1 00:00:09,875 --> 00:00:11,333 (FILM CREW CHATTERING INDISTINCTLY) 2 00:00:11,416 --> 00:00:13,416 CREW 1: Okay. We peek through the wall. 3 00:00:13,500 --> 00:00:15,166 Toshiro, camera goes to the porch. 4 00:00:15,250 --> 00:00:17,166 ♪ (UPBEAT MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 5 00:00:17,250 --> 00:00:19,291 Okay. Let's close the front door. 6 00:00:20,833 --> 00:00:22,208 Clear. Let's stand by to roll. 7 00:00:22,291 --> 00:00:24,250 (CHATTER CONTINUES) 8 00:00:24,333 --> 00:00:26,083 CREW 2: Yeah. That's great. 9 00:00:26,166 --> 00:00:28,875 (BELL RINGS) 10 00:00:28,958 --> 00:00:30,125 ♪ (MUSIC STOPS) ♪ 11 00:00:30,208 --> 00:00:32,958 All right. Here we go. And action. 12 00:00:37,291 --> 00:00:41,416 ♪ (MUSIC RESUMES) ♪ 13 00:01:04,500 --> 00:01:06,958 (KEYS JANGLING) 14 00:01:28,250 --> 00:01:29,375 (KNOCKS ON DOOR) 15 00:01:35,958 --> 00:01:38,000 -Wow. -(CHUCKLES) 16 00:01:38,083 --> 00:01:39,708 You don't like it? You like it? 17 00:01:39,791 --> 00:01:42,041 No. It's just, uh-- come in. Come in. 18 00:01:45,416 --> 00:01:46,625 -Hi. -Hi. 19 00:01:50,250 --> 00:01:52,625 -(CHUCKLES) -Hey. 20 00:01:56,583 --> 00:01:58,583 -Okay. Come inside. -(CHUCKLES) 21 00:01:59,875 --> 00:02:01,958 -Is she sleeping? -Yeah. Yeah. 22 00:02:02,041 --> 00:02:03,416 She went down early. 23 00:02:03,500 --> 00:02:05,250 How was bedtime? Was it... 24 00:02:05,333 --> 00:02:06,958 -Um... -You got a new living room. 25 00:02:07,041 --> 00:02:11,541 Yes. Uh, well, the armchair is-- they were-- you know, the... 26 00:02:11,625 --> 00:02:12,625 The Henningsens? 27 00:02:12,708 --> 00:02:15,166 Yeah. Yeah. They were very pretty, 28 00:02:15,250 --> 00:02:17,541 but they weren't really comfortable for watching TV. 29 00:02:17,625 --> 00:02:19,375 You never complained about it before. 30 00:02:19,458 --> 00:02:21,208 Well, I never really got to watch TV before. 31 00:02:21,291 --> 00:02:22,666 Oh. 32 00:02:22,750 --> 00:02:26,583 And the rug it's-- I mean, listen, this is-- 33 00:02:26,666 --> 00:02:30,333 it's really, really ugly. (LAUGHS) 34 00:02:30,416 --> 00:02:31,333 You think so? 35 00:02:31,416 --> 00:02:33,416 Oh, my God. Yeah. Look at this couch. 36 00:02:33,500 --> 00:02:34,458 JONATHAN LEVY: What? 37 00:02:34,541 --> 00:02:35,833 It's an affront to the green one. 38 00:02:35,916 --> 00:02:37,333 Look, it's like they're facing off. 39 00:02:37,416 --> 00:02:39,208 JONATHAN: Yeah, well, it's very comfortable, though. 40 00:02:39,291 --> 00:02:41,083 It's hideous. Where'd you get it? IKEA? 41 00:02:41,166 --> 00:02:42,625 Uh, yeah, actually. 42 00:02:42,708 --> 00:02:45,000 -Yeah. But it's cozy. -Now, why didn't you call me? 43 00:02:45,083 --> 00:02:46,625 I would've taken you shopping. 44 00:02:46,708 --> 00:02:48,708 -JONATHAN: I don't know, I... -I mean, I would've even done it myself. 45 00:02:48,791 --> 00:02:50,666 JONATHAN: I don't know. I just took care of it. 46 00:02:52,041 --> 00:02:54,041 So, when'd you do all this with your hair? 47 00:02:54,125 --> 00:02:55,583 MIRA LEVY: Uh, about a week ago. 48 00:02:55,666 --> 00:02:58,208 -JONATHAN: Oh, okay. -Thought Ava would have told you, so... 49 00:02:58,291 --> 00:03:02,000 JONATHAN: No, she's-- Ava's about the most discreet 50 00:03:02,083 --> 00:03:04,125 five-year-old on the planet. 51 00:03:04,208 --> 00:03:05,916 Sometimes it really just breaks my heart, 52 00:03:06,000 --> 00:03:08,083 -how much she holds in. -I know. Yeah. 53 00:03:09,083 --> 00:03:10,916 How was she after school today? 54 00:03:12,041 --> 00:03:14,708 She was fine. Yeah. Nothing unusual. Why? 55 00:03:14,791 --> 00:03:18,041 Oh. Just drop-off was a little tough, you know? 56 00:03:18,125 --> 00:03:20,333 She's-- her stomach hurt, and she cried a little bit. 57 00:03:20,916 --> 00:03:21,916 Hmm. 58 00:03:22,000 --> 00:03:23,958 Did you do drop-off or did Poli? 59 00:03:24,041 --> 00:03:27,666 Me. Poli's away. He left a few days ago. 60 00:03:27,750 --> 00:03:30,541 -Okay. -It's actually easier when he drops her off. 61 00:03:32,416 --> 00:03:33,625 Makes sense. 62 00:03:33,708 --> 00:03:35,333 Yeah. I know. 63 00:03:38,708 --> 00:03:41,250 So, you wanted to talk? 64 00:03:42,958 --> 00:03:43,875 Yeah. 65 00:03:43,958 --> 00:03:46,166 -Okay. Wanna sit in there? -Sure. Yeah. 66 00:03:49,833 --> 00:03:51,083 (JONATHAN CLEARS THROAT) 67 00:03:53,541 --> 00:03:56,750 MIRA: Oh, wow. I didn't know you started this up again. 68 00:03:56,833 --> 00:03:59,166 Oh, what, Shabbat dinner? Yeah. 69 00:03:59,250 --> 00:04:01,458 Uh, yeah, I don't know. It's kind of-- 70 00:04:01,541 --> 00:04:04,166 um, my parents came over a few weeks ago for Shabbat, 71 00:04:04,250 --> 00:04:06,333 and Ava really took to it. 72 00:04:06,416 --> 00:04:07,625 -Really? -JONATHAN: Yeah. 73 00:04:07,708 --> 00:04:09,250 -Huh. -JONATHAN: Does that bother you? 74 00:04:09,333 --> 00:04:10,375 No. 75 00:04:11,208 --> 00:04:13,375 I don't think so. (CHUCKLES) 76 00:04:13,458 --> 00:04:15,500 I mean, I think it's been like ten years 77 00:04:15,583 --> 00:04:17,166 -since you've done this. -Yeah, well, 78 00:04:17,250 --> 00:04:19,291 you never really liked it. 79 00:04:19,375 --> 00:04:21,125 You liked that I didn't like it. 80 00:04:23,500 --> 00:04:26,125 I think it's really good for her, actually, you know? 81 00:04:26,208 --> 00:04:28,208 Gives her like a sense of... 82 00:04:28,291 --> 00:04:30,166 structure and a sense of belonging. 83 00:04:32,375 --> 00:04:34,375 Um, you want some? 84 00:04:34,458 --> 00:04:36,250 From Rosenfeld Bagels, it's really good. 85 00:04:36,333 --> 00:04:37,375 MIRA: No, thanks. 86 00:04:38,125 --> 00:04:39,666 I'll take some of that wine. 87 00:04:39,750 --> 00:04:41,000 Yeah. Sure. 88 00:04:41,875 --> 00:04:43,166 (CLEARS THROAT) 89 00:04:48,791 --> 00:04:50,375 (WINE POURING) 90 00:04:52,791 --> 00:04:53,875 -(GLASS CLINKS) -I'll join you. 91 00:04:53,958 --> 00:04:55,041 (CHUCKLES) Okay. 92 00:04:56,333 --> 00:04:57,541 Lechayim. 93 00:04:57,625 --> 00:04:58,958 (SIGHS) 94 00:04:59,625 --> 00:05:00,625 Cheers. 95 00:05:00,708 --> 00:05:02,250 -Eyes. -(SIGHS) 96 00:05:19,250 --> 00:05:20,416 (MIRA CHUCKLES) 97 00:05:33,666 --> 00:05:34,791 So... 98 00:05:41,708 --> 00:05:45,875 So... I've been offered a promotion. 99 00:05:48,750 --> 00:05:51,083 -Congratulations. -MIRA: Thanks. 100 00:05:51,166 --> 00:05:54,708 It's to oversee the, um, European division. 101 00:05:54,791 --> 00:05:56,250 -(CHUCKLES) -Oh. Wow. 102 00:05:56,333 --> 00:05:58,541 MIRA: But I would have to relocate to London. 103 00:06:01,083 --> 00:06:02,875 So, you know, when I got back from Tel Aviv, 104 00:06:02,958 --> 00:06:08,500 Ackerman, he was really happy with, uh, the work I did. 105 00:06:08,583 --> 00:06:10,375 I mean, you know, I did a good job, 106 00:06:10,458 --> 00:06:12,541 just objectively speaking. 