1 00:00:02,680 --> 00:00:05,680 (HEAVY BREATHING) 2 00:00:12,760 --> 00:00:14,600 NARRATOR: Selection for the SAS... 3 00:00:15,880 --> 00:00:17,880 ..is a test like no other. 4 00:00:18,480 --> 00:00:21,880 ANT: I don't care if they're celebrities in their world. 5 00:00:21,920 --> 00:00:24,640 They're not going to know what's hit them. 6 00:00:24,680 --> 00:00:27,200 (HELICOPTER ROTOR) 7 00:00:28,560 --> 00:00:30,000 NARRATOR: 17 celebrity recruits... 8 00:00:30,000 --> 00:00:30,600 NARRATOR: 17 celebrity recruits... 9 00:00:30,640 --> 00:00:31,760 ANT: Let's go, let's go, let's go! 10 00:00:31,800 --> 00:00:35,040 ..have volunteered to put their glamorous lives behind. 11 00:00:35,080 --> 00:00:36,480 INSTRUCTOR: You having a nice time? 12 00:00:36,520 --> 00:00:39,480 I want to show I'm not just the reality TV girl. 13 00:00:39,520 --> 00:00:40,600 Go! 14 00:00:40,640 --> 00:00:45,280 ANT: SAS selection is designed to break the most elite soldier. 15 00:00:45,960 --> 00:00:47,280 NARRATOR: They're put through 16 00:00:47,320 --> 00:00:49,200 the most gruelling stages of selection... 17 00:00:49,240 --> 00:00:50,920 Are you OK? Yes, staff! 18 00:00:50,960 --> 00:00:54,240 ..by an elite team of special forces soldiers. 19 00:00:54,280 --> 00:00:55,680 (SCREAMS) 20 00:00:55,720 --> 00:00:57,320 Let's go, let's go, let's go! 21 00:00:57,360 --> 00:01:00,000 NARRATOR: Chief Instructor, Ant Middleton... 22 00:01:00,000 --> 00:01:00,040 NARRATOR: Chief Instructor, Ant Middleton... 23 00:01:01,000 --> 00:01:04,599 ..and his team of directing staff will make no exceptions. 24 00:01:04,640 --> 00:01:06,240 ANT: Head up! 25 00:01:06,280 --> 00:01:08,400 We're going to find out who they really are. 26 00:01:09,320 --> 00:01:10,440 And so will they. 27 00:01:10,480 --> 00:01:11,520 BILLY: Go! 28 00:01:12,360 --> 00:01:14,320 Brake, brake, brake! Brake! 29 00:01:15,360 --> 00:01:16,560 NARRATOR: Coming up... 30 00:01:16,600 --> 00:01:18,320 BILLY: Come on, move yourself! Let's go! 31 00:01:18,360 --> 00:01:20,040 (GUNFIRE) 32 00:01:20,080 --> 00:01:23,680 ..in the line of fire, one mistake can be deadly... 33 00:01:23,720 --> 00:01:25,000 Sort it out! For fuck's sake! 34 00:01:25,040 --> 00:01:26,080 (GUNSHOT) 35 00:01:27,520 --> 00:01:29,080 It's all about what's up here. 36 00:01:29,120 --> 00:01:30,000 If you don't want to be here, 37 00:01:30,000 --> 00:01:30,560 If you don't want to be here, 38 00:01:30,600 --> 00:01:32,960 put your rock down and give me your number. 39 00:01:33,000 --> 00:01:35,600 All I ever want to do is make my family proud. 40 00:01:35,640 --> 00:01:37,680 ANT: Fuckin' iron-lady, my arse. Move! 41 00:01:37,720 --> 00:01:41,200 ..and Candice Warner breaks her silence. 42 00:01:41,240 --> 00:01:42,720 There was a ball tampering incident. 43 00:01:43,680 --> 00:01:45,240 I support everyone. 44 00:01:57,360 --> 00:01:58,760 ANT: Move! 45 00:01:58,800 --> 00:01:59,960 Fuckin' move. 46 00:02:00,000 --> 00:02:02,720 NARRATOR: It's day four of SAS Selection. 47 00:02:02,760 --> 00:02:04,600 A course that is not for the faint-hearted. 48 00:02:04,640 --> 00:02:07,360 ANT: Don't start the day off by pissing us off. 49 00:02:07,400 --> 00:02:10,560 NARRATOR: Already, three of the 17 celebrity recruits 50 00:02:10,600 --> 00:02:12,440 have voluntarily withdrawn 51 00:02:12,480 --> 00:02:15,360 and the DS are about to dial up the intensity. 52 00:02:15,400 --> 00:02:18,040 Today, this course is all about mindset. 53 00:02:18,080 --> 00:02:19,600 It's not going to get any easier. 54 00:02:20,320 --> 00:02:23,320 We're going to induce that stress up here more and more. 55 00:02:24,480 --> 00:02:26,240 'Cause the physically weak have gone. 56 00:02:26,280 --> 00:02:28,360 Now, we're going to start chipping you off psychologically. 57 00:02:28,400 --> 00:02:29,560 (CHIPPING NOISE) 58 00:02:30,480 --> 00:02:32,040 Move, let's go. Move! 59 00:02:32,960 --> 00:02:36,200 To be a special forces operator, you have to have a certain mindset. 60 00:02:37,400 --> 00:02:38,920 It's not about the physical. 61 00:02:41,040 --> 00:02:43,280 We're there to push you psychologically 62 00:02:43,320 --> 00:02:46,880 to see if you can deal with the horrors of war. 63 00:02:47,720 --> 00:02:49,680 Move! Yes! And you, go! 64 00:02:49,720 --> 00:02:51,320 Number two is the front person. 65 00:02:51,360 --> 00:02:54,840 Everybody else, single file all the way down the track. 66 00:02:55,480 --> 00:02:56,760 Watch your feet. 67 00:02:56,800 --> 00:03:00,000 Have you got the mental fortitude to get through the course? 68 00:03:00,000 --> 00:03:01,240 Have you got the mental fortitude to get through the course? 69 00:03:01,280 --> 00:03:03,120 Let's go. 70 00:03:03,160 --> 00:03:04,680 It's all about what's up here. 71 00:03:12,280 --> 00:03:13,440 ANT: When I call you forward, 72 00:03:13,480 --> 00:03:16,520 you will be moving like fucking weasel grease. 73 00:03:16,560 --> 00:03:17,880 RECRUITS: Yes, staff. 74 00:03:17,920 --> 00:03:20,680 NARRATOR: The DS are about to test the recruits' mental strength 75 00:03:20,720 --> 00:03:23,000 under extreme conditions 76 00:03:23,040 --> 00:03:26,600 that simulate the life-threatening chaos of a war zone. 77 00:03:27,720 --> 00:03:30,000 Before the course, the majority of these celebrities 78 00:03:30,000 --> 00:03:30,680 Before the course, the majority of these celebrities 79 00:03:30,720 --> 00:03:33,200 have barely seen a gun, let alone fired one. 80 00:03:33,240 --> 00:03:35,200 (GUNFIRE) 81 00:03:35,240 --> 00:03:37,600 So, in preparation for their next task, 82 00:03:37,640 --> 00:03:40,560 the DS gave them a crash course in armed combat 83 00:03:40,600 --> 00:03:42,080 and the rules of engagement. 84 00:03:42,760 --> 00:03:44,440 A raised weapon is an attacking enemy 85 00:03:44,480 --> 00:03:45,840 and should be shot. (GUNFIRE) 86 00:03:45,880 --> 00:03:48,400 A lowered weapon is a friendly ally. 87 00:03:48,440 --> 00:03:50,480 BILLY: You have to make a choice. 88 00:03:50,520 --> 00:03:52,840 So, know these rules of engagement. 89 00:03:55,240 --> 00:03:57,160 (GUNFIRE) 90 00:03:57,200 --> 00:04:00,000 The marksman's task is a decision-making task 91 00:04:00,000 --> 00:04:00,040 The marksman's task is a decision-making task 92 00:04:00,080 --> 00:04:03,000 with all the constraints of being on a battlefield 93 00:04:03,040 --> 00:04:04,760 and being in a war situation. 94 00:04:06,240 --> 00:04:08,000 They will be confused, they'll be tired, 95 00:04:08,040 --> 00:04:10,080 they'll be exhausted, there'll be distractions, 96 00:04:10,120 --> 00:04:13,680 exactly as it would be for a young soldier on a battlefield. 97 00:04:13,720 --> 00:04:15,880 It's a life or death situation. 98 00:04:20,360 --> 00:04:22,840 ERIN: I lived overseas, I've had kids, 99 00:04:22,880 --> 00:04:24,960 I have an amazing family. 100 00:04:25,000 --> 00:04:27,600 I have a really amazing life. 101 00:04:27,640 --> 00:04:29,800 NARRATOR: First up in the firing line 102 00:04:29,840 --> 00:04:30,000 is recruit number seven, Erin McNaught. 103 00:04:30,000 --> 00:04:32,360 is recruit number seven, Erin McNaught. 104 00:04:33,560 --> 00:04:35,000 Seven! Let's go. 105 00:04:35,040 --> 00:04:37,200 Come on, let's go, let's move! Move, move, move, move. 106 00:04:37,240 --> 00:04:38,600 Quick, quick, quick, quick! 107 00:04:42,000 --> 00:04:43,920 Fast as you can! Fast as you can! 108 00:04:43,960 --> 00:04:46,320 My whole life, I've only ever attempted things 109 00:04:46,360 --> 00:04:48,080 where I have known I'm going to be good at them. 110 00:04:48,120 --> 00:04:50,080 The only way you're going to get out alive 111 00:04:50,120 --> 00:04:52,680 is if you do exactly as I tell you! 112 00:04:52,720 --> 00:04:56,440 If there's been any chance of failure, then I won't attempt it. 113 00:04:56,480 --> 00:04:57,840 Get up! 114 00:04:57,880 --> 00:04:59,480 Get up! 115 00:04:59,520 --> 00:05:00,000 And that's the worst lesson to be teaching my kids. 116 00:05:00,000 --> 00:05:01,880 And that's the worst lesson to be teaching my kids. 117 00:05:01,920 --> 00:05:02,920 (GUNFIRE) 118 00:05:02,960 --> 00:05:04,320 You're trying to fucking save yourself. 119 00:05:06,040 --> 00:05:08,080 Start switching on! They're shooting at us! 120 00:05:08,120 --> 00:05:10,400 Move it! Fucking move. 121 00:05:10,440 --> 00:05:13,840 Get up! Stand up! Run! Run! Run! 122 00:05:13,880 --> 00:05:15,240 (GUNFIRE) We're being shot at! 123 00:05:15,280 --> 00:05:17,720 ERIN: If there's one thing I want to learn from doing this course... 124 00:05:17,760 --> 00:05:19,000 (GUNFIRE) Here's your weapon! 125 00:05:19,040 --> 00:05:21,000 Here's your weapon! Sort it out! 126 00:05:21,040 --> 00:05:24,680 ..it's how to fail and get back up and keep going. 127 00:05:24,720 --> 00:05:27,080 Sort it out! Sort it out! Now! Look! (GUNFIRE) 128 00:05:27,120 --> 00:05:28,440 (GUNFIRE) 129 00:05:30,320 --> 00:05:31,880 Sort it out! (GUNFIRE) 130 00:05:33,120 --> 00:05:34,320 (GUNFIRE) 131 00:05:36,720 --> 00:05:38,160 Stop. 132 00:05:38,200 --> 00:05:39,200 Stop! 133 00:05:40,040 --> 00:05:41,680 You see somebody trying to kill you? 134 00:05:41,720 --> 00:05:42,920 Yes, staff. 135 00:05:43,640 --> 00:05:44,840 And what happened? 136 00:05:44,880 --> 00:05:46,440 I didn't shoot, staff. Why? 137 00:05:47,320 --> 00:05:48,600 Why? 138 00:05:48,640 --> 00:05:50,920 I was trying to see if he was a friendly, staff. 139 00:05:52,240 --> 00:05:54,680 Fucking Stevie Wonder could see that was not a friendly. 