1 00:00:01,602 --> 00:00:03,103 -Samantha Fink, come on up. -(cheering) 2 00:00:05,939 --> 00:00:07,574 SAMANTHA: You guys really love your cakes. 3 00:00:08,909 --> 00:00:10,344 Happy one year sober. 4 00:00:10,344 --> 00:00:12,546 -Yes! You did it! -(whoops) 5 00:00:14,681 --> 00:00:15,949 (laughs) 6 00:00:17,017 --> 00:00:19,653 Oh, man. (clears throat) Uh, hi, 7 00:00:19,653 --> 00:00:21,488 I'm Samantha and I'm an alcoholic. 8 00:00:21,488 --> 00:00:23,156 -ALL: How did you do it? -(Samantha laughs) 9 00:00:23,156 --> 00:00:25,158 I will try to keep this brief. 10 00:00:25,158 --> 00:00:26,827 Olivia... (chuckles) 11 00:00:26,827 --> 00:00:30,731 thank you for taking me through, uh, most of the steps. 12 00:00:30,731 --> 00:00:33,166 I know that I'm one of your more annoying sponsees, 13 00:00:33,166 --> 00:00:34,535 but you very rarely let that show, 14 00:00:34,535 --> 00:00:36,803 and I really appreciate it. 15 00:00:36,803 --> 00:00:39,973 Mindy, thank you for being the greatest boss I've ever had, 16 00:00:39,973 --> 00:00:42,342 and-and by that I mean thank you for not firing me. 17 00:00:44,044 --> 00:00:47,514 Felicia, thank you for not giving up on me, 18 00:00:47,514 --> 00:00:49,716 even though you definitely should have. 19 00:00:52,553 --> 00:00:54,721 And James, hey. 20 00:00:54,721 --> 00:00:57,291 Thanks for the support and the jogging 21 00:00:57,291 --> 00:00:59,760 and the camaraderie, and the, um... 22 00:00:59,760 --> 00:01:01,495 boundaries. 23 00:01:02,663 --> 00:01:06,633 And, yeah, to the rest of my sober and non-sober posse, 24 00:01:06,633 --> 00:01:10,237 you guys are the best trudging buddies a girl could ask for. 25 00:01:10,237 --> 00:01:13,440 And, um, I just wish my dad could be here, 26 00:01:13,440 --> 00:01:16,410 'cause he-he never got to see me sober, you know. 27 00:01:16,410 --> 00:01:17,744 I mean, he did when I was a kid. 28 00:01:17,744 --> 00:01:19,980 I-I wasn't drinking when I was four. 29 00:01:19,980 --> 00:01:22,783 Even though I think I would have been really good at it. 30 00:01:22,783 --> 00:01:25,285 Uh, yeah, I just wish he could see this. 31 00:01:27,487 --> 00:01:29,790 Anyway, uh, yeah, that's it. 32 00:01:29,790 --> 00:01:30,991 I love you guys. I love this room. 33 00:01:30,991 --> 00:01:32,459 Thank you so much. Okay. 34 00:01:32,459 --> 00:01:34,661 -(cheering) -You did it. 35 00:01:34,661 --> 00:01:36,163 So great. 36 00:01:36,163 --> 00:01:37,364 FELICIA: I'm so proud of you. 37 00:01:37,364 --> 00:01:38,465 SAMANTHA: Oh... 38 00:01:38,465 --> 00:01:41,101 -ALL: Mm... -Yeah, that's nice. 39 00:01:41,101 --> 00:01:42,436 FELICIA: Me too. 40 00:01:42,436 --> 00:01:44,504 OLIVIA: We get it. 41 00:01:44,504 --> 00:01:47,507 (indistinct chatter) 42 00:01:47,507 --> 00:01:49,977 -"Thanks for the boundaries?" -Yeah, 43 00:01:49,977 --> 00:01:53,113 -that was the safe-for-work version. -Mm. 44 00:01:53,113 --> 00:01:55,115 ♪ ♪ 45 00:01:58,919 --> 00:02:01,254 -My place? Your place? -Um... 46 00:02:01,254 --> 00:02:02,789 I live with my mom, so... 47 00:02:02,789 --> 00:02:04,591 Okay, so, my place. Yeah. 48 00:02:06,360 --> 00:02:08,629 ♪ I can make the crowd go crazy ♪ 49 00:02:08,629 --> 00:02:10,631 ♪ Make the crowd go crazy ♪ 50 00:02:10,631 --> 00:02:13,367 ♪ Walkin' like you about to get paid, yeah... ♪ 51 00:02:13,367 --> 00:02:15,068 Wow. Okay, jogging works. 52 00:02:15,068 --> 00:02:16,403 ♪ Go crazy ♪ 53 00:02:17,771 --> 00:02:19,640 ♪ Make the crowd go crazy. ♪ 54 00:02:19,640 --> 00:02:21,942 JOEL: All right, stop right here. 55 00:02:21,942 --> 00:02:23,543 Drop your hand. 56 00:02:23,543 --> 00:02:24,778 Open your eyes. 57 00:02:25,812 --> 00:02:26,880 Surprise. 58 00:02:26,880 --> 00:02:29,049 What's the surprise? 59 00:02:29,049 --> 00:02:30,484 (English accent): Oh, my God, did you want to have some 60 00:02:30,484 --> 00:02:33,286 Outlander -style field sex, Jamie? 61 00:02:33,286 --> 00:02:35,555 -Yes, absolutely. Um, okay, -(laughs) 62 00:02:35,555 --> 00:02:37,090 -but first, I need you to walk around, all right? -(regular accent): All right. 63 00:02:37,090 --> 00:02:39,593 So, s-start here and walk forward. 