107 00:06:12,625 --> 00:06:15,375 Um, so anyway we merged the Tel Aviv office 108 00:06:15,458 --> 00:06:17,750 into the European division and he said, 109 00:06:17,833 --> 00:06:19,916 Ackerman, he was like, "Just take all of Europe." 110 00:06:21,208 --> 00:06:23,208 -Manager in London's leaving. -Okay. 111 00:06:25,166 --> 00:06:27,583 -MIRA: It's a big promotion. -Obviously. 112 00:06:27,666 --> 00:06:29,583 MIRA: It's a lot of money. (CHUCKLES) 113 00:06:32,708 --> 00:06:36,250 So I was hoping that we could, you know, 114 00:06:36,333 --> 00:06:39,333 talk through some ideas and see if we could strategize. 115 00:06:39,416 --> 00:06:40,583 -Strategize? -MIRA: Yeah. 116 00:06:40,666 --> 00:06:42,333 What do you mean? What-- strategize about what? 117 00:06:42,416 --> 00:06:45,083 MIRA: Well, I don't know. That's what I wanted to talk to you about. 118 00:06:46,791 --> 00:06:48,916 But what... (SIGHS) 119 00:06:49,000 --> 00:06:51,916 What did you tell Ackerman? Like, how did you leave it? 120 00:06:52,000 --> 00:06:55,083 I said that it-- you know, I needed to talk to you first. 121 00:06:55,166 --> 00:06:58,166 It was an amazing offer, but, you know, 122 00:06:58,250 --> 00:06:59,541 I needed to talk to you. 123 00:07:02,875 --> 00:07:05,166 Okay. So what are you-- 124 00:07:05,250 --> 00:07:07,875 you're thinking that you're gonna go back to... 125 00:07:07,958 --> 00:07:10,666 -flying here every other weekend to see Ava again? -No. No, of course not. 126 00:07:10,750 --> 00:07:12,583 You think that I would actually leave her again? 127 00:07:12,666 --> 00:07:14,250 Oh, all right. All right. So then what? 128 00:07:15,375 --> 00:07:16,458 Taking her with you? 129 00:07:17,500 --> 00:07:19,416 No. No. Not exactly. 130 00:07:20,875 --> 00:07:22,875 Yeah, well, I guess that could be an option if that's... 131 00:07:22,958 --> 00:07:24,708 JONATHAN: No. It's not an option. 132 00:07:24,791 --> 00:07:27,083 It's not an option, so you can forget about that. 133 00:07:27,791 --> 00:07:29,333 (SCOFFS) Unreal. 134 00:07:29,416 --> 00:07:31,833 MIRA: Okay. I didn't say that that's what I wanted to do. 135 00:07:31,916 --> 00:07:34,291 I said I wanted to talk this over together. 136 00:07:34,375 --> 00:07:37,625 So why-- Honey, why are you getting so upset? 137 00:07:37,708 --> 00:07:40,541 This is a-- it's a huge deal, and it's a lot of money. 138 00:07:40,625 --> 00:07:41,875 Money that matters to all of us. 139 00:07:41,958 --> 00:07:43,416 Okay. Will you just stop right there with the money? 140 00:07:43,500 --> 00:07:44,708 MIRA: Well, I don't have a concrete solution. 141 00:07:44,791 --> 00:07:46,041 That's why I was hoping we could hash it out together. 142 00:07:46,125 --> 00:07:47,208 Yeah, of course you don't have a concrete solution 143 00:07:47,291 --> 00:07:48,541 because there is no concrete solution. 144 00:07:48,625 --> 00:07:50,833 So why would you bring it up? Just to see how I'd react? 145 00:07:56,958 --> 00:07:58,000 Okay. 146 00:08:00,458 --> 00:08:01,500 I get it. 147 00:08:06,458 --> 00:08:08,250 Maybe it was a mistake coming here. 148 00:08:11,041 --> 00:08:13,000 I don't know if we can be in the same room yet 149 00:08:13,083 --> 00:08:14,833 without, you know, hurting each other. 150 00:08:19,958 --> 00:08:21,291 (SIGHS) 151 00:08:23,333 --> 00:08:24,416 JONATHAN: What? 152 00:08:25,750 --> 00:08:27,291 What? What are you not telling me? 153 00:08:29,208 --> 00:08:32,708 Mira? I know you. 154 00:08:32,791 --> 00:08:35,458 You wouldn't bring all this up if you didn't have a plan. 155 00:08:37,708 --> 00:08:38,833 What do you want? 156 00:08:41,041 --> 00:08:44,125 I was-- Okay. I was thinking that, um... 157 00:08:46,416 --> 00:08:49,708 maybe the two of you could come to London. 158 00:08:50,458 --> 00:08:52,750 Like, uh, Ava and you. 159 00:08:57,125 --> 00:08:59,000 I thought that could be a possibility. 160 00:09:01,375 --> 00:09:06,500 I mean, you're on, uh, sabbatical this year, right? 161 00:09:06,583 --> 00:09:09,375 So you can write from anywhere. It doesn't have to be here. 162 00:09:13,166 --> 00:09:16,625 I mean, what if you got an apartment nearby? 163 00:09:16,708 --> 00:09:19,166 And we could do shared custody, like we do here. 164 00:09:21,458 --> 00:09:24,541 London's the perfect place for you to write. 165 00:09:24,625 --> 00:09:26,500 There's the libraries and the archives, 166 00:09:26,583 --> 00:09:29,041 -and Oxford's there, so... -(JONATHAN SIGHS) 167 00:09:29,125 --> 00:09:30,916 You know, Horizons would be so happy 168 00:09:31,000 --> 00:09:33,583 to get another apartment and pay for living expenses if I asked them. 169 00:09:33,666 --> 00:09:34,750 Oh, wow. That's very nice of them. 170 00:09:34,833 --> 00:09:36,416 MIRA: Well, it's true. (CHUCKLES) 171 00:09:36,500 --> 00:09:37,583 I mean... 172 00:09:40,166 --> 00:09:42,791 Come on. Aren't you dying to get out of this place? 173 00:09:45,416 --> 00:09:48,125 You're always saying that this country's poisoning you. 174 00:09:51,625 --> 00:09:54,208 And it would be an experience of a lifetime for Ava. 175 00:09:55,375 --> 00:09:59,166 It would be just a great opportunity for her. 176 00:09:59,250 --> 00:10:00,666 You can't deny that. 177 00:10:00,750 --> 00:10:02,500 (SCOFFS) I can't-- I can't believe 178 00:10:02,583 --> 00:10:05,625 you're serious right now. I really can't. 179 00:10:07,541 --> 00:10:09,416 Don't answer me right now. Just think about it. 180 00:10:11,250 --> 00:10:13,166 Just think, like... 181 00:10:13,250 --> 00:10:15,625 you know, we don't have to make a decision this second. 182 00:10:15,708 --> 00:10:16,750 -Just... -Right. Yeah. Yeah. 183 00:10:16,833 --> 00:10:18,166 MIRA: Just, you know, don't rule it out. 184 00:10:18,250 --> 00:10:19,625 -That's all I'm asking you. -Okay, yeah. Don't rule it out. 185 00:10:19,708 --> 00:10:22,125 Of course I'm gonna rule it out. What do you-- what-- 186 00:10:22,208 --> 00:10:25,458 what, do you think that we're just like a suitcase 187 00:10:25,541 --> 00:10:27,583 that you can pack up and take with you? 188 00:10:27,666 --> 00:10:29,041 -Wow. -That we're gonna follow you 189 00:10:29,125 --> 00:10:31,208 wherever you feel like going, no matter how disruptive it is 190 00:10:31,291 --> 00:10:33,375 -for Ava and for me? -Okay. Speak for yourself. 191 00:10:33,458 --> 00:10:34,875 I'm sure Ava would be really happy about this. 192 00:10:34,958 --> 00:10:35,916 No, I think I will speak for Ava 193 00:10:36,000 --> 00:10:38,500 'cause obviously somebody needs to. 194 00:10:38,583 --> 00:10:41,416 -Oh, okay. -She just got used to you being back again, 195 00:10:41,500 --> 00:10:43,916 and living in two different houses and all of that. 196 00:10:44,000 --> 00:10:45,541 But it'd be the same there. There'd be two houses there. 197 00:10:45,625 --> 00:10:46,875 -It's not the same. -It's the same schedule there. 