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(FILM CREW
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CREW 1: Okay.
We peek through the wall.
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Toshiro, camera
goes to the porch.
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Okay.
Let's close the front door.
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Clear. Let's stand by to roll.
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CREW 2: Yeah. That's great.
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All right. Here we go.
And action.
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♪ (MUSIC RESUMES) ♪
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(KEYS JANGLING)
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(KNOCKS ON DOOR)
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-Wow.
-(CHUCKLES)
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You don't like it?
You like it?
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No. It's just, uh--
come in. Come in.
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-Hi.
-Hi.
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-(CHUCKLES)
-Hey.
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-Okay. Come inside.
-(CHUCKLES)
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-Is she sleeping?
-Yeah. Yeah.
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She went down early.
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How was bedtime? Was it...
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-Um...
-You got a new living room.
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Yes. Uh, well, the armchair is--
they were-- you know, the...
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The Henningsens?
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Yeah. Yeah.
They were very pretty,
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but they weren't really
comfortable for watching TV.
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You never complained
about it before.
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Well, I never really got
to watch TV before.
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Oh.
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And the rug it's--
I mean, listen, this is--
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it's really, really ugly.
(LAUGHS)
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You think so?
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Oh, my God. Yeah.
Look at this couch.
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JONATHAN LEVY: What?
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It's an affront
to the green one.
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Look, it's like they're
facing off.
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JONATHAN: Yeah, well,
it's very comfortable, though.
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It's hideous.
Where'd you get it? IKEA?
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Uh, yeah, actually.
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-Yeah. But it's cozy.
-Now, why didn't you call me?
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I would've taken you shopping.
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-JONATHAN: I don't know, I...
-I mean, I would've even
done it myself.
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JONATHAN: I don't know.
I just took care of it.
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So, when'd you do all this
with your hair?
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MIRA LEVY: Uh, about a week ago.
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-JONATHAN: Oh, okay.
-Thought Ava would have
told you, so...
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JONATHAN: No, she's--
Ava's about the most discreet
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five-year-old on the planet.
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Sometimes it really
just breaks my heart,
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-how much she holds in.
-I know. Yeah.
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How was she
after school today?
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She was fine. Yeah.
Nothing unusual. Why?
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Oh. Just drop-off
was a little tough, you know?
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She's-- her stomach hurt,
and she cried a little bit.
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Hmm.
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Did you do drop-off
or did Poli?
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Me. Poli's away.
He left a few days ago.
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-Okay.
-It's actually easier
when he drops her off.
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Makes sense.
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Yeah. I know.
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So, you wanted to talk?
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Yeah.
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-Okay. Wanna sit in there?
-Sure. Yeah.
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(JONATHAN CLEARS THROAT)
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MIRA: Oh, wow. I didn't know
you started this up again.
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Oh, what, Shabbat dinner?
Yeah.
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Uh, yeah, I don't know.
It's kind of--
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um, my parents came over
a few weeks ago for Shabbat,
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and Ava really took to it.
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-Really?
-JONATHAN: Yeah.
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-Huh.
-JONATHAN: Does that bother you?
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No.
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I don't think so.
(CHUCKLES)
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I mean, I think it's been
like ten years
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-since you've done this.
-Yeah, well,
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you never really liked it.
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You liked that I didn't like it.
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I think it's really good
for her, actually, you know?
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Gives her like a sense of...
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structure
and a sense of belonging.
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Um, you want some?
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From Rosenfeld Bagels,
it's really good.
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MIRA: No, thanks.
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I'll take some of that wine.
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Yeah. Sure.
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(CLEARS THROAT)
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(WINE POURING)
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-(GLASS CLINKS)
-I'll join you.
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(CHUCKLES) Okay.
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Lechayim.
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(SIGHS)
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Cheers.
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-Eyes.
-(SIGHS)
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(MIRA CHUCKLES)
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So...
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So... I've been offered
a promotion.
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-Congratulations.
-MIRA: Thanks.
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It's to oversee
the, um, European division.
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-(CHUCKLES)
-Oh. Wow.
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MIRA: But I would have
to relocate to London.
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So, you know, when
I got back from Tel Aviv,
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Ackerman, he was really happy
with, uh, the work I did.
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I mean, you know,
I did a good job,
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just objectively speaking.
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Um, so anyway we merged
the Tel Aviv office
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into the European division
and he said,
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Ackerman, he was like,
"Just take all of Europe."
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-Manager in London's leaving.
-Okay.
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-MIRA: It's a big promotion.
-Obviously.
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MIRA: It's a lot of money.
(CHUCKLES)
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So I was hoping that
we could, you know,
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talk through some ideas and
see if we could strategize.
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-Strategize?
-MIRA: Yeah.
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What do you mean?
What-- strategize about what?
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MIRA: Well, I don't know.
That's what I wanted to talk
to you about.
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But what... (SIGHS)
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What did you tell Ackerman?
Like, how did you leave it?
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I said that it-- you know,
I needed to talk to you first.
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It was an amazing offer,
but, you know,
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I needed to talk to you.
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Okay. So what are you--
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you're thinking that you're
gonna go back to...
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-flying here every other weekend
to see Ava again?
-No. No, of course not.
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You think that I would actually
leave her again?
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Oh, all right. All right.
So then what?
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Taking her with you?
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No. No. Not exactly.
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Yeah, well, I guess that
could be an option if that's...
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JONATHAN: No.
It's not an option.
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It's not an option,
so you can forget about that.
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(SCOFFS) Unreal.
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MIRA: Okay. I didn't say that
that's what I wanted to do.
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I said I wanted to talk
this over together.
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So why-- Honey, why are you
getting so upset?
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This is a-- it's a huge deal,
and it's a lot of money.
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Money that matters to all of us.
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Okay. Will you just stop
right there with the money?
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MIRA: Well, I don't have
a concrete solution.
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That's why I was hoping
we could hash it out together.
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Yeah, of course you don't
have a concrete solution
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because there is no
concrete solution.
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So why would you bring it up?
Just to see how I'd react?
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Okay.
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I get it.
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Maybe it was a mistake
coming here.
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I don't know if we can be
in the same room yet
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without, you know,
hurting each other.
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(SIGHS)
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JONATHAN: What?
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What?
What are you not telling me?
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Mira? I know you.
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You wouldn't bring all this up
if you didn't have a plan.
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What do you want?
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I was-- Okay.
I was thinking that, um...
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maybe the two of you
could come to London.
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Like, uh, Ava and you.
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I thought that could be
a possibility.
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I mean, you're on, uh,
sabbatical this year, right?
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So you can write from anywhere.
It doesn't have to be here.
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I mean, what if you got
an apartment nearby?
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And we could do shared custody,
like we do here.
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London's the perfect place
for you to write.
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There's the libraries
and the archives,
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-and Oxford's there, so...
-(JONATHAN SIGHS)
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You know, Horizons
would be so happy
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to get another apartment
and pay for living expenses
if I asked them.
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Oh, wow.
That's very nice of them.
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MIRA: Well, it's true.
(CHUCKLES)
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I mean...
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Come on. Aren't you dying
to get out of this place?
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You're always saying that
this country's poisoning you.
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And it would be an experience
of a lifetime for Ava.
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It would be just
a great opportunity for her.
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You can't deny that.
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(SCOFFS) I can't--
I can't believe
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you're serious right now.
I really can't.
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Don't answer me right now.
Just think about it.
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Just think, like...
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you know, we don't have
to make a decision this second.
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-Just...
-Right. Yeah. Yeah.
