1 00:00:11,500 --> 00:00:14,041 ♪ (PIANO MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 2 00:00:14,125 --> 00:00:17,833 (BIRDS TWITTERING) 3 00:00:17,916 --> 00:00:21,250 -(INDISTINCT CHATTER) -(DISHES CLATTERING) 4 00:00:25,208 --> 00:00:28,875 ARYE: Thirty days ago, our world shattered. 5 00:00:28,958 --> 00:00:33,208 Our beloved father left us to the world of truth. 6 00:00:33,291 --> 00:00:35,416 The Gemara teaches in maseches shabbos 7 00:00:35,500 --> 00:00:38,458 that only 30 days after the passing, 8 00:00:38,541 --> 00:00:41,333 as long as flesh remains on the body, 9 00:00:41,416 --> 00:00:43,958 anything said to the niftar 10 00:00:44,750 --> 00:00:46,125 will be heard by him 11 00:00:46,958 --> 00:00:50,041 until his fate is sealed. 12 00:00:51,125 --> 00:00:55,000 So today, on the thirtieth day, 13 00:00:56,541 --> 00:00:58,208 we would like to tell you, Father, 14 00:01:00,208 --> 00:01:01,375 we're sorry. 15 00:01:02,875 --> 00:01:04,833 Sorry if we ever offended you. 16 00:01:06,125 --> 00:01:08,083 Sorry if we ever hurt you. 17 00:01:09,291 --> 00:01:12,958 Everything we did, we did in your honor. 18 00:01:14,666 --> 00:01:17,583 ♪ (PIANO MUSIC CONTINUES) ♪ 19 00:01:20,083 --> 00:01:22,416 (INDISTINCT CHATTER) 20 00:01:26,750 --> 00:01:27,916 POLI: Okay. 21 00:01:29,000 --> 00:01:31,833 So, where were we? 22 00:01:33,291 --> 00:01:34,666 JONATHAN LEVY: Who made the final call? 23 00:01:34,750 --> 00:01:36,750 ELISHEVA: Arye for the top of the gravestone, 24 00:01:36,833 --> 00:01:38,000 and Mom for the bottom. 25 00:01:38,083 --> 00:01:39,458 JONATHAN: Ah, got it. 26 00:01:41,416 --> 00:01:43,791 "Loved and loving." 27 00:01:43,875 --> 00:01:45,500 Yeah. What's the problem with that? 28 00:01:45,583 --> 00:01:47,458 No, just... Nothing. 29 00:01:47,541 --> 00:01:50,041 Just that neither is true. 30 00:01:50,125 --> 00:01:52,708 What do you care if that's how she wants to remember it? 31 00:01:54,041 --> 00:01:56,125 Yeah. Who cares about the truth? 32 00:01:57,333 --> 00:01:58,958 I really appreciate the offer, Poli. 33 00:01:59,041 --> 00:02:00,541 -POLI: No. -I mean, I hope you know that. 34 00:02:00,625 --> 00:02:02,791 -Of course you appreciate it. -(MIRA CHUCKLES) 35 00:02:02,875 --> 00:02:05,458 -It's a great offer. Yes. -MIRA LEVY: You know me. 36 00:02:05,541 --> 00:02:07,541 Do you really think I'm gonna change my mind? 37 00:02:10,333 --> 00:02:12,208 How much do you make in your consulting work? 38 00:02:12,291 --> 00:02:13,833 -Poli! -Why? What's wrong? 39 00:02:13,916 --> 00:02:16,500 -That is none of your business. -Baby, telling you, 40 00:02:16,583 --> 00:02:17,958 -it's a terrible waste. -Stop it. 41 00:02:18,041 --> 00:02:20,041 You're the best product manager in America. 42 00:02:20,125 --> 00:02:21,708 -Mm-hmm. -And I'm offering you here 43 00:02:21,791 --> 00:02:23,208 an amazing start up. Not some... 44 00:02:23,291 --> 00:02:25,041 -I know. -...fucking corporate gig. 45 00:02:25,125 --> 00:02:26,291 It's a hell of a ride. 46 00:02:27,291 --> 00:02:29,166 That's what always turned you on. 47 00:02:31,416 --> 00:02:33,250 Doesn't turn me on anymore. 48 00:02:33,333 --> 00:02:34,666 POLI: Mm-hmm. 49 00:02:36,083 --> 00:02:37,541 I don't believe that. 50 00:02:37,625 --> 00:02:39,416 -A drive like that doesn't-- -WAITER: How are you guys doing here? 51 00:02:39,500 --> 00:02:41,083 -Mind if I clear some plates? -Yeah, thanks. 52 00:02:41,166 --> 00:02:43,166 WAITER: And would you be interested in any dessert today? 53 00:02:43,250 --> 00:02:45,166 -POLI: Yeah, sure. Why not? What do you-- -No. 54 00:02:46,000 --> 00:02:47,125 (LAUGHS) Sorry. 55 00:02:47,208 --> 00:02:48,791 WAITER: You know, why don't I give you guys 56 00:02:48,875 --> 00:02:50,791 -a minute, okay? -MIRA: Okay. Yeah. 57 00:02:50,875 --> 00:02:53,375 -Sorry. Did you want something? -No, it's okay. 58 00:02:53,458 --> 00:02:55,541 -I just-- -Do you mean you don't want anything? 59 00:02:55,625 --> 00:02:58,958 Well, it's just, uh, I have to leave 'cause, uh, 60 00:02:59,041 --> 00:03:00,916 Ava's got a dentist appointment soon. 61 00:03:01,000 --> 00:03:04,250 Ah, okay. Okay. No problem. Uh... 62 00:03:07,333 --> 00:03:10,166 So, how about tonight? 63 00:03:12,833 --> 00:03:15,375 Can't tonight. I have Ava. 64 00:03:15,458 --> 00:03:16,666 Jonathan's out of town. 65 00:03:16,750 --> 00:03:19,666 Okay. Well, can't you get a babysitter? 66 00:03:20,708 --> 00:03:22,375 I try not to do that on the nights 67 00:03:22,458 --> 00:03:23,916 that I have her with me. 68 00:03:26,375 --> 00:03:28,041 Got it. Okay. 69 00:03:28,125 --> 00:03:30,333 -WAITER: Whenever you guys are ready. -Uh-huh. 70 00:03:32,041 --> 00:03:34,041 (CAR HORNS HONKING) 71 00:03:41,291 --> 00:03:42,666 Will you stay for coffee? 72 00:03:45,541 --> 00:03:48,125 Uh, I have to get back. I can't. 73 00:03:49,125 --> 00:03:50,791 I'm sorry. 74 00:03:50,875 --> 00:03:52,583 Why don't you stay one more night 75 00:03:52,666 --> 00:03:54,250 and leave first thing tomorrow morning? 76 00:03:54,333 --> 00:03:55,583 Mom, I can't. 77 00:03:56,583 --> 00:03:58,125 Whoa, whoa, whoa, watch out, watch out. 78 00:03:58,208 --> 00:04:00,000 -Slow down, slow down. -Sorry, sorry, sorry. Okay. 79 00:04:00,083 --> 00:04:01,666 -(TIRES SCREECH) -JONATHAN: Okay. Slow down. 80 00:04:01,750 --> 00:04:03,250 -(CAR HONKS) -MIRYAM: Sorry, sorry, sorry. 81 00:04:03,333 --> 00:04:05,708 Okay. Just drive a little slower, okay? 82 00:04:08,958 --> 00:04:10,916 -I'm still not used to driving. -JONATHAN: Yeah. 83 00:04:11,041 --> 00:04:12,916 Your father hardly ever let me. 84 00:04:14,166 --> 00:04:16,458 And I always really liked it. 85 00:04:19,375 --> 00:04:21,625 So, that's a silver lining, right? 86 00:04:21,708 --> 00:04:23,333 MIRYAM: What? What do you mean? 87 00:04:23,416 --> 00:04:25,333 No, no, nothing. 88 00:04:25,916 --> 00:04:27,333 MIRYAM: What nothing? 89 00:04:28,583 --> 00:04:32,166 I mean, it's just-- I think it's okay to-- 90 00:04:32,250 --> 00:04:36,458 I don't know. To recognize the positive aspects of... 91 00:04:38,375 --> 00:04:40,291 not living with him anymore, you know, 92 00:04:40,375 --> 00:04:42,375 not always worrying what Dad thinks. 93 00:04:42,458 --> 00:04:43,708 What? 94 00:04:43,791 --> 00:04:46,458 Do you think I'm supposed to be happy your father is dead? 95 00:04:46,541 --> 00:04:49,083 No, I didn't say that. Did I say that? 96 00:04:49,166 --> 00:04:50,916 No, I'm saying that I-- 97 00:04:51,000 --> 00:04:53,541 Look, he wasn't the easiest guy to live with. 98 00:04:53,625 --> 00:04:56,083 Right? Let's say he was very free with his judgments. 99 00:04:56,166 --> 00:04:57,208 So what? 100 00:04:57,291 --> 00:04:59,708 He had high standards, especially for himself. 101 00:04:59,791 --> 00:05:00,833 JONATHAN: Oh, Mom, come on. 102 00:05:00,916 --> 00:05:02,708 Most of the time you were just scared of him. 103 00:05:02,791 --> 00:05:04,125 -Scared? -Yeah, you were scared. 