64 00:02:39,593 --> 00:02:41,928 Open your mind. What do you see? 65 00:02:41,928 --> 00:02:43,330 BRIT: Land. 66 00:02:43,330 --> 00:02:45,132 -Okay. -Trees. 67 00:02:45,132 --> 00:02:46,667 Sure. 68 00:02:46,667 --> 00:02:48,802 -Dead leaves. -Okay, keep going. 69 00:02:48,802 --> 00:02:50,804 Um... a fire hazard. 70 00:02:51,938 --> 00:02:53,407 Do you, um... 71 00:02:53,407 --> 00:02:56,443 -Do you see a house? -(chuckles) 72 00:02:56,443 --> 00:02:58,645 What, Joel, did you buy this? 'Cause, no, I don't see a house. 73 00:02:58,645 --> 00:02:59,913 -I bought it. -You bought it? 74 00:02:59,913 --> 00:03:02,349 I bought it, yeah. It was such a good deal. 75 00:03:02,349 --> 00:03:03,784 'Cause I was looking at houses online, 76 00:03:03,784 --> 00:03:05,485 but, you know-- expensive, so... 77 00:03:05,485 --> 00:03:07,521 Yeah, more expensive than places without houses. Um... 78 00:03:07,521 --> 00:03:09,022 Yeah, but then I heard about this lot 79 00:03:09,022 --> 00:03:11,992 and I remembered, "Um, oh, yeah, I build houses." 80 00:03:11,992 --> 00:03:13,694 So why not just build our house? 81 00:03:13,694 --> 00:03:17,698 Two-story, Cape Cod style, four bedrooms, two baths, 82 00:03:17,698 --> 00:03:19,566 -for the kids. -We don't have kids. 83 00:03:19,566 --> 00:03:21,435 Yeah, but I mean, we... 84 00:03:21,435 --> 00:03:22,669 -like, we talked about it. -Yeah. 85 00:03:22,669 --> 00:03:24,271 Like, we talked about building a house, 86 00:03:24,271 --> 00:03:26,573 but it was just conversation. 87 00:03:26,573 --> 00:03:28,341 I mean, I w-I want kids, but... 88 00:03:28,341 --> 00:03:30,177 years from now. 89 00:03:30,177 --> 00:03:31,511 Yeah, or we have them sooner. 90 00:03:31,511 --> 00:03:33,180 'Cause what-what's stopping us-- no space, right? 91 00:03:33,180 --> 00:03:34,614 Well, that and the fact that we don't know 92 00:03:34,614 --> 00:03:36,883 what our next five years looks like. I mean, what if... 93 00:03:36,883 --> 00:03:39,352 what if we want to leave Malden after my residency? 94 00:03:39,352 --> 00:03:41,354 What if I get that fellowship at UCLA? 95 00:03:44,024 --> 00:03:45,625 What fellowship at UCLA? 96 00:03:47,027 --> 00:03:48,929 I applied to a fellowship at UCLA. 97 00:03:48,929 --> 00:03:50,764 And you didn't tell me? 98 00:03:50,764 --> 00:03:52,466 Well, I was gonna tell you if I got in. 99 00:03:52,466 --> 00:03:55,702 I mean, you didn't tell me that you bought empty land. 100 00:03:55,702 --> 00:03:57,771 I-I thought you'd, like, cry with happiness. 101 00:03:57,771 --> 00:03:59,372 Like on Extreme Home Makeover, 102 00:03:59,372 --> 00:04:01,274 -when they move the bus. -When they move the bus 103 00:04:01,274 --> 00:04:03,643 there's a new house, not a field of... 104 00:04:03,643 --> 00:04:04,878 nothing. 105 00:04:04,878 --> 00:04:07,414 Can you use your imagination for a second? 106 00:04:07,414 --> 00:04:08,448 All right? Look. 107 00:04:08,448 --> 00:04:10,183 You know, open your mind. 108 00:04:10,183 --> 00:04:12,219 What do you see now? 109 00:04:17,858 --> 00:04:19,960 Where you going? 110 00:04:19,960 --> 00:04:23,530 I got a breakfast meeting. VCs are in town, 111 00:04:23,530 --> 00:04:25,732 they want to talk about a Series A funding round. 112 00:04:25,732 --> 00:04:27,367 No. 113 00:04:29,002 --> 00:04:32,372 What about my Series A funding round? 114 00:04:32,372 --> 00:04:33,874 -Nope. That didn't work. -No. 115 00:04:33,874 --> 00:04:35,542 -I'm tired. -Yeah, I know. 116 00:04:35,542 --> 00:04:36,810 (kissing) 117 00:04:37,844 --> 00:04:40,113 You can chill here if you want. You don't have to leave. 118 00:04:40,113 --> 00:04:41,982 Oh, okay, I'll stay in bed for another 119 00:04:41,982 --> 00:04:43,717 four hours, then rifle through your sock drawer. 120 00:04:43,717 --> 00:04:46,319 Oh, my God, if you find my passport, 121 00:04:46,319 --> 00:04:48,388 -please let me know. -(chuckles) Okay. 122 00:04:48,388 --> 00:04:49,689 Fine. 123 00:04:49,689 --> 00:04:51,591 But you're not skipping town without me. 124 00:04:51,591 --> 00:04:54,027 -Yeah. I'll give you plenty of warning. -Thank you. 125 00:04:58,932 --> 00:05:00,600 You okay? 126 00:05:00,600 --> 00:05:02,836 Yeah. No, I'm fine. 127 00:05:02,836 --> 00:05:06,173 I'm great. This was great. 