1 00:00:00,260 --> 00:00:03,510 Erskine's eyelids were removed. What did he see? 2 00:00:03,530 --> 00:00:06,780 He was housing a large collection of illegal porn. 3 00:00:06,800 --> 00:00:08,720 "Should auld acquaintance be forgot?" 4 00:00:08,740 --> 00:00:11,380 Norrie Erskine worked at Adri House Hotel. 5 00:00:11,400 --> 00:00:12,520 He was there at the same time 6 00:00:12,540 --> 00:00:15,460 as Richie Gulliver, William Durie and Christopher Piggott-Wilkins. 7 00:00:15,480 --> 00:00:17,400 A student and Christmas cover. 8 00:00:17,420 --> 00:00:20,270 She accused a group of guests of sexually assaulting her. 9 00:00:20,290 --> 00:00:22,925 Erskine was following someone. His name is Victor Maslow. 10 00:00:22,945 --> 00:00:26,052 But I've fucking seen him! I saw you with Lennox last night. 11 00:00:26,072 --> 00:00:29,180 He's a client, that's all. And that person must be stopped. 12 00:00:29,200 --> 00:00:32,180 If we have two-tier policing, democracy's fucked! 13 00:00:32,200 --> 00:00:33,900 Democracy is not our concern. 14 00:00:33,920 --> 00:00:35,660 I was raped. I was ten. 15 00:00:35,680 --> 00:00:37,400 And I was terrified. 16 00:00:37,420 --> 00:00:39,280 There's nothing wrong with being honest, son. 17 00:00:39,300 --> 00:00:42,260 I'm not your son, Jock. His interview is tomorrow. 18 00:00:42,280 --> 00:00:44,340 At least pretended to give a shit about this. 19 00:00:44,360 --> 00:00:45,920 Armando? 20 00:00:45,940 --> 00:00:47,380 There you go, Vic. 21 00:00:49,620 --> 00:00:51,100 CAN OPENS 22 00:00:53,100 --> 00:00:58,020 Thirty years I spent cleaning offices doon at the Barnes. 23 00:00:58,040 --> 00:01:02,380 Backbreaking work. But we were a family. 24 00:01:03,380 --> 00:01:07,660 Me and the other lasses took a pride in what we did. 25 00:01:10,340 --> 00:01:12,380 APPLAUSE 26 00:01:16,300 --> 00:01:18,140 OK. 27 00:01:20,260 --> 00:01:24,460 And now, Jock Allardyce will share some memories with us. 28 00:01:30,060 --> 00:01:32,870 I was at sea on the merchant fleet. 29 00:01:32,890 --> 00:01:35,700 Then I ended up on the railways. 30 00:01:36,620 --> 00:01:37,860 An honest living. 31 00:01:41,260 --> 00:01:42,780 But I wasn't honest. 32 00:01:45,140 --> 00:01:49,420 I cheated on my wife and my best pal for 30 years. 33 00:01:51,740 --> 00:01:54,020 Sneaking behind their backs. 34 00:01:55,620 --> 00:01:59,740 All for a glance... a touch of the hand. 35 00:02:02,140 --> 00:02:05,260 Afternoon delight with my best pal's wife. 36 00:02:08,940 --> 00:02:10,380 I'm not proud. 37 00:02:11,500 --> 00:02:14,500 Worried what it would do to her eldest boy. 38 00:02:14,520 --> 00:02:16,900 He was sensitive, she said. 39 00:02:18,540 --> 00:02:20,260 I resented him for that. 40 00:02:24,260 --> 00:02:26,100 So I did a terrible thing. 41 00:02:30,300 --> 00:02:33,260 We're together now, but it's too late. 42 00:02:35,740 --> 00:02:38,860 Her boy paid the price for my actions. 43 00:02:42,740 --> 00:02:44,500 I owe them the truth. 44 00:02:51,300 --> 00:02:54,500 RAY: 'Sometimes, there are days that live forever, 45 00:02:54,520 --> 00:02:57,180 'days that shape and define you indelibly. 46 00:03:03,260 --> 00:03:06,460 'When everything you've built crashes to the ground.' 47 00:03:12,300 --> 00:03:14,340 RAINFALL 48 00:03:44,900 --> 00:03:46,480 HE SIGHS 49 00:03:46,500 --> 00:03:48,140 Looks like Lennox never showed. 50 00:03:49,700 --> 00:03:52,360 Good for me. Two horse race. 51 00:03:52,380 --> 00:03:55,580 Stallion Starkers against the filly. 52 00:03:56,940 --> 00:04:01,860 You are a pathetic, puerile little man. 53 00:04:03,020 --> 00:04:05,580 Do you really believe you're promotion material? 54 00:04:05,600 --> 00:04:08,520 Aye, Filly Fucking Nonsense. SHE LAUGHS 55 00:04:08,540 --> 00:04:11,980 Mind, I know all about your bullshit, sister. 56 00:04:13,300 --> 00:04:14,620 Ah, for fuck's sake. 57 00:04:17,460 --> 00:04:21,080 RAY: 'Sometimes if you're being honest with yourself, 58 00:04:21,100 --> 00:04:25,180 'your biggest inspirations in life are not the virtuous mentors, 59 00:04:25,200 --> 00:04:28,940 'but the utter fucked up self-serving arseholes. 60 00:04:30,140 --> 00:04:33,060 'For these are the pricks you kicketh against.' 61 00:04:35,860 --> 00:04:41,020 Detective Inspector Lennox, obvious opening question. 62 00:04:41,040 --> 00:04:42,920 What makes you want this job? 63 00:04:42,940 --> 00:04:44,920 'When the whole gig is heading for the rocks, 64 00:04:44,940 --> 00:04:48,500 'there is a perverse pleasure in steering towards them at high speed. 65 00:04:48,520 --> 00:04:51,220 'It's the only empowerment we have left.' 66 00:04:51,240 --> 00:04:52,420 Well... 67 00:04:58,020 --> 00:05:01,880 Victor Maslow, born 10th June, 1995. 68 00:05:01,900 --> 00:05:04,270 Grew up and attended school in Muirhouse. 69 00:05:04,290 --> 00:05:06,640 Worked for a period of time cutting grass 70 00:05:06,660 --> 00:05:10,380 for the council's recreation department, ten years ago. 71 00:05:10,400 --> 00:05:11,400 Now, he lost that job 72 00:05:11,420 --> 00:05:14,340 after an accident that caused severe nerve damage to his left arm, 73 00:05:14,360 --> 00:05:16,260 for which he was hospitalised. 