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[Renee]
Previously on Run The World...

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Getting divorced is
surprisingly easy.

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Cheers!

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-Divorce can be like a death.
-I'm fine.

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All women deserve
to fuck up at least once.

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I'm sorry, what?

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Every woman deserves to sleep
with at least one man

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who can actually change
her station in life.

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Why are you taking her side?

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If you are fucking up,
then good for you!

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[Whitney]
I love Ola so much.

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I didn't cheat on him because
I have doubts about him or us.

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Make peace with this and bury it.

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You told me seven days
before you left.

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You were so depressed
after your publishers dropped you.

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I didn't wanna make it worse.

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Don't you think
this will look amazing

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with a thigh-high slit?

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Renee, no.

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What is wrong with you?

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Hey.

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Can you please start being

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the friends
that I very much need right now?

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[chill jazzy music playing]

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♪ ♪

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[Nancy]
So what's going on?

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This wedding is literally
bringing out the worst in my friends.

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And maybe me, too.

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Ever feel like
every day is a fight?

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Lately, I wake up, and I feel like
I have to put on my armor,

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even when I'm with my girls.

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I'm fantastic.

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I'm just here because,
you know,

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divorces and therapy
seem like a natural combo.

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And besides,
I need to use my flex spending.

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I can't believe this is where
I am at this point in my life.

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And what point is that?

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You know, I have patients
whose lives are really fucked up.

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You're 32, you're employed,

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you're beautiful,
you're smart–

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And yet my life's a shit show.

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[cameras snapping]

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[pop music playing]

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[chuckles]

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♪ ♪

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[singer] ♪ Drink in my hand
Chilling on a rooftop ♪

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♪ ♪

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Hi!
Can you sign this, please?

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Of course! What's your name?

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Jacquetta,
spelled the regular way.

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Huge fan of "What The El."
I read it every day.

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You've taught me
how to be sexy

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and empowered
and perfectly single–

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not like the last girl
to get chose.

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You're like my BFF in my head.

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Except not how Beyoncé's
my BFF in my head.

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You're like my BFF in my head
if I knew this person in real life.

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-Thank you? [laughs]
-Mm-hmm! [laughs]

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-Thank you!
-You're welcome. [chuckles]

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Everything okay?

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Yeah.
It's just a work thing.

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It can wait.

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Tonight is all
about celebrating

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my gorgeous girlfriend
and soon-to-be bestselling author.

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Tonight doesn't happen
without you.

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[Anderson] I'm proud of you, baby.
I love you.

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Ugh. I hear the room rate
at the Standard

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is discounted on Tuesdays.

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[both laugh]

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You actually
did the damn thing.

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Congratulations.

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That means a lot
coming from you, Barb.

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I really appreciate
you coming out.

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I'm on the hunt for a waiter
with free booze and tiny food.

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Have you tried the crab cakes?
They are bite-sized yum!

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[sighs]
I'm too nervous to eat.

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But it's already written.

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Now you just wait for all
these single Black girls

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with big dreams

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and too much attitude
to buy it.

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-Did you read it?
-No.

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But look at you
and all these pages!

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[laughs]

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Ooh, crab cakes.

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[chuckles]

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[Leigh Ann]
♪ Ella ♪

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So, not-so-good news.

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Some of the early reviews
are... less than stellar.

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-Oh, my God. They hate me.
-Sweetie, don't spiral.

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It's not a huge deal.

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I just wanted to let you know
so you won't get blindsided.

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What are you doing?
No.

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I'm not letting you
do this right now.

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No. Okay.

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The lowlights:
there are some sentiments

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that you may have abandoned
your core audience

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to become more palatable.

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What?

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Also, the words "banal"
and "trite" were used,

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but screw those self-righteous,
Pussyhat-wearing critics.

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What about
the sales projections?

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Oh, it's all very fluid.

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Just enjoy your party, okay?

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André Leon Talley is here.
Mm-hmm.

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Okay, that is a whole moment
you got going on there.

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[in affected accent]
Yes, darling, it's a look.

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[speaking normally]
You like?

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Jason thought
it was too risqué.

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Mm, for a book party?
Shocking.

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Ella,
this party is everything!

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I'm so proud of you!

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I really hope that
you're soaking all this up.

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I was, until five minutes ago.

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Apparently my book
got some shitty reviews.

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Do reviews matter anymore?

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I'm a writer.
Haven't you heard?

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We're all deeply insecure.

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Forget the reviews.

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I just saw André Leon Talley
with Pat Field.

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Oh, my God. Where?
I love them.

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Guys, what if my book
doesn't sell?

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I don't have a backup plan.

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Okay, okay.

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Do not do your negative energy
woe-is-me thing.

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This is your moment.

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And you get to choose
how you experience it.

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Look around.

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This is what you asked for.

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Yum.
Are those lamb pops?

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Oh.

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[singer] ♪ We're running
We're running, we're running ♪

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♪ We run the world
We run the ♪

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To be clear, it was not
what I asked for.

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I didn't ask for osteoporosis

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or for my shit commute

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or for my tax guy to retire

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and only send notification
by paper mail.

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Who sends paper mail?

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Ella, what is it
you think you asked for?

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I asked for success,
to amplify my voice.

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And you had a book published.

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So a few people didn't like it.

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It's no longer
an accomplishment?

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I thought it was
the beginning of my career,

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but it damn near ended it.

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How?

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Sure, it would've been nice

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if the reviews were
a little better.

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But, you know, life isn't always gonna
kiss your ass, sweetheart.

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You have osteoporosis?

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You have such good posture.

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It's my lumbar pillow.
It's made of Hyper Foam.

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Oh.

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You know, whenever we talk
about this particular night,

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you always mention
what Renee was wearing.

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Why?

