1 00:00:01,416 --> 00:00:06,000 [tense music] 2 00:00:06,041 --> 00:00:11,500 [electricity buzzing] 3 00:00:15,375 --> 00:00:17,750 [electricity buzzing fades] 4 00:00:17,791 --> 00:00:19,416 [tense music fades] 5 00:00:19,583 --> 00:00:22,791 - [screen tapping] - [soft tense music] 6 00:00:31,000 --> 00:00:37,291 [ethereal music] 7 00:00:40,291 --> 00:00:43,166 [sentimental music] 8 00:00:44,833 --> 00:00:46,708 [Tessa] [voice-over] All of us have demons. 9 00:00:46,750 --> 00:00:49,000 -All I want is a relationship with my daughter. 10 00:00:49,041 --> 00:00:51,708 -He's an alcoholic and so were you. 11 00:00:51,750 --> 00:00:53,333 [Hardin grunts] 12 00:00:53,375 --> 00:00:55,125 [Tessa] [voice-over] You face them. 13 00:00:55,166 --> 00:00:57,666 And just when you think you're winning, 14 00:00:57,708 --> 00:00:59,375 it turns out. 15 00:00:59,416 --> 00:01:02,041 They weren't your demons to begin with. 16 00:01:02,083 --> 00:01:03,625 - [moaning] - What the fuck? 17 00:01:03,666 --> 00:01:05,208 -Oh, fu... 18 00:01:05,250 --> 00:01:06,208 -Vance! 19 00:01:06,250 --> 00:01:07,458 [Trish] It's not what you think. 20 00:01:07,500 --> 00:01:09,041 [Hardin] You're getting married tomorrow! 21 00:01:09,083 --> 00:01:11,541 -I was gonna tell you ages ago, but your mom didn't want. 22 00:01:11,583 --> 00:01:12,666 -Tell me what? 23 00:01:12,708 --> 00:01:15,583 -Hardin is Christian's son. 24 00:01:16,625 --> 00:01:17,833 - I'm so sorry. - [Hardin] Fuck off! 25 00:01:21,125 --> 00:01:24,500 [perky music] 26 00:01:28,333 --> 00:01:32,666 -♪ We are family 27 00:01:32,708 --> 00:01:35,041 ♪ I got all my sisters with me ♪ 28 00:01:36,916 --> 00:01:39,458 ♪ We are family 29 00:01:41,208 --> 00:01:43,875 ♪ Get up everybody and sing 30 00:01:45,375 --> 00:01:47,291 ♪ We are family 31 00:01:48,208 --> 00:01:49,458 -Hardin. 32 00:01:49,500 --> 00:01:50,333 -♪ I got all my sisters With me ♪ 33 00:01:50,375 --> 00:01:52,500 -It was. It was a mistake. 34 00:01:52,541 --> 00:01:53,791 -Which part? 35 00:01:53,833 --> 00:01:56,208 -♪ We are family ♪ 36 00:01:58,000 --> 00:02:00,000 ♪ Get up everybody and sing 37 00:02:00,041 --> 00:02:01,458 -Christian told you? 38 00:02:07,083 --> 00:02:08,458 My love, if I could go back. 39 00:02:08,500 --> 00:02:10,416 If I could go back, if... 40 00:02:10,458 --> 00:02:11,666 [sighs] 41 00:02:11,708 --> 00:02:13,208 [sobbing] I should have told you. 42 00:02:15,375 --> 00:02:16,583 -Yeah. 43 00:02:19,333 --> 00:02:21,083 [Trish] Hardin! 44 00:02:22,375 --> 00:02:24,125 [sentimental music] 45 00:02:25,750 --> 00:02:27,416 [receding footsteps] 46 00:02:27,458 --> 00:02:29,541 -♪ Just let me state For the record ♪ 47 00:02:31,583 --> 00:02:34,916 ♪ We're giving love In a family dose ♪ 48 00:02:34,958 --> 00:02:36,708 - [Smith] Kimberly, look. - ♪ We are family ♪ 49 00:02:36,750 --> 00:02:40,208 [Kimberly] chuckling] Ooh, yeah. 50 00:02:40,250 --> 00:02:41,583 -♪ I got all my sisters With me ♪ 51 00:02:42,583 --> 00:02:43,958 - Hi. - [Kimberly] Hey. 52 00:02:44,000 --> 00:02:45,916 -♪ We are family ♪ 53 00:02:47,875 --> 00:02:49,458 ♪ Get up everybody and sing 54 00:02:49,500 --> 00:02:51,708 [drink flowing] 55 00:02:51,750 --> 00:02:54,750 [thumping rock music] 56 00:02:58,416 --> 00:02:59,708 -You sure you wanna do that? 57 00:03:03,291 --> 00:03:05,000 I'll get one of those. 58 00:03:05,041 --> 00:03:07,791 [music playing in background] 59 00:03:13,125 --> 00:03:14,375 Your dad. 60 00:03:16,291 --> 00:03:17,500 Ken. 61 00:03:19,750 --> 00:03:22,250 You know, we were like brothers. 62 00:03:22,291 --> 00:03:23,916 -And then you fucked his wife. 63 00:03:23,958 --> 00:03:25,333 -That's not how it was. 64 00:03:26,916 --> 00:03:29,208 I loved your mum. 65 00:03:29,250 --> 00:03:30,833 She was head over heels with him. 66 00:03:32,625 --> 00:03:36,541 But then when he went to university, he wasn't there. 67 00:03:36,583 --> 00:03:38,500 He was wandering around. He was always busy. 68 00:03:38,541 --> 00:03:43,541 And. She turned to me for emotional support. 69 00:03:46,125 --> 00:03:47,833 That's how it became intimate. 70 00:03:47,875 --> 00:03:50,166 -[scoffs] Spare me the fucking details, okay? 71 00:03:51,666 --> 00:03:55,375 -I had this ridiculous notion that we'd run off together and. 72 00:03:55,416 --> 00:03:57,125 [breathes deeply] 73 00:03:57,166 --> 00:04:01,166 She'd marry me instead of Ken. 74 00:04:01,208 --> 00:04:03,916 Then they announced they were expecting. 75 00:04:03,958 --> 00:04:06,708 And that was that. 76 00:04:09,958 --> 00:04:11,458 -This is just brilliant. 77 00:04:13,916 --> 00:04:17,375 And Mum, Ken and you lying to me my entire fucking life. 78 00:04:19,083 --> 00:04:20,583 -Ken didn't know. 79 00:04:24,666 --> 00:04:27,000 I think deep down he's always suspected her. 80 00:04:29,000 --> 00:04:31,250 That was when he really started drinking. 81 00:04:33,416 --> 00:04:35,625 -You could have stopped all of it. 82 00:04:35,666 --> 00:04:37,791 My entire fucking life could have been different 83 00:04:37,833 --> 00:04:39,958 if you weren't such a fucking coward. 84 00:04:47,750 --> 00:04:52,958 -Smith, you can go dance with them. Go on. 85 00:04:53,000 --> 00:04:55,208 -Does he know that Hardin is his brother? 86 00:05:07,708 --> 00:05:08,875 Where's Hardin? 87 00:05:08,916 --> 00:05:10,583 -I don't know. He bolted. 88 00:05:10,625 --> 00:05:11,708 -What? 89 00:05:11,750 --> 00:05:13,291 -Maybe he needed some space. 90 00:05:14,458 --> 00:05:15,875 [Kimberly] Wait, Tessa. 91 00:05:24,875 --> 00:05:27,875 [sentimental music] 92 00:05:58,791 --> 00:06:00,500 [Trish] [VO] [into phone] Oh, Christian, you should see him. 93 00:06:00,541 --> 00:06:02,500 He's growing up so fast. 94 00:06:02,541 --> 00:06:05,958 [soft chuckles] He's a little man now. 95 00:06:06,000 --> 00:06:07,375 And so talented. 96 00:06:07,416 --> 00:06:10,041 His essay got chosen to run in a paper. 97 00:06:10,083 --> 00:06:11,750 [Vance] Well done, Hardin. 98 00:06:11,791 --> 00:06:13,666 Can you tell him I said that? 99 00:06:13,708 --> 00:06:14,916 [Trish] He's brilliant. 100 00:06:16,125 --> 00:06:17,833 He's like his father. 101 00:06:17,875 --> 00:06:21,125 Look, I gotta get going. Um, let's talk again soon. 102 00:06:21,166 --> 00:06:22,291 [Vance] Yeah. Of course. 103 00:06:22,333 --> 00:06:23,416 [Trish] Bye, Christian. 104 00:06:23,458 --> 00:06:25,208 [book clatters] 105 00:06:25,250 --> 00:06:26,791 -Hey, keep it down. 106 00:06:31,958 --> 00:06:33,166 [Trish] Ken! 107 00:06:34,083 --> 00:06:36,625 -Hardin, who gave this to you? 108 00:06:36,666 --> 00:06:37,875 -Vance. 109 00:06:42,250 --> 00:06:43,916 [pages tearing] 110 00:06:43,958 --> 00:06:45,625 - Ken! Ken! - Stop! You're ruining it! 111 00:06:45,666 --> 00:06:46,750 - [Trish] Hardin! - [Ken grunts] 112 00:06:46,791 --> 00:06:48,000 -[groans] 113 00:06:50,791 --> 00:06:52,291 [Trish] [whispers] I'm so sorry. 114 00:06:52,333 --> 00:06:53,666 [Tessa] [voice-over] Hardin? 115 00:07:00,833 --> 00:07:02,125 I've been looking for you. 116 00:07:02,166 --> 00:07:05,208 [sentimental music fades] 117 00:07:05,250 --> 00:07:06,541 -Wanna drink? 118 00:07:06,583 --> 00:07:08,291 -No. 119 00:07:08,333 --> 00:07:12,416 [crickets stridulating] 120 00:07:12,458 --> 00:07:14,083 [sighs] Come on, let's go back to the hotel. 121 00:07:14,125 --> 00:07:16,541 -Not yet. 122 00:07:16,583 --> 00:07:18,458 -[sighs] Okay. Please, Hardin, 123 00:07:18,500 --> 00:07:21,125 I'm really cold and tired. And I just wanna go back... 124 00:07:21,166 --> 00:07:22,458 -Tessa, you're not the one who just found out 125 00:07:22,500 --> 00:07:23,791 his entire life was a lie. 126 00:07:23,833 --> 00:07:26,250 So, either have a drink with me or go. 127 00:07:32,333 --> 00:07:33,958 -Okay. I'm gonna get us an Uber. 128 00:07:40,000 --> 00:07:41,333 You know, I'm pretty sure 129 00:07:41,375 --> 00:07:43,833 that she would have locked it before she left. 130 00:07:45,875 --> 00:07:47,000 Hey! 131 00:07:47,041 --> 00:07:48,250 - [intense music] - [door opens, squeaks] 132 00:07:52,666 --> 00:07:55,625 [intense music continues] 133 00:08:00,916 --> 00:08:02,750 - Hardin, please. - I know you're upset, 134 00:08:02,791 --> 00:08:04,416 and I know you're angry. And you should... 135 00:08:04,458 --> 00:08:05,750 -You know, I hear her screams 136 00:08:05,791 --> 00:08:07,708 every single time I walk in this place. 137 00:08:07,750 --> 00:08:08,708 [Tessa] Okay, we need to leave. 138 00:08:08,750 --> 00:08:10,291 -Years I've spent hating a man 139 00:08:10,333 --> 00:08:12,583 who as it turns out, I didn't even need to fucking like! 140 00:08:12,625 --> 00:08:14,041 Don't touch me. 141 00:08:14,083 --> 00:08:15,500 [Tessa] What's the plan? What are you gonna do here? 142 00:08:15,541 --> 00:08:16,833 Are you gonna burn your mother's house down? 143 00:08:16,875 --> 00:08:18,333 -I'm gonna burn the fucking place down, yeah. 144 00:08:18,375 --> 00:08:19,458 -So, you're gonna get arrested, you know that? Right? 145 00:08:19,500 --> 00:08:20,875 -Which is why you should leave. 146 00:08:20,916 --> 00:08:23,666 - No! I'm not... - I'm not going without you. 147 00:08:23,708 --> 00:08:25,458 -Tess. 148 00:08:25,500 --> 00:08:26,666 "If two people love each other, 149 00:08:26,708 --> 00:08:27,916 there can be no happy end to it." 150 00:08:27,958 --> 00:08:29,708 -Don't quote Hemingway at me. 151 00:08:29,750 --> 00:08:30,791 -Why are you always trying to find 152 00:08:30,833 --> 00:08:32,083 some sort of light in me, Tessa? 153 00:08:32,125 --> 00:08:34,041 Wake up. There is no fucking light. 154 00:08:34,083 --> 00:08:35,750 I have fucked up parents, 155 00:08:35,791 --> 00:08:36,916 - fucked up past. - Look at my parents! 156 00:08:36,958 --> 00:08:38,125 -So, I have a fucked up head now! 157 00:08:38,166 --> 00:08:39,625 -My Dad's homeless, for God's sake. 158 00:08:39,666 --> 00:08:41,458 -It's not a fucking competition! 159 00:08:43,916 --> 00:08:45,125 [bottle plops] 160 00:08:45,166 --> 00:08:48,208 [tense music] 161 00:08:52,291 --> 00:08:53,583 [Tessa] Hardin, please, give me the lighter. 162 00:08:54,916 --> 00:08:56,166 [fire whooshes] 163 00:08:59,083 --> 00:09:01,083 Please, Hardin, can you think about what you're doing? 164 00:09:05,291 --> 00:09:08,375 [fire whooshing] 165 00:09:11,041 --> 00:09:13,875 [fire crackling] 166 00:09:15,625 --> 00:09:16,625 [footsteps approaching] 167 00:09:16,666 --> 00:09:17,875 [door rattles] 168 00:09:19,041 --> 00:09:20,875 [door opens] 169 00:09:20,916 --> 00:09:21,958 -Hardin? 170 00:09:22,000 --> 00:09:22,958 Oh, my God. 171 00:09:23,000 --> 00:09:24,166 Hardin, we gotta get out here. 172 00:09:24,208 --> 00:09:25,458 -Get the fuck off me! 173 00:09:25,500 --> 00:09:26,750 -We need to go! 174 00:09:26,791 --> 00:09:28,541 All right, Tessa, you take my car. 175 00:09:28,583 --> 00:09:30,208 - I can't. - Yes, you can. I've got him. 176 00:09:30,250 --> 00:09:32,000 - Come on, man, we need to go. - Now, you wanna play hero? 177 00:09:32,041 --> 00:09:33,625 Where were you? 178 00:09:33,666 --> 00:09:35,208 Where were you when she was being beaten 179 00:09:35,250 --> 00:09:36,500 to a bloody fucking pulp? 180 00:09:36,541 --> 00:09:37,875 Fuck away from me! 181 00:09:38,958 --> 00:09:41,166 You're too late! 182 00:09:41,208 --> 00:09:42,416 -I'm sorry, all right? 183 00:09:42,458 --> 00:09:45,041 - I don't care. - I'm sorry! Come here. 184 00:09:45,083 --> 00:09:48,000 I am sorry. I should have been here for her. 185 00:09:48,041 --> 00:09:49,750 Listen to me! 186 00:09:49,791 --> 00:09:51,916 I should have been here. 187 00:09:51,958 --> 00:09:54,750 But you ruining your life isn't gonna make hers better. 188 00:09:58,708 --> 00:10:00,125 We need to go! 189 00:10:00,166 --> 00:10:02,166 Come on! Get out, now! 190 00:10:02,208 --> 00:10:05,666 [tense music] 191 00:10:05,708 --> 00:10:06,875 [door opens] 192 00:10:06,916 --> 00:10:08,125 Go, go! 193 00:10:11,541 --> 00:10:12,666 Go. 194 00:10:12,708 --> 00:10:15,708 [tense music continues] 195 00:10:18,708 --> 00:10:21,750 [siren wailing] 196 00:10:23,375 --> 00:10:24,583 [tires squealing] 197 00:10:26,625 --> 00:10:28,166 [engine revving] 198 00:10:28,208 --> 00:10:30,541 [siren wailing] 199 00:10:30,583 --> 00:10:33,166 [tires squealing] 200 00:10:34,916 --> 00:10:36,375 [Police] [into comms] Dispatches unit. 201 00:10:36,416 --> 00:10:39,375 ♪ 202 00:10:51,791 --> 00:10:54,833 [indistinct conversation] 203 00:11:04,583 --> 00:11:05,791 [car door opens] 204 00:11:07,875 --> 00:11:09,083 [car door closes] 205 00:11:10,541 --> 00:11:11,750 -Where are we? 206 00:11:11,791 --> 00:11:13,583 - I don't know where. - I just kept driving. 207 00:11:15,250 --> 00:11:16,541 -Where's Vance? Is he.? 208 00:11:16,583 --> 00:11:18,208 -I texted him. He's okay. 209 00:11:18,250 --> 00:11:20,791 But, um. 210 00:11:20,833 --> 00:11:23,833 He told the police that he started the fire. 211 00:11:26,500 --> 00:11:27,750 -He's got lawyers. 