What are you talking about?
You can't go. Your due date is the day after tomorrow.
Goodness. It's okay, Mom.
It won't kill me.
I know it's work, but you're almost--
Okay. I'll finish it quickly, and go straight home.
My goodness.
There's no stopping her.
Gosh, it's already a quarter to two.
Is Yu-ri going somewhere?
Someone who bought her work asked her to fix something.
She's due soon, she shouldn't be going around.
Why didn't you stop her?
You know she doesn't listen to me.
She said she'd be quick, so she'll be fine.
So, what did you say you dreamed about?
I don't know. I don't remember.
I woke up this morning feeling weird.
I feel uneasy.
It probably means nothing since you don't remember.
Goodness, it's all done.
Hello?
Yes, it is.
I wish there was an emergency blinker
for the bad luck that suddenly drops in.
I can't avoid the pain that's about to rush in,
but I can prepare for it at least.
They said
his name would give him a short life.
I thought nothing of it.
Why did I do that?
If only I changed his name...
I feel like
it's my fault.
Everyday I want to turn back time
to that day tens of thousands of times.
If only I stopped her
from going to work
just for five minutes.
No,
just for one more minute,
then she'd still be here.
Why didn't I stop her?
But even if there is a blinker,
bad luck will never turn it on so we can notice it.
She died because of me.
I killed her.
I did.
I killed her.
Bring Yu-ri back.
Bring her back.
Bring her back, you jerk.
Bring Yu-ri back.
So you don't have to blame yourself
for not seeing it.
EPISODE 14: IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT
Min-jeong.
Why are you crying? Don't cry.
It's not your fault. Okay?
Then whose fault is it?
Is it because you're at the hospital all day long?
I hired a pick-up helper to return to work, then lost my child.
And Seo-woo
is slower and grayer than most children.
If all of those aren't my fault, whose fault is it?
Am I not her mother?
Min-jeong.
When something is wrong with a kid, everyone blames the mother.
Why do you always say it's not my fault?
You said I'm Seo-woo's mother.
Am I really her mother?
I'm sorry.
Why are you always
sorry
and fine?
Cha Yu-ri.
Those three syllables are taboo words to me.
How long
will you keep that door shut to me?
How long will you keep that door locked up?
You have to open that door for me to go in.
That's the only way I can truly be Seo-woo's mom.
The pick-up helper.
That's her.
Yu-ri.
Cha Yu-ri.
What
do you...
What do you mean?
Seo-woo's biological mother.
Cha Yu-ri.
She came back to life.
I'm sorry, but could you please leave?
I really don't want to see you right now.
How... How can you lose her? How?
Seo-woo, you're up.
Seo-woo, good morning. Shall we wash your face?
Min-jeong.
All done.
Okay.
Stay here for a minute.
Won't you get ready for work? You're late.
I know you can't believe it.
Because I couldn't either.
No, I don't believe it.
It doesn't make sense.
Does this make sense to you?
The kitchen assistant.
The pick-up helper is Seo-woo's mom?
She came back to life?
Stop joking around.
Why would I make a joke like this?
Exactly. Why would someone joke around like this?
This is the worst you've ever been.
It's unbelievable,
but it's true.
I don't believe it.
Then why did you cry so much last night?
Fine.
Let's say what you're saying is true.
Then
why did you tell me this
now?
I'm sorry.
At first, I was flustered,
so I couldn't tell you.
But you can't be the only one who doesn't know.
Min-jeong.
Believe it or not,
it's true.
MISAENG
-Excuse me. -Gosh.
What's up with him?
Why are you following me?
Can you see me?
Do you see ghosts, too?
Can you see me?
Are you on my left or right?
-Where are you? -Gosh.
Darn.
No, I'm a Christian.
I don't believe in ghosts.
I think I believe it a little.
I did.
It's because I go to fortunetellers.
Why did Yu-ri tell me that?
Gosh, he's no fun.