128 00:05:06,173 --> 00:05:08,408 I'm just, uh, a little distracted with work. 129 00:05:09,576 --> 00:05:11,044 It was really fun. 130 00:05:11,044 --> 00:05:12,546 Yeah. 131 00:05:12,546 --> 00:05:14,381 Maybe... 132 00:05:14,381 --> 00:05:15,448 epic? 133 00:05:16,950 --> 00:05:18,451 I'm glad we waited. 134 00:05:18,451 --> 00:05:19,920 Me too. 135 00:05:19,920 --> 00:05:21,755 -Ugh, gross. I was joking. -Oh. 136 00:05:21,755 --> 00:05:23,023 Get out of here. 137 00:05:23,023 --> 00:05:24,491 I... 138 00:05:24,491 --> 00:05:25,792 SAMANTHA: Stupid dimples. 139 00:05:28,995 --> 00:05:31,164 Don't smile at me, just leave. 140 00:05:36,803 --> 00:05:39,206 Hey. Turns out you don't need as much cake 141 00:05:39,206 --> 00:05:40,974 when you're having tons of sex. 142 00:05:40,974 --> 00:05:42,976 CHILD: You're my best friend. 143 00:05:42,976 --> 00:05:44,778 What's that? 144 00:05:44,778 --> 00:05:47,080 This is a duck and a puppy who are best friends. 145 00:05:48,448 --> 00:05:50,851 -Okay. -Oh. Sorry. 146 00:05:50,851 --> 00:05:52,719 It's the estrogen. 147 00:05:52,719 --> 00:05:55,021 I'm on massive amounts of this stuff for IVF. 148 00:05:55,021 --> 00:05:57,023 Well, they should warn you that earnestness 149 00:05:57,023 --> 00:05:59,259 -is a serious side effect. -Yeah. They should. 150 00:05:59,259 --> 00:06:02,729 I would have loved to know that before I cried on air today. 151 00:06:02,729 --> 00:06:05,732 Believe me, I do not care about overcrowding at fish farms. 152 00:06:05,732 --> 00:06:07,400 (scoffs) 153 00:06:07,400 --> 00:06:09,269 Although those fish are really... 154 00:06:09,269 --> 00:06:11,404 -they're really jammed in there. -Okay, 155 00:06:11,404 --> 00:06:14,574 I-I thought Stephanie was the one doing the hormones. 156 00:06:14,574 --> 00:06:16,910 Yeah, she did the egg retrieval. 157 00:06:16,910 --> 00:06:20,247 But I'm up next. Her eggs, my womb. 158 00:06:20,247 --> 00:06:22,215 Wait. (laughs) 159 00:06:22,215 --> 00:06:23,783 Olivia, you're gonna have another baby? 160 00:06:23,783 --> 00:06:25,952 Oh, my God. Well, I mean, obviously, 161 00:06:25,952 --> 00:06:27,821 I count myself as your first. 162 00:06:27,821 --> 00:06:30,824 I'm way too young to be your mother. Never say that again. 163 00:06:30,824 --> 00:06:32,192 Okay. 164 00:06:32,192 --> 00:06:34,294 Okay, this is my favorite part. 165 00:06:34,294 --> 00:06:36,096 You're a year sober. We get to talk about 166 00:06:36,096 --> 00:06:38,431 how far you've come, how fun the party was 167 00:06:38,431 --> 00:06:40,267 -(laughs) -and why Carol wasn't there. 168 00:06:40,267 --> 00:06:42,435 Oh, I didn't invite her. 169 00:06:42,435 --> 00:06:43,937 Okay. 170 00:06:43,937 --> 00:06:46,239 Come on, she doesn't get any of this stuff. 171 00:06:46,239 --> 00:06:48,541 She's always saying it reminds her of Wild Wild Country. 172 00:06:48,541 --> 00:06:50,210 Maybe she doesn't understand it 173 00:06:50,210 --> 00:06:51,645 because you haven't made her a part of it yet. 174 00:06:53,079 --> 00:06:54,614 Have you written your amends to her? 175 00:06:54,614 --> 00:06:55,715 I did a draft. 176 00:06:55,715 --> 00:06:57,083 It doesn't have to be perfect. 177 00:06:57,083 --> 00:06:59,185 Just list all of the ways in which 178 00:06:59,185 --> 00:07:00,720 you've done her harm and synthesize it 179 00:07:00,720 --> 00:07:02,522 into a nice, bite-sized piece that she can swallow. 180 00:07:02,522 --> 00:07:05,292 Right, totally. I'll just, um... 181 00:07:05,292 --> 00:07:09,229 fit 13 years of being a total asshole into 30 minutes. 182 00:07:09,229 --> 00:07:10,797 -Talk fast. -(short chuckle) 183 00:07:15,568 --> 00:07:17,003 Hi. 184 00:07:17,003 --> 00:07:18,138 Hey. 185 00:07:18,138 --> 00:07:20,640 Do you have a few minutes to talk, Mom? 186 00:07:21,675 --> 00:07:23,176 Sure. 187 00:07:27,213 --> 00:07:28,548 What is it? 188 00:07:28,548 --> 00:07:30,550 I, um... 189 00:07:32,552 --> 00:07:35,722 Sorry, this feels weird. Uh... 190 00:07:35,722 --> 00:07:37,390 You seem tense. 