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MIRA: Just, you know,
don't rule it out.
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-That's all I'm asking you.
-Okay, yeah. Don't rule it out.
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Of course I'm gonna rule it out.
What do you-- what--
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what, do you think that
we're just like a suitcase
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that you can pack up
and take with you?
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-Wow.
-That we're gonna follow you
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wherever you feel like going,
no matter how disruptive it is
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-for Ava and for me?
-Okay. Speak for yourself.
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I'm sure Ava would be
really happy about this.
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No, I think I will speak for Ava
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'cause obviously
somebody needs to.
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-Oh, okay.
-She just got used
to you being back again,
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and living in two different
houses and all of that.
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But it'd be the same there.
There'd be two houses there.
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-It's not the same.
-It's the same schedule there.
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Mira, it's not the same.
She has a whole world here.
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-She has her friends.
-MIRA: I-- Okay.
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-I know.
-And her grandparents,
that she's crazy about.
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Okay, she could see them
over the summer, it's--
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She has a whole life here.
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-Do you understand that?
-Mm-hmm. Yeah.
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JONATHAN: A family.
A whole community.
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-(SCOFFING) Community.
-Yes. A commu--
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I'm sorry if that word
offends you.
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I know that you guys live
in this global village
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where it doesn't matter
what you see,
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it makes no difference
where you go, or any of that.
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I'm sorry.
Who's "you guys" in this?
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-Really?
-MIRA: Yeah.
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You guys.
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(CLEARS THROAT)
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(SIGHS, CLEARS THROAT)
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(DRAWERS CLATTERING)
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MIRA: Here. It was
on the cabinet.
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JONATHAN: (COUGHS) You know,
while we're on the subject,
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we should probably
start talking a little bit
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about the divorce.
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(DRAWERS CLATTERING)
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Divorce?
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Yeah. It just seems like
we should start settling things.
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Don't you think?
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Sure.
If it's, uh, important to you.
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Uh, we can get it done in a day.
It's...
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(JONATHAN LAUGHS)
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Yeah, I think it's a little
more complicated than that.
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I'm not sure a day
is gonna cut it.
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Then a-- a week then.
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JONATHAN: Especially if you're
planning on traveling soon.
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Mm-hmm. Yeah. Sure.
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Whatever works
for you, Jonathan.
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-That's fine.
-Okay.
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Um, why? Are you--
are thinking about
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getting remarried or something?
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What? No. No, no, no.
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I just think
that this state of...
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you know, purgatory is just not
very healthy for you--
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Purgatory? Come on.
Don't understate it.
240
00:12:33,083 --> 00:12:36,333
JONATHAN: No, no. I just mean
that this... temporary state,
241
00:12:37,083 --> 00:12:39,500
you know, this in-between-ness.
242
00:12:39,583 --> 00:12:40,833
Are you seeing someone?
243
00:12:41,333 --> 00:12:42,416
(CHUCKLES)
244
00:12:42,500 --> 00:12:44,333
What does-- what does that
have to do with anything?
245
00:12:44,416 --> 00:12:46,250
MIRA: So you are?
(CHUCKLES)
246
00:12:47,041 --> 00:12:48,625
Oh, leave me alone.
247
00:12:48,708 --> 00:12:51,291
What? Why can't you tell me
about it?
248
00:12:51,375 --> 00:12:53,208
Because I don't want to.
249
00:12:54,250 --> 00:12:55,333
MIRA: Okay.
250
00:12:56,875 --> 00:12:58,000
JONATHAN: Anyway...
251
00:13:00,375 --> 00:13:01,625
I think, um...
252
00:13:06,166 --> 00:13:07,583
that we'd all benefit...
253
00:13:09,625 --> 00:13:12,416
from having a little more
254
00:13:12,500 --> 00:13:15,125
definition and clarity.
Don't you think?
255
00:13:15,208 --> 00:13:16,875
So you decided
to kill yourself?
256
00:13:16,958 --> 00:13:17,875
JONATHAN: Oh, come on.
257
00:13:17,958 --> 00:13:20,125
MIRA: When did you start
smoking again?
258
00:13:20,208 --> 00:13:21,708
-I don't know.
-MIRA: You don't know?
259
00:13:21,791 --> 00:13:24,000
A few months ago.
I don't do it that much.
260
00:13:24,083 --> 00:13:25,333
I don't do it in front of Ava.
261
00:13:25,416 --> 00:13:26,833
Fine. Do what you want.
I'm not gonna be here
262
00:13:26,916 --> 00:13:28,875
to take you to the ER the next
time you have an asthma attack.
263
00:13:28,958 --> 00:13:30,125
I'm not having any attacks.
264
00:13:30,208 --> 00:13:31,875
Can't remember
the last time I had one.
265
00:13:31,958 --> 00:13:33,041
MIRA: Okay.
266
00:13:38,125 --> 00:13:40,583
-(RAIN PATTERING DISTANTLY)
-(BIRD SINGING)
267
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♪ (GENTLE MUSIC
PLAYING ON IPAD) ♪
268
00:14:00,791 --> 00:14:04,541
(RAIN PATTERING CONTINUES)
269
00:15:05,833 --> 00:15:09,291
Everything okay?
She's sound asleep?
270
00:15:18,291 --> 00:15:20,000
I didn't know
anything about that.
271
00:15:21,208 --> 00:15:22,541
What, the office?
272
00:15:23,791 --> 00:15:26,291
I'm telling you, that kid
can really keep a secret.
273
00:15:29,708 --> 00:15:31,333
What's the deal here?
274
00:15:31,416 --> 00:15:33,375
What do you mean?
275
00:15:33,458 --> 00:15:35,458
What's wrong
with the bedrooms upstairs?
276
00:15:35,541 --> 00:15:39,291
(LAUGHS) Uh, you know, just...
277
00:15:39,375 --> 00:15:42,291
felt too big up there
for us after...
278
00:15:42,375 --> 00:15:45,750
I don't know, the whole house
felt too big, and...
279
00:15:45,833 --> 00:15:48,791
And she couldn't
really fall asleep on her own,
280
00:15:48,875 --> 00:15:51,333
so she ended up sleeping
with me in my bed, and...
281
00:15:52,208 --> 00:15:53,541
when I'd head downstairs
to do work,
282
00:15:53,625 --> 00:15:55,250
she would wake up
and follow me down.
283
00:15:55,333 --> 00:15:57,666
So it just kind of
evolved naturally.
284
00:16:01,583 --> 00:16:03,791
I don't really need a study,
you know?
285
00:16:03,875 --> 00:16:06,125
I work in the living room,
mostly, so...
286
00:16:08,000 --> 00:16:09,750
What about your privacy?
287
00:16:09,833 --> 00:16:11,875
Well, there's that bookshelf
between us.
288
00:16:11,958 --> 00:16:14,583
-It's almost like a wall.
-If you have someone over,
what do you...
289
00:16:15,583 --> 00:16:18,583
what do you do?
I mean, Ava doesn't wake up?
290
00:16:18,666 --> 00:16:22,791
I don't have anyone over
when Ava's here. Ever.
291
00:16:29,916 --> 00:16:31,916
-MIRA: Mind if I look?
-JONATHAN: Sure.
292
00:16:37,583 --> 00:16:42,083
♪ (QUIET MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
293
00:17:24,000 --> 00:17:25,458
You need anything here?
294
00:17:30,375 --> 00:17:34,375
There's, um, a box there with,
uh, some kitchenware
295
00:17:34,458 --> 00:17:36,833
and the china
your grandparents gave us.