104 00:05:04,208 --> 00:05:05,625 You were scared that he was gonna accuse you 105 00:05:05,708 --> 00:05:07,791 -of some mortal-- -Yonatan, where is this coming from? 106 00:05:08,625 --> 00:05:10,000 Why are you talking like this? 107 00:05:10,083 --> 00:05:11,750 -JONATHAN: What's wrong with talking? -(SIGHS) 108 00:05:11,833 --> 00:05:13,458 Maybe if you and Dad spoke more, then-- 109 00:05:13,541 --> 00:05:14,666 MIRYAM: We spoke a lot. 110 00:05:14,750 --> 00:05:16,625 We had five children, we had a household to run. 111 00:05:16,708 --> 00:05:18,666 -JONATHAN: All right. -What, you think we didn't speak? 112 00:05:18,750 --> 00:05:19,916 -JONATHAN: Okay. -So cut it out. 113 00:05:20,000 --> 00:05:22,583 I'm just saying that you spent many, many years 114 00:05:22,666 --> 00:05:24,833 living with someone you didn't love, okay? 115 00:05:24,916 --> 00:05:26,333 Not to mention, you know, attraction. 116 00:05:26,416 --> 00:05:27,333 MIRYAM: What? 117 00:05:27,416 --> 00:05:28,708 I just don't want you to feel guilty 118 00:05:28,791 --> 00:05:30,375 about feeling the tiniest bit relieved. 119 00:05:30,458 --> 00:05:32,000 Well, I'm not relieved. 120 00:05:32,083 --> 00:05:34,541 -JONATHAN: Okay. -Would you like to force me to feel relieved? 121 00:05:34,625 --> 00:05:36,958 -Okay. -MIRYAM: I loved your father. 122 00:05:38,666 --> 00:05:40,666 Yes, yes. 123 00:05:40,750 --> 00:05:42,541 Maybe not by your standards. 124 00:05:42,625 --> 00:05:44,666 All right. Well, I'm not interested 125 00:05:44,750 --> 00:05:46,041 in having a fight with you, okay? 126 00:05:46,125 --> 00:05:47,083 MIRYAM: Mmm. 127 00:05:47,166 --> 00:05:49,125 -I'm just saying-- -I'm not. 128 00:05:49,208 --> 00:05:53,875 Before you disrespect what I had with your father, 129 00:05:53,958 --> 00:05:55,625 -think hard... -JONATHAN: Mm-hmm? 130 00:05:55,708 --> 00:05:57,541 ...about whether you did everything you could 131 00:05:57,625 --> 00:06:01,000 to stay together, you know, to get sholom bayis. 132 00:06:01,083 --> 00:06:03,833 All right. Stay together for the kids. 133 00:06:03,916 --> 00:06:05,333 -MIRYAM: And even if so... -The kids. 134 00:06:05,416 --> 00:06:07,333 ...what's so wrong about that? 135 00:06:07,416 --> 00:06:10,458 What? Is that anything to look down on? 136 00:06:10,541 --> 00:06:12,041 You don't think that's important? 137 00:06:12,125 --> 00:06:14,583 A kid will always want his parents to stay together 138 00:06:14,666 --> 00:06:16,083 -even if it's not-- -Uh, first of all, 139 00:06:16,166 --> 00:06:18,000 -definitely not always. -MIRYAM: All those people 140 00:06:18,083 --> 00:06:19,625 who say, "Oh, if I'm happy, 141 00:06:19,708 --> 00:06:21,625 then my kid will be happy too," 142 00:06:21,708 --> 00:06:24,125 that is nonsense. 143 00:06:24,208 --> 00:06:27,125 Get a divorce, fine. But don't lie to yourself. 144 00:06:32,041 --> 00:06:35,416 I really-- I'm just savoring every moment with her, you know. 145 00:06:35,500 --> 00:06:37,458 The years go so fast, and now we have 146 00:06:37,541 --> 00:06:39,583 these amazing nights together. There's-- 147 00:06:39,666 --> 00:06:42,208 -We watch movies, and-- -Are you seeing someone? 148 00:06:42,875 --> 00:06:45,166 MIRA: What? No. (SCOFFS) 149 00:06:45,250 --> 00:06:47,666 POLI: Yeah, I think you are. 150 00:06:47,750 --> 00:06:49,875 MIRA: Well, I'm not, so. 151 00:06:49,958 --> 00:06:52,458 And I have a feeling I know who it is, too. 152 00:06:54,166 --> 00:06:55,500 I'm not seeing anybody, 153 00:06:55,583 --> 00:06:57,625 and I'm not planning on it anytime soon. 154 00:06:59,083 --> 00:07:00,166 Is it Ackerman? 155 00:07:00,958 --> 00:07:03,291 What? No, of course not. 156 00:07:03,375 --> 00:07:05,541 POLI: I think it is. And honestly, 157 00:07:05,625 --> 00:07:07,375 I always knew it was going to happen at some point. 158 00:07:07,458 --> 00:07:09,250 All right. Well, it's not Ackerman. It's-- 159 00:07:09,333 --> 00:07:11,458 I mean, it's not anyone, actually, so. 160 00:07:11,541 --> 00:07:14,250 Okay. Whatever. Fair enough. 161 00:07:15,041 --> 00:07:16,125 This is me. 162 00:07:18,250 --> 00:07:20,625 Okay. Well, uh... (CLEARS THROAT) 163 00:07:21,291 --> 00:07:22,541 Good luck with him. 164 00:07:23,208 --> 00:07:26,375 I give it a year max. 165 00:07:26,458 --> 00:07:28,375 -Okay, I'll-- -Then you leave him too. 166 00:07:28,458 --> 00:07:29,708 (SIGHS) Okay. 167 00:07:30,958 --> 00:07:34,000 POLI: You know, sometimes I just... (SCOFFS) 168 00:07:34,083 --> 00:07:36,583 I just wish I hadn't met you at all. 169 00:07:36,666 --> 00:07:39,458 -I didn't spend all these years on... -MIRA: Poli, stop. 170 00:07:39,541 --> 00:07:41,708 ...someone who doesn't understand what it means 171 00:07:41,791 --> 00:07:42,833 to be in a relationship. 172 00:07:42,916 --> 00:07:44,500 You're saying things that you don't mean. Stop. 173 00:07:44,583 --> 00:07:47,500 POLI: And what living together actually means. Family. 174 00:07:51,333 --> 00:07:55,125 Okay, well... I'm running late. 175 00:08:01,583 --> 00:08:02,916 MIRA: Bye, Poli. 176 00:08:03,833 --> 00:08:06,916 ♪ (SOMBER MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 177 00:08:23,166 --> 00:08:24,458 (CAR HONKING) 178 00:08:38,666 --> 00:08:41,500 -(INDISTINCT CLAMOR) -(ANNOUNCEMENT PLAYING OVER PA) 179 00:08:43,041 --> 00:08:44,500 (MIRA GROANS) 180 00:08:48,291 --> 00:08:52,375 -♪ (QUIET MUSIC PLAYING OVER RADIO) ♪ -♪ (SINGER SINGING IN FRENCH) ♪ 181 00:08:55,291 --> 00:08:59,750 -♪ (UPBEAT MUSIC PLAYING OVER RADIO) ♪ -♪ (SINGER SINGING IN FRENCH) ♪ 182 00:09:05,791 --> 00:09:07,625 -Hello? -AVA LEVY: (OVER PHONE) Hey, Mom. 183 00:09:07,708 --> 00:09:09,791 -Hey, honey. How you doing? -AVA: Good. 184 00:09:09,875 --> 00:09:14,291 Josie's mom wanted me to check if I can watch a PG-13 movie. 185 00:09:14,375 --> 00:09:16,583 Well, I'm doing great. Thanks for asking. 186 00:09:16,666 --> 00:09:18,000 AVA: Mom. 187 00:09:18,083 --> 00:09:19,416 Yeah, of course you can. 188 00:09:19,500 --> 00:09:23,333 AVA: That's what I told her, but she wanted me to ask. Mom? 189 00:09:23,416 --> 00:09:26,166 Um, tell her thank you for checking and, you know, 190 00:09:26,250 --> 00:09:27,625 if you could also remind her that-- 191 00:09:27,708 --> 00:09:30,250 AVA: We're about to have dinner, so I can't really talk. 192 00:09:30,333 --> 00:09:33,791 Okay-- Yeah, but hon-- Okay, just remember, you know, 193 00:09:33,875 --> 00:09:35,333 I have a meeting that's really late, 194 00:09:35,416 --> 00:09:36,833 so, um, if you need anything, 195 00:09:36,916 --> 00:09:39,916 -just have her text me and-- -AVA: I know. You told me. 196 00:09:40,000 --> 00:09:42,000 -Oh, Mom? -MIRA: Yes, honey? 197 00:09:42,083 --> 00:09:45,041 AVA: Can I go to sleep at 9:30, please? 198 00:09:45,125 --> 00:09:47,083 -Okay. -'Cause Josie's bedtime is 9:30. 199 00:09:47,166 --> 00:09:49,666 Um, Josie's a little older than you. 200 00:09:49,750 --> 00:09:50,833 AVA: Mom. 201 00:09:50,916 --> 00:09:52,958 MIRA: But, um... 202 00:09:53,833 --> 00:09:56,000 uh, yeah, sure, you can. 203 00:09:56,083 --> 00:09:58,250 -AVA: Thank you. -You're welcome. 