(FILM CREW CHATTERING INDISTINCTLY)
CREW 1: Okay. We peek through the wall.
Toshiro, camera goes to the porch.
♪ (UPBEAT MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
Okay. Let's close the front door.
Clear. Let's stand by to roll.
(CHATTER CONTINUES)
CREW 2: Yeah. That's great.
(BELL RINGS)
♪ (MUSIC STOPS) ♪
All right. Here we go. And action.
♪ (MUSIC RESUMES) ♪
(KEYS JANGLING)
(KNOCKS ON DOOR)
-Wow. -(CHUCKLES)
You don't like it? You like it?
No. It's just, uh-- come in. Come in.
-Hi. -Hi.
-(CHUCKLES) -Hey.
-Okay. Come inside. -(CHUCKLES)
-Is she sleeping? -Yeah. Yeah.
She went down early.
How was bedtime? Was it...
-Um... -You got a new living room.
Yes. Uh, well, the armchair is-- they were-- you know, the...
The Henningsens?
Yeah. Yeah. They were very pretty,
but they weren't really comfortable for watching TV.
You never complained about it before.
Well, I never really got to watch TV before.
Oh.
And the rug it's-- I mean, listen, this is--
it's really, really ugly. (LAUGHS)
You think so?
Oh, my God. Yeah. Look at this couch.
JONATHAN LEVY: What?
It's an affront to the green one.
Look, it's like they're facing off.
JONATHAN: Yeah, well, it's very comfortable, though.
It's hideous. Where'd you get it? IKEA?
Uh, yeah, actually.
-Yeah. But it's cozy. -Now, why didn't you call me?
I would've taken you shopping.
-JONATHAN: I don't know, I... -I mean, I would've even done it myself.
JONATHAN: I don't know. I just took care of it.
So, when'd you do all this with your hair?
MIRA LEVY: Uh, about a week ago.
-JONATHAN: Oh, okay. -Thought Ava would have told you, so...
JONATHAN: No, she's-- Ava's about the most discreet
five-year-old on the planet.
Sometimes it really just breaks my heart,
-how much she holds in. -I know. Yeah.
How was she after school today?
She was fine. Yeah. Nothing unusual. Why?
Oh. Just drop-off was a little tough, you know?
She's-- her stomach hurt, and she cried a little bit.
Hmm.
Did you do drop-off or did Poli?
Me. Poli's away. He left a few days ago.
-Okay. -It's actually easier when he drops her off.
Makes sense.
Yeah. I know.
So, you wanted to talk?
Yeah.
-Okay. Wanna sit in there? -Sure. Yeah.
(JONATHAN CLEARS THROAT)
MIRA: Oh, wow. I didn't know you started this up again.
Oh, what, Shabbat dinner? Yeah.
Uh, yeah, I don't know. It's kind of--
um, my parents came over a few weeks ago for Shabbat,
and Ava really took to it.
-Really? -JONATHAN: Yeah.
-Huh. -JONATHAN: Does that bother you?
No.
I don't think so. (CHUCKLES)
I mean, I think it's been like ten years
-since you've done this. -Yeah, well,
you never really liked it.
You liked that I didn't like it.
I think it's really good for her, actually, you know?
Gives her like a sense of...
structure and a sense of belonging.
Um, you want some?
From Rosenfeld Bagels, it's really good.
MIRA: No, thanks.
I'll take some of that wine.
Yeah. Sure.
(CLEARS THROAT)
(WINE POURING)
-(GLASS CLINKS) -I'll join you.
(CHUCKLES) Okay.
Lechayim.
(SIGHS)
Cheers.
-Eyes. -(SIGHS)
(MIRA CHUCKLES)
So...
So... I've been offered a promotion.
-Congratulations. -MIRA: Thanks.
It's to oversee the, um, European division.
-(CHUCKLES) -Oh. Wow.
MIRA: But I would have to relocate to London.
So, you know, when I got back from Tel Aviv,
Ackerman, he was really happy with, uh, the work I did.
I mean, you know, I did a good job,
just objectively speaking.
Um, so anyway we merged the Tel Aviv office
into the European division and he said,
Ackerman, he was like, "Just take all of Europe."