Hyeon-jeong.
Hyeon-jeong!
Yes. What?
How spicy do you want that to be?
Goodness.
-What is it this time? -Oh, gosh.
Is it because of Yu-ri?
Why are you sighing while talking about Yu-ri?
What?
You're the one who always sighs because of her.
I'm just worried about her, and I feel bad for her.
That's all.
Yu-ri is Seo-woo's mom,
so I want to help her, but it's complicated.
That's why I keep sighing.
Gang-hwa and you feel the same way, too.
I understand
why Yu-ri hid from us
instead of coming to us first.
Why?
Everyone is having a hard time because I came back.
Because of me, Gang-hwa and you are such in pain.
I shouldn't have gotten caught.
What is it?
Hey.
-Watch the shop for me. -Why?
Where are you going?
Hyeon-jeong, don't go.
I can't look after the store alone right now.
I'm in a state of great fear.
Hyeon-jeong!
Are you out of your mind?
How can you take your eyes off her?
She was right behind me.
It was just for a second.
A split second.
I knew something was strange last night.
Did Gang-hwa's wife say something?
Why wouldn't she when the pick-up helper lost her kid?
Gosh, you idiot!
Idiot!
-Gosh. -Goodness.
OH MIN-JEONG I'M SORRY
-Pil-seung's family? -Yes.
Guk-bong was grilling them to find out where Seo-woo was,
and they threw a fit not to tell him
I heard she was hiding in the playground.
Yes, in a slide.
They hid her well.
I guess they're pretty loyal.
They were taken away from there.
Where is Pil-seung's family now?
No way...
They're gone.
Come on. Don't mess with me.
They're a tenacious bunch. They've been holding out for 20 years.
They're gone just like that
because of Seo-woo?
It's been 20 years, so it's about time they left.
They held out a long time.
I don't believe it.
Well...
They were taken
because they were hiding Seo-woo?
It's okay.
They made the choice.
They understand how a mother feels.
You'll be up there soon.
Thank them when you get there.
I should cook for Pil-seung one more time.
Like you got enough time.
Don't worry about others.
Enjoy what you can while you're here.
You idiot.
I can't believe what Pil-seung's family did.
I'm so grateful.
But I can't thank them because they're gone.
-Yu-ri. -Yes, Mom?
Come out. Hyeon-jeong is here.
Really?
What is it?
Hyeon-jeong is here.
Okay.
Hey.
What is this?
Hey, hop in.
Hyeon-jeong.
What's all this? Where did you get it?
Why do you even ask? I'm a hip like this.
Get in.
-Is it really okay? -Sure.
Yeon-ji. Bring your sister's bag.
My gosh.
What are you waiting for? Hop in.
All right then. Shall we go?
Where are we going?
Anywhere.
We can go anywhere you want.
Now she smiles.
Gosh, I can tell they are soul mates.
Mom, I think Hyeon-jeong is the best. Right?
-Yu-ri, do you like it? -I love it.
It feels so refreshing!
I like it too!
All right. Let's go.
One.
Two. Three!
This is amazing.
It must be fun.
-Yu-ri. -Yes?
Are you all right? Do you want to go back down now?
I'm fine.
You don't seem fine though.
I'm okay.
-Of course, I am. -Hyeon-jeong.
Gosh, no. This isn't right.
No!
Yu-ri.
Hyeon-jeong.
I love the scenery.
Hyeon-jeong, hurry.
Is this for me?
DON'T JOKE AROUND LIKE THAT AGAIN
OPERATION SCHEDULE
My operation is tomorrow.
I said I don't want to do this.
-Why not? -Just because.
I'm not doing it.
Why?
Why do you not want to do this?
You've been doing well with the counseling.
You need to face this to get better.
Will you keep living as a doctor who can't operate?
Maybe later.
I'll do it some other time.
When would it be?
It's about time to stop torturing yourself.
-Here. -Thanks.