204 00:09:58,333 --> 00:09:59,958 Please try to get some sleep though, okay? 205 00:10:00,041 --> 00:10:01,208 AVA: Okay, love you, bye. 206 00:10:01,291 --> 00:10:03,791 -Okay, love you-- -(PHONE BEEPING) 207 00:10:04,708 --> 00:10:06,458 -Hey. -MIRA: Hey. 208 00:10:10,666 --> 00:10:12,041 Is she with Veronica? 209 00:10:12,125 --> 00:10:13,458 No, she's with Josie. It's-- 210 00:10:13,541 --> 00:10:14,708 -Oh, right, right, right. -Yeah, yeah. 211 00:10:14,791 --> 00:10:16,208 -She's over the moon, though. -Yeah. 212 00:10:16,291 --> 00:10:19,791 -Sleepover on a school night. -Oh, wow. Yeah, I bet. I mean-- 213 00:10:19,875 --> 00:10:21,458 How's your mom? 214 00:10:21,541 --> 00:10:23,000 Uh, she's good, she's good. 215 00:10:23,083 --> 00:10:25,791 Yeah, it ended up being a little harder than I expected 216 00:10:25,875 --> 00:10:27,333 -to leave, so... -MIRA: That's okay. 217 00:10:27,416 --> 00:10:28,791 I mean, you could have stayed. It's-- 218 00:10:28,875 --> 00:10:30,708 -No, no, no, don't-- -I texted you that-- 219 00:10:30,791 --> 00:10:32,375 No way, no way. 220 00:10:36,458 --> 00:10:38,708 -Shall we get going? -Yes, let's do it. 221 00:10:38,791 --> 00:10:40,458 (CAR ENGINE STARTS) 222 00:10:44,333 --> 00:10:46,291 ♪ ("COME ON LET'S GO" BY BROADCAST PLAYING ON RADIO) ♪ 223 00:10:46,375 --> 00:10:49,500 ♪ You know who to turn to Now everything's changed ♪ 224 00:10:49,583 --> 00:10:50,791 ♪ Come on, let's go... ♪ 225 00:10:50,875 --> 00:10:53,041 JONATHAN: You know, when, um, I was leaving, 226 00:10:53,125 --> 00:10:55,541 Arye said, "Happy Purim." 227 00:10:55,625 --> 00:10:57,541 -Is today Purim? -Sunday. 228 00:10:57,875 --> 00:10:58,958 Oh. 229 00:10:59,041 --> 00:11:01,333 So you know-- you know what that means? 230 00:11:02,583 --> 00:11:03,750 MIRA: Mm-mmm. 231 00:11:03,833 --> 00:11:05,375 Our anniversary. 232 00:11:05,458 --> 00:11:06,916 What? What are you talking about? 233 00:11:07,000 --> 00:11:09,458 Our anniversary was, uh, September 2nd. 234 00:11:09,541 --> 00:11:12,583 Not-- not of our wedding. 235 00:11:12,666 --> 00:11:14,625 Of the first time we... 236 00:11:18,166 --> 00:11:19,291 you know. 237 00:11:19,375 --> 00:11:20,875 -After the emergency room. -Right. 238 00:11:20,958 --> 00:11:22,041 After my asthma attack. 239 00:11:22,125 --> 00:11:23,625 How do you even remember that date? 240 00:11:23,708 --> 00:11:25,375 -Because it was Purim. -Okay. 241 00:11:25,458 --> 00:11:27,000 And I was over at Hoffman's. 242 00:11:27,083 --> 00:11:28,583 We were drinking ourselves to death. 243 00:11:28,666 --> 00:11:30,958 And that's-- that's how the whole thing started. 244 00:11:32,916 --> 00:11:34,833 I thought maybe... (LAUGHS) 245 00:11:34,916 --> 00:11:36,708 You know what? Would you make a left turn here? 246 00:11:36,791 --> 00:11:37,791 No, it's actually further down. 247 00:11:37,875 --> 00:11:40,750 No, I know, but just make a left here. 248 00:11:40,833 --> 00:11:44,250 Is the place-- is the surprise you were talking to me about? 249 00:11:45,125 --> 00:11:46,875 Left. 250 00:11:46,958 --> 00:11:49,666 -Okay, mister. -Right here. 251 00:11:51,208 --> 00:11:53,916 ♪ (MUSIC CONTINUES) ♪ 252 00:11:54,000 --> 00:11:55,458 JONATHAN: Actually, you know what? 253 00:11:55,541 --> 00:11:57,416 Pull over right here. 254 00:11:57,500 --> 00:11:59,875 You're not gonna kidnap and murder me, are you? 255 00:11:59,958 --> 00:12:01,500 Just pull over. 256 00:12:09,750 --> 00:12:12,750 ♪ (SINGER VOCALIZING ON RADIO) ♪ 257 00:12:12,833 --> 00:12:14,458 MIRA: Can I open my eyes now? 258 00:12:16,041 --> 00:12:17,291 Not yet. 259 00:12:23,666 --> 00:12:24,875 MIRA: Well? 260 00:12:24,958 --> 00:12:27,958 ♪ (SINGER SINGING INDISTINCTLY) ♪ 261 00:12:31,708 --> 00:12:33,250 Almost there. 262 00:12:37,208 --> 00:12:40,291 ♪ (SINGER VOCALIZING) ♪ 263 00:12:43,083 --> 00:12:44,250 Open your eyes. 264 00:12:53,708 --> 00:12:55,166 Surprise. 265 00:12:56,541 --> 00:12:58,083 (JONATHAN CHUCKLES) 266 00:13:02,166 --> 00:13:03,833 -Yeah, so... -(MIRA LAUGHS) 267 00:13:03,916 --> 00:13:05,750 I kind of became obsessed with the house. 268 00:13:05,833 --> 00:13:06,791 MIRA: Okay. 269 00:13:06,875 --> 00:13:08,958 And I've been driving by it on my way to work 270 00:13:09,041 --> 00:13:12,333 and on my way back just to see it. 271 00:13:12,416 --> 00:13:14,000 I know it's... 272 00:13:14,083 --> 00:13:16,791 I know. It's very sentimental of me. 273 00:13:16,875 --> 00:13:19,000 -It's very nice. -Yeah. 274 00:13:19,083 --> 00:13:22,541 So, um, anyway, uh, when my parents visited, 275 00:13:22,625 --> 00:13:27,041 uh, last Hanukkah, I went on Airbnb to find a place 276 00:13:27,125 --> 00:13:31,458 for them to stay and suddenly, our house popped up. 277 00:13:32,791 --> 00:13:33,791 MIRA: Huh. 278 00:13:33,875 --> 00:13:36,875 JONATHAN: Yeah, I guess they rent it out 279 00:13:36,958 --> 00:13:39,583 when they go on vacation or whatever. 280 00:13:39,666 --> 00:13:44,875 So, um-- so I signed up for, uh, alerts. 281 00:13:46,750 --> 00:13:48,583 MIRA: So, are they on vacation now? 282 00:13:48,666 --> 00:13:50,333 I guess so. Yeah. 283 00:13:52,333 --> 00:13:53,375 (LAUGHS) 284 00:13:55,500 --> 00:13:56,958 So what do you say? 285 00:13:59,708 --> 00:14:01,041 -Yeah. -JONATHAN: Yeah? 286 00:14:01,125 --> 00:14:02,125 Mm-hmm. 287 00:14:02,458 --> 00:14:03,458 Okay. 288 00:14:11,125 --> 00:14:12,541 (CAR DOOR CLOSES) 289 00:14:22,708 --> 00:14:23,833 So... 290 00:14:26,375 --> 00:14:29,041 -there's a lockbox... -MIRA: Okay. 291 00:14:29,125 --> 00:14:31,791 ...somewhere. Ah, here it is. 292 00:14:35,625 --> 00:14:37,583 Four, oh, five... 293 00:14:46,708 --> 00:14:48,250 (BOX RATTLING) 294 00:14:49,500 --> 00:14:50,500 Okay. 295 00:14:55,125 --> 00:14:56,458 (LOCK CLICKS) 296 00:15:04,416 --> 00:15:07,166 ♪ (DELICATE MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 297 00:15:07,250 --> 00:15:08,416 JONATHAN: Thank you. 298 00:15:13,166 --> 00:15:14,500 (MIRA CLEARS THROAT) 299 00:15:23,791 --> 00:15:26,958 ♪ (DELICATE MUSIC CONTINUES) ♪ 300 00:15:55,125 --> 00:15:56,250 (SIGHS) 301 00:16:26,875 --> 00:16:29,125 -Boys. -Crazy, huh? 302 00:16:31,583 --> 00:16:33,208 What do you think, like... 303 00:16:34,250 --> 00:16:37,500 seven and ten? 304 00:16:37,583 --> 00:16:40,000 Yeah, something like that. Yeah. (CLEARS THROAT) 305 00:16:40,708 --> 00:16:42,125 What's that smell? 306 00:16:45,166 --> 00:16:46,541 JONATHAN: Dead body? 307 00:16:46,625 --> 00:16:47,875 MIRA: Oh. (EXHALES) 308 00:16:47,958 --> 00:16:49,083 JONATHAN: What is it? 309 00:16:49,166 --> 00:16:50,375 Hockey stink. 310 00:16:51,666 --> 00:16:53,708 -It's worse. -(MIRA CHUCKLES) 311 00:17:00,000 --> 00:17:01,291 Sweet. 312 00:17:07,791 --> 00:17:10,000 JONATHAN: I guess this one they couldn't really improve. 313 00:17:11,958 --> 00:17:13,791 They kept the light fixtures. 