296
00:17:36,916 --> 00:17:38,291
Yeah. I'm gonna, uh...
297
00:17:40,125 --> 00:17:43,208
I'll, uh, send someone
to get it this week.
298
00:17:43,541 --> 00:17:44,666
No rush.
299
00:18:06,750 --> 00:18:08,208
-Are you okay?
-MIRA: Yeah.
300
00:18:10,875 --> 00:18:13,833
You know, I-- I think
I'm gonna get going.
301
00:18:13,916 --> 00:18:15,583
Do you want anything else
to drink?
302
00:18:19,250 --> 00:18:20,458
Maybe a little more wine?
303
00:18:22,500 --> 00:18:23,583
Just a little bit?
304
00:18:26,416 --> 00:18:27,791
-MIRA: Okay. A little.
-Okay.
305
00:18:27,875 --> 00:18:29,458
-MIRA: Fine. Yeah.
-All right.
306
00:18:40,500 --> 00:18:41,791
(CHUCKLES SOFTLY)
307
00:18:43,750 --> 00:18:44,791
(MIRA EXHALES)
308
00:18:48,458 --> 00:18:50,208
-Thanks.
-JONATHAN: Mm-hmm.
309
00:18:51,500 --> 00:18:53,625
Soon there won't be
any trace of me here.
310
00:18:57,208 --> 00:18:58,375
It's fine. It's...
311
00:19:00,083 --> 00:19:02,291
It's totally fine.
It's just this, uh...
312
00:19:05,041 --> 00:19:06,791
silly attachment to furniture...
313
00:19:09,625 --> 00:19:11,083
the myth of a home...
314
00:19:14,166 --> 00:19:17,041
and all our dependence
on these things. It's...
315
00:19:18,250 --> 00:19:20,333
(EXHALES) That's what keeps
fucking everything up.
316
00:19:20,416 --> 00:19:22,875
I mean, it's what fucked it up
for us.
317
00:19:22,958 --> 00:19:27,500
You know, being dependent
on these objects.
318
00:19:27,583 --> 00:19:28,958
(CHUCKLES)
319
00:19:29,041 --> 00:19:32,375
Yeah, you know,
the objects never had
320
00:19:32,458 --> 00:19:34,416
any real significance for me.
321
00:19:34,500 --> 00:19:37,500
Come on. Our whole relationship
became an object.
322
00:19:37,583 --> 00:19:40,791
The house, the family...
323
00:19:40,875 --> 00:19:42,500
You know what I mean.
324
00:19:45,625 --> 00:19:46,708
Mm-hmm.
325
00:19:48,833 --> 00:19:51,875
So it's, um-- well, it's not--
326
00:19:51,958 --> 00:19:54,250
-different now for you?
-(MIRA CHUCKLES)
327
00:19:54,333 --> 00:20:00,708
You don't feel attached
to stuff in your new place?
328
00:20:00,791 --> 00:20:03,666
MIRA: The luxury condo in the
Millennium Tower, you mean?
329
00:20:03,750 --> 00:20:06,208
-(LAUGHS)
-Whatever.
330
00:20:09,833 --> 00:20:12,375
But yeah, that's my point.
I mean, um...
331
00:20:15,416 --> 00:20:19,458
I have no personal
attachment to anything there.
332
00:20:20,958 --> 00:20:25,041
I just had a designer
furnish the place and then...
333
00:20:28,291 --> 00:20:33,250
But Poli... (EXHALES)
It's his dream.
334
00:20:33,333 --> 00:20:36,083
It's his American dream,
you know?
335
00:20:37,291 --> 00:20:39,958
Twentieth floor,
overlooking the park,
336
00:20:41,375 --> 00:20:42,458
doorman, and all that.
337
00:20:42,541 --> 00:20:46,750
It's amazing how it
gives him confidence.
338
00:20:48,916 --> 00:20:50,083
Hmm.
339
00:20:53,750 --> 00:20:55,958
I think I've reached
a point in my life
340
00:20:56,041 --> 00:21:00,833
where it doesn't matter
where I live anymore.
341
00:21:00,916 --> 00:21:02,333
I mean, there's no place
in the world
342
00:21:02,416 --> 00:21:05,166
that would make me feel secure.
343
00:21:07,916 --> 00:21:09,166
I'm sorry to hear that.
344
00:21:10,333 --> 00:21:11,500
MIRA: Don't be.
345
00:21:13,583 --> 00:21:14,666
I'm not sorry.
346
00:21:17,375 --> 00:21:20,625
On the contrary,
it's a relief, you know, to--
347
00:21:22,375 --> 00:21:25,500
I mean, there's nothing
like that.
348
00:21:25,583 --> 00:21:27,666
Like security, safety.
349
00:21:30,708 --> 00:21:32,250
We thought there was.
350
00:21:34,916 --> 00:21:36,375
We wanted there to be.
351
00:21:38,791 --> 00:21:41,083
But then we turn it
into a ritual, you know?
352
00:21:41,166 --> 00:21:43,625
-It was like--
-I know that, like...
353
00:21:46,291 --> 00:21:47,375
I know that you have this need
354
00:21:47,458 --> 00:21:48,916
to diminish
everything that we had...
355
00:21:49,000 --> 00:21:50,208
No, I'm not--
356
00:21:50,291 --> 00:21:51,875
-...and justify it. You're--
-Honey, I'm not diminishing it.
357
00:21:51,958 --> 00:21:54,000
No. (LAUGHS) On the--
358
00:21:54,083 --> 00:21:56,416
-Sounds like you are.
-No, I'm not. I'm--
359
00:21:56,500 --> 00:22:00,375
I'm just trying to tell you
that for me, it was, um--
360
00:22:01,250 --> 00:22:03,333
There was so much denial,
you know?
361
00:22:04,750 --> 00:22:07,375
I mean, today, I know.
I'm alone. I'm all alone.
362
00:22:07,458 --> 00:22:08,916
Nothing's gonna change that.
363
00:22:10,166 --> 00:22:13,750
It doesn't matter where I am
or who I'm with.
364
00:22:17,500 --> 00:22:21,250
-And, um, it's...
-(WINE POURING)
365
00:22:21,333 --> 00:22:23,833
...good to understand and
make peace with that, you know?
366
00:22:23,916 --> 00:22:26,958
I think it's a--
it's a sign of strength, even.
367
00:22:35,000 --> 00:22:36,083
(JONATHAN EXHALES)
368
00:22:36,166 --> 00:22:37,500
What?
369
00:22:37,583 --> 00:22:39,083
Nothing. I'm listening.
370
00:22:43,166 --> 00:22:45,250
Don't look so worried.
I'm fine.
371
00:22:46,083 --> 00:22:47,250
-Are you?
-Yes.
372
00:22:47,333 --> 00:22:49,458
-Really?
-(LAUGHS) Yes!
373
00:22:52,125 --> 00:22:53,708
-What?
-I don't know. I'm just--
374
00:22:53,791 --> 00:22:56,375
I'm, you know, I'm having
these flashbacks to...
375
00:22:58,083 --> 00:22:59,791
to your monologues
from college.
376
00:23:01,916 --> 00:23:04,958
Every time you and Lucas
broke up, you know,
377
00:23:05,041 --> 00:23:10,666
it was always, "Oh, how
wonderful it is to acknowledge
378
00:23:10,750 --> 00:23:12,625
that you're actually alone
in the world."
379
00:23:12,708 --> 00:23:14,500
I never-- I never said
it was wonderful.