Now you look like Cha Yu-ri.
Yu-ri.
Yes?
For the past five years,
were you around me as well?
Sure. I stuck around you all the time.
Even I forgot my birthday, but you remembered it every year.
Maybe I was struggling not to forget you.
I guess that's why.
After you left,
it didn't really hit me at first.
When I studied abroad,
we didn't see each other for about a year.
It was like that.
I felt like you were just away for a little bit.
And once I realized that I would never be able to see you again,
I couldn't even eat.
I just cried my eyes out.
But after a little while,
I felt hungry again.
So I started to eat,
take care of Ha-jun,
and work.
And one day,
I realized that
I was forgetting about you.
I just celebrated your birthdays
because I wanted to cling on to you.
Because I was sorry for you.
And you knew it, right?
Of course, I did.
Actually I was sad that you were forgetting about me.
But
I was afraid if I wouldn't be forgotten.
Watching people have hard times because of me,
was real hell.
Gang-hwa?
So you knew it too.
That Gang-hwa has a problem.
I do. I was around him all the time.
He recently received a probation.
I found out about it later on though.
That's what I did to him.
I broke his heart.
It's not your fault.
Isn't it like you died because you wanted to.
But it was my choice.
I just made him feel guilty.
Where did she go leaving me alone?
Oh, right.
That's right.
SUPERNATURAL POWERS SHAMAN MS. MI-DONG
SEO BONG-YEON
I know you're a stone-hearted human,
but how could you send them up just like that?
My point.
I didn't even get to say goodbye. Damn it.
You guys are not human.
To Guk-bong...
I mean, to people,
you guys are just demons who should be sent up.
How could you say something so harsh?
I know.
So if you don't want to get caught and sent up all of a sudden like them,
stop avoiding Guk-bong
and get over your regrets in this world.
This is really frustrating.
Hello?
Hello, ma'am.
Do you make domiciliary visits?
What?
Min-jeong. Believe it or not,
it's true.
What are you doing?
Get off, Yu-ri.
You said we'd hang out at my place.
We will drink. So I can't drive.
Let's walk.
I'm hungry. Let's go.
-I'm so hungry. -Me too.
-I shouted too much. -I know.
I couldn't help it because you drove so fast.
-Is it here? -Yes.
It's for us.
-It just came right on time. -I know.
-Please enjoy. -Thank you.
It's pork belly meat.
-Let's go. -Mom, Yu-ri and Hyeon-jeong are here.
Gosh, I can't wait.
-Let's eat. -It must be really good.
Hello, Ms. Jeon.
CHA MU-PUNG, JEON EUN-SUK, CHA YU-RI, CHA YEON-JI
-It looks delicious. -It's warm.
My goodness.
-I'm hungry. -It looks great.
Here's a cold beer for you.
Yeon-ji, you're the best.
We have five drinkers here.
This is far from enough.
I don't drink beer.
I like soju.
I knew it. You're so my type.
Mom, I'll get you soju.
Here, Dad.
-My daughter is the best. -Gosh.
It's good, isn't it?
-This is nice. -Dad, please open this for me.
Give me that.
All right.
It's open.
It flew away like this.
Let's drink.
Here. Have some of this.
-Cheers. -Cheers.
It tastes so good.
So we're all together with Hyeon-jeong.
It's been so long since we did this.
I know.
I've been too busy working and raising my kid.
She was just afraid she would remind us of Yu-ri,
so she was being thoughtful.
Do you think I don't know that?
I had no idea
this day would come again.
What are you doing, Dad? This isn't right.
She's right. Why are you being so silly?
Okay. I get it.
-I'm done. It's over. -It's over.
-Mr. Cha, please stop. -What's over?
It's nothing. Your dad is just being silly again.
Do you say things like that?
Sure.
She says all kinds of stuff.
-Gosh, Dad. -Stop it.
-It tastes good. -So
did you guys have fun?