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[Eileen's "Ces bottes sont
faites pour marcher" playing]

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[Eileen singing in French]

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♪ ♪

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[twangy bass notes]

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♪ ♪

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Renee does things
I would never do.

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I would wear
the bridesmaid's dress

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that she picked out
even if I hated it.

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I did, in fact,
wear a very hideous

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poofy chiffon number
in her wedding,

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but I would never ask
to have it altered

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with a slit up to my cervix.

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[Nancy] Well, this can't be
a surprise to you.

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[sighs] No.
I mean, this is who Renee is.

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She's been on a crusade

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to make sure everyone
knows she's there

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ever since her mom started letting her
dress herself in the fourth grade.

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But this is really not about
the way she dresses, is it?

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[sighs] No.
She always looks amazing.

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-It's just, she never thinks about–
-About what?

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About what other people
think of her?

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Should she?

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Yes.

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No.

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Sometimes.

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She just walks around
not giving a fuck.

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Well, perhaps you resent
Renee's ability to be free.

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Well, when I allow myself freedom,
bad things happen.

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I go to one club on a weeknight
and end up sleeping with a guy I just met.

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-I mean, who does that?
-It's New York, honey. Most people.

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-Well, I'm not most people.
-I know.

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You're the person who never
wants anyone to be mad at her ever.

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[Sean Paul] ♪ Shake dat thing
Ms. Cana, Cana ♪

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♪ Shake dat thing ♪

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♪ Ms. Annabella ♪

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♪ Shake dat thing, yow
Donna, Donna ♪

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♪ Jodi and Rebecca... ♪

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[Renee] Hurry up, Whitney.

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What's taking so long
with those drinks?

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[Sean Paul]
♪ When da beat drops ♪

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♪ Just keep swingin' it
Get jiggy... ♪

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When are they gonna start
playing the juke music?

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You know what?
I'm ready to per-co-late!

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[Ella] I'm waiting
for the reggae set.

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Where are the cuties?

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[Sean Paul] ♪ Gyal
Nobody can tell you nothin' ♪

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♪ Cuh' you don't know
Your destiny... ♪

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Of course.

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[Ella] Tall, light skin,
long hair wins every time.

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-[Renee] Mm-hmm.
-[Whitney] Um, excuse me?

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Boys literally just stopped
calling me Big Bird yesterday.

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Remember?
"She tall and she yellow"?

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Well, now they're calling you
America's next top model.

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[laughs] Right.

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No one's interested
in your pretty-girl problems.

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Well, I'm not interested
in those guys.

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-Then why did you smile at them?
-Because I'm nice.

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[Sean Paul] ♪ In di car wid us
Dem nah war with us... ♪

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Uh, keep walking.
Mm-mm.

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Bye.

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They were totally into you.

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Girl, they were booger-wolves.

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Plus, you can't hog
all the cuties.

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I'm not hogging anything.

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Do you think
I wanted to wear this tonight?

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I'm trying not to be noticed
for you guys.

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Bitch, ain't nobody asked you
to do that.

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♪ ♪

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[Nancy] Are you sure you
wouldn't be more comfortable

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sitting on the couch?

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[Renee] No, I know you see
a lot of people on the edge,

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and I don't wanna catch
anyone else's crazy.

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-Mm-hmm.
-[chuckles]

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So you're upset

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that Whitney was acquiescing
to your feelings?

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I don't need her
to play small for me.

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You know, Whitney's need
to be liked by everyone

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is actually a burden
on all of us.

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If she's gonna be a doormat,
that's on her.

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But she didn't give in
to your demand

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to alter the bridesmaid dress,

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and you can't accept that.

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Nancy, you're supposed to be
on my side.

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I was seeing you first.

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Let's not forget that, boo-boo.

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And yet, I see you the least.

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And for the life of me, I don't understand
how you all didn't realize

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you were seeing the same therapist
until after you were all seeing me.

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But, seriously, I'm your favorite, right?

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I'm definitely the most complex.

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Renee, focus.

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Why can't you respect Whitney's feelings
about the dress?

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I know she's the bride.

250
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But so what?

251
00:09:34,829 --> 00:09:36,731
We all have things
we're going through.

252
00:09:36,764 --> 00:09:38,833
I mean, why does everybody
have to cater to her?

253
00:09:38,866 --> 00:09:40,668
No one ever does
that shit for me!

254
00:09:40,702 --> 00:09:42,770
[mellow music playing]

255
00:09:42,804 --> 00:09:46,007
Jason and I have made
a decision.

256
00:09:46,040 --> 00:09:48,242
We're not having kids.

257
00:09:48,276 --> 00:09:49,844
I thought
we already knew this.

258
00:09:49,877 --> 00:09:51,946
Yes, because
I never wanted kids anyway,

259
00:09:51,980 --> 00:09:54,782
but now we've discussed it
and agreed upon it.

260
00:09:54,816 --> 00:09:56,117
So it's official.

261
00:09:56,150 --> 00:09:58,186
And college tuition's
gonna be half a mil

262
00:09:58,219 --> 00:10:00,121
by the time
the little sucker's 18.

263
00:10:00,154 --> 00:10:03,191
Also, I don't wanna move to Brooklyn
and join Mocha Moms.

264
00:10:03,224 --> 00:10:07,261
And the best vaginal rejuvenation guy
in the city just died.

265
00:10:07,295 --> 00:10:09,831
And I'm not about to push out a baby
and have my vagina wrecked

266
00:10:09,864 --> 00:10:12,200
without an expert who can restore it
to its former glory.

267
00:10:12,233 --> 00:10:13,935
Dr. Corvin died?

268
00:10:13,968 --> 00:10:16,170
Yeah. Heart attack.

269
00:10:16,204 --> 00:10:18,272
Big loss
for the vaginal community.