140 00:05:54,720 --> 00:05:57,600 He's right on top of you, pointing a gun at you! 141 00:05:57,640 --> 00:06:00,000 You are leading me and the rest of the team in. 142 00:06:00,000 --> 00:06:00,320 You are leading me and the rest of the team in. 143 00:06:00,360 --> 00:06:02,960 Have a guess what? Got yourself killed. 144 00:06:03,000 --> 00:06:05,760 I'm going to go and tell your fucking husband and kids now. 145 00:06:08,720 --> 00:06:10,440 'Cause you couldn't make a decision. 146 00:06:13,720 --> 00:06:15,680 Disappear round that corner. Yes, staff. 147 00:06:15,720 --> 00:06:18,360 NARRATOR: With no decisive action under fire, 148 00:06:18,400 --> 00:06:20,480 number seven, Erin, failed the task. 149 00:06:22,520 --> 00:06:23,560 ANT: Go! Move! Move! 150 00:06:24,960 --> 00:06:26,880 NARRATOR: Next to enter the breach... Head down, move! 151 00:06:26,920 --> 00:06:30,000 ..is TV personal trainer, number eight, Shannan Ponton. 152 00:06:30,000 --> 00:06:30,200 ..is TV personal trainer, number eight, Shannan Ponton. 153 00:06:30,240 --> 00:06:31,760 Up! Get up! Get up! 154 00:06:31,800 --> 00:06:33,280 (GUNFIRE) 155 00:06:33,320 --> 00:06:35,480 SHANNAN: For me, fitness is now about being able to do 156 00:06:35,520 --> 00:06:37,480 all the things I want to do with my kids. 157 00:06:37,520 --> 00:06:40,040 It's not about being big and buff and being able to show off muscles. 158 00:06:40,080 --> 00:06:43,080 It's about being able to climb monkey bars and kick a ball. 159 00:06:43,120 --> 00:06:44,320 (GUNFIRE) Move forward. 160 00:06:44,360 --> 00:06:46,400 But I want to see if I've still got that strength. 161 00:06:46,440 --> 00:06:48,080 Move, move, move! 162 00:06:48,120 --> 00:06:49,520 Fuckin' move! 163 00:06:49,560 --> 00:06:51,560 SHANNAN: I wonder how I'm going to react 164 00:06:51,600 --> 00:06:53,560 when someone's screaming in my face to get going... 165 00:06:53,600 --> 00:06:54,920 Just listen to me. (GUNFIRE) 166 00:06:54,960 --> 00:06:57,440 Start switching on! They're shooting at us! 167 00:06:57,480 --> 00:06:59,040 Keep that down, keep that down! 168 00:06:59,080 --> 00:07:00,000 ..when every single fibre of my being wants to quit. 169 00:07:00,000 --> 00:07:01,120 ..when every single fibre of my being wants to quit. 170 00:07:01,160 --> 00:07:03,920 Get on your feet! Run! Run! (GUNFIRE) 171 00:07:03,960 --> 00:07:06,400 SHANNAN: I want to know if I've still got enough pluck 172 00:07:06,440 --> 00:07:08,320 and enough character to get up and keep going. 173 00:07:08,360 --> 00:07:10,160 Get on your feet! Go! Let's go! 174 00:07:10,200 --> 00:07:11,680 Get on your feet! 175 00:07:11,720 --> 00:07:13,520 SHANNAN: That's what this is all about for me. 176 00:07:13,560 --> 00:07:16,080 Get on your feet! Get on your fuckin' feet! 177 00:07:17,120 --> 00:07:18,240 SHANNAN: Have I still got it? 178 00:07:18,280 --> 00:07:20,560 Sort it out! Sort it out! 179 00:07:20,600 --> 00:07:22,000 Or did I ever have it? 180 00:07:22,040 --> 00:07:24,160 (GUNFIRE) 181 00:07:24,200 --> 00:07:26,040 (GUNFIRE) 182 00:07:26,080 --> 00:07:27,160 Stop! 183 00:07:27,200 --> 00:07:28,360 Stop! 184 00:07:29,880 --> 00:07:30,000 Do you want to be Rambo? 185 00:07:30,000 --> 00:07:31,640 Do you want to be Rambo? 186 00:07:31,680 --> 00:07:33,320 Take a breath. 187 00:07:33,360 --> 00:07:36,040 Think about the actions of what you've just done. 188 00:07:36,080 --> 00:07:38,040 Which I will believe were the right actions. 189 00:07:38,080 --> 00:07:39,360 Yes, staff. 190 00:07:39,400 --> 00:07:42,440 However, a little bit fuckin' OTT. Yeah? 191 00:07:42,480 --> 00:07:43,560 OK, staff. 192 00:07:43,600 --> 00:07:45,760 Alright, it's about composure, control. 193 00:07:45,800 --> 00:07:46,880 Yes, staff. 194 00:07:46,920 --> 00:07:49,120 You just took out fuckin' half the village right there. 195 00:07:49,160 --> 00:07:50,800 Alright? 196 00:07:50,840 --> 00:07:52,120 It's about composure. 197 00:07:52,960 --> 00:07:53,960 Got it? Yes, staff. 198 00:07:54,000 --> 00:07:55,200 Disappear round the corner. 199 00:07:56,640 --> 00:07:59,440 NARRATOR: Despite the DS believing he was trigger-happy, 200 00:07:59,480 --> 00:08:00,000 number eight, Shannan, passed the pressure test. 201 00:08:00,000 --> 00:08:02,680 number eight, Shannan, passed the pressure test. 202 00:08:03,400 --> 00:08:06,400 (MILITARY-STYLE DRUMMING) 203 00:08:08,280 --> 00:08:10,320 NARRATOR: As a former ironwoman champion, 204 00:08:10,360 --> 00:08:12,040 number two, Candice Warner, 205 00:08:12,080 --> 00:08:14,480 is no stranger to physical and mental resilience. 206 00:08:16,120 --> 00:08:17,320 ANT: Number two! 207 00:08:17,360 --> 00:08:19,960 NARRATOR: But making life or death decisions in a war zone... 208 00:08:20,000 --> 00:08:21,800 Let's go! Move, move! ..is something else entirely. 209 00:08:21,840 --> 00:08:23,320 Quick, quick, quick, quick! 210 00:08:23,360 --> 00:08:24,680 CANDICE: I've got three daughters. 211 00:08:24,720 --> 00:08:27,240 I want to do this course for them to be proud of their mum. 212 00:08:28,360 --> 00:08:29,560 Come on, low as you can. 213 00:08:29,600 --> 00:08:30,000 You know, they're super proud of their dad 214 00:08:30,000 --> 00:08:31,000 You know, they're super proud of their dad 215 00:08:31,040 --> 00:08:32,720 but they just see Mum as Mum. 216 00:08:32,760 --> 00:08:34,240 (GUNFIRE) They're shooting at us! 217 00:08:34,280 --> 00:08:35,919 (GUNFIRE) Get down! Get down! 218 00:08:35,960 --> 00:08:39,360 The lady who picks them up from school, makes their dinner, 219 00:08:39,400 --> 00:08:41,679 gets them breakfast, puts them to bed, reads them books... 220 00:08:41,720 --> 00:08:43,200 (GUNFIRE) Run! Move yourself! 221 00:08:43,240 --> 00:08:44,400 Move yourself! 222 00:08:44,440 --> 00:08:46,800 CANDICE: I want to show them that there's a lot more to their mum 223 00:08:46,840 --> 00:08:48,600 than just that. 224 00:08:48,640 --> 00:08:50,720 (GUNFIRE) Get up! Get the fuck up! 225 00:08:50,760 --> 00:08:52,120 Stand up! 226 00:08:52,160 --> 00:08:54,480 CANDICE: What I want to take from this 227 00:08:54,520 --> 00:08:57,640 is how far I can actually push myself. 228 00:08:57,680 --> 00:08:58,720 (INDISTINCT) 229 00:09:00,240 --> 00:09:01,680 Sort it out! 230 00:09:01,720 --> 00:09:04,280 CANDICE: I think I'm strong and I'm mentally tough. 231 00:09:04,320 --> 00:09:05,600 But am I? 232 00:09:05,640 --> 00:09:07,560 (GUNFIRE) Sort it out! 233 00:09:07,600 --> 00:09:09,280 (GUNFIRE) 234 00:09:10,360 --> 00:09:11,680 Stop! 235 00:09:11,720 --> 00:09:12,920 Stop! 236 00:09:12,960 --> 00:09:14,440 Relax. 237 00:09:14,480 --> 00:09:15,640 Relax. 238 00:09:15,680 --> 00:09:17,200 Put the safety catch on. 239 00:09:18,720 --> 00:09:20,120 What was your decision right there? 240 00:09:20,960 --> 00:09:21,960 Not to shoot. 241 00:09:23,320 --> 00:09:25,400 So, are you happy with your decision right now? 242 00:09:26,560 --> 00:09:28,720 Are you happy with your decision right now? 243 00:09:30,200 --> 00:09:31,320 No, staff. Why? 244 00:09:33,640 --> 00:09:35,240 Why? Tell me something about him. 245 00:09:35,280 --> 00:09:36,440 Now! 246 00:09:36,480 --> 00:09:37,560 He's got a gun. 247 00:09:37,600 --> 00:09:39,520 Correct. What is he doing with that gun? 248 00:09:39,560 --> 00:09:41,480 Pointing it straight at me. Well done, Miss Dead! 249 00:09:41,520 --> 00:09:43,320 Absolutely fantastic. 250 00:09:43,360 --> 00:09:45,800 I'll go back now, tell your husband and your kids 251 00:09:45,840 --> 00:09:49,720 you got yourself killed and probably half a dozen other people as well. 252 00:09:51,440 --> 00:09:52,440 Fantastic. 253 00:09:53,400 --> 00:09:55,120 Couldn't make a decision. 254 00:09:58,120 --> 00:09:59,920 How do you feel about that now? 255 00:09:59,960 --> 00:10:00,000 Pretty fuckin' shit. Pretty shit. 256 00:10:00,000 --> 00:10:02,360 Pretty fuckin' shit. Pretty shit. 257 00:10:02,400 --> 00:10:05,800 Your decision ended it for us as well. 258 00:10:05,840 --> 00:10:07,960 Stood at the grave with the kids. 259 00:10:08,000 --> 00:10:09,800 "I couldn't make a decision." 260 00:10:12,840 --> 00:10:14,800 Take your sorry little arse round the corner 261 00:10:14,840 --> 00:10:16,600 and go and join the rest of them. Fuck off. 262 00:10:17,640 --> 00:10:21,120 BILLY: What we're looking for is staying in control of yourself, 263 00:10:21,160 --> 00:10:22,680 staying in control of your head. 264 00:10:22,720 --> 00:10:24,960 So, it's whether they can make that decision. 265 00:10:25,000 --> 00:10:27,320 Many celebrity, the hardest decision of the day 266 00:10:27,360 --> 00:10:29,040 is whether their coffee latte is hot enough 267 00:10:29,080 --> 00:10:30,000 or fuckin' not hot enough. 268 00:10:30,000 --> 00:10:30,480 or fuckin' not hot enough. 269 00:10:31,600 --> 00:10:33,360 I can't believe I didn't shoot. 270 00:10:33,400 --> 00:10:36,320 BILLY: Put yourself in the situation of a young fuckin' soldier, 271 00:10:36,360 --> 00:10:37,880 going into Iraq for the first time 272 00:10:37,920 --> 00:10:39,560 and having to make that decision. 273 00:10:40,800 --> 00:10:43,080 That's exactly what people have to deal with every day. 274 00:10:45,840 --> 00:10:47,200 Move! Sprint! 275 00:10:47,240 --> 00:10:50,240 NARRATOR: Coming up, a relentless beasting... 276 00:10:50,280 --> 00:10:52,600 ANT: If you don't want to be here, give us your fuckin' numbers! 277 00:10:52,640 --> 00:10:54,640 ..leads to a hidden truth. 278 00:10:54,680 --> 00:10:56,720 CANDICE: There was a ball tampering incident. 279 00:10:56,760 --> 00:10:58,760 The media make us out to be people that we're not. 280 00:10:58,800 --> 00:11:00,000 And what do they make you out to be? Bad parents. 