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Mel?

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Mel, can you hear me?

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I think we've lost her.

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'Anyway, shall we just press on?'

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Please, God.

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'As I was saying, this call
is just about us in HR

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'reaching out to the rest of you
to say, "How you doing?" '

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'I'm sorry, I'm just
struggling with this, OK?

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'I'm...'
MEL SCOFFS

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'I'm just struggling
with all of this.'

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You've both got families.

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I'm... I'm here on my own.

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I don't even know if I'm gonna
have a job in a couple of months.

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Just sitting here, all alone,
getting fatter by the day.

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Wow! Welcome to my world.
'Listen, listen.'

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We're all struggling, Yasmine.

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Sorry.
YASMINE SOBS

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Do you know what
I've been finding a life-saver?

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Alcohol. The kids. God.

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Music.

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Ah, of course. Music.

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'Picked up the old guitar.'

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KWAME COUGHS
No, don't sing!

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She's suffered enough. Look at her.

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# You may think
That you're in hell... #

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MEL CHUCKLES

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# But four walls
Ain't no prison cell

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# The thing that people
Are gonna find

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# The only cage is in the mind. #

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Please,
don't be posting these online.

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I'm thinking about
posting it online.

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'You know?

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'Well, given Mel's absence
and Yasmine's difficulty...'

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Oh, shit.

35
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'..shall we, erm,
reconvene tomorrow?'

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Shit.

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Kwame...
MEL CLEARS THROAT

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Hi, Kwame. I'm so sorry.
I don't know what happened there.

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I will make sure
I get that fixed for next time.

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I promise.

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It's fine. It's fine, Mel.

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I actually wanted to talk to you
alone, actually.

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Erm, so, you know that I've had it,
right?

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Quite early on.

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Two days in the hospital.

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The same hospital.

47
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As what?

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As where you'll be having the baby.

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So... you see
where I'm going with this?

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Not exactly.

51
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'I'm immune. You're on your own.'

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I'm offering to be
your birthing partner.

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'Now, I've cleared it with my wife,

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'and... I'll stay away
from the business end of things.

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'Not just out of respect for her,
but out of respect for you, too.'

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Because we've got a...
a professional relationship,

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and I wouldn't want anything
to jeopardise that.

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'Do you wanna go away
and have a little think about it?'

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SOFTLY:  Yeah. Great.

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All right, well, erm... take care.
Bye-bye.

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END OF CALL BEEP,
SHE SIGHS SOFTLY

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SHE LAUGHS

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I swear, I laughed so hard
that I actually threw up.

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SHE LAUGHS

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It was the first time
in this whole pregnancy

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I've actually brought up my lunch.

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You know, as a father, I find it
very touching that someone,

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a colleague,
would care about you so much.

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Dad, it's weird!

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He's not even a friend.
Hold on.

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ALISON:  'Whiskey?'
Not in the trifle!

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Shelley's kids, they're cooking.

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So... So, how many of you are there?

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Er, me and Alison.
Shelley, Martin, Daniel, obviously.

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Daniel's Dale.

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'Shelley's Rob. Three little ones.'

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'Melanie!'

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Oh, look at you. How're you doing?

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Yeah, good, thanks, Alison.

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'Looking after yourself?'
Yep.

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Are you?

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WHISPERING:  She's not drinking,
I can tell.

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'I want to see the bump.
Let's see the bump.'

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Oh, erm...
Please.

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MEL CHUCKLES
'Oh!'

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Oh!

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A girl. Definitely a girl.

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ALISON CHUCKLES

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'Do you know what
you're going to call her?'

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No. I haven't decided yet.

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'You know, darling,
you've got to think

92
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'just such beautiful thoughts
with that baby inside you.'

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Nothing bitter. Nothing vengeful.

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Cos the unborn, you know,

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they're like spiritual sponges,
sucking it all up.

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OK, yeah. Thanks, Alison.

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We're all here for you, darling.

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'Just remember that.'

99
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'She's worried about you.'

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I am, too, if I'm honest.

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Are you?

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'I know you've done well
for yourself.

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'Great job. Beautiful flat.'

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But the way you were talking
earlier about your colleague,

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it's a lot of negativity, Mel.

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'That can't be good for the baby.

107
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'And you need to start thinking
about her now. Not just yourself.'

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KID:  It's ready!
Oh, I've got to go.

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'Trifle's ready.'

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END OF CALL BEEP

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Bye, then.

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Hi, Kwame. Erm... So, I've
been thinking about your offer,

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and...

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Oh...

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'Hi. You don't know me. I'm Mel.'