314 00:17:14,125 --> 00:17:15,291 Yeah. 315 00:17:22,583 --> 00:17:24,833 No smoking, no pets, 316 00:17:25,791 --> 00:17:30,000 -no parties or events. -(CHUCKLES) Mm. 317 00:17:38,041 --> 00:17:39,083 MIRA: Huh. 318 00:17:40,875 --> 00:17:42,833 Is that included in the rental? 319 00:17:46,000 --> 00:17:47,958 -I'll get them a new one. -(MIRA GASPS) 320 00:17:48,041 --> 00:17:49,291 (LIQUID POURING) 321 00:17:49,375 --> 00:17:51,125 MIRA: You're such a rebel. 322 00:17:52,500 --> 00:17:53,625 That's me. 323 00:17:56,625 --> 00:17:58,583 (CHUCKLES) 324 00:18:00,666 --> 00:18:01,791 Thanks. 325 00:18:03,625 --> 00:18:05,791 -(CHUCKLES) -Happy anniversary. 326 00:18:06,625 --> 00:18:08,166 Happy anniversary. 327 00:18:14,291 --> 00:18:16,500 Seventeen years. 328 00:18:17,250 --> 00:18:18,791 Can you believe it? 329 00:18:20,208 --> 00:18:21,208 Yeah. 330 00:18:23,083 --> 00:18:24,708 (CLEARS THROAT) 331 00:18:27,500 --> 00:18:30,625 Well, my parents celebrated their 53rd-year anniversary 332 00:18:30,708 --> 00:18:31,708 this year. 333 00:18:32,666 --> 00:18:34,333 That's-- That's crazy. 334 00:18:40,916 --> 00:18:41,916 What? 335 00:18:46,375 --> 00:18:48,750 Just, I got in a fight with my mom. 336 00:18:48,833 --> 00:18:50,750 But I kinda picked the fight with her. 337 00:18:50,833 --> 00:18:54,000 For some reason I was trying to get her to admit 338 00:18:54,083 --> 00:18:55,916 that her marriage had been terrible. 339 00:18:56,958 --> 00:18:58,416 You-- (SIGHS) 340 00:18:58,500 --> 00:19:00,833 It's amazing how you always become like a little boy 341 00:19:00,916 --> 00:19:03,000 -around your mom. -I know. I don't know why. 342 00:19:03,083 --> 00:19:05,125 -(LAUGHING) Why? -I don't know why. 343 00:19:05,208 --> 00:19:07,750 -Don't know why I did that. -Mm-hmm. 344 00:19:10,333 --> 00:19:14,166 At least we talked, you know. Like really talked. 345 00:19:15,000 --> 00:19:16,000 Yeah. 346 00:19:18,750 --> 00:19:21,541 Well, I'm sure she must be so proud of you right now. 347 00:19:21,625 --> 00:19:23,458 Yeah, in her own way. 348 00:19:25,583 --> 00:19:28,416 Elisheva told me that she watched my TED Talk 349 00:19:28,500 --> 00:19:29,916 -like six times. -Really? 350 00:19:30,000 --> 00:19:31,875 But she'd never tell me that, though. 351 00:19:31,958 --> 00:19:33,541 And I can't tell her I know. 352 00:19:33,625 --> 00:19:35,250 You know how that whole dance goes. 353 00:19:37,750 --> 00:19:38,916 Yeah, I know. 354 00:19:40,666 --> 00:19:41,666 Yeah. 355 00:19:42,375 --> 00:19:44,083 She says hi, by the way. 356 00:19:45,833 --> 00:19:47,458 -Come on. -It's true. 357 00:19:47,541 --> 00:19:48,875 (SIGHS) 358 00:19:52,250 --> 00:19:53,250 What? 359 00:19:55,083 --> 00:19:57,708 You think she suspects something about the two of us? 360 00:19:58,375 --> 00:20:00,333 -About us? -Yeah. 361 00:20:00,416 --> 00:20:02,166 -Seriously? -Yeah. 362 00:20:02,250 --> 00:20:04,833 No way. No, no, no, seriously, no way. 363 00:20:04,916 --> 00:20:06,416 How can you be so sure? 364 00:20:07,125 --> 00:20:08,541 -Because... -Mmm. 365 00:20:08,625 --> 00:20:12,125 Nothing could seem more far-fetched than this. 366 00:20:12,208 --> 00:20:16,250 It's completely outside her spectrum of possibilities. 367 00:20:16,333 --> 00:20:17,958 Mm-hmm. 368 00:20:18,041 --> 00:20:23,791 And, uh, so when she saw us go up to your old room together 369 00:20:23,875 --> 00:20:27,750 when I visited a month ago after your father died... 370 00:20:27,833 --> 00:20:29,625 -Mm-hmm. -That... 371 00:20:29,708 --> 00:20:31,541 What? No, it's totally acceptable 372 00:20:31,625 --> 00:20:34,666 for children to have guests in their old room during Shiva. 373 00:20:35,041 --> 00:20:36,041 Right. 374 00:20:36,125 --> 00:20:39,250 And, um, when she knocked on the door 375 00:20:40,083 --> 00:20:41,708 and you didn't answer it? 376 00:20:43,541 --> 00:20:47,791 She thought I was sleeping. I asked her afterwards. I did. 377 00:20:47,875 --> 00:20:50,083 -I'm not convinced. -I'm telling you, 378 00:20:50,166 --> 00:20:54,125 if I could never imagine this happening, 379 00:20:54,208 --> 00:20:55,625 there's no way she could. 380 00:20:58,750 --> 00:21:00,291 What did you imagine? 381 00:21:02,833 --> 00:21:04,375 When you came to Shiva? 382 00:21:09,458 --> 00:21:11,166 Honestly, I was just trying to hide the fact 383 00:21:11,250 --> 00:21:13,750 that I had a massive boner in front of everybody. 384 00:21:14,583 --> 00:21:16,750 MIRA: (LAUGHING) I know. 385 00:21:16,833 --> 00:21:18,458 I felt it when you hugged me. 386 00:21:18,541 --> 00:21:21,291 -I wanted you to feel it. -Oh, my God. 387 00:21:25,875 --> 00:21:30,458 And then, when you asked me to go upstairs with you, 388 00:21:30,541 --> 00:21:34,083 I felt that all the eyes in the house were watching us 389 00:21:34,166 --> 00:21:36,666 and they knew exactly what was about to happen. 390 00:21:36,750 --> 00:21:39,458 Mmm. What did that do to you? 391 00:21:40,875 --> 00:21:42,541 MIRA: It made me wet. 392 00:21:51,291 --> 00:21:52,791 It' was so crazy. 393 00:21:53,291 --> 00:21:55,333 (MIRA MOANS) 394 00:21:55,416 --> 00:22:00,208 In the middle of all that family shit and grief. 395 00:22:03,041 --> 00:22:05,708 And after all that time, you coming in there like that, 396 00:22:05,791 --> 00:22:08,625 like... like an apparition. 397 00:22:11,416 --> 00:22:13,500 Well, I know. I saw it on your face. 398 00:22:29,875 --> 00:22:32,583 They're really, like, making me angry, you know? 399 00:22:32,666 --> 00:22:34,000 (LAUGHS) Yeah, I get that. 400 00:22:35,333 --> 00:22:36,750 -It's not ugly. -No. 401 00:22:36,833 --> 00:22:38,250 They did a nice job, but like... 402 00:22:39,625 --> 00:22:42,083 -how dare they, you know? -(JONATHAN CHUCKLES) 403 00:22:42,166 --> 00:22:43,208 Uh-huh. 404 00:22:45,791 --> 00:22:47,916 Still, it's better than a hotel room, right? 405 00:22:49,083 --> 00:22:52,166 I don't know. I kind of like a hotel room. 406 00:22:53,125 --> 00:22:54,458 -Really? -MIRA: Yeah. 407 00:22:55,791 --> 00:22:56,875 Something about it's like, 408 00:22:57,000 --> 00:22:59,458 it is what it is and it's not what it's not. 409 00:23:03,333 --> 00:23:04,500 JONATHAN: Yeah, maybe. 410 00:23:13,833 --> 00:23:18,500 So... anything going on? 411 00:23:19,791 --> 00:23:21,125 What's happening? 412 00:23:21,208 --> 00:23:22,416 What could be happening? 413 00:23:23,208 --> 00:23:24,833 Are you seeing anyone? 414 00:23:24,916 --> 00:23:26,666 (LAUGHS) 415 00:23:26,750 --> 00:23:29,000 -Since last week? -JONATHAN: Yeah. 416 00:23:29,083 --> 00:23:32,083 Any promising dates? Anything you wanna... 417 00:23:32,166 --> 00:23:33,500 -MIRA: No. -...take further? 418 00:23:33,583 --> 00:23:35,791 I told you I don't want anything serious right now. 419 00:23:38,208 --> 00:23:40,166 -Why not? -Okay. I have to say, 420 00:23:40,250 --> 00:23:41,916 you're getting a little obsessed with the subject 421 00:23:42,000 --> 00:23:45,083 and I'm, uh, asking myself what that is about. 422 00:23:45,166 --> 00:23:47,416 No, nothing. I'm just-- I'm trying to grasp 423 00:23:47,500 --> 00:23:50,000 -the concept here. -But what concept? 