380
00:23:14,583 --> 00:23:16,750
JONATHAN: Yeah, but I mean,
it was-- it was obviously
381
00:23:16,833 --> 00:23:19,625
a kind of like mania
382
00:23:19,708 --> 00:23:22,166
where you were suppressing
all this pain,
383
00:23:22,250 --> 00:23:23,541
but then it would flip
to depression
384
00:23:23,625 --> 00:23:24,708
and you'd go running back to him
385
00:23:24,791 --> 00:23:26,375
'cause you couldn't
actually be alone.
386
00:23:27,666 --> 00:23:29,083
I mean, it just was so obvious.
387
00:23:29,166 --> 00:23:32,916
It's so obvious
that it's a defense mechanism.
388
00:23:34,791 --> 00:23:36,500
Great.
(CHUCKLES)
389
00:23:38,583 --> 00:23:41,333
You know, it's pretty insulting
when someone uses psychology
390
00:23:41,416 --> 00:23:44,875
to, uh, try and pick apart
actual insight
391
00:23:44,958 --> 00:23:46,416
that you've really had.
392
00:23:47,583 --> 00:23:49,750
Can't you just believe
that this is how I feel?
393
00:23:49,833 --> 00:23:51,833
I do believe you.
394
00:23:51,916 --> 00:23:53,958
-MIRA: I'm also, you know--
-You're right. I'm sorry.
395
00:23:54,041 --> 00:23:56,250
MIRA: I'm not, um, coming
from the same place anymore.
396
00:23:56,333 --> 00:23:58,208
I'm not 20 years old, you know?
397
00:23:58,291 --> 00:23:59,458
JONATHAN: Okay.
398
00:24:01,375 --> 00:24:04,416
What's with all this fucking
psychological bullshit anyway?
399
00:24:04,500 --> 00:24:07,333
What, you dating
a shrink? (LAUGHS)
400
00:24:11,041 --> 00:24:12,500
I am-- I'm going to one.
401
00:24:13,833 --> 00:24:17,041
Yeah. Not a-- not a shrink.
A therapist.
402
00:24:18,958 --> 00:24:20,000
Yeah.
403
00:24:21,125 --> 00:24:23,375
MIRA: You're...
You're kidding me.
404
00:24:23,458 --> 00:24:25,958
No, no, no, no.
I'm going to one.
405
00:24:26,041 --> 00:24:29,375
Um, I mean, I needed it.
And it's, uh--
406
00:24:29,458 --> 00:24:32,125
honestly, it's-- it helped me.
It is helping me.
407
00:24:33,958 --> 00:24:35,625
What does it help you with?
408
00:24:37,791 --> 00:24:41,000
JONATHAN: Um, first of all,
to understand, you know?
409
00:24:41,083 --> 00:24:43,291
To make sense
of everything, of...
410
00:24:45,500 --> 00:24:46,625
of what happened.
411
00:24:48,250 --> 00:24:50,125
-To put it into words.
-Yeah.
412
00:24:50,208 --> 00:24:54,708
'Cause I-- I couldn't
even begin to comprehend
413
00:24:54,791 --> 00:24:56,333
what had happened.
414
00:24:57,833 --> 00:24:58,958
You know?
415
00:25:00,958 --> 00:25:03,416
Um, she gave me this, uh,
exercise to do this thing
416
00:25:03,500 --> 00:25:06,375
called morning pages,
where you have to write
417
00:25:06,458 --> 00:25:08,416
three pages,
uh, as soon as you get up,
418
00:25:08,500 --> 00:25:11,458
before you've had your coffee,
before you've done anything.
419
00:25:11,541 --> 00:25:14,750
Um, you know, first thing
that comes into your mind.
420
00:25:14,833 --> 00:25:15,958
Have you heard of that?
421
00:25:16,500 --> 00:25:19,583
Hmm, yeah. Maybe.
422
00:25:20,916 --> 00:25:22,416
(YAWNS) Sorry.
423
00:25:23,166 --> 00:25:24,166
It's okay.
424
00:25:25,416 --> 00:25:27,250
(LAUGHING) I'm so exhausted.
425
00:25:27,333 --> 00:25:29,583
-JONATHAN: Mm.
-It's the wine and, um...
426
00:25:31,250 --> 00:25:32,458
I just--
I haven't been sleeping,
427
00:25:32,541 --> 00:25:34,000
you know,
since the London offer.
428
00:25:34,083 --> 00:25:36,625
It's just Ackerman's
putting so much pressure on me.
429
00:25:38,166 --> 00:25:41,833
Sure. Yeah.
That's okay. I get it.
430
00:25:41,916 --> 00:25:44,458
Um, are you okay to drive home?
431
00:25:44,541 --> 00:25:46,125
You sure you don't want
any coffee?
432
00:25:46,208 --> 00:25:47,375
Wait. You were
in the middle of something.
433
00:25:47,458 --> 00:25:49,666
No, it's okay. It's all right.
It's all good.
434
00:25:51,291 --> 00:25:52,791
-MIRA: Wh--
-So espresso, right?
435
00:25:52,875 --> 00:25:54,041
MIRA: Hey!
436
00:25:55,333 --> 00:25:57,125
Please don't make a big deal
out of this.
437
00:25:57,208 --> 00:25:58,500
It has nothing to do
with anything.
438
00:25:58,583 --> 00:26:00,625
It's just--
I wanna hear about it.
439
00:26:00,708 --> 00:26:02,666
It's just my-- I'm so--
I'm so tired.
440
00:26:02,750 --> 00:26:03,791
It's my exhaustion.
441
00:26:03,875 --> 00:26:05,291
No. No. Look, nothing happened.
Everything's okay.
442
00:26:05,375 --> 00:26:07,166
MIRA: But I wanted--
I want you to finish
443
00:26:07,250 --> 00:26:08,458
what you were telling me,
please.
444
00:26:08,541 --> 00:26:10,375
I mean, maybe
you could read it to me.
445
00:26:10,458 --> 00:26:11,583
JONATHAN: Read what?
446
00:26:11,666 --> 00:26:13,791
The morning papers, I think...
447
00:26:13,875 --> 00:26:15,708
Morning pages.
No. No, no, the-- (SCOFFS)
448
00:26:15,791 --> 00:26:18,208
The whole point's that you're
not supposed to show anybody.
449
00:26:18,291 --> 00:26:21,458
Well, but you can just--
you can read it to me, okay?
450
00:26:21,541 --> 00:26:23,250
And I won't tell anyone
that you did, okay?
451
00:26:23,333 --> 00:26:24,291
Here you go.
452
00:26:24,375 --> 00:26:25,791
(SIGHS) I don't want coffee.
453
00:26:29,416 --> 00:26:31,875
-Read to me, please.
-JONATHAN: Why-- (SIGHS)
454
00:26:31,958 --> 00:26:33,708
Why is this
so important to you?
455
00:26:36,125 --> 00:26:37,375
You're important to me.
456
00:26:40,750 --> 00:26:42,500
I-- I could just go get it.
457
00:26:42,583 --> 00:26:44,291
No. Okay, okay. Fine.
458
00:26:47,375 --> 00:26:48,750
-I'll get it.
-Thank you.
459
00:26:54,333 --> 00:26:55,625
(JONATHAN CLEARS THROAT)
460
00:27:10,583 --> 00:27:12,208
I'm not sure
there's much of a chance
461
00:27:12,291 --> 00:27:15,208
-I can read my own handwriting.
