This programme contains strong language, language which some viewers
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Hands by your side. Sit.
For the select few,
this process might make them.
But for the majority of these celebrities...
Guards!
..it will completely break them.
Hands. Walk.
Let's move!
Incoming, let's go!
In this series...
Squeeze it in!
..16 celebrity recruits...
Crawl! Zip it!
..will leave their glamorous lives behind.
Lay down on the ground!
Get in there!
They will be put through the most gruelling stages
of SAS selection...
Down!
..by an elite team of ex-special forces soldiers.
Honesty, integrity, trust,
everything we've installed in you from day one! Everything!
No allowances or exceptions will be made.
Get on your stomach!
I'm not scared of getting dirty,
but I'm going to have to change these.
I can just about open my car door.
Go! Wow! Wow, wow... Woah, woah.
My mum does not want me to do this. She's scared I'm gonna get injured.
I think she's really, really not looking forward to that.
Get in to it! I've seen pressure...
I need support! Now!
..so what I'm gonna face on this course
is water off a duck's back.
Take him down! Ow!
Oww! Like an injured slug.
Lift up your boat!
No other test asks as much...
You've got it! Let's go!
Well done, ZoZo.
..or means as much.
Well done. ..to the few who make it through.
Welcome to your worst nightmare.
Come on!
Erm...
where was you brought up?
Chester.
Cheshire. Oh, really? Yeah.
D'you know where I was brought up?
Essex.
You ever seen The Only Way Is Essex before?
Yeah, oh, yeah, of course. Have you really? Course I have!
While the other celebrity recruits sleep,
number one, Matt Hancock,
and number two, James Argent,
have been tasked with night duty.
How did you start off becoming an MP?
Did you do A-levels and, er... Yeah. What did you study at uni?
I studied politics, philosophy and economics.
Obviously, you have to study politics.
You don't have to.
Erm... And what party are you part of?
Conservative. Yeah.
Boris Johnson, d'you reckon he'll be pleased for you doing this?
I have no idea. I haven't talked to him about it.
I have no idea what he'll think.
Can I make an announcement?
Mayor Hancock's birthday, everyone.
Oh, God! Oh, God.
Right, they need to be extra nice to us.
I think the opposite will happen.
Three days of persistent tropical rain
have caused the camp to flood.
Let's go, let's go!
You 'eard, move.
Woo! It's like a river.
♪ Down by the river! ♪
Everybody get down and start pushing press ups out, now!
Get down and start pushing out press ups, now!
This ain't Joe Maplin's holiday camp.
Singing and giggling...
Shut up! Zip it.
When I say go, get on your feet and get on parade.
Go!
Stand still, stop splashing around.
Like kids in a puddle.
Think about why you're here.
Think about what you're trying to learn.
Find out who you are.
It's about believing in yourself. Resilience.
Courage, conviction, determination.
Forget the elements. Forget the rain.
The jungle has its own system.
One minute you can be sweating like a politician on an honesty test.
Secondly you can be wet through like you are right now.
So what?
Positive mindset. That's what makes an operator.
Do you understand where I'm coming from?
Yes, staff. Do you? Yes, staff.
Do you want to be here, seriously? Yes, staff.
When I say go, move with a purpose,
like you haven't moved before.
Go!
Celebrities become so used to
everybody blowing smoke up their arse.
You better start switching on now!
Anybody that turns up with an ego,
and don't show respect and have discipline,
they will fail.
Tight! Tighty, tighty, let's go!
Get a fucking move on!
The celebrity recruits will need to start
thinking, and acting, like soldiers.
I want to see you pumping them legs!
Get up here, 15!
Have some pride about yourself!
If you have a weak mind, you will soon be reduced to nothing.
Come on, just grab a suit, it's not a fashion parade.
Get the blue suit on first, and just check it over.
Any hoods on these suits, tuck them away,
cos you look like fucking bellends.
For the first task of the phase,
the DS want to test the celebrity recruits' mental strength
under duress.
This task is going to involve gas.
As special forces soldiers, we have to get exposed to it,
so we can understand what they can do to you,
because you need to know how to react
if you are exposed to chemical weapons.