424 00:23:50,083 --> 00:23:54,000 Being alone. This whole "I'm better off alone" thing. 425 00:23:54,083 --> 00:23:56,541 It's not a concept. I'm just happy this way. 426 00:23:58,875 --> 00:24:01,958 Okay. Not totally buying it. 427 00:24:04,000 --> 00:24:06,583 Right, you used to always panic whenever I would talk 428 00:24:06,666 --> 00:24:08,250 about being alone. 429 00:24:08,333 --> 00:24:12,041 Yeah. You saw it as a sign that, um, I was in a bad way, 430 00:24:12,125 --> 00:24:14,791 but reality is, I just... 431 00:24:14,875 --> 00:24:17,791 It was something that I felt like I was missing. 432 00:24:17,875 --> 00:24:21,416 You know, I'd never really even expected 433 00:24:21,500 --> 00:24:23,041 that I'd ever get married. 434 00:24:23,125 --> 00:24:24,791 Yeah, I remember. 435 00:24:26,625 --> 00:24:28,041 Even with you. 436 00:24:28,375 --> 00:24:29,500 I know. 437 00:24:30,583 --> 00:24:32,708 That night when you proposed and... 438 00:24:32,791 --> 00:24:35,041 -Mm-hmm. Talked. -...all night... 439 00:24:35,125 --> 00:24:36,458 -That's right. -...about it. 440 00:24:37,916 --> 00:24:41,416 Then the next morning, I went to go see my mom. 441 00:24:41,500 --> 00:24:45,625 I don't actually-- I don't know if I told you much about this. 442 00:24:45,708 --> 00:24:47,333 -I don't think so. -Um... 443 00:24:48,250 --> 00:24:50,208 it was in, uh, Back Bay. 444 00:24:50,291 --> 00:24:52,500 She was living nearby with Julian. 445 00:24:52,583 --> 00:24:54,916 -Mm-hmm. -Her third husband. 446 00:24:55,000 --> 00:24:56,375 I'm not sure if you even met him. 447 00:24:56,458 --> 00:24:58,250 Yeah, I think I did. I think I did once. 448 00:24:58,333 --> 00:24:59,958 Okay. Well, they split up soon after. 449 00:25:00,041 --> 00:25:02,333 Anyway, she, um, she was like... 450 00:25:04,041 --> 00:25:05,250 "Don't do it." 451 00:25:05,833 --> 00:25:07,166 Don't do what? 452 00:25:07,250 --> 00:25:08,416 Don't get married. 453 00:25:09,166 --> 00:25:10,875 -She said that? -Yeah. 454 00:25:10,958 --> 00:25:13,250 "Jonathan's a good guy. 455 00:25:13,333 --> 00:25:14,916 Best guy you've ever been with." 456 00:25:15,000 --> 00:25:16,541 -Obviously. -Mm-hmm. 457 00:25:16,625 --> 00:25:18,916 "Probably the best guy you'll ever be with." 458 00:25:19,000 --> 00:25:21,125 -Wow, Mom, okay. -(LAUGHS) 459 00:25:21,208 --> 00:25:23,333 "But you know you're not cut out for getting married. 460 00:25:23,416 --> 00:25:25,583 You don't have that gene." 461 00:25:25,666 --> 00:25:27,708 She said, "I don't have it, your father certainly 462 00:25:27,791 --> 00:25:29,375 doesn't have it, so why would you have it?" 463 00:25:32,958 --> 00:25:34,416 (LAUGHS) 464 00:25:34,500 --> 00:25:36,333 I mean, this is-- this is the woman 465 00:25:36,416 --> 00:25:38,458 -that dragged you along on her trysts... -Yeah. 466 00:25:38,541 --> 00:25:40,208 ...when you were five years old, so I don't think 467 00:25:40,291 --> 00:25:42,208 really the person to listen to, right? 468 00:25:43,416 --> 00:25:45,250 Well, obviously, I didn't. 469 00:25:47,500 --> 00:25:51,958 No, I was gonna prove her wrong, gonna prove it to myself. 470 00:25:52,041 --> 00:25:54,625 So I, you know, spent my life 471 00:25:54,708 --> 00:25:56,541 trying to prove that I was different. 472 00:25:57,833 --> 00:25:59,375 And that I was gonna make it last. 473 00:26:01,750 --> 00:26:02,875 (SIGHS) 474 00:26:07,041 --> 00:26:08,416 It didn't last. 475 00:26:13,250 --> 00:26:14,791 So maybe she was right. 476 00:26:15,375 --> 00:26:16,500 She's right? 477 00:26:16,583 --> 00:26:19,000 Yeah. Right about the gene? 478 00:26:19,083 --> 00:26:21,041 The monogamy gene? 479 00:26:21,125 --> 00:26:22,833 No, it's just maybe... 480 00:26:25,041 --> 00:26:26,791 maybe it's not right for me. 481 00:26:28,625 --> 00:26:31,000 So what, does it mean that you're doomed? 482 00:26:31,291 --> 00:26:32,333 No. 483 00:26:33,625 --> 00:26:35,625 Jonathan, I'm not doomed. 484 00:26:38,583 --> 00:26:40,791 I wonder if it's hard for you to understand because... 485 00:26:42,875 --> 00:26:45,041 you really can't be alone. 486 00:26:45,125 --> 00:26:47,375 I mean, you never could. 487 00:26:47,458 --> 00:26:49,958 You always needed like, I don't know, a... 488 00:26:52,000 --> 00:26:54,208 witness to your life. 489 00:26:56,375 --> 00:26:58,166 (CHUCKLES) 490 00:26:58,250 --> 00:27:00,250 -Witness? -MIRA: Yeah. 491 00:27:00,333 --> 00:27:02,083 -Okay. -Yeah. Someone who's constantly, 492 00:27:02,166 --> 00:27:04,458 you know, seeing you, and... 493 00:27:04,541 --> 00:27:07,208 I mean, like, keeping a record. 494 00:27:07,666 --> 00:27:10,416 Hmm. Okay. 495 00:27:12,583 --> 00:27:14,708 No, did I hurt your feelings? 496 00:27:14,791 --> 00:27:16,708 No, no, no. No, no, I didn't-- 497 00:27:16,791 --> 00:27:18,916 (CLEARS THROAT) I didn't realize I was such a burden. 498 00:27:19,000 --> 00:27:20,750 You're not. You weren't. 499 00:27:22,125 --> 00:27:24,541 -It's not personal, you know. -Okay. 500 00:27:25,958 --> 00:27:29,250 I really think most women feel this way about men. 501 00:27:29,333 --> 00:27:30,333 Hmm. 502 00:27:31,625 --> 00:27:32,625 Yeah. 503 00:27:36,125 --> 00:27:41,166 I mean, I haven't been single since I was 15 years old, 504 00:27:41,250 --> 00:27:42,916 -you know what I mean? -Mm-hmm. 505 00:27:43,958 --> 00:27:45,250 I realized... 506 00:27:47,750 --> 00:27:49,375 it's kind of refreshing. 507 00:28:03,291 --> 00:28:05,166 (BREATHING HEAVILY) 508 00:28:11,875 --> 00:28:13,125 (MIRA CHUCKLES) 509 00:28:15,958 --> 00:28:17,166 JONATHAN: You okay? 510 00:28:20,291 --> 00:28:22,625 -Something's off. -Yeah. 511 00:28:23,958 --> 00:28:25,375 -It's just so weird. -Yeah. 512 00:28:25,458 --> 00:28:29,333 It's so weird to be here again. (COUGHS) 513 00:28:33,541 --> 00:28:36,583 (COUGHING) 514 00:28:36,666 --> 00:28:37,875 You okay? 515 00:28:37,958 --> 00:28:39,625 Yeah. It's nothing serious. 516 00:28:39,708 --> 00:28:41,166 (CLEARS THROAT) 517 00:28:41,750 --> 00:28:44,041 (EXHALES SHARPLY) 518 00:28:45,083 --> 00:28:48,083 Maybe it was a bad idea to come here? 519 00:28:48,166 --> 00:28:50,958 No, I really am happy you brought me here. 520 00:28:51,041 --> 00:28:54,375 -Yeah? (COUGHS) -No, it was a really nice thought. 521 00:28:54,458 --> 00:28:56,250 Yeah, maybe it's just the day. 522 00:28:57,000 --> 00:28:59,041 -Uh-huh. -It's just so much. 523 00:29:00,958 --> 00:29:02,916 Yeah. 524 00:29:03,000 --> 00:29:06,166 Yeah, maybe we should have, uh, yeah, postponed it, so. 525 00:29:09,500 --> 00:29:12,500 -Let me get my, uh... -Sure. 526 00:29:12,583 --> 00:29:13,875 Be right back. 527 00:29:17,875 --> 00:29:19,583 (BELT CLATTERING) 528 00:29:22,833 --> 00:29:23,916 (JONATHAN COUGHS) 529 00:29:43,041 --> 00:29:44,916 (INHALES) 530 00:30:00,291 --> 00:30:04,500 ♪ (QUIET MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 531 00:30:15,625 --> 00:30:16,958 (CLEARS THROAT) 532 00:31:22,541 --> 00:31:25,625 (CELLPHONE RINGING) 533 00:31:31,500 --> 00:31:33,291 -(CELLPHONE VIBRATES) -Fuck. 534 00:31:34,000 --> 00:31:39,000 (PHONE VIBRATING) 535 00:31:41,750 --> 00:31:43,708 (IN SING-SONG) Hey, Jane. 536 00:31:43,791 --> 00:31:46,500 -JANE: (OVER PHONE) Jonathan. -(LAUGHS) Hi, baby. 537 00:31:46,583 --> 00:31:49,750 JANE: Oh. You only speak to me when you're, like, really tired. 