1 00:00:05,944 --> 00:00:07,279 -NARRATOR: Who are you 2 00:00:07,362 --> 00:00:09,781 if you can't remember who you are? 3 00:00:47,861 --> 00:00:49,738 -MAN Crashing Hills Memory Center. 4 00:00:49,821 --> 00:00:51,656 -Yeah. I'm here to see a patient in the Alzheimer's ward. 5 00:00:51,740 --> 00:00:53,992 -You're a visitor? -Yes. 6 00:00:54,075 --> 00:00:55,994 -I'm sorry, but our Solos aren't allowed visitors. 7 00:00:56,077 --> 00:00:58,163 -Yeah, I know. I just... 8 00:00:59,539 --> 00:01:00,624 I traveled a long way. 9 00:01:00,707 --> 00:01:02,959 -They're meant to stay as Solos. 10 00:01:03,043 --> 00:01:04,127 -Yeah, I know the rules. 11 00:01:04,211 --> 00:01:06,713 Can you make an exception? 12 00:01:08,256 --> 00:01:10,133 Just this once? 13 00:01:26,566 --> 00:01:28,819 Are you Stuart Waldo Thompson? 14 00:01:30,987 --> 00:01:32,656 -Yes. 15 00:01:52,008 --> 00:01:54,427 Are you Clark Kent? 16 00:01:54,511 --> 00:01:56,054 -Yes. 17 00:01:56,137 --> 00:01:57,389 -Are you Mickey Mouse? 18 00:01:59,349 --> 00:02:00,475 -Yes. 19 00:02:12,279 --> 00:02:14,281 Hello, Stuart. 20 00:02:18,994 --> 00:02:21,705 "Install stem cells directly into the blood stream. 21 00:02:21,788 --> 00:02:27,794 Memory regeneration should occur within four to five minutes." 22 00:02:27,878 --> 00:02:29,254 This is gonna hurt. 23 00:02:31,423 --> 00:02:33,383 Rightfully so. 24 00:02:51,401 --> 00:02:53,028 Okay. 25 00:02:53,111 --> 00:02:56,823 Phase one... base memory. 26 00:02:57,991 --> 00:03:00,118 Okay. 27 00:03:06,082 --> 00:03:08,126 Do you hear me, Stuart? 28 00:03:12,422 --> 00:03:14,007 Fuck. 29 00:03:15,717 --> 00:03:16,968 Okay. 30 00:03:17,844 --> 00:03:19,554 Look at that light. 31 00:03:19,638 --> 00:03:21,056 What color is that? 32 00:03:22,933 --> 00:03:25,936 -Green. It's green, isn't it? 33 00:03:27,312 --> 00:03:29,105 Green. 34 00:03:31,691 --> 00:03:33,526 Yeah. Not blue, not yellow, 35 00:03:33,610 --> 00:03:36,696 not red, not white. 36 00:03:36,780 --> 00:03:38,657 That's green. 37 00:03:38,740 --> 00:03:40,909 -That's right. -Green. 38 00:03:42,953 --> 00:03:46,164 Green like grass. 39 00:03:46,247 --> 00:03:50,293 Green like trees, leaves... 40 00:03:50,377 --> 00:03:51,586 salamanders. 41 00:03:51,670 --> 00:03:54,297 -Keep going. - 42 00:03:54,381 --> 00:03:55,840 Green beans, alligators... 43 00:03:55,924 --> 00:03:58,176 Oh, green beans, I love green beans. 44 00:03:58,259 --> 00:03:59,928 Yeah. 45 00:04:00,011 --> 00:04:01,429 -And what else is green? 46 00:04:01,513 --> 00:04:04,307 -Green like peas and pickles 47 00:04:04,391 --> 00:04:08,436 and... and parakeets. 48 00:04:08,520 --> 00:04:10,146 The Incredible Hulk. 49 00:04:10,230 --> 00:04:12,232 The Grinch... the Grinch who stole Christmas. 50 00:04:13,692 --> 00:04:15,193 -Yeah. 51 00:04:15,276 --> 00:04:17,529 Four-leaf clovers, 52 00:04:17,612 --> 00:04:19,322 praying mantis, 53 00:04:19,406 --> 00:04:21,866 the Emerald City, 54 00:04:21,950 --> 00:04:23,201 Kermit the fuckin' frog. 55 00:04:24,452 --> 00:04:25,912 -It's not easy being green. 56 00:04:25,996 --> 00:04:28,623 -That's good, Stuart, really good. 57 00:04:28,707 --> 00:04:30,709 Now, tell me, where are we, huh? 58 00:04:30,792 --> 00:04:32,085 What's this place called? 59 00:04:32,168 --> 00:04:34,838 -This is a, uh... 60 00:04:34,921 --> 00:04:37,382 -I know you can remember. -Um... 61 00:04:39,426 --> 00:04:41,261 Beach. This is a beach! 62 00:04:41,344 --> 00:04:43,304 -That's right. -Yeah, we're on a beach. 