-(MIRA CHUCKLES)
462
00:27:15,291 --> 00:27:17,541
Maybe I'll read you something
that I wrote this morning.
463
00:27:17,625 --> 00:27:19,166
I can still kind of remember it.
464
00:27:26,000 --> 00:27:27,375
(CLEARS THROAT)
465
00:27:27,916 --> 00:27:28,916
Okay.
466
00:27:33,208 --> 00:27:35,666
It's written
in the third person.
467
00:27:35,750 --> 00:27:38,333
I don't know why it came out
like that. It just did.
468
00:27:38,416 --> 00:27:40,291
The whole point is that
you're just supposed to...
469
00:27:40,916 --> 00:27:42,625
to go with the flow.
470
00:27:44,708 --> 00:27:46,291
Okay. Um... (CLEARS THROAT)
471
00:27:46,375 --> 00:27:50,875
"Apparently, his obsessive
rational thinking
472
00:27:50,958 --> 00:27:55,916
at that age was
only compensation
473
00:27:56,000 --> 00:27:58,666
for all the anxieties.
474
00:27:58,750 --> 00:28:02,541
Because there was the father,
this dominant father
475
00:28:02,625 --> 00:28:05,041
casting a shadow over him,
476
00:28:05,125 --> 00:28:09,208
judgmental,
with strict moral codes,
477
00:28:09,291 --> 00:28:11,791
and he--" Meaning me.
478
00:28:11,875 --> 00:28:12,833
MIRA: Mm.
479
00:28:12,916 --> 00:28:16,166
Uh, "Tried so hard
to please this father,
480
00:28:16,250 --> 00:28:18,458
to live up to his standards,
481
00:28:18,541 --> 00:28:20,666
but he always felt like
he'd failed,
482
00:28:20,750 --> 00:28:25,708
so that, gradually, he developed
this permanent feeling
483
00:28:25,791 --> 00:28:31,083
of 'I'm not good enough,
I'm not moral enough,
484
00:28:31,166 --> 00:28:33,375
I'm too egocentric,'
485
00:28:33,458 --> 00:28:35,541
which, in the world
he grew up in,
486
00:28:35,625 --> 00:28:37,375
is the worst possible sin.
487
00:28:40,250 --> 00:28:42,875
And on the other hand,
there was the mother,
488
00:28:42,958 --> 00:28:46,916
who was always too weak
to face down this tough father.
489
00:28:47,000 --> 00:28:49,375
But she was such
an anxious person herself
490
00:28:49,458 --> 00:28:53,750
that even with her, this boy,
he couldn't really be himself,
491
00:28:53,833 --> 00:28:56,041
he couldn't share
his hardships, his fears,
492
00:28:56,125 --> 00:28:59,333
because she'd immediately
get so overwhelmed
493
00:28:59,416 --> 00:29:02,416
that her anxiety
would only compound his.
494
00:29:02,500 --> 00:29:05,458
And then, when he realized
no one actually saw him,
495
00:29:05,541 --> 00:29:07,541
his true self that is,
496
00:29:07,625 --> 00:29:11,250
no one could help him cope with
everything he was going through,
497
00:29:11,333 --> 00:29:14,000
he fell deeper
and deeper into himself,
498
00:29:14,083 --> 00:29:17,000
and kept all of his pain
and anxiety inside,
499
00:29:17,083 --> 00:29:19,208
and never told anyone anything,
500
00:29:19,291 --> 00:29:21,291
and this split inside him
501
00:29:21,375 --> 00:29:24,166
wouldn't let him truly be
in a relationship,
502
00:29:24,250 --> 00:29:26,583
because there was always
part of him that he kept hidden,
503
00:29:27,375 --> 00:29:29,000
he was never fully present,
504
00:29:30,125 --> 00:29:31,333
until Mira showed up.
505
00:29:33,458 --> 00:29:37,458
And to a certain extent,
she saved him by seeing him.
506
00:29:37,541 --> 00:29:41,291
For the first time in his life,
he felt like he might be pulled
507
00:29:41,375 --> 00:29:43,708
out of the inherent loneliness.
508
00:29:46,500 --> 00:29:50,875
But only after she left
did he realize how,
509
00:29:50,958 --> 00:29:55,500
even with her,
he was there-not-there,
510
00:29:55,583 --> 00:29:58,125
and how hard it must have been
to live with this,
511
00:29:58,208 --> 00:30:01,333
with someone who was always
partly somewhere else,
512
00:30:01,416 --> 00:30:03,458
inside his own head,
513
00:30:03,541 --> 00:30:07,333
how that could make her feel
lonely and unseen.
514
00:30:07,416 --> 00:30:11,958
And this realization helped him
deal with her leaving him,
515
00:30:12,583 --> 00:30:14,583
to make sense of it,
516
00:30:14,666 --> 00:30:16,666
and that disabused him
of the idea
517
00:30:16,750 --> 00:30:21,291
that he'd been a victim of some
kind of sudden cataclysm."
518
00:30:22,500 --> 00:30:26,583
♪ (QUIET MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
519
00:31:18,083 --> 00:31:21,375
(BOTH BREATHING HEAVILY)
520
00:31:41,250 --> 00:31:44,083
(MOANING)
521
00:31:55,625 --> 00:31:56,958
Oh, fuck.
522
00:32:00,250 --> 00:32:01,666
(BREATHES HEAVILY) Stop.
523
00:32:01,750 --> 00:32:03,791
-This isn't good.
-What?
524
00:32:04,500 --> 00:32:05,666
It's not good.
525
00:32:07,583 --> 00:32:10,416
I don't-- I don't want this.
I don't wanna sleep with you.
526
00:32:11,708 --> 00:32:13,083
It's not good for me.
527
00:32:15,458 --> 00:32:18,208
It took me a really long time
to get where I am right now.
528
00:32:18,291 --> 00:32:19,375
I don't wanna...
529
00:32:20,416 --> 00:32:23,041
I don't want to go back
to that fucking torment.
530
00:32:25,333 --> 00:32:26,458
No.
531
00:32:27,416 --> 00:32:28,875
I just don't...
532
00:32:35,958 --> 00:32:37,625
I don't think you actually
really understand
533
00:32:37,708 --> 00:32:39,750
what it was like for me
here a year ago.
534
00:32:41,708 --> 00:32:45,916
I wanna know. Tell me.
Tell me.
535
00:32:47,041 --> 00:32:48,750
-Do you really?
-Yes.
536
00:32:56,583 --> 00:32:58,125
That first moment, I was...
537
00:33:01,791 --> 00:33:03,125
I was just on autopilot.
538
00:33:05,541 --> 00:33:09,416
I woke Ava up,
I got her dressed,
539
00:33:09,500 --> 00:33:10,958
I dropped her off
at preschool,
540
00:33:11,041 --> 00:33:14,083
and I canceled all my classes,
and then I came back home.
541
00:33:16,625 --> 00:33:21,041
And I thought I was literally
losing my mind.
542
00:33:25,166 --> 00:33:27,416
Then there was a moment
where I thought
543
00:33:27,500 --> 00:33:31,583
that I didn't even want
to stay alive.
544
00:33:34,250 --> 00:33:35,916
There was lots of moments
where I was sure
545
00:33:36,000 --> 00:33:37,791
I didn't want you to stay alive.
546
00:33:39,666 --> 00:33:41,666
Like, I really
wanted you to die.
547
00:33:45,958 --> 00:33:50,916
And then there was...
548
00:33:52,958 --> 00:33:56,458
-there was a moment
when I wanted Ava to die.
