1 00:00:00,240 --> 00:00:02,640 Erskine's eyelids were removed. What did he see? 2 00:00:02,640 --> 00:00:06,760 He was housing a large collection of illegal porn. 3 00:00:06,760 --> 00:00:08,720 "Should auld acquaintance be forgot?" 4 00:00:08,720 --> 00:00:11,360 Norrie Erskine worked at Adri House Hotel. 5 00:00:11,360 --> 00:00:12,520 He was there at the same time 6 00:00:12,520 --> 00:00:15,440 as Richie Gulliver, William Durie and Christopher Piggott-Wilkins. 7 00:00:15,440 --> 00:00:17,400 A student and Christmas cover. 8 00:00:17,400 --> 00:00:20,240 She accused a group of guests of sexually assaulting her. 9 00:00:20,240 --> 00:00:23,120 Erskine was following someone. His name is Victor Maslow. 10 00:00:23,120 --> 00:00:25,560 But I've fucking seen him! I saw you with Lennox last night. 11 00:00:25,560 --> 00:00:29,160 He's a client, that's all. And that person must be stopped. 12 00:00:29,160 --> 00:00:32,160 If we have two-tier policing, democracy's fucked! 13 00:00:32,160 --> 00:00:33,880 Democracy is not our concern. 14 00:00:33,880 --> 00:00:35,800 I was raped. I was ten. 15 00:00:35,800 --> 00:00:37,400 And I was terrified. 16 00:00:37,400 --> 00:00:39,280 There's nothing wrong with being honest, son. 17 00:00:39,280 --> 00:00:42,240 I'm not your son, Jock. His interview is tomorrow. 18 00:00:42,240 --> 00:00:44,320 At least pretended to give a shit about this. 19 00:00:44,320 --> 00:00:45,920 Armando? 20 00:00:45,920 --> 00:00:47,360 There you go, Vic. 21 00:00:49,600 --> 00:00:51,080 CAN OPENS 22 00:00:53,080 --> 00:00:58,000 Thirty years I spent cleaning offices doon at the Barnes. 23 00:00:58,000 --> 00:01:02,360 Backbreaking work. But we were a family. 24 00:01:03,360 --> 00:01:07,640 Me and the other lasses took a pride in what we did. 25 00:01:10,320 --> 00:01:12,360 APPLAUSE 26 00:01:16,280 --> 00:01:18,120 OK. 27 00:01:20,240 --> 00:01:24,440 And now, Jock Allardyce will share some memories with us. 28 00:01:30,040 --> 00:01:33,520 I was at sea on the merchant fleet. 29 00:01:33,520 --> 00:01:35,680 Then I ended up on the railways. 30 00:01:36,600 --> 00:01:37,840 An honest living. 31 00:01:41,240 --> 00:01:42,760 But I wasn't honest. 32 00:01:45,120 --> 00:01:49,400 I cheated on my wife and my best pal for 30 years. 33 00:01:51,720 --> 00:01:54,000 Sneaking behind their backs. 34 00:01:55,600 --> 00:01:59,720 All for a glance... a touch of the hand. 35 00:02:02,120 --> 00:02:05,240 Afternoon delight with my best pal's wife. 36 00:02:08,920 --> 00:02:10,360 I'm not proud. 37 00:02:11,480 --> 00:02:14,480 Worried what it would do to her eldest boy. 38 00:02:14,480 --> 00:02:16,880 He was sensitive, she said. 39 00:02:18,520 --> 00:02:20,240 I resented him for that. 40 00:02:24,240 --> 00:02:26,080 So I did a terrible thing. 41 00:02:30,280 --> 00:02:33,240 We're together now, but it's too late. 42 00:02:35,720 --> 00:02:38,840 Her boy paid the price for my actions. 43 00:02:42,720 --> 00:02:44,480 I owe them the truth. 44 00:02:51,280 --> 00:02:54,480 RAY: 'Sometimes, there are days that live forever, 45 00:02:54,480 --> 00:02:57,160 'days that shape and define you indelibly. 46 00:03:03,240 --> 00:03:06,440 'When everything you've built crashes to the ground.' 47 00:03:12,280 --> 00:03:14,320 RAINFALL 48 00:03:44,880 --> 00:03:46,480 HE SIGHS 49 00:03:46,480 --> 00:03:48,120 Looks like Lennox never showed. 50 00:03:49,680 --> 00:03:52,360 Good for me. Two horse race. 51 00:03:52,360 --> 00:03:55,560 Stallion Starkers against the filly. 52 00:03:56,920 --> 00:04:01,840 You are a pathetic, puerile little man. 53 00:04:03,000 --> 00:04:05,560 Do you really believe you're promotion material? 54 00:04:05,560 --> 00:04:08,520 Aye, Filly Fucking Nonsense. SHE LAUGHS 55 00:04:08,520 --> 00:04:11,960 Mind, I know all about your bullshit, sister. 56 00:04:13,280 --> 00:04:14,600 Ah, for fuck's sake. 57 00:04:17,440 --> 00:04:21,080 RAY: 'Sometimes if you're being honest with yourself, 58 00:04:21,080 --> 00:04:25,160 'your biggest inspirations in life are not the virtuous mentors, 59 00:04:25,160 --> 00:04:28,920 'but the utter fucked up self-serving arseholes. 60 00:04:30,120 --> 00:04:33,040 'For these are the pricks you kicketh against.' 61 00:04:35,840 --> 00:04:41,000 Detective Inspector Lennox, obvious opening question. 62 00:04:41,000 --> 00:04:42,920 What makes you want this job? 63 00:04:42,920 --> 00:04:44,920 'When the whole gig is heading for the rocks, 64 00:04:44,920 --> 00:04:48,480 'there is a perverse pleasure in steering towards them at high speed. 65 00:04:48,480 --> 00:04:51,200 'It's the only empowerment we have left.' 66 00:04:51,200 --> 00:04:52,400 Well... 67 00:04:58,000 --> 00:05:01,880 Victor Maslow, born 10th June, 1995. 68 00:05:01,880 --> 00:05:04,280 Grew up and attended school in Muirhouse. 69 00:05:04,280 --> 00:05:06,640 Worked for a period of time cutting grass 70 00:05:06,640 --> 00:05:10,360 for the council's recreation department, ten years ago. 71 00:05:10,360 --> 00:05:11,400 Now, he lost that job 72 00:05:11,400 --> 00:05:14,320 after an accident that caused severe nerve damage to his left arm, 73 00:05:14,320 --> 00:05:16,240 for which he was hospitalised. 