281 00:11:00,000 --> 00:11:00,840 And what do they make you out to be? Bad parents. 282 00:11:00,880 --> 00:11:01,880 Don't get on the defensive. 283 00:11:11,120 --> 00:11:13,560 ANT: Number 11! Let's go! Move. 284 00:11:13,600 --> 00:11:16,120 Let's go, let's go, let's go! Quick! Quick, quick, quick! 285 00:11:16,160 --> 00:11:17,320 NARRATOR: In a remote location, 286 00:11:17,360 --> 00:11:22,120 the DS are ruthlessly testing 14 celebrity recruits... 287 00:11:22,160 --> 00:11:24,160 Keep down! Go on! They're shooting at us! 288 00:11:24,200 --> 00:11:25,600 ..in an extreme combat scenario... 289 00:11:25,640 --> 00:11:26,760 (GUNFIRE) 290 00:11:26,800 --> 00:11:28,320 ..to test their mental strength. 291 00:11:31,400 --> 00:11:33,000 NARRATOR: After being disorientated, 292 00:11:33,040 --> 00:11:35,120 dragged through the mud and handed a weapon... 293 00:11:35,160 --> 00:11:37,000 Sort it out! Sort it out! 294 00:11:37,040 --> 00:11:38,280 ..recruits are forced to make 295 00:11:38,320 --> 00:11:40,240 a life or death split-second decision. 296 00:11:40,280 --> 00:11:41,600 BILLY: Do something! 297 00:11:42,800 --> 00:11:44,000 Stop! 298 00:11:44,040 --> 00:11:45,040 What am I doing? 299 00:11:45,080 --> 00:11:46,640 BILLY: Stand up. 300 00:11:46,680 --> 00:11:48,280 What are you fuckin' doing? 301 00:11:48,320 --> 00:11:51,120 (BREATHING HEAVILY) 302 00:11:51,160 --> 00:11:53,800 Luckily, for you, it was friendly. 303 00:11:55,040 --> 00:11:57,120 They get that one split moment 304 00:11:57,160 --> 00:11:58,360 of dealing with a situation. 305 00:11:58,400 --> 00:11:59,680 (GUNFIRE) Stand up! 306 00:11:59,720 --> 00:12:00,000 Stand up! 307 00:12:00,000 --> 00:12:01,120 Stand up! 308 00:12:01,160 --> 00:12:02,360 You're confused, you're tired, 309 00:12:02,400 --> 00:12:04,280 "Somebody's got to kill, I've got to kill." 310 00:12:04,320 --> 00:12:06,520 Exactly as it would be for a young soldier on a battlefield... 311 00:12:06,560 --> 00:12:08,760 (GUNFIRE) 312 00:12:08,800 --> 00:12:09,960 Stop! 313 00:12:10,000 --> 00:12:11,760 ..and all that goes before you... 314 00:12:11,800 --> 00:12:14,000 Take a breath. 315 00:12:14,040 --> 00:12:15,680 ..in that split second... 316 00:12:15,720 --> 00:12:16,840 (PANTS) Oh fuck. 317 00:12:16,880 --> 00:12:19,360 ..you've got to have clarity in your mind of, 318 00:12:19,400 --> 00:12:21,280 "Should I squeeze the trigger or should I not?" 319 00:12:21,320 --> 00:12:22,440 Start switching on. 320 00:12:22,480 --> 00:12:23,920 (GUNFIRE) There's enemy! They're close! 321 00:12:23,960 --> 00:12:25,640 They're shooting at us! Move forward, move! 322 00:12:25,680 --> 00:12:28,280 I don't consider myself a celebrity at all. 323 00:12:28,320 --> 00:12:30,000 I think my dad is obviously a celebrity. 324 00:12:30,000 --> 00:12:30,240 I think my dad is obviously a celebrity. 325 00:12:30,280 --> 00:12:32,120 Get down! Get down! 326 00:12:32,160 --> 00:12:33,960 The Warne last name is a celebrity. 327 00:12:34,000 --> 00:12:37,320 (GUNFIRE) Run! Run! We're being shot at! 328 00:12:37,360 --> 00:12:39,480 But I don't think I'm famous or anything like that. 329 00:12:39,520 --> 00:12:41,640 Fuckin' get down! Crawl! Crawl! 330 00:12:41,680 --> 00:12:43,160 JACKSON: At such a young age, 331 00:12:43,200 --> 00:12:45,240 I haven't had that life experience other people have had. 332 00:12:45,280 --> 00:12:47,040 (GUNFIRE) Hold your weapon! 333 00:12:47,080 --> 00:12:48,840 Sort it out! 334 00:12:48,880 --> 00:12:51,160 But this is an awesome test that I can try and do 335 00:12:51,200 --> 00:12:52,600 to test myself physically and mentally. 336 00:12:52,640 --> 00:12:53,680 Take cover! 337 00:12:53,720 --> 00:12:55,160 Sort it out! 338 00:13:01,960 --> 00:13:03,320 Are you fuckin' with us? 339 00:13:03,360 --> 00:13:04,640 Yes, staff. You are? 340 00:13:04,680 --> 00:13:06,480 What's going on? 341 00:13:06,520 --> 00:13:07,760 He's a friendly, staff. 342 00:13:07,800 --> 00:13:09,360 When did you realise he was a friendly? 343 00:13:09,400 --> 00:13:10,640 When he was coming down, staff. 344 00:13:10,680 --> 00:13:11,920 And what told you he was friendly? 345 00:13:11,960 --> 00:13:13,480 He's got his gun down, staff. 346 00:13:14,680 --> 00:13:16,200 He's a friendly, staff. 347 00:13:17,000 --> 00:13:18,880 You're a fuckin' impressive person. 348 00:13:19,920 --> 00:13:23,400 Disappear round that corner and off to the right. Go. 349 00:13:23,440 --> 00:13:27,480 NARRATOR: Recruit number three, Jackson Warne, has passed the test. 350 00:13:27,520 --> 00:13:30,000 (GUNFIRE) Run! Run with your feet. Run! 351 00:13:30,000 --> 00:13:30,160 (GUNFIRE) Run! Run with your feet. Run! 352 00:13:30,200 --> 00:13:32,160 NARRATOR: Now, entering the fray is number ten... 353 00:13:32,200 --> 00:13:33,600 (GUNFIRE) We're being shot at! 354 00:13:33,640 --> 00:13:34,720 ..comedian, Merrick Watts. 355 00:13:34,760 --> 00:13:35,880 Take your weapon! 356 00:13:36,680 --> 00:13:38,040 Do something! 357 00:13:38,080 --> 00:13:39,920 (GUNFIRE) Sort it out! 358 00:13:39,960 --> 00:13:41,960 (GUNFIRE) Sort it out, for fuck's sake! 359 00:13:42,800 --> 00:13:44,360 (GUNSHOT) 360 00:13:45,440 --> 00:13:48,440 (BREATHING HEAVILY) 361 00:13:51,120 --> 00:13:52,760 Stand fuckin' still! 362 00:13:52,800 --> 00:13:54,240 Stop! 363 00:13:54,280 --> 00:13:55,840 Stop! 364 00:13:58,120 --> 00:13:59,400 Give me the weapon. 365 00:14:01,840 --> 00:14:03,320 What do you see? 366 00:14:05,920 --> 00:14:08,080 MERRICK: He's here to kill me. BILLY: And what did you do about it? 367 00:14:10,120 --> 00:14:12,040 You couldn't even fuckin' stand straight. 368 00:14:12,080 --> 00:14:14,720 You couldn't look, make a decision, could you? 369 00:14:15,520 --> 00:14:16,960 Could you? 370 00:14:17,000 --> 00:14:19,360 And a big fucker like you couldn't take the safety catch off 371 00:14:19,400 --> 00:14:20,480 and defend you! 372 00:14:20,520 --> 00:14:23,240 More importantly, defend me 'cause I'm behind you. 373 00:14:23,280 --> 00:14:24,280 Yes, staff. 374 00:14:24,320 --> 00:14:25,640 How do you feel about that right now? 375 00:14:25,680 --> 00:14:26,680 I don't feel good, staff. 376 00:14:26,720 --> 00:14:28,560 Go and have a fuckin' word with yourself. 377 00:14:28,600 --> 00:14:30,000 Go round to the corner there and run to the right. 378 00:14:30,000 --> 00:14:30,280 Go round to the corner there and run to the right. 379 00:14:30,320 --> 00:14:31,360 Get away. 380 00:14:33,320 --> 00:14:37,840 NARRATOR: Like most before him, number ten, Merrick, failed the test. 381 00:14:37,880 --> 00:14:41,560 Faced with an armed aggressor, he was unable to defend himself. 382 00:14:42,680 --> 00:14:43,840 How did that go for you guys? 383 00:14:43,880 --> 00:14:45,240 I didn't shoot. I didn't shoot either. 384 00:14:45,280 --> 00:14:46,680 Neither. I didn't get a shot off. 385 00:14:46,720 --> 00:14:48,560 I couldn't decide. 386 00:14:48,600 --> 00:14:50,600 I got the safety off just at the last second 387 00:14:50,640 --> 00:14:52,840 but by that time, I was greased. 388 00:14:53,680 --> 00:14:54,680 Fuck. 389 00:14:57,960 --> 00:15:00,000 NARRATOR: Next to be put on trial is Australian swimmer, Shayna Jack. 390 00:15:00,000 --> 00:15:02,160 NARRATOR: Next to be put on trial is Australian swimmer, Shayna Jack. 391 00:15:02,200 --> 00:15:06,240 I've represented my country for swimming for three years now. 392 00:15:07,080 --> 00:15:08,440 ANT: Move! Move, quick! 393 00:15:08,480 --> 00:15:10,000 Head down, let's go! 394 00:15:11,560 --> 00:15:12,880 I love to be in control. 395 00:15:12,920 --> 00:15:14,680 Get up! Get up! 396 00:15:15,920 --> 00:15:18,720 That's just how I've been due to my routine and swimming. 397 00:15:22,640 --> 00:15:26,160 I am here to challenge myself to fight for myself... 398 00:15:26,200 --> 00:15:27,840 Jesus Christ! Get up! 399 00:15:27,880 --> 00:15:29,520 (GUNFIRE) Come on! Let's go! Let's go! 400 00:15:29,560 --> 00:15:30,000 We're getting shot at! 401 00:15:30,000 --> 00:15:30,840 We're getting shot at! 402 00:15:30,880 --> 00:15:36,160 ..to show the world that I'm a strong fighter 403 00:15:36,200 --> 00:15:38,200 who flourishes in a tough environment. 404 00:15:38,240 --> 00:15:39,440 (INDISTINCT SHOUTING) 405 00:15:39,480 --> 00:15:41,200 (INDISTINCT) Deal with this! 406 00:15:44,640 --> 00:15:46,040 (GUNSHOT) 407 00:15:46,080 --> 00:15:47,760 Stop! 408 00:15:50,040 --> 00:15:53,760 What are you doing? 409 00:15:54,880 --> 00:15:56,800 Put the safety catch on. 410 00:15:56,840 --> 00:15:58,520 Take a breath. 411 00:15:58,560 --> 00:16:00,000 Look in front of you. 412 00:16:00,000 --> 00:16:00,240 Look in front of you. 413 00:16:00,280 --> 00:16:01,800 What do you see? 414 00:16:01,840 --> 00:16:02,960 An enemy. 415 00:16:03,000 --> 00:16:04,320 An enemy. Yes. 416 00:16:04,360 --> 00:16:05,800 What does that mean? 417 00:16:05,840 --> 00:16:08,640 That I should have fired. 418 00:16:08,680 --> 00:16:10,320 Because he was putting my life in danger 419 00:16:10,360 --> 00:16:11,520 'cause he had his weapon on me. 420 00:16:12,760 --> 00:16:14,080 So, what happened? 421 00:16:16,000 --> 00:16:19,160 You fuckin' went irrational. You couldn't make a decision. 422 00:16:19,200 --> 00:16:21,920 Too busy worrying about being out of breath. 423 00:16:21,960 --> 00:16:23,520 You know what you are? 424 00:16:23,560 --> 00:16:24,960 A liability. Yes, staff. 425 00:16:25,000 --> 00:16:27,520 A fucking liability. 