538 00:31:49,833 --> 00:31:53,125 (LAUGHS) No, yeah, I'm still up. I'm still up. 539 00:31:53,208 --> 00:31:55,750 I'm just talking quietly 'cause Mom fell asleep already. 540 00:31:55,833 --> 00:31:57,166 -(CLEARS THROAT) -JANE: Oh. 541 00:31:57,250 --> 00:31:59,250 -Yeah. -JANE: So sorry. Is she okay? 542 00:31:59,333 --> 00:32:01,416 Yeah, yeah, yeah, she's fine. It's just... 543 00:32:01,500 --> 00:32:04,458 you know, the whole thing at the ceremony 544 00:32:04,541 --> 00:32:06,500 was really draining for her. (CLEARS THROAT) 545 00:32:06,583 --> 00:32:08,208 JANE: Oh, God. Are you okay? 546 00:32:08,291 --> 00:32:09,750 Yeah, yeah, yeah. 547 00:32:09,833 --> 00:32:11,875 Yeah. Well, you know how it is. It's like the... 548 00:32:11,958 --> 00:32:15,458 being at the cemetery, and then going to an empty house, 549 00:32:15,541 --> 00:32:17,000 it was a lot for her. 550 00:32:18,208 --> 00:32:21,333 (JANE SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY) 551 00:32:21,416 --> 00:32:26,208 Uh, yes, taking the 6:30 train out of Valley Stream 552 00:32:26,291 --> 00:32:28,791 than the Amtrak from Penn Station. 553 00:32:29,583 --> 00:32:31,000 JANE: Okay. 554 00:32:31,083 --> 00:32:33,083 -Yep. -JANE: So, um... 555 00:32:33,166 --> 00:32:35,625 (JANE TALKING INDISTINCTLY) 556 00:32:35,708 --> 00:32:36,958 Is he up? 557 00:32:37,041 --> 00:32:38,666 Okay, he's right there with you? 558 00:32:38,750 --> 00:32:41,041 JANE: Yeah, he wants to say hi. 559 00:32:41,125 --> 00:32:42,750 Okay. Yeah. Just, uh... 560 00:32:42,833 --> 00:32:44,583 (JANE TALKING INDISTINCTLY) 561 00:32:44,666 --> 00:32:46,916 -Trying to connect here. -(PHONE VIBRATING) 562 00:32:49,375 --> 00:32:50,541 Okay. 563 00:32:51,708 --> 00:32:52,791 Okay. 564 00:32:53,833 --> 00:32:55,875 -Oh, hello. -(JANE TALKING INDISTINCTLY) 565 00:32:55,958 --> 00:32:57,916 -Hi. -Hi. 566 00:32:58,000 --> 00:33:01,708 -Say Hi. -Hey, Ethan. 567 00:33:01,791 --> 00:33:05,000 Oh, Bubba, why are you awake? 568 00:33:05,083 --> 00:33:07,625 JANE: He was growing some teeth. Encouraging. 569 00:33:08,416 --> 00:33:10,375 What's up now, where are you? 570 00:33:10,458 --> 00:33:12,125 Uh, I'm in the bathroom. 571 00:33:13,583 --> 00:33:15,750 -What? -I'm in the bathroom. 572 00:33:16,125 --> 00:33:17,166 Okay. 573 00:33:17,250 --> 00:33:20,083 Look, Ethan, can you show Daddy your new trick? 574 00:33:20,166 --> 00:33:21,625 Can you-- What does a dog say? 575 00:33:21,708 --> 00:33:22,708 Woof. 576 00:33:22,791 --> 00:33:24,083 -Woof. -Woof. Woof? 577 00:33:24,166 --> 00:33:25,750 -Yeah. -(LAUGHING) Oh, my gosh. 578 00:33:25,833 --> 00:33:27,250 He just did that today? 579 00:33:27,333 --> 00:33:29,375 -(JANE GIGGLES) -(ETHAN FUSSING) 580 00:33:29,458 --> 00:33:31,958 He's just, like, wants to party? 581 00:33:32,041 --> 00:33:36,375 He's like sleeping and eating because... 582 00:33:36,458 --> 00:33:38,500 I mean, he's living the life. Um... 583 00:33:38,583 --> 00:33:41,333 (LAUGHS) Oh, man. 584 00:33:42,166 --> 00:33:43,958 It's tough, huh? Sorry. 585 00:33:45,125 --> 00:33:46,208 I love you. 586 00:33:46,291 --> 00:33:48,250 -Okay. I love you too. -Bye. 587 00:33:48,333 --> 00:33:50,625 -Lila tov, bubbelah. -Lila tov. 588 00:33:50,708 --> 00:33:52,375 Say "lila tov," bye. 589 00:33:52,458 --> 00:33:53,708 -Okay, baby. -(ETHAN FUSSING) 590 00:33:53,791 --> 00:33:55,666 -JANE: Okay, I'm gonna try to... -Lila tov. 591 00:33:56,500 --> 00:33:57,708 -Bye, coocoo. -Bye. 592 00:33:57,791 --> 00:33:59,458 Bye. Bye, cooties. 593 00:33:59,541 --> 00:34:02,250 -Bye. Love to your mom, okay? -Okay. Thanks, sweetie. 594 00:34:02,333 --> 00:34:03,500 Okay. 595 00:34:05,458 --> 00:34:07,125 (PHONE VIBRATES) 596 00:34:07,208 --> 00:34:10,291 ♪ (MUSIC PLAYING DISTANTLY) ♪ 597 00:34:12,791 --> 00:34:14,375 (EXHALES) 598 00:34:21,875 --> 00:34:25,166 ♪ (SINGER SINGING INDISTINCTLY) ♪ 599 00:34:25,541 --> 00:34:27,958 (LAUGHS) 600 00:34:29,041 --> 00:34:31,000 Oh, my God. 601 00:34:32,208 --> 00:34:35,125 -Wow! -I know, right? 602 00:34:35,833 --> 00:34:37,875 Oh, my God. 603 00:34:37,958 --> 00:34:40,166 Can you imagine this as Ava's room? 604 00:34:40,250 --> 00:34:42,625 No way, we would have taken it for ourselves. 605 00:34:43,500 --> 00:34:45,041 Look at this. 606 00:34:45,125 --> 00:34:47,000 Is this what you imagined back then? 607 00:34:47,083 --> 00:34:50,458 Well, yeah, not this big, but... yeah, something like that. 608 00:34:52,000 --> 00:34:53,916 So this is what I missed out on, huh? 609 00:34:54,000 --> 00:34:55,625 Well, you could have done it yourself. 610 00:34:56,083 --> 00:34:58,708 Yes. True. 611 00:34:58,791 --> 00:35:02,000 ♪ (MUSIC CONTINUES) ♪ 612 00:35:08,958 --> 00:35:10,208 Cute. 613 00:35:11,416 --> 00:35:12,791 Genius kid. 614 00:35:14,125 --> 00:35:16,625 -(MIRA HUMMING) -(JONATHAN LAUGHS) 615 00:35:16,708 --> 00:35:20,500 ♪ (SINGER CONTINUES SINGING) ♪ 616 00:35:28,333 --> 00:35:31,250 It is a little over the top, but I have to say 617 00:35:31,333 --> 00:35:33,625 the effect is undeniable. 618 00:35:36,000 --> 00:35:37,250 (SIGHS) 619 00:35:45,791 --> 00:35:48,291 (JONATHAN CLEARS THROAT, COUGHS) 620 00:35:49,583 --> 00:35:51,916 ♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪ 621 00:35:53,416 --> 00:35:54,541 You okay? 622 00:35:54,916 --> 00:35:55,833 Yeah. 623 00:35:55,916 --> 00:35:57,875 Yeah, sorry, it wasn't very serious. 624 00:35:57,958 --> 00:36:00,083 Sorry, I disappeared on you. 625 00:36:02,166 --> 00:36:04,291 Hmm, you got dressed. 626 00:36:06,583 --> 00:36:08,166 You wanted to leave. 627 00:36:11,500 --> 00:36:13,833 Yeah, just for a second, but it passed. 628 00:36:19,250 --> 00:36:21,083 Who was that on the phone? 629 00:36:22,750 --> 00:36:24,541 -Jane. -Mmm. 630 00:36:24,625 --> 00:36:25,791 And Ethan. 631 00:36:26,916 --> 00:36:28,916 Everything all right? 632 00:36:29,000 --> 00:36:31,291 Yeah, yeah. They just wanted to say goodnight. 633 00:36:33,375 --> 00:36:34,666 (EXHALES) 634 00:36:41,291 --> 00:36:42,458 Guilt. 635 00:36:49,958 --> 00:36:51,291 I don't know. 636 00:36:56,458 --> 00:37:00,875 I think I'm over my obsession with being a good person, 637 00:37:03,083 --> 00:37:04,333 -you know? -Mm-hmm. 638 00:37:04,416 --> 00:37:08,583 Constantly checking to make sure I'm doing the right thing. 639 00:37:11,208 --> 00:37:13,250 I don't really have that need anymore, for... 640 00:37:14,333 --> 00:37:16,083 moral superiority. 