-Manager in London's leaving. -Okay.
-MIRA: It's a big promotion. -Obviously.
MIRA: It's a lot of money. (CHUCKLES)
So I was hoping that we could, you know,
talk through some ideas and see if we could strategize.
-Strategize? -MIRA: Yeah.
What do you mean? What-- strategize about what?
MIRA: Well, I don't know. That's what I wanted to talk to you about.
But what... (SIGHS)
What did you tell Ackerman? Like, how did you leave it?
I said that it-- you know, I needed to talk to you first.
It was an amazing offer, but, you know,
I needed to talk to you.
Okay. So what are you--
you're thinking that you're gonna go back to...
-flying here every other weekend to see Ava again? -No. No, of course not.
You think that I would actually leave her again?
Oh, all right. All right. So then what?
Taking her with you?
No. No. Not exactly.
Yeah, well, I guess that could be an option if that's...
JONATHAN: No. It's not an option.
It's not an option, so you can forget about that.
(SCOFFS) Unreal.
MIRA: Okay. I didn't say that that's what I wanted to do.
I said I wanted to talk this over together.
So why-- Honey, why are you getting so upset?
This is a-- it's a huge deal, and it's a lot of money.
Money that matters to all of us.
Okay. Will you just stop right there with the money?
MIRA: Well, I don't have a concrete solution.
That's why I was hoping we could hash it out together.
Yeah, of course you don't have a concrete solution
because there is no concrete solution.
So why would you bring it up? Just to see how I'd react?
Okay.
I get it.
Maybe it was a mistake coming here.
I don't know if we can be in the same room yet
without, you know, hurting each other.
(SIGHS)
JONATHAN: What?
What? What are you not telling me?
Mira? I know you.
You wouldn't bring all this up if you didn't have a plan.
What do you want?
I was-- Okay. I was thinking that, um...
maybe the two of you could come to London.
Like, uh, Ava and you.
I thought that could be a possibility.
I mean, you're on, uh, sabbatical this year, right?
So you can write from anywhere. It doesn't have to be here.
I mean, what if you got an apartment nearby?
And we could do shared custody, like we do here.
London's the perfect place for you to write.
There's the libraries and the archives,
-and Oxford's there, so... -(JONATHAN SIGHS)
You know, Horizons would be so happy
to get another apartment and pay for living expenses if I asked them.
Oh, wow. That's very nice of them.
MIRA: Well, it's true. (CHUCKLES)
I mean...
Come on. Aren't you dying to get out of this place?
You're always saying that this country's poisoning you.
And it would be an experience of a lifetime for Ava.
It would be just a great opportunity for her.
You can't deny that.
(SCOFFS) I can't-- I can't believe
you're serious right now. I really can't.
Don't answer me right now. Just think about it.
Just think, like...
you know, we don't have to make a decision this second.
-Just... -Right. Yeah. Yeah.
MIRA: Just, you know, don't rule it out.
-That's all I'm asking you. -Okay, yeah. Don't rule it out.
Of course I'm gonna rule it out. What do you-- what--
what, do you think that we're just like a suitcase
that you can pack up and take with you?
-Wow. -That we're gonna follow you
wherever you feel like going, no matter how disruptive it is
-for Ava and for me? -Okay. Speak for yourself.
I'm sure Ava would be really happy about this.
No, I think I will speak for Ava
'cause obviously somebody needs to.
-Oh, okay. -She just got used to you being back again,
and living in two different houses and all of that.
But it'd be the same there. There'd be two houses there.
-It's not the same. -It's the same schedule there.
Mira, it's not the same. She has a whole world here.
-She has her friends. -MIRA: I-- Okay.
-I know. -And her grandparents, that she's crazy about.
Okay, she could see them over the summer, it's--
She has a whole life here.
-Do you understand that? -Mm-hmm. Yeah.
JONATHAN: A family. A whole community.
-(SCOFFING) Community. -Yes. A commu--
I'm sorry if that word offends you.
I know that you guys live in this global village
where it doesn't matter what you see,
it makes no difference where you go, or any of that.
I'm sorry. Who's "you guys" in this?
-Really? -MIRA: Yeah.
You guys.