426 00:16:27,560 --> 00:16:30,000 To the whole of the people behind you. OK? 427 00:16:30,000 --> 00:16:31,000 To the whole of the people behind you. OK? 428 00:16:31,040 --> 00:16:32,080 Yes, staff. 429 00:16:32,120 --> 00:16:33,760 That leaves it to me or someone else 430 00:16:33,800 --> 00:16:36,360 to go tell your mum, tell your dad, 431 00:16:36,400 --> 00:16:39,840 holding onto your nuts got us all fucking killed nearly. 432 00:16:39,880 --> 00:16:41,520 Unfortunately, she's dead. 433 00:16:41,560 --> 00:16:42,840 How does that sound? 434 00:16:42,880 --> 00:16:43,920 Terrible, staff. 435 00:16:43,960 --> 00:16:48,840 Terrible, and all you had to do was think, observe and deal with. 436 00:16:48,880 --> 00:16:50,120 Couldn't do it, could you? 437 00:16:50,160 --> 00:16:51,640 No, staff. Too many things going on. 438 00:16:53,160 --> 00:16:55,400 I let the team down, staff. You fucking did. 439 00:16:55,440 --> 00:16:57,120 You're a disgrace. 440 00:16:59,640 --> 00:17:00,000 Fucking get out of my sight. 441 00:17:00,000 --> 00:17:00,680 Fucking get out of my sight. 442 00:17:00,720 --> 00:17:02,120 Have a think about what you've just done. 443 00:17:14,280 --> 00:17:15,560 Why? What happened? 444 00:17:15,599 --> 00:17:17,960 I had the dude just dressed in black with a gun coming at me 445 00:17:18,000 --> 00:17:19,720 and I didn't shoot. 446 00:17:21,040 --> 00:17:24,400 NARRATOR: So far, only three recruits have made the right decision. 447 00:17:26,880 --> 00:17:28,280 ANT: Dig deep! Let's go! 448 00:17:29,600 --> 00:17:30,000 NARRATOR: Recruit number 15, Mitchell Johnson, 449 00:17:30,000 --> 00:17:31,440 NARRATOR: Recruit number 15, Mitchell Johnson, 450 00:17:31,480 --> 00:17:32,800 is the last in line. 451 00:17:32,840 --> 00:17:36,280 In the world of cricket, he is known for his aggression 452 00:17:36,320 --> 00:17:40,360 and coming out on top even when he's surrounded by deafening noise. 453 00:17:40,400 --> 00:17:42,160 MITCHELL: In cricket, you have to perform. 454 00:17:42,200 --> 00:17:44,200 You're in the limelight. 455 00:17:44,240 --> 00:17:45,800 Stand up. Stand up. Watch it, watch it. 456 00:17:45,840 --> 00:17:48,320 I've copped a fair bit of abuse over time with crowds. 457 00:17:48,360 --> 00:17:50,840 (GUNFIRE) Alright! OK, they're shooting at us! 458 00:17:50,880 --> 00:17:51,880 Come on! 459 00:17:51,920 --> 00:17:54,400 But I just had to block that out.. 460 00:17:54,440 --> 00:17:56,120 Run! ..and focus to keep positive 461 00:17:56,160 --> 00:17:58,160 and it seemed to work. 462 00:18:00,120 --> 00:18:01,800 (GUNFIRE) You're like a fucking wet blanket. 463 00:18:01,840 --> 00:18:03,720 Get up! Get up! Go! 464 00:18:03,760 --> 00:18:05,440 (GUNFIRE) 465 00:18:06,880 --> 00:18:08,800 I've found it tough since retiring from cricket. 466 00:18:08,840 --> 00:18:10,800 Stand up! Stand up! 467 00:18:10,840 --> 00:18:12,880 (GUNFIRE) 468 00:18:12,920 --> 00:18:14,000 There's your weapon. 469 00:18:14,040 --> 00:18:16,000 MITCHELL: All of a sudden, you're not doing as much. 470 00:18:16,040 --> 00:18:18,200 (INDISTINCT) 471 00:18:18,240 --> 00:18:20,320 You sort of lose your purpose a little bit. 472 00:18:20,360 --> 00:18:21,800 Deal with it! Sort it out! 473 00:18:21,840 --> 00:18:23,320 (GUNFIRE) Sort it out! 474 00:18:24,200 --> 00:18:25,480 (GUNFIRE) Get your shit together. 475 00:18:25,520 --> 00:18:28,400 MITCHELL: That's why I'm trying to find things to push myself. 476 00:18:30,080 --> 00:18:31,160 BILLY: Sort it out! 477 00:18:31,200 --> 00:18:32,800 (GUNSHOT) 478 00:18:32,840 --> 00:18:34,280 This course is one of those things. 479 00:18:35,600 --> 00:18:37,240 (BREATHING HEAVILY) 480 00:18:38,560 --> 00:18:39,880 Look in front of you. 481 00:18:41,240 --> 00:18:43,160 What do you see? 482 00:18:43,200 --> 00:18:44,720 MITCHELL: Someone pointing their gun. 483 00:18:44,760 --> 00:18:46,520 Where's he pointing the gun? At me. 484 00:18:46,560 --> 00:18:47,720 What does that mean? 485 00:18:47,760 --> 00:18:50,440 I need to fire and shoot him first. 486 00:18:50,480 --> 00:18:52,360 So, what do you reckon would've happened right now? 487 00:18:52,400 --> 00:18:53,840 I'd be dead. Fucking wonderful. 488 00:18:53,880 --> 00:18:55,280 You know why? 489 00:18:55,320 --> 00:18:56,760 'Cause you're tired. 490 00:18:56,800 --> 00:18:58,360 Look at the fucking size of you. 491 00:19:00,440 --> 00:19:01,680 Yes, staff. 492 00:19:03,000 --> 00:19:05,360 Maybe you're a casualty, maybe you do survive. 493 00:19:05,400 --> 00:19:07,760 Next two behind them, dead. 494 00:19:07,800 --> 00:19:09,120 Would you be happy with that? 495 00:19:09,160 --> 00:19:10,680 No, staff. No. 496 00:19:10,720 --> 00:19:12,480 Well, you don't get a second chance in this. 497 00:19:13,520 --> 00:19:15,040 Yes, staff. So, how do you feel about that? 498 00:19:15,080 --> 00:19:16,320 I feel like shit. Yeah, you should. 499 00:19:16,360 --> 00:19:17,720 You should. 500 00:19:17,760 --> 00:19:19,240 You have a reason to. 501 00:19:19,280 --> 00:19:22,240 So, what I suggest you do is disappear round that corner, 502 00:19:22,280 --> 00:19:24,680 turn right, join the rest of them, have a think about your actions. 503 00:19:24,720 --> 00:19:25,920 What you've just done. 504 00:19:25,960 --> 00:19:27,120 Yes, staff. 505 00:19:27,160 --> 00:19:28,240 Go. 506 00:19:34,440 --> 00:19:36,200 MITCHELL: I'm quite goal orientated 507 00:19:36,240 --> 00:19:38,080 and that's come through with my sport. 508 00:19:38,120 --> 00:19:39,880 But everyone has their breaking point. 509 00:19:39,920 --> 00:19:41,240 Couldn't get the safety off. 510 00:19:41,920 --> 00:19:43,680 Fucked it. 511 00:19:43,720 --> 00:19:45,280 It's a split decision, hey? 512 00:19:46,240 --> 00:19:47,960 MITCHELL: If I get to my breaking point 513 00:19:48,000 --> 00:19:50,400 and I can't go any further than... 514 00:19:50,440 --> 00:19:51,680 I think I'll be pretty disappointed. 515 00:20:04,960 --> 00:20:06,960 ANT: Today's been an interesting day. 516 00:20:09,400 --> 00:20:10,880 All about mindset. 517 00:20:11,680 --> 00:20:14,080 Nothing really physical about today, was there? 518 00:20:14,120 --> 00:20:17,360 NARRATOR: After this morning's gruelling marksman task, 519 00:20:17,400 --> 00:20:19,920 the DS are disappointed with the mental vulnerability 520 00:20:19,960 --> 00:20:22,280 of some within the group. 521 00:20:22,320 --> 00:20:24,320 ANT: It's exposed a lot of them, I think. 522 00:20:25,800 --> 00:20:27,720 Although they've done the least amount of physical work, 523 00:20:27,760 --> 00:20:29,440 it's been the most powerful day that we've had yet. 524 00:20:29,480 --> 00:20:30,000 Yeah. 525 00:20:30,000 --> 00:20:30,480 Yeah. 526 00:20:30,520 --> 00:20:32,760 That one-minute decision affects their whole day. 527 00:20:33,880 --> 00:20:37,240 I think it was number seven went away from that broken 528 00:20:37,280 --> 00:20:39,920 and that will, you know, that self-doubt all day long 529 00:20:39,960 --> 00:20:42,000 about making that wrong decision. 530 00:20:42,920 --> 00:20:45,360 Some just froze but some actually went, 531 00:20:45,400 --> 00:20:47,840 "Fuck, I need to do something about it", and did that. 532 00:20:47,880 --> 00:20:49,280 The ones that stood out 533 00:20:49,320 --> 00:20:51,160 and really took the bull by the horns 534 00:20:51,200 --> 00:20:52,440 and did something, if I'm honest, 535 00:20:52,480 --> 00:20:55,240 number three and number eight. 536 00:20:55,280 --> 00:20:57,120 They actually reacted 537 00:20:57,160 --> 00:20:59,720 and basically did exactly what they were supposed to do. 538 00:20:59,760 --> 00:21:00,000 OLLIE: But look at number two falling apart. 539 00:21:00,000 --> 00:21:02,520 OLLIE: But look at number two falling apart. 540 00:21:02,560 --> 00:21:03,920 ANT: Yeah. 541 00:21:03,960 --> 00:21:05,120 So... 542 00:21:05,160 --> 00:21:08,840 That's amazing how one decision or one doubt in your head 543 00:21:08,880 --> 00:21:10,280 can just... 544 00:21:10,320 --> 00:21:11,760 You know, you can just fall apart. 545 00:21:11,800 --> 00:21:13,040 You just crumble. 546 00:21:13,920 --> 00:21:16,400 BILLY: Number 15, he just froze. 547 00:21:16,440 --> 00:21:18,080 OLLIE: Yeah. 548 00:21:18,120 --> 00:21:21,400 He just stood there, you know, almost like he beat himself up. 549 00:21:22,920 --> 00:21:24,960 He just didn't have the confidence, 550 00:21:25,000 --> 00:21:27,040 he had no confidence to make that decision. 551 00:21:27,080 --> 00:21:29,000 Yeah. He wanted to be told what to do. 552 00:21:29,040 --> 00:21:30,000 Yeah. 553 00:21:30,000 --> 00:21:30,120 Yeah. 554 00:21:33,360 --> 00:21:34,720 Go through the tunnel alright? 555 00:21:36,000 --> 00:21:37,360 Yeah, I couldn't see shit, actually. 556 00:21:37,400 --> 00:21:38,520 Yeah, it was hard to breathe. 557 00:21:38,560 --> 00:21:40,480 It was like trying to breathe, like... Yeah. 558 00:21:42,040 --> 00:21:45,240 It's funny, no matter how composed you think you can be... 559 00:21:45,280 --> 00:21:46,800 Like, I knew what they were about to do to me 560 00:21:46,840 --> 00:21:48,840 and I was like, "It'll be alright." 561 00:21:49,760 --> 00:21:52,040 But the more they roughed me up, it still gets to you a bit. 562 00:21:52,080 --> 00:21:54,240 Yeah, no. I'm not a fan of... 563 00:21:57,160 --> 00:21:59,160 ..that sort of those tight, tunnel spaces. 564 00:21:59,200 --> 00:22:00,000 Yeah. 565 00:22:00,000 --> 00:22:00,720 Yeah. 566 00:22:02,000 --> 00:22:04,760 NARRATOR: Recruit number 15, Mitchell Johnson, 567 00:22:04,800 --> 00:22:07,000 has been struggling to shrug off his failure 568 00:22:07,040 --> 00:22:09,200 at this morning's marksman task. 569 00:22:10,400 --> 00:22:14,240 Keen to find out why, the DS bring him in for questioning. 