74 00:05:17,460 --> 00:05:20,660 No mention of where and when the accident took place. 75 00:05:21,700 --> 00:05:24,160 No arrest record to speak of. 76 00:05:24,180 --> 00:05:27,180 Maslow is dangerous, and he could kill again. 77 00:05:27,200 --> 00:05:28,660 Step it up. 78 00:05:34,980 --> 00:05:37,380 RADIO: 'Good morning. Welcome to Radio 11. 79 00:05:37,400 --> 00:05:38,780 'It's 10:25 in the AM...' 80 00:05:38,800 --> 00:05:41,320 CHUCKLES 81 00:05:41,340 --> 00:05:43,860 'We've got a great show coming up for you this morning. 82 00:05:43,880 --> 00:05:45,840 'Coming up...' 83 00:05:45,860 --> 00:05:49,030 "Rise, rebel, rise." 84 00:05:49,050 --> 00:05:52,220 What the fuck is this? 85 00:05:53,260 --> 00:05:57,460 Armando's parents bought him it. I think it's cool. 86 00:05:57,480 --> 00:05:58,860 It was his 18th. 87 00:06:00,780 --> 00:06:03,820 He's wanted one, like, forever. 88 00:06:06,140 --> 00:06:08,630 Why do you think it's cool? 89 00:06:08,650 --> 00:06:11,140 It's just really inspirational. 90 00:06:13,300 --> 00:06:16,020 But what does it mean to you? 91 00:06:16,040 --> 00:06:17,700 It's, er... 92 00:06:18,780 --> 00:06:20,540 ...sticking it to the man. 93 00:06:21,620 --> 00:06:25,510 People refusing to take any shit, right? 94 00:06:25,530 --> 00:06:29,420 We've become so disengaged these days. 95 00:06:29,440 --> 00:06:31,840 So Armando's still in bed? 96 00:06:31,860 --> 00:06:33,580 What's he got in for breakfast? 97 00:06:38,100 --> 00:06:42,940 We are agents of the state, but what is that state? 98 00:06:42,960 --> 00:06:45,460 Is it there to feed people, to clothe them, 99 00:06:45,480 --> 00:06:46,840 to provide them with homes, 100 00:06:46,860 --> 00:06:48,820 financial and employment opportunities? 101 00:06:50,020 --> 00:06:52,700 No. The state used to do these things, 102 00:06:52,720 --> 00:06:54,160 this was the post-war settlement, 103 00:06:54,180 --> 00:06:56,340 and modern democracy was founded on that balance 104 00:06:56,360 --> 00:06:58,640 between people and money, but now, 105 00:06:58,660 --> 00:07:01,500 politicians are entertainers with media to distract us, 106 00:07:01,520 --> 00:07:03,540 while they build fiefdoms and palaces 107 00:07:03,560 --> 00:07:05,000 for a smaller and smaller elite, 108 00:07:05,020 --> 00:07:06,800 looting the taxpayer's purse at will. 109 00:07:06,820 --> 00:07:09,300 And this is a society that you want me to police? 110 00:07:09,320 --> 00:07:11,940 My partner was murdered. 111 00:07:11,960 --> 00:07:13,800 Yes, he had... 112 00:07:13,820 --> 00:07:16,980 problems, but how did we get there, eh? 113 00:07:17,000 --> 00:07:21,500 Under my watch, that won't happen. 114 00:07:21,520 --> 00:07:23,000 I can make a difference. 115 00:07:23,020 --> 00:07:25,700 Get our clean-up rates the highest in Britain, 116 00:07:25,720 --> 00:07:28,080 modernise the force. 117 00:07:28,100 --> 00:07:30,090 We have to be the best of ourselves. 118 00:07:30,110 --> 00:07:32,235 We call ourselves the Police Service, 119 00:07:32,255 --> 00:07:34,587 but who do we serve? What is the law? 120 00:07:34,607 --> 00:07:36,920 Who does the law that we enforce benefit? 121 00:07:36,940 --> 00:07:40,140 We're there to protect the property and the bourgeoisie. 122 00:07:40,160 --> 00:07:44,380 The desk-bound, I mean, what do they actually do? 123 00:07:44,400 --> 00:07:46,460 Shuffle papers and get in the road. 124 00:07:47,740 --> 00:07:53,360 A street police presence reassures the public. 125 00:07:53,380 --> 00:07:56,340 We don't want police officers charging round the streets. 126 00:07:56,360 --> 00:07:59,320 We have cameras everywhere. 127 00:07:59,340 --> 00:08:03,700 We need cops who are tech-savvy, who can crunch data, 128 00:08:03,720 --> 00:08:06,860 who don't bring emotions into police work. 129 00:08:06,880 --> 00:08:08,880 Sometimes here in Serious Crime, 130 00:08:08,900 --> 00:08:11,320 we get to pursue the real bad bastards - 131 00:08:11,340 --> 00:08:14,460 the paedos, the rapists, the abusers who prey on those weaker, 132 00:08:14,480 --> 00:08:17,900 and all of a sudden, our work has a real moral calling. 133 00:08:17,920 --> 00:08:20,300 I've learned so much from DI Lennox. 134 00:08:22,460 --> 00:08:26,780 But can you really police if you don't sort out your emotional life? 135 00:08:26,800 --> 00:08:29,140 Leave that stuff at home. 136 00:08:29,160 --> 00:08:31,500 Don't let it get in the way. 137 00:08:31,520 --> 00:08:33,400 Be professional. 138 00:08:33,420 --> 00:08:35,920 They used to call me Ironman 139 00:08:35,940 --> 00:08:38,940 when I was in Vice after the superhero - 140 00:08:38,960 --> 00:08:41,420 millionaire playboy Tony Stark. 141 00:08:42,660 --> 00:08:45,140 Well, they called me that because... 142 00:08:45,160 --> 00:08:47,900 I... got... 143 00:08:48,980 --> 00:08:50,160 ...results. 144 00:08:50,180 --> 00:08:52,520 To deploy IT imaginatively 145 00:08:52,540 --> 00:08:55,360 but with respect for citizens' rights. 146 00:08:55,380 --> 00:08:59,840 To support officers suffering from stress and burn-out. 147 00:08:59,860 --> 00:09:04,140 To increase diversity and to make the force a safer place for women. 148 00:09:06,020 --> 00:09:07,320 It's fucking consumerism. 