1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:04,963 --> 00:00:07,590 [somber music] 3 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 4 00:00:13,054 --> 00:00:15,015 [ambulance siren wailing] 5 00:00:15,056 --> 00:00:16,433 - [REPORTER 1] Queens in New York 6 00:00:16,474 --> 00:00:18,393 is the worst infected district in what is now 7 00:00:18,435 --> 00:00:20,395 the world's worst infected city. 8 00:00:20,437 --> 00:00:21,479 - [REPORTER 2] And among the hardest hit: 9 00:00:21,521 --> 00:00:22,856 the hospitality industry. 10 00:00:22,897 --> 00:00:24,482 We're talking about restaurants, bars, 11 00:00:24,524 --> 00:00:26,693 forced to shut down except for takeout. 12 00:00:26,735 --> 00:00:27,277 - [REPORTER 3] That means tens, 13 00:00:27,277 --> 00:00:29,112 if not hundreds of thousands of people 14 00:00:29,154 --> 00:00:31,573 in the city will soon be out of work. 15 00:00:31,614 --> 00:00:35,785 - [CUOMO] This is a moment that is gonna change this nation. 16 00:00:35,827 --> 00:00:39,706 This is a moment that forges character, 17 00:00:41,166 --> 00:00:44,002 forges people, 18 00:00:44,044 --> 00:00:45,545 changes people. 19 00:00:47,213 --> 00:00:50,133 [subway rumbling] 20 00:00:50,175 --> 00:00:54,179 - [JENA] What does it take to destroy a staple, you know? 21 00:00:54,220 --> 00:00:56,097 What's gonna happen to all, all of the restaurants 22 00:00:56,139 --> 00:00:57,348 that had to lay everybody off? 23 00:00:57,390 --> 00:00:59,434 Are we gonna be able to come back? 24 00:00:59,476 --> 00:01:01,853 Are we just gonna walk by that spot on the corner 25 00:01:01,895 --> 00:01:04,981 and feel like there's a hole in our neighborhood? 26 00:01:05,023 --> 00:01:07,484 A place that brought so many of us together... 27 00:01:07,525 --> 00:01:09,694 I grew up in that fuckin' bar. 28 00:01:13,948 --> 00:01:15,909 It sounds silly to say it, 29 00:01:17,452 --> 00:01:18,870 but I grew up in that fuckin' bar. 30 00:01:18,912 --> 00:01:20,663 I've worked there for 10 years. 31 00:01:20,705 --> 00:01:22,082 It's not even just a place to get a drink. 32 00:01:22,123 --> 00:01:25,293 It's a place to like, sit down and talk 33 00:01:25,335 --> 00:01:25,960 and have friends 34 00:01:26,002 --> 00:01:30,131 and an ear and a community and an artistic space. 35 00:01:30,173 --> 00:01:32,300 And how many of us, like our lives are changed 36 00:01:32,342 --> 00:01:35,887 'cause we just walked into that dark room? 37 00:01:44,979 --> 00:01:45,855 - To zero? 38 00:01:46,731 --> 00:01:48,566 If we don't freeze the rent 39 00:01:48,608 --> 00:01:52,278 and if my bills remain the same, 40 00:01:53,822 --> 00:01:56,032 I maybe have three months. 41 00:01:57,700 --> 00:02:01,287 [ethereal music] 42 00:02:11,005 --> 00:02:13,133 [soft electronic music] 43 00:02:24,227 --> 00:02:27,605 [indistinct chattering] 44 00:02:42,579 --> 00:02:44,706 - [GAIL] This is important. 45 00:02:44,747 --> 00:02:46,624 People should be documenting it. 46 00:02:46,666 --> 00:02:49,586 It's certainly one of the more seminal events 47 00:02:49,627 --> 00:02:51,671 of our lifetime. 48 00:03:01,222 --> 00:03:03,600 - [JENA] I wound up deciding to move to New York, 49 00:03:03,641 --> 00:03:05,185 to go to The New School. 50 00:03:05,226 --> 00:03:07,353 I went to Eugene Lang 51 00:03:07,395 --> 00:03:11,566 and I majored in performance and creative writing. 52 00:03:11,608 --> 00:03:13,443 I was burning through all the money I saved. 53 00:03:13,484 --> 00:03:16,279 I sold my car to move here and like, 54 00:03:16,321 --> 00:03:16,946 uh, wasn't really thinking about it. 55 00:03:16,988 --> 00:03:20,992 I was in New York and it's easy to spend money. 56 00:03:21,034 --> 00:03:22,827 I realized I needed a job. 57 00:03:22,869 --> 00:03:25,038 I think my bank account hit 20 bucks. 58 00:03:25,079 --> 00:03:26,664 I was like, "Oh, shit... 59 00:03:26,706 --> 00:03:27,874 I guess I better get a job." 60 00:03:30,919 --> 00:03:33,880 - [NICCI] I had bartended prior to living in Queens, 61 00:03:33,922 --> 00:03:37,050 and one of the older regulars had told me, 62 00:03:37,091 --> 00:03:39,636 "I've never met a nicer person than in Queens. 63 00:03:39,677 --> 00:03:42,222 You should be happy to be moving there. 64 00:03:42,263 --> 00:03:44,182 You'll see what I mean when you get there." 65 00:03:44,224 --> 00:03:46,517 And I have not left for 16 years 66 00:03:46,559 --> 00:03:48,728 because of exactly that statement. 67 00:03:48,770 --> 00:03:52,106 - [MIKE] Queens, Astoria specifically is where I've lived 68 00:03:52,148 --> 00:03:55,026 since about 2001. 69 00:03:55,568 --> 00:03:57,987 It's one of the places I've been in New York 70 00:03:58,029 --> 00:04:01,115 that feels mostly like a neighborhood, 71 00:04:01,157 --> 00:04:02,867 mostly like a community. 72 00:04:02,909 --> 00:04:06,496 I don't think I've made as many special bonds 73 00:04:06,537 --> 00:04:09,749 and friendships outside of high school. 74 00:04:09,791 --> 00:04:13,419 Astoria is not even a mile from the city. 75 00:04:13,461 --> 00:04:14,879 You can get on the train 76 00:04:14,921 --> 00:04:17,340 and it takes 20 minutes to get to Times Square. 77 00:04:17,382 --> 00:04:20,301 But when you get in that hustle and bustle of big city life, 78 00:04:20,343 --> 00:04:22,011 you come to Astoria, 79 00:04:22,053 --> 00:04:26,516 this is still a place where you can meet your neighbors 80 00:04:26,557 --> 00:04:29,644 and go next door and ask for a cup of sugar kind of place, 81 00:04:29,686 --> 00:04:31,104 where I didn't feel that living 82 00:04:31,145 --> 00:04:33,231 in other neighborhoods in New York. 83 00:04:33,273 --> 00:04:36,859 - [MOLLY] The borough is so diverse, neighborhoods 84 00:04:36,901 --> 00:04:39,445 at points seem to change by blocks. 85 00:04:39,487 --> 00:04:42,490 Our part of Astoria is known for being Greek. 86 00:04:42,532 --> 00:04:46,119 It still has a huge Greek population. 87 00:04:46,160 --> 00:04:48,162 On Steinway, there's several blocks 88 00:04:48,204 --> 00:04:51,624 of Middle Eastern, Egyptian... 89 00:04:51,666 --> 00:04:54,002 I can just hop on a train, go to Jackson Heights, 90 00:04:54,043 --> 00:04:56,045 get some really good Nepalese food 91 00:04:56,087 --> 00:04:58,923 and then just hop back on the train and go all the way out 92 00:04:58,965 --> 00:05:02,593 to Flushing and get really good Chinese food or Asian food. 93 00:05:02,635 --> 00:05:04,053 We're pretty lucky. 94 00:05:04,095 --> 00:05:06,806 - I've just never seen anything like that. 95 00:05:06,848 --> 00:05:10,977 Just soon as you hop off the bus in any given direction 96 00:05:11,019 --> 00:05:12,729 just massive amount of food, 97 00:05:12,770 --> 00:05:14,981 massive amount of people moving around. 98 00:05:15,023 --> 00:05:17,442 Get on the train, you know, 99 00:05:17,483 --> 00:05:18,776 and at least to me, 100 00:05:18,818 --> 00:05:21,029 things don't get slow, but things slow down. 101 00:05:21,070 --> 00:05:23,948 It becomes more immediately blue-collar 102 00:05:23,990 --> 00:05:26,951 as it gets because you roll past the Queensbridge projects. 103 00:05:26,993 --> 00:05:29,704 Which, you know, for me, I'm a hip hop dude. 104 00:05:29,746 --> 00:05:30,371 How you doing? [inaudible] 105 00:05:30,413 --> 00:05:32,790 Willie Lee McIntyre Jr., otherwise known as Skech. 106 00:05:32,832 --> 00:05:37,712 [Willie rapping] 107 00:05:41,174 --> 00:05:43,217 - [WILLIE] So like, it's the only time in my life 108 00:05:43,259 --> 00:05:45,762 I've ever been astounded by housing project 109 00:05:45,803 --> 00:05:48,931 because of everything that's come from there. 110 00:05:48,973 --> 00:05:49,766 - I love it. 111 00:05:49,807 --> 00:05:50,391 I'll never leave. 112 00:05:50,433 --> 00:05:52,352 As long as I'm in New York, I'll stay here. 113 00:05:52,393 --> 00:05:53,895 I love Queens. 114 00:05:53,936 --> 00:05:55,688 I fell in love with the people here. 115 00:05:55,730 --> 00:05:58,191 I mean, the guy at the coffee shop knows who I am. 116 00:05:58,232 --> 00:06:00,318 I go down to the bar that I live right next door to 117 00:06:00,360 --> 00:06:02,528 and I also work at, and at any time of day, 118 00:06:02,570 --> 00:06:05,323 I can see my friends, see my family. 119 00:06:05,365 --> 00:06:07,825 And that's coming from a place like Daytona, 120 00:06:07,867 --> 00:06:10,453 not coming from a city, that really helped. 121 00:06:10,495 --> 00:06:13,623 That made me very grounded, moving here. 122 00:06:13,664 --> 00:06:14,290 I moved here to be a musician, 123 00:06:14,332 --> 00:06:17,335 so I wanted to be next to a place like Manhattan 124 00:06:17,377 --> 00:06:20,880 and have those opportunities, but not live there. 125 00:06:20,922 --> 00:06:22,131 So being able to have this place, 126 00:06:22,173 --> 00:06:26,135 and have this family was perfect for me. 127 00:06:26,177 --> 00:06:27,428 I loved it. 128 00:06:27,470 --> 00:06:28,805 I love it here. 129 00:06:28,846 --> 00:06:31,516 - I love it. I've lived here 13 years. 130 00:06:31,557 --> 00:06:34,352 I love that I can walk somewhere and run into people 131 00:06:34,394 --> 00:06:35,895 that I know and love. 132 00:06:35,937 --> 00:06:38,439 And we've always been really protective 133 00:06:38,481 --> 00:06:43,528 about our neighborhoods because we like that they are quiet. 134 00:06:43,694 --> 00:06:46,656 We don't want them overly built up. 135 00:06:46,697 --> 00:06:48,032 I mean, you can't build them too high 136 00:06:48,074 --> 00:06:48,616 because of the airport, 137 00:06:48,658 --> 00:06:50,952 but also like, we don't want your condos, 138 00:06:50,993 --> 00:06:52,954 go do that somewhere else. 139 00:06:52,995 --> 00:06:57,542 We really want our old Greek crotchety neighbors 140 00:06:57,583 --> 00:07:00,711 who play classical music and tend to their birds. 141 00:07:03,423 --> 00:07:05,883 - [JENA] When I moved to Queens 142 00:07:05,925 --> 00:07:08,010 at some point in my first year 143 00:07:08,052 --> 00:07:11,139 or so here, I wound up at the Sparrow Tavern. 144 00:07:11,180 --> 00:07:16,227 So, I walked into a dark rock and roll bar 145 00:07:16,352 --> 00:07:19,939 and we had a couple of beers and some fries 146 00:07:19,981 --> 00:07:22,275 and I fell in love with it. 147 00:07:22,692 --> 00:07:25,945 I remember looking around the bar 148 00:07:25,987 --> 00:07:28,531 and feeling like I was at home. 149 00:07:28,573 --> 00:07:31,534 And I was like, "I should work here." 150 00:07:31,576 --> 00:07:33,119 - [NICCI] When Jena was hired, 151 00:07:33,161 --> 00:07:36,706 Jena was a force to be reckoned with. 152 00:07:36,747 --> 00:07:40,001 Sparrow Tavern would not exist without Jena. 153 00:07:40,042 --> 00:07:43,045 We have, at different points in our lives, 154 00:07:43,087 --> 00:07:46,174 at this particular bar, have been a dynamic duo. 155 00:07:46,215 --> 00:07:49,594 She's almost been an assistant manager for me 156 00:07:49,635 --> 00:07:52,972 and, you know, you need that a lot of times. 157 00:07:53,014 --> 00:07:55,475 And she wore a lot of hats there, 158 00:07:55,516 --> 00:07:59,729 and she's made my job a lot easier and I love her. 159 00:08:02,815 --> 00:08:07,361 - [MIKE] She has helped make our bar thrive. 