212 00:11:30,000 --> 00:11:31,166 And that's not gonna change anything. 213 00:11:31,208 --> 00:11:33,750 He still lied to me for 21 years. 214 00:11:33,791 --> 00:11:36,166 -He's your father. 215 00:11:36,208 --> 00:11:37,416 -As of yesterday. 216 00:11:39,958 --> 00:11:41,250 We should get back. 217 00:11:43,125 --> 00:11:44,333 [car beeps] 218 00:11:50,666 --> 00:11:52,666 [car engine revving] 219 00:11:58,291 --> 00:12:00,708 [Smith blowing raspberries] 220 00:12:00,750 --> 00:12:02,291 [approaching footsteps] 221 00:12:06,541 --> 00:12:08,500 [clink of glassware] 222 00:12:08,541 --> 00:12:09,750 -Thank you. 223 00:12:10,750 --> 00:12:12,125 -Please. 224 00:12:12,166 --> 00:12:15,416 -Just let me try to explain myself. 225 00:12:15,458 --> 00:12:17,208 -No. 226 00:12:17,250 --> 00:12:18,791 [sniffles] Not right now anyways. 227 00:12:18,833 --> 00:12:21,916 ♪ 228 00:12:27,666 --> 00:12:28,875 [Hardin] Pull over. 229 00:12:37,583 --> 00:12:38,791 [car door opens] 230 00:12:45,541 --> 00:12:47,166 [car door opens] 231 00:12:57,458 --> 00:13:01,041 I think I should stay here for a while. 232 00:13:01,083 --> 00:13:02,291 -Why? 233 00:13:08,125 --> 00:13:09,333 -[sighs] 234 00:13:12,083 --> 00:13:13,291 Because. 235 00:13:16,583 --> 00:13:18,708 Because I just keep dragging you into my shit, Tessa. 236 00:13:18,750 --> 00:13:20,291 It's not fair. 237 00:13:22,583 --> 00:13:24,333 -Please don't push me away. 238 00:13:32,208 --> 00:13:33,416 -I love you. 239 00:13:51,416 --> 00:13:52,625 Tess. 240 00:14:01,833 --> 00:14:07,125 -♪ We all watch The pain die slowly ♪ 241 00:14:07,166 --> 00:14:10,208 ♪ But leavin' your Stone cold by staying. ♪ 242 00:14:10,250 --> 00:14:11,458 -Touch me. 243 00:14:12,541 --> 00:14:15,708 -♪ You leave us behind see 244 00:14:17,500 --> 00:14:21,458 ♪ But I feel your presence Beside me ♪ 245 00:14:22,875 --> 00:14:27,875 ♪ 'Cause I was only ever Holdin' on to you ♪ 246 00:14:27,916 --> 00:14:29,333 ♪ I guess I should have known ♪ 247 00:14:29,375 --> 00:14:33,458 ♪ This day would come so soon ♪ 248 00:14:33,500 --> 00:14:38,875 ♪ 'Cause I was only ever Holdin' on to you ♪ 249 00:14:38,916 --> 00:14:40,250 ♪ I guess I should have known ♪ 250 00:14:40,291 --> 00:14:43,083 ♪ This day would come so soon, ♪ 251 00:14:43,125 --> 00:14:45,208 ♪ So soon ♪ 252 00:14:45,250 --> 00:14:47,333 [both moaning] 253 00:14:47,375 --> 00:14:49,791 -♪ So soon so soon ♪ 254 00:14:49,833 --> 00:14:52,375 ♪ 'Cause I was only ever Holdin' on to you ♪ 255 00:14:52,416 --> 00:14:53,541 ♪ So soon ♪ 256 00:14:53,583 --> 00:14:54,791 -I love you. 257 00:14:55,750 --> 00:14:58,875 -♪ I know that you love me 258 00:14:58,916 --> 00:15:00,125 -I love you. 259 00:15:01,541 --> 00:15:06,625 -♪ So this could all finish Our story, no ♪ 260 00:15:06,666 --> 00:15:12,291 ♪ And the head Of our tall tree ♪ 261 00:15:12,333 --> 00:15:16,208 ♪ And I wish I could Change it I'm sorry ♪ 262 00:15:18,375 --> 00:15:23,916 ♪ 'Cause I was only ever Holdin' on to you ♪ 263 00:15:23,958 --> 00:15:25,250 ♪ I guess I should have known ♪ 264 00:15:25,291 --> 00:15:29,458 ♪ This day would come so soon ♪ 265 00:15:29,500 --> 00:15:34,500 ♪ 'Cause I was only ever Holdin' on to you ♪ 266 00:15:34,541 --> 00:15:36,875 [soft music] 267 00:15:39,875 --> 00:15:41,708 [birds chirping] 268 00:15:41,750 --> 00:15:43,041 -What are you thinking about? 269 00:15:47,416 --> 00:15:49,583 -I wanna stay like this forever. 270 00:15:54,708 --> 00:15:56,333 -[Hardin sighs] 271 00:15:57,875 --> 00:16:00,916 [soft tense music] 272 00:16:08,500 --> 00:16:11,333 [people chattering] 273 00:16:12,583 --> 00:16:15,291 [sentimental music] 274 00:16:17,208 --> 00:16:19,583 I'll get the bags. 275 00:16:19,625 --> 00:16:22,625 Go check on Kimberly, take a shower. 276 00:16:22,666 --> 00:16:24,000 I'll be fine. 277 00:16:30,208 --> 00:16:31,416 [smooches] 278 00:16:31,458 --> 00:16:34,333 [soft music] 279 00:16:38,166 --> 00:16:39,375 [knocking on door] 280 00:16:40,958 --> 00:16:42,208 [door opens] 281 00:16:44,208 --> 00:16:45,541 [Smith] Kimberly, Tessa's here. 282 00:16:45,583 --> 00:16:47,708 [footsteps approaching] 283 00:16:47,750 --> 00:16:49,666 - Are you okay? - [Tessa] Yeah. 284 00:16:49,708 --> 00:16:50,958 -Where's Hardin? 285 00:16:54,541 --> 00:16:57,791 -I could feel him withdrawing with every breath. 286 00:17:02,166 --> 00:17:04,000 I'm-I'm sorry. 287 00:17:04,041 --> 00:17:05,041 I don't want to bother you with this. 288 00:17:05,083 --> 00:17:06,250 You're already going through... 289 00:17:06,291 --> 00:17:10,041 -No. Tessa, there is no rule that says 290 00:17:10,083 --> 00:17:13,333 only one person can be in pain at a time. 291 00:17:13,375 --> 00:17:16,083 And for selfish reasons, hearing about your problems 292 00:17:16,125 --> 00:17:18,708 makes me feel slightly better about my own. 293 00:17:20,416 --> 00:17:21,625 Talk to me. 294 00:17:22,458 --> 00:17:24,000 -I feel like I'm drowning. 295 00:17:27,208 --> 00:17:29,583 And I want to make it work, but I just. 296 00:17:31,583 --> 00:17:34,375 I don't know if I can keep fighting 297 00:17:34,416 --> 00:17:37,375 against the current to save him rather than myself. 298 00:17:39,041 --> 00:17:40,250 [knocks on door] 299 00:17:41,291 --> 00:17:42,500 - Yeah. - [door opens] 300 00:17:48,916 --> 00:17:50,708 -Concierge brought this up. 301 00:17:55,333 --> 00:17:58,375 [sentimental music] 302 00:18:05,583 --> 00:18:08,250 -[sighs] Shit. 303 00:18:08,291 --> 00:18:10,208 ♪ 304 00:18:10,250 --> 00:18:11,916 -♪ Go get free Don't follow me ♪ 305 00:18:13,791 --> 00:18:15,333 ♪ Go run away over there 306 00:18:18,125 --> 00:18:20,125 ♪ Get this in the line 307 00:18:20,166 --> 00:18:21,791 ♪ Go get free Don't follow me ♪ 308 00:18:21,833 --> 00:18:23,875 ♪ Go run away over there ♪ 309 00:18:23,916 --> 00:18:25,583 ♪ Go get free Don't follow me ♪ 310 00:18:25,625 --> 00:18:28,666 [song continues playing] 311 00:18:37,583 --> 00:18:38,875 [knocking on door] 312 00:18:44,458 --> 00:18:46,000 -Fuck off. 313 00:18:46,041 --> 00:18:47,666 [soft chuckles] 314 00:18:47,708 --> 00:18:49,291 -Long time, man. 315 00:18:49,333 --> 00:18:51,083 [Mark] Long time. 316 00:18:51,125 --> 00:18:53,041 James, look who's here. 317 00:18:53,083 --> 00:18:56,750 -Oh, shit! Awoo! 318 00:18:56,791 --> 00:18:58,375 You look just like a guy I used to party with. 319 00:18:58,416 --> 00:19:00,541 -Yeah, you look like a guy who was high 24/7. 320 00:19:00,583 --> 00:19:01,791 -I am he. 321 00:19:01,833 --> 00:19:03,458 [Mark] Yo, get comfy. 322 00:19:03,500 --> 00:19:06,416 I'm just gonna make a few calls in honor of our guest. 323 00:19:06,458 --> 00:19:08,375 - [soft chuckle] - [James] Okay, come on. 324 00:19:08,416 --> 00:19:09,708 Hey, sit down, man. Sit. 325 00:19:09,750 --> 00:19:11,583 Look at you, bougie as fuck. 326 00:19:11,625 --> 00:19:14,250 -Ah. You still look like shit. 327 00:19:14,291 --> 00:19:15,333 - What've you got? - A job interview? 328 00:19:15,375 --> 00:19:16,916 - What's goin' on? - [Hardin] scoffs] 329 00:19:16,958 --> 00:19:19,208 Still funny as fuck, huh, James. 330 00:19:19,250 --> 00:19:20,250 -Hey, you want to drink? 331 00:19:20,291 --> 00:19:21,708 -I would love a drink. 332 00:19:21,750 --> 00:19:23,541 [knock on door] 333 00:19:23,583 --> 00:19:25,500 -Tessa. 334 00:19:28,208 --> 00:19:29,500 You okay? 335 00:19:33,041 --> 00:19:34,250 [mutters] Great. 336 00:19:37,250 --> 00:19:38,791 [door opens] 337 00:19:44,916 --> 00:19:46,416 -I'm gonna go get him. 338 00:19:48,333 --> 00:19:50,875 [footsteps] 339 00:19:51,916 --> 00:19:53,208 Thanks. 340 00:19:57,125 --> 00:19:58,375 [car door closes] 341 00:20:05,166 --> 00:20:06,291 [phone dialing] 342 00:20:06,333 --> 00:20:08,500 - [party music] - [phone vibrating] 343 00:20:11,083 --> 00:20:12,833 -Hello. 344 00:20:12,875 --> 00:20:14,458 -Hi. Is Hardin there? 345 00:20:14,500 --> 00:20:17,791 -Uh, Scott is disposed at the moment. 346 00:20:17,833 --> 00:20:19,666 Uh, are you gonna come to the party? 347 00:20:19,708 --> 00:20:23,791 -Um. Yeah, I just need the address again. 348 00:20:23,833 --> 00:20:25,291 It's 52, Warwick Street. 349 00:20:25,333 --> 00:20:26,458 -Ask her if she's hot. 350 00:20:26,500 --> 00:20:28,333 -Uh, my friend's asking if you're hot. 351 00:20:28,375 --> 00:20:30,125 We're running out of ten-out-of-tens here. 352 00:20:30,166 --> 00:20:31,666 - Ask her if she has friends. - Yeah well, she hung up. 353 00:20:31,708 --> 00:20:32,958 Hey. 354 00:20:33,000 --> 00:20:34,125 Give that to Hardin, man. 355 00:20:34,166 --> 00:20:35,458 Now, come on. Drink up. 356 00:20:36,375 --> 00:20:37,583 [car door closes] 357 00:20:41,416 --> 00:20:44,500 [party music] 358 00:20:47,333 --> 00:20:49,541 -♪ No, no, no Keep that same energy ♪ 359 00:20:49,583 --> 00:20:52,583 [music and chatter] 360 00:20:54,583 --> 00:20:56,250 ♪ No ways no ways 361 00:20:56,291 --> 00:20:57,791 ♪ Keep that same energy ♪ 362 00:20:59,041 --> 00:21:00,000 ♪ You don't wanna Mess with me then ♪ 363 00:21:00,041 --> 00:21:01,458 ♪ But it's different now ♪ 364 00:21:01,500 --> 00:21:02,458 ♪ I didn't never Checked it again ♪ 365 00:21:02,500 --> 00:21:03,375 ♪ Didn't need to know. ♪ 366 00:21:03,416 --> 00:21:05,208 [people chattering] 367 00:21:05,250 --> 00:21:06,708 [Mark] Hey! Have a shot. 368 00:21:06,750 --> 00:21:08,500 Come on in, come on in. 369 00:21:08,541 --> 00:21:09,750 -Thanks. 370 00:21:11,541 --> 00:21:14,250 -Whoa. American. 371 00:21:14,291 --> 00:21:16,041 Hmm, hmm, hmm, hmm, hmm. 372 00:21:17,125 --> 00:21:18,458 I'm Mark. This is my flat. 373 00:21:19,416 --> 00:21:20,625 -I'm Tessa. 374 00:21:23,458 --> 00:21:26,125 - C'mon, love. - Let's get you a drink. 375 00:21:26,166 --> 00:21:28,875 [party music continues playing] 376 00:21:34,250 --> 00:21:35,750 Hey, Scott. 377 00:21:35,791 --> 00:21:37,208 Yo, give me that damn vodka. 378 00:21:37,250 --> 00:21:39,416 Need to make my new friend here a drink. 379 00:21:39,458 --> 00:21:40,875 -Tessa, wha...? 380 00:21:43,000 --> 00:21:44,291 -Oh, you two knew each other? 381 00:21:47,375 --> 00:21:49,375 [footsteps] 382 00:21:49,416 --> 00:21:50,500 Yeah. I'm gonna take that as a yes. 383 00:21:50,541 --> 00:21:51,750 [chuckles] 384 00:21:54,833 --> 00:21:56,458 [heavy footsteps] 385 00:21:58,000 --> 00:22:00,041 -[Hardin] Fucking hell! Jesus Christ! -[Mark] What the fuck? 386 00:22:00,083 --> 00:22:01,666 -What? You're the only one who gets to break things? 387 00:22:01,708 --> 00:22:03,083 -You didn't tell me you had a girlfriend. 388 00:22:03,125 --> 00:22:04,958 [Tessa] What the hell is wrong with you? 389 00:22:05,000 --> 00:22:06,458 What? Do you think you're just gonna slum it here 390 00:22:06,500 --> 00:22:07,541 and you'll forget about your problem? 391 00:22:07,583 --> 00:22:09,125 -Why the fuck are you even here? 392 00:22:09,166 --> 00:22:11,208 -I'm not letting you get away with being a coward again. 393 00:22:13,916 --> 00:22:15,541 I'm giving you one chance to leave with me. 394 00:22:15,583 --> 00:22:17,708 But if I walk out the door without you, that's it. 395 00:22:26,833 --> 00:22:28,541 -So, um, if she isn't your girlfriend. 396 00:22:31,583 --> 00:22:32,541 -Just get the fuck away! 397 00:22:32,583 --> 00:22:33,708 Tessa, outside, now. 398 00:22:35,708 --> 00:22:37,166 -We're just playing about, Scott. 399 00:22:41,250 --> 00:22:42,458 -Tess, what the fuck? 400 00:22:42,500 --> 00:22:44,625 - This is bullshit, Hardin. - This isn't us. 401 00:22:44,666 --> 00:22:47,958 - Us? What "us", Tess? - There is no us. 402 00:22:48,000 --> 00:22:50,250 We. We keep going round in circles, and you, 403 00:22:50,291 --> 00:22:51,708 you just won't fucking give up. 404 00:22:52,708 --> 00:22:55,541 -God! What more do you need? 405 00:22:55,583 --> 00:22:56,875 You don't belong here. 406 00:22:56,916 --> 00:22:58,916 You shouldn't be here. You don't fit in here! 407 00:22:58,958 --> 00:23:00,375 So just go! 408 00:23:03,250 --> 00:23:04,666 -You win, Hardin. 409 00:23:06,666 --> 00:23:07,916 You always do. 410 00:23:07,958 --> 00:23:09,166 [car alarm beeps] 411 00:23:10,166 --> 00:23:11,583 -You'd know better than anyone. 412 00:23:11,625 --> 00:23:12,833 [car door opens] 413 00:23:14,625 --> 00:23:15,833 [car door closes] 414 00:23:21,541 --> 00:23:22,750 [loud thud] 415 00:23:26,791 --> 00:23:28,666 [screams] 416 00:23:31,625 --> 00:23:34,708 ♪ 417 00:23:42,083 --> 00:23:44,333 -♪ I'm broken 418 00:23:44,375 --> 00:23:47,250 ♪ Tell you I'm fine ♪ 419 00:23:47,291 --> 00:23:48,916 ♪ But you wouldn't believe me ♪ 420 00:23:48,958 --> 00:23:51,458 ♪ If you knew the things That crossed my mind ♪ 421 00:23:53,500 --> 00:23:55,583 ♪ And I'm hurting 422 00:23:55,625 --> 00:23:57,250 - [roar of aircraft] - ♪ But I show no sign ♪ 423 00:23:58,791 --> 00:24:00,916 ♪ 'Cause I'm afraid to give in 424 00:24:00,958 --> 00:24:03,666 ♪ Break down And waste your time ♪ 425 00:24:06,583 --> 00:24:07,666 -You sure you don't want help? 426 00:24:07,708 --> 00:24:09,666 -No, it's just a couple of things. 