Yes. We had a lot of fun.
Hyeon-jeong's driving has improved a lot. She was too afraid to run at 50km before.
Hey, that was a long time ago.
That's not true. I was a novice driver back then.
Still, 50km is too slow.
Here, Yu-ri. Try this.
You seem to have only one daughter.
You're my son. All right.
I didn't know I was a son.
All right. I should give this to my son.
Here. Good.
Why don't we take a picture together?
-Good. -Let's do that.
Do I look okay?
-You look perfect. -You look beautiful.
-Don't worry. -You're always pretty.
I'll put this on here.
Gather together and look at the camera.
Mr. Cha, come closer.
One...
Come closer to each other.
-One... -Is it how it works?
Let me see the picture.
I'll show you.
I'm very grateful to Hyeon-jeong.
I'm always grateful to her.
Did you like it, Yu-ri?
Yes. I loved it.
What was so good?
I liked the wind,
I liked the air,
and I liked Hyeon-jeong next to me.
I'm glad to hear that.
Things will be always like that from now on.
We will have happy moments like that every day, Yu-ri.
Do you not want it?
Of course, I want it.
What?
Dad.
Is Dad sleeping already?
Dad, you can't sleep here.
-My gosh. -It's been less than a minute.
It was somewhere around here. Where is it?
There it is. It says Misaeng.
What is he doing here?
Hey.
Gosh, it hurts.
-It hurts. -What are you doing here?
Gosh, it's not like that.
Let go of me.
-It really hurts. -Come here.
Come here. I got you.
-Just follow me. -It hurts.
Hello.
Stay still. Stop.
What's with your arms?
Is something there?
What have you been up to these days?
Why is there a ghost around you?
What? A ghost?
-Stay still. -Ghost?
I told you to stand still!
Isn't it staying still?
-It hurts. -Stop it. Stay still.
Is he always so stupid like that?
Because she's not here.
Who?
His wife.
He's Hyeon-jeong's boy.
Hyeon-jeong. Where are you?
Hurry and come right away, Hyeon-jeong.
Gosh, you now know Yu-ri was around you for five years.
Just come over here.
I didn't know about it.
Are you sure
there's a ghost next to you?
Why? Why is it doing this to me?
Is it because I refused to write a fake diagnosis?
Gosh, it's no big deal.
"Gosh, it's no big deal."
Then why?
Why are you hanging around with him?
Right. That one.
There's something
only he can do for me.
What?
What is it?
Ms. Mi-dong, please tell me what he says.
Why? Why is he doing this to me?
So there's something only you can do for him.
What is it?
Please tell my mom
that I didn't
kill myself.
He knows that it wasn't a suicide.
What does he say?
What is it? What?
Ms. Mi-dong, please. I need a simultaneous interpretation.
I can't wait.
I'm very anxious.
It must've been fun
to see how much I loved her like some kind of an idiot.
No, it wasn't like that.
Do you know what I said?
I said I'm curious about her because she looks like Seo-woo's mom.
That I'm envious
because she looks like Seo-woo.
I had no idea.
I was like a fool.
You should've told me first.
That's what you should've done.
It has been a while
since you looked so happy
when you were around other people.
I was afraid
you would get hurt.
I'm sorry.
Before caring about my happiness,
you should care about yours.
Before seeing my wound,
you should take care of yours first.
You're a mess.
Why do you keep torturing yourself like that?
-Is everything going well for lunch? -Yes.
Director.
Is Seo-woo here yet?
She's supposed to be here by now, but I haven't seen her yet.
Seo-woo is not coming today.
Why not? Is she sick?
No.
She will stay home with her mom today.
I see.
Okay.
I'M SORRY
CONTACTS
CHO GANG-HWA
Why do you always say everything is all right?
It's not all right at all. You aren't all right.
Why are you always
sorry and fine?
Before seeing my wound,
you should take care of yours first.
You're a mess.