198 00:10:46,958 --> 00:10:48,833 Mira, it's not the same. She has a whole world here. 199 00:10:48,916 --> 00:10:50,291 -She has her friends. -MIRA: I-- Okay. 200 00:10:50,375 --> 00:10:52,333 -I know. -And her grandparents, that she's crazy about. 201 00:10:52,416 --> 00:10:54,375 Okay, she could see them over the summer, it's-- 202 00:10:54,458 --> 00:10:57,500 She has a whole life here. 203 00:10:57,583 --> 00:10:59,375 -Do you understand that? -Mm-hmm. Yeah. 204 00:10:59,458 --> 00:11:01,166 JONATHAN: A family. A whole community. 205 00:11:01,250 --> 00:11:03,041 -(SCOFFING) Community. -Yes. A commu-- 206 00:11:03,125 --> 00:11:04,333 I'm sorry if that word offends you. 207 00:11:04,416 --> 00:11:06,583 I know that you guys live in this global village 208 00:11:06,666 --> 00:11:08,416 where it doesn't matter what you see, 209 00:11:08,500 --> 00:11:10,875 it makes no difference where you go, or any of that. 210 00:11:10,958 --> 00:11:12,625 I'm sorry. Who's "you guys" in this? 211 00:11:12,708 --> 00:11:13,958 -Really? -MIRA: Yeah. 212 00:11:15,958 --> 00:11:17,041 You guys. 213 00:11:20,833 --> 00:11:21,833 (CLEARS THROAT) 214 00:11:26,833 --> 00:11:28,333 (SIGHS, CLEARS THROAT) 215 00:11:30,750 --> 00:11:33,833 (DRAWERS CLATTERING) 216 00:11:39,541 --> 00:11:41,750 MIRA: Here. It was on the cabinet. 217 00:11:44,875 --> 00:11:46,708 JONATHAN: (COUGHS) You know, while we're on the subject, 218 00:11:46,791 --> 00:11:48,541 we should probably start talking a little bit 219 00:11:48,625 --> 00:11:50,208 about the divorce. 220 00:11:50,291 --> 00:11:52,583 (DRAWERS CLATTERING) 221 00:11:53,083 --> 00:11:54,166 Divorce? 222 00:11:54,250 --> 00:11:57,333 Yeah. It just seems like we should start settling things. 223 00:11:57,416 --> 00:11:58,500 Don't you think? 224 00:12:01,041 --> 00:12:03,458 Sure. If it's, uh, important to you. 225 00:12:04,875 --> 00:12:06,708 Uh, we can get it done in a day. It's... 226 00:12:06,791 --> 00:12:07,958 (JONATHAN LAUGHS) 227 00:12:08,041 --> 00:12:09,458 Yeah, I think it's a little more complicated than that. 228 00:12:09,541 --> 00:12:10,916 I'm not sure a day is gonna cut it. 229 00:12:11,000 --> 00:12:12,250 Then a-- a week then. 230 00:12:12,333 --> 00:12:13,791 JONATHAN: Especially if you're planning on traveling soon. 231 00:12:13,875 --> 00:12:14,958 Mm-hmm. Yeah. Sure. 232 00:12:15,041 --> 00:12:16,250 Whatever works for you, Jonathan. 233 00:12:16,333 --> 00:12:17,500 -That's fine. -Okay. 234 00:12:20,708 --> 00:12:22,916 Um, why? Are you-- are thinking about 235 00:12:23,000 --> 00:12:24,916 getting remarried or something? 236 00:12:25,000 --> 00:12:26,500 What? No. No, no, no. 237 00:12:26,583 --> 00:12:29,166 I just think that this state of... 238 00:12:29,250 --> 00:12:31,250 you know, purgatory is just not very healthy for you-- 239 00:12:31,333 --> 00:12:33,000 Purgatory? Come on. Don't understate it. 240 00:12:33,083 --> 00:12:36,333 JONATHAN: No, no. I just mean that this... temporary state, 241 00:12:37,083 --> 00:12:39,500 you know, this in-between-ness. 242 00:12:39,583 --> 00:12:40,833 Are you seeing someone? 243 00:12:41,333 --> 00:12:42,416 (CHUCKLES) 244 00:12:42,500 --> 00:12:44,333 What does-- what does that have to do with anything? 245 00:12:44,416 --> 00:12:46,250 MIRA: So you are? (CHUCKLES) 246 00:12:47,041 --> 00:12:48,625 Oh, leave me alone. 247 00:12:48,708 --> 00:12:51,291 What? Why can't you tell me about it? 248 00:12:51,375 --> 00:12:53,208 Because I don't want to. 249 00:12:54,250 --> 00:12:55,333 MIRA: Okay. 250 00:12:56,875 --> 00:12:58,000 JONATHAN: Anyway... 251 00:13:00,375 --> 00:13:01,625 I think, um... 252 00:13:06,166 --> 00:13:07,583 that we'd all benefit... 253 00:13:09,625 --> 00:13:12,416 from having a little more 254 00:13:12,500 --> 00:13:15,125 definition and clarity. Don't you think? 255 00:13:15,208 --> 00:13:16,875 So you decided to kill yourself? 256 00:13:16,958 --> 00:13:17,875 JONATHAN: Oh, come on. 257 00:13:17,958 --> 00:13:20,125 MIRA: When did you start smoking again? 258 00:13:20,208 --> 00:13:21,708 -I don't know. -MIRA: You don't know? 259 00:13:21,791 --> 00:13:24,000 A few months ago. I don't do it that much. 260 00:13:24,083 --> 00:13:25,333 I don't do it in front of Ava. 261 00:13:25,416 --> 00:13:26,833 Fine. Do what you want. I'm not gonna be here 262 00:13:26,916 --> 00:13:28,875 to take you to the ER the next time you have an asthma attack. 263 00:13:28,958 --> 00:13:30,125 I'm not having any attacks. 264 00:13:30,208 --> 00:13:31,875 Can't remember the last time I had one. 265 00:13:31,958 --> 00:13:33,041 MIRA: Okay. 266 00:13:38,125 --> 00:13:40,583 -(RAIN PATTERING DISTANTLY) -(BIRD SINGING) 267 00:13:56,375 --> 00:14:00,708 ♪ (GENTLE MUSIC PLAYING ON IPAD) ♪ 268 00:14:00,791 --> 00:14:04,541 (RAIN PATTERING CONTINUES) 269 00:15:05,833 --> 00:15:09,291 Everything okay? She's sound asleep? 270 00:15:18,291 --> 00:15:20,000 I didn't know anything about that. 271 00:15:21,208 --> 00:15:22,541 What, the office? 272 00:15:23,791 --> 00:15:26,291 I'm telling you, that kid can really keep a secret. 273 00:15:29,708 --> 00:15:31,333 What's the deal here? 274 00:15:31,416 --> 00:15:33,375 What do you mean? 275 00:15:33,458 --> 00:15:35,458 What's wrong with the bedrooms upstairs? 276 00:15:35,541 --> 00:15:39,291 (LAUGHS) Uh, you know, just... 277 00:15:39,375 --> 00:15:42,291 felt too big up there for us after... 278 00:15:42,375 --> 00:15:45,750 I don't know, the whole house felt too big, and... 279 00:15:45,833 --> 00:15:48,791 And she couldn't really fall asleep on her own, 280 00:15:48,875 --> 00:15:51,333 so she ended up sleeping with me in my bed, and... 281 00:15:52,208 --> 00:15:53,541 when I'd head downstairs to do work, 282 00:15:53,625 --> 00:15:55,250 she would wake up and follow me down. 283 00:15:55,333 --> 00:15:57,666 So it just kind of evolved naturally. 284 00:16:01,583 --> 00:16:03,791 I don't really need a study, you know? 285 00:16:03,875 --> 00:16:06,125 I work in the living room, mostly, so... 286 00:16:08,000 --> 00:16:09,750 What about your privacy? 287 00:16:09,833 --> 00:16:11,875 Well, there's that bookshelf between us. 288 00:16:11,958 --> 00:16:14,583 -It's almost like a wall. -If you have someone over, what do you... 289 00:16:15,583 --> 00:16:18,583 what do you do? I mean, Ava doesn't wake up? 290 00:16:18,666 --> 00:16:22,791 I don't have anyone over when Ava's here. Ever. 291 00:16:29,916 --> 00:16:31,916 -MIRA: Mind if I look? -JONATHAN: Sure. 292 00:16:37,583 --> 00:16:42,083 ♪ (QUIET MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 293 00:17:24,000 --> 00:17:25,458 You need anything here? 294 00:17:30,375 --> 00:17:34,375 There's, um, a box there with, uh, some kitchenware 295 00:17:34,458 --> 00:17:36,833 and the china your grandparents gave us. 296 00:17:36,916 --> 00:17:38,291 Yeah. I'm gonna, uh... 297 00:17:40,125 --> 00:17:43,208 I'll, uh, send someone to get it this week. 298 00:17:43,541 --> 00:17:44,666 No rush. 299 00:18:06,750 --> 00:18:08,208 -Are you okay? -MIRA: Yeah. 300 00:18:10,875 --> 00:18:13,833 You know, I-- I think I'm gonna get going. 