160 00:08:07,403 --> 00:08:09,280 People love to come in and see her personality. 161 00:08:09,322 --> 00:08:12,450 People love to come in and just see her smile 162 00:08:12,492 --> 00:08:13,951 and then they light up. 163 00:08:13,993 --> 00:08:16,120 - She was my first friend that I met at Sparrow. 164 00:08:16,162 --> 00:08:18,831 One of the first ones that, she trained me. 165 00:08:18,873 --> 00:08:21,542 Jena is always a very driven person. 166 00:08:21,584 --> 00:08:23,044 - [MIKE] Whenever I make a drink, 167 00:08:23,085 --> 00:08:25,087 I'll never let her taste it 168 00:08:25,129 --> 00:08:28,799 because I know regardless she's gonna have an ingredient 169 00:08:28,841 --> 00:08:32,845 she wants to change or take out or add. 170 00:08:32,887 --> 00:08:35,014 And I don't share it with her 171 00:08:35,056 --> 00:08:37,058 because I want to remain proud of myself 172 00:08:37,099 --> 00:08:39,310 and I don't want to learn. [laughs] 173 00:08:40,770 --> 00:08:45,441 Probably my best cocktail is, I take a warm glass 174 00:08:45,483 --> 00:08:47,610 and I pour whiskey in it. 175 00:08:49,070 --> 00:08:51,614 She thinks I should change it. 176 00:08:53,074 --> 00:08:55,993 - So I came from the hotel industry for many years 177 00:08:56,035 --> 00:09:00,748 and started moonlighting at Sparrow Tavern in 2009 178 00:09:00,790 --> 00:09:03,167 with Jena, Nicci, Mike... 179 00:09:03,209 --> 00:09:06,671 and it was a joy. 180 00:09:06,712 --> 00:09:10,132 It was pretty much my social life. 181 00:09:10,174 --> 00:09:11,217 I was there as a patron. 182 00:09:11,259 --> 00:09:14,262 They roped me in to work there, 183 00:09:14,303 --> 00:09:17,848 having been a bar fly there for too many nights. 184 00:09:17,890 --> 00:09:21,561 And this bond just really forms, 185 00:09:21,602 --> 00:09:23,521 this kind of, 186 00:09:23,563 --> 00:09:26,983 very close tight-knit situation 187 00:09:27,024 --> 00:09:31,988 that I never had with my hotel staff 188 00:09:32,029 --> 00:09:33,823 that I work with. 189 00:09:33,864 --> 00:09:35,449 - You watch "Cheers"? 190 00:09:35,491 --> 00:09:37,368 - [NICCI] So, we've all seen "Cheers". 191 00:09:37,410 --> 00:09:38,661 Okay. That's the bare essentials, right? 192 00:09:38,703 --> 00:09:40,204 That's the formula, right? 193 00:09:40,246 --> 00:09:41,831 - I don't want to be cliche 194 00:09:41,872 --> 00:09:44,917 and like, "Oh, it's like Cheers." 195 00:09:44,959 --> 00:09:47,962 Because that's really stupid, but it's kinda true. 196 00:09:48,004 --> 00:09:49,880 - [JON] There's this concept of "the third place", 197 00:09:49,922 --> 00:09:52,258 which is neither work nor home, 198 00:09:52,300 --> 00:09:56,387 and the bar is an example of a third place. 199 00:09:56,429 --> 00:09:57,805 One of the things that takes place 200 00:09:57,847 --> 00:10:01,976 in a true third place is a leveling of status, 201 00:10:02,018 --> 00:10:04,312 so everyone gets treated the same. 202 00:10:04,353 --> 00:10:06,689 And I think that one of the facets 203 00:10:06,731 --> 00:10:09,525 of a true New York City neighborhood bar 204 00:10:09,567 --> 00:10:11,235 is this kind of leveling. 205 00:10:11,277 --> 00:10:11,902 - [WILLIE] It's important, like third space, 206 00:10:11,944 --> 00:10:14,905 it's the one place you could potentially shut off 207 00:10:14,947 --> 00:10:18,618 a certain part of yourself that has to always be performing. 208 00:10:18,659 --> 00:10:21,579 When you're at work, you have co-workers, bosses. 209 00:10:21,621 --> 00:10:23,956 Even if you're a boss, you have employees, 210 00:10:23,998 --> 00:10:25,458 people you need to talk to, 211 00:10:25,499 --> 00:10:27,001 things that need to be serviced. 212 00:10:27,043 --> 00:10:29,587 A certain way you have to maintain yourself. 213 00:10:29,629 --> 00:10:34,675 A certain way you have to speak in both spaces. 214 00:10:35,092 --> 00:10:36,802 The third space is the one space 215 00:10:36,844 --> 00:10:39,263 nobody's asking anything from you. 216 00:10:39,305 --> 00:10:40,723 - And in New York, that's really important 217 00:10:40,765 --> 00:10:44,101 because we don't really have living rooms 218 00:10:44,143 --> 00:10:46,854 and dining rooms the same way other places do. 219 00:10:46,896 --> 00:10:49,690 So, you need to have a meeting ground, right? 220 00:10:49,732 --> 00:10:53,152 - [DAVE] Imagine moving from someplace, 221 00:10:53,194 --> 00:10:55,029 and you wander in by yourself, 222 00:10:55,071 --> 00:10:58,074 and you sit down at the bar, and within a week 223 00:10:58,115 --> 00:10:59,825 you now have six friends. 224 00:10:59,867 --> 00:11:02,536 Within a month, you now have 30 friends. 225 00:11:02,578 --> 00:11:04,038 For our regulars here, 226 00:11:04,080 --> 00:11:05,873 and I mean this in the truest sense, 227 00:11:05,915 --> 00:11:07,750 they became our family. 228 00:11:07,792 --> 00:11:09,710 - You now have the support group 229 00:11:09,752 --> 00:11:12,171 that came from this, just mutual spot. 230 00:11:12,213 --> 00:11:14,131 When you're not from here, 231 00:11:14,173 --> 00:11:16,384 things like that are very important. 232 00:11:16,425 --> 00:11:21,597 I've watched a blind date happen, 233 00:11:21,639 --> 00:11:24,975 then a year later, an engagement party happen 234 00:11:25,017 --> 00:11:26,936 at the same place. 235 00:11:26,977 --> 00:11:29,313 - [PETER] People walked in here 35 years ago, 236 00:11:29,355 --> 00:11:33,025 and would see just an incredible, loud, 237 00:11:33,067 --> 00:11:36,237 music-playing loud bar of African American, 238 00:11:36,278 --> 00:11:38,447 Caribbean American, Dominicans, 239 00:11:38,489 --> 00:11:41,075 doctors, cops, and... 240 00:11:41,534 --> 00:11:43,953 and they weren't used to seeing an integrated bar 241 00:11:43,994 --> 00:11:46,747 and we were integrated, and it was happily so. 242 00:11:46,789 --> 00:11:48,207 - [DAVE] I think one of the nicest things 243 00:11:48,249 --> 00:11:51,752 that has been expressed to us, is... 244 00:11:55,005 --> 00:11:57,049 ...families who were having a difficult time 245 00:11:57,091 --> 00:11:58,467 in the hospital... 246 00:11:59,760 --> 00:12:01,470 [voice cracking] especially with children... 247 00:12:02,388 --> 00:12:05,307 [somber music] 248 00:12:05,349 --> 00:12:07,309 and they found an oasis here, 249 00:12:07,351 --> 00:12:08,978 and we gave them a break. 250 00:12:10,312 --> 00:12:12,606 And that, to me, may be the most meaningful. 251 00:12:13,149 --> 00:12:15,943 - [JON] That's the beauty of a neighborhood bar. 252 00:12:15,985 --> 00:12:19,530 Everyone is welcome and everyone is treated the same, 253 00:12:19,572 --> 00:12:21,115 and it's a common ground, 254 00:12:21,157 --> 00:12:21,699 it's a meeting place, 255 00:12:21,699 --> 00:12:24,368 it's a watering hole where you can meet 256 00:12:24,410 --> 00:12:28,205 and exchange ideas with other members of your community. 257 00:12:28,247 --> 00:12:31,751 [indistinct chattering] 258 00:12:38,466 --> 00:12:38,883 - [NICK] I love Jena. 259 00:12:38,883 --> 00:12:41,093 She doesn't shut the fuck up. 260 00:12:41,969 --> 00:12:43,596 And I mean that in a loving way, 261 00:12:43,637 --> 00:12:45,765 I mean that in a loving way 262 00:12:45,806 --> 00:12:49,477 and we had a really good working dynamic. 263 00:12:49,518 --> 00:12:51,187 We worked very well together. 264 00:12:51,228 --> 00:12:52,521 We killed it. 265 00:12:53,814 --> 00:12:55,858 - [JENA] What is a bar husband? 266 00:12:56,275 --> 00:13:01,280 A bar spouse is someone that you work with more 267 00:13:01,322 --> 00:13:05,743 than anybody else, who you have created an entire bond with, 268 00:13:05,785 --> 00:13:09,997 and you are kind of like the yin to their yang. 269 00:13:10,039 --> 00:13:12,917 And I really only have one bar husband, 270 00:13:12,958 --> 00:13:17,171 and that is Nick Smoocher. [laughs] 271 00:13:19,006 --> 00:13:20,216 Nick Elezovic. 272 00:13:20,800 --> 00:13:24,220 - [MIKE] I think I live a charmed life because of it, 273 00:13:24,261 --> 00:13:27,973 'cause I don't think you get that at every bar. 274 00:13:28,015 --> 00:13:29,892 The fact that you can build a deep bond 275 00:13:29,934 --> 00:13:32,478 and become that type of friend with everyone. 276 00:13:32,520 --> 00:13:35,731 - You're involved in everyone's life beyond the bar, 277 00:13:35,773 --> 00:13:38,192 which doesn't happen in any other, 278 00:13:38,234 --> 00:13:41,695 in most places, certainly not non-neighborhood bars. 279 00:13:41,737 --> 00:13:44,448 Moving here as a lost twentysomething was like, 280 00:13:44,490 --> 00:13:45,115 it was the perfect thing. 281 00:13:45,157 --> 00:13:48,953 I mean, I'll forever be grateful for those people. 282 00:13:48,994 --> 00:13:50,871 [somber music] 283 00:13:51,831 --> 00:13:53,457 [medical equipment beeping] 284 00:13:53,499 --> 00:13:54,625 - [REPORTER] They're fighting a war here 285 00:13:54,667 --> 00:13:56,335 and they're losing. 286 00:13:57,920 --> 00:13:59,338 The sheer numbers of people succumbing 287 00:13:59,380 --> 00:14:03,259 to the coronavirus is overwhelming every hospital 288 00:14:03,300 --> 00:14:03,884 in Northern Italy. 289 00:14:03,926 --> 00:14:06,053 - [DR. KAUSHIK] Some of my friends work in China 290 00:14:06,095 --> 00:14:07,972 and in late 2019, 291 00:14:08,013 --> 00:14:09,557 I started hearing from them that, 292 00:14:09,598 --> 00:14:11,058 "Hey, there's this virus, 293 00:14:11,100 --> 00:14:12,560 it's a viral infection 294 00:14:12,601 --> 00:14:14,645 similar to SARS in China. 295 00:14:14,687 --> 00:14:15,938 We don't know much about it, 296 00:14:15,980 --> 00:14:18,148 but, you know, it's more prevalent 297 00:14:18,190 --> 00:14:23,320 than what's coming out in the media." 298 00:14:23,362 --> 00:14:26,323 - I was overseas in December 299 00:14:26,365 --> 00:14:31,287 and I'd heard about the Hubei province experience 300 00:14:31,328 --> 00:14:33,706 and that they were in a lockdown 301 00:14:34,623 --> 00:14:37,251 with a novel coronavirus. 302 00:14:37,293 --> 00:14:40,087 - I first heard about the virus in January. 303 00:14:40,129 --> 00:14:43,007 Then, at the time, it was mostly in China. 304 00:14:43,424 --> 00:14:44,842 - [REPORTER] In New Rochelle, 305 00:14:44,884 --> 00:14:46,427 this synagogue is the epicenter 306 00:14:46,468 --> 00:14:48,304 of one of the biggest COVID-19 clusters 307 00:14:48,345 --> 00:14:49,638 in the U.S. 308 00:14:49,680 --> 00:14:51,765 The majority of cases in New York state, 309 00:14:51,807 --> 00:14:53,893 trace to one patient who worshiped here. 310 00:14:53,934 --> 00:14:55,060 - The number of cases doubling 311 00:14:55,102 --> 00:14:56,812 in the New York City area overnight. 312 00:14:56,854 --> 00:14:57,438 The Mayor today calling 313 00:14:57,438 --> 00:15:00,232 the spread, "unpredictable and worrisome." 314 00:15:00,274 --> 00:15:02,109 Many new cases tied to one man 315 00:15:02,151 --> 00:15:03,944 who took that train into the city. 316 00:15:03,986 --> 00:15:05,446 - [REPORTER 2] Most linked to a lawyer 317 00:15:05,487 --> 00:15:07,740 who frequently commuted out of Grand Central Terminal, 318 00:15:07,781 --> 00:15:10,951 one of the busiest train stations in the country. 