570 00:22:15,040 --> 00:22:17,040 MITCHELL: In 2011, in South Africa, 571 00:22:17,080 --> 00:22:19,640 I got to the point where I just wasn't enjoying myself, 572 00:22:19,680 --> 00:22:22,360 I wasn't enjoying being a professional cricketer 573 00:22:22,400 --> 00:22:25,440 and being, I guess, looked at and judged all the time 574 00:22:25,480 --> 00:22:28,400 and I just took everything personally. 575 00:22:29,440 --> 00:22:30,000 I was physically exhausted 576 00:22:30,000 --> 00:22:30,800 I was physically exhausted 577 00:22:30,840 --> 00:22:33,360 and I was mentally exhausted as well. 578 00:22:33,400 --> 00:22:36,280 Yeah, I'm really interested to see how I do cope 579 00:22:36,320 --> 00:22:38,960 with all the things and what sort of person I really am. 580 00:22:39,000 --> 00:22:42,320 I think that's part of the reason why I wanted to do this course. 581 00:22:52,960 --> 00:22:54,080 You OK? 582 00:22:54,120 --> 00:22:55,440 Could be better. 583 00:22:56,640 --> 00:22:59,160 So, what was your motivation at the start for coming here anyway? 584 00:22:59,200 --> 00:23:00,000 Um... (SIGHS) 585 00:23:00,000 --> 00:23:00,840 Um... (SIGHS) 586 00:23:00,880 --> 00:23:03,080 (SNIFFS) I've just always loved SAS. 587 00:23:03,120 --> 00:23:04,400 Um... 588 00:23:05,080 --> 00:23:08,080 growing up, the army came to our school 589 00:23:08,120 --> 00:23:09,560 and... (INHALES) 590 00:23:09,600 --> 00:23:11,640 ..I remember they were trying to recruit in Year 12, 591 00:23:11,680 --> 00:23:14,720 and, um, I actually almost joined the army when I left school 592 00:23:14,760 --> 00:23:15,760 six months out of high school. 593 00:23:15,800 --> 00:23:19,760 Um, but then cricket for me, I got really lucky with that, 594 00:23:19,800 --> 00:23:21,880 so I went down that path. 595 00:23:21,920 --> 00:23:26,000 I think one thing that we both noticed was... 596 00:23:26,040 --> 00:23:28,720 after we did marching, your demeanour changed. 597 00:23:28,760 --> 00:23:30,000 (EERIE MUSIC) Yeah. 598 00:23:30,000 --> 00:23:30,120 (EERIE MUSIC) Yeah. 599 00:23:30,160 --> 00:23:32,440 I just thought about it too much. 600 00:23:32,960 --> 00:23:34,200 Just the lead-up of it. 601 00:23:34,680 --> 00:23:36,720 Do you understand what, what we're doing there? 602 00:23:36,760 --> 00:23:38,480 Because that relates to our world. 603 00:23:38,520 --> 00:23:40,160 It's about making decisions 604 00:23:40,200 --> 00:23:42,560 when everything around you is falling apart. 605 00:23:44,040 --> 00:23:47,960 What did you do when you got to... DS? What did you do? 606 00:23:48,000 --> 00:23:50,880 Um, I, well, I picked up the weapon 607 00:23:50,920 --> 00:23:52,360 and I panicked. Yeah. 608 00:23:52,400 --> 00:23:53,520 The panic sort of set in. 609 00:23:54,360 --> 00:23:57,440 Um, and then the disappointment. Yep. 610 00:23:57,480 --> 00:23:59,520 (TENSE MUSIC) 611 00:23:59,560 --> 00:24:00,000 He picked up on it and said to me, "Is he OK?" And I said, "Yes." 612 00:24:00,000 --> 00:24:02,480 He picked up on it and said to me, "Is he OK?" And I said, "Yes." 613 00:24:02,520 --> 00:24:04,760 Your head went straight down and it was like... 614 00:24:05,440 --> 00:24:07,840 And I actually thought you took that really personal when you shouldn't. 615 00:24:10,120 --> 00:24:13,800 I struggle with probably... confidence at times, 616 00:24:13,840 --> 00:24:17,040 and... (INHALES) ..just think I'm in that transition now 617 00:24:17,080 --> 00:24:20,160 where I've been out of playing cricket for about two years 618 00:24:20,200 --> 00:24:22,800 and it's... Have you found that transition hard? 619 00:24:24,360 --> 00:24:27,080 Um, yeah. Yeah, plenty of times. Yep. 620 00:24:27,960 --> 00:24:28,960 I mean, I, I... 621 00:24:29,000 --> 00:24:30,000 I found out I've got depression. 622 00:24:30,000 --> 00:24:31,240 I found out I've got depression. 623 00:24:31,280 --> 00:24:34,280 (TENSE MUSIC) 624 00:24:37,120 --> 00:24:40,400 But I think the depression was something I've had 625 00:24:40,440 --> 00:24:42,080 even from a younger age. 626 00:24:44,240 --> 00:24:45,280 Cricket was my... 627 00:24:45,800 --> 00:24:47,920 It sort of blocked things out in a way. 628 00:24:47,960 --> 00:24:49,960 Like, it sort of hid the depression. 629 00:24:50,000 --> 00:24:53,440 But there was a lot of times where you go back to your room, 630 00:24:53,480 --> 00:24:57,000 you're away from family and you start to dwell on things. 631 00:24:57,040 --> 00:24:58,040 But... 632 00:24:59,400 --> 00:25:00,000 through my cricket career, I actually just dealt with it. 633 00:25:00,000 --> 00:25:01,560 through my cricket career, I actually just dealt with it. 634 00:25:01,600 --> 00:25:05,760 Um, it's just about me now actually moving forward 635 00:25:05,800 --> 00:25:10,520 and taking it upon myself to be active with certain things 636 00:25:10,560 --> 00:25:12,000 to keep my mind going. 637 00:25:12,040 --> 00:25:14,680 (POIGNANT MUSIC) 638 00:25:14,720 --> 00:25:15,760 That's exactly what you've gotta do. 639 00:25:15,800 --> 00:25:18,000 You've gotta find something else and have a goal now. 640 00:25:18,040 --> 00:25:20,480 We get on this crazy train, our world, the SF world, 641 00:25:20,520 --> 00:25:22,280 which - it travels at a thousand miles an hour. 642 00:25:22,320 --> 00:25:24,160 And you get off, doing all these crazy things, 643 00:25:24,200 --> 00:25:26,160 you get back on it, then all of a sudden, it finishes. 644 00:25:26,800 --> 00:25:29,720 And your body and your mind is doing 50% of what you were doing. 645 00:25:29,760 --> 00:25:30,000 You haven't got the camaraderie either. 646 00:25:30,000 --> 00:25:31,080 You haven't got the camaraderie either. 647 00:25:31,120 --> 00:25:32,840 You haven't got the same sort of people around you you're used to 648 00:25:32,880 --> 00:25:34,640 working with, and it's difficult. Yep. 649 00:25:34,680 --> 00:25:37,040 Everything's a challenge to us now. 650 00:25:38,000 --> 00:25:39,400 That's the only way I can relate it to. 651 00:25:39,440 --> 00:25:40,920 But we give you a pinch of... 652 00:25:40,960 --> 00:25:43,000 That's what we do, that's our shit we've had to deal with. 653 00:25:43,760 --> 00:25:45,720 That's fuckin' hard. It is hard. 654 00:25:45,760 --> 00:25:47,720 (POIGNANT MUSIC) 655 00:25:47,760 --> 00:25:49,840 Take every day as it comes, alright, 656 00:25:49,880 --> 00:25:52,640 and don't be afraid to fuckin' push forward and go for it. 657 00:25:54,080 --> 00:25:55,880 Guard! (DOOR RATTLES) 658 00:25:57,240 --> 00:26:00,000 (POIGNANT MUSIC) 659 00:26:00,000 --> 00:26:00,240 (POIGNANT MUSIC) 660 00:26:04,840 --> 00:26:08,040 You have your moments where you struggle with it really bad. 661 00:26:09,000 --> 00:26:12,480 It can be tricky when you've got a lot of time to think about things. 662 00:26:12,520 --> 00:26:14,200 I think that's when it becomes the most difficult. 663 00:26:18,120 --> 00:26:20,440 There's just... You have no control whatsoever. 664 00:26:20,480 --> 00:26:24,760 And, um, your mind just starts playing those tricks with you, so. 665 00:26:25,960 --> 00:26:27,880 Yeah, you start thinking of the worst. 666 00:26:31,280 --> 00:26:32,840 Faster! Faster! Move! 667 00:26:32,880 --> 00:26:36,520 Next - the recruits are pushed beyond their limits. 668 00:26:37,600 --> 00:26:40,200 If you don't wanna be here, give us your fuckin' numbers. 669 00:26:41,720 --> 00:26:43,480 Fuckin' Iron-lady, my arse. 670 00:26:48,360 --> 00:26:50,200 (OMINOUS MUSIC) 671 00:26:50,240 --> 00:26:51,680 NARRATOR: It's the end of day four. 672 00:26:52,440 --> 00:26:54,080 In near freezing temperatures, 673 00:26:54,120 --> 00:26:56,520 the recruits prepare to turn in for the night. 674 00:26:56,560 --> 00:26:58,040 Can we just have a quick chat about the fires? 675 00:26:58,080 --> 00:27:00,000 Because last night, the fires went out about 4:00. 676 00:27:00,000 --> 00:27:00,280 Because last night, the fires went out about 4:00. 677 00:27:00,320 --> 00:27:02,800 Can we just check both fires, both fires? 678 00:27:02,840 --> 00:27:05,320 I mean, I'm not trying to be Captain Fire. 679 00:27:05,360 --> 00:27:06,760 You've got five minutes! 680 00:27:06,800 --> 00:27:08,320 Get on the parade square! 681 00:27:08,360 --> 00:27:09,680 Move! 682 00:27:09,720 --> 00:27:12,240 But the recruits have been summoned by the DS 683 00:27:12,280 --> 00:27:14,360 for a surprise on-the-spot inspection. 684 00:27:16,360 --> 00:27:19,280 Some of them still seem unaware as to what might happen 685 00:27:19,320 --> 00:27:22,320 if they disobey even the most basic of rules. 686 00:27:22,360 --> 00:27:24,840 10:29pm. 687 00:27:24,880 --> 00:27:26,560 Firass, seriously. MAN: Shh! 688 00:27:26,600 --> 00:27:28,560 Shut the fuck up. 689 00:27:28,600 --> 00:27:30,000 Sometimes, shh, brah. Mate, from here on. 690 00:27:30,000 --> 00:27:30,480 Sometimes, shh, brah. Mate, from here on. 691 00:27:30,520 --> 00:27:31,760 No fuckin' talking, seriously. 692 00:27:31,800 --> 00:27:32,880 Everyone's the same, mate. 693 00:27:32,920 --> 00:27:35,040 (HANDS RUB TOGETHER) 694 00:27:35,080 --> 00:27:36,480 Don't wanna hear it. 695 00:27:38,360 --> 00:27:39,720 MAN: Stop moving! 