- okay, don't be a fucking asshole. - I'm not being an asshole.
It's the truth. Like, he's just he's fucking he's okay.
And what? You're better?
Yeah, I smoke him.
Okay, congrats.
- And so do you. - Fuck off.
Syd, you're everything I'm never gonna be.
What the fuck are you talking about?
You're just you are. You are considerate.
You... you allow yourself to feel things, right?
You allow yourself to care. You are a natural leader and teacher.
And you're doing all this stuff for every right fucking reason.
And I get it. This is a great opportunity, right?
And it's for a lot of fucking money
and you can hire whoever the fuck you want, right?
But this place right now, this is starting to gel.
It is starting to feel alive, right?
And you have seven people in this building
who will jump in front of a fucking train for you right now.
And I'm gonna do everything I can to set you up for success but
any chance of any kind of good in this building,
it started when you walked in.
And any possibility of it surviving
it's with you.
How can you say that?
I believe in you more than I've ever believed in myself.
Jesus.
Why?
Because you're the bear.
- And what if you're wrong? - I'm not.
- And if you are? - I'm not.
You change your mind every fucking ten seconds.
I know. But that's not what this is.
- That's not what this is. - What is it then? You're leaving.
Syd, you don't need me.
I know I don't need you, but that's not the point.
You're supposed to fucking be here.
And you self-sabotage and you run away when things are good
- and it's not fucking fair! - I know. I know that's what I do
- and I'm trying to break that. - So then why are you doing it?
- I'm trying to change that, okay? - You're my partner!
- I'm your friend! - You're not fucking acting like it!
Whoa! Whoa!
What the fuck are you two shouting about?
He's leaving.
All right, great. Clean up without his ass.
He's fucking quitting the restaurant.
What?
Yeah.
You're quitting?
I'm retiring.
Right.
You're retiring? You're 12.
Richie, I'm fucking, I'm fucking done.
Done with what?
Restaurants.
You on fucking drugs right now?
No, I'm telling you, I'm just I'm fucking I'm out.
All right.
All right. Well... Good luck, admiral.
We'll send you your watch.
I'm serious.
Yeah, no, no, I know. Of course. Of course. Yeah, go on.
Of course what? Of course what? What does that mean? What do you mean?
No, just, of course, take off. This is what you're good at, you know?
The fuck does that mean? It's what I'm good at?
No, it means that we're down. We're getting the shit kicked out of us.
So yeah, fucking, you know, take off. It's fine. It's fine.
- That's not what this is! Okay? - All right.
- It's classic escapism. - That's not what this is. No, it's not.
- Fight or flight. - I'm trying to tell you something, okay?
- We gotta fight and this is flight. - I'm gonna get us out of debt.
I'm gonna get us in the clear, okay?
That's not what this is. I'm putting the restaurant first.
Don't say you're putting the restaurant first.
That's what I'm fucking doing!
Yeah, just like you put your family first.
- Come on, Syd, let's fucking come on. - - Richie.
Richie, I'm sorry.
- Richie, listen to me, okay? - Carmen, go fuck yourself.
I'm trying to tell you something fucking real.
- Carmen, go fuck yourself! - I'm trying to apologize to you!
I don't wanna hear your fucking apologies.
You're not fucking letting me!
Richie, I'm trying I'm trying to fucking tell you something. I'm trying
I don't wanna fucking hear it. Your sorries are shit.
Chef Sydney, I'm gonna go in.
I'm gonna review the schedule, see if we can cut some hours.
Actually, chef Carmen is doing us a favor 'cause we could really use that salary.
So thanks.
I went to Michael's funeral.
What did you just say?
I'm gonna I'm gonna go inside.
- I don't think I should be... - no. Stay. Stay for a sec, please?
Why'd you just say that?
I should have told you before. I'm telling you now.
- What are you trying to do? - I'm being honest with you.
- Are you trying to fuck me up right now? - No.
There's no refrigerator door here right now.
- Richie, I'm not trying to fuck you up. - Do not fuck with me.
- I'm trying to tell you something, Richie. - I will fucking destroy you.
- Please, stop, Richie. Stop. - I'm not fucking with you.
- I will fucking destroy you. - Richie, stop. Richie.
Richie, please, please, stop.
Richie, please, please, please fucking stop.
- Please, Richie. Please, stop. - All right. All right. All right.
- You went to the funeral? - Yeah.
- I did. I went to the funeral. - Okay.
What was I wearing?
What?
If you went to the funeral, you'd know what I was wearing.
I have no fucking idea what you were wearing, Richie.
I don't fucking know.
So you just went in, you didn't say anything?
You didn't see anybody?
I went in for a second.
And then I left.
And then I sat in my car.
Why?
I couldn't handle it.
Yeah, no shit.
How the fuck do you think anybody fucking handles it?
I know. I understand that. It was shameful and I'm ashamed, it was horrible,
and I'm sorry, okay? I'm sorry.