74 00:05:17,440 --> 00:05:20,640 No mention of where and when the accident took place. 75 00:05:21,680 --> 00:05:24,160 No arrest record to speak of. 76 00:05:24,160 --> 00:05:27,160 Maslow is dangerous, and he could kill again. 77 00:05:27,160 --> 00:05:28,640 Step it up. 78 00:05:34,960 --> 00:05:37,360 RADIO: 'Good morning. Welcome to Radio 11. 79 00:05:37,360 --> 00:05:38,760 'It's 10:25 in the AM...' 80 00:05:38,760 --> 00:05:41,320 CHUCKLES 81 00:05:41,320 --> 00:05:43,840 'We've got a great show coming up for you this morning. 82 00:05:43,840 --> 00:05:45,840 'Coming up...' 83 00:05:45,840 --> 00:05:50,040 "Rise, rebel, rise." 84 00:05:50,040 --> 00:05:52,200 What the fuck is this? 85 00:05:53,240 --> 00:05:57,440 Armando's parents bought him it. I think it's cool. 86 00:05:57,440 --> 00:05:58,840 It was his 18th. 87 00:06:00,760 --> 00:06:03,800 He's wanted one, like, forever. 88 00:06:06,120 --> 00:06:08,600 Why do you think it's cool? 89 00:06:08,600 --> 00:06:11,120 It's just really inspirational. 90 00:06:13,280 --> 00:06:16,000 But what does it mean to you? 91 00:06:16,000 --> 00:06:17,680 It's, er... 92 00:06:18,760 --> 00:06:20,520 ..sticking it to the man. 93 00:06:21,600 --> 00:06:25,680 People refusing to take any shit, right? 94 00:06:25,680 --> 00:06:29,400 We've become so disengaged these days. 95 00:06:29,400 --> 00:06:31,840 So Armando's still in bed? 96 00:06:31,840 --> 00:06:33,560 What's he got in for breakfast? 97 00:06:38,080 --> 00:06:42,920 We are agents of the state, but what is that state? 98 00:06:42,920 --> 00:06:45,440 Is it there to feed people, to clothe them, 99 00:06:45,440 --> 00:06:46,840 to provide them with homes, 100 00:06:46,840 --> 00:06:48,800 financial and employment opportunities? 101 00:06:50,000 --> 00:06:52,680 No. The state used to do these things, 102 00:06:52,680 --> 00:06:54,160 this was the post-war settlement, 103 00:06:54,160 --> 00:06:56,320 and modern democracy was founded on that balance 104 00:06:56,320 --> 00:06:58,640 between people and money, but now, 105 00:06:58,640 --> 00:07:01,480 politicians are entertainers with media to distract us, 106 00:07:01,480 --> 00:07:03,520 while they build fiefdoms and palaces 107 00:07:03,520 --> 00:07:05,000 for a smaller and smaller elite, 108 00:07:05,000 --> 00:07:06,800 looting the taxpayer's purse at will. 109 00:07:06,800 --> 00:07:09,280 And this is a society that you want me to police? 110 00:07:09,280 --> 00:07:11,920 My partner was murdered. 111 00:07:11,920 --> 00:07:13,800 Yes, he had... 112 00:07:13,800 --> 00:07:16,960 problems, but how did we get there, eh? 113 00:07:16,960 --> 00:07:21,480 Under my watch, that won't happen. 114 00:07:21,480 --> 00:07:23,000 I can make a difference. 115 00:07:23,000 --> 00:07:25,680 Get our clean-up rates the highest in Britain, 116 00:07:25,680 --> 00:07:28,080 modernise the force. 117 00:07:28,080 --> 00:07:29,920 We have to be the best of ourselves. 118 00:07:29,920 --> 00:07:32,080 We call ourselves the Police Service, 119 00:07:32,080 --> 00:07:34,360 but who do we serve? What is the law? 120 00:07:34,360 --> 00:07:36,920 Who does the law that we enforce benefit? 121 00:07:36,920 --> 00:07:40,120 We're there to protect the property and the bourgeoisie. 122 00:07:40,120 --> 00:07:44,360 The desk-bound, I mean, what do they actually do? 123 00:07:44,360 --> 00:07:46,440 Shuffle papers and get in the road. 124 00:07:47,720 --> 00:07:53,360 A street police presence reassures the public. 125 00:07:53,360 --> 00:07:56,320 We don't want police officers charging round the streets. 126 00:07:56,320 --> 00:07:59,320 We have cameras everywhere. 127 00:07:59,320 --> 00:08:03,680 We need cops who are tech-savvy, who can crunch data, 128 00:08:03,680 --> 00:08:06,840 who don't bring emotions into police work. 129 00:08:06,840 --> 00:08:08,880 Sometimes here in Serious Crime, 130 00:08:08,880 --> 00:08:11,320 we get to pursue the real bad bastards - 131 00:08:11,320 --> 00:08:14,440 the paedos, the rapists, the abusers who prey on those weaker, 132 00:08:14,440 --> 00:08:17,880 and all of a sudden, our work has a real moral calling. 133 00:08:17,880 --> 00:08:20,280 I've learned so much from DI Lennox. 134 00:08:22,440 --> 00:08:26,760 But can you really police if you don't sort out your emotional life? 135 00:08:26,760 --> 00:08:29,280 Leave that stuff at home. 136 00:08:29,280 --> 00:08:31,480 Don't let it get in the way. 137 00:08:31,480 --> 00:08:33,400 Be professional. 138 00:08:33,400 --> 00:08:35,920 They used to call me Ironman 139 00:08:35,920 --> 00:08:38,920 when I was in Vice after the superhero - 140 00:08:38,920 --> 00:08:41,400 millionaire playboy Tony Stark. 141 00:08:42,640 --> 00:08:45,120 Well, they called me that because... 142 00:08:45,120 --> 00:08:47,880 I... got... 143 00:08:48,960 --> 00:08:50,160 ..results. 144 00:08:50,160 --> 00:08:52,520 To deploy IT imaginatively 145 00:08:52,520 --> 00:08:55,360 but with respect for citizens' rights. 146 00:08:55,360 --> 00:08:59,840 To support officers suffering from stress and burn-out. 147 00:08:59,840 --> 00:09:04,120 To increase diversity and to make the force a safer place for women. 148 00:09:06,000 --> 00:09:07,320 It's fucking consumerism. 