-(EXHALES)
549
00:34:01,250 --> 00:34:02,916
For that to be my revenge.
550
00:34:04,375 --> 00:34:07,708
And then that night,
she started coughing like crazy.
551
00:34:09,708 --> 00:34:12,000
And at one point, she threw up
from coughing so much.
552
00:34:12,083 --> 00:34:15,041
And then she spiked
a fever of 104
553
00:34:15,125 --> 00:34:18,625
and I wasn't sure if I should
take her to the emergency room.
554
00:34:18,708 --> 00:34:21,375
That's why I ended up
putting her in a bathtub.
555
00:34:21,458 --> 00:34:25,541
And that lasted all night,
and I was scared to death.
556
00:34:27,000 --> 00:34:28,416
I thought I'd killed her.
557
00:34:34,833 --> 00:34:39,000
And it took three days
for the antibiotics to kick in.
558
00:34:39,083 --> 00:34:40,958
And that was a nightmare,
but it was also the best thing
559
00:34:41,041 --> 00:34:43,958
that could happen to me
because I didn't have
560
00:34:44,041 --> 00:34:47,625
a second to myself,
I barely slept.
561
00:34:47,708 --> 00:34:50,791
And then you came back
on the weekend
562
00:34:50,875 --> 00:34:52,791
and you took her and...
563
00:34:52,875 --> 00:34:55,916
her fever was
already gone by then.
564
00:34:56,000 --> 00:34:59,375
I was-- and I was alone
all of a sudden.
565
00:35:01,625 --> 00:35:04,583
But I was already
in a more human state.
566
00:35:07,000 --> 00:35:08,333
I could breathe by then.
567
00:35:09,875 --> 00:35:13,333
(EXHALES)
And start some kind of healing.
568
00:35:15,333 --> 00:35:18,750
Then a few minutes would go by
and I wouldn't think about it.
569
00:35:21,583 --> 00:35:23,041
Think about you.
570
00:35:25,166 --> 00:35:26,666
Then a few hours.
571
00:35:30,291 --> 00:35:33,875
Now, I'll go half a day
without thinking about it.
572
00:35:35,833 --> 00:35:40,000
Sometimes the whole day,
especially when Ava's here.
573
00:35:43,375 --> 00:35:46,666
So, yeah, no way
I'm going back to that.
574
00:35:48,083 --> 00:35:50,666
You know, we'll have sex
and it'll be amazing,
575
00:35:50,750 --> 00:35:53,375
and then it's all the way back
to the bottom.
576
00:35:56,000 --> 00:35:57,125
No way.
577
00:36:02,458 --> 00:36:05,208
What makes you think
it was any different for me?
578
00:36:07,208 --> 00:36:09,333
-Oh, Mira.
-(SOBS)
579
00:36:11,833 --> 00:36:13,791
It was a nightmare for me too.
580
00:36:18,291 --> 00:36:20,250
I couldn't stop thinking
about you.
581
00:36:21,083 --> 00:36:22,625
Not even for a second.
582
00:36:23,708 --> 00:36:25,041
I just, uh...
583
00:36:29,416 --> 00:36:31,750
Please don't--
please don't do that.
584
00:36:33,000 --> 00:36:34,375
Don't do what?
585
00:36:36,458 --> 00:36:37,833
-(SNIFFLES)
-Don't.
586
00:36:39,458 --> 00:36:42,125
Don't say things you don't mean
587
00:36:42,208 --> 00:36:45,083
just to prove that we're in
the same boat, 'cause we're not.
588
00:36:45,916 --> 00:36:47,250
But how would you know?
589
00:36:51,000 --> 00:36:52,833
I just miss you all the time.
590
00:36:56,708 --> 00:36:59,583
I never stopped loving you,
not even for a second.
591
00:37:05,208 --> 00:37:06,875
I never stopped wanting you.
592
00:37:12,541 --> 00:37:14,291
I want you now so bad.
593
00:37:17,375 --> 00:37:20,291
This whole past week,
I come just thinking about you.
594
00:37:25,958 --> 00:37:26,958
Hold on.
595
00:37:34,833 --> 00:37:38,458
Sweetie, stop. Please.
Please. No.
596
00:37:38,541 --> 00:37:39,666
I'm sorry.
597
00:37:46,000 --> 00:37:47,000
I'm sorry.
598
00:37:48,166 --> 00:37:49,166
It's okay.
599
00:38:09,375 --> 00:38:11,375
Do you want me to go now?
(SNIFFLES)
600
00:38:27,750 --> 00:38:28,750
Thanks.
601
00:38:31,583 --> 00:38:34,375
You sure I can't get you
any coffee or anything?
602
00:38:34,458 --> 00:38:35,541
No? Okay.
603
00:38:37,916 --> 00:38:38,958
(SIGHS)
604
00:38:53,708 --> 00:38:56,041
What time
are you picking up Ava?
605
00:38:56,125 --> 00:38:57,750
Uh, in the morning,
around 10:00.
606
00:38:57,833 --> 00:38:58,916
Okay.
607
00:38:59,000 --> 00:39:01,291
You'll have her bag ready
for school on Monday?
608
00:39:01,375 --> 00:39:02,500
JONATHAN: Of course.
609
00:39:05,000 --> 00:39:06,125
Okay.
610
00:39:15,000 --> 00:39:18,625
If Poli wasn't coming, would
that change anything for you?
611
00:39:20,208 --> 00:39:21,208
What?
612
00:39:23,625 --> 00:39:25,416
MIRA: If I was going
to London alone...
613
00:39:28,333 --> 00:39:30,208
would you consider
coming with Ava?
614
00:39:32,291 --> 00:39:35,500
♪ (MUSIC PLAYING ON IPAD) ♪
615
00:39:36,666 --> 00:39:38,750
What's Poli have to do
with anything?
616
00:39:42,666 --> 00:39:43,750
All right.
617
00:39:52,208 --> 00:39:54,833
(WINDCHIME TINKLING)
618
00:40:07,166 --> 00:40:08,583
MIRA: I can't drive right now.
619
00:40:09,958 --> 00:40:13,708
Stay here tonight, okay?
Okay?
620
00:40:29,541 --> 00:40:32,625
♪ (MUSIC PLAYING ON IPAD) ♪
621
00:40:35,458 --> 00:40:40,708
♪ (GENTLE MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
622
00:41:02,500 --> 00:41:04,458
JONATHAN: I got some shirts.
Do you want one?
623
00:41:05,208 --> 00:41:06,208
Thank you.
624
00:41:11,458 --> 00:41:13,708
-Will you help me?
-JONATHAN: Yeah.
625
00:41:13,791 --> 00:41:18,875
♪ (GENTLE MUSIC CONTINUES) ♪
626
00:42:00,166 --> 00:42:02,500
(CHUCKLING)
627
00:42:30,083 --> 00:42:33,625
(RAIN PATTERING ON IPAD)
628
00:42:49,666 --> 00:42:52,333
-(PHONE CHIMES)
-JONATHAN: Shit, sorry.
629
00:43:02,333 --> 00:43:05,125
-Is that your girlfriend?
-(CHUCKLES)
630
00:43:07,125 --> 00:43:08,666
I wouldn't go that far.
631
00:43:10,416 --> 00:43:12,750
-(WHISPERING) Your lover?
-(CHUCKLES)
632
00:43:16,583 --> 00:43:19,000
Did you tell her that
I was coming over tonight?
633
00:43:22,291 --> 00:43:23,250
Yes.