149 00:09:07,340 --> 00:09:11,700 A struggle to put food on the table, reduced to a rich kid's toys. 150 00:09:11,720 --> 00:09:15,180 What's a poster like this doing in a rich man's shag palace? 151 00:09:15,200 --> 00:09:17,520 He's got a Lenin one in the bedroom, too. 152 00:09:17,540 --> 00:09:19,860 Should've seen his face when he unwrapped it. 153 00:09:19,880 --> 00:09:21,280 It cost over a grand. 154 00:09:21,300 --> 00:09:23,540 Do you even know who Lenin is? 155 00:09:24,860 --> 00:09:26,800 Lexi, who is Lenin? 156 00:09:26,820 --> 00:09:30,790 LEXI: 'Vladimir Ilyich Ulyanov, better known as Vladimir Lenin, 157 00:09:30,810 --> 00:09:34,780 'was a Russian revolutionary, politician and political theorist.' 158 00:09:34,800 --> 00:09:35,940 I do now. 159 00:09:37,060 --> 00:09:39,160 Look, Armando's parents have paid for it 160 00:09:39,180 --> 00:09:42,700 and we're the ones being inspired. Political action right there. 161 00:09:42,720 --> 00:09:44,360 Cocooned in a bourgeois property 162 00:09:44,380 --> 00:09:46,920 during a devastating cost-of-living crisis. 163 00:09:46,940 --> 00:09:50,660 While the richest 5% of the population are getting richer still. 164 00:09:50,680 --> 00:09:54,780 Keep kill, Vic. Do you want some breakfast, Vic? 165 00:09:55,940 --> 00:09:56,980 RAY: Let me explain. 166 00:09:58,980 --> 00:10:00,360 I don't want this job. 167 00:10:00,380 --> 00:10:03,260 I just came here to, to testify to you all. 168 00:10:03,280 --> 00:10:05,600 It's people like you who have 169 00:10:05,620 --> 00:10:07,660 presided over the decline in the police. 170 00:10:07,680 --> 00:10:10,740 How could I work with you? 171 00:10:10,760 --> 00:10:13,340 I don't want this job. 172 00:10:13,360 --> 00:10:15,920 Wait, Ray, stop. Stop. 173 00:10:15,940 --> 00:10:18,980 What the hell is going on with the men in your department? 174 00:10:19,000 --> 00:10:21,180 I know that the Erskine mur... 175 00:10:21,200 --> 00:10:22,580 Homicide! 176 00:10:23,540 --> 00:10:27,420 ...affected all of us very deeply, 177 00:10:27,440 --> 00:10:29,180 but please... 178 00:10:30,260 --> 00:10:32,020 ...think about your future. 179 00:10:34,740 --> 00:10:38,390 I'm sorry, boss, I've wasted your time. 180 00:10:38,410 --> 00:10:42,060 But you are wasting a lot of people's time. 181 00:10:42,080 --> 00:10:43,280 I know, in different ways, 182 00:10:43,300 --> 00:10:45,740 you've all been able to make your peace with this. 183 00:10:45,760 --> 00:10:47,540 Good on you. Sadly... 184 00:10:52,940 --> 00:10:56,340 ...I can't... anymore. 185 00:10:56,360 --> 00:10:57,780 The truth is... 186 00:11:00,060 --> 00:11:02,100 ...I was never really here. 187 00:11:08,820 --> 00:11:10,980 DOOR OPENS, CLOSES 188 00:11:14,340 --> 00:11:18,140 We are the kamikaze pilots of social change, 189 00:11:18,160 --> 00:11:20,180 so let's crash that plane. 190 00:11:20,200 --> 00:11:22,200 It's the one thing we can do, 191 00:11:22,220 --> 00:11:24,960 it's the ultimate sacrifice, wouldn't you say? Fraser? 192 00:11:24,980 --> 00:11:28,620 That's all well and good, man, but that sofa's shit to sleep on. 193 00:11:30,380 --> 00:11:33,060 It will all be all right in the end, Vic. 194 00:11:40,260 --> 00:11:44,060 Come on, you lazy git. I've made you a cup of tea. 195 00:11:49,660 --> 00:11:53,460 SCREAMS 196 00:12:04,500 --> 00:12:06,540 LENORA HYPERVENTILATES 197 00:12:12,100 --> 00:12:14,180 SOBBING 198 00:12:20,180 --> 00:12:21,520 DOOR CLOSES 199 00:12:21,540 --> 00:12:24,600 How the fuck has it come to this? 200 00:12:24,620 --> 00:12:26,780 You've achieved so much for this city. 201 00:12:28,060 --> 00:12:32,020 Why?! Why shit the bed? 202 00:12:32,040 --> 00:12:33,220 I'm sorry, Bob. 203 00:12:38,740 --> 00:12:43,060 I told you... be my Cantona. 204 00:12:45,780 --> 00:12:48,100 Well, you've done it now. 205 00:12:50,340 --> 00:12:51,860 You wandered away... 206 00:12:53,780 --> 00:12:55,220 ...just like him. 207 00:12:59,700 --> 00:13:02,460 I wouldnae have had any career at all without you, boss. 208 00:13:04,980 --> 00:13:07,740 You gave me a longer leash than I deserved. 209 00:13:08,660 --> 00:13:10,220 I must be demented. 210 00:13:12,780 --> 00:13:15,080 But working with you 211 00:13:15,100 --> 00:13:19,380 is, perversely, the thing I'll miss most about this job. 212 00:13:25,860 --> 00:13:27,300 People don't understand... 213 00:13:28,500 --> 00:13:31,580 ...how hard it is, this job that we do. 214 00:13:34,980 --> 00:13:37,380 Is there anything I can do for you? 215 00:13:39,180 --> 00:13:41,420 Drop the disciplinary charges against Struthers. 216 00:13:42,740 --> 00:13:45,650 He needs to grow up in a forgiven organisation 217 00:13:45,670 --> 00:13:48,580 full of folks who ken what it's like to be... 218 00:13:48,600 --> 00:13:49,900 to be human. 219 00:13:52,140 --> 00:13:53,340 SIGHS 220 00:14:00,940 --> 00:14:04,180 'Struthers.' Struthers, come into my office. 221 00:14:07,980 --> 00:14:10,060 I always did let you get away with fucking mur... 222 00:14:10,080 --> 00:14:11,140 Homicide. 223 00:14:12,820 --> 00:14:14,980 Fucking homicide. 