149 00:09:07,320 --> 00:09:11,680 A struggle to put food on the table, reduced to a rich kid's toys. 150 00:09:11,680 --> 00:09:15,160 What's a poster like this doing in a rich man's shag palace? 151 00:09:15,160 --> 00:09:17,560 He's got a Lenin one in the bedroom, too. 152 00:09:17,560 --> 00:09:19,840 Should've seen his face when he unwrapped it. 153 00:09:19,840 --> 00:09:21,280 It cost over a grand. 154 00:09:21,280 --> 00:09:23,520 Do you even know who Lenin is? 155 00:09:24,840 --> 00:09:26,800 Lexi, who is Lenin? 156 00:09:26,800 --> 00:09:31,080 LEXI: 'Vladimir Ilyich Ulyanov, better known as Vladimir Lenin, 157 00:09:31,080 --> 00:09:34,760 'was a Russian revolutionary, politician and political theorist.' 158 00:09:34,760 --> 00:09:35,920 I do now. 159 00:09:37,040 --> 00:09:39,160 Look, Armando's parents have paid for it 160 00:09:39,160 --> 00:09:42,680 and we're the ones being inspired. Political action right there. 161 00:09:42,680 --> 00:09:44,360 Cocooned in a bourgeois property 162 00:09:44,360 --> 00:09:46,920 during a devastating cost-of-living crisis. 163 00:09:46,920 --> 00:09:50,640 While the richest 5% of the population are getting richer still. 164 00:09:50,640 --> 00:09:54,760 Keep kill, Vic. Do you want some breakfast, Vic? 165 00:09:55,920 --> 00:09:56,960 RAY: Let me explain. 166 00:09:58,960 --> 00:10:00,360 I don't want this job. 167 00:10:00,360 --> 00:10:03,240 I just came here to, to testify to you all. 168 00:10:03,240 --> 00:10:05,600 It's people like you who have 169 00:10:05,600 --> 00:10:07,640 presided over the decline in the police. 170 00:10:07,640 --> 00:10:10,400 How could I work with you? 171 00:10:10,400 --> 00:10:13,800 I don't want this job. 172 00:10:13,800 --> 00:10:15,920 Wait, Ray, stop. Stop. 173 00:10:15,920 --> 00:10:18,960 What the hell is going on with the men in your department? 174 00:10:18,960 --> 00:10:21,160 I know that the Erskine mur... 175 00:10:21,160 --> 00:10:22,560 Homicide! 176 00:10:23,520 --> 00:10:27,400 ..affected all of us very deeply, 177 00:10:27,400 --> 00:10:29,160 but please... 178 00:10:30,240 --> 00:10:32,000 ..think about your future. 179 00:10:34,720 --> 00:10:38,760 I'm sorry, boss, I've wasted your time. 180 00:10:38,760 --> 00:10:42,040 But you are wasting a lot of people's time. 181 00:10:42,040 --> 00:10:43,280 I know, in different ways, 182 00:10:43,280 --> 00:10:45,720 you've all been able to make your peace with this. 183 00:10:45,720 --> 00:10:47,520 Good on you. Sadly... 184 00:10:52,920 --> 00:10:56,320 ..I can't... anymore. 185 00:10:56,320 --> 00:10:57,760 The truth is... 186 00:11:00,040 --> 00:11:02,080 ..I was never really here. 187 00:11:08,800 --> 00:11:10,960 DOOR OPENS, CLOSES 188 00:11:14,320 --> 00:11:18,120 We are the kamikaze pilots of social change, 189 00:11:18,120 --> 00:11:20,000 so let's crash that plane. 190 00:11:20,000 --> 00:11:22,200 It's the one thing we can do, 191 00:11:22,200 --> 00:11:24,960 it's the ultimate sacrifice, wouldn't you say? Fraser? 192 00:11:24,960 --> 00:11:28,600 That's all well and good, man, but that sofa's shit to sleep on. 193 00:11:30,360 --> 00:11:33,040 It will all be all right in the end, Vic. 194 00:11:40,240 --> 00:11:44,040 Come on, you lazy git. I've made you a cup of tea. 195 00:11:49,640 --> 00:11:53,440 SCREAMS 196 00:12:04,480 --> 00:12:06,520 LENORA HYPERVENTILATES 197 00:12:12,080 --> 00:12:14,160 SOBBING 198 00:12:20,160 --> 00:12:21,520 DOOR CLOSES 199 00:12:21,520 --> 00:12:24,600 How the fuck has it come to this? 200 00:12:24,600 --> 00:12:26,760 You've achieved so much for this city. 201 00:12:28,040 --> 00:12:32,000 Why?! Why shit the bed? 202 00:12:32,000 --> 00:12:33,200 I'm sorry, Bob. 203 00:12:38,720 --> 00:12:43,040 I told you... be my Cantona. 204 00:12:45,760 --> 00:12:48,080 Well, you've done it now. 205 00:12:50,320 --> 00:12:51,840 You wandered away... 206 00:12:53,760 --> 00:12:55,200 ..just like him. 207 00:12:59,680 --> 00:13:02,440 I wouldnae have had any career at all without you, boss. 208 00:13:04,960 --> 00:13:07,720 You gave me a longer leash than I deserved. 209 00:13:08,640 --> 00:13:10,200 I must be demented. 210 00:13:12,760 --> 00:13:15,080 But working with you 211 00:13:15,080 --> 00:13:19,360 is, perversely, the thing I'll miss most about this job. 212 00:13:25,840 --> 00:13:27,280 People don't understand... 213 00:13:28,480 --> 00:13:31,560 ..how hard it is, this job that we do. 214 00:13:34,960 --> 00:13:37,360 Is there anything I can do for you? 215 00:13:39,160 --> 00:13:41,400 Drop the disciplinary charges against Struthers. 216 00:13:42,720 --> 00:13:45,520 He needs to grow up in a forgiven organisation 217 00:13:45,520 --> 00:13:48,560 full of folks who ken what it's like to be... 218 00:13:48,560 --> 00:13:49,880 to be human. 219 00:13:52,120 --> 00:13:53,320 SIGHS 220 00:14:00,920 --> 00:14:04,160 'Struthers.' Struthers, come into my office. 221 00:14:07,960 --> 00:14:10,040 I always did let you get away with fucking mur... 222 00:14:10,040 --> 00:14:11,120 Homicide. 223 00:14:12,800 --> 00:14:14,960 Fucking homicide. 