You have any idea how fucking hard that shit was for me?
I'm aware, yes.
She
she was just saying this thing about how
you know, we were trying to deal, right?
And we didn't know how, like, me and you and-and sug, like, the three of us
stop. Who is she?
Me, I'm she. I was
- just a few before you came out. - Okay. Continue.
When I came back, I didn't know what to do.
Okay? I was so fucking angry.
And I was so fucking stuck, and I was so fucking scared and I didn't know.
I didn't know. I didn't know how to deal with it.
I didn't know what to fucking do.
If I could go back in time, I don't know if I would have done anything differently.
I don't know.
I don't know, but... I was just thinking and I was.
I was thinking for the first time about this thing.
About how it happened and I never thought of it before, just how sorry I am.
How sorry I am because I just I didn't realize how
how what? How.
I didn't realize how you lost somebody too.
I felt like you resented me.
I did.
Why?
Because you you were like
you were like inside my family.
Like, you really, you knew my family.
You got to spend time with him.
And you really, you knew you knew him, you know?
You knew him.
Yeah, but it's not the same. I didn't really know him.
I didn't know him like you did.
I couldn't figure out what the fuck was wrong with him.
That makes sense.
And,
like, I you know, I tried to get him to talk to somebody and I.
I just I don't.
I thought I'd be
like, maybe if I could just... Stay at the beef,
I could, like, keep an eye on him and then I.
I failed.
You didn't fail, Richie.
Felt like that.
Richie, y-you... you didn't.
I thought that that was why you didn't go.
You thought that's why I didn't go to the funeral?
No.
Fucking stop that. You don't fucking smoke.
Nigga, who cares right now?
Exactly. Give me that.
I resented you too.
Yeah, I'm sure.
I love I love your family.
And they love you.
He fucking loved you.
I know.
I know, and they love you. You know that, right?
I know, but it's different. I'm like the cousin, you know?
Yeah, but Richie, you're more than that.
My god, you're a fucking idiot.
I'm working on it.
Yeah?
Yeah.
How?
I don't know. I feel like that's why I gotta go.
I missed you.
- You what? - Like,
all that time that you were gone, like, I was
you know, I would just be, like, thinking about
you know, like, where you were and, like, what you're doing.
And just like, I don't know, like experiences you were having.
This one time that, like, me and Mikey, we took this road trip.
We had to drop something off for Jimmy and,
we were, like, cruising down the lake outside of town,
and you know, fucking good tunes and,
yeah. For like half an hour... We felt like.
I don't know, like, it felt, like, perfect, you know?
Like that was as good as it gets, you know? Just like
me and my homie just fucking, you know,
on some trip for work, just fucking dialed.
And like I was like, "fuck, that's"
"that's what Carmen's life must be like."
I thought that that was kind of, like
you know, like, how you felt.
No.
It wasn't like that.
I was jealous.
I bought a fucking cookbook.
You bought a cookbook?
Yeah, I don't know. Well, like, I just wanted to see what the big deal was.
Which cookbook did you buy?
French laundry.
- It's fucking demented. - Yeah.
That's not even a cookbook. That's like a wechsler intelligence exam.
Fucking circular stencil? Fuck you.
It's not easy. It's not. It's not.
But I was thinking, like, if this kid's
he's a fucking g if he can figure out this insane bullshit, you know?
You don't think it's wrong for you to, like, walk away from all that?
I-I don't know what I'm like, Richie.
What do you mean?
Like, outside of the kitchen, I don't know what I'm like.
But the restaurant, it's gonna be
it's gonna be good. It's gonna be fine. You know?
- Yeah. - Yeah.
I know.
How do you know that?
How do I know? I mean, we still got you, right?
Please tell me you're not quitting too.
Depends.
On what?
- Updated partnership terms. - Okay, anything. What is it?
One side, Jimmy and the - yeah, that's
and the other side... me, nat and Richie.
Okay, if that's that's what you want.
It's what I need.
Okay.
Yeah.
You got it.
You in?
I don't.
I don't wanna be the ambassador of St. paddy's day.
- The fuck is that supposed to mean? - What the fuck does that mean?
I appreciate the gesture, but, like
this is my home. I'm not going anywhere.
Who the fuck has time for gestures?
This is real?
Carmy?
Yeah, yeah, it's real. It's real.
Fuck yes, chef Sydney. It is a fucking honor.
As my... My official capacity as a partner,
I do have one question though.
Exactly how the fuck do we keep this place open?
Fuck me, I have the same exact question.
We're gonna figure it out.
We are.
What the hell are you guys doing?
What happened?
Sugar, did you talk to Pete?
- About what? - The agreement.
No. Client-attorney privilege. What's going on?
Guys. Wh
he's leaving.
He's leaving the restaurant. All restaurants, I think.
He went to Mikey's funeral.
Carm?