224 00:14:15,000 --> 00:14:17,820 THEY LAUGH 225 00:14:22,660 --> 00:14:24,040 I have been trying to show you that 226 00:14:24,060 --> 00:14:28,700 this is how most people live their lives... in fear. 227 00:14:28,720 --> 00:14:30,440 Fear of never having enough to eat, 228 00:14:30,460 --> 00:14:33,560 fear the polis will wipe them out at any moment, 229 00:14:33,580 --> 00:14:37,700 fear of never escaping the shithole into which they were born. 230 00:14:37,720 --> 00:14:39,220 But Armando... 231 00:14:40,860 --> 00:14:42,220 ...you killed him. 232 00:14:43,420 --> 00:14:45,500 This is everything we spoke about, Fraser. 233 00:14:48,740 --> 00:14:51,300 Revolution. Inequality. 234 00:14:52,940 --> 00:14:55,130 Righting wrongs. He was our friend. 235 00:14:55,150 --> 00:14:57,340 He paid lip service to our objectives. 236 00:14:59,100 --> 00:15:02,700 There are real people out there with no roof over their heads, 237 00:15:02,720 --> 00:15:06,140 and all the while, this privileged prick is... 238 00:15:06,160 --> 00:15:09,580 WAS... being bankrolled by Mummy and Daddy. 239 00:15:09,600 --> 00:15:11,200 You're mental. 240 00:15:11,220 --> 00:15:13,420 Why would you do something like that? 241 00:15:15,700 --> 00:15:18,340 Have you not been listening to anything I've said? 242 00:15:23,460 --> 00:15:24,580 I need a piss. 243 00:15:28,060 --> 00:15:29,500 VICTOR EXHALES SHARPLY 244 00:15:37,260 --> 00:15:38,740 DOOR CLOSES 245 00:15:44,900 --> 00:15:46,340 DOOR LOCK RATTLES 246 00:15:56,580 --> 00:15:59,660 Well, obviously, I locked the door. 247 00:16:05,780 --> 00:16:08,100 This man is a fucking freedom fighter. 248 00:16:09,100 --> 00:16:13,120 This is no longer a place for real polis. 249 00:16:13,140 --> 00:16:15,180 You really tell them to ram it up their holes? 250 00:16:15,200 --> 00:16:17,160 Then fucking quit? 251 00:16:17,180 --> 00:16:19,600 Ray? Not in those exact words, 252 00:16:19,620 --> 00:16:22,180 but it was pretty much the message, aye. 253 00:16:41,260 --> 00:16:43,140 Erm, was it...? 254 00:16:45,180 --> 00:16:46,380 Was it me? 255 00:16:47,940 --> 00:16:50,780 Erm... Was it something I did? 256 00:16:53,300 --> 00:16:56,660 No. No, Amanda, it wisnae you. 257 00:17:02,060 --> 00:17:04,360 I guess... 258 00:17:04,380 --> 00:17:07,860 I guess it makes things less complicated. 259 00:17:08,940 --> 00:17:10,750 MOBILE RINGS 260 00:17:10,770 --> 00:17:12,765 HE SIGHS 261 00:17:12,785 --> 00:17:14,760 Sally? 262 00:17:14,780 --> 00:17:17,420 Not like you to call me. Is everything all right? 263 00:17:18,580 --> 00:17:21,820 Come and see me, Ray. We need to talk. 264 00:17:21,840 --> 00:17:26,380 Er... OK. I'm on my way. 265 00:17:37,140 --> 00:17:38,540 I need to go. 266 00:17:38,560 --> 00:17:39,960 Ray. 267 00:17:39,980 --> 00:17:41,220 DOOR OPENS 268 00:17:42,540 --> 00:17:43,620 DOOR CLOSES 269 00:17:52,140 --> 00:17:54,500 DOORBELL RINGS 270 00:17:55,940 --> 00:17:57,980 MOBILE CHIMES 271 00:18:20,500 --> 00:18:22,900 KNOCKING ON DOOR 272 00:18:22,920 --> 00:18:24,420 It's open. 273 00:19:00,700 --> 00:19:02,540 Hello, Ray. 274 00:19:44,020 --> 00:19:45,720 SOBBING 275 00:19:45,740 --> 00:19:48,500 My mum and dad, they'll be looking for me. 276 00:19:48,520 --> 00:19:51,500 I said I'd ring them first thing. 277 00:19:54,540 --> 00:19:56,860 I'll let you into a little secret. 278 00:19:57,900 --> 00:19:59,980 I fucking hate your uncle. 279 00:20:02,380 --> 00:20:03,940 You don't even know him. 280 00:20:04,900 --> 00:20:06,460 Oh, Fraser, I know him. 281 00:20:08,140 --> 00:20:09,300 And I know you. 282 00:20:11,140 --> 00:20:13,820 He is a servant of the state. 283 00:20:15,980 --> 00:20:17,880 And you're a joyrider. 284 00:20:17,900 --> 00:20:22,270 I know that in ten years' time, you'll be your mother. 285 00:20:22,290 --> 00:20:26,660 Pushing paper round a desk, dressed in a pinstripe suit, 286 00:20:26,680 --> 00:20:28,900 driving a Range Rover Evoque. 287 00:20:28,920 --> 00:20:30,440 SOBS 288 00:20:30,460 --> 00:20:33,510 H-How do you know about Mum? 289 00:20:33,530 --> 00:20:36,560 Just like your performance. 290 00:20:36,580 --> 00:20:39,530 You play at being liberated and progressive. 291 00:20:39,550 --> 00:20:42,500 Do you know how fucking stupid you look? 292 00:20:42,520 --> 00:20:43,960 Too immature to understand 293 00:20:43,980 --> 00:20:46,900 the logical conclusions of anything you say. 294 00:20:46,920 --> 00:20:49,540 I do. I'm not them. 295 00:20:50,980 --> 00:20:52,720 You've always taught us to oppose 296 00:20:52,740 --> 00:20:55,460 the fucking stilted bourgeois conditioning. 297 00:20:57,020 --> 00:21:00,580 You can't give up on us now. For fuck's sake. 298 00:21:02,020 --> 00:21:03,500 Vic! 299 00:21:08,980 --> 00:21:10,000 Amanda, look. 300 00:21:10,020 --> 00:21:12,580 This is the woman who made the rape complaint 301 00:21:12,600 --> 00:21:14,460 to senior management at Adre House. 302 00:21:17,380 --> 00:21:18,540 That's her there. 303 00:21:24,020 --> 00:21:26,240 I don't believe it. 304 00:21:26,260 --> 00:21:29,500 Erm... Get hold of Ray. Now. 305 00:21:29,520 --> 00:21:31,560 Amanda? Now! 306 00:21:31,580 --> 00:21:34,200 Probably taken about... 307 00:21:34,220 --> 00:21:36,700 ten minutes before the bells. 308 00:21:48,180 --> 00:21:49,540 The night my life changed. 