You have to remain composed.
You have to be able to manage those emotions
when you're in a situation that is unpleasant,
switch on, keep a level head...
..and get a job done.
In an isolated hut deep in the jungle...
chief instructor Billy fills two rooms with tear gas.
In pairs,
the recruits must conduct a search operation
whilst being exposed to the gas.
This is insane. That's what people use in the war?
Yeah. Bloody hell.
Anyone fancy Bali?
Shut the fuck up!
F'kin hell...
Don't look like that otherwise I'll make you pay,
you gobby little shit.
I don't like people just to tell me what to do,
but I'm going to try and just think, like, positively, and...
Gonna need to, like, sew my mouth shut.
Seven and five!
Let's move, come on!
Facing the gas...
Get up here!
..are recruits number five, ex-Premier League footballer,
Jermaine Pennant...
You got instructions how to use your respirators, correct?
..and number seven, singer Gareth Gates.
When I give you the command gas, gas,
stay on me, we go into the hutch.
From there, you will take directions from the chief instructor.
I s-struggle every day.
N-not being able to speak is a...
..constant battle.
Gas, gas, gas!
However, I've learnt through having a stammer
that you have to face your fear head on.
Quickly, quickly, on me.
I train hard, and I think I'm m-mentally strong.
Go, go, go, go, go.
This course really pushes the limits on both...
..those fronts.
Stand there. OK.
You need to get it!
To pass the task, the pairs must work together...
Make sure you search every box. What about these ones on the floor?
..to retrieve the correct box.
Nah, it's not in here. Is it burning yet?
Go, go, go, go, go!
Come on...
Yes! Yes!
Once they've recovered the box...
Ohh... Fuck!
..they must find the exit.
Number seven, number five, dress down here.
Quick as you can.
Chins up. Do NOT touch your face.
Yeah...
Mission success.
You got the kit, you got in there, and you got the job done,
and that's we're all about. Wow. Dress down that way.
Well done, number seven, well done, number five.
Thanks, staff. Thank you.
Well done buddy, well done, well done.
That was horrendous!
That was horrendous.
Oh, some people are going to fucking struggle with that.
Gas, gas, gas!
On me! Let's go, recruits.
Get in there!
I can't breathe. Take your respirator off.
I have a lot of experience with chemical warfare.
In the invasion of Iraq,
every time incoming mortars or artillery
hit our area of operation,
we had to assume it was sarin gas
or VX gas
because Saddam Hussein had used gas on his own people.
Find the green box with the red cross on it.
Without it, the mission will fail.
The first time you're in the gas chamber
it's freaking horrible.
Your eyes start burning.
Go on, Jon, let's go!
Then you start panicking.
Once you panic, once your mind is falling apart...
Four, kneel down there.
..then all is lost.
The recruit must keep their mind calm.
If they panic,
if they lose control,
they will fail.
If you could do that again, is there anything you'd do differently?
Try and be calmer, work properly together.
I just panicked.
You failed.
I've got butterflies. And I want a poo, that's where I am.
It's scary, innit? Yeah!
Next to face the gassing is number six,
Great British Olympian, Perri Shakes-Drayton...
Was that lightning then?
..and recruit number 16,
Hollyoaks actor Kirsty-Leigh Porter.
Next pair!
Do you know what? I don't wanna say,
"Yeah, I think I'll get through to the end."
Is that us? Come on.
I mean, I could last an hour!
I could last a day.
I could last two days.
I really don't know how long I'm going to last.
Gas, gas, gas! Put 'em on.
I don't like being claustrophobic,
I don't like being too tight in places...
Control your fear. With me.
I can't breathe.
That does terrify me. Just triggers that "Oh, my God I can't run away"
feeling.
Now put it on your arm. OK.
Hey!
You won't find anything in there.
Recruit number six Perri and number 16 Kirsty-Leigh
head straight to the exit without finding the box...
..failing the task.
Six and 16, get down here!
I can't.
I can't breathe.
Do not touch your face.
Number 16, just talk us through, start to finish,
how you think that task went.
Awful. I can't breathe.
What was the task?
We didn't get as far as to find out, staff.
Mission fail. Epic fail. Go.