191 00:07:37,390 --> 00:07:39,592 -(exhales) -So, 192 00:07:39,592 --> 00:07:42,295 this is feeling like it's turning into a thing, 193 00:07:42,295 --> 00:07:45,231 and I'm not emotionally prepared for a thing right now. 194 00:07:45,231 --> 00:07:47,033 -Right. -I'm in the grading zone, so 195 00:07:47,033 --> 00:07:49,202 why don't we schedule it? 196 00:07:49,202 --> 00:07:52,939 You want to... schedule a time to talk? 197 00:07:52,939 --> 00:07:54,841 Let's go for a drive this afternoon. 198 00:07:54,841 --> 00:07:56,276 Yeah, all right. 199 00:07:56,276 --> 00:07:59,412 I do like when we both stare straight ahead, so... 200 00:08:00,714 --> 00:08:03,616 All right, we're gonna buzz the sides. And then, 201 00:08:03,616 --> 00:08:05,518 -you know, we can do j... -(knocking) -Hey. 202 00:08:05,518 --> 00:08:07,087 Oh. 203 00:08:07,087 --> 00:08:08,755 Hey. 204 00:08:08,755 --> 00:08:10,557 Did you come here on purpose? 205 00:08:10,557 --> 00:08:14,327 Yeah. Oh, h... hey, girl. 206 00:08:14,327 --> 00:08:17,063 -Hi. Hi. (laughs) -Hey. 207 00:08:17,063 --> 00:08:19,232 I came here to talk to you. 208 00:08:19,232 --> 00:08:21,301 -Why? Is Sam okay? -Yeah. 209 00:08:21,301 --> 00:08:22,769 Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. No, she's-she's awesome. 210 00:08:22,769 --> 00:08:26,339 I mean... Wow, this is great. You are... 211 00:08:26,339 --> 00:08:28,341 -Wow, you look so great... -Okay, cut the crap. 212 00:08:28,341 --> 00:08:29,709 What is really going on? 213 00:08:29,709 --> 00:08:32,846 Okay, so, I don't really know how to say this, but, um... 214 00:08:32,846 --> 00:08:36,016 do you know anyone or any place, um... 215 00:08:36,016 --> 00:08:37,684 (chuckles) 216 00:08:37,684 --> 00:08:40,420 (whispering): Do you know where I can get some... drugs? 217 00:08:40,420 --> 00:08:41,554 -Drugs?! -Shh! Shh, shh, shh. 218 00:08:41,554 --> 00:08:43,023 (chuckles) Wow. 219 00:08:43,023 --> 00:08:45,225 Little Miss Perfect asking me for drugs-- 220 00:08:45,225 --> 00:08:47,694 never thought I'd see the day. Aren't you getting married, 221 00:08:47,694 --> 00:08:49,863 -like, any day now? -Yes. 222 00:08:49,863 --> 00:08:52,632 I am. Uh, thank you for remembering. 223 00:08:52,632 --> 00:08:54,334 You know, that's actually, um... 224 00:08:54,334 --> 00:08:56,536 that's actually why I want the drugs. You know? 225 00:08:56,536 --> 00:08:58,238 I just... I read a million studies about it, 226 00:08:58,238 --> 00:09:00,974 and-and it just... it helps people get some... 227 00:09:00,974 --> 00:09:03,910 clarity on some stuff. 228 00:09:03,910 --> 00:09:05,478 Well, not, like, a million studies-- 229 00:09:05,478 --> 00:09:06,780 it's not, like, in the med books or anything, 230 00:09:06,780 --> 00:09:08,114 it's just, you know, I... Reddit. 231 00:09:08,114 --> 00:09:10,784 Reddit's really reliable these days, I mean, right? 232 00:09:10,784 --> 00:09:13,686 Um... can you help me or not? 233 00:09:13,686 --> 00:09:15,155 Why would I help you? 234 00:09:16,189 --> 00:09:18,591 I don't know. Uh... 235 00:09:18,591 --> 00:09:19,926 I thought you might know somebody. 236 00:09:19,926 --> 00:09:21,995 You know? I-I remember that-that party 237 00:09:21,995 --> 00:09:23,430 in high school-- you know, Darius' party-- 238 00:09:23,430 --> 00:09:26,199 -You-You had... weed. -Oh, so you thought 239 00:09:26,199 --> 00:09:28,101 because I had weed at a party in high school 240 00:09:28,101 --> 00:09:30,570 I now know a bunch of drug dealers and shamans? 241 00:09:31,771 --> 00:09:34,774 -Y-Yes, I did. I did. -Wow. 242 00:09:34,774 --> 00:09:37,177 I'm a mother and a volunteer member of the PTA. 243 00:09:37,177 --> 00:09:39,779 I own a condo, I have condo fees, 244 00:09:39,779 --> 00:09:42,482 that I pay on time. I even recycle, 245 00:09:42,482 --> 00:09:44,184 I separate the bottles by color, 246 00:09:44,184 --> 00:09:46,086 just like the state of Massachusetts requires. 247 00:09:46,086 --> 00:09:48,922 Okay, I know. Wow, that's really responsible of you. 248 00:09:48,922 --> 00:09:50,323 -Thank you. -I know. I know 249 00:09:50,323 --> 00:09:52,058 you're not that person, my God. I... 250 00:09:52,058 --> 00:09:54,060 I know that. It's just... 251 00:09:55,095 --> 00:09:57,163 Okay. 252 00:09:57,163 --> 00:09:59,499 -I'm sorry. I'm gonna... -Oh, my God. 253 00:09:59,499 --> 00:10:01,334 Yes, of course I have a drug dealer, dummy. 