309 00:22:16,100 --> 00:22:18,000 Why are you dressed like this? 310 00:22:18,020 --> 00:22:21,180 Isn't this what men see when they look at a woman? 311 00:22:21,200 --> 00:22:22,500 Not all men. 312 00:22:24,420 --> 00:22:26,200 Would you like to think that, Ray? 313 00:22:26,220 --> 00:22:29,980 Consider the strength and size of the men, 314 00:22:30,000 --> 00:22:31,660 that inevitable inequality. 315 00:22:32,820 --> 00:22:35,900 An empath like you will always think you're different, but... 316 00:22:36,980 --> 00:22:38,340 ...is it not true to say that... 317 00:22:40,140 --> 00:22:42,660 ...every man who lies on my couch is a beast? 318 00:22:44,020 --> 00:22:45,940 Why am I here, Sally? 319 00:22:47,020 --> 00:22:48,340 I'm worried about you, Ray. 320 00:22:49,860 --> 00:22:51,460 You're on the same path I was on. 321 00:22:52,540 --> 00:22:53,940 What do you mean? 322 00:22:56,380 --> 00:22:57,740 The desire to... 323 00:22:59,260 --> 00:23:03,010 ...wreak revenge is overwhelming, 324 00:23:03,030 --> 00:23:06,780 but it's unsatisfying and reductive. 325 00:23:06,800 --> 00:23:08,300 All it does... 326 00:23:15,460 --> 00:23:18,580 ...turns in you into what you fear the most. 327 00:23:20,540 --> 00:23:22,340 Which is what? 328 00:23:43,460 --> 00:23:46,600 You and Victor Maslow are fascinating case studies. 329 00:23:46,620 --> 00:23:51,420 Both wallowing a victimhood, displaying narcissistic traits, 330 00:23:51,440 --> 00:23:54,700 both defined by great revenge narratives. 331 00:23:55,900 --> 00:23:57,300 You're not so far apart. 332 00:23:59,540 --> 00:24:04,460 Maslow sat there and told me how he acted on his vengeance, 333 00:24:04,480 --> 00:24:06,140 he couldn't stop telling me about it. 334 00:24:07,540 --> 00:24:08,740 It fuelled him. 335 00:24:10,020 --> 00:24:12,110 He loved it. 336 00:24:12,130 --> 00:24:14,200 It defined him. 337 00:24:14,220 --> 00:24:15,540 Tell me about Maslow. 338 00:24:17,500 --> 00:24:21,020 Injured in an accident doing a favour for an uncaring man. 339 00:24:22,460 --> 00:24:24,320 He lost his job. 340 00:24:24,340 --> 00:24:29,250 During months of recuperation, his resentment grew. 341 00:24:29,270 --> 00:24:34,180 Revenge fantasies are common for victims of trauma. 342 00:24:34,200 --> 00:24:36,740 It's about redressing the balance, but... 343 00:24:36,760 --> 00:24:38,660 his sense of injustice... 344 00:24:39,780 --> 00:24:41,180 ...at what he lost... 345 00:24:42,700 --> 00:24:43,980 ...tipped that balance. 346 00:24:45,620 --> 00:24:48,670 He murdered that man and told me every detail. 347 00:24:48,690 --> 00:24:51,740 Of course, I should've involved the police, but... 348 00:24:53,780 --> 00:24:56,420 ...then he told me the man's name. 349 00:25:03,020 --> 00:25:04,860 Piggott-Wilkins. 350 00:25:04,880 --> 00:25:06,300 The father. 351 00:25:07,460 --> 00:25:09,550 Then, in an instant... 352 00:25:09,570 --> 00:25:11,660 I was back in that room. 353 00:25:17,340 --> 00:25:19,240 Two men raped me. 354 00:25:19,260 --> 00:25:23,140 One held me down, the other... watched. 355 00:25:24,660 --> 00:25:27,300 And didn't have the courage to stop it. 356 00:25:29,140 --> 00:25:32,780 And... there on my couch was vengeance. 357 00:25:37,860 --> 00:25:39,860 Opportunity, Ray. 358 00:25:44,060 --> 00:25:45,900 Hello, Amanda. 359 00:25:54,900 --> 00:25:56,380 Sally. 360 00:26:01,180 --> 00:26:02,660 Sally. 361 00:26:24,820 --> 00:26:26,980 I was pinned down. 362 00:26:28,300 --> 00:26:29,820 They were... 363 00:26:32,180 --> 00:26:33,880 ...brutal. 364 00:26:33,900 --> 00:26:35,620 Egging each other on, one after the other. 365 00:26:41,340 --> 00:26:43,900 Gulliver was the most violent. 366 00:26:43,920 --> 00:26:45,260 SHE GRUNTS 367 00:26:47,580 --> 00:26:49,940 I thought... seeing their fear as I... 368 00:26:49,960 --> 00:26:52,040 as I took their... 369 00:26:52,060 --> 00:26:53,740 lives would be cathartic. 370 00:26:56,820 --> 00:26:58,660 But that wisnae the case? 371 00:26:58,680 --> 00:27:00,540 I spent so long... 372 00:27:02,300 --> 00:27:04,540 ...trying to be somebody, trying to... 373 00:27:06,020 --> 00:27:07,420 ...trying to... 374 00:27:09,020 --> 00:27:11,500 ...achieve something. 375 00:27:13,660 --> 00:27:15,830 And now it's over. 376 00:27:15,850 --> 00:27:18,000 My crimes have... 377 00:27:18,020 --> 00:27:20,140 hollowed me out, just like their crimes did. 378 00:27:23,820 --> 00:27:25,140 But why now? 379 00:27:26,260 --> 00:27:28,540 What made you kill these men now? 380 00:27:31,060 --> 00:27:32,940 They never left me... 381 00:27:33,900 --> 00:27:36,600 ...that night, and... 382 00:27:36,620 --> 00:27:39,220 And then Maslow was... in my life. 383 00:27:40,580 --> 00:27:44,660 A man for whom vengeance was his biggest thrill, and I... 384 00:27:44,680 --> 00:27:47,340 I needed to be avenged, but each time I was... 385 00:27:47,360 --> 00:27:49,380 a little more of me died. 386 00:27:52,660 --> 00:27:54,020 I understand. 387 00:27:55,180 --> 00:27:56,260 I do. 388 00:27:57,500 --> 00:27:58,600 How? 389 00:27:58,620 --> 00:28:02,660 You're... a little like those men, Amanda. 390 00:28:02,680 --> 00:28:06,000 So careless with sex. 391 00:28:06,020 --> 00:28:09,580 It's facile communication for you, it's just a physical need. 392 00:28:09,600 --> 00:28:11,020 Where is Maslow? 