427 00:24:09,708 --> 00:24:14,416 I got most of it before Seattle anyway. So. 428 00:24:14,458 --> 00:24:15,666 -Okay. 429 00:24:17,458 --> 00:24:18,416 Don't say I didn't ask. 430 00:24:18,458 --> 00:24:19,583 [Tessa] Uh-hmm. 431 00:24:19,625 --> 00:24:21,750 -♪ Oh please come pick me up ♪ 432 00:24:21,791 --> 00:24:24,541 ♪ From my lowest Take me higher ♪ 433 00:24:24,583 --> 00:24:26,125 ♪ Can you see me ♪ 434 00:24:26,166 --> 00:24:28,666 ♪ Through the ashes And the smoke ♪ 435 00:24:30,708 --> 00:24:32,958 ♪ I'm lonely 436 00:24:33,000 --> 00:24:34,500 ♪ It's been so long ♪ 437 00:24:36,000 --> 00:24:38,833 ♪ Since I felt love to smile 438 00:24:38,875 --> 00:24:40,875 ♪ Felt strong ♪ 439 00:24:40,916 --> 00:24:42,916 - [laughing] - ♪ And what can I do ♪ 440 00:24:44,541 --> 00:24:47,666 ♪ I know I'm not friends With my reflection ♪ 441 00:24:47,708 --> 00:24:51,166 ♪ When I don't understand Affection like you do ♪ 442 00:24:52,208 --> 00:24:53,416 [murmured conversation] 443 00:24:54,291 --> 00:24:55,250 [Tessa laughing] 444 00:24:55,291 --> 00:24:56,916 -Tess, please. 445 00:24:56,958 --> 00:24:58,666 -♪ I'm begging you ♪ 446 00:24:58,708 --> 00:25:01,791 ♪ To come and pull me Out the fire ♪ 447 00:25:01,833 --> 00:25:03,458 ♪ Come and save me ♪ 448 00:25:03,500 --> 00:25:05,500 ♪ Like you did When we were young ♪ 449 00:25:08,000 --> 00:25:10,666 ♪ Oh please come pick me up 450 00:25:10,708 --> 00:25:13,166 ♪ From my lowest Take me higher ♪ 451 00:25:13,208 --> 00:25:14,875 ♪ Can you see me ♪ 452 00:25:14,916 --> 00:25:17,250 ♪ Through the ashes And the smoke ♪ 453 00:25:19,041 --> 00:25:20,875 ♪ You say that you'll help me 454 00:25:20,916 --> 00:25:22,083 ♪ Tell me I'm worth it ♪ 455 00:25:22,125 --> 00:25:23,583 ♪ But I don't deserve it ♪ 456 00:25:23,625 --> 00:25:25,083 - ♪ I don't deserve it. - [Mark] Hardin. 457 00:25:25,125 --> 00:25:27,250 -♪ It's easy for you 'Cause you. ♪ 458 00:25:31,833 --> 00:25:33,041 -Hardin? 459 00:25:34,541 --> 00:25:36,791 [Hardin panting] 460 00:25:38,916 --> 00:25:40,875 -Well, that was one hell of a dream, man. 461 00:25:40,916 --> 00:25:42,125 Ooh. 462 00:25:44,791 --> 00:25:46,125 - Are you okay? - [Hardin] Yeah. 463 00:25:46,166 --> 00:25:47,458 -Oh, fuck. 464 00:25:47,500 --> 00:25:48,708 [Mark] Your hand looks pretty bad. 465 00:25:50,208 --> 00:25:51,875 [Hardin] Ah, it's not that bad. I'll be fine. 466 00:25:53,000 --> 00:25:54,541 [James] Bro, you were fucking wrecked. 467 00:25:57,583 --> 00:25:59,083 -Hey, that American girl? 468 00:25:59,125 --> 00:26:00,958 I thought she was gonna tear the whole place down, bro. 469 00:26:01,000 --> 00:26:02,125 -She was a bitch. 470 00:26:02,166 --> 00:26:03,541 [chuckles] 471 00:26:23,000 --> 00:26:26,083 [tense music] 472 00:26:34,791 --> 00:26:36,000 -Dad? 473 00:26:40,083 --> 00:26:41,291 [crying] Dad? 474 00:26:43,666 --> 00:26:44,875 Dad? 475 00:26:47,958 --> 00:26:49,125 [crying] 476 00:26:49,166 --> 00:26:51,916 ♪ 477 00:26:57,375 --> 00:26:59,375 [crying] 478 00:26:59,416 --> 00:27:00,666 Dad? 479 00:27:02,333 --> 00:27:05,375 [sobbing] 480 00:27:05,416 --> 00:27:08,416 [melancholic music] 481 00:27:18,708 --> 00:27:19,875 - Oh no, no! - [Landon] It's okay. It's okay. 482 00:27:19,916 --> 00:27:20,875 I got you, I got you. 483 00:27:20,916 --> 00:27:22,208 -[crying] 484 00:27:34,375 --> 00:27:35,583 [ambulance door closes] 485 00:27:48,208 --> 00:27:50,500 [phone vibrating] 486 00:27:50,541 --> 00:27:53,291 [melancholic music continues] 487 00:27:57,125 --> 00:28:00,083 [melancholic music continues] 488 00:28:33,500 --> 00:28:35,083 - Cheers. - Cheers. 489 00:28:37,583 --> 00:28:38,875 Strong enough for you? 490 00:28:38,916 --> 00:28:40,333 [Hardin] Yeah. It wasn't strong enough. 491 00:28:40,375 --> 00:28:41,750 - [phone vibrating] - [Mark chuckles] 492 00:28:41,791 --> 00:28:42,875 - [phone vibrating] - Hardin, your phone's ringing. 493 00:28:42,916 --> 00:28:44,791 It's Landon. 494 00:28:44,833 --> 00:28:46,375 Mr. Scott's very busy at the moment. 495 00:28:46,416 --> 00:28:47,916 - Can I take him... - Hey. 496 00:28:47,958 --> 00:28:49,166 [Janine] Whoa-oh! 497 00:28:50,375 --> 00:28:52,000 -Landon, if I wanted to talk to you, 498 00:28:52,041 --> 00:28:54,125 I would have picked up the phone the other 30 times you called. 499 00:28:54,166 --> 00:28:56,041 [Landon] You know what? I know you're a selfish prick. 500 00:28:56,083 --> 00:28:57,750 I thought you could help, but, you know what? 501 00:28:57,791 --> 00:28:59,208 She's... she's... she's gonna get through this without you. 502 00:28:59,250 --> 00:29:01,125 -Get through what? 503 00:29:01,166 --> 00:29:02,375 La...? 504 00:29:05,750 --> 00:29:07,708 [phone dialing] 505 00:29:10,958 --> 00:29:12,708 Landon? What's wrong? 506 00:29:12,750 --> 00:29:13,958 Just tell me she's okay. 507 00:29:15,125 --> 00:29:16,333 -It's, um. 508 00:29:18,916 --> 00:29:21,166 It's Richard. He's dead. 509 00:29:21,208 --> 00:29:23,000 And, uh, Tessa found him. 510 00:29:26,041 --> 00:29:27,416 -Fuck. 511 00:29:27,458 --> 00:29:29,166 Oh, fuck. 512 00:29:30,458 --> 00:29:32,375 Um. Where... where is she? 513 00:29:32,416 --> 00:29:33,583 -We're at her mom's. 514 00:29:33,625 --> 00:29:35,458 She hasn't. She hasn't spoken a word. 515 00:29:37,041 --> 00:29:38,833 -Can you let me talk to her? 516 00:29:38,875 --> 00:29:40,041 -I don't think that's a good idea. 517 00:29:40,083 --> 00:29:41,250 -Please. 518 00:29:41,291 --> 00:29:43,375 Please just put the phone to her ear. 519 00:29:43,416 --> 00:29:44,833 -You know, you really shouldn't be speaking to her. 520 00:29:44,875 --> 00:29:46,083 -Then why the fuck did you call? 521 00:29:46,125 --> 00:29:47,291 Of course, I'm who she needs! 522 00:29:47,333 --> 00:29:48,416 You know us! You know me! 523 00:29:48,458 --> 00:29:49,875 [Landon] All right, fine. 524 00:29:49,916 --> 00:29:52,166 Just stay calm, okay? Just give me a second. 525 00:30:00,208 --> 00:30:01,416 Hey, Tessa. 526 00:30:03,041 --> 00:30:04,041 I have Hardin on the phone for you. 527 00:30:04,083 --> 00:30:05,541 -Um-mm, um-mm, um-umm. 528 00:30:05,583 --> 00:30:06,958 - Okay, okay. You don't have to. - [Tessa] No, no. No, no. 529 00:30:07,000 --> 00:30:08,375 - No. No. No. - [Landon] It's fine. 530 00:30:08,416 --> 00:30:09,500 - [Tessa] No. No. - [Landon] Don't worry. 531 00:30:09,541 --> 00:30:10,750 - It's fine. - No. No. Tess. 532 00:30:12,333 --> 00:30:13,791 Fuck! 533 00:30:16,333 --> 00:30:17,291 [sniffles and sighs] 534 00:30:17,333 --> 00:30:19,833 [sentimental music] 535 00:30:29,875 --> 00:30:31,125 [sighs] Oh! 536 00:30:31,166 --> 00:30:34,208 [sentimental music] 537 00:30:51,083 --> 00:30:52,875 -I mean, it's gonna be me or your mom 538 00:30:52,916 --> 00:30:54,416 and she's gonna make you eat it. 539 00:30:56,000 --> 00:30:57,208 Looks pretty good. 540 00:30:59,125 --> 00:31:00,916 -[whispers] I'm just so tired. 541 00:31:02,625 --> 00:31:03,833 -Hmm. 542 00:31:08,875 --> 00:31:11,916 [clock ticking] 543 00:31:16,458 --> 00:31:17,666 [sentimental music] 544 00:31:17,708 --> 00:31:19,625 [Tessa] [voice-over] [chuckles] 545 00:31:19,666 --> 00:31:22,208 [Hardin] [voice-over] You're enjoying yourself. 546 00:31:22,250 --> 00:31:25,416 -One little slip and it could all be over. 547 00:31:27,375 --> 00:31:28,875 -Are you still talking about my shave? 548 00:31:33,208 --> 00:31:34,458 -I meant the shave, 549 00:31:34,500 --> 00:31:36,500 but if you wanted to talk about last night. 550 00:31:37,916 --> 00:31:40,541 -I'm sorry, Tess. 551 00:31:40,583 --> 00:31:42,375 I didn't mean to get that trashed. 552 00:31:42,416 --> 00:31:43,875 [Tessa] [voice-over] It's just with your dad... 553 00:31:43,916 --> 00:31:45,083 [Hardin] [voice-over] I'm not my dad. I'm not him. 554 00:31:46,750 --> 00:31:48,625 Tess, if you don't like it, tell me. 555 00:31:48,666 --> 00:31:50,250 - I don't like it. - Then I'll stop. 556 00:31:51,500 --> 00:31:52,833 I won't drink another drop. 557 00:31:52,875 --> 00:31:54,083 -Really? 558 00:31:56,458 --> 00:31:59,416 [mellow music] 559 00:31:59,458 --> 00:32:00,750 -[smacks lips] 560 00:32:11,125 --> 00:32:12,083 What... what are you.? 561 00:32:12,125 --> 00:32:13,250 [giggling] 562 00:32:20,666 --> 00:32:22,791 [smooching] 563 00:32:24,833 --> 00:32:28,791 [thunder rumbling] 564 00:32:28,833 --> 00:32:31,000 [rain pouring] 565 00:32:33,750 --> 00:32:36,916 [roar of airplane] 566 00:32:40,166 --> 00:32:41,541 [indistinct conversation] 567 00:32:41,583 --> 00:32:42,750 [Carol] She doesn't want you here. 568 00:32:42,791 --> 00:32:43,958 [Hardin] I didn't fly 569 00:32:44,000 --> 00:32:45,625 5,000 fucking miles to argue with you. 570 00:32:45,666 --> 00:32:47,041 [Landon] I don't know if she's awake. 571 00:32:47,083 --> 00:32:48,291 Let me just at least see if she's... Hardin! 572 00:32:48,333 --> 00:32:49,833 - Tess. Hey. I'm so... - No. 573 00:32:49,875 --> 00:32:51,125 - No, no, no. - [Hardin] Hey, hey, hey. 574 00:32:51,166 --> 00:32:52,541 -Do you want him here, Tess? 575 00:32:52,583 --> 00:32:54,041 -You're fucked if you think I'm going anywhere. 576 00:32:54,083 --> 00:32:55,291 - Tess. - No, get off me! 577 00:32:55,333 --> 00:32:56,291 -Hey, it's okay. 578 00:32:56,333 --> 00:32:57,583 You gotta leave. 579 00:32:57,625 --> 00:32:58,750 You gotta leave or I'm calling the cops? 580 00:32:58,791 --> 00:33:00,208 - Call the fucking cops. - Call 'em. 581 00:33:00,250 --> 00:33:01,625 - I'm not going anywhere! - [Landon] That's not funny! 582 00:33:01,666 --> 00:33:03,458 - I'm not laughing! - She doesn't want you here! 583 00:33:03,500 --> 00:33:05,250 You have no fucking idea what she wants! 584 00:33:05,291 --> 00:33:06,500 -You weren't here when she needed you! 585 00:33:06,541 --> 00:33:08,375 Now, you're make... You're making it worse. 586 00:33:09,958 --> 00:33:11,583 -[in unison] Tess? 587 00:33:11,625 --> 00:33:13,666 -Ugh, she's trying to avoid you. 588 00:33:13,708 --> 00:33:14,916 - You're the reason she took... - [door slams] 589 00:33:19,625 --> 00:33:20,875 -I'll check the front door. 590 00:33:20,916 --> 00:33:22,958 [footsteps] 591 00:33:30,041 --> 00:33:33,041 [rain pouring] 592 00:33:34,791 --> 00:33:36,583 [door opens, squeaks] 593 00:33:47,208 --> 00:33:48,500 [Hardin] Hey, hey, Tess. 594 00:33:50,166 --> 00:33:52,791 -It's not about you. 595 00:33:52,833 --> 00:33:53,875 -I know. I... I just want to... 596 00:33:53,916 --> 00:33:55,166 [Tessa] I need quiet. 597 00:33:56,416 --> 00:33:57,625 Please. 598 00:33:59,041 --> 00:34:02,083 [melancholic music] 599 00:34:12,708 --> 00:34:14,708 [sniffling] 600 00:34:18,375 --> 00:34:21,291 [melancholic music continues] 601 00:34:28,416 --> 00:34:30,458 [footsteps approaching] 602 00:34:40,041 --> 00:34:42,208 -I haven't always treated you fairly. 603 00:34:42,250 --> 00:34:44,208 -You hate me, Carol. 604 00:34:44,250 --> 00:34:45,250 You've always hated me. 605 00:34:45,291 --> 00:34:46,875 And it's fine. I don't care. 606 00:34:46,916 --> 00:34:49,416 But you should know your opinion means fuck all to me. 607 00:34:49,458 --> 00:34:51,291 And I mean that in the nicest way. 608 00:34:51,333 --> 00:34:52,875 -You're exactly like him. 609 00:34:52,916 --> 00:34:54,666 That's exactly how Richard used to talk to my parents. 610 00:34:54,708 --> 00:34:56,291 -I am not him. 611 00:34:56,333 --> 00:34:57,916 -All right. Well. 612 00:34:57,958 --> 00:34:59,625 I only care about what's best for Tessa. 613 00:34:59,666 --> 00:35:01,291 -So do I. 614 00:35:01,333 --> 00:35:04,541 -The one thing that I thought that I taught her, 615 00:35:04,583 --> 00:35:07,166 and you may not believe me, 616 00:35:07,208 --> 00:35:11,333 was to not have to depend on a man the way that I did. 617 00:35:11,375 --> 00:35:13,541 And now, look at her. 618 00:35:13,583 --> 00:35:16,916 She's... she's reduced to nothing every time you leave. 619 00:35:16,958 --> 00:35:19,458 - Listen, I'm not... - No, no. Let me finish. 620 00:35:19,500 --> 00:35:21,958 Yeah, you always come back 621 00:35:22,000 --> 00:35:25,000 the way that Richard never did for us. 622 00:35:25,041 --> 00:35:26,666 But you never stay. 623 00:35:32,791 --> 00:35:35,333 -I don't know what you want from me, Carol. 624 00:35:35,375 --> 00:35:36,375 I love her. 625 00:35:36,416 --> 00:35:38,041 I'm never letting her go. 626 00:35:38,083 --> 00:35:40,375 -If you really love her, then you'll do what's best for her. 627 00:35:40,416 --> 00:35:42,375 And that is up to you now. 628 00:35:42,416 --> 00:35:45,250 Because you are the only person that she'll listen to. 629 00:35:45,291 --> 00:35:47,708 That girl loves you way too much for her own good. 630 00:35:48,708 --> 00:35:51,583 But Hardin, you and I both know 631 00:35:51,625 --> 00:35:54,250 that you can't give her what she needs. 632 00:35:54,291 --> 00:35:58,041 And that is stopping her from finding someone who will. 633 00:35:58,083 --> 00:36:01,083 [sentimental music] 634 00:36:16,833 --> 00:36:19,125 -I can only imagine how you're feeling right now. 635 00:36:22,791 --> 00:36:26,083 I keep thinking about the last time I saw him. 636 00:36:26,125 --> 00:36:28,250 He was eating half my damn pizza. 