301 00:18:13,916 --> 00:18:15,583 Do you want anything else to drink? 302 00:18:19,250 --> 00:18:20,458 Maybe a little more wine? 303 00:18:22,500 --> 00:18:23,583 Just a little bit? 304 00:18:26,416 --> 00:18:27,791 -MIRA: Okay. A little. -Okay. 305 00:18:27,875 --> 00:18:29,458 -MIRA: Fine. Yeah. -All right. 306 00:18:40,500 --> 00:18:41,791 (CHUCKLES SOFTLY) 307 00:18:43,750 --> 00:18:44,791 (MIRA EXHALES) 308 00:18:48,458 --> 00:18:50,208 -Thanks. -JONATHAN: Mm-hmm. 309 00:18:51,500 --> 00:18:53,625 Soon there won't be any trace of me here. 310 00:18:57,208 --> 00:18:58,375 It's fine. It's... 311 00:19:00,083 --> 00:19:02,291 It's totally fine. It's just this, uh... 312 00:19:05,041 --> 00:19:06,791 silly attachment to furniture... 313 00:19:09,625 --> 00:19:11,083 the myth of a home... 314 00:19:14,166 --> 00:19:17,041 and all our dependence on these things. It's... 315 00:19:18,250 --> 00:19:20,333 (EXHALES) That's what keeps fucking everything up. 316 00:19:20,416 --> 00:19:22,875 I mean, it's what fucked it up for us. 317 00:19:22,958 --> 00:19:27,500 You know, being dependent on these objects. 318 00:19:27,583 --> 00:19:28,958 (CHUCKLES) 319 00:19:29,041 --> 00:19:32,375 Yeah, you know, the objects never had 320 00:19:32,458 --> 00:19:34,416 any real significance for me. 321 00:19:34,500 --> 00:19:37,500 Come on. Our whole relationship became an object. 322 00:19:37,583 --> 00:19:40,791 The house, the family... 323 00:19:40,875 --> 00:19:42,500 You know what I mean. 324 00:19:45,625 --> 00:19:46,708 Mm-hmm. 325 00:19:48,833 --> 00:19:51,875 So it's, um-- well, it's not-- 326 00:19:51,958 --> 00:19:54,250 -different now for you? -(MIRA CHUCKLES) 327 00:19:54,333 --> 00:20:00,708 You don't feel attached to stuff in your new place? 328 00:20:00,791 --> 00:20:03,666 MIRA: The luxury condo in the Millennium Tower, you mean? 329 00:20:03,750 --> 00:20:06,208 -(LAUGHS) -Whatever. 330 00:20:09,833 --> 00:20:12,375 But yeah, that's my point. I mean, um... 331 00:20:15,416 --> 00:20:19,458 I have no personal attachment to anything there. 332 00:20:20,958 --> 00:20:25,041 I just had a designer furnish the place and then... 333 00:20:28,291 --> 00:20:33,250 But Poli... (EXHALES) It's his dream. 334 00:20:33,333 --> 00:20:36,083 It's his American dream, you know? 335 00:20:37,291 --> 00:20:39,958 Twentieth floor, overlooking the park, 336 00:20:41,375 --> 00:20:42,458 doorman, and all that. 337 00:20:42,541 --> 00:20:46,750 It's amazing how it gives him confidence. 338 00:20:48,916 --> 00:20:50,083 Hmm. 339 00:20:53,750 --> 00:20:55,958 I think I've reached a point in my life 340 00:20:56,041 --> 00:21:00,833 where it doesn't matter where I live anymore. 341 00:21:00,916 --> 00:21:02,333 I mean, there's no place in the world 342 00:21:02,416 --> 00:21:05,166 that would make me feel secure. 343 00:21:07,916 --> 00:21:09,166 I'm sorry to hear that. 344 00:21:10,333 --> 00:21:11,500 MIRA: Don't be. 345 00:21:13,583 --> 00:21:14,666 I'm not sorry. 346 00:21:17,375 --> 00:21:20,625 On the contrary, it's a relief, you know, to-- 347 00:21:22,375 --> 00:21:25,500 I mean, there's nothing like that. 348 00:21:25,583 --> 00:21:27,666 Like security, safety. 349 00:21:30,708 --> 00:21:32,250 We thought there was. 350 00:21:34,916 --> 00:21:36,375 We wanted there to be. 351 00:21:38,791 --> 00:21:41,083 But then we turn it into a ritual, you know? 352 00:21:41,166 --> 00:21:43,625 -It was like-- -I know that, like... 353 00:21:46,291 --> 00:21:47,375 I know that you have this need 354 00:21:47,458 --> 00:21:48,916 to diminish everything that we had... 355 00:21:49,000 --> 00:21:50,208 No, I'm not-- 356 00:21:50,291 --> 00:21:51,875 -...and justify it. You're-- -Honey, I'm not diminishing it. 357 00:21:51,958 --> 00:21:54,000 No. (LAUGHS) On the-- 358 00:21:54,083 --> 00:21:56,416 -Sounds like you are. -No, I'm not. I'm-- 359 00:21:56,500 --> 00:22:00,375 I'm just trying to tell you that for me, it was, um-- 360 00:22:01,250 --> 00:22:03,333 There was so much denial, you know? 361 00:22:04,750 --> 00:22:07,375 I mean, today, I know. I'm alone. I'm all alone. 362 00:22:07,458 --> 00:22:08,916 Nothing's gonna change that. 363 00:22:10,166 --> 00:22:13,750 It doesn't matter where I am or who I'm with. 364 00:22:17,500 --> 00:22:21,250 -And, um, it's... -(WINE POURING) 365 00:22:21,333 --> 00:22:23,833 ...good to understand and make peace with that, you know? 366 00:22:23,916 --> 00:22:26,958 I think it's a-- it's a sign of strength, even. 367 00:22:35,000 --> 00:22:36,083 (JONATHAN EXHALES) 368 00:22:36,166 --> 00:22:37,500 What? 369 00:22:37,583 --> 00:22:39,083 Nothing. I'm listening. 370 00:22:43,166 --> 00:22:45,250 Don't look so worried. I'm fine. 371 00:22:46,083 --> 00:22:47,250 -Are you? -Yes. 372 00:22:47,333 --> 00:22:49,458 -Really? -(LAUGHS) Yes! 373 00:22:52,125 --> 00:22:53,708 -What? -I don't know. I'm just-- 374 00:22:53,791 --> 00:22:56,375 I'm, you know, I'm having these flashbacks to... 375 00:22:58,083 --> 00:22:59,791 to your monologues from college. 376 00:23:01,916 --> 00:23:04,958 Every time you and Lucas broke up, you know, 377 00:23:05,041 --> 00:23:10,666 it was always, "Oh, how wonderful it is to acknowledge 378 00:23:10,750 --> 00:23:12,625 that you're actually alone in the world." 379 00:23:12,708 --> 00:23:14,500 I never-- I never said it was wonderful. 380 00:23:14,583 --> 00:23:16,750 JONATHAN: Yeah, but I mean, it was-- it was obviously 381 00:23:16,833 --> 00:23:19,625 a kind of like mania 382 00:23:19,708 --> 00:23:22,166 where you were suppressing all this pain, 383 00:23:22,250 --> 00:23:23,541 but then it would flip to depression 384 00:23:23,625 --> 00:23:24,708 and you'd go running back to him 385 00:23:24,791 --> 00:23:26,375 'cause you couldn't actually be alone. 386 00:23:27,666 --> 00:23:29,083 I mean, it just was so obvious. 387 00:23:29,166 --> 00:23:32,916 It's so obvious that it's a defense mechanism. 388 00:23:34,791 --> 00:23:36,500 Great. (CHUCKLES) 389 00:23:38,583 --> 00:23:41,333 You know, it's pretty insulting when someone uses psychology 390 00:23:41,416 --> 00:23:44,875 to, uh, try and pick apart actual insight 391 00:23:44,958 --> 00:23:46,416 that you've really had. 392 00:23:47,583 --> 00:23:49,750 Can't you just believe that this is how I feel? 393 00:23:49,833 --> 00:23:51,833 I do believe you. 394 00:23:51,916 --> 00:23:53,958 -MIRA: I'm also, you know-- -You're right. I'm sorry. 395 00:23:54,041 --> 00:23:56,250 MIRA: I'm not, um, coming from the same place anymore. 396 00:23:56,333 --> 00:23:58,208 I'm not 20 years old, you know? 397 00:23:58,291 --> 00:23:59,458 JONATHAN: Okay. 398 00:24:01,375 --> 00:24:04,416 What's with all this fucking psychological bullshit anyway? 