319 00:15:10,993 --> 00:15:15,205 - Early February was when, at least 320 00:15:15,247 --> 00:15:18,751 we in the hospital system that I work in, 321 00:15:18,792 --> 00:15:22,922 began to, in earnest, really discuss the possibility 322 00:15:22,963 --> 00:15:25,299 that we might be faced with this 323 00:15:25,341 --> 00:15:27,468 as a true viral pandemic. 324 00:15:28,761 --> 00:15:30,137 - [GAIL] I work in behavioral health. 325 00:15:30,179 --> 00:15:33,057 Behavioral health is a contact sport. 326 00:15:33,098 --> 00:15:37,019 By about mid-February, 327 00:15:38,020 --> 00:15:40,481 we had some cognition that 328 00:15:40,522 --> 00:15:41,607 this was going to start 329 00:15:41,649 --> 00:15:43,651 to become some sort of a game changer. 330 00:15:43,692 --> 00:15:46,987 We started to transition and plan 331 00:15:47,029 --> 00:15:49,740 for what if we had to work remotely. 332 00:15:49,782 --> 00:15:51,116 - [REPORTER] All New York City schools 333 00:15:51,158 --> 00:15:53,202 shutting down starting tomorrow. 334 00:15:53,243 --> 00:15:55,329 - Moments ago, the Mayor inched closer 335 00:15:55,371 --> 00:15:58,958 to a possible citywide shutdown of restaurants and bars. 336 00:15:58,999 --> 00:16:01,001 - [DR. GELCETER] The majority of the New York-based 337 00:16:01,043 --> 00:16:03,462 came from Europe, from Italy. 338 00:16:03,504 --> 00:16:06,090 So, we were protecting ourselves 339 00:16:06,131 --> 00:16:08,842 against China before we realized 340 00:16:08,884 --> 00:16:12,054 that it was gonna be a real problem 341 00:16:12,096 --> 00:16:17,184 amongst Americans and European tourists, swapping sides. 342 00:16:17,226 --> 00:16:20,229 - It was almost like turning on a switch. 343 00:16:20,270 --> 00:16:22,940 End of the second week, beginning third week in March, 344 00:16:22,982 --> 00:16:24,984 it was like you flipped the switch on. 345 00:16:25,025 --> 00:16:29,029 And all of a sudden our ER was full. 346 00:16:29,071 --> 00:16:31,657 They were essentially all COVID. 347 00:16:31,699 --> 00:16:32,574 - [REPORTER 1] The city's hospitals 348 00:16:32,616 --> 00:16:33,867 will be on the frontlines 349 00:16:33,909 --> 00:16:35,995 in this war against the coronavirus. 350 00:16:36,036 --> 00:16:37,913 In Elmhurst, Queens, that hospital, 351 00:16:37,955 --> 00:16:40,082 there are lines of people this morning. 352 00:16:40,124 --> 00:16:41,500 - [REPORTER 2] Elmhurst Hospital is really 353 00:16:41,542 --> 00:16:43,627 at the center of this crisis, 354 00:16:43,669 --> 00:16:45,587 here in the city and in the country. 355 00:16:45,629 --> 00:16:47,464 - [REPORTER 3] Inside Elmhurst Hospital, 356 00:16:47,506 --> 00:16:50,634 medical staff struggle to keep people alive. 357 00:16:50,676 --> 00:16:52,219 More people have died here 358 00:16:52,261 --> 00:16:55,222 than in any other area of New York City. 359 00:16:58,726 --> 00:17:01,478 - Initial emotions were... 360 00:17:01,520 --> 00:17:02,604 What the fuck? 361 00:17:02,646 --> 00:17:06,275 What is going on? What's happening? 362 00:17:06,316 --> 00:17:09,236 Am I scared? Am I scared enough? Am I too scared? 363 00:17:10,195 --> 00:17:11,655 It was a lot of confusion 364 00:17:11,697 --> 00:17:14,867 and a lot of instant stress. 365 00:17:15,909 --> 00:17:20,831 - [NICK] I started feeling ill 366 00:17:20,873 --> 00:17:23,125 Thursday, March 12th, 367 00:17:23,167 --> 00:17:25,461 is when symptoms started coming on. 368 00:17:25,502 --> 00:17:27,838 Runny nose, like a bad cold is coming. 369 00:17:27,880 --> 00:17:31,550 I'm just like, "Okay, this is not what I need now." 370 00:17:31,592 --> 00:17:33,844 - And I just remember crying in my kitchen 371 00:17:33,886 --> 00:17:37,681 when Nick was like, "Yeah, I think I have it." 372 00:17:37,723 --> 00:17:40,350 Um... [somber music] 373 00:17:40,851 --> 00:17:45,481 Because I mean, for as sprightly as he is, 374 00:17:45,522 --> 00:17:47,524 I mean, Nick's older 375 00:17:47,566 --> 00:17:48,942 and, um... 376 00:17:51,195 --> 00:17:53,947 just made me really worried. 377 00:17:53,989 --> 00:17:55,240 When he told me that... this, 378 00:17:55,282 --> 00:17:58,368 I didn't even know what to do. Like I told Mike, 379 00:17:58,410 --> 00:18:03,290 I was like, "Fucking Smooch... Smooch has it." 380 00:18:03,332 --> 00:18:05,417 I mean, I sat next to him, I hugged him. 381 00:18:05,459 --> 00:18:08,170 The two of us are generally pretty physically close. 382 00:18:08,212 --> 00:18:10,047 We don't really have a lot of boundaries. 383 00:18:10,089 --> 00:18:12,466 So I was like, "If it came from there 384 00:18:12,508 --> 00:18:14,051 then why don't I have it too?" 385 00:18:14,093 --> 00:18:16,804 And he just looked so small, 386 00:18:16,845 --> 00:18:19,723 but just seeing Nick physically not feel good 387 00:18:19,765 --> 00:18:23,018 was really hard for me. 388 00:18:23,060 --> 00:18:25,854 - My name is Nick Elezovic 389 00:18:25,896 --> 00:18:29,775 and your staff helped me a couple of weeks ago, 390 00:18:29,817 --> 00:18:31,443 set up a test 391 00:18:31,485 --> 00:18:34,196 here in Queens, New York, 392 00:18:34,238 --> 00:18:36,990 and I came up as positive. 393 00:18:37,533 --> 00:18:41,245 I had the roughest seven to nine days. 394 00:18:41,662 --> 00:18:44,623 Those last two weeks of March were probably 395 00:18:44,665 --> 00:18:46,500 the toughest of my life. 396 00:18:46,542 --> 00:18:48,794 Starting March 16th, 397 00:18:48,836 --> 00:18:51,338 we were forced to close our bar. 398 00:18:51,380 --> 00:18:53,966 I got the COVID... For two weeks, 399 00:18:54,007 --> 00:18:57,010 I went to bed and just laid in bed, saying to myself, 400 00:18:57,052 --> 00:18:58,887 "I'm fucked," over and over again. 401 00:18:58,929 --> 00:19:01,515 And I barely got one to two hours of sleep 402 00:19:01,557 --> 00:19:04,518 for those last two weeks of March. 403 00:19:04,560 --> 00:19:05,811 I just stared at the ceiling and said, 404 00:19:05,853 --> 00:19:08,605 "I'm fucked, how am I gonna get out of this?" 405 00:19:08,647 --> 00:19:09,857 [somber music] 406 00:19:09,898 --> 00:19:11,775 - [REPORTER 1] 9:00 AM on Tuesday, 407 00:19:11,817 --> 00:19:16,405 all bars across the city of New York will be closed. 408 00:19:16,446 --> 00:19:19,533 Thousands of employees at New York City nightspots 409 00:19:19,575 --> 00:19:21,118 about to be out of work. 410 00:19:21,160 --> 00:19:22,411 - [REPORTER 2] Among the hardest hit: 411 00:19:22,452 --> 00:19:23,162 the hospitality industry. 412 00:19:23,203 --> 00:19:26,165 We're talking about restaurants, bars, forced to shut down. 413 00:19:26,206 --> 00:19:26,874 - [REPORTER 3] It's tens, 414 00:19:26,874 --> 00:19:28,959 if not hundreds of thousands of people in the city 415 00:19:29,001 --> 00:19:29,668 will soon be out of work. 416 00:19:29,710 --> 00:19:31,670 - [REPORTER 4] I mean, just consider the Irish pubs, 417 00:19:31,712 --> 00:19:33,672 like the ones behind me here. 418 00:19:33,714 --> 00:19:36,258 St. Patrick's Day is typically their busiest night 419 00:19:36,300 --> 00:19:37,801 of the whole year. 420 00:19:38,260 --> 00:19:41,597 - [MIKE] I think I cried probably five nights in a row 421 00:19:41,638 --> 00:19:42,806 that I worked 422 00:19:42,848 --> 00:19:44,474 because I thought to myself, 423 00:19:44,516 --> 00:19:47,477 "This is the last drink I'm gonna pour here." 424 00:19:47,519 --> 00:19:48,937 Jena had come in, 425 00:19:48,979 --> 00:19:49,521 my boss had come in, 426 00:19:49,563 --> 00:19:51,899 and we're all taking half the tables out 427 00:19:51,940 --> 00:19:53,609 and bringing them downstairs 428 00:19:53,650 --> 00:19:55,360 and kind of looking at each other 429 00:19:55,402 --> 00:19:57,321 going, "What are we gonna do?" 430 00:19:57,362 --> 00:20:00,574 - You could feel within the air 431 00:20:00,616 --> 00:20:02,826 an entire few hundred thousand people feel like 432 00:20:02,868 --> 00:20:05,495 they were completely fucked 433 00:20:05,537 --> 00:20:07,206 at the exact same time. 434 00:20:07,247 --> 00:20:09,666 Almost every bar shut down at the exact same time 435 00:20:09,708 --> 00:20:11,627 and we were gonna live off of potentially 436 00:20:11,668 --> 00:20:15,047 three hundred-something dollars a week. 437 00:20:15,088 --> 00:20:18,133 Which meant we had to not eat 438 00:20:18,175 --> 00:20:19,968 in order to pay our rent. 439 00:20:21,553 --> 00:20:23,597 - [NICCI] There's a lot of people that walked in that door, 440 00:20:23,639 --> 00:20:26,183 knowing that perhaps that was gonna be their last 441 00:20:26,225 --> 00:20:27,976 for a long time. 442 00:20:28,018 --> 00:20:31,063 That's when I think it hit me because, um... 443 00:20:31,104 --> 00:20:33,607 I've done the same thing for 14 years. 444 00:20:33,649 --> 00:20:37,277 I have served more or less the same people for 14 years, 445 00:20:37,319 --> 00:20:40,405 and I've ran my mouth continuously for 14 years. 446 00:20:40,447 --> 00:20:42,366 And to let that stop 447 00:20:42,866 --> 00:20:46,119 and to not know when this industry 448 00:20:46,161 --> 00:20:50,415 that you love so much will come back thriving, it was scary. 449 00:20:50,457 --> 00:20:51,166 [somber music] 450 00:20:51,166 --> 00:20:54,628 - [NICCI] It was there one day and gone the next and... 451 00:20:55,921 --> 00:20:57,839 before entertaining unemployment, 452 00:20:57,881 --> 00:21:01,969 before entertaining praying I have a rich aunt somewhere, 453 00:21:02,010 --> 00:21:05,055 you're just in this position of, 454 00:21:05,097 --> 00:21:08,183 "Wait, what? This is really happening." 455 00:21:08,225 --> 00:21:09,935 This is really happening. 456 00:21:09,977 --> 00:21:11,895 Everything I put my heart and soul in 457 00:21:11,937 --> 00:21:15,232 for all these years has literally come to a halt, 458 00:21:15,274 --> 00:21:19,903 based on someone else's decision to not re-open. 459 00:21:19,945 --> 00:21:21,363 - [REPORTER] These are drastic changes, 460 00:21:21,405 --> 00:21:22,781 no other way to put it. 461 00:21:22,823 --> 00:21:23,448 And there's a lot of uncertainty 462 00:21:23,490 --> 00:21:26,702 including what sort of help those business owners 463 00:21:26,743 --> 00:21:29,246 and employees might get from the federal, state 464 00:21:29,288 --> 00:21:30,497 and local level. 465 00:21:30,539 --> 00:21:31,081 - [NICK] Knots in my stomach, 466 00:21:31,123 --> 00:21:34,418 just stomach churning. Stomach churning. 467 00:21:34,459 --> 00:21:38,588 I was worried I might get an ulcer, just nervousness. 468 00:21:38,630 --> 00:21:40,382 I cannot sleep, I cannot... 469 00:21:40,424 --> 00:21:42,092 My brain will not shut down. 470 00:21:42,134 --> 00:21:44,594 My brain will not stop. 471 00:21:44,636 --> 00:21:46,847 Just trying to think of scenarios, 472 00:21:46,888 --> 00:21:48,640 worst case scenarios, 473 00:21:48,682 --> 00:21:52,060 possibilities to get out of this. 474 00:21:52,102 --> 00:21:54,563 You know, coming up with contingency plans. 475 00:21:54,604 --> 00:21:57,107 What if we go a year without opening our bar? 476 00:21:57,149 --> 00:21:58,942 Or longer? 