254 00:10:01,334 --> 00:10:03,336 And it is the same one from high school. 255 00:10:03,336 --> 00:10:05,605 They give me a discount if I bring a new customer, so... 256 00:10:05,605 --> 00:10:06,973 let's ride 'em, cowgirl. 257 00:10:08,475 --> 00:10:10,477 -♪ ♪ -(indistinct chatter) 258 00:10:17,050 --> 00:10:18,084 RONNIE: What you having? 259 00:10:18,084 --> 00:10:21,020 Uh, do you have any IPAs? 260 00:10:21,020 --> 00:10:22,655 I got you. 261 00:10:25,024 --> 00:10:26,860 Crap. 262 00:10:26,860 --> 00:10:30,363 (quietly): IPA's the dark one? I always forget. 263 00:10:30,363 --> 00:10:33,199 Uh... (clears throat) could I change that to... 264 00:10:33,199 --> 00:10:34,667 It's... That's actually perf... 265 00:10:34,667 --> 00:10:36,870 it's perfect. This is fine. Thank you so much. 266 00:10:36,870 --> 00:10:39,606 -You want to start a tab? -Uh, yeah. 267 00:10:40,773 --> 00:10:42,375 Thanks. 268 00:10:43,610 --> 00:10:45,612 Oh, sorry. Think I'm on your jacket. 269 00:10:52,152 --> 00:10:53,653 Bitter. 270 00:10:55,321 --> 00:10:57,323 So, what happens when he gets here? 271 00:10:57,323 --> 00:10:59,626 You know, How do-how does he know it's us? 272 00:10:59,626 --> 00:11:01,327 Again: known him since high school. 273 00:11:01,327 --> 00:11:03,563 Also, he is a she. 274 00:11:03,563 --> 00:11:06,332 Thought you were a feminist. Women can be drug dealers, too. 275 00:11:06,332 --> 00:11:07,967 No, of course they can. Right. 276 00:11:07,967 --> 00:11:09,969 Oh, there she is! 277 00:11:09,969 --> 00:11:11,437 You ready, Goody Two-Shoes? 278 00:11:16,176 --> 00:11:18,845 -Val. -(chuckles): Hey. 279 00:11:20,146 --> 00:11:22,782 Hey. Wow. 280 00:11:22,782 --> 00:11:24,484 Look at you cute girls. 281 00:11:24,484 --> 00:11:26,819 This is my friend Brit, she's interested in purchasing 282 00:11:26,819 --> 00:11:28,721 -some merchandise from you. -Hi. 283 00:11:28,721 --> 00:11:32,125 I'm Brit. I'm so, so very excited for the merchandising. 284 00:11:32,125 --> 00:11:34,460 Okay. Well... 285 00:11:34,460 --> 00:11:37,864 uh, what are you in the mood for? We have got... 286 00:11:37,864 --> 00:11:39,332 Katy, Kat, 287 00:11:39,332 --> 00:11:41,868 uh, Miss Emma, Lucy, Molly, 288 00:11:41,868 --> 00:11:43,403 -Captain Cody. -Mm-hmm. 289 00:11:43,403 --> 00:11:46,072 Uh, Sad Vince, Little Diane. 290 00:11:46,072 --> 00:11:48,708 Although go easy on that, because... (vocalizes) 291 00:11:48,708 --> 00:11:50,710 Well, I'm just looking for something 292 00:11:50,710 --> 00:11:53,746 that's plant-based, organic, 293 00:11:53,746 --> 00:11:56,416 locally-sourced, if possible. 294 00:11:56,416 --> 00:11:58,718 What, like... lettuce? 295 00:11:58,718 --> 00:12:00,587 -She's looking for hallucinogens. -Oh. 296 00:12:02,488 --> 00:12:04,290 -(Felicia and Val chuckle) -Let me just ask you-- 297 00:12:04,290 --> 00:12:06,426 these-these aren't laced, right? 'Cause I just 298 00:12:06,426 --> 00:12:08,595 don't want to end up passed out, drooling 299 00:12:08,595 --> 00:12:09,996 or jump off a bridge 300 00:12:09,996 --> 00:12:12,065 'cause I think I'm riding a unicorn, you know? 301 00:12:12,065 --> 00:12:15,268 Like the stuff that kills teens on 60 Minutes. It's... 302 00:12:15,268 --> 00:12:16,936 So, to be clear, your question is 303 00:12:16,936 --> 00:12:19,739 are the drugs laced with drugs? 304 00:12:19,739 --> 00:12:21,207 Why would I do that? 305 00:12:21,207 --> 00:12:22,875 It would just cost me more money. 306 00:12:22,875 --> 00:12:24,544 -I heard it. -How much do we owe you? 307 00:12:24,544 --> 00:12:25,912 $50. Venmo. 308 00:12:25,912 --> 00:12:28,581 Hit it up. It's, uh, #PotteryVal. 309 00:12:28,581 --> 00:12:30,917 I also sell ceramics on Etsy. 310 00:12:30,917 --> 00:12:32,819 -It's my passion. -FELICIA: She's great. 311 00:12:32,819 --> 00:12:34,587 But drugs is where the money is. 312 00:12:34,587 --> 00:12:36,856 -Mm. -Here you go. 313 00:12:36,856 --> 00:12:40,026 Right. (exhales) Um... 314 00:12:40,026 --> 00:12:41,961 I've just never done anything like this before. 