270
00:10:18,306 --> 00:10:19,307
[gasps]

271
00:10:19,340 --> 00:10:20,875
Anyway...

272
00:10:20,908 --> 00:10:23,711
Now Jason and I can travel
the world

273
00:10:23,745 --> 00:10:25,646
and live a life
of endless summers.

274
00:10:25,680 --> 00:10:26,981
-Sounds good.
-Sounds like a plan.

275
00:10:27,015 --> 00:10:30,351
-Good for you.
-[cell phone buzzing]

276
00:10:30,385 --> 00:10:32,086
[clears throat]

277
00:10:33,287 --> 00:10:34,756
And who was that?

278
00:10:34,789 --> 00:10:37,025
[clicks tongue]
Professor Matthew Powell.

279
00:10:37,058 --> 00:10:39,127
These are not school hours.

280
00:10:39,160 --> 00:10:40,828
Daytime booty call.

281
00:10:40,862 --> 00:10:42,764
Stop!

282
00:10:42,797 --> 00:10:44,032
[sighs]

283
00:10:44,065 --> 00:10:45,900
We are trying
to keep it professional.

284
00:10:47,101 --> 00:10:48,936
Obviously, I would like
to fuck his brains out.

285
00:10:48,970 --> 00:10:52,340
[laughter]

286
00:10:52,373 --> 00:10:54,409
[Whitney] Oh, I've always had
a professor fantasy.

287
00:10:54,442 --> 00:10:56,811
He calls me in after class,

288
00:10:56,844 --> 00:10:59,981
then we shove all the books off the desk
and fuck with the blinds open.

289
00:11:01,049 --> 00:11:02,683
Oh.

290
00:11:02,717 --> 00:11:05,086
Okay, well, I'm pretty sure
Matthew is into me,

291
00:11:05,119 --> 00:11:07,455
but we obviously have to consider
the ethical repercussions.

292
00:11:07,688 --> 00:11:08,956
I say do it.

293
00:11:08,990 --> 00:11:11,192
[chanting]
Do it, do it, do it.

294
00:11:11,225 --> 00:11:14,162
-[Ella laughs]
-Do it, do it, do it, do it.

295
00:11:14,195 --> 00:11:15,897
Sounds like a horrible decision

296
00:11:15,930 --> 00:11:18,699
that could possibly fuck up
everything you've worked for.

297
00:11:18,733 --> 00:11:20,401
But, hey, listen to them.

298
00:11:22,203 --> 00:11:25,006
I told these bitches
about a real-life decision,

299
00:11:25,039 --> 00:11:27,208
and, somehow,
that was less important

300
00:11:27,241 --> 00:11:29,477
than Sondi theoretically
fucking some dude!

301
00:11:29,710 --> 00:11:32,313
No one seems to give a shit
that I'm getting a divorce,

302
00:11:32,346 --> 00:11:35,716
childless, and starting over
for retirement!

303
00:11:35,750 --> 00:11:37,752
But you chose to get divorced,

304
00:11:37,785 --> 00:11:40,021
and you chose not to have children.

305
00:11:40,054 --> 00:11:42,890
Perhaps your friends think
they're supporting your choices.

306
00:11:42,924 --> 00:11:44,859
Well, my choices suck right now.

307
00:11:44,892 --> 00:11:46,761
But you present them like they're 100%.

308
00:11:46,794 --> 00:11:48,863
You damn near dare anyone to question you.

309
00:11:48,896 --> 00:11:50,231
How dare you?

310
00:11:50,264 --> 00:11:52,433
Well, honey, this is what you pay me for.

311
00:11:52,467 --> 00:11:55,403
Renee, you gotta open up
to your friends,

312
00:11:55,436 --> 00:11:57,438
or there's no way
they can support you.

313
00:11:57,472 --> 00:11:58,773
Whatever.

314
00:11:58,806 --> 00:11:59,807
Yeah, at this point,

315
00:11:59,841 --> 00:12:02,009
we've known each other longer
than we've not known each other.

316
00:12:02,043 --> 00:12:04,045
-They should know what I need.
-Oh, yeah?

317
00:12:04,078 --> 00:12:06,881
They have nothing better to do
than sit around trying to read your mind?

318
00:12:06,914 --> 00:12:08,349
I don't think
that's too much to ask.

319
00:12:08,382 --> 00:12:10,885
You see?
This is what I'm talking about.

320
00:12:10,918 --> 00:12:12,186
You can be a little tough.

321
00:12:12,220 --> 00:12:13,488
I'm tough?

322
00:12:13,521 --> 00:12:16,491
[dreamy music plays]

323
00:12:16,524 --> 00:12:18,426
♪ ♪

324
00:12:18,459 --> 00:12:21,129
And I quote, "Jane Of All Shades

325
00:12:21,162 --> 00:12:23,397
should be renamed
Jane Of No Shades."

326
00:12:23,431 --> 00:12:24,832
That's not even clever!

327
00:12:26,067 --> 00:12:27,235
Uh-uh.

328
00:12:27,268 --> 00:12:28,936
You gonna let @mamaireads
get you down?

329
00:12:28,970 --> 00:12:31,339
Girl, she's so stupid,
she has to tell people she reads.

330
00:12:31,372 --> 00:12:32,907
[laughter]

331
00:12:32,940 --> 00:12:34,242
Well, I liked your book.

332
00:12:34,275 --> 00:12:36,410
This is the most I have ever
related to your writing.

333
00:12:36,444 --> 00:12:37,445
Ouch.

334
00:12:37,478 --> 00:12:41,048
Your writing was always so much more
"hear me roar" than I am,

335
00:12:41,082 --> 00:12:43,251
but I love that this book
embraced what it means

336
00:12:43,284 --> 00:12:45,186
to be both independent
and wanting.

337
00:12:45,219 --> 00:12:47,421
"Wanting"? Am I wanting?