Hang on...
I can't even see, Kirsty.
Go on then, hurry up! Fucking holding hands!
It's going to be a struggle wanting to pass the course,
and wanting to finish it, and be successful.
I can't breathe. Come on.
Help me.
Mate. That was fucking brutal...
But in my head, I'm not quitting, and I'm there to finish.
Can't... I can't breathe.
What's going on here?
Have a seat, have a seat, have a seat.
Catch your wind, catch your wind.
Keep your chin up. Deep breaths.
Number 16, Kirsty-Leigh,
is the first recruit to voluntarily withdraw from the course.
Next to face the gas is number 12,
former Welsh rugby international, Gareth Thomas...
This is fucking horrible. Oh, my God, it's rank.
It's getting heavier again!
It is getting heavier.
..and number ten, reality TV star Amber Turner.
On TOWIE, people have such strong negative opinions about me.
A lot of people say I'm just a bitch.
12 and 10!
Oh, no. Right, let's go. Oh, come on, babe.
It does really get to me, because it's not the real me.
I'm a very loving and caring person, and very, like, motherly.
I've just got, like, a resting moody face.
I think the experiences I've had have made me mentally resilient.
Get up here, 12!
But also, I've realised...
..how vulnerable I can be sometimes, as well.
Face me, 12. 10, take a knee, face me.
All right, you got your instructions how to use your respirators.
When I finally came out, I was petrified.
Nobody in the sport of Rugby Union had ever
done it before and continued playing.
Make sure that your chemical suits are done up.
So I was kind of walking a path that no-one had gone before,
but I think the bigger the mental challenge,
then the greater the reward.
Gas, gas, gas!
Do not let fear take over. On me!
So I'd love to take that attitude into this course.
Aah...
I need to get out.
What's in here?
Help me!
I need help, please. Ah, fuck...
Right, down there.
Ahh! Go, go, go, go.
After just 15 seconds, number 10, Amber, panics...
10 and 12, down here!
..and abandons the task.
Down, kneel down.
Chin up. Ah...
Argh...
What a shower of shit!
Come on!
On me, on me, on me!
This way around to accommodations, go!
After the first voluntary withdrawal from the course...
Keep going. Hurry the fuck up!
Up, up, up.
Up. Ready?
One, two, three. Up.
The DS have run the 15 remaining recruits back to base.
Deep breaths. Get there.
There you go.
I can't wait to go to the nail salon and get some big acrylic nails.
Big pink acrylic nails. Big acrylic nails.
I looked at mine, he went, "Don't fucking worry about your nails!"
I was like, "Babe, have you seen them?"
He's gonna ask to see my feet, I'm gonna be like...
Talcum powder feet!
Do the honours, mate.
It's been pretty tough with the weather,
but I'm going to give them that as kind of an excuse at the moment,
but they literally are just coasting along,
which has got to fucking stop. Like, now.
The DS discuss to meet the recruits' performance so far.
All right, the gassing. Seven and five.
They were running around the room,
tears running, snot running,
but to be fair to them, they stayed together,
they communicated, they persevered.
Yeah, seven was positive.
They got a good feel for it.
They did manage to pass quite clearly, quite easily.
OK, six.
She was just a sack of shit. Spewing everything up,
pretty much retching at the end.
Fail.
And then we had 12 and 10.
They were both squealing inside there.
As soon as the respirators come off, it just went to rat shit panic.
Number ten just lost all focus,
and started to make her way out.
That was a catastrophe. Fail.
It was a joke, to be honest.
Number ten, just disregard for anything.
Oh, yeah. Have mercy.
No military bearing, no focus,
everything's a joke, that's the way she's treating this.
I get a sort of cheeky feeling
that she doesn't like the sort of authority figure,
in terms of there's a few things. She's... not rolled her eyes,
but just glazed over.
It's happened twice now. Good observation.
I think we need to have a look at number ten.
Mmm. Cool. Everybody happy with that?
Yeah. Yeah. OK.
Recruit number ten!
That's me. Fuck.
I'm gonna go. Where do I go?
Do I just knock on the door?
Where do I go?
Fucking move on!