63 00:04:43,388 --> 00:04:44,848 All this shit here is sand, 64 00:04:44,931 --> 00:04:46,516 just sand. 65 00:04:46,599 --> 00:04:48,518 And that? 66 00:04:48,601 --> 00:04:50,937 That's the sea, huh? 67 00:04:51,021 --> 00:04:52,313 -That's right. -Not a river, not a pond, 68 00:04:52,397 --> 00:04:54,983 not a lake, not a puddle... 69 00:04:55,066 --> 00:04:56,443 the sea. 70 00:04:56,526 --> 00:04:58,278 -Don't stop now. -Hmm. 71 00:04:58,361 --> 00:05:00,780 The waves. 72 00:05:00,864 --> 00:05:03,033 The waves crashing. 73 00:05:03,116 --> 00:05:07,245 Crashing like timpani drums in Beethoven's Sixth, 74 00:05:07,328 --> 00:05:10,331 like... like... like fireworks on the Fourth of July. 75 00:05:12,834 --> 00:05:16,838 -Twenty percent. You're doing so well, Stuart. 76 00:05:16,921 --> 00:05:20,258 -Whoa, whoa, whoa. -Look at me. Look at me, man. 77 00:05:20,341 --> 00:05:22,218 I can amble. 78 00:05:22,343 --> 00:05:24,763 I can... My muscles remember. 79 00:05:24,846 --> 00:05:26,973 My bones reacquaint. 80 00:05:28,391 --> 00:05:31,394 Look. I can dance. 81 00:05:31,478 --> 00:05:35,106 Soft shoe, tap, jazz, 82 00:05:35,190 --> 00:05:39,110 Macarena, Electric Slide. 83 00:05:39,194 --> 00:05:41,529 Hey, watch. 84 00:05:41,613 --> 00:05:44,407 Watch me, quick. 85 00:05:44,491 --> 00:05:46,576 Oh, yeah. Watch me Nae Nae. 86 00:05:46,659 --> 00:05:48,995 Whoop! Whoo! 87 00:05:50,914 --> 00:05:52,123 I can sing. 88 00:05:52,207 --> 00:05:54,125 Oh, I love to sing, always have. 89 00:06:04,677 --> 00:06:10,058 I have someone who needs me 90 00:06:22,112 --> 00:06:23,029 Ah, yeah. 91 00:06:23,113 --> 00:06:24,823 Yeah. 92 00:06:25,907 --> 00:06:28,993 The dope jams... 93 00:06:29,077 --> 00:06:31,621 the lit bangers. 94 00:06:32,789 --> 00:06:34,082 I know again. 95 00:06:36,960 --> 00:06:40,713 And I know that I know. 96 00:06:49,180 --> 00:06:51,599 But I don't know you. 97 00:06:53,143 --> 00:06:54,144 -No? 98 00:06:54,227 --> 00:06:56,146 -Why are you doing this? 99 00:06:56,229 --> 00:06:59,649 Why are you doing this for me? Hmm? 100 00:06:59,732 --> 00:07:04,237 -Um, I'm from the National Health Service. 101 00:07:04,320 --> 00:07:07,407 NHS? Well, if you think you're going to pay for this 102 00:07:07,448 --> 00:07:08,700 with my pension, you gotta another thing coming. 103 00:07:08,741 --> 00:07:11,786 -It's covered, Stuart. Memory regeneration is universal. 104 00:07:13,413 --> 00:07:17,125 Take stem cells, inject them into you, 105 00:07:17,208 --> 00:07:20,295 and regenerates total brain function, 106 00:07:20,378 --> 00:07:23,756 and soon after recovers all of your memories. 107 00:07:23,840 --> 00:07:25,091 -My memories? 108 00:07:27,677 --> 00:07:28,845 And it's free? 109 00:07:28,928 --> 00:07:31,389 -It's free. 110 00:07:31,472 --> 00:07:33,516 -As it should be. 111 00:07:33,600 --> 00:07:36,686 I know at first that they were, that they were selling 112 00:07:36,769 --> 00:07:39,355 this cure for Alzheimer's. 113 00:07:39,439 --> 00:07:40,899 Yeah. 114 00:07:40,982 --> 00:07:45,195 But I always said, ought to be a human right. 115 00:07:45,278 --> 00:07:48,156 It's awful in there... 116 00:07:48,239 --> 00:07:51,159 that demented fog of dementia. 117 00:07:51,242 --> 00:07:54,412 In there it's like being buried alive 118 00:07:54,495 --> 00:07:55,496 or cast in amber, 119 00:07:55,580 --> 00:07:59,375 but still puttering inside. 