338
00:12:47,455 --> 00:12:50,892
Well, I'm wanting this McQueen jacket
you have on in this cover photo.

339
00:12:50,925 --> 00:12:53,895
Why do I have to be the same person I was
when I was 24?

340
00:12:53,928 --> 00:12:55,096
Can't I evolve?

341
00:12:55,129 --> 00:12:56,430
[Sondi]
Ella, I think you're brilliant.

342
00:12:56,464 --> 00:12:58,032
But let's be honest.

343
00:12:58,065 --> 00:13:01,135
You've been dickmatized by Anderson
for the past two years,

344
00:13:01,169 --> 00:13:03,804
so this book reads less
"free your mind"

345
00:13:03,838 --> 00:13:05,940
and more "home on the range."

346
00:13:05,973 --> 00:13:07,141
I'm sorry.

347
00:13:07,175 --> 00:13:09,944
But this is not the feminist
free sexploration

348
00:13:09,977 --> 00:13:13,981
that you promised your readers
or yourself.

349
00:13:14,015 --> 00:13:15,816
You want me to slap her?

350
00:13:15,850 --> 00:13:18,085
I've always wanted to know
what it felt like to slap a bitch.

351
00:13:18,119 --> 00:13:19,353
It's actually quite rewarding.

352
00:13:19,387 --> 00:13:20,588
Who you slapped?

353
00:13:20,821 --> 00:13:21,989
Oh, this Becky at Harvard

354
00:13:22,023 --> 00:13:24,025
who kept trying to blow Ola
sophomore year.

355
00:13:24,058 --> 00:13:26,928
Her hand was on his thigh,
then I found my hand on her face.

356
00:13:26,961 --> 00:13:28,396
[laughs]
Oh, now I have to do it.

357
00:13:28,429 --> 00:13:30,231
Sondi,
bring your face over here.

358
00:13:30,264 --> 00:13:31,399
-[Whitney laughs]
-Girl.

359
00:13:31,432 --> 00:13:33,534
Ella,
I am not trying to be mean,

360
00:13:33,568 --> 00:13:35,937
but I don't know
who this book is for.

361
00:13:37,572 --> 00:13:40,341
Seriously, just give me the word,
and I'll smack her.

362
00:13:40,374 --> 00:13:41,509
Oh, jeez.

363
00:13:41,542 --> 00:13:42,577
[Sondi] Okay.

364
00:13:42,610 --> 00:13:45,446
So I may come off as harsh
at times.

365
00:13:45,479 --> 00:13:48,216
But your real friends
stab you in the front,

366
00:13:48,249 --> 00:13:49,917
and then they have your back.

367
00:13:49,951 --> 00:13:51,953
It's our frickin' friend motto
since Spelman.

368
00:13:51,986 --> 00:13:54,455
A stabbing from a friend
is still a stabbing.

369
00:13:54,488 --> 00:13:56,123
But I'm the mirror friend.

370
00:13:56,157 --> 00:13:59,293
That's what sisters are.
We're mirrors to each other.

371
00:13:59,327 --> 00:14:02,296
You can't hide from your friends,
and you can't hide from the mirror.

372
00:14:03,864 --> 00:14:06,133
Ella is–she's not ev–
I mean–

373
00:14:06,167 --> 00:14:07,435
Uh, I don't know.

374
00:14:09,036 --> 00:14:10,504
She's not defending me.

375
00:14:11,539 --> 00:14:13,374
Who do you need
defending from?

376
00:14:13,407 --> 00:14:17,011
I feel like
I'm under a microscope.

377
00:14:17,044 --> 00:14:18,212
And–and she knows

378
00:14:18,246 --> 00:14:21,015
how serious my relationship
with Matthew is,

379
00:14:21,048 --> 00:14:23,551
and it's like she doesn't care
that I'm being disrespected.

380
00:14:23,584 --> 00:14:25,987
Is this about
that professor woman?

381
00:14:26,020 --> 00:14:27,288
'Cause didn't we decide
last week

382
00:14:27,321 --> 00:14:29,190
she's a clueless bitch
and fuck her?

383
00:14:29,223 --> 00:14:30,358
We did.

384
00:14:30,391 --> 00:14:34,161
All I'm saying is,
when Ella really needs me,

385
00:14:34,195 --> 00:14:36,530
I am there for her blindly.

386
00:14:36,564 --> 00:14:38,099
No questions asked.

387
00:14:38,132 --> 00:14:41,502
[Fousheé]
♪ Say that I'm single as fuck ♪

388
00:14:41,535 --> 00:14:43,137
-[Sondi] Here. Sip.
- [Fousheé] ♪ Single as fuck ♪

389
00:14:43,170 --> 00:14:44,572
Mm-mm.

390
00:14:44,605 --> 00:14:46,207
[Fousheé vocalizing]

391
00:14:46,240 --> 00:14:48,209
I can't believe
Anderson left me.

392
00:14:48,242 --> 00:14:51,045
Didn't you say he was going
to go work in South Africa?

393
00:14:51,078 --> 00:14:53,114
Yes. He left me.

394
00:14:53,147 --> 00:14:55,349
But did he actually
break up with you?

395
00:14:55,383 --> 00:14:57,518
Are you not hearing me?

396
00:14:57,551 --> 00:14:59,287
He left me.

397
00:14:59,320 --> 00:15:01,389
[sighs]

398
00:15:01,422 --> 00:15:02,657
He didn't mention
moving at all?

399
00:15:02,690 --> 00:15:04,625
No! He probably didn't
want me to think

400
00:15:04,659 --> 00:15:06,627
that he was leaving me
at the worst time of my life

401
00:15:06,661 --> 00:15:08,529
because he was actually
leaving me

402
00:15:08,562 --> 00:15:10,998
at the worst time of my life.
[sobs]

403
00:15:11,032 --> 00:15:12,500
Aww.