"The Only Way Is Essex." This is number ten.
Amber Turner.
She's bitchy, by the sounds of it.
Rude. Rude and arrogant.
Hands down by your sides.
Sit.
How do you think you're doing?
I feel like I could be doing better,
but I don't think I'm doing... terrible.
Are you giving 100%, would you say?
I feel like... I feel like I am,
but I feel like you can always work harder.
So I'd probably say I'm putting in, like, 95%.
I don't know.
What do you guys think I'm giving, like, from the outside?
About 30.
30? Yeah.
Bloody hell.
How do you describe yourself?
I would describe myself as... caring,
passionate about what I do, and...
..a little bit... What's the word?
Arrogant.
No, not at all, I wouldn't say I'm arrogant.
The fucking way you just snapped back looked a bit arrogant to me.
No. No?
How do you feel about authority,
and being told what to do and stuff?
Struggle with it? Oh no, not at all.
Your demeanour don't show that sometimes.
Really? What, as in, like, the way my face looks?
The way you look, the way you react.
D'you think you're a little bit snappy?
React a little bit quicker than you should sometimes, maybe?
Yeah, probably.
I mean, you had a fucking buffoon attack on the gassing today,
and when I said anything to you... Dunno why.
Sorry?
I don't know, I just... got flustered.
Do you get flustered easy?
In things that... Are you an emotional person?
Yeah, I feel like I'm getting emotional now. I don't know why.
You are getting emotional. Why? I don't know!
I think I'm just overwhelmed.
Why are you overwhelmed?
I don't know. Do you feel intimidated?
No, not that at all.
Then what is it? I don't know, just...
Like, obviously, the CS gas,
I felt really frustrated that, like, as soon as I come out,
I didn't do it and I felt like I... Obviously I failed.
Like, I really hate not being able to do things,
and, like, the job that I'm in,
every move I make and every, like, thing I do
is, like, commented on and judged by other people.
Saying I'm this and I'm that when they don't really know me.
Stop worrying about what other people think,
what do you think? What do you want from this?
I think I put a lot of pressure on myself,
and then when I can't do something, that stresses me out.
I'd say this course is your opportunity
to start doing stuff where you don't have to worry
about what other people are thinking.
The only thing that we look at
is how you lot bounce back from failure.
Cos this course is designed to put your under so much pressure
that you aren't going to be 100%.
We know that,
but what we're looking for is how you pick yourself up,
and move forward with the course.
And a lot of it is all to do with attitude.
Yeah.
You're capable.
Just take a breath, and just compose yourself.
Stop worrying about what other people might...
..think about you, and see you...
..and try and find who you really are, you know,
dig deep, give it your best shot,
not 95%. Your words, right?
Yes.
Guard.
When I was younger,
especially when I first joined
I was very much thrown in the deep end.
For it to sort of land of my lap,
and have people have such strong negative opinions about me,
of course it did affect me.
No, it was fine. You just get emotional in there, don't you?
Now I've grown up a little bit and I have matured,
and I think I can sort of understand where they're coming from
in a sense that maybe I didn't deal with situations the best.
They said I come across as, like, arrogant.
Like, I roll my eyes at stuff apparently.
So I was like...
I like to think I'm a strong person, like, mentally and physically,
so maybe, like, it'll be quite good to actually show people
that I'm not just some girl from Essex that's on a TV show,
that I'm actually quite strong
and can potentially get through this course!
Like, I'm not a cross-dresser, but I do love a knee-high boot.
Sexy, babe!
Y'know?
After completing the first task of the day,
the recruits have been given a short break to organise their kit.
Drag names.
Oh, that's what we can do!
Right, your grandmother's first name,
and then your, like, last treat.
So mine is Eileen Chocolate Finger.
What's yours, Mr Hancock?
Pen Pineapple.
Pen Pineapple!
We'll have to get Matt in a pair of knee-high boots when you get home.
OK, day two.
Mindset. And the mindset of this lot at the minute is just...
They don't have it, they're just not with it.
You wonder what their intentions of being here are. Yeah.
Fucking rabbit in the headlights.
Pearl Salted Peanuts.
I don't think they're taking it serious enough at the minute.