696 00:27:39,760 --> 00:27:42,760 (TENSE MUSIC) 697 00:27:50,000 --> 00:27:51,120 All of you... 698 00:27:51,880 --> 00:27:53,280 get your water bottles out, 699 00:27:53,320 --> 00:27:55,400 undo them and put them in front of you. 700 00:27:55,440 --> 00:27:58,440 (OMINOUS MUSIC) 701 00:28:04,400 --> 00:28:05,400 Undo it. 702 00:28:06,680 --> 00:28:09,680 (OMINOUS MUSIC) 703 00:28:12,720 --> 00:28:13,920 Is that full? 704 00:28:17,560 --> 00:28:18,600 Is that full? 705 00:28:18,640 --> 00:28:20,160 I'm tipping it out halfway. Is that full? 706 00:28:21,080 --> 00:28:23,080 Is that full? It's 97% full. 707 00:28:23,120 --> 00:28:25,120 Is that... No, it's not full. 708 00:28:25,160 --> 00:28:26,640 Pour it over your head. 709 00:28:26,680 --> 00:28:29,680 (OMINOUS MUSIC) 710 00:28:29,720 --> 00:28:30,000 Put it away. 711 00:28:30,000 --> 00:28:30,720 Put it away. 712 00:28:32,920 --> 00:28:33,920 Put it away. 713 00:28:33,960 --> 00:28:38,760 It's the small things as an SAS soldier that really stick with me, 714 00:28:38,800 --> 00:28:41,680 like having your water bottle full to the brim. 715 00:28:42,480 --> 00:28:45,720 During my training, if it wasn't full to the very brim... 716 00:28:46,240 --> 00:28:48,000 then you were wasting a mouthful. 717 00:28:48,600 --> 00:28:50,200 And when you're on operations, 718 00:28:50,240 --> 00:28:53,000 you don't know how long that mission's going to last, 719 00:28:53,040 --> 00:28:55,560 so every mouthful counts. 720 00:28:57,680 --> 00:28:58,880 Is that full? 721 00:28:59,520 --> 00:29:00,000 Look at me. Look at me. 722 00:29:00,000 --> 00:29:00,640 Look at me. Look at me. 723 00:29:00,680 --> 00:29:02,680 Simple...it's a fucking simple question. 724 00:29:02,720 --> 00:29:04,360 Is that full? Pour it over your head. 725 00:29:07,600 --> 00:29:08,760 You know what to do with that, don't you? 726 00:29:12,560 --> 00:29:13,560 Pour it over your head. 727 00:29:13,600 --> 00:29:16,800 And I remember going through training, 728 00:29:16,840 --> 00:29:19,800 and every time my water bottle wasn't full up, 729 00:29:19,840 --> 00:29:21,280 I had to pour it over my head. 730 00:29:22,040 --> 00:29:27,680 Ah, so I started the day off wet, cold and miserable. 731 00:29:27,720 --> 00:29:30,000 (OMINOUS MUSIC) 732 00:29:30,000 --> 00:29:30,720 (OMINOUS MUSIC) 733 00:29:31,600 --> 00:29:32,640 Put it away. 734 00:29:33,480 --> 00:29:34,520 Put it away. 735 00:29:36,120 --> 00:29:38,840 Those of you with empty water bottles, go and fill 'em up. 736 00:29:39,440 --> 00:29:41,880 By experiencing what it takes 737 00:29:41,920 --> 00:29:46,440 to have the unique mindset of a special forces operator... 738 00:29:47,520 --> 00:29:51,680 they do what we tell them to do when we tell them to do it... 739 00:29:52,200 --> 00:29:54,520 or they're gonna think they're in hell. 740 00:29:55,280 --> 00:29:58,160 Half of you didn't even have your water bottles full up 50%. 741 00:29:58,200 --> 00:30:00,000 Do you realise how basic... watering yourself... 742 00:30:00,000 --> 00:30:01,920 Do you realise how basic... watering yourself... 743 00:30:02,960 --> 00:30:04,480 and feeding yourself is? 744 00:30:04,520 --> 00:30:06,240 ALL: Yes, sir. 745 00:30:06,280 --> 00:30:07,840 I feel like we're getting nowhere. 746 00:30:07,880 --> 00:30:10,440 I feel like we've taken a whole fucking day backwards. 747 00:30:10,480 --> 00:30:12,040 Now we're wasting our time. 748 00:30:13,240 --> 00:30:17,320 For that, you're obviously still not using your time wisely. 749 00:30:17,880 --> 00:30:21,000 It's gonna be a very long night into a very long day. 750 00:30:22,360 --> 00:30:24,240 To teach the recruits a lesson, 751 00:30:24,280 --> 00:30:26,920 they will be severely punished with a beasting. 752 00:30:26,960 --> 00:30:29,600 MAN: Start banging out press-ups. Move! 753 00:30:29,640 --> 00:30:30,000 Beastings are designed to push recruits beyond their pain barrier. 754 00:30:30,000 --> 00:30:32,880 Beastings are designed to push recruits beyond their pain barrier. 755 00:30:32,920 --> 00:30:34,360 Come on, move it! 756 00:30:34,400 --> 00:30:36,960 They're so physically and mentally demanding, 757 00:30:37,000 --> 00:30:39,680 that recruits will often quit as a result. 758 00:30:40,720 --> 00:30:43,760 Keep fucking banging them out and stop making a noise. 759 00:30:43,800 --> 00:30:46,280 Move! Sprint! Move! 760 00:30:46,320 --> 00:30:49,200 A beasting is just to drain you physically. 761 00:30:49,240 --> 00:30:50,960 Start moving quicker! 762 00:30:51,000 --> 00:30:53,080 Hurry the fuck up! 763 00:30:53,120 --> 00:30:54,920 It's a physical thrashing. 764 00:30:54,960 --> 00:30:58,160 And when you're drained physically, it can get into your head. 765 00:30:58,200 --> 00:31:00,000 Seal crawl! Cross your fucking legs. 766 00:31:00,000 --> 00:31:00,360 Seal crawl! Cross your fucking legs. 767 00:31:00,400 --> 00:31:01,560 Am I fit enough? 768 00:31:01,600 --> 00:31:03,560 Is this course right for me? 769 00:31:03,600 --> 00:31:05,400 Have I got what it takes? 770 00:31:05,440 --> 00:31:07,880 If you don't wanna be here, give us your fucking numbers. 771 00:31:07,920 --> 00:31:09,920 Asking those questions to yourself. 772 00:31:09,960 --> 00:31:10,960 Go, just get past it. 773 00:31:11,000 --> 00:31:12,000 It's gonna eat away at you. 774 00:31:12,040 --> 00:31:15,280 The fucking nightmare can end for any one of you right now. 775 00:31:15,320 --> 00:31:18,200 What's that, number ten? Do you got a mountain behind you? 776 00:31:18,240 --> 00:31:20,240 Your body is fit, your mind is fit. 777 00:31:21,240 --> 00:31:23,040 If you can get 'em both to work at the same time... 778 00:31:23,960 --> 00:31:25,440 you are a weapon. 779 00:31:25,480 --> 00:31:27,920 I think about winning. Come on! 780 00:31:27,960 --> 00:31:29,040 I think about pushing myself. 781 00:31:29,080 --> 00:31:30,000 I think about doing the best I can 782 00:31:30,000 --> 00:31:30,560 I think about doing the best I can 783 00:31:30,600 --> 00:31:32,120 because I'm doing this for my family. 784 00:31:32,160 --> 00:31:36,240 The more confident I am, the more present I am... 785 00:31:36,280 --> 00:31:37,320 for my family. 786 00:31:37,360 --> 00:31:40,320 The better I am for them, the better they are for me. 787 00:31:40,360 --> 00:31:43,360 This is your doing! Your making. 788 00:31:43,400 --> 00:31:45,240 Go! Get in there. 789 00:31:45,280 --> 00:31:48,640 You pathetic bunch of fucking creatures. 790 00:31:49,480 --> 00:31:50,600 Dance! 791 00:31:50,640 --> 00:31:53,960 (RECRUITS GROAN) 792 00:31:54,000 --> 00:31:56,160 We go until we drop! 793 00:31:56,200 --> 00:31:59,360 Given my height and stature, 794 00:31:59,400 --> 00:32:00,000 people just assume that I'm gonna be 795 00:32:00,000 --> 00:32:01,760 people just assume that I'm gonna be 796 00:32:01,800 --> 00:32:04,120 physically capable of most things 797 00:32:04,160 --> 00:32:08,240 even though I've spent most of my life horizontal in a pool. 798 00:32:08,280 --> 00:32:10,200 Now, pick them up. Baby carry! 799 00:32:10,240 --> 00:32:11,280 Alright! 800 00:32:11,320 --> 00:32:13,080 Start sparking! 801 00:32:13,120 --> 00:32:15,800 But I hope that I can push myself 802 00:32:15,840 --> 00:32:19,600 to limits that I've never done in my swimming career. 803 00:32:19,640 --> 00:32:21,800 (GROANS) 804 00:32:21,840 --> 00:32:24,480 Fucking Iron Lady, my arse. Move! 805 00:32:25,520 --> 00:32:26,960 (GROANS) 806 00:32:27,000 --> 00:32:29,320 I've always been a very competitive person, 807 00:32:29,360 --> 00:32:30,000 but since having kids, I have never pushed... 808 00:32:30,000 --> 00:32:32,080 but since having kids, I have never pushed... 809 00:32:32,120 --> 00:32:34,080 I haven't pushed myself to the limits that I used to. 810 00:32:34,120 --> 00:32:35,120 So for me, it's all about 811 00:32:35,160 --> 00:32:38,600 just seeing how far I can push myself physically and mentally. 812 00:32:38,640 --> 00:32:41,640 I wanna see 100% from everyone 813 00:32:41,680 --> 00:32:44,440 otherwise we will carry on all fuckin' night. 814 00:32:44,480 --> 00:32:47,760 The image of my kids cheering for me, 815 00:32:47,800 --> 00:32:48,920 watching me at home... 816 00:32:49,520 --> 00:32:51,200 being proud of their mum... 817 00:32:51,240 --> 00:32:53,120 is for sure what's driving me. 818 00:32:53,160 --> 00:32:55,360 All good. (PANTS) 819 00:32:55,400 --> 00:32:59,400 NARRATOR: Also put under strain is former Bachelorette Ali Oetjen, 820 00:32:59,440 --> 00:33:00,000 who is made to carry one of the heaviest recruits, 821 00:33:00,000 --> 00:33:02,520 who is made to carry one of the heaviest recruits, 822 00:33:02,560 --> 00:33:04,600 number ten, Merrick. 823 00:33:04,640 --> 00:33:06,880 He's over 1.5 times Ali's weight. 824 00:33:06,920 --> 00:33:07,960 Come on. Come on. 825 00:33:08,000 --> 00:33:10,440 Go. Come on then, number 16. 826 00:33:11,880 --> 00:33:13,280 Physical fitness is a given. 827 00:33:13,320 --> 00:33:17,440 You should come on the course at an athlete-plus standard of fitness. 828 00:33:17,480 --> 00:33:19,240 We're not there to test your fitness. 829 00:33:19,280 --> 00:33:21,920 We're there to push you psychologically... 830 00:33:21,960 --> 00:33:23,920 Get me into the yard. Come on! 831 00:33:23,960 --> 00:33:25,120 Get me to the yard. 832 00:33:25,160 --> 00:33:28,880 ..to see if you can deal with the horrors of war. 833 00:33:28,920 --> 00:33:30,000 (DRAMATIC MUSIC) (PANTS) 834 00:33:30,000 --> 00:33:31,800 (DRAMATIC MUSIC) (PANTS) 835 00:33:31,840 --> 00:33:35,520 Tonight is going to be a very fucking long night. 836 00:33:35,560 --> 00:33:36,920 Good job. 837 00:33:36,960 --> 00:33:39,760 If you don't buck your ideas up, 838 00:33:39,800 --> 00:33:43,760 if you don't get to that level, to that standard, 839 00:33:43,800 --> 00:33:45,640 then...whoosh! 