120 00:08:03,129 --> 00:08:05,632 You want to roar. You wish to scream, 121 00:08:05,715 --> 00:08:10,970 but screams and roars are all banned in that land. 122 00:08:11,054 --> 00:08:15,516 No crying, no mercy. 123 00:08:15,600 --> 00:08:18,978 No wishes or prayers. 124 00:08:19,062 --> 00:08:22,232 You cry out for your mother or your father 125 00:08:22,315 --> 00:08:24,317 or your God. 126 00:08:28,488 --> 00:08:31,574 But they're all gone too. 127 00:08:31,658 --> 00:08:33,826 They've all left in the fog. 128 00:08:33,910 --> 00:08:39,165 And the terror and the fury arises in you. 129 00:08:39,249 --> 00:08:41,376 I exist! 130 00:08:41,459 --> 00:08:45,088 You wanna shout, "I exist!" 131 00:08:45,171 --> 00:08:47,173 I exist! 132 00:08:49,676 --> 00:08:51,886 But you surely do not. 133 00:08:51,970 --> 00:08:54,097 Not in this land. 134 00:08:56,599 --> 00:09:00,353 But then you came. 135 00:09:00,436 --> 00:09:04,107 You burned off all the fog. 136 00:09:04,190 --> 00:09:06,651 And I can remember again. 137 00:09:08,444 --> 00:09:09,821 I'm alive, my son. 138 00:09:12,699 --> 00:09:14,826 And you're to blame. 139 00:09:18,579 --> 00:09:20,498 -Phase one is complete. 140 00:09:20,581 --> 00:09:23,710 Brain regeneration is at 50%. 141 00:09:23,793 --> 00:09:26,379 Now comes the rest. Phase two. 142 00:09:27,588 --> 00:09:30,758 Personal memory and recovery. 143 00:09:37,598 --> 00:09:39,017 Hang on tight. 144 00:09:58,077 --> 00:09:59,996 What do you remember? 145 00:10:01,581 --> 00:10:04,917 -My wife's farts at night. 146 00:10:05,001 --> 00:10:07,670 Code Red. Code Blue. 147 00:10:11,090 --> 00:10:14,302 Floating in my best friend Nia's pool. 148 00:10:14,385 --> 00:10:16,763 Looking up at the clouds. 149 00:10:16,846 --> 00:10:19,932 Watching "13 Going on 30." 150 00:10:20,016 --> 00:10:24,812 Seeing Ming Chong in the supermarket. 151 00:10:24,896 --> 00:10:28,024 Flying down that blue slide into Mom's arms. 152 00:10:28,107 --> 00:10:29,525 -Blue slide. 153 00:10:31,986 --> 00:10:33,404 Where was that. 154 00:10:33,488 --> 00:10:36,074 -In the park... 155 00:10:36,157 --> 00:10:37,992 with the big trees and a duck pond. 156 00:10:40,286 --> 00:10:42,622 -The woman... the mother... 157 00:10:42,705 --> 00:10:44,749 What does she look like? 158 00:10:45,833 --> 00:10:47,460 -It's all I can remember. 159 00:10:47,543 --> 00:10:49,337 -It can't be everything. 160 00:10:49,420 --> 00:10:53,091 -Well, yeah, yeah, that's all there is. 161 00:10:53,174 --> 00:10:55,426 -That's all the memories? 162 00:10:55,510 --> 00:10:57,345 -Afraid so. 163 00:10:57,428 --> 00:10:58,930 -Are you sure? 164 00:10:59,013 --> 00:11:00,723 -Of course, I'm sure. 165 00:11:00,807 --> 00:11:02,642 I already said I'm sure. 166 00:11:04,143 --> 00:11:05,645 That's all there is. 167 00:11:05,728 --> 00:11:08,564 That's all I can remember, okay? 168 00:11:08,648 --> 00:11:11,025 -Do you remember me, Stuart? 169 00:11:11,109 --> 00:11:13,403 -I'm afraid we've just met. 170 00:11:15,530 --> 00:11:16,781 What... What is this? 171 00:11:16,864 --> 00:11:19,158 Is this some kind of NHS thing, huh? 172 00:11:19,242 --> 00:11:22,161 Like a shakedown of a poor 173 00:11:22,203 --> 00:11:25,832 Alzheimer's patient's pension fund? 174 00:11:25,873 --> 00:11:26,999 -Were you ever diagnosed? 175 00:11:29,001 --> 00:11:30,920 -Of course. 176 00:11:31,003 --> 00:11:33,297 -Alzheimer's patients exhibit identical symptoms 177 00:11:33,381 --> 00:11:36,467 to aging memory addicts. 