634
00:43:23,333 --> 00:43:24,958
(PHONE VIBRATES)
635
00:43:28,416 --> 00:43:30,000
Just try to ignore it.
636
00:43:33,541 --> 00:43:35,083
(PHONE VIBRATES)
637
00:43:36,208 --> 00:43:37,875
She's not giving up.
That's dedication.
638
00:43:43,791 --> 00:43:45,291
(PHONE VIBRATES)
639
00:43:50,208 --> 00:43:52,166
Sorry. I'll just turn it off.
640
00:43:56,541 --> 00:43:58,375
Just give me one second, okay?
641
00:44:06,333 --> 00:44:07,458
Hey.
642
00:44:07,541 --> 00:44:09,875
(LAURA SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY
OVER PHONE)
643
00:44:09,958 --> 00:44:11,666
Good. Uh, yeah, but listen,
644
00:44:11,750 --> 00:44:14,166
it's not cool to,
like, bombard me with...
645
00:44:14,250 --> 00:44:16,833
LAURA: Because you were
supposed to call me.
646
00:44:16,916 --> 00:44:18,833
I told you,
I'd call you when she left.
647
00:44:18,916 --> 00:44:20,750
LAURA: Oh,
so she hasn't gone yet?
648
00:44:20,833 --> 00:44:23,791
No, she hasn't.
She's still here, okay?
649
00:44:23,875 --> 00:44:25,791
(LAURA SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY)
650
00:44:25,875 --> 00:44:27,333
JONATHAN: She's-- she's in bed.
651
00:44:30,333 --> 00:44:31,500
My bed.
652
00:44:32,333 --> 00:44:34,625
Listen. Laura? Laura?
653
00:44:34,708 --> 00:44:36,250
We-- we need to talk,
'cause this is--
654
00:44:36,333 --> 00:44:37,916
this is really just not, uh...
655
00:44:40,791 --> 00:44:43,041
Okay, well what I'm saying is
that we should take a break
656
00:44:43,125 --> 00:44:44,041
because this is just not--
657
00:44:44,125 --> 00:44:46,041
not working out for me
right now.
658
00:44:49,000 --> 00:44:51,166
Not a, uh, uh--
I wouldn't--
659
00:44:54,291 --> 00:44:56,833
Okay, you know, let me just--
let me stop you here
660
00:44:56,916 --> 00:44:59,166
before you say something
that you're gonna regret.
661
00:45:04,041 --> 00:45:07,375
Look, I'm-- I'm really sorry
it has to end like this.
662
00:45:07,458 --> 00:45:11,666
But, uh, honestly, I've been
feeling for a while that--
663
00:45:11,750 --> 00:45:14,000
well, you know, that...
664
00:45:14,083 --> 00:45:16,416
-(LAURA SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY)
-JONATHAN: I'm not...
665
00:45:19,708 --> 00:45:22,375
-Okay, bye.
-(MIRA SIGHS)
666
00:45:29,708 --> 00:45:31,958
-Sorry about that.
-It's okay.
667
00:45:32,041 --> 00:45:34,750
I just couldn't help
overhearing it.
668
00:45:34,833 --> 00:45:38,375
Yeah, I wasn't really
trying so hard
669
00:45:38,458 --> 00:45:40,000
to make sure you didn't.
670
00:45:44,166 --> 00:45:45,625
Why'd you get out of bed?
671
00:46:00,750 --> 00:46:02,166
Did that upset you?
672
00:46:02,875 --> 00:46:04,500
No, of course not.
673
00:46:07,500 --> 00:46:09,375
Why'd you tell her
I was in the bed with you?
674
00:46:11,791 --> 00:46:13,458
-Why?
-Yeah.
675
00:46:13,541 --> 00:46:16,625
I don't know.
I didn't really feel
676
00:46:16,708 --> 00:46:18,708
like I needed to hide it.
677
00:46:18,791 --> 00:46:20,291
But you had plans
with her tonight
678
00:46:20,375 --> 00:46:22,083
and you knew
it was gonna upset her.
679
00:46:25,666 --> 00:46:26,791
Okay.
680
00:46:29,166 --> 00:46:30,125
(SIGHS)
681
00:46:30,208 --> 00:46:33,875
Mira, um, I'm sorry that
that happened that way.
682
00:46:33,958 --> 00:46:35,250
Can we forget about it?
683
00:46:37,500 --> 00:46:38,625
Okay?
684
00:46:46,125 --> 00:46:48,791
-What?
-(LAUGHING) Nothing.
685
00:46:48,875 --> 00:46:50,833
I don't-- It's just a shame.
686
00:46:50,916 --> 00:46:52,958
It sounded pretty serious,
right?
687
00:46:54,791 --> 00:46:56,208
I don't know, I mean, anyway,
688
00:46:56,291 --> 00:46:57,958
it's not really relevant
anymore, is it?
689
00:46:59,583 --> 00:47:03,083
I don't know about that.
I mean, it's not unforgivable,
690
00:47:03,166 --> 00:47:05,250
so I'm--
I'm sure she'll understand.
691
00:47:14,583 --> 00:47:15,583
Fuck.
692
00:47:20,291 --> 00:47:21,833
(SIGHS)
693
00:47:24,750 --> 00:47:26,875
You haven't lost your talent
for saying the wrong thing
694
00:47:26,958 --> 00:47:29,541
at the wrong time, that's--
that's for sure.
695
00:47:32,041 --> 00:47:36,375
It's just I, uh,
felt a little sad, you know?
696
00:47:36,458 --> 00:47:37,916
-I felt sad for you.
-Yeah. Oh, that's sweet.
697
00:47:38,000 --> 00:47:39,208
How about you snap out of it,
okay?
698
00:47:39,291 --> 00:47:40,625
'Cause you're not
my couples counselor.
699
00:47:40,708 --> 00:47:42,458
Well, I just think it's a shame
to give up on something
700
00:47:42,541 --> 00:47:44,208
-over a couple texts--
-JONATHAN: Enough!
701
00:47:45,333 --> 00:47:46,333
Enough!
702
00:48:00,833 --> 00:48:03,083
Can I just say something
to you, Mira?
703
00:48:03,541 --> 00:48:04,666
Truthfully...
704
00:48:06,000 --> 00:48:10,791
I'm not buying your whole
"ode to solitude" thing.
705
00:48:10,875 --> 00:48:12,708
Okay? It's bullshit.
706
00:48:13,875 --> 00:48:16,000
And I don't believe
that you believe in it.
707
00:48:17,208 --> 00:48:21,041
It's a weakness. It's fear.
It's not strength.
708
00:48:21,125 --> 00:48:24,416
And I don't know what's gonna
happen to you if you can't--
709
00:48:24,500 --> 00:48:26,666
I'm not-- I'm not trying
to be patronizing,
710
00:48:26,750 --> 00:48:31,041
but I can see that your chaos
and your detachment--
711
00:48:31,125 --> 00:48:33,958
your total detachment and...
712
00:48:42,083 --> 00:48:45,291
I remember how--
how we were back then
713
00:48:45,375 --> 00:48:47,208
before we moved in together
714
00:48:48,083 --> 00:48:50,083
and what we saved
ourselves from.
715
00:48:52,750 --> 00:48:55,500
How we pulled each other
out of exactly--
716
00:48:55,583 --> 00:48:59,041
exactly that loneliness
that you're talking about.
717
00:49:00,708 --> 00:49:05,250
It wasn't an illusion,
and you know it.
718
00:49:09,291 --> 00:49:10,625
It was a miracle.