404
00:15:14,302 --> 00:15:16,237
[sniffles]

405
00:15:16,270 --> 00:15:17,938
Great.

406
00:15:17,972 --> 00:15:22,076
It smells like him.
[sighs]

407
00:15:22,109 --> 00:15:25,579
Is it wrong to burn
a $300 goose-down pillow?

408
00:15:25,613 --> 00:15:27,148
How do you own this?

409
00:15:27,181 --> 00:15:29,216
Swag bag, VMAs.

410
00:15:29,250 --> 00:15:31,686
I mean, I could take it
off your hands for you if you want.

411
00:15:33,187 --> 00:15:36,157
He's probably ashamed
to be with me.

412
00:15:36,190 --> 00:15:39,727
♪whattheElla trended for
six hours after my Reddit AMA,

413
00:15:39,960 --> 00:15:41,562
so he probably thinks
I'm a loser.

414
00:15:41,595 --> 00:15:43,230
You are not a loser.

415
00:15:43,264 --> 00:15:44,965
He's a loser.
Fucking loser.

416
00:15:44,999 --> 00:15:48,636
-But he's the love of my life.
-Let's not get hyperbolic.

417
00:15:48,669 --> 00:15:50,204
[Fousheé] ♪ Single as fuck... ♪

418
00:15:50,237 --> 00:15:53,274
Maybe you should eat something.

419
00:15:53,307 --> 00:15:56,277
[Fousheé vocalizing]

420
00:15:56,310 --> 00:15:59,080
♪ ♪

421
00:16:00,281 --> 00:16:01,649
[Fousheé]
♪ Single as fuck... ♪

422
00:16:01,682 --> 00:16:03,684
Remember the last time
I ate 5 Napkin

423
00:16:03,718 --> 00:16:06,053
and I got so drunk,
I threw up all over my bed?

424
00:16:06,087 --> 00:16:08,723
I got you, boo.
I'll make sure you puke into the toilet.

425
00:16:08,756 --> 00:16:10,524
Or, you know,
somewhere close to it.

426
00:16:10,558 --> 00:16:12,226
[chuckles]

427
00:16:15,096 --> 00:16:18,065
I never thought Anderson was
worth crying over, okay?

428
00:16:18,099 --> 00:16:20,101
But, hey, she likes him,
I love him.

429
00:16:20,134 --> 00:16:21,502
She is in no position

430
00:16:21,535 --> 00:16:23,137
to judge my relationship
with Matthew.

431
00:16:23,170 --> 00:16:24,372
When did she judge?

432
00:16:24,405 --> 00:16:26,574
I can't help
that he's successful.

433
00:16:26,607 --> 00:16:28,743
And, yes,
he helps me in my career,

434
00:16:28,776 --> 00:16:30,344
but we work in the same field.

435
00:16:30,378 --> 00:16:31,412
How can he not?

436
00:16:31,445 --> 00:16:32,780
I feel like I missed something.

437
00:16:33,013 --> 00:16:34,148
[Sondi] And then at the party,

438
00:16:34,181 --> 00:16:35,649
she's standing in the corner
watching me,

439
00:16:35,683 --> 00:16:38,786
and I know she's sitting there
thinking I'm acting like a missus

440
00:16:39,019 --> 00:16:41,021
and he's not my husband yet,

441
00:16:41,055 --> 00:16:43,391
and, of course,
when Baptiste calls me out,

442
00:16:43,424 --> 00:16:47,027
Ella says nothing
because she agrees with her!

443
00:16:47,061 --> 00:16:49,330
[Nancy] Okay, let's say
that's what Ella was thinking–

444
00:16:49,363 --> 00:16:52,266
that you're a missus
and blah, blah, blah.

445
00:16:52,299 --> 00:16:53,701
The better question is:

446
00:16:53,734 --> 00:16:57,438
Who's giving it life?
Who's making any of it matter?

447
00:17:00,241 --> 00:17:01,342
I am?

448
00:17:01,375 --> 00:17:03,444
Mirror, mirror, sweetheart.

449
00:17:03,477 --> 00:17:06,480
[smooth piano music plays]

450
00:17:06,514 --> 00:17:09,517
♪ ♪

451
00:17:16,056 --> 00:17:18,526
You seem pretty convinced
your life ended two years ago.

452
00:17:18,559 --> 00:17:20,828
I spent my early 20s
feeling special!

453
00:17:21,061 --> 00:17:22,296
My future was bright.

454
00:17:22,329 --> 00:17:23,597
I was highly favored–

455
00:17:23,631 --> 00:17:26,400
all the Black-girl magic jargon
in full effect,

456
00:17:26,434 --> 00:17:28,702
and then, bam, it evaporated.

457
00:17:28,736 --> 00:17:32,306
Now I'm stuck at a job I was
so sure I was better than,

458
00:17:32,339 --> 00:17:34,742
and that's only because Barb,
God bless her,

459
00:17:34,775 --> 00:17:39,146
was gracious enough to give me a chance
after I acted like an arrogant ass.

460
00:17:41,248 --> 00:17:42,550
Booyah.

461
00:17:46,153 --> 00:17:48,556
-Wow, it's...
-[Barb] A lot.

462
00:17:48,589 --> 00:17:49,723
[chuckles] I know.

463
00:17:49,757 --> 00:17:51,759
I put it on a slip of paper
for effect.

464
00:17:51,792 --> 00:17:54,495
Editorial director.
What do you say?

465
00:17:54,528 --> 00:17:57,331
It's very generous, but...

466
00:17:57,364 --> 00:17:58,666
I can't accept it.

467
00:17:58,699 --> 00:18:01,302
Ah. Trying to negotiate?