224 00:14:14,960 --> 00:14:17,800 THEY LAUGH 225 00:14:22,640 --> 00:14:24,040 I have been trying to show you that 226 00:14:24,040 --> 00:14:28,680 this is how most people live their lives... in fear. 227 00:14:28,680 --> 00:14:30,440 Fear of never having enough to eat, 228 00:14:30,440 --> 00:14:33,560 fear the polis will wipe them out at any moment, 229 00:14:33,560 --> 00:14:37,680 fear of never escaping the shithole into which they were born. 230 00:14:37,680 --> 00:14:39,200 But Armando... 231 00:14:40,840 --> 00:14:42,200 ..you killed him. 232 00:14:43,400 --> 00:14:45,480 This is everything we spoke about, Fraser. 233 00:14:48,720 --> 00:14:51,280 Revolution. Inequality. 234 00:14:52,920 --> 00:14:54,960 Righting wrongs. He was our friend. 235 00:14:54,960 --> 00:14:57,320 He paid lip service to our objectives. 236 00:14:59,080 --> 00:15:02,680 There are real people out there with no roof over their heads, 237 00:15:02,680 --> 00:15:06,160 and all the while, this privileged prick is... 238 00:15:06,160 --> 00:15:09,560 WAS... being bankrolled by Mummy and Daddy. 239 00:15:09,560 --> 00:15:11,200 You're mental. 240 00:15:11,200 --> 00:15:13,400 Why would you do something like that? 241 00:15:15,680 --> 00:15:18,320 Have you not been listening to anything I've said? 242 00:15:23,440 --> 00:15:24,560 I need a piss. 243 00:15:28,040 --> 00:15:29,480 VICTOR EXHALES SHARPLY 244 00:15:37,240 --> 00:15:38,720 DOOR CLOSES 245 00:15:44,880 --> 00:15:46,320 DOOR LOCK RATTLES 246 00:15:56,560 --> 00:15:59,640 Well, obviously, I locked the door. 247 00:16:05,760 --> 00:16:08,080 This man is a fucking freedom fighter. 248 00:16:09,080 --> 00:16:13,120 This is no longer a place for real polis. 249 00:16:13,120 --> 00:16:15,160 You really tell them to ram it up their holes? 250 00:16:15,160 --> 00:16:17,160 Then fucking quit? 251 00:16:17,160 --> 00:16:19,600 Ray? Not in those exact words, 252 00:16:19,600 --> 00:16:22,160 but it was pretty much the message, aye. 253 00:16:41,240 --> 00:16:43,120 Erm, was it...? 254 00:16:45,160 --> 00:16:46,360 Was it me? 255 00:16:47,920 --> 00:16:50,760 Erm... Was it something I did? 256 00:16:53,280 --> 00:16:56,640 No. No, Amanda, it wisnae you. 257 00:17:02,040 --> 00:17:04,360 I guess... 258 00:17:04,360 --> 00:17:07,840 I guess it makes things less complicated. 259 00:17:08,920 --> 00:17:11,160 MOBILE RINGS 260 00:17:11,160 --> 00:17:12,560 HE SIGHS 261 00:17:12,560 --> 00:17:14,760 Sally? 262 00:17:14,760 --> 00:17:17,400 Not like you to call me. Is everything all right? 263 00:17:18,560 --> 00:17:21,800 Come and see me, Ray. We need to talk. 264 00:17:21,800 --> 00:17:26,360 Er... OK. I'm on my way. 265 00:17:37,120 --> 00:17:38,520 I need to go. 266 00:17:38,520 --> 00:17:39,960 Ray. 267 00:17:39,960 --> 00:17:41,200 DOOR OPENS 268 00:17:42,520 --> 00:17:43,600 DOOR CLOSES 269 00:17:52,120 --> 00:17:54,480 DOORBELL RINGS 270 00:17:55,920 --> 00:17:57,960 MOBILE CHIMES 271 00:18:20,480 --> 00:18:22,880 KNOCKING ON DOOR 272 00:18:22,880 --> 00:18:24,400 It's open. 273 00:19:00,680 --> 00:19:02,520 Hello, Ray. 274 00:19:44,000 --> 00:19:45,720 SOBBING 275 00:19:45,720 --> 00:19:48,480 My mum and dad, they'll be looking for me. 276 00:19:48,480 --> 00:19:51,480 I said I'd ring them first thing. 277 00:19:54,520 --> 00:19:56,840 I'll let you into a little secret. 278 00:19:57,880 --> 00:19:59,960 I fucking hate your uncle. 279 00:20:02,360 --> 00:20:03,920 You don't even know him. 280 00:20:04,880 --> 00:20:06,440 Oh, Fraser, I know him. 281 00:20:08,120 --> 00:20:09,280 And I know you. 282 00:20:11,120 --> 00:20:13,800 He is a servant of the state. 283 00:20:15,960 --> 00:20:17,880 And you're a joyrider. 284 00:20:17,880 --> 00:20:22,120 I know that in ten years' time, you'll be your mother. 285 00:20:22,120 --> 00:20:26,640 Pushing paper round a desk, dressed in a pinstripe suit, 286 00:20:26,640 --> 00:20:28,880 driving a Range Rover Evoque. 287 00:20:28,880 --> 00:20:30,440 SOBS 288 00:20:30,440 --> 00:20:32,920 H-How do you know about Mum? 289 00:20:32,920 --> 00:20:36,560 Just like your performance. 290 00:20:36,560 --> 00:20:39,920 You play at being liberated and progressive. 291 00:20:39,920 --> 00:20:42,480 Do you know how fucking stupid you look? 292 00:20:42,480 --> 00:20:43,960 Too immature to understand 293 00:20:43,960 --> 00:20:46,880 the logical conclusions of anything you say. 294 00:20:46,880 --> 00:20:49,520 I do. I'm not them. 295 00:20:50,960 --> 00:20:52,720 You've always taught us to oppose 296 00:20:52,720 --> 00:20:55,440 the fucking stilted bourgeois conditioning. 297 00:20:57,000 --> 00:21:00,560 You can't give up on us now. For fuck's sake. 298 00:21:02,000 --> 00:21:03,480 Vic! 299 00:21:08,960 --> 00:21:10,000 Amanda, look. 300 00:21:10,000 --> 00:21:12,560 This is the woman who made the rape complaint 301 00:21:12,560 --> 00:21:14,440 to senior management at Adre House. 302 00:21:17,360 --> 00:21:18,520 That's her there. 303 00:21:24,000 --> 00:21:26,240 I don't believe it. 304 00:21:26,240 --> 00:21:29,480 Erm... Get hold of Ray. Now. 305 00:21:29,480 --> 00:21:31,560 Amanda? Now! 306 00:21:31,560 --> 00:21:34,200 Probably taken about... 307 00:21:34,200 --> 00:21:36,680 ten minutes before the bells. 308 00:21:48,160 --> 00:21:49,520 The night my life changed. 