What we need to do is really turn it up.
Yes. Stamp on 'em.
If there's one misdemeanour,
get them all out in the wet, in the rain,
doing press ups, doing sit ups, whatever you want to do.
Get on parade!
OK, let's go.
You OK?
Let's go!
Let's go. All the way up, keep moving.
Get in your teams, team Alpha at the front,
team Bravo at the back.
This is what we'll be using, and this is a rifle, yeah?
24 hours ago, for the final task of the phase...
Support it with your support arm.
Yeah? The recruits were divided into two teams,
and given basic weapons training.
Fire two rounds.
Keep your mind focused on what comes next.
It will get tougher, it will get faster.
OK, team Bravo, team leader, number ten.
When I say go, out to the DS at the gate.
Go!
Team Alpha, team leader is you, number five,
out the back, around to the right, out of the gate. Go!
All right, cover down in the bus, let's go.
Bring it up at the rear!
Move together.
For this task,
the DS is taking the recruits to a remote jungle village...
All the way to me.
..where their mindset will be tested under extreme pressure.
Come on guys, we're nearly there!
The hostage rescue,
it's an incredible test of real world combat conditions...
Nearly there. Come on, team!
..which is to go into the enemy's backyard...
Let's go, let's go!
..kick in his fucking door, and then rescue our people.
That's about the most difficult thing to do in the world...
Quickly. Quickly, go.
All right, everyone pick up a weapon.
Pick up your weapons.
..and the warrior mindset is vital.
It is not just the most important thing,
it's the only thing.
Drop your bergens. You're gonna go in silent.
Right, Gareth, take that.
The DS have separated number four, Michelle Heaton, from her teammates.
Whoa!
..and have placed her as a hostage in a derelict compound.
Hurry up! In here! Over here.
Unbeknown to the recruits,
two locals are also being held captive.
To pass the task,
the recruits will be expected to find and rescue
all three hostages...
..within five minutes.
Come on guys, keep up. Quick, quick!
Over the wall, Arg, over the wall.
Come on, guys, quick! Quick, quick.
First to attempt the task is team Bravo,
led by number ten, Amber.
This way!
I would never look at myself as a leader,
because I don't think I have enough confidence for that.
Come on guys, push!
Keep low.
Just have to see. I feel like I'm gonna be in an environment
and in a situation that I've never been in before,
so I'm just gonna give it my best, and hopefully I impress them.
I want them to be like, wow, like, we didn't expect that.
Go, go.
Having entered the compound,
team Bravo must search through every building.
If you need a door, you've gotta tell me. Silence!
Number 12, Gareth Thomas,
has been tasked with gaining entry to the rooms.
I have loads of fears.
I didn't want the world to know I was gay.
Come on!
Guys, keep up.
We all go round pretending that we're not afraid of things,
when really, deep down, we're petrified.
Come on, then. What's going on?!
Hurry the fuck up!
We're looking for some composure within the leaders,
because ultimately a hostage rescue is a mission
that invariably goes to an absolute bag of shit.
Right, Gareth. Come on, then, let's move!
It's about having he right mindset to push through that.
Go, go, go, go...
We want to see someone that can calm themselves in those moments.
Clear!
Come on! Let's get out of here!
Come on, then. What's going on?
Go, go, go. Fucking hell. Hammer, hammer!
Hammer, hammer... Get out the way!
Let's move!
Oh, there's someone here!
Right, guys, it's a hostage. We've got a hostage. It's a hostage.
Right, we're first, I've got a hostage.
Come on, then! OK, come on, go.
Come on, go, go, go!
Number ten, Amber, finds the first hostage.
Fucking move!
Where's Gareth? What are you fucking doing?
Get in the door!
With number 12, Gareth Thomas, guarding the rear...
..number seven, Gareth Gates takes charge of breaking in.
Go! Push, push... Go, go, go, go.
Clear.
Right, ready? Go, go, go!
Hostage! Hostage!
Team Bravo locate the second hostage,
number four, Michelle.
Now what's going on? Right, Gareth up front, Gareth Thomas.
Keep going!
Get out of there!
Go, go! Go, go!