OPERATION SCHEDULE
So he's not doing this?
He's getting counseling.
But why isn't he doing this?
He should go to the place where he got traumatized.
I guess he's afraid to bring up things that he's been avoiding and correct them.
What was it? The exposure therapy?
I'll do it.
OPERATION SCHEDULE
Why?
You said you wouldn't do it.
What made you change your mind?
I can't keep living like this.
Do I need to just observe the operation?
For now.
The goal is to gradually expose you to the place you're afraid of
so you get used to it.
Okay.
I think Doctor Cho will get better.
What he said is a good sign.
He said, "I can't keep living like this."
Not "just because."
Of course, she's angry at me. I lost her kid.
Still, I don't have much time left.
I really need to see Seo-woo.
Should I go beg for forgiveness?
Mom!
Hey.
Where are you going?
I have a doctor's appointment.
I'm going to the hospital.
Right, it's Monday today.
How did you know that?
Well, Yeon-ji told me.
Can I come with you?
-You want to? -Yes.
Your heart starts racing whenever you see a crosswalk.
I thought I was getting by,
but seeing a crosswalk would always get my heart racing.
I didn't try to remember it or anything,
but my body must have remembered it.
I'm okay now.
Wouldn't it be strange if I didn't change at all
after what happened?
I'm only human after all.
What's with him now?
Doctor Gye.
Gosh, you startled me.
What is it? What do you need?
Why are you not in your office?
There are people here.
Pardon?
Well, you know...
Someone asked me a favor,
but I'm not sure if I should say yes.
Say yes if it isn't something extremely difficult.
It's not like a dead person asked you a favor, so why not?
-A dead person asked me a favor. -Pardon?
Nothing. Never mind.
It's nothing.
Shouldn't you go check on Doctor Cho?
Cho Gang-hwa? Why? Should I?
He's attending Doctor Jang's surgery today. Everyone's been fussing.
What?
Gang-hwa, you're attending surgery?
Exposure therapy?
Yes.
Will you be all right? I don't think you're ready.
It can't be that bad.
If you start hyperventilating,
remember to take deep breaths.
Get out as soon as it starts getting bad, okay?
RESTRICTED AREA
Mom, why did you stop going to Gang-hwa?
He knows your heart better than any other doctor.
My condition is nothing serious.
What's the point of seeing him regularly
and reminding him of his pain?
I thought it'd be best to stop seeing him altogether.
Ms. Jeon Eun-suk.
-I'll be right back. Stay here. -Okay.
What happened?
I heard Doctor Cho attended surgery today.
-Again? -Only ten minutes in,
his symptoms appeared, and he rushed out.
My gosh.
Gang-hwa.
Where is he?
I'm not sure. He rushed out.
I don't know where he went.
How was he? Did he handle it okay?
No.
-Go look for him. -Okay.
Have you seen Doctor Cho?
-No. -Gosh.
Gang-hwa, look at me.
Breathe.
It's okay.
It's okay. Breathe slowly.
It's okay.
Everything's okay.
Breathe, okay?
Breathe.
Gang-hwa, are you okay?
Breathe.
Go ahead and breathe.
Why did you do that?
Why? Why did you leave me all alone?
Why did you?
Why did you do that?
Why?
We have to operate on him first. Otherwise, he's going to die!
I said, no! Transfer him.
I'm ready! Why can't I operate on him?
I can save him!
The other patient is a VIP!
Do as you're told.
I can't cover for you anymore.
Go to the other operating room.
I can't.
Get him.
-Get him! -Yes, Doctor.
Lock the door.
Pardon?
I said, lock the door.
Well. Okay.
-Intercoms off. -Okay.
Don't open the door or answer your phone until the surgery is over.
The door is locked.
That punk.
Doctor Jang, a pregnant traffic accident patient.
Please come with us.
Call Gang-hwa.
Pardon?
I said, call Gang-hwa! Right now!