309 00:22:16,080 --> 00:22:18,000 Why are you dressed like this? 310 00:22:18,000 --> 00:22:21,160 Isn't this what men see when they look at a woman? 311 00:22:21,160 --> 00:22:22,480 Not all men. 312 00:22:24,400 --> 00:22:26,200 Would you like to think that, Ray? 313 00:22:26,200 --> 00:22:29,960 Consider the strength and size of the men, 314 00:22:29,960 --> 00:22:31,640 that inevitable inequality. 315 00:22:32,800 --> 00:22:35,880 An empath like you will always think you're different, but... 316 00:22:36,960 --> 00:22:38,320 ..is it not true to say that... 317 00:22:40,120 --> 00:22:42,640 ..every man who lies on my couch is a beast? 318 00:22:44,000 --> 00:22:45,920 Why am I here, Sally? 319 00:22:47,000 --> 00:22:48,320 I'm worried about you, Ray. 320 00:22:49,840 --> 00:22:51,440 You're on the same path I was on. 321 00:22:52,520 --> 00:22:53,920 What do you mean? 322 00:22:56,360 --> 00:22:57,720 The desire to... 323 00:22:59,240 --> 00:23:02,800 ..wreak revenge is overwhelming, 324 00:23:02,800 --> 00:23:06,760 but it's unsatisfying and reductive. 325 00:23:06,760 --> 00:23:08,280 All it does... 326 00:23:15,440 --> 00:23:18,560 ..turns in you into what you fear the most. 327 00:23:20,520 --> 00:23:22,320 Which is what? 328 00:23:43,440 --> 00:23:46,600 You and Victor Maslow are fascinating case studies. 329 00:23:46,600 --> 00:23:51,400 Both wallowing a victimhood, displaying narcissistic traits, 330 00:23:51,400 --> 00:23:54,680 both defined by great revenge narratives. 331 00:23:55,880 --> 00:23:57,280 You're not so far apart. 332 00:23:59,520 --> 00:24:04,440 Maslow sat there and told me how he acted on his vengeance, 333 00:24:04,440 --> 00:24:06,120 he couldn't stop telling me about it. 334 00:24:07,520 --> 00:24:08,720 It fuelled him. 335 00:24:10,000 --> 00:24:12,000 He loved it. 336 00:24:12,000 --> 00:24:14,200 It defined him. 337 00:24:14,200 --> 00:24:15,520 Tell me about Maslow. 338 00:24:17,480 --> 00:24:21,000 Injured in an accident doing a favour for an uncaring man. 339 00:24:22,440 --> 00:24:24,320 He lost his job. 340 00:24:24,320 --> 00:24:29,280 During months of recuperation, his resentment grew. 341 00:24:29,280 --> 00:24:34,160 Revenge fantasies are common for victims of trauma. 342 00:24:34,160 --> 00:24:36,720 It's about redressing the balance, but... 343 00:24:36,720 --> 00:24:38,640 his sense of injustice... 344 00:24:39,760 --> 00:24:41,160 ..at what he lost... 345 00:24:42,680 --> 00:24:43,960 ..tipped that balance. 346 00:24:45,600 --> 00:24:49,200 He murdered that man and told me every detail. 347 00:24:49,200 --> 00:24:51,720 Of course, I should've involved the police, but... 348 00:24:53,760 --> 00:24:56,400 ..then he told me the man's name. 349 00:25:03,000 --> 00:25:04,840 Piggott-Wilkins. 350 00:25:04,840 --> 00:25:06,280 The father. 351 00:25:07,440 --> 00:25:09,840 Then, in an instant... 352 00:25:09,840 --> 00:25:11,640 I was back in that room. 353 00:25:17,320 --> 00:25:19,240 Two men raped me. 354 00:25:19,240 --> 00:25:23,120 One held me down, the other... watched. 355 00:25:24,640 --> 00:25:27,280 And didn't have the courage to stop it. 356 00:25:29,120 --> 00:25:32,760 And... there on my couch was vengeance. 357 00:25:37,840 --> 00:25:39,840 Opportunity, Ray. 358 00:25:44,040 --> 00:25:45,880 Hello, Amanda. 359 00:25:54,880 --> 00:25:56,360 Sally. 360 00:26:01,160 --> 00:26:02,640 Sally. 361 00:26:24,800 --> 00:26:26,960 I was pinned down. 362 00:26:28,280 --> 00:26:29,800 They were... 363 00:26:32,160 --> 00:26:33,880 ..brutal. 364 00:26:33,880 --> 00:26:35,600 Egging each other on, one after the other. 365 00:26:41,320 --> 00:26:43,880 Gulliver was the most violent. 366 00:26:43,880 --> 00:26:45,240 SHE GRUNTS 367 00:26:47,560 --> 00:26:49,920 I thought... seeing their fear as I... 368 00:26:49,920 --> 00:26:52,040 as I took their... 369 00:26:52,040 --> 00:26:53,720 lives would be cathartic. 370 00:26:56,800 --> 00:26:58,640 But that wisnae the case? 371 00:26:58,640 --> 00:27:00,520 I spent so long... 372 00:27:02,280 --> 00:27:04,520 ..trying to be somebody, trying to... 373 00:27:06,000 --> 00:27:07,400 ..trying to... 374 00:27:09,000 --> 00:27:11,480 ..achieve something. 375 00:27:13,640 --> 00:27:15,960 And now it's over. 376 00:27:15,960 --> 00:27:18,000 My crimes have... 377 00:27:18,000 --> 00:27:20,120 hollowed me out, just like their crimes did. 378 00:27:23,800 --> 00:27:25,120 But why now? 379 00:27:26,240 --> 00:27:28,520 What made you kill these men now? 380 00:27:31,040 --> 00:27:32,920 They never left me... 381 00:27:33,880 --> 00:27:36,600 ..that night, and... 382 00:27:36,600 --> 00:27:39,200 And then Maslow was... in my life. 383 00:27:40,560 --> 00:27:44,640 A man for whom vengeance was his biggest thrill, and I... 384 00:27:44,640 --> 00:27:47,320 I needed to be avenged, but each time I was... 385 00:27:47,320 --> 00:27:49,360 a little more of me died. 386 00:27:52,640 --> 00:27:54,000 I understand. 387 00:27:55,160 --> 00:27:56,240 I do. 388 00:27:57,480 --> 00:27:58,600 How? 389 00:27:58,600 --> 00:28:02,640 You're... a little like those men, Amanda. 390 00:28:02,640 --> 00:28:06,000 So careless with sex. 391 00:28:06,000 --> 00:28:09,560 It's facile communication for you, it's just a physical need. 392 00:28:09,560 --> 00:28:11,280 Where is Maslow? 