315 00:12:41,961 --> 00:12:43,730 Oh, no, it's gonna be just fine. 316 00:12:43,730 --> 00:12:46,366 You do have a sober person monitoring you, right? 317 00:12:46,366 --> 00:12:48,968 I don't want you to freak the hell out. (chuckles) 318 00:12:48,968 --> 00:12:50,436 ♪ ♪ 319 00:12:50,436 --> 00:12:52,672 Don't look at me. I can't wait to freak the hell out. 320 00:12:52,672 --> 00:12:55,141 -(laughs) -That's right. 321 00:12:55,141 --> 00:12:57,610 What's even worse is she doesn't yell, 322 00:12:57,610 --> 00:12:59,479 she just gets disappointed. 323 00:12:59,479 --> 00:13:01,614 What am I even supposed to do with that, you know? 324 00:13:05,652 --> 00:13:08,288 You're kidding me. I ordered another IPA? 325 00:13:08,288 --> 00:13:10,123 -You did. -Damn it. I... 326 00:13:10,123 --> 00:13:12,191 I wanted a lager. Uh... 327 00:13:12,191 --> 00:13:14,360 All right, will you-will you just remember that for next time? 328 00:13:14,360 --> 00:13:15,528 RONNIE (laughs): Yeah. 329 00:13:18,031 --> 00:13:19,098 Do you want this? 330 00:13:20,133 --> 00:13:22,535 Yeah. Sure, dude, I'll drink anything. 331 00:13:22,535 --> 00:13:23,903 Cool. 332 00:13:23,903 --> 00:13:25,905 ♪ ♪ 333 00:13:29,776 --> 00:13:31,911 -That's efficient. -Mm. 334 00:13:42,588 --> 00:13:44,590 So, Mom, I... I just... 335 00:13:44,590 --> 00:13:48,127 I really don't want to put this off anymore, so, I... 336 00:13:48,127 --> 00:13:49,796 -I've been trying to... -Honey, I want to hear what you have to say, 337 00:13:49,796 --> 00:13:51,130 but I'm getting something. 338 00:13:55,468 --> 00:13:57,603 Okay. You brought Dad? 339 00:13:57,603 --> 00:14:00,306 I knew if I told you we were sprinkling his ashes 340 00:14:00,306 --> 00:14:01,374 you wouldn't come. 341 00:14:01,374 --> 00:14:02,909 Correct. 342 00:14:02,909 --> 00:14:06,212 Mom, there's, like, laws against this. 343 00:14:06,212 --> 00:14:07,647 You need, like, a permit, 344 00:14:07,647 --> 00:14:09,248 and you have to ask way in advance... 345 00:14:09,248 --> 00:14:11,284 ♪ ♪ 346 00:14:12,585 --> 00:14:15,088 (both sigh) 347 00:14:15,088 --> 00:14:18,024 -Okay. Let's do it. -Wait, wait, wait, 348 00:14:18,024 --> 00:14:20,093 Mom. Hold on a second, it's... 349 00:14:20,093 --> 00:14:22,095 it's not toxic waste, it's Dad, okay? 350 00:14:22,095 --> 00:14:24,163 If we're actually gonna do this we should, like, 351 00:14:24,163 --> 00:14:25,531 at least say something first, right? 352 00:14:26,699 --> 00:14:28,334 -Say something. -Okay. 353 00:14:29,502 --> 00:14:32,138 Dad... 354 00:14:32,138 --> 00:14:33,406 you were my best friend. 355 00:14:33,406 --> 00:14:34,841 -And... -And you were my best friend. 356 00:14:34,841 --> 00:14:37,977 You were our best friend. 357 00:14:37,977 --> 00:14:40,980 And you, uh, you loved this place, 358 00:14:40,980 --> 00:14:43,483 you loved Motown, um... 359 00:14:43,483 --> 00:14:46,386 you taught me how to play piano. 360 00:14:46,386 --> 00:14:49,088 You told me not to play the cello 'cause I was bad at it. 361 00:14:49,088 --> 00:14:50,890 And, um... 362 00:14:52,091 --> 00:14:54,594 You know, you knew me better than anybody. 363 00:14:54,594 --> 00:14:56,963 You definitely knew I was an alcoholic before I did. 364 00:14:58,965 --> 00:15:02,335 I'm sorry for a lot of stuff and I miss you a lot. 365 00:15:03,469 --> 00:15:05,004 And I miss you, too. 366 00:15:05,004 --> 00:15:07,507 -We miss you. -We miss you. Okay. 367 00:15:09,942 --> 00:15:11,844 Oh, just going right in for it, huh? 368 00:15:12,879 --> 00:15:14,147 -Goodbye, darling. -Oh. 369 00:15:14,147 --> 00:15:16,783 -Oh! Oh... -Go. Go. 370 00:15:16,783 --> 00:15:18,951 Throw it in. In the water. 371 00:15:18,951 --> 00:15:20,787 -Bye, Dad. -Throw it in. 372 00:15:20,787 --> 00:15:22,989 -Uh, it's in. Oh, God. -Bye, dear. 373 00:15:22,989 --> 00:15:24,791 Oh, my God, this is a lot. 374 00:15:24,791 --> 00:15:26,993 -Is it always this much? -He was very tall. 375 00:15:26,993 --> 00:15:28,361 -No, he wasn't. -He was. 376 00:15:28,361 --> 00:15:29,395 CAROL: All right, that's enough. 377 00:15:29,395 --> 00:15:31,798 Let's go. Goodbye. Just say goodbye. 378 00:15:31,798 --> 00:15:33,199 -Goodbye, Dad. -Goodbye. 