(CLEARS THROAT)
(SIGHS, CLEARS THROAT)
(DRAWERS CLATTERING)
MIRA: Here. It was on the cabinet.
JONATHAN: (COUGHS) You know, while we're on the subject,
we should probably start talking a little bit
about the divorce.
(DRAWERS CLATTERING)
Divorce?
Yeah. It just seems like we should start settling things.
Don't you think?
Sure. If it's, uh, important to you.
Uh, we can get it done in a day. It's...
(JONATHAN LAUGHS)
Yeah, I think it's a little more complicated than that.
I'm not sure a day is gonna cut it.
Then a-- a week then.
JONATHAN: Especially if you're planning on traveling soon.
Mm-hmm. Yeah. Sure.
Whatever works for you, Jonathan.
-That's fine. -Okay.
Um, why? Are you-- are thinking about
getting remarried or something?
What? No. No, no, no.
I just think that this state of...
you know, purgatory is just not very healthy for you--
Purgatory? Come on. Don't understate it.
JONATHAN: No, no. I just mean that this... temporary state,
you know, this in-between-ness.
Are you seeing someone?
(CHUCKLES)
What does-- what does that have to do with anything?
MIRA: So you are? (CHUCKLES)
Oh, leave me alone.
What? Why can't you tell me about it?
Because I don't want to.
MIRA: Okay.
JONATHAN: Anyway...
I think, um...
that we'd all benefit...
from having a little more
definition and clarity. Don't you think?
So you decided to kill yourself?
JONATHAN: Oh, come on.
MIRA: When did you start smoking again?
-I don't know. -MIRA: You don't know?
A few months ago. I don't do it that much.
I don't do it in front of Ava.
Fine. Do what you want. I'm not gonna be here
to take you to the ER the next time you have an asthma attack.
I'm not having any attacks.
Can't remember the last time I had one.
MIRA: Okay.
-(RAIN PATTERING DISTANTLY) -(BIRD SINGING)
♪ (GENTLE MUSIC PLAYING ON IPAD) ♪
(RAIN PATTERING CONTINUES)
Everything okay? She's sound asleep?
I didn't know anything about that.
What, the office?
I'm telling you, that kid can really keep a secret.
What's the deal here?
What do you mean?
What's wrong with the bedrooms upstairs?
(LAUGHS) Uh, you know, just...
felt too big up there for us after...
I don't know, the whole house felt too big, and...
And she couldn't really fall asleep on her own,
so she ended up sleeping with me in my bed, and...
when I'd head downstairs to do work,
she would wake up and follow me down.
So it just kind of evolved naturally.
I don't really need a study, you know?
I work in the living room, mostly, so...
What about your privacy?
Well, there's that bookshelf between us.
-It's almost like a wall. -If you have someone over, what do you...
what do you do? I mean, Ava doesn't wake up?
I don't have anyone over when Ava's here. Ever.
-MIRA: Mind if I look? -JONATHAN: Sure.
♪ (QUIET MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
You need anything here?
There's, um, a box there with, uh, some kitchenware
and the china your grandparents gave us.
Yeah. I'm gonna, uh...
I'll, uh, send someone to get it this week.
No rush.
-Are you okay? -MIRA: Yeah.
You know, I-- I think I'm gonna get going.
Do you want anything else to drink?
Maybe a little more wine?
Just a little bit?
-MIRA: Okay. A little. -Okay.
-MIRA: Fine. Yeah. -All right.
(CHUCKLES SOFTLY)
(MIRA EXHALES)
-Thanks. -JONATHAN: Mm-hmm.
Soon there won't be any trace of me here.
It's fine. It's...
It's totally fine. It's just this, uh...
silly attachment to furniture...
the myth of a home...
and all our dependence on these things. It's...
(EXHALES) That's what keeps fucking everything up.
I mean, it's what fucked it up for us.
You know, being dependent on these objects.
(CHUCKLES)
Yeah, you know, the objects never had
any real significance for me.
Come on. Our whole relationship became an object.
The house, the family...
You know what I mean.
Mm-hmm.
So it's, um-- well, it's not--
-different now for you? -(MIRA CHUCKLES)
You don't feel attached to stuff in your new place?