468
00:18:01,335 --> 00:18:03,771
Savvy.

469
00:18:03,804 --> 00:18:06,540
Barb, I'm gonna be busy...

470
00:18:06,574 --> 00:18:08,576
writing my first book!
[chuckles]

471
00:18:08,609 --> 00:18:09,844
It's gonna be a memoir.

472
00:18:09,877 --> 00:18:12,646
A memoir?
At 29?

473
00:18:12,680 --> 00:18:14,148
[chuckles]

474
00:18:14,181 --> 00:18:16,150
I didn't become interesting
until I was at least 34,

475
00:18:16,183 --> 00:18:17,685
and I have yet to write a fucking book.

476
00:18:17,718 --> 00:18:21,188
Look, I don't mean to shit
all over your dreams, kiddo,

477
00:18:21,222 --> 00:18:24,525
but there's a big difference
between being an influencer bloggy person

478
00:18:24,558 --> 00:18:25,726
and an actual author.

479
00:18:25,759 --> 00:18:27,495
It sounds like
you're shitting on my dreams.

480
00:18:27,528 --> 00:18:29,797
[laughs] Oh.
You know I enjoy you.

481
00:18:29,830 --> 00:18:32,867
Your little rants–
"my hair's not my superpower,"

482
00:18:32,900 --> 00:18:34,735
uh, "my tears are expensive"–

483
00:18:34,768 --> 00:18:37,238
often make me LOL
on the subway.

484
00:18:37,271 --> 00:18:39,273
But they're just musings.

485
00:18:39,306 --> 00:18:41,675
A hundred thousand followers
disagree.

486
00:18:41,709 --> 00:18:43,677
Think you need to do
a gut check.

487
00:18:43,711 --> 00:18:46,514
See if you're ready to
go deep enough for a memoir.

488
00:18:46,547 --> 00:18:49,183
My publisher's just released a bestseller
by an eight-year-old,

489
00:18:49,216 --> 00:18:52,152
proof that you're never too young
if you have something to say.

490
00:18:52,186 --> 00:18:53,220
Yeah.

491
00:18:53,254 --> 00:18:56,457
You're talking about a third grader
growing up in Syria during the civil war,

492
00:18:56,490 --> 00:18:59,293
'cause apples and war zones, dear.

493
00:18:59,326 --> 00:19:03,531
Barb, I value your opinion,
truly, but...

494
00:19:03,564 --> 00:19:06,567
sometimes even you're wrong.

495
00:19:06,600 --> 00:19:07,601
Name a time.

496
00:19:07,635 --> 00:19:08,869
Thank you.

497
00:19:12,940 --> 00:19:14,542
Hmm.

498
00:19:14,575 --> 00:19:16,343
What a disaster.

499
00:19:16,377 --> 00:19:19,213
Okay, I don't know
if she actually said,

500
00:19:19,246 --> 00:19:20,881
-"What a disaster," but–
-[Nancy] Listen.

501
00:19:20,915 --> 00:19:23,484
It makes sense that
you've lost some confidence.

502
00:19:23,517 --> 00:19:25,319
We have to work on
getting it back.

503
00:19:25,352 --> 00:19:27,955
Nanjo, I don't know
if you get that feeling,

504
00:19:28,188 --> 00:19:30,457
that kind of invincibility back
once you've lost it.

505
00:19:30,491 --> 00:19:32,826
All I think about now
is financial security.

506
00:19:32,860 --> 00:19:34,795
It doesn't leave a whole lot
of room for fearlessness.

507
00:19:34,828 --> 00:19:36,463
You're using this book
as an excuse.

508
00:19:36,497 --> 00:19:38,666
It's not an excuse.
It's what happened.

509
00:19:38,699 --> 00:19:40,401
It's what's holding you back.

510
00:19:40,434 --> 00:19:41,735
And what's next?

511
00:19:41,769 --> 00:19:44,872
No one's gonna hire you
to write this sad-sack tale.

512
00:19:44,905 --> 00:19:47,875
You have to think about
what it is you wanna say.

513
00:19:47,908 --> 00:19:50,611
You know, it's been two years
since you've written anything personal.

514
00:19:50,644 --> 00:19:53,414
It's because I'm too busy
working at fuckin' Hot Tea Digest!

515
00:19:53,447 --> 00:19:54,748
You say that like it pains you.

516
00:19:54,782 --> 00:19:58,819
Last week we wrote a piece
on the most popular dogs on TikTok.

517
00:19:58,852 --> 00:20:00,788
It's not exactly Pulitzer material.

518
00:20:00,821 --> 00:20:03,490
I follow Buddy the Beagle.
He's adorable.

519
00:20:03,524 --> 00:20:04,792
Of course.

520
00:20:04,825 --> 00:20:08,762
Look, Hot Tea Digest
is an opportunity, okay?

521
00:20:08,796 --> 00:20:11,231
You've got the talent,
you've got the time,

522
00:20:11,265 --> 00:20:13,901
and if you choose to,
you can start over.

523
00:20:13,934 --> 00:20:16,604
That is a luxury,
not a burden.

524
00:20:17,638 --> 00:20:19,540
If you don't show up
for your future,

525
00:20:19,573 --> 00:20:20,941
no one else will.

526
00:20:20,975 --> 00:20:23,544
[melancholy music plays]

527
00:20:23,577 --> 00:20:25,379
You know, I'm surprised
you didn't ask Matthew

528
00:20:25,412 --> 00:20:26,947
about what Baptiste
said to you.

529
00:20:26,981 --> 00:20:29,550
Did I mention that Baptiste
kept calling me "sis"?

530
00:20:29,583 --> 00:20:30,684
You did.

531
00:20:30,718 --> 00:20:33,287
On our Zoom call,
over and over.