477 00:21:58,984 --> 00:22:03,447 - We saw numbers starting to climb around 478 00:22:04,781 --> 00:22:06,158 St. Patrick's Day, 479 00:22:06,199 --> 00:22:11,079 and we saw the wave moving eastward from Manhattan. 480 00:22:11,121 --> 00:22:14,916 Seeing a lot of people suddenly bombarding 481 00:22:14,958 --> 00:22:18,420 the healthcare system in the city, in Manhattan. 482 00:22:18,462 --> 00:22:22,883 And we knew that it was just a matter of a week or 10 days 483 00:22:22,924 --> 00:22:25,510 because a lot of Queens 484 00:22:25,552 --> 00:22:28,722 is the bedroom community for Manhattan. 485 00:22:28,764 --> 00:22:31,725 We were overwhelmed, as was everybody else. 486 00:22:31,767 --> 00:22:34,478 - [DOCTOR] 9/11 was nothing compared to this. 487 00:22:34,519 --> 00:22:38,732 We were open, waiting for patients to come who never came. 488 00:22:38,774 --> 00:22:42,652 Okay. Now they just keep coming. 489 00:22:42,694 --> 00:22:44,321 And they're all ages. 490 00:22:44,363 --> 00:22:48,367 Don't delude yourself into thinking only the old will die. 491 00:22:48,408 --> 00:22:50,494 - [GAIL] We had September 11th, 492 00:22:50,535 --> 00:22:51,995 and we've had the school shootings. 493 00:22:52,037 --> 00:22:53,747 There's been so many things, 494 00:22:53,789 --> 00:22:57,167 but they've been events where there was a demarcation. 495 00:22:57,209 --> 00:22:58,126 There was a clear beginning. 496 00:22:58,168 --> 00:22:58,960 There was a middle. 497 00:22:59,002 --> 00:22:59,461 There was the end. 498 00:22:59,503 --> 00:23:02,839 One of the unique features of this 499 00:23:02,881 --> 00:23:04,800 is that we don't know where the end is. 500 00:23:04,841 --> 00:23:06,510 Period. 501 00:23:06,551 --> 00:23:08,011 - [REPORTER 1] City ambulances have seen 502 00:23:08,053 --> 00:23:12,808 a surge in calls, responding to nearly 5,800 Thursday. 503 00:23:12,849 --> 00:23:13,934 - [REPORTER 2] This, unfortunately, 504 00:23:13,975 --> 00:23:15,352 is just the beginning, 505 00:23:15,394 --> 00:23:18,730 with the crisis expected to last for months 506 00:23:18,772 --> 00:23:21,316 and the peak of it all still on the horizon. 507 00:23:21,358 --> 00:23:24,903 [ambulance siren wailing] 508 00:23:27,197 --> 00:23:28,573 - I hate it. 509 00:23:28,615 --> 00:23:30,450 It's nerve wracking. 510 00:23:30,492 --> 00:23:31,368 It's... 511 00:23:32,702 --> 00:23:34,579 It's, it's just... 512 00:23:35,831 --> 00:23:38,500 you know, my mind immediately goes to, 513 00:23:38,542 --> 00:23:39,793 "Are they just dead? 514 00:23:39,835 --> 00:23:40,252 Who's dead now?" 515 00:23:40,252 --> 00:23:43,130 You know... or like, "Who is it? 516 00:23:43,171 --> 00:23:44,589 Is it somebody that I know? 517 00:23:44,631 --> 00:23:46,341 Is this... what is going on?" 518 00:23:46,383 --> 00:23:46,925 - [WILLIE] The virus is like 519 00:23:46,967 --> 00:23:49,886 trying to win a fight against the wind. 520 00:23:49,928 --> 00:23:53,640 No matter what, especially in a place like this, 521 00:23:53,682 --> 00:23:54,683 it could be everywhere. 522 00:23:54,724 --> 00:23:56,017 That's the feeling. 523 00:23:56,059 --> 00:23:56,852 That's the feeling. 524 00:23:56,893 --> 00:23:58,186 It could be everywhere. 525 00:23:58,228 --> 00:23:59,604 - [BRADEN] Day to day in Queens, 526 00:23:59,646 --> 00:24:03,400 it's the hardest hit borough of New York 527 00:24:03,442 --> 00:24:07,028 and living here and being scared to go outside 528 00:24:07,070 --> 00:24:10,615 and worried about not having a job 529 00:24:10,657 --> 00:24:11,241 and not really knowing how long 530 00:24:11,241 --> 00:24:13,201 this is gonna last and what you're gonna do 531 00:24:13,243 --> 00:24:13,910 at the end of it. 532 00:24:13,952 --> 00:24:18,331 I mean, it's just the most anxiety-ridden time ever. 533 00:24:18,373 --> 00:24:21,918 Your mind and body want to do something about it, 534 00:24:21,960 --> 00:24:26,548 but the only thing you can do is the absence of anything. 535 00:24:26,590 --> 00:24:30,093 [ambulance siren wailing] 536 00:24:33,388 --> 00:24:36,057 - It's constant. It's... 537 00:24:36,099 --> 00:24:39,102 [ambulance siren wailing] 538 00:24:39,144 --> 00:24:40,020 It's, um... 539 00:24:41,521 --> 00:24:43,231 It invades everything 540 00:24:43,273 --> 00:24:45,942 because there also aren't other sounds. 541 00:24:45,984 --> 00:24:48,361 I live right next door to a playground. 542 00:24:48,403 --> 00:24:51,406 I don't hear kids playing in the playground, you know? 543 00:24:51,448 --> 00:24:53,658 I hear sirens instead. 544 00:24:53,700 --> 00:24:57,621 - [GAIL] If you look at the whole concept of PTSD, 545 00:24:57,662 --> 00:24:59,956 one of the factors generally 546 00:24:59,998 --> 00:25:03,710 is a perceived threat to yourself 547 00:25:04,127 --> 00:25:06,129 whether it's perceived or whether it's real. 548 00:25:06,171 --> 00:25:10,008 Obviously, the virus is a very, very real threat. 549 00:25:10,050 --> 00:25:13,386 Especially if you lived in an area like Astoria or Elmhurst 550 00:25:13,428 --> 00:25:16,306 that there was a very high concentration, 551 00:25:16,348 --> 00:25:18,475 you're gonna feel like it's creeping on you. 552 00:25:18,517 --> 00:25:19,100 - You hear ambulances. 553 00:25:19,100 --> 00:25:22,854 And then you see ambulances creating a line, 554 00:25:22,896 --> 00:25:26,316 a traffic jam, to get to your emergency room. 555 00:25:26,358 --> 00:25:30,153 And you know that these ambulances 556 00:25:30,195 --> 00:25:34,032 are carrying patients who all have the same disease. 557 00:25:34,074 --> 00:25:36,076 I do not recall ever, 558 00:25:36,117 --> 00:25:38,662 and it has never been experienced 559 00:25:38,703 --> 00:25:42,165 by anybody, in which so many patients 560 00:25:42,207 --> 00:25:43,750 with the same disease 561 00:25:43,792 --> 00:25:47,045 are presenting to a hospital at the same time. 562 00:25:47,087 --> 00:25:47,712 At one point in time, 563 00:25:47,712 --> 00:25:52,926 we had 85% of our hospital were COVID patients. 564 00:25:52,968 --> 00:25:55,845 Our hospital ran out of body bags. 565 00:25:56,846 --> 00:25:58,848 - Every time I hear a siren, 566 00:25:58,890 --> 00:26:00,141 which is pretty often, 567 00:26:00,183 --> 00:26:03,061 it's every 20 minutes I feel like, 568 00:26:03,103 --> 00:26:04,062 your mind always says, 569 00:26:04,104 --> 00:26:06,648 "Well, there goes another one." 570 00:26:08,358 --> 00:26:10,235 It's very scary. 571 00:26:10,277 --> 00:26:14,698 About a week ago, an ambulance was at my house 572 00:26:14,739 --> 00:26:17,826 and they were up at the apartment above mine. 573 00:26:19,452 --> 00:26:22,289 Anytime somebody sneezes 574 00:26:22,330 --> 00:26:22,956 or even yourself, 575 00:26:22,956 --> 00:26:25,625 when it's just some little symptomatic thing, 576 00:26:25,667 --> 00:26:29,045 or you have a tiny ache or you have a headache 577 00:26:29,087 --> 00:26:30,171 or you're a little queasy, 578 00:26:30,213 --> 00:26:32,090 like anything that doesn't feel right 579 00:26:32,132 --> 00:26:33,633 that you may have felt normally before. 580 00:26:33,675 --> 00:26:37,846 It's just, "I have it. Get ready, here it comes." 581 00:26:37,887 --> 00:26:40,640 - [GAIL] You're in an area where there's a lot of virus 582 00:26:40,682 --> 00:26:44,644 or in a building and hearing the sirens, hearing them often, 583 00:26:44,686 --> 00:26:45,353 it triggers that feeling 584 00:26:45,353 --> 00:26:49,232 of being threatened by this enemy that we can't see. 585 00:26:49,274 --> 00:26:50,942 So, it's part of the syndrome. 586 00:26:50,984 --> 00:26:53,820 It's part of being traumatized 587 00:26:53,862 --> 00:26:55,780 by what is happening around us. 588 00:26:55,822 --> 00:26:59,367 [ambulance siren wailing] 589 00:27:01,995 --> 00:27:03,330 - [DR. KAUSHIK] The traditional tools that we have: 590 00:27:03,371 --> 00:27:06,041 talking, touching, feeling, being close, 591 00:27:06,082 --> 00:27:07,667 you know, bringing people together, 592 00:27:07,709 --> 00:27:08,877 we have not been able to. 593 00:27:08,918 --> 00:27:11,546 Emotionally, I think it's taken a... 594 00:27:13,089 --> 00:27:16,509 a big toll on doctors, on nurses, 595 00:27:16,551 --> 00:27:20,430 on physicians having seen the isolation 596 00:27:20,472 --> 00:27:23,016 that patients are going through. 597 00:27:23,058 --> 00:27:27,062 - The feeling of being powerless, 598 00:27:27,103 --> 00:27:30,565 not knowing if your patient will make it the next day, 599 00:27:30,607 --> 00:27:32,609 despite all your effort 600 00:27:32,651 --> 00:27:37,197 in providing all the support that as a physician 601 00:27:37,238 --> 00:27:38,657 you could provide. 602 00:27:38,698 --> 00:27:41,117 The feeling of helplessness knowing 603 00:27:41,159 --> 00:27:44,788 that you don't have any specific treatment. 604 00:27:46,831 --> 00:27:50,043 - [DR. GELCETER] It's hard to unring certain bells 605 00:27:50,085 --> 00:27:53,088 and you've never seen anything like this before. 606 00:27:53,129 --> 00:27:55,256 And you are an unwitting... 607 00:27:55,298 --> 00:27:57,842 the emotional unpreparedness, 608 00:27:57,884 --> 00:27:59,886 together with the impact of this 609 00:27:59,928 --> 00:28:01,971 is gonna hurt a lot of people. 610 00:28:04,015 --> 00:28:06,601 [somber music] 611 00:28:10,230 --> 00:28:12,065 - It really hits you, 612 00:28:12,107 --> 00:28:14,567 but you still have to go through the day 613 00:28:14,609 --> 00:28:17,821 and do your best to save your patient's life. 614 00:28:17,862 --> 00:28:18,488 - [DR. KAUSHIK] For healthcare workers, 615 00:28:18,530 --> 00:28:21,866 this is gonna carry a long-term trauma as well. 616 00:28:21,908 --> 00:28:24,869 Just like war veterans get PTSD, 617 00:28:24,911 --> 00:28:27,706 a lot of physicians, nurses, therapists, 618 00:28:27,747 --> 00:28:30,333 transporters that have seen, 619 00:28:32,001 --> 00:28:33,378 tremendous amount of suffering 620 00:28:33,420 --> 00:28:35,672 from this disease in the hospitals, 621 00:28:35,714 --> 00:28:39,050 will carry these scars for a long time. 622 00:28:39,092 --> 00:28:41,302 - [GAIL] All of us as a community 623 00:28:41,803 --> 00:28:44,973 are really in the process still of walking through 624 00:28:45,014 --> 00:28:48,184 what I can best describe as a collective trauma, 625 00:28:48,226 --> 00:28:50,812 or a collectively traumatic experience. 626 00:28:50,854 --> 00:28:51,354 - [CUOMO] I want to say to 627 00:28:51,354 --> 00:28:53,648 the people of the state of New York: 628 00:28:53,690 --> 00:28:58,653 if you are upset by what we have done, be upset at me. 629 00:29:00,488 --> 00:29:03,199 County Executive did not do this. 630 00:29:03,241 --> 00:29:05,660 The village mayor did not do this. 631 00:29:05,702 --> 00:29:08,538 The city mayor did not make these decisions. 632 00:29:08,580 --> 00:29:10,039 I made these decisions. 633 00:29:10,081 --> 00:29:11,624 I made them because I believe they are 634 00:29:11,666 --> 00:29:13,710 in the best interest of the state. 635 00:29:13,752 --> 00:29:15,879 I know they cause disruption. 636 00:29:15,920 --> 00:29:18,173 I know people are upset. 637 00:29:18,214 --> 00:29:21,551 I know businesses will be hurt by this. 638 00:29:21,593 --> 00:29:25,555 My judgment is do whatever's necessary 639 00:29:25,597 --> 00:29:27,932 to contain this virus. 