MIRA: The luxury condo in the Millennium Tower, you mean?
-(LAUGHS) -Whatever.
But yeah, that's my point. I mean, um...
I have no personal attachment to anything there.
I just had a designer furnish the place and then...
But Poli... (EXHALES) It's his dream.
It's his American dream, you know?
Twentieth floor, overlooking the park,
doorman, and all that.
It's amazing how it gives him confidence.
Hmm.
I think I've reached a point in my life
where it doesn't matter where I live anymore.
I mean, there's no place in the world
that would make me feel secure.
I'm sorry to hear that.
MIRA: Don't be.
I'm not sorry.
On the contrary, it's a relief, you know, to--
I mean, there's nothing like that.
Like security, safety.
We thought there was.
We wanted there to be.
But then we turn it into a ritual, you know?
-It was like-- -I know that, like...
I know that you have this need
to diminish everything that we had...
No, I'm not--
-...and justify it. You're-- -Honey, I'm not diminishing it.
No. (LAUGHS) On the--
-Sounds like you are. -No, I'm not. I'm--
I'm just trying to tell you that for me, it was, um--
There was so much denial, you know?
I mean, today, I know. I'm alone. I'm all alone.
Nothing's gonna change that.
It doesn't matter where I am or who I'm with.
-And, um, it's... -(WINE POURING)
...good to understand and make peace with that, you know?
I think it's a-- it's a sign of strength, even.
(JONATHAN EXHALES)
What?
Nothing. I'm listening.
Don't look so worried. I'm fine.
-Are you? -Yes.
-Really? -(LAUGHS) Yes!
-What? -I don't know. I'm just--
I'm, you know, I'm having these flashbacks to...
to your monologues from college.
Every time you and Lucas broke up, you know,
it was always, "Oh, how wonderful it is to acknowledge
that you're actually alone in the world."
I never-- I never said it was wonderful.
JONATHAN: Yeah, but I mean, it was-- it was obviously
a kind of like mania
where you were suppressing all this pain,
but then it would flip to depression
and you'd go running back to him
'cause you couldn't actually be alone.
I mean, it just was so obvious.
It's so obvious that it's a defense mechanism.
Great. (CHUCKLES)
You know, it's pretty insulting when someone uses psychology
to, uh, try and pick apart actual insight
that you've really had.
Can't you just believe that this is how I feel?
I do believe you.
-MIRA: I'm also, you know-- -You're right. I'm sorry.
MIRA: I'm not, um, coming from the same place anymore.
I'm not 20 years old, you know?
JONATHAN: Okay.
What's with all this fucking psychological bullshit anyway?
What, you dating a shrink? (LAUGHS)
I am-- I'm going to one.
Yeah. Not a-- not a shrink. A therapist.
Yeah.
MIRA: You're... You're kidding me.
No, no, no, no. I'm going to one.
Um, I mean, I needed it. And it's, uh--
honestly, it's-- it helped me. It is helping me.
What does it help you with?
JONATHAN: Um, first of all, to understand, you know?
To make sense of everything, of...
of what happened.
-To put it into words. -Yeah.
'Cause I-- I couldn't even begin to comprehend
what had happened.
You know?
Um, she gave me this, uh, exercise to do this thing
called morning pages, where you have to write
three pages, uh, as soon as you get up,
before you've had your coffee, before you've done anything.
Um, you know, first thing that comes into your mind.
Have you heard of that?
Hmm, yeah. Maybe.
(YAWNS) Sorry.
It's okay.
(LAUGHING) I'm so exhausted.
-JONATHAN: Mm. -It's the wine and, um...
I just-- I haven't been sleeping,
you know, since the London offer.
It's just Ackerman's putting so much pressure on me.
Sure. Yeah. That's okay. I get it.
Um, are you okay to drive home?
You sure you don't want any coffee?
Wait. You were in the middle of something.
No, it's okay. It's all right. It's all good.
-MIRA: Wh-- -So espresso, right?
MIRA: Hey!
Please don't make a big deal out of this.
It has nothing to do with anything.
It's just-- I wanna hear about it.
It's just my-- I'm so-- I'm so tired.
It's my exhaustion.
No. No. Look, nothing happened. Everything's okay.