Where's Gang-hwa? You couldn't reach him?
No.
If we wait any longer, we'll lose both mother and child.
Doctor.
My baby...
Please save my baby first.
My baby...
Please save her.
Please save her first.
-Doctor Cho. -Yes?
Your wife
had an accident.
Yu-ri, wake up.
Yu-ri!
Why did you do that?
Why?
You should have lived.
You should have...
You should have lived.
I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
I'm sorry for everything.
Stop blaming yourself.
It's not your fault.
Resentment, guilt, and regret...
All those emotions are entangled.
But mostly, he'd feel guilty.
He'd think things would've been different
if he hadn't been in surgery that day.
So he blames himself?
Yes.
And the person who caused all these emotions is gone.
She died.
So he had to bottle everything up and got sick as a result.
PICK-UP HELPER DO-YEON I'M SORRY.
You'll damage your stomach. Have some food too.
It's a start.
Ten minutes is impressive.
It'll only get better.
Where were you?
They couldn't find you anywhere.
Well...
I was where I always go.
So what made you want to receive treatment?
She wants me to let her go.
And I think
it might be time
to let her go
since she came back to life.
What are you talking about?
Can't you try to keep
only the good memories and forget the sad ones?
Only the good memories...
Only the happy memories...
If I kept only those,
I wouldn't be here right now.
Why not?
I'd miss her too much.
When I missed her like crazy,
she wouldn't even show up in my dreams.
Yu-ri?
Yes.
I went there as soon as I heard Gang-hwa rushed out in a panic,
but Yu-ri was already there.
How did she know where...
-Oh... -She watched him for five years.
She saw how much he suffered too.
That's right.
How did she watch all that?
I know.
She was right there, watching him suffer because of her.
She cried, apologizing to him. It was too painful to watch.
Why would she apologize?
She is the most unfortunate one.
FAMILY AND HYEON-JEONG
I want to live too.
What are you doing?
Do you know
what's more desperate
than saying, "I want to die"?
What is it?
"I want to live."
What are you talking about, all of a sudden?
Yu-ri says
she wants to live.
Shouldn't she live if she wants to?
I don't know what you're talking about.
We were talking about Gang-hwa and Yu-ri.
And Yu-ri is alive.
Yu-ri...
Yu-ri
is going to die soon.
She's going to die again soon.
What are you talking about?
What did you just say?
Yu-ri is
going to die?
Why is Yu-ri dying?
Why is Yu-ri dying again?
What did you say?
Can I
live?
I want to live.
I want to live, Ms. Mi-dong.
What did I do so wrong?
Is everything my fault?
I wanted to live,
and I still do.
Seo-woo, Mom, Dad...
I want to be with them for a long time.
Yu-ri.
Yes?
In the past five years,
when was the moment you felt the most frustrated
and wished you were alive?
Right now.
I've never wished for it more than I do right now.
Can I
live?
VIP patients?
They get surgery first?
Yes, it's been going on
secretly for years.
Everyone knows it's wrong, but no one has dared to speak up.
And you're trying to change it now?
Yes, he's going to submit a petition signed by all the doctors.
What if you get fired or something?
Don't worry. That's never going to happen.
I'm the best surgeon at our hospital.
All right.
Surgery should be performed based on urgency.
Money shouldn't decide who gets treated first.
That's my husband. Isn't he amazing?
He really is.
My son-in-law is a real doctor.
You're the best.
DOCTOR CHO, THANK YOU SO MUCH
WITHOUT YOUR HELP THAT DAY
MY HUSBAND WOULDN'T BE ALIVE TODAY
THANK YOU AND THANK YOU
Gang-hwa.
I'm sorry.
It's not your fault, you idiot.
They said it was too late.
Even if they'd reached you,
it would've been too late to save Yu-ri.
I'm sorry.
This misfortune that struck you out of the blue
is not your fault.
I'm sorry.
Subtitle translation by Young-ju Kim