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Well, apparently,
I've got to get rid

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of some of the darkness
that is in my heart

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and start putting
other people first, so...

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er, this is just a message
to tell you...

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..that I think your dad was right,
choosing you and your mum...

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..over me and the baby, because,

122
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you see, I've... I've been you

123
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in that other situation and, er...

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it's not good.

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'I mean, obviously, if I'd known
about you and your mum,

126
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'there wouldn't even be a baby.

127
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'Mel, what you doing?
You can't send that.'

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SHE TUTS AND SIGHS
'Kwame.'

129
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Kwame.

130
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I know I haven't been here
long enough to make any friends,

131
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but that doesn't mean that
I wanna give birth in front of...

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SHE GROANS

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SHE SIGHS
I mean, seriously, Dad,

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you've got 11 people
staying at that house,

135
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and you didn't even ask me
if I wanted to...

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Kelly. Hi, it's me. It's Mel.

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I found your number
in an old address book that I had.

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I didn't even know I still had it.

139
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Erm... so, yeah.

140
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I've been thinking about you
a lot lately.

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Er, about when we were kids.

142
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And, erm...

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Yeah, the thing is, do you remember
in Year Eight when, erm...

144
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I called your dad weird
and you put a curse on me?

145
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You said that I'd end up my own
and that my kids would hate me.

146
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Well, it came true.

147
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Yeah, I know. It's amazing, really.

148
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I mean... it's only the one kid.

149
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And she doesn't hate me yet,
but she will.

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She'll know I didn't want her.

151
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I'm only going through with it
because the father, her father,

152
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was on and on at me
to have an abortion,

153
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and in the end, I just thought,
"Fuck off," you know?

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No, you don't get to knock me up
and then tell me what to do.

155
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Yeah, so, anyway, I am...
I'm now, er, living on my own

156
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in the city I've just moved to, er,
in 24-hour lockdown,

157
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and with a baby due in three weeks.

158
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So I just... I thought you'd
want to know that... it worked!

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SHE CHUCKLES

160
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Yay!

161
00:08:09,341 --> 00:08:11,061
This message is for you.

162
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You!

163
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Because your wife was entitled
to more, and so was I.

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You... You fucking arse!

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SHOUTS: Arse!

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SHE BREATHES DEEPLY

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PHONE BUZZES

168
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Hello?

169
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WOMAN:  'Hi. Hello. Is that Mel?'

170
00:09:01,061 --> 00:09:03,021
Who is this?

171
00:09:03,061 --> 00:09:05,181
'Oh, you don't...
Erm, you don't know me.

172
00:09:05,221 --> 00:09:06,941
'You left me a message by mistake.

173
00:09:08,541 --> 00:09:13,021
'I think you were
after someone called Kelly.'

174
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MEL EXHALES

175
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Oh, God. Sorry. Erm...

176
00:09:17,501 --> 00:09:19,781
'Oh, no, it's fine. It's fine.

177
00:09:19,821 --> 00:09:23,421
'No, erm, I was only calling
cos I was a bit worried about you.

178
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'Are you all right?'

179
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Er...

180
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VOICE BREAKS: No.

181
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SNIFFS
I'm not.

182
00:09:42,941 --> 00:09:44,421
'I'm not surprised.'

183
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MEL SOBS

184
00:09:49,061 --> 00:09:51,101
'Oh, sweetheart. It's OK.

185
00:09:52,381 --> 00:09:54,981
'You go ahead and cry.
Let it all out, yeah?

186
00:09:56,301 --> 00:09:57,381
'It's all right.'

187
00:10:00,301 --> 00:10:02,621
Oh... I just...

188
00:10:04,061 --> 00:10:07,221
I just... I want to want her.

189
00:10:07,261 --> 00:10:09,701
You know, my baby.

190
00:10:09,741 --> 00:10:11,861
I just want to want her.

191
00:10:11,901 --> 00:10:13,221
'Oh, yeah, I know you do.'

192
00:10:13,261 --> 00:10:14,741
MEL SOBS

193
00:10:16,941 --> 00:10:21,301
She deserves better than this.
Better than me.

194
00:10:22,381 --> 00:10:23,581
MEL SNIFFLES

195
00:10:23,621 --> 00:10:25,861
'Oh, you sound lovely to me.

196
00:10:27,061 --> 00:10:29,061
'Sound like you'd be a lovely mum.'

197
00:10:33,661 --> 00:10:35,381
Do I?

198
00:10:37,261 --> 00:10:38,261
'Yeah.'

199
00:10:40,581 --> 00:10:42,901
Have you... Have you got any kids?