399 00:24:04,500 --> 00:24:07,333 What, you dating a shrink? (LAUGHS) 400 00:24:11,041 --> 00:24:12,500 I am-- I'm going to one. 401 00:24:13,833 --> 00:24:17,041 Yeah. Not a-- not a shrink. A therapist. 402 00:24:18,958 --> 00:24:20,000 Yeah. 403 00:24:21,125 --> 00:24:23,375 MIRA: You're... You're kidding me. 404 00:24:23,458 --> 00:24:25,958 No, no, no, no. I'm going to one. 405 00:24:26,041 --> 00:24:29,375 Um, I mean, I needed it. And it's, uh-- 406 00:24:29,458 --> 00:24:32,125 honestly, it's-- it helped me. It is helping me. 407 00:24:33,958 --> 00:24:35,625 What does it help you with? 408 00:24:37,791 --> 00:24:41,000 JONATHAN: Um, first of all, to understand, you know? 409 00:24:41,083 --> 00:24:43,291 To make sense of everything, of... 410 00:24:45,500 --> 00:24:46,625 of what happened. 411 00:24:48,250 --> 00:24:50,125 -To put it into words. -Yeah. 412 00:24:50,208 --> 00:24:54,708 'Cause I-- I couldn't even begin to comprehend 413 00:24:54,791 --> 00:24:56,333 what had happened. 414 00:24:57,833 --> 00:24:58,958 You know? 415 00:25:00,958 --> 00:25:03,416 Um, she gave me this, uh, exercise to do this thing 416 00:25:03,500 --> 00:25:06,375 called morning pages, where you have to write 417 00:25:06,458 --> 00:25:08,416 three pages, uh, as soon as you get up, 418 00:25:08,500 --> 00:25:11,458 before you've had your coffee, before you've done anything. 419 00:25:11,541 --> 00:25:14,750 Um, you know, first thing that comes into your mind. 420 00:25:14,833 --> 00:25:15,958 Have you heard of that? 421 00:25:16,500 --> 00:25:19,583 Hmm, yeah. Maybe. 422 00:25:20,916 --> 00:25:22,416 (YAWNS) Sorry. 423 00:25:23,166 --> 00:25:24,166 It's okay. 424 00:25:25,416 --> 00:25:27,250 (LAUGHING) I'm so exhausted. 425 00:25:27,333 --> 00:25:29,583 -JONATHAN: Mm. -It's the wine and, um... 426 00:25:31,250 --> 00:25:32,458 I just-- I haven't been sleeping, 427 00:25:32,541 --> 00:25:34,000 you know, since the London offer. 428 00:25:34,083 --> 00:25:36,625 It's just Ackerman's putting so much pressure on me. 429 00:25:38,166 --> 00:25:41,833 Sure. Yeah. That's okay. I get it. 430 00:25:41,916 --> 00:25:44,458 Um, are you okay to drive home? 431 00:25:44,541 --> 00:25:46,125 You sure you don't want any coffee? 432 00:25:46,208 --> 00:25:47,375 Wait. You were in the middle of something. 433 00:25:47,458 --> 00:25:49,666 No, it's okay. It's all right. It's all good. 434 00:25:51,291 --> 00:25:52,791 -MIRA: Wh-- -So espresso, right? 435 00:25:52,875 --> 00:25:54,041 MIRA: Hey! 436 00:25:55,333 --> 00:25:57,125 Please don't make a big deal out of this. 437 00:25:57,208 --> 00:25:58,500 It has nothing to do with anything. 438 00:25:58,583 --> 00:26:00,625 It's just-- I wanna hear about it. 439 00:26:00,708 --> 00:26:02,666 It's just my-- I'm so-- I'm so tired. 440 00:26:02,750 --> 00:26:03,791 It's my exhaustion. 441 00:26:03,875 --> 00:26:05,291 No. No. Look, nothing happened. Everything's okay. 442 00:26:05,375 --> 00:26:07,166 MIRA: But I wanted-- I want you to finish 443 00:26:07,250 --> 00:26:08,458 what you were telling me, please. 444 00:26:08,541 --> 00:26:10,375 I mean, maybe you could read it to me. 445 00:26:10,458 --> 00:26:11,583 JONATHAN: Read what? 446 00:26:11,666 --> 00:26:13,791 The morning papers, I think... 447 00:26:13,875 --> 00:26:15,708 Morning pages. No. No, no, the-- (SCOFFS) 448 00:26:15,791 --> 00:26:18,208 The whole point's that you're not supposed to show anybody. 449 00:26:18,291 --> 00:26:21,458 Well, but you can just-- you can read it to me, okay? 450 00:26:21,541 --> 00:26:23,250 And I won't tell anyone that you did, okay? 451 00:26:23,333 --> 00:26:24,291 Here you go. 452 00:26:24,375 --> 00:26:25,791 (SIGHS) I don't want coffee. 453 00:26:29,416 --> 00:26:31,875 -Read to me, please. -JONATHAN: Why-- (SIGHS) 454 00:26:31,958 --> 00:26:33,708 Why is this so important to you? 455 00:26:36,125 --> 00:26:37,375 You're important to me. 456 00:26:40,750 --> 00:26:42,500 I-- I could just go get it. 457 00:26:42,583 --> 00:26:44,291 No. Okay, okay. Fine. 458 00:26:47,375 --> 00:26:48,750 -I'll get it. -Thank you. 459 00:26:54,333 --> 00:26:55,625 (JONATHAN CLEARS THROAT) 460 00:27:10,583 --> 00:27:12,208 I'm not sure there's much of a chance 461 00:27:12,291 --> 00:27:15,208 -I can read my own handwriting. -(MIRA CHUCKLES) 462 00:27:15,291 --> 00:27:17,541 Maybe I'll read you something that I wrote this morning. 463 00:27:17,625 --> 00:27:19,166 I can still kind of remember it. 464 00:27:26,000 --> 00:27:27,375 (CLEARS THROAT) 465 00:27:27,916 --> 00:27:28,916 Okay. 466 00:27:33,208 --> 00:27:35,666 It's written in the third person. 467 00:27:35,750 --> 00:27:38,333 I don't know why it came out like that. It just did. 468 00:27:38,416 --> 00:27:40,291 The whole point is that you're just supposed to... 469 00:27:40,916 --> 00:27:42,625 to go with the flow. 470 00:27:44,708 --> 00:27:46,291 Okay. Um... (CLEARS THROAT) 471 00:27:46,375 --> 00:27:50,875 "Apparently, his obsessive rational thinking 472 00:27:50,958 --> 00:27:55,916 at that age was only compensation 473 00:27:56,000 --> 00:27:58,666 for all the anxieties. 474 00:27:58,750 --> 00:28:02,541 Because there was the father, this dominant father 475 00:28:02,625 --> 00:28:05,041 casting a shadow over him, 476 00:28:05,125 --> 00:28:09,208 judgmental, with strict moral codes, 477 00:28:09,291 --> 00:28:11,791 and he--" Meaning me. 478 00:28:11,875 --> 00:28:12,833 MIRA: Mm. 479 00:28:12,916 --> 00:28:16,166 Uh, "Tried so hard to please this father, 480 00:28:16,250 --> 00:28:18,458 to live up to his standards, 481 00:28:18,541 --> 00:28:20,666 but he always felt like he'd failed, 482 00:28:20,750 --> 00:28:25,708 so that, gradually, he developed this permanent feeling 483 00:28:25,791 --> 00:28:31,083 of 'I'm not good enough, I'm not moral enough, 484 00:28:31,166 --> 00:28:33,375 I'm too egocentric,' 485 00:28:33,458 --> 00:28:35,541 which, in the world he grew up in, 486 00:28:35,625 --> 00:28:37,375 is the worst possible sin. 487 00:28:40,250 --> 00:28:42,875 And on the other hand, there was the mother, 488 00:28:42,958 --> 00:28:46,916 who was always too weak to face down this tough father. 