840 00:33:46,600 --> 00:33:47,760 We're gonna fuck you off. 841 00:33:52,320 --> 00:33:53,520 (OMINOUS MUSIC) 842 00:33:53,560 --> 00:33:58,080 When I say, "Go!" you'll go over to that pile of rocks over there. 843 00:33:59,120 --> 00:34:00,000 You will grab a rock suitable to your size 844 00:34:00,000 --> 00:34:03,520 You will grab a rock suitable to your size 845 00:34:03,560 --> 00:34:06,280 and you will come back with that rock 846 00:34:06,320 --> 00:34:08,120 and you will stand still. 847 00:34:08,159 --> 00:34:10,159 Stand by, go! Move! 848 00:34:10,199 --> 00:34:13,639 NARRATOR: After 2.5 hours of ruthless physical punishment 849 00:34:13,679 --> 00:34:15,239 in near freezing conditions, 850 00:34:15,280 --> 00:34:18,560 the DS are pushing the recruits to breaking point, 851 00:34:18,600 --> 00:34:21,280 on the hunt for a voluntary withdrawal. 852 00:34:21,320 --> 00:34:24,639 A very simple exercise right now. 853 00:34:25,239 --> 00:34:26,600 When I say, "Go..." 854 00:34:27,760 --> 00:34:30,000 you will hold your rocks above your head... 855 00:34:30,000 --> 00:34:32,199 you will hold your rocks above your head... 856 00:34:32,800 --> 00:34:35,360 until told otherwise. 857 00:34:35,880 --> 00:34:39,080 Going to start...with three minutes. 858 00:34:41,719 --> 00:34:44,800 Three minutes of hard work. 859 00:34:45,800 --> 00:34:46,800 Go! 860 00:34:50,320 --> 00:34:53,120 (TENSE MUSIC) 861 00:34:53,159 --> 00:34:54,600 Straighten those arms. 862 00:34:56,560 --> 00:34:57,880 Block out the pain. 863 00:35:01,040 --> 00:35:02,320 Get the job done. 864 00:35:03,960 --> 00:35:05,320 If you don't wanna be here... 865 00:35:05,880 --> 00:35:08,520 put your rock down and gimme your number. 866 00:35:10,080 --> 00:35:12,240 Think if you want to be here. 867 00:35:12,280 --> 00:35:13,520 Why you're here. 868 00:35:14,240 --> 00:35:16,400 From a young age at school, 869 00:35:16,440 --> 00:35:17,440 I... 870 00:35:17,920 --> 00:35:21,560 was in constant need of pats on the back. 871 00:35:21,600 --> 00:35:23,080 If I wasn't getting those pats on the back, 872 00:35:23,120 --> 00:35:26,280 I would become too scared... to tackle something. 873 00:35:26,320 --> 00:35:29,320 (ALL PANT) 874 00:35:29,360 --> 00:35:30,000 (PENSIVE MUSIC) 875 00:35:30,000 --> 00:35:32,120 (PENSIVE MUSIC) 876 00:35:32,160 --> 00:35:33,160 Number seven! 877 00:35:33,920 --> 00:35:35,160 You keep dropping your rock. 878 00:35:35,200 --> 00:35:36,880 Put your rocks down. 879 00:35:37,840 --> 00:35:39,360 Thanks to number seven... 880 00:35:40,000 --> 00:35:41,120 we're gonna go again. 881 00:35:43,320 --> 00:35:44,560 Go! 882 00:35:44,600 --> 00:35:46,800 Three minutes of hard work, that's all I want. 883 00:35:47,480 --> 00:35:49,120 Block out the pain and get it done. 884 00:35:49,960 --> 00:35:51,400 The thing that excites me the most 885 00:35:51,440 --> 00:35:53,520 about taking on a challenge like this is... 886 00:35:54,760 --> 00:35:57,800 really seeing how far I can push myself. 887 00:35:57,840 --> 00:35:59,760 I wanna see what those limits are. 888 00:35:59,800 --> 00:36:00,000 I wanna find those limits, 889 00:36:00,000 --> 00:36:01,680 I wanna find those limits, 890 00:36:01,720 --> 00:36:04,440 because I don't feel like I've ever really found them before. 891 00:36:04,480 --> 00:36:06,200 (TENSE MUSIC) 892 00:36:06,240 --> 00:36:08,840 Three minutes of fuckin' hard work, that's all I want. 893 00:36:09,440 --> 00:36:11,040 Block out the pain and get it done. 894 00:36:11,080 --> 00:36:14,080 (TENSE MUSIC) 895 00:36:16,440 --> 00:36:19,240 I'm definitely a resilient person. There's no doubt about that. 896 00:36:19,280 --> 00:36:21,400 I'm like that because of what I've been through. 897 00:36:22,600 --> 00:36:25,120 I'm like that because I've been hurt so much in the past. 898 00:36:25,160 --> 00:36:28,480 I'm like that because there's no other way. 899 00:36:28,520 --> 00:36:29,720 You have to be. 900 00:36:29,760 --> 00:36:30,000 And if you don't, you get eaten up and spat out. 901 00:36:30,000 --> 00:36:32,320 And if you don't, you get eaten up and spat out. 902 00:36:32,360 --> 00:36:33,480 One more minute. 903 00:36:35,120 --> 00:36:38,600 You know, if something's in your face, you just...you go for it. 904 00:36:38,640 --> 00:36:40,880 You just turn on beast mode 905 00:36:40,920 --> 00:36:43,000 and you just do whatever you've gotta do to survive. 906 00:36:43,040 --> 00:36:46,040 (TENSE MUSIC) 907 00:36:48,720 --> 00:36:50,280 And if you don't wanna be here, 908 00:36:50,320 --> 00:36:53,400 put your rock down and gimme your number. 909 00:36:54,240 --> 00:36:55,640 One minute. 910 00:36:55,680 --> 00:36:57,720 That's fuck all. Lock your arms out. 911 00:36:57,760 --> 00:37:00,000 Number two, straighten your arms. Keep it up there. 912 00:37:00,000 --> 00:37:00,520 Number two, straighten your arms. Keep it up there. 913 00:37:00,560 --> 00:37:01,720 Oh... 914 00:37:02,480 --> 00:37:03,640 Fuckin' Number two. 915 00:37:03,680 --> 00:37:06,200 Right, put your rocks down in front of you. 916 00:37:06,240 --> 00:37:08,760 NARRATOR: Recruit number two, Candice Warner, 917 00:37:08,800 --> 00:37:10,800 struggling under the heavy weight, 918 00:37:10,840 --> 00:37:13,240 failed to last another 60 seconds. 919 00:37:13,280 --> 00:37:16,480 So close...but yet, so far. 920 00:37:16,520 --> 00:37:18,440 So the DS prolong the agony. 921 00:37:18,480 --> 00:37:21,920 In life, all I wanna do is make my family proud. 922 00:37:22,640 --> 00:37:24,000 So I won't quit. 923 00:37:25,320 --> 00:37:26,880 Quitting's not an option. I won't quit. 924 00:37:27,400 --> 00:37:29,120 Even if I have to crawl... 925 00:37:29,160 --> 00:37:30,000 um... 926 00:37:30,000 --> 00:37:30,160 um... 927 00:37:30,760 --> 00:37:32,880 the DS will have to remove me, because I won't quit. 928 00:37:34,960 --> 00:37:37,920 When I say, "Go," you will lift your rocks up 929 00:37:37,960 --> 00:37:41,120 and you will hold them for one minute. 930 00:37:41,160 --> 00:37:42,800 Is that understood? ALL: Yes, sir. 931 00:37:43,280 --> 00:37:44,840 Standby. Go! 932 00:37:44,880 --> 00:37:50,200 (TENSE MUSIC) (RECRUITS GROAN AND PANT) 933 00:37:50,240 --> 00:37:52,840 Stop making pathetic noises. 934 00:37:52,880 --> 00:37:54,840 (TENSE MUSIC) 935 00:37:54,880 --> 00:37:56,320 If you don't wanna be here... 936 00:37:56,880 --> 00:37:59,440 put your rock down and gimme your number. 937 00:38:00,320 --> 00:38:01,720 30 seconds. 938 00:38:02,800 --> 00:38:04,040 Block it out. 939 00:38:04,080 --> 00:38:07,080 (DRAMATIC MUSIC) 940 00:38:07,720 --> 00:38:09,560 Ten seconds. 941 00:38:09,600 --> 00:38:12,600 (DRAMATIC MUSIC) 942 00:38:13,960 --> 00:38:15,080 Five! 943 00:38:17,040 --> 00:38:20,640 Three, two, one. 944 00:38:20,680 --> 00:38:22,400 Put them down. 945 00:38:22,440 --> 00:38:24,280 Right. When I say, "Go," you put the rocks back 946 00:38:24,320 --> 00:38:27,800 and get back on your numbers with your water bottles on your person - 947 00:38:27,840 --> 00:38:29,440 is that understood? ALL: Yes, sir. 948 00:38:29,480 --> 00:38:30,000 Standby. Go! Move! 949 00:38:30,000 --> 00:38:31,000 Standby. Go! Move! 950 00:38:32,000 --> 00:38:34,880 NARRATOR: After almost three hours of severe beasting... 951 00:38:35,640 --> 00:38:37,680 the DS finally call time. 952 00:38:39,080 --> 00:38:41,400 All the recruits have managed to survive. 953 00:38:41,440 --> 00:38:43,760 It's the only way you're gonna learn, by suffering... 954 00:38:44,560 --> 00:38:46,080 and hardship. 955 00:38:46,120 --> 00:38:47,760 And you will suffer as a group. 956 00:38:47,800 --> 00:38:49,000 It's as simple as that. 957 00:38:49,920 --> 00:38:52,120 This isn't a course of self discovery. 958 00:38:52,160 --> 00:38:57,040 This is the course of how mentally tough you are. 959 00:38:58,200 --> 00:39:00,000 How much grit and determination you have... 960 00:39:00,000 --> 00:39:00,960 How much grit and determination you have... 961 00:39:01,720 --> 00:39:04,520 and ultimately, what you're capable of. 962 00:39:04,560 --> 00:39:06,840 Go! Move! Get off the parade square. 963 00:39:12,440 --> 00:39:15,440 (OMINOUS MUSIC) 964 00:39:15,480 --> 00:39:16,800 Number two! 965 00:39:17,640 --> 00:39:19,400 That's me? Oh, two. That's me! 966 00:39:19,440 --> 00:39:21,800 NARRATOR: After surviving the relentless beasting, 967 00:39:21,840 --> 00:39:26,320 recruit number two, Candice Warner, has caught the attention of the DS, 968 00:39:26,360 --> 00:39:28,720 so they call her in for questioning. 969 00:39:30,000 --> 00:39:32,880 Oh, former girlfriend for Western Force halfback. 970 00:39:34,480 --> 00:39:37,440 Got drunk and had sex in a hotel toilet. 971 00:39:37,920 --> 00:39:40,840 CANDICE: So in my early 20s, I made a very big mistake. 972 00:39:40,880 --> 00:39:43,840 It's something I'm not proud of but something I can never take back. 973 00:39:44,640 --> 00:39:46,920 I put myself in a situation where I shouldn't have. 974 00:39:47,960 --> 00:39:49,560 And because of that... 975 00:39:50,960 --> 00:39:55,160 I brought embarrassment, shame to my family. 976 00:39:55,200 --> 00:39:58,200 (TENSE MUSIC) 977 00:40:02,280 --> 00:40:05,160 (DOOR RATTLES) Walk, walk, walk. 978 00:40:05,200 --> 00:40:08,200 (TENSE MUSIC) 979 00:40:09,000 --> 00:40:10,000 Sit. 980 00:40:13,320 --> 00:40:16,320 (PANTS) 981 00:40:16,800 --> 00:40:18,560 (DOOR SLAMS) 982 00:40:20,560 --> 00:40:21,920 How are you feeling? 983 00:40:21,960 --> 00:40:23,760 A little bit tired but everyone else is. 984 00:40:26,120 --> 00:40:29,280 I don't think you've come out of third gear, really, have you, 985 00:40:29,320 --> 00:40:30,000 second gear. 986 00:40:30,000 --> 00:40:30,400 second gear. 987 00:40:30,440 --> 00:40:31,720 You've been quite comfortable. 