393 00:28:11,040 --> 00:28:12,460 I don't know. 394 00:28:13,620 --> 00:28:16,260 I know he's not finished yet. 395 00:28:16,280 --> 00:28:17,540 He'll come for you, Ray. 396 00:28:20,900 --> 00:28:22,500 I hope you can stop him. 397 00:28:23,740 --> 00:28:26,360 Sally, you can tell your story. 398 00:28:26,380 --> 00:28:29,820 I'll make sure, I'll make sure that people'll listen. 399 00:28:31,780 --> 00:28:34,100 HE GASPS AMANDA: No! 400 00:29:01,220 --> 00:29:04,140 SNIFFS, SIGHS 401 00:29:05,580 --> 00:29:07,340 Call it in. 402 00:29:17,100 --> 00:29:18,540 AEROPLANE ENGINE WHISTLES 403 00:29:23,140 --> 00:29:24,760 EXHALES 404 00:29:24,780 --> 00:29:26,380 I really do like you two. 405 00:29:30,820 --> 00:29:32,660 You might still be useful. 406 00:29:35,300 --> 00:29:37,900 But you have to know, sacrifice, it... 407 00:29:37,920 --> 00:29:39,800 it's not just a word. 408 00:29:39,820 --> 00:29:43,500 You need to feel like an outcast from society. 409 00:29:44,700 --> 00:29:47,240 SCOFFS 410 00:29:47,260 --> 00:29:49,100 I planned to take your life. 411 00:29:51,260 --> 00:29:53,100 But I won't do that. I won't. 412 00:29:56,380 --> 00:29:57,620 I think... 413 00:29:59,540 --> 00:30:02,620 I think I'll... I think I'll take your hand, Fraser. 414 00:30:03,780 --> 00:30:05,400 WHIMPERS 415 00:30:05,420 --> 00:30:08,940 And your interest in identity politics 416 00:30:08,960 --> 00:30:10,500 is about to become... 417 00:30:10,520 --> 00:30:12,220 less abstract. 418 00:30:14,540 --> 00:30:20,140 When you lose your hand, you'll have a real, visible identity... 419 00:30:20,160 --> 00:30:22,060 as an amputee. 420 00:30:23,860 --> 00:30:26,980 Such social currency in your circle. 421 00:30:28,380 --> 00:30:30,260 GASPING 422 00:30:32,660 --> 00:30:34,580 PHONE RINGS 423 00:30:35,900 --> 00:30:37,380 CONTINUES RINGING 424 00:30:41,060 --> 00:30:42,540 HE GASPS 425 00:30:43,980 --> 00:30:45,940 PHONE RINGS 426 00:30:49,300 --> 00:30:50,340 Sally? 427 00:30:51,860 --> 00:30:53,640 No. 428 00:30:53,660 --> 00:30:56,460 It's Ray... Lennox. 429 00:31:01,300 --> 00:31:03,260 It's your favourite uncle. 430 00:31:07,940 --> 00:31:09,080 Uncle Ray? 431 00:31:09,100 --> 00:31:11,960 'Help. He says he's gonna cut my hand off.' 432 00:31:11,980 --> 00:31:15,220 He's already killed Armando! Uncle Ray, he's mental, please... 433 00:31:15,240 --> 00:31:17,780 The bowling green near the flats on Balmakeith Drive. 434 00:31:17,800 --> 00:31:20,000 'Come alone... 435 00:31:20,020 --> 00:31:22,140 'or Fraser will lose more than just his hand.' 436 00:31:28,420 --> 00:31:29,620 SIREN 437 00:31:42,660 --> 00:31:44,600 It's too fucking hot! 438 00:31:44,620 --> 00:31:46,400 Can you turn off the fucking radiator? 439 00:31:46,420 --> 00:31:48,790 ELECTRONIC VOICE: I don't have an answer for that. 440 00:31:48,810 --> 00:31:51,180 Is there something...? FURIOUSLY: Shut the fuck up! 441 00:32:07,980 --> 00:32:09,460 PHONE RINGS 442 00:32:12,060 --> 00:32:14,390 'Uncle Ray. I can see you.' 443 00:32:14,410 --> 00:32:16,965 Maslow, what the fuck...? 444 00:32:16,985 --> 00:32:19,540 'Well done. You came alone. 445 00:32:21,980 --> 00:32:24,620 '51. Flat 5. 446 00:32:25,740 --> 00:32:28,340 'Come on up. Alone.' 447 00:32:34,140 --> 00:32:37,260 Uncle Ray's on his way up. 448 00:32:37,280 --> 00:32:38,820 Go and let him in. 449 00:32:42,140 --> 00:32:43,420 And come back. 450 00:32:44,620 --> 00:32:46,900 Or he'll end up just like Armando. 451 00:32:54,460 --> 00:32:57,340 RAY: It's OK, it's OK. Where is he? Just through there. 452 00:33:01,980 --> 00:33:04,060 Come on in, Uncle Ray. 453 00:33:08,260 --> 00:33:10,060 OK, let him go. 454 00:33:11,860 --> 00:33:14,060 I know all about you. 455 00:33:15,620 --> 00:33:18,060 You'd be amazed how much Sally has said. 456 00:33:21,460 --> 00:33:23,140 Sally's dead. 457 00:33:25,100 --> 00:33:27,620 She manipulated us both. 458 00:33:30,660 --> 00:33:32,260 What are you talking about? 459 00:33:32,280 --> 00:33:33,900 You're a psychopath. 460 00:33:35,060 --> 00:33:36,660 Hiding behind ideology. 461 00:33:37,740 --> 00:33:40,440 Acting out a petty personal vengeance. 462 00:33:40,460 --> 00:33:43,500 You're no social justice crusader, you just like killing people. 463 00:33:43,520 --> 00:33:45,340 You chose the state, you would say that. 464 00:33:45,360 --> 00:33:47,160 Enemy of the people that you protect. 465 00:33:47,180 --> 00:33:49,940 What you gonna do, disembowel all the public schoolboys in the land? 466 00:33:49,960 --> 00:33:51,940 I would love that level of ambition. 467 00:33:51,960 --> 00:33:53,940 If you'd seen the things that I'd seen. 468 00:33:53,960 --> 00:33:56,040 Real people, real victims. 469 00:33:56,060 --> 00:33:59,540 Working people already fucked over by a hideous, terrorising system 470 00:33:59,560 --> 00:34:01,240 that you purport to detest. 471 00:34:01,260 --> 00:34:03,400 Social justice, my fucking arse! 472 00:34:03,420 --> 00:34:06,200 A cop, a servant of the state, talking about social justice? 473 00:34:06,220 --> 00:34:09,740 Has your vengeance woken the world up? It's just destroyed more lives. 