640 00:29:27,974 --> 00:29:30,101 The buck stops on my desk. 641 00:29:31,936 --> 00:29:33,480 - [JENA] I'm scared of losing my job 642 00:29:33,521 --> 00:29:35,732 and not having a job to come back to 643 00:29:35,774 --> 00:29:38,777 and not being able to afford my rent. 644 00:29:38,818 --> 00:29:40,195 I don't know what I'm gonna be doing 645 00:29:40,236 --> 00:29:42,113 and can I pay you in a month? 646 00:29:42,155 --> 00:29:44,032 Like, I don't fucking know! 647 00:29:44,073 --> 00:29:47,035 I'm not okay 'cause I can't go home. 648 00:29:47,076 --> 00:29:50,079 My grandmother is 89 and she's not 649 00:29:50,121 --> 00:29:53,208 in the best of health right now. 650 00:29:54,876 --> 00:29:57,754 So I couldn't... like, I can't see my mom 651 00:29:57,796 --> 00:30:02,383 because my mom and my aunts are her caretakers, 652 00:30:04,636 --> 00:30:06,888 so I can't do that. 653 00:30:06,930 --> 00:30:08,223 If we can't work, 654 00:30:08,264 --> 00:30:11,100 I can't pay rent unless they fucking freeze it, 655 00:30:11,142 --> 00:30:12,477 so I don't know. 656 00:30:14,187 --> 00:30:18,775 I am spending all this energy, 657 00:30:19,859 --> 00:30:21,152 doing what I thought was changing 658 00:30:21,194 --> 00:30:23,196 my entire career trajectory, 659 00:30:23,238 --> 00:30:26,032 and maybe it still is, but like... 660 00:30:26,074 --> 00:30:28,993 I'm building this future for myself 661 00:30:29,035 --> 00:30:31,371 and I was finally starting to see it. 662 00:30:32,705 --> 00:30:36,543 And, uh... I'm watching that walk away too. 663 00:30:36,584 --> 00:30:39,587 My entire industry got laid off in a day. 664 00:30:39,629 --> 00:30:41,840 The unemployment website crashed 665 00:30:41,881 --> 00:30:44,717 so nobody could get through. 666 00:30:44,759 --> 00:30:46,386 For an industry that's used 667 00:30:46,427 --> 00:30:49,806 to being the ones taking care of people, 668 00:30:51,349 --> 00:30:53,643 to ask to be taken care of... 669 00:30:55,186 --> 00:30:56,896 it's fucking scary. 670 00:31:03,695 --> 00:31:05,238 - I saw that today. 671 00:31:07,991 --> 00:31:09,868 - I want to vomit. 672 00:31:09,909 --> 00:31:12,245 I just felt my stomach drop. 673 00:31:14,497 --> 00:31:17,292 Nine months of this? Nine months? 674 00:31:19,127 --> 00:31:21,337 What's gonna happen? 675 00:31:21,379 --> 00:31:23,131 None of these jobs are gonna look the same way. 676 00:31:23,172 --> 00:31:26,467 None of our infrastructure is gonna be the same. 677 00:31:26,509 --> 00:31:28,595 What about our interpersonal relationships? 678 00:31:28,636 --> 00:31:31,556 Like, how the hell do you even do that? 679 00:31:31,598 --> 00:31:33,308 I have a couple friends that are looking 680 00:31:33,349 --> 00:31:35,977 at the silver lining of this 681 00:31:36,019 --> 00:31:38,313 and I understand a little bit of what they're saying 682 00:31:38,354 --> 00:31:39,606 and I think I would understand it more 683 00:31:39,647 --> 00:31:41,941 if I felt more stable. 684 00:31:41,983 --> 00:31:43,735 Like if my job was something 685 00:31:43,776 --> 00:31:46,905 I could do from home, like theirs are. 686 00:31:48,865 --> 00:31:51,618 They're like, "Isn't it interesting 687 00:31:51,659 --> 00:31:52,327 that it's the only time 688 00:31:52,327 --> 00:31:56,205 we're ever gonna get to slow down at the same time." 689 00:31:56,247 --> 00:31:57,123 Okay. 690 00:31:59,375 --> 00:32:02,420 But for me, I don't feel like I am slowing down. 691 00:32:02,462 --> 00:32:03,796 I feel like I'm picking up momentum 692 00:32:03,838 --> 00:32:04,422 in another direction 693 00:32:04,422 --> 00:32:08,676 because I don't know what happens if I don't. 694 00:32:10,970 --> 00:32:12,096 Like, I can't just sit here 695 00:32:12,138 --> 00:32:12,931 and take the unemployment. 696 00:32:12,972 --> 00:32:14,182 That's not me. 697 00:32:16,059 --> 00:32:18,519 - [GAIL] At some point, there's no more change in the jar. 698 00:32:18,561 --> 00:32:19,854 The well is running dry. 699 00:32:19,896 --> 00:32:20,563 And it's like knowing 700 00:32:20,563 --> 00:32:23,983 that you're going to be smacking into a brick wall, 701 00:32:24,025 --> 00:32:26,402 but you cannot change your course. 702 00:32:26,444 --> 00:32:30,949 From a perspective of stress, 703 00:32:30,990 --> 00:32:35,161 we're not meant to live like that 704 00:32:35,203 --> 00:32:37,622 where we have a constant level of anxiety. 705 00:32:37,664 --> 00:32:39,916 that really wreaks havoc on your hormones, 706 00:32:39,958 --> 00:32:41,334 your brain chemistry, 707 00:32:41,376 --> 00:32:42,502 your immune system. 708 00:32:42,543 --> 00:32:45,254 You can literally worry yourself sick. 709 00:32:45,296 --> 00:32:47,173 You have the economic loss. 710 00:32:47,215 --> 00:32:48,466 You even have the issue of, 711 00:32:48,508 --> 00:32:51,844 "Alright, well shit, my restaurant is closed. 712 00:32:51,886 --> 00:32:53,179 Now what do I do? 713 00:32:53,221 --> 00:32:55,473 Who am I now, what am I doing? 714 00:32:55,515 --> 00:32:57,350 How do I define myself? 715 00:32:57,392 --> 00:32:58,017 And it triggers things in people. 716 00:32:58,059 --> 00:33:02,355 I mean, to have that mat pulled out from under them 717 00:33:02,397 --> 00:33:03,523 is bad to begin with, 718 00:33:03,564 --> 00:33:05,858 but if you've got trauma associated 719 00:33:05,900 --> 00:33:10,488 from having losses like that, that's a problem. 720 00:33:10,530 --> 00:33:12,657 [ambulance siren wailing] 721 00:33:12,699 --> 00:33:14,033 - What was I exposed to when I was working? 722 00:33:14,075 --> 00:33:17,787 Even if we do reopen, who's gonna come out? 723 00:33:18,287 --> 00:33:22,709 Are we still going to operate at like, 50% capacity? 724 00:33:22,750 --> 00:33:24,502 Are people gonna have money to spend? 725 00:33:24,544 --> 00:33:25,795 Are they're gonna want to go 726 00:33:25,837 --> 00:33:28,131 and sit in a restaurant after this? 727 00:33:28,172 --> 00:33:30,133 Are we gonna want to be near people? 728 00:33:31,300 --> 00:33:33,469 I don't fucking know. 729 00:33:33,511 --> 00:33:35,763 And then what's that gonna do for our anxiety 730 00:33:35,805 --> 00:33:37,140 on the serving standpoint? 731 00:33:37,181 --> 00:33:38,891 Are we gonna want to... 732 00:33:42,145 --> 00:33:43,688 Are we gonna want to go back to a job where 733 00:33:43,730 --> 00:33:46,149 we're essentially on the frontlines 734 00:33:46,190 --> 00:33:48,192 without being recognized for being on the frontlines? 735 00:33:48,234 --> 00:33:50,319 Because quite literally every day 736 00:33:50,361 --> 00:33:53,239 I touch something someone had their mouth on. 737 00:33:55,450 --> 00:33:57,952 So, what does that look like? 738 00:34:00,121 --> 00:34:01,956 - [MOLLY] I'm kind of waiting for the other shoe to drop. 739 00:34:01,998 --> 00:34:04,292 I'm waiting for something really shitty to happen 740 00:34:04,333 --> 00:34:08,046 and that is where I think my financial stress has come from. 741 00:34:08,087 --> 00:34:09,297 Is waiting for like, 742 00:34:09,338 --> 00:34:10,840 "Fuck, they're just gonna cut it all off." 743 00:34:10,882 --> 00:34:11,507 They're gonna, you know... 744 00:34:11,549 --> 00:34:14,218 "We've run out of money and we're done. Goodbye." 745 00:34:15,261 --> 00:34:17,055 And then I'm fucked. 746 00:34:19,140 --> 00:34:19,849 - [JENA] It's hard not to feel shafted. 747 00:34:19,891 --> 00:34:23,061 And it's also hard, on the same token, to not feel like, 748 00:34:23,102 --> 00:34:24,270 I mean, this is what we do. 749 00:34:24,312 --> 00:34:25,855 We take care of people. 750 00:34:25,897 --> 00:34:27,523 So the fact that we're taking care of people 751 00:34:27,565 --> 00:34:31,277 by not taking care of people is pretty indicative 752 00:34:31,319 --> 00:34:34,072 of what the hospitality community does. 753 00:34:34,113 --> 00:34:36,574 We've already bailed out the banks twice and whatever else, 754 00:34:36,616 --> 00:34:37,325 and it's fucking true. 755 00:34:37,325 --> 00:34:39,452 It's like, when are we gonna bail out the little guys? 756 00:34:39,494 --> 00:34:40,870 When are we going to bail out the businesses 757 00:34:40,912 --> 00:34:42,205 that you love to go to? 758 00:34:42,246 --> 00:34:44,207 It's astronomical, the amount of restaurants 759 00:34:44,248 --> 00:34:45,708 that are in the city 760 00:34:45,750 --> 00:34:46,250 and like, what it takes 761 00:34:46,292 --> 00:34:49,504 to even make it a year as a restaurant, 762 00:34:49,545 --> 00:34:50,254 versus what it takes to make it 763 00:34:50,254 --> 00:34:53,049 as many years as a lot of these places have been open. 764 00:34:53,091 --> 00:34:57,095 And then to watch that go away in a matter of days... 765 00:34:57,136 --> 00:34:58,930 it's fucking rough. 766 00:34:58,971 --> 00:35:00,765 I went to bed at 9:00 the other day, 767 00:35:00,807 --> 00:35:02,892 which is really rare for me, 768 00:35:02,934 --> 00:35:04,852 just because I couldn't stay awake. 769 00:35:04,894 --> 00:35:07,105 Physically, I'm fine. 770 00:35:07,146 --> 00:35:08,940 I mean, I know that's a sign of depression, 771 00:35:08,981 --> 00:35:13,402 so that's why I've been trying to sit outside 772 00:35:13,444 --> 00:35:14,529 because, you know, at the very least, 773 00:35:14,570 --> 00:35:16,447 a little vitamin D might go a long way. 774 00:35:16,489 --> 00:35:17,782 You know, I don't hear my neighbors anymore. 775 00:35:17,824 --> 00:35:18,908 I just hear sirens. 776 00:35:18,950 --> 00:35:22,286 [ambulance siren wailing] 777 00:35:22,328 --> 00:35:23,788 - [GAIL] Falling asleep early, 778 00:35:23,830 --> 00:35:27,458 all that stress is definitely, it's tiresome. 779 00:35:27,500 --> 00:35:29,168 It makes you very fatigued. 780 00:35:29,210 --> 00:35:31,170 Sleep is a place where you can go, 781 00:35:31,212 --> 00:35:31,838 where if you're lucky, 782 00:35:31,879 --> 00:35:34,799 maybe your brain will shut for just a little while. 783 00:35:34,841 --> 00:35:37,760 Depression is very close to anxiety. 784 00:35:37,802 --> 00:35:41,639 Very often people that are anxious are also depressed, 785 00:35:41,681 --> 00:35:44,976 people that are depressed are also very anxious. 786 00:35:45,726 --> 00:35:49,272 - It's hard that a lot of us don't want to get up anymore 787 00:35:49,313 --> 00:35:50,189 and do it. 788 00:35:50,648 --> 00:35:53,943 I really didn't want to for the past couple of days, 789 00:35:53,985 --> 00:35:57,947 but I've been trying to make myself do creative stuff 790 00:35:57,989 --> 00:36:02,743 and work stuff and focus on something. 791 00:36:02,785 --> 00:36:03,786 - The larger question is, 792 00:36:03,828 --> 00:36:05,538 "Well, how do I come out of this? 793 00:36:05,580 --> 00:36:07,707 What if my restaurant doesn't reopen? 794 00:36:07,748 --> 00:36:10,918 What if my bar doesn't reopen? What next?" 795 00:36:10,960 --> 00:36:14,463 So on top of it, people need to start to think about, 796 00:36:14,505 --> 00:36:16,299 "How am I going to survive? 797 00:36:16,340 --> 00:36:17,592 What do I do here? 798 00:36:17,633 --> 00:36:20,845 How am I going to reinvent myself?" 