489 00:28:47,000 --> 00:28:49,375 But she was such an anxious person herself 490 00:28:49,458 --> 00:28:53,750 that even with her, this boy, he couldn't really be himself, 491 00:28:53,833 --> 00:28:56,041 he couldn't share his hardships, his fears, 492 00:28:56,125 --> 00:28:59,333 because she'd immediately get so overwhelmed 493 00:28:59,416 --> 00:29:02,416 that her anxiety would only compound his. 494 00:29:02,500 --> 00:29:05,458 And then, when he realized no one actually saw him, 495 00:29:05,541 --> 00:29:07,541 his true self that is, 496 00:29:07,625 --> 00:29:11,250 no one could help him cope with everything he was going through, 497 00:29:11,333 --> 00:29:14,000 he fell deeper and deeper into himself, 498 00:29:14,083 --> 00:29:17,000 and kept all of his pain and anxiety inside, 499 00:29:17,083 --> 00:29:19,208 and never told anyone anything, 500 00:29:19,291 --> 00:29:21,291 and this split inside him 501 00:29:21,375 --> 00:29:24,166 wouldn't let him truly be in a relationship, 502 00:29:24,250 --> 00:29:26,583 because there was always part of him that he kept hidden, 503 00:29:27,375 --> 00:29:29,000 he was never fully present, 504 00:29:30,125 --> 00:29:31,333 until Mira showed up. 505 00:29:33,458 --> 00:29:37,458 And to a certain extent, she saved him by seeing him. 506 00:29:37,541 --> 00:29:41,291 For the first time in his life, he felt like he might be pulled 507 00:29:41,375 --> 00:29:43,708 out of the inherent loneliness. 508 00:29:46,500 --> 00:29:50,875 But only after she left did he realize how, 509 00:29:50,958 --> 00:29:55,500 even with her, he was there-not-there, 510 00:29:55,583 --> 00:29:58,125 and how hard it must have been to live with this, 511 00:29:58,208 --> 00:30:01,333 with someone who was always partly somewhere else, 512 00:30:01,416 --> 00:30:03,458 inside his own head, 513 00:30:03,541 --> 00:30:07,333 how that could make her feel lonely and unseen. 514 00:30:07,416 --> 00:30:11,958 And this realization helped him deal with her leaving him, 515 00:30:12,583 --> 00:30:14,583 to make sense of it, 516 00:30:14,666 --> 00:30:16,666 and that disabused him of the idea 517 00:30:16,750 --> 00:30:21,291 that he'd been a victim of some kind of sudden cataclysm." 518 00:30:22,500 --> 00:30:26,583 ♪ (QUIET MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 519 00:31:18,083 --> 00:31:21,375 (BOTH BREATHING HEAVILY) 520 00:31:41,250 --> 00:31:44,083 (MOANING) 521 00:31:55,625 --> 00:31:56,958 Oh, fuck. 522 00:32:00,250 --> 00:32:01,666 (BREATHES HEAVILY) Stop. 523 00:32:01,750 --> 00:32:03,791 -This isn't good. -What? 524 00:32:04,500 --> 00:32:05,666 It's not good. 525 00:32:07,583 --> 00:32:10,416 I don't-- I don't want this. I don't wanna sleep with you. 526 00:32:11,708 --> 00:32:13,083 It's not good for me. 527 00:32:15,458 --> 00:32:18,208 It took me a really long time to get where I am right now. 528 00:32:18,291 --> 00:32:19,375 I don't wanna... 529 00:32:20,416 --> 00:32:23,041 I don't want to go back to that fucking torment. 530 00:32:25,333 --> 00:32:26,458 No. 531 00:32:27,416 --> 00:32:28,875 I just don't... 532 00:32:35,958 --> 00:32:37,625 I don't think you actually really understand 533 00:32:37,708 --> 00:32:39,750 what it was like for me here a year ago. 534 00:32:41,708 --> 00:32:45,916 I wanna know. Tell me. Tell me. 535 00:32:47,041 --> 00:32:48,750 -Do you really? -Yes. 536 00:32:56,583 --> 00:32:58,125 That first moment, I was... 537 00:33:01,791 --> 00:33:03,125 I was just on autopilot. 538 00:33:05,541 --> 00:33:09,416 I woke Ava up, I got her dressed, 539 00:33:09,500 --> 00:33:10,958 I dropped her off at preschool, 540 00:33:11,041 --> 00:33:14,083 and I canceled all my classes, and then I came back home. 541 00:33:16,625 --> 00:33:21,041 And I thought I was literally losing my mind. 542 00:33:25,166 --> 00:33:27,416 Then there was a moment where I thought 543 00:33:27,500 --> 00:33:31,583 that I didn't even want to stay alive. 544 00:33:34,250 --> 00:33:35,916 There was lots of moments where I was sure 545 00:33:36,000 --> 00:33:37,791 I didn't want you to stay alive. 546 00:33:39,666 --> 00:33:41,666 Like, I really wanted you to die. 547 00:33:45,958 --> 00:33:50,916 And then there was... 548 00:33:52,958 --> 00:33:56,458 -there was a moment when I wanted Ava to die. -(EXHALES) 549 00:34:01,250 --> 00:34:02,916 For that to be my revenge. 550 00:34:04,375 --> 00:34:07,708 And then that night, she started coughing like crazy. 551 00:34:09,708 --> 00:34:12,000 And at one point, she threw up from coughing so much. 552 00:34:12,083 --> 00:34:15,041 And then she spiked a fever of 104 553 00:34:15,125 --> 00:34:18,625 and I wasn't sure if I should take her to the emergency room. 554 00:34:18,708 --> 00:34:21,375 That's why I ended up putting her in a bathtub. 555 00:34:21,458 --> 00:34:25,541 And that lasted all night, and I was scared to death. 556 00:34:27,000 --> 00:34:28,416 I thought I'd killed her. 557 00:34:34,833 --> 00:34:39,000 And it took three days for the antibiotics to kick in. 558 00:34:39,083 --> 00:34:40,958 And that was a nightmare, but it was also the best thing 559 00:34:41,041 --> 00:34:43,958 that could happen to me because I didn't have 560 00:34:44,041 --> 00:34:47,625 a second to myself, I barely slept. 561 00:34:47,708 --> 00:34:50,791 And then you came back on the weekend 562 00:34:50,875 --> 00:34:52,791 and you took her and... 563 00:34:52,875 --> 00:34:55,916 her fever was already gone by then. 564 00:34:56,000 --> 00:34:59,375 I was-- and I was alone all of a sudden. 565 00:35:01,625 --> 00:35:04,583 But I was already in a more human state. 566 00:35:07,000 --> 00:35:08,333 I could breathe by then. 567 00:35:09,875 --> 00:35:13,333 (EXHALES) And start some kind of healing. 568 00:35:15,333 --> 00:35:18,750 Then a few minutes would go by and I wouldn't think about it. 569 00:35:21,583 --> 00:35:23,041 Think about you. 570 00:35:25,166 --> 00:35:26,666 Then a few hours. 571 00:35:30,291 --> 00:35:33,875 Now, I'll go half a day without thinking about it. 572 00:35:35,833 --> 00:35:40,000 Sometimes the whole day, especially when Ava's here. 573 00:35:43,375 --> 00:35:46,666 So, yeah, no way I'm going back to that. 574 00:35:48,083 --> 00:35:50,666 You know, we'll have sex and it'll be amazing, 575 00:35:50,750 --> 00:35:53,375 and then it's all the way back to the bottom. 576 00:35:56,000 --> 00:35:57,125 No way. 577 00:36:02,458 --> 00:36:05,208 What makes you think it was any different for me? 578 00:36:07,208 --> 00:36:09,333 -Oh, Mira. -(SOBS) 579 00:36:11,833 --> 00:36:13,791 It was a nightmare for me too. 580 00:36:18,291 --> 00:36:20,250 I couldn't stop thinking about you. 581 00:36:21,083 --> 00:36:22,625 Not even for a second. 582 00:36:23,708 --> 00:36:25,041 I just, uh... 583 00:36:29,416 --> 00:36:31,750 Please don't-- please don't do that. 584 00:36:33,000 --> 00:36:34,375 Don't do what? 585 00:36:36,458 --> 00:36:37,833 -(SNIFFLES) -Don't. 586 00:36:39,458 --> 00:36:42,125 Don't say things you don't mean 587 00:36:42,208 --> 00:36:45,083 just to prove that we're in the same boat, 'cause we're not. 588 00:36:45,916 --> 00:36:47,250 But how would you know? 589 00:36:51,000 --> 00:36:52,833 I just miss you all the time. 590 00:36:56,708 --> 00:36:59,583 I never stopped loving you, not even for a second. 591 00:37:05,208 --> 00:37:06,875 I never stopped wanting you. 592 00:37:12,541 --> 00:37:14,291 I want you now so bad. 593 00:37:17,375 --> 00:37:20,291 This whole past week, I come just thinking about you. 594 00:37:25,958 --> 00:37:26,958 Hold on. 595 00:37:34,833 --> 00:37:38,458 Sweetie, stop. Please. Please. No. 596 00:37:38,541 --> 00:37:39,666 I'm sorry. 