474 00:34:09,760 --> 00:34:11,440 It's killed Sally. Fuck you! 475 00:34:11,460 --> 00:34:14,020 I take his hand or I take his throat, it's your choice! 476 00:34:14,040 --> 00:34:15,220 What do you say? 477 00:34:16,540 --> 00:34:17,740 Drew Busby. 478 00:34:19,380 --> 00:34:21,460 Who? Drew Busby. 479 00:34:22,820 --> 00:34:24,940 A Weegie, and one of the last to play 480 00:34:24,960 --> 00:34:27,180 for the now defunct Third Lanark. 481 00:34:29,100 --> 00:34:30,720 Signed from Airdrie as a striker. 482 00:34:30,740 --> 00:34:33,340 Had a prolific partnership there with Drew Jarvie. 483 00:34:33,360 --> 00:34:36,420 Converted to a midfield enforcer at Hearts. 484 00:34:36,440 --> 00:34:37,960 Fan favourite. 485 00:34:37,980 --> 00:34:39,940 Still managed 55 goals... What? 486 00:34:39,960 --> 00:34:42,460 ...fae 178 appearances. 487 00:34:42,480 --> 00:34:43,660 THUD 488 00:34:46,260 --> 00:34:47,780 CURRENT CRACKLES 489 00:34:48,860 --> 00:34:50,440 CRASH 490 00:34:50,460 --> 00:34:51,680 You fucking scumbag! 491 00:34:51,700 --> 00:34:54,540 You're one of the same fucking crew as them. 492 00:34:58,340 --> 00:35:04,500 Suspect apprehended, Flat 5, 51 Balmakeith Drive, Southside. 493 00:35:17,940 --> 00:35:20,100 FRASER: He could have killed us. 494 00:35:21,540 --> 00:35:23,460 I'm sorry, Uncle Ray. 495 00:35:23,480 --> 00:35:24,940 SIREN 496 00:35:27,420 --> 00:35:30,220 Nothing to be sorry for. Let's get you home. 497 00:35:43,740 --> 00:35:46,820 Celeste. Yeah. 498 00:35:47,940 --> 00:35:49,280 Sorry, do I know you? 499 00:35:49,300 --> 00:35:52,300 Erm, not really. I mean, I work with Gill, so... 500 00:35:52,320 --> 00:35:55,800 Oh. She sent you? 501 00:35:55,820 --> 00:36:01,260 No, er, I actually don't know what happened between you both, 502 00:36:01,280 --> 00:36:04,340 but I always think if you really care about each other, 503 00:36:04,360 --> 00:36:06,540 then most things can be talked through. 504 00:36:06,560 --> 00:36:08,360 Mm, no chance, she crossed a line. 505 00:36:08,380 --> 00:36:11,450 You know, Gill's really cut up about all this? 506 00:36:11,470 --> 00:36:14,520 Oh, yeah? Has she thought about how I felt, 507 00:36:14,540 --> 00:36:17,700 walking in to find her shagging that Struthers creep? 508 00:36:19,580 --> 00:36:21,260 It's over. 509 00:36:22,700 --> 00:36:25,320 What the actual fuck is going on with you two? 510 00:36:25,340 --> 00:36:29,180 It... It's not like it seems. You said you were a virgin. 511 00:36:29,200 --> 00:36:31,240 And you said you were a lesbian. I am! I am! 512 00:36:31,260 --> 00:36:34,820 I mean, I was. I mean, she... she taught me, it was for you. 513 00:36:34,840 --> 00:36:37,160 What? Well, it's, er... 514 00:36:37,180 --> 00:36:40,060 See, as ridiculous as that sounds, it really was for you. 515 00:36:40,080 --> 00:36:42,660 He just... He wanted to impress you. 516 00:36:42,680 --> 00:36:44,480 Er, er... I'm sorry. 517 00:36:44,500 --> 00:36:48,020 Er, look, look, be angry at me. 518 00:36:48,040 --> 00:36:50,320 I'm your mate, me. 519 00:36:50,340 --> 00:36:54,900 I should never have done it, right, but please, all our sakes, 520 00:36:54,920 --> 00:36:58,260 you've gotta give him a chance, please. 521 00:37:02,140 --> 00:37:03,920 SHE EXHALES 522 00:37:03,940 --> 00:37:08,540 Well, Amanda, congratulations. The job is yours. 523 00:37:11,300 --> 00:37:13,720 Thank you, Bob. 524 00:37:13,740 --> 00:37:16,780 It's been a rapid rise, I know, but I want you to... 525 00:37:16,800 --> 00:37:20,340 But in recognition of this rapid rise 526 00:37:20,360 --> 00:37:22,980 and your relative inexperience... 527 00:37:24,700 --> 00:37:30,420 ...there will be an initial job-share element. 528 00:37:32,940 --> 00:37:34,680 I'm sorry, I don't... 529 00:37:34,700 --> 00:37:37,820 We found an experienced man for you to learn from. 530 00:37:39,140 --> 00:37:41,820 It'll be good for you, Amanda. 531 00:37:54,540 --> 00:37:55,560 Where is he? 532 00:37:55,580 --> 00:37:59,340 He's OK, he's fine. He's upstairs. Right. 533 00:38:02,100 --> 00:38:04,220 We've both had our eye off the ball here, Jack. 534 00:38:07,700 --> 00:38:10,300 This family's fallen apart these past few weeks, 535 00:38:10,320 --> 00:38:13,620 but we're gonna fix it, OK? 536 00:38:14,580 --> 00:38:17,190 I don't care that you've got a girlfriend, Jack, 537 00:38:17,210 --> 00:38:19,820 and I don't care that Frase thinks he's David Bowie. 538 00:38:21,340 --> 00:38:23,300 I don't care that you think you've outgrown me. 539 00:38:23,320 --> 00:38:25,240 DOOR CLOSES 540 00:38:25,260 --> 00:38:29,140 You're still the people that I wanna be with most in this world. 541 00:38:31,140 --> 00:38:36,020 My beautiful boy. I'm OK, Mum, I'm... I'm fine. 542 00:38:36,040 --> 00:38:37,580 Hey. Ooh! 543 00:38:38,660 --> 00:38:40,420 Thanks for bringing him home, Ray. 544 00:39:27,980 --> 00:39:29,100 Ray. 545 00:39:31,260 --> 00:39:33,310 A word. 546 00:39:33,330 --> 00:39:35,360 DOOR CLOSES 547 00:39:35,380 --> 00:39:38,340 I got you a wee gift. Boss. 548 00:39:40,100 --> 00:39:42,580 You've been exceptional for me, Ray. 549 00:39:49,060 --> 00:39:50,740 Ah, ya bastard. 