178 00:11:36,551 --> 00:11:40,471 If you install too many recollections, 179 00:11:40,555 --> 00:11:44,308 over time, your neurons were destroyed. 180 00:11:44,392 --> 00:11:45,852 So you know what I think, Stuart? 181 00:11:49,272 --> 00:11:51,649 That after years of stealing memories, 182 00:11:51,732 --> 00:11:54,068 your brain was dying, not from Alzheimer's, 183 00:11:54,152 --> 00:11:55,987 but from your addiction. 184 00:11:56,070 --> 00:11:59,866 -Son, you... you must have the wrong man. 185 00:11:59,949 --> 00:12:01,951 -I know who you are. 186 00:12:02,034 --> 00:12:03,536 -Case of mistaken identity. 187 00:12:03,619 --> 00:12:05,121 -I know what you did. 188 00:12:05,204 --> 00:12:07,540 -I didn't do anything. 189 00:12:07,623 --> 00:12:12,128 -I spent the past 11 years... 190 00:12:12,211 --> 00:12:17,258 trying to find the monster who took the memories of my mom, 191 00:12:17,341 --> 00:12:20,761 who started by hacking into company servers, 192 00:12:20,845 --> 00:12:24,557 and graduated to violently assaulting people, 193 00:12:24,640 --> 00:12:27,477 who stuck an extractor 194 00:12:27,560 --> 00:12:29,562 right into their fucking brains 195 00:12:29,645 --> 00:12:32,023 and downloaded the memories. 196 00:12:32,106 --> 00:12:34,567 I've long thought about this day... 197 00:12:34,650 --> 00:12:38,988 about the day I would find the man who took her from me 198 00:12:39,071 --> 00:12:42,450 in that hospital hall by the vending machine 199 00:12:42,533 --> 00:12:44,285 who stripped that little boy 200 00:12:44,368 --> 00:12:47,663 of every memory of the mom he just lost. 201 00:12:58,382 --> 00:13:00,176 -What do you want? 202 00:13:00,259 --> 00:13:03,012 -What do I want? 203 00:13:03,095 --> 00:13:06,307 Do you know what my earliest memory is? 204 00:13:08,559 --> 00:13:10,645 A dark shadow... 205 00:13:10,728 --> 00:13:12,063 reaching out to me. 206 00:13:13,481 --> 00:13:16,192 I can't see her face or her body. 207 00:13:16,275 --> 00:13:18,236 She's a glitch, a blur. 208 00:13:19,695 --> 00:13:21,906 Pixelated, buffering. 209 00:13:21,989 --> 00:13:23,783 A dark fog. 210 00:13:26,702 --> 00:13:28,871 I can't even see her. 211 00:13:28,955 --> 00:13:31,791 My own mother, and I can't even see her. 212 00:13:31,874 --> 00:13:33,793 And I can't hear her. 213 00:13:33,876 --> 00:13:37,505 Not a laugh or a cry... 214 00:13:37,588 --> 00:13:39,799 or a... 215 00:13:39,882 --> 00:13:41,926 "I love you, sweetheart." 216 00:13:42,009 --> 00:13:43,719 I can't even miss her, Stuart. 217 00:13:45,263 --> 00:13:47,473 My own, mother, and I can't even miss her. 218 00:13:50,351 --> 00:13:52,353 And the worst part of all? 219 00:13:52,436 --> 00:13:56,774 Is that the only place she still exists 220 00:13:56,857 --> 00:13:59,402 is in there. 221 00:13:59,485 --> 00:14:01,279 And it's a shitty feeling, you know. 222 00:14:01,362 --> 00:14:04,115 'Cause the fucked up thing is 223 00:14:04,198 --> 00:14:06,200 now I need you. 224 00:14:08,786 --> 00:14:10,329 So what do I want, Stuart? 225 00:14:13,332 --> 00:14:14,625 I want what's mine. 226 00:14:16,294 --> 00:14:18,879 I want you to give me back what you took from me. 227 00:14:20,756 --> 00:14:21,799 I want her. 228 00:14:25,886 --> 00:14:28,639 -I can't. 229 00:14:29,515 --> 00:14:31,100 -You give me her, 230 00:14:31,183 --> 00:14:32,935 and I won't tell the authorities about you. 231 00:14:33,019 --> 00:14:34,270 I won't bring you in. 232 00:14:34,353 --> 00:14:36,731 You can live out your days here. 233 00:14:47,116 --> 00:14:50,244 -How do I know? 234 00:14:50,328 --> 00:14:53,998 How can I know you'll hold up your end? 235 00:14:57,001 --> 00:14:58,878 -What choice do you have? 236 00:15:08,804 --> 00:15:10,014 Oh, well. 237 00:15:14,810 --> 00:15:17,938 -Blue. Blue eyes. 238 00:15:20,775 --> 00:15:24,195 She had blue eyes. 239 00:15:26,072 --> 00:15:28,532 -Blue how? 240 00:15:28,616 --> 00:15:30,785 -Blue like the Mediterranean at twilight. 