597 00:37:46,000 --> 00:37:47,000 I'm sorry. 598 00:37:48,166 --> 00:37:49,166 It's okay. 599 00:38:09,375 --> 00:38:11,375 Do you want me to go now? (SNIFFLES) 600 00:38:27,750 --> 00:38:28,750 Thanks. 601 00:38:31,583 --> 00:38:34,375 You sure I can't get you any coffee or anything? 602 00:38:34,458 --> 00:38:35,541 No? Okay. 603 00:38:37,916 --> 00:38:38,958 (SIGHS) 604 00:38:53,708 --> 00:38:56,041 What time are you picking up Ava? 605 00:38:56,125 --> 00:38:57,750 Uh, in the morning, around 10:00. 606 00:38:57,833 --> 00:38:58,916 Okay. 607 00:38:59,000 --> 00:39:01,291 You'll have her bag ready for school on Monday? 608 00:39:01,375 --> 00:39:02,500 JONATHAN: Of course. 609 00:39:05,000 --> 00:39:06,125 Okay. 610 00:39:15,000 --> 00:39:18,625 If Poli wasn't coming, would that change anything for you? 611 00:39:20,208 --> 00:39:21,208 What? 612 00:39:23,625 --> 00:39:25,416 MIRA: If I was going to London alone... 613 00:39:28,333 --> 00:39:30,208 would you consider coming with Ava? 614 00:39:32,291 --> 00:39:35,500 ♪ (MUSIC PLAYING ON IPAD) ♪ 615 00:39:36,666 --> 00:39:38,750 What's Poli have to do with anything? 616 00:39:42,666 --> 00:39:43,750 All right. 617 00:39:52,208 --> 00:39:54,833 (WINDCHIME TINKLING) 618 00:40:07,166 --> 00:40:08,583 MIRA: I can't drive right now. 619 00:40:09,958 --> 00:40:13,708 Stay here tonight, okay? Okay? 620 00:40:29,541 --> 00:40:32,625 ♪ (MUSIC PLAYING ON IPAD) ♪ 621 00:40:35,458 --> 00:40:40,708 ♪ (GENTLE MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 622 00:41:02,500 --> 00:41:04,458 JONATHAN: I got some shirts. Do you want one? 623 00:41:05,208 --> 00:41:06,208 Thank you. 624 00:41:11,458 --> 00:41:13,708 -Will you help me? -JONATHAN: Yeah. 625 00:41:13,791 --> 00:41:18,875 ♪ (GENTLE MUSIC CONTINUES) ♪ 626 00:42:00,166 --> 00:42:02,500 (CHUCKLING) 627 00:42:30,083 --> 00:42:33,625 (RAIN PATTERING ON IPAD) 628 00:42:49,666 --> 00:42:52,333 -(PHONE CHIMES) -JONATHAN: Shit, sorry. 629 00:43:02,333 --> 00:43:05,125 -Is that your girlfriend? -(CHUCKLES) 630 00:43:07,125 --> 00:43:08,666 I wouldn't go that far. 631 00:43:10,416 --> 00:43:12,750 -(WHISPERING) Your lover? -(CHUCKLES) 632 00:43:16,583 --> 00:43:19,000 Did you tell her that I was coming over tonight? 633 00:43:22,291 --> 00:43:23,250 Yes. 634 00:43:23,333 --> 00:43:24,958 (PHONE VIBRATES) 635 00:43:28,416 --> 00:43:30,000 Just try to ignore it. 636 00:43:33,541 --> 00:43:35,083 (PHONE VIBRATES) 637 00:43:36,208 --> 00:43:37,875 She's not giving up. That's dedication. 638 00:43:43,791 --> 00:43:45,291 (PHONE VIBRATES) 639 00:43:50,208 --> 00:43:52,166 Sorry. I'll just turn it off. 640 00:43:56,541 --> 00:43:58,375 Just give me one second, okay? 641 00:44:06,333 --> 00:44:07,458 Hey. 642 00:44:07,541 --> 00:44:09,875 (LAURA SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY OVER PHONE) 643 00:44:09,958 --> 00:44:11,666 Good. Uh, yeah, but listen, 644 00:44:11,750 --> 00:44:14,166 it's not cool to, like, bombard me with... 645 00:44:14,250 --> 00:44:16,833 LAURA: Because you were supposed to call me. 646 00:44:16,916 --> 00:44:18,833 I told you, I'd call you when she left. 647 00:44:18,916 --> 00:44:20,750 LAURA: Oh, so she hasn't gone yet? 648 00:44:20,833 --> 00:44:23,791 No, she hasn't. She's still here, okay? 649 00:44:23,875 --> 00:44:25,791 (LAURA SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY) 650 00:44:25,875 --> 00:44:27,333 JONATHAN: She's-- she's in bed. 651 00:44:30,333 --> 00:44:31,500 My bed. 652 00:44:32,333 --> 00:44:34,625 Listen. Laura? Laura? 653 00:44:34,708 --> 00:44:36,250 We-- we need to talk, 'cause this is-- 654 00:44:36,333 --> 00:44:37,916 this is really just not, uh... 655 00:44:40,791 --> 00:44:43,041 Okay, well what I'm saying is that we should take a break 656 00:44:43,125 --> 00:44:44,041 because this is just not-- 657 00:44:44,125 --> 00:44:46,041 not working out for me right now. 658 00:44:49,000 --> 00:44:51,166 Not a, uh, uh-- I wouldn't-- 659 00:44:54,291 --> 00:44:56,833 Okay, you know, let me just-- let me stop you here 660 00:44:56,916 --> 00:44:59,166 before you say something that you're gonna regret. 661 00:45:04,041 --> 00:45:07,375 Look, I'm-- I'm really sorry it has to end like this. 662 00:45:07,458 --> 00:45:11,666 But, uh, honestly, I've been feeling for a while that-- 663 00:45:11,750 --> 00:45:14,000 well, you know, that... 664 00:45:14,083 --> 00:45:16,416 -(LAURA SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY) -JONATHAN: I'm not... 665 00:45:19,708 --> 00:45:22,375 -Okay, bye. -(MIRA SIGHS) 666 00:45:29,708 --> 00:45:31,958 -Sorry about that. -It's okay. 667 00:45:32,041 --> 00:45:34,750 I just couldn't help overhearing it. 668 00:45:34,833 --> 00:45:38,375 Yeah, I wasn't really trying so hard 669 00:45:38,458 --> 00:45:40,000 to make sure you didn't. 670 00:45:44,166 --> 00:45:45,625 Why'd you get out of bed? 671 00:46:00,750 --> 00:46:02,166 Did that upset you? 672 00:46:02,875 --> 00:46:04,500 No, of course not. 673 00:46:07,500 --> 00:46:09,375 Why'd you tell her I was in the bed with you? 674 00:46:11,791 --> 00:46:13,458 -Why? -Yeah. 675 00:46:13,541 --> 00:46:16,625 I don't know. I didn't really feel 676 00:46:16,708 --> 00:46:18,708 like I needed to hide it. 677 00:46:18,791 --> 00:46:20,291 But you had plans with her tonight 678 00:46:20,375 --> 00:46:22,083 and you knew it was gonna upset her. 679 00:46:25,666 --> 00:46:26,791 Okay. 680 00:46:29,166 --> 00:46:30,125 (SIGHS) 681 00:46:30,208 --> 00:46:33,875 Mira, um, I'm sorry that that happened that way. 682 00:46:33,958 --> 00:46:35,250 Can we forget about it? 683 00:46:37,500 --> 00:46:38,625 Okay? 684 00:46:46,125 --> 00:46:48,791 -What? -(LAUGHING) Nothing. 685 00:46:48,875 --> 00:46:50,833 I don't-- It's just a shame. 686 00:46:50,916 --> 00:46:52,958 It sounded pretty serious, right? 687 00:46:54,791 --> 00:46:56,208 I don't know, I mean, anyway, 688 00:46:56,291 --> 00:46:57,958 it's not really relevant anymore, is it? 689 00:46:59,583 --> 00:47:03,083 I don't know about that. I mean, it's not unforgivable, 690 00:47:03,166 --> 00:47:05,250 so I'm-- I'm sure she'll understand. 691 00:47:14,583 --> 00:47:15,583 Fuck. 692 00:47:20,291 --> 00:47:21,833 (SIGHS) 693 00:47:24,750 --> 00:47:26,875 You haven't lost your talent for saying the wrong thing 694 00:47:26,958 --> 00:47:29,541 at the wrong time, that's-- that's for sure. 695 00:47:32,041 --> 00:47:36,375 It's just I, uh, felt a little sad, you know? 696 00:47:36,458 --> 00:47:37,916 -I felt sad for you. -Yeah. Oh, that's sweet. 697 00:47:38,000 --> 00:47:39,208 How about you snap out of it, okay? 698 00:47:39,291 --> 00:47:40,625 'Cause you're not my couples counselor. 699 00:47:40,708 --> 00:47:42,458 Well, I just think it's a shame to give up on something 700 00:47:42,541 --> 00:47:44,208 -over a couple texts-- -JONATHAN: Enough! 