550 00:39:59,940 --> 00:40:01,420 Look after it. 551 00:40:03,700 --> 00:40:05,560 They're company, you know. 552 00:40:05,580 --> 00:40:08,500 RAY CHUCKLES Well, thank you, boss. 553 00:40:08,520 --> 00:40:10,860 I... Oh, ya bastard. Yeah. 554 00:40:10,880 --> 00:40:12,460 ...appreciate it. 555 00:40:13,500 --> 00:40:15,460 Whatever you do... 556 00:40:17,300 --> 00:40:19,100 ...live your life, Ray. 557 00:40:21,260 --> 00:40:22,740 It goes so quick. 558 00:40:26,420 --> 00:40:28,140 TEARFULLY: It goes so quick. 559 00:40:55,540 --> 00:40:56,780 Ray. 560 00:40:59,660 --> 00:41:02,620 Congratulations. Never in doubt. 561 00:41:02,640 --> 00:41:04,440 SHE CHUCKLES 562 00:41:04,460 --> 00:41:05,860 Yeah, after you pulled out. 563 00:41:07,180 --> 00:41:11,220 And it's a job share. How do you think that makes me feel? 564 00:41:11,240 --> 00:41:14,820 Like somebody who's been given a great opportunity? 565 00:41:14,840 --> 00:41:17,460 What will the likes of Stark think? 566 00:41:17,480 --> 00:41:20,600 That I'm a daft, wee lassie 567 00:41:20,620 --> 00:41:23,620 that's been feather-bedded in for political reasons? 568 00:41:25,820 --> 00:41:28,020 What sort of respect am I gonna get? 569 00:41:28,040 --> 00:41:30,100 Respect you have to earn. 570 00:41:30,120 --> 00:41:32,580 But you will. 571 00:41:35,260 --> 00:41:37,600 HE SIGHS 572 00:41:37,620 --> 00:41:39,460 We fucked things up a bit, eh? 573 00:41:45,900 --> 00:41:47,580 I wanted to say goodbye properly. 574 00:41:51,660 --> 00:41:54,220 No, I didn't. I wanted to say... 575 00:41:56,860 --> 00:41:59,820 ...you don't have to go. 576 00:42:03,180 --> 00:42:04,860 I'm losing my best officer. 577 00:42:23,660 --> 00:42:26,260 I was never yours to lose. 578 00:42:28,860 --> 00:42:30,580 See you on Monday. 579 00:43:04,100 --> 00:43:06,260 HE SIGHS 580 00:43:27,260 --> 00:43:32,060 SNIFFS 581 00:43:38,860 --> 00:43:40,780 Dad would'ae approved, right? 582 00:43:47,700 --> 00:43:50,300 I thought Mum should be here. No. 583 00:44:02,620 --> 00:44:04,300 HE SIGHS 584 00:44:09,700 --> 00:44:13,100 Right. Together as a family, right? 585 00:44:15,500 --> 00:44:20,100 TRAIN RUMBLES OVERHEAD 586 00:44:55,340 --> 00:44:56,660 Ray. 587 00:45:00,620 --> 00:45:05,100 You need to speak to Jock... about that day. 588 00:45:06,460 --> 00:45:08,760 What day? 589 00:45:08,780 --> 00:45:10,500 You know what day, son. 590 00:45:21,500 --> 00:45:24,100 How could I have not known? 591 00:45:24,120 --> 00:45:25,700 SHE SNIFFS 592 00:45:27,340 --> 00:45:29,220 He wants to speak to me about something now 593 00:45:29,240 --> 00:45:30,860 that happened 40 years ago? 594 00:45:30,880 --> 00:45:32,500 Wh-What could he possibly say? 595 00:45:39,700 --> 00:45:44,220 He saw some men hanging around that day. 596 00:45:44,240 --> 00:45:46,180 And he... 597 00:45:48,940 --> 00:45:50,940 ...saw you come out in the tunnel. 598 00:45:54,900 --> 00:46:00,260 He recognised one of them, and he'd heard the rumours. 599 00:46:01,380 --> 00:46:03,140 What was Jock doing there? 600 00:46:10,100 --> 00:46:12,380 He was coming back from seeing me. 601 00:46:14,340 --> 00:46:17,460 And he knew that people would ask questions, so... 602 00:46:21,140 --> 00:46:23,180 ...so he just said nothing. 603 00:46:39,700 --> 00:46:42,460 I'm sorry about what I've said. 604 00:46:42,480 --> 00:46:44,820 I'm sorry. 605 00:46:48,580 --> 00:46:50,960 It's all right, Mum. 606 00:46:50,980 --> 00:46:53,940 It's all right. I love you. 607 00:47:28,020 --> 00:47:30,740 HORNS HONK 608 00:47:52,420 --> 00:47:56,900 "Raymond, I'm writing to tell you what I know now. 609 00:47:58,300 --> 00:48:02,020 "I wish I could tell you that this hurt goes away, 610 00:48:02,040 --> 00:48:04,100 "but it's not been as simple as that, pal. 611 00:48:05,340 --> 00:48:09,140 "At times, you'll feel ashamed, angry, guilty. 612 00:48:10,100 --> 00:48:13,360 "You'll learn that not all monsters lurk in tunnels, 613 00:48:13,380 --> 00:48:16,710 "and sometimes, you'll feel things you have no words for. 614 00:48:16,730 --> 00:48:20,060 "I'm here to tell you that you don't have to rage and blame 615 00:48:20,080 --> 00:48:22,420 "and point fingers at others and yourself. 616 00:48:23,620 --> 00:48:26,720 "You can throw off that cloak of shame. 617 00:48:26,740 --> 00:48:29,300 "You need to know that this was not your fault. 618 00:48:30,420 --> 00:48:33,140 "You deserve love, and you can love yourself. 619 00:48:34,460 --> 00:48:37,720 "Hold my hand, look in the mirror 620 00:48:37,740 --> 00:48:39,780 "and see the beautiful boy that you are. 621 00:48:40,900 --> 00:48:43,100 "You contain multitudes." 622 00:48:45,460 --> 00:48:47,260 'My name is Ray, and I'm an addict. 623 00:48:48,540 --> 00:48:52,020 'I've displaced my life for 40 years hiding from who I am... 624 00:48:54,380 --> 00:48:56,060 '...hiding from what's made me.' 625 00:48:57,980 --> 00:49:00,860 Power of the group's what keeps you safe. 626 00:49:02,260 --> 00:49:05,160 But life isnae safe. 627 00:49:05,180 --> 00:49:07,980 Life's a challenge that has to be faced. 628 00:49:10,380 --> 00:49:15,040 Now I have to leave it all behind... 629 00:49:15,060 --> 00:49:18,780 because it's time to heal myself and move on. 630 00:49:21,620 --> 00:49:23,220 I choose life.