Got you, Michelle, I've got you, Michelle.
Right, stand down, down the steps, down the steps.
Get out of here!
Get out!
Out! Come on!
Come on. It's a bit of mud.
Come on. Come on. Right, everyone. Have we got everything?
Ready? So...
There's another hostage in there! Get her! Get her!
Right, someone come. Yeah, yeah, I've got a hostage.
Yeah, stand up, stand up.
Got her?
Stop!
Stop.
Oi! Move back here.
Line out here.
Take your goggles off, or whatever you want to call 'em.
Under the leadership of number ten, Amber,
Team Bravo passed the task in four minutes and 16 seconds.
Good effort, ten. You were methodical,
you were fucking diligent, you went into the corners.
That was great, because you rescued all of the hostages.
But you are fucking coming towards a position that you know is hostile,
and you're fucking making a noise. You might have got the hostages,
but in my mind, you'd have probably got shot before you got there.
Is that understood? Yes, staff.
I want to see some speed and aggression here.
Up next is team Alpha, led by number six,
Jermaine Pennant.
They must also rescue three hostages...
..including fellow recruit, number 15, Melinda Messenger.
The target...
..Is 300m that way,
and your mission is to save the lives of the hostages.
You've got the kit for the task in hand.
Let's get this divided up. You've got 30 seconds.
Being an ex-footballer,
I've spent my whole career in a team,
but this is a total different...
different ballgame.
Five. Yeah?
You're in charge from here. Yes. Yes, staff.
Go, go, go, go, go...
This is your release point. Once you're over the wall,
you're on your own.
Team leader, number five, Jermaine, tasks number one, Matt,
with being the first recruit in to search the rooms.
I love being part of a team,
and if I'm the junior guy
on the team and somebody else
is playing that leadership role,
you respect that, you get on with it,
and put your shoulder to the wheel.
It's got noisy, OK, so we can talk.
Yeah, go on, go, go. Go.
On me, on me. Let's keep moving.
Come behind me.
Come on, then, what's going on?
Go, go, go, go.
Clear. Clear and empty.
Clear. Let's go and breach the next one.
Take cover.
Come on then, what you gonna do?
There's no snoozing!
What's going on?!
OK, let's keep going.
Under fire...
..number one, Matt Hancock,
misses the door where the first hostage is being held.
You know, when you're in a hostage rescue mission,
you clear through every room. You search it properly,
otherwise people die.
Where are you going?!
Go, go, go.
On a mission in Afghanistan,
300 - 400 Al Qaeda had mobilised,
and I remember being in a ditch
thinking I wasn't gonna see my kid again.
I'm ready.
It was scary, but we weren't just gonna leave the hostage behind.
We flew out, the hostage was rescued,
and we saved a life.
Go.
Come on then, hurry up!
Come on, hurry up!
Wait, through, through, one here, got one. Got one!
Team leader, number five, Jermaine, finds number 15, Melinda...
Come on, what's going on?
Yeah, kick out, break the door down.
Breach, we need to breach the door.
Lovely, go, go, go, go, go!
Let's go, let's go!
..but then leaves her behind.
Come on, then, what's fucking going on?
Let's go, hurry up.
Let's go.
Let's go. Let's move. Let's go. OK.
Out this gate here.
Go, go, go.
Hostage.
Team leader, get in front.
Stop!
Team Alpha locate another hostage...
Get back in here.
..reaching the end of the compound in three minutes and 42 seconds.
But they failed to rescue all the captives.
I'm not convinced the other hostage needs to be here for the debrief,
but anyway, she can listen in.
Aw, bless her. Hello.
Oh, bless her...
Right, first things first, came over the wall,
you were already making noises.
What you might call a battering ram, but is called an enforcer,
that was clanking around.
Then you moved into the first outbuilding,
came under contact with an IUD.
You then missed the second room.
There's actually a fucking hostage in there,
number one.
The communication was poor.
And quite frankly, you nearly left her behind.
This way.
I want two ranks in front of me here.
This angle.
Fucking hell, pass the message on.
Two ranks in this angle in front of me.
Or just fucking wander around like a fucking lost sheep.
Get your heads up, keep still.