641 00:37:17,333 --> 00:37:19,416 I'm no better than anybody else. It's okay. 642 00:37:21,500 --> 00:37:22,708 Okay. 643 00:37:24,125 --> 00:37:25,166 What? 644 00:37:26,083 --> 00:37:28,000 Just not totally buying it. 645 00:37:30,375 --> 00:37:32,375 -Touché. -(MIRA CHUCKLES) 646 00:37:35,375 --> 00:37:37,083 I'm not saying I'm proud of it. 647 00:37:39,041 --> 00:37:41,958 The affairs. But, you know... 648 00:37:42,041 --> 00:37:43,208 Mm-hmm? 649 00:37:43,291 --> 00:37:47,041 I just realized that there's things that... 650 00:37:48,000 --> 00:37:50,500 I mean, I have needs that I'm not... 651 00:37:50,583 --> 00:37:53,208 -willing to ignore anymore. -MIRA: Mm-hmm. 652 00:37:53,291 --> 00:37:57,875 JONATHAN: And, you know, that's just how it is for me right now. 653 00:37:57,958 --> 00:38:00,333 Just accepting that. That's okay. 654 00:38:02,208 --> 00:38:03,583 "Affairs," plural? 655 00:38:07,875 --> 00:38:11,625 Yeah, I had-- I had something six months ago. 656 00:38:13,000 --> 00:38:14,208 It was meaningless. 657 00:38:17,291 --> 00:38:21,833 Two somethings if you count one-night stands, 658 00:38:23,541 --> 00:38:24,916 which I don't, so. 659 00:38:25,458 --> 00:38:26,750 (CHUCKLES) 660 00:38:28,000 --> 00:38:29,250 Well... 661 00:38:30,708 --> 00:38:34,083 Maybe you have lost your moral superiority. 662 00:38:34,166 --> 00:38:36,500 That doesn't sound very good when you say it. 663 00:38:36,583 --> 00:38:38,000 It's like, what? 664 00:38:38,083 --> 00:38:40,208 I'm the last person to judge. 665 00:38:49,416 --> 00:38:52,000 ♪ (QUIET MUSIC PLAYING ON RADIO) ♪ 666 00:38:52,083 --> 00:38:54,583 ♪ (SINGING IN PORTUGUESE) ♪ 667 00:38:54,666 --> 00:38:56,625 JONATHAN: I didn't want to marry her. 668 00:38:59,000 --> 00:39:01,541 I'm not saying that as a justification for anything. 669 00:39:01,625 --> 00:39:02,875 It's just the truth. 670 00:39:05,291 --> 00:39:08,750 But we had a really good time together. 671 00:39:08,833 --> 00:39:12,250 And, you know, sometimes it's easy to confuse 672 00:39:12,333 --> 00:39:14,000 great sex with love. 673 00:39:14,500 --> 00:39:16,250 Easy for you. 674 00:39:16,333 --> 00:39:18,250 JONATHAN: I don't think it's just me. 675 00:39:20,666 --> 00:39:24,083 But she got pregnant. 676 00:39:25,291 --> 00:39:27,041 And, um... 677 00:39:27,125 --> 00:39:30,125 -I really wanted that kid. -MIRA: Hmm. 678 00:39:30,208 --> 00:39:32,458 (CLEARS THROAT) And, you know, she wanted to get married. 679 00:39:32,541 --> 00:39:34,041 And I just thought, why not? 680 00:39:34,125 --> 00:39:36,000 What's the difference between living together 681 00:39:36,083 --> 00:39:37,250 and getting married? 682 00:39:37,791 --> 00:39:39,125 So I said yes. 683 00:39:41,958 --> 00:39:43,625 Then Ethan was born. 684 00:39:45,583 --> 00:39:47,791 And he's just... ugh. 685 00:39:51,041 --> 00:39:52,750 That's really great. 686 00:39:52,833 --> 00:39:54,375 JONATHAN: The sex is not. 687 00:39:54,458 --> 00:39:55,541 Well... 688 00:39:55,625 --> 00:39:58,500 It's not happening at all. 689 00:39:58,583 --> 00:40:00,333 But that, you know, since Ethan was born, 690 00:40:00,416 --> 00:40:03,083 so, obviously. 691 00:40:03,166 --> 00:40:06,083 But, um, you know, we're good. We're good. 692 00:40:07,458 --> 00:40:11,208 It's like we have a common language. 693 00:40:11,291 --> 00:40:14,125 It's like meeting somebody that speaks your language. 694 00:40:14,208 --> 00:40:16,083 I realized that she's the first Jewish woman 695 00:40:16,166 --> 00:40:17,875 that I've dated since college. 696 00:40:18,583 --> 00:40:20,416 -Really? -JONATHAN: Yeah. 697 00:40:20,500 --> 00:40:24,916 Yeah, I didn't-- didn't imagine it would be so significant, 698 00:40:25,000 --> 00:40:30,333 like, knowing the same songs and idioms, the holidays, 699 00:40:30,416 --> 00:40:33,625 but it's nice. It's comfortable. 700 00:40:37,750 --> 00:40:39,125 Don't you love her? 701 00:40:40,416 --> 00:40:41,541 Hmm. 702 00:40:44,666 --> 00:40:47,791 Yeah. Yeah, in a certain way. 703 00:40:53,875 --> 00:40:55,791 What if she finds out about us? 704 00:41:00,833 --> 00:41:02,416 Um... 705 00:41:06,291 --> 00:41:08,208 I don't know. 706 00:41:08,291 --> 00:41:11,208 I guess I'm just-- I'm not really scared enough... 707 00:41:13,458 --> 00:41:14,750 of splitting up. 708 00:41:16,250 --> 00:41:18,208 In fact, I'm pretty sure it'll happen eventually. 709 00:41:18,291 --> 00:41:20,375 So I don't really have any illusions about that. 710 00:41:30,750 --> 00:41:33,250 I'll never love anybody the way that I loved you. 711 00:41:37,541 --> 00:41:39,333 -It's a fact. -Hmm. 712 00:41:41,666 --> 00:41:45,375 With you, breaking up was just never on the table. 713 00:41:45,458 --> 00:41:46,916 Just never even occurred to me. 714 00:41:50,750 --> 00:41:54,166 So it's just, it's different, entirely different kind of love. 715 00:41:56,166 --> 00:42:00,250 I remember someone said it was like a piece of tape 716 00:42:00,333 --> 00:42:02,458 that you rip off and try to reapply... 717 00:42:05,041 --> 00:42:06,333 that'll stick again maybe, 718 00:42:06,416 --> 00:42:09,000 but it's never going to be like the first time. 719 00:42:12,875 --> 00:42:14,875 It's really sad, what you're saying. 720 00:42:14,958 --> 00:42:16,208 I don't know. I don't think so. 721 00:42:16,291 --> 00:42:18,750 I think it's okay to have different kinds of love. 722 00:42:18,833 --> 00:42:20,083 That's okay. 723 00:42:25,250 --> 00:42:27,166 -What? -(MIRA SIGHS) 724 00:42:27,625 --> 00:42:28,833 What? 725 00:42:28,916 --> 00:42:30,791 Just don't act like it's cool, you're never gonna love again. 726 00:42:30,875 --> 00:42:32,041 It's not that s-- 727 00:42:32,583 --> 00:42:33,791 I didn't say that. 728 00:42:33,875 --> 00:42:35,458 I mean I'm here with you, aren't I? 729 00:42:35,541 --> 00:42:37,000 It's different with me. I mean, 730 00:42:37,083 --> 00:42:39,125 -it's not the same, obviously. -JONATHAN: Why? 731 00:42:39,208 --> 00:42:41,708 Because we've been... 732 00:42:43,166 --> 00:42:44,958 through the worst that could happen. I mean, 733 00:42:45,041 --> 00:42:47,291 there's nothing to be afraid of anymore with me. 734 00:42:47,375 --> 00:42:49,375 Yeah, okay, so maybe that's just-- 735 00:42:49,458 --> 00:42:51,750 that's exactly what works for me now. 736 00:42:51,833 --> 00:42:53,458 -For us. -God, Jonathan. 737 00:42:53,541 --> 00:42:54,958 What? What? 738 00:42:56,333 --> 00:42:59,583 Can't you see we're both just so fucked up? 739 00:42:59,666 --> 00:43:02,125 We've barely even started getting over what happened to us 740 00:43:02,208 --> 00:43:03,750 -and-- -Yeah, well, it takes time. 741 00:43:03,833 --> 00:43:05,625 Yeah, but it's been four years. 742 00:43:05,708 --> 00:43:09,083 We just keep coming up with all these solutions and like... 743 00:43:10,208 --> 00:43:11,750 Why does it take so long to break up? 744 00:43:11,833 --> 00:43:14,125 And why does no one talk about the fact that 745 00:43:14,208 --> 00:43:16,458 it's this fucking endless trauma? 746 00:43:19,583 --> 00:43:21,458 Well, it... 747 00:43:21,541 --> 00:43:24,833 It is second on the list of most stressful life events. 748 00:43:26,625 --> 00:43:27,958 Before moving. 749 00:43:33,000 --> 00:43:34,875 After death of a loved one. 750 00:43:38,416 --> 00:43:40,375 So... 751 00:43:40,458 --> 00:43:42,916 So we should have a Shiva of our own? 752 00:43:44,291 --> 00:43:45,458 To mourn? 