393 00:28:11,280 --> 00:28:12,440 I don't know. 394 00:28:13,600 --> 00:28:16,240 I know he's not finished yet. 395 00:28:16,240 --> 00:28:17,520 He'll come for you, Ray. 396 00:28:20,880 --> 00:28:22,480 I hope you can stop him. 397 00:28:23,720 --> 00:28:26,360 Sally, you can tell your story. 398 00:28:26,360 --> 00:28:29,800 I'll make sure, I'll make sure that people'll listen. 399 00:28:31,760 --> 00:28:34,080 HE GASPS AMANDA: No! 400 00:29:01,200 --> 00:29:04,120 SNIFFS, SIGHS 401 00:29:05,560 --> 00:29:07,320 Call it in. 402 00:29:17,080 --> 00:29:18,520 AEROPLANE ENGINE WHISTLES 403 00:29:23,120 --> 00:29:24,760 EXHALES 404 00:29:24,760 --> 00:29:26,360 I really do like you two. 405 00:29:30,800 --> 00:29:32,640 You might still be useful. 406 00:29:35,280 --> 00:29:37,880 But you have to know, sacrifice, it... 407 00:29:37,880 --> 00:29:39,800 it's not just a word. 408 00:29:39,800 --> 00:29:43,480 You need to feel like an outcast from society. 409 00:29:44,680 --> 00:29:47,240 SCOFFS 410 00:29:47,240 --> 00:29:49,080 I planned to take your life. 411 00:29:51,240 --> 00:29:53,080 But I won't do that. I won't. 412 00:29:56,360 --> 00:29:57,600 I think... 413 00:29:59,520 --> 00:30:02,600 I think I'll... I think I'll take your hand, Fraser. 414 00:30:03,760 --> 00:30:05,400 WHIMPERS 415 00:30:05,400 --> 00:30:08,920 And your interest in identity politics 416 00:30:08,920 --> 00:30:10,480 is about to become... 417 00:30:10,480 --> 00:30:12,200 less abstract. 418 00:30:14,520 --> 00:30:20,120 When you lose your hand, you'll have a real, visible identity... 419 00:30:20,120 --> 00:30:22,040 as an amputee. 420 00:30:23,840 --> 00:30:26,960 Such social currency in your circle. 421 00:30:28,360 --> 00:30:30,240 GASPING 422 00:30:32,640 --> 00:30:34,560 PHONE RINGS 423 00:30:35,880 --> 00:30:37,360 CONTINUES RINGING 424 00:30:41,040 --> 00:30:42,520 HE GASPS 425 00:30:43,960 --> 00:30:45,920 PHONE RINGS 426 00:30:49,280 --> 00:30:50,320 Sally? 427 00:30:51,840 --> 00:30:53,640 No. 428 00:30:53,640 --> 00:30:56,440 It's Ray... Lennox. 429 00:31:01,280 --> 00:31:03,240 It's your favourite uncle. 430 00:31:07,920 --> 00:31:09,080 Uncle Ray? 431 00:31:09,080 --> 00:31:11,960 'Help. He says he's gonna cut my hand off.' 432 00:31:11,960 --> 00:31:15,200 He's already killed Armando! Uncle Ray, he's mental, please... 433 00:31:15,200 --> 00:31:17,760 The bowling green near the flats on Balmakeith Drive. 434 00:31:17,760 --> 00:31:20,000 'Come alone... 435 00:31:20,000 --> 00:31:22,120 'or Fraser will lose more than just his hand.' 436 00:31:28,400 --> 00:31:29,600 SIREN 437 00:31:42,640 --> 00:31:44,600 It's too fucking hot! 438 00:31:44,600 --> 00:31:46,400 Can you turn off the fucking radiator? 439 00:31:46,400 --> 00:31:48,840 ELECTRONIC VOICE: I don't have an answer for that. 440 00:31:48,840 --> 00:31:51,160 Is there something...? FURIOUSLY: Shut the fuck up! 441 00:32:07,960 --> 00:32:09,440 PHONE RINGS 442 00:32:12,040 --> 00:32:15,080 'Uncle Ray. I can see you.' 443 00:32:15,080 --> 00:32:16,720 Maslow, what the fuck...? 444 00:32:16,720 --> 00:32:19,520 'Well done. You came alone. 445 00:32:21,960 --> 00:32:24,600 '51. Flat 5. 446 00:32:25,720 --> 00:32:28,320 'Come on up. Alone.' 447 00:32:34,120 --> 00:32:37,240 Uncle Ray's on his way up. 448 00:32:37,240 --> 00:32:38,800 Go and let him in. 449 00:32:42,120 --> 00:32:43,400 And come back. 450 00:32:44,600 --> 00:32:46,880 Or he'll end up just like Armando. 451 00:32:54,440 --> 00:32:57,320 RAY: It's OK, it's OK. Where is he? Just through there. 452 00:33:01,960 --> 00:33:04,040 Come on in, Uncle Ray. 453 00:33:08,240 --> 00:33:10,040 OK, let him go. 454 00:33:11,840 --> 00:33:14,040 I know all about you. 455 00:33:15,600 --> 00:33:18,040 You'd be amazed how much Sally has said. 456 00:33:21,440 --> 00:33:23,120 Sally's dead. 457 00:33:25,080 --> 00:33:27,600 She manipulated us both. 458 00:33:30,640 --> 00:33:32,240 What are you talking about? 459 00:33:32,240 --> 00:33:33,880 You're a psychopath. 460 00:33:35,040 --> 00:33:36,640 Hiding behind ideology. 461 00:33:37,720 --> 00:33:40,440 Acting out a petty personal vengeance. 462 00:33:40,440 --> 00:33:43,480 You're no social justice crusader, you just like killing people. 463 00:33:43,480 --> 00:33:45,480 You chose the state, you would say that. 464 00:33:45,480 --> 00:33:47,160 Enemy of the people that you protect. 465 00:33:47,160 --> 00:33:49,920 What you gonna do, disembowel all the public schoolboys in the land? 466 00:33:49,920 --> 00:33:51,480 I would love that level of ambition. 467 00:33:51,480 --> 00:33:53,920 If you'd seen the things that I'd seen. 468 00:33:53,920 --> 00:33:56,040 Real people, real victims. 469 00:33:56,040 --> 00:33:59,520 Working people already fucked over by a hideous, terrorising system 470 00:33:59,520 --> 00:34:01,240 that you purport to detest. 471 00:34:01,240 --> 00:34:03,400 Social justice, my fucking arse! 472 00:34:03,400 --> 00:34:06,200 A cop, a servant of the state, talking about social justice? 473 00:34:06,200 --> 00:34:09,720 Has your vengeance woken the world up? It's just destroyed more lives. 