799 00:36:20,887 --> 00:36:25,349 - [JENA] I've always wanted my own cooking cocktail show. 800 00:36:25,391 --> 00:36:27,226 So, fuck it, I'm gonna do it. 801 00:36:27,268 --> 00:36:28,102 I don't know how to do it, 802 00:36:28,144 --> 00:36:29,979 but I'm gonna figure it out. 803 00:36:30,021 --> 00:36:31,898 - And I got 13 minutes 'till I need to make sure 804 00:36:31,939 --> 00:36:33,774 I'm logged in and watching her. 805 00:36:38,529 --> 00:36:42,825 - I took a quarter of a Xanax about an hour ago 806 00:36:42,867 --> 00:36:46,913 'cause yeah, it felt a little heavy and I have to perform. 807 00:36:47,830 --> 00:36:50,374 So, this feels a little nutty 808 00:36:50,416 --> 00:36:52,126 to be totally done up 809 00:36:52,168 --> 00:36:55,296 and in my apartment with no shoes on. 810 00:36:56,672 --> 00:36:58,883 And yeah, I was like, 811 00:36:58,925 --> 00:37:00,468 "Well, I already committed to doing this 812 00:37:00,509 --> 00:37:02,720 so I better fucking do it." 813 00:37:02,762 --> 00:37:04,805 So, I'm going to, first off, 814 00:37:04,847 --> 00:37:07,975 I'm going to show you how to make a honey syrup 815 00:37:08,017 --> 00:37:10,811 because I feel like we all have some honey in our cupboards. 816 00:37:10,853 --> 00:37:13,522 Yeah. Happy Wednesday! 817 00:37:13,564 --> 00:37:15,650 Little workout for you there. 818 00:37:15,691 --> 00:37:19,528 And I'm gonna put four ice cubes in here 819 00:37:19,570 --> 00:37:24,116 and grab my lid and shake. 820 00:37:24,158 --> 00:37:27,286 [ice cubes rattling] 821 00:37:27,745 --> 00:37:31,290 Right on into my rocks glass. Cheers! 822 00:37:33,626 --> 00:37:35,920 Today feels like a bourbon day. 823 00:37:35,962 --> 00:37:39,423 So, I'm gonna use an ounce and a half of Old Forester. 824 00:37:39,465 --> 00:37:41,217 This is their 86. 825 00:37:41,259 --> 00:37:44,387 - I just use liquid as my paint palette. 826 00:37:47,848 --> 00:37:50,434 I'm lucky in that I can keep doing it here. 827 00:37:50,476 --> 00:37:51,560 And I'm going to... 828 00:37:51,602 --> 00:37:52,937 I've been filming these videos 829 00:37:52,979 --> 00:37:55,731 which people seem to be liking, 830 00:37:55,773 --> 00:37:58,192 and that's letting me share that part 831 00:37:58,234 --> 00:38:00,152 and like, how you can make things fancy, 832 00:38:00,194 --> 00:38:01,779 but you're at home. 833 00:38:01,821 --> 00:38:04,073 Just kinda sell the fantasy here. 834 00:38:04,115 --> 00:38:06,117 So, why don't I just go ahead 835 00:38:06,158 --> 00:38:07,451 and put on something fun 836 00:38:07,493 --> 00:38:09,912 and show you how to make a drink 837 00:38:09,954 --> 00:38:10,955 you wanna make. 838 00:38:10,997 --> 00:38:12,915 Make you forget where you are. 839 00:38:12,957 --> 00:38:16,085 And I didn't think I was doing a public service 840 00:38:16,127 --> 00:38:19,088 until I started getting messages from people 841 00:38:19,130 --> 00:38:21,757 that were like, "Thank you, I look forward to these. 842 00:38:23,175 --> 00:38:25,970 This is like, what I want to be watching right now." 843 00:38:26,012 --> 00:38:27,972 It's giving me a focus. 844 00:38:28,931 --> 00:38:30,558 Right over the top, 845 00:38:31,684 --> 00:38:34,562 with the outside facing up. 846 00:38:34,603 --> 00:38:36,522 To the perfect Manhattan! 847 00:38:37,565 --> 00:38:38,357 My friend Willie, 848 00:38:38,399 --> 00:38:39,400 who works at Diamond Dogs, 849 00:38:39,442 --> 00:38:41,110 he's a rapper. 850 00:38:41,152 --> 00:38:42,695 So he was like, "Yo, by the time I'm done with this 851 00:38:42,737 --> 00:38:44,947 I'm pretty sure I'm gonna have two albums." 852 00:38:44,989 --> 00:38:46,991 - The financial... 853 00:38:47,033 --> 00:38:48,284 that shit sucks. 854 00:38:48,326 --> 00:38:49,660 I'm used to being broke. 855 00:38:49,702 --> 00:38:51,412 I'll figure it out. 856 00:38:51,454 --> 00:38:52,705 I'm Black in America. 857 00:38:52,747 --> 00:38:55,416 I'm not gonna complain about that shit. 858 00:38:55,458 --> 00:38:56,876 I'll make it work. 859 00:38:56,917 --> 00:38:58,377 We always fucking have. 860 00:38:58,419 --> 00:39:00,254 Okay, so I have one album recorded. 861 00:39:00,296 --> 00:39:01,797 I have two albums written. 862 00:39:01,839 --> 00:39:03,758 So altogether three. 863 00:39:03,799 --> 00:39:05,509 Three albums that are almost completed 864 00:39:05,551 --> 00:39:07,511 in some form over this. 865 00:39:07,553 --> 00:39:10,556 Music is what I do when I'm not at work 866 00:39:10,598 --> 00:39:13,309 and I'm not at work. 867 00:39:13,351 --> 00:39:16,520 Okay, this is what you always say you want to do. 868 00:39:16,562 --> 00:39:17,855 You say you want to do it. 869 00:39:17,897 --> 00:39:18,689 You've been on tour. 870 00:39:18,731 --> 00:39:19,690 You put out the records, 871 00:39:19,732 --> 00:39:20,900 get the pat on the back. 872 00:39:20,941 --> 00:39:23,152 You have a little bit of fan base. 873 00:39:23,194 --> 00:39:23,611 You say you want to do it, 874 00:39:23,611 --> 00:39:25,696 but you don't have enough time. 875 00:39:25,738 --> 00:39:27,114 Every day you say you want to do it, 876 00:39:27,156 --> 00:39:28,866 you don't have enough time. 877 00:39:28,908 --> 00:39:30,868 Congratulations, motherfucker. 878 00:39:30,910 --> 00:39:33,788 Here's what you have. Time. 879 00:39:33,829 --> 00:39:35,247 ♪ Only half of my tragedy is true and a half ♪ 880 00:39:35,289 --> 00:39:37,375 ♪ Only half of it is used and it's not a mirror ♪ 881 00:39:37,416 --> 00:39:37,958 ♪ I'm shaking your hand proving ♪ 882 00:39:37,958 --> 00:39:38,709 ♪ I'm not the world's biggest liar ♪ 883 00:39:38,751 --> 00:39:41,879 ♪ Whose pants on fire like half these kids in high school ♪ 884 00:39:41,921 --> 00:39:43,756 ♪ I know, call me stupid leads me to tics ♪ 885 00:39:43,798 --> 00:39:45,424 ♪ but they're proving stupid is multicolored ♪ 886 00:39:45,466 --> 00:39:46,092 ♪ and that's more realistic ♪ 887 00:39:46,092 --> 00:39:48,094 ♪ than what's in between the index and thumb ♪ 888 00:39:48,135 --> 00:39:49,470 ♪ is okay instead of nothing ♪ 889 00:39:49,512 --> 00:39:53,391 So I'll take my stool, usually set up my phone 890 00:39:53,933 --> 00:39:58,187 and play the same beat for over an hour 891 00:39:58,229 --> 00:40:02,191 and basically scream like a mad man into the sky 892 00:40:02,233 --> 00:40:04,735 as I work on the lyrics. 893 00:40:04,777 --> 00:40:07,196 The neighbors don't like it, but fuck 'em. 894 00:40:07,238 --> 00:40:08,614 I'm just saying that because 895 00:40:08,656 --> 00:40:10,616 that's the type of person I am, fuck 'em anyway, 896 00:40:10,658 --> 00:40:11,450 plus I'm moving. 897 00:40:11,492 --> 00:40:12,076 So fuck 'em. 898 00:40:12,118 --> 00:40:14,203 Like, what are you gonna do? Complain about my... 899 00:40:16,163 --> 00:40:16,580 Complain to my landlord? 900 00:40:16,580 --> 00:40:18,207 Eat shit, I don't care. Fuck it. 901 00:40:18,249 --> 00:40:20,584 You might hear something you like. 902 00:40:20,626 --> 00:40:21,085 And if it comes out out of 903 00:40:21,127 --> 00:40:22,711 somebody's radio, somebody's car, 904 00:40:22,753 --> 00:40:24,213 you go, "Man, I remember I used to live 905 00:40:24,255 --> 00:40:26,715 right below this asshole. That's him." 906 00:40:26,757 --> 00:40:28,175 ♪ The terrible truth, clothed and naked ♪ 907 00:40:28,217 --> 00:40:28,968 ♪ but won't accept that the slings of arrows ♪ 908 00:40:29,009 --> 00:40:32,179 ♪ pushing him into an anti-hero positions in the worst way ♪ 909 00:40:32,221 --> 00:40:32,972 ♪ but life's a bitch ♪ 910 00:40:32,972 --> 00:40:36,308 I reverted back to something an art teacher in high school 911 00:40:36,350 --> 00:40:36,976 called an "art attack." 912 00:40:37,017 --> 00:40:39,895 It's what you just need to do something creative. 913 00:40:39,937 --> 00:40:43,149 You have to get it out while it's there. 914 00:40:43,190 --> 00:40:44,942 - I'm doing something kind of similar as you. 915 00:40:44,984 --> 00:40:49,029 We've been recording and interviewing and documenting. 916 00:40:49,071 --> 00:40:52,658 And that provides us a way to do some skills that we have 917 00:40:52,700 --> 00:40:54,326 that we feel may be able to help 918 00:40:54,368 --> 00:40:56,912 if someone can watch these interviews, 919 00:40:56,954 --> 00:40:59,081 a year later or two years later, 920 00:40:59,123 --> 00:41:00,499 whenever it comes out. 921 00:41:00,541 --> 00:41:04,336 And that's been keeping my mind sane. 922 00:41:04,378 --> 00:41:05,921 - I mean, a lot of us fell into this industry 923 00:41:05,963 --> 00:41:08,257 to supplement something else. 924 00:41:08,299 --> 00:41:10,259 And the longer that you're in it 925 00:41:10,301 --> 00:41:15,014 or the more you decide to become part of this industry, 926 00:41:15,055 --> 00:41:19,852 you don't always get to keep the rest of yourself active. 927 00:41:20,853 --> 00:41:23,022 What's happening right now 928 00:41:23,063 --> 00:41:26,400 with me and Mike, Willie 929 00:41:26,442 --> 00:41:28,819 you took some creative people, 930 00:41:28,861 --> 00:41:29,361 who get to be creative 931 00:41:29,403 --> 00:41:32,031 when they have the time to be creative. 932 00:41:32,072 --> 00:41:33,908 You gave them the time to be creative 933 00:41:33,949 --> 00:41:37,077 because you don't have time to do anything else. 934 00:41:37,119 --> 00:41:39,288 You feel guilty taking advantage of this time, 935 00:41:39,330 --> 00:41:40,998 and then you feel guilty if you don't, 936 00:41:41,040 --> 00:41:41,582 but then you get paralyzed 937 00:41:41,624 --> 00:41:44,293 by the idea that like, people are dying. 938 00:41:44,335 --> 00:41:46,170 People you know are dying. 939 00:41:46,212 --> 00:41:48,839 [somber music] 940 00:41:50,257 --> 00:41:53,385 - [JENA] My friend's cousin passed away 941 00:41:53,427 --> 00:41:55,804 and that always hits home. 942 00:41:55,846 --> 00:41:58,599 My friend's mom has stage four lung cancer 943 00:41:58,641 --> 00:42:01,185 and just tested positive, um... 944 00:42:01,227 --> 00:42:05,272 and she's only been outside twice in two months. 945 00:42:06,315 --> 00:42:07,816 My friend I talked to last night, 946 00:42:07,858 --> 00:42:10,611 her grandmother is in assisted living 947 00:42:10,653 --> 00:42:14,031 and she's in lockdown in her room 948 00:42:14,073 --> 00:42:16,492 'cause one of the aides had it and gave it to someone. 949 00:42:16,534 --> 00:42:19,245 I got an email from my boss saying 950 00:42:19,286 --> 00:42:24,291 that one of our co-workers from one of our locations 951 00:42:24,333 --> 00:42:25,626 just passed away. 952 00:42:25,668 --> 00:42:28,295 He just died at Elmhurst today. 953 00:42:28,837 --> 00:42:33,759 So it just like, feels like a gut punch every other minute. 954 00:42:35,052 --> 00:42:36,554 - My buddy Jeff lost his mom. 955 00:42:36,595 --> 00:42:39,348 My buddy Victor lost his stepfather. 956 00:42:39,390 --> 00:42:41,475 And the list just kept growing 957 00:42:41,517 --> 00:42:42,810 and kept growing 958 00:42:42,851 --> 00:42:45,938 and it just adds to the anxiety 959 00:42:45,980 --> 00:42:48,023 that the death happening 960 00:42:48,649 --> 00:42:53,779 was very prominent, especially here in Queens. 