988 00:40:31,760 --> 00:40:33,720 Oh. (CHUCKLES) 989 00:40:33,760 --> 00:40:36,000 I thought to myself, she must be a family woman or... 990 00:40:36,040 --> 00:40:37,440 Yeah, I've got three kids, 991 00:40:37,480 --> 00:40:40,440 ah, three little girls that I absolutely adore, so. 992 00:40:40,480 --> 00:40:41,800 And what's your husband do? 993 00:40:41,840 --> 00:40:43,400 He plays cricket for Australia. 994 00:40:43,440 --> 00:40:45,080 I know that... (CHUCKLES) 995 00:40:45,120 --> 00:40:47,240 ..because I've got my laptop here. Yeah. 996 00:40:48,880 --> 00:40:49,920 Why are you here? 997 00:40:49,960 --> 00:40:52,160 I'm here to represent my family. 998 00:40:52,200 --> 00:40:53,840 Um... 999 00:40:53,880 --> 00:40:56,040 Too many people, I feel... 1000 00:40:58,160 --> 00:40:59,400 um... 1001 00:41:02,240 --> 00:41:04,560 They're very quick to make a judgement. 1002 00:41:04,600 --> 00:41:06,160 On what? Or opinions. 1003 00:41:06,200 --> 00:41:07,960 On what? On myself and my family. 1004 00:41:08,000 --> 00:41:09,000 Why? What have you done? 1005 00:41:10,120 --> 00:41:11,520 Well, I haven't done anything. 1006 00:41:11,560 --> 00:41:13,120 OK, so why would they make judgement on you? 1007 00:41:13,880 --> 00:41:18,120 Because they're ill-informed from maybe some media 1008 00:41:18,160 --> 00:41:19,680 that don't know the entire truth. 1009 00:41:19,720 --> 00:41:21,080 About what? 1010 00:41:21,120 --> 00:41:22,520 About us. 1011 00:41:22,560 --> 00:41:25,200 Oh, come on. You, you're big enough to tell me. 1012 00:41:25,240 --> 00:41:26,240 People... Tell me, tell me. 1013 00:41:26,280 --> 00:41:27,600 The media make us out to be... Enlighten me. 1014 00:41:27,640 --> 00:41:29,720 The media make us out to be people that we're not. 1015 00:41:29,760 --> 00:41:30,000 I get that. Yeah, I get that. 1016 00:41:30,000 --> 00:41:30,800 I get that. Yeah, I get that. 1017 00:41:30,840 --> 00:41:32,160 But how? What do they make you out to be? 1018 00:41:32,200 --> 00:41:34,680 Oh...bad people. 1019 00:41:34,720 --> 00:41:35,760 Bad parents. 1020 00:41:35,800 --> 00:41:36,840 Don't get on the defensive. 1021 00:41:36,880 --> 00:41:38,640 You started it. I know, but I'm very passionate. 1022 00:41:38,680 --> 00:41:40,640 So very calmly, right. I know. 1023 00:41:40,680 --> 00:41:42,120 Stay calm. Stay calm. 1024 00:41:42,160 --> 00:41:44,240 Yeah, I understand that. I'm just asking. 1025 00:41:44,280 --> 00:41:46,320 I'm not interrogating you. I'm just asking you questions. 1026 00:41:46,360 --> 00:41:47,720 Yep. Relax. 1027 00:41:47,760 --> 00:41:49,560 I think the hardest thing for me 1028 00:41:49,600 --> 00:41:52,400 was being told that I was a really bad mother. 1029 00:41:52,440 --> 00:41:54,720 OK. And why did they say that? 1030 00:41:54,760 --> 00:41:58,680 When we came home from South Africa in 2018, 1031 00:41:58,720 --> 00:42:00,000 when there was an incident with the Australian Cricket Team - 1032 00:42:00,000 --> 00:42:01,840 when there was an incident with the Australian Cricket Team - 1033 00:42:01,880 --> 00:42:03,920 there was a ball tampering incident, so... 1034 00:42:03,960 --> 00:42:05,520 What, with your husband involved? 1035 00:42:05,560 --> 00:42:07,440 With my husband. OK. 1036 00:42:07,480 --> 00:42:10,360 He tampered the ball or supposedly tampered the ball? 1037 00:42:10,400 --> 00:42:12,440 No. That's other people's opinion. 1038 00:42:12,480 --> 00:42:13,880 And he's never said his part. 1039 00:42:15,440 --> 00:42:18,160 OK. So that's followed you around, has it? 1040 00:42:18,200 --> 00:42:19,560 Yeah, it has. OK. 1041 00:42:19,600 --> 00:42:22,640 But even before that, um... 1042 00:42:23,520 --> 00:42:26,160 there were things, there was incidents in South Africa 1043 00:42:26,200 --> 00:42:30,000 where people were... (INHALES) ..ah, trying to make fun of me, 1044 00:42:30,000 --> 00:42:30,120 where people were... (INHALES) ..ah, trying to make fun of me, 1045 00:42:30,160 --> 00:42:32,240 mock me, belittle me in front of my family. 1046 00:42:32,280 --> 00:42:33,280 Why? Which... 1047 00:42:33,840 --> 00:42:36,720 Because of an incident that happened in the past. 1048 00:42:37,600 --> 00:42:38,800 And they think that it's funny. 1049 00:42:38,840 --> 00:42:40,120 What incident was that? 1050 00:42:40,160 --> 00:42:42,600 It was just a... a bad mistake. 1051 00:42:43,720 --> 00:42:45,120 It must've been a bad incident. 1052 00:42:45,160 --> 00:42:46,240 Can't you talk about you got caught... 1053 00:42:46,280 --> 00:42:47,920 No, I don't wanna talk about it. 1054 00:42:50,720 --> 00:42:54,360 Why the defensive mode? Why are you jumping down my throat? 1055 00:42:54,400 --> 00:42:56,560 Because I have always been on the defensive. 1056 00:42:56,600 --> 00:42:59,160 People - they do, they question my integrity. 1057 00:42:59,200 --> 00:43:00,000 They think - they used to think I was a bit of a joke. 1058 00:43:00,000 --> 00:43:01,960 They think - they used to think I was a bit of a joke. 1059 00:43:02,000 --> 00:43:05,120 So I've come on here to show people 1060 00:43:05,160 --> 00:43:07,280 what myself and my family are made of. 1061 00:43:07,320 --> 00:43:10,760 And I think I've been through a fair bit and... 1062 00:43:11,560 --> 00:43:12,640 and I'm still here. 1063 00:43:12,680 --> 00:43:14,120 I'm still fighting. 1064 00:43:14,160 --> 00:43:16,120 I've always got my husband's back 1065 00:43:16,160 --> 00:43:20,000 and, for me, family's all that matters. 1066 00:43:20,040 --> 00:43:23,040 (POIGNANT MUSIC) 1067 00:43:23,560 --> 00:43:25,680 I think your journey has got nothing to do with 1068 00:43:25,720 --> 00:43:28,280 proving how strong you are or where you can be. 1069 00:43:29,680 --> 00:43:30,000 Or how supportive you are with your family. 1070 00:43:30,000 --> 00:43:32,800 Or how supportive you are with your family. 1071 00:43:33,560 --> 00:43:37,320 I think you're intrigued to know how you react to triggers. 1072 00:43:37,360 --> 00:43:38,800 Yeah. 1073 00:43:38,840 --> 00:43:41,080 And I think your journey now is 1074 00:43:41,120 --> 00:43:44,120 how you deal with things that fuckin' wind you up. 1075 00:43:44,160 --> 00:43:45,480 Yeah. (CHUCKLES) 1076 00:43:45,520 --> 00:43:47,640 Yeah. No, you're right. You're absolutely right. 1077 00:43:47,680 --> 00:43:51,760 All I've ever known is to get on the defensive and... 1078 00:43:52,720 --> 00:43:54,080 It's tiring, though, innit? 1079 00:43:55,040 --> 00:43:57,400 It is, but it's all I've ever known, 1080 00:43:57,440 --> 00:44:00,000 is to be aggressive or to suck it up and... 1081 00:44:00,000 --> 00:44:00,680 is to be aggressive or to suck it up and... 1082 00:44:01,680 --> 00:44:03,640 I don't know any other way. 1083 00:44:04,760 --> 00:44:10,080 Sometimes when you drop a front... it's the most enlightening thing. 1084 00:44:11,000 --> 00:44:13,000 Yeah, but I'm almost too scared to. 1085 00:44:13,040 --> 00:44:14,640 Well, that's... There we go. 1086 00:44:15,920 --> 00:44:17,640 Oh, if you've got a supporting husband, 1087 00:44:17,680 --> 00:44:19,840 then you've got that support. 1088 00:44:19,880 --> 00:44:23,520 Yeah, I do but I feel like I'm the one... 1089 00:44:23,560 --> 00:44:25,480 (POIGNANT MUSIC) 1090 00:44:25,520 --> 00:44:26,640 ..that supports. 1091 00:44:26,680 --> 00:44:28,320 I support...everyone. 1092 00:44:29,480 --> 00:44:30,000 Yeah, but you can't fuckin' support everyone. 1093 00:44:30,000 --> 00:44:31,240 Yeah, but you can't fuckin' support everyone. 1094 00:44:31,280 --> 00:44:32,360 Yeah, but... Who supports you? 1095 00:44:32,400 --> 00:44:34,280 Who supports you? My husband. 1096 00:44:34,320 --> 00:44:36,440 Yeah? Um, but... 1097 00:44:37,160 --> 00:44:38,760 It gives me great pleasure 1098 00:44:38,800 --> 00:44:41,120 doing everything for my husband and my kids. 1099 00:44:42,080 --> 00:44:43,280 You can still do that. 1100 00:44:43,320 --> 00:44:44,920 You just don't need a front. 1101 00:44:45,480 --> 00:44:48,600 'Cause the front is just a wall that doesn't really exist. 1102 00:44:48,640 --> 00:44:51,640 (POIGNANT MUSIC) 1103 00:44:53,000 --> 00:44:55,400 You gotta remember - the only thing you ever hear is the noise 1104 00:44:55,440 --> 00:44:57,200 but the noise isn't worth listening to. 1105 00:44:57,240 --> 00:44:58,240 Mm-hmm. 1106 00:44:59,640 --> 00:45:00,000 Just fucking concentrate on your journey in here for now. 1107 00:45:00,000 --> 00:45:02,520 Just fucking concentrate on your journey in here for now. 1108 00:45:02,560 --> 00:45:04,760 Mm-hmm. And concentrate on those triggers, 1109 00:45:04,800 --> 00:45:07,000 because, trust me, those triggers will trip you up at some point. 1110 00:45:07,040 --> 00:45:08,400 Yep. 1111 00:45:09,120 --> 00:45:10,360 Guard! 1112 00:45:10,400 --> 00:45:11,720 (DOOR RATTLES) 1113 00:45:11,760 --> 00:45:14,760 (PENSIVE MUSIC) 1114 00:45:17,720 --> 00:45:19,440 If you get knocked down, you get back up. 1115 00:45:19,480 --> 00:45:21,440 If you get knocked down again, you get back up. 1116 00:45:21,920 --> 00:45:23,080 You never stop moving. 1117 00:45:23,120 --> 00:45:24,560 You never look back. 1118 00:45:24,600 --> 00:45:26,080 You keep moving forward. 1119 00:45:26,120 --> 00:45:28,320 Because life has so many things to offer you. 1120 00:45:31,320 --> 00:45:33,280 I don't wanna change anything about myself, 1121 00:45:33,320 --> 00:45:35,480 but I just want to learn more about myself. 1122 00:45:35,520 --> 00:45:38,520 Captioned by Ai-Media ai-media.tv