474 00:34:09,720 --> 00:34:11,440 It's killed Sally. Fuck you! 475 00:34:11,440 --> 00:34:14,000 I take his hand or I take his throat, it's your choice! 476 00:34:14,000 --> 00:34:15,200 What do you say? 477 00:34:16,520 --> 00:34:17,720 Drew Busby. 478 00:34:19,360 --> 00:34:21,440 Who? Drew Busby. 479 00:34:22,800 --> 00:34:24,920 A Weegie, and one of the last to play 480 00:34:24,920 --> 00:34:27,160 for the now defunct Third Lanark. 481 00:34:29,080 --> 00:34:30,720 Signed from Airdrie as a striker. 482 00:34:30,720 --> 00:34:33,320 Had a prolific partnership there with Drew Jarvie. 483 00:34:33,320 --> 00:34:36,400 Converted to a midfield enforcer at Hearts. 484 00:34:36,400 --> 00:34:37,960 Fan favourite. 485 00:34:37,960 --> 00:34:39,920 Still managed 55 goals... What? 486 00:34:39,920 --> 00:34:42,440 ..fae 178 appearances. 487 00:34:42,440 --> 00:34:43,640 THUD 488 00:34:46,240 --> 00:34:47,760 CURRENT CRACKLES 489 00:34:48,840 --> 00:34:50,440 CRASH 490 00:34:50,440 --> 00:34:51,680 You fucking scumbag! 491 00:34:51,680 --> 00:34:54,520 You're one of the same fucking crew as them. 492 00:34:58,320 --> 00:35:04,480 Suspect apprehended, Flat 5, 51 Balmakeith Drive, Southside. 493 00:35:17,920 --> 00:35:20,080 FRASER: He could have killed us. 494 00:35:21,520 --> 00:35:23,440 I'm sorry, Uncle Ray. 495 00:35:23,440 --> 00:35:24,920 SIREN 496 00:35:27,400 --> 00:35:30,200 Nothing to be sorry for. Let's get you home. 497 00:35:43,720 --> 00:35:46,800 Celeste. Yeah. 498 00:35:47,920 --> 00:35:49,280 Sorry, do I know you? 499 00:35:49,280 --> 00:35:52,280 Erm, not really. I mean, I work with Gill, so... 500 00:35:52,280 --> 00:35:55,800 Oh. She sent you? 501 00:35:55,800 --> 00:36:01,240 No, er, I actually don't know what happened between you both, 502 00:36:01,240 --> 00:36:04,320 but I always think if you really care about each other, 503 00:36:04,320 --> 00:36:06,520 then most things can be talked through. 504 00:36:06,520 --> 00:36:08,360 Mm, no chance, she crossed a line. 505 00:36:08,360 --> 00:36:11,320 You know, Gill's really cut up about all this? 506 00:36:11,320 --> 00:36:14,520 Oh, yeah? Has she thought about how I felt, 507 00:36:14,520 --> 00:36:17,680 walking in to find her shagging that Struthers creep? 508 00:36:19,560 --> 00:36:21,240 It's over. 509 00:36:22,680 --> 00:36:25,320 What the actual fuck is going on with you two? 510 00:36:25,320 --> 00:36:29,160 It... It's not like it seems. You said you were a virgin. 511 00:36:29,160 --> 00:36:31,240 And you said you were a lesbian. I am! I am! 512 00:36:31,240 --> 00:36:34,800 I mean, I was. I mean, she... she taught me, it was for you. 513 00:36:34,800 --> 00:36:37,160 What? Well, it's, er... 514 00:36:37,160 --> 00:36:40,040 See, as ridiculous as that sounds, it really was for you. 515 00:36:40,040 --> 00:36:42,640 He just... He wanted to impress you. 516 00:36:42,640 --> 00:36:44,480 Er, er... I'm sorry. 517 00:36:44,480 --> 00:36:48,000 Er, look, look, be angry at me. 518 00:36:48,000 --> 00:36:50,320 I'm your mate, me. 519 00:36:50,320 --> 00:36:54,880 I should never have done it, right, but please, all our sakes, 520 00:36:54,880 --> 00:36:58,240 you've gotta give him a chance, please. 521 00:37:02,120 --> 00:37:03,920 SHE EXHALES 522 00:37:03,920 --> 00:37:08,520 Well, Amanda, congratulations. The job is yours. 523 00:37:11,280 --> 00:37:13,720 Thank you, Bob. 524 00:37:13,720 --> 00:37:16,760 It's been a rapid rise, I know, but I want you to... 525 00:37:16,760 --> 00:37:20,320 But in recognition of this rapid rise 526 00:37:20,320 --> 00:37:22,960 and your relative inexperience... 527 00:37:24,680 --> 00:37:30,400 ..there will be an initial job-share element. 528 00:37:32,920 --> 00:37:34,680 I'm sorry, I don't... 529 00:37:34,680 --> 00:37:37,800 We found an experienced man for you to learn from. 530 00:37:39,120 --> 00:37:41,800 It'll be good for you, Amanda. 531 00:37:54,520 --> 00:37:55,560 Where is he? 532 00:37:55,560 --> 00:37:59,320 He's OK, he's fine. He's upstairs. Right. 533 00:38:02,080 --> 00:38:04,200 We've both had our eye off the ball here, Jack. 534 00:38:07,680 --> 00:38:10,280 This family's fallen apart these past few weeks, 535 00:38:10,280 --> 00:38:13,600 but we're gonna fix it, OK? 536 00:38:14,560 --> 00:38:17,280 I don't care that you've got a girlfriend, Jack, 537 00:38:17,280 --> 00:38:19,800 and I don't care that Frase thinks he's David Bowie. 538 00:38:21,320 --> 00:38:23,280 I don't care that you think you've outgrown me. 539 00:38:23,280 --> 00:38:25,240 DOOR CLOSES 540 00:38:25,240 --> 00:38:29,120 You're still the people that I wanna be with most in this world. 541 00:38:31,120 --> 00:38:36,000 My beautiful boy. I'm OK, Mum, I'm... I'm fine. 542 00:38:36,000 --> 00:38:37,560 Hey. Ooh! 543 00:38:38,640 --> 00:38:40,400 Thanks for bringing him home, Ray. 544 00:39:27,960 --> 00:39:29,080 Ray. 545 00:39:31,240 --> 00:39:33,000 A word. 546 00:39:33,000 --> 00:39:35,360 DOOR CLOSES 547 00:39:35,360 --> 00:39:38,320 I got you a wee gift. Boss. 548 00:39:40,080 --> 00:39:42,560 You've been exceptional for me, Ray. 549 00:39:49,040 --> 00:39:50,720 Ah, ya bastard. 