961 00:42:53,821 --> 00:42:56,824 There've been a lot of people near 962 00:42:56,865 --> 00:42:58,617 and dear to us 963 00:42:58,659 --> 00:43:01,745 that have been losing family members left and right. 964 00:43:01,787 --> 00:43:03,664 The death is prominent 965 00:43:03,706 --> 00:43:07,501 and the financial is, it's like insult to injury. 966 00:43:09,086 --> 00:43:10,546 It's just like 967 00:43:10,588 --> 00:43:13,507 that knife that just twists in you. 968 00:43:15,301 --> 00:43:16,760 - It's stressful. 969 00:43:19,346 --> 00:43:21,265 It's lonely. 970 00:43:25,477 --> 00:43:27,521 It doesn't feel natural. 971 00:43:27,563 --> 00:43:29,064 It doesn't feel like this is the way 972 00:43:29,106 --> 00:43:31,984 things are supposed to be. 973 00:43:32,026 --> 00:43:35,237 Trying to talk myself out of 974 00:43:36,739 --> 00:43:40,242 falling into a, uh... 975 00:43:40,284 --> 00:43:43,746 a vortex of depression and despair over it. 976 00:43:43,787 --> 00:43:45,956 I already have depression. 977 00:43:45,998 --> 00:43:48,250 I'm treated for it. 978 00:43:48,292 --> 00:43:51,545 And I know what happens in the past, 979 00:43:51,587 --> 00:43:55,299 what has happened when I tend to let the vortex take over 980 00:43:55,341 --> 00:43:58,427 and I don't want to get to that point. 981 00:43:58,469 --> 00:44:01,138 It's just not a good place for me to be. 982 00:44:01,180 --> 00:44:05,768 - You have the anxiety of... people are really dying. 983 00:44:05,809 --> 00:44:08,562 And for me I'm like, people are really dying 984 00:44:08,604 --> 00:44:11,982 and all my family's over 700 miles away. 985 00:44:13,359 --> 00:44:14,818 So, I have no job. 986 00:44:15,444 --> 00:44:20,032 Not sure what type of money is coming in next. 987 00:44:20,074 --> 00:44:22,826 Not sure if I'm gonna get sick. 988 00:44:22,868 --> 00:44:24,286 If somebody else gets sick, 989 00:44:24,328 --> 00:44:28,374 I have to watch them get sick through a camera phone. 990 00:44:28,415 --> 00:44:29,583 It's like being kidnapped. 991 00:44:29,625 --> 00:44:31,877 When my aunt passed it was just like... 992 00:44:33,671 --> 00:44:34,922 You gotta, you know... 993 00:44:36,256 --> 00:44:39,051 I don't know, I haven't processed yet. 994 00:44:39,093 --> 00:44:40,803 You know, she was... she was elderly. 995 00:44:40,844 --> 00:44:44,264 So, that's supposed to make it sound good with statistics. 996 00:44:44,306 --> 00:44:46,100 Like, statistics, you know... 997 00:44:46,141 --> 00:44:48,185 Like, reading statistics will help you hold back tears. 998 00:44:48,227 --> 00:44:50,521 It doesn't. But I haven't processed it yet. 999 00:44:50,562 --> 00:44:53,315 We're still in the middle of the firefight. 1000 00:44:53,857 --> 00:44:56,151 - [REPORTER] Mental health and illness 1001 00:44:56,193 --> 00:44:56,860 often are underfunded 1002 00:44:56,860 --> 00:45:00,698 and under treated in the American healthcare system. 1003 00:45:00,739 --> 00:45:03,951 Those concerns are especially magnified now 1004 00:45:03,992 --> 00:45:06,829 during this extended period of self-isolation, 1005 00:45:06,870 --> 00:45:09,164 quarantines and shutdowns. 1006 00:45:09,665 --> 00:45:12,751 - I'll talk to friends who have similar... 1007 00:45:14,420 --> 00:45:19,466 similar mindsets or struggles with mental health. 1008 00:45:19,508 --> 00:45:21,844 Knowing that you're not alone in it 1009 00:45:21,885 --> 00:45:24,972 and knowing that other people are feeling similar 1010 00:45:25,013 --> 00:45:26,807 or having their own struggles 1011 00:45:26,849 --> 00:45:29,893 and maybe can help out with something with that. 1012 00:45:29,935 --> 00:45:34,857 I don't know, but it's important to talk to people, I think. 1013 00:45:34,898 --> 00:45:38,527 When things get really bad in your head, 1014 00:45:38,569 --> 00:45:43,157 you got to reach out and got to talk to somebody. 1015 00:45:43,198 --> 00:45:46,744 Nobody knows how to handle this right now. 1016 00:45:48,704 --> 00:45:49,997 - [MOLLY] I won't go by the skate park. 1017 00:45:50,038 --> 00:45:51,206 I won't go by the track. 1018 00:45:51,248 --> 00:45:52,249 That's insane. 1019 00:45:52,291 --> 00:45:53,375 There are always at least, like 1020 00:45:53,417 --> 00:45:56,253 a hundred people on the track. 1021 00:45:56,295 --> 00:46:00,257 I don't begrudge anybody for going outside at all, 1022 00:46:00,299 --> 00:46:03,635 but I don't understand why 1023 00:46:05,220 --> 00:46:05,721 certain people don't seem 1024 00:46:05,721 --> 00:46:08,599 to be really taking this seriously. 1025 00:46:08,640 --> 00:46:10,893 And it's bothersome because 1026 00:46:10,934 --> 00:46:13,896 how are we going to get past this 1027 00:46:13,937 --> 00:46:18,275 if we all don't do what we're supposed to do? 1028 00:46:18,317 --> 00:46:20,944 [somber music] 1029 00:46:22,780 --> 00:46:25,699 - [JENA] You don't wanna be near people. 1030 00:46:25,741 --> 00:46:27,075 You don't wanna touch people. 1031 00:46:27,117 --> 00:46:29,203 You feel like you might be infected. 1032 00:46:29,244 --> 00:46:31,622 Seeing people without masks on the street, 1033 00:46:31,663 --> 00:46:33,248 it hits that part of my head again 1034 00:46:33,290 --> 00:46:34,875 that's like, fight or flight. 1035 00:46:56,605 --> 00:46:59,483 - [JENA] I was kinda hoping I had some antibodies. [laughs] 1036 00:46:59,900 --> 00:47:03,362 There's a little peace of mind in knowing 1037 00:47:03,403 --> 00:47:07,574 that I'm not consciously carrying it around. 1038 00:47:07,616 --> 00:47:09,493 I can't believe that I wasn't exposed to it. 1039 00:47:09,535 --> 00:47:11,328 Like, I'm really baffled. 1040 00:47:11,370 --> 00:47:13,080 - [REPORTER] Across New York, 1041 00:47:13,121 --> 00:47:15,499 the rate of hospitalizations is falling, 1042 00:47:15,541 --> 00:47:16,875 giving a glimmer of hope 1043 00:47:16,917 --> 00:47:18,752 the worst could be over. 1044 00:47:18,794 --> 00:47:21,505 - We were absolutely on the trajectory 1045 00:47:21,547 --> 00:47:25,050 for overwhelming the capacity of the healthcare system, 1046 00:47:25,092 --> 00:47:28,470 and it was only because the actions were taken 1047 00:47:28,512 --> 00:47:30,973 to limit social interaction, 1048 00:47:31,014 --> 00:47:32,850 that it was able to stop. 1049 00:47:32,891 --> 00:47:33,392 - [DR. GELCETER] Definitely helped. 1050 00:47:33,433 --> 00:47:35,686 You just imagine sitting elbow-to-elbow 1051 00:47:35,727 --> 00:47:37,646 with somebody and somebody coughs. 1052 00:47:37,688 --> 00:47:39,523 You hear it all the time. 1053 00:47:39,565 --> 00:47:42,025 People start sneezing. 1054 00:47:42,067 --> 00:47:45,404 That will infect a large number of people. 1055 00:47:45,445 --> 00:47:49,449 So, close proximity and one sick person 1056 00:47:49,491 --> 00:47:51,869 puts a lot of people at risk. 1057 00:47:51,910 --> 00:47:55,038 So, closing close proximity businesses 1058 00:47:57,374 --> 00:47:59,585 will obviously diminish the risk of people 1059 00:47:59,626 --> 00:48:01,461 infecting other people. 1060 00:48:01,503 --> 00:48:03,380 - The worst case scenario 1061 00:48:03,422 --> 00:48:06,508 is we would have run out of 1062 00:48:08,510 --> 00:48:13,640 equipment, space and personnel to care for the sick. 1063 00:48:13,682 --> 00:48:16,518 And then you have people dying needlessly. 1064 00:48:16,560 --> 00:48:18,270 - [REPORTER] A landmark day here in New York. 1065 00:48:18,312 --> 00:48:20,772 After nearly three months of stay at home orders, 1066 00:48:20,814 --> 00:48:23,817 the city is entering phase one of reopening. 1067 00:48:23,859 --> 00:48:25,152 - We bent the curve. 1068 00:48:25,193 --> 00:48:27,779 We intended to flatten to get to a plateau. 1069 00:48:27,821 --> 00:48:31,074 We bent it and look at the rest of the country. 1070 00:48:31,116 --> 00:48:33,118 We are curve benders. 1071 00:48:33,160 --> 00:48:34,620 - I keep it going. 1072 00:48:34,661 --> 00:48:35,829 I keep the sacrifice going. 1073 00:48:35,871 --> 00:48:36,955 I don't give a shit. 1074 00:48:36,997 --> 00:48:37,497 I don't give a shit. 1075 00:48:37,497 --> 00:48:40,500 I don't want anyone to come in here 1076 00:48:40,542 --> 00:48:43,837 and get sick and spread it to their loved ones. 1077 00:48:43,879 --> 00:48:45,839 I don't, I don't care. 1078 00:48:45,881 --> 00:48:48,884 It sucks. It hurts. 1079 00:48:48,926 --> 00:48:50,260 It's more important 1080 00:48:50,302 --> 00:48:55,349 that we have our regulars to come back to us 1081 00:48:55,599 --> 00:48:58,226 when we're finally in the clear of all this. 1082 00:48:58,268 --> 00:49:02,856 - Since the collapse of the hospitality industry, 1083 00:49:02,898 --> 00:49:05,943 I've been moonlighting as a delivery person 1084 00:49:05,984 --> 00:49:08,487 and I can't tell you how many times 1085 00:49:08,528 --> 00:49:10,405 I've delivered to hospitals, 1086 00:49:10,447 --> 00:49:13,283 I've delivered to just residential, 1087 00:49:13,325 --> 00:49:16,453 and how many times folks will say to me, 1088 00:49:16,495 --> 00:49:18,747 "Thank you so much for doing this." 1089 00:49:18,789 --> 00:49:20,082 And at first I'm just like, 1090 00:49:20,123 --> 00:49:22,125 "I'm not doing anything. 1091 00:49:22,167 --> 00:49:24,670 I'm just delivering your food." 1092 00:49:24,711 --> 00:49:25,253 And they're like, 1093 00:49:25,295 --> 00:49:30,509 "No, you're helping us all stay afloat." 1094 00:49:30,550 --> 00:49:31,218 - I don't care how long it takes. 1095 00:49:31,259 --> 00:49:36,014 I want to be able to give our regulars massive hugs 1096 00:49:36,056 --> 00:49:37,933 when this is all done. 1097 00:49:38,767 --> 00:49:39,810 Financially, 1098 00:49:41,395 --> 00:49:43,480 fuck it, we're gonna hold on as long as we can. 1099 00:49:43,522 --> 00:49:48,568 I'm gonna fight tooth and nail to keep this place alive. 1100 00:49:49,027 --> 00:49:52,072 - It's a lot to tell somebody that, 1101 00:49:52,114 --> 00:49:55,409 today your life is going regular 1102 00:49:55,450 --> 00:49:58,745 and tomorrow your life just isn't that. 1103 00:49:59,663 --> 00:50:01,790 And it wasn't your fault. 1104 00:50:03,041 --> 00:50:06,003 Like none of this is your fault, 1105 00:50:06,044 --> 00:50:09,214 but by you not being able to do what you do, 1106 00:50:09,256 --> 00:50:11,091 it keeps this from happening. 1107 00:50:11,133 --> 00:50:13,427 I don't know if we're heroes, 1108 00:50:13,468 --> 00:50:15,429 the fact that you have to deal with it. 1109 00:50:15,470 --> 00:50:16,930 It's crazy and thank you for it. 1110 00:50:16,972 --> 00:50:19,933 Thank you for frontline workers for saying that. 1111 00:50:19,975 --> 00:50:22,019 I truly appreciate that. 1112 00:50:22,519 --> 00:50:27,816 'Cause I still got people telling me to get a real job. 1113 00:50:27,858 --> 00:50:29,443 - [JENA] When it's not your industry 1114 00:50:29,484 --> 00:50:32,904 and you're able to sit in front of your laptop 1115 00:50:32,946 --> 00:50:33,655 and then go out, 1116 00:50:33,697 --> 00:50:38,035 I think your perspective is a little different than mine 1117 00:50:38,076 --> 00:50:43,040 or somebody that works at the hospital or the grocery store 1118 00:50:43,540 --> 00:50:47,961 or somebody who owned a pilates studio. 