We're fucking sick to death of people turning up here
thinking it's not that serious.
Stand fucking still!
If you're here to have a laugh and a joke
and just think this is a fucking piss take, fuck off.
If not, start getting your head in the game.
What does, "Don't fucking move" mean?
It means don't move.
I'll tell you what,
in front of me I want two ranks, go. Now.
NOW! Go, go, go.
Facing me. Facing me.
Front rank, get on your knees.
When I say fucking crawl, onto your bellies and crawl to me.
Get down. On your fucking belly!
Get on your belly!
You aren't fucking taking it seriously.
Beastings are used as a punishment,
but they also show character.
Let's go! Who wants it?
Come on!
This is the point we'll see who will and who won't give 100%.
Let's go!
Get on your stomach, number ten, get on your fucking stomach!
I've got a history of being really sporty when I was younger.
Get down, crawl.
I did karate...
Go! Go!
..I was a runner. I used to represent Essex.
Keep going.
And I'm not ever going to give up.
Good effort, number nine.
Near the front of the pack... Get on your stomach!
..is number nine, Jon-Allan.
Come on, all the fucking way in!
15 years ago, I lost my arm in Iraq,
but I truly believe I do have what it takes to get to the end.
I do know that I'm not gonna quit. Like, the one thing I know.
Come on, then!
Show us you want to be here! All the way in! All the way!
Stop whinging.
Keep fucking moving.
Strong, number 12. Move!
Number 12, Gareth Thomas, takes the lead.
You don't know what it's like to be strong
until you know what it's like to be really weak.
I want to see some fucking passion. Some pride to be here!
Mentally, we are all fragile...
Right, first group here, stand up, fuck off back to the beginning.
..and allowing you sometimes to break
makes you stronger.
Number one, crawl!
Fucking pathetic! You're like a crab.
Let's crawl forward!
The last few years, I've been mentally tested,
I've been emotionally tested,
but the physical test of this course
is about as big as it gets.
Come on then, fucking number one.
Stand up, back to the beginning. Go on. Fuck off.
I hope that I rise to the challenge.
It's going to be tough.
Ten seconds!
Falling behind is number one, Matt.
Get up, you fucking buffoon!
Fucking get up there!
Fucking clown. Hurry up.
Stand up. Stand up, and stand still, now.
Get your head up. Oi, get your head up!
When we say move with urgency, you move with urgency,
- do you get that? - Yes, staff.
When we say stand still, what does that mean number 10?
Stand still. When we say take it fucking serious,
we mean take it serious, cos I tell you what,
we're coming towards the end of the phase,
and some of you are on the fucking chopping block,
let me tell you that right now.
Turn to your left.
Follow on.
Start fucking switching on!
Close it up!
Fast as yous can, on the bus. Go!
Quick as you can. Straight on there.
That was fucking solid. That was horrible.
That was one of the hardest things I've done.
I can't believe we've got grey tops. Gonna show sweat marks!
I'm just wet the whole time!
That's the last of your worries!
That's what I mean.
OK, day two, mindset.
As the phase draws to a close...
OK, hostage rescue.
..the DS meet to discuss the previous task.
Team Bravo, team leader was number ten.
Yeah, they got to me on the release point.
They'd made a shit load of noise on that approach.
But what they did do, by sheer fluke, I think,
but we'll give it to them,
is they found the three hostages.
Number ten did a bit of redemption.
She did get stuck in, so, you know,
chuck up where chuck ups are due.
Yeah, I've just wrote, "Annoyingly good."
Yeah. OK!
Right, team Alpha, erm,
team leader was number five.
They failed because they missed the second room,
and failed to pick up a third hostage.
To that end, that led to a imprompt beasting.
Yeah. One observation I did see was number 12.
He was right at the front thrashing through there, and going for it.
He's an older guy, but physically pretty good.
I don't think he's struggling on his physical side.
But this morning, in the gassing task,
he had no control. He was fucking petrified.
At this stage, I think he needs to start showing us
what he's got behind them eyes.
I think we need to find out where his head's at.
Everybody happy with that? Yeah. Yeah.
Can't cope. I'm scared there's, like, leeches on me.