241 00:15:33,829 --> 00:15:36,332 Blue like a starling's feathers. 242 00:15:39,835 --> 00:15:44,882 Blue like an aster flower just moments after bloom. 243 00:15:44,965 --> 00:15:49,095 -She had blue eyes. -Mmm. 244 00:15:49,178 --> 00:15:52,056 And clumps of mascara. 245 00:15:52,139 --> 00:15:54,058 Always clumps. 246 00:15:56,727 --> 00:16:00,314 And when she looked at you... 247 00:16:00,398 --> 00:16:03,526 when she looked at you, my God, 248 00:16:03,609 --> 00:16:07,071 -her eyes opened wide. -Really? 249 00:16:07,154 --> 00:16:09,448 -Yeah. Right. 250 00:16:09,532 --> 00:16:11,742 And she cooed when she saw you. 251 00:16:15,246 --> 00:16:19,875 Involuntarily, she cooed when you walked into her room. 252 00:16:19,959 --> 00:16:22,002 She would gasp... 253 00:16:22,086 --> 00:16:25,798 as if she thought how... 254 00:16:25,881 --> 00:16:28,509 how could this boy be so perfect? 255 00:16:28,592 --> 00:16:33,889 How could I have made such a beautiful kid? 256 00:16:33,973 --> 00:16:35,850 How could he be mine? 257 00:16:35,933 --> 00:16:38,561 -She'd gasp when she saw me? 258 00:16:38,644 --> 00:16:39,687 -Yeah. 259 00:16:39,770 --> 00:16:41,897 And she smelled like lavender. 260 00:16:41,981 --> 00:16:44,608 -It was the detergent she used. 261 00:16:47,027 --> 00:16:48,988 -I've always loved the smell of lavender. 262 00:16:49,029 --> 00:16:49,780 -Mm-hmm. 263 00:16:49,822 --> 00:16:51,907 -She would do this thing. 264 00:16:53,951 --> 00:16:57,663 Whenever she saw me... you... 265 00:16:57,747 --> 00:16:59,790 in the morning, 266 00:16:59,874 --> 00:17:03,919 she would hold out her hand as if for a handshake, 267 00:17:04,003 --> 00:17:06,797 like... like we were business partners. 268 00:17:06,881 --> 00:17:08,174 And she would say, 269 00:17:08,215 --> 00:17:12,261 "Nice to make your acquaintance, Mr. Man." 270 00:17:15,890 --> 00:17:20,686 And she'd take you to the playground every day 271 00:17:20,770 --> 00:17:23,731 to feed the ducks and play. 272 00:17:23,814 --> 00:17:26,066 -And there was this... -Slide. 273 00:17:26,150 --> 00:17:28,652 -Yeah. Big blue slide. 274 00:17:28,736 --> 00:17:32,031 It was like your Everest. 275 00:17:32,114 --> 00:17:35,075 You saw her growing small. 276 00:17:35,159 --> 00:17:38,788 And then you slid down... 277 00:17:38,871 --> 00:17:40,581 -Wrapped her arms? 278 00:17:43,459 --> 00:17:45,169 -And she held you tight. 279 00:17:47,129 --> 00:17:50,508 I don't know what came over her that day... 280 00:17:50,591 --> 00:17:55,930 but her eyes were watery, and her little nose... 281 00:17:56,013 --> 00:17:58,182 -Her nose? What... -Yeah. 282 00:17:58,265 --> 00:18:01,393 Like a button. Small, red... 283 00:18:03,395 --> 00:18:09,276 And she said, "I will always catch you, Otto. 284 00:18:09,360 --> 00:18:11,153 I will never let you fall." 285 00:18:15,616 --> 00:18:16,867 -She sounds lovely. 