200
00:10:44,381 --> 00:10:45,421
'Yeah.

201
00:10:47,541 --> 00:10:50,341
'Will you have anyone there with you
at the hospital?'

202
00:10:50,381 --> 00:10:53,941
Er, no. Apart from the midwives.

203
00:10:53,981 --> 00:10:57,821
But, you know, that's all right.
I don't want anyone, really.

204
00:10:57,861 --> 00:10:58,861
'OK.

205
00:11:01,141 --> 00:11:02,901
'And are you doing OK for things

206
00:11:02,941 --> 00:11:06,581
'like food, toilet roll,
that all right?'

207
00:11:06,621 --> 00:11:08,381
Yeah. I've got neighbours.

208
00:11:08,421 --> 00:11:10,221
They're leaving shopping
at the door.

209
00:11:10,261 --> 00:11:11,261
'Oh.'

210
00:11:11,301 --> 00:11:12,941
They're big on pizza.
CLATTERING

211
00:11:12,981 --> 00:11:16,021
'Oh. Listen, I'm gonna have to go,
sweetheart. Sorry.

212
00:11:16,061 --> 00:11:19,261
'But if you... if you change your
mind about wanting someone with you,

213
00:11:19,301 --> 00:11:21,901
'just imagine me there, yeah, OK?

214
00:11:21,941 --> 00:11:24,941
'Imagine I'm with you, going, "Come
on, Mel. Come on. You can do it." '

215
00:11:24,981 --> 00:11:27,141
WOMAN CHUCKLES
MAN:  'Is that a phone?

216
00:11:27,181 --> 00:11:30,261
'Who the fuck are you talking to?
Give it here.'

217
00:11:30,301 --> 00:11:31,781
'Oh...'

218
00:11:31,821 --> 00:11:33,341
'What the fuck have I told you?'

219
00:11:33,381 --> 00:11:36,101
Hello?
DISCONNECTION TONE BEEPS

220
00:11:36,141 --> 00:11:38,661
No! No...

221
00:11:55,661 --> 00:11:56,661
SHE SNIFFS

222
00:12:06,421 --> 00:12:08,021
Hello?

223
00:12:08,061 --> 00:12:11,301
Erm, this is for you.

224
00:12:11,341 --> 00:12:12,741
For when you're older.

225
00:12:12,781 --> 00:12:16,101
Cos this...
is an extraordinary time.

226
00:12:17,381 --> 00:12:19,341
And we're living it.

227
00:12:19,381 --> 00:12:22,541
And I'm gonna sing you, erm,
a little song every day,

228
00:12:22,581 --> 00:12:25,061
because I thought
that might be nice.

229
00:12:25,101 --> 00:12:28,301
And, erm... Well, it gives me
some practice for when you arrive.

230
00:12:29,581 --> 00:12:31,501
I think you're gonna like it here,
you know?

231
00:12:32,861 --> 00:12:35,141
Despite everything...

232
00:12:35,181 --> 00:12:38,501
there are some really good people
around.

233
00:12:38,541 --> 00:12:40,141
Kind people.

234
00:12:41,741 --> 00:12:46,341
Anyway... this is one
that my nan used to sing to me.

235
00:12:46,381 --> 00:12:48,421
And now, it's for you.
SHE CHUCKLES

236
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# Beautiful dreamer

237
00:12:52,781 --> 00:12:55,581
# Awaken to me

238
00:12:55,621 --> 00:12:58,261
# Starlight and dew drops

239
00:12:58,301 --> 00:13:01,581
# Are waiting for thee

240
00:13:01,621 --> 00:13:04,261
# Sounds of the rude world

241
00:13:04,301 --> 00:13:06,581
# Heard in the day

242
00:13:06,621 --> 00:13:09,381
# Led by the moonlight

243
00:13:09,421 --> 00:13:12,661
# Have all passed away

244
00:13:12,701 --> 00:13:15,061
# Beautiful dreamer

245
00:13:15,101 --> 00:13:17,821
# Queen of my song

246
00:13:17,861 --> 00:13:20,341
# List while I woo thee

247
00:13:20,381 --> 00:13:23,021
# With soft melody

248
00:13:24,101 --> 00:13:26,661
# Gone are the cares

249
00:13:26,701 --> 00:13:30,221
# Of life's busy throng

250
00:13:30,261 --> 00:13:33,181
# Beautiful dreamer

251
00:13:33,221 --> 00:13:35,541
# Awaken to me

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# Beautiful dreamer

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# Awaken to me. #

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SHE CHUCKLES

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