379 00:15:33,199 --> 00:15:34,700 SAMANTHA: How is it so much? 380 00:15:36,936 --> 00:15:38,938 You know, I'm sure Dad 381 00:15:38,938 --> 00:15:41,340 is very proud of you. 382 00:15:41,340 --> 00:15:42,942 Thanks. 383 00:15:42,942 --> 00:15:45,545 Okay, Mom, I really do need to tell you something. 384 00:15:45,545 --> 00:15:47,613 Well, some things. 385 00:15:48,648 --> 00:15:50,216 I'm sorry that I didn't show up for Thanksgiving 386 00:15:50,216 --> 00:15:53,119 after Dad died. And I'm sorry 387 00:15:53,119 --> 00:15:56,022 -that I made such a scene at his shiva, and I... -No. 388 00:15:56,022 --> 00:15:57,290 His family deserved that. 389 00:15:57,290 --> 00:15:59,959 Though you were a little dramatic, even for you. 390 00:15:59,959 --> 00:16:02,495 Okay, can you, um, can you not let me off the hook, 391 00:16:02,495 --> 00:16:04,764 'cause part of the whole thing is taking responsibility. 392 00:16:04,764 --> 00:16:06,833 -Right. Sorry. Go ahead. -Okay. 393 00:16:06,833 --> 00:16:09,469 Um, I'm sorry that I used his diagnosis 394 00:16:09,469 --> 00:16:10,636 as an excuse to drink more. 395 00:16:10,636 --> 00:16:14,073 I-I put him on a pedestal, you know? I... 396 00:16:14,073 --> 00:16:16,442 made him the higher parent and you the evil witch. 397 00:16:16,442 --> 00:16:19,078 I even tried to blame you for him getting sick, 398 00:16:19,078 --> 00:16:21,280 -which is completely unfair. -Okay, no. 399 00:16:21,280 --> 00:16:23,816 Mm. Time for me to come clean. 400 00:16:23,816 --> 00:16:25,251 Uh... 401 00:16:25,251 --> 00:16:27,820 I know there were years of your life 402 00:16:27,820 --> 00:16:29,522 when I wasn't present. 403 00:16:29,522 --> 00:16:33,092 There are years that are just foggy. 404 00:16:33,092 --> 00:16:36,796 I know I said and did things that I... 405 00:16:36,796 --> 00:16:40,433 honestly can't... remember. 406 00:16:40,433 --> 00:16:43,469 But, knowing me, I'm sure they weren't great. 407 00:16:43,469 --> 00:16:45,571 Okay, are you apologizing to me? 408 00:16:45,571 --> 00:16:47,273 I'm taking some blame. 409 00:16:47,273 --> 00:16:49,775 No, no, no, but it's my blame, like, I... 410 00:16:49,775 --> 00:16:52,345 -I have to take the blame. This is my moment. -Okay. 411 00:16:52,345 --> 00:16:55,781 You have some, I get some. Don't be a blame hog. 412 00:16:58,084 --> 00:17:01,120 And I'm so grateful 413 00:17:01,120 --> 00:17:02,455 for this Samantha. 414 00:17:02,455 --> 00:17:03,623 (exhales) 415 00:17:03,623 --> 00:17:04,724 I just want to... 416 00:17:04,724 --> 00:17:06,492 freeze her in time and hold on to her 417 00:17:06,492 --> 00:17:08,928 for as long as I can. 418 00:17:08,928 --> 00:17:10,663 Thanks. 419 00:17:12,598 --> 00:17:15,301 And, while we're getting things off our chest... 420 00:17:15,301 --> 00:17:16,769 Bob's moving in. 421 00:17:16,769 --> 00:17:18,037 Wow. 422 00:17:18,037 --> 00:17:20,740 But you can stay if you like. 423 00:17:20,740 --> 00:17:22,942 You always have a room. 424 00:17:22,942 --> 00:17:25,945 I would like it if you stayed. 425 00:17:25,945 --> 00:17:27,413 Thank you. 426 00:17:27,413 --> 00:17:29,682 But it's time, right? 427 00:17:29,682 --> 00:17:31,350 I got to get my own place. 428 00:17:31,350 --> 00:17:33,386 -Yeah, okay. -Yeah. 429 00:17:34,887 --> 00:17:37,056 'Cause you're finally having sex. 430 00:17:38,824 --> 00:17:41,093 -How do you know that? -(scoffs) Small town. 431 00:17:42,929 --> 00:17:45,331 Hey, when are we gonna start to feel something? 432 00:17:45,331 --> 00:17:47,600 Oh, you are already flying, baby. 433 00:17:48,868 --> 00:17:50,236 Yeah, I am. 434 00:17:50,236 --> 00:17:52,605 -Thank you so much for this. -Mm. 435 00:17:52,605 --> 00:17:54,473 Oh, my God. 436 00:17:54,473 --> 00:17:57,310 You look like an outline on a green screen, but, like, 437 00:17:57,310 --> 00:17:58,644 you have your normal background. 438 00:17:58,644 --> 00:18:01,380 Oh, my God. Totally. 