286 00:18:18,577 --> 00:18:19,787 -She was. 287 00:18:21,455 --> 00:18:24,375 She really was. 288 00:18:26,085 --> 00:18:28,462 -And so were you. - 289 00:18:28,546 --> 00:18:30,005 -A lovely boy. 290 00:18:32,675 --> 00:18:34,885 -Why? 291 00:18:34,969 --> 00:18:36,929 Why'd you take those memories from that little boy 292 00:18:37,012 --> 00:18:40,057 in that hospital hall who just lost his mom? 293 00:18:54,738 --> 00:18:56,115 -I had a child once. 294 00:18:58,868 --> 00:19:01,245 A beautiful boy. 295 00:19:02,788 --> 00:19:06,667 During the Stay, I... I began to think him a nuisance. 296 00:19:08,460 --> 00:19:10,880 An annoyance. 297 00:19:10,963 --> 00:19:15,467 An interruption to the screens that I loved, 298 00:19:15,551 --> 00:19:17,261 to the devices I cherished. 299 00:19:21,390 --> 00:19:25,519 I made excuses not to play with him. 300 00:19:25,603 --> 00:19:28,939 Not to help him with his school. 301 00:19:29,023 --> 00:19:33,611 Not to show him the stars or tuck him into bed at night. 302 00:19:36,614 --> 00:19:38,657 And then one day... 303 00:19:42,828 --> 00:19:44,288 One day he got sick. 304 00:19:47,124 --> 00:19:50,628 Virus took him in its arms... 305 00:19:50,711 --> 00:19:54,924 and he ailed and glitched and... 306 00:19:55,007 --> 00:19:58,719 begged for breath... 307 00:19:58,802 --> 00:20:00,930 until he was gone. 308 00:20:04,224 --> 00:20:05,935 And the light left my world. 309 00:20:09,396 --> 00:20:16,111 And when he passed, I roamed the streets for days, 310 00:20:16,195 --> 00:20:17,696 wishing to disappear. 311 00:20:19,114 --> 00:20:20,950 Wishing to die. 312 00:20:22,493 --> 00:20:26,372 Wishing to leave on a rocket ship or... 313 00:20:26,455 --> 00:20:28,499 stay locked in my Stay 314 00:20:28,582 --> 00:20:31,085 or... 315 00:20:31,168 --> 00:20:32,795 travel to the future... 316 00:20:32,878 --> 00:20:36,548 or... or be punished forever. 317 00:20:39,218 --> 00:20:42,096 Wishing I had seen my boy for what he was. 318 00:20:44,807 --> 00:20:46,475 Which was the whole world. 319 00:20:53,148 --> 00:20:56,276 I couldn't bear the memories of him. 320 00:20:56,360 --> 00:20:58,821 So I spiraled and tumbled and... 321 00:21:01,615 --> 00:21:02,950 That's when I started. 322 00:21:04,410 --> 00:21:06,370 Stealing. Thieving. 323 00:21:09,915 --> 00:21:15,212 I needed to stop my heart from this god-awful bleeding. 324 00:21:18,090 --> 00:21:22,302 I stole the other memories to rid myself of my own. 325 00:21:22,386 --> 00:21:24,179 I stole from them. 326 00:21:25,973 --> 00:21:30,060 From hundreds of victims. 327 00:21:30,144 --> 00:21:32,354 From you. 328 00:21:32,438 --> 00:21:35,816 A sweet boy, just like my own. 329 00:21:35,899 --> 00:21:42,614 And I just needed to remember a boy's love for his parent, 330 00:21:42,698 --> 00:21:44,616 so that I could make myself believe 331 00:21:44,700 --> 00:21:48,495 this is what my boy must have felt about me. 332 00:21:51,623 --> 00:21:54,877 So I took your memories... 333 00:21:54,960 --> 00:21:56,712 and I watched every one 334 00:21:56,795 --> 00:22:00,466 over and over again. 335 00:22:00,549 --> 00:22:02,092 Sixty years of 'em. 336 00:22:02,176 --> 00:22:04,887 Of you. 337 00:22:04,970 --> 00:22:06,972 Her. 338 00:22:07,056 --> 00:22:08,307 And together. 339 00:22:12,352 --> 00:22:14,563 But as the dementia progressed 340 00:22:14,646 --> 00:22:17,858 and the fog overtook 341 00:22:17,941 --> 00:22:20,027 and the memories grew dim 342 00:22:20,110 --> 00:22:23,447 and I could see only dark shadows 343 00:22:23,530 --> 00:22:27,201 where people should be, 344 00:22:27,284 --> 00:22:30,662 I realize... 