532
00:20:33,320 --> 00:20:34,989
Listen, maybe I'm old,

533
00:20:35,022 --> 00:20:37,925
maybe it's cultural,
but I don't get why it's offensive.

534
00:20:37,958 --> 00:20:39,893
[scoffs sharply]

535
00:20:39,927 --> 00:20:41,829
Never mind, Nancy, it's–it is.
It's cultural.

536
00:20:41,862 --> 00:20:44,465
You know, Sondi,
you're stifling yourself,

537
00:20:44,498 --> 00:20:46,033
and it's making you miserable.

538
00:20:46,266 --> 00:20:47,835
And it's why you're picking
a fight with Ella.

539
00:20:47,868 --> 00:20:49,503
I'm not stifling myself.

540
00:20:49,536 --> 00:20:53,273
Well, you have made
a lot of changes for Matthew.

541
00:20:53,307 --> 00:20:54,608
And now you're worried

542
00:20:54,642 --> 00:20:57,011
about what all those people
you were showing off for

543
00:20:57,044 --> 00:20:58,712
are gonna think

544
00:20:58,746 --> 00:21:00,714
if you two don't work out.

545
00:21:00,748 --> 00:21:03,617
♪ ♪

546
00:21:03,651 --> 00:21:04,918
You know, honey,
there's a difference

547
00:21:04,952 --> 00:21:07,921
between being your best
and being the best.

548
00:21:07,955 --> 00:21:09,790
Like right now.

549
00:21:09,823 --> 00:21:11,792
Why don't you put
your pen down, okay?

550
00:21:11,825 --> 00:21:14,728
I know every word that I utter
is a literal gem,

551
00:21:14,762 --> 00:21:16,463
but I promise you,

552
00:21:16,497 --> 00:21:18,966
all the important stuff,
you're gonna remember.

553
00:21:18,999 --> 00:21:21,568
You know, you work so hard
at being perfect at everything,

554
00:21:21,602 --> 00:21:23,837
you're giving yourself anxiety.

555
00:21:23,871 --> 00:21:25,639
Are you sure that I just
can't write that part down?

556
00:21:25,673 --> 00:21:27,508
'Cause I feel like
I'm gonna miss some stuff.

557
00:21:27,541 --> 00:21:28,976
You know what?
Okay.

558
00:21:29,009 --> 00:21:30,344
Okay. I'll just record.

559
00:21:30,377 --> 00:21:31,945
Oh, Whitney.

560
00:21:32,980 --> 00:21:35,349
-All right.
-Seriously?

561
00:21:35,382 --> 00:21:36,383
Okay, here we go.

562
00:21:36,417 --> 00:21:38,552
You can't be mad at people
for being selfish.

563
00:21:38,585 --> 00:21:41,321
Life is ultimately about self.

564
00:21:41,355 --> 00:21:44,324
And this tear of self-sabotage
that you're on,

565
00:21:44,358 --> 00:21:46,527
it's only gonna get worse
until you figure out

566
00:21:46,560 --> 00:21:48,562
how to be kind to yourself.

567
00:21:48,595 --> 00:21:50,431
And then I don't know
how to tell you this,

568
00:21:50,464 --> 00:21:53,067
but sometimes,
you're gonna make mistakes.

569
00:21:53,100 --> 00:21:56,570
Well, I definitely aimed high
on the mistake-achievement ladder.

570
00:21:56,603 --> 00:21:58,605
Well, you tend to overdo things, hon.

571
00:21:58,639 --> 00:22:01,341
If you're not gonna tell Ola
that you cheated,

572
00:22:01,375 --> 00:22:02,409
just move on.

573
00:22:02,443 --> 00:22:03,711
Stop torturing yourself.

574
00:22:03,744 --> 00:22:06,547
[sighs]

575
00:22:06,580 --> 00:22:08,816
Okay, what do I do
about Renee and the slit?

576
00:22:08,849 --> 00:22:11,485
Let her have it. Don't let her have it.
Who cares?

577
00:22:11,518 --> 00:22:12,953
[laughs softly]

578
00:22:14,488 --> 00:22:15,889
Is it wrong

579
00:22:15,923 --> 00:22:18,892
that I wanna look amazing
when I walk down the aisle

580
00:22:18,926 --> 00:22:20,728
with a man I'm divorcing?

581
00:22:20,761 --> 00:22:25,399
It shouldn't be a big deal
if I wanna give him a little leg.

582
00:22:25,432 --> 00:22:27,067
Can't I have something
I need for once?

583
00:22:27,101 --> 00:22:29,002
Your tits are not your needs,
Renee.

584
00:22:29,036 --> 00:22:30,704
Maybe you should embrace
the fact

585
00:22:30,738 --> 00:22:35,442
that wearing a shiny dress
doesn't distract from the pain.

586
00:22:35,476 --> 00:22:38,979
There's nothing weak
about wearing your feelings.

587
00:22:39,012 --> 00:22:41,915
And now a little homework
before next week's session.

588
00:22:41,949 --> 00:22:44,718
And by the way,
this all works a lot better

589
00:22:44,752 --> 00:22:47,621
if you show up more than once
every three months.

590
00:22:47,654 --> 00:22:49,757
You see all of my friends
on the regular.

591
00:22:49,790 --> 00:22:51,091
I asked them
what they talked about,

592
00:22:51,125 --> 00:22:53,927
and I get my advice vicariously, you know?

593
00:22:53,961 --> 00:22:55,863
Buy-one-get-one-free therapy.

594
00:22:55,896 --> 00:22:58,766
That's not how therapy works, Renee.

595
00:22:58,799 --> 00:23:01,502
Come on, honey.
You're going through a divorce.

596
00:23:01,535 --> 00:23:02,936
You're afraid to be alone.

597
00:23:02,970 --> 00:23:04,838
You don't tell your friends
what you're going through,

598
00:23:04,872 --> 00:23:06,974
you're gonna push them away.