Check your armpits for leeches.
Check your ears for leeches!
"Years"? "Years."
Oh, ears. Oh, "errrs".
Oh, no, you say "errrs".
Ears. Ea-rs. Yeah. "Years."
What do you call it?
Ears. Years. It's just an e.
"Years." What do you say? What do you call these, Zo?
Ears. Oh. I say "years."
What?! Your ears. Ah, yeah, I wonder why that is?
Number 12! Ah.
Move!
All right.
Just stand there and put your arms on the thing.
So basically, he's had a rough ride. Mm-hm.
Both being gay, and then the HIV.
Stand still.
How do you think it's going on the course?
Harder than I thought.
And why is that? Why is that?
Because I come in here with a mindset
to be the fucking strongest I've ever been in my entire life.
But I struggle with my self-care.
Like, in my life, I have been subject to shit,
and I refuse to be a fucking victim.
I absolutely refuse it.
But do you know what? What I loved so far
is that nobody here is celebrated,
nobody here is discriminated. Nn-nn.
Everybody is treated exactly the same.
I'm glad you said that. You won't get any pats on the back
while you're here on this course. No.
But you mentioned about refusing to be a victim.
Mm. Can you just go into a bit more detail about...
..That period of your life?
I...
I don't feel hard done by.
Like, I only ever wanted to do what I fucking loved as a kid.
You know, I just wanted to represent my country,
and the papers, who just hate the fact that I was gay,
just fucking...
..wouldn't leave me alone,
and wanted that to be a definition of who I am.
So I was forced into talking,
because I was petrified about what people would think
about the fact that I was gay, cos when you represent,
you know, when you represent something bigger than you,
like your country...
you care what people fucking think! So I was afraid.
Of course.
You know, it was like 40,000 people in a crowd
who'd, for 80 minutes, just fucking...
..call me a faggot, AIDS victim, whatever you want to name it.
But...
..do I walk away, and let however many thousand people affect me,
or do I stand for the people that I really love
and they really love me, and start being who I am now?
And that's a representative of an under-...
of an under-represented community in many walks of life,
especially the walk of life that I came from.
Then ten years down the line,
I was blackmailed by somebody who knew my HIV status,
then that person, because I refused to pay,
went to the newspaper,
and the newspaper knocked on my parent's house,
and asked my parents to make a comment on my HIV status.
So I didn't have the chance to tell 'em.
So I had to... take control, of my life,
and I had to speak about it publicly.
And if I want to continue to put my head above the parapet,
I'm going to constantly get fucking shot at.
So I really want to know who the fuck I'm capable of being
in the future.
And I'm here to show HIV is not a limit to my physical
and mental capabilities.
Well, that brings me to the point of the course.
The course is only getting harder, it's only getting more intense.
You're one of the most switched-on and motivated recruits we have.
I would like to see you stay as long as you possibly can,
which means wherever you think your limit is,
the day after that. Yeah.
We want to see you giving 100%. Yeah.
You've came here for the right reasons.
Concentrate on the tasks in hand,
and take time for you... through this process,
and you will find out new things,
you will push your body and your mind
to places they've never been.
Guard.
Stand up.
Hands together. Walk. I've got control.
Move to your right.
People move away from me in a restaurant.
People go to shake my hand, then all of a sudden...
..the lightbulb comes on and they pull their hand away.
Hi, gorg.
You all right? Yeah, actually, yeah. I didn't cry. That's amazing for me.
I feel strong as fuck.
People I know STILL think that's what transmissions come from,
sharing a glass, or sharing a toilet seat,
or shaking someone's hand.
They're so, like, non-judgmental. Yeah. Regardless of your history.
Means nothing, like.
Yeah. It's just so refreshing, innit? Yeah.
In a world where everyone is judged before they're even met, like.
A virus, my sexuality...
People's perceptions is...
..Not capable of holding me back.
I feel like I needed that to get through tomorrow,
Yeah.
Next time...
Stand by... Go!
You do not choose when or where you fight...
Go on, yes.
You've got to keep pushing on when you thought it was over.
Otherwise, someone is going to die.
Control it well!
You're gonna fucking break your legs...
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