719
00:49:10,708 --> 00:49:13,625
It was like the biggest
miracle of our lives.
720
00:49:18,375 --> 00:49:20,458
And we're just like throwing
it all away.
721
00:49:22,416 --> 00:49:24,750
And it's... it's...
722
00:49:26,416 --> 00:49:28,583
It's just, like,
it's a terrible mistake.
723
00:49:28,666 --> 00:49:31,083
It's terrible. And...
724
00:49:31,166 --> 00:49:33,666
We should-- I don't know.
725
00:49:33,750 --> 00:49:35,833
We should've just
done everything we could to...
726
00:49:37,666 --> 00:49:38,750
to...
727
00:49:40,625 --> 00:49:42,541
save it, to not just give up.
728
00:49:49,500 --> 00:49:51,041
I can't, uh...
729
00:49:54,750 --> 00:49:56,458
I don't know how to...
730
00:50:00,333 --> 00:50:01,666
(GROANS)
731
00:50:04,000 --> 00:50:05,458
I'm really nauseous.
732
00:50:12,958 --> 00:50:14,958
Something is fucked up with me.
733
00:50:19,291 --> 00:50:21,625
Something inside
is so fucked up.
734
00:50:36,750 --> 00:50:38,000
(SIGHS)
735
00:50:43,458 --> 00:50:44,875
Can I play you something?
736
00:50:47,416 --> 00:50:48,583
MIRA: Play something?
737
00:50:49,541 --> 00:50:51,250
Yeah. It's...
738
00:50:51,333 --> 00:50:53,375
It's a voicemail
I got this morning.
739
00:50:55,916 --> 00:50:57,375
Just hold on a second.
740
00:51:01,041 --> 00:51:02,958
POLI: (ON PHONE)
Hey, Jonathan. It's Poli.
741
00:51:03,041 --> 00:51:05,458
Um, I'm in the airport
right now,
742
00:51:05,541 --> 00:51:07,500
I'm going for a week,
so, uh...
743
00:51:08,166 --> 00:51:09,875
uh, listen...
744
00:51:09,958 --> 00:51:13,416
I know that Mira is going to
meet you tonight, okay?
745
00:51:13,500 --> 00:51:15,708
I don't know what
you're going to do together.
746
00:51:15,791 --> 00:51:18,750
It's a free country,
you're still married,
747
00:51:18,833 --> 00:51:20,666
legally, so...
748
00:51:21,750 --> 00:51:23,500
(LAUGHS) I'm just saying,
749
00:51:23,583 --> 00:51:26,125
this whole fucking
situation here...
750
00:51:26,208 --> 00:51:30,291
The suspicions and, uh,
the fights and all that...
751
00:51:30,375 --> 00:51:32,750
It-- it's just not for me.
752
00:51:32,833 --> 00:51:35,416
You two sit together, talk,
753
00:51:35,500 --> 00:51:37,750
decide what you wanna do
with each other.
754
00:51:37,833 --> 00:51:39,500
I had enough.
755
00:51:39,583 --> 00:51:42,458
Uh, if she wants to come back
to you, believe me,
756
00:51:42,541 --> 00:51:45,708
I'm the last person to stop her,
okay?
757
00:51:45,791 --> 00:51:47,958
And you can share this with Mira
if you want.
758
00:51:48,041 --> 00:51:50,750
She probably told you
everything anyway, so...
759
00:51:50,833 --> 00:51:53,250
-just, uh, keep me posted.
-Ava. Hey!
760
00:51:53,333 --> 00:51:55,583
-Hi, babe!
-Where's Poli?
761
00:51:56,500 --> 00:51:58,791
Poli? Um... Poli's not here.
762
00:51:58,875 --> 00:52:00,583
We're at Daddy's house, honey.
763
00:52:00,666 --> 00:52:03,291
But I'm hungry, and I want
Poli to make me pancakes.
764
00:52:03,375 --> 00:52:04,958
Sweetie, we don't eat
in the middle of the night.
765
00:52:05,041 --> 00:52:07,250
-Okay? Come here.
-But Poli lets me.
766
00:52:07,333 --> 00:52:09,000
JONATHAN: Yeah? Does he?
767
00:52:09,083 --> 00:52:10,666
Well, you know what?
Let's go lay down
768
00:52:10,750 --> 00:52:12,000
and we'll try to sleep,
769
00:52:12,083 --> 00:52:14,000
and if you're still hungry,
we'll make a snack. Okay, honey?
770
00:52:15,083 --> 00:52:16,000
All right?
771
00:52:16,083 --> 00:52:18,333
But can I sleep
in your bed, Mommy?
772
00:52:19,583 --> 00:52:22,166
Oh, my... Tomorrow you can.
773
00:52:23,458 --> 00:52:25,541
-Promise, tomorrow.
-Come on. Let's go lie down.
774
00:52:25,625 --> 00:52:27,166
I'll lie down next to you,
all right?
775
00:52:27,250 --> 00:52:28,916
Come give Mommy
a big good night kiss.
776
00:52:29,958 --> 00:52:31,000
Love you.
777
00:52:31,083 --> 00:52:32,541
All right. Let's go.
778
00:52:33,583 --> 00:52:34,833
One second, all right?
779
00:52:34,916 --> 00:52:36,083
MIRA: Sure.
780
00:52:36,166 --> 00:52:40,000
JONATHAN: Yeah, just...
There we go.
781
00:52:40,083 --> 00:52:41,458
All right.
782
00:52:42,875 --> 00:52:45,166
'Bout I sing you
a little dream song?
783
00:52:48,250 --> 00:52:50,041
AVA LEVY: I don't wanna
go to sleep yet.
784
00:52:50,125 --> 00:52:51,708
JONATHAN: Of course
you don't wanna go to sleep yet.
785
00:52:51,791 --> 00:52:53,250
We're not gonna go to sleep,
okay?
786
00:52:53,333 --> 00:52:54,750
I'm just gonna sing a song.
787
00:52:55,375 --> 00:52:57,083
-Okay.
-Stay awake.
788
00:52:59,291 --> 00:53:02,416
♪ The Sandman is waiting ♪
789
00:53:02,500 --> 00:53:06,083
♪ To deliver me my dreams ♪
790
00:53:06,166 --> 00:53:07,500
Keep going.
791
00:53:09,416 --> 00:53:14,208
♪ Roll on, roll on
Oh, little train ♪
792
00:53:14,291 --> 00:53:15,375
Close your eyes.
793
00:53:17,083 --> 00:53:19,625
♪ Brakeman, blow your whistle ♪
794
00:53:19,708 --> 00:53:23,083
♪ Throw your weight
Upon the chain ♪
795
00:53:23,166 --> 00:53:27,625
♪ Make way
Whatever will be, will be ♪
796
00:53:29,583 --> 00:53:34,375
♪ Between the Sandman
The Brakeman, and me ♪
797
00:53:36,875 --> 00:53:40,166
(HUMMING)
798
00:53:45,791 --> 00:53:48,750
(HUMMING CONTINUES)
799
00:53:54,166 --> 00:53:59,333
♪ (GENTLE MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
800
00:54:15,250 --> 00:54:17,875
(INSECTS CHIRPING)
801
00:54:27,416 --> 00:54:30,666
(INSECTS BUZZING)
802
00:54:43,541 --> 00:54:45,708
(WINDCHIME TINKLING)
803
00:54:51,208 --> 00:54:55,541
♪ (MUSIC CONTINUES) ♪
804
00:55:44,875 --> 00:55:47,916
♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