637 00:36:28,291 --> 00:36:31,458 He was happy. 638 00:36:31,500 --> 00:36:33,833 -Just happy he had a place to stay. 639 00:36:42,041 --> 00:36:45,916 -I am so sorry for what happened in London. 640 00:36:52,208 --> 00:36:53,791 I really am. 641 00:36:53,833 --> 00:36:57,833 -I thought we had a love that was out of a novel. 642 00:36:57,875 --> 00:37:00,416 And no matter how hard or fast or tough it was, 643 00:37:00,458 --> 00:37:02,583 we'd survive to tell the story. 644 00:37:04,458 --> 00:37:06,833 [Hardin] Hey. 645 00:37:06,875 --> 00:37:10,666 We do. And we can. We can survive it. 646 00:37:14,500 --> 00:37:17,083 - I don't wanna survive. - I want to live. 647 00:37:25,833 --> 00:37:28,125 [sighs] 648 00:37:30,583 --> 00:37:33,875 I can't keep doing this. 649 00:37:33,916 --> 00:37:36,625 -Tess. 650 00:37:36,666 --> 00:37:40,208 -You don't love me enough to fight for me. 651 00:37:40,250 --> 00:37:42,583 You gave up every time. 652 00:37:50,333 --> 00:37:52,791 -I tried. 653 00:37:52,833 --> 00:37:54,875 I really fucking tried. 654 00:37:58,041 --> 00:37:59,541 -[sniffles] 655 00:37:59,583 --> 00:38:01,708 I'm sorry I couldn't fix you. 656 00:38:05,875 --> 00:38:07,791 -Me, too. 657 00:38:13,958 --> 00:38:15,208 Me, too. 658 00:38:37,916 --> 00:38:40,250 [car doors close] 659 00:38:44,666 --> 00:38:46,708 -Who's paying for all this? 660 00:38:46,750 --> 00:38:48,916 -You don't have to worry about money right now, honey. 661 00:38:51,958 --> 00:38:53,291 -Hey. 662 00:38:54,708 --> 00:38:57,291 Hey, hey, hey, it's okay. It's okay. 663 00:38:58,708 --> 00:39:00,458 -[sniffles] 664 00:39:00,500 --> 00:39:05,000 - Ugh. Hey, I got make up on... - Oh. And. 665 00:39:05,041 --> 00:39:06,083 And a little bit of snot. 666 00:39:06,125 --> 00:39:07,333 - [chuckles] - Just a little bit. 667 00:39:07,375 --> 00:39:09,708 [Tessa's teary chuckle] 668 00:39:09,750 --> 00:39:11,916 - You ready? - [Tessa] Yeah. 669 00:39:22,500 --> 00:39:25,625 [song playing] 670 00:39:55,333 --> 00:39:57,666 -I hadn't seen my father for nine years. 671 00:40:00,333 --> 00:40:03,000 But reconnecting with him was one of the greatest gifts. 672 00:40:04,666 --> 00:40:06,250 Even if it was only briefly. 673 00:40:09,958 --> 00:40:12,375 He had so many demons, but. 674 00:40:14,125 --> 00:40:17,000 He was also so kind. 675 00:40:20,500 --> 00:40:22,208 And he was trying to be better for me. 676 00:40:25,208 --> 00:40:26,416 I know that. 677 00:40:28,125 --> 00:40:29,666 [sniffles] 678 00:40:32,291 --> 00:40:35,375 -[sobbing] 679 00:40:44,291 --> 00:40:45,958 -You need a ride? Hardin? 680 00:40:48,833 --> 00:40:49,958 -I don't think I should go. 681 00:40:50,000 --> 00:40:52,125 -Why? You were his friend, kind of. 682 00:40:52,166 --> 00:40:54,000 And you paid for it, so. 683 00:40:54,041 --> 00:40:56,791 -Landon, do me a favor and keep that between us. 684 00:40:56,833 --> 00:40:58,375 -Sure. Doesn't mean you shouldn't come. 685 00:40:58,416 --> 00:41:00,125 So, come. 686 00:41:00,166 --> 00:41:03,208 ♪ 687 00:41:07,666 --> 00:41:10,666 [people chattering] 688 00:41:18,916 --> 00:41:22,833 [door opens, squeaks, closes] 689 00:41:24,875 --> 00:41:26,083 [door opens] 690 00:41:28,375 --> 00:41:30,000 [door closes] 691 00:41:33,875 --> 00:41:35,625 -Sorry, I didn't know that you were. 692 00:41:42,666 --> 00:41:45,125 I don't know half these people. 693 00:41:45,166 --> 00:41:46,791 [Hardin] It's kind of weird. 694 00:41:46,833 --> 00:41:50,208 When people go to funerals of someone they don't even know. 695 00:41:50,250 --> 00:41:51,958 -It's just especially him. 696 00:41:52,000 --> 00:41:54,916 I mean, they're total hypocrites. 697 00:41:54,958 --> 00:41:57,291 No one here even liked him. 698 00:41:57,333 --> 00:41:58,541 -You did. 699 00:42:00,958 --> 00:42:02,166 And even I did. 700 00:42:04,375 --> 00:42:06,333 -I'm really mad at him. 701 00:42:06,375 --> 00:42:10,000 I'm like. I'm like pissed off. 702 00:42:10,041 --> 00:42:12,875 -Hey, you have every right to be mad at him. 703 00:42:12,916 --> 00:42:15,708 Whether he's dead or not. 704 00:42:15,750 --> 00:42:19,708 I saw how much it meant to you to have him back in your life. 705 00:42:19,750 --> 00:42:22,500 And I think he is an idiot 706 00:42:22,541 --> 00:42:24,666 for throwing that all the way just to get high. 707 00:42:28,958 --> 00:42:30,708 But I mean, I'm one to talk, aren't I? 708 00:42:33,250 --> 00:42:34,958 I'm so sorry it took something like this 709 00:42:35,000 --> 00:42:37,708 for me to realize how much you mean to me. 710 00:42:37,750 --> 00:42:42,000 And how much. I want to be there for you. 711 00:42:42,041 --> 00:42:45,000 [sentimental music] 712 00:42:50,875 --> 00:42:52,875 -I need to go back inside. 713 00:43:01,625 --> 00:43:03,166 -Okay. 714 00:43:05,375 --> 00:43:06,333 [retreating footsteps] 715 00:43:06,375 --> 00:43:07,583 [door opens] 716 00:43:08,583 --> 00:43:11,166 [door closes] 717 00:43:11,208 --> 00:43:12,416 [phone pings] 718 00:43:14,166 --> 00:43:15,375 Oh, come on. 719 00:43:20,458 --> 00:43:22,625 [Tessa] Thank you so much for everything. 720 00:43:22,666 --> 00:43:23,875 -Yeah, of course. 721 00:43:25,083 --> 00:43:26,583 -Hey, could I have a lift? 722 00:43:26,625 --> 00:43:28,208 My Ubers keep canceling. 723 00:43:28,250 --> 00:43:29,583 -I'm supposed to be meeting Nora 724 00:43:29,625 --> 00:43:31,541 and I'm already late, so. 725 00:43:31,583 --> 00:43:33,041 - Cool. - Yeah. 726 00:43:33,083 --> 00:43:34,916 [sighs] 727 00:43:34,958 --> 00:43:36,333 We'll see if this one turns up. 728 00:43:38,375 --> 00:43:40,208 Do you want to come with me? 729 00:43:40,250 --> 00:43:42,125 Back to Ken's. 730 00:43:42,166 --> 00:43:44,916 -I should really stay here. 731 00:43:44,958 --> 00:43:46,333 It's been a long day 732 00:43:46,375 --> 00:43:48,375 and I've got a doctor's appointment in Seattle. 733 00:43:48,416 --> 00:43:49,916 Tomorrow. 734 00:43:49,958 --> 00:43:51,791 -Sure. 735 00:43:51,833 --> 00:43:53,083 Vance and Kimberly back? 736 00:43:53,125 --> 00:43:54,541 [Tessa] They get back in the morning. 737 00:43:54,583 --> 00:43:56,416 They're trying to work everything out for the baby. 738 00:43:56,458 --> 00:43:58,791 - [car engine rumbles] - [phone pings] 739 00:44:01,958 --> 00:44:04,833 - You know what? I'm... - I'm gonna come with you. 740 00:44:04,875 --> 00:44:06,333 I'm gonna start looking for places up there. 741 00:44:06,375 --> 00:44:07,916 I'm ready. 742 00:44:07,958 --> 00:44:09,666 - I don't... I don't think... - Tess. Tess, 743 00:44:09,708 --> 00:44:11,416 it's my turn to be there for you. 744 00:44:12,833 --> 00:44:15,583 -I don't want anything from you anymore. 745 00:44:17,583 --> 00:44:19,583 [sentimental music] 746 00:44:21,416 --> 00:44:22,625 -I don't believe you. 747 00:44:24,833 --> 00:44:27,000 And I don't think you believe yourself either. 748 00:44:35,125 --> 00:44:37,500 [car door opens] 749 00:44:37,541 --> 00:44:39,041 [car door closes] 750 00:44:41,541 --> 00:44:44,958 [rain pattering] 751 00:44:45,000 --> 00:44:49,083 -I'm so sorry that we weren't at your father's funeral. 752 00:44:49,125 --> 00:44:50,583 -No, no, it's fine. 753 00:44:50,625 --> 00:44:54,041 Um, ugh. I wouldn't have been good company anyway. 754 00:44:56,208 --> 00:44:59,000 Uh, I was actually, 755 00:44:59,041 --> 00:45:01,583 I was thinking about moving to New York. 756 00:45:02,875 --> 00:45:04,083 With Landon. 757 00:45:05,666 --> 00:45:08,375 -New York? That... 758 00:45:08,416 --> 00:45:10,208 [breathes deeply] Wow! 759 00:45:10,250 --> 00:45:11,916 What's your plan? 760 00:45:11,958 --> 00:45:13,250 Do you know where you're gonna work, what...? 761 00:45:13,291 --> 00:45:16,083 - Not really. - I. I mean, I know it's far. 762 00:45:16,125 --> 00:45:18,500 I just think that I need a fresh start. 763 00:45:20,250 --> 00:45:23,625 -Tessa, it's okay to be sad. 764 00:45:23,666 --> 00:45:25,708 But if you let sadness control your life, 765 00:45:25,750 --> 00:45:27,958 you'll never have one. 766 00:45:28,000 --> 00:45:31,750 -But what if I just always feel like this? 767 00:45:31,791 --> 00:45:34,333 -What you've been through is awful. 768 00:45:34,375 --> 00:45:36,000 But you are so strong, 769 00:45:36,041 --> 00:45:37,666 and I know you'll get through this. 770 00:45:39,250 --> 00:45:41,833 It just takes time. 771 00:45:41,875 --> 00:45:45,708 And as for Hardin. 772 00:45:45,750 --> 00:45:48,083 Girl, just do your best to pretend you're moving on 773 00:45:48,125 --> 00:45:51,208 and eventually, you'll believe it. 774 00:45:52,833 --> 00:45:54,083 [sighs] 775 00:45:55,166 --> 00:45:58,708 [people chattering] 776 00:46:01,458 --> 00:46:03,708 -Why did you stay if you knew she wanted him? 777 00:46:05,875 --> 00:46:08,583 -I loved her. 778 00:46:08,625 --> 00:46:10,583 I thought that she would see that he couldn't give her 779 00:46:10,625 --> 00:46:14,041 the stability that I could. 780 00:46:14,083 --> 00:46:21,125 You know, I imagine if. If Tessa marries another man, 781 00:46:22,166 --> 00:46:24,958 this is how he's gonna feel, competing with a memory of you. 782 00:46:25,000 --> 00:46:27,250 - I'm not Vance, okay? - Just because. 783 00:46:30,333 --> 00:46:33,125 I'm not him. 784 00:46:33,166 --> 00:46:36,166 [sentimental music] 785 00:46:39,000 --> 00:46:41,083 -You are. 786 00:46:42,666 --> 00:46:44,541 Okay. 787 00:46:50,708 --> 00:46:53,291 So, it's... it's true. 788 00:46:53,333 --> 00:46:55,416 He's your father. 789 00:46:56,875 --> 00:47:00,708 I knew it. I knew it the first time that I saw you. 790 00:47:00,750 --> 00:47:02,916 You look just like him. 791 00:47:02,958 --> 00:47:04,666 I did everything so wrong. 792 00:47:07,541 --> 00:47:09,541 And I couldn't stand that you were his. 793 00:47:11,375 --> 00:47:14,166 That doesn't excuse the drinking, but. 794 00:47:18,000 --> 00:47:19,958 I've loved you. 795 00:47:20,000 --> 00:47:21,208 I still love you. 796 00:47:24,708 --> 00:47:26,000 You're my son. 797 00:47:37,916 --> 00:47:40,458 [sobbing] 798 00:47:40,500 --> 00:47:41,708 I'm sorry. 799 00:47:46,375 --> 00:47:47,583 [phone pings] 800 00:47:54,708 --> 00:47:57,125 [keypad clacking softly] 801 00:47:58,541 --> 00:47:59,750 [message tone beeps] 802 00:48:08,916 --> 00:48:11,458 -Let's talk about these test results. 803 00:48:11,500 --> 00:48:13,708 Unfortunately, the chances are very slim 804 00:48:13,750 --> 00:48:16,416 that you will carry to term. 805 00:48:16,458 --> 00:48:19,333 [voice-over] There are other options. 806 00:48:19,375 --> 00:48:24,083 Adoption is a route many people choose. 807 00:48:24,125 --> 00:48:29,000 -♪ You told me I would never See you walk away ♪ 808 00:48:29,041 --> 00:48:31,791 ♪ Said you'd never Break my heart ♪ 809 00:48:31,833 --> 00:48:34,041 ♪ Never leave me in the dark ♪ 810 00:48:34,083 --> 00:48:36,333 ♪ I guess there's Just some promises ♪ 811 00:48:36,375 --> 00:48:39,166 ♪ You shouldn't make ♪ 812 00:48:39,208 --> 00:48:41,416 ♪ Should've known From the start ♪ 813 00:48:41,458 --> 00:48:44,208 ♪ Now in the dark ♪ 814 00:48:44,250 --> 00:48:46,833 ♪ Show a little loving ♪ 815 00:48:46,875 --> 00:48:49,416 ♪ Shine a little light on me ♪ 816 00:48:49,458 --> 00:48:52,208 ♪ Show a little loving ♪ 817 00:48:52,250 --> 00:48:56,375 ♪ I'm in the dark I can't see ♪ 818 00:48:56,416 --> 00:48:58,708 ♪ Can't see ♪ 819 00:48:58,750 --> 00:49:00,541 ♪ Can't see ♪ 820 00:49:00,583 --> 00:49:03,833 ♪ Just feeling my way Back to you ♪ 821 00:49:03,875 --> 00:49:06,333 ♪ I can't feel ♪ 822 00:49:06,375 --> 00:49:08,666 ♪ I can't feel ♪ 823 00:49:08,708 --> 00:49:11,500 ♪ I can't feel ♪ 824 00:49:11,541 --> 00:49:14,500 ♪ Reach out and show A little loving ♪ 825 00:49:14,541 --> 00:49:15,458 ♪ Shine a little light on me ♪ 826 00:49:15,500 --> 00:49:16,958 - Hey. - [Hardin] Hey. 827 00:49:17,000 --> 00:49:18,333 - ♪ Show a little loving. - [Hardin] Hey. 828 00:49:18,375 --> 00:49:19,458 Hey, I've been trying you all day. What's up? 829 00:49:19,500 --> 00:49:21,041 -♪ Show a little loving -[sighs] 830 00:49:21,083 --> 00:49:22,875 Um, I left my phone on silent. 831 00:49:22,916 --> 00:49:24,375 -♪ You told me I would never See you go astray ♪ 832 00:49:24,416 --> 00:49:26,125 -Is everything okay? 833 00:49:26,166 --> 00:49:32,500 [Tessa] No, not really. But. I have to go. 834 00:49:32,541 --> 00:49:34,541 -♪ I guess there's Just some promises ♪ 835 00:49:34,583 --> 00:49:37,333 ♪ You shouldn't make ♪ 836 00:49:37,375 --> 00:49:40,291 ♪ Should've known From the start ♪ 837 00:49:40,333 --> 00:49:42,291 ♪ I'm in the dark ♪ 838 00:49:42,333 --> 00:49:44,291 ♪ I can't see ♪ 839 00:49:44,333 --> 00:49:46,583 ♪ Can't see ♪ 840 00:49:46,625 --> 00:49:50,166 ♪ Reach out and show A little loving ♪ 841 00:49:50,208 --> 00:49:52,708 ♪ Shine a little light on me ♪ 842 00:49:52,750 --> 00:49:55,583 - ♪ Show a little loving. - [rain pattering] 843 00:49:55,625 --> 00:49:57,250 - [Hardin] Tess? - [footsteps approaching] 844 00:49:58,125 --> 00:49:59,333 -Tessa? 