439 00:18:01,380 --> 00:18:02,582 VAL: I am. 440 00:18:02,582 --> 00:18:04,650 BRIT: No, no. 441 00:18:04,650 --> 00:18:07,520 -It's just the drugs. -WOMAN (in distance): Kids, let's go! 442 00:18:07,520 --> 00:18:10,423 If you guys can't accept that hallucinations 443 00:18:10,423 --> 00:18:12,725 are the actual reality 444 00:18:12,725 --> 00:18:15,962 and our daily lives are the hallucination, 445 00:18:15,962 --> 00:18:17,463 I might take off. 446 00:18:17,463 --> 00:18:18,698 Oh, my God, you're right. 447 00:18:18,698 --> 00:18:21,233 Hey, Val, is this going okay? 448 00:18:21,233 --> 00:18:22,702 Oh, yeah. 449 00:18:22,702 --> 00:18:24,537 Oh, this shit is good. 450 00:18:24,537 --> 00:18:25,871 BRIT: What? 451 00:18:28,240 --> 00:18:30,876 Okay, thank you... thank you. Thank you for that. 452 00:18:32,578 --> 00:18:35,147 God, why am I such a grade grubber even on psychedelics? 453 00:18:35,147 --> 00:18:36,849 You know, it's like-it's like... 454 00:18:36,849 --> 00:18:40,586 it's like, it's in me, you know? Like, I just, I can't... 455 00:18:40,586 --> 00:18:43,222 not do well, it's like a serpent. 456 00:18:43,222 --> 00:18:45,758 You need to try screwing up. 457 00:18:45,758 --> 00:18:47,193 No, Joel's always telling me to relax. 458 00:18:47,193 --> 00:18:49,862 Oh, no. I can't believe he told a woman to relax. 459 00:18:49,862 --> 00:18:51,364 Such a boner killer. 460 00:18:51,364 --> 00:18:53,966 Oh, my God, Felicia, you're so awesome. 461 00:18:53,966 --> 00:18:56,068 Should I get married? 462 00:18:56,068 --> 00:18:58,371 I don't know. Do you want to? 463 00:19:00,039 --> 00:19:02,108 I don't know. 464 00:19:02,108 --> 00:19:04,377 Val, should I get married? 465 00:19:04,377 --> 00:19:06,979 I'm gonna say no. 466 00:19:07,980 --> 00:19:08,981 Really? 467 00:19:10,016 --> 00:19:12,885 I don't know. I am tripping balls, man. 468 00:19:12,885 --> 00:19:14,887 ♪ ♪ 469 00:19:18,090 --> 00:19:21,260 I mean, I-if I wait for her to make a decision, 470 00:19:21,260 --> 00:19:23,262 I will die waiting. 471 00:19:23,262 --> 00:19:25,264 You guys love each other, right? 472 00:19:26,465 --> 00:19:29,035 Yeah, I mean, it's the most in love I've ever been in my life. 473 00:19:29,035 --> 00:19:32,371 Right. Personally... 474 00:19:32,371 --> 00:19:35,341 I kind of freak out when things are going too well. 475 00:19:38,210 --> 00:19:40,112 To our champagne problems. 476 00:19:40,112 --> 00:19:42,214 And our problems with champagne. 477 00:19:42,214 --> 00:19:44,650 (chuckles) Nice. That's funny. 478 00:19:44,650 --> 00:19:46,686 I'm pretty funny. 479 00:19:51,490 --> 00:19:53,859 -Can I go to the bathroom? -No, no. 480 00:19:53,859 --> 00:19:56,028 Can I go up there? 481 00:19:56,028 --> 00:19:57,963 Yeah. 482 00:19:57,963 --> 00:20:00,266 (indistinct chatter) 483 00:20:00,266 --> 00:20:03,035 ("Get Down" by Still Woozy playing) 484 00:20:03,035 --> 00:20:06,739 ♪ She's gonna break me ♪ 485 00:20:06,739 --> 00:20:09,008 ♪ But I don't give a damn right now ♪ 486 00:20:09,008 --> 00:20:12,111 ♪ She wanna get down, I wanna to get down ♪ 487 00:20:12,111 --> 00:20:14,447 ♪ We're gonna get down, so ♪ 488 00:20:14,447 --> 00:20:15,881 ♪ She's gonna take me... ♪ 489 00:20:15,881 --> 00:20:17,616 VAL: There was this caterpillar, 490 00:20:17,616 --> 00:20:19,919 and he asked me if I had any snacks. 491 00:20:19,919 --> 00:20:21,887 He ate them, and then 492 00:20:21,887 --> 00:20:23,622 guess what he became? -FELICIA: What? 493 00:20:23,622 --> 00:20:25,591 He became a butterfly. 494 00:20:25,591 --> 00:20:27,159 -Oh. -And guess what it did? 495 00:20:27,159 --> 00:20:29,462 -What? -It bit me. 496 00:20:29,462 --> 00:20:31,864 -No! -Oh, my God, that's so mean. -Yeah, it bit me. 497 00:20:31,864 --> 00:20:34,200 -That's so mean. -It sucked the venom out of me. 498 00:20:34,200 --> 00:20:35,568 -Val. -Yeah. 499 00:20:35,568 --> 00:20:39,271 -Oh, ooh! -I am so happy to be naked right now. 500 00:20:39,271 --> 00:20:41,373 -(speaking Haitian Creole) -Really feels 501 00:20:41,373 --> 00:20:42,508 so liberating. 502 00:20:42,508 --> 00:20:43,676 FELICIA: I really wish I was naked. 503 00:20:43,676 --> 00:20:45,377 VAL: Oh, you guys, 504 00:20:45,377 --> 00:20:48,013 I think we should do this again tomorrow. 505 00:20:48,013 --> 00:20:49,715 FELICIA: That's a terrible idea. 506 00:20:49,715 --> 00:20:51,717 Captioned by Media Access Group at WGBH access.wgbh.org