MIRA: But I wanted-- I want you to finish
what you were telling me, please.
I mean, maybe you could read it to me.
JONATHAN: Read what?
The morning papers, I think...
Morning pages. No. No, no, the-- (SCOFFS)
The whole point's that you're not supposed to show anybody.
Well, but you can just-- you can read it to me, okay?
And I won't tell anyone that you did, okay?
Here you go.
(SIGHS) I don't want coffee.
-Read to me, please. -JONATHAN: Why-- (SIGHS)
Why is this so important to you?
You're important to me.
I-- I could just go get it.
No. Okay, okay. Fine.
-I'll get it. -Thank you.
(JONATHAN CLEARS THROAT)
I'm not sure there's much of a chance
-I can read my own handwriting. -(MIRA CHUCKLES)
Maybe I'll read you something that I wrote this morning.
I can still kind of remember it.
(CLEARS THROAT)
Okay.
It's written in the third person.
I don't know why it came out like that. It just did.
The whole point is that you're just supposed to...
to go with the flow.
Okay. Um... (CLEARS THROAT)
"Apparently, his obsessive rational thinking
at that age was only compensation
for all the anxieties.
Because there was the father, this dominant father
casting a shadow over him,
judgmental, with strict moral codes,
and he--" Meaning me.
MIRA: Mm.
Uh, "Tried so hard to please this father,
to live up to his standards,
but he always felt like he'd failed,
so that, gradually, he developed this permanent feeling
of 'I'm not good enough, I'm not moral enough,
I'm too egocentric,'
which, in the world he grew up in,
is the worst possible sin.
And on the other hand, there was the mother,
who was always too weak to face down this tough father.
But she was such an anxious person herself
that even with her, this boy, he couldn't really be himself,
he couldn't share his hardships, his fears,
because she'd immediately get so overwhelmed
that her anxiety would only compound his.
And then, when he realized no one actually saw him,
his true self that is,
no one could help him cope with everything he was going through,
he fell deeper and deeper into himself,
and kept all of his pain and anxiety inside,
and never told anyone anything,
and this split inside him
wouldn't let him truly be in a relationship,
because there was always part of him that he kept hidden,
he was never fully present,
until Mira showed up.
And to a certain extent, she saved him by seeing him.
For the first time in his life, he felt like he might be pulled
out of the inherent loneliness.
But only after she left did he realize how,
even with her, he was there-not-there,
and how hard it must have been to live with this,
with someone who was always partly somewhere else,
inside his own head,
how that could make her feel lonely and unseen.
And this realization helped him deal with her leaving him,
to make sense of it,
and that disabused him of the idea
that he'd been a victim of some kind of sudden cataclysm."
♪ (QUIET MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
(BOTH BREATHING HEAVILY)
(MOANING)
Oh, fuck.
(BREATHES HEAVILY) Stop.
-This isn't good. -What?
It's not good.
I don't-- I don't want this. I don't wanna sleep with you.
It's not good for me.
It took me a really long time to get where I am right now.
I don't wanna...
I don't want to go back to that fucking torment.
No.
I just don't...
I don't think you actually really understand
what it was like for me here a year ago.
I wanna know. Tell me. Tell me.
-Do you really? -Yes.
That first moment, I was...
I was just on autopilot.
I woke Ava up, I got her dressed,
I dropped her off at preschool,
and I canceled all my classes, and then I came back home.
And I thought I was literally losing my mind.
Then there was a moment where I thought
that I didn't even want to stay alive.
There was lots of moments where I was sure
I didn't want you to stay alive.
Like, I really wanted you to die.
And then there was...
-there was a moment when I wanted Ava to die. -(EXHALES)
For that to be my revenge.
And then that night, she started coughing like crazy.
And at one point, she threw up from coughing so much.
And then she spiked a fever of 104
and I wasn't sure if I should take her to the emergency room.
That's why I ended up putting her in a bathtub.
And that lasted all night, and I was scared to death.
I thought I'd killed her.
And it took three days for the antibiotics to kick in.
And that was a nightmare, but it was also the best thing
that could happen to me because I didn't have
a second to myself, I barely slept.
And then you came back on the weekend
and you took her and...
her fever was already gone by then.