845 00:50:00,958 --> 00:50:02,166 Hey, Tess. 846 00:50:04,375 --> 00:50:05,500 -Hardin. [Groans] 847 00:50:05,541 --> 00:50:06,791 -Hey, come inside. 848 00:50:08,833 --> 00:50:10,208 -I had a feeling you'd come. 849 00:50:10,250 --> 00:50:11,625 - Did you? - [Tessa] Yeah. 850 00:50:11,666 --> 00:50:13,375 [soft chuckle] 851 00:50:13,416 --> 00:50:14,458 It's late. 852 00:50:14,500 --> 00:50:15,958 -It is. 853 00:50:22,125 --> 00:50:25,083 -[groans] Do you want a baby with me? 854 00:50:25,125 --> 00:50:26,583 -No, I don't want a baby with you. 855 00:50:26,625 --> 00:50:28,291 [Tessa sighing] 856 00:50:28,333 --> 00:50:30,208 -I mean. 857 00:50:30,250 --> 00:50:31,500 I just. 858 00:50:33,458 --> 00:50:34,958 I don't want a baby right now. 859 00:50:37,250 --> 00:50:38,708 -I love sleep. 860 00:50:38,750 --> 00:50:42,250 My life has the tendency to fall apart when I'm awake. 861 00:50:42,291 --> 00:50:45,041 -[chuckles] Your life is gonna be just fine, okay? 862 00:50:45,083 --> 00:50:48,416 - You said it once. - There can be no happy end to it. 863 00:50:50,333 --> 00:50:51,583 -[whispers] I didn't mean that. 864 00:50:52,791 --> 00:50:54,166 And I shouldn't have said it. 865 00:50:57,125 --> 00:50:59,083 -I love you enough now. 866 00:50:59,125 --> 00:51:01,541 - What do you want to do? - [Hardin chuckles] 867 00:51:01,583 --> 00:51:03,541 - [mumbles] I love you. - Shush. We can quote Hemingway 868 00:51:03,583 --> 00:51:05,541 when we're sober, okay? 869 00:51:05,583 --> 00:51:07,750 For now, just go to sleep. 870 00:51:07,791 --> 00:51:09,458 [romantic music playing] 871 00:51:09,500 --> 00:51:10,541 [kisses] 872 00:51:10,583 --> 00:51:12,125 [whispers] Go to sleep. 873 00:51:13,375 --> 00:51:15,166 -Stay. 874 00:51:35,500 --> 00:51:36,708 [milk bottle thuds] 875 00:51:43,958 --> 00:51:45,333 -Morning. 876 00:51:45,375 --> 00:51:46,583 -Morning. 877 00:51:48,958 --> 00:51:54,541 Um, [clicks tongue] what did I say last night? 878 00:51:54,583 --> 00:51:56,166 -[chuckles] 879 00:51:56,208 --> 00:51:59,208 You mean, besides quoting Hemingway? 880 00:51:59,250 --> 00:52:02,083 -Oh, no, I didn't. 881 00:52:02,125 --> 00:52:03,333 -It wasn't that bad. 882 00:52:07,375 --> 00:52:08,500 [cup clanks] 883 00:52:08,541 --> 00:52:09,875 Do you, uh. 884 00:52:11,541 --> 00:52:13,041 Do you want to tell me what's been bothering you? 885 00:52:13,083 --> 00:52:15,250 [dishes clanking] 886 00:52:15,291 --> 00:52:16,916 -It's nothing. It's the doctor. 887 00:52:16,958 --> 00:52:18,166 [Hardin] Listen. 888 00:52:19,416 --> 00:52:21,000 If you are pregnant, I just wanted to say 889 00:52:21,041 --> 00:52:23,375 that I would genuinely be okay with that. 890 00:52:24,666 --> 00:52:26,958 It really would not be so bad having kids with you. 891 00:52:29,500 --> 00:52:33,000 Or, obviously, if you're... If you're not pregnant, 892 00:52:33,041 --> 00:52:35,708 I guess maybe after you finish college, 893 00:52:35,750 --> 00:52:37,875 or I don't know, either way. 894 00:52:37,916 --> 00:52:39,291 [cutlery clattering] 895 00:52:42,125 --> 00:52:43,541 -I can't get pregnant. 896 00:52:46,208 --> 00:52:49,125 The. The doctor said that it'll... 897 00:52:49,166 --> 00:52:52,541 It'd be almost impossible for me to conceive. 898 00:52:52,583 --> 00:52:55,000 And even if I did, there'd be a high risk of miscarriage 899 00:52:55,041 --> 00:52:56,541 so I can't. 900 00:52:56,583 --> 00:52:59,125 [dishes clanking] 901 00:53:04,833 --> 00:53:06,125 -Agh! 902 00:53:07,333 --> 00:53:09,250 -Uh, can you say somethin'? 903 00:53:10,250 --> 00:53:11,458 [exhaling] 904 00:53:12,916 --> 00:53:14,583 -I don't know what to say. 905 00:53:14,625 --> 00:53:16,041 -What do you... what do you mean, you don't know what... 906 00:53:16,083 --> 00:53:17,333 You don't want kids anyway. 907 00:53:17,375 --> 00:53:20,166 -No, I-I-I didn't. 908 00:53:21,583 --> 00:53:24,083 Now, it just feels like it's been taken away from us. 909 00:53:24,125 --> 00:53:26,916 -Uh, no, not from you. From me. 910 00:53:30,041 --> 00:53:31,666 -Wait. 911 00:53:31,708 --> 00:53:33,041 That was the wrong thing to say. You know I didn't mean it. 912 00:53:33,083 --> 00:53:34,625 Tess, wait. Please wait. 913 00:53:35,791 --> 00:53:37,333 - Tessa. - [breathing deeply] 914 00:53:37,375 --> 00:53:39,625 -Please just don't shut down on me again. 915 00:53:39,666 --> 00:53:43,708 I don't give a fuck if we can have kids or not, honestly. 916 00:53:43,750 --> 00:53:45,791 -I'm sorry that you feel like I took something from you. 917 00:53:45,833 --> 00:53:47,250 - I don't. - But you're not the one 918 00:53:47,291 --> 00:53:49,250 who's just had their dreams crushed here, you know? 919 00:53:51,166 --> 00:53:52,750 Like you didn't want kids until two seconds ago 920 00:53:52,791 --> 00:53:54,708 which just came out of nowhere. 921 00:53:58,416 --> 00:53:59,708 -I just want to be with you. 922 00:54:01,041 --> 00:54:03,708 Kids, no kids. [Scoffs] 923 00:54:03,750 --> 00:54:04,833 When I was in London, 924 00:54:04,875 --> 00:54:06,625 I could not stop thinking about you. 925 00:54:08,458 --> 00:54:11,833 - Right. Yeah, I'm sure... - I'm sure you saw my face 926 00:54:11,875 --> 00:54:13,958 when you were sleeping with that girl at the party. 927 00:54:14,000 --> 00:54:15,583 -Who are you.? What? 928 00:54:15,625 --> 00:54:19,291 Te... nothing of the sort happened. 929 00:54:19,333 --> 00:54:20,750 - And I won't lie to you. - Shut up. You did. 930 00:54:20,791 --> 00:54:23,041 -She did... she did try to kiss me and when she did, 931 00:54:23,083 --> 00:54:25,708 I literally threw up, so. 932 00:54:25,750 --> 00:54:28,416 -You literally threw up. 933 00:54:28,458 --> 00:54:29,750 -I did. 934 00:54:29,791 --> 00:54:31,916 - Threw up. [Chuckles] - I threw up. [Chuckles] 935 00:54:31,958 --> 00:54:35,958 Instant noodles, and it went on her head. [Chuckles] 936 00:54:36,958 --> 00:54:38,750 [romantic music playing] 937 00:54:38,791 --> 00:54:40,375 -Good. 938 00:54:40,416 --> 00:54:41,458 -[laughs] Good? 939 00:54:41,500 --> 00:54:43,125 - Yeah, good. [Laughs] - Good. 940 00:54:45,041 --> 00:54:46,875 [phone vibrating] 941 00:54:56,375 --> 00:54:58,666 [Landon] And that is why Hardin is afraid of gerbils. 942 00:54:58,708 --> 00:55:01,250 [laughter] 943 00:55:01,291 --> 00:55:02,666 -If you don't stop makin' up stories, 944 00:55:02,708 --> 00:55:04,500 I'll tell Nora about that time you wet yourself. 945 00:55:04,541 --> 00:55:05,833 [laughter] 946 00:55:05,875 --> 00:55:06,916 -Touché. 947 00:55:06,958 --> 00:55:08,416 -All right, then. 948 00:55:08,458 --> 00:55:10,708 - This is so good. - The sauce is amazing. 949 00:55:10,750 --> 00:55:12,833 -It's all of Landon's favorites before he leaves us. 950 00:55:12,875 --> 00:55:16,125 -This food almost makes me sad to go. 951 00:55:16,166 --> 00:55:19,958 -So Nora, what part of New York are you in? 952 00:55:20,000 --> 00:55:22,500 -Um, East 14th and First Ave. 953 00:55:22,541 --> 00:55:25,416 -What she actually meant was how far is it from Landon. 954 00:55:25,458 --> 00:55:27,166 [Nora] Oh. Um. 955 00:55:27,208 --> 00:55:29,625 - Like. - Like 50 minutes by train. 956 00:55:29,666 --> 00:55:31,000 -Fifty minutes. 957 00:55:31,041 --> 00:55:32,291 I'm sorry. It's just practically long distance. 958 00:55:32,333 --> 00:55:33,375 I don't know how you're gonna make that work. 959 00:55:33,416 --> 00:55:35,125 -I mean, I have to go through there 960 00:55:35,166 --> 00:55:36,958 to get to class every day. 961 00:55:37,000 --> 00:55:38,375 I mean, not... not that we'd be 962 00:55:38,416 --> 00:55:40,541 seeing each other every day. But I mean, we could 963 00:55:40,583 --> 00:55:42,666 if you wanted too. 964 00:55:42,708 --> 00:55:44,791 [laughter] 965 00:55:44,833 --> 00:55:47,125 -So, Hardin, graduation is looming. 966 00:55:47,166 --> 00:55:48,208 - No, we're not doing this again. - I don't want... 967 00:55:48,250 --> 00:55:49,375 -Have you given more thought to... 968 00:55:49,416 --> 00:55:50,791 -No, I haven't 'cause I'm not going to 969 00:55:50,833 --> 00:55:52,583 walk for graduation, okay? I don't want to walk. 970 00:55:52,625 --> 00:55:54,041 - [Tessa] Really? - Yeah, really. 971 00:55:54,083 --> 00:55:55,375 - You sure? - [Hardin] I'm sure. 972 00:55:55,416 --> 00:55:56,625 -Hm. 973 00:55:57,500 --> 00:55:59,291 I just thought. 974 00:55:59,333 --> 00:56:01,416 I don't know. I just thought for sure you'd reconsider. 975 00:56:02,708 --> 00:56:04,250 -So you've obviously asked her 976 00:56:04,291 --> 00:56:06,291 - to ask me? - [Ken] What? What? 977 00:56:06,333 --> 00:56:07,583 -[Hardin sighs] 978 00:56:07,625 --> 00:56:09,333 Fuck it, fine. I'll walk for graduation then. 979 00:56:09,375 --> 00:56:10,791 [laughter] 980 00:56:10,833 --> 00:56:12,166 - [Ken] Yes! - Don't make me change my mind. 981 00:56:12,208 --> 00:56:13,333 [laughter] 982 00:56:13,375 --> 00:56:15,166 -To walking. 983 00:56:15,208 --> 00:56:16,375 [Karen] Cheers to that. 984 00:56:16,416 --> 00:56:18,541 - To walking. - [Hardin] Cheers to that. 985 00:56:18,583 --> 00:56:19,541 - [Ken] To walking. - Here we go again. 986 00:56:19,583 --> 00:56:23,375 [laughter] 987 00:56:23,416 --> 00:56:26,416 [muted chatter and laughter] 988 00:56:26,458 --> 00:56:28,541 [Ken] Come on. 989 00:56:33,250 --> 00:56:36,250 [tap running] 990 00:56:39,125 --> 00:56:42,666 -Hey, I need to talk to you about something. 991 00:56:42,708 --> 00:56:43,916 -Okay. 992 00:56:44,750 --> 00:56:45,958 [door closes] 993 00:56:59,958 --> 00:57:02,500 -I made a decision about something, and I didn't. 994 00:57:05,125 --> 00:57:07,958 With everything that's been going on 995 00:57:08,000 --> 00:57:10,041 because of a lot of things, but. 996 00:57:12,500 --> 00:57:14,083 We need time apart. 997 00:57:14,125 --> 00:57:20,208 Like. Like really apart. 998 00:57:20,250 --> 00:57:21,208 And... 999 00:57:21,250 --> 00:57:22,583 -[scoffs] 1000 00:57:22,625 --> 00:57:24,666 -This seems like the only way to make sure 1001 00:57:24,708 --> 00:57:27,333 that that actually happen. 1002 00:57:27,375 --> 00:57:28,958 -Okay, why? 1003 00:57:29,000 --> 00:57:31,916 -Because we fight more than we get along. 1004 00:57:31,958 --> 00:57:35,791 And when we make up, it's over sex. 1005 00:57:38,291 --> 00:57:40,250 - That's not... - That's not really true. 1006 00:57:40,291 --> 00:57:42,291 -It is, and it's not healthy. 1007 00:57:42,333 --> 00:57:45,000 - [exhaling deeply] - How is sex not healthy? 1008 00:57:45,041 --> 00:57:49,041 We've been having lots of fun, happy, consensual sex. 1009 00:57:49,083 --> 00:57:52,333 And it's been full of fucking love and fucking trust. 1010 00:57:52,375 --> 00:57:55,041 -I can't keep going around in circles like this. 1011 00:57:57,000 --> 00:58:01,291 -Okay, okay. I understand. 1012 00:58:01,333 --> 00:58:03,583 And I do have a lot to work on. 1013 00:58:03,625 --> 00:58:05,125 But we have so much time. 1014 00:58:05,166 --> 00:58:06,583 We have all the time in the world, 1015 00:58:06,625 --> 00:58:07,875 and I will work on them. 1016 00:58:07,916 --> 00:58:09,041 And I can come live with you 1017 00:58:09,083 --> 00:58:11,166 - in Seattle. - Okay. Okay. 1018 00:58:11,208 --> 00:58:13,708 I'm moving. 1019 00:58:13,750 --> 00:58:15,583 -Okay. 1020 00:58:15,625 --> 00:58:17,458 I'm moving to New York. 1021 00:58:17,500 --> 00:58:18,875 I'm gonna live with Landon. 1022 00:58:18,916 --> 00:58:20,416 -Landon? 1023 00:58:20,458 --> 00:58:21,458 What? This was his idea? 1024 00:58:21,500 --> 00:58:23,500 -No, no, no. This was my idea. 1025 00:58:23,541 --> 00:58:24,750 This wasn't. Don't... 1026 00:58:24,791 --> 00:58:26,291 -He's supposed to be my fucking brother. 1027 00:58:26,333 --> 00:58:28,625 - It's not like that. - It's... no! Hey! 1028 00:58:29,291 --> 00:58:30,916 - [Landon] No, no. - [Nora] I'm just gonna... 1029 00:58:30,958 --> 00:58:33,083 [Hardin] New York! New York! You didn't fucking tell me! 1030 00:58:33,125 --> 00:58:35,208 [Landon] Well, it wasn't my call. You'd broken up with her. What do you...? 1031 00:58:35,250 --> 00:58:37,291 -You've been pretending to be my fucking friend! 1032 00:58:37,333 --> 00:58:39,625 -I didn't pretend shit, Hardin! 1033 00:58:39,666 --> 00:58:42,083 I'm her friend too, and I'm cleaning up your shit as usual. 1034 00:58:43,208 --> 00:58:44,208 Well, go ahead. 1035 00:58:44,250 --> 00:58:45,500 Fucking hit me, you big man. 1036 00:58:45,541 --> 00:58:46,791 Big piece of shit. 1037 00:58:55,333 --> 00:58:57,500 -[screaming] Fuck. 1038 00:58:57,541 --> 00:59:00,500 [approaching footsteps] 1039 00:59:02,916 --> 00:59:05,916 [breathing heavily] 1040 00:59:16,625 --> 00:59:20,083 I'm sorry. I'm sorry, Tess, but. 1041 00:59:21,750 --> 00:59:23,625 You know, of all people, 1042 00:59:23,666 --> 00:59:27,000 he knows how much you mean to me. 1043 00:59:27,041 --> 00:59:28,250 That you're my 1044 00:59:28,291 --> 00:59:29,666 fucking lifeline, and he didn't tell me, 1045 00:59:29,708 --> 00:59:32,083 and that fucking hurts. 