599
00:23:07,007 --> 00:23:08,509
And you're gonna need them

600
00:23:08,542 --> 00:23:10,677
because you're refusing to do
the work in here with me.

601
00:23:11,945 --> 00:23:14,615
So this week I want you
to start conversations

602
00:23:14,648 --> 00:23:16,083
with an "I feel" statement.

603
00:23:17,851 --> 00:23:20,788
I feel...

604
00:23:20,821 --> 00:23:22,089
like this is
a stupid assignment.

605
00:23:22,122 --> 00:23:23,924
[chuckles]

606
00:23:23,957 --> 00:23:26,960
♪ ♪

607
00:23:33,734 --> 00:23:36,870
[laughter and chatter]

608
00:23:38,071 --> 00:23:40,507
[Sondi] Okay. Not "of course."
You make up songs all the time.

609
00:23:40,541 --> 00:23:42,543
-[Renee] I do, I do, I know.
-[Sondi] Not "of course."

610
00:23:42,576 --> 00:23:44,178
[laughter]

611
00:23:44,211 --> 00:23:45,679
-[Ella] Ladies.
-Hey.

612
00:23:45,712 --> 00:23:47,681
-Hi.
-How was Nancy?

613
00:23:47,714 --> 00:23:50,117
[sighs] Hilarious as always.

614
00:23:50,150 --> 00:23:52,119
Apparently nothing is wrong with me.

615
00:23:52,152 --> 00:23:53,620
Oh, yeah.
She's said that to me before.

616
00:23:53,654 --> 00:23:55,756
-She's never said that to me.
-Me either.

617
00:23:55,789 --> 00:23:57,457
I always said
you two were the craziest.

618
00:23:57,491 --> 00:24:00,527
-[Whitney laughs]
-Hey, so about that slit.

619
00:24:00,561 --> 00:24:02,963
-I already called Amsale.
-[Renee] No, no, don't.

620
00:24:02,996 --> 00:24:05,499
Okay. Um, everyone,
I need your attention.

621
00:24:05,532 --> 00:24:08,535
Um...

622
00:24:08,569 --> 00:24:10,070
I feel...

623
00:24:10,103 --> 00:24:11,205
Oh?

624
00:24:14,708 --> 00:24:17,477
Maybe you haven't noticed,
but...

625
00:24:17,511 --> 00:24:19,513
this divorce has been
challenging for me

626
00:24:19,546 --> 00:24:21,648
and I'm flailing a little.

627
00:24:21,682 --> 00:24:23,917
This has been a lot harder
than I expected.

628
00:24:23,951 --> 00:24:26,820
And I was so mad at Jason
for so long,

629
00:24:26,854 --> 00:24:29,256
and now that the mad
is wearing off,

630
00:24:29,489 --> 00:24:32,893
I'm scared
of being alone forever.

631
00:24:32,926 --> 00:24:34,595
[Sondi] Oh, sweetie.

632
00:24:34,628 --> 00:24:36,630
I might not have sex with you,

633
00:24:36,663 --> 00:24:38,899
but you are not
going to be alone.

634
00:24:38,932 --> 00:24:41,168
I could be in my condo
for days, dying,

635
00:24:41,201 --> 00:24:42,836
with no one noticing as I rot.

636
00:24:42,870 --> 00:24:44,204
[Ella laughs] Whoa, whoa, whoa.

637
00:24:44,238 --> 00:24:47,507
Renee, no one is gonna
let you decompose.

638
00:24:47,541 --> 00:24:50,110
Yeah, not even a little.
You know we're here for you.

639
00:24:50,143 --> 00:24:51,211
That's right.

640
00:24:53,614 --> 00:24:55,015
Okay. Okay.

641
00:24:55,048 --> 00:24:57,184
We're–we're going to
the sappy place, okay?

642
00:24:57,217 --> 00:24:59,720
[laughs] All right.
Who wants oysters?

643
00:24:59,753 --> 00:25:00,787
[laughs]
Okay.

644
00:25:02,222 --> 00:25:03,724
[Sondi] You guys,

645
00:25:03,757 --> 00:25:06,260
can I just say...

646
00:25:06,293 --> 00:25:07,961
[voice breaking]
I really love y'all.

647
00:25:07,995 --> 00:25:10,297
Oh, Lord, now you got
the mushy one all worked up.

648
00:25:10,530 --> 00:25:12,199
No, but, seriously, like,

649
00:25:12,232 --> 00:25:14,701
I would do a bid for any one of y'all.

650
00:25:14,735 --> 00:25:15,869
Really?

651
00:25:15,903 --> 00:25:17,738
-[Sondi] Yeah.
-'Cause I would not.

652
00:25:17,771 --> 00:25:19,139
Not happening.

653
00:25:19,172 --> 00:25:21,108
I would frame every one of you
to keep myself out of jail.

654
00:25:21,141 --> 00:25:23,176
Okay. Anyways...

655
00:25:23,210 --> 00:25:24,912
[laughter]

656
00:25:24,945 --> 00:25:26,546
-I love you, guys!
-It's fine.

657
00:25:26,580 --> 00:25:27,881
-[laughs]
-Cheers to honesty.

658
00:25:27,915 --> 00:25:29,116
To honesty!

659
00:25:29,149 --> 00:25:31,084
Embarrass me
in front of all these people.

660
00:25:31,118 --> 00:25:32,319
That's fine.

661
00:25:32,552 --> 00:25:35,656
[mellow music plays]

662
00:25:35,689 --> 00:25:38,659
[smooth jazzy music plays]

663
00:25:38,692 --> 00:25:41,695
♪ ♪

664
00:26:25,739 --> 00:26:27,708
[woman] Whoo-hoo! [giggles]