I was-- and I was alone all of a sudden.
But I was already in a more human state.
I could breathe by then.
(EXHALES) And start some kind of healing.
Then a few minutes would go by and I wouldn't think about it.
Think about you.
Then a few hours.
Now, I'll go half a day without thinking about it.
Sometimes the whole day, especially when Ava's here.
So, yeah, no way I'm going back to that.
You know, we'll have sex and it'll be amazing,
and then it's all the way back to the bottom.
No way.
What makes you think it was any different for me?
-Oh, Mira. -(SOBS)
It was a nightmare for me too.
I couldn't stop thinking about you.
Not even for a second.
I just, uh...
Please don't-- please don't do that.
Don't do what?
-(SNIFFLES) -Don't.
Don't say things you don't mean
just to prove that we're in the same boat, 'cause we're not.
But how would you know?
I just miss you all the time.
I never stopped loving you, not even for a second.
I never stopped wanting you.
I want you now so bad.
This whole past week, I come just thinking about you.
Hold on.
Sweetie, stop. Please. Please. No.
I'm sorry.
It's okay.
Do you want me to go now? (SNIFFLES)
Thanks.
You sure I can't get you any coffee or anything?
No? Okay.
(SIGHS)
What time are you picking up Ava?
Uh, in the morning, around 10:00.
Okay.
You'll have her bag ready for school on Monday?
JONATHAN: Of course.
Okay.
If Poli wasn't coming, would that change anything for you?
What?
MIRA: If I was going to London alone...
would you consider coming with Ava?
♪ (MUSIC PLAYING ON IPAD) ♪
What's Poli have to do with anything?
All right.
(WINDCHIME TINKLING)
MIRA: I can't drive right now.
Stay here tonight, okay? Okay?
♪ (MUSIC PLAYING ON IPAD) ♪
♪ (GENTLE MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
JONATHAN: I got some shirts. Do you want one?
Thank you.
-Will you help me? -JONATHAN: Yeah.
♪ (GENTLE MUSIC CONTINUES) ♪
(CHUCKLING)
(RAIN PATTERING ON IPAD)
-(PHONE CHIMES) -JONATHAN: Shit, sorry.
-Is that your girlfriend? -(CHUCKLES)
I wouldn't go that far.
-(WHISPERING) Your lover? -(CHUCKLES)
Did you tell her that I was coming over tonight?
Yes.
(PHONE VIBRATES)
Just try to ignore it.
(PHONE VIBRATES)
She's not giving up. That's dedication.
(PHONE VIBRATES)
Sorry. I'll just turn it off.
Just give me one second, okay?
Hey.
(LAURA SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY OVER PHONE)
Good. Uh, yeah, but listen,
it's not cool to, like, bombard me with...
LAURA: Because you were supposed to call me.
I told you, I'd call you when she left.
LAURA: Oh, so she hasn't gone yet?
No, she hasn't. She's still here, okay?
(LAURA SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY)
JONATHAN: She's-- she's in bed.
My bed.
Listen. Laura? Laura?
We-- we need to talk, 'cause this is--
this is really just not, uh...
Okay, well what I'm saying is that we should take a break
because this is just not--
not working out for me right now.
Not a, uh, uh-- I wouldn't--
Okay, you know, let me just-- let me stop you here
before you say something that you're gonna regret.
Look, I'm-- I'm really sorry it has to end like this.
But, uh, honestly, I've been feeling for a while that--
well, you know, that...
-(LAURA SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY) -JONATHAN: I'm not...
-Okay, bye. -(MIRA SIGHS)
-Sorry about that. -It's okay.
I just couldn't help overhearing it.
Yeah, I wasn't really trying so hard
to make sure you didn't.
Why'd you get out of bed?
Did that upset you?
No, of course not.
Why'd you tell her I was in the bed with you?
-Why? -Yeah.
I don't know. I didn't really feel
like I needed to hide it.
But you had plans with her tonight
and you knew it was gonna upset her.
Okay.
(SIGHS)
Mira, um, I'm sorry that that happened that way.
Can we forget about it?
Okay?
-What? -(LAUGHING) Nothing.
I don't-- It's just a shame.