753 00:43:47,541 --> 00:43:48,583 Yes. 754 00:43:54,750 --> 00:43:57,208 We won't leave the house for seven days. 755 00:44:00,375 --> 00:44:02,750 Everyone will come and console us. 756 00:44:02,833 --> 00:44:03,875 Mm-hmm. 757 00:44:05,083 --> 00:44:08,791 And we won't eat meat or drink wine. 758 00:44:08,875 --> 00:44:11,333 -Mm-hmm. -Or shower. 759 00:44:12,833 --> 00:44:14,416 I can work with that. 760 00:44:15,750 --> 00:44:18,458 We won't cut our hair or shave. 761 00:44:21,750 --> 00:44:22,750 Done. 762 00:44:24,041 --> 00:44:25,375 No sex. 763 00:44:27,000 --> 00:44:28,916 What? That's forbidden too? 764 00:44:30,083 --> 00:44:31,125 Totally. 765 00:44:32,708 --> 00:44:35,875 ♪ (QUIET MUSIC PLAYING ON RADIO ) ♪ 766 00:45:15,166 --> 00:45:20,208 ♪ (SINGING IN PORTUGUESE) ♪ 767 00:45:48,125 --> 00:45:49,708 (MOANING) 768 00:46:16,458 --> 00:46:17,916 (DOG BARKING) 769 00:46:27,750 --> 00:46:31,041 (BREATHING HEAVILY) 770 00:46:34,708 --> 00:46:36,250 What is it? What's wrong? 771 00:46:39,208 --> 00:46:40,500 Did you have a nightmare? 772 00:46:42,750 --> 00:46:45,125 -What was it? -Oh, God... 773 00:46:49,791 --> 00:46:51,166 We were driving. 774 00:46:52,500 --> 00:46:56,083 (BREATHING HEAVILY) 775 00:46:57,375 --> 00:46:58,916 Oh, fuck. 776 00:47:06,625 --> 00:47:07,708 (CLEARS THROAT) 777 00:47:10,416 --> 00:47:12,625 (WIND WHISTLING) 778 00:47:13,958 --> 00:47:15,625 Oh, my God. 779 00:47:18,166 --> 00:47:20,083 Oh, fuck. 780 00:47:21,958 --> 00:47:23,208 MIRA: What? 781 00:47:26,375 --> 00:47:27,750 We were, um... 782 00:47:29,000 --> 00:47:33,250 We were driving to Lawrence to see my parents 783 00:47:33,333 --> 00:47:36,916 and, um, Ava was with us. 784 00:47:39,541 --> 00:47:42,083 We were on the highway. 785 00:47:42,166 --> 00:47:44,666 There was an accident and there was terrible traffic 786 00:47:44,750 --> 00:47:47,208 for miles and miles, and so I... 787 00:47:47,291 --> 00:47:50,458 I said to you, "Let's go back home on foot." 788 00:47:50,541 --> 00:47:53,375 But we had to cross to the other lane. 789 00:47:53,458 --> 00:47:55,708 -And you and Ava crossed. -MIRA: Mm-hmm. 790 00:47:55,791 --> 00:47:58,541 But I didn't-- I couldn't-- you had to push the cars 791 00:47:58,625 --> 00:48:00,291 -to get through them. -MIRA: Mm-hmm. 792 00:48:00,375 --> 00:48:03,458 Like, you had to physically push them away from each other. 793 00:48:03,541 --> 00:48:05,833 But it-- but it turns out I didn't have any hands. 794 00:48:05,916 --> 00:48:08,875 I just had like stumps, like, nothing from the elbows down. 795 00:48:08,958 --> 00:48:11,833 So like, I-- it was impossible for me to reach you guys. 796 00:48:11,916 --> 00:48:14,291 -MIRA: Oh, I'm sorry. -(EXHALES) 797 00:48:14,750 --> 00:48:16,458 (WIND HOWLING) 798 00:48:17,041 --> 00:48:18,291 Hey, come here. 799 00:48:19,541 --> 00:48:20,708 It's cold. 800 00:48:21,833 --> 00:48:23,083 (BREATHES HEAVILY) 801 00:48:37,208 --> 00:48:38,708 Hmm. 802 00:48:42,041 --> 00:48:43,875 You want some water? 803 00:48:43,958 --> 00:48:45,541 -JONATHAN: No. -No? 804 00:48:49,041 --> 00:48:50,958 You know, I could make us some coffee. 805 00:48:51,041 --> 00:48:52,666 Maybe it's time that we get up anyway. 806 00:48:52,750 --> 00:48:55,375 No, don't go, don't go anywhere. Just stay. Just stay. 807 00:48:55,458 --> 00:48:56,500 Okay. 808 00:48:56,583 --> 00:48:57,791 JONATHAN: Just stay. 809 00:49:01,916 --> 00:49:03,708 Do you remember anything else? 810 00:49:03,791 --> 00:49:05,458 JONATHAN: I'm trying to remember. 811 00:49:09,333 --> 00:49:11,500 You know, yesterday... 812 00:49:13,291 --> 00:49:16,041 -My mom has this notebook... -Mm-hmm. 813 00:49:16,125 --> 00:49:18,750 ...where she wrote down a bunch of things 814 00:49:18,833 --> 00:49:22,125 when I was little, like, you know, 815 00:49:22,208 --> 00:49:26,708 anecdotes and medical stuff, and dreams. 816 00:49:26,791 --> 00:49:27,875 That's really sweet. 817 00:49:27,958 --> 00:49:29,875 Yeah, we were looking at it together yesterday. 818 00:49:31,166 --> 00:49:33,958 And there was this one time that she wrote about 819 00:49:34,041 --> 00:49:36,166 when I woke up in the middle of the night, 820 00:49:36,250 --> 00:49:37,708 I was like three years old or something, and... 821 00:49:37,791 --> 00:49:39,166 -Mm-hmm. -...I came into the room 822 00:49:39,250 --> 00:49:41,791 and I was just standing there in the middle of the room 823 00:49:41,875 --> 00:49:43,291 and I said, "I can't sleep. 824 00:49:43,375 --> 00:49:45,375 All my dreams are really boring." 825 00:49:47,625 --> 00:49:49,583 And I said to her yesterday, I was like, 826 00:49:49,666 --> 00:49:52,333 "You got it back then, right? You got-- you understood 827 00:49:52,416 --> 00:49:57,375 that 'boring' actually meant scary, right?" 828 00:49:58,625 --> 00:50:00,208 And she said, "What are you talking about? 829 00:50:00,291 --> 00:50:03,250 No, you were so cute, no, you didn't look scared at all." 830 00:50:07,125 --> 00:50:10,250 She just was incapable of... 831 00:50:12,416 --> 00:50:13,708 She couldn't... 832 00:50:22,375 --> 00:50:24,125 Sometimes, I feel... 833 00:50:27,083 --> 00:50:29,708 like I'm not sure if I have the ability... 834 00:50:34,916 --> 00:50:36,833 like if I've ever really... 835 00:50:39,500 --> 00:50:41,375 truly loved anyone. 836 00:50:44,708 --> 00:50:47,958 Or if I've ever really been loved. 837 00:50:48,041 --> 00:50:49,916 Okay, now you're being dramatic. 838 00:50:53,041 --> 00:50:54,541 -Am I? -Yes. 839 00:50:57,416 --> 00:50:58,750 I love you. 840 00:51:00,458 --> 00:51:03,041 And I always have, in my own... 841 00:51:04,291 --> 00:51:06,458 deranged way. 842 00:51:09,416 --> 00:51:14,083 And you love me in your own complicated way. 843 00:51:15,416 --> 00:51:17,416 And you'll always love me. 844 00:51:27,791 --> 00:51:29,083 (MIRA CHUCKLES) 845 00:51:42,916 --> 00:51:44,833 (WIND HOWLING) 846 00:51:44,916 --> 00:51:46,625 (WINDCHIMES TINKLING) 847 00:51:52,500 --> 00:51:54,458 "In the middle of the night, 848 00:51:57,041 --> 00:51:59,166 without any fanfare, 849 00:52:00,166 --> 00:52:04,083 in a dark house somewhere in the world." 850 00:52:07,541 --> 00:52:08,875 JONATHAN: What's that? 851 00:52:10,166 --> 00:52:12,833 Mmm, it's from a movie. 852 00:52:14,625 --> 00:52:15,791 JONATHAN: Hmm. 853 00:52:15,875 --> 00:52:19,291 ♪ (GENTLE MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 854 00:52:26,791 --> 00:52:29,666 (BIRDS SINGING) 855 00:52:44,333 --> 00:52:47,291 -HAGAI LEVI: Okay. Let's cut. -ASSISTANT: All right, we cut. 856 00:52:47,375 --> 00:52:50,916 (FILM CREW CHATTERING INDISTINCTLY) 857 00:52:51,000 --> 00:52:52,458 CREW MEMBER: Here you are, guys. 858 00:52:54,125 --> 00:52:57,375 (INDISTINCT CHATTER) 859 00:53:00,000 --> 00:53:02,166 (OSCAR ISAAC MUTTERING) 860 00:53:39,791 --> 00:53:44,375 ♪ (MUSIC CONTINUES) ♪ 861 00:54:33,666 --> 00:54:37,125 ♪ (MUSIC CONTINUES) ♪ 862 00:55:25,250 --> 00:55:28,166 ♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