345 00:22:30,746 --> 00:22:33,040 the worst truth of all. 346 00:22:35,292 --> 00:22:38,003 This is what my boy must have felt 347 00:22:38,087 --> 00:22:40,047 when he looked at me. 348 00:22:40,130 --> 00:22:44,510 A glitching father whose face he hardly saw. 349 00:22:47,096 --> 00:22:51,266 Whose embrace he never know. 350 00:22:53,477 --> 00:22:55,104 Whose love... 351 00:22:58,774 --> 00:23:00,442 Whose love he never felt. 352 00:23:05,572 --> 00:23:10,452 I see now that I've committed the same crime twice. 353 00:23:12,371 --> 00:23:15,499 To you and to him. 354 00:23:18,919 --> 00:23:20,879 Robbing a child of his parent. 355 00:23:23,924 --> 00:23:25,801 -Tell me about that last day. 356 00:23:27,761 --> 00:23:30,180 My last day with her. 357 00:23:30,264 --> 00:23:35,227 -Son... -Tell me. I wanna know. 358 00:23:40,566 --> 00:23:43,026 -It was cold. 359 00:23:43,110 --> 00:23:46,738 You had on a sweater... 360 00:23:46,822 --> 00:23:48,657 and you went in to see her. 361 00:23:50,659 --> 00:23:54,121 And she was lying in bed. 362 00:23:54,204 --> 00:23:57,749 Bald, pale. 363 00:23:57,833 --> 00:23:59,459 Her nose was... 364 00:23:59,543 --> 00:24:02,296 -Red and small like a button. 365 00:24:02,379 --> 00:24:06,550 -You crept toward her and... 366 00:24:06,633 --> 00:24:08,135 as soon as she saw you... 367 00:24:08,218 --> 00:24:13,140 -Her blue eyes opened wide. 368 00:24:13,223 --> 00:24:16,602 Her eyelashes caked with mascara 369 00:24:16,685 --> 00:24:18,645 wide like this. 370 00:24:18,729 --> 00:24:20,814 -She reached out her hand to you. 371 00:24:20,898 --> 00:24:24,109 -To shake it as if we were business partners? 372 00:24:24,193 --> 00:24:27,613 Which in a way we were, her and me. 373 00:24:27,696 --> 00:24:29,198 -And she said... 374 00:24:29,281 --> 00:24:31,909 -"Pleasure to make your acquaintance, Mr. Man." 375 00:24:31,992 --> 00:24:33,535 -Exactly so. 376 00:24:33,619 --> 00:24:35,913 Exactly so. 377 00:24:37,122 --> 00:24:38,624 And she held you tight. 378 00:24:40,918 --> 00:24:43,337 Only now it was final. 379 00:24:43,420 --> 00:24:46,298 -She smelled of lavender. 380 00:24:46,381 --> 00:24:47,841 She smelled great. 381 00:24:49,968 --> 00:24:54,223 She pulled you close like that day on the... 382 00:24:54,306 --> 00:24:56,642 -Big blue slide. -Mm-hmm. 383 00:24:56,725 --> 00:25:01,271 -She said she'd always be there to catch me... 384 00:25:01,355 --> 00:25:02,773 even if she was gone. 385 00:25:02,856 --> 00:25:03,982 -That's right. 386 00:25:04,066 --> 00:25:07,236 And her breaths grew fainter. 387 00:25:07,319 --> 00:25:08,654 She pulled you close. 388 00:25:12,115 --> 00:25:13,408 She held you tight. 389 00:25:15,869 --> 00:25:18,956 -And she said... 390 00:25:19,039 --> 00:25:21,750 Tell me what she said. 391 00:25:23,627 --> 00:25:26,880 -She said, "My boy... 392 00:25:26,964 --> 00:25:32,094 it has been the privilege of my life to be your mom. 393 00:25:32,177 --> 00:25:34,680 I'm sorry we've had such a short visit together. 