1119 00:50:49,921 --> 00:50:52,466 That's a very special kind of insulation 1120 00:50:52,507 --> 00:50:54,092 to not, for a second, 1121 00:50:54,134 --> 00:50:57,554 wonder what the cost is, 1122 00:50:59,639 --> 00:51:01,683 not just physically, 1123 00:51:01,725 --> 00:51:03,894 but mentally to the people 1124 00:51:03,935 --> 00:51:07,939 that are gonna be getting us back to normal. 1125 00:51:07,981 --> 00:51:12,110 And I don't know the answer to any of that. 1126 00:51:12,152 --> 00:51:14,112 I know that I've been really tired the past couple of days, 1127 00:51:14,154 --> 00:51:17,324 and I know that I have no business being tired 1128 00:51:17,365 --> 00:51:19,826 so I'm probably just depressed. 1129 00:51:19,868 --> 00:51:24,289 - [JON] Bars are a part of the metropolitan network of 1130 00:51:25,999 --> 00:51:30,003 entities and artistic organizations 1131 00:51:30,045 --> 00:51:34,299 and businesses that draw people to cities, 1132 00:51:34,341 --> 00:51:36,635 and that's a really 1133 00:51:37,469 --> 00:51:41,264 complexly organized system. 1134 00:51:41,306 --> 00:51:45,811 So, people who come to New York to act on Broadway, 1135 00:51:45,852 --> 00:51:47,854 they get a job as a waiter. 1136 00:51:47,896 --> 00:51:50,982 Or, people who come to play music, 1137 00:51:51,024 --> 00:51:52,859 get a job as a bartender. 1138 00:51:52,901 --> 00:51:54,861 And so in that way, 1139 00:51:54,903 --> 00:51:59,157 all of these different aspects of life in New York, 1140 00:51:59,199 --> 00:52:01,076 the things that bring people to New York: 1141 00:52:01,118 --> 00:52:04,704 metropolitan life, cosmopolitan life, the arts, 1142 00:52:04,746 --> 00:52:06,540 nightlife all of this stuff, 1143 00:52:06,581 --> 00:52:08,625 they're interwoven with each other. 1144 00:52:08,667 --> 00:52:11,336 Once you take bars and restaurants out of that, 1145 00:52:11,378 --> 00:52:14,047 they're a huge employer of artists. 1146 00:52:14,089 --> 00:52:16,716 What's gonna happen to the artists? 1147 00:52:18,718 --> 00:52:23,348 - When people needed money to bury a relative, 1148 00:52:23,390 --> 00:52:25,183 the local bar helped. 1149 00:52:25,600 --> 00:52:28,478 Places when you couldn't afford a wedding chapel, 1150 00:52:28,520 --> 00:52:30,397 the local bar helped. 1151 00:52:30,438 --> 00:52:32,983 When you didn't have food at the crib, 1152 00:52:33,024 --> 00:52:35,152 the kitchen gave you what they had. 1153 00:52:35,193 --> 00:52:38,822 Your kid's first job is a dishwasher here. 1154 00:52:39,239 --> 00:52:43,118 It's one of the structures of American life 1155 00:52:43,160 --> 00:52:45,453 from the 20th century that we all know means something, 1156 00:52:45,495 --> 00:52:47,873 but we all take for granted. 1157 00:52:47,914 --> 00:52:50,500 - You may end up with a situation like the 1970s, 1158 00:52:50,542 --> 00:52:51,084 where there was a lot 1159 00:52:51,126 --> 00:52:54,337 of amazing underground art being produced 1160 00:52:54,379 --> 00:52:57,757 in rundown sections of the city. 1161 00:52:57,799 --> 00:53:00,260 If you recall what the Lower East Side used to be like 1162 00:53:00,302 --> 00:53:03,013 and it gave birth to punk and all kinds 1163 00:53:03,054 --> 00:53:05,390 of incredible artistic activities. 1164 00:53:05,432 --> 00:53:08,101 And so it's conceivable that a New York hollowed out 1165 00:53:08,143 --> 00:53:10,645 by the virus could end up generating 1166 00:53:10,687 --> 00:53:13,023 that kind of original, 1167 00:53:14,232 --> 00:53:16,860 vivid, vibrant underground art. 1168 00:53:18,195 --> 00:53:22,741 I'm optimistic that art will find a way. 1169 00:53:22,782 --> 00:53:25,619 It's its own weird kind of virus that we can't live without, 1170 00:53:25,660 --> 00:53:27,579 and that it will find its way 1171 00:53:27,621 --> 00:53:31,666 even in a city that's been ravaged by the virus. 1172 00:53:32,125 --> 00:53:37,631 - We've had so much death around us here in Queens. 1173 00:53:37,756 --> 00:53:41,468 I will gladly continue to take that financial hit 1174 00:53:41,509 --> 00:53:46,514 If it means the people we love get to keep their loved ones. 1175 00:53:46,848 --> 00:53:49,017 I mean, money is money. 1176 00:53:49,059 --> 00:53:52,938 It'll be replaced at some point I hope, 1177 00:53:52,979 --> 00:53:56,149 but the loved ones 1178 00:53:56,191 --> 00:53:59,069 that are currently hooked up, 1179 00:53:59,110 --> 00:54:01,863 deteriorating as we say this. 1180 00:54:01,905 --> 00:54:03,531 That our friends were saying like, 1181 00:54:03,573 --> 00:54:06,451 "Please keep us in your thoughts." 1182 00:54:07,702 --> 00:54:09,663 How do you remedy that? 1183 00:54:10,288 --> 00:54:14,459 - What's the landscape gonna be like afterwards? 1184 00:54:14,501 --> 00:54:18,380 I expect really that there is going to be a big uptick 1185 00:54:18,421 --> 00:54:21,466 in people that have depression, anxiety, 1186 00:54:21,508 --> 00:54:23,885 have prolonged PTSD. 1187 00:54:23,927 --> 00:54:26,221 10, 20% of the population 1188 00:54:26,263 --> 00:54:28,598 will have longer-term symptomatology 1189 00:54:28,640 --> 00:54:31,601 that's in line with PTSD from this. 1190 00:54:32,018 --> 00:54:33,478 - [WILLIE] I'll say it flat out, 1191 00:54:33,520 --> 00:54:34,145 you're a real asshole 1192 00:54:34,187 --> 00:54:36,314 if you're only thinking about yourself right now. 1193 00:54:36,356 --> 00:54:38,650 We're not all suffering the same way, 1194 00:54:38,692 --> 00:54:40,860 but not everybody you know is doing alright, 1195 00:54:40,902 --> 00:54:42,821 unless you're that fucking fortunate. 1196 00:54:42,862 --> 00:54:47,158 Then God bless you, you distant motherfucker. 1197 00:54:47,200 --> 00:54:48,702 - [GAIL] I also suspect that there's gonna 1198 00:54:48,743 --> 00:54:50,578 be an increase in suicides. 1199 00:54:50,620 --> 00:54:53,915 There's gonna be an increase in substance use disorders. 1200 00:54:53,957 --> 00:54:55,709 And I think this is gonna resonate with people 1201 00:54:55,750 --> 00:54:57,210 for a long while. 1202 00:54:57,752 --> 00:55:00,380 Normal is a very big room right about now. 1203 00:55:00,422 --> 00:55:03,675 Whatever you're feeling, it's okay. 1204 00:55:03,717 --> 00:55:04,301 It's okay. 1205 00:55:04,301 --> 00:55:07,053 It's normal right now not to feel normal. 1206 00:55:07,095 --> 00:55:10,640 We're in very abnormal situation. 1207 00:55:10,682 --> 00:55:13,560 So, I think that people on the whole 1208 00:55:13,601 --> 00:55:16,313 should go easy on themselves. 1209 00:55:16,354 --> 00:55:18,481 - [NICCI] Those who want to come back 1210 00:55:18,523 --> 00:55:21,443 are going to be risking their lives, 1211 00:55:21,484 --> 00:55:26,281 not knowing the development of this disease going forward, 1212 00:55:26,323 --> 00:55:27,741 this virus going forward. 1213 00:55:27,782 --> 00:55:32,037 So, anybody who really has the balls to come back 1214 00:55:32,078 --> 00:55:34,539 to the hospitality industry, 1215 00:55:34,581 --> 00:55:38,793 I personally will greet them with open arms 1216 00:55:38,835 --> 00:55:41,755 because they are going to be putting their life on the line 1217 00:55:41,796 --> 00:55:45,925 because we don't know the progression of this virus. 1218 00:55:45,967 --> 00:55:49,346 - I don't know what our industry is gonna look like 1219 00:55:49,387 --> 00:55:52,223 or feel like, but I don't want to go back 1220 00:55:52,265 --> 00:55:55,226 to something that isn't ready, 1221 00:55:55,268 --> 00:55:55,810 that isn't human 1222 00:55:55,852 --> 00:55:59,773 and that isn't set up for us to survive. 1223 00:56:01,358 --> 00:56:02,776 - [REPORTER 1] New York, the original epicenter, 1224 00:56:02,817 --> 00:56:04,611 seeing a troubling new rise. 1225 00:56:04,652 --> 00:56:06,071 - [CUOMO] We're going to closing indoor dining 1226 00:56:06,112 --> 00:56:06,613 in New York City. 1227 00:56:06,654 --> 00:56:09,908 Federal government must provide relief 1228 00:56:09,949 --> 00:56:11,618 to these bars and restaurants. 1229 00:56:11,659 --> 00:56:12,160 - [REPORTER 2] Small businesses 1230 00:56:12,160 --> 00:56:14,913 will face restrictions once again. 1231 00:56:14,954 --> 00:56:17,123 - [REPORTER 3] Another shutdown would be devastating. 1232 00:56:17,165 --> 00:56:19,334 - They're all washing their hands of it. 1233 00:56:19,376 --> 00:56:20,960 "Oh, we feel bad for you. 1234 00:56:21,002 --> 00:56:23,296 Most of you are gonna lose your businesses, 1235 00:56:23,338 --> 00:56:25,256 but you've got to take one for the team." 1236 00:56:25,298 --> 00:56:29,052 - A lot of people in all these businesses lost a lot. 1237 00:56:29,094 --> 00:56:31,137 - [REPORTER 4] 140,000 restaurant workers 1238 00:56:31,179 --> 00:56:32,597 are currently unemployed. 1239 00:56:32,639 --> 00:56:36,309 A shutdown will leave 90,000 more without jobs. 1240 00:56:36,351 --> 00:56:38,853 - Having to do this again, it is a slow death 1241 00:56:38,895 --> 00:56:41,689 to our industry and to this great city. 1242 00:56:41,731 --> 00:56:43,149 - We take care of people 1243 00:56:43,191 --> 00:56:46,820 and it's hard that we need to be taking care of and 1244 00:56:46,861 --> 00:56:49,572 we don't know if we're gonna be. 1245 00:56:50,448 --> 00:56:53,034 [somber music] 1246 00:57:01,584 --> 00:57:05,213 [emotional guitar music] 1247 00:58:05,231 --> 00:58:07,025 - It's weird because I miss being social. 1248 00:58:07,066 --> 00:58:11,029 I miss the aspect of drinking with people. 1249 00:58:11,070 --> 00:58:12,530 - Yeah. 1250 00:58:12,572 --> 00:58:16,034 - And I mean, so again, driveway sits happen. 1251 00:58:16,075 --> 00:58:19,078 Occasionally rooftop sits and stuff like that. 1252 00:58:19,120 --> 00:58:20,497 - I haven't also 'cause it's like, 1253 00:58:20,538 --> 00:58:23,541 I don't need to be spending money on going out 1254 00:58:23,583 --> 00:58:25,293 if I don't have a job. 1255 00:58:25,335 --> 00:58:27,045 - This is so weird. 1256 00:58:27,086 --> 00:58:28,505 I've lived a life. - This is fine. 1257 00:58:28,546 --> 00:58:30,423 - I've seen some things, we're good. 1258 00:58:30,465 --> 00:58:31,549 - Seen plenty of things. 1259 00:58:31,591 --> 00:58:33,468 - This is what we do now. 1260 00:58:33,510 --> 00:58:36,221 - Yeah. I've lived, I've loved, I've feared. 1261 00:58:36,262 --> 00:58:37,388 I don't even know how to date. It's been... 1262 00:58:37,430 --> 00:58:39,140 - I don't know how to date either. 1263 00:58:39,182 --> 00:58:41,434 - Have you? Zoom dated? 1264 00:58:42,810 --> 00:58:43,561 - Kind of. It's kind of weird. 1265 00:58:43,561 --> 00:58:47,190 It's like, cocktail in hand and just chatting. It's weird. 1266 00:58:47,232 --> 00:58:47,690 - Yeah. 1267 00:58:47,732 --> 00:58:49,108 - It's just weird. Zooms are weird. 1268 00:58:49,150 --> 00:58:50,193 - But you've done it? 1269 00:58:50,235 --> 00:58:51,110 - Yeah. 1270 00:58:51,611 --> 00:58:54,072 - 'Cause my mom point blank was like, "So are you dating?" 1271 00:58:54,113 --> 00:58:56,032 And I spit out my coffee and was like, 1272 00:58:56,074 --> 00:58:59,619 "Yes, mother, I had been home alone for 104 days by myself. 1273 00:58:59,661 --> 00:59:02,121 That's how dating works." 1274 00:59:02,163 --> 00:59:04,749 We're never getting laid again. 1275 00:59:04,791 --> 00:59:06,084 - Life in the time of COVID.