550 00:39:59,920 --> 00:40:01,400 Look after it. 551 00:40:03,680 --> 00:40:05,560 They're company, you know. 552 00:40:05,560 --> 00:40:08,480 RAY CHUCKLES Well, thank you, boss. 553 00:40:08,480 --> 00:40:10,840 I... Oh, ya bastard. Yeah. 554 00:40:10,840 --> 00:40:12,440 ..appreciate it. 555 00:40:13,480 --> 00:40:15,440 Whatever you do... 556 00:40:17,280 --> 00:40:19,080 ..live your life, Ray. 557 00:40:21,240 --> 00:40:22,720 It goes so quick. 558 00:40:26,400 --> 00:40:28,120 TEARFULLY: It goes so quick. 559 00:40:55,520 --> 00:40:56,760 Ray. 560 00:40:59,640 --> 00:41:02,600 Congratulations. Never in doubt. 561 00:41:02,600 --> 00:41:04,440 SHE CHUCKLES 562 00:41:04,440 --> 00:41:05,840 Yeah, after you pulled out. 563 00:41:07,160 --> 00:41:11,200 And it's a job share. How do you think that makes me feel? 564 00:41:11,200 --> 00:41:14,800 Like somebody who's been given a great opportunity? 565 00:41:14,800 --> 00:41:17,440 What will the likes of Stark think? 566 00:41:17,440 --> 00:41:20,600 That I'm a daft, wee lassie 567 00:41:20,600 --> 00:41:23,600 that's been feather-bedded in for political reasons? 568 00:41:25,800 --> 00:41:28,000 What sort of respect am I gonna get? 569 00:41:28,000 --> 00:41:30,080 Respect you have to earn. 570 00:41:30,080 --> 00:41:32,560 But you will. 571 00:41:35,240 --> 00:41:37,600 HE SIGHS 572 00:41:37,600 --> 00:41:39,440 We fucked things up a bit, eh? 573 00:41:45,880 --> 00:41:47,560 I wanted to say goodbye properly. 574 00:41:51,640 --> 00:41:54,200 No, I didn't. I wanted to say... 575 00:41:56,840 --> 00:41:59,800 ..you don't have to go. 576 00:42:03,160 --> 00:42:04,840 I'm losing my best officer. 577 00:42:23,640 --> 00:42:26,240 I was never yours to lose. 578 00:42:28,840 --> 00:42:30,560 See you on Monday. 579 00:43:04,080 --> 00:43:06,240 HE SIGHS 580 00:43:27,240 --> 00:43:32,040 SNIFFS 581 00:43:38,840 --> 00:43:40,760 Dad would'ae approved, right? 582 00:43:47,680 --> 00:43:50,280 I thought Mum should be here. No. 583 00:44:02,600 --> 00:44:04,280 HE SIGHS 584 00:44:09,680 --> 00:44:13,080 Right. Together as a family, right? 585 00:44:15,480 --> 00:44:20,080 TRAIN RUMBLES OVERHEAD 586 00:44:55,320 --> 00:44:56,640 Ray. 587 00:45:00,600 --> 00:45:05,080 You need to speak to Jock... about that day. 588 00:45:06,440 --> 00:45:08,760 What day? 589 00:45:08,760 --> 00:45:10,480 You know what day, son. 590 00:45:21,480 --> 00:45:24,080 How could I have not known? 591 00:45:24,080 --> 00:45:25,680 SHE SNIFFS 592 00:45:27,320 --> 00:45:29,200 He wants to speak to me about something now 593 00:45:29,200 --> 00:45:30,520 that happened 40 years ago? 594 00:45:30,520 --> 00:45:32,480 Wh-What could he possibly say? 595 00:45:39,680 --> 00:45:44,200 He saw some men hanging around that day. 596 00:45:44,200 --> 00:45:46,160 And he... 597 00:45:48,920 --> 00:45:50,920 ..saw you come out in the tunnel. 598 00:45:54,880 --> 00:46:00,240 He recognised one of them, and he'd heard the rumours. 599 00:46:01,360 --> 00:46:03,120 What was Jock doing there? 600 00:46:10,080 --> 00:46:12,360 He was coming back from seeing me. 601 00:46:14,320 --> 00:46:17,440 And he knew that people would ask questions, so... 602 00:46:21,120 --> 00:46:23,160 ..so he just said nothing. 603 00:46:39,680 --> 00:46:42,440 I'm sorry about what I've said. 604 00:46:42,440 --> 00:46:44,800 I'm sorry. 605 00:46:48,560 --> 00:46:50,960 It's all right, Mum. 606 00:46:50,960 --> 00:46:53,920 It's all right. I love you. 607 00:47:28,000 --> 00:47:30,720 HORNS HONK 608 00:47:52,400 --> 00:47:56,880 "Raymond, I'm writing to tell you what I know now. 609 00:47:58,280 --> 00:48:02,000 "I wish I could tell you that this hurt goes away, 610 00:48:02,000 --> 00:48:04,080 "but it's not been as simple as that, pal. 611 00:48:05,320 --> 00:48:09,120 "At times, you'll feel ashamed, angry, guilty. 612 00:48:10,080 --> 00:48:13,360 "You'll learn that not all monsters lurk in tunnels, 613 00:48:13,360 --> 00:48:16,680 "and sometimes, you'll feel things you have no words for. 614 00:48:16,680 --> 00:48:20,040 "I'm here to tell you that you don't have to rage and blame 615 00:48:20,040 --> 00:48:22,400 "and point fingers at others and yourself. 616 00:48:23,600 --> 00:48:26,720 "You can throw off that cloak of shame. 617 00:48:26,720 --> 00:48:29,280 "You need to know that this was not your fault. 618 00:48:30,400 --> 00:48:33,120 "You deserve love, and you can love yourself. 619 00:48:34,440 --> 00:48:37,720 "Hold my hand, look in the mirror 620 00:48:37,720 --> 00:48:39,760 "and see the beautiful boy that you are. 621 00:48:40,880 --> 00:48:43,080 "You contain multitudes." 622 00:48:45,440 --> 00:48:47,240 'My name is Ray, and I'm an addict. 623 00:48:48,520 --> 00:48:52,000 'I've displaced my life for 40 years hiding from who I am... 624 00:48:54,360 --> 00:48:56,040 '..hiding from what's made me.' 625 00:48:57,960 --> 00:49:00,840 Power of the group's what keeps you safe. 626 00:49:02,240 --> 00:49:05,160 But life isnae safe. 627 00:49:05,160 --> 00:49:07,960 Life's a challenge that has to be faced. 628 00:49:10,360 --> 00:49:15,040 Now I have to leave it all behind... 629 00:49:15,040 --> 00:49:18,760 because it's time to heal myself and move on. 630 00:49:21,600 --> 00:49:23,200 I choose life. 631 00:49:28,760 --> 00:49:30,800 Subtitles by accessibility@itv.com