It sounded pretty serious, right?
I don't know, I mean, anyway,
it's not really relevant anymore, is it?
I don't know about that. I mean, it's not unforgivable,
so I'm-- I'm sure she'll understand.
Fuck.
(SIGHS)
You haven't lost your talent for saying the wrong thing
at the wrong time, that's-- that's for sure.
It's just I, uh, felt a little sad, you know?
-I felt sad for you. -Yeah. Oh, that's sweet.
How about you snap out of it, okay?
'Cause you're not my couples counselor.
Well, I just think it's a shame to give up on something
-over a couple texts-- -JONATHAN: Enough!
Enough!
Can I just say something to you, Mira?
Truthfully...
I'm not buying your whole "ode to solitude" thing.
Okay? It's bullshit.
And I don't believe that you believe in it.
It's a weakness. It's fear. It's not strength.
And I don't know what's gonna happen to you if you can't--
I'm not-- I'm not trying to be patronizing,
but I can see that your chaos and your detachment--
your total detachment and...
I remember how-- how we were back then
before we moved in together
and what we saved ourselves from.
How we pulled each other out of exactly--
exactly that loneliness that you're talking about.
It wasn't an illusion, and you know it.
It was a miracle.
It was like the biggest miracle of our lives.
And we're just like throwing it all away.
And it's... it's...
It's just, like, it's a terrible mistake.
It's terrible. And...
We should-- I don't know.
We should've just done everything we could to...
to...
save it, to not just give up.
I can't, uh...
I don't know how to...
(GROANS)
I'm really nauseous.
Something is fucked up with me.
Something inside is so fucked up.
(SIGHS)
Can I play you something?
MIRA: Play something?
Yeah. It's...
It's a voicemail I got this morning.
Just hold on a second.
POLI: (ON PHONE) Hey, Jonathan. It's Poli.
Um, I'm in the airport right now,
I'm going for a week, so, uh...
uh, listen...
I know that Mira is going to meet you tonight, okay?
I don't know what you're going to do together.
It's a free country, you're still married,
legally, so...
(LAUGHS) I'm just saying,
this whole fucking situation here...
The suspicions and, uh, the fights and all that...
It-- it's just not for me.
You two sit together, talk,
decide what you wanna do with each other.
I had enough.
Uh, if she wants to come back to you, believe me,
I'm the last person to stop her, okay?
And you can share this with Mira if you want.
She probably told you everything anyway, so...
-just, uh, keep me posted. -Ava. Hey!
-Hi, babe! -Where's Poli?
Poli? Um... Poli's not here.
We're at Daddy's house, honey.
But I'm hungry, and I want Poli to make me pancakes.
Sweetie, we don't eat in the middle of the night.
-Okay? Come here. -But Poli lets me.
JONATHAN: Yeah? Does he?
Well, you know what? Let's go lay down
and we'll try to sleep,
and if you're still hungry, we'll make a snack. Okay, honey?
All right?
But can I sleep in your bed, Mommy?
Oh, my... Tomorrow you can.
-Promise, tomorrow. -Come on. Let's go lie down.
I'll lie down next to you, all right?
Come give Mommy a big good night kiss.
Love you.
All right. Let's go.
One second, all right?
MIRA: Sure.
JONATHAN: Yeah, just... There we go.
All right.
'Bout I sing you a little dream song?
AVA LEVY: I don't wanna go to sleep yet.
JONATHAN: Of course you don't wanna go to sleep yet.
We're not gonna go to sleep, okay?
I'm just gonna sing a song.
-Okay. -Stay awake.
♪ The Sandman is waiting ♪
♪ To deliver me my dreams ♪
Keep going.
♪ Roll on, roll on Oh, little train ♪
Close your eyes.
♪ Brakeman, blow your whistle ♪
♪ Throw your weight Upon the chain ♪
♪ Make way Whatever will be, will be ♪
♪ Between the Sandman The Brakeman, and me ♪
(HUMMING)
(HUMMING CONTINUES)
♪ (GENTLE MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
(INSECTS CHIRPING)
(INSECTS BUZZING)
(WINDCHIME TINKLING)
♪ (MUSIC CONTINUES) ♪
♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