701 00:47:45,333 --> 00:47:46,333 Enough! 702 00:48:00,833 --> 00:48:03,083 Can I just say something to you, Mira? 703 00:48:03,541 --> 00:48:04,666 Truthfully... 704 00:48:06,000 --> 00:48:10,791 I'm not buying your whole "ode to solitude" thing. 705 00:48:10,875 --> 00:48:12,708 Okay? It's bullshit. 706 00:48:13,875 --> 00:48:16,000 And I don't believe that you believe in it. 707 00:48:17,208 --> 00:48:21,041 It's a weakness. It's fear. It's not strength. 708 00:48:21,125 --> 00:48:24,416 And I don't know what's gonna happen to you if you can't-- 709 00:48:24,500 --> 00:48:26,666 I'm not-- I'm not trying to be patronizing, 710 00:48:26,750 --> 00:48:31,041 but I can see that your chaos and your detachment-- 711 00:48:31,125 --> 00:48:33,958 your total detachment and... 712 00:48:42,083 --> 00:48:45,291 I remember how-- how we were back then 713 00:48:45,375 --> 00:48:47,208 before we moved in together 714 00:48:48,083 --> 00:48:50,083 and what we saved ourselves from. 715 00:48:52,750 --> 00:48:55,500 How we pulled each other out of exactly-- 716 00:48:55,583 --> 00:48:59,041 exactly that loneliness that you're talking about. 717 00:49:00,708 --> 00:49:05,250 It wasn't an illusion, and you know it. 718 00:49:09,291 --> 00:49:10,625 It was a miracle. 719 00:49:10,708 --> 00:49:13,625 It was like the biggest miracle of our lives. 720 00:49:18,375 --> 00:49:20,458 And we're just like throwing it all away. 721 00:49:22,416 --> 00:49:24,750 And it's... it's... 722 00:49:26,416 --> 00:49:28,583 It's just, like, it's a terrible mistake. 723 00:49:28,666 --> 00:49:31,083 It's terrible. And... 724 00:49:31,166 --> 00:49:33,666 We should-- I don't know. 725 00:49:33,750 --> 00:49:35,833 We should've just done everything we could to... 726 00:49:37,666 --> 00:49:38,750 to... 727 00:49:40,625 --> 00:49:42,541 save it, to not just give up. 728 00:49:49,500 --> 00:49:51,041 I can't, uh... 729 00:49:54,750 --> 00:49:56,458 I don't know how to... 730 00:50:00,333 --> 00:50:01,666 (GROANS) 731 00:50:04,000 --> 00:50:05,458 I'm really nauseous. 732 00:50:12,958 --> 00:50:14,958 Something is fucked up with me. 733 00:50:19,291 --> 00:50:21,625 Something inside is so fucked up. 734 00:50:36,750 --> 00:50:38,000 (SIGHS) 735 00:50:43,458 --> 00:50:44,875 Can I play you something? 736 00:50:47,416 --> 00:50:48,583 MIRA: Play something? 737 00:50:49,541 --> 00:50:51,250 Yeah. It's... 738 00:50:51,333 --> 00:50:53,375 It's a voicemail I got this morning. 739 00:50:55,916 --> 00:50:57,375 Just hold on a second. 740 00:51:01,041 --> 00:51:02,958 POLI: (ON PHONE) Hey, Jonathan. It's Poli. 741 00:51:03,041 --> 00:51:05,458 Um, I'm in the airport right now, 742 00:51:05,541 --> 00:51:07,500 I'm going for a week, so, uh... 743 00:51:08,166 --> 00:51:09,875 uh, listen... 744 00:51:09,958 --> 00:51:13,416 I know that Mira is going to meet you tonight, okay? 745 00:51:13,500 --> 00:51:15,708 I don't know what you're going to do together. 746 00:51:15,791 --> 00:51:18,750 It's a free country, you're still married, 747 00:51:18,833 --> 00:51:20,666 legally, so... 748 00:51:21,750 --> 00:51:23,500 (LAUGHS) I'm just saying, 749 00:51:23,583 --> 00:51:26,125 this whole fucking situation here... 750 00:51:26,208 --> 00:51:30,291 The suspicions and, uh, the fights and all that... 751 00:51:30,375 --> 00:51:32,750 It-- it's just not for me. 752 00:51:32,833 --> 00:51:35,416 You two sit together, talk, 753 00:51:35,500 --> 00:51:37,750 decide what you wanna do with each other. 754 00:51:37,833 --> 00:51:39,500 I had enough. 755 00:51:39,583 --> 00:51:42,458 Uh, if she wants to come back to you, believe me, 756 00:51:42,541 --> 00:51:45,708 I'm the last person to stop her, okay? 757 00:51:45,791 --> 00:51:47,958 And you can share this with Mira if you want. 758 00:51:48,041 --> 00:51:50,750 She probably told you everything anyway, so... 759 00:51:50,833 --> 00:51:53,250 -just, uh, keep me posted. -Ava. Hey! 760 00:51:53,333 --> 00:51:55,583 -Hi, babe! -Where's Poli? 761 00:51:56,500 --> 00:51:58,791 Poli? Um... Poli's not here. 762 00:51:58,875 --> 00:52:00,583 We're at Daddy's house, honey. 763 00:52:00,666 --> 00:52:03,291 But I'm hungry, and I want Poli to make me pancakes. 764 00:52:03,375 --> 00:52:04,958 Sweetie, we don't eat in the middle of the night. 765 00:52:05,041 --> 00:52:07,250 -Okay? Come here. -But Poli lets me. 766 00:52:07,333 --> 00:52:09,000 JONATHAN: Yeah? Does he? 767 00:52:09,083 --> 00:52:10,666 Well, you know what? Let's go lay down 768 00:52:10,750 --> 00:52:12,000 and we'll try to sleep, 769 00:52:12,083 --> 00:52:14,000 and if you're still hungry, we'll make a snack. Okay, honey? 770 00:52:15,083 --> 00:52:16,000 All right? 771 00:52:16,083 --> 00:52:18,333 But can I sleep in your bed, Mommy? 772 00:52:19,583 --> 00:52:22,166 Oh, my... Tomorrow you can. 773 00:52:23,458 --> 00:52:25,541 -Promise, tomorrow. -Come on. Let's go lie down. 774 00:52:25,625 --> 00:52:27,166 I'll lie down next to you, all right? 775 00:52:27,250 --> 00:52:28,916 Come give Mommy a big good night kiss. 776 00:52:29,958 --> 00:52:31,000 Love you. 777 00:52:31,083 --> 00:52:32,541 All right. Let's go. 778 00:52:33,583 --> 00:52:34,833 One second, all right? 779 00:52:34,916 --> 00:52:36,083 MIRA: Sure. 780 00:52:36,166 --> 00:52:40,000 JONATHAN: Yeah, just... There we go. 781 00:52:40,083 --> 00:52:41,458 All right. 782 00:52:42,875 --> 00:52:45,166 'Bout I sing you a little dream song? 783 00:52:48,250 --> 00:52:50,041 AVA LEVY: I don't wanna go to sleep yet. 784 00:52:50,125 --> 00:52:51,708 JONATHAN: Of course you don't wanna go to sleep yet. 785 00:52:51,791 --> 00:52:53,250 We're not gonna go to sleep, okay? 786 00:52:53,333 --> 00:52:54,750 I'm just gonna sing a song. 787 00:52:55,375 --> 00:52:57,083 -Okay. -Stay awake. 788 00:52:59,291 --> 00:53:02,416 ♪ The Sandman is waiting ♪ 789 00:53:02,500 --> 00:53:06,083 ♪ To deliver me my dreams ♪ 790 00:53:06,166 --> 00:53:07,500 Keep going. 791 00:53:09,416 --> 00:53:14,208 ♪ Roll on, roll on Oh, little train ♪ 792 00:53:14,291 --> 00:53:15,375 Close your eyes. 793 00:53:17,083 --> 00:53:19,625 ♪ Brakeman, blow your whistle ♪ 794 00:53:19,708 --> 00:53:23,083 ♪ Throw your weight Upon the chain ♪ 795 00:53:23,166 --> 00:53:27,625 ♪ Make way Whatever will be, will be ♪ 796 00:53:29,583 --> 00:53:34,375 ♪ Between the Sandman The Brakeman, and me ♪ 797 00:53:36,875 --> 00:53:40,166 (HUMMING) 798 00:53:45,791 --> 00:53:48,750 (HUMMING CONTINUES) 799 00:53:54,166 --> 00:53:59,333 ♪ (GENTLE MUSIC PLAYING) ♪ 800 00:54:15,250 --> 00:54:17,875 (INSECTS CHIRPING) 801 00:54:27,416 --> 00:54:30,666 (INSECTS BUZZING) 802 00:54:43,541 --> 00:54:45,708 (WINDCHIME TINKLING) 803 00:54:51,208 --> 00:54:55,541 ♪ (MUSIC CONTINUES) ♪ 804 00:55:44,875 --> 00:55:47,916 ♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