394 00:25:37,099 --> 00:25:42,354 And as the years go on, these moments together may fade. 395 00:25:42,437 --> 00:25:44,439 But it's okay. 396 00:25:44,523 --> 00:25:48,151 It's okay if you forget me." 397 00:25:48,235 --> 00:25:49,069 -No. 398 00:25:49,111 --> 00:25:51,613 -"It's okay if you forget me, Otto. 399 00:25:51,655 --> 00:25:53,448 'Cause you never can. 400 00:25:53,532 --> 00:25:57,077 You are literally made up of me. 401 00:25:58,704 --> 00:26:01,498 I'm in every fiber, every eyelash 402 00:26:01,581 --> 00:26:03,458 and follicle and cell, 403 00:26:03,542 --> 00:26:07,004 like the stars and the sky and the sand and the sea. 404 00:26:07,087 --> 00:26:09,506 I'll always be with you. 405 00:26:09,589 --> 00:26:14,386 And you don't need to remember for it to be true, 406 00:26:14,469 --> 00:26:16,888 for I will for you." 407 00:26:22,477 --> 00:26:25,856 And as you held her close, 408 00:26:25,939 --> 00:26:28,442 you looked at the respirator beside her bed, 409 00:26:28,525 --> 00:26:32,612 the machine that hummed and glowed with a... 410 00:26:32,696 --> 00:26:35,574 -Green light. -Yeah. 411 00:26:35,657 --> 00:26:39,369 Until her breaths ceased. 412 00:26:39,453 --> 00:26:40,871 And she grew still. 413 00:26:43,790 --> 00:26:46,752 And the green light, too brief, went out. 414 00:26:54,009 --> 00:26:58,096 A memory isn't simply a thing you have. 415 00:26:58,180 --> 00:26:59,514 It's a promise. 416 00:27:02,225 --> 00:27:04,936 It's a vow to the one you love. 417 00:27:05,020 --> 00:27:07,981 Remembering is a search. 418 00:27:08,065 --> 00:27:10,942 And you found her again, son. 419 00:27:16,907 --> 00:27:18,533 She would be so proud. 420 00:27:27,709 --> 00:27:31,463 I am sorry. 421 00:27:31,546 --> 00:27:36,968 I'm so sorry for what I've taken from you. 422 00:27:37,052 --> 00:27:38,553 For what I've done. 423 00:27:51,566 --> 00:27:53,402 -It's time, Stuart. 424 00:27:56,488 --> 00:27:57,989 -For what? 425 00:27:58,073 --> 00:28:00,075 -I have to take it with me. 426 00:28:00,158 --> 00:28:02,953 -The memories? 427 00:28:03,036 --> 00:28:05,205 The green light? 428 00:28:05,288 --> 00:28:07,040 -That's right. 429 00:28:07,124 --> 00:28:09,626 -Oh, you... you said... -I said 430 00:28:09,709 --> 00:28:12,129 I wouldn't tell the authorities about you. 431 00:28:15,715 --> 00:28:19,636 -No. No, no, no, no, no, no. 432 00:28:19,719 --> 00:28:20,804 No, no, please, please. 433 00:28:20,887 --> 00:28:23,265 No, don't take them. 434 00:28:23,348 --> 00:28:26,685 Don't send me back there. Please. 435 00:28:28,103 --> 00:28:30,439 -I have to, Stuart. -Please. 436 00:28:30,522 --> 00:28:31,773 -You know I do. 437 00:28:36,528 --> 00:28:41,867 -Can I ask just one small favor? 438 00:28:41,950 --> 00:28:44,578 -You don't deserve a favor, 439 00:28:44,661 --> 00:28:46,705 however small. 440 00:28:49,833 --> 00:28:52,502 You've hurt so many people. 441 00:28:52,586 --> 00:28:54,171 -I know. 442 00:28:54,254 --> 00:28:58,925 But can't you just leave me one... one memory? 443 00:28:59,009 --> 00:29:00,844 Just one. 444 00:29:02,637 --> 00:29:03,680 Please. 445 00:29:07,184 --> 00:29:08,351 -Which memory? 446 00:29:10,604 --> 00:29:11,730 Of your boy? 447 00:29:13,565 --> 00:29:16,026 -Those memories are all corrupted, I'm afraid. 448 00:29:16,109 --> 00:29:17,652 -So which one? 449 00:29:22,240 --> 00:29:23,700 -I don't know. 450 00:29:23,783 --> 00:29:25,202 I don't... 451 00:29:40,258 --> 00:29:43,762 -Hey, Stuart. -Yeah. 452 00:29:46,306 --> 00:29:49,267 -Would you show me what it felt like? 453 00:29:49,351 --> 00:29:50,894 -What? 454 00:29:50,977 --> 00:29:52,771 -Her hug. 455 00:30:14,960 --> 00:30:16,211 You know, Stuart... 456 00:30:20,674 --> 00:30:22,008 I imagine this is what your boy 457 00:30:22,050 --> 00:30:24,177 must have thought your hugs felt like too. 458 00:30:27,722 --> 00:30:29,474 How about this one, Stuart? 459 00:30:31,851 --> 00:30:33,770 How about this memory?