1046 00:59:32,125 --> 00:59:34,875 [exhales] It fucking hurts, okay? 1047 00:59:39,583 --> 00:59:41,500 I'm shit without you. 1048 00:59:44,750 --> 00:59:48,541 -I'm just as good at dooming this relationship as you. 1049 00:59:48,583 --> 00:59:50,541 [Hardin] Is it doomed? 1050 00:59:50,583 --> 00:59:52,541 Is it? I feel like we can make this work. 1051 00:59:54,375 --> 00:59:57,375 -You're trying, and I see that. But I. 1052 00:59:57,416 --> 00:59:59,375 I can't keep doing this back and forth. 1053 00:59:59,416 --> 01:00:01,916 It's... it's... it's not just with you. 1054 01:00:01,958 --> 01:00:03,250 It's with me. 1055 01:00:03,291 --> 01:00:05,291 -You can't just escape yourself 1056 01:00:05,333 --> 01:00:07,375 by moving from one place to another, you know. 1057 01:00:09,833 --> 01:00:11,250 You know that, right? 1058 01:00:11,291 --> 01:00:16,333 - I need to figure things out. - And. If you love me, 1059 01:00:16,375 --> 01:00:18,375 - if you really love me... - [Hardin] I do. I do. 1060 01:00:18,416 --> 01:00:20,583 -Then I need you to promise not to follow me. 1061 01:00:23,416 --> 01:00:24,541 - I can't do that. - [Tessa] Promise me. 1062 01:00:24,583 --> 01:00:25,958 -I can't do that. 1063 01:00:26,000 --> 01:00:28,125 - We can make this work! - Promise not to follow me. 1064 01:00:28,166 --> 01:00:29,791 Give me some time 1065 01:00:29,833 --> 01:00:33,750 or we're gonna end up taking everyone down with us. 1066 01:00:33,791 --> 01:00:35,000 -How long? 1067 01:00:37,916 --> 01:00:39,833 How long, Tess? 1068 01:00:39,875 --> 01:00:41,583 How long? 1069 01:00:41,625 --> 01:00:43,041 -I don't know. 1070 01:00:43,083 --> 01:00:44,416 I don't know. 1071 01:00:46,250 --> 01:00:48,875 -Okay. Okay. 1072 01:00:48,916 --> 01:00:50,916 [footsteps receding] 1073 01:00:56,416 --> 01:00:59,416 ["Every Color" by Luca Fogale] 1074 01:01:06,125 --> 01:01:07,333 -♪ I've been staring 1075 01:01:07,375 --> 01:01:08,541 - ♪ At the ceiling. - I'm coming. I'm coming. 1076 01:01:09,458 --> 01:01:11,666 [Tessa] So I'm glad this is the right place. 1077 01:01:11,708 --> 01:01:12,583 -♪ Trying to figure out ♪ 1078 01:01:12,625 --> 01:01:14,208 -Hi. [Chuckles] 1079 01:01:14,250 --> 01:01:16,416 -Oh. Hello. Hello. 1080 01:01:16,458 --> 01:01:19,791 -♪ How we end up here Time and time again ♪ 1081 01:01:21,541 --> 01:01:23,083 ♪ Swallowed up in doubt 1082 01:01:26,250 --> 01:01:28,125 ♪ Brother, I quit dreamin' ♪ 1083 01:01:31,083 --> 01:01:33,083 - ♪ Around the time That you did. - [message alert beeps] 1084 01:01:36,000 --> 01:01:37,916 ♪ And traded hopes Of leaving ♪ 1085 01:01:40,583 --> 01:01:43,041 ♪ For the role Where I'm best suited ♪ 1086 01:01:44,875 --> 01:01:46,208 [woman] Well, I don't agree... 1087 01:01:46,250 --> 01:01:49,291 [vocalizing] 1088 01:02:05,666 --> 01:02:07,250 -♪ Do you hear me screamin' 1089 01:02:09,250 --> 01:02:10,291 [man] Welcome to The Lookout. 1090 01:02:10,333 --> 01:02:12,250 -♪ Up into the sky? ♪ 1091 01:02:12,291 --> 01:02:13,375 - I'm so excited. - Thank you so much. 1092 01:02:13,416 --> 01:02:14,916 - You're welcome. - Thank you so much. 1093 01:02:14,958 --> 01:02:16,250 -[indistinct] the best. 1094 01:02:16,291 --> 01:02:17,125 -♪ "What's the Sense in grieving ♪" 1095 01:02:17,166 --> 01:02:19,666 [laughter] 1096 01:02:19,708 --> 01:02:21,833 -♪ If nobody really dies? ♪ 1097 01:02:24,333 --> 01:02:25,958 ♪ Oh, I feel the hours 1098 01:02:26,000 --> 01:02:27,125 ♪ Slipping ♪ 1099 01:02:29,458 --> 01:02:31,916 ♪ While I stumble to the edge 1100 01:02:35,375 --> 01:02:36,958 ♪ 'Cause I seem to forget 1101 01:02:37,000 --> 01:02:39,375 -I haven't actually read this before. 1102 01:02:39,416 --> 01:02:40,958 -♪ When I get all worked up ♪ 1103 01:02:42,041 --> 01:02:44,166 -[clears throat] 1104 01:02:44,208 --> 01:02:49,083 "He lived his life for himself and then it shifted." 1105 01:02:49,125 --> 01:02:50,791 -♪ If you look close enough ♪ 1106 01:02:50,833 --> 01:02:52,416 -"It became much more than waking up 1107 01:02:52,458 --> 01:02:54,625 and going to sleep." 1108 01:02:54,666 --> 01:02:57,708 [laughter] 1109 01:03:13,375 --> 01:03:15,750 -♪ 'Cause I seem to forget 1110 01:03:17,250 --> 01:03:19,125 ♪ When I get all worked up 1111 01:03:21,916 --> 01:03:22,916 ♪ That you can find 1112 01:03:22,958 --> 01:03:24,583 ♪ Every color ♪ 1113 01:03:27,041 --> 01:03:28,958 ♪ If you look close enough 1114 01:03:30,458 --> 01:03:33,583 [cars honking] 1115 01:03:38,333 --> 01:03:40,333 -And you don't know what he's doing in town? 1116 01:03:40,375 --> 01:03:41,458 -What? 1117 01:03:41,500 --> 01:03:43,291 -You don't know why Hardin's coming? 1118 01:03:43,333 --> 01:03:45,166 -He did not say, but uh, 1119 01:03:45,208 --> 01:03:47,208 I couldn't have him staying at a hotel. 1120 01:03:47,250 --> 01:03:49,208 Especially with a minibar. Is that shitty? 1121 01:03:49,250 --> 01:03:50,375 I know he's sober now. 1122 01:03:50,416 --> 01:03:53,208 -No, no. No, I get it. 1123 01:03:53,250 --> 01:03:55,541 And, you know, I mean, 1124 01:03:55,583 --> 01:03:57,291 I'm working doubles this week anyway, 1125 01:03:57,333 --> 01:04:00,083 so I won't even have to see him. 1126 01:04:00,125 --> 01:04:03,875 -Nora said if, uh, it gets too weird, 1127 01:04:03,916 --> 01:04:04,958 you can crash at her place. 1128 01:04:05,000 --> 01:04:06,333 I mean it's just. Ei... either way, 1129 01:04:06,375 --> 01:04:07,666 it was going to be shitty like... 1130 01:04:07,708 --> 01:04:09,458 -Oh no, it's fine. I'll be fine. 1131 01:04:09,500 --> 01:04:10,750 -You're doing the thing 1132 01:04:10,791 --> 01:04:11,833 - where you go, you go... - [Tessa] Oh, please. 1133 01:04:11,875 --> 01:04:13,291 - "I'll be fine," and you look away. 1134 01:04:13,333 --> 01:04:14,500 Honestly? 1135 01:04:14,541 --> 01:04:15,625 -Yeah. 1136 01:04:15,666 --> 01:04:16,958 - Wallet, keys, phone? - Yes. 1137 01:04:17,000 --> 01:04:18,458 - Okay. - Okay. 1138 01:04:18,500 --> 01:04:19,500 -Ciao. 1139 01:04:19,541 --> 01:04:22,291 [traffic humming] 1140 01:04:24,625 --> 01:04:26,708 [music over speaker] 1141 01:04:29,500 --> 01:04:36,166 -Hey, so Landon just got here, and Hardin is with him. 1142 01:04:37,250 --> 01:04:39,375 They are asking for your section. 1143 01:04:41,416 --> 01:04:44,250 -Uh. Yeah, of course. 1144 01:04:44,291 --> 01:04:47,541 - You sure? - Yeah. I guess. 1145 01:05:01,500 --> 01:05:03,041 -Tessa. 1146 01:05:05,375 --> 01:05:07,208 Theresa? 1147 01:05:07,250 --> 01:05:10,250 -Uh, yeah. 1148 01:05:10,291 --> 01:05:13,458 I put my full name on the job application. 1149 01:05:13,500 --> 01:05:15,125 -Uh, Hardin wanted to eat here. 1150 01:05:15,166 --> 01:05:17,083 That's. That's. 1151 01:05:17,125 --> 01:05:18,375 -That's fine. 1152 01:05:18,416 --> 01:05:19,416 -[sighing] 1153 01:05:19,458 --> 01:05:20,416 [Tessa] Yeah, of course. 1154 01:05:20,458 --> 01:05:21,541 Let me seat you guys. 1155 01:05:21,583 --> 01:05:23,416 [Hardin] Yeah. 1156 01:05:24,000 --> 01:05:25,083 [Nora] Nice to see you. 1157 01:05:25,125 --> 01:05:26,083 [Landon] Nice to see you, too. 1158 01:05:26,125 --> 01:05:27,166 [Nora] Yup. 1159 01:05:27,208 --> 01:05:30,500 [muttered chatter] 1160 01:05:34,375 --> 01:05:36,125 [Landon] Sorry. 1161 01:05:41,666 --> 01:05:43,208 -So, you've been here since this morning. 1162 01:05:43,250 --> 01:05:45,708 -Yeah, I'm working a double today. 1163 01:05:45,750 --> 01:05:47,250 -When will you get off? 1164 01:05:48,708 --> 01:05:54,083 -Uh, one, so I should be home around two. 1165 01:05:54,125 --> 01:05:56,291 -Every single day. 1166 01:05:56,333 --> 01:05:57,791 [tapping] 1167 01:05:57,833 --> 01:06:01,458 -And I'll try not to wake you, again. 1168 01:06:01,500 --> 01:06:02,958 [breathing deeply] 1169 01:06:03,000 --> 01:06:04,750 What can I get you guys? 1170 01:06:12,250 --> 01:06:13,750 - [bell dings] - [Tessa] Good night. 1171 01:06:19,458 --> 01:06:21,375 -I just wanted to make sure you got home okay. 1172 01:06:22,708 --> 01:06:25,250 -You do know that I walk this every night, right? 1173 01:06:31,375 --> 01:06:32,833 Since you're here. 1174 01:06:35,333 --> 01:06:38,291 [traffic humming] 1175 01:06:38,333 --> 01:06:40,541 -So why are you working here anyway? 1176 01:06:40,583 --> 01:06:43,125 Isn't Vance opening his new publishing house? 1177 01:06:43,166 --> 01:06:46,208 -Uh, I just want to do something on my own. 1178 01:06:47,791 --> 01:06:50,208 I like it. Nora's here. 1179 01:06:50,250 --> 01:06:52,791 I make more money than you'd think. 1180 01:06:52,833 --> 01:06:56,875 Uh, plus it keeps me busy while I'm waiting to get into NYU. 1181 01:06:56,916 --> 01:06:59,375 - What? - You haven't gotten in yet? 1182 01:06:59,416 --> 01:07:03,375 -No, but I'm hoping for the spring semester. 1183 01:07:06,250 --> 01:07:07,625 -Are you happy? 1184 01:07:09,583 --> 01:07:11,500 -Yeah. 1185 01:07:11,541 --> 01:07:12,791 -Are you seeing anyone? 1186 01:07:13,833 --> 01:07:16,875 - [chuckles] Yes. - I'm out every night 1187 01:07:16,916 --> 01:07:19,916 being wined and dined. 1188 01:07:19,958 --> 01:07:21,250 -I'm actually not dating anyone. 1189 01:07:21,291 --> 01:07:23,625 I'm quite conservative in that way. 1190 01:07:23,666 --> 01:07:24,625 - [Joe] Hey, girlie. - Hey, watch it! 1191 01:07:24,666 --> 01:07:26,000 -Hey! It's okay. 1192 01:07:27,666 --> 01:07:29,291 Hey, Joe. 1193 01:07:29,333 --> 01:07:32,000 Uh, I brought you some fries and the sliders that you love. 1194 01:07:33,500 --> 01:07:34,833 I'll see you tomorrow. 1195 01:07:39,666 --> 01:07:41,500 It makes me feel better about my dad. 1196 01:07:46,083 --> 01:07:47,291 -Do you wanna.? 1197 01:07:48,375 --> 01:07:50,166 Tomorrow, if you're not working, 1198 01:07:50,208 --> 01:07:52,583 I have some free time if you wanna.? 1199 01:07:55,416 --> 01:07:59,250 - I'm working a double. - That I took 1200 01:07:59,291 --> 01:08:02,541 so I wouldn't have to see you. 1201 01:08:11,833 --> 01:08:14,833 [groaning, muttering in sleep] 1202 01:08:23,416 --> 01:08:24,625 [Tessa] Hey. 1203 01:08:24,666 --> 01:08:26,208 - [Hardin] [groans] Stop. - [Tessa] Hey, hey. 1204 01:08:26,250 --> 01:08:28,500 - [Hardin] Stop. Stop! Stop! - [Tessa] Hey, Hardin. 1205 01:08:28,541 --> 01:08:30,166 [Hardin cries] 1206 01:08:30,208 --> 01:08:32,541 - Hey, it's okay. - It's okay. It's okay. 1207 01:08:34,041 --> 01:08:35,166 It's okay. 1208 01:08:35,208 --> 01:08:36,791 -[breathing heavily] 1209 01:08:36,833 --> 01:08:38,583 [whispers] Oh, fuck. 1210 01:08:44,541 --> 01:08:47,375 [song playing] 1211 01:08:50,708 --> 01:08:54,083 -♪ You like the rain 'Coz it means we can stay in ♪ 1212 01:08:56,666 --> 01:08:59,541 ♪ Canceled our plans But no I'm not complaining ♪ 1213 01:09:01,458 --> 01:09:03,916 ♪ Pull the covers up like the tide ♪ 1214 01:09:03,958 --> 01:09:06,458 ♪ Darling swim in my arms Tonight ♪ 1215 01:09:06,500 --> 01:09:09,291 ♪ Say to me Looking dead in my eyes ♪ 1216 01:09:09,333 --> 01:09:10,833 ♪ How long can we Keep this alive ♪ 1217 01:09:10,875 --> 01:09:12,375 [Hardin] Thank you. 1218 01:09:14,208 --> 01:09:17,208 [gentle music continues] 1219 01:09:19,750 --> 01:09:22,000 I miss this. 1220 01:09:26,416 --> 01:09:28,708 -Me too. 1221 01:09:28,750 --> 01:09:30,166 -♪ [indistinct] ♪ 1222 01:09:30,208 --> 01:09:31,625 - ♪ Want a love that will take. - [train approaching] 1223 01:09:31,666 --> 01:09:33,166 -♪ Only everything ♪ 1224 01:09:33,208 --> 01:09:34,166 ♪ Only ♪ 1225 01:09:34,208 --> 01:09:36,083 ♪ Only ♪ 1226 01:09:36,125 --> 01:09:37,208 ♪ Only ♪ 1227 01:09:37,250 --> 01:09:39,000 ♪ Only everything ♪ 1228 01:09:39,041 --> 01:09:42,958 ♪ Only only only ♪ 1229 01:09:43,000 --> 01:09:45,666 ♪ Only everything ♪ 1230 01:09:45,708 --> 01:09:48,666 ♪ I love the way that Your hands find my shoulders ♪ 1231 01:09:50,625 --> 01:09:52,458 ♪ When the weight of The world's weighing down ♪ 1232 01:09:52,500 --> 01:09:55,916 ♪ And we're all doomed ♪ 1233 01:09:55,958 --> 01:09:58,583 ♪ Got me thinking About all the time ♪ 1234 01:09:58,625 --> 01:10:01,416 ♪ That we waste In the mornin' light ♪ 1235 01:10:01,458 --> 01:10:03,583 ♪ Makes me not want to Close my eyes ♪ 1236 01:10:03,625 --> 01:10:06,000 ♪ How long can we Keep this alive ♪ 1237 01:10:06,041 --> 01:10:07,208 -Tessa. 1238 01:10:07,250 --> 01:10:08,791 I'm so sorry. I got lost. 1239 01:10:08,833 --> 01:10:10,583 I didn't know which turning it was. 1240 01:10:15,000 --> 01:10:18,916 -Hey! Hey, Joe. Here you go. 1241 01:10:23,708 --> 01:10:25,208 -Stay safe, man. 1242 01:10:27,916 --> 01:10:31,541 -♪ Only only only 1243 01:10:31,583 --> 01:10:33,333 ♪ Only everything ♪ 1244 01:10:33,375 --> 01:10:36,916 ♪ Only only only ♪ 1245 01:10:36,958 --> 01:10:38,916 ♪ Only everything ♪ 1246 01:10:46,875 --> 01:10:48,375 -You seem different, like. 1247 01:10:49,625 --> 01:10:51,333 Like the same but just different. 1248 01:10:52,375 --> 01:10:56,250 -[laughs softly] I'm still me. 1249 01:10:56,291 --> 01:10:57,625 A fair bit of therapy, 1250 01:10:57,666 --> 01:10:59,541 and I'm hitting the gym more but I'm still me. 1251 01:11:03,875 --> 01:11:05,083 -Do you still drink? 1252 01:11:05,916 --> 01:11:07,250 [dishes clanking] 1253 01:11:07,291 --> 01:11:09,083 -I do have the odd beer or glass of wine 1254 01:11:09,125 --> 01:11:11,041 but I am never chugging a bottle of whiskey again, 1255 01:11:11,083 --> 01:11:12,541 if that's what you mean. 1256 01:11:14,916 --> 01:11:16,625 [dishes clattering] 1257 01:11:21,083 --> 01:11:22,291 - [Tessa] Mm. - [Hardin] Tess. 1258 01:11:27,000 --> 01:11:28,250 Well, how is it then? 1259 01:11:30,041 --> 01:11:31,250 -Mm. 1260 01:11:32,875 --> 01:11:33,916 [Hardin] Oi, Tess. 1261 01:11:33,958 --> 01:11:35,166 At least share it if you're gonna. 1262 01:11:35,208 --> 01:11:39,250 - [Tess laughing] - [soft music] 1263 01:11:45,750 --> 01:11:48,125 [dishes clattering] 1264 01:11:48,166 --> 01:11:49,708 -[Hardin moaning] 1265 01:11:54,416 --> 01:11:55,625 You know, if I wasn't such a gentleman, 1266 01:11:55,666 --> 01:11:57,541 I would have you on this counter right now. 1267 01:11:57,583 --> 01:11:59,791 -I thought you weren't a gentleman. 1268 01:11:59,833 --> 01:12:02,416 -[chuckles] 1269 01:12:02,458 --> 01:12:04,791 I'm half gentleman right now. 1270 01:12:06,666 --> 01:12:07,791 -A half? 1271 01:12:07,833 --> 01:12:09,041 -Uh-huh. 1272 01:12:12,666 --> 01:12:14,250 And that means. 1273 01:12:14,291 --> 01:12:15,916 As much as I want you. 1274 01:12:18,833 --> 01:12:20,083 I can't be with you. 1275 01:12:22,541 --> 01:12:24,625 Until you're really ready to be with me. 1276 01:12:28,333 --> 01:12:30,500 -Or. What? 1277 01:12:32,083 --> 01:12:34,166 [Hardin] Come on, grab some plates. Let's eat. 1278 01:12:38,000 --> 01:12:41,333 -Tess, plates. Now, please. 1279 01:12:42,125 --> 01:12:45,333 [soft music] 1280 01:13:03,166 --> 01:13:04,583 -What? 1281 01:13:06,583 --> 01:13:08,333 -Nothing. 1282 01:13:13,791 --> 01:13:14,916 -Good morning. 1283 01:13:14,958 --> 01:13:16,750 - Good morning. - [Nora] Good morning. 1284 01:13:21,083 --> 01:13:23,583 [laughing] 1285 01:13:23,625 --> 01:13:24,916 Bye. 1286 01:13:29,541 --> 01:13:31,041 -[Hardin laughing] 1287 01:13:31,083 --> 01:13:34,125 [clapping] 1288 01:13:35,041 --> 01:13:36,375 Finally. 1289 01:13:38,041 --> 01:13:40,375 -And it feels good. 1290 01:13:41,375 --> 01:13:43,583 -I'm gonna go take a shower. 1291 01:13:45,000 --> 01:13:46,416 -Thank you, Tess. 1292 01:13:56,208 --> 01:13:58,916 [door opens] 1293 01:13:58,958 --> 01:14:00,333 - Hey. - [Tessa] Hey. 1294 01:14:00,375 --> 01:14:01,583 -How's work? 1295 01:14:01,625 --> 01:14:02,625 -Good. 1296 01:14:02,666 --> 01:14:04,666 [door closes] 1297 01:14:04,708 --> 01:14:06,125 Long. 1298 01:14:06,166 --> 01:14:07,625 [keys clanking] 1299 01:14:07,666 --> 01:14:10,250 Is, um, is Landon home? 1300 01:14:10,291 --> 01:14:11,666 -Uh, he's staying at Nora's. 1301 01:14:15,416 --> 01:14:17,750 [Tessa] [sighs] Are you going out? 1302 01:14:17,791 --> 01:14:18,791 -No. 1303 01:14:18,833 --> 01:14:20,208 Got an early meeting tomorrow. 1304 01:14:28,000 --> 01:14:29,791 [unzips boots] 1305 01:14:34,708 --> 01:14:36,208 -[exhales] 1306 01:14:41,000 --> 01:14:42,208 -Give me your feet. 1307 01:14:56,833 --> 01:14:58,458 -[moans] 1308 01:15:16,791 --> 01:15:18,000 -Come sit in front of me. 1309 01:15:32,458 --> 01:15:35,500 [soft piano chords playing] 1310 01:15:40,083 --> 01:15:41,708 -[exhaling deeply] 1311 01:15:45,916 --> 01:15:47,250 That feels good. 1312 01:15:49,166 --> 01:15:51,041 -It would feel a lot better without this. 1313 01:15:52,541 --> 01:15:53,875 Just saying. 1314 01:16:12,666 --> 01:16:14,916 -This is your idea. 1315 01:16:14,958 --> 01:16:17,500 -I know. 1316 01:16:17,541 --> 01:16:20,250 ["I'll Make You Love Me" by Kat Leon] 1317 01:16:22,666 --> 01:16:24,291 -♪ Give me what I need 1318 01:16:24,333 --> 01:16:27,041 - [Tessa moaning] - ♪ Pull me in so deep ♪ 1319 01:16:27,083 --> 01:16:29,250 - ♪ Take me as I please. - No teasing. 1320 01:16:29,291 --> 01:16:31,416 - ♪ I want you to want me. - Says the master of the art. 1321 01:16:31,458 --> 01:16:33,500 -♪ Sweep me off my feet ♪ 1322 01:16:33,541 --> 01:16:35,666 ♪ Bring me to my knees ♪ 1323 01:16:35,708 --> 01:16:37,833 ♪ See you in your dreams ♪ 1324 01:16:37,875 --> 01:16:40,875 - ♪ I want you to want me. - [Tessa moaning] 1325 01:16:40,916 --> 01:16:45,000 -♪ I would fall from the sky Cross my heart ♪ 1326 01:16:45,041 --> 01:16:46,125 - ♪ And hope to die. - I haven't been fucked 1327 01:16:46,166 --> 01:16:47,750 in five months, Theresa. 1328 01:16:47,791 --> 01:16:53,166 You are pushing every ounce of my self-control. 1329 01:16:53,208 --> 01:16:55,666 -♪ Just to be with you ♪ 1330 01:16:55,708 --> 01:16:58,000 ♪ Look at what you made me do ♪ 1331 01:16:58,041 --> 01:17:00,000 ♪ I'll make you love me ♪ 1332 01:17:00,041 --> 01:17:02,083 ♪ I'll make you love me ♪ 1333 01:17:02,125 --> 01:17:04,125 ♪ I'll make you love me ♪ 1334 01:17:04,166 --> 01:17:06,875 ♪ Look at What you made me do ♪ 1335 01:17:06,916 --> 01:17:08,666 ♪ I'll make you love me ♪ 1336 01:17:08,708 --> 01:17:10,875 ♪ I'll make you love me ♪ 1337 01:17:10,916 --> 01:17:12,708 ♪ I'll make you love me ♪ 1338 01:17:12,750 --> 01:17:15,833 ♪ Look at what you made me do ♪ 1339 01:17:21,583 --> 01:17:24,250 ♪ Look at What you made me do ♪ 1340 01:17:27,666 --> 01:17:29,333 - [whispers] - I have thought about this 1341 01:17:29,375 --> 01:17:35,375 every single second of every fucking day. 1342 01:17:37,250 --> 01:17:38,916 -You have no idea. 1343 01:17:38,958 --> 01:17:41,291 ♪ The devil made me do it ♪ 1344 01:17:41,333 --> 01:17:43,458 ♪ Evil in the eyes ♪ 1345 01:17:43,500 --> 01:17:45,625 - ♪ Caught you by surprise. - Take your clothes off. 1346 01:17:45,666 --> 01:17:47,708 -♪ Pretty little lies ♪ 1347 01:17:47,750 --> 01:17:50,625 ♪ The devil made me do it ♪ 1348 01:17:50,666 --> 01:17:54,916 ♪ I would fall from the sky ♪ 1349 01:17:54,958 --> 01:17:57,416 ♪ Cross my heart And hope to die ♪ 1350 01:17:59,250 --> 01:18:02,250 ♪ Turn my back From heaven's eyes ♪ 1351 01:18:02,291 --> 01:18:05,208 - [both kissing] - ♪ Just to be with you ♪ 1352 01:18:05,250 --> 01:18:07,750 ♪ Look at what you made me do ♪ 1353 01:18:07,791 --> 01:18:09,791 ♪ I'll make you love me ♪ 1354 01:18:09,833 --> 01:18:11,875 ♪ I'll make you love me ♪ 1355 01:18:11,916 --> 01:18:13,916 ♪ I'll make you love me ♪ 1356 01:18:13,958 --> 01:18:16,541 ♪ Look at what You made me do ♪ 1357 01:18:16,583 --> 01:18:18,458 ♪ I'll make you love me ♪ 1358 01:18:18,500 --> 01:18:20,541 ♪ I'll make you love me ♪ 1359 01:18:20,583 --> 01:18:22,791 ♪ I'll make you love me ♪ 1360 01:18:22,833 --> 01:18:25,458 ♪ Look at What you made me do ♪ 1361 01:18:31,416 --> 01:18:34,250 ♪ Look at What you made me do ♪ 1362 01:18:40,250 --> 01:18:42,625 ♪ Look at What you made me do ♪ 1363 01:18:42,666 --> 01:18:44,458 ♪ Careful what you wish for ♪ 1364 01:18:44,500 --> 01:18:46,541 ♪ Shattered On the cold floor ♪ 1365 01:18:46,583 --> 01:18:48,791 ♪ Million little pieces ♪ 1366 01:18:48,833 --> 01:18:51,041 - Please. - ♪ Fall in love and make war ♪ 1367 01:18:51,083 --> 01:18:52,916 - I know. - ♪ Careful what you wish for ♪ 1368 01:18:52,958 --> 01:18:55,458 - I know. - ♪ Shattered on the cold floor ♪ 1369 01:18:55,500 --> 01:18:58,375 - ♪ You know I did it all for. - I fucking love you. 1370 01:18:59,791 --> 01:19:02,833 -♪ Look at what you made me do 1371 01:19:09,958 --> 01:19:11,666 -So, by sleeping with me, I think you just agreed 1372 01:19:11,708 --> 01:19:12,750 to start seeing me again. 1373 01:19:12,791 --> 01:19:14,916 -Mm. Is that so? 1374 01:19:14,958 --> 01:19:16,291 -Mm-hm. 1375 01:19:17,750 --> 01:19:19,500 - I love this. - What? 1376 01:19:19,541 --> 01:19:20,958 -This. Us. 1377 01:19:23,416 --> 01:19:25,333 You know we're always going to be like this, Tess. 1378 01:19:25,375 --> 01:19:28,541 -[sighs] 1379 01:19:28,583 --> 01:19:30,541 -I really have to go to this meeting 1380 01:19:30,583 --> 01:19:32,791 - so I will see you when I'm back. - Okay. 1381 01:19:34,416 --> 01:19:36,625 Okay. 1382 01:19:36,666 --> 01:19:38,083 -[chuckles] 1383 01:19:42,083 --> 01:19:43,291 [bag thuds] 1384 01:19:56,000 --> 01:19:58,208 [VO] It was the fall when he met her. 1385 01:19:58,250 --> 01:20:01,000 In his world, he was only concerned about one thing. 1386 01:20:01,041 --> 01:20:03,125 Himself. 1387 01:20:03,166 --> 01:20:04,875 He'd won every bet so far, 1388 01:20:04,916 --> 01:20:06,833 and this was supposed to be no different, 1389 01:20:06,875 --> 01:20:08,875 although in Tessa's nearness, 1390 01:20:08,916 --> 01:20:11,791 he felt an apprehension this time. 1391 01:20:11,833 --> 01:20:14,958 In a Darcy-inspired gesture, he funded her father's funeral. 1392 01:20:16,541 --> 01:20:18,625 It was only the beginning of what he felt he needed to do 1393 01:20:18,666 --> 01:20:21,458 to absolve himself. 1394 01:20:21,500 --> 01:20:23,875 His guilt led heavy in the call that he hadn't answered. 1395 01:20:26,166 --> 01:20:27,708 The only reason he didn't lose himself 1396 01:20:27,750 --> 01:20:28,875 - again in darkness. - [door closes] 1397 01:20:28,916 --> 01:20:31,166 .was in knowing her dad was happy. 1398 01:20:31,208 --> 01:20:33,291 His death was surely an accident. 1399 01:20:33,333 --> 01:20:35,458 It didn't bring him back, but his talk of his future 1400 01:20:35,500 --> 01:20:37,333 and appreciating the time off the street. 1401 01:20:38,833 --> 01:20:40,958 Though she was unable to bear children of her own, 1402 01:20:41,000 --> 01:20:43,291 she couldn't let go of the dream of them. 1403 01:20:43,333 --> 01:20:46,000 He knew that, and loved her even so. 1404 01:20:46,041 --> 01:20:47,916 He tried not to be selfish. 1405 01:20:47,958 --> 01:20:50,416 But he couldn't help thinking about the little versions of him 1406 01:20:50,458 --> 01:20:51,666 she couldn't give him. 1407 01:20:53,208 --> 01:20:55,916 He hopes she will understand just how broken he was 1408 01:20:55,958 --> 01:20:57,833 and see how much she affected his life. 1409 01:20:59,625 --> 01:21:01,333 [door opens] 1410 01:21:01,375 --> 01:21:02,666 [keys jingle] 1411 01:21:05,791 --> 01:21:08,375 [jacket zipper unzips] 1412 01:21:08,416 --> 01:21:09,875 -"She stumbled 1413 01:21:09,916 --> 01:21:12,166 "through the room the way that tasteless girls move 1414 01:21:12,208 --> 01:21:13,625 when they drink too much." 1415 01:21:13,666 --> 01:21:15,208 -Stop reading that. 1416 01:21:15,250 --> 01:21:18,000 -No, no, no, you don't get to write my story 1417 01:21:18,041 --> 01:21:19,666 and then tell me I can't read it. 1418 01:21:19,708 --> 01:21:20,916 -That part's not about you. 1419 01:21:20,958 --> 01:21:23,875 -How long have you been writing about us? 1420 01:21:28,666 --> 01:21:30,583 -After we kissed. 1421 01:21:30,625 --> 01:21:32,083 -You. Like the first time? 1422 01:21:35,500 --> 01:21:37,041 Are you fucking kidding me? 1423 01:21:38,541 --> 01:21:39,875 You're just. 1424 01:21:41,625 --> 01:21:42,791 [Hardin] Tess, I'll explain 1425 01:21:42,833 --> 01:21:43,875 - if you'll just listen. - Oh, no. 1426 01:21:43,916 --> 01:21:46,208 You already have, on every page. 1427 01:21:46,250 --> 01:21:47,791 - This is what I did to vent. - Great. 1428 01:21:47,833 --> 01:21:48,875 -Where are you going? 1429 01:21:48,916 --> 01:21:50,833 - I. - [Hardin] Tess! 1430 01:21:50,875 --> 01:21:53,875 -I'm done. This. We're just a bomb waiting to explode. 1431 01:21:53,916 --> 01:21:55,083 - This was a wake-up call. - What do you mean? 1432 01:21:55,125 --> 01:21:56,291 You're acting like I wrote that 1433 01:21:56,333 --> 01:21:57,458 - to purposely hurt you. - How... 1434 01:21:57,500 --> 01:21:59,000 How did you think I was gonna feel? 1435 01:21:59,041 --> 01:22:00,958 -It was not all about you. 1436 01:22:01,000 --> 01:22:03,666 -You would never let me read what you were writing in there. 1437 01:22:03,708 --> 01:22:05,333 And now the whole world gets to. 1438 01:22:05,375 --> 01:22:06,875 Stuff about me. 1439 01:22:06,916 --> 01:22:08,500 Stuff about my dad. 1440 01:22:09,750 --> 01:22:12,541 -I'm sorry. I never meant for it to be published. 1441 01:22:12,583 --> 01:22:15,208 I started that journal to figure the shit out in my head. 1442 01:22:15,250 --> 01:22:17,833 They asked me to read it in group therapy, so I did. 1443 01:22:17,875 --> 01:22:20,333 And one thing just led to another. 1444 01:22:20,375 --> 01:22:23,208 -You accidentally wrote a book. 1445 01:22:23,250 --> 01:22:25,083 -I. 1446 01:22:25,125 --> 01:22:27,250 I didn't mean for this to happen this way. 1447 01:22:29,458 --> 01:22:33,291 -No one wants to read this sick shit. 1448 01:22:33,333 --> 01:22:35,000 [Hardin] I thought that too. 1449 01:22:35,041 --> 01:22:38,125 But there's a bidding war for my book. 1450 01:22:39,916 --> 01:22:41,458 And that's why I'm in town. 1451 01:22:44,708 --> 01:22:46,125 -You accidentally wrote a book 1452 01:22:46,166 --> 01:22:48,666 and then you shopped it around to publishers 1453 01:22:48,708 --> 01:22:51,083 without asking me? 1454 01:22:51,125 --> 01:22:53,583 -Fuck, this never should have happened like this. 1455 01:22:53,625 --> 01:22:55,416 -No, no. It shouldn't have. 1456 01:22:55,458 --> 01:22:57,958 -Tess, I hated myself. 1457 01:22:58,000 --> 01:23:00,625 I had to deal with that every fucking day. 1458 01:23:00,666 --> 01:23:03,583 What is the point in everything we've been through if we can't 1459 01:23:03,625 --> 01:23:05,916 channel that into something that helps people? 1460 01:23:05,958 --> 01:23:09,041 -I don't want people reading about my life and judging me. 1461 01:23:09,083 --> 01:23:11,166 - It's not your life, Tess. - It's our lives, 1462 01:23:11,208 --> 01:23:13,250 and it's a story about forgiveness 1463 01:23:13,291 --> 01:23:15,250 and unconditional love. 1464 01:23:17,166 --> 01:23:19,750 It doesn't matter about parents or addiction 1465 01:23:19,791 --> 01:23:22,666 or whatever fucked up past. It's never too late. 1466 01:23:22,708 --> 01:23:24,166 People can always change. 1467 01:23:24,208 --> 01:23:26,541 That is the kind of story "After" is. 1468 01:23:28,375 --> 01:23:29,583 - "After"? 1469 01:23:30,833 --> 01:23:32,958 -It's my journey after I met you. 1470 01:23:34,833 --> 01:23:36,625 -I think that journey is over. 1471 01:23:43,750 --> 01:23:45,166 [door slammed] 1472 01:23:46,333 --> 01:23:49,250 ["I Was Only Fallin' In Love" by RYX] 1473 01:23:56,166 --> 01:23:57,666 [exhaling deeply] 1474 01:24:00,041 --> 01:24:02,250 -♪ Coming from the cold 1475 01:24:02,291 --> 01:24:04,333 ♪ Buried under heat ♪ 1476 01:24:04,375 --> 01:24:06,500 ♪ Lay you on the floor ♪ 1477 01:24:06,541 --> 01:24:08,708 ♪ Heavy like the force ♪ 1478 01:24:08,750 --> 01:24:10,416 ♪ Between us ♪ 1479 01:24:16,000 --> 01:24:17,791 - [punches thrown] - [Trainer grunting] 1480 01:24:17,833 --> 01:24:19,541 -♪ Cut me like a rose ♪ 1481 01:24:19,583 --> 01:24:21,958 - ♪ Turn me like a beast. - [Hardin] Good. 1482 01:24:22,000 --> 01:24:23,833 -♪ Hold me on the floor ♪ 1483 01:24:23,875 --> 01:24:26,000 ♪ Heavy like the force ♪ 1484 01:24:26,041 --> 01:24:27,041 ♪ Between us ♪ 1485 01:24:27,083 --> 01:24:29,208 [woman] Yes. 1486 01:24:29,250 --> 01:24:30,583 -I didn't think I'd ever come here. 1487 01:24:32,375 --> 01:24:35,375 I really thought that I had hit rock bottom 1488 01:24:35,416 --> 01:24:37,958 and then I'd hit it again harder and again and again, 1489 01:24:38,000 --> 01:24:40,083 and I burnt down a fucking house. 1490 01:24:42,916 --> 01:24:45,666 And, uh, I guess... I guess what I'm trying to say is 1491 01:24:45,708 --> 01:24:47,041 thank you all. 1492 01:24:48,333 --> 01:24:51,000 Because when I walked in that door, 1493 01:24:51,041 --> 01:24:53,083 I. I didn't know how this would go. 1494 01:24:53,125 --> 01:24:55,416 I didn't think it would work for me. I never open up. 1495 01:24:55,458 --> 01:24:58,625 And somehow, you guys have found a way to make me, 1496 01:24:58,666 --> 01:25:01,041 and I'm grateful. 1497 01:25:01,083 --> 01:25:02,958 I mean this... This really helped a lot. 1498 01:25:03,000 --> 01:25:05,333 I'd recommend it to anyone. 1499 01:25:05,375 --> 01:25:09,791 I feel like I'm actually a better version of myself 1500 01:25:09,833 --> 01:25:15,166 and I haven't tried to better myself ever, really. 1501 01:25:17,625 --> 01:25:19,166 So thank you. 1502 01:25:20,708 --> 01:25:24,083 -♪ I was only falling in love 1503 01:25:29,583 --> 01:25:32,000 ♪ I was only falling in love 1504 01:25:32,041 --> 01:25:33,916 ♪ Coming from the cold ♪ 1505 01:25:33,958 --> 01:25:35,916 ♪ Buried under heat ♪ 1506 01:25:35,958 --> 01:25:38,250 ♪ Lay you on the floor ♪ 1507 01:25:38,291 --> 01:25:42,083 ♪ Heavy like the force Between us ♪ 1508 01:25:48,708 --> 01:25:50,916 ♪ Cut me like a rose 1509 01:25:50,958 --> 01:25:53,083 ♪ Turn me like a beast ♪ 1510 01:25:53,125 --> 01:25:55,375 ♪ Hold you to the floor ♪ 1511 01:25:55,416 --> 01:25:58,625 ♪ Heavy like the force Between us ♪ 1512 01:26:04,375 --> 01:26:08,083 [Trish] It's been so nice having you back in London. 1513 01:26:08,125 --> 01:26:09,416 [Hardin] Mm. 1514 01:26:09,458 --> 01:26:11,250 - [cup clattering] - I have something for you. 1515 01:26:14,166 --> 01:26:16,583 [Trish] Look at this. 1516 01:26:16,625 --> 01:26:17,583 [chuckles] 1517 01:26:17,625 --> 01:26:20,083 Your name. 1518 01:26:20,125 --> 01:26:22,375 I'm so proud of you. 1519 01:26:31,625 --> 01:26:32,958 I'm so sorry. 1520 01:26:33,000 --> 01:26:36,000 - Mum, it's fine. - I've been going through so much. 1521 01:26:36,041 --> 01:26:37,916 -No, but. 1522 01:26:37,958 --> 01:26:39,916 I didn't know what to do. 1523 01:26:39,958 --> 01:26:41,666 I was young, I was. 1524 01:26:43,958 --> 01:26:45,375 In love and I was terrified. 1525 01:26:46,833 --> 01:26:48,541 None of that excuses the fact 1526 01:26:48,583 --> 01:26:50,916 that I hid the truth from you for so long. 1527 01:26:50,958 --> 01:26:52,166 But. 1528 01:26:54,500 --> 01:26:57,416 Everything I did, every decision I made, 1529 01:26:57,458 --> 01:27:00,166 no matter how regrettable looking back, it was. 1530 01:27:02,958 --> 01:27:04,958 It was done out of love for you. 1531 01:27:07,083 --> 01:27:08,291 -I know it was, Mum. 1532 01:27:09,666 --> 01:27:11,166 And thank you for saying that. 1533 01:27:14,958 --> 01:27:15,916 It's good, all right? 1534 01:27:15,958 --> 01:27:17,916 -This is amazing. 1535 01:27:20,250 --> 01:27:22,541 Checkout took forever. 1536 01:27:22,583 --> 01:27:26,291 Yes. Yes. No, I'm on my way back now. 1537 01:27:40,250 --> 01:27:43,250 Sorry, yeah. 1538 01:27:43,291 --> 01:27:44,875 Yeah, I'll see you soon. 1539 01:27:46,125 --> 01:27:48,625 [door lock clatters] 1540 01:27:48,666 --> 01:27:52,458 - Hi. Look at you, so official. - [scoffs] 1541 01:27:52,500 --> 01:27:57,416 -Hi. You have to tell me everything. 1542 01:27:57,458 --> 01:27:59,000 -Hasn't been that long. 1543 01:28:01,500 --> 01:28:02,625 -I think it's just since Landon 1544 01:28:02,666 --> 01:28:06,041 basically moved in with Nora that. 1545 01:28:06,083 --> 01:28:07,666 -You're starved for attention. 1546 01:28:07,708 --> 01:28:09,625 -Mm. I thought it would be easier 1547 01:28:09,666 --> 01:28:11,916 making friends at school. 1548 01:28:11,958 --> 01:28:15,416 -Yeah. The campus is pretty spread out, huh? 1549 01:28:15,458 --> 01:28:17,166 -Yeah. And it's just by the time you figure out 1550 01:28:17,208 --> 01:28:18,250 where to meet and how to get there 1551 01:28:18,291 --> 01:28:19,666 on the subway and the buses, 1552 01:28:19,708 --> 01:28:21,875 it's like an hour to do anything. 1553 01:28:21,916 --> 01:28:23,291 -Welcome to New York. 1554 01:28:23,333 --> 01:28:25,708 -[chuckles] So I hope you like chicken alfredo. 1555 01:28:27,583 --> 01:28:28,666 - Er. - What? 1556 01:28:28,708 --> 01:28:29,916 - I should've mentioned this. - I'm... 1557 01:28:29,958 --> 01:28:31,333 I'm actually doing the plant-based thing. 1558 01:28:31,375 --> 01:28:32,541 -I don't know why I didn't ask. 1559 01:28:32,583 --> 01:28:33,625 I should have just asked. 1560 01:28:33,666 --> 01:28:34,916 - No, no. - You know, let's improvise. 1561 01:28:34,958 --> 01:28:36,166 You got any red sauce? 1562 01:28:40,500 --> 01:28:42,250 - I'm sorry. I'm sorry. - No, no, no. 1563 01:28:42,291 --> 01:28:43,958 - Tessa. Tess. Hey. - I'm sorry. 1564 01:28:45,500 --> 01:28:47,083 -Don't worry about it. 1565 01:28:47,125 --> 01:28:48,500 I'll order somethin' in. 1566 01:28:48,541 --> 01:28:51,833 - Mm. - [song playing] 1567 01:28:51,875 --> 01:28:52,833 -You wanna try? 1568 01:28:52,875 --> 01:28:54,125 -What is it? 1569 01:28:54,166 --> 01:28:55,833 -Tofu curry dumpling. 1570 01:28:55,875 --> 01:28:57,041 [Tessa] Is it spicy? 1571 01:28:57,083 --> 01:28:58,541 -Not... not. Just try it. 1572 01:28:58,583 --> 01:28:59,791 -Okay. 1573 01:29:02,291 --> 01:29:04,125 [laughing] 1574 01:29:05,708 --> 01:29:06,916 - Yeah? - Mm. 1575 01:29:08,583 --> 01:29:10,541 It's not... it's not bad. 1576 01:29:10,583 --> 01:29:11,625 -But.? 1577 01:29:11,666 --> 01:29:12,791 -[laughing] It's not good. 1578 01:29:12,833 --> 01:29:14,625 [Robert] Oh, come on. 1579 01:29:14,666 --> 01:29:16,416 So one of my classmates invited us 1580 01:29:16,458 --> 01:29:18,625 to his girlfriend's gallery opening 1581 01:29:18,666 --> 01:29:20,500 - in the village tonight. - [Tessa] Mm-hm. 1582 01:29:20,541 --> 01:29:22,875 -Do you wanna go? 1583 01:29:22,916 --> 01:29:27,333 - Um, yeah. - I mean, I'd love to but. 1584 01:29:27,375 --> 01:29:29,041 I've actually got this thing tonight. 1585 01:29:29,083 --> 01:29:30,541 Can we do it another time? 1586 01:29:30,583 --> 01:29:33,125 -Yeah. Of course. 1587 01:29:33,166 --> 01:29:35,375 -Okay. 1588 01:29:35,416 --> 01:29:39,375 [cars honking] 1589 01:29:39,416 --> 01:29:42,250 [Hardin] So after she kicked me out, 1590 01:29:42,291 --> 01:29:43,625 I really felt that my entire world 1591 01:29:43,666 --> 01:29:45,833 - was just crumbling around me. - [door opens] 1592 01:29:45,875 --> 01:29:47,333 [Hardin] I was afraid I was going to spiral. 1593 01:29:48,750 --> 01:29:50,500 I really had nothing going for me. 1594 01:29:52,416 --> 01:29:53,625 But then I got the call. 1595 01:29:55,416 --> 01:29:59,458 Dowless and Sons wanted the book to release immediately. 1596 01:29:59,500 --> 01:30:03,083 So, I picked up the phone and I called. 1597 01:30:03,125 --> 01:30:04,125 I called my therapist. 1598 01:30:04,166 --> 01:30:06,833 - [crowd laugh] - [Hardin scoffs] 1599 01:30:06,875 --> 01:30:08,125 And I took a breath. 1600 01:30:10,083 --> 01:30:11,500 And I took the deal. 1601 01:30:13,000 --> 01:30:14,375 And here we are. 1602 01:30:26,500 --> 01:30:27,708 [door closes] 1603 01:30:31,666 --> 01:30:34,166 Anyway, I'll, uh, I'll stop blithering on, 1604 01:30:34,208 --> 01:30:36,125 and I'll actually read something. 1605 01:30:36,166 --> 01:30:38,458 - [clears throat] - [sentimental music playing] 1606 01:30:46,875 --> 01:30:50,708 -♪ Now all I have Is broken pieces ♪ 1607 01:30:54,083 --> 01:30:57,416 ♪ I searched through fine And solid feelings ♪ 1608 01:30:59,208 --> 01:31:01,958 ♪ And I remember The way we were ♪ 1609 01:31:02,000 --> 01:31:05,916 ♪ And how it hurts Now you're gone ♪ 1610 01:31:05,958 --> 01:31:08,458 ♪ And I'm wounded ♪ 1611 01:31:09,541 --> 01:31:11,541 ♪ But who's the victim 1612 01:31:13,416 --> 01:31:16,541 ♪ Here comes the violence In my heart ♪ 1613 01:31:16,583 --> 01:31:20,250 ♪ All of the sirens and alarms ♪ 1614 01:31:20,291 --> 01:31:24,208 ♪ Like I was designed For your arms ♪ 1615 01:31:24,250 --> 01:31:26,916 ♪ So who am I When you're gone? ♪ 1616 01:31:28,000 --> 01:31:31,458 ♪ Who who. 1617 01:31:31,500 --> 01:31:34,833 ♪ Who am I When you're gone? ♪ 1618 01:31:34,875 --> 01:31:38,458 ♪ Who who. ♪ 1619 01:31:38,500 --> 01:31:41,083 ♪ Who am I When you're gone? ♪ 1620 01:31:42,791 --> 01:31:46,458 ♪ I still eat takeout With all of your friends ♪ 1621 01:31:49,500 --> 01:31:53,583 ♪ I see your face In the awkward silence ♪ 1622 01:31:56,583 --> 01:31:59,875 ♪ I feel your breath On my neck ♪ 1623 01:31:59,916 --> 01:32:01,666 ♪ When I breathe ♪ 1624 01:32:03,500 --> 01:32:06,916 ♪ Shot in hell Think it's real ♪ 1625 01:32:06,958 --> 01:32:08,916 ♪ Then I blink ♪ 1626 01:32:08,958 --> 01:32:12,458 ♪ Here comes the violence In my heart ♪ 1627 01:32:12,500 --> 01:32:15,791 ♪ All of the sirens and alarms ♪ 1628 01:32:15,833 --> 01:32:19,791 ♪ Like I was designed For your arms ♪ 1629 01:32:19,833 --> 01:32:23,541 ♪ So who am I When you're gone? ♪ 1630 01:32:23,583 --> 01:32:27,125 ♪ Who who. ♪ 1631 01:32:27,166 --> 01:32:30,416 ♪ Who am I When you're gone? ♪ 1632 01:32:30,458 --> 01:32:33,125 ♪ Who who. ♪ 1633 01:32:37,583 --> 01:32:41,125 ♪ Who who. 1634 01:32:41,166 --> 01:32:44,416 ♪ Who am I When you're gone? ♪ 1635 01:32:44,458 --> 01:32:47,083 ♪ Who who. ♪ 1636 01:32:51,041 --> 01:32:54,625 ♪ Is it just you Or both of us ♪ 1637 01:32:54,666 --> 01:32:58,125 ♪ Is it heartfelt Or dangerous ♪ 1638 01:32:58,166 --> 01:33:01,958 ♪ Is it selfless Or self sabotage ♪ 1639 01:33:02,000 --> 01:33:04,875 ♪ Who am I When you're gone? ♪ 1640 01:33:04,916 --> 01:33:08,458 ♪ Come and help us To get closer ♪ 1641 01:33:08,500 --> 01:33:11,708 ♪ Are we twisted or beautiful ♪ 1642 01:33:11,750 --> 01:33:13,750 ♪ Is this the ending ♪ 1643 01:33:13,791 --> 01:33:17,208 ♪ Or is our chapter Still alive ♪ 1644 01:33:18,875 --> 01:33:22,375 ♪ Was it just you Or both of us ♪ 1645 01:33:22,416 --> 01:33:25,708 ♪ Was it heartfelt Or dangerous ♪ 1646 01:33:25,750 --> 01:33:29,833 ♪ Is it selfless Or self sabotage ♪ 1647 01:33:29,875 --> 01:33:32,750 ♪ Who am I When you're gone? ♪ 1648 01:33:32,791 --> 01:33:37,666 ♪ Is it selfless Or self